#260 wishes is insane what

[evilkaeya]

how much do you ahve saved for arle so far???? i have 260 wishes and 340 primos from multiple patches of no pulling :3

.......You are on my rob list

[thetonethetollandthethunder]

Arc of A Scythe analysis, chapter 6-10

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Chapter 6!

-Ooo! This is the chapter we see the new order scythes!!!

-99.9 percent on-time service…stuff like this makes me wish i was in scythe—

-I find it very funny that the middle seat is just as bad as disease and government, Neal always makes this small funny bits intentionally or not

-GODDARD ID RECOGNIZE THAT ROBE ANYWHERE

-Elegy of scythes <3

-This is fucking terrifying though, imagine you’re finally on your way home, you can’t wait to see your family, they’re all waiting for you, all you want is a nice flight home, and then it’s announced you’re gonna die. Thats fucking scary man

-This scene really shows how fucked up Goddard and is Elegy are, how cruel they can be

-Yes business man, gleaning is necessary, but not in this way, this way is just despicable

-Chomsky is too excited for this PUT THE FLAMETHROWER AWAY SIR

-Oh god Goddard is using the word Alpha, do you think he considers himself an alpha male? I do NOT wanna think about that

-“Yet even in dreams I often find myself gleaning…” god almost all scythes must be so fucking traumatized man-

-Jesus what a good chapter, a great way to start the new part!

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Chapter 7!!

-Faraday is lowkey a good professor, no wonder you high school au freaks like using him for that /hj

-I for one, CAN imagine Faraday with a mace, he’d look fucking awesome

-Banned weapons are encouraged, that is SCARY!!!

-No wonder a lot of scythes (esp young ones in the new order are bloodthirsty, it’s this cycle of encouragement and being exempt from the rules of society, sure the older scythes preach about gleaning with honor but when you’re young, especially around citra and rowan’s age, you’d be hard-pressed to listen and be much more interested in the bloodsports of Goddard. That’s how he gets you!!!

-Also as someone who has started journaling my scythe journal would be UNREADABLE I have AWFUL handwriting

-Killing 5 people a week, and 260 a year is INSANE!! Again it’s no wonder a lot of scythes are so desensitized to this shit, and even revel in it, you kind of have to, just for your own sanity

-“Good scythes don’t get days off.” *COUGH COUGH* GODDARD *COUGH COUGH*

-“The idea that not all scythes were good was something neither Rowan or Citra had ever considered. It was widely accepted that scythes adhered to the highest moral and ethical standards. Even the ones who sought celebrity were seen to deserve it.” OHH YOU FUCKERS HAVE NO IDEA I LOVE WHEN I HAVE FORESIGHT THE CHARACTERS IN THEIR CURRENT PRESENT TIME DONT!!!!

-“If you do not cry yourself to sleep on a regular basis, you are not compassionate enough to be a scythe.” OUGH THAT LINEEEEE!!!!

-“She doubted rowan cried himself to sleep.” It all happens on the inside, citra!

-“I prefer to see each person I glean as an individual deserving of an end that is unique.” I love how the first book shows how compassionate and truly worthy of the title Scythe Faraday is. It’s that compassionate that makes him stay as one even after the title is gone. Because that’s what he truly is.

-“I find fire a horrific way to glean and would never use it.” ROWAN WOULD DISAGREE OHOHOHOOOOO—

-Its here where I think Rowan gets a lot of his moral code, or at least starts to think about it, to him Faraday is a model scythe, the scythe anyone should strive to be, and when he eventually sees scythes the complete opposite of him, his way of thinking as Scythe Lucifer becomes more clear.

-“I am an accomplice to the world’s oldest crime, and it will only get worse.” AAAA THAT LINE MAN

-“All they do is play games and watch cat holograms.” Oh Neal you really don’t know shit about how people actually use technology—

-I think me and Rowan would have similar handwriting (bad)

-“Rowan found it increasingly hard to parse his feelings about her.” ROWAN FELL FIRST AND HE FELL HARD MAN!!!!!!!!!

-Ben mention :(((((

-This entry of Curie’s journal really fucking hits you man!!! Especially the “I don’t know” at the end like UGH!!!!

-AMAZING CHAPTER AS ALWAYS!!! It’s really laying the groundwork for future character development!

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Chapter 8!!!

-We get some foreshadowing to Citra’s gleaning method! The theater part if you can recall!

-Also the “No, I lost. Twice.” Is SO funny

-“It was the only time in all my years as a scythe that I had been thanked for what I do.” And you’ll be thanked SO much more soon Faraday!

-Them becoming more violent and thinking about gleaning is SO interesting esp since its so early, just shows how much it can affect you.

-Foreshadowing to where Rowan chooses which Scythe he chooses to glean when he becomes Scythe Lucifer

-GOD you can FEEL his guilt of having to choose between these 4 people!! How horrible and awful he feels to take their lives away as he learns more UGH

-AND he’s thinking about Bias’s unlike SOMEONE *cough cough* SCYTHE GODDARD *cough cough*

-“Does it ever get easier?” Rowan asked. “I certainly hope not,” the scythe said.

-Bradford Ziller is such a shit name lmao

-Rowan not wanting to admit he’s the one who chose him is soooo!!

-“They had bitten her. Good for them.” HAH that’s such a fun line

-Oop! There’s an error on my copy of the book! There’s a quotation mark at the end of “How was any of this fair?” When there shouldn’t be because it’s not dialogue! Interesting right?

-Even if he has a stupid name, you can really feel the terror and panic on Bradford, really good stuff

-The fact he wants to be aware and awake when he dies is sooo interesting man

-Rowan and Citra’s love is continuing to blossom!!

-“I fear for all of us if scythes begin to love what they do.” *STARES AT GODDARD*

-Amazing chapter as always!! Two more to go!!

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Chapter 9!!

-Esme!! I always remember her being an underutilized character, let’s see if I was right though!

-Idk why but I hate mentions of food, esp greasy foods in books, makes me ick a lot idk I’m weird

-“Well, she could learn self-control tomorrow. Today she wanted pizza.” ICONIC LINE!! Such a mood!

-Luigi mario :)

-Elegy of scythes are back!!!

-Oh Esme there’s gonna be *so* many mass gleanings later on you have NO idea

-VOLTA

-Esme you’re life is gonna be FUCKED GIRL YOU HAVE NO IDEA!!

-A utopia where everything is perfect would be boring, most ppls lives in Scythe are boring, that’s what I think makes Scythe interesting compared to other dystopian books because its a utopia that turns into a dystopian whilst giving ideas of how that utopia itself was already a dystopia even if it wasn’t a tradition one

-Shorter chapter! Still good tho, not as interesting as others however

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CHAPTER 10!!!!!

-TYGER!!

-Rowan you’re scaring people—

-Rowan’s disobedience is what makes him soooo interesting to me mam!!

-Lmao Rowan is worried about Tyger stealing Citra, already getting jealous!

-Apparently ppl ship Citra and Tyger which…I don’t see??? At all????

-We get some more Citra-Rowan interactions!! Very nice!!! Makes my Citran heart happy <3

-Emo-Nanites <3

-“We are not the same beings we once were. So then, if we are no longer human, what are we?” UGH ANOTHER GOOD LINE!!

-Another short chapter though not as short as the last one! Liked it more than the last though!

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SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG, but here’s the next 5 chapters, those last two chapters didn’t have much but everything else was great as always!! Next time we’ll be doing chapters 11-15! Hope you’ll join me for it!!!

[coconox]

to put into more perspective on why the new lesser key shop just doesn't really work with what we have right now, we earn roughly 260 gems per week excluding events, nightmare pass, or really anything outside of dailies/weeklies (you can see the breakdown of that calculation here if you're curious).

assuming you start at 0 gems and want to get the best deal which is the 150 keys, you need to save for roughly 19 weeks or around 5 months to afford that. this is of course worse case scenario of only doing dailies/weeklies but the point still stands of there not being a generous amount of gems given per week outside of whatever events are going on.

while it's nice to have a lesser key shop that's somewhat cheaper than the guilty gem exchange shop, the difference between the two just sadly isn't that big when you break it down (66 gems vs 52 vs 46 vs 33), especially with the fact that the earning for gems haven't changed ever since they added seals into weeklies (which actually decreased the earnings of gems btw)

i wish that in the future they revamp daily/weekly earnings since it's an insanely low and slow grind for everyone across all currencies offered, tho my hopes aren't up by much

Lesser Key Shop & Nightmare Pancake Shop

With the update for Belphie Selfie, PrettyBusy took away the old Pancake Shop that they had added back in temporarily because of backlash and added in a Lesser Key Shop.

