#5sos week 21 day five

[divkazkdovikde]

(autumn in the city, random photos from the last few weeks)

saturday, 21. october 2023

i’m home, came back for the weekend to my hometown after a few weeks, to recharge batteries a bit, (to wash my laundry, since we still don’t have a washer at the flat), to breathe the clean air of the countryside for a change, to have a quiet night and a dreamless sleep

because i had a rough week or so, and it got bad in my head, i need to write down a few of the good things,

events:

catch-ups with my friends over the weeks: the boys, anna, jakub, terezie, karolina

5sos concert (12.10) (the best concert ever) (they were absolutely amazing and i’m so glad i impulsively bought the ticket)

signal festival prague (14.10) (so cool, met new people)

louis tomlinson concert (19.10) (he played chicago? oh my god?!) (still not over it) (the best concert ever, emotionally)

things i’ve treated myself with:

ring and earings at vietnamese sapa market (so pretty!)

five new books (i’m supposed to be on a book buying ban, but eh, ehmmm), the picture of dorian gray and selected plays by oscar wilde, diaries and the complete stories by franz kafka, and lastly, on the road by jack kerouac

salmon slices on sale (yummy)

steak tartare (tataráček) and beer at the pub near our flat with my flatmate after a long monday (the czech aesthetic, you wouldn’t get it)

bought me a louis tomlinson merch tshirt at the concert (so cool, my little bro approved)

fluffy scarf

honorable mentions:

my mate nomi, love her for always being down to skipping useless classes with me (it’s always like “u wanna skip?” “do u even have to ask?”) (or texting “not going to the first class, hold me a seat for the next one?” “not going either” “lmao nice”)

the phonecall with my little brother, when i helped him fry an onion for meat dumplings and he still buggered it at first, and before he finally managed it, i catched a bus from public laundry, had a 10’ ride, then walked to the flat, and even managed to hang the wet laundry (made my day, truly)

my flatmate kaja, for being my partner in crime, our texts when we’re only in the next room, our late night coffees at the kitchen, and for our understanding for each other because we’re the same mentally ill bitches

the one spliff with my best friend, dunno what we put in it other than normal, but it was goodah

fics i need to recommend because holy fuck:

written on the heart by who_la_hoop

pathological people pleaser by rweoutofthewoods

(and basically whatever fic those two wrote)

current songs on the loop:

ghost of you and take my hand by 5sos

quick reminder: to take care of yourself, to talk about your feelings, to try to enjoy the moments even when you’re not feeling great, to always try to get up from the bet in the morning, because it’s worth it, you’re worth it. and it’s hard, but it’s okay to struggle, you’re not alone.

also feel free to slide into my asks!

[pastryleclerc]

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hello everyone! ✨️ below you will find the most important information about the author and the links to tagged games, etc. which will offer a little deeper view into the author's head (and life) 👀 if you wanna know more, you can always send me a dm or ask 🥰

name

i have a classic german name which i won't post publicly, but just call me anne or annie for short :)

age

at the time of writing this i am 21 years of age and i'll start my taylor swift year on december 12th 🎂

looks

i am a brunette girl with shoulder-length hair and green (and a hint of grey) eyes (side fact: i have the same eyecolor as charles leclerc and it's the rarest eye color), my height is 162cm or 5"3', i have three tattoos (bound to become more) and a lip piercing at the same place luke hemmings used to have his, i am absolutely not thin but i'm currently trying to loose weight 👩

job

i'm currently a trainee at our district administration in the system of the dual education (1-2 days of school per week and the rest in the office) with the intention to get my bachelor in public administration afterwards! 👩‍💼

places i've been to

the netherlands 🇳🇱, france 🇫🇷, italy 🇮🇹 and greece 🇬🇷 and - of course - germany 🇩🇪

interests

obviously f1 and football, but also: movies, tv shows, cooking, baking, singing (fun fact: i sing in our local choir), dancing, playing handball, playing tennis/badminton, hang out with my friends, going to parties/concerts/etc., travelling, reading, listening to music, swimming, riding the bike, inline skating, ice skating, talking about history (there's more that i can't think of right now but will definitly add) 💛

favorite movies/tv shows

movies: i will watch anything from marvel and dc, the golden age of barbie (aka the early 2000s-2010s movies), mamma mia 1 & 2, top gun 1 & 2, the m:i movies, dirty dancing, pretty woman, titanic, pearl harbor (judge me as much as you want i liked the movie), more that i currently can't think of - tv shows: hawaii five-0, gossip girl (og), pretty little liars, supernatural, desperate housewives (again, judge me as much as you want), bridgerton, more that i currently can't think of

football favorites

clubs: bvb and man city / players: basically all of the bvb squad, john stones, stefan ortega (my friend knows him lmao), christian pulisic, ben chilwell, cesar azpilicueta, kdb, erling haaland (there are probably more haha) ⚽️

motorsport favorites

charles leclerc, sebastian vettel (side fact: he's from the same state as i am), george russell, lando norris, oscar piastri, michael schumacher, daniel abt, nico hülkenberg - teams: ferrari (and mercedes, due to my family) 🏎

artists/genres i listen to often

first things first: i normally describe my taste in music as "everything i love" which is actually such a weird mix / artists: taylor swift, abba, katy perry, the weeknd, ariana grande, lana del rey, måneskin, dua lipa, 5sos, wet leg, wincent weiss, lady gaga - genres: musicals, indie, edm, house, pop 🎶

fun facts

we have a dog at home, my favorite animals are penguins, i have been to the first ever bvb vs. chelsea game, i've been to concerts of 5sos and wincent weiss, i like to build legos, i am an only child, i don't have a favorite season, there also isn't a color i don't like but i prefer beige pink and yellow, the glass is half full when you intentionally fill it up half way and half empty when you drink from it, my favorite quote is "even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise" from victor hugo's "les misérables", my english level is c2, my french level is b2, my spanish level is b1, i once had ancient greek in school, i hated the sciences (math, biology, science and physics), i'm bisexual ☀️

tagged games

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[bandsanitizer]

5SOS Appreciation Week 2021: Day 5

College AU featuring:

Michael Clifford, Computer Science major who spent his last class playing video games

Calum Hood, Economics major who switched from CompSci so he could spend more time with his dog

Luke Hemmings, English major who is half doing this for the aesthetic

Ashton Irwin, Psychology major taking a lot of Philosophy classes he does not shut up in

Bonus (because a single picture of Jack Barakat from this post inspired the concepts for this whole AU):

Ashley, Fine Arts major who works at the bookstore and knows everyone

Rian, Architecture major who sees Zack everyday on his daily coffee run, knows Ashton vaguely through band, and hasn’t slept since last year (hyperbolic)

Zack, English major who sees Luke around the department, is roomies with Jack, and enjoys weightlifting in his free time

Jack, Computer Science major who TAs Michael’s class, is besties with Alex, and does not know the answers to that exam *wink*

Alex, Computer Engineering major who was in Calum’s group for a Software Engineering class, is roomies with Rian, and probably enjoys college more than the average student

[summersun4youforever]

✨ Tag 9 people to learn more about their interests!

tagged by my fav @loulovehome thank you pu hope that this quells your curiosity! 

MUSIC

fav genre? not to be that person but i think i have a toe in most genres, i suppose my favorites have got to be anything taylor swift does, pop punk, r&b pop/new age r&b, and bluegrass

fav artist? again, not to be that person but i love so many artists! let’s do this based off of genre: taylor swift, 1D, 5sos, massive focus on ZAYN, the Avett brothers, and counting crows

fav song? fav song of all time (since i was young) is going to be come around by rhett miller but more currently i’d say you are in love by taylor swift and dRuNk by ZAYN

song currently stuck in your head? i have no idea how it got there but i have stressed out by 21 pilots stuck in my head??

5 fav lyrics? ok let’s do this kids. edit: this went in a “fav love song lyrics” way so sorry in advance.

1)  I hope that I don't sound to insane when I say / There is darkness all around us / I don't feel weak but I do need sometimes for her to protect me / And reconnect me to the beauty that I'm missin' (January Wedding - The Avett Brothers)

2)  Hands around my waist / You're counting up the hills across the sheets / And I'm a falling star / A glimmer lighting up these cotton streets / I admit I'm a bit of a fool for playing by the rules / But I've found my sweet escape when I'm alone with you (Disconnected - 5sos)

3)  This is the worthwhile fight / Love is a ruthless game / Unless you play it good and right / These are the hands of fate / You're my Achilles heel / This is the golden age of something good / And right and real (State of Grace - Taylor Swift) 

4)  What if I changed my mind / What if I said it's over / I been flying so long / Can't remember what it was like to be sober / What if I lost my lives? / What if I said "Game over"? / What if I forget my lies? / And I lose all my composure (Back to Life - ZAYN)

5)   I never said I was perfect / Or you don't deserve a good person to carry your baggage / I know a few girls that can handle it / I ain't that kind of chick, but I can call 'em for you if you want / I never said that you wasn't attractive / Your style and that beard, ooh, don't get me distracted / I'm tryna be patient, and patience takes practice / The fact is I'm leaving, so just let me have this (Jerome - Lizzo)

radio or your own playlist | solo artists or bands | pop or indie | loud or silent volume I slow or fast songs | music video or lyrics video | speakers or headset | riding a bus in silence or while listening to music | driving in silence or with radio on

BOOKS

fav book genre? murder mystery and young love!

fav writer? jane austen, lisa jewell, and rick riordan (nostalgia ok?!)

fav book? the way i used to be my amber smith, rebecca by daphane du maurier, and then she was gone OR watching you (both by Lisa Jewell)

fav book series? i guess the whole percy jackson situations? i have everything RR every wrote, and i liked it all but i havent touched the older ones in ages

comfort book? not one specifically but the nancy drew books

perfect book to read on a rainy day? bird summons by leila aboulela

5 quotes from your fav book that you know by heart? i hope i can name five...

