#4 straight months of primary care without any breaks

[babygirlwolverine]

the best way to end my primary care rotation! my friend got me this pin to wear on my white coat because everyone nicknamed me the Coca Cola girl because I always had a bottle of coke and my coke phone case every day, and sometimes even a coke scrunchie on my wrist ❤️🥤🐻‍❄️

[hecalledmehanbana]

Have you ever met someone and you just clicked? Everything lined up, the sun shone, it seemed even the world was telling you, “Hey! Pay attention! This person is going to be important!”

I did. Just over a month ago. @melaxia is that person for me. We met through one of my best friends that I’ve known for more than 10 years. (Funnily enough, I had that same sort of moment with him, but it just meant important in a different way. He’s family to me and has been, for years. I call him Princess and so that’s what he’ll be referred to as if I’m ever talking about him.) Princess works with her, and as a cis white dude (who tries way too hard to prove he’s a manly man), he realized both of us are queer and was like, “Hey, I have 2 queer friends! Maybe my queer friends should meet!” He got her permission to give me her number, and then during another conversation with me, got my permission to give her my number. (Side Note: I struggle really hard with new situations, they give me hella anxiety, so when he asked if I wanted her number, I told him to just give her mine and have her text me.) The next day, I got a message from a number with the same area code as mine. (Because I never changed numbers after I moved out of my home town, and Princess never moved out of our home town.) This message kept it super simple with just a hey, and an introduction. So I responded in kind. And since then, we haven’t really stopped talking unless we are either asleep or working (and even then, sometimes we’ll talk while either of us are working). We figured out pretty quickly that he was trying to set us up. He talked me up to her, and he talked her up to me, and yet, we were dating for literal weeks before he knew. And honestly, I had to tell him, because I don’t like lying to the people that matter, and he really matters to me, so lying to him, even if it was my idea, made me anxious. So I told him, and pretty much all he had to say about it was that he was glad I’m happy.

And I really am. I have had pretty shitty relationships in the past. None have ever really lasted longer than a couple months because of one thing or another. In reality, I had just gotten bored in the relationship and things stagnated and the things they’d been doing the entire time (complaining about something and not doing anything to fix it, not being confident about who they are, not being up front about things, etc.) really started to get to me and I ended up breaking up with all of them. My girlfriend and I were talking about this last night, and she jokingly asked, “Should I be worried?” Because I truly haven’t had a relationship longer than 2 months. And I’m 26. But that just got me thinking. And so I was very honestly able to answer her with, “No. You shouldn’t be worried at all. And here’s why.”

See, the thing about my relationship with her, is that we can talk on the phone for 12 hours a day, and maybe we’re not talking nonstop, but we can always make each other laugh. We can go from joking, to a somewhat serious topic, and right back to joking without missing a beat. We can just be on the phone, and don’t need to be doing anything specific. We can talk about legitimately anything, we can tease each other or be cheering sections for each other. We always have the utmost faith in each other, even if we don’t really have it in ourselves. I could never get bored with her, because she makes me smile with a simple text or with one of our jokey arguments. We can banter and discuss and just be together. We may live 1200 miles apart, but that doesn’t mean that our relationship is less than someone else’s. It doesn’t mean that it’s more likely to fail. And it REALLY doesn’t mean that it’s not real. And I’m not the only one that feels this way. See, we figured out within the last couple of days that we’re both empathy. I’m pretty sure she told me early on, but I’m only human, and I forgot. I, on the other hand, KNOW I didn’t say anything, because as a general rule, I don’t tell people until I know them very well. From personal experience, I’ve figured out that if people know I’m an empath right from the start they tend to just try and hide their feelings. But I have hella trust issues (courtesy of ex friends and being cheated on and reactions to my coming out) so not being able to feel a truthful representation of how someone feel about me can be legitimately harmful to my health. So unless I know someone very well, I keep that to myself.

Continuing on, the incident that led to us finding that out about both of us, happened Tuesday while I was at work. I felt confusion, hurt, sadness, and some anxiety and I knew it wasn’t from me. Obviously, I can’t always tell exactly who it’s from, but instincts let me know. So I messaged her to check on her. That, was the incident at the dojo that led to me wishing I lived in the same state, because I would have kicked the shit out of the head instructor for the way he made her feel. Later on, after I got off work and was finally able to call her, she told me her first thought was of me during that fairly one sided conversation. That’s when I felt the flow of emotion, and that’s when I knew I had to check on her.

This girl has just strolled into my heart and taken up residence. She just casually stole my heart and gave me hers, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Yesterday, was a rough day for me. And already knowing she’s empathic as well, it made it so she felt all the emotions I was feeling, and I was feeling mine and my momma’s. (A little backstory: in late September of 2020, my daddy was told by our primary care doctor to go to the emergency room immediately for what seemed to be a blood clot in his leg. He was admitted, and came home a couple days later with a stage 4 metastatic lung cancer diagnosis. 2 months later, he was gone). So yesterday morning, our primary care doctor told momma to go to the emergency room, and I panicked. I was feeling momma’s surprise and anxiety, and then as soon as she told me, my own distress. Any time someone important to me ends up in the hospital for any reason, I’m not sure how well I’m going to handle it, because watching my daddy go downhill broke my heart and honestly traumatized me. So, I had a full on anxiety attack yesterday morning before I went into work, and my girl was my rock. And honestly, she was a rockstar because all of my anxiety and distress and straight up fear hit her all at once, and she wasn’t expecting it, and yet she was still able to make me smile and supported me as I went into work on a day I didn’t think I had it in me to deal with people.

I really need to thank her from the bottom of my heart, because I don’t know how well I could have handled yesterday without her. I am not sure if I would have been able to truly work through the anxiety and still have a successful work day. Thank you babygirl, for being such a truly amazing person. I appreciate you every day, even when we’re both distracted and not saying a whole lot. 💜😊

[crushaa]

Explaining the long break and how I got diagnosed with ADHD:

This is a post about mental health. There’s a TLDR at the bottom :) 

“Apply yourself, Cien. If you wanted to pass this class, you would be trying.” 

When I was 15, I got my tonsils out. I got the same kind of statement from a few friends and even family members; “Oh yeah, they used to take EVERYONE’S tonsils out! Even if they didn’t need it, it was the cure to everything. But now everyone’s got ADHD, so that’s the new trend.” 

Around the end of July 2019, I was running out of steam. I still had plenty of creative energy, but I couldn't understand why I wasn't able to work on anything anymore. The truth is that I knew I would hit another music block, and I wouldn't be surprised if anyone else expected it too. My posting history has always been very irregular, even back in high school with long unexplained breaks in between new songs. Knowing it would happen, I felt confident in my ability to tackle it and change my pattern of behavior.

I never thought it would last this long. With each month passing by I began to feel guiltier and guiltier, trying to find out why I couldn't do it. I'd sit in front of an empty FL Studio project for hours, and all my Paint Tool Sai canvases never had more than a few lines.  As the months went on, some pretty dramatic life events took place- various family deaths, 2 near death experiences myself, an abusive doctor. For whatever reason, I just could not recover. 

I used the tragedies as excuses as to why I couldn't do it. It would be reasonable to not be able to do anything. My antidepressants were definitely working for the first time in my life, but why couldn’t I work? I spent the New Year holiday feeling just as guilty and frustrated as ever…. I couldn’t do it anymore. I decided that I was going to go back to my doctors loaded with new theories and ideas as to what could possibly be wrong with me. It never occured to me to tell anyone I couldn’t write more than 2-3 songs in one year when it’s literally my job to write music. 

I began speculating the possibility of another psychiatric disorder, and that made me nervous. Would she think I was lying? Or faking it? I could no longer stand the treatment from the nurse practitioner who had been treating my psychiatric illnesses. I’d always been very uncomfortable with how she treated me, but she’d found the rare genetic disorder I had. I felt that I owed my progress to her and that I should stick it out. But I was still leaving her office in tears at the end of every session. An off color comment, passive aggressive reminders to take my medication, the feeling that I had no say in my own treatment plan… it was too much.  But she was the only one in town who was available to see me. So I went, and I was administered an MMPI by a psychiatrist in that same building. At the end of February, I’d get the results.  

The next appointment with her was the last time she’s ever going to see me. The results of the test had come in as inconclusive, and my world fell apart. She asked what I thought of the results, and I answered truthfully. I told her I was afraid that she saw me as a hypochondriac. 

“Well what if you are?” I didn’t answer. “Well, you are,” she went on with a cocky smile. 

She began to tell me it was my own fault. She told me I had brain damage. But it was fine, because she told me I could be treated for believing I was still sick. 

It affected me deeply, for days I couldn’t stop crying or eat a full meal. The guilt, frustration and embarrassment swallowed me whole; the problem was me. Of course I was making it up. I felt suicidal for the first time in 4 years. There was no point in trying anymore because I as a whole was defective. This world would be better off without a lost cause like me. 

I pulled myself out of this headspace for a while one day, and realized that a HEALTH CARE PROVIDER made me feel this way. 

WHERE WAS THE BRAIN SCAN, BITCH????

 All the guilt, embarrassment, shame- it morphed into a new red hot burning rage. I fired her immediately and revoked any permissions she had. I went to my primary care doctor and asked him to prescribe me my psychiatric medications while I looked for a new psychiatrist, to which he agreed. I asked him for an ADHD test, but he wasn’t comfortable doing it himself. He referred me to a psychiatrist with a 6 month waiting list who then tried to refer me to the abusive nurse practitioner. I set up the six month appointment wait and began to look into doctors in other towns.

On Monday, April 6th, I went to go see a different doctor for something completely unrelated and walked out with an ADHD (Inattentive type) diagnosis. And now less than a week later, everything about my life has changed. 7 long months of executive dysfunction came to an end in the 1 hour it took for the first half-pill to dissolve. Hot damn. 

It felt like everyone else in the world was allowed to use the sidewalk to get from place to place, but there was a rule that I had to dodge incoming traffic to get anywhere. Now, I can use the sidewalk too. I am relearning everything that I know. 

I am no longer ashamed that I have the GPA of a baked potato. I know that I am not lazy, I am not stupid, and this was NOT my own fault; I was sick and nobody knew. The signs were there, but how we view ADHD has changed entirely since I was a child! People still called it ADD. So why was it so hard to get diagnosed in this day and age?

The stigma has shifted into something far more dangerous than I’ve ever realized it was. I don’t hear “I have ADHD OO SHINY” jokes anymore, you know? We believe it to be a grossly overdiagnosed behavioral disorder meant to punish children for having a lot of energy. We wave it off, calling it the new tonsil removal surgery trend. Of the three types of ADHD; Predominantly Hyper-Impulsive, Predominantly Inattentive (that’s me!), and Combined Type; a mix of the two, there tends to be more stigmatized attention towards the hyper-impulsive type. We believe in what we see, breaking the first rule of mental illness: Just because you can’t see it doesn’t mean it’s not there. 

This leaves those suffering from both inattentive type and combined type to rot. Attention deficiency itself doesn’t have much of a stigma because it isn’t even seen as having a seat at the ADHD table. This is catastrophic and will continue to destroy lives because people don’t feel hyper enough to even consider that they might have ADHD. In turn, those who are told to try harder, apply themselves, stop procrastinating, and to stop being so lazy do not receive the proper care they need. Those who suffer without treatment get worse over time; they lose confidence in themselves, they don’t start new things in fear of the inability to finish, they break promises to friends and family with the inability to follow through, damaging important relationships beyond repair. 

My confidence has been shattered. I was the artist who failed art class. College was never an option because I knew I’d go straight back to failing every class I took. I feel like I am a burden and the token “lost cause” of my family, the one everybody worries about because I’m not right in the head. I’ve grown to become a reclusive, bashful adult who struggles to make and answer phone calls and emails. ADHD devastated my life in deeper ways than my OCD, my PTSD, my anxiety or depression ever could. 

The number of diagnoses are going up because we can recognize it better. This is not a bad thing- science is evolving to show possible causes of the disorder itself. We know not to smoke while pregnant anymore, we know not to eat and drink high fructose corn syrup, we know not to sit in front of blue light screens all day, and we’ll continue to learn.

As soon as I started my medication, I was able to start taking care of myself and working again. The symptoms of my other mental illnesses began to let up, and I felt like a human being for the first time in my life. I have control over my own emotions- I can walk on the sidewalk with everyone else, I am free. 

However, it’s going to take the rest of my life to unlearn the methods I came up with to perform basic self-care functions. It will take many years to gain confidence in myself, to make phone calls without shaking or to even consider the thought of college, potato grades and all. But my mindset has transformed from “I can’t” to “Maybe I could try,” --a first for me. 

Question everything, don’t settle for the minimum, and don’t stop fighting. Thanks for reading this post. I'm hard at work on Propaganda part 2 and hope to post it on May 31st. See you then :-) 

TLDR: ADHD destroyed my life in ways my depression, anxiety and other mental illnesses never could. The stigma surrounding ADHD is shifting to become more dangerous than it has been in the past.  

We live in a society.

[writerkenna]

HP Next Gen Headcanons/Faceclaims

Fred Weasley II

Born January 2007

Parents: George Weasley and Angelina Johnson 

House: Hufflepuff

Headcanons:

LOVES his mama big time, totally a mama’s boy, in a good way. Has many special moments with Angelina just the two of them

Also, he is particularly close with his paternal grandparents. Molly and him like to tend to the garden together and Arthur shows him how radios work

He is so sweet, much softer of a personality than either his mum or dad, and is a truly wonderful friend to all his cousins

However, this doesn’t mean he can’t crack jokes and horse around just as great as his dad

Plays as Hufflepuff chaser from year 4 on, even though he’s not particularly amazing at quidditch, because a lot of his friends are on the team and his mom and aunt were a FREAKIN HOLYHEAD HARPIES

His parents get special permissions to see his first match, and George yells so loudly that he nearly gets kicked out of the stands

Feels a lot of pressure to live up/be a replacement for his namesake, which he tells his gran, who lets him know that his Uncle Fred would just want him to have joy in his life as himself, and that’s what the family wants too

Does a year of working at Wizarding Wheezes after he graduates (with O’s in Herbology, DADA, and Care of Magical Creatures), but his dad and him butt heads on pricing and products so much that his mum makes him quit for the family’s sake

His best friends are Oliver Wood’s daughter, Marnie, and Katie Bell’s son, Jackson

He also sees a lot of Rose, though, who has been instructed by his mum to keep an eye on him

Late bloomer, stays very young looking for a long time

Doesn’t have his first kiss until after graduation

Queer/Questioning

Roxanne Weasley (China Anne Mcclain)

Born January 2008

Parents: George Weasley and Angelina Johnson 

House: Gryffindor

Headcanons:

Probably the closest of any of the cousins to Fred’s reincarnation

Her mum and dad receive a letter about twice a month on something she’s done that disruptive or wrecked some sort of havoc on the school. They give her a talking to about, but, when no one is looking, both give her a high five

The best Beater Gryffindor has seen in long time

She owns a light beige rat named Earwax, which her Uncle Ron checks about a million times to make sure it is not a witch or wizard in disguise

Loves her cousin Rose, but if she has to get one more lecture on using a daily planner for homework, she will slug that girl in the face

Loves her ‘Irish twin’ status with Fred. They are super close and tend to have a habit of sneaking into each other’s dorms 

She loves getting her friends the ‘friends’ discount at Wizarding Wheezes and knows just which products to recommend to them

Both her and Fred played little league quidditch from ages 6-10

Spends a month of each summer with her mum and her parents once they start to get sick to help take care of them

Bisexual

Hugo Granger-Weasley (Cameron Boyce)

Born March 2008

Parents: Ron Weasley and Hermione Granger

House: Hufflepuff

Headcanons:

His dad’s absolute best mate. Ron might have teared up a little when he left for school

Although, that is not say his mum doesn’t adore him as well. Specifically, adore to baby him

Growing up, Hugo was the most rough and tumble, clumsy boy, always a bruise somewhere on him and running around without looking what’s in front of him. That trait never really goes away

Is a ridiculously LOUD kid, can hear him coming from a mile away. McGonagall, who is nearing the end of her career once Hugo arrives, hears his voice on September 1st in the Great Hall and thinks, ‘Merlin, another Weasley’

He and Rose both did private muggle primary schools. He keeps in touch with a few muggle friends

His mum works full time at Ministry (on track for minister by age 45, mind you), so when not in school, he goes with his dad into Wizarding Wheezes. Fred and Roxanne are often there too, which gives them a good stockpile of inside jokes for Hogwarts

LOVES to watch quidditch, but can’t play for his life. He’s just a bit too scatterbrained and flimsy for the game. He’ll go to all of Auntie Roxanne’s games, however

Destined to be a healer, which he learns when he falls and breaks his arm in year 4. Watching Madam Pomfrey work amazes him

Asexual, panromantic

Lily Luna Potter (Sadie Sink)

Born August 2008

Parents: Harry Potter and Ginny Weasley

House: Gryffindor 

Headcanons: 

Harry Potter’s child through and through

And, that meaning, if anyone could pull of a line as wonderful as ‘there’s no need to call me sir, professor,’ it’s Lily Luna

Of her many, many, many cousins, both official and non-official, the one she is closest with is Dominique, who’s a tough girl just like her

She is also buddies with Roxanne (she calls her Rox) and helps her prep for each test she takes in their common room

Prefect in fifth year

Grandpa Arthur’s little angel (also sometimes a little devil, but he loves that part too)

She knows how to repair a muggle car engine, thanks to him

Inherited her namesake and her mum’s perfect, wonderful red locks

Speaking of namesakes, Lily Luna has always been delightfully amused by her godmother, Luna

Luna takes her with Daisy and Helena to festivals in strange lands, where Luna somehow always knows the language

She sends Luna an owl after she gets her O in Divination, and Luna sends her back a shriveled pixie foot, which is supposedly good for the mind

Daisy and Helena also become sort of her unofficial big sisters

Being raised among two boys, one of which is a prat and the other a bit of an edgelord, Lily is one tough cookie. She doesn’t falter easy. This girl’s a fighter

Straight

4/5 of Next Gen Headcanons

[purpledinosaur1988]

Ever been in one of those situations where you put your trust in the wrong person. Yeah me to. I used to be "friends" with this female who turned out to be TOXIC! She caused so many problems in my life to a point where she would use me to lie for her, watch her brat of a child. When I met my husband back in 2014, the toxic female would try her best to break me and him up. It was early days in our relationship and she would always expect me to drop everything including date night plans to help her out of sticky situations. After seeing the effects of how miserable I was being made to feel, my husband eventually got me to walk away from the toxic female and finally be happy. I felt so much better without being associated with her. We never spoke again, would avoid each other in public etc. Fast for to a few months ago, I was waiting on a bus to work, she approached me trying to use my child as a pawn to win back "friendship" by telling me that my son's nan had passed away, saying I was to unblock her as she missed me. Obviously I didn't unblock her from my socials and the next time I saw my son I asked his uncle how his mum (my son's nan) was and that I hadn't seen her in awhile, he answered saying she is still struggling with the whole pandemic but is much better than before. That cleared that up. The toxic female told me a malicious lie. I mean has she no better things to be getting on with than trying to get me to fall for her BS 🐂💩 again.