This is going to be a long post... again.

Lesser Key Shop By-The-Numbers

To start, we will look at some numbers to see how worthwhile this new shop is compared to what we already have.

The Guilty Gem Exchange House has 3 red keys for 198 red gems (66 gems per key), and 30 keys for 1,980 gems (66 gems per key).

The new Lesser Key Shop has 1 key for 66 gems with 30 available purchases, 3 keys for 158 gems (~52 gems per key) with 10 purchases, 30 keys for 1,386 gems (~46 gems per key) with 1 purchase, and 150 keys for 4,950 gems (33 gems per key) with 1 purchase. I assume that the purchases reset at the start of each month, but I don't know for sure.

The Secret Shop, which shows up about once a month, has 1 key for 44 gems with unlimited purchases.

The 150 keys in the Lesser Key Shop is the best deal, however, that is a lot of gems to spend at one time. Most people won't want to do that. The next best deal is still the Secret Shop keys. So, if you only want to purchase between 1 - 149 red keys, then wait for the Secret Shop to show up.

Purchasable Red Keys

Now, I'm going to talk about the packs of red keys that you can buy with real money. If my numbers are not the same as yours, it's due to a difference in currency, but the idea of what I'm talking about will be the same.

If you really need red keys and you're willing to spend money, then it is a better deal to spend the money in the Lesser Key Shop rather than buy gems in the Guilty Gem Exchange and use those to purchase the red keys. It's $60 for a ten-pull in the Lesser Key Shop (note that you can only do this once a month). If you have no red gems, then to get enough gems to purchase 30 red keys from the Secret Shop you'd have to purchase the $120 blue gem pack and you'd have 680 gems remaining after buying the keys. If you had 430 red gems already then you could buy the $60 blue gems pack. But, overall, it is better to buy the red keys directly from the Lesser Key Shop.

WHB Compared to Other Gachas

Next, I want to look at the value of money that you're getting in comparison to some other gachas.

In WHB, it's $20 for 1/3 of a ten-pull, and there's no more expensive packs that you can buy to improve this. In Obey Me, it's $11.45 for 1/3 of a ten-pull, which can improve if you buy the more expensive packs. Also, Obey Me has a lot of good flash deals that WHB doesn't have. In FGO, it's $9.44 for 1/3 of a ten pull, which can improve if you buy the more expensive packs. In Genshin Impact, it's $10.89 for 1/3 of a ten-pull, which can improve if you buy the more expensive packs. Also, in Genshin, if you're fine with logging in consecutively for 30 days, then you can buy the Welkin Moon for $7 and get 18.75 pulls from it, which is a great deal.

Clearly, WHB is by far the worst value-wise. WHB should be $10 for 1/3 of a ten pull. The $20 is just way too expensive. WHB should also have more expensive packs that have a better key-to-dollar ratio.

Now, for the one-time purchase of 10 keys for $5, that's okay. So, if you're really in need of 10 red keys and have $5 lying around, then go for it.

Needless to say, the Lesser Key Shop is not comparable to the old pancake shop red keys in any way, shape, or form. And I still really want them to give us back the pancake shop red keys, even if they decide to increase the number of pancakes needed.

Nightmare Pancake Shop

Despite the backlash, they did not change a single thing about the Nightmare Pancake Shop. The items in the shop are the same, the costs are the same, the number of nightmare pancakes you get for selling S and L characters are the same, everything is the same. I am not happy to say the least. But I already said what I wanted to say in the following linked post, so I won't repeat myself here.

https://www.tumblr.com/wihellib/755045038514421760/pancake-shop-part-2

Finale

The Lesser Key Shop is a poor substitute for the 30 red keys that we could get from the old pancake shop. PrettyBusy has not done anything to improve the new pancake shop and has not responded to criticism regarding the pancake shop in any way. Not even to just say, 'Hey, we're working on it.' I am going to be writing another professional and respectful email to them, explaining my concerns, and hope that others that feel like me do the same.

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#on the other i feel like because it’s the middle east some people feel better going against the cultural norm where in every other western

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#5

LANDO IS SO CLUMSY I CANNOT WITH THIS BOY

747 notes • Posted 2021-03-05 13:11:12 GMT

#4

i posted this on twt, tumblr should see it too

781 notes • Posted 2021-08-21 05:11:06 GMT

#3

discovered dream and george on sunday and i just want to ask you all if you’re alright? in the eight years i’ve been online, i have never seen a pair like this, i survived early yt era shipping and that was wild but this? this? this is f*cking mad, folks. if two cc’s made as many jokes or comments about their own ship to the public, people would lose their minds. like i’ve been sat here three days in silence watching clips of dream saying “my future is your future” and george planning marriage “fraud” at least three times like it’s not absolute insanity,

the “i’ve known him for six years”, the “we could...kiss?”, the “i’ll win if you tell me you love me, george”, the “have you compared your best friend to any of your past bf/gf’s” followed by “n-no-no!” and george’s quiet “well..”, the “are you dating dream?” followed by george’s “he wishes”, with “me and george have no plans to date...we’re just bro’s, just homies” making toby and tommy start wheezing like they can’t breathe, “yeah i have it set up so dream’s call comes through when he needs me” george said, “i love you dream” he says before exiting, and dream just blatantly says “the only man i’m into is george”, like.

all the suggestive texts (what?) the constant confusion of their relationship from their friends (okay) the late calls that last hours (fine) the unsure reaction george has when dream says something provacative concerning their relationship (huh?) when dream stutters or falls quiet when he’s caught off guard where it concerns george (how?) the soft voice they use only for the other (i...) fans being used to dream liking ship fanart (it doesn’t surprise you anymore) no like how they’ve known each other for more than half a decade and george still doesn’t know what he looks like - and is okay with that,

the fact that dream’s always looking for george, hearing george, focused on george, to the point where he has his stream open, looking for george’s reactions, only. i don’t think you folks understand how absolutely mad this is. you’re used to it and i genuinely don’t know what’s going on here. just, i love my friends, but i know i don’t love them the same way dream loves george.

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TWITCH LEAK DAY SHENANIGANS

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You've never seen Toto like this.

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[calder]

DIVISION II-V His trumpets soundeth as the breaking of the world 8. And where His shackles were loosed a tree of light grew upon the earth and in its blooming, cast forth a cleansing fire 9. The faithful knew that they still had His love; for where the tree bloomed His seal was placed upon the earth wherein they might drink the waters of the glow 10. Still the wicked did not believe and so stars of heaven fell upon the earth carried by winged chariots and his trumpets sounded for 40 days 11. Thus the land was cleansed and a second great division began 12. But as with the wyrm, the unbelievers hid below the earth from the Eye of Atom, trapped in their ignorance 13. To they He has delivered new prophets and said unto them 14. I have sent forth thy prisoners out of the pit wherein is no water of the glow 15. And you shall weild the arrow of my judgement upon them 16. Pity not the wailing of heretics, for their tears shall be dried in the flames 17. And their flesh shall consume away while they stand upon their feet in the division 18. And their eyes shall consume away in their holes to behold the glory of Atom 19. And their tongue shall consume away in their mouth to better speak His name 20. And so shall you do my works upon the earth

SLUMMER.MSG {287}{}{We must submit to the Master and the Holy Flame. When we have proven ourselves, we shall become baptized and closer to God. When all have been baptized, we shall be as one, a Unity under the Master! } {334}{}{Once people understand the Master and what he stands for, everyone will want to be baptized. The only people who would not wish to be baptized are the insane, and they should be put out of their misery for their own safety, poor wretched things. } {341}{}{We must become closer to God, mutant and human alike. I'm not sure what the Master means with this particular part of the message, but it must be true. Praise the Master, he is so wise! } {260}{}{He is Keeper of the Holy Flame, one who strives to wipe away all divisions, all hatreds. He wields both sword and plowshare, but would rather build than destroy. Hail the Master! Hail Unity! }

i was thinking about how these factions are way too similar to ignore, when i realized one of their gospels is called Division, and the other is called Unity

i dont think this was intentional but im doin that now

I THINK

I THINK I FIGURED SOMETHING OUT

[chaoticdisater]

Red white & royal Blue Favourite quotes

“How many times do I have to tell Y’all not to discuss your murder plots in front of a sitting president” their mother interrupts “Plausible deniability. Come on” (Pg 64) 

I don't know WHO you think you're kidding, you Hufflepuff-ass bitch, (Alex to henry over text pg 69) 

