#3 am edition

[adashofginger]

"I drew curtains closed, drank my poison all alone."

The Great War | Taylor Swift

Model: Will Hutcheson

[sadinallthenicestplaces]

Would've, Could've, Should've

This song. The instant I heard it, even half-asleep at three in the morning, I knew that it was going to be one of my new favorites. I feel like we as a fan base collectively like to talk about the hard-hitting lines in this song (i.e. "never would've danced with the devil at 19," and the fan-favorite "give me back my girlhood//it was mine first"), but after thinking about it a lot I don't think those are the most devastating lyrics.

I think that, by far, the most heart-wrenching bit of the song is when Taylor says "I miss who I used to be." I think it's easy to overlook this line, as its typically nestled in between other lyrics and she sings it rather quickly. But I feel like this, more than anything, encapsulates the spirit of the song.

"Would've, could've, should've" is a common phrase (at least, in American English...not sure about other countries or languages), typically used to imply regret. It's also, however, a way of acknowledging that whatever has been done is officially in the past, and there's no changing that.

By singing "I miss who I used to be," she almost directly contradicts that. She's not at peace with what happened, and even now, over a decade later, she misses who she used to be. Remember, this is the Taylor that gave us fairytale metaphors and wanted to name her third album "Enchanted." But this relationship changed her, made her a bit more cynical and a lot less trusting. She misses the person she was before she "danced with the devil," and she will never be able to be that person again...I think that's probably the most heartbreaking part of this whole thing.

[ri-afan]

RWRB movie stuff pops up -> oh, maybe I should reread it! -> you know, another one I wanted to reread was the hunger games -> oh I can’t because my sister is borrowing it and she’s a slow reader and I don’t want to discourage her by rushing her -> my other sister still has the other book I borrowed her -> maybe she could read this other book I have if she likes the queer lit -> how to I talk her into it? It’s a lesbian love story in Oklahoma -> oh I should probably work on how to make a book cover though because that one really does look queer and I don’t want Bad Things to happen to her or it -> I wish people weren’t assholes -> people should be able to read what they want -> Ciel’s little “I’m a human being” speech after Book of Circus -> oh, I get it now -> Big Picture: compared to the time of the world and humanity, human lives are actually relatively short and therefore we should enjoy it the best we can and try to leave things better than we found them -> demons would probably find any venture tedious but fleeting -> we are also flawed people -> you should always try and figure out the truth of what you believe in especially since it could be a cult -> just read the damn queer love stories -> what if I just walked into school on Tuesday with this attitude? -> who cares?! I just said I was human? Or rather, Ciel said it -> didn’t you said you were going to bed? -> Why is it 3 am? ->

[ashlovessanrio]

Mine is The Great War. I was just curious what other people thought!

[stupiddumidiot]

Help I binged another gay webcomic and the ram on my gay processor is overflowing what do I do I don't know how to do a factory reset without resetting my sexuality

[strawberrykate]

paris has been stuck in my head since it came out, i dont get how its some ppls least fav

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[badolmen]

WARNING 18+

19

[cozylittleartblog]

i dont know how to explain it but joining extremely small fandoms with only a few people in them feels like this

[krysmcscience]

Call this the Whoopsie AU (it's barely an AU)

I mean. Narinder never explicitly SAID the Lamb would stay dead... :3c He probably should have been more specific. >:3c

Part Two:

Well. The Lamb tried, but...sorry, Nari, the crown hates you now. Shouldn't have been so quick to lend it out, I guess. :D

Aaaand Part Three:

'Isn't he just adorable?' -The Lamb, probably, while their followers smile and nod and internally scream at the brand new hellcat they now have to share living space with...

Anyway, nothing says 'Dead To Me' like following a person around to loudly remind them of how dead they are to you. Right? Right. Narinder's got this all figured out. <:]

[adashofginger]

"Rain soaking, blind hoping."

High Infidelity | Taylor Swift

Model: Jay Gould

[stellarspecter]

@pscentral event 20: antagonists ↳ THE LORDS IN BLACK in NERDY PRUDES MUST DIE

[taylors-versionn13]

NEW MIDNIGHTS BODYSUIT

Dr Swift really is making the whole place ✨shimmer✨ tonight with all these new outfits

[papanowo]

i think dan should get to be a little weird too. as a treat

[fuckyoui-mchris]

3 A.M.

My thoughts... wandering. I've had my fair share of suicidal thoughts. My fair share of nights feeling worthless. My fair share of nights going to bed with an anxious feeling. But I've also had my fair share of nights where things feel fine. Normal, straight to slumber with peace of mind and the known fact that we got another new day coming along. Another day. Just the next. And so on and so forth. Going with the flow, like the waves within the ocean. Or more-so like a lake. Calm waters. Soothing. Despite everything around me still being so fucked, the water is existent.

I guess basically I'm just alive and I exist at the same time as many great souls. Many who are successful, many who are finding themselves, many who just got it down, many who are at the bottom like myself but at the same time, the many who are just sticking with the thought of existing and letting these days guide us. Because we will have our time. We will have a goal complete and a new one to exceed.

I think the craziest thing is I have so many friends all over that spectrum. Rich. Hardworking. Broke. Lost. Living. Loving. Traveling. Finding. Praying. Learning. Full on existing. And yet, I still feel I'm nowhere near it yet I am all at the same time. Mindset a little over-the-top. But not as gone like when I was younger.

So realistically, I'm not where I should be yet I'm where I need to be. All these years have proven to me that I too deserve to be here along with many others and we are out here, still getting by. Still existing all at once, for a better tomorrow and to have that betterment continue onward when we reach it while setting new goals after we succeed. It may not be overnight but it wont last a whole lifetime either because we still have control of what is destined to make us happy. To create our joy. And that's what we're doing. That's what I'm attempting. And its quite something.

[caruliaa]

staff still hasn't given me polls, what should i do?

🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪 their moms 69%

🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪 their dads 31%

grace image os i get to look at her