#29/01/24

[is-hinata-good-today]

january 29th, 2024

hinata is more perfect than ever before - he’s that perfect today, it’s impossible to describe!!!

[willowout]

29/01/24

new beginnings, I guess. It's so weird because I don't know how to start. I want to start this so I can write about how I feel and what I experience living this life.

I am slipping into old habits again and I hate myself for it. From mid-december to mid-january, when I wasn't at home, I was flourishing. I was able to do all my daily tasks, eat a healthy amount of food, and go to sleep without self-medicating. I told myself that I would keep that routine up once I came back home.

I had leeway the first week I came back, thats what I told myself because I had my test. I kept telling myself that everyday. Its okay to order food multiple times a day because I have to study or that I don't have to out for a walk since my focus should be elsewhere. Now the the tests is done, I have no excuse for my behaviour. I smoke at night telling myself it helps me sleep, I order food even though I already ate dinner because I have the munchies, I wake up at 1pm and run to the shower so my mom doesn't know I slept in, and then I just stay in my bedroom while I pretend to apply to jobs, and then the cycle continues.

Who is to blame? Do I behave this way because its the only familiarity I have my life or is it because of the environment I live in and my family pushes me to behave this way? I know that I can break this cycle. I've done it before and I liked it. So I know I can do it again.

ew who do I think I am lol.

Anyways, I just finished my first book of the year. I read The Wife Between Us. The suspense kept me reading but the ending was too much, like not every character needed a twist. I also re-downloaded letterboxd for like the 5th time. Instead of overwhelming myself by trying to remember every movie I've ever watched and logging them, I decided to just rate movies as I watch them. My music taste is changing again. I go through phases with my music. Right now I'm returning to my emo roots but also new emo? My performances have been going crazy in my room.

Last thing before I get tired of typing. I bought a weight scale. I weighed myself for the first time in years. I'm at 250. I deleted tiktok, instagram, and twitter last week beacuse me and my bff wanted to do no more social media. I cracked and re-downloaded tiktok. I got high and started sprialing realizing that I am perceived by people and that I'm not pretty like the girls I see online. I satrted 75 hard in december. Today should've been Day 49 but I stopped on day 7. Hate myself for that. I've been doing one extreme for my whole life but I want to change. I stopped weighing myself once I hit 280, this was a couple of years ago. I wanted to die, still do. But I need to try at least once to make myself better.

[rovingsolitarything]

29/01/24

Three of Pentacles

Metier, trade, skilled labour. Usually regarded as a card of nobility, aristocracy, renown, glory. Teamwork, collaboration, learning, implementation.

Unit 3/4 now…

Currently reading: The Three-Body Problem, Liu Cixin

- CJ

[yesitsvjays]

As the former queen of impulsiveness- I get it, it’s the adventure or whatever lol but I still live by these things: avoid making promises while in a good mood, and avoid making decisions while in a bad mood.

Just live in the moment whanau

[mitski-creature]

[felixs-voice-makes-me-wanna]

joong

[idv-the-fashion-designer]

INTRODUCTORY POST

“You are only as good as the people you dress.”

Diana Bell. manor letters. external traits. rules/tags.

updated: 03/20/24

[jtl-fics]

FF?

7/31/24 - WIP Wednesday (Open) | Fluent Freshman FD 29 (1/5)

There were a few reasons that Andrew and Neil could not get past reception to go see Smith or get any updates on his current condition.

The first reason was that visiting hours were long over by the time they had arrived a little after midnight.

The second reason was that hospitals, in general, do not just give out information on their patients to any random person that walks in to ask about an update on their condition. Hospitals are especially hesitant to give out updates on patients to people who walk in and can’t give you anything other than America’s most common last name, describe the world’s most average man, and give the reason why the patient is in the hospital.

Somehow, “Brown hair, brown eyes, about 5 foot 9 inches with the last name Smith who was stabbed in the stomach,” is not enough for the receptionist to go off of.