1)  “The point is, life has to be endured, and lived. But how to live it is the problem.” “I am no traveller, you are my world.” (both are My Cousin Rachel by Daphne Du Maurier)

2)  “And I’m terrified he’ll see through the tough iceberg layer, and he’ll discover not a soft, sweet girl, but an ugly fucking disaster underneath.” (The Way I Used to Be by Amber Smith)

3)  "I cannot make speeches, Emma," he soon resumed; and in a tone of such sincere, decided, intelligible tenderness as was tolerably convincing. "If I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it more. But you know what I am. You hear nothing but truth from me. I have blamed you, and lectured you, and you have borne it as no other woman in England would have borne it. Bear with the truths I would tell you now, dearest Emma, as well as you have borne with them. The manner, perhaps, may have as little to recommend them. God knows, I have been a very indifferent lover. But you understand me. Yes, you see, you understand my feelings and will return them if you can. At present, I ask only to hear, once to hear your voice.” (Emma by Jane Austen) (sorry for the length, the shortened versions were not cutting it for me)

4)  “Read, read, read. That's all I can say.” (The Secret of the Old Clock by Carolyn Keene)

5)  “...amazing how boring you can get away with being when you’re pretty. No one seems to notice. When you’re pretty everyone just assumes you must have a great life. People are so short-sighted, sometimes. People are so stupid. I have a dark past and I have dark thoughts. I do dark things and I scare myself sometimes.” (Invisible Girl by Lisa Jewell)

hardcover or paperback | buy or rent | standalone novels or book series | ebook or physical copy | reading at night or during the day | reading at home or in nature | listening to music while reading or reading in silence | reading in order or reading the ending first | reliable or unreliable narrator | realism or fantasy | one or multiple POVS | judging by the covers or by the summary (im a very judgmental reader) | rereading or reading just once

TV AND MOVIES

fav tv/movie genre? i like dramedies, mockumentaries, and procedurals 

fav movie? ive got a massive list on my phone but ill pick Doob (No Bed of Roses) and 3-Iron as my favs for today

comfort movie? 2000s romcoms, im talking clueless, 13 going on 30, how to loe a guy in ten days, ten things i hate abt you, legally blonde

movie you watch every year? mamma mia and all listed in prev question

fav tv show? too many, currently im rewatching arrested development

comfort tv show? new girl

most rewatched tv show? new girl

ultimate otp? shawn and jules from psych (ultimate bc ive been watching since diapers literally)

5 fav characters? winston bishop, stiles stilinski, bellamy blake, clarke griffin, lydia martin

tv shows or movies | short seasons (8-13 episodes) or full seasons (22 episodes or more) | one episode a week or binging | one season or multiple seasons | one part or saga | half hour or one hour long episodes | subtitles on or off | rewatching or watching just once | downloads or watches online

super fun even though it took me an hour lmao, I'm tagging @technosoot @hometothecanyonmoon @sassylilnoodle @sushiniall @rosegold-thorns no pressure and sorry if youve already been tagged!

edit: i somehow managed to forget what i consider to be one of the greatest opening verses ever???? so bonus lyrics:

Step out the front door like a ghost into the fog / Where no one notices the contrast of white on white / And in between the moon and you / The angels get a better view / Of the crumbling difference between wrong and right (Round Here - Counting Crows)

[hecrtfelt]

( dylan  o’brien ,  25 ,  cismale  ,  he/him )  *  hey  ,  i’m  looking  for  the  office  of  griffin  olson  .  they’re  the  employee  who’s  known  around  the  office  as  the  party  animal  ,  if  that  helps  ?  not  to  be  a  gossip  ,  but  i’ve  heard  that  they’re  extroverted  but  reckless  ,  is  that  true  ?  i’ve  also  heard  that  they’re  the  one  who  did  a  line  on  a  fax  machine  .  anyways  ,  here’s  the  coffee  they  ordered  .  ( admin  sabrina  ,  21 ,  she/her , est ) 

hiii  i’m  admin  sabrina  and  aaAAAHHHHH  thank  u  for  joining  my  group  :’)  umm  a little  abt  me   is  that  i’m  a  leo  and  black  and  i  play  a  lot  of  instruments  and  i  love  ari  and  harry  and  5sos  and  the  driver  era  and  marvel  and  bnha  and  i’m  going  to  law   school  in  nyc  in  the  fall  so  AHHHHHH  again  but  fr  i  love  making  friends  so  hmu  on 𝐬𝐚𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐚#3541 even  just  to  chat  faljsfkjsfkljj

anyways  this  is  my  boy  griffin  and  basically............  homeboy  needs  to  pick  up  a  mortage  or  smth  FJSLJFSLJFJJ

tws:  alcohol  and  drug   mentions  . 

*  statistics   .

FULL  NAME:  griffin  lee  olson NICKNAMES:  griff  ,  griffy  ,  g FACECLAIM:  dylan  o’brien  but  exclusively  this  era STAR  SIGN:  gemini HEIGHT:  6′1″ HOMETOWN:  brooklyn  ,  ny ORIENTATION:  heterosexual OFFICE OCCUPATION:  lobbyist POSITIVE TRAITS:  amicable  ,  energetic  ,  optimistic NEGATIVE TRAITS:  irresponsible  ,  insouciant  ,  impulsive ALCHOL/DRUG  USAGE:  heavy  for  both  ,  &  has  an  unhealthy  reliance  on  the  latter  when  he’s  extra  stressed  .  only  those  close  to  him  or  happen  to  have  seen  him  getting  a  $20  nosebleed  (  aka  doing  a  LINE  and  being  a  COKIE  MONSTER  )  will  know  about  the  drug  thing  ,  but  the  alcohol  part  is  easier  to  find  out  since  too  often  he  wears  sunglasses  to  work  to  cover  his  bloodshot  eyes  flajfafj THEME SONG:  don’t  threaten  me  with  a  good  time  by  panic!  at  the  disco CHARACTER  INSPO:  peter  quill  ( marvel ) ,  thor  odinson  ( marvel  but  specifically  in  ragnarok  and  endgame )  ,  deadpool  (  marvel  )  ,  sokka  ( atla ) ,  klaus  (  the umbrella  academy  )  ,  beast  boy  ( teen  titans ) ,  nyles  (  palm  springs  )  cody  ko  (  tmg  )  ,  nick  miller  (  new  girl  )  ,  aldous  snow  (  forgetting  sarah  marshall  )  &  any  party  animal  character  you  can  think  of AESTHETICS:  neon signs  lighting  up  the  night  ,  setting  five  alarms  and  sleeping  through  them  all  ,  cold  liquor  on  an  empty  stomach  ,  a  cluttered  desk  and  a  messy  nightstand  ,  winking  at  strangers  ,  and  popping  bubble  gum  . SECRET: hehehehehehehehehehe

*  brief  backstory  .

griffin’s  dad  is  a  used-car  salesman  and   his  mom  is  an  attorney  who  sells  avon on  the  side ,  so  g  grew  up  knowing  how  to  talk  .  it  already  helped  that  he’d  been  sociable  from  the  start  ,  oftentimes  being  scolded  by  his  mom  for  talking  the  ear  off  of  the  person  sitting  next  to  them  on  the  subway  .  but  his  parents  had  to  be  persuasive  for  a  living  and  that  transferred  onto  griffin  .  the  popular  kid  to  some  and  the  class  clown  to  others  ,  griffin  spent  his  middle  and  high  school  years  buttering  people  up  with  his   words  and  friendship  ,  with  his  long  brown eyelashes  and  boyish  grin  .   it  got  him  the last  bag  of  chips  from  the  snack  cart  ,  an  extra  five  points  on  his  calculus  quiz  ,  and  free  handles  of  liquor  from  the  seniors  .   being  so  well-liked  meant  griffin  was  invited  to  a  lot  of  parties  ,  and  that’s  where  the  addiction  began  .  he’s  addicted  to  alcohol  ,  to  any  drug  that  gets  his  veins  feeling  like  electricity  ,  to  meeting  strangers  in  loud  basements  and  that  pounding  feeling  in  the  back  of  his  temple  .  this  carried  onto  college  ,  so  griffin  never  really  got  the  chance  to  grow  up  .  he’d  never  been  smacked  with  the  reality  that  life  isn’t  all  tequila  shots  and  drake  songs  ,  and  it  didn’t  help  that  the  profession  his  parents introduced  him  to  only  required  an  ironed  suit  from  him  at  the  most  .  he  went  from  one  crowded  room   to  another  ,  this  one  just  with  more  briefcases  ,  surrounded  by  strangers  once  more  and  doing  a  line  with  his  colleagues  .  now  ,  working  at  masters  in  the  heart  of  the  world’s  most  vibrating  city  ,  who  knows  how  long  before  griffin  takes  his  lifestyle  too  far  ?

*  what  he  does  in  the  office  .

he’s  a  lobbyist  for  masters  !   he’s  been  there  for  four  years  now  .  basically  he  works  for  masters  as  a  messenger  to  the  government  .  masters  is  huge  and  influential  and  powerful  and  sometimes  they  wanna  introduce  or  ban  or  amend  legislations  all  in  the  name  of  making  them  more  powerful  and  monopolistic  ,  and  that’s  where  griffin  comes  in  .  his  job  is  to   basically  schmooze  for  the  benefit  of  the  company  .  it  sounds  like  a  super  important  job and  it  is  ,  and  griffin  does  it  well  .  he’s   still  immature  though  💔  catch  him  recovering  from  a  hangover  and  sleeping  on  his  desk  most  days  of  the  week  . 

