#31 days of bpd

[meltedyun]

100 tasks and rules this slut would like to do

100 followers special!

1 - Living with its master and not having any keys to the house. It may only access rooms or leave when it is allowed.

2 - Having a tracker on its collar so master can always find it.

3 - Cameras on all rooms and angles over the house so master can always watch it.

4 - Food and water are locked so it can only access when its master gives to it.

5 - Needs to drink and use the bathroom always and only when its master allows.

6 - Has a list of prohibited words.

7 - May never walk in its feet over the house, only in fours. It also is not allowed to use chairs, beds or any human comfortable furnitures.

8 - When it bad behaves, it needs to sleep on the floor or in the basement.

9 - Master has control over the house temperature at any time and can use this to reward or punish it.

10 - It only wears the clothes master assigns to them on the day.

11 - It never talks if not to answer master.

12 - Master orders food for it at any restaurant.

13 - It has a list of rules of behavior for public places, like never looking in people eyes.

14 - It may not leave home without a vibrator inside it, so Master can control it.

15 - Has to always greet its master in front of the door, kneeling over raw rice grains.

16 - Master has parental control over any device its use and can limit everything it does on the internet.

17 - Master has the password to any accounts, including bank accounts.

18 - Has absolutely zero money or credit, so its is forced to attach to its master anyway.

19 - Has a schedule to watching bimbo hypnos on the tv naked.

20 - Is not allowed to switch any lights off or on.

21 - Is always available to be fucked or used by any visitors.

22 - Has special mittens that are tied to its hands when t misbehave, so it spends the day unable to touch itself.

23 - Being forbiden to take showers after master cums or pisses over it.

24 - Having to spend hours on tip of its toes just looking to a blank wall as a way to be punished.

25 - Being blindfolded for days in a row, maybe a month. Master change the place of furniture in order to make it harder for Yun.

26 - A device that is like a headphone, but totally lockable on the head and impossible to remove without the key, so Yun has to hear anything its master wants during hours or days... or until it gets totally crazy.

27 - Only being allowed to eat food if master has cummed over it first.

28 - Only being allowed to eat from the floor.

29 - Being ordered to clear the house, but only allowed to use a toothbrush and with its non-dominant hand.

30 - Being forced to drink aphrodisiacs, but being tightly tied and only receiving simulation by a feather slightly rubbing its clit.

31 - Being gagged, blindfolded, and locked in noiss-muffling headphones for a month. Gag is only removed for eating.

32 - Being forced to drink lots of water before leaving home and not allowed to use bathrooms. If it wets itself in public, master pretends they doesn't know it and make it walk home alone.

33 - Being tasked to grind itself on every piece of funiture in the house.

34 - Being tightly tied in front of the TV, locked in headphones and forced to watch hypno on loop for 12 hours.

35 - Being dr4gged by master through the food.

36 - Having a device that measures its heartbeat and being punished if it is too slow (so master can make sure it is always edging)

37 - Being forced to sleep on the backyard if it misbehaves.

38 - Reading a book for master out loud while they fuck its ass roughly. If it makes a mistake, it needs to restart.

39 - Being tied naked on a tree in the middle of the forest and left there for the day.

40 - Only being allowed to eat cold food.

41 - Having its anxiety and BPD medications controlled by master, so they can decide if they want it to feel anxious or obssessive.

42 - Having all calls and messages read and controlled by master.

43 - Being constantly reminded how it is worhtless and hoe nobody else would love it if it leaves master.

44 - Having to rub pepper over its butt cheeks after spanking. No complaining is allowed and if it stop smiling, master should spank it again!

45 - Having to use clothes soaked with master's cum in public.

46 - Only eating food that master has chewed first.

47 - Being ring gagged, drolling in a cup and then having its saliva throw back and its mouth.

48 - Drinking master's spit.

49 - Having it's sleep constantly interrupted by master so it is forced to stay wake for days until it physically can't anymore.

50 - Being tattoed as master's slut.

51 - Being branded with hot iron.

52 - Letting master break one of its bone, just do it feels pain and gets more dependent.

53 - Being recorded in its most humiliating moments so master can threat to send videos to everyone Yun knows.

54 - Being forbidden to know about anything that happens outside the house so it can focus on what matters.

55 - Everytime master gets sicks they spit and sneeze in its face so it also gets contaminated.

56 - Record itself repeating the same mantras during hours.

57 - Using blackout contact lens for days.

58 - Sleeping in the garbage or mud as method of punishment.

59 - Being tied and kept in the edge for 12h while listening to hypno and then being told to go out shopping.

60 - Being made unconcious anytime master wants

61 - Forced to watch horror movies all alone with no eletricity. (Yun hate watching horror movies 😖)

62 - Fully filling its ass with cum, covering it with a plug and then being forced exercise at the gym.

63 - Forbidden to ever speaking any sentence with more than three words.

64 - Having to watch simple video classes since its dumb, like how to sum numbers and what are the shape names.

65 - Only allowed to eat salty food with sugar and sweety food with salt.

66 - Having master's cum and spit mixed to any drink.

67 - Being only allowed to touch itself if its hands are wet by pepper.

68 - If it says anything It shouldn't, it must wash its mouth using soup.

69 - Being send to watch porn in public spaces.

70 - Filing every inch of skin with degradation writings.

71 - As a punishment it should be locked in a dark empty room for 24h.

72 - As a punishment, it should eat a meat mixed in saliva, piss, semen and steped on by its bare feet.

73 - Gradually developing any fetish that its master wants.

74 - Walking in circles for hours with strong vibrators inside it.

75 - Wearing a ring gag and blindfold and having pepper poured in its mouth.

76 - Sleeping with a dildo gag.

77 - Using bondage and a lot of toys under the clothes on a public space.

78 - Having its bladder full and then being tickled until it piss itself.

79 - Licking master's feet clean once they get home.

80 - Having a catheter connecting its urethra to its gagged mouth.

81 - Being gaslighted into believing it should be punished for something.

82 - Being punished simply because its master wants to see it suffering.

82 - Being told to count rice grains while master tries to distract it with pain and pleasure. Once its finished, master says its wrong and that it should count again (it doesn't really matter if it is or not ><)

83 - Being told to clean the floor and when finished master piss and pours drinks on it so it needs to clean again.

84 - Being told to do Impossible or meaningless tasks, like trying to squeegee the backyard floor when it's raining.

85 - Being kept tied and strongly stimulated inside a small and tight box.