My life has improved massively over the years I have been with my husband, we met in 2014, engaged in 2015 & married in 2016. I don't have a big circle of friends and I am okay with that as I would rather surround myself with those who are positive influences to me. Those friends hold a special place in my heart ♥️ I have my 2 best friends who I have been friends with since high school so they are more like Sisters to me.

If anyone feels there are red flags in your life with certain people. Please don't ignore them as you deserve to be happy.

Signs to look out for

1. You feel on-edge around this person, but you still want them to like you. You find yourself writing off most of their questionable behavior as accidental or insensitive, because you’re in constant competition with others for their attention and praise. They don’t seem to care when you leave their side—they can just as easily move on to the next source of energy.

2. They withhold attention and undermine your self-esteem. After first hooking you with praise and flattery, they suddenly become reclusive and uninterested. They make you feel desperate & needy, ensuring that you are always the one to initiate contact or physical intimacy.

3. Plasters your Facebook page with compliments, flattery, songs, and poems. They text you dozens, if not hundreds of times per day. You come to rely on this over-communication as a source of confidence.

4. Quickly declares you their soul mate. And for some reason, you don’t find it creepy. They tell you how much they have in common with you. On the first few dates, you do most of the talking and they just can’t believe how perfect you are for them.

5. Compares you to everyone else in their life. Ex-lovers, friends, family members, and your eventual replacement. When idealizing, they make you feel special by telling you how much better you are than these people. When devaluing, they use these comparisons to hurt you.

6. Lies and excuses. There is always an excuse for everything, even things that don’t require excusing. They make up lies faster than you can question them. They will always blame others—it is never their fault. They spend more time rationalizing their behavior than improving it.

7. No startle response. Total absence of anxiety, fear, and worry where there otherwise should be. They are also very easily bored by the familiar. You write this off as calm and cool, often feeling inferior and over-sensitive because you have normal human emotions.

8. Insults you with a condescending, joking sort of attitude. Smirks when you try to express yourself. Teasing becomes the primary mode of communication in your relationship. They subtly belittle your intelligence and achievements. If you point this out, they call you hypersensitive and crazy.

9. Uses social networking to provoke jealousy and rivalries while maintaining their cover of innocence. They once focused all of their attention on you, but now they post ambiguous videos and statuses to make you doubt your place in their heart. They bait previously denounced exes with old songs and inside jokes. They attend to new activity and ignores yours.

10. You find yourself playing detective. It is never happened in any other relationship, but suddenly you are scrolling back years on their Facebook page and albums. Same with their ex. You are seeking answers to a feeling you cannot quite explain.

11. Surrounds themselves with former lovers and potential mates. Brags that their exes still want to sleep with him/her, but assures you there is nothing to worry about. These people make you feel jealous and give off the perception that your partner is in high-demand.

12. Hyperbolizes emotions while displaying none of them. They make passionate statements like “I have never felt so happy in my life” in a completely robotic voice. It sounds like an alien trying to explain how they imagine human emotions might feel.

13. You are the only one who sees their true colors. Others will think they’re the nicest person in the world, even though they are used for money, resources, and attention. They will not care because he/she strategically distracts them with shallow praise (often done over social networking). Psychopaths are able to maintain superficial friendships far longer than their relationships.

14. Accuses you of emotions that they are intentionally provoking. They will call you jealous after blatantly flirting with their ex over social networking for the world to see. They will call you needy after intentionally ignoring you for three days straight.

15. Cannot put themselves in your shoes, or anyone else’s for that matter. You find yourself desperately trying to explain how they might feel if you were treating them this way, and they just stare at you blankly.

16. You are engaged in constant conversations about their ex. You know them by name, and you know everything about their relationship—at least, your partner’s version of events. The ex becomes one of the most frequent topics of discussion in your relationship.

17. You find yourself explaining the basic elements of human respect to a full-grown man/woman. Normal people understand the fundamental concepts of honesty and kindness. No adult should need to be told how they are making other people feel.

18. Focuses on your mistakes and ignores their own. If they’re two hours late, do not forget that you were once five minutes late to your first date. If you point out their mistakes, they will always be quick to turn the conversation back on you.

19. Suddenly and completely bored by you. Gives you the silent treatment and becomes very annoyed that you seem to be interested in continuing the passionate relationship that they created. You are now a chore to them.

20. The ultimate hypocrite. They have extremely high expectations for fidelity, respect, and adoration. After the idealization phase, they will give none of this back to you. They will cheat, lie, insult, and degrade. But you are expected to remain perfect.

21. Sometimes it seems as though they’ve forgotten who they’re supposed to be around you. They adopt different personas for different people—transforming their entire personality to match various audiences. It is always very eerie when they slip and accidentally use the wrong mask for you. You will start to feel that their personality just does not seem to add up.

22. An unusual amount of “crazy” people in their past. Any ex-partner or friend who did not come crawling back to them will likely be labeled jealous, bipolar, an alcoholic, or some other nasty smear. They will speak about you the same way to their next target.

23. Flatters your deepest insecurities. If you are self-conscious about your looks, they will call you the sexiest person in the world. If you have got a need to entertain, they will say you’re the funniest person they have ever known. They will also mirror your greatest fantasies, playing whatever role is necessary to win your heart.

24. Frequently comments about what you are wearing and how you look. They try to arrange you. You become obsessed with your appearance, noticing flaws that likely don’t even exist. During and after the relationship, you will spend significantly more time in front of the mirror.

25. You fear that any fight could be your last. Normal couples argue to resolve issues, but psychopaths make it clear that negative conversations will jeopardize the relationship, especially ones regarding their behavior. You apologize and forgive quickly, otherwise you know they’ll lose interest in you.

26. Obsessed with humiliating successful, kind, and cheerful people. Delighted by the idea of breaking up friendships and marriages. If you work hard to maintain interpersonal peace in your life, they will make it their mission to uproot all of it.

27. Gaslighting. Blatantly denies their own manipulative behavior and ignores evidence when confronted with it. They will become angry if you attempt to disprove their delusions with facts.

28. They expect you to read their mind. If they stop communicating with you for several days, it’s your fault for not knowing about the plans they never told you about. There will always be a self-victimizing excuse to go along with this.

29. Selfishness and a crippling thirst for attention. They drain the energy from you and consume your entire life. Their demand for adoration is insatiable. You thought you were the only one who could make them happy, but now you feel that anyone with a beating pulse could fit the role. However, the truth is: no one can fill the void of a psychopath’s soul.

30. Your feelings. After a run-in with a psychopath, you will feel insane, exhausted, drained, shocked, suicidal, and empty. You will tear apart your entire life—spending money, ending friendships, and searching for some sort of reason behind it all.

We can find that normal and loving people do not raise any of these flags. After a negative encounter, most survivors face the struggle of hypervigilance: who can really be trusted? Our gauge will swing back and forth for a while, like a volatile pendulum. We all wonder if we have gone absolutely mad for wanting to believe the best in an old friend or a new date, but also feeling sick to the stomach when actually spending time with them.

It is important to develop our intuition, but that is a personal process. The world is mostly full of good people, and we suffer a double punishment if we miss them due to the fear of being hurt again.

People need to set aside some time to get in touch with their feelings, and become comfortable with a balance of awareness and trust. The reflection offers understanding about our emotions. It helps provide understanding for which old relationships need to be refreshed, and which toxic patterns need to be abandoned and replaced by healthier ones.

Society conditions us to ask “does this person like me” instead of exercising critical thinking and asking “do I like this person?”

[taecalikook]

What we are not; Soulmates (chapter 2)

summary: you love yoongi with all your heart throughout these five years being in a relationship with him. you always thought he is the one — your one, even when the infamous soulmate signs are still not showing. yet you always wait, because you know it’s him you are destined to be with, forever. but what would happen if then his childhood best friend comes along, with the universe-signed telltales that you have been looking for true love in all the wrong places?

{soulmate!au, established relationship!au}

pairing: min yoongi x female reader x kim taehyung

chapters : prologue | chapter 1 | chapter 2 | chapter 3 | epilogue

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You drive back to Seoul from your parents residence in Ilsan at dawn, because your first class will be in the early morning. Mina and a few other teachers are out to do rehearsals for the upcoming recital for your grade 4 students, so you are in charge of teaching a few classes for the day. It’s quite exciting somehow, you already missed your students and your first classes would be with the pre-primary ballet students that you greatly adore. You love kids—you always have been on your own as the only children of the family, so to be able to interact and teach the wonderful kids would always certainly be the highlight of your days.

It is not always rainbows and unicorns teaching the kids, but somehow today is arguably the best day of teaching them. They are on their best behavior, kindly following your instruction and order, and you are swooned under their abundant cuteness. Everything went so smoothly until the end of class number two—right before lunch time. The kids are running to their parents, some of them thanking you, giving a short hug before leaving. You smile widely, engulfing their small figure with your own, your heart swelling with adoration and pride. This is how much you love your job, to be able to interact with students and help them achieve their dreams.

One by one they left, until there was only Eunbi, your favorite student left to be picked up by her parents. You are fixing her hair into a cute bun, when suddenly a woman who you recognize as Eunbi’s mother comes to sight. You bow a little, finishing your touch on the girl’s hair. “Bye bye!” You urge Eunbi to her mother, but you can sense hesitation on her. All of a sudden,she turns to you, giving you a tight hug that causes you to squeal in surprise. 

“Thank you, seonsaeng-nim! I promise to really work hard and will be like you someday!”

You happily nod, then the cute six years old runs to her mother, waving at you again. You reply with the same enthusiasm, nonchalant to that someone who has been watching for quite sometime now. You were about to head to your room, but your steps freeze when in the corner of your eyes finds the man, leaning on the wall beside him, his arms folded on his chest, a wide gummy smile on his lips. You gasps, instinctively running to his arms with a loud commotion. 

“Yoongi!”

“Ugh.” He groans when you literally crash onto him, falling a few steps back due to the force. “Hey, hey, be careful. This precious body can not be injured under any circumstances. I won’t let it.” He cheekily snickers and you frown jokingly, your fingers jabbing to his chest.

“What precious body, huh? I don’t even remember the last time you even exercise, Min Yoongi.” You answer wittily and he chuckles, fixing the strands of hair falling in front of your eyes to the back of your ear, wanting to see your face better. Your heart flutters just to see him again after two days of lock down in your parent’s house.

“I don’t mean mine, I mean yours.” His lips curl into a teasing smirk and you can’t hold back a smile. “Such a flirt.” You smile knowingly, sensing that few people have already been taking an interest in your encounter with Yoongi. You shyly excuse yourself and pull him towards your cubicle, unable to bear another attention pointed at you and him. Fortunately, you have the room to yourselves.

After a soft thud signaling the door is closed, Yoongi suddenly pulls you into his arms, his lips crashing on yours fervently and you are caught by surprise. You instinctively moan to his kisses, your fingers finding its way to his beautiful scalp, softly pulling his hair. His arms are finding its purchase on your waist, tightfully holding on it like he will never let go. You can feel his smile on your lips rhythmically moving against each other, until you have let go to finally get your need for oxygen. Yet Yoongi seems like a possessed man, as he couldn’t take his good lips off of you and travels south to your exposed neck. You let out a constricted moan when you feel his lips nibbling on the sensitive area he already remembers like the back of his hand. “Yoongi...”

All of a sudden, you feel constricted pain on your chest, and hollowness seeps into your heart. Your eyes linger on the scar on your wrist, hidden by your wrist brace while your head figures the reason you are not feeling like you used to. You feel like something is missing while your head is heavily conflicted over the simple kiss you countlessly shared before. What is wrong with you? Why are you feeling like this? The little voice inside your head has the answer for you. It must be him. It must be the guilt you are feeling for your soulmate.

“Y/N, are you okay? You seem off.” 

Yoongi lets you go when noticing you are not replying to his movements, and directs his attentive gaze at you. You feel like you are truly exposed, you bite your lips while the gears in your brain are working hard to let out any possible reason for your strange acts. Something inside you seriously considers telling Yoongi about everything, about how you found your soulmate—which is not him, but you can’t find yourself to bring it up. Your lips are frozen. You don’t want to lose him. And knowing how he will act, Yoongi will be Yoongi again. He will let you go without a fight, suppressing all the obnoxious pain inside. And the feeling you have for him does not have the heart to lose or hurt him.

“Yes, I just feel a little bit under the weather. I am sorry, Yoongi.” You reason, a tint of breathily laces your words. instead you chase for a hug, resting your chin on his shoulder. A fitting position so Yoongi cannot detect the lies from your expression.

“It’s okay. I just wish you can get better soon.” Yoongi whispered to your nape while caressing your head affectionately, ending it with butterfly kisses on the top of your head. At that time, you never feel bad like you have betrayed his trust like that ever before. Lying is never your specialty, and you are proud of that feature. You have never lied to Yoongi before, as you always find a sense of comfort in your relationship with him that you have nothing to worry about telling him nearly everything. But now, how can you keep that still? 

“Can I take you for lunch? Before your next class, I mean.” He asks, and you are glad that the topic ended on a vague note. You nod energetically, holding your wrist close while grabbing the jacket you hang on your chair. He quickly holds you close, a quiet gasp from your mouth when he lightly grazes the hidden engraved scar on your wrist, before taking your petit hand inside his large ones. 

You just hope that everything will be okay. At least until you can find a good way to tell him. Or even any possible way.

*

One week passes in a breeze, especially when it is packed with schedule for your job. Deadline for recital choreography is just around the corner, in parallel with teaching your students the routine they have to perform in a few months. Few of your students are also only a few weeks away before their grade examination, so you literally have no break in the past week to train them. Hence all the alone time you have in a day is one in the morning before work, and the late nights before you pass asleep.

And it’s a bit strange when you always have a schedule for both of the guys that have been fulfilling your minds since last week. Yoongi always calls you before you go to sleep, when he is still in the middle of work and for you when the exhaustion after a full day of activities is coming off in a great tidal wave. You have to sadly accept the fact that the conversations are not long, mainly because you would fall asleep mid-call, but you are happy to listen to his voice and glad to have a little of Yoongi’s packed schedule either way.

And Taehyung always calls you in the morning, right after you wake up to start your morning run, and after he wakes up on the hospital bed to consume his morning medicine before breakfast. Strangely, the communication with him comes naturally and smoothly, and it doesn’t seem like you just met him a week ago. During the calls, he told you about himself, about where he studied in California, about his deepest dream of becoming an art curator, his dislike of alcohol and coffee or about his early childhood dream of having a 40meters-tall Gundam robot built on his house front lawn. You really cannot spare a laugh whenever you are talking with him, and truth to be told, you do not wonder why. 

Taehyung also is very attentive during your stories. You tell him about yourself, your deep down dream of performing on stage again, your severe addiction to high school musical, and your wish to build another large set of legos again since your high school days. Talking to him is relaxing and addicting in its own way, like your body is chasing for its own high whenever you listen to his voice. You can’t deny that morning calls with Taehyung have become ones of the highlights of your days.

It’s Saturday, and you are glad that the week has finally come to an end. You have no class for the weekend, so you gladfully have the day all to yourself. You do not really plan anything for the day, and intend to keep it that way. After a week of exhaustion is paid in a 12 hours long sleep, you woke up straight at 10AM with fifteen missed-calls, two from your mother, five from Taehyung and eight of them from Yoongi. Sensing that Yoongi is most definitely not a numerous missed call type of person, you quickly punch his numbers in your phone, and after two beeps, he picks up.

“Y/N! Hi, sorry to bother your long-awaited weekend. I know you wanted to rest this whole day, but can you help me? Please, please, I desperately need your help.” Yoongi rushedfully speaks on the other side of the call, a sense of panic is evident in his tone. You raise from your bed and turn wary over his voice. It must be serious if Yoongi is that scared.

“Of course, Yoongi. What is it?”

“I just got a call from my boss that one american artist is interested in my work and offers me a music producing job for his upcoming tour.” Yoongi informs you, still in his panicked tone. But after hearing such great news, you immediately jump on your spot, the sense of happiness and pride engulfing your heart for the great opportunity for your boyfriend. You know the talent Yoongi has is beyond everyone’s great mind, and you do believe that opportunities will come like a wildfire sooner or later for him.

“It’s amazing, Yoongi! I am so proud of you, ugh! My boyfriend is a crazy talented music producer!” You squeal in glee, a hundred percent thrilled for him. You can imagine how Yoongi would shyly smile on the other side of the call. It has been your relationship dynamic, in which you would always be the expressive one and he would shyly drive from your adoration. Well, mostly outside sex, though.

“Thank you, Y/N, that means a lot coming from you.” Yoongi whispers and truly means it. You might not know it from his cold exterior, but he does consider you as the most important person in his life, and your opinion matters the most for him. Lots of his colleagues or friends congratulate him, but part of him, the cynical side of his is always so sceptical of the praises. But for you? He trusts you with all his heart. To have your great support for his job as a music producer is the greatest gift he believed to ever receive. 

“So what can I help you with? You know I’ll support you whenever wherever, Yoongi. You do not need to ask it.”

“I know that, I know.” He eventually chuckles after hearing your sweet hoarse morning laugh on the other side. Something flutters inside his chest, and he tries hard to ignore it. Damn, he must be too intoxicated. Five years in a relationship and he still feels the same flutters. How crazy is that? He thought to himself, but still trying to focus on the important matter in hand. “Y/N, I will have the meeting in… 30 minutes. Can you help me with something?” You hum an agreement, casually walking out of your bed to your dressing table. 

“Anything. Just say it, baby.”

“Taehyung is being released today from the hospital. No worries, it would not be awkward for you, cause you are not there alone. Hobi will be there too! But you know I can’t trust him by himself, right? His messy ass can only do so and I can only trust you taking care of Taehyung. Can you please help him discharged today, Y/N?”

You gulped, most definitely did not expect it to be the wish Yoongi is asking for. All week you have been contemplating whether it is right for you to keep contacting Taehyung behind Yoongi, but your body and heart always reasons that you are keeping the friendship with Taehyung casual and light, and Taehyung is well informed about your situation. Inevitably, Taehyung has taken a huge part inside your life in such a short time and the thought of losing him somehow scares you. Whenever you reach out to him, you feel light and happy by heart—like a shot of endorphin to your body and frankly, you never want it to end.

This is bad. And the one thing that is going through your mind is Yoongi deserves none of these things kept away from him. You still love Yoongi, you know so but your body is betraying how you feel about Taehyung. It’s like you are programmed to chase your soulmate close, and you hate how it does you, cause it’s utterly iniquitous to both of the men you care so much about. It’s on you. You need to do something.

“I—i’m not really sure if that's good to…”

“Please, please! Can you do it for me? Taehyung’s father has been asking for a while now, and Hobi has never visited before, so I’m not sure if he would pass the security procedure. And that idiot must be wearing his godforsaken clothes, God, I’m not sure the security would be happy to let him in.”

You nervously chuckle, flashing back the time Hobi wore freaking neon green clothes and gold chain to one of your loaded mutual friend's formal birthday dinner gala. He ended up being chased out after a few drinks due to literally stealing the spotlight with his attire, acts, and loud laugh. Everything he wears or does is just spoken like Hoseok, and his rightful and sincere self is what actually attracts you to him. You found it endearing for someone to be so true to themselves.