“‘put the turkeys in my room’  ‘No.’ ‘put them in my room, put them in my room, put them in my room -’  later that night as Alex stares into the cold pitiless eyes of a prehistoric beast of prey, he has a few regrets” (Alex and his mother Pg 76) 

“’he- Oi! Not for you Mr.wobbles! those are mine!’ more rustling and a distant offended Meow, ‘no, Mr. wobbles you bastard!’” (Henry at his sister's cat, pg 80) 

“Dec 8, 2019, 8:53 PM  yo there's a bond marathon on and did you know your dad was a total babe HRH prince Dickhead  I BEG YOU TO NOT “ (Henry and Alex over text Pg 84) 

“’ the options Id like...’ he says dragging the words out. ‘they don't quite seem to be options at all’” (Henry Pg 107) 

“’ christ you're a thick as it gets’ he says and he grabs Alex's face in both hands and kisses him.” (Henry Pg 107) 

“‘Seventy-eight percent probability of latent Bi-sexual tendencies. one hundred percent probability this is not a hypothetical question’” (Nora pg 118) 

“‘am I? do you think I'm Bi?’  ‘I can't tell you that Alex!’ she says ‘that's the whole point!’” (Alex and Nora Pg121)

“she slants a look at him ‘is this a diabolical scheme of seduction?’ she asks ‘if so, yes.’“ (Nora Pg 130) 

“Alex knocks the candelabra off the table next to them and pushes henry onto it so hes sitting with his back against - Alex looks up and almost breaks into a deranged laugh - a portrait of alexander hamilton.” (Pg 132) 

“‘im going to die’ henry says helplessly.  ‘im going to kill you,’ Alex tells him.” (Henry and Alex pg 133) 

‘”and if you fucking ghost me again, I'm going to get you put on a fucking no-fly list. got it’” (Alex at henry pg 134) 

“worst of all, Henry is good“ (Alex's thoughts on henry playing Polo Pg 147) 

“’I’m gonna go, Uh’ Alex says ‘say hi to henry’ Amy's mouth settles into a grim line ‘Please don't elaborate’ ‘Yeah I know’ Alex says ‘plausible deniability’” (Alex and Amy Pg 148) 

‘A <agcd@eclare45.com>  to Henry  his royal highness prince of whatever,  Don't make me learn your actual title’ (Alex’s email to henry Pg 152) 

‘Henry <hwales@kensingtonemail.com>  to A Alex, first son of inappropriately timed Emails when I’m in early morning meetings’ (Henry’s email to Alex Pg 155) 

“when he shows up to a briefing two days later Zahra grabs his jaw with one hand and turns his head, peering closer at the side of his neck. ‘is that a Hickey’ Alex freezes. ‘I . . . um, no?’” (Zahra and Alex pg 162) 

“‘Do you have a last name?’ Alex has never actually offered a greeting when calling Henry  ‘What?’ the usual bemused elongated one-syllable response” (163 Alex and henry over the phone) 

“‘Baby’ its become a thing: Baby he knows it’s become a thing. hes slipped up and accidentally said it a few times, and each time, Henry positively melts” (Alex Pg 166) 

“‘I miss you,’ Alex says before he can stop himself he instantly regrets ut but henry says. ‘I miss you too’” (pg 173) 

“she flung her arm out emphatically enough to upset an entire potted cactus on her dresser and says ‘Because until now you weren't fucking the prince of England’” (June pg 177)  

“‘you should try saying some of that stuff to Him’  ‘stop trying to Jane Austen my life’” (June and Alex Pg 180) 

“’ is now a good time to point out henrys very hot Very rich best friend is basically in love with you?’ Alex says to June ‘hes like some kind of billionaire genius manic-pixie-dream philanthropist. I feel like you would be into that.’ ‘Please shut up,’” (Alex and June Pg 182)  

“‘yes, yes, Pez, we know there's nothing you cant do,’ says henrys voice off-camera ‘no need to rub it in’“ (henry Pg 184) 

“‘oh I haven't had vodka since uni,’ henry says ‘it tends to make me erm, well-’ ‘flamboyant?’ Pez offers. ‘uninhibited? randy?’  ‘Fun?’ Bea suggests  ‘Excuses you, I am loads of fun all the time! I am a Delight’“ (Henry Bea and Pez pg 190)

“’yes Beatrice, we shall behave in a manner befitting the crown,’ henry says. his eyes are slightly crossed ‘don't be a tosser’“ (Henry and bea Pg 195) 

“He likes taking henry apart but there's something incredibly intantament about sitting on the bed they wrecked the night before, the only one who watches him create Prince Henry of Wales for the day.” (Pg 200) 

“‘So this is the gang now, huh?’  and through it all, Alex realizes with a start: he has friends now.” (Cash pg 201) 

“How is a man to get anything done knowing Alex Claremont-Diaz is out there on the loose?” (Henrys email to Alex pg 203) 

“yours in sexual frustration  Henry” (henrys email to Alex pg 206) 

“once again, how had he ever convinced himself he was straight,” (Alex pg 213) 

“‘just so we’re clear,’ Alex said ‘Im about to have sex with you in this storage closet to spite your family. Like that's what's happening?’“ (Alex pg 217) 

“your Brave I could use some of that” (Pg 218) 

“Because that's what he would do if he were here in this palace to fall in love Henry” (Pg 220) 

“Zahra doesnt even look up from her phone ‘that was my boyfriend and no, you may not ask me any further questions about him’” (Zahra Pg 223) 

“If he’s some anonymous normal person removed from history he’s twenty-two and he’s tipsy and he’s pulling a guy into his hotel room by the belt loop. He’s pulling a lip between his teeth and he fumbling behind his back to switch on a lamp and he’s thinking I like this person”  (Pg 228)

“You still are. Because you still bloody care so much.” He leans down and presses a kiss into Alex’s hair. “And you are good. Most things are awful most of the time but you’re good” (Henry Pg 230)

“’Seriously?’ She hisses ‘your literally putting your dick in the leader of a foreign state who is a man at the biggest political event before the election in a hotel full of reporters in a city full of cameras in a race close enough to fucking hinge on some bullshit like this like a manifestation of my fucking stress dreams and you’re asking me not to tell the president about it?’” (Zarha pg 233)

“The next slide is titled EXPLORING YOUR SEXUALITY: HEALTHY BUT DOES IT HAVE TO BE WITH THE PRINCE ENGLAND? she apologizes for not having time to come up with better titles Alex activity wishes for the sweet release of death” (Pg 237)

“History huh? I bet we could make some.” (Alex’s email to henry Pg 241)

“The pair of you share and an alarming number of traits by the by: passionate determination, never knowing when to shut up, &c &c,” (herny’s email to Alex Pg 242)

“Regards Haplessly romantic heretic prince henry the utterly daft” (henrys email to Alex pg 243)

“‘It’s math,’ Nora says ‘Math has no authority here,’ June tells her ‘Math is everywhere June’” (Nora and June Pg 247)

“Henry is tipsy and shirtless and attempting to referee” (pg 252)

“’Some times you just jump and hope it’s not a chiff’” (Alex dad Pg 256)

“Well, Alex is so in love he could die.” (Pg 257)

“He’s been falling in love with Henry for years probably since he first saw him in glossy print on the pages of j14 almost definitely since Henry pinned Alex to the floor of a medical supply closet and told him to shut the hell up.” (Pg 257)

“’Fuck off five nine is average’” (Pg 258)

“’H?’ He whispers ‘you awake?’ Henry sighs ‘always.’” ( Pg 260)

“He’s got a distinct feeling of something being pulled out of his hands right before he could grasp it.” (Pg 263)

“something rises in Alex's throat - anger, confusion, hurt, bile. Unforgivably, he feels like he might cry” (Pg 270) 

“’Fuck I swear you don’t make it fucking easy but I’m in love with you’” (Alex Pg 271)

“’I never thought I’d be stood here faced with a choice I can’t make because I never ... I never imagined you would love me back’” (Henry pg 273)

“He’s in Henry’s face now if he’s getting his heart broken tonight he’s sure as hell going to make Henry have the guts to do it right ‘tell me you're done with me. I’ll get back on the plane. that's it. and you can live here in your tower and be miserable forever, write a whole book of sad fucking poems about it, whatever just say it’” (274)

“He’s in stupid unbearable love and Henry loves him too and at least for one night it matters, even if they both have to pretend to forget in the morning” (Pg 275)

“He tells his too fast brain: don’t miss this time he’s too important” (Alexs thoughts Pg 275)