*  his personality, summarized  . 

super  sociable  and  energetic  when  he’s  not  hungover  ,  mostly  nice  but  can  get  snappy  if  he  has  a  reason  to  be  .  tends  to  ramble  .  the biggest  party  animal  ever  ,  almost  to  an  insane  amount  .  is  down  for  any  opportunity  to  get  lit  ,  no  matter  the  time  of  day  or  who  he’s  with  .  don’t  trust  him  for  anything  ,  he’ll  forget  about  it  but  at  least  not  on  purpose  .  he’s  loyal  to  the  people  he  likes  though  so  that’s  nice  ! 

*  wanted  connections  .

long-term  relationship  on  the  verge  of  ending  ( open  to  f  /  nb ) :  i  have  a  lot  of  ideas  for  this  and  i’d  love  someone  to  do  this  with   soooooo  hmu  if  ur  tryna  plot  this  mess  out  👀 best   friend  ( open  to  m  /  f  /  nb  ) :  self-explanatory  but  everyone  loves  a  fun  best  friends  duo  fwb  ( open  to  f  /  nb  )  :  I  MEANNNNNNNN B) THIS??????  drugs   tw   tho  ( open  to  f  /  nb  )  :  mayb  they’re  crazy  when  2gether  🤪 ex-friend  ( open  to  m  /  f  /  nb  ) :  imagine  the  DRAMA ex  ( open  to  f  /  nb  ) : everyone  loves  a  messy  ex  plot  .  it’s  me  ,  i’m  everyone . exes to besties  ( open  to  f  /  nb  ) : can  u  imaGINE enemy  ( open  to  m  /  f  /  nb  ) :  there’s  definitely  someone  in  this  world  who  hates  griffin  .  or  on  the  flip  side  ,  this  might  be  someone  he  hates  !  maybe  it’s  even  mutual   personal   assistant/intern   ( open  to m  /  f  /  nb  ) :  SOMEONE   PLEASE  HELP  THIS  MAN  NOT  GET  FIRED  .  also  this  connection  has  sooooooo  much  potential  to  it  too  ! sibling  ( open  to  m  /  f  /  nb  ) :  can  be  sibling-sibling  ,  half-siblings  ,  step-siblings  ,  any  of  it  !   dealer  ( open  to  m  /  f  /  nb  ) :  yanno.

*  i’m  literally  down  for  anything  so  just  hmu :) i  wanna  plot  w  u  all  !

[uservalentine]

content creator appreciation!! list five favorite sets you've made and send this ask to five other content creators! 💌

hi mili!! <3 @squishmichael @redrattlers @ghost-of-you & @kaleidoscopeminds also send me this so i’ll tag them here and add a few bonus sets, thank you for thinking of me :)

5sos @ global citizen live! very basic but i love these <3

the interview gif concept thing i did!

motion live! i really like the ~vibe~ of these

5sos appreciation week ‘21 in general but especially favourite ship / dynamic :)

moving on and on, so very bittersweet !! i hurt myself making this one but <333

the luke she’s kinda hot (live) set! look at this guy!

one of my favourite videos of them EVER, it’s so aesthetically pleasing omg

and the early days of when facing the things we turn away from to wrap it up :)

[talkfastromance4]

5sos Christmas Playlist-- Day 2 ‘Silent Night’ Luke

Day 2! I really enjoyed writing this one, got a bit carried away. This is the longest one.

Word count: 2,357

Warnings: birth, but nothing graphic (did a lot of research on water birth)

Masterlist

Day 1 Michael

Enjoy! :)

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Silent night, holy night All is calm, all is bright

 11:00 p.m December 21

 You and Luke were getting ready for bed, it was a late night of cookie decorating and shared kisses with hints of frosting and sugar. As you lay on your side of the bed, you felt a spasm of discomfort in your very large belly. Your due date isn’t until the second week of January.

Your brows furrow together as you rub your palm around your bump.

“Everything all right, lovie?” Luke asks slipping under the covers with you. His curls bounce in front of his face as he leans over to lay his hand on your belly.

“Ye. . . yeah, I think so?” you say just as another uncomfortable tremor travels beneath your fingers. It lingers a little longer and you inhale a sharp breath.

“Is it a contraction?” Luke wonders sitting up a little closer.

“I don’t think so?”

How were you supposed to know? This is your first baby. It just feels weird, whatever ‘it’ is that you’re feeling.

“Should we call the doctor?”

“No, no, let’s just . . .” you pat the back of his hand as you think, “let’s just try to sleep.”

“You sure?”

“Yeah. I’ll tell you if it gets worse,” you smile lightly then kiss his cheek before nestling into the pillows.

 7:30 a.m December 22

 To say it was a restless night would be an understatement. You tossed and turned maybe getting a total of two hours of sleep.

As the night wore on, those uncomfortable spasms turned into more of a cramping. It was tolerable enough so you didn’t bother waking up Luke. You stagger out of bed, the restlessness getting to you.

Luke wakes up after reaching for you then through bleary eyes and tousled curls, he finds you at the foot of the bed shuffling through your bag to take to the birthing center.

“Is it time? Did your water break? Where are my shoes?” he’s frantically flailing out of bed. His long limbs are getting tangled in the sheets.

“Luke, Luke! Luke! Relax,” you laugh stepping carefully to his side of the bed. You brush his curls away from his eyes and cup his chin. “I’m okay. I’m just making sure I have everything for when the time comes.”

“Were you up all night?” he cups your cheek now, fingers soft and warm. No doubt you have dark circles under your eyes.

“Kind of,” you shrug. “I feel like it’s going to be soon though, that we’ll meet her.”

“Yeah?” he smiles placing his other hand on your belly.

“Yeah, I’ve been feeling what I think are contractions,” you grimace just as another one hits.

“C’mer, c’mere,” he coaxes you to lean forward onto him.

He braces your lower back rubbing tenderly as you breathe through the discomfort. You groan as it gets a little more intense, it travels up your back and you bite your lip. You don’t want Luke to think you can’t handle this.

 10:30 a.m December 22

 You and Luke arrive at the birthing center once the contractions get closer together. He helps you change into black shorts and a sports bra that doesn’t hurt your breasts while the nurses are shuffling in and out with supplies. He hands you a scrunchie so you can put your hair up in a messy bun so it’s out of your face.

With each contraction you became more warm and agitated. One hit just as you finished putting your hair up and you bend over the bed with your head in your hands, groaning at the feeling in your lower stomach. Luke’s cool hand on your lower back does wonders for you.

“Breathe, baby, breathe,” he coaxes rubbing soothing circles into your skin.

You gasp out a breath, stars appear behind your eyelids and you take a deep, shaky breath.

“Y/N, I’m just checking your cervix, okay?” your nurse Julie informs you placing her fingers between your legs and through the opening of your shorts.

You let out a deep breath through your mouth.

“We’re at about 4 cm, that’s a good progression since your water broke at 7:30,” Julie informs you then readjusts your shorts just as the contraction stops.

 12:00 p.m December 22

 You’re sitting on the birthing ball, legs spread and arms resting on Luke’s shoulders as he rubs your belly. It’s soothing you and he tells you how well you’re doing. You didn’t think labor would be this intimate, you thought you’d want Luke to be as far away from you as possible during this painful time but you couldn’t be more grateful for his presence.

“Here comes another one!” you say tightly clutching the fabric of his shirt.

“You’ve got this, lovie, breathe with my motions,” he tells you softly.

You concentrate on the rotations of his hands on your stomach. Two clockwise circles, inhale, three counterclockwise circles, exhale. Repeat.

“That’s it, focus on your breathing,” he murmurs. He kisses the inside of your wrist nearest to his face. “You’re doing so well, baby.”

A particular sharp pang slices through, you want to cry out but you bite your lip.

“It’s okay to scream or groan, it helps,” Julie says. “Don’t hold back, do what feels natural.”

In no hesitation you let out a loud groan and it actually eases the pain a little. You sway on the ball, breathing, groaning, keeping your eyes shut and then it stops to a dull ache and then almost disappears. You gasp out a breath.

 3:12 p.m December 22

 You’re walking around the room with your hands bracing your back. You’re uncomfortable, your neck hurts, your back hurts, and your pelvis hurts. Everything aches and you just want your little baby out. You’re at 5 cm and your last contraction was at 1:45 p.m.

“Why did it stop?” you whine out loud still pacing. “I don’t want to be in labor for five days, Luke. I’ll go crazy. Make it go faster.”

“I wish I could, lovie,” he sighs hovering next to you.

You knew it made him nervous to have you walking around the room but the movement helped dull the ache in your body. You were experiencing things you’ve never felt before and Julie said to do what feels natural. Walking felt natural.

“Can I get you anything while—“

His hands fly to you as you keel over, your fingers clutching tightly to the corner of the bed. You let out a loud cry and moan as an intense contraction doubles you over. It came so fast and so painfully you feel like you’re about to be sick. A familiar roll in your stomach tells you it’s going to happen.

“Luke, I’m—“

You throw up onto the floor before you can warn him, missing his shoes thankfully. Another nurse is by your side immediately with a basin to catch the remaining of your sickness. Tears stream down your face from the pain and from the unexpected upheaval but Luke remains by your side.