“Okay, okay. But you owe me one, okay? I want soooo many nuggies from McDonalds.” You crack a joke and hear Yoongi groaning on the other side, reminded of your unhealthy addiction to those nuggets.

“I owe you everything, Y/N, you know it. But yes, yes. I’ll buy you as many nuggets you want.”

“Okay, then. Good luck for the meeting, baby. I...i love you.” You whispered, a sudden hesitation due to the guilt seeping inside your chest for saying the words you have been saying for five years now. You know damn well why you are feeling this way—because you are hiding something so crucial from him. It’s not something you've ever done before, and you find yourself drowned in an indescribable amount of fear of losing him whenever you want to tell him anything. And it slowly is killing you too.

“I love you, Y/N.” He whispers, and the sincere tone lacing on his words catches your breath. It’s silly how his confession always stirs something inside you, and you are left breathless every time.

“I love you so much, and whatever I get or achieve, I’ll be thanking the universe for letting me love you first.”

At his heartfelt confession, you feel the tears on the corner of your eyes desperate to come out. His words are entrancingly beautiful, and could probably be the most romantic words your boyfriend has ever said to you during these five years long relationship. Somehow, his words send a deep assurance to your heart, that you will and should not budge for anything or anyone. You belong to Yoongi, have been for five years and will continue until the very end. Your relationship would not budge. You won’t let it.

*

You park your car in the lobby of the familiar hospital you visited once before—the hospital in which Taehyung resides for nearly two weeks. Whenever Taehyung crosses your mind, you feel something on your chest, the heartbeat turns irregular and now, both your palms turn clammy out of nerves. You just wish that Hoseok will arrive soon, so you don’t have to be alone with him and forced to deal with your ignorant body which somehow, has a mind of its own now. You hate how you become less of your own person, as you always crave for your soulmates like an addict. You just wish that it would soon decrease, since you are serious about keeping your relationship with Yoongi. And keep seeing Taehyung might not be the best—even the worst solution to achieve that.

“Hey, Y/N! You are here.”

You look back, finding the best friend you have not seen since forever, giving him a light hug and squeeze of joy. “Hobi! You are here. I miss you! It feels like we haven't seen each other for how long now!” You squeal in delight. Hoseok grins widely, showing his neat pearly whites—a smile that could probably lighten the whole world.

“Yes, you have been hanging out too much with that old, boring sack pish posh of party pooper you call boyfriend.” Hoseok sassily replies, hanging both his hands on either side of his hips.You roll your eyes, a smile reaching for them after realizing that you indeed miss his cute antics. “Nah, kidding. I miss you too, Y/N. How have you been?”

“I’ve been good, thanks. And you look… like Hoseok.” You nod in gratitude, as your eyes check him from head to toe. Yoongi was 100% correct when he spat on Hoseok’s probable improper choice of attire for a hospital visit. Electric blue colored baggy shirt, camo blue cargo pants and a pair of white chunky shoes. You do wonder how Hoseok is always able to give a trademark on whatever attire he wears and you get a sense of pride of your best friend to be able to wear anything right, in his own style.

“Thank you! I’ll take that as a compliment.” Hoseok smiles, looping your hands in his. He closes to your ear and mutters a whisper while wiggling his eyebrows. “This sundress looks damn cute on you too, Y/N.” You push him away, as he chuckles lightly and pulls you to the hospital entrance.

The way to just enter Taehyung’s floor is long and tiresome, per usual. Good for you, you did the procedure before on your previous visit, so you just need to offer your ID again for identification. But for such a high energy person like Hoseok, you can see how much he suffers just to follow the procedure. You also can see how cautious the guards are paying great attention to Hoseok, and you silently applaud Yoongi’s decision to attach you to the event. Hoseok might not survive on his own this event.

“You know, I am this close to running away and never help that fucker Taehyung discharged.” Hoseok huffs after an all body inspection was finished and he is good to enter the elevator to Taehyung’s floor. His lips were jutted, hands clasped on his chests. “That rich son of a bitch owes me one. You know, I truly felt mistreated! I felt treated liike a fucking terrorist by those guards!”

“Hey.” You nudge Hoseok on a ribcage. “Be nice. You know that it’s all on his father, right? Taehyung has no voice on this, we should not blame him. For all we know he could be the victim of his vile father.”

Hoseok looks at you with a questioning manner, and you feel small under his smothering gaze. Oops, you must have said something wrong. 

But he just shrugged, throwing his eyes to the metal door. “I don’t really buy it. But tell me, how do you even know him anyway? It seems like you are so close to Taehyung. I just can’t really figure how since he went to the US a few years back and didn’t come home until now. Did Yoongi introduce you to him before?”

Damn Hoseok and his smart ass. You were struggling in letting out a word, but you swear to any God that listen that time must be on your side, because as Hoseok finishes the probing question about your unexpected proximity with Taehyung, the lift arrives at the final destination—your soulmate’s floor. You quickly step out of the lift, and as you know Hoseok is easily distracted, you quickly take advantage to point at one room you remember as Taehyung’s room. “There! Let’s go.”

Noting Hoseok’s burning gaze on your back at your sudden change of act, you scramble in panic and knock on Taehyung’s door. A level voice is heard from inside and with a leaping heartbeat you slowly push the door, finding him seated on the side of the bed—his fingers rolling the sleeve of his blue buttoned shirt. His large eyes immediately averted to you, a smile eventually reaching them at your presence. His expression is exactly how you always imagined them and you find warmth engulfing your chest. A strange feeling of wanting to hold him close does appear, but you quickly push it away with a strained smile. 

“Hi.”

“Hi.” Taehyung welcomes with a large smile, and you instantly relax under his ministry. He instinctively reaches for you with his palm, gesturing you to come closer. So you subconsciously follow, inching closer to his side. “I didn’t know you’d be here. Not that I mind, though. I’ve been wanting to see you forever.”

“Flirt.” You snort while rolling your eyes, just the exact moment both of your hands are touching, and you feel it again. The familiar yet so strange sensation of reaching out to your soulmate. The electricity rushing through your vein, the spark exploding on your head and chest and the ragged breath like you are being chased. It was literally an out-of-body experience, especially to note since it is just your second touch with him. “Wow. I don’t think I could ever get used to that.” You whisper more to yourself. By the expression worn in Taehyung’s face, how unresponsive he is to your comment, you notice how he is feeling just the same way you are feeling right now.

“Well for me, I don’t really know how I could stop chasing for that.” Taehyung whispers, and you suddenly feel hot and bothered over such a simple sentence. You shyly held your hand behind your back. Eyes zooming into the small vase of blue lily still rested on his dressing table, hoping the world will swallow you whole.

Then a sound is heard, right from your back and you notice it’s freaking Hoseok, clearing his throat like he just choked on a fucking stone. You quickly shy away, realizing that you have been too much in your world right now and how awkward it must have been for Hoseok to witness the both of you acting strangely—like you never seen each other since world war two. Gosh, you are an idiot!

“Hey, hyung. Good seeing you.” Taehyung smiles, giving Hoseok a slight hug of welcome. Hoseok welcomes the hug, curling his lips into a smile. They both let go, and Hoseok rests his palms on both of the younger man’s shoulders, His eyes checking for any visible scar on his face.

“Yes, I know you are happy to see me. But how dare you visit the hospital first before visiting your favorite hyung?! The audacity.” He hisses, as Taehyung smiles warmly. You can barely hold a smile just seeing him, feeling the light blissfulness, courtesy of what Taehyung might be feeling that transferred to you. “And not only that, I have to be treaten like a fucking terrorist in this building. I can’t believe this is how you're going to treat this favorite hyung of yours!”

“I really want to apologize, hyung. But you lost your chance when you never even visited once! Even Y/N here visited me before. I can’t believe the ‘favorite’ hyung I’ve known since forever never even visited me once.”

Hoseok immediately scrambles to crush Taehyung into his arms, using his baby voice to apologize. “You know how much I love you by heart, my favorite brother! Hyung is sorry for not visiting you sooner, I was so swamped for work these few weeks and seriously, I am exactly just free today. I am not lying! You’ll forgive your favorite hyung, right?”

Taehyung rolls his eyes but chuckles either way, standing up to the bed to take his jacket, holding it close to his chest instead of wearing it. “Of course. But now we are going to a restaurant of my choice and you are paying, hyung. Okay?”

Hoseok frowns, quickly reasoning to get out of Taehyung’s punishment but you can hardly decipher it as Taehyung offers his hand to you, guiding you to walk in front of him with his palm hovering over your back. You bite your lips hard to avoid quenching your desired squeal. You are this close to losing it for you can’t bear but to swoon for his mannerful gesture.

*

The road to the nearest diner of Taehyung’s choice was pleasant, with both men seated on the front seat, talking vibrantly with each other. You did offer to sit in front, considering that it might still be dangerous if there is a sudden stop that might hurt Taehyung, but he insisted by telling you that two weeks recovery was more than enough for him to go on with his activities as usual. Not intending to argue further—as you know your probability of winning is severely low, you just walk to the back seat and watch them interact. Listening to them also brought an understanding to you that Taehyung met Hoseok as Yoongi’s best friend since high school, and their personalities match greatly so Taehyung did tag along with lots of Yoongi and Hoseok’s hangouts. 

You cannot help but to agree that it was the perfect spot for you to just pay your full attention to Taehyung, the boxy smile he possesses, the cute crinkle on his nose, the excessive usage of um and that’s why, or the way his eyes lighten up at literally any stories Hoseok is telling him which he might be missing during the past five years. It warms your heart to just see him being goofily himself. You are enjoying the dynamic, when an alarm goes off inside your head, warning that it is not a good sign for you and your so-called sturdy decision to ignore the whole soulmate thing.

But who are you to deny that when you are with him, you cannot think straight? How did you even think of doing that? It’s nearly impossible when you already get a taste of being with your soulmate, even just as friends. This selfish part of you just don’t want to lose him too.

Oh God, how much you despise yourself now...

“Hey, Y/N. Are you okay?”

The sudden question spoken by Taehyung brings you back to reality, as you absentmindedly look at the both guys now staring back at you. You are confused, as you did not even let out a sound, and you swear they are just talking about something just now. “I—i’m fine. Is there something wrong?”

“Not really.. I just felt—”

Then it hits you. You just had an inner war towards your own feelings, and the bond you share with him must be letting him know how conflicted you felt just now. But you eye Hoseok warily, as he must be confused from the sudden change of interest of Taehyung with no possible impulse from you. You shake your hand, cheeks turning red from the sudden interest in yourself. “No, no I’m fine. You can continue.”

The conversation ends with a comfortable silence, and in just another minute, the car arrives. “We are here!” Hoseok squeals lightheartedly, fortunately changing the serious mood that just ensues. After parking on the nearest empty spot, you quickly walk out, taking a deep breath of nerves for just this close of being caught by Hoseok. 

Truth to be told, you don’t really know whether you can tell the whole story to him, but know he would rationally tell you to face it and make your choice but you somehow despise hearing that. You just wish you had more time—the time you don’t have.

You visited the diner frequently before, since it’s actually Yoongi and Hoseok’s favorite place. You take a seat, while Taehyung chooses a seat beside you and Hoseok seated in front him. You zoom into the menu, choosing what you’ll have for lunch. You really like the pasta served here as it’s one of their specialties, But as a ballerina you don't have many chances to eat carbs, since you do notice the difference in how your body feels for each of your intake of food. But it’s your free time, right? You desperately want to do whatever you want to do today, but somehow you still can shake off the guilt off your shoulder.

“You know what to choose? You seem confused.” Taehyung whispers, his eyes looking at you from his long fringe. The proximity of him talking quite flusters you, but you quickly ignore them and try to let out a coherent answer. 

“I really like the pasta here, but I am not sure my job really allows me to.” You painstakingly whimpered, gulping for looking at the tasty looking pasta on the menu. “I don’t really have any performance coming up, but I think I have been slacking a lot in this whole food management, and—”

“I don’t really see the point of you needing to suffer yourself for that. It’s saturday anyway, you need to get a break. You deserve to have the food you really want.” Taehyung suggests with a warm smile, and the way he speaks really sends a great impression of friendliness instead of teaching, and you are grateful for that. “I know you are able to burn those carbs very soon, Y/N. But it’s your choice, of course. You know what’s best for you.”

You nod thankfully, looking up to Hoseok as he instantly throws his gaze somewhere else like he has been caught staring the whole time. You duck your face down to the menu, fear overcoming you for Hoseok to notice how strangely close both of you are acting, and the possibility of him knowing the exact reason why. The waitress comes to take your order, and you decide to instead order another food that better suits your diet, a baked chicken parmesan. Uncomfortable silence ensue before Taehyung break the silence

“How’s the kids recital preparation? Is it going well?” Taehyung asks, his eyes settled on you. You immediately lighten up for remembering your students, as you lively explain to him the event that just ensued a few days ago with your lovable students. 

As both of you talk, Hoseok pays attention to both Taehyung and you. He was exactly seated there, but it seems like you and Taehyung are in your own bubble, talking about your stories while Taehyung responds with the same excitement, his arm resting on your chair’s backrest. Hoseok really did not want to pry, he knows you may be friends, but you and Taehyung do seem too close for your own good. And he be damned if he can’t see the hopeful, head over heels gaze coloring Taehyung’s eyes and how identical it is to Yoongi’s whenever you are around. It frightens him to think that there might a possibility of—

Hoseok quickly shakes his head, not even wanting to continue his thoughts. There is no way in hell Taehyung or you could do something as vicious and evil as that. 

Right?

“It’s quite hot in here, right?” You whimper, feeling the heat inside the diner starting to get uncomfortable. The sweat sticking out on your skin, especially with the white cardigan you are wearing to compliment the blue sky colored sleeveless sundress. Mindlessly, purely out of discomfort, you unattach the cardigan off your body, hanging it on the backrest of the chair. When you rest your naked arm on the table, Hoseok’s eyes suddenly notice something quite eccentric and noticeable engraved on your wrist. Something familiar, since he definitely saw the same scar before though...

The vibrant blue scar. Your soulmate scar.

“What the fuck is that, Y/N?! No—no! It can’t be..” Hoseok whispered to himself, reaching for Taehyung’s wrist all of a sudden. He remembered seeing it on the car, the identical electric blue scar on his brother’s wrist but yet to make a comment as he was going to question it for personally, just the two of them later. But he did not expect to be seering it in pair, with Yoongi girlfriend's wrist His breath hitched, his head spinning. God must be fucking joking with this, teeth grind in fret.

Seeing Hoseok’s fervent reaction to the scar you have been trying to hide from everyone, you shy away your wrist, pining it down to your lap in shame. You cursed your careless act, completely forgot the fact that the scar is there and you accidentally fucking showed it to Yoongi’s best friend. Just like a fool, you regret what you have done. Should you have said it sooner? Probably The moment you saw him. The panic, fear and regret was too much to handle as a tear or two escapes your eyes.

“Hyung…” Taehyung whispers, sensing the 180 degree changes in the mood on the table. He is wary and nervous over Hoseok’s missing cheerful persona—in which he has shifted into a dark, serious Hoseok he rarely saw before. “I—I know this is too much to process, but you have to know this is not on our consent. We know how you feel about this. We feel it too, especially about Y/N and Yoongi hyung’s relationship, but we are trying over here. Okay? Please.”

“When did you know?” Hoseok lowly questions, his eyes gazing deep to you and you never feel as scared as you feel right now. Taehyung knows Hoseok is directing the question towards you, and it is not a wise move to do the fight for you, so Taehyung waits for you to answer, ducking his head down in guilt. Inside he is also regretting the fact that he should’ve told Hoseok about all this. There shouldn’t be any awkward encounter like this if he were to execute this better, and you don’t have to feel ashamed of your bond with him. He just thought that Hoseok is your friend too, it would be unfair for him to tell it behind you. But he most definitely did not expect it to go this way.

“Two days after Taehyung got into the accident. At the hospital.” You whispers, your eyes are still trailing on your lap. “I brought him blue lilies. He touched me, and the scar appeared.”

Silence again. “So, it’s been nearly two weeks since then. And you both have been seeing each other behind our backs?”

“No!” Both you and Taehyung simultaneously answer, as one thing Hoseok needs to know is that none of this meant to cheat on Yoongi. “This is just a friendship. Nothing more, oppa. I would never, never cheat on Yoongi. You know it.” Then you feel the abhorring pain in your chest, even if you can’t differentiate whether it’s on you or Taehyung. But you are thoroughly desperate, and your rationality flew out of the window.

“Don’t be stupid, you know it will be never just that. Both of you are fucking soulmates, you are out of your fucking head for each other and there’s no way this can go platonic. Do you understand that?”

You do not answer Hoseok’s curt questions, tears substantially escape your eyes and before you know it, you are crying hard. Internally, you know how correct Hoseok is. It’s quite impossible to keep contacting your soulmate and have a relationship with someone else. “I never meant it to go this way. I don’t want to hurt anyone. I don’t want to hurt Yoongi. You know how much we love each other from these past five years, oppa. You know when I say I love him, I really mean it.” Another booming pain in your chest, yet you shrug it away.

“I—I know. I’m not accusing you of anything, Y/N. Don’t cry, I don’t want to see you cry.” He sighs, guilt raising on his chest at your rapid tears. Hoseok takes one or two deep breaths to calm himself before continuing. 

“Does Yoongi know anything about this?”

“Not yet. I am planning on it soon, though.”

“Okay. I’ll let you do it your own way.” Hoseok nods, clenching his fist together in agony. He knows Yoongi like the back of his hand, and as the most selfless person he has ever met in this lifetime, Hoseok knows that Yoongi would sacrifice everything for yours and Taehyung’s happiness. But what saddens him is that Yoongi is truly, sincerely in love with you, and now he has to lose someone so precious and important for him. Again. Hoseok does not want to be a living witness of Yoongi turning into another soulless body like he has seen before. Sad to say, the relationship you have with Yoongi does bring the best out of him, and he never saw Yoongi could love anyone the way he loves you.

Another thing that you might not be aware of is that Yoongi has been keeping an engagement ring he bought two years ago, ready to pop the question for promising you an eternity together. Hoseok even recalls Yoongi wanting to do it on the night of your five years anniversary before Taehyung’s accident occurred. But how can the universe be so vicious to decide to play with him once more? Hoseok cannot stand the thought of Yoongi being hurt once again—only God knows what would happen by then.

“One suggestion, Y/N.” Hoseok whispers with choked tears, breaking the silence on the table. Both of yours and Taehyung’s eyes find Hoseok’s own, waiting for him to continue.

“When you do break up with him, do it the fast way. Don’t drag him, lead him, or do anything that further hurt him.” Listening to Hoseok, you feel massively hurt, like a bullet to the heart. 

“And then let him go. Don’t think of making a friendship with him, at least for a while.” Hoseok’s saddened gaze is looking up to you. You wanted to deny him, telling him that you would rather die than to hurt him, than to be separated from him, that you love him more than anything, but nothing. Nothing comes out of your lips, just a silent nod as an answer.

