#30 day count down
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deoidesign · 5 months ago
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heard it's "make a terrible comic" day
Finally hit 10,000 hours this month after starting making comics full time 2.5 years ago
decided to play paper mario instead of making more comics today (I beat it)
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eggmeralda · 5 months ago
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do you ever feel casually suicidal? like you're not depressed or anything you're doing fine but also it feels like a convenient option
#if you can't make connections with people or be seen by anyone then like. at least you can feel like you're helping a better cause#to like charities and gfms and anyone else#but you have to tone that down bc you're slowly losing money bc you still can't get a job#and bc you don't have a job it means you're just stuck in the house all day. which gives Way Too Much opportunity to Think about everything#and also so like. i still share a room with my sister but it was fine bc she'd stay at her bf's a few nights a week#but he's got a job that's a bit further away and basically she can't go round his as much. so now it's maybe like once a week#the room is getting messier so it gives me less energy to do anything#you can get really into an unhealthy weight loss obsession bc at least it feels like you're getting towards something#but idek is set weight theory real? bc once i get down to a certain point it suddenly resets#like honestly counting calories and donating money to every gfm i saw and writing a film script was what kept me going#but first one isn't working and second i need some sort of income and third is finished and i have no way of actually creating it#and then there's the whole lack of stable hyperfixation and ability to find new music i enjoy#and realistically what would fix me is having a good job that i enjoy and somewhere to live on my own#but until i get a job that's currently impossible. and even then it probably won't feel like enough#my entire life is lived on my phone i need more physical objects but i don't have enough space#bc i share a room with my sister. it's like all my problems are connected#and i have enough optimism that i still think it'll get better in the next few weeks. maybe i'll be able to get a job and that'll#get everything going again#but at the same time i could easily just die#I've graduated from uni. I've seen the who live 3 times. I've crashed my car twice. I've watched 30 years of corrie. I've met various dogs#what else is there to do with my life honestly#(<- joking)#but yeah like. in summer 2021 i almost got suicidal (it was just letting the occasional thought linger in my mind etc)#but that was bc i was so depressed#but now it feels like i could just kill myself. but more just out of convenience#idek. i'm not gonna kill myself. bc i have a job interview on tuesday. and just in general i won't#but there is this casual feeling of like. well i might as well. i can't describe it#ramble#suicide tw#weight loss mention
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nite-puff · 1 year ago
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3 WEEKS BABEY!!!!!!
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iliveinprocrasti-nationn · 8 months ago
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one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else
#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more#I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s#the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything#that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da#lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how#get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to#and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not#be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much#of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so.#literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in#bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it#into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it#but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted#any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself#not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha#usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day#because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere#I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s#just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway#this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this#bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school#vent tw#yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely#disability#chronically ill#i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho#i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to#anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse#I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours#I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework
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iero · 7 months ago
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Was so proud of myself yesterday because I didn't have a panic attack for the first day in easily a month to immediately have one as soon as I got back to the place today... When will this end?
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ex0tic-butters · 2 months ago
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5 weeks until the terrible influence tour!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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pennedinblood · 4 months ago
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screaming crying throwing up (not in the good way) bc it's been. so damn busy at work this week. begging all the corporate gods to release their hold on my soul so i can write this weekend
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leavememorieshere · 1 year ago
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Day 12 and hoping Zack feels Italian on Thursday 🤞 if he doesn’t I’m gonna cry but I wouldn’t blame him
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dustyspines · 4 months ago
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me: girl learn from the errors of your ways make your chapters normal readable lengths
me, five minutes later:
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wolfsbanesparks · 10 months ago
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WOLFBANESPARKS
ON TUMBLES????
I've been a huge!!!! fan of your stuff for like YEARS!
now, how did I not know you have Tumblr.
anyway I adore "pretty little thing" and "split" and the plastic man one shot it's awesome
thank you for writing <333333
-guy from ao3
Hi anon!
It's always so exciting to see people from ao3 over here on tumblr! I'm so happy you've been enjoying my stories, it makes all the effort that goes into them worth it 💜
It's funny though because I've been on tumblr waaay longer than I've been writing on ao3 (like since 2012!) I just took my tumblr username and transplanted it to ao3 for convenience lol. Sometimes I forget people don't know they can chat with me over here. My tumblr is a hodgepodge of random things, but I'm always happy to hear from my readers!
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bibleofficial · 1 year ago
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today is going to be my 420th day of exercise lol
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beakerhoneydew · 2 years ago
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Not to post spoilers but the TikTok Flight Attendant finally got fired. And I did Not predict what the firable offence was
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july-19th-club · 2 years ago
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i love insomnia AND congestion AND chills AND being on my period
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rhysdoesstuff · 1 year ago
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Sneak peak
I working on the drawing for the Good Omens Count down, and I thought I would share a few sketches I have!
when it gets closer to the 30 days before, I’ll share the list of drawings I’ll be doing!
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kurokoros · 2 years ago
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is it near impossible to have hobbies/fun when you have a 40+ hour work week or am I just pathetic?
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need-some-food · 2 years ago
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I'm tired of having to block and report at least one bot account EVERY SINGLE DAY
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