“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry,” you cry clutching at him.

“It’s fine, baby,” he shushes rubbing your back.

“It happens all the time, sweetie, don’t you worry,” the nurse smiles up at you kindly. “Just get through this one, okay?”

You nod wiping your mouth with the back of your arm as the contraction continues. It feels like forever but is really only minutes and your hold on Luke lessens.

“Are you going to be sick again?” he asks worriedly.

“No,” you shake your head, “I feel better after throwing up.”

“I’ll get you a wet towel to clean up,” the nurse says.

Another one replaces her to clean up your mess on the floor. It makes you cry again that you threw up in front of them, and almost on Luke.

“Hey, hey, it’s okay. You can’t help it, you’re doing amazing, Y/N, I’m so proud of you,” Luke praises kissing your temple.

 5:05 p.m December 22

 The rushing water from the tub is what you’re concentrating on. You just reached 7 cm and this is the home stretch. The transition stage that can move equally slow or fast and you’re just ready for your baby to come out.

Luke is rubbing your shoulders and down your arms to try and ease you. It does help but you feel like this will be over soon. Your baby wants to come out just as much as you do.

“Okay, Y/N, we’ll help you get in,” Julie says holding out her hand.

Luke helps as well, his strong arms guiding you into the tub. The warm water feels heavenly on you, the ache lifts easily as your body feels less heavy. You sit on the seat at the end of the tub and Luke holds you against his chest. You both would have wanted him in the tub with you but he was too large to fit.

“I’m right here with you, baby,” he tells you in your ear. He kisses your cheek delicately three times. “How does it feel?”

“Wonderful,” you moan happily lacing your fingers with his. “Makes me think when we were in the Alps in that big hot tub. We were in there for hours.”

He chuckles in your ear, the vibrations sends goosebumps down your body.

“You’re really thinking about that right now, lovie?” he smiles against your cheek.

“I’m thinking of a happy time,” you hum leaning against him even more. “That’s when she was conceived.”

“You think so?” he hums trailing his fingers up and down your arms.

“Mhm, we stayed in the suite all day and night, remember?”

“Of course I remember,” he shifts behind you, “you’d just bought that new set I love. Couldn’t keep my hands off you,” he presses his lips to the space below your ear and chuckles again. “Can’t believe we’re talking about this while you’re in labor. I thought you’d be screaming how much you hate me.”

“It’s distracting me, and besides, I love you too much to hate you,” you say. You turn your head sticking your lips out and Luke kisses them instantly knowing that’s exactly what you wanted.

“I love you, too.”

“I—“

You gasp sharply as your whole lower half spasms in pain. The water sloshes along the side of the tub and Luke calls for Julie who is by your side immediately.

“Feeling your cervix, here are my fingers,” she tells you. “We’re almost at 10 and you’ll be able to push. You’re doing so good, deep breaths.”

You let out a moan leaning back into Luke, his lips pepper your skin in light kisses.

“So amazing, baby . . . you’re so strong. You’re almost there.”

 6:00 p.m December 22

 “When you feel the need to push, you push as hard as you can,” Julie instructs.

You don’t know for sure how long you’ve been in labor, it feels like a lifetime and yet like no time has passed. Your body has been in a constant state of the unknown but knowing exactly what to do. Luke has been so caring and attentive and you love him even more for it.

A strange desire overwhelms you and instinctually you push. You squeeze Luke’s hands as you do, eyes squeezed shut and teeth clenched. Julie is cheering you on then tells you to stop to breathe.

You do this about three more times and then with your final push, through tear filled eyes, you see your baby swoop out in front of you and then she’s on your chest. She’s warm and heavy and here. You feel her skin, her tiny little fingers on your chest and she becomes blurry because the tears are ever flowing.

A cold stethoscope is on your chest while another nurse is putting blankets on your baby but she’s not crying as you put your hand on her back.

“Is she okay? What’s wrong?” you ask becoming frantic.

“She’s perfect, we just have to sit her up for a minute,” Julie says calmly. She lifts your baby up into an almost sitting position, “raise your legs, yep just like that.”

Your baby is resting against your thighs and then lets out a shrill cry, her tiny face contorts as she gasps for breath. Her arms searching for warmth, searching for you.

“There she is, see, she just needed to sit up a little,” Julie smiles settling her back onto your chest.

“Hi baby girl,” you coo cuddling her close. You kiss her wet head then see Luke’s shaking hand reach forward to cradle her head.

“She’s perfect,” he breathes. “Look at her, isn’t she wonderful?”

 8:30 p.m December 22

 After 20 hours of labor, you finally meet your baby girl at 6:18 p.m and both of you were fast asleep. Luke is too wired to try and sleep and he can’t stop looking at your daughter. You decided on the name Clara and it was up to Luke to choose her middle name.

Your birthing room is cast in shadows, fake candles caused a warm orange glow to fall over you and Clara. Luke was happy you were both fast asleep, it was a big day for the both of you and he is glad to have this time to himself. He can’t stop looking at Clara swaddled so tenderly in her blanket, her little lips moving in her sleep.

Outside the hall through the cracked door, there’s carolers singing in the main lobby. Their voices are doing a pretty acapella version of Silent Night. Clara sleeps soundly to the soft voices that Luke joins in on as well. At the sound of his voice, Clara smiles in her sleep and his heart skips a beat. No one would probably believe him, but didn’t you say it’s a reflex for babies to smile when they hear a familiar voice?

The carolers finish the song, the atmosphere full of peace and warmth. They began to sing Carol of the Bells and Luke decided on her middle name.

Clara Belle was your perfect Christmas gift.

[savoies]

50 questions.

i was tagged by @cartrshart. thank you ash, ive been wanting to do this one. (:

1) what is the color of your hairbrush? - one is purple and one is white+pink. 2) name a food you never eat? -cow head or tongue. its popular in Mexican culture but its not for me.

3) are you typically too warm or too cold?

- my body is super warm always like always that my family cant even place their hand on my shoulder when its hot outside.

4) what were you doing 45 minutes ago?

- i was working on cast my mutuals on my main account. 5) what’s your favorite candy bar? kit kat. 6) have you ever been to a professional sports game? yes! i used to go to a lot as a kid cause my uncle used to get tickets. i went to many angels games, an indoor football game, and when i was seven i went to my first hockey game. but recently i went to a devils and leafs game(both against the ducks) in march. the devils game was the first game i went to after i started liking the nhl. 7) what is the last thing you said out loud? - ¨ merrimack keeps sending me emails even though they dont have my major.¨ telling my mom after reading my school emails. 8) what is your favorite ice cream? either cookies & cream or cookie dough. (wow ash exactly the same oop) 9) what was the last thing you had to drink? water. (: 10) do you like your wallet?

- yeah i have been wanting a smaller wallet for a while and i finally got it a while back.

11) what is the last thing you ate? Neapolitan ice cream. 12) did you buy any new clothes last weekend? actually i did! i bought a waterproof jacket, a Hawaiian shirt, a half zipper sweater, and a t-shirt. (: yard sale things oop. 13) what’s the last sporting event you watched? i believe it was game 2 with my mom. 14)what is your favorite flavor of popcorn? movie theater popcorn with movie theater butter jsjs. 15) who is the last person you sent a text message to? i rarely text anyone outside of tumblr. rori. @andreisvechnigod love you <3 

16) ever go camping? yes! we have an annual camping trip that we’ve gone on for about for more than five years.but it got canceled this year. :( 17) do you take vitamins? nope. 18) do you regularly attend a place of worship? yes ma’am. i grew up religious and then like i hated my church(cause the people were like hypocrites oop) but then my parents took us to another church and i like it there a lot. a lot of cute guys lol. the vibe is great. every sunday (: 19) do you have a tan? does a bad tan line count? 20) do you prefer Chinese or pizza? depends but usually Chinese.  21) do you drink your soda through a straw? if its from restaurants then yes but if its straight outta the can then no. 22) what color socks do you usually wear? black with a colored line and colored letters of the brand at the bottom. 23) do you ever drive above the speed limit? cant drive ahaha. 24) what terrifies you? all of the above, heights, bugs, public speaking, etc. 25) look to your left, what do you see? fan. 26) what chore do you hate most? deep cleaning the whole house. 27) what do you think of when you hear an Australian accent? g’day mate 28) what’s your favorite soda? dr. pepper 29) do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? drive thru all the way, my social anxiety cant handle going in. 30) what’s your favorite number? 11 cause of my birthday or 21. 31) last person you talked to?

my mom.

32) favorite cut of beef? idk? ahaha. 33)last song you listened to? driving to Hawaii by summer salt but im currently listening to she looks so perfect by 5sos. 34) last book you read? for school outliers but on my own a crime book and the last song by Nicholas sparks. 35) favorite day of the week?  Saturday. 36) can you say the alphabet backwards? no. 37)how do you like your coffee? more creamer than coffee, i know. :\ 38) favorite pair of shoes? my velcro vanz probs or the basic old school vanz or dark blue converse. 39) time you normally get up? 5:30am if i go on a hike if not 7:45 for school. weekends it depends anywhere from 10am to 2pm oop. sundays at 8 if i go to church. 40)what do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets? sunsets but if you have the chance to see a sunrise they're pretty cool too. 41)how many blankets on your bed? 2 small throws. 42) describe your kitchen plates? black and the bigger ones are jade blue with a black border. 43) describe your kitchen at the moment? tidy messy oop. 44) do you have a favorite alcoholic drink? im a minor. (margaritas are chill though) non alcoholic of course. 45) do you play cards? we play different card games with my family sometimes. 46) what color is your car? dont have one. cant drive but both of my parents are a type of gray and id like a black one probs. 47) can you change a tire? with assistance maybe? my dad has shown us the basics once when we broke down in the freeway at 9pm.  48) your favorite state? i live in CA and its really all i know but i love utah and i really want to see Colorado and the east coast. 49) favorite job you’ve had? due to a personal reason i cant have a job rn. so none since ive never had one lol. 50) this one is long so ill understand if you skip it lol. @hartsyhart @seggy-seggs @andreisvechnigod @kncny @farabees @leeqianxiao @jmaybanks(also sorry if youve done it already.)