86 - Sleeping on blankets and pillows soaked by piss.

87 - Being wake up by master cumming or pissing on its face

88 - No clocks, internet and open windows on the house, so it gets confused and lost notion about time.

89 - Forced to experiment every single sex toy that master buys.

90 - Being thrown on an ice bathtube.

91 - Being forced to cause pain on itself until it cries.

92 - Riding a bike while filled with buzzing toys.

93 - Being left alone and unable to contact anyone for a long period of time so it gets scared, anxious and mentally unstable.

94 - Being constantly told that will be abandoned by its master at anytime if it does something wrong so it gets even more obedient.

95 - Never being allowed to practice something it is skilled on (like writing, playing, etc) so it slowly lost its ability and gets totally useless.

96 - Being prohibited from reading or writing since sluts don't need any of that.

97 - Forced by master to tell people how slut and pervert is.

98 - Being masturbated by master on public places.

99 - Wearing a collar that can be tighten anytime by an app so master can make it choke at any place and time.

100 - Creating a tumblr account and doing every task it receives on its asks and dms... wait, this is not a fantasy.

[circus-complex]

A Study on Luo Binghe: Borderline Personality Disorder

Rating: General

Characters: Luo Binghe

Tags: Meta, Character Study

A look at Luo Binghe with the Borderline Personality Disorder Diagnostic Criteria

Also on AO3

Full work under the cut

Disclaimer: I am in no way a medical professional. I am also aware we see Luo Binghe through oddly-tinted glasses due to Shen Yuan’s perspective. I am not diagnosing Luo Binghe with BPD, but as I was reading through SVSSS, I noticed a lot of symptoms. Additionally, I am looking at Luo Bing-mei.

First off: What is Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)? Borderline Personality Disorder is a disorder that - as the name suggests - affects a person's personality and their interactions with others. One of the pages from Mayo Clinic states it “includes a pattern of unstable, intense relationships, as well as impulsiveness and an unhealthy way of seeing themselves.” (Mayo Clinic Staff, January 31 2024).

What causes BPD? While there have not been concrete reasons found yet, “studies suggest that genetic, environmental, and social factors may increase the risk of developing it.” (National Institute of Mental Health, April 2024). If family members have it, you may be at a higher risk of developing it. Childhood trauma, such as experiencing continuous abandonment and hardship, may be a factor.

While researching for this essay, I wound up finding a reddit post that talked about specific examples where Luo Binghe exhibited symptoms of BPD. The post will be linked at the end (with my other sources), they did the hard work for me.

So, what are the symptoms of BPD? Glad you asked!

A strong fear of abandonment. This includes going to extreme measures so you're not separated or rejected, even if these fears are made up.

Luo Binghe has shown an intense fear of Shen Qingqiu leaving him. Whenever Shen Qingqiu seems even the slightest bit annoyed with Luo Binghe, he breaks into tears. Shen Qingqiu could be serious or not, but Luo Binghe always interprets it as “He will leave me”.

A pattern of unstable, intense relationships, such as believing someone is perfect one moment and then suddenly believing the person doesn't care enough or is cruel.

Luo Binghe has very few friends, with only Mobei-Jun and Sha Hualing, and they are his subordinates. While he is close with Shen Qingqiu, he goes from seemingly hating him to loving and adoring him. Plus, he needs constant reassurance that Shen Qingqiu still loves him.

While I would not say Luo Binghe’s self image is reliant on Shen Qingqiu’s opinion, it does seem that way sometimes.

Periods of stress-related paranoia and loss of contact with reality. These periods can last from a few minutes to a few hours.

While these sorts of periods have never been explicitly mentioned, the scene with Xin Mo could be interpreted as such. Yes, it was an evil sword, but I see Xin Mo as just…making the feelings worse

Impulsive and risky behavior, such as gambling, dangerous driving, unsafe sex, spending sprees, binge eating, drug misuse, or sabotaging success by suddenly quitting a good job or ending a positive relationship.

This is one of the symptoms that I do not remember Luo Binghe showing. Please tell me if he does.

Threats of suicide or self-injury, often in response to fears of separation or rejection. Quick changes in how you see yourself. This includes shifting goals and values, as well as seeing yourself as bad or as if you don't exist. Ongoing feelings of emptiness.

While Luo Binghe does not explicitly threaten suicide/self harm (that I remember), he does exhibit behavior similar to that. He has an attitude of “I will do anything to keep Shizun by my side” Additionally, his self worth seems to hinge of Shen Qingqiu’s opinion at times. He also allows Shen Qingqiu to harm him during the abyss scene without defending himself when he could have.

Wide mood swings that last from a few hours to a few days. These mood swings can include periods of being very happy, irritable or anxious, or feeling shame. Inappropriate, strong anger, such as losing your temper often, being sarcastic or bitter, or physically fighting.

Again, Luo Binghe goes from very happy to very angry quickly. He lashes out at Shen Qingqiu, like when he forced him to drink his blood.

Overall, Luo Binghe exhibits a lot of BPD symptoms. However, since the story is not set from his point of view - nor is he real - we cannot diagnose him or look at his own internal motivations. If you have any thoughts, please let me know!

Bibliography

Mayo Clinic Staff. "Borderline Personality Disorder." Mayo Clinic. Last modified January 31, 2024. Accessed June 10, 2024. https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/borderline-personality-disorder/symptoms-causes/syc-20370237.

National Alliance on Mental Health. "Borderline Personality Disorder." National Alliance on Mental Health. Last modified April 2023. Accessed June 11, 2024. https://www.nami.org/About-Mental-Illness/Mental-Health-Conditions/Borderline-Personality-Disorder/.

National Institute of Mental Health. "Borderline Personality Disorder." National Institute of Mental Health. Last modified April 2024. Accessed June 10, 2024. https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/borderline-personality-disorder.

Reddit. Last modified 2021. Accessed July 3, 2024. https://www.reddit.com/r/ScumbagSystem/comments/lpfb7f/comment/gobdt33/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button.