“That’s the least we can do to him, as I know all of us on this table know how Yoongi is the last person to deserve this kind of thing coming his way.”

*

After the lunch you had with Hoseok and Taehyung, Hoseok takes you back to the hospital to get your car and head back home. You still can feel the dense air amongst the three of you that you feel like you can slice it and choke it down your throat—how you wish to be able to do it. Hoseok is no longer in his best mood, and when you arrive back at the hospital, you wanted to ask how Taehyung is going back home, but Hoseok quickly meddled before you could voice out your thoughts.

“It’s okay, Y/N. I’ll take Taehyung home. You can go back, now.”

You hesitantly nod, tightening your cardigan against your body, shuffling out of Hoseok’s car. Faintly, you hear Taehyung asking to wait until you safely enter your car, but you choose to not pay more heed to the flutter inside your chest caused by Taehyung’s careful attention. You hate yourself having to admit that if you are in a different circumstance—if you did not meet Yoongi and do not have such a beautiful, fulfilling relationship with him—you feel like you are ready to freefall to this whole soulmate thing to Taehyung.

Your head is already hurting from thinking too much, and you really just want to jump on your bed, watching netflix until your head hurts from too much radiation. Even that would be more convenient rather than the ugly feeling you are having right now. You enter your car, let out a deep sigh and look far away to particularly nothing. Suddenly your phone rings, signaling one new message arrived. You slide your lock screen—which is the picture of you and Yoongi, smiling on top of Tokyo Tower in the trip you had a year ago—yet choosing not to dwell on the sentiment in the picture. You find a voice message from that same person. Your boyfriend.

Yoongi’s warm voice instantly welcomes you. “Y/N, I got a message from Taehyung. Thank you for helping him discharged today. I owe you everything that I really think even a lifetime won’t be enough to repay you. But no worries, I’ll make sure to repay you well, m’kay? Gosh, I knew I should have put a bogus romantic statement there about paying you with my love for my whole life but you know I can’t go there and you understand me. Thank God for that.” 

At his romantic statement, you feel a thorn of guilt prickling your stomach. The feeling is so vivid you have to rest your forehead on the steering wheel, holding the tears that are pooling on the corner of your eyes since you are excessively tired of crying. Yoongi loves you, he loves you too much and now you have to hurt him. You have to say that somehow, the universe is mistaken for pairing you with someone else as a soulmate, which ironically is his brother. You never feel like you have betrayed him like this before.

“After I finished this super long and exhausting meeting, can we meet? I’ll go to your apartment. I can’t be too long to stay, though. Have to finish my demo.”

“I also have something to tell you. I don’t know if it is good news or bad news. I just can hope.”

Your eyebrow scrunched at his vague last question, but as far as you concerned, you know his news won’t be as shocking as heartbreaking as what you have to tell him. You really do not know if it is right for you to break him the news at the moment. But as far as your heart goes, you need to tell him today. Or else you will break due to all the guilt and sadness piling up inside your chest. Tonight, you will tell him everything, about how you found Taehyung and somehow the universe got all these soulmate things mixed up. And you swear to yourself that you will do whatever in your power to make Yoongi stay, to convince him that you will do everything to assure him that you are the one he is destined to be with, and you do not want anyone else but him, forever.

“See you, Y/N... I—I love you.”

The message ends, but it does stir something inside you. Hoseok words come around your head once again, and your determination rises. You will be with Yoongi. You want to prove to yourself and everyone that you are your own self, nothing—not even the universe could ever take your choice for you about Yoongi. You love him, he loves you, and you are fighting for that. You just wish Yoongi could see how much you want to fight for him, and stop sacrificing his own happiness for everyone. You know how selfless he can be, and you are fucking scared he would give up on you the moment you tell him. But even so, you will not surrender. You will go wherever he goes, you will love him no matter how keen he is to push you away. So then he can finally be happy too, cause you’d choose him over anyone else.

“That’s the least we can do to him, as I know all of us on this table know how Yoongi is the last person to deserve this kind of thing coming his way.”

*

The clock has already struck twelve, your roommate is safely sleeping in her own room but Yoongi still has not arrived. You sent him a message, asking if he were still coming or not, but he only replied with a short message of ‘wait for me’ and a wink emoticon. You feel like you are on the edge somehow, the weather is particularly cold that night so you wear your fluffiest sweater and comfiest pants. You are seated in the shared space of the living room, your fingers fidgeting against each other, and your lips are busy repeating the words you have been practicing since the evening. You also think of a possible scenario after breaking the news, already preparing yourself to always hold onto him. Your head is throbbing, your stomach uncomfortable since you have not eaten since that lunch with Taehyung and Hoseok, but you refused to eat. It seems like the nerves bundling in your stomach is acting up, so the thought of putting anything into your stomach is greatly repulsive now.

Suddenly, your phone signaled one new message. You literally jump on your seat, fumble on your steps to take the electronic resting on the desk in front you. You thought it would be Yoongi, but how wrong you were as you read the message laced with concern for your well-being. Of course from your soulmate.

From : Taehyung

Hey, why is my stomach hurting and my head spinning like I just had the worst hangover ever? What happened? Is everything okay? Have you eaten? [00:17]

You wince, completely insensitive to the fact that you actually share a soulmate bond with someone, and that your pain is no longer your own. You feel sorry for Taehyung, but you’re seriously unable to do anything other than waiting for Yoongi to come home, and tell him what’s bothering you these past two weeks.

To : Taehyung

Sorry for that. But I am now waiting for Yoongi to come, I think I should let him know today. [00:19]

It hasn’t been a minute until you heard a beep, signaling a response. Probably from Taehyung. It is.

From : Taehyung

I see [00:19]

I hope everything will be okay. [00:21]

You glumly rest your phone on your desk, heaving a deep breath while diverting your face to the apartment’s ceiling—a habit you sow whenever you want to stop the tears from falling out. What frustrates you the most, you yourself cannot define what okay is to whatever situation you are having right now. You can’t even think anyway your relationship would ever stay the way it is right now. When Yoongi looks at you after you told him, you will never be just his girlfriend. You would also be Taehyung’s soulmate, the universe-chosen one. You can only hope that will not be the case.

Suddenly, in the midst of your inner conflict, a soft knock was heard on the door. You entangle yourself off of the couch, slightly running to your door to find Yoongi behind it with a tired smile attached on his lips. Even with the tiredness shown on his face, he seems content and the moment he sees you standing in front of him, his eyes instantaneously light up and the smile on his face widens. You were a bit hesitant in what to do, but Yoongi spares no second as he quickly pushes himself on you, attaching his body to yours in a deep hug.

“I am so, so glad to see you.” Yoongi whispers, his eyes closing as he savors the sweet scent of rose and freesia on your body—a familiar one, the one he remembers like his own. You held him closer, burying your face on his shoulder. “Y/N, I swear today is the greatest day of my life and I could not tell you how happy I am to finally end this day with you. So many great things happened today, and I just can’t imagine anything would bring me down right now.”

Listening to his words, you find it’s terribly difficult to even breathe. Yoongi just had the best day of his life—he is usually not really the type to speak up on how happy he is—and you are about to crush him with something that not only spoils his day, but probably everything going on in his life. You know that he is handling big projects with the American artist he talked about previously, and you really do not want to make him pay that much for you. And knowing Yoongi, he is the type to hold every emotion within, and you are terrified about what might result from what you are about to tell him.

Noting your silence, Yoongi pulls you inside your apartment, closing the door and leading you to the sofa. You trail behind him and sit when he gestures you to sit. All done in silence, and you really try your best to put on a smile to him, begging him to just buy your acts and do not ask what has been bothering your mind. Or you will burst into heavy tears and hence, ruining the best day of his life.

But Yoongi seems to be too lively to notice your silence, and he continues the story. You are thankful for the nonchalance. “I had this meeting this afternoon. I sent him a couple of demos, and the mixes I did overnight for his songs. He really seems to like it, and I really am not sure how and why, he at that time directly sent me a contract! God, Y/N, you can’t believe how important this is to me and my company as well. This could be the breakthrough we are waiting for forever…”

You smile widely, trying to set aside the conflict inside your mind and jump to hug him. You caress his back, humming in content and pride for the great news from him. “Gosh, I am really, really happy for you, oppa. You deserve this more than anyone, you have such amazing talent and now the world finally gets the opportunity of enjoying your beautiful creation!”

Both of you let go of each other, and Yoongi engulf your hand in his. “I thank you for that too. For being the biggest supporter ever. You deserve the credit, Y/N.” He smiles warmly, his gruff thumb sweeping your cheek in adoration. You hum, slightly leaning your head to his fingers, calmly savoring the moment you share with him. 

“Yoongi, can I kiss you?” 

By that time, you don’t know but you just feel like you need to kiss him. You are desperate to feel him again, to feel the love you both nurture since five years ago. And on the receiving end, Yoongi doesn't know why you even let out such ridiculous questions, but he doesn’t pay too much heed as he pulls you close, his lips crashing on yours and your eyes lull to close. His lips move and you sense how slow and careful he is with the kiss, like he is not expecting anything other than a taste of your lips. By then, you could not hold the sadness inside your chest, and also your tears back. First tears fall from the corner of your eye, then the second, and it continues until Yoongi tastes the salty liquid and realizes you have been crying.

“Hey, hey, baby.. What’s wrong? Why are you crying? Did I do something?” Yoongi held both sides of your face, eyes filled with worry, shock and guilt over your unexpected response. You shake your head, wiping the tears with your sleeve.

“No! I just… I just love you, Yoongi.” You look up to him with glassy eyes of tears. “I don’t want to lose you.” You frustratedly let out a piece of what you have been thinking since two weeks ago, and you let out all remaining tears crash into a loud sob. Even without a context—which is actually the most important information you have been holding from giving to him. Oh God, how you hope you don't have to do such an evil thing.

“Are you kidding? You would not lose me, silly. You—you matter the most to me. Yes, this job might be good and all, but you are the most important thing here. I could be here, doing what I love to do is because of your support. You told me—not only by words, but with your life that I should be whatever I want to be. I really hate myself for not saying it much, but I love you so bad, it’s crazy, Y/N.” Yoongi let out a nervous chuckle, a slight hue of red coloring his supple cheeks. His left hand is reaching for his pocket, fishing for something. You bit your lips, agonizing everything he said. You can’t believe that Yoongi just breathed the sweetest thing ever to existence, yet you hesitate greatly and are unable to let out even a reply.

“I am going to Los Angeles tomorrow. I have to meet the artist, his company, and other boring people to kick off the whole project.” He nibbles on his lips—a habit of his whenever he is nervous. You found yourself silent, unable to reply. You are currently in the state of overwhelmed by every word he said. He is going to fucking Los angeles and how you would ever confess to him about the vibrant blue scar on your wrist is beyond you.

“I’ll be there for two weeks. And while I’m there, can you help keeping this for me?” He asks while offering a small-sized box with a golden wrapper, a small black ribbon stuck on the top. You look closer with curiosity, hesitantly receiving it despite not knowing what to feel about the gift.

Yoongi appears to be quite nervous as he is looking anywhere but you, his teeth scraping his lower lips harshly. “I bought it two years ago. It’s—it’s for you, though.” 

You look down at the small wrapped box, as you completely have no idea what Yoongi might buy from two years ago for you, and decided to hide it from you until now. A ridiculous idea passes through your head, but you quickly kick it away for making no sense at all. It can’t be that, right? 

“Can I open it now?” You calmly asked, your finger already sitting on top of the ribbon, ready to rip it open. 

“No!” Yoongi shouts, a little bit too loud from his usual level tone, and you frown at his tone. Yoongi is aware that now he is just a pile bundle of nerves, and you seriously can't imagine how much he wants to puke from giving that item he has been thinking about for a long time now. But this is not the right time. Yet. He just has to be patient on this. You deserve better than having it disclosed inside your old apartment, with just him wearing the same clothes he wore since yesterday, and he promises you to give the best he could do with his life. He will find the perfect time, the perfect occasion to do just that.

“Sorry. Actually I wanted you to keep it until I go back to Seoul. But it’s okay if you want to open it before then—since it actually belongs to you—but I would love it if I can give it to you again. In just two weeks.”

You raise your eyebrow in pure curiosity. “Why don’t you just save it and give it to me in two weeks?”

“I—I just want you to keep it for now! I know you are such a slob, Y/N, but you can keep this much, right? For me?” Yoongi sassily replies, unable to handle the pressure again. He went to his old, cold way of asking you to stop messing with his head again. Gosh—you are so innocent and insensitive he just wants to squish and protect you and never let you go.

You scrutinize the box, feeling unsure of the thought of keeping it without knowing what it is for two weeks. But you know you will manage, since it is for Yoongi. You can do this much for him. “Okay then. I’ll try.” You hum as an approval.

“Thank God.” He sighs, thrilled that the conversation regarding the gift is over at last. You do notice how thrilled he was at the change of topic, but refuse to comment. It’s probably just Yoongi being Yoongi again. The gift could easily be a scary prank, you thought to yourself, setting the gift on your desk.

“I actually have to go back to my apartment, finish the demo and pack for my morning flight tomorrow.” Yoongi smiles, raising to stand on spot. You are stricken, suddenly nervous at the fact that he is about to leave and there gone your chance at telling him for another two weeks. But really, how can you tell him now? You seriously can’t do this. You can’t. But you have to!

“I bought all these nuggies for you, Y/N. I do hope you enjoy them.” Yoongi chuckles, pointing at the abandoned package filled with cold nuggets on your desk. You smile knowingly, following his step to the door while inside your head is screaming at you to do something.

In front of your door, Yoongi turns to look at you, with the same, wide smile curling on his lips. “Thank you very much, Y/N. For everything. Being here too, thank you for that.”

A strained smile is the only thing you can show him insead. “Be safe on your trip and come back soon, okay?”

Yoongi hums an appreciation nod, and you thought he was just going to walk and leave. But you are proven wrong as he pulls you by the shoulder, smashing his lips to yours. By then, you already lose your composure. You are desperate to forget everything, wanting to just feel him next to you—both of you are moving fast against all odds, your arms circling around his neck, pushing his lips closer to you as he seeks entrance to your mouth. His palms find purchase on your waist, wasting no space between the two of you. You both enjoy the fight for dominance—even if you know you had to reluctantly give in to him.

After a few minutes just feeling each other's lips and touches, both of you let go to take a deep breath you have been desperately missing since the kiss happened. You notice how messy Yoongi’s have become—to your courtesy—so you raise your hand to fix the strands coming out from his hair, and he does exactly the same to you. You both laugh, still slightly breathless from the kiss.

“I’ll miss you.” You voice out first with sincerity and Yoongi’s lips curl into a smile.

“I’ll miss you too. I’ll call you when I’m in the airport, and also when I arrive. Heck, I’ll call you everyday and will let you know everything I’m doing there.” He proudly announces like it’s something very remarkable to do—in which you know it is since Yoongi is not actually the type to do all that. But you just smile and nod, aware that you indeed are very lucky to know and have him as a boyfriend.

“See you soon, Y/N.”

For exactly thirty minutes, you rest your back on the door, your mind is wandering anywhere. You are a moron. An idiot. Not that you still keep up with the lies, you are left with two weeks of insufferable guilt. Not only to Yoongi.

You know how Taehyung is just suffering as you are now. By heart, you know how much he loves you—even only because of the bond you both shared by destiny. He could have gotten anyone, nearly anyone on his arms right now yet he is destined to be with someone that is someone else’s. And you know how much you owe him an explanation right now, but everytime you think about pushing him away, you find yourself scared beyond words and your body reacting fervently like you never felt before.

Sighing in exhaustion, you walk back to the living room to receive your phone back. You find one message unread, and it’s from your Taehyung. You read word by word, your heart pumped harshly all of a sudden until it literally hurts you.

From : Taehyung

I wish you are happy with him [01:29]

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a.n = oh gosh that was so emotional damn! let me know what you are thinking! :)

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This procedure makes use of the Zoom specialist whitening system and also normally takes 2 hrs. As one of North Ireland's leading oral practices we provide the most up to date strategies as criterion.

2 weeks after your dentist supplies your Enlighten Whitening trays. These are thin as well as comfortable and also need to be put on in bed for 14 evenings.

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The major energetic component in bleach is hydrogen peroxide or carbamide peroxide in concentrations of 6-16%. In a company that evaluates of our methods, we offer an in-surgery treatment which takes about a hr as well as can brighten your smile quickly, so if you are trying to find a quick repair, this might be it. We'll chat this with carefully throughout your examination before any kind of treatment begins. The end result is undoubtedly impacted by your private beginning point yet many people see a considerable enhancement.

How long do teeth whitening kits last?

It can last from a few months to up to 3 years – it varies from person to person. The whitening effect won't last as long if you smoke or drink red wine, tea or coffee, which can all stain your teeth.

We have presented numerous ways to maintain you risk-free, take a look for more information. For your ease we provide clients the capability to publication consultations online. lateethwhitening best teeth whitening oxford ideas make use of Zoom & Enlighten Whitening Expert Tooth Whitening, due to the fact that we recognize just how vital your smile is. After that, the service including the whitening substance is painted on your teeth. Teeth whitening treatments make use of either hydrogen peroxide or carbamide peroxide to bleach out stains on your tooth enamel.

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The whitening strategies will certainly vary for everybody, relying on the sort of stain as well as where it lies. At Perfect Smile, we recognize exactly how essential your smile is and also the effect a brighter, whiter smile can carry your life. In order to work legitimately and also securely in the UK all oral experts must be signed up with us. Students as well as trainees Below you will locate suggestions and also assistance to aid you get ready for a profession in dentistry. Overseas Registration Examination The Abroad enrollment exam is a test that overseas qualified dentists have to come on order to register with the GDC. Enrollment permits dentists to exercise dental care without supervision in the UK. After this time, your dentist will certainly assess the outcome, determine if you require any kind of more therapy, as well as take a final photograph.

Led Laser Teeth Whitening Light Mouth Tray Detox Smile Dental Gel Hi Tooth White.

The goal is to achieve your optimal all-natural whiteness as opposed to a fantastic white. A lot of individuals are suitable for tooth-whitening therapy consisting of those with extreme food, drink or tobacco spots. We discourage the treatment if you are expectant or breast feeding. " Exceptional dental practice !! Very friendly, effective and expert. Whatever is plainly described as well as they can do no more to make one feel secure." Teeth shed their all-natural colour for numerous factors, however the primary sources of teeth looking yellow are food and also beverage, dental health as well as age. If you are desiring for a whiter smile, we at Walkden Dental & Implant Clinic in Worsley can make it a fact. Aesthetic Dentistry At Brite we provide the highest quality of cosmetic oral treatments.

How can I get white teeth in minutes?

HERE ARE A FEW TIPS TO MAKE YOUR TEETH WHITER IN FIVE MINUTES 1. MUSTARD OIL AND SALT. It is a unique home remedy for teeth whitening and for killing the harmful bacteria in your mouth. 2. BAKING SODA AND LEMON JUICE. It is another home remedy to whiten your teeth considerably, from the comforts of your own home. 3. BANANA PEEL.