[goldenxsunshine]

50 questions you’ve never been asked

I was tagged by the lovely @softboylwt​, thank you darling ✨

1. what is the colour of your hairbrush? edit: so I realized I didn’t read that correctly the first time around, but I don’t usually brush my hair, tho I do have one that’s brown

2. a food you never eat? it’s not really a food but i never eat plain butter, like in cakes and all that, when it’s cooked, alright, but on bread, in sandwiches or anything else it just grosses me out to no avail!! I can’t even touch it!! Also any sea food is a no-go for me, i just can’t!!

3. are you typically too warm or too cold? i think it can depend, but in general i tend to get cold very easily

4. what were you doing 45 minutes ago? i was catching up on niall and liam’s live and feeling very emotional about it

5. what is your favourite candy bar? here we call it kinder tranche au lait, which literally translates to kinder milky slice but idk if that’s what it’s called!! Anyways, it’s the kinder that you have to keep in the fridge with the creamy white thing in the middle, i just love it!!

6. have you ever been to a professional sports event? Nope never, i don’t really care much for any sports tbh afdhkj

7. what is the last thing you said out loud? “good night” to my little sister about five seconds ago

8. what is your favourite ice cream? salted caramel!!!!!! it’s my LIFE

9. what was the last thing you had to drink? water

10. do you like your wallet? I do actually!! I had another pink one that was too big but i received a small dark blue one for my birthday that’s just perfect

11. what was the last thing you ate? something very very VERY good!! it was a polish recipe: tomato soup with some homemade kluski (some sort of pasta i guess you could say) and basil

12. did you buy any new clothes last weekend? nope

13. the last sporting event you watched? as i said before i really don’t care much for any sports so i think the answer is none, if i did watch one well it was so long ago that i forgot afskdly

14. what is your favourite flavour of popcorn? sweet popcorn OR those with some chocolate you can buy, both are equally good

15. who is the last person you sent a text message to? well technically the last message i sent was on here to, but if we mean irl texting then an old friend of mine

16. ever go camping? nope not really, i went a couple times when i was younger with some friends but not anymore

17. do you take vitamins? nooe i don’t, but i should

18. do you go to church every sunday? nope

19. do you have a tan? as of right now, only the beginning of one on my back

20. do you prefer Chinese food or pizza? oof tough one, but im gonna have to go with pizza!! I actually had some today

21. do you drink your soda with a straw? nope not anymore

22. what colour socks do you usually wear? small white ones, sometimes black

23. do you ever drive above the speed limit? wellll since i still haven’t got my driver’s licence i can assure you that i’ve never once driven above the speed limit in my life 😌

24. what terrifies you? loneliness

25. look to your left, what do you see? i can see my bedroom door as well as my cupboard and the front door a bit further

26. what chore do you hate? washing the toilets

27. what do you think of when you hear an Australian accent?  i have no idea tbh ajdsfkds 5sos maybe

28. what’s your favourite soda? i actually don’t really drink any sodas, but if i had to get one i’d say sprite or lemon iced tea

29. do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive-thru? i don’t think we have any drive-through here, or if there are i’ve never been, so i’m gonna say fast food place

30. who’s the last person you talked to? my little sister

31. favourite cut of beef? i have no fucking clue, i only eat beef when i eat burgers so that one i guess jsdkajl

32. last song you listened to? some song off a random sport playlist i listend to when i was working out earlier, it’s called hometown apparently

33. last book you read? if we’re talking last book i read through but haven’t actually finished yet, it’s une bête au paradis (a beast in paradise)

34. favourite day of the week? i don’t really have one tbh, i just know it’s not monday nor sunday

35. can you say the alphabet backwards? yes i can actually ajkdjfld, well i need to say it thorugh once in order (mentally is enough) but yeah i can

36. how do you like your coffee? i absolutely despise coffee, in any form

37. favourite pair of shoes? a pair of shoes that i found in italy a few years ago, but i just can’t describe them asjdhfk they have too many things idk how to say in english

38. at what time do you normally go to bed? i’d say usually it’s around 11pm or midnight, but lately it’s been more like 1 or 2 am

39. at what time do you normally get up? again usually would depend on my classes, but lately it’s between 8 am and 10 am

40. what do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets? i literally cannot choose one!! boht can be so magical, but maybe i’ll go with sunset cause i’m almost never up for sunrise ajdfkjl

41. how many blankets are on your bed? only one

42. describe your kitchen plates? i still live wiht my parents so they’re just plain white, but modern-ish 

43. do you have a favourite alcoholic beverage? i don’t really have one, but the only alcohol i can enjoy drinking is vodka so anything with that i guess

44. do you play cards? ugh way too much, or well not anymore, but when i was in high school it was literally all my friends’ favourite thing to do and tbh i just don’t really like them

45. what colour is your car? again i don’t have a driving’s licence adjfhk

46. can you change a tire? there are too many questions concerning driving in this jadshkj, nope or well never tried, who knows maybe i have a secret talent

47. what is your favourite state/province? i haven’t been in the US, or well i went when i was much younger so i don’t remember!! But i’ll pick a country and say tulum, Mexico!! i went there once a few years ago and it was just magical

48. favourite job you’ve ever had? i haven’t had a lot of experience in real jobs i guess, but one of my favourite closest to a job thing was the internship i started right before this whole mess in something called psychopédagogie (i haven’t got a clue what it might be in english im sorry)

49. how did you get your biggest scar? i don’t have many scars and the few i have are pretty small, but i guess the “biggest” would be on my foot, i was at a friend’s for the summer and we were going around in quads, then there was a little slope and my dumbass panicked and pushed the accelerator instead of the brake and well....we bumped into a littel tree and yeah adfjhkjs

50. what did you do today that made someone else happy? i haven’t done much today i don’t think, but maybe helping to make dinner ? idk

I apologize in advance if you’ve already done this, but i’m tagging: @essercipertuttienonperse, @rosegoldeyelids, @ltpolari, @watermelonsugarhii, @bigsparrowharry, @herefortommo, @arouiis, @farmjpg and @strawberryhabit

[gryewaren]

i was tagged in a couple of games this past week so i’m just gonna make one post answering them all because they’re fun and i have the time so here we go

rules: answer the questions and tag blogs you would like to get to know better tagging: (you can choose what game u wanna do or something lol or ignore if u want but i wanna know u all a bit better <3) @pcnsypcrknsn @polaroids @gansaey @twinminyards @henriettablues @adamparrishes @aridantes @ccress @dirkqently @mavenbarrow @donnattartt @perspective

tagged by: kahlia @monstrouss  ♥ 

nickname/s: kim

gender: female

star sign: cancer 

height:  5′2″ fuc

time: 1:37 pm, i don’t have classes rn which is a fucking miracle

birthday: july 21

favorite bands: mayday parade, pierce the veil, 5sos (yES), fall out boy

favorite solo artists: ed sheeran, sam smith, selena gomez, kaleo, niall horan, james arthur, lauv, lorde

song stuck in my head: laro by autotellic

last movie i watched: in the cinema? thor: ragnarok (11/10 recommend)

last show i watched: black butler, it’s an anime

when did i create my blog: created this one december last year

what do i post: lit, some films, and just anything i find pretty 

last thing i googled: "how to get rid of ‘index’ in photoshop”

do i have any other blogs: nah

do i get asks: what are thoooose

why i chose my url: bc i’m ronan’s bitch

following: 400-something

followers: 1,6k-something

average hours of sleep: 4??? 5???? most of the times i get around 3 hours of sleep bc the universe thinks i dont deserve rest

lucky number: seven

instruments: none

what am i wearing: a shirt and boxer shorts

dream job: a surgeon

dream trip: greece

favourite food: shanghai rolls???? hAHAHA

nationality: filipino

favorite song right now: midnight train by sam smith

tagged by: nicole @nhmesis  ♥ — Relationship Status: ???? — Favourite Colour: soft colors like rose gold, beige/nude, white — Lipstick or Chapstick: lipstick??? — Last Song I Listened To: queen by atronach’s aura — Last Movie I Watched: thor:ragnarok — Top 3 TV Shows: friends / big bang theory / yuri on ice (bc why not) — Top 3 Bands/Artists: mayday parade / ed sheeran / 5sos — Books I’m Currently Reading: the goldfinch

tagged by: shanaz @aphrocilles  ♥

name: karen nickname: kim height: 5′2 birthday: july 21 fave color: beige, white, rose gold 10 most played songs: wolves by selena gomez / the thrill of it all by sam smith / get you by daniel caesar / lie by NF / stranger things by kygo / nightmares by all time low / beside you by marianas trench / drunk by zayn malik / sleep tonight by december avenue / three cheers for five years by mayday parade 7 favorite movies: kill your darlings / the great gatsby / salt  / inception / call me by your name (even tho i still havent seen it) / the curious case of benjamin button / the hangover 1,2, and 3 6 favorites tv shows: im not a big fan of tv shows omg sorry 4 celebrity crushes: selena gomez / angelina jolie / tom cruise / timothee chalamet 1 thing that defines you: is it bad that i can’t think of anything