“henry’s hands-on him are unhurried and soft and they make out lazily for hours or days.” (Pg 280) 

“Alex sighs ‘i don't think I told you but she uh. well, when she fired me she told me that if I wasn't a thousand percent serious about you. I need to break things off.’  Henry nuzzles his nose behind Alex's ear ‘a thousand percent?’” (Alex and Henry Pg 282) 

“‘Diaz you insane hopeless romantic little shit’ says the voice of the president of the united states, muffled in the bed ‘it had better be forever. Be safe’“ (Pg 284) 

“hes cut off mid-sentence because Alex has stopped in the middle of the corridor and yanked him backwards into a kiss” (pg 286) 

“’its funny’ henry says ‘i always thought of the whole thing as the most unforgivable thing about me but you act like its one of the best’“ (henry Pg 289) 

“he takes the chain off his neck and slides the ring on next to the old house key. they click together gently as he tucks them both under his shirt, two homes side by side” (Pg 291) 

“I opened my blasted mouth and said ‘because I'm not like the rest of the men in this family beginning with the fact that I'm am very deeply gay Philip’  once shaan managed to dislodge him from the chandelier Philip had quite a few words for me,” (Henry’s emails to Alex Pg 298) 

“just leaving, not coming back. maybe burning something down on the way out. it would be nice.” (henrys emails to Alex pg 299)

“I thought, if someone like that ever loved me, it would set me on fire” (henrys emails to Alex (describing how he felt when he first saw Alex) Pg 300) 

“20. the fact that you have loved me all along.” (alex’s email to henry (the list of things alex loves about henry) Pg 303) 

“‘Oh my god Z what is That? did you get engaged?’  Zahra looks down at the ring and shrugs. ‘i had the week-end off’” (June and Zahra pg 305)

“’you and me and history, remember? were just gonna fucking fight. because your it okay? Im never gonna love anybody in the world like i love you,’“ (Alex pg 312) 

“‘I swear to god if you say I'm too young I'm gonna lose my shit,’“ (Alex pg 315) 

“What did he do ‘be more specific’“ (Alex to Zahra pg 321 ) 

“’the president is sitting down with as many members of the office of communitcs we could drag out of bed at three in the morning’” (Zahra Pg 323) 

“‘pack a bag’ she says ‘we’re going to londan’” (Zahra Pg 334)

“she (Zarha) seems confident Shaan will agree to it and willing to physically overpower him if not.” (pg 334) 

“still the cocky shit head part of him is slightly pleased to finally have claim on henry. Yep, the prince? Most eligible bachelor in the world? British accent face like a greek god, legs for days? Mine” (Pg 336) 

“‘youre giving my ulcer an ulcer’“ (Zahra pg 336) 

“‘Im running on nothing but black coffee, a wetzels pretzel, and a fistful of B12. Do not even breathe in my directrion,’“ (Zahra Pg 339) 

“He leans up and kisses the underside of his jaw, finding it rough from a full fitful day,” (pg 340)

“‘What kind of family, that says we’ll take the murder, we’ll take the raping and pillaging and the colonizing, well scrub it up nice and neat in a museum but oh no you’re a bloody poof? That’s beyond our sense of decorum’” (Henry pg 347)

“Bea seizes the pot of tea from the center of the table and dumps it into his lap ‘Oh, I’m terribly sorry Pip’ she says grabbing him by the shoulders and shoving him sputtering and yelping toward the door ‘so deardfully clumsy, you know I think all that cocaine I did must have really done a job on my refexes!’” (Bea pg 357)

“Henry pulls Alex close and kisses him whispers, ‘I love you I love you I love you’ and it doesn’t matter, it doesn’t matter if anyone sees.” (Pg 358)

And that’s when I gave up I do have more but well I didn’t want to make this list any more

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Counting Down My Top 10 Animated Films Of The Last Decade

Welcome to the beginning of the movie decade lists! Before I start if you wanna know the exact time the next list will be out follow my instagram here! Ok so there were some movies that I left out of this list but loved so I’m gonna let y’all know the runner ups cause I’m just so fucking generous. They are The Boss Baby, Kung Fu Panda 2, Klaus, and Rise of the Guardians. I could’ve easily thrown them on the list but these decade lists are stressing me the fuck out and they’re time consuming! Also, there will be some Pixar movies missing and I DON’T wanna hear any annoying criticisms! This is MY list! ANYWHO here’s my list and I hope you love it as much as I loved watching these films over the last ten years. Enjoy! ***SLIGHT SPOILERS?***

10. Trolls (2016)

Ok ok ok, hear me THE FUCK OUT. Trolls is fucking funny!!! Even I thought the movie was going to be dumb as all hell but by the end my eyes were watering? The music in Trolls makes the movie and there are so many jokes that continuously make me laugh. Ugh I fucking love Trolls cause it always makes me happy so don’t troll me for putting it on my list!

9. Toy Story 3 (2010)

Is it crazy that the third installment in this series is the best? This movie is not only hilarious but like fucking traumatic!? When they all almost died in that incinerator!? And when Andy (John Morris) gave up Woody (Tom Hanks)!?! WHAT THE FUCK! If you can get through Toy Story 3 without crying I’m just letting you know that you’re a fucking demon. 

8. The Lego Movie (2014)

Everything IS awesome in this animated film. Honestly people thought this was going to be dumb but I’m glad they were proven wrong cause I was very excited to see this movie. I saw this in college high (lol throwback to when I smoked weed) with my friend Genna (hi BFF) and it was our first friendship outing! Not only do I love this movie but I love the memories I have from it. Also it’s just hysterical and it’s something you can watch over and over again. Kind of pissed the Academy completely snubbed this.

7. Your Name (2016)

I watched this movie during the past two weeks and my god it truly deserves all the hype it gets. The tale of a boy and a girl body swapping is not only adorable but heartbreaking as hell. This is the first anime film not directed Hayao Miyazaki to earn more than $100 million in Japan! How insane is that?! What I love about Your Name is it really makes you think about all the missed connections you could’ve had. Now that I’m writing about it I really want to watch it again. Go watch it... like now!

6. Wreck it Ralph (2012)

To be honest I only got around to watching this movie a few weeks ago and I’m so happy I did! First of all the animation is just breathtaking you never wanna take your eyes off of it. The tale of Ralph (John C. Reilly) trying to be a good guy and befriending a glitch by the name Vanellope (Sarah Silverman) is not only funny but so heartwarming I was crying at the end. The sequel, Ralph Breaks the Internet, is not as good plot wise but is still tons of fun and left me wanting a third.

5. Coco (2017)

When I saw Coco I literally cried so hard it was embarrassing. At first I was skeptical because sometimes people hype up Pixar movies and then I don’t end up liking them (Frozen, Inside Out, Big Hero 6) so I decided to take the leap and watch Coco and I’m so glad I did. The colors in the movie are so vibrant and I love the atmosphere it creates even though they’re in the land of the dead. On top of that there’s an amazing familial story that would reduce the strongest of men to tears. Ugh, I genuinely love this movie so much and cry every damn time and it also gave us a great Pixar villain.

4. Into the Spider-Verse (2018)

I know it’s number four on my personal list but in reality it’s the best animated film made in the past decade. The animation alone just reels you in and I really wish I saw it in theaters. Miles Morales (Shameik Moore) has become my favorite Spider-Man and I can not wait for a sequel. Before I forget, did anyone else see that twist coming!? I didn’t!

3. The How to Train Your Dragon Franchise (2010-2019)

Ok there was no way in actual hell that I could just pick one of these 3 films like that would break me! The story of how Hiccup (Jay Bruchel) and Toothless became the best of friends and changed peoples minds about dragons is one near and dear to my sappy heart. I honestly think Toothless is the cutest animated animal that has ever been fucking created like how could you not fall in love with him!? When I saw Hidden World in theaters I was sobbing harder than the actual children that were there. I’m so glad that I gave these movies a chance and I’ll be so mad if they don’t get the Oscar they so rightfully deserve in 2020.

2. Tangled (2010)

Rapunzel (Mandy Moore) finally got the update she deserved when Disney debuted their new style of animation with Tangled. Tangled had a budget of $260 million dollars making it the highest budget of an animated film ever. You’re probably wondering why it cost so much money but it’s literally because they needed new technology to create Rapunzel’s hair! Rapunzel is a naive princess but she’s independent and always asking questions which makes her so great. She has the greatest animal companion of all the Disney princesses and Flynn Ryder (Zachary Levi) is not your ordinary Disney prince. Mother Gothel (Donna Murphy) is quite the underrated villain and Mother Knows Best is one of the best Disney villain songs. Tangled is just overall a fantastic film and I wish it got as much praise and buzz as Frozen did.