[honey-crypt]

HONEY-CRYPT'S DISABILITY PRIDE MONTH WRITE-A-THON

RULES

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05. reblogs are appreciated but not necessary! in the event you do, tag it with honey crypt disability pride month write-a-thon

MASTERLIST

01. the sdv bachelor/ettes with a farmer who has vitiligo

02. sebastian helping adhd!farmer through their rejection dysphoria

03. shane with a farmer who has absence seizures

04. haley helping a farmer with ptsd and anxiety

05. arthritis!farmer

06. elliott, sam, and alex with an infertile farmer

07. sdv bachelors with a farmer who age regresses due to ptsd

08. sdv bachelor/ettes with a stimming farmer

09. harvey with a farmer who has cerebral palsy (spastic left hemiplegia)

10. sdv bachelors with a farmer who's prone to mirgaines

11. sdv bachelors with a farmer who has bpd

12. harvey caring for an epileptic farmer

13. elliott, haley, and sam with a medically complex (pots/eds/adhd) farmer

14. the sdv bachelors with a farmer suffering from postpartum depression

15. elliott with an autistic!farmer who’s easily exhausted

16. sdv bachelor/ettes with a cerebral palsy!farmer honoring her twin brother's life (farmer oc by @harveys-lovely-wife)

17. sdv bachelor/ettes with a farmer who has major mood swings

18. sebastian with a farmer who has chronic vertigo

19. sdv bachelor/ettes with a farmer who has an eating disorder

20. elliott caring for a farmer who’s a cane user

21. elliott with a hearing of hard/deaf!farmer

22. sdv bachelor/ettes with a farmer who experiences noise sensitivity

23. farmer with sciatica

24. sam with an amputee!farmer

25. harvey, sam, and shane with a farmer who has a feeding tube

26. elliott with a deaf!farmer who was a musician

27. harvey and elliott with a farmer who has social anxiety

28. sdv bachelor/ettes with a farmer who has rsd (rejection sensitivity dysphoria)

29. elliott with a farmer who frequently faints

30. sdv bachelors with an ocd!farmer

31.

[pretty-chaotic-world]

if my BPD can scream

1. I wish i could have a normal love... but no, my brain wants to worship every little detail of you until it drives me insane

2. sorry i pushed you away i felt abandoned and suicidal 

3. I’m sick of going to bed and knowing things won’t be better tomorrow 

4. I'll ask you thousands times if you really love, please don't get annoyed

5. I'll create "drama" and mishaps only to feel like I'm in home

6. i’m afraid that one day my anger will overshadow the little love i still have left for the world

7. I feel numb. No tears, no anger, nothing. Just going through the same day again and again. I would rather just sleep without waking up.

8. I'm so tired of everytime one small argument or inconvenience breaks out I want to end it and self destruct, it's so draining. 

9. I want to stop feeling anything and when i actually don't it breaks my heart but I can't cry it out.

10. "its all in your head" well duh where tf else is it gonna be??? in my fucking kidneys????

11. I am constantly between wanting people to care about me and wanting them not to so I can hurt myself without feeling guilty 

12. Psychiatrist told me there is no cure for bpd and I've to change myself. Well why cant they just let me die then?

13. Until you live with bpd you'll never know what it's like to be too much and not enough at the same time.

14. i know im constantly too much for everyone but sometimes i just want to be enough for someone

15. if he will leave me, my next diagnosis will be of "sociopath"

16. im so jealous of all the people who see him and touch him and talk to him every single day it should be me me me me 

17. oh I got my hair coloured. why? because I can't hurt myself anymore 

18. "you're so distant" because you can't handle my abandonment issues.

19. My younger self disappoint me a lot. like why were you begging people to stay in your life? ohh no worries I know the answer

20. I wanna throw a plate against the wall, stab a knife through my hand, destroy my laptop with a hammer, smash my door in with an axe and spray graffiti all over the walls of my room 

21. Why shouldn’t I be mad? Why can’t I just be angry and be allowed to feel it? Why can’t I burn everything down?

22. I have to watch my mouth every fucking second to make sure I don't destroy every relation I have coz apparently social life matters!!

23. Isnt it fucked up how he got away with every horrible thing he made me experience and I’m the one who has to live with myself feeling absolutely fucking worthless 

24. I don't deserve food and love. im a horrible person.

25. this is how my eating cycle goes

feeling weak coz i haven't ate anything -> eat -> purge -> feeling guilty after purging -> eat more -> feeling guilty after eating so much -> cry coz you don't know what's happening

26. the diagnosis makes me believe I'm not insane just lil emo ig!! NOOOO YOU'RE INSANE

27. “don’t let it bother u” baby i’m gonna be bothered by this for the next 10 years 

28. if I tell you I love you its equivalent to I can kill someone for you

29. Actually upon further inspection that shit really hurt my feelings 

30. I don't dive into insecurity anymore, i drown in self-loathe

31. i shut up in between group convo coz I know I'll talk invaluable shit and nobody really cares what I say until it's psychology class

32. "if you are fully aware of yourself, why do you keep acting like that?" slapping self awareness on top of bpd only grants the ability to watch yourself self-destruct straight from the vip section thats all it does literally

33. “Where do you see yourself in the future” building a cult for mentally ill people 

34. ofc I've a praise kind i was ignored as a child

35. I'm much better than I was before. you know why coz I don't to air now and don't see monsters walking by side all the time

36. No I don't want to self harm anymore I need to kill that fucking monster

37. Don't mind me, I'm just casually sabotaging all my positive relationships with negative delusions because my life doesn't feel real unless something dramatic and destructive is constantly occurring 

38. i don’t care i don’t care i don’t care (im going to sob my fucking eyes out)

39. “Stop making your disorder your personality” I have a fucking personality disorder for god sake

40. turning my mental illnesses into kinks and calling it the BDSM-5 

41. "destroy something precious while you're in rage" ohh yeaa and then I'll do that again and again 

42. what I hate most about my BPD is the fact that I have started doubting every emotion that I’ve ever felt in my life, whether it’s love, my grief through multiple traumas, or my anger, & it’s so saddening. It has actually led me to start questioning my reality.

43. if I need medication to stay alive, am I really meant to be here?

44. it's either be alone without 75% of my symptoms, or be with someone and display the most horrendous unstable awful version of myself. why do i have to choose between love & happiness or peace & stability?

45. That fucking bpd rage where everyone's voices makes you want to scream and every noise around you makes you want to sh and you're so mad you can almost feel the cuts everywhere 

46. getting worked up to the point of becoming physically ill (throwing up/stomach issues etc) because you felt rejected/abandoned by your favourite person  

47. i wish my trauma made me kind as everyone says but i’m becoming what i fear the most- a monster.

48. imagine getting diagnosed with a personality disorder and the only visible representation of that disorder is an animated horse man, a sociopathic sitcom character from philadelphia, and darth vader

[clemiesystemm]

System intro !