tagged by: ana @kerahs  ♥

nicknames: kim gender: female sign: cancer height: 5′2 time: 10:56 am birthday: july 21st favorite bands: mayday parade, ptv, fob, 5sos favorite solo artists: ed sheeran, niall horan, sam smith song stuck in my head: HIM by sam smith last movie i watched: thor:ragnarok last show i watched: black butler when did i create this blog: december 31 2016  what do i post: mostly the raven cycle, all for the game, and six of crows. some ya lit edits and the occasional aes posts what did i last google: latin translation (bc of that maggie reply on one on the posts of her tweet) other blogs: deleted them all lol but i used to own vxalentino and hemmosbitch do i get asks: i wish following: 380 followers: 1,669 babes  ♥ average hours of sleep: 3-4 hours??? on school nights lucky number: 7 instruments: zero what am i wearing: fuck im still in my pajamas favorite food: uhm???? last book i read: the goldfinch (but i havent finished it yet, that still counts right?) 3 favorite fandoms: trc, aftg, and yoi

tagged by: victoria @neiljostnss  ♥ 2ND RULE: bold the statements that are true

APPEARANCE: I am 5'7" or taller I wear glasses I have at least one tattoo I have at least one piercing I have blonde hair I have brown eyes I have short(ish) hair My abs are at least somewhat defined I have or have had braces PERSONALITY: I love meeting new people People tell me that I’m funny Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me I enjoy physical challenges I enjoy mental challenges I’m playfully rude with people I know well I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it   There is something much I would change about my personality ABILITY: I can sing well I can play an instrument I can do over 30 pushups without stopping I’m a fast runner I can draw well I have a good memory I’m good at doing math in my head I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch I know how to throw a proper punch HOBBIES: I enjoy playing sports (i used to, sigh) I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else I have learned a new song in the past week I work out at least once a week I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months I have drawn something in the past month I enjoy writing I do or have done martial arts EXPERIENCES: I have had my first kiss I have had alcohol I have scored the winning goal in a sports game I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting I have been at an overnight event I have been in a taxi I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year I have beaten a video game in one day I have visited another country I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts RELATIONSHIPS: I have a crush on a celebrity I have a crush on someone I know I have been in at least 3 relationships I have never been in a relationship I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them I get crushes easily I have had a crush on someone for over a year I have been in a relationship for at least a year I have had feelings for a friend MY LIFE: I have at least one person I consider a “best friend” I live close to my school My parents are still together I have at least one sibling I live in the United States There is snow right now where I live I have hung out with a friend in the past month I have a smartphone I have at least 15 CDs I share my room with someone RANDOM SHIT: I have breakdanced I know a person named Jamie I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce I have dyed my hair I’m listening to one song on repeat right now I have punched someone in the past week I know someone who has gone to jail I have broken a bone I have eaten a waffle today I know what I want to do with my life I speak at least 2 languages I have made a new friend in the past year

[fystarlust]

1-100 ❤

1. What’s your middle name, and do you like it?Rachel, its okay HAHA2. are you artistic?depends what kind cos i cant draw for shit but i can do makeup??3. Have you had your first kiss?yes4. What is your life goal?be happy5. Do you have any experiences with a famous person?i mean ive seen 5sos 1d and mcbusted in person if that counts6. Do you play any sports?horse riding, i want to play more though i actually really like sports7. What’s your worst fear?demons8. Who’s your biggest inspiration?jacksepticeye9. Do you have any cool talents?my makeup looks great sometimes10. are you a morning person?yes11. How do you feel about pet names?theyre cute to a point, im not about that 'cupcake sprinkle sugar bean' life12. Do you like to read?if the book is good yes13. Name a list of shows that have changed your life.none have changed my life thats a bit far14. Do you care about your follower count?i used to but not anymore15. What’s the best dream you’ve had?i recently dreamt my gf was back home again16. Have you ever kissed someone of your same gender?yes17. Do you have any pets?yes, 3 dogs, 4 cats, 1 horse and soon to be 1 hamster18. Are you religious?no lol19. Are you a people person?noooo20. Are you considered popular?considered by who HAHAH bc my gf thinks im pretty cool 💁🏼21. What is one of your bad habits?biting my nails22. What’s something that makes you feel vulnerable?during and after ive had a mental breakdown23. What would you name your children?Lily, Ava24. Who’s your celebrity crush?taeeeee25. What’s your best subject?nothing academic rip26. Dogs or cats?dogs27. most used social media besides tumblr?youtube28. best friends name?ellie29. who does your main family consist of?idk what main family consists of but i see all my family a lot so my mum, brother, dad, grandparents, aunty, uncle, cousins30. Chocolate or sugar?both31. have you ever been on a date?yes32. Do you like roller coasters?some types of them33. Can you swim?ye boi34. What would you do in the event of an apocalypse?i would be a badass mf and protect my loved ones and animals35. Have you struggled with any kind of mental disorder?yes, am currently struggling with a few and likely always will be36. Are your parents together?no37. What’s your favorite color?baby blue38. What country are you from/do you live in?England to both39. Favorite singer?bts40. Do you see yourself being famous some day?nope41. Do you like dresses?yes but i need to work on my confidence when wearing them42. Favorite song right now?deeessspaaacito43. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?yes, very44. How old were you when you first got your period?1245. Have you ever shot a gun?nope46. Have you ever done yoga?yes47. Are you a horror girl?if this means horror film then yes48. Are you good at giving advice?kind of? with some things im not though49. Tell us a story about your childhood.near my house me and my friends had this den that was like a cave in the ground and it was sooo cool we spent hours in there everyday and its still there50. How are you doing today?im okay51. Were you a cute kid?not to be up my own ass but yes52. Can you dance?secretly yes53. Is there anything you do that you can’t remember ever not doing?looking after animals54. Have you ever dyed your hair?nope too scared55. What color are your eyes?blue56. What’s your favorite animal?ooooo i cant pick one i have so many57. Have you ever made a huge fool of yourself?lots of times, ellie n jess know this best58. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?its complicated but kind of59. Do you have good friends?wonderful ones60. Are you close with anyone of the lgbtq+ group?yes61. What’s your favorite class?in college it was Zoo Management62. List all the tv shows you are watching.RuPauls Drag Race, The Walking Dead, Your Lie in April63. Are you organized?yes64. What was the last movie you saw? Opinion?i cant remember65. Which tv character do you relate to most?not a tv character but Ryan from BuzzFeed Unsolved is literally me as an asian male68. What are some things that stand between you and complete happiness?my hell brain69. If you received enough money to never need to work again, what would you spend your time doing?travelling with my gf70. What would you change about your life if you knew you would never die?god idk71. What would you do differently if you knew that no one was judging you?iDk72. If you could start over, what would you do differently?i dont like these deep questions73. Would you break the law to save a loved one?yes74. When was the last time you traveled somewhere new?the other week when i went to Wadswick 75. When you think of your home, what immediately comes to mind?my dogs76. What have you done to pursue your dreams lately? How about today?i applied for a hnc77. What did you want to be when you were a kid?a vet78. If you dropped everything to pursue your dreams, what would you be risking?everything?? i dont knOW79. When did you not speak up, when you know you really should have?when i was being bullied, shouldve beat that bitch into the dirt80. Describe the next five years of your life, and your plans, in a single sentence.travel and be happy and be with jess and around animals81. What would happen if you never wasted another minute of your life, what would that look like?well id get a lot more done82. If you could live forever, how would you spend eternity?id spend it with jess then when she died id kill myself HAHAHAH that sounds so dark83. How would you spend a billion dollars?travelling, on a house, animals84. If you could time travel, would you go to the past or the future?the past, i dont wanna see the shithole of a future until i have to85. What motivates you to succeed?literally nothing86. What dream that you’ve had has resonated with you the most?a lot of them cos theyre v realistic, i dont like it87. Would you rather live in the city or the woods? Why?woods BUT not a creepy woods where id get killed, just a nice forest, and because i hate how busy cities are88. Do you believe in life after death?im not sure89. What teacher inspired you the most? How did they?none they can all suck my ass90. What’s your fondest childhood memory?the one about the cave den91. If you could have dinner with any one person, living or dead, who would they be and why?jacksepticeye bc i luv him sm92. What would you have to see to cry tears of joy?when people come home from fighting abroad to their kids or dogs93. What is the hardest lesson you had to learn in life?idk how to sum it up94. What do you think happens after we die?i have no idea95. What would you do if you would be invisible?pretend to be a ghost and scare people96. What’s something you can’t do no matter how hard you try?DRAW97. Would you want to choose the sex and appearance of your offspring?no i like surprises98. How did your first crush develop?i cant remember99. Is there a feeling you are trying to ignore? What is it?yes always lmao, paranoia, anxiety, worry100. Do you live or do you just exist?so deep oooOoOoooO i dont care

[infinityasph]

tag game time.

rules: answer 21 questions and then tag 21 people who you want to get to know better. tagged by @temmie-loony

nicknames: hayded, heydad, the clarinet boi

zodiac: taurus ( may fourth y’all )

height: 5′7″ ( ~170 cm for my metrically inclined peeps! )

last movie i saw: bird box like a week ago

last thing i googled: andreil

favorite musician: p!atd, why don’t we, one direction, shawn mendes, troye sivan, ( old ) taylor swift, five seconds of summer, hailee steinfeld, linkin park

song stuck in my head: meant to be yours from the heathers soundtrack

other blogs: just a bunch of rp ones lmao. hmu if you really want them.