The gel consists of an item called hydrogen peroxide, which saturates into the teeth and breaks down the stains making use of oxygen, to lighten your teeth. In our experience the best whitening system on the market with the benefit of the home system as well as the power of in surgical procedure therapy with marginal to no sensitivity. Inform Full offers the most effective results with the most affordable concentration. Bleaching treatments transform the natural colour of your teeth, generally turning them anywhere from 4-5 tones lighter.

Usually we lose 10% of brightness a year, however the quantity of dark food items you eat will impact your stability. We suggest that perform periodic 'top-up' treatments to aid preserve your whiteness. Some people may experience sensitivity from cold and hot drinks after therapy.

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They are only efficient if held in the mouth for more than 5 minutes as well as also after that, the optimum focus that they can lawfully hold is just 0.1% active component! If made use of as suggested over, they might help to preserve the color of light teeth. Whitening agents generally work best when they are allowed to saturate over long periods and we discover that home packages achieve their aims 99% of the time. It will not offer you far better results, but gets you white without the trouble in a single session.

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Lucky Lady Chapter 16

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Based on a prompt by @gale-of-the-nomads

Chapters 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, and 15.

So I know what I said last time, but here’s another chapter four days later??? 

Gabriel is creepy and Emilie might be also? As a wise young princess once said, “Your imperfections are beautiful!” 

By the time Ladybug pulled up to the mansion, any remaining tension had pretty well dissipated. Externally, at least. Adrien shot her a prize-winning smile when she opened his car door, and they walked up the stairs together. As far as she could tell, there were no traces of discomfort or confusion anywhere on his stupidly gorgeous model face.

As soon as the grand doors opened, Nathalie was there, seemingly so occupied by whatever was on her tablet that she couldn’t look at either of them.

“Lunch will be ready in fifteen minutes, Adrien. Go shower off.” Ladybug and Adrien glanced at each other. It wasn’t unlike her to be stoic and stern; in fact, Ladybug pretty much expected it. Still, she usually at least made an attempt to ask how their days had been, or at the very least, greet them.

“Nice to see you, too, Nathalie,” Adrien tried, met with the slight raise of a plucked eyebrow, sitting atop a pair of dull blue eyes. “Okay, okay, I’m going.” Partially out of habit and partially out of wanting to be anywhere else, Ladybug followed him.

“Come with me, Ladybug.” Nathalie’s command stopped her in her tracks, and she had no choice but to go with her. Ladybug hesitated, foot poised on the bottom step of the foyer staircase, overwhelmed by the feeling of no, don’t go. Shaking her head, she ignored the feeling and followed.

“M. Agreste has requested to see you.” Ladybug swallowed, staring at the door looming in front of her. Stop, a little voice in her head said. Turn around. Leave. She pushed the door open, wincing as it creaked slightly, and stepped into the atelier, her footsteps echoing despite her effort to be light on her feet. Cautiously, she walked farther into the room, automatically searching for an exit. Main door, side door, two windows. 

“Hello, Ladybug. I don’t believe I’ve had the pleasure of meeting you in person as of yet. As you can see,” He gestured to his computer screen, which she could not, in fact, see. “I’m a very busy man.”

She bowed her head, jumping as the door slammed shut. “Yes, monsieur. It’s an honor to meet the famous Gabriel Agreste.”

Eyes never leaving the screen in front of him, he continued. “I’ve been pleased with your work so far. Of course, I should expect nothing less from a member of the most prestigious line of bodyguards in the country.”

“Of course, monsieur.” Gabriel left his computer and began to pace around the room, hands clasped behind his back as he walked circles around her in measured steps. She summoned what she hoped would appear as courage, standing up a little taller. He stopped in front of her, looking her straight in the eyes.

Get out. She hadn’t breathed for a while, perhaps since she entered the atelier. Every cell in her body ordered her to move run leave go hurry but she stood there, head held high as her own frightened expression taunted her in the lenses of Gabriel Agreste’s glasses.

A hand reached out, past her line of vision, towards her… ear?

“Exquisite earrings,” he commented in a tone that only increased her panic. “Family heirloom?”

“Yes, monsieur,” she had long since dropped the façade of confidence, voice coming out as merely a whisper. After a few excruciating seconds of eye contact, he returned to his computer, not even a trace of emotion anywhere on his face or in his remarkably neutral body language. Ladybug could usually identify how people were feeling from the way they reacted to situations, but Gabriel remained cold, as if challenging her to try to figure him out.

“Tell me, Ladybug, how long have you been training for this position?”

Ladybug paused, unsure how to correctly answer the question. “I had two months to prepare for this specific job guarding your son. As a member of the Lucky Ladies, I have been training since I was seven years old.”

He hummed, but she couldn’t tell if it was because she gave the right answer or the wrong one. “How do you pick a lock?”

She furrowed her brow, confused by the line of questioning. “Most locks can be opened with a wrench and a pick, which can be made from household objects, like hairpins and paper clips.”

“In a fight, is it best to be the primary attacker or to defend yourself?”

“That’s a loaded question, M. Agreste. If my hypothetical assailant started this fight, I would be forced into a defensive position first, and I suppose I would stay there until I could learn my opponent’s fighting style and find a way to trip them up without injuring them if possible. If I was on duty when this fight took place, I would likely have another person to protect, and that would take precedence over nonviolence. I would use whatever means necessary to keep my charge safe.”

Another hum, no more revealing than the last. Silence settled over them, long and suffocating, like breathing but each inhale is shallower than the last, until you’re gasping for air. And just when consciousness is about to slip away, “Do you care for my son?”

It wasn’t the relief she had been hoping for. There was no breath of fresh air for her. What was the correct answer to such a question? The emphatic yes that came to mind definitely wasn’t what he was looking for. 

“I was hired to protect him. I know him enough to care about his well-being.”

The disturbing shadow of an emotionless smile crossed his face. “You remind me of my late wife. Surely you’ve heard about her?” He gestured behind him to a familiar work of art on the wall.

There she was again. Emilie Agreste, larger than life, framing Gabriel’s body on all sides. The fractals of gold caught the light, bouncing off in every direction, as if she didn’t look radiant enough in the dark. The portrait was beautiful, stunning even, but it filled Ladybug with such a sense of dread, and for no apparent reason. Everything in the room did.

She was too divine, too flawless, too… perfect. The portrait, the atelier, Gabriel himself, they were perfect. No piece of furniture out of place, no papers strewn about, not a speck of dust anywhere. It was faultless, and alarmingly so.

“I’m glad we could get to know a little about each other, Ladybug. I look forward to speaking with you again.”

“As do I, M. Agreste.” That was a lie. Ladybug never wanted to get anywhere close to him or his atelier ever again. Even being in the same house was somehow off-putting.

“If you won’t keep me from my work, I won’t keep you from yours.” She took that as an invitation to leave, and she cursed her short legs for not being able to get her out any faster. 

Automatically, she reached for the pin in her pocket on her way to the dining room, rubbing its worn surface as she imagined being back in the parlor with Fu, drinking herbal tea and meditating during her breaks between training sessions. A few deep breaths had her feeling a bit more grounded.

“Hey, Ladybug.” All of a sudden he appeared in the doorway, fresh from the shower and handsome as ever, just flawed enough to take her breath away.

[dysperdis]

tw: traumablogging, talking about suicide & abuse, sexual trauma.

I need to get this shit out, in one big chunk, before I lose track of it.

I keep wondering why the fuck Beru decided to spend so long treating me like shit. Do they just hate me? Was I just a convenient target? Did they realize they'd let their mask slip in front of me & decided I needed to go? Why did the abuse start so immediately? 

Beru basically started moving in within a week after I said it wasn't fair of the two of them to jump straight into the "overly-obsessed new couple" stage of a relationship without so much as a heads up to the other two people involved with this relationship, long before I had any inkling that they were actually already fucking by that point. By week 3, the complaints were pouring in about how "unwelcome" I was making Beru feel by, say, insisting that they tell the other people living in the suite when they're going to spend the night before putting on their pyjamas and setting up on the couch, or letting me know to make food that Beru could eat without taking over the single bathroom in the house for most of the evening (& of course, they "didn't want to make extra work" by saying anything when I was asking them to simply let me know before I started making food!), or literally any frustration I expressed over my boundaries being ignored, all of which were delivered to me by Monica, not Beru, but very clearly as a result of Beru's complaints. I wasn't allowed to set any boundaries; I could be lying half dressed in my bed with Monica with the door shut having a conversation & Beru would invite themselves not just into the room or conversation, but *into my fucking bed* without so much as a word to me. These violations were constant, and at the same time I was pressured into doing more to facilitate the relationship, including chauffeuring the two of them around so they could go to Beru's apartment (did I mention yet that Beru lived alone, and could have been inviting Monica to visit them instead of invading my only available workspace & telling me that wanting to work there made me an asshole?)

The "sleepovers" happening at random most nights a week over that summer were undermining my ability to do any work for the upcoming events I was paying for table space at, space I shared with Beru because I wasn't confident of my own ability to fill a table & thought a "friend" might be able to help. I was explicitly told that wanting to work in the living room overnight for creative work when no one else was awake to use  it was an unfair attempt to monopolize and dominate the suite's common space. Even after I asked Beru to spend time away from the home  because I felt like the lack of boundaries was incredibly unhealthy for me, I still felt obliged to facilitate the relationship in ways that continued to deny me a chance to set any sort of healthy boundaries because of the previous months spent harping on how "unfair" I was being by expecting Monica to prioritize the relationship she was still referring to as her "Primary" relationship & the health of the partner she was calling "husband" over the happiness of her continuing affair with Beru.

I'm pretty sure I paid for 100% of all the tables, including the Canzine table Beru had entirely to themselves because I knew if I went I'd end up pulling out the zine I made to vent about how stressed I was about everything going on, and all of the gaslighting I was starting to notice even then but let myself ignore. I don't know if knowing the answers to any of this would help me, but it probably would help Monica, if it's not another thing she already knows and has been trying to deny while everything burns around her. But I'm not sure if I can ask without my bitterness making it sound like pure pettiness. I kinda wish I had gone to Canzine and taken the zine & let it all blow up then, I would have felt bad about it afterwards but I doubt it would have been anywhere near as terrible as I've been feeling for the last 2 years, but I  wasn't willing to toss 6 years away for someone who only inserted themselves into our lives so substantially a few months prior.

When I told Monica about my discomfort, that I couldn't have this person involved in my life, she acted like she understood. She made a new friend during this time, and started visiting them "going out for coffee" a lot. She kept finding excuses for why I shouldn't worry about giving her a ride, and finally she admitted that it was because she was still seeing the person she had cheated on me with, and pressured me into agreeing that it was "incredibly unfair" to demand she either stop cheating, or stop pretending to respect our relationship. She told me she wanted to work on our relationship, while targetting my insecurities to convince me that expecting honesty and respect for my boundaries was abusive, and that I was overreacting. Throughout this time, I was gradually scheduling my life more and more around when Beru wanted to see Monica; the solution Beru, Monica, and Liz decided on for "letting me get Beru out of my life" was to continue seeing Beru while never mentioning their name, or giving me details I needed to know how to schedule my own day-to-day life. If you ever wanted to know how someone could participate in abuse without actually directly interacting with them, well, there's you're answer- you continue as a shadow presence in their life while your fellow abusers take all the direct action. And, every time the subject came up, Monica didn't actually want to break up with me, and agreed to "work on things" (tell me how I needed to forgive her & stop ~getting in the way of her happiness~, but also maybe planning 2 or 3 "date nights" with me before getting distracted & falling immediately back into the same habits. At some point, she started using the insecurities she had learned about me thru the years to start convincing me that I needed her, and that I wouldn't be able to survive without her. She knew exactly what fears to prey on, and I believed her. Meanwhile, Monica had a whole new circle of friends, who Beru has been telling that the reason I can't stand to be around them is jealousy or some shit. I thought I was imagining the distain in their voices when they realized I was there, but no- Beru has been telling lies to them about me, and Monica is too concerned with them liking Beru to intervene, so now she's surrounding herself with people who don't like me and are enouraging her to dislike me.

As for Liz, she pretended to be a neutral party throughout, shutting me down any time I tried to bring up concerns about the effect Beru's shadow presence in my life by telling me "she's Beru's friend, too" so it was inappropriate to talk to her about it- even when I had literally just tried to kill myself for the second time in 4 days. I had long ago noticed that Beru seemed to get upset any time word got back to them about me complaining about the various issues I had with their relationship with Monica & the implications of my own & that when that happened, Monica started taking it out on me; between that and a desire to "protect" Monica- who was slowly but surely picking up a lot of Beru's cruelty and boundary issues- from judgement because a) she was the one who was doing most of the direct harm, even the stuff that was clearly initiated by Beru, and 2) Beru has a bit more social padding to protect them (a cutesy autistic dfab enby vs a recently-transitioned trans woman with a history of ~scary~ mental illness DXs). So I stopped talking to friends about my issues. I'm not going to go into details about the boundary issues except to say that being surprise face-fucked the first time I tried to give head at 14 by a dude who was loudly disappointed I didn't swallow is no longer the most traumatic sexual violation I've experienced.

Meanwhile, Monica (and to a lesser extent, Liz) were encouraging me to distance myself from my last remaining safety net outside of that garbage fire of a relationship because the idea of coming out to anyone in my family made them uncomfortable. So, instead of dealing with it, they turned anything that involved me interacting with my family at the house for more than 5 or 10 minutes into a sign that my boundaries with my family were still too weak, and I needed to make them stronger. I needed to not talk to my elderly grandma because of how stressful it was for me (mostly because I kept having scramble to come up with more lies about so many details of my own relationship, because being honest with someone who had no way of outting them to anyone they'd care about even if they were inclined to do so was too uncomfortable.)

By the end of the relationship, when Liz walked out the door with less than 24 hours actual notice of her move out date (and no, a single spoken sentence a week before to a person who was between back-to-back suicide attempts, trying to keep track of a 3rd person in the convo who was bouncing rapidly between mania and an extreme suicidal state, and also on T3 & a bunch of antibiotics with harsh side effects does not fucking count, no matter how much she pretends otherwise,) someone tried to get me to see her side by asking me if it didn't make sense that she was avoiding actually giving me anything that resembled a reasonable amount of notice because she felt "awkward" talking to me, and I fucking snapped.

Maybe if she had sucked it up and had one or two of those "awkward conversations" a little earlier, I wouldn't have needed to ask her to hide the pills so I didn't go through with the plans I had made to kill myself that night (I was literally double checking my math on the dosages when she got home). Instead, she pretended to be a neutral bystander in her own relationship, while taking advantage of my subservience and inability to set boundaries in most situations. Most of the private time I sought out with Monica ended up including Liz because I felt I wasn't allowed to say no to that, either.

I was accused of driving away my support network by calling out Liz and saying that any other abuse apologists who wanted to defend Beru to me could piss off with her, but I strongly disagree. Considering Liz part of my support network was a dangerous mistake that could have gone much worse, if she had decided to stay out a little longer or something that night, or had snuck to her room without me noticing (a common occurrence, I had taken it as a sign that I was still taking up too much space by existing in the common spaces of the house.)

Basically, all three of them were fucking awful to me over the last 2 years, and used any negativity I displayed about the situations they were putting me in to beat me over the head, telling me how "unfair" I was.

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Broken Pieces Pt. 4: Beth’s Answer

Beth knew something was wrong as soon as Jay didn’t walk through the doors of their apartment building at exactly 5:37 pm.

She imagined what always happened at time, what should have been happening then: Jay would check their mail, draining the last drops of soda from a Grape Crush can.  Condensing the aluminum, they would smile to themselves and deftly toss the can into the recycling bin while humming a wordless tune.  They would switch their mail to their left hand before heading up the stairs to knock on Beth’s door and tell her the stock market index.  Beth didn’t know why Jay did this.  To her knowledge, neither of them owned stocks, but it made Jay feel better, so Beth always smiled and wished them well.

That was their routine.  That was safe.  This emptiness was not.

“Calm down,” Beth muttered to herself, sipping herbal tea from a hideously orange discount mug.  “The kid could have a night out with friends.  (On a Thursday?)  They could work late.  (Despite their painstaking precision)  They could...have a date?”

Beth shouldn’t be worried about them.  Not when they were just a few minutes late.

But then Jay didn’t show up to the apartment’s lounge the next morning to help Beth with her crossword puzzle.  They didn’t tease her about ignoring the Sudoku or make faces at her mug of tea.  Beth grit her teeth and shut her eyes.  She couldn’t take it anymore.  She had to act, to do something, to try to right this wrong in the world.

“What’s the name?”

“Jay.  Well, technically Jonathan Anthony Young.  Junior.  Their dad died a few years ago and they’ve gone by Jay ever since.”

Beth knew she was rambling, but she couldn’t help it.  The police station made her nervous and the cop behind the desk just wouldn’t seem to listen.

“Age?”

“26.  Maybe 27?  They don’t talk about their birthday much because they hate being the center of attention and never want folks to make a fuss.”

“And you are?”

“Their neighbor.”

“Just a neighbor?”

“A friend.”  

Beth squeezed her hands together.  She needed more caffeine.

“Look, are you sure he didn’t just go out of town for a few days without telling you?  I mean, it’s not like you’re family,” the cop said, fake sympathy dripping from her voice.

That was it.  Beth had had enough.  She slammed her shaking hands down on the desk in front of her.

“Look, the kid has OCD, okay?  They don’t break their routines, not for anything or anyone. So when I say Jay didn’t meet me for tea and crosswords this morning I’m not saying that I miss them.  I’m saying that they’re MISSING.  If you don’t let me file a Missing Person’s report whatever happens to them is on you.”

***

72 hours.

Beth cursed under her breath as she left the precinct.  72 hours before the police would do anything.  72 hours before anyone else would even care.  Beth tried to hold out half a hope that Jay’s fancy-pants computer job would notice when he didn’t show up in the morning, but she was too angry to think straight.

Jay was in trouble and she couldn’t help him.  All she could do was wait.

Months passed. Beth had never felt more useless.  Somedays her godawful mugs were filled with more whiskey than tea.

Then there was a knock on her door in 342 B.

“Elizabeth Martinez?”

The man in the suit eyed Beth warily, but remained professional.  Whoever he was expecting, it obviously wasn’t an overweight 38-year-old secretary.  His hands were full of papers and he was backed by stiff security guards.

Beth straightened her posture.  She wouldn’t intimidated without a damn good reason.

“Yes,” she said, parking her body in the middle of her door.

“You were listed by Morgan Security as Jay’s emergency contact.”

The words almost made her knees buckle.

“What happened?  Did you find him?  Is he..?”

“He’s alive.”

Beth breath wooshed out of her in a rush.  She felt something like relief for the first time in months and it terrified her.

“We’d like to discuss the details,” the suited man continued.  “May we come in.”

Beth stepped back from the door.

***

Torture.

Beth’s hands gripped her mouth and her chest as they told her.  Jay had been TORTURED.  Apparently they’d held up well, hadn’t given up anything.  Beth couldn’t care less about that.  She just wanted to spare him that pain.  That agony.  Jay was just a kid.  They didn’t deserve…

She shook her head and turned back to the conversation.  That train of thought would take her nowhere.  She couldn’t help Jay then, but she could as hell help them now.