Traumagenic DID system - ! ! ! ! ! !

Headcount - 20

🇺🇸 ENG.

EST TIME.

THEY / THEM BODILY -

Disorders - BPD & DID

DNI - endos, homophobes, racist, nazi’s, pro endo, ageplay blogs, dsmp antis, ppl who bully people’s interests, rude ppl.

Fav artist -

Yaelokre, mitski, Alex G, Tv girl, The smiths, Sublime, mother mother, artic monkeys,The hoosiers, TX2.

Intrest -

Hazbin hotel, helluva boss, dsmp, homestuck, sweet tooth, Pjo, Yaelokre ect.

8/31 🎂 -!

Potential signoffs / Main fronters

🫀 - dre. (Xe/xem) + neos -

💗 - simp (He/him)

🐑🐛- day (she/he)

This blog is jst for shitposting/ranting.

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[rulersreachf4n]

MASTERPOST: FANFICS

Everyone Wants To Rule The World by Srae13

Mikey-centric post movie angst (20/?)

We’ll Meet Again Soon by chiangyorange

Future!Leo goes back to the past and you know what? With the power of "fuck this, fuck you, I do what I want", his family does so too (21/?)

The Moods Surrounding Blue by Averie_sol

Leo thinks hes some horrible manipulative fuck up in this fan fic of i take some of my personal experiences, wildly let it take a turn, spin it so leo mayhaps has BPD, totally has PTSD, depression anxiety, etcetera etcetera (because theres totally a universe where hes borderline) and let the angst begin because he has seventy thousand different mental issues (27/?)

Three-Sided Coin by Willow Wept

A highly self-indulgent fic where I put Leo, Future!Leo, and TurtleTot!Leo in the same room until they hug (8/?)

In The Bat Of An Eye by criscris

After getting out of the prison dimension Leo notice something really weird is going on with him and his ancestors help him out. Keep in mind that red eared sliders have this thing that they do and they feel the vibrations to know whats going on, Leo has that but times that by ten (10/?)

Dangerously Yours by xquseme

A life-changing event doesn’t have to occur through the endangerment of one’s livelihood, or through placing another’s trust at stake. It could start off with an accidental shoulder brush. Leo was going to strangle that samurai the next time he sees him (5/?)

I May Be Invisible But I Still Look Good by Danny

Leo is cursed by a mystic whatever thingy. But don't worry guys, he's totally got this! Getting back into his body? Easy peasy. (He hopes it will be easy peasy.) (16/17)

StarBlind by WeirdNCrazy

There was a lot of mutagen and other sharp objects being dangerously launched around as Baron Draxum lair got destroyed. What would happen if some of that got into a certain Red Eared Slider eyes? Well it would make for one blind turtle and an interesting shift from canon that what it would be! (35/?)

Deep Purple Thoughts And Realizations by NightFox 5/?

The Neon Void by sugarpastels (17/26)

Unwanted Emotional Feedback by MonkeyMindScream 9/?

Where The Stars Show Us The Inevitable by Surmie 32/?

‘Cause Blue’s Your Favorite Color by CrypticPaw 8/10

In Sickness And In Health by Screwed_up_Screwball 10/?

Slipped Between Broken Fingers by Screwed_up_Screwball 3/4

Unforgotten Beast by bing_bongwater 6/?

Wrapped In Regret by Spooky_Vanilla 8/9

Blood Is Thicker Than Ooze by linkymew 27/?

Please Save Me by Madhero_IsWriting 5/?

For Leo’s Sake by leosmasktails 4/?

As Fate Would Have It by Viveela 8/10

Sons Of Big Mama by GingerNobody 3/?

Spider’s Web With Strings Attached by CurlySwirly 19/?

The Last Grain of Sand In The Hourglass by TjLockticon 15/21

We’ll Meet Again Soon by chiangyorange 21/?

Muted Scales by Krazykoon 3/?

Like father like son by eternalglitch 26/?

Call Me Hear And I Will Appear by rbt_lvr 22/?

The Aftermath by starrcossrose 20/?

When Life Hits You by ThulianSins 5/?

A Thousand Miles Apart by hellofever 14/18

Blood Sacrifice by tei_to_tei 17/?

We Are Infinite by Celestron_oOo 31/?

Don’t Hiss Me Off by LuckydrawR 13/?

Wake Me Up When It’s All Over by thatpanguy 6/?

Fuck It We Barn by butterfilledpockets 13/?

You Are My Comfort by yris_latteyi 22/27

Worlds Apart by ash_kunoichi1925 51/?

His Smile Never Wavered by Br0ken B0nes 11/?

Life Transitions by purplefuzzysocks 31/?

The Glass Pawn by I_Logiphile 8/11

Prolonged Agony by TheArchetypeArchives 31/?

We'll Meet Again Soon by chiangyorange 21/?

In The Bat Of An Eye by criscris (10/?)

Dangerously Yours by xquseme 5/?

The same little faces 8/?

Emphaty Amplified odd man out

B.E.A.S.T

Every Night the Longest Day

Where in the World is Neon Leon?

Tales of the Spirits

In Which Donnie and Leo Make

Themselves Everyone Else's Problem in an

NYC That Isn't Even Their Own

Mystic Hands

Eldest Brother

Mutants Ninja Midlife Crisis

The Jersey Incident

The Call Back Home

Singing An Addolorato

The question is violence and the answer is pizza

We'll Meet Again Soon

Dagger from the Mirror

In Sickness And In Health 10/?

My rival is the waiter

Aftermath ItsJustKade

Trial and error

Cracks in the facade

Trust you enough to fall asleep

Unmaking

My Life Their Story

Little solider boy comes marching home

A New Champion Or His Father's Shadow

GibbousLunation

[isabelguerra]

Pov: tumblrnatural

📷girlzone 4:00 pm

Im gonna say it

#😐

📷girlzone 4:01 pm

Rwby wasnt that good.

#its not even a hot take #its just like #true

💖dimidame 4:07 pm

collin darling I love you but suzy is going to kill you for this

#😮‍💨

📷girlzoned 4:09 pm

Let her gay ass try.

#not like we dont try and murder eachother every day

💣camcoded 4:50 pm

COLLIN.

#WRONG. WRONG. WRONG WRONG WRONG. #I SUPPORT WOMENS WRONGS BUT NOT THESE WRONGS

📷girlzone 4:56 PM

Yes, Suzy?

