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yes they are toxic but it is because of the love. without the love it would be a lot healthier actually.

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the distance feels like a death sentence. oh god, i just want you to put the effort in, i want you to show me that you want to fix us. i want you to be honest with me. this distance… i know that i put up those borders, that me talking about my problems and being honest has drove you away. but this distance is killing me. i just want to feel loved again.

but i have never though about you, huh? do you want to love me? or be loved by me? i do not think so. i won’t beg you for something you do not want to give. if loving me was so horrible, than i’m glad you got out. i’m glad you can be happy without me. and i’m glad that you don’t need me.

but still, i can’t get my head around that you won’t even try.

my friend once told me: if the devil can’t reach u, he will send you a person who won’t leave you, but doesn’t want to stay.

and i think that sums up, what kind of relationship we have.

please have the courage to leave me, and get over me, if you won’t put in the effort to help me.

~your suffocating Juno

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You kissed my heart with forgiveness, in spite of all I’ve done

Psalm 103:3

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There are no words left

that can console me

Maybe I moved out too soon, or grew up too quick

There are many things to say,

many speeches I could listen to

once more.

But this is fact, and I think

perhaps I will have to learn

to live

with that — I feel empty;

hollow, and alone.

There is nothing any person could say

that had not already been said.

I know the drill — I've fired the shots

I've learned and I know

I have yet to learn but

this world is cold and I yearn

for a comfort that is beyond it's reach.

Nothing can hold me like I wish

to be held.

Maybe I wasn't ready for the truth

or maybe I was too eager

to live;

Maybe I waited too long to live.

Maybe I wasn't ready — but I had to get out

of that house.

I've since realized I prefer looking in

through the windows

of homes that do not belong to me;

I image the person it requires

to live like that.

I've found that once I step inside

the warmth of it is not one that suits me,

and so I continue to wander like a ghost

with nowhere to go but the past.

There is no warmth

within this worlds capabilities

that can console me

anymore.

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not personal but i honestly wish my fp’s friends would just disappear

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The moments pass by. They become distant memories. And the past points a gun to my skull. And I grieve. And I grieve. And I grieve.

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09:53, 06/11-24

I keep thinking I have to get back to class, or to my room, the school in general. I think of my memories of the place as if they happened just a few days ago. I'm so detached, everything is hazy, and I am once again lost in the linear movement of time. I have to remind myself that all of this happened a year ago; that I am now standing in the same city a year later. Everyone from back then is gone now, and so is everything else I feel is happening now. It is a year later. It it a year later. None of it is still standing untouched. I have to remind myself. All of it is more than a year ago. I am older now. Time has passed, things have changed, and between now and then, all has faded into the past.

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just you and me

to infinity

I can't fucking breathe

too much ecstasy

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lost my way in the chaos. cant find my way back. know i might if i truly tried. dont think I want to.