#AGHHH SORRY FOR THE LONG RAMBLE

[tallovines]

when Talloran first met Vines, what did he think of them? first impressions are important after all

EEEK! I'VE BEEN WAITING SO LONG FOR SOMEONE TO ASK THIS!!! I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO ADD MORE CONTEXT ONTO THE VINES LORE :D THANK YOU FOR ASKING

BEFORE LIKE... ANYONE STARTS LIKE ASKING WHY EVERYTHING IS TOO COINCIDENTAL,,, THAT'S THE POINT. A LOT OF ASPECTS WHEN IT CAME TO WRITING VINES WAS MADE ALMOST TOO PERFECT ON PURPOSE (you'll like understand once i dig deeper into his lore make theories on his lore or whatever if anyone would like... i have it all written i'm just still trying to think of how to properly execute it :3 )

OKAY! SO LIKE IN MY AU WHERE VINES EXISTS, TALLORAN DIDN'T DIE FROM 3999, BUT THEY LIKE BARELY MADE IT OUT. TALLORAN "BEATS" (quotes because even talloran themself does NOT know how they escaped they genuinely thought they'd be there forever) 3999, BUT LIKE UPON LEAVING 3999'S CONTAINMENT CELL, IT'S ALMOST LIKE IT WAS NEVER THERE? LIKE SCP-3999 WAS NEVER A REAL THING TO BEGIN WITH. OF COURSE,,, THIS FREAKED TALLORAN OUT! THEY KNOW SCP-3999 WAS REAL BECAUSE THEY EXPERIENCED IT FIRST-HAND!

UPON TALLORAN KIND OF JUST. FREAKING OUT THERE,,, A CONFUSED VINES COMES BY.

BABY'S FIRST DAY AT THE FOUNDATION! OF COURSE HE'S LOST. HE'S JUST TRYING TO FIND HIS WAY AROUND SITE-118 UNTIL HE SEES A PANICKING TALLORAN.

VINES, BELIEVE IT OR NOT, IS NOT REALLY A SOCIAL PERSON (i know like his whole design makes it look like otherwise, but if we're being honest,,, he just wanted to stand out at first so he wouldn't be like an easily forgotten personnel...), SO WHEN HE FOUND TALLORAN, HE DIDN'T REALLY KNOW WHAT TO DO. I MEAN, TO BE FAIR, I DON'T REALLY THINK THAT MATTERED. TALLORAN WAS PROBABLY TOO STRESSED OUT TO SEE VINES THERE AT FIRST.

EVENTUALLY, VINES CAME OVER TO TALLORAN BECAUSE HE COULDN'T JUST STAND THERE LIKE THAT. TALLORAN NEAR SCREAMED BECAUSE WELL,,, IF YOU WERE TORTURED FOR 3 MILLION YEARS, WOULD YOU SUDDENLY JUST TRUST A RANDOM PURPLE-HAIRED LADY (gender neutral) THAT WALKED UP TO YOU???

DON'T WORRY THOUGH,,, VINES WAS ABLE TO COMFORT THEM EVENTUALLY (arggg... i don't really know how to write that part properly I'M SO SORRY SDSUSDUUS) AND THEY START TALKING A BIT.

TALLORAN THANKS VINES FOR COMFORTING THEM OF COURSE! BUT THEN THEY KIND OF GET INTO THE FACT OF HOW THEY DON'T RECOGNIZE VINES. LIKE. AT ALL. AND VINES EXPLAINS WELL ERRR... HE'D BE MORE CONCERNED IF TALLORAN *DID* RECOGNIZE HIM BECAUSE THIS IS HIS FIRST DAY, AND HE EXPLAINS THAT HE WAS KIND OF JUST LOST WHEN HE FOUND THEM.

AFTER THAT, TALLORAN OFFERED TO HELP VINES AROUND THE PLACE AS LIKE A THANKS! AND LIKE SOME OF THE HIGHER-UPS AT THE SITE THOUGHT IT WAS NICE THAT THEY WERE DOING THAT, SO THEY THOUGHT IT'D BE FOR THE BEST THAT THE TWO JUST STICK TOGETHER TO HELP VINES SETTLE IN EASIER.