#🤨🎤

💣camcoded 5:09 pm

Im going to kill you.

#🔪

📷girlzoned 5:18 pm

Why do you hate trans women Suzy

#girl #🏳️‍⚧️? #suzy transphobia arc?

💣camcoded 5:20 pm

I DONT HATE TRANS WOMEN

#

💣camcoded 5:21 pm

I JUST HATE YOU

#

💖dimidame 5:30 pm

You are, like.... objectively wrong tho

#and collin is right #😏 #its a bad show. Sorry girl #girl

💣camcoded 5:31

WHY DOES NOBODY LOVE ME.

#why does nobody support me. Its a good show guys #ITS A GOOD SHOW

🔪butchtheeagle 6:50 pm

@📷girlzoned are you gonna take her to the vet or

#also lol. suzy bad takes hours again #not a response for over an hour #did the girls abandon you? #tw transphobia #<- bc u disagreed with collin

💣camcoded 6:55

ALL OF U HATE ME

#GRAAAAH

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🐸 frogsaretrans 12:34 am

Day 8 no zaza. I can feel the remnants of my flesh dripping slowly down the wall

#doobie wooby #burgerspeaks

🐺 anarchydotcom 12:37 am

I thought you died

#talking dmm #hi ed

🐸 frogsaregay 1:34 am

they got 5g up here

#doobie wooby #burgerspeaks #looool hi violet what’s up my dude

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🔪 butchtheeagle 2:09 pm

im gonna start writing joe biden/davey jones rpf

#my ao3 is shred-e-gal btw #im not serious but what if i was. what then.

📷 girlzoned2 2:18 pm

Max you posted this on main

#hi max #also check your dms

🔪 butchtheeagle 2:19 pm

SIHT uhmmm uhmm imean who said that

#hi collin girlie #i am NOT opening that link it looks evil

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🌩 bpd-sasuke 3:34 am

why is nobody talking about how jerma is literally some of the best rep for the queer community ever

#a

🌩 bpd-sasuke 9:24 am

Hi guys! Sorry about any confusion this post might have caused- I forgot to take my meds and the jaiden animations video (the one where she came out) somehow registered as a jerma video for me! Lol!

#let a girl have her delusions sometimes okay #/j #leave me alone #a

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🔥 hotshittr 11:32 am

if google says my girl js wrong no she isnt . google aint rememberin right 💯

#ollie too #i trust him #if google says hes wrong no he aint

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you are doing some cocomelon shit to me

[babyfairy]

Not exactly the same, but. I'm 31 and spent my twenties suffering from extreme social anxiety and spent all my time in my house, and I'm just now trying to get out and figure out how to talk to people at my big age. Lol. But I want to try because I know there has to be something worth it out there. And the important thing is that you are also trying. I hope you can find the best therapist to help you on your neurodivergent journey and you truly get someone who listens to you and can help (c)

(c) make sense of the chaos you feel. I have bpd so I understand, I truly do, what it feels like when everything is crumbling inside and you just want to feel normal and experience life, and it makes you feel crazy bc it looks like everyone else is doing just fine so you're constantly just like... why can't I figure it out, too? You can. Keep fighting for your peace, Bri. Keep trying to find something out there that's worth looking forward to, no matter how small. I'm so sorry you're struggling.

you guys truly send me the most heartfelt messages. i can’t express my gratitude enough 😅 you described how i feel perfectly. everyone around me seems to have it together in ways that i can’t manage to and it makes me feel so…lonely? i think that’s the best word? jealous doesn’t quite describe it. i do envy that, but more than anything else i just feel sort of weird, and left behind, and isolated. i look up to my loved ones so much and all of them feel so put together even on their worst days. idk, it’s really weird. i’m 27 and sometimes i still feel like i’m 10, just trapped inside this adult body without a clue of where to go or what to do. i just want some guidance. i’m really hoping i’ll be able to sort things out a bit more in therapy. it’s just tough 😅 and i have a hard time talking about it even to the people i love haha! i’m better at spewing my thoughts on various social media platforms than i am sitting down and actually talking about how i feel with people i know and trust. i think i’m just afraid they’ll get tired of hearing it. anyway, sorry to ramble!! thank you so much for saying this. it gives me strength to know i’m not alone. i really really appreciate the kind words more than i can express

[momokori-cosplays-moved]

Bayverse hcs uwu

1. Donnie is transfemme

2. Donnie and raph are twins

3. Leo is 19, donnie and raph are 18, mikey is 16

4. Raph has an oral fixation

5. Casey's dad is an alcoholic

6. If mikey hadn't told raph about the retro mutagen, donnie would have let it slip to raph on his own

7. Donnie and raph have a really hard time keeping secrets from each other

8. Donnie worked on the retro mutagen for raph after the second movie because she knew how much it meant to him

9. Donnie has rejection sensitive dysphoria

10. Donnie became really depressed after leo shot down his retro mutagen

11. Leo is a bad person uwu

12. Mikey and leo are closer to vern, donnie and raph are closer with Casey

13. April's is a Sapphic asexual

14. Casey's first kiss was a boy

15. Casey is super comfortable with his sexuality, acts gay with the homies, and has bi wife energy

16. Vern is a cishet straight man (derogatory)

17. Casey wanted to be a cop because his dad was, but his dad was highly corrupt

18. Donnie graduated high school 2 years early, he tutored raph and he graduated a year early, leo got held back because of low math grades and mikey dropped out

19. Leo fights with his brothers the most

20. Leo is low on the compassion and empathy

21. Raph, donnie, and mikey all comfort each other when leo steam rolls them emotionally

22. Leo is the only turtle who doesn't have physical touch as one of his main love languages

23. Most fights and problems between the brothers go unresolved, mainly due to leo being a brick wall emotionally

24. Raph has a wide variety of music, but Donnie is the only one who's heard it all since some of it is uncharacteristically soft and sweet

25. When doing physical labor, raph shows up in a shirt but takes it off before working, mikey takes his off part way through, leo doesn't take his off until the sun starts to go down, donnie doesn't take his off

26. Raph's shell gets damaged often enough that donnie made a tool to help keep it closed

27. Donnie gets all sass and sarcasm from hanging around with raph

28. Vern is an incel

29. Leo insists on doing all the cleaning himself because he doesn't like how the others do it, but gets mad that no one is helping