1. Zootopia (2016)

Zoo. Motherfucking. Topia. One of the best achievements in cinematic history. If you think I’m joking, I’m not. The minute I saw Zootopia I was absolutely obsessed which is funny cause I really don’t like animals. Disney found a way to not only show how systematic racism works but gave us laughs, tears, and a killer mystery to solve! The one scene that never fails to make me laugh is when they’re doing the talent show in the beginning and the cat dances with the jukebox like how can you not just holler!? Zootopia is an example of a perfect animated film and that’s why it’s number fucking one.

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Bite Me. (Part 1)

Pairing: Vampire Harrison x Female Reader

Word Count: 1,970

Warnings: None that I can think of off the top of my head

A/N: This is the first part of the series! Again thank you @hazssouthernbelle for the moodboard and for reading it and doing some editing! Anyways, here we go let me know what you think!

Part 2 Part 3

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October 15, 1759

She was here tonight. She looked stunning. The way her laugh hypnotizes a room, her eyes crinkling ever so slightly, as she tosses her head back. Whenever she enters the room she lights it up. She is everything I have been searching for. I need her. I want her, but she doesn’t know me. She can never know me. It’s too dangerous. I’m too dangerous.

November 27, 1759

I talked to her today, and she was even more wonderful than I could have imagined. Her eyes are mesmerizing. When she looks at you it is as if the entire world stops, and it’s you and her and that’s it. I know I have to keep my distance but talking to her can’t do any harm right?

December 24, 1759

She was at the Christmas ball tonight. I swear when she moves it’s like she is floating on air. I talked to her again, and we are going for a walk tomorrow, after the banquet.

December 25, 1759

I knew I should have left her alone. I knew I should never have gone near her. I can’t believe I let this happen. I can’t believe I let myself go.

“Ya, you should have left me alone,” you slammed the journal shut. It had been 260 years since the night you were turned, well almost 260 years. You had read Harrison’s journal multiple times, but you never found out why he did what he did, and you had never asked him, because you wanted nothing to do with him. For the past 259 years you had been running from him, fighting the urge to see him. You refused to let your sire bond form, so you fought it, by staying as far away from him as possible. Which was harder than it seemed, seeing as no matter what he found you. He had left letters, flowers, dresses, jewelry, trying to apologize to you, but you never let him close enough to speak.

The first few months after the transition were the hardest, your cravings were insane, and you had no idea how to feed, and you did not want to feed on humans, and yet, you did. You remember the horrible events that occurred those first few months. You remembered the faces, the looks of horror that haunted you to this day. Now you tried to feed primarily on animals, and if you could swipe a blood bag from a hospital near by you would. Over the years you adjusted to life as a vampire, you learned to relocate yourself once people your age began to show signs of aging and you didn’t. You had lived all over the world, and worked a variety of different jobs to support yourself, but you never expected to end up back in Westland Heights.

My Love,

I know that you are still mad at me for what I did to you all those years ago. And I know no matter what I do or say to you will ever be able to make up for the life that I stole from you, but I need your help. I would not be writing to you if it was not of the utmost importance.

Meet me where all of this began, on the first day of fall. I wish I could tell you more, but for now this is all I can write.

Regretfully yours,

Harrison

A few weeks ago you received that letter from Harrison. When it first arrived you refused to even open it. It sat on your vanity for days before you willed yourself to take a look at it. After you first transitioned he wrote you all the time, but eventually the letters ceased, and you figured he finally got the hint you wanted nothing to do with him. So the fact that he sent this must have meant something important or urgent was happening.

You hadn’t been back to the manor since that fateful Christmas night, but here you were making your way back. Honestly, why you even decided it was a good idea to go back was beyond you. Maybe it was intrigue in what Harrison wanted, or maybe it was your bond pulling you to him, and you were unable to fight it anymore. You had fought your bond for 259 years, so that couldn’t be it. Could it? Whatever the reason being, here you were standing in the place that held so many memories. As you pushed open the door of the manor you were surprised you could enter without being invited, but then you remembered the owner of the house was actually dead and you didn’t need an invitation. You could hear the faint sound of a record playing from one of the rooms near the back of the manor.

“Harrison,” you called out, slightly annoyed he wasn’t there waiting, “I’m here, what do you want?” You continued to look around the entrance. A lot had changed since the last time you walked through these halls, and yet there was something very familiar to them. As you made your way to where the music was coming from you were taken aback by what you saw. You hadn’t seen Harrison in probably 150 years, and here he was sitting in front of you. Plain white t-shirt and jeans, which was quite possibly the least dressed up you had ever seen him. You never imagined him actually dressing for the era he lived in.

“My eyes are up here love,” he teased, as you shook your head to regain your composure. Had his eyes always been that blue? Get your act together, you’re still mad at him for turning you.

“And I asked what do you want?” standing your ground.

“Honestly, I never thought you’d actually come, but I guess now that you’re here, I have a problem,” he stood up walking past you, “You coming?” He started up the stairs.

As you followed him up the stairs and down the hallway, you couldn’t help but notice the pictures hung on the walls. There was one girl who seemed to be in quite a number of photos, but you had never seen her before. You never did ask Harrison how long he had been a vampire for but guessing from the photos he had to be at least 550 years old. You were so mesmerized by the photos on the wall you hadn’t notice Harrison had stopped at the end of the hall in front of a large set of doors. He was watching you as you walked down the hallway, even after all this time he had never met someone as beautiful as you, but he knew that what he did was unforgivable. He was stupid to think that you would even help him with the task he had in front of him, but you were the only person left he could trust, or he hoped.

“So, what do you want? Why am I here? Are you going to turn me into some other freak of nature without my permission?” You sassed. A pang of guilt and heartbreak crashed into Harrison’s chest as you spoke.

“Love, I know that what I did to you all those years ago was unforgivable and I never expect you to forgive, me or even help me but I am desperate.” As he finally pushed open the large doors behind him, you could not even comprehend what you were looking at. There in a bed laid Tom.

When you first turned you spent months gathering information about vampires, and everything related to them. You had heard stories and rumors, but always believed that it was just away to scare young people into staying in at night, and not going out into the woods, never would you have believed that one day you would be one of them. As you were going through book after book, a name kept appearing, Tom. It was believed that he was the original vampire. There were many myths around how he came to be, but what was known was that he was powerful, and that no one had seen him in over a thousand years, thats was, until now.

“Harrison,” your throat dry, “why is the original here, in your house?”  

“Funny story,” he looked to the ground rubbing the back of his neck, “He’s not the original. I am.” The world around you began to blur, and Harrisons voice sounded as if it was traveling through a tunnel, and the next thing you know, you’re staring up at the ceiling with Harrison standing over you.

“Love, are you alright,” concern in his eyes, and voice, as he helped you sit up.

“I-uhm,” you were trying to get your words together as they floated through your mind, “did you just say you were the original?”

“I did,” he grabbed your hand to help you up, and steady you on your feet. Tom was still in the bed looking more sickly then he had when you first entered.

“If you’re the original, how did Tom become the man in the stories? And what is wrong with him?” You looked over at him, his brown curly hair sticking to his forehead, and his already pale skin, looking almost translucent, and his eyes look void of all life, well more so than they already were. Harrison moved over to the two chairs in front of the fire place in the room, and gestured for you to take the other seat. As you looked at Harrison you could see how exhausted he was, how his shoulders were slightly slumped forward, his demeanour now more vulnerable than you had noticed. As you took your seat across from him, you could see that he was trying to find words to explain everything.

“I thought I knew what I was going to say. I even thought about writing it down, but thought that was a bit excessive, and now I have no idea where to start,” his words pouring out of his mouth, without a second thought. He finally looked up at you. There was a pain in his eyes that showed years of torture, guilt, and sadness. He shifted, trying to get comfortable, running his hand through his hair, and then dragging both hands down his face, before readjusting in his seat again.

“First off you could tell me what the heck is wrong with Tom?” you looked to the young man in the bed who had not said a word, since you entered the room. Every part of him looked to be fading away. As Harrison looked at him, his heart began to break, it was his fault that he was in this position, and his fault that you were being brought into it too.

“It’s all my fault,” he sighs, “Everything is my fault.” He shoves himself out of his seat and begins to pace across the floor.