THEY GET ALONG FAIRLY WELL BY THE WAY! IT'S JUST AT TIMES TALLORAN GETS A LITTLE CONCERNED BECAUSE VINES IS JUST LIKE... NATURALLY CLINGY FOR NO REASON? LIKE, REALLY CLINGLY. DARE I SAY *SUPER* CLINGY.

BUT YEAH THEY'RE GOOD!

[17magpiesinatrenchcoat]

Hello I would like to ramble about 9 sols… I’ve almost finished it and would like to talk about it :D feel free to yap with me in the comments too, none of my friends have played it yet so it would be nice to talk to someone about it hehe (in absolutely no order whatsoever)

‼️LOTS OF SPOILERS BEWARE‼️

ohhhhhhhh I LOVE THE MUSIC ITS SO GOOD…. no1 video game ost enjoyer here and I can say it’s so so good;; so many of the songs made me go :00 ITS SO GOOD

I’ve seen people complain about the dialogue and tbh I don’t get the complaints at all;; I LOVE the dialogue and I think it adds a lot and it’s a very good way to tell the story the game is telling and the people who whinge about it are stupid tbh I feel like people often confuse creative decisions they personally don’t vibe with with actual flaws which is really annoying like. man

aghhh SO MUCH LORE I love all the lore I want to know more…… oh but man. hearing about all the solarian’s rich history,, and knowing that ultimately they were doomed to extinction by one idiot is;: oh man. It Hurts

OHHHHH HOW I ADORE THE THEME OF HOW RAGING AGAINST THE INEVITABLE WILL ONLY CAUSE HARM… literally all the things that went wrong in the story are from people trying to run away from death. but sometimes the only thing left to do, and the right thing to do, is to let go. ohhhhhh indie games about death and letting go how I adore you so

lady ethereal made me so fucking sad like. literally everything she ever did was to try and help her people but it all went so so wrong. the road to hell is paved with good intentions, truly. god her storyline hurts so bad. Im very glad yi could give her closure so she could move on,, also her section was by far my favourite ITS SO GOOD RAHHHHH

THE FENGS MADE ME SO HORRIBLY SAD TOO;; I hated them at first, I literally said “eat the rich” lol but. that was before I saw their final cutscene they’re so :(((( they didn’t deserve this. poor fuwa man im so sad I felt so so bad for her by the end

also their district was. oh my god it’s so eerie it made me so viscerally uncomfortable I was so on edge the entire time I was there… goddddd it’s so haunting holy shit the solarians are beyond doomed

I LOVE HOW THE PAVILLON REALLY BECOMES A HOME it’s so fun to see and I really love all the roomies<3 I wanna be friends with kuafu

ohhhhhhh shuanshuan totally reminds yi of heng huh…. ohhhhh that’s so tragic oh the tragic doomed siblings <//3 IT HURTS SO BAD THE LAST THING HE EVER SAID TO HER WAS SO HORRIBLE AND IYS JUST AUGHHHH,,,, HE NEVER EVEN GOT TO SEE HER AGAIN AFTER THAT,,, sorry im so incoherent I. They just make me so horrifically sad

OH OH this is the first game that made me say “what the fuck” out loud 10/10 lol (it was the guy you behead in the prison) AND SPEAKING OF THE PRISON god I felt so fucking bad for yi that entire section. the way he just falls pathetically if you try to dash oh my godddd :((

why did jiequan act so weirdly flirty towards yi. like huh is there something you wanna tell us dude (also side note: why do people ship them I would appreciate if someone explained bc I don’t get it at all HHHRHSHS or maybe it’s just because it’s not the type of ship that appeals to me at all,, hm)

JI IS SO FUCKING COOOOL HES DEFINITELY ONE OF MY FAVS;; suicidal immortal is such a tragically good character concept that should definitely be done more often I think (in fact, I want to make an oc like that) god I love him he’s so horribly tragic too EVERYONE IS SO TRAGIC and I really like how he’s so friendly towards yi it’s weirdly sweet… and his boss theme being named long awaited death AGHHHH……..

his zone makes me want to bash my head in tho. like genuinely I was ready to tear my hair out this game was made for smarter people I fear

oh and how I love yi’s character development so so much.. he went from straight up torturing the first sol he fought to really not wanting to fight them at all. even the fengs who he seemed really annoyed by,, he seemed genuinely sad by fuxi’s condition;; GAHHH morally grey character AND redemption arc this is the best of both worlds, he’s such a fascinating character I love him dearly <3

man I fucking hate eigong. imagine being the dumbass to literally doom your entire race bc you wanted to be immortal like 💀💀 girl……. also I know she gets Worse too so I wanna see what’s that about