Morgan Security didn’t want this to go public.  Their clients’ trust in their company was paramount.  The business didn’t want it shaken by a scandal like this.  They offered to pay for all of Jay’s medical bills, rent for a house out of the city, a generous stipend for Beth so she could take care of Jay full time.

Remuneration, they called it.  Thanks for Jay’s hard work and loyalty.

Beth called it Hush Money.

She still signed on the dotted line.

“Jay’s mother?” She demanded before the deal was done.

“Excuse me?”

“She’s sick.  Lives in a psych ward at Felicity General.  Jay always spent a considerable amount of their salary to keep her cared for and comfortable.”

“Certainly,” the suit said.  “We can continue those arrangements.”

“Good.  Now when can I see Jay?”

“I’m afraid that’s not possible.”

Beth squared her gaze and prepared for a fight.

“Jay’s parents are out of the picture.  Their father is dead and their mother can’t tell a hawk from a handsaw.  What do you want to bet that Jay put me down as primary carer on his medical forms too?  Wait, I bet you already know that.  So if you want to try to stop me from tracking that kid down and ramming 12 lawsuits down your throat, be my guest.  I think it would be easier if you took me to him.  Now.”

The suit straighten his tie and cleared his throat.  He nodded.

Beth grabbed her purse to follow him out the door when she heard a soft murmur from the security guard behind her.

“All this trouble for one broken computer tech…”

Before she knew it, Beth was at the man’s throat, finger pointed firmly at his nose.

“You will never call Jay broken again, you hear me?  They may be hurt.  Hell, they may be hurting for the rest of their life.  But they are a person, not a thing you can toss on the ground and just leave.  They gave everything for you and even if they didn’t, they would still deserve your respect.”

She spit in the guard’s face.  No one else moved.

“Now come with me,” she said darkly.  “I’ve got a job for you.”

***

A flurry of activity met Beth and the suit as they walked into Jay’s spacious hospital room.  Guards were stationed at every entrance.  Beth wasn’t sure if they were supposed to make Jay feel safe or to protect Morgan Security’s investment.

“What’s wrong?” the suit said.

“Jay’s asking again,” said a nearby nurse, walking by with a used IV.  “We’ve tried telling them that the operation took 8 hours or that they slept on and off for 3 days.  They’re still agitated.  We don’t want to sedate them until after the doctor has examined their ribs.”

Beth breezed passed the conversation until her eyes found the hospital bed.  Immediately, her hands went to her mouth and chest again.

Jay was hardly recognizable.  Even at 6’2,’’ they looked small.  Starvation had withered them down to a bean pole.  The parts of their skin that was visible above the blankets was purpled with bruises that seemed to sink into their body like they were still being beaten.  Their hands were suspended above them, encased in white plaster casts with splints everywhere that Beth could see.

Jay was clearly exhausted and disoriented.  Dark circles under his eyes betrayed in the wildness within.  They thrashed against their restraints, trying to meet the gaze of everyone around them.

“How long?” they asked, voice cracking.  “How long?”

“7 months, 24 days, and this morning,” Beth said loudly.  Everyone in the room turned to look at her.  She kept her eyes planted firmly on Jay’s.

“You’ve been gone for 7 months, 24 days, and this morning,” she continued, motioning the security guard she accosted in her apartment to bring over a formidable cardboard box.  “And we noticed, Jay.  We missed you every second.  We would never let you fade away.”

The patient’s struggling ceased.  Jay looked back at Beth, still lost.

She went to the box and lifted newspaper after newspaper out of it, bringing all she could hold in her arms to Jay’s bedside.  She held them up one by one so Jay could see the dates, the tangible proof that time existed outside of whatever cell he was held in, proof that they were out of there and that this, this was real.

“That’s today’s date, Jay-bird.  That’s the date you are free.”

Jay, however, just kept scanning the page until he found the Sunday crossword.

“You didn’t do it,” they whispered.

“Of course not.  I didn’t do any of them.” Beth said, gesturing to the box of papers.  “I couldn’t.  Not...not without you.”

She brushed curly blond hair back from Jay’s forehead as it tightened into a frown.

“But, I can’t...I can’t help you,” Jay said miserably, gesturing with his head at his splintered hands.

“Pfft, as if I ever let you write on my crosswords anyway!” Beth said gently.  “Now will you settle down and let these doctors do their job?  I don’t know about you, but I need a nap.  Then you can help me with 12 down.  It’s a stumper.”

For the first time sense the Faceless Men jumped them, Jay smiled.  They settled back against the pillows, fading quickly into a deep and dreamless sleep.

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[words-writ-in-starlight]

Hey Star! Bit of a weird question, do you know where's a good place to find a simplified ruleset for dnd 5e, specifically for a wizard. My wizard is finding it quite hard to remember all the rules and before I condense them all myself I thought I'd ask around and see if anyone has any resources that would do the trick. (Also, a quick update on the campaign, I made our kobold rogue worried about some mountains and now I know why you love to make your players worry. I feel very accomplished.)

Off the top of my head, I don’t know of any good resources for simplified 5e rules--I started out playing 3.5, so 5e is already about 14x simpler than what I originally learned.

I really want to convey that, as a 3.5 Druid on a campus with dubious-at-best wifi, I had one binder full of spells and another binder full of wild shapes, and spent 85% of my combat time trying to grasp the 3.5 grapple rules.  As a rules-laywer little-shit player, I miss having four thousand skills that I could finesse to give me stupid-high advantages on things like “Search” (plus thirty, I had a plus thirty to Search in my last 3.5 campaign), but 5e is WAY more accessible.

HOWEVER.  Even 5e is still pretty rules-dense, so let me try and hit some suggestions.  Without knowing the specifics of what your players are struggling with, these are going to be pretty broad, but you’re totally welcome to send in a more specific request if you want.

No one knows all the rules to DnD.  If a player, especially a new player, needs to check with their DM for every skill check and every attack roll, that’s okay!  Every DM I know keeps the Player’s Handbook in arm’s reach to panic-check a rule or a spell, or else they fully Griffin McElroy it and put the “rules” through a blender.  Please reassure your wizard from me that it’s totally okay if they’re having trouble keeping things straight.  As long as they’re having a good time, they don’t need to be able to recite the damage for Fireball off the cuff.  That’s what references are for.

The internet is your friend.  Again, multiple binders full of spells and animal shapes to be a 3.5 Druid.  This was because the internet on Friday nights got bad fast because Dolly (boys dorm) liked to run LAN parties, so googling my spells wasn’t practical because it took so long.  HOWEVER, the internet doth give many gifts, and if you and your party have regular access to it, I wholeheartedly recommend abusing that to your heart’s content.  Don’t even bother trying to keep that shit in order in your head or on your character sheet.  I shelled out for a DnDBeyond account, which does work great for my party, but you don’t need one--googling spells, special attacks, whatever, will work like a dream.  To facilitate your party being able to do this during fast-paced combat, as the DM, I suggest keeping people apprised of who’s coming up next in combat!  I do this by saying “Okay, Azara, you’re up, Heinous, you’re on deck,” as a way to remind people that they’re coming up and that they should be planning their next move, including looking up anything they might need.

It’s always a d20.  Okay, you don’t literally exclusively need a d20, but I resolved a lot of my mom’s anxiety about using the wrong dice by saying very plainly “if you want to hit someone, do something, or interact with the world in any way, you are going to use a d20.”  Everything else is near-exclusively used for damage rolls.  Damage rolls using Other Dice are described explicitly in spells or weapon attacks--for example, Fireball does 8d6 damage (described when you google the spell) and a greataxe does 1d12 damage (you should have weapon damage noted down beside the weapon).  Basically, it’s a d20 until your DM says otherwise.

Proficiency bonus is your friend.  You get a proficiency bonus in 5e rather than level-by-level skill point allotment like in 3.5.  This helps balance the playing field and limit minmaxing to a more manageable level, and also reduces the amount of math you need to do in order to level up.  Here is how any roll in 5e works: the number on the d20 + the relevant stat + (if relevant) proficiency bonus.  Let’s say you’re a Level 3 barbarian, and you want to hit someone with an axe.  You roll a d20 and get a 13, then you add your strength for a melee attack--let’s say it’s +4--bringing you to a subtotal of 17.  But you’re proficient with your axe!  So now you add +2 for your proficiency bonus, bringing you to a 19 all told.  Good job, your target is definitely going to feel it.  If you only know three numbers in 5e, they should be your proficiency bonus, your primary stat (for our example barbarian it’s Strength, for a wizard it’s Intelligence), and your armor class.  If pressed, you could probably get through a whole session with just those three numbers.  As long as you know what you are and aren’t proficient in (mark it down on your sheet if you haven’t already), you’re good.

Spell slots: write them down.  If you’re using DnDBeyond, they have a helpful little line of boxes to tick off each time you use a spell of a certain level, or an expendable ability like Rage or Action Surge.  I would recommend this technique, it’s the one I used when I did paper character sheets.  Make tally marks, tick boxes, cross out numbers, whatever.  If you have your spell slots written down instead of trying to remember what you still have available, you have more brain power to free up for other, more interesting things.

Combat’s a bitch.  Combat rules are the finickiest part of DnD, and again, do not feel bad about not getting them right off.  In fact, don’t feel bad about not getting it for multiple years.  I probably only got a good handle on combat in the last six months and I’ve been DMing for three years.  That being said, you can do three things during your turn, and one thing the rest of the time, and I’m going to break them down as best I can.  During your turn you have:

MOVEMENT: Pretty much what it says on the tin.  You have a movement speed based on what kind of critter you are (and occasionally what class you are, e.g. monks), and you can move that far. 

ACTION: This is where you Do Stuff, including but not limited to attacking.  You will start at a low level with one attack per action--that may be an axe, a spell, a punch, whatever, but you get to deal damage or protect your friends or whatever.  As you level up, some classes can do more stuff with a single action, notably fighters, who can basically evolve into a murder whirlwind with four attacks per action.  On your action, you can also interact with something (like, say, a bomb you’re trying to defuse or a lock you’re trying to pick), keep moving (this is called “Dash” and lets you move in the same way as the above MOVEMENT), get paranoid (this is called “Dodge” and gives you advantage on getting out of range of an attack), use your special abilities (like a ranger’s Primeval Awareness, or a cleric’s Channel Divinity), hide, (this is called “Hide”), or any number of other things.  You may also get something called an Action Surge, depending on your class, which lets you take ACTION twice in a row.  (High level fighters can actually do like...twelve attacks on a turn with this.  Fighters are underappreciated.  Be a fighter, julienne your enemies.)

BONUS ACTION: Something short and sweet that may also save your life.  Barbarians can Rage as a bonus action.  Certain spells can be triggered as a bonus action, like Hunter’s Mark or Hex.  Other spells can be used as a bonus action, like Spiritual Weapon.  Some classes can do other stuff as a bonus action, like a monk using it to attack or a rogue using it to hide.  If you’re not sure if something is a bonus action, it’s probably not.  It’s a fairly limited but powerful list.

If you’re not the person who’s currently taking their turn, you have something called a REACTION, once per turn, where you do something triggered by someone else’s turn.  Most importantly, this allows you to do something called an attack of opportunity when someone leaves your personal space--you get to whack them with whatever melee weapon you’ve got.  For some classes (notably wizards and anyone who can access the wizard spell list) you will eventually be able to use your reaction to exercise the Biggest Dick Energy in all of Dungeons and Dragons, which is called Counterspell.  Actually any spell saying that its casting time is “1 reaction” can be cast like this, but mostly people just use it for Counterspell.  REACTION is also what lets you “hold” your action, which means saying “I can hear Nym running toward me with the goblins behind her--I’m holding Fireball until the second the horde is in range.”  When the ‘trigger’ you chose happens, you can do your thing.  This means you’re committed and cannot adjust your plan if things change (in the example, Nym might still be in range, but your Fireball is still going to go off), but it also gives you the ability to lay a trap.  

Again, combat is a bitch.  The DM’s job is to know this stuff and help the players when they need it.  There’s no shame in needing a cheat sheet with this stuff noted down or needing to google references for casting time or whatever.  As long as you’re keeping things rolling and having fun, combat works however the DM says it does.  If you realize you made a mistake, just move on.  The nerd gods don’t care.

Any rule too obnoxious to live with can be dismissed by the DM.  You think I played around with 3.5 grapple rules when I was DMing?  Absolutely not.  In my campaigns you rolled a strength check and you lived or died by it with good grace.  If there’s something nonessential that your players really struggle with or you personally think is dumb as hell, just.  Don’t use it.  Wizards of the Coast isn’t going to come to your home and shake you down for ignoring travel rules or whatever.  Homebrew, my babies.

[fandoms-and-flute]

Post Occupational Therapy

I just finished 2 months of occupational therapy for my right hand, and as a flute player, maintaining physical health is essential to having a long-term career so here’s what I experienced and learned! and feel free to send any asks if you have any questions :)

How did you start going to Occupational Therapy? *warning this is a bit of a long explanation and US specific)

If you live in the US (specifically NJ) as a young adult, you will 100% relate that health insurance is a nightmare. I have the state insurance so for me to do anything (even go to the allergist) I need a referral from my PCP (primary care physician aka my doctor). 

When I started to notice how bad my hand health was affecting my playing the FIRST thing I had to do was go to my primary doctor, and he told me that I should first see a rheumatologist (aka hand specialist). Now you can’t just get a referral no no no-- you have to spend hours calling places to find out if they 1. take your insurance and 2. have an appointment available/take new patients. How do you find these places, you ask (with no evident sarcasm)? Well let me tell you: On the very shitty healthcare website that hasn’t been updated since originally published! 🙃

Once I found a rheumatologist, I then had to go BACK to my primary doctor to get a referral. Now I was very fortunate because I was able to get an appointment within a week (usually it could take a month or more!) so I really lucked out. At that appointment, I was checked for all different problems (carpal tunnel, arthritis, etc) - I had 5+ vials of blood taken for testing and X-rays done all on that day; and the rheumatologist was the one that told me I should go to occupational therapy. But it’s not that easy (of course it isn’t, it was so stressful).

When you have the basic health insurance, it is nearly impossible to get a hold of any therapy or pain management that takes your insurance. I had to call places several times - one place that could take my insurance actually flooded and so I was borderline mental breakdown. TWO WEEKS in (3 weeks of pain), I finally found a local hospital that had a rehabilitation center that accepted my insurance. Hooray. Except it was a bit more complicated than that. My advice is to just call as many places and ask “What insurance do you guys take/Do you take ____ insurance?” because co-pays are expensive so you want that covered as much a possible!

Now that I found a place that was accepting patients and took my insurance, I had to go back to my primary doctor (for the 3rd time) to NOT ONLY get a referral. I made that mistake - I went to my first appointment with just a referral and they could talk to me, but couldn’t run any tests. Why? Because you need a referral AND a prescription 😒so I got the prescription from my primary doctor (for those keeping score, 4 visits) and FINALLY I could go to occupational therapy for 12 visits. 🎉

tldr: I took me 3 1/2 weeks to finally find an occupational therapist (4 weeks if you count when I had my first official appointment). And was a super complicated process.

Why did you go to Occupational Therapy?

For a few years, I constantly felt like my technique was suffering because of my body’s inability to keep up with the demand of the flute. It peaked this semester when I had complete numbness and pain in my right hand (specifically the wrist and the ring and pinky fingers). 

Did you feel like Occupational Therapy was helpful?

Yes! I am hyper aware of my body at all times so I knew things were wrong, but I didn’t know what specifically (inside) was wrong or even how to fix it so OP helped me target specific problems and manage them. I learned stretches and exercises to manage my pain. It will still be an ongoing battle - you don’t just go to occupational therapy, do some work and then are OK for the rest of your life. It is being aware and constantly checking in and adjusting in order to manage the pain so if you are interested in going, just be aware that it is a very mentally tiring effort that will require your full involvement in order to see results.

What did you go to Occupational Therapy for?

As I said before I went for complete numbness and pain in my right hand (specifically the wrist and the ring and pinky fingers). I learned that I had carpal tunnel (which is the wrist) and cubital tunnel (which is a inflamed and pinched nerve in the elbow that affect the ring and pinky fingers). 

*also, when I went back to the Rheumatologist for my results (one month later), I learned that I have osteoarthritis (in my right hand thumb) - which has no cure and is super painful. This is the type of brace that I wear to support my thumb while playing flute:

What did you learn from Occupational Therapy?

Continuing from the above question, I started with learning about the wrist/elbow. I learned that I tend to hyper/over-extend my elbow. One of the first exercises I learned that I still use daily is:

I tend to have a high body temperature so I struggle to tell when my wrist or elbow is inflamed - this exercise had helped me focus on the area (I use my other hand to massage the tendon and through touch I have learned what it feels like when my carpal tunnel is flaring up). Icing also helps a lot!

An elbow exercise I learned was: 

This was targeted towards the cubital tunnel to help when I had wrist pain (on the side of the pinky/ring fingers). Because I hyper/over-extend my elbow, this exercise is targeted at activating my shoulders/trap muscles and (vocab word) serratus anterior!

One of the recent exercises I learned was one to engage this serratus anterior - facing the wall, you have to have your feet shoulder width apart or slightly wider; elbows and wrist must be against the wall (also shoulder width apart), and keep the back straight. You can do this with or without a resistance band, move your arms up, back to initial position, and down (one arm at a time, and tiny movements) - it is to focus on using the lower traps instead of compensating with the elbows.

How did Occupational Therapy help/affect your music playing?

Every time before playing I would stretch for a minimum of 5 minutes. Doing any of the stretches mentioned above, plus just general body stretches- I would also take a few minutes to focus on breathing (doing a bit of the Breathing Gym, and if you aren’t familiar check this out!!). I would also take breaks any time I felt any pain and I always have ice and an ice pack with me. Primarily I would ice my wrist and elbow depending on the pain (and I would stretch). 

As previously mentioned, I wear a thumb brace when I play. However, when I’m just going about my day (typing, writing, sleeping) I also have to take care in order to maintain my hand’s health. This requires me wearing a brace for my carpal tunnel: 

I literally wear this anytime I sleep, write or type because it prevents me from curving my wrist in a way that causes inflammation. (General health throughout the day is connected and essential to maintaining playing health!!!).

Also, this is probably my favorite thing to come from OP, I present to you... the ELBOW PILLOW:

(Yes, that is a rolled up scarf that is tied with a hair tie.) This is a great way to engage the serratus anterior, rather than use my elbow (it must be held, it can’t be suspended by a strap or belt). And it reminds me to bring my elbow down and back. 

If you were to see my practice notebook, you would see me writing EVERY DAY the same posture mantra: shoulders down and back, elbows down and released, hips and shoulders even, and lift the neck. It is a huge learning curve that will take time to become habit, but right now I’m still fighting my body have better posture.

What was a regular appointment of Occupational Therapy like and how often did you go?

I went to OP only once each week (because I’m a very busy college student with no time for life outside of school), however, I was recommended to go twice a week! 