[duskroads-draws]

And here’s the last of the lords. I ran out of time/energy to draw anything below the neck but I’m happy with what got done

[florenvcepugh-archived]

you found yourself fantasizing about scarlett johansson on the set of black widow

SEND MY MUSE A STATEMENT AND THEY CAN ONLY REPLY WITH TRUE OR FALSE! True!!!!! who hasn't done that...look at the woman!!!

[dearestlyrics]

articulating the feeling is hard

when it's so dense and familiar

[astr0logies]

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[kyliejcnncr-archived]

Kendall is your favorite sister.

SEND MY MUSE A STATEMENT AND THEY CAN ONLY REPLY WITH TRUE OR FALSE! false...khloe is my favourite sister....just kidding // @kcndolljcnncr

[last-nights-nightmare-was]

Had a dreamless night, not expected, but welcomed

[dinasilvertongue]

[houseofblve]

𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙡 𝙛𝙖𝙘𝙚 - 𝙤𝙗𝙭 𝙨𝙢𝙖𝙪

𝖿𝗋𝖺𝗍 𝖻𝗈𝗒!𝗋𝖺𝖿𝖾 𝖼𝖺𝗆𝖾𝗋𝗈𝗇 𝗑 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋 (𝗆𝖺𝗂𝗇) - (𝗂𝗇𝖼𝗅𝗎𝖽𝖾𝗌 𝖾𝗌𝗍𝖺𝖻𝗅𝗂𝗌𝗁𝖾𝖽 𝗃𝗃𝗉𝗈𝗉𝖾)

𝗉𝗈𝗀𝗎𝖾 𝗉𝗋𝗈𝖿𝗂𝗅𝖾𝗌 - 𝗂𝗇𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗀𝗋𝖺𝗆 - 𝗍𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗋

𝗄𝗈𝗈𝗄 𝗉𝗋𝗈𝖿𝗂𝗅𝖾𝗌 - 𝗂𝗇𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗀𝗋𝖺𝗆 - 𝗍𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗋

𝗋𝖺𝖿𝖾 𝗑 𝗒/𝗇 𝗆𝗈𝗈𝖽𝖻𝗈𝖺𝗋𝖽

𝗈𝗇𝖾𝗌𝗁𝗈𝗍 𝗌𝖾𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗌

01. 𝗉𝖺𝗒𝗈𝗅𝖺 𝗆𝗈𝗇𝗌𝗍𝖾𝗋

02. 𝖿𝗋𝖺𝗍 𝖻𝗈𝗒 𝖼𝗎𝗅𝗍

03. 𝗂 𝖺𝗆 𝗌𝗈 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾𝖽

04. 𝗂𝗌 𝖿𝗎𝖼𝗄𝖻𝗈𝗒 𝖼𝗈𝗇𝗍𝖺𝗀𝗂𝗈𝗎𝗌

05. 𝗂𝗇𝗌𝗉𝗂𝗋𝖾𝖽

06. 𝗃𝗈𝗁𝗇 𝖻 𝗌𝗁𝖺𝖽𝖾

07. 𝗋𝗈𝗈𝗆𝗂𝖾𝗌

08. 𝗐𝖺𝗋

09. 𝖺𝗆 𝗂 𝖻𝖾𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖽𝗋𝖺𝗆𝖺𝗍𝗂𝖼

10. 𝖿𝗎𝖼𝗄 𝗆𝗒 𝗅𝗂𝖿𝖾

11. 1𝗆𝗂𝗅𝗅𝗂𝗈𝗇 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾𝗌

12. 𝖿𝗂𝗋𝖾 𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖽𝖺𝗒 𝗇𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍

13. 𝗏𝗂𝗈𝗅𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇 𝗈𝖿 𝗉𝗋𝗂𝗏𝖺𝖼𝗒

14. 𝗅𝗂𝖿𝖾 𝗂𝗌 𝗀𝗈𝗈𝖽

15. 𝖿𝗂𝗇𝖺𝗅𝗅𝗒 𝖻𝖾𝖼𝗈𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖺 𝗌𝗆𝖺𝗋𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝗉𝖾𝗋𝗌𝗈𝗇

16. 𝗂’𝗆 𝗌𝗈 𝗌𝗍𝗎𝗉𝗂𝖽

17. 𝖼𝖺𝗇 𝗂 𝖼𝗈𝗆𝖾 𝗈𝗏𝖾𝗋

18. 𝖺𝗆 𝗂 𝖾𝗏𝗂𝗅

19. 𝗂𝗇𝗍𝖾𝗋𝗏𝖾𝗇𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇

20. 𝗂 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾 𝗆𝗒 𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽𝗌

21. 𝗄𝖺𝗉𝗉𝖺 𝗉𝗂𝖾 𝖺𝗅𝗉𝗁𝖺 𝗆𝖺𝗅𝖾

22. 𝖽𝗂𝖼𝗄 𝖽𝖾𝗉𝗋𝗂𝗏𝖾𝖽

23. 𝖻𝖾𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗁𝖾𝗅𝖽 𝗁𝗈𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗀𝖾

24. 𝖻𝗂𝖽 𝖽𝖺𝗒

25. 𝗉𝗅𝗈𝗍𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀

26. 𝗀𝖺𝗆𝖾 𝗇𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍

27. 𝗌𝖾𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗍𝗈𝗆𝗈𝗋𝗋𝗈𝗐

28. 𝖿𝗂𝗋𝗌𝗍 𝗆𝖺𝗃𝗈𝗋 𝖽𝖾𝖼𝗂𝗌𝗂𝗈𝗇

29. 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗒 𝖺𝗐𝖺𝗒

30. 𝗍𝗈𝗈 𝗉𝗋𝖾𝗍𝗍𝗒 𝗍𝗈 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗐𝖺𝗒

31. 𝗐𝗁𝗈 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍 𝗆𝖾

32. 𝖽𝗈𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗀𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗍

33. 𝗆𝖾𝗇 𝗇𝖾𝖾𝖽 𝗍𝗈 𝖽𝗂𝖾

34. 𝖺 𝗅𝗈𝗍 𝗈𝖿 𝖿𝗎𝖼𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗇𝖾𝗋𝗏𝖾

35. 𝗂 𝗌𝗆𝗂𝗅𝖾𝖽

36. 𝗋𝖾𝗊𝗎𝖾𝗌𝗍𝖾𝖽

37. 𝗆𝖾 𝗂𝖿 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖼𝖺𝗋𝖾

38. 𝗉𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗌𝖾 𝗁𝖾𝗅𝗉 𝗆𝖾

39. 𝗀𝗈𝗍 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝗈𝖻𝗌𝖾𝗌𝗌𝖾𝖽

40. 𝗂 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝗁𝖾𝗋

41. 𝖻𝗋𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝖿𝖺𝗆𝗂𝗅𝗒 𝖻𝖺𝖼𝗄 𝗍𝗈𝗀𝖾𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋

42. 𝗂 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾 𝗍𝗈𝗋𝗍𝗎𝗋𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗆𝖾𝗇

43. 𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽𝗌 𝗈𝖿 𝖼𝗈𝗎𝗋𝗌𝖾

44. 𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝗌𝖼𝗋𝖺𝗉𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖻𝖺𝗋𝗋𝖾𝗅

45. 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗇𝗄 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌

46. 𝗂 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎

𝖺𝗎𝗌𝗍𝗂𝗇 𝖺𝗅𝗍𝖾𝗋𝗇𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝖾𝗇𝖽𝗂𝗇𝗀

𝗌𝗈𝖿𝗂𝖺 𝖺𝗅𝗍𝖾𝗋𝗇𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝖾𝗇𝖽𝗂𝗇𝗀