30. Donnies favorite food is Italian

31. Donnie finds creative ways to train because mikey and raph get bored training like leo

32. Raph paces and talks out loud but only when he's angry, donnie and mikey listen to what he's says but leo ignores him until he stops, donnie actually talks to him during it

33. Donnie shuts down completely when upset, not talking to anyone, even raph, though raph will talk to her until she snaps out of it

34. Raph likes to flop into bed after a long day and has broken about 7 bed frames

35. Donnie made him a frame that just holds multiple mattresses high like a normal bed so he'd stop breaking them

36. Raph sunburns easily so his mask covers more of his head

37. Raph and Donnie are Aquarius, Mikey is a Gemini, Leo is a Leo

38. Splinter is an Aquarius

39. Donnie has a little plant on her desk that she waters and it helps her destress

40. Raph has a tattered teddy bear from his childhood, he can't sleep without it

41. Raph sucked his thumb as a baby, mikey sucked on his siblings thumbs

42. Mikey lost his two front teeth running into a wall as a kid

43. Leo is nuerotypical and ableist, the other three are autistic, mikey is adhd, donnie is ocd, and raph is bipolar and has bpd

44. Mikey often eavdropps on leos conversations

45. Mikey is the most self conscious about his looks

46. Raphael openly dislikes vern

47. Raph is really good at flirting, mikey is second best, then donnie, then leo

48. Despite being really into science, Donnie is a firm believer in magic and the paranormal

49. Donnie has named all the team up moves but raph never remembers them. Donnie has a note book with them all listed and has Raph's names for the moves listed below it

50. Donnie is in charge of corraling raph and keeping him in line

51. When raph is upset donnie is normally the one to comfort him or calm him down

52. Raph really wants to enter a strong man competition

53. Donnie knew that raph was afraid of heights and jumped first on purpose to show him it wasn't scary

54. Raph has ptsd surrounding his solo fight with shredder and the lair getting blown up. He struggles with sudden loud noises or quickly movements

55. Raph would get a tongue piercing

56. Donnie has a strong upper body

57. Donnie looks up to April more than the others, seeing her like a sister

58. Donnie is color blind

59. Donnie has super sensitive hearing

60. Donnie made noise canceling headphones for raph

61. Donnie collects cute bandaids with characters on them for mikey

62. Mikey has the slowest running speed and the lowest stamina because he uses the board

63. All team up moves that raph does with his siblings are all named based on what raph calls it cause he never remembers or realizes what the others mean when they use the real name

64. If someone messes with one sibling, the other three become super protective of them

65. Raph and donnie can use their feet like hands to pick things up

66. Mikey loves bugs and has a bug collection

67. Leo is terrified of bugs

68. Mikey has a marble collection

69. Raph was the first one to go out and start fighting crime, then donnie found out and she started finding him crimes to stop then mikey found 9ut and the two went out together. Eventually leo found out, a few days before the first movie takes place

[polycharismas]

13, 16, 31

13: do you hate anyone at the moment?

at the moment. kinda. yeah. that changes every single hour of the day though. complicated situation (it's just bpd). aside from that its only like two other people

16: how exactly are you feeling at the moment?

with an overwhelming urge to be mean to kie specifically ❤️

31: does somebody love you?

i think. i hope. im not very sure for one or two though but thats just my mind speaking and that isnt good because its very well trained in deceiving me

OR IS IT?

[the-exodus-fleet]

Greetings, stranger.

We are The Exodus Fleet, a non-disordered traumagenic system of currently 17 members. We consider ourselves to be monoconscious median for a complexity of reasons, which we might adress in a seperate post one day. This blog will be used for collective experiences, general plural posts (and maybe syscourse), as well as by those who don't want their own blogs but still wish to make posts sometimes.

We are autistic and have ADHD, anxiety and BPD, the latter is in remission by now. We also have a history of severe depression. All of us physically identify as our inner forms and almost all of us are nonhuman. Some are otherkin, otherhearted or something else along these lines additionally to their inner forms. Our inner/physical forms will be in italics.

We have no set DNI but block freely and will also report you, if you promote any sort of abuse, hatespeech, etc.

We are...

Istasha: The host, core, original, that kinda stuff. She/it, werewolf holothere, otherkin, otherhearted and generally alterhuman. Personal blog is @talks-with-the-void

Ohan: An alien fictive, he/him or plural they/them. Personal blog is @starstruck-sianat

Sissix: Alien fictive from the same source as Ohan, but a different species. She/her and xe/xir.

Ghost: Undead/ghost dog, looks like a white doberman with very pale blue-lilac eyes. she/it

Frank: Hellhound, looks like a black doberman with red eyes. Otherhearted with demons, black shucks and church grims. he/him

Autumn Trees: Frisian horse, he/him, icelandic horse therian. Name can be shortened to Autumn. Personal blog is @thunder-hooves

Wave: Water dragon/aquatic dinosaur, they/he. The biggest, sweetest goofball ever.

Kali: The token human, pretty much looks and is like how we would be if trauma never happened. Can be surprisingly bitchy tho, but doesn't mean it. she/her

Kade: Forest elf, she/fae but is a dude (not a man, not a boy, just a dude). White dove therian. Anxious to the moon and back.

Kairo: Mystic Catfolk (DnD race), feline cladotherian, she/they. Eldritch Knight archetrope.

Sunny/Sundrop: Jester angel, he/it, frontend like twice and then never again. Seems to be chill tho.

Oppy: Opportunity Mars Rover, she/her, shy and anxious as hell. Practically never fronts.

Ember: Cyborg dragon, she/it, we don't know much about her.

Selkie: Shapeshifting spirit fox, she/her, very kind and caring.

NME-31: Sentient AI in an artificial dragon-like body, he/it/code, very dry humor, analytical and sarcastic. Name is pronounced "enemy".

Beast: Canine monster, it/its, reformed persecutor, now it is "just" very angry at everything. But we love it, it actually is very cool if you get to know it better.

Crowley: demon, he/him, very very AU fictive of Crowley from Supernatural.