Every time that I went (after the initial measuring appointment), I arrived 10 minutes early to have paraffin wax on my hand and then I would sit with the paraffin and a HUGE heating pad for 10 minutes. In the beginning half of OP, I had the elbow, wrist, and forearm massaged to break up knots - and my therapist taught me how to find tension spots and how to break knots without hurting myself. In the later half of OP, I would do various exercises such as: 1. a noodle that I would have to bend up or down (to activate the shoulders/back instead of my elbows), 2. putty (yes actually putty) to smush with my fingers for carpal tunnel, 3. using a rolled up towel against my back (to be flat against) to pull back my shoulders, 4. modifications (next ask!), and 5. learning a bunch of different stretches.

What kind of modifications did you learn from Occupational Therapy outside of music?

For writing... I am a mess. I wear the carpal tunnel brace because my wrist wants to curve. I need to write at an angle to the desk (both my body and the paper). I have a pencil/pen grip that allows me to curve my thumb in rather than the hitch hiker thumb, and use my index finger. Also, I have to write at a slant using a binder to help my wrist’s angle. 

Before: (my thumb would go under my hand and I would rest the pen/pencil on the webbed part of my hand.. essentially no support).

After: (my wrist is forced to be straight by the paper being at an angle. The black thing on the pencil is the grip that has grooves for my fingers so there is more control) - and the pencil is no longer resting in the webbed part.

For typing... I am beyond a mess (I don’t know how this happened, I grew up with all those typing CD-roms... but I type with only 2 fingers, maybe 3 in each hand. I leave out the ring and pinky fingers...). The modification for this was to elevate myself above the computer/keyboard -  either a short desk, raise my chair or sit on a pillow (anything to get my forearms at a downward diagonal). Also, having a pillow/towel behind my back (flat back) with shoulders back rather than rounded forward. 

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There is a whole lot more that I worked on, but like I said just send asks if you have questions. I still have loads to work on, manage and be mindful of.

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So today I had a terrible storm at my house and a tree (about 1/3 of a huge tree) got ripped off from its trunk and landed on my car. I rent from a landlord and she has homeowner's insurance that may/may not pay for the removal of the tree from the yard and my car. My question is, shouldn't her insurance cover the damage to my property (my car)? Her property damaged my property so in my mind her HO insurance should pay for any damage to my car but she said she thought I would have to file a claim on my auto insurance.""

How much life insurance coverage do I need?

I am a single mother, and have 1 child (she is 2 years old). I am in my mid 20's and healthy. I have no debt besides a small student loan, and do not own a home. My parents are fairly young (late 40's), and would be more than capable of taking care of my daughter if I die (they are upper/middle class). I'm not quite sure how much life insurance I need to carry in my situation now, or if I were to purchase a home etc. Right now I am insured for $50,000. Is that too little? How much coverage would I need? I want to have a good level of coverage, but I can't afford to pay more than $25 a month premium right now.""

What is the average of full coverage car insurance for a chavy blazer 2001 in north Carolina?

I am planing to buy a chavy blazer 2001 used car. I know I will need full coverage insurance. I am a good driver, haven't have any accidents or traffic violations. How much would the car insurance cost in North Carolina?""

How much would nyc car insurance be for a 19 year old insuring only himself? ?

How much would nyc car insurance be for a 19 year old insuring only himself? ?

Cheapest car insurance company for young drivers?

I am 18 and just passed my test. Any one know of any really cheap insurers that i can go with?

How can I find affordable auto insurance quote online?

How can I find auto car cheap insurance quote?

Cheapest motorcycle insurance?

Im 16 and Im thinking about buying a small sports bike. like a Kawasaki Ninja 250 or Honda CBR250R. I have a my license and a clean driving record. If i just wanted to be covered for Bodily Liability and Property Liability, what company do you think would offer the cheapest insurance? I know that under my circumstances insurance will be disgustingly high, but i want a bike that bad.""

What are my options for car insurance for son who is 16?

Son is getting his license next week. He does not have a car yet. Wife and each have a car with full coverage. Adding my son to my policy will be $1,500 extra per year. Is there another option to insure him? Mainly Im wondering if I should/could get him a junker and a separate insurance policy with just liability for him and his car or if he could drive our cars with just liability from another insurer? Not sure how that works.""

Where i can get very cheapest motorcycle insurance?

i bay a motorcycle and my dad don't agree to give some money for my insurence

What insurance companies allows under 25's to drive any car on fully-comprehensive insurance?

Hi there, I'm 18 and have insurance with Tesco young drivers however that does not cover me to drive every car as under 25's aren't covered. I need to drive my mums car soon and she is abroad on business for 6months so cannot add me on to her insurance either, which leaves me with a problem. I can't find a company anywhere that allows under 25's to drive any car on fully-comprehensive insurance so was wondering if anybody out there did? Thank you""

Does anyone know of any cheap car insurance for an 18 year old?

Does anyone know of any cheap car insurance for an 18 year old?

Does alaska have state insurance like Tenn.Care?

Does Alaska have state insurance?

""Health insurance for young, healthy people?""

I'm trying to find a health insurance plan made for someone like me- 26, male, non-smoker,non-drinker, currently at ideal weight, regularly exercises, no health conditions, no prescriptions, etc. I mostly want something that'll cover check-ups with maybe a small co-pay, and then has a high deductable for a broken bone/ sports injury etc. Everything available at my job seems to cater to the chronically ill/ older/ heavy prescription user. private plans are to much per month. This is why I decline medical benefits, year after year! I know any of these plans would be helpful in the case of serious injury- just in case. But none seems to offer any tangible benefits like, I don't know, 2 doctor visits a year? Every plan requires that I exhaust my deductable first- I'll never spend 250-1000 a year for doctors visits! I'm guessing, based on cost that a high deductable plan is best for my broken bone scenario- but how can then screw me out of seeing a doctor just to get a check up?""

Are you supposed to have car insurance at 15?

i just thought of this just now and i remember having to pay for auto insurance at 15 just for a school permit for school and back and i hear some people dont have insurance was i right to pay for it or was i tricked because he says you have to be 16 and said he'll accidentally put that i am and say it was a mistake to the company, i think this is a trick but idk and again others dont pay for insurance but were they just too cheap to do it and risk the consinquence? or did i get tricked back then by my insurer""

Car Insurance for G35 Coupe 2003-2007?

I called triple A and they told it would be 2,700 dollars for a G37 Coupe for a 16 year old boy in a family plan, but how about a G35 Coupe? They are much older, so I assume that the insurance would be much lower? An estimate anyone? I Live in Northern California""

""What are the cheapest companies to insure me as a 2nd driver on a 1.2 punto (MALE, 19, UK)?

I'm a 19 year old male living in the UK in Birmingham! I passed around a 2 months ago! The cheapest quote I found was 1600 on a comparison site but it's too expensive! Is it worth getting a tracking device and alarm and stuff fitted? How else could I lower my insurance?? Could you recommend any other cars I could get instead of a punto? (no higher than insurance group 5 and no more than 3000) THANKS! =]

Where can I find Health insurance providers?

I am looking to buy a temporary health insurance. I am a student and need this health insurance for only 3 months. Do you know any reliable, health insurance providers that could help me with this? If you could please provide a website or a phone I would really appreciate it! Thank You""

How insurance coverage work for new a car ?

Hi, I intend to buy a car by the end of this month on the weekend (I work from Monday to Friday and do not want to skip working). I will use my old car for trade-in. And I will switch my current insurance on to the new car. Since it all will be happening on the weekend (my insurance office closed), I will have to switch the insurance on Monday. If something happen to the new car before the insurance switched (sometime before Monday), who will cover the car ? Any advice ? Thank you...""

What do you think it would cost for a 2001 cavalier coupe monthly for car insurance?

I just need an estimate, thanks. I don't know where to look...""

How much would my car insurance be?i'm 18 in los angeles..?

i'm getting a 2003 nissan sentra with 92,000 miles...i was just wondering around how much would my car insurance be..? and if I put it on my dad's name and i'm a co driver?""

Whats the best Health Insurance for Canada?

I'm going to Canada on holiday, and need to have some health insurance. Could anyone please tell me where I can get this from? Also, what the best health insurance consists of? Thanks!""

Lowell Ohio Cheap car insurance quotes zip 45744

Lowell Ohio Cheap car insurance quotes zip 45744

How much is average car insurance 4 a 17/18 year old?

How much is average car insurance 4 a 17/18 year old?

How do I get cheap car insurance?

New driver at 21

Can someone add me to their car insurance policy without me knowing?

my husband, kids and I live in a split house with my in-laws and their car insurance policy was going to add us to their policy without us even knowing. is that illegal. my aunt works for state farm and she's never heard of it in her 25 yrs of working for them. i own my own car insurance through state farm and i don't need two.""

""Spouse suspended license, live together, can I get auto insurance?""

Actually, it is my son in law who has a suspended license. My Daughter's policy was canceled and she wants to start a new policy, but she says that no insurance company will touch her because she lives with someone with a suspended license. Is this for real? Sound like a bunch of hog-wash to me. She lives in Massachusetts.""

Motorcycle insurance question?

Hey, so im 19 and live in ontario. I want to get insurance for my bike but its hella expensive. Could i 'sell' the bike to my uncle (DOES NOT LIVE WITH ME), he insures it and becomes primary rider and puts me as secondary? He has his own bike so he will have 2 bikes under his name, and ill be secondary for 1 will it work?""

Car insurance........................ car insurance have agreed to?

pay for my car after it was stolen and written off. they agreed to pay 200 pounds which is well more than i paid for it.so it looked like a good deal, however, 100 is the excess which i thought left me with 100..NOT the case,,they have taken the other 100 to pay for the years insurance which i wont use as i dont have a car...plus when i complained..they advised me to drop the claim and i dont get anything nor do i owe anything except the fee from the recovery collection which is 150. is this extortionate or what ??are they allowed to do this..i still owe them 20 pounds for the o/s amount for the years insurance as i insisted they do make it as a claim..and they wont take it as 2 seperate d/d payments either as i dont now have a car..HOW CRAP IS THAT ??? what can i do to get my money back""

How much does health insurance cost for just a baby?

Im on my grandpas insurance until the summer of next year and Im due in Feb. I just recently found out that the insurance will cover the birth but not the baby...idk what to do. I ...show more

Can my finance company take my car if I don't get full coverage auto insurance?

I just bought a car and got only the legal minimum insurance which is liability. My finance company is threating to take my car if I don't get full coverage. I don't have full coverage because it's too expensive. They want me to get full coverage because it helps protect them. Can they take my car if I don't get full coverage?

Car insurance. Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!?

I pay $177 for just liability with progressive through my mom. I need a cheaper insurance so I wanna switch. I've never dealt with this before so do I get one agent or do I have to get agents from each insurance company to find out which company would be cheapest?

Insurance on a 95 camaro?

Im considering buying a pre-owned 1995 camaro for my first car. How do I find out how much the yearly insurance would be? Its not a convertible, and also its through allstate in new york. Would it be more than a 1998 maxima?""

Does this car legally have insurance?

My friend just purchased a new car and the temporary registration Is in her name but the car is insured under her moms policy without her listed as an additional driver. So if she is stopped by police will they coincided this car insured or uninsured? Also when it's time for her permanent registration will the state accept a proof of insurance on the car without her name on it? We live in Georgia by the way.

What is the best Insurance company for car quotes ??? (Cheapest)?

Im looking for a cheap reliable insurance company i can get a qoute for a 2003 Vauxhall Corsa 1.2

So is the car insured or the person? can i deliver pizzas on someone elses insurance/car ?

hi i have been given a good opportunity to start working and a great friend willing to lend me their vechicle to deliver pizzas, reall good friend. the car is insured and i live with friend if that makes a difference anyone know for sure ? Do we got to let the insurance company know or what ??""

Do I have to add my spouse to my car insurance even though we don't live together?

I am on my parents car insurance stuff, and I was getting ready to get married, but we don't live together-so does he have to get added on the policy too?""

Can someone name some cheap car insurance agencies for teens?

Can someone name some cheap car insurance agencies for teens?

""NJ auto insurance (NJCURE), anyone ever have any problems with them?""

The new insurance offered to NJ (because our rates are the highest in the nation), anyone ever use them or have any problems with them? Any advice I would appreciate.""

Is my insurance company liable?

My insurance company offered me a policy to cover a de restricted scooter which I agreed to take out, but in order for this policy to take effect I had to give up 4 months of cover totalling around 160 and pay a 80 deposit on the new policy. Last week I was sent a letter notifying me that my insurance was cancelled so I called them and was told that I had to return a copy of my CBT certificate. I rang on Sunday and was told a completely different story and that was that the company they placed me with had decided that they were not going to cover me even though the whole point of changing them was because they specificity dealt with my type of vehicle . They have now offered another policy for 515 pounds with is 100 pounds more than my previous and I am not willing to pay this as they lied to me and told me that I was insured to ride around even though they knew that I was not covered. I have copies of the insurance certificate to prove that they sold me the policy and all other relating documents. Please advise on what I can do.""

What's the best CAR Insurance?

i'm trying to save myself some money. if you know just tell me which car insurance is the best and cheapest.

Health Insurance & Prescriptions?

When my doctor writes me a prescription and I fill it up.... does it show up on my health insurance what precriptions I'm taking?

Will my insurance go up a lot?

I got into a fender bender in the parking lot at the mall yesterday I reverse parked and i was pulling out and I couldn't really see because a huge hummer was parked next to me I drove up a little bit to see, and a big van that was driving fast just hit me I don't exactly know whose fault it was, but I'm only 16 and I got my license a week ago And I drive a 2012 Honda civic Will my insurance go up a lot? I didn't get a ticket but I have a huge dent that's the size of a basketball on the front corner of my car And my hood is bent a little""

Insurance Costs for a P Plate Hyundai Tiburon?

I live in Melbourne and want to get an idea on the insurance? (I already know its a lot) Thanks

How can I lower my car insurance rates?

I'm 17, and got a car a little over a month ago. My car insurance (with Gieco) is $250 a month. My mom's is $100. I'm on her plan, or something. I never took drivers ed (and with two jobs, school full time, and online classes, I most likely never will). I do have all A's though, does anywhere give a discount for that? I've got no tickets or accidents. Please help me find something cheaper!""

Car insurance help please ?

hi i know if you want alloys on your car you have to let your insurance know and they will charge you more but im after a vauxhall corsa sxi and they come with alloys as standard so should i mention i got alloys or will the quote already include that...... thanks.

Car insurance question?

i was just wondering, i know that having a two door car cost more for insurance,but how much more on average is it. im 16 and i wanna buy my friends 03 hyundai tiburon. how much more do u think insurance will be considering its 2 door""

California Traffic School Twice Within 18 months?

Can I do traffic school twice in California within 18 months? From what I think I understand the first citation is kept confidential. The second within 18 months is not. Can my insurance company raise my rates even though I did happen to take traffic school even though it was twice within 18 months. Will my insurance rise, if so how much?""

Lowell Ohio Cheap car insurance quotes zip 45744

Lowell Ohio Cheap car insurance quotes zip 45744

Life insurance?

Is there a certain amount of time you have to cash in a life insurance policy?

Is there a age limit to qualify to get car insurance in California?

I am 17 1/2 years old, and I just saved up enough money to buy my own car. Can I insure the car by myself??""

How much will my insurance go uop?

i was in an accident not to long ago. My car was totaled and my insuranced paid it off ($13,000) it wasnt my fault but im 20 and ive been driving for 3 years but recently got my license last year. i was already paying 250 a month, how much more will i have to pay?? my car was an 05 altima. now its a case of he ran a red light, versus she ran a red light""

How much does insurance pay on total loss if owner owes more than its worth?

If a car is worth appoximately 30,000 and the owner owes 40,000 what will the insurance company pay the owner? I hope it is 30,000....""

I need help health insurance help???

ok so i went to the doctor and found out i was pregnant. i live in california and have no health insurance. they gave me temperary medi cal for 30 days and i have to go apply at the cal works office. well i went and they told me i couldnt apply on my own im 19 that since i live with my mom she has to go in. she works alot though and its kinda harg for her to go. so is there any other way i can do it like online and mail in an application?? or do u guys know of any insurance i can get on my own??? please help??

What 600cc Sports Bike is cheapest to Insurance?

Cheapest i got some far is 750 on a honda CBR 600 im looking at not spending more then 500 on insurance

Do I really have to disclose everything for a life insurance quote?

My wife has a family history of cancer which is causing my life insurance quote to change from $100 a month to $300. Do I really need to disclose this info to the companies, or should I not tell them as they would need permission anyway to check history and doctors records???""

Does any1 know what the cheapest insurance is for someone aged 17-19?

Does any1 know what the cheapest insurance is for someone aged 17-19?

Do any car insurance companies do insurance for one month?

Hi So I only want car insurance for one month cause I want to use my car for work purposes (usually it's off road). I have 5 years no claims but for some reason companies are charging like 250 for the month when it'd usually only cost me 700 for the year!? Does anyone recommend any companies that don't charge as much? Thanks in advance

What is the minimum requirements for insurance for a financed vehicle?

I know full coverage is required, but what determines if its full or not? anybody have a breakdown of each of the coverages etc?""

What is the best insurance to have?

im just wondering which is the best car insurance to have and why? also, what is a quote? dont judge pls and thank you""

Is it necessary to buy rental car insurance even though i have my car insurance policy with me?

i have a car and have taken...if i take a rental car , then my auto insurance...""

How much do you pay per year for home owners insurance?

i am buying property in northern virginia and just want a general idea of the price. its fine if you dont live around here, or own a single family instead of a townhouse. its whatever, i just have no clue what even a reasonable amount to be charged is btw, sorry if this is a repost but when i post in the business-insurance section all i get are spam links for responses""

How come I can't medical or insurance ???!?

Hello I'm a 20 year old and I live on my own. I use to have medical Owen I was under 18 && lived with. Y moon but now I'm 20&& live on my own. I tried applying for medical and I got denied because I make like 100 more than the limit. Where can I can I apply for a low healthy plan . I do live on my own and have bills to may. It I wanna be healthy. Someone please help no d mb answes (you don't look cool) I live in California San Diego.

""I'm looking for car insurance, is the General a good car insurance? Are they reliable?""

I have 21st century and my premium is high, so I looked into the General and they're only charging me half of what I'm used to, but in case of an accident, do they really back you up. I have heard of some crooked companies, would this be one among them.""

What is the cheapest car to insure for a 17-19 year old guy from the UK in 2013?

I'm 16 and will be taking my test next year and I want to know what to get for my first car?

Auto insurance is expensive for my teenager son. Are there any options for me to keep expenses down?

I'm makeing payments on truck for him, now that he can drive, do I have to add him to my insurance? And how much more will it be? I hear some parents don't tell there insurance, they just say there child is borrowing the car. But my son does not live in the same house hold , but is in another city over. Can I still just say he is borrowing the truck. If he gets in a car accident I understand it's on me, but will my insurancecand the law see it in that manner.""

Whats the best insurance company for a young driver?

just passed my driving test and was wondering what the cheapest insurance company for young drivers is?

Affordable car insurance quote?

Please can any one tell me where i can find info on affordable car insurance quote

Life Insurance :?

can i stop paying my premium and get back the amount i paid for? . I took insurance for 15 yr. Already 2 years over. Is ther any option to get the invested money back?

