#29/01/24

[is-hinata-good-today]

january 29th, 2024

hinata is more perfect than ever before - he’s that perfect today, it’s impossible to describe!!!

[willowout]

29/01/24

new beginnings, I guess. It's so weird because I don't know how to start. I want to start this so I can write about how I feel and what I experience living this life.

I am slipping into old habits again and I hate myself for it. From mid-december to mid-january, when I wasn't at home, I was flourishing. I was able to do all my daily tasks, eat a healthy amount of food, and go to sleep without self-medicating. I told myself that I would keep that routine up once I came back home.

I had leeway the first week I came back, thats what I told myself because I had my test. I kept telling myself that everyday. Its okay to order food multiple times a day because I have to study or that I don't have to out for a walk since my focus should be elsewhere. Now the the tests is done, I have no excuse for my behaviour. I smoke at night telling myself it helps me sleep, I order food even though I already ate dinner because I have the munchies, I wake up at 1pm and run to the shower so my mom doesn't know I slept in, and then I just stay in my bedroom while I pretend to apply to jobs, and then the cycle continues.

Who is to blame? Do I behave this way because its the only familiarity I have my life or is it because of the environment I live in and my family pushes me to behave this way? I know that I can break this cycle. I've done it before and I liked it. So I know I can do it again.

ew who do I think I am lol.

Anyways, I just finished my first book of the year. I read The Wife Between Us. The suspense kept me reading but the ending was too much, like not every character needed a twist. I also re-downloaded letterboxd for like the 5th time. Instead of overwhelming myself by trying to remember every movie I've ever watched and logging them, I decided to just rate movies as I watch them. My music taste is changing again. I go through phases with my music. Right now I'm returning to my emo roots but also new emo? My performances have been going crazy in my room.

Last thing before I get tired of typing. I bought a weight scale. I weighed myself for the first time in years. I'm at 250. I deleted tiktok, instagram, and twitter last week beacuse me and my bff wanted to do no more social media. I cracked and re-downloaded tiktok. I got high and started sprialing realizing that I am perceived by people and that I'm not pretty like the girls I see online. I satrted 75 hard in december. Today should've been Day 49 but I stopped on day 7. Hate myself for that. I've been doing one extreme for my whole life but I want to change. I stopped weighing myself once I hit 280, this was a couple of years ago. I wanted to die, still do. But I need to try at least once to make myself better.

[rovingsolitarything]

29/01/24

Three of Pentacles

Metier, trade, skilled labour. Usually regarded as a card of nobility, aristocracy, renown, glory. Teamwork, collaboration, learning, implementation.

Unit 3/4 now…

Currently reading: The Three-Body Problem, Liu Cixin

- CJ

[yesitsvjays]

As the former queen of impulsiveness- I get it, it’s the adventure or whatever lol but I still live by these things: avoid making promises while in a good mood, and avoid making decisions while in a bad mood.

Just live in the moment whanau

[felixs-voice-makes-me-wanna]

joong

[idv-the-fashion-designer]

INTRODUCTORY POST

“You are only as good as the people you dress.”

Diana Bell. manor letters. external traits. rules/tags.

updated: 03/20/24

[jtl-fics]

FF?

7/31/24 - WIP Wednesday (Open) | Fluent Freshman FD 29 (1/5)

There were a few reasons that Andrew and Neil could not get past reception to go see Smith or get any updates on his current condition.

The first reason was that visiting hours were long over by the time they had arrived a little after midnight.

The second reason was that hospitals, in general, do not just give out information on their patients to any random person that walks in to ask about an update on their condition. Hospitals are especially hesitant to give out updates on patients to people who walk in and can’t give you anything other than America’s most common last name, describe the world’s most average man, and give the reason why the patient is in the hospital.

Somehow, “Brown hair, brown eyes, about 5 foot 9 inches with the last name Smith who was stabbed in the stomach,” is not enough for the receptionist to go off of.

[duskroads-draws]

And here’s the last of the lords. I ran out of time/energy to draw anything below the neck but I’m happy with what got done

[florenvcepugh-archived]

you found yourself fantasizing about scarlett johansson on the set of black widow

SEND MY MUSE A STATEMENT AND THEY CAN ONLY REPLY WITH TRUE OR FALSE! True!!!!! who hasn't done that...look at the woman!!!

[dearestlyrics]

articulating the feeling is hard

when it's so dense and familiar

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[kyliejcnncr-archived]

Kendall is your favorite sister.

SEND MY MUSE A STATEMENT AND THEY CAN ONLY REPLY WITH TRUE OR FALSE! false...khloe is my favourite sister....just kidding // @kcndolljcnncr

[last-nights-nightmare-was]

Had a dreamless night, not expected, but welcomed

[dinasilvertongue]

[alpha-mag-media]

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[jtl-fics]

I'd like to request a Foxhole Bake! And here is all the baked goods I have access to as thanks: 🥠🥮🥧🍰🍮🎂🧁🍩🍪🧇🥞🥐🥖🫓🍞🥯

1/24/24 WIP Wednesday (CLOSED) | Foxhole Bake AU

Andrew couldn't quite help the way that he looked at Neil's cake before leaving the tent. He knew that Neil had been prepared for this back to the point of ignoring all other aspects of the competition.

Still he looks at the mirror-glaze, the candied oranges, the remaining frosting in the bowl and...

He looks at his own cake and he doesn't recognize it as their wedding cake.

He can't help the scowl on his face when Neil catches him looking.

1/31/24 WIP Wednesday Ask Options: HERE