I love yi did I mention I love yi he’s such a great character

ohhhhh that one sequence where you run across the invaded village to save the apemen and the MUSIC;;: one of my favourite sequences in the whole game man it was so goddamn cool

ok im all out of yapping now lol DO TALK TO ME IN THE COMMENTS IF YOUD LIKE ok goodbye 🫶🫶🫶

[benjimarii]

21, 90, 94 👀👉👈

Tysm for the ask!! 💞 Alright, so for 21, my obsession from my childhood was absolutely Sonic the Hedgehog. I absolutely LOVED that franchise! The games, the shows, the characters! All were awesome to me as a kid. Although I'm not really into the franchise anymore, I do keep up to date on things from it! Sonic Prime is a fun watch, and I'm glad to see that Sonic Frontiers is actually a pretty good game! For 90, my luckiest mistake... hm... That's actually a difficult one for me! I make mistakes a lot, but I don't really consider them super lucky or unlucky. But if I had to chose, I think my luckiest mistake was drawing creatures and monsters. I never actually wanted to start off drawing animals and creatures, but it just so happened that had no idea what I was doing when I attempted to draw humans when I first started drawing. I made a lot of mistakes when drawing people, and I think the awkwardness of the drawings made me want to experiment more and play around with proportions. Which, led me to drawing aliens nowadays! For 94, I don't know if I have a favorite season, actually! They all have a lot of pros and cons for me. Spring is very nice, with beautiful colors, but I don't like all of the pollen in the air due to allergies. Summer is fun because everyone is free and all of the exciting places are open, but I live in a place where it gets SUPER hot, so that's always the woooorst. Fall has a BUNCH of fun holidays and events, while also having amazing colors everywhere!... but it also has a similar problem to spring, where there's so much dust in the air it's hard for me to enjoy anything. Winter is nice, because it only gets chilly here, and I adore the vibes and events happening where I live. But I don't really like the months associated with winter, and I don't really enjoy myself a lot during wintertime. I'm tired all the time :( If I had to chose, I'd probably say Fall, though. Thank you for the ask!! ✨💗

[cornflowercanine]

i f33l weird a8t 8eing arospec 8c no matter where i look in regards to romance there’s always a Disconnect. i look at romantic shit where ppl are 8eing ch33sy and cute and im like haha i do that, 8ut then it goes on a8t how regular and natural and default and common and wanta8le it is to have crushes and d8 and im like ...whats wrong with me so i look at aro stuff where ppl are talking a8t ppl Expecting romance of them and Wanting romance for them when its just Not smth they do (at least not often) and im like haha i do that then they talk a8t never ever f33ling romance ever and knowing theyll never d8 and never ever having had crushes and im like ...am i doing something wrong ultim8ly i choose to 8e more on the aro side 8c Im Arospec and every crush i’ve had was actual YEARS apart and a LOT of f33lings and experiences i have/had are put into words 8y aromantic people and etc etc etc etc 8ut after a certain point it just f33ls like .... this... STILL isnt me and its not like. a 8AD thing that aromantic people have their own aromantic posts and discussions and things etc, im glad they exist and theyre important and good and are still helpful to me even if im not aromantic it’s just... it f33ls odd to join a community to help descri8e a part of you you felt was incomplete and empty and n33ded words and f33lings to express it only to eventually circle 8ack around to f33ling its lacking and you n33d more words and f33lings to express it

[doctorgerth]

Hey my lovely? 💚 Can I ask for a headcanon with Zoro, Kid and Crocodile reacting to their female s/o asking for a break because they are afraid of their feelings for them? Angst and NSFW, if you want 😌 but also some fluff! The big best cocktail! Love youuuuu ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

MIHOOOOO my sweet lil mouse! Thank you for this lovely request and I’m so so so sorry it took so long to get this out to you. I am a SUCKER for angst aghhh especially angst for characters who are usually so calm and cool like these boys! I hope I wrote this to your liking honey 😌❤️

HCs: Fem S/O Wanting to Take a Break (Zoro, Kid, Crocodile)

(warning: light ns.fw content mixed in, typically at the end of the HCs list)

(( under the cut as it’s kinda long! ))

Zoro

“I can’t do this without you.”