do i get asks: occasionally, but not very often

following: none, this is a sideblog

amount of sleep: depends on the day--ranges from none to a full twelve hours

lucky number:  √-2 ( there’s a story behind that )

what i’m wearing: a scooby doo tshirt, pj pants that have a bunch of tiny foxes, and a red/blue flannel

dream job: principal bass clarinet in a major symphony

dream trip: going back to germany so i can finally have more than a backyard to remember

favorite food: idk really, it fluctuates often. probably pizza with pepperoni and black olives or a good ol’ fruit salad

play any instruments: CLASSICALLY TRAINED CLARINETIST OVER HERE, also i’ve doumbek since my birth. i can kinda squeak out a note or two on the violin but the day i play it for real is the day i die.

languages: english, a smidge of french, & like two words of german

favorite songs: choose ( why don’t we ), treat you better ( shawn mendes ), savages ( mariana & the diamonds ), all the way ( jacksepticeye remix ), she’s kinda hot ( 5sos ), 

random fact: i’m currently rereading the all for the game trilogy, so expect a few aftg posts to be queued.

describe yourself as aesthetic things: graphic tees, brown eyes, soft pastel teal hair, stacks of comic books, bunches of magic cards, sheet music laid out across the floor, fluffy cat paws, old spiderman comics, a nikon camera, a marching band plume, dragon posters, a laptop covered in stickers, fluffy blankets, fidget cubes

tagging: bih, you act like i know 21 people. anyone feel free to do this--i tag this whole fucking hellsite.

[silkyandsurveys]

identity ask

1.if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?

I’m not sure I’ve never found something that really defines me in that sort of way

2.have you ever found a writer who thinks just like you? if so, who?

No, definitely not a reader

3.list your fandoms and one character from each that you identify with.

I’ve never been in a fandom for a book. But I love glee, definitely not in the fandom though. But I’d say the character I most identify with from glee is Tina or Quinn which is odd because they were some of my least favorites and they’re polar opposites

4.do you like your name? is there another name you think would fit you better?

I used to hate my name because I thought it was not super pretty and it’s very generic but I actually do think my middle name, grace, fits me much better than Emma

5.do you think of yourself as a human being or a human doing? do you identify yourself by the things you do?

If someone asked me to describe myself I’d definitely give qualities rather than the things I do so whatever that means. But I do take the things I do into a large account

6.are you religious/spiritual?

Definitely not. I’m someone who’s experienced so much that I don’t understand how god can be so good yet place so much bad in the world. But I’m not a nonbeliever

7.do you care about your ethnicity?

No there’s nothing special about it

8.what musical artists have you most felt connected to over your lifetime?

I loved loved 5sos for a couple years and I really felt like some songs they sang were almost like they were made just for me they fit me so well

9.are you an artist?

No, I’m not very creative but when I often spark a really good idea. Much more of a leader than a creator

10.do you have a creed?

If you’re stating it in a Christian way no. But I definitely have my morals and my beliefs towards myself

11.describe your ideal day.

I have an amazing sleep. It’s Christmas time. I wake up and it’s snowing. I also wake up by myself, no alarms. Then I go on my phone and (maybe possibly see a text from a cute guy)......(the cute guy). Then dunkin (of course) then I spend some time with grace. Drive around. Idk just have fun. Then get tired and go to bed at a normal good time.

12.dog person or cat person?

Dog person. Probably only because I’ve never had a cat and no one in my family does

13.inside or outdoors?

Outdoors!!!! I love being outside

14. Are you a musician?

No, but it’s something I wish I was talented at so bad

15.five most influential books over your lifetime.

Elenor and park. Hunger games. The fault in our stars. Then idk after that I don’t read that much

16.if you’d grown up in a different environment, do you think you’d have turned out the same?

No way. I think principley yes. But I live in the smallest town with barely any people and it’s very conservative and rural. Growing up in the opposite of that would change everything

17. Would you say your tumblr is a fair representation of the “real you”?

Hell no lol it’s a survey and a fan account

18.what’s your patronus?

Uhm I just looked it up did it and it’s a ....st Bernard? Like idk what the means but alright

19.which Harry Potter house would you be in? or are you a muggle?

Gryffindor swag

20.would you rather be in Middle Earth, Narnia, Hogwarts, or somewhere else?

I guess hogwarts cause then I can make magic

21.do you love easily?

I wouldn’t say love but I’d say I lust easily

22.list the top five things you spend the most time doing, in order.

School

Phone

Talking to friends

Laying in bed

Sleeping

23.how often would you want to see your family every year?

I love seeing family so like every 2 weeks is a long time

24. have you ever felt like you had a “mind-meld” with someone?

YES!! My best friend and I are like the same on another level

25.could you live as a hermit?

No I like talking too much

26.how would you describe your gender/sexuality?

Normal

27. do you feel like your outside appearance is a fair representation of the “real you”?

Eh yes and no

28. on a scale from 1 to 10, how hard is it for someone to get under your skin?

A fat 8 id say probably

29. three songs that you connect with right now.

Thank u,next

Think before I talk

Yernin

30.pick one of your favorite quotes

Everything will be alright in the end. If it’s not ok then it’s not the end

[deadcactuswalking]

REVIEWING THE CHARTS: 10th June 2018 (Kanye West Edition)

There are a lot, and I mean, a LOT of new arrivals this week – seven, in fact – so I apologise for the long read ahead. I will try and keep it brief.

Top 10

No, our number-one has not changed. It is still “One Kiss” by Calvin Harris and Dua Lipa, keeping steady at its eighth week, whilst barely getting into the top 40 in the States? That’s odd.

Talking about artists without much US success, we have Jess Glynne up three spaces to number-two with the borderline-yodelling track “I’ll be There”.

“2002” by Anne-Marie is a non-mover at number-three, for some ungodly reason.

Sadly, “Nice for What” by Drake is down two spaces to number-four, but there’s no doubt that he’ll rebound once the album comes.

Also dropping (a single space, this time) is “No Tears Left to Cry” by Ariana Grande, now at number-five. I don’t think this will last long enough to get a number-one once the album drops, but we’ll see once that time comes.

The beautifully strange “Solo” by Clean Bandit featuring Demi Lovato is now up four spots to number-six.

“Better Now” by Post Malone is up two spots to number-seven... somehow.

I assume George Ezra’s pushing a new single, as at number-eight, up 12 spaces from last week, is “Shotgun”, from his newest album.

That sadly pushes down “Flames” by David Guetta and Sia by a spot, now at number-nine.

And, to round off the top 10, we have the highest-charting Kanye West debut of the three that UK chart regulations allow, with “Yikes” from the album ye. This won’t last in the top 20 but it’s good to see it here regardless.

Climbers

While there are seemingly thousands of new arrivals, the gains are pretty slow. Other than “Shotgun”, we have a 15-space jump for “Leave a Light On” by Tom Walker, now at #16. Thanks, advert?

Fallers

The fallers, however, are definitely a bit of a different story. We have six-position tanks for “Paradise” by George Ezra to #12, “Love Lies” by Khalid and Normani to #20 and “Never Enough” by Loren Allred to #38, as well as seven-space falls for “Bad Vibe” by M.O., Mr. Eazi and Lotto Boyzz to #25 and “First Time” by M-22 featuring Medina to #31 and 10-spot leaps of faith for “This is America” by Childish Gambino featuring Young Thug to #27, “These Days” by Rudimental featuring Jess Glynne, Dan Caplen and Macklemore to #35, and “Praise the Lord (Da Shine)” by A$AP Rocky featuring Skepta down to #39. There are a few miscellaneous songs that took hits too, like “In My Blood” by Shawn Mendes down nine spots to #21 and “This is Me” by Keala Settle and The Greatest Showman Ensemble down five spaces to #26, but the real stories here are the losses for two songs: “Freaky Friday” by Lil Dicky featuring Chris Brown and “Answerphone” by Banx & Ranx and Ella Eyre featuring Yxng Bane, taking 13- and 26-space punches to the gut respectively, now consecutively laying at #32 and #33. I’m happy that Lil Dicky has collapsed, but it’s a shame about “Answerphone” – that song was growing on me by the second.

Dropouts and Returning Entries

That last section was the longest it’s ever been so far – it was an absolute massacre, and the same could probably be said for the drop outs, where Drake has some pre-album losses, including “God’s Plan” from #35, “I’m Upset” from #37 and his feature on BlocBoy JB’s “Look Alive” from #40. We also have “Vroom” by Yxng Bane out from #34, “Friends” by Marshmello and Anne-Marie out from #30, as well as “Like I Do” by David Guetta, Martin Garrix and Brooks from #38. Nothing particularly sad here, especially since Drake will rebound, but I hope “Friends” comes back – that was a decent track.

As for returning entries, well, there’s none at all – thank God, there’s a lot of new arrivals to deal with anyway.

NEW ARRIVALS

#37 – “Youngblood” – 5 Seconds of Summer

So, this is surprisingly the second single from 5SOS I’ve reviewed on this channel, and once again, I have no real opinion on it. We have some weak fake-snaps and an ugly synth-noise of a sub-bass in the first (and second) verse, where members of the boy band sing pretty boringly – they’re in tune, but their performances aren’t any interesting... but then the chorus comes in, where the bassline gets more prominent and we get some simple but absolutely killer pounding drumming, as well as some more of a guitar presence, setting up a clean slate for the subtle EDM-influenced synths and (someone who I’m pretty sure is named) Luke to sing pretty powerfully over the hook, with both a catchy chorus and bridge, that seems so out of place compared to the rest of the song, both in terms of mood and quality. Overall, despite a funky hook and the final chorus being pretty great, this clumsy amalgamation of pop, rock, funk, dance and whatever the hell doesn’t work for me, especially in the verses.