“Harrison,” you get up to stand in front of him, trying to get him to focus. You reach out and place your hand on his arm, and you can instantly feel him relax into you. “I cannot help you with whatever is happening unless, you tell me what is going on.” You were trying to stay calm, but everything in you was screaming to run. He let out a deep sigh, giving into his defeat.

“She’s back.”

“Who’s back?” You had never read of any girl or woman when researching the original. All that had ever been written was that he had powers, and you read of the horrors and atrocities that he committed.

“The one who turned me into a Vampire over five hundred years ago.”

“Do you mean the girl in the photos in the hallway?” Harrison nodded his head.

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Collection of my stories: Explained

Here is the post that nobody cares about but I'll share it because I just want the world to know.

1. Demon Academy.

I've posted some things about it already, it's a comic I started in 2014 originally in hungarian. I'm not quite happy with the way I started it, but I've built an interesting world, and I adore the characters, it's one of my best work that I'm very proud of. I drew 260 pages in total (book 1 and book 2) and I intend to pick up the story again sometime soon, when I get over exam season.

2. Runner

A medieval-themed fantasy story that I eventually want to make into a cartoon series. It's a bit cliché, but the characters are fun, and it has a lot of potential for epic music. I basically came up with the entire plot while listening to fantasy music mixes. Fun times. I've only got some character drawigs, and I just recently managed to finally have eneryone's finalized version. I also have a side story/shared universe thing planned for it.

3. Xyber-no

A post-apocalyptic cyberpunk futuristic action horror cartoon series idea. I've got the characters done already, and plans for like 2 seasons worth of content, I'm just lazy to edit the 1st ep's script. It's not even 20 minutes long. Honestly I'm just anxious to touch it. Got most of my ideas while listening to Neffex songs.

4. Racer

I watched Initial-D, and way back I had a roleplay about a car racer dude, and these two motivated me to write this story. It's not really a novel, it resembles more to a script but it's not actually a script. It was mainly dialogue practice, to make the characters feel more fun. I just finished the rewrite like a week ago, I think it turned out pretty great. Planning on adding a part 2 or a season 2 or something like that, but again, too lazy to actually touch it. It's fun to re-read though.

5. Singer

I'm currently working on this story, because when I'm bored, I write. And when is the best time to be bored? Exam season. Hell yeah. Anyway, it's about a suicidal dude falling in love with a singer (also dude, I love my gay kids okay) and then they figure out their shit. Good story to fit in as much angst as possible, with a few lovely fluff parts.

6. ZR series

Most of my followers came from the ZR community, so y'all know what this one is. But in case not, it's a comic series portraying my reactions to various moments that happen in Zombies, Run!, a really fun and creative workout app. The comic is on hold right now because I've already got too much shit to do til christmas. (Such as the Fellow Five drawing I promised. It's not forgotten, I just don't have time!! XD)

7. Demon and Vampire

Basically an over the top gay fluff love story with a little angst. It's pretty cool, sometimes it's boring, it's full of clichés and stuff, but I read it like 6 times and usually I hate my own writing, but there are parts that I just genuinely love in it. Fun stuff.

8. Psychoville

I've written the first 10 pages in like 30 different versions, because I'm unable to nail it. The main character is the daughter of Satan, who's name is ironically Angel, and she lives in a small town called Psychoville in the desert in Nevada, next to Searchlight, Nevada. As the name implies, she lives with 9 (or 8, I forgot) psychopaths, killers, mass murderers, insane mentally ill people who love each other to bits (and sometimes cut each other to bits) until she gets the task to investigate something for her father away from her home. Got a lot of inspiration from Welcome to Night Vale, and that lawless town in Kansas, I think? The yes theory made a video on it on yt, it's pretty dope.

9. Hollywood Undead Hungarian Fanfiction

It's just what it is. A fanfic of the boiz going on tour, getting in trouble, drinking and so on. No romance (bc that's gross and I couldn't find any fanfic that was not in some shape or form a ship fanfic). Da Kurlzz was still in the band when I wrote it. I was like 12. I just wanted to have fun. The chapters are 2 pages long in total. But the hungarian fans liked it, was trending a bunch of times on wattpad and it has a lot of reads. Despite being horribly shitty, I'm proud of it, and it has a lot of really fun parts and jokes.

10. Wrong Number

I almost forgot about this gem, but this was my first finished english story. It's almost entirely written in sms text format, it's progressig a bit too quickly, but at the time I was having a lot of fun with it, and that's all that matters. It has some really funny lines I came up with, I like re-reading it just for that. But also, it was a fun way to get around having to write long paragraphs lol. I just wanted to have fun with it. Heavily inspired by the Call me Beep me klance fanfic.

11. Milky Boiz

Context: my friend and I, at 2am, were thinking about what our ship name would be, but I kept typing "mmmmmilky" in the chat, that turned into milky boiz, and she said, that if we were guys, that would be our ship name. This gave us an idea for a webcomic, which we didn't actually progress with yet, but we do have an insta page where we already posted some of our boiz, you can find it under the name of @ink.stars , go pay a visit, it's my art and my friend's, and she is a wonderful artist and a lovely person and I love her to bits.

12. Night Vale Steampunk AU

It's pretty much dead, but while I was really actively part of the Night Vale fandom, I started a Steampunk AU. It was fun, it got like 4 chapters or something and big plans, but the characters were not in character, and it lost the Night Vale vibe, so I just let it go.

13. Cop Comic

Also a dead project of mine, but I still like it. It was inspired by a moment on one of our high school class trips. The characters were based on me and my friends, but the resemblence stops at hair color, that's all. Mabye not even that. Anyway it's what it is: cops dealing with crime and their personal problems. I wish I had known Brooklyn Nine Nine back then, would have been a great help.

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So, there you have it, all my favourite finished and unfinished works/ideas, just so you know if in the future I reference one (planning to post more Runner, DA and Xyber-no content along with the ZR comic)

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Y’all are gonna hate me for this part 2.

226. Wish you were the opposite sex: No.

227. Caught someone doing something: Yes.

228. Played a game that removes clothing: No.

229. Cried during a movie: Yes.

230. Cried over someone: Yes.

231. Wanted to hook up with a friend: Yes.

232. Hooked up with someone you barely met: Yes.

233. Ran away from home: Yes.

234. Cheated on a test: Yes.

Section Twelve: Would you

235. Bungee jump: No.

236. Sky dive: No.

237. Swim with dolphins: Yes.

238. Steal a friend's bf or gf: No.

239. Try to be the opposite sex: No.

240. Lie to the police: No.

241. Run from the police: Maybe.

242. Lie to your parents: No.

243. Backstab a friend for your own well being: No.

244. Be an exotic dancer:Maybe.

245. NQ- Kill the president: No.

Section Thirteen: Are you

246. Shy: Yes.

247. Loud: Yes.

248. Nice: Yes.

249: Outgoing:.No.

250: Quiet: Sometimes.