- Zoro is a man of very few expressions, and it’s always hard to figure out just what he is thinking most of the time; his brows seem to be permanently furrowed, and paired with that infamous scowl of his, it’s taken you quite some time to figure him out

- but, when you approach him with a sad look, he’s instantly alert to what you have to say as he’s been your biggest comfort throughout the relationship; Zoro was tough and cold at times, but whenever you needed him he was always there to get you through anything (we all know Zoro is secretly a big ol teddy bear)

- needless to say, he wasn’t expecting that his girlfriend all of a sudden wanted to take a break, especially after assuming everything was perfectly fine, if not great between the two of you

- when you tell him that you’ve decided to take a break from the relationship, you see a little shift in his demeanor, as if he’s cracking underneath the surface 

- his scowl is pulled up into tight lips, the brows that always hung low above his eyes are raised in shock and disbelief; and still, no words are able to leave him as he just looks at you, searching for any sign of pretense 

- the way you look at him, like you’re already beginning to view him as a stranger, it doesn’t sit well with him; it wasn’t easy for him to sacrifice his selfish and cold ways to fall in love with you, but he did it any way because he truly believes you are his person and even though he never says it, Zoro knows full well that he needs you in his life

- and now, you looked at him so coldly, so sadly he could feel his heart shattering in his chest; all the months, years you two worked together to make things happen, it was all for nothing?

- he couldn’t believe it and he refused to believe it; the scowl returned to his face as he turned away from you, his attention turning back to what he was doing beforehand, awaiting your laughter and reassurance that everything was fine

- but everything wasn’t fine as you repeated yourself, reaffirming that you wanted a break from the relationship, a break from him

- his back was to you and you figured Zoro had already begun to shut you out, easily accepting your breakup; so you turned to leave, grabbing at your bags and heading towards the door; that was until a firm hand grasped at your wrist, making you turn around

- you turned around to see Zoro an absolute mess in front of you; the usual stoic and stern swordsman was visibly shaking, lips quivering, and eyes messy pools that leaked down his cheeks 

- “I won’t let you walk away like this! Please, don’t leave me. I can’t do this without you.” 

- you were taken aback as you had seen your boyfriend cry before, but nothing quite like this; he was begging for you to stay, and though he tried his hardest to remain strong, he couldn’t stop the cracking in his voice as he cried for you; it was truly heartbreaking to see him like this and you couldn’t help but break down in front of him as well

- you attempted to explain how you were so scared of your immense love for him and how a break would help you sort your feelings, but Zoro would hear none of it as in a state of sorrow and desperation, he couldn’t help but cling to you as you cried together in each other’s arms

- his hands were eager as they roamed your body, rougher in contrast to the sadness in his eyes as he kissed your skin tenderly; he undressed you with ease as he littered your bare skin with affections

- “Please, just stay with me. I won’t let you be scared of us again. I love you. I need you. Always. Please let me love you forever.”

- Zoro shamelessly pleaded for you over and over, embracing and loving your body all the while tears still cascaded down his face; you had been so worried, so terrified of loving Zoro too much, and yet Zoro was only terrified of losing you; you were a fool to think this couldn’t work 

- it was a long, emotional night as you two got lost in each other, crying while reminding one another just what you loved and cherished in one another through passionate love-making

- it was the first time you had ever seen Zoro so emotional, soft, and vulnerable towards you, and with each loving touch and embrace, Zoro showed just what you meant to him and vowed to show you how much he loved you every day so you could see how he was just as crazy for you; there would be no more questioning, no more fears as he promised to love and protect your forever if you’d have him

Kid

“What did I do wrong?”

- the moment you come to him and say that you want to take a break, Kid is fuming, instantly argumentative

- all walls that he had spent breaking down for you are slowly beginning to build back up and he is pissed about it; he loves you and he doesn’t want to shut you out; he doesn’t say it enough but he never wants to lose you!

- why in the hell would you want to go on a break? he’s made himself vulnerable towards you, spent so many days and nights doing whatever it takes to keep you happy! you make him happy! since when was he not doing the same for you?

- is he not enough? is there someone else? do you not love him anymore?