[chaos-in-elysium]

Ok it's time to come forward with my evidence and claims. In August or September of 2021 I met my accuser- let's call him Elm. We grew close rather quickly and became romantically involved. One day he asked if he could add his best friend into a group chat with just the 3 of us, I said yes. It didn't take me long at all to realize that his supposed best friend was actually his boyfriend, I had a talk with his boyfriend first who claimed Elm told him that I was the best friend. After explaining that Elm and I had been romantic for about 1-2 months his boyfriend despite having a hurt tone claimed that they were in an open relationship. These discussions all happened over discord call so I don't have screenshots for it. When ai confronted Elm about it because he never told me about his bf or the open relationship, Elm couldn't give me an answer to why he just kept dodging the questions. So when two people are in an open relationship and one wants to date someone else and doesn't tell that person about the open relationship, that isn't an actual open relationship - its cheating.

I pulled back a bit after this staying friends but becoming more platonic after Elm seemingly lost interest once I called him out on the cheating. There is one thing about Elm that always bugged me, the fact he would claimed his original characters or "muses" as he called them "tool control". (This was mentioned on call) When I asked if he had D.I.D he out right denied it but it seemed that whenever I would explain that something he was doing upset me that's when his Muses would "take over" and they always tried to make him blameless. For some context I have bpd and tend to split (I call it an episode) when I notice I'm being treated poorly, this can lead to rather explosive anger- Elm know this and would continue to do the behaviors that I asked him not to. I have one major instance of his main muse taking control

I was primarily upset because we had planned to hang out on call that day and Elm left barely 5 minutes in to hang out with a friend who randomly asked. )I blocked out names for their privacy because I know if I didn't they would raise hell. ) As you can see I'm trying to address a problematic pattern of behavior and he uses this muse to try and make me into the bad guy. He would purposely do something he knew would cause me to split, tell me to communicate if something upset me, then shame me and get pissed at me when I did. I had let him know multiple times that if I told him that an action he did was causing episodes then I would prefer it if he could refrain from repeating those actions as much as possible- he said he would but then would continue to do those same actions. This Azlute character only seemed to come out when I would call Elm out on how shitty he was treating me, and then would try to make me the one in the wrong for bringing it up. After this incident we muted each other and spent time apart to calm down after we settled we tried to remain friendly- but not fully friends. After a bit of not talking I had gone through a bit of a upsetting event with another friend and reached out to Elm this is the exchange. (I blocked out irrelevant messages prior)

Notic ehow he said "That's doesn't mean we have to be enemies,thought. I dont want to fight anymore .i consider you...an aquatance."

This interaction was 7 months ago we hadn't talked since. His words completely contradict his recent actions, if he didn't want to fight or be enemies why bring up these allegations? If he had such a big issue with me why wait til the allegations were made to block me? It makes honestly little sense to me

Moving on from Elm, next up we have Crimsons rather rude behavior. I did not blur her username out because these are public comments made on one of my posts. Keep in mind this woman is 31 years old (according to her Tumblr bio) and yet is behaving like a chronically online middle schooler.

First up I was already banned and blocked why would you still need evidence? Unless Elm had no evidence when the claims were made and the mods of the server decided to believe him, despite that went against our usual process.

"There's nothing you could possibly say that could change what you've done and said." If that's the case why prevent me from even attempting to plead my innocence?

"The only reason I've said anything is because I'm not involved." Yet you're being extremely rude and aggressive, and also involving yourself??

Once again based off her own words they did not have evidence when the claims were made.

I understand not posting the evidence to the public, I never asked for that I asked to see the evidence. When I gave another option to dm me the evidence she blocked me. This is the type of people running the server, people who will condemn you without evidence, who refuse to let you defend yourself, who refuse to even offer an explanation to what's going on. If the mods had just don't the mature Nad professional thing and discussed the issue with me,went through the claims, and let me defend myself none of this would have happened.

My original post was to try and reach the mods in the only option I had left to figure out what was actually going on. They banned and blocked me with zero explanation, I was left completely confused and blindsided. People are saying I'm immature but yet these mods are the reason I've had to go to extremes. I just want the evidence so I can defend myself. I'm not satin you have to believe me, I'm just saying you should jump to guilty until proven innocent.

I've had at least one person say "Well you should have just handled it privately" Well one can't handle it privately when all the mods decided to block me. I understand Elm made me out to be manipulative and when in an episode I can come across that way. Even still someone should have done the mature thing and been like "Maybe we should get Ry's side of the story and go from there".

Mods shouldn't be acting like children in this way. Especially for such an old dying Fandom such as portal 2. I feel that over time some of them lost touch with the world outside of the internet, the more they witnessed younger people struggling to separate fiction and reality, the less grounded they were. I think all of them need to step back and reflect and ask "Is this really how we should run this server?" A server that has over 100 people where only maybe 15 are ever active,a server that will have months of dead silence. Maybe it's time to move on, and to grow up.

[temporalreverie]

Im bored & i saw an ask game so I just answered them all for fun~

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

No

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?

I don't have an ex

3. Have you taken someones virginity?

No

4. Is trust a big issue for you?

Eh, it's complicated

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

Yes :3

6. What are you excited for?

Just having fun

7. What happened tonight?

???? It's morning. Hi.

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

I support women <3 be safe with alcohol though

9. Is confidence cute?

Yes!

10. What is the last beverage you had?

Coffeee

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

Im paranoid but like mostly my dad & brother. But Aidan for sure.

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?

Yes but my jeans phase died when my thighs came in

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?

Idk hopefully play katamari and talk to friends

14. What are you going to spend money on next?

IDK.

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?

I kiss my parents goodnight so no.

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?

Im always changjng

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

Either my marefriend or Aidan depending on the subject

18. The last time you felt broken?

Hmm sometime in the past few days I think i had a tiny moment but not seriously for at least a month.

19. Have you had sex today?

Im still drinking my coffee calm down..

20. Are you starting to realize anything?

Just spam out job applications low care style and make it their problem. Waste the companies time not ur own

21. Are you in a good mood?

Kind of but I'm soooo sleepy

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?

My parent have swam with whale sharks once that would be nice

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?

Yes! Mine are maybe a little more colorful but we both have gray with a ring of hazel orange

24. What do you want right this second?

To hug my girlfriend & fall asleep

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?

Im in a unique situation for this question where my GF is poly and already is with a few other ppl before we started dating and I'm the most comfortable talking through being BPD triggered with her so like we could talk through it if I got bothered

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?

I haven't dyed my hair for a few years. going pink could be fun

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

I laugh at a lot of things rlly easily so probably no. All sorts of jokes even bad puns, and just like cute or charming behavior

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?

I don't remember laugh out loud. Probably something my girlfriend said last night

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?