251. Mean: I can be.

252. Emotional: Wxtremely.

253. Sensitive: Very.

254. Gay: Half.

255. Strong:.No.

256. Weak: Yes.

257. Caring: Too caring.

258. Dangerous No.

259. Crazy: A little.

260. Spontaneous: No.

261. Funny: I hope.

262. Sweet: Yes.

263. Sharing:. I try.

264. Responsible: No.

265. Trustworthy: Yes.

266. Open-minded: Yes.

267. Creative: Sorta.

268. Cute:.No.

269. Slick: No

270. Smart: Kinda.

271. Dumb: A little.

272. Evil: No.

273. Ghetto: Maybe.

274. Classy: No.

275. Photogenic: No.

276. Dependable: I try to be.

277. Greedy: Sometimes.

278. Ugly: Yeah.

279. Messy: Sometimes.

280. Neat: I try.

281. Perverted: Sometimes.

282. Silly: Very.

283. A B****: Sometimes.

284. A Good Listener: Yes.

285. A Fighter: No.

286. A Party Animal: No.

287. A Game Freak: Yes.

288. A Computer Freak: No

Section Fourteen: Future

289. Dream job: Veterinary tech.

290. Dream house: Not sure.

291. Husband/Wife: Current.

292. Kids:2.

293. Names: Aela and Oliver.

294. Pets: Yes.

295. Car: Jeep Wrangler.

296. Age you would want to get married:Beofre 30.

297. Best Man/Bride's Maid: Not sure.

298. Honeymoon: Ireland.

Section Fifteen: Your friends

299. Best friend: Noah.

300. Known the longest: Elise.

301. Craziest: Not sure.

302. Loudest: Noah

303. Shyest: Me

304. Best hair: Jake

305. Best eyes: Jake

306. Best body: Idk

307. Most Athletic: Idk

308. Hot-Tempered: Craig

309. Most impatient: me

310. Shortest: Crystal

311. Tallest: Jake

312. Skinniest: Jake

313. Best singer: Jake

314. Funniest: Noah

315. Can always make you laugh: Noah or Craig

316. Wish you talked to more: Craig or Jake

317. Wish you saw more: Noah

318. Who drives you insane after a while: None

319. Who you can stay around forever and never get sick of: Noah

320. Ever lose a friend because you took it to the 'next level': Almost

321. Whose always been there when you need them: Noah

322. Who is like your family: Noah.

323. How many friends do you have?: like 4.

324. How many are really close? 1.

Section Sixteen: The last

325. Thing you ate: Nerds.

326. Thing you drank: Baja blast.

327. Thing you wore: Work uniform.

328. Thing you did: Peed.

329. Place you went: Taco Bell.

330. Thing you got pierced or tattooed:Nose.

331. Person you saw: Tristyn.

332. Person you hugged: Tristyn.

333. Person you kissed:Tristyn.

334. NQ- Person you beat to a juicy pulp:Alysha kinda.

335. Person you talked to online: Nate.

336. Person you talked to on the phone: My mom.

337. Song you heard: Selfish Machines.

338. Show you saw: Shokugeki Food Wars.

339. Time you fought with your parents: Like 2 weeks ago.

340. Time you fought with a friend: A week ago.

341. Words you said: Go sleepies and brush your teefies

Section Seventeen: Now

343. What are you eating: Mothing.

344. What are you drinking: Nothing.

345. What are you thinking: Sad thoughts.

346. What are you wearing: Pj’s.

347. What are you doing: This.

349. Hair: Down like usual.

350. Mood: Sleepy.

351. Listening to: The fan.

352. Talking to anyone: No.

353. Watching anything: No

Section Eighteen: Yes or No

354. Are you a vegetarian: No

355. Are you a carnivore: Yes.

356. Are you heterosexual: No

357. Do you like penguins: Yes

358. Do you write poetry: Yes

359. Do you see stupid people: Yes

360. You + Me: no

361. Do you like the Osbournes: Yes

362. Can you see flying pigs: no

363. Do you sleep with stuffed animals on your bed: Yes

364. Are you from Afghanistan: no

365. Is Christina Aguilera ugly: no

366. Are you a zombie: Mo

367. Am i annoying you: no

368. Do you bite your nails: Yes

369. Can you cross your eyes: no

370. Do you make your bed in the morning: no

371. Have you touched someone's private part:yes

Section Nineteen: This or That

372. Winter or Summer: summer

373. Spring or Autumn: spring

374. Shakira or Britney: Britney

375. MTV or VH1: mtv

376. Black or White: black

377. Yellow or Pink: pink

378. Football or Basketball: basketball

379. Mobile Phone or Pager: mobile phone

380. Pen or Pencil: pen

381. Cold or Hot: hot

382. Tattoos or Piercings: piercing

383. Inside or Outside: inside

384. Weed or Alcohol: weed

385. Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi

386. Tape or Glue: glue

387. McDonald's or In-n-Out: mcdonalds

Section Twenty: Opinions

388. What do you think about classical music: It’s okay.

389. About boy bands: Good.

390. About suicide: Sad.

391. About people who try to force their opinions on you: Annoying.

392. About teen pregnancy: Not horrible

393. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years: married with kids hopefully

394. Who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: Noah

395. About gay men: they’re nice

Section Twenty-One:

396. Do you have a website: no

397. Current weather right now: cold

398. Current time: 234 AM

399. Any shout outs: no

400. Last thoughts: no

[bisexualstokes-archive]

Lights Out

Rating: Teen+ Characters: Nick Stokes, Warrick Brown Word Count: 2626 Summary: He never would have thought that it was his co-workers...his friends...his family that were unknowingly robbing him of air, of time. They were the ones who drove him to the brink of insanity, though they couldn’t have known that just by watching him. They were the ones who broke him. Set after Grave Danger, Warrick is the one to tell Nick about the webcam feed. A friendship fic, but can be viewed in a romantic way. Notes:  Mentions of guns in people's faces, some swearing, and lots of emotion. Enjoy. @brilliantrosetyler​ this is partially your fault ;)

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Nick Stokes never thought he’d be grateful for a few moments to himself after being thrown into a solitary confinement for over a day, but the constant attention from nurses, doctors, his family, his friends was starting to get to him a little. Exhaustion was settling in his body, replacing the adrenaline he felt from the joy of freedom. The shock of everything was finally fading away, and his body was beginning to feel normal...well, minus the welts all over his skin from the ant bites, which he didn’t realize were so bad until now, his first trip to the bathroom in over a day.

He takes a deep breath as he splashes some cold water in his face, wishing it would just wipe away the red spots that remind him of the biting, the burning, the itching. He stares at his reflection in the mirror, his heart pounds as he struggles to connect the image of the reflection to himself. The man in the mirror is a stranger, scarred by events that were out of his control. The face in the mirror is covered with welts, with reddened cheeks and puffiness near the eyes. The hair is disorganized, sticking up in all different directions from a mother’s hands brushing through it. The eyes are dark, tearful. Broken.

This stranger cannot be Nick Stokes, because he is not broken. He endured. He survived. He’s alive.

He tries to smile at the broken man in the reflection, to try and impart some of that strength to the mirror, but the corners of his mouth twitch as his lips begin to quiver. He takes a sharp breath and turns back towards the hospital room, he had just finished crying he wasn’t going to start again.

He thinks about turning the light in the room off and taking a quick nap, but as he exits the bathroom he finds another visitor, though the visitor is not an unwelcome one.

Warrick Brown was sitting, waiting, fiddling with something in his hands before bolting up at the sight of Nick stumbling back towards the hospital bed. Though he tried to hide it with a big smile on his face, Nick could still sense the concern that plagued Warrick’s eyes.

“Hey, there he is! Heard you were finally awake,” Warrick puts his arm around Nick, helping him back towards the bed. Nick hasn’t quite gotten the hang of walking again, his legs still feel light and shaky. “How you feeling?”

“Feelin' like we shoulda done two outta three after all,” Nick wheezes, conscious of the fact that his throat is still dry, his voice is barely present. He gulps down an entire cup of water, but it still doesn’t seem to help.

“Speaking of which, here you go.”

Warrick opens Nick’s hand and places something small, cold. Nick looks at it, it’s the coin they flipped.

“I think we got all the bad luck we could handle for now.”

Nick laughs, a smile spreading across his face. It isn’t long before Warrick starts chuckling as well, and soon the two are laughing together, at the absolute absurdity of the past twenty-four hours. They talk about everything and nothing for a few minutes, cracking jokes at each other, and for once Nick finds comfort in the fact that Warrick doesn’t seem to be walking on eggshells like everyone else has around him. But he can’t shake off the feeling that they are both dancing around the questions that throb in Nick’s head. He knew he could find his sense of humor again with Warrick, but he hopes he can also find some answers.

“Listen, Rick, I gotta know, and Grissom didn’t wanna tell me after I woke up...how’d you guys find me?”

The smile slides right off of Warrick’s face, and his eyes seem to darken.

“We don’t gotta talk about that now, bro--”

“That’s exactly what Grissom said. Spill it, man. Who did this?”

“Hey, you hungry at all? I could go grab something better than the shitty hospital food--”

Warrick begins to stand up, as if he were going to leave.

No no no don’t leave me again...

He feels a sense of déjà vu as a desperate sob escapes his body, an echo of the broken man he saw in the mirror just minutes ago. Just hours ago, he was lying on his back, grabbing Warrick’s hand, longing for a human connection, pleading for release from his prison cell.

And now here he is, still on his back, finding that his lips are quivering again, that Warrick is looking at him with tears in his own eyes, feeling like he’s still surrounded by glass walls and the hundreds of ghost ants still crawl across his skin…

“Please,” he begs, a shiver creeping down his body, he says it in the exact same tone as he did hours ago.

Warrick takes a deep breath and hooks a stool closer to him to sit on.

“Okay. We were able to track down your location from a couple different things...but really, it was the...fire ants that helped us narrow down your location,” Warrick speaks slowly, letting the words settle in the air, carefully choosing his words. “You were buri--You were at a tree nursery, one that the kidnapper’s daughter worked at.”

“Did you catch the...the guy that-that did this?”

“He’s dead. Grissom can tell you that part of the story.”