- so many questions are rambling through his head that he can’t even think straight; he wants to kick and scream and hit something because he’s so upset right now; he hates not feeling in control of himself and at this moment he is collapsing right in front of you

- Kid is a very sensitive person, highly insecure though he tries his best not to show it; but the moment you try to end it with him, he can’t help but break down

- he yells at first, spitting false accusations, spilling guilt trips, blaming everything and everyone under the sun; nothing is making sense anymore but god the thought of losing you just makes him go crazy!

- then come the tears when he sees you not budging; he’s still screaming, not at you but more so at the situation, but the tears are evident as they roll down his pale face

- his body is shaking, and he’s near the point of emotional exhaustion after having that outburst; he’s still so mad, eyes clouded with agony, but he just wants to know why

- once the thunderstorm is over, Kid just reaches out to you, grasping for your touch, a reassurance that this is all just a horrible nightmare

- “Please, don’t do this to me. I need you. I really need you. Is this what you want to hear? What do I need to tell you to make things okay? I fucking love you! Is that not enough? What did I do wrong?”

- when you tell him your fears, the fact that you love him so much that it’s terrifying, and how you think a break would be best so you can sort your feelings…Kid doesn’t take that, and you should have expected as much from this stubborn man

- he rushes to you instantly, yanking your body close to his, and settling you down on the nearest surface; his stained lips are on yours, sloppy and desperate, his flesh hand roaming your entire body; he grabs your face to make you look at him 

- “Like hell I’m just gonna let you go so easily. Don’t say stupid shit like that. I love you and you love me. Isn’t that all we need?” 

- in heated passions, he undresses you fairly quickly, ripping and discarding your clothing without second thought as you let him; he needs to feel you, touch you, he needs to show you what you mean to him so you can forget your petty insecurities

- Kid has never been good with his words, he knows that, you know that, so he makes sure to show you with his actions by making sweet, passionate, intense love to you, reminding you over and over again how much you mean to him with every loving thrust 

- there’s no room left for questioning as he holds you close and rocks into your body with a tenderness only you get to experience from him; Kid’s not a sappy guy but he would be anything for you, so he doesn’t hold back in whispering sweet nothings in your ear, reaffirming his feelings for you, begging to hear you say you love him back

- he needs to hear you say it; he’s too emotional to go without hearing you confirm that you do in fact love him and that you won’t ever leave his side; please just say it

- when all is said and done, he won’t allow you to be so insecure any more; he makes it a point to say/show how much he loves you just a little more every day so there’s no more questions

- he needs you after all; you’re supposed to be by his side when he becomes the Pirate King; no King is going to let his Queen escape so easily! 

Crocodile

“You don’t mean that. Tell me you don’t mean it.”

- very disbelieving at first and is not amused if this is some sick joke; he can’t believe what he’s hearing and you can read it all over his face

- when you express to him that it’s not a joke, and you wish to have some distance from him….he can’t help but break down that calm and collected facade of his

- his voice unintentionally raises at this notion, he’s not quite yelling yet, but it’s obvious that what you’re saying has heavily upset him as his brows are furrowed and the scowl on his face has only sunken deeper

- Crocodile is an independent man and has little to no need of other people in his life except as pawns in his plans; but you, you’re the exception to all of it

- he’s given himself to you wholly, unconditionally, with no regrets; he’s chosen to make a life with you as his partner and he chooses to love you and only you every day

- and now all of a sudden you just want to throw it all away? he can’t let that happen, he won’t let that happen 

- when you explain to him how insecure you’ve been feeling, how scared you are of your feelings for him, his heart drops into his stomach and his body begins to shake visibly

- when you tell him you want to leave for a bit to sort things out, he can’t help but bite his cigar in half, digging his nails into his thighs

- “You don’t mean that. Tell me you don’t mean it. Come here.”

- even in the midst of your breakdown, you still find yourself obliging to your lover as you approach him, a part of you wanting to touch him one last time before you leave

- “You’re scared because of how much you love me? Don’t you think I was terrified to fall in love with you too? And still, I choose you, only you, every single day, and I’ll choose only you for the rest of my life. I’m not going to allow you to throw this away, (Name). I love you, so much. And I know you love me. Let’s not waste that.” 