#28 – “Girls Like You” – Maroon 5 featuring Cardi B

The only real reason this debuted in the top 40 is because of its star-studded video, featuring female stars from Sarah Silverman, Ellen DeGeneres, Camila Cabello and more, as well as the fact that Cardi’s a pretty cheat-code feature on any pop song right now in terms of traction-garnering. It should be noted that this is actually a remix of a song that originally featured on their album, Red Pill Blues, from last year.

Okay, I’m going to come clean: I love Maroon 5. They know how to write a hook, a funky bassline and a catchy riff or two, hence most of their hits really work for me, especially when the production is polished and Adam doesn’t go into too unbearable territory with his falsetto. They have a unique poppy charm that always keeps me coming back after they release something new, even if it is lazy trend-hopping. How does this fare? Well, it starts with some pretty all-over-the-place acoustic guitar strumming, before it is drowned out by the synths and the finger-snaps, yet Adam really rides on the minimalistic beat in the verse and the hook, with a sweet melody that translates well when the bass drops and we get a simple trap-pop song that uses its instrumental (or lack thereof) to an advantage of making quite a relaxed song, perfect for Adam’s lower register but not perfect at all for Cardi, known for more hype trap-rap tracks... so how is she? Well, after the Blank Banshee-esque Vocaloid drop in the bridge and Adam’s pretty great middle-eight, she kills it. Yeah, of course, she does, do you expect her to not destroy whatever she touches? Man, I’m pretty sure that this is right up my alley and succeeds by catering to my every need. In fact, this is borderline pandering to my specific desires in good pop music. This is great but, I mean, it’s a Maroon 5 song featuring Cardi B, so of course, it is.

#24 – “Butterflies” – AJ Tracey featuring Not3s

Oh, we back to the watered-down dancehall trash we get every week? I mean, okay? AJ Tracey has an okay flow but really, he’s not doing anything different than any other “grime” MC right now, other than saying that the woman’s anatomy is both like a pumpkin and the English channel. Okay, AJ, maybe she won’t “spread it” for you if you say that again. The chorus seems pretty directionless as well, it’s half about the girl but also goes into random tangents about how he’s so “fly”. Not3s is much better, though, for no particular reason other than the production on his verse has some distorted blaring synths that contrast his smooth, low-key vocals pretty damn well. Otherwise, I mean, it’s autotuned tropical-rap stuff we get every single week on this show, and to say I’m sick of it is a damn understatement. Gladly, the next four songs get rid of every British pop music cliché by throwing them out the freaking window, and hopefully, being of quality... right?

#22 – “Give Yourself a Try” – The 1975

...Wrong. Very wrong. First of all, I’m pretty sure this song is about getting woker as you age. I don’t know, something about the pretentious, borderline-nonsensical verses here just give off that vibe – talking about vibes, the singer here also mentions how getting STDs at 27 really is NOT the vibe, and throws in a few “big words” in there that I’m sure the singer is very impressed with and thinks he’s very intellectual for, when all the really do is interrupt the flow of the song. “The only apparatus required for happiness is your pain and f***ing going outside”. Okay, honey. He also says that he’s the millennial that baby-boomers like... okay, Matthew Healy, what are you trying to prove here? All he does in this song is complain and complain about the young ‘uns as a very old fellow aged... 29? Wait, hold on, are you sure this song isn’t called r/lewronggeneration? It sure feels like it’s ripped straight from a post that ends up on there. Ooh, but the song? Yeah, it’s okay instrumentally. It’s got a decent noisy appeal, with the screeching guitar and lo-fi aesthetic, but that really doesn’t work with Healy’s neatly-produced (albeit rather nasal) vocals here that remind me of a pop-punk singer who stopped trying midway through. By the three minutes the song goes on, the constant guitar loop gets tiring, exhausting and somewhat infuriating, as it never changes a single bit for the most part, even when you have some more hard-hitting drums and some clicking from a seemingly unknown source. Really, the lyrics kind of ruin this one for me – it could have been decent, but, man, they really messed this one up in the vocal, lyrical and generally thematic department. Yikes.

#17 – “Ghost Town” – Kanye West featuring PARTYNEXTDOOR, Kid Cudi and 070 Shake

Finally, we get to talk about the three most popular tracks from Kanye’s latest album, ye, and what makes them either fantastic or hilarious. This is pretty magically both, featuring uncredited vocal contributions from Kanye’s long-time friend and fellow-ghost-sighting-child Kid Cudi and new GOOD Music signee 070 Shake, as well as a feature from OVO member PARTYNEXTDOOR, present despite the recent beef that Pusha T, Kanye’s protégé of sorts, and OVO manager, Drake, which I won’t get into right now, because nothing charted from it other than that trash “I’m Upset” song last week. If you want to know Kanye’s comments on the beef, they’re right there on the same album’s track “No Mistakes”. Right now, however, we’re focusing on this breathtakingly dazzling track, “Ghost Town”, the penultimate song on the 23-minute, seven-song record. We start with a short Shirley Ann Lee sample, where she soulfully sings as a prologue to PARTYNEXTDOOR’s greatly-sung intro verse, with some of Kanye’s most soulful production since The College Dropout, and an absolutely killer guitar that fits PARTYNEXTDOOR’s rapid-fire delivery surprisingly well, but as always, it fits Kid Cudi’s slow blues-influenced drawl even better, who handles the interpolated chorus right before Kanye sings (without autotune!) for his short verse, where he sounds just as good as he did on “Runaway”, if not better, with discussion of not only his bipolar disorder, but his public appearance and persona, the lethal drug Fentanyl, Ye’s controversial past, his opioid addiction, and Einstein’s theory of special relativity in only barely even eight bars, before Cudi comes in to croon desperately over a minimalistic, stripped-down version of the beat before 070 Shake’s outro, with some poetic lyricism and the best guest performance I’ve heard on a Ye track since Chance on The Life of Pablo or even Nicki Minaj on My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy – truly, it is the females who kill their features on Ye’s records, even if they are few and far between. The anthemic lines such as “I put my hand on the stove to see if I still bleed / and nothing hurts anymore, I feel kinda free” being sung beautifully over borderline sound collage-level instrumentation, with 8-bit noises, distorted guitar samples and the rattling percussion, are an emotional rollercoaster. This is a masterpiece, and the fact that its sequel on Kanye’s second album of 2017, KIDS SEE GHOSTS, might be even better, just shows how much of a genius Kanye can be with the right sample and the right feature... well...

#11 – “All Mine” – Kanye West featuring Ant Clemons and Ty Dolla $ign

...and also maybe Jeremih and Valee. The credits on this album are a mess.

This song is hilarious and uncomfortable. It starts with a cheap flute sound, before the booming trap percussion comes in for Ant Clemons’ hilarious catchy falsetto melody in the hook, where he says that the girl is “supermodel thick”, while forcing a rhyme (pretty impressively) for “medulla oblongata”, before he states how he wants the girl to rub on his lamp and get the genie out the bottle. Just lovely. Oh, yeah, Ty Dolla $ign has like half a verse here, and he’s basically a non-presence. I love the guy’s voice but he does nothing here of importance. The fact that it’s a skittering trap sex jam with pretty dull production makes Kanye sort of out of his element, as he flows clumsily, while he closes his first verse with mentioning how he loves his girl’s breasts because they let him focus on two things at once. Over distorted clips of (presumably) vocals or synths, he memes his own song by claiming that he’s going to hit it raw (“like f*** the outcome”) and that “none of us would be here without cum”. Beautiful, Kanye. Just beautiful.

#10 – “Yikes” – Kanye West

Okay, now, this is a banger. With the autotuned (but still incredibly catchy) hook being as fun to sing as it is menacing and kind of creepy, this song perfectly represents the bipolar disorder Kanye talks about throughout the album. There’s the female vocal sample in the otherwise upbeat trap beat, as well as a deep synth acting as a bass in the hook to make it feel even darker, to help Kanye spit his bars intensely, but these aren’t exactly fire punchlines as they are kind of sad. “Is he gon’ make it? TBD”, he asks, noting his uncertainty in how he’ll survive due to his addiction, and how he’s “tweaking” off all these lethal drugs, with news sites reporting that he lost his mind. When he feels high, he won’t come down, but due to his bipolar disorder, he can quickly snap, and in the second verse, he demonstrates primal activity and pretty funny over-the-top bragging, rapping that his hospital band is a hundred bands, and that he doesn’t need a watch, and that he can smoke with Wiz Khalifa in North Korea and tell Kim that he’s never seen her – yes, this is all over the place and I love it for that. It’s crazy... kind of like him. This proves that Kanye’s still got some hilarious lines up his belt, and as always, the outdated pop culture references that we know and love him for.

Conclusion

Jesus Christ, this was long. Anyway, Worst of the Week is going to “Give Yourself a Try” by The 1975, with Dishonourable Mention not being served this week (although it could easily go to “Butterflies”). No, instead, we have a tied Honourable Mention, which both Maroon 5 and Kanye West pick up, for “Girls Like You” featuring Cardi B and “Yikes”, respectively. The Best of the Week should be obvious – it’s going to Kanye, PARTYNEXTDOOR, 070 Shake and Kid Cudi for “Ghost Town”, one of the best songs I think has ever charted since I started this series. See you next time, where Kanye will probably be replaced with more Kanye.