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My roommate is looking into getting a car and wants to give me access to driving it. Do we need to get 2 seperate insurance policies to drive the car. How does insurance on a car work?

Lowest insurance rates?

Hi!!! I would like your opinions on the lowest car insurance rates. I am currently with an insurance company that has not lowered my rate and I have been accident free for more than 5 years. So I am going to switch carriers and wanted to hear your opinions on where I should try.. Thanks in advance

Can I apply for California Unemployment Insurance?

i was working two jobs, and part time permanent position, and a full time temp position. i was layed off of my part time permanent position. i am still working full time at my temp postition, but at times i don't work that position for a couple weeks at a time. can i apply for edd now so when i have those weeks off i can claim edd. or do i need to wait until i have those weeks off and then claim i was layed off from my permanent job?""

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I need something with the fewest complaints yet the cheapest rates. For two cars and only half coverage we are paying over 200...

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Ill be moving there in a few weeks and need to get insured. I was wondering how much I can expect to pay every year to be insured fairly well. Thanks

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Lowell Ohio Cheap car insurance quotes zip 45744

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[definitelynotaminion]

2 and or 4 for Tobirama and a partner of your choice? Thank you so much and I hope you have a happy valentines day!

I would like you to know that my computer crashed in the middle of this and I’m going to mourn the few paragraphs I lost like a lost child. I almost went blind with rage when I realized there was no getting them back. Retyping the pale imitation of them was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do and I think it’s stilted and awkward at that part as a result. Just looking at it now makes me twitch. BUT I persevered and I’m proud of me.

Okay *deep breaths*. Happy valentines day @inconveniencedneutrons! This is one of the late prompts I’m finally getting to. Enjoy!

“You can do this but you can’t return my calls?” Tobiramaasked, airy and petulant.

“Oh my god shut up,”Izuna said into the material of his shirt as he sank down to his knees. Hisbreath fanned out hot and wet onto the front of Tobirama’s boxers. “I told you,I was working a case.”

“For three days?”

“My phone literally fell into a sewer, I told you this. Itwas a miserable stakeout and a miserable chase and all I wanted the whole timewas to be back here, at home, with you.” Izuna rolled his eyes and pressed hischeek to the impressive tent in the fabric in front of his face.

He just breathed,everything in him settling now that he was surrounded by familiar scents andtextures. That’s a background contentment, though, the calming senses of home.Taking up roughly ninety nine percent of his focus and crowding out everythingelse is Tobirama.

Careful hands card through Izuna’s hair, soothing despitethe spiteful words. It’s easy, to fall into snark with his husband. Easy enoughthat he can manage the words without thought, responding even though he’s beenon the edge of a zone since walking through the door and on his knees about .2seconds after that. Say what you want about him, he has priorities.

“Did you catch him?” Tobirama asks, indulgent and stillpetting, as though he has nothing better to do than stand in their living roomwith Izuna at his feet, very nearly hugging his legs. It’s an idly question, asthough, also, Tobirama can’t read the weary but triumphant exhaustion curlingaround Izuna’s synapses, or wherever the hell emotions get stored.

“Yeah.” Izuna says, breathing deep. Cinnamon and books pagesand tea leaves, hours old sweat and the lingering scent of New Haven fauna. Tobirama. The soft pads of callousedfingertips on his scalp, parting his hair with the ease of practice, soothinglike it’s second nature.

“You were on the edge of my range the entire time,” Tobirama complains, and now that a few minutes havepassed he gathers Izuna up, an unprotesting lump of Sentinel, and lets themboth fall sloppy onto the couch.

“I was in SanFrancisco,” Izuna says indignantly.

“Ugh.” Tobirama responds, arranging them more carefully.Izuna goes along with it, pleased at the skin contact and the way his face endsup pressed into Tobirama’s neck. “Close enough that I could feel your location,sense you moving around, but just far enough away that I couldn’t get a read onyour emotional state or communicate with you. It was awful.”

“Tobirama.” Izuna says, patient. “I was literally on thewest coast. You shouldn’t have been able to sense me at all.”

“Don’t be ridiculous.” Tobirama huffs. “I can sense youanywhere within the continent. Even, apparently, when I’m on the exact otherside of it. Longways.”

Izuna huffed back, grinding his shoulder a little intoTobirama’s chest.

“Can you sense your brothers like that?” He tries not to getlost in the feel of soft skin and slight scars, invisible to the sight and thetouch unless one is focused on them with hyper-aware senses. He mostlysucceeds. Izuna has spent eighteen months memorizing the unique tapestry of hisGuide’s skin, and after so long away from the man he has all five sensesgrounded on, it’s enough to nearly hypnotize him.

“Only within the country, for them.” Tobirama concedes,almost grudgingly. As though that’s not remarkable and to be expected, givenhow young he’d have imprinted his siblings.

Izuna sighs into his skin, loving the way his breath causesa small spattering of goosebumps to break out across the flesh. From the momenthe’d stepped off the plane, he could feelTobirama in his head, welcoming him, reconnecting with him.

When he walked into the apartment building Tobirama’s mindhad wrapped around his, reaching out and soothing outer shields worn ragged—fromthe case, the distance, the plane ride—and strengthening his primary ones,blending with them and taking over so that Izuna could truly and fully relax.

“Next time I’m comingwith you.” Tobirama says, low and fervent. “I’ll shove my thesis up the board’sasses if they don’t grant me an extension to defend.”

Tobirama’s heartbeat has become a lullaby, heavy and steadyunder his ear. He digs his shoulder a little into Tobirama’s chest, snorting. Respondingtakes a bit more energy than he counted on, he’s so grounded on his Guide. There’s nothing beyond the five senses thatisn’t Tobirama, this close and withhow long they were apart. Even the apartment beyond the couch is a vague ideato his senses, much less the building and world beyond it.

It would be dangerous, letting his guard down so much,except Tobirama can literally sense every person in the city and their dispositions,at any given second. Passively.

He doesn’t have to worry about intruders or someone gettingthe drop on him with Tobirama’s senses being what they are.

Besides, his husband is an actual badass. Izuna has no ideawhere he finds the time to keep up with martial arts with his teaching schedule,but he does.

“Next time?” Izuna breathes, a bit mumbly with how dazed heis—after nearly a week, burying himself in the familiar and safe scents and sounds of home and Guideand mate and Pride is like lowering yourself into the world’s most comfortablebed after three straight days awake—but amused despite it. “Five doctorates notenough for you?”

He can hardly keep his eyes open.

“Six, now.” Tobirama corrects, smiling. The shift of hislips and the currents of the words interrupting the air around them.

“Ridiculous.” Izuna grumbles. With Tobirama shielding forboth of them it feels like a great weight is off his shoulders. He has amazingprimary shields, more than most Sentinels bother with, honestly, and they’vebecome unconscious to use and maintain at full strength. His secondary shieldsare the ones that take a beating from day-to-day activities, pounded on bystimulus from fucking-everything.

It’s an act of unspeakable intimacy for Tobirama to takeover his primary shields, the ones hedeveloped before he even came online—the instinctive defenses of a child,thrown up out of necessity to keep him sane before he even knew what Sentinelsor Guides were.

Speaking of acts of unspeakable intimacy—

A white leopard hops nimbly and gracefully onto the couchwith them, curling contentedly around them.

Izuna huffs.

“And where were youduring our trying separation?” He asks, scratching behind Tobirama’s spiritanimal’s ears. It tolerates this, but doesn’t deign answer his question.

A parakeet flies in from nowhere, chirping happily. It landson Tobirama’s head.

The Alpha Guide Prime of North America sighs heavily, tryingnot to smile at the bird nesting in his bird’s nest of messy white hair.

The parakeet is dappled blue and white, like clouds againstthe bluest of skies, and it half camouflages with Tobirama’s hair, tappingaround with little bird feet until it’s comfortable.

“You didn’t sleep while I was away.” Izuna realizes, noting thelines under his Guide’s eyes, the way his whole body radiates tiredness.

“I was defending my thesis.” Tobirama protests. “Getting adoctorate is hard.”

“Mhm,” Izuna hums, disbelieving. “At least I had an excuse.Hotel sheets, even nice ones, aren’t oursheets. And I was missing my Guide.”

“Well I wasmissing my Sentinel.” Tobirama counters, sliding an arm around Izuna’s chest.He snorts. “Besides, you left me here with all seven of our siblings. It’s a miracle I got any rest at all.”

Izuna rolls his eyes—or he would, if they were open.

He can’t be bothered to lift his lids, surrounded as he iswith warmth and safety and snark, the smells of his mate and their mingledscents from the apartment wafting over him, them, creating a cocoon of bliss.

Izuna never wants to leave this couch. He says as much,slurring a little with how close to sleep he is. Finally.

“Or at least,” He mutters. “We’re not leaving the apartmentall weekend. We deserve a few days of sleep and sex before we have to deal withmy siblings or your brothers.”

“Don’t give me false hope, Sentinel.” Tobirama murmurs, breathjust a step away from laughing into his hair.

“You’re all I need in this world, Guide.” Izuna manages,sleepily drawing their fingers together, tangling them over his chest. “Everythingelse can wait.”

“I missed you.” Tobirama admits, warm and homey. Izunathinks he might say more, but beyond the soft sensation of lips to his temple,he knows nothing but dreams. It’s good to be home.

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Sen. John McCain, Maverick Politician and Decorated War Veteran, Dies at 81

Sen. John McCain, the former POW and outspoken Republican politician nicknamed The Maverick for being unafraid to disagree with fellow members of his party, has died. He was 81. “Senator John Sidney McCain III died at 4:28 p.m. on August 25, 2018,” his family said in a statement Saturday, according to NBC News. On Friday, his family announced that McCain, “with his usual strength of will,” decided to stop treatment for the stage-four brain cancer he had been battling since its diagnosis last summer. “In the year since,” the McCain family said, “John has surpassed expectations for his survival. But the progress of disease and the inexorable advance of age render their verdict.” My family is deeply appreciative of all the love and generosity you have shown us during this past year. Thank you for all your continued support and prayers. We could not have made it this far without you – you've given us strength to carry on. pic.twitter.com/KuAQSASoa7 — Meghan McCain (@MeghanMcCain) August 24, 2018 https://platform.twitter.com/widgets.js In July 2017, McCain revealed that he had been diagnosed with glioblastoma, the most aggressive form of brain cancer, just days after he underwent surgery to remove a blood clot above his eye. McCain later revealed during a September 2017 interview with 60 Minutes that he asked doctors to be forthright about his health. “Some say 3 percent, some say 14 percent. You know it’s — it’s a very poor prognosis,” he said. “So I just said, ‘I understand. Now we’re going to do what we can, get the best doctors we can find and do the best we can, and at the same time celebrate with gratitude a life well lived.’ ” Months later, as McCain continued his battle against brain cancer, his daughter Meghan paid tribute to her father and his “Viking” fighting spirit in a touching Instagram post in May. “My Mother calls me ‘John McCain in a dress’ – my relationship with my father has always been magic – we are fiercely and protectively forever on each other’s team,” Meghan captioned a smiling photo with her father. “Love with your complete and whole heart in this life. We keep fighting because we are all McCains, we are a family of a long lineage of Vikings – fighting is what we have always done, and what we will always do.” Born in August 1936 at the U.S. air base in Panama, McCain was the son and grandson of two four-star U.S. Navy admirals. He ultimately followed in their footsteps, enrolling at the U.S. Naval Academy in Annapolis, Maryland, in 1954. As a naval pilot, he was deployed on the USS Forrestal to the Gulf of Tonkin in Vietnam, where he was ultimately taken as a prisoner of war in October 1967. McCain was captured by the North Vietnamese after his plane was shot down by a missile. According to McCain, the plane entered an “inverted, almost straight-down spin,” and he ejected, breaking both his arms and his leg in the process. While held captive at Hanoi’s Hoa Lo prison, McCain was denied medical attention and repeatedly tortured by his captors. “They left me on the floor of a cell for four days, during which time I lapsed in and out of consciousness,” McCain told PEOPLE back in 1992. “Their policy was that they wouldn’t provide any medical treatment unless you gave them military information. I would only give them my name, rank, serial number and date of birth. And so, after about four days on the floor of the cell, they got nothing out of me because I kept passing out.” McCain refused to cooperate, and remained at the prison for more than five years – spending much of that time in solitary confinement. He recalled to PEOPLE, “they treated me pretty badly,” revealing further that he was suffering from dysentery and was being beaten every two hours in order to get him to sign confessions and make audio recordings trashing America. He was released in March of 1973, but still bore some of the injuries from his harrowing ordeal. “Unlike some, I was fortunate that I was able to put it all behind me when I came home,” he said. “People ask me how long did it take to readjust? It took me about 45 minutes. I never had a nightmare or a flashback or anything like that. I know a lot of my friends were not so fortunate, who never fully came back from that experience. But I did.” After returning home, McCain regained his naval flight status and was named the naval liaison to the U.S. Senate in 1977 before ultimately retiring from duty in 1981. During his service, McCain was awarded the Purple Heart and the Distinguished Flying Cross, among other honors, according to his website. McCain was first elected to the U.S. House of Representatives in Arizona in 1982, serving two terms before being elected as state senator in 1986. After more than a decade in the Senate, McCain ran for the Republican presidential nomination in 2000 but lost to primary opponent George W. Bush. McCain went on to become the 2008 Republican nominee for president alongside running mate Sarah Palin; he lost to Barack Obama. While McCain continued to defend Palin’s performance in a new book and documentary set to be released in May, he also said he regretted not picking former Senator Joseph I. Lieberman as his running mate in 2008, according to The New York Times. McCain said “my gut told me” to choose Lieberman instead of Palin and “I wish I had.” Leading up to his death, McCain served as the chairman of the Senate Committee on Armed Services, a member of the Senate Committee on Indian Affairs and a member of the Senate Committee on Homeland Security and Governmental Affairs. In July, McCain underwent surgery to remove a blood clot above his eye. The surgery went well but had massive reverberations in Washington, forcing GOP Senators to postpone a vote on the controversial Republican bill to replace Obamacare until McCain could return. The senator revealed his diagnosis in July, and one day after doing so he returned to Twitter and promised he’d be back on the Senate floor. “I greatly appreciate the outpouring of support — unfortunately for my sparring partners in Congress, I’ll be back soon, so stand-by!” He said. Just five days later, he kept his promise and returned to thunders applause from people in both parties. While he was welcomed back, he proved to still by The Maverick when he refused to support the Graham-Cassidy bill to repeal the Affordable Care Act in September, which drew sharp criticism from President Donald Trump as others hailed him a hero. After the vote, McCain went back to receiving chemotherapy treatments in Phoenix, Arizona, to slow the progression of the disease. He completed his first round of radiation in August 2017. In December, McCain was hospitalized for “normal side effects of his ongoing cancer therapy,” his office said. But to the excitement of his family, he was able to come home to Arizona for Christmas. In February, Meghan said that her father had a “crazy amazing recovery.” “He is in Sedona, Arizona, right now at our ranch doing physical therapy and he has amazing doctors and he’s doing really well,” she said on The Late Show with Stephen Colbert. “He had a sort of rough time at Christmas and he’s made this crazy amazing recovery which I guess I shouldn’t be surprised at, he is so resilient in so many different ways. He’s a tough bastard.” He continued physical therapy at home in Arizona for the next few months, until he had to return to the Mayo Clinic in April for an emergency surgery. “On Sunday, Senator McCain was admitted to Mayo Clinic in Phoenix, Arizona, and underwent surgery to treat an intestinal infection related to diverticulitis,” his office said. Meghan added that he was in “stable” condition. Later that month, McCain shared an excerpt from his new book, in which he admitted that his brain cancer diagnosis gave him an “ungentle persuasion” to realize that his current term in office would be his last, and pushed him to change the way he votes. “I’m freer than colleagues who will face the voters again. I can speak my mind without fearing the consequences much. And I can vote my conscience without worry,” McCain said. “I don’t think I’m free to disregard my constituents’ wishes, far from it. I don’t feel excused from keeping pledges I made. Nor do I wish to harm my party’s prospects. But I do feel a pressing responsibility to give Americans my best judgment.” Before his death, McCain enjoyed spending time on the deck at his Arizona ranch, visiting with a constant flow of friends, including former Vice President Joe Biden, The New York Times reported in May. Biden said the two reminisced about the “crazy senators” they had served with, the overseas trips they took together, and the friendship between McCain and Biden’s two sons. Biden’s son Beau died of glioblastoma, the same rare brain cancer McCain had, in May 2015. Thank you for showing me how to be a Viking warrior – even when some thought it more appropriate for boys. A post shared by Meghan McCain (@meghanmccain) on Apr 22, 2018 at 8:16pm PDT //www.instagram.com/embed.js Biden also said that, even as McCain battled brain cancer and the debilitating side effects of his treatment, the senator was still worried about the state of the nation under President Trump’s administration. “Here John knows he’s in a very, very, very precarious situation, and yet he’s still concerned about the state of the country,” Biden said in an interview with the Times. “We talked about how our international reputation is being damaged and we talked about the need for people to stand up and speak out.” Throw back to a fun holiday in Hidden Valley. A post shared by Cindy McCain (@cindymccain) on May 6, 2018 at 3:02pm PDT //www.instagram.com/embed.js According to the same Times report, people close to McCain allegedly told the White House “that their current plan” was to invite Vice President Mike Pence to the funeral service, but not Trump, citing the pair’s “rocky relationship.” During the visits, friends told McCain they loved him and how much he’d meant to them but didn’t explicitly say goodbye. The senator “doesn’t like overt sentimentality,” his friend, the former chief of staff Grant Woods, said. Nevertheless, the visits often ended with McCain saying, “I love you,” the Times reported. McCain also enjoyed quiet moments sitting out on his deck with his wife, listening to the hummingbirds and the burbling stream that runs through their 15-acre ranch. Good morning coffee from Arizona! Thank you all so much for the wonderful video messages! A post shared by Meghan McCain (@meghanmccain) on Feb 18, 2018 at 9:35am PST //www.instagram.com/embed.js “He finds real solace there,” Biden said. McCain is survived by wife Cindy McCain, and his children: Douglas, 57, Andrew, 55, and Sidney, 50 (all with first wife Carol McCain) and Meghan McCain, 32, Jack, 31, James, 29, and Bridget, 25, with Cindy. Just days before Thanksgiving, McCain gave away daughter Meghan, a co-host on The View, at her wedding to conservative pundit Ben Domenech at the family’s ranch in Sedona, Arizona. Opening up to PEOPLE about the wedding and his legacy, McCain said in late November, “I have been so fortunate to have the life that I have had, full of time and adventure and excitement. “I’ve been a small bit of American history, so I think if there’s something on my tombstone, it’ll be ‘He served his country,’ and hopefully you add one word, ‘honorably,’ ” he also said. “I’ve made a lot of mistakes. I’ve lost races. I’ve caved in to what seems to be the easy way out and wasn’t. There’s nothing to be sorry for. I have nothing but gratitude for a life fully lived, and you can’t ask for anything more than that. And you can’t deny that I am the luckiest person that you will ever talk to.” This is a developing story, it will be updated as more information becomes available. http://bit.ly/2P0BSLq