- Crocodile pulls you into his lap to embrace you and soothe your insecurities; his big arms wrap around you without hesitation, his flesh hand petting at your hair

- he lets you cry into his shoulder though his heart is racing, awaiting you to tell him that you’ve changed your mind and that you won’t be leaving him; the wait to hear you say you love him is agonizing

- the moment you pull away to apologize, he responds rather quickly with connecting his lips to yours; it felt like years before you said anything so he wasn’t going to waste a second longer 

- his lips are passionate and his thumb wipes at the tears that flow freely down your cheeks; he leaves kisses all along your face and neck, gentle affections that form as apologies for letting you worry so much

- Crocodile wastes no time in making love to you in his office chair, praises and endearments spilling from his mouth as he controls your movements and makes love to your body, making you feel like a truly loved and cherished woman

- he can’t help himself from getting just as emotional when you relocate to your shared bedroom, continuing your love-making session in your most sacred place; he chokes up a bit as he looks into your eyes and tries to imagine what would have happened if he hadn’t stopped you from leaving

- though he wouldn’t admit it out loud, Crocodile knew he was a better man because of you; no part of him wants to return to the lonely shell of a man he was before you came along

- and so, he made sure to never take your love for granted from here on out; insecurities come and go, but the love between you and Crocodile would remain forever 

[yoonia]

Miss Dia ;-; did u know I read show me something late at night that I fell asleep in the middle of reading it ;-; n then I had to pick up reading it after I woke up today hehehe. when I saw the heavy angst and slow burn I was like omg this is MY thing, n I love me a good friends to falling out to enemies to going back and forth to lovers.

I was really excited to get into the 51k words bc you build such great backstories! and the way you describe oc's character especially n the short spurts of jk's personality after childhood, n I guess this type of situation actually happened to me in real life well except the happy ending ;-; so my heart was really hurting for the insecurities and thoughts that oc had throughout the whole fic. there was tia n jaehyun 🥺 literal mvps, like the great friends they are tried their very best to settle whatever problems the couple had 🥺

AND CAN I TALK ABOUT JK, he literally never snapped at oc as they were in the so called enemies stage, he was soft and considerate towards her n AGHHH I just love his character so much, we stan a good man 🥺 n during the smut scene even as it was getting steamy n very sexy, jk was still the cuddly sweet lover he was just wanting to fix his misunderstanding and mistakes

n ofc I really wanna applaud u for finishing this fic! I loved it very much n u fed the angst lover in me so well 😚 I hope u had rested n stayed hydrated today ^^ pls stay safe I'm excited for your future works mwah mwah 🥺💜

I’m sorry for replying so late 🥺

I don’t blame you for falling asleep in the middle of reading lol I’ve done that when I read something late at night too and you just got through 51k words at night so I won’t be surprised. 

One of the many reasons why the word count sort of multiplied a lot from what I had planned was none other than the backstories lol I wanted to be able to show their lives before the falling out and why it had affected her so badly when they did fall out. I felt like without those parts, you won’t be able to truly understand why she was hurting and why it took them so long to hash things out. Honestly, we all need friends like Tia and Jaehyun who would be totally annoying in their nosy way but understand enough when and how to push until things could actually happen. It must’ve been weird for them too for being stuck in the middle of the cold war between Jungkook and OC for years 🥺

As much as I wanted to make JK lash out, I couldn’t give him that since he knew that he was in the wrong. I feel like the cold shoulders he’s been giving her was already hurtful enough and OC was the one who needed to dump all the stressful thoughts and the emotions she had kept to herself for years. 

Enough rambling (I’m sorry I always talk too much when it comes to my writing)! Thank you so much for reading! I hope you’re having a magnificent week and please take care! 

[rosecoloredknight]

1,4,10,11,12,26 for soft asks :)

1. what song makes you feel better? hmm- there's actually a lot of songs that make me happy, but I'll just put the ones I've recently been listening to on repeat. !! oh-- I apologize if they're not actually "happy" songs? sigh- they do help me feel better though. okay:

1.Level of Concern (live from outside) by Twenty One Pilots

2.Watch Me While I Bloom by Hayley Williams

3.Together by Ziggy Alberts

4.What Lovers Do (feat. SZA) by Maroon 5

5. Come Unto Jesus by Madilyn Paige

6. And my favorite song ever 😊😊

4. what flower would you like to be given? !!! I already answered this question so I won't ramble. a bouquet of sunflowers, roses, and white roses!! I know weird combo 😅 sorry. *whispering* honestly though, anyone gives me flowers? I'm totally hugging them ❤️

10. what’s something you’re excited for? !!!! Hopefully if things get better, I'm excited to go back to college and finish my major. I'm also excited to finally buy my own car sometime next month!! I've been trying to find a reliable SUV and there's this Subaru that has my attention. So yeah, I'm excited about those two things, especially the finally buying a car part because as soon as I do I'm going to take it to the auto shop, get it tuned up, and drive to Corpus Christi or maybe SPI(the beach)!