Long distance is hard but I don't feel like that's exactly the same as missing someone. I was thinking about my late childhood dog the other day and how I can still image the feel of petting her in various places, the shape of her body and the texture of her hair on like her back and in front of her ears and her neck.

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?

Ya

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

My dad is nice

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?

We are marefriends!!

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?

Yes. I had a pespi for the first time in ages a couple days ago and it knocked me the fuck out

34. Listening to?

Just noises rn but I've been playing We <3 Katamari so various variations of the main theme keep playing in my head.

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?

I go through phases of using a little note book for organization but not recently.

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?

I kiss my parents goodnight so yeah

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Not rlly, it's like infatuation & good first impressions. Love of everything is like built up over time.

38. Who did you last call?

My marefriend <3

39. Who was the last person you danced with?

I don't remember, but Im always dancing alone with myself

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

Saying goodnight to my parents

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?

My mom bought cupcakes and a scone a month ago and we all agreed the cupcakes were pretty bland #sconesweep

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?

Not this morning no

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?

Maybe years in the past? Not rlly recently.

44. Do you tan in the nude?

I don't want skin cancer </3 or a tan

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?

No

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

Close to. Very sleepy

47. Who was the last person to call you?

My dad

48. Do you sing in the shower?

Always!!

49. Do you dance in the car?

Yea

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?

Probably in some boy scouts thing years ago

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

Maybe graduation?

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?

I love music

53. Is Christmas stressful?

A little but mostly fun

54. Ever eat a pierogi?

Yes they r my best friend

55. Favorite type of fruit pie?

Cherry

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

Engineer, artist

57. Do you believe in ghosts?

Nop

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

Too much

59. Take a vitamin daily?

Probably should

60. Wear slippers?

In this season

61. Wear a bath robe?

No

62. What do you wear to bed?

Soft pants + white t shirt

63. First concert?

Green Day probably

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

Target

65. Nike or Adidas?

Esos son Reebok o son Nike?

66. Cheetos Or Fritos?

Cheeto

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

Im ageric to peanuts & i love sunflower.

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?

My fortnite parody of Romeo & Juliet I wrote this January.

69. Ever take dance lessons?

Hmmmm probably not

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

No

71. Can you curl your tongue?

Ya

72. Ever won a spelling bee?

Never been in one but i probably could've done well

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

Yes, i cry easily

74. What is your favorite book?

Idk reading is for losers. Sorry that's a lie

75. Do you study better with or without music?

With

76. Regularly burn incense?

No, I'm a good cook so i don't burn stuff <3

77. Ever been in love?

💞

78. Who would you like to see in concert?

Vylet Pony i guess

79. What was the last concert you saw?

Ummmm idk. I feel like it was something eh with my parents we just passed by. Like third eye blind

80. Hot tea or cold tea?

Not rlly a tea person. Cold?

81. Tea or coffee?

Coffeeee

82. Favorite type of cookie?

Smirking dog

83. Can you swim well?

Decent. I love water

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

Yes

85. Are you patient?

Very

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?

Idk. I guess DJ has more powers so DJ

87. Ever won a contest?

A few. I won a jellybean guessing one like 15+ years ago

88. Ever have plastic surgery?

Noooo

89. Which are better black or green olives?

Green but all 'lives are beautiful

90. Opinions on sex before marriage?

Im gay..

91. Best room for a fireplace?

Under chimnie

92. Do you want to get married

Down the line

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[xxb0rderline-kitt3nxx]

Doing this because I’m so fucking depressed rn

1. Name —> Beauty

2. B-day —> Do I even have one at this point? I don’t think my birthday will ever be mine.

3. Username meaning —> I have bpd and used to regress as a coping mechanism but then I ghosted my cg/dd and haven’t been able to regress since. It’s probably for the best.

4. Fav movie —> New Moon

5. A fact about my personality —> It doesn’t exist.

6. What I love most about myself —> my compassion and my ability with children.

7. What I dislike the most about myself —> most things.

8. Idea of the perfect date —> I have not been on a real date in a long long time.

9. Weakness —> I am naive.

10. Sexuality —> Pansexual.

11. Biggest turn on —> True kindness and compassion towards me.

12. Last time I cried and why —> Five minutes ago. I hate everything about myself.

13. Favourite food —> Nutella.

14. Favourite season —> Spring.

15. How long I take to get rdy —> Depends on the occasion. Anywhere from 20 mins to 3 hours.

16. Somewhere I want to visit —> Everywhere.

17. What languages I speak —> English, understand Portuguese and most Spanish, learning Japanese and making good progress.

18. The colour of my eyes —> Brown.

19. Last book I read —> I’m not sure. But my CR is Anna Karenina.

20. Fav ice cream flavour —> Caramel or Oreo.

21. Dogs or cats —> Cats.

22. The song I’m listing to rn —> Us and Pigs - Sophia Isella

23. Day or night —> Usually day but if I can be asleep, night.

24. Do I like roller coasters —> Yes.

25. Lucky number —> I don’t have one.

26. Favourite quote —> Right now, it’s “we were both girls together”.

27. Fav album —> I’m not sure. I have many.

28. What I find attractive in other people —> True kindness, compassion, lack of negative judgment.

29. My type —> Truly at heart, kind hearted, honest, big boy, blonde, country-ish boys. Maybe I’ll just love and miss him forever though. And all and any women. And everyone else who I find attractive.

30. Nationality —> I’ll keep that a secret for the time being.

31. Fav song —> Of all time - Ohio is for lovers, Niki fm by Hawthorne Heights. Right now - I have a lot of them.

32. Fav holiday —> Litha.

33. Go to comfort food —> Kraft dinner and Nutella.

34. Coffee or tea —> Both in different moods.

35. A song that makes me cry —> Most of them.

36. Places I’ve been to —> A few.

37. Fav colour —> Pink, brown, grey, green.

38. Water, fire, earth, or air —> Earth.

39. Fav sport —> Dance, track & field, soccer, skateboarding.

40. Fav fruit —> Pomegranate and mango.

Im still just as depressed as when I began.

[znewstech]

India imports over 1mn bpd of Russian oil

India imports over 1mn bpd of Russian oil

NEW DELHI: India’s import of crude oil from Russia increased further in December 2022, topping 1 million barrels per day (bpd) for the first time ever as Moscow remained its top oil supper for the third month in a row, according to data from energy cargo tracker Vortexa. Russia, which made up for just 0.2% of all crude oil India imported in the year to March 31, 2022, supplied 1.2 million bpd in…