11. what’s your ideal date? oof- I have MANY "ideal" dates in mind haha- from adventure dates such as national parks dates, museum/monuments dates, walks in the parks dates, picnics dates, to simple but meaningful dates like cafe dates, going to the (or watching a) movie(s) dates, board games night date, or spending time together talking about everything and nothing dates.

I'm sorry, I'm not making sense. I guess for me an ideal date consists of both of us simply doing anything or nothing together. together, that's the key word. If I'm dating you, it's not because I want to see how it goes or if we'll "work out". Neither am I dating you with one foot in and another out; I'm all in. I guess that's why my ideal dates different, it doesn't matter what we're doing, as long it includes me and you 😊🤍.

12. how are you? sigh- 😅 oh boy, I literally sighed when I read this question. I don't know why, I guess I have this feeling that it's wrong of me to feel sad or not okay. I know, I'm being ridiculous, which is exactly what I tell myself. Okay- I'm doing a lot better than I was 2 or 3 weeks ago. I sort of had an anxiety or panic? attack with the whole ordeal that transpired. Plus, I was having an off day. That being stated, I've been able to manage or self care? 😊😊. So yeah- I'm doing well. Life whether it has been kind or not to me, is something that I'm able to appreciate. And when I have my loud or in some cases, quiet days, I'm able to.. "keep looking up". I'm gonna stop myself there- did I make sense? I apologize if not. here- something I wrote a few weeks ago, it better describes me.

·When life starts feeling heavy, loud, and/or sometimes quiet.. I feel secure knowing that my life is in His hands. I'm able to "rest" at the notion that regardless of how big my trials, troubles, or struggles may seem or at times be, I don't know.. Jesus Christ always finds a way to remind me to take heart (John 16:33). Truth is, You are always on my mind. On the days where it feels like I can't seem to take a break, on the days I find difficult to deal with, and even on my days that are filled with joy, laughter, and randomness- You never leave my mind or heart. I thank You for that. 😊👍

26. what movie would you want to live in? !!!!!! oooooh this is something tricky, my first thought was the marvel cinematic universe!! I mean c'mon, who wants to be friends with Thor, Peter Parker, etc.?! I DO!! But then I thought about other cool and cheesy movies- I can't agree on pride and prejudice because I can't articulate myself in that way, plus there's no I can pull of the attires. Then!! I thought about the Clash/Wrath of the Titans movie- I won't ramble about that one because I totally can especially since I'm writing a book on Greek mythology, but I'm just going to say this- it would be nice. There's also Star Wars!? Oh!! I'm currently rewatching Supernatural with my niece so that's another one? I know it's a show but c'mon it's been airing for 15 years!! Okay last one, and I'll probably choose this one- Pirates of the Caribbean? who wouldn't want in in going on life-threatening adventures with the great *pirate voice* Captain Jack Sparrow?!

!!! there's also animes like Naruto, A: TLA, or games that I used to play like Mass Effect!? Aghhh

I'm so sorry. I can't choose one. Hold up. Eenie meenie miney mo I choose Jack Sparrow!! Okay there you go 😁😁👍

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i just filmed myself unboxing the special edition!!! gosh i'm so awkward,, ,. I'm going to edit it tomorrow, as it is 3:19 am currently, and I wanna get on a good schedule! Plus, it's around 25 minutes long, and I want to cut it down as much as possible. Also, I may or may not have said AS A JOKE "i hate alex hirsch- im sorry i love you" and even though I'm into that humor, I felt really bad saying it when I re-watched it, so I'm gonna get rid of it. I'm the kind of person who, like, finds a connection to celebrities/known people, as I feel a lot of others do the same. I'm ALSO the kind of person who jokes around a lot and has dark humor, so combine those two, and you get my fake meanness that doesn't really get across properly to those who don't know me!! I may know "known people," but "known people" don't know me! Aghhh! Anyway, away from my vent ramble. It'll be uploaded tomorrow, and hopefully you find it informative and junk! AHHH I'M SO NERVOUS!!