A pause, Nick tries to empty his mind, shoving the rage and sadness and fear as far away as he can, just like he does at the more horrific crime scenes he investigates. He’s bracing himself for the confirmation of a theory he had while in the box, for the answer that he did and didn’t want to hear quite yet, but he knows the question will eat away at him just like the ants did...

“How...how did you guys know about the ants?”

Another pause, Warrick stares at his friend, his mouth hanging open. His lips begin to move, a slow, deep breath blows out of his body. He’s bracing himself, too, for an impact that he wishes he wasn’t the one to deliver.

“We received a ransom note on a flash drive. It gave us twelve hours to deliver one million dollars, or else…”

Twelve hours? Nick thinks to himself. But I was in there for twice that…

“It...it also gave us a-a button to press. To let us…”

Warrick fell silent again, looking away, suddenly interested in the floor. His hand falls out of Nick’s, and goosebumps begin to rise all over Nick’s body, the realization of how the button may have been a trigger for something...like a light switch...

“To let you what, Warrick?” Tears sting Nick’s eyes, his voice is shaky, but firm.

“Every time we pressed the button, we’d be sent to a live feed...that showed us--showed us you.” Warrick’s eyes were still looking at the floor, and Nick’s eyes were now looking at nothing in particular. His body began to float, he feels like he’s falling backwards. The lights turn off, and he’s engulfed in darkness. Before he could shout in surprise, the light turns on again...only the light is at his feet.

On some level, he knew that someone had to be watching him. That someone was controlling the light that would turn on every two minutes, and stay off for varying amounts of time, no longer than a minute or so.

Nick had nearly forgotten just how annoying the light was, turning on and off and on and off. How painful it was, to be given air to breathe, to keep him alive, only for it to be taken away every time the light turned on. How intense the brightness was, flooding the box with light, allowing him to see every individual grain of dirt packed against the glass walls surrounding him. How hot the box became, so hot that his skin became glued to the glass from the sticky sweat that emitted from his dehydrating body.

He thought it was just his kidnapper, adding another layer to the hell Nick was trapped in. He thought it was some sick form of interrogation, that maybe the kidnapper wanted Nick to confess to something that he knew nothing about. He thought, maybe, the person who put him in here was just a sick, deranged asshole who wanted to see Nick suffer just because he could.

He never would have thought that it was his co-workers...his friends...his family that were unknowingly robbing him of air, of time. They were the ones who drove him to the brink of insanity, though they couldn’t have known that just by watching him.

They were the ones who broke him.

Warrick startles him when he finally speaks again, and Nick finds himself back in the hospital room, after taking a trip back into an overly-lit glass prison cell. His vision focuses on his friend, who seemed to have taken a similar trip to his own personal hell.

“The feed would last--”

“Two minutes,” Nick finishes, nodding his head towards the watch laying on the bedside table. “I kept track.”

“Nicky, we...we didn’t know that the fan…” Warrick’s voice is soft, strangled. A tear slides down his cheek, and Nick grabs onto his friend’s hand once more.

“It’s okay, Rick. You guys couldn’t have known.”

Warrick nods, shutting his eyes, sandwiching Nick’s hand in between both of his own.

“Besides, if I didn’t shoot it out, then the box wouldn’t have...and the ants wouldn’t have…”

Nick gulps, nausea swirling in the bottom of his stomach. He tries to keep his focus on his friend, which doesn’t help at all. He hasn’t seen Warrick so distraught, not since his grandmother passed. He tries to think of something to say, some sort of quip to lighten up the mood.

“Hey, good thing I’m such a good shot, huh? 260 outta 300, remember?”

He forces a chuckle, but Warrick remains silent. He tries to think of something else to say, to tease his friend, get him to crack a smile because the darkness inside of him is bad enough, he can’t bear to see it spread to his friend as well. Warrick releases his hands from Nick’s and rubs his red, watery eyes. Nick shifts uncomfortably in the bed, trying to distract himself from crying as well.

He’s about to open his mouth and make some joke about Grissom enjoying watching the ants when Warrick speaks again, his voice is deep, hoarse, exhausted.

“I...I watched you do it.”

“Do what?”

“Shoot that damn light,” Warrick growls.

Nick’s heart stops for a second, remembering how briefly--very briefly, he had pointed the gun at himself before aiming it at the light and firing in the same second. The image floats in his mind of his face, projected on all the computers in the lab, gun nuzzled against his chin, and can only imagine what that must have felt like for anyone watching.

“I thought you--” Warrick spats out. “You scared the hell out of me, Nick.”

Blood begins to boil under Nick’s skin, why is he so pissed off? He knew Warrick wasn’t angry with him but it sure as hell felt like it.

“Yeah, well, didn’t really have a choice, did I?” Nick mutters, unable to mask the disgust in his voice.

“We just wanted to make sure you were okay!”

“Then why did it take you so fucking long to find me?” His voice cracks as he shouts it, snapping Warrick out of his anger as Nick allows the floodgates to open, and the water burns out his eyes.

“You s-s-said the ransom note guh-gave you twel-twelve hours,” he sobbed. The air suddenly feels thin, like it did in the box. “I shot...that-that fucking light after fourteen!”

He could feel Warrick place a hand on a shoulder, his fingers gripping Nick’s hospital gown. The pressure doesn’t offer any comfort to Nick, his own fingers can’t seem to find Warrick’s, he grasp on that connection they shared in the hole is slipping away. Instead his fingers find the red welts on his arms, he struggles to fight the urge to scratch them.

“I almost...almost did it. Fuh-First when I was gonna shoot the light and then...right before you…You found me…”

“I know, it’s okay, it’s okay,” Warrick soothes him, speaking in that same, low, soft voice he had in the hole. He stands up, pulling Nick’s body closer to him, reminding Nick that he’s allowed to sit up, unlike a few hours ago. They cling to each other in a tight embrace, and Nick finally feels the comfort he was seeking.

Nick takes a sharp inhale of breath in an attempt to calm down, tries to slowly exhale but the air gets stuck in his throat. His body heaves as he tries to take control of the air, for a moment, the air is gone.

“Breathe, man, it’s okay,”

He nods and they release from their hug as he catches his breath. His sobs begin to fade, but tears still slide down his cheeks, avoiding the welts on his skin, like a twisted version of pachniko. The air clears, and he takes a few steady, deep breaths.

“I would have done it,” Warrick says, haunted by the memory that he and Nick share of Nick covered in ants, pointing the gun at his chin when the dirt was removed from the lid of the box.

Nick looks at Warrick, shaking his friend to maintain eye contact. The sadness he was feeling subsided, in its place, anger was boiling back to the surface.

“Don’t say that,” he spits out.

“It’s true, man, I woulda...Long before you--”

“Nah, you wouldn’t have. You’re way stronger than me, bro. Smarter, too, you probably would have figured out the fan thing sooner than I did, and then we could have found you faster…”

Nick’s voice trails off. Warrick nods at him, having finished Nick’s train of thought for him.

“He told me to do it, Warrick.”

“Who did? Do what?”

“The guy...guy on the tape. The guy who...he, uh, left me this-this tape. Told me I was gonna...die...in that box. Told me to just--” He gestures the motion with his hand, and then falls silent.

“But you didn’t. You’re stronger than that. At this point, you’re basically bulletproof, like Superman or somethin’.”

“Does that make you Louis Lane?”

Warrick laughs, harder than he did before and Nick can’t help but laugh with him. He’s glad their conversation ended on a high note, because as their laughter died down, a red-headed nurse came in to inform Nick and his friend that visiting hours were over. Warrick stays until the nurse grabs him by the shoulder as she’s on her way out after making sure Nick had everything he needs for the night ahead.

“Aight, see you later, Supes. I’ll be back tomorrow with some food.”

“Bring a beer, too, Ms. Lane, I could really use one.”

“I heard that!” the nurse calls out. “Lights out in five, Mr. Stokes.”

“You-You can call me Nick!” Nick blurts out. Warrick turns his head, smirking at his friend’s feeble attempts at flirting.

Nick shakes his head and smiles before heading to the bathroom one final time, finding himself looking once again at the reflection of a broken man in the mirror.

But this time, he is able to recognize the broken man, it’s him . Nick Stokes. He is broken, sure, but that’s okay. He’ll survive, he’ll endure, just as he always does.

After all, he is bulletproof.

[bacchicly]

CM TUMBLR HAVE YOU HEARD OF JEM ROLLS?

http://www.worldfringe.com/2019/03/06/jem-rolls-has-done-more-fringes-than-probably-anyone-else-in-the-world/

I LOVE HIM LIKE AN UNSUB LOVES THEIR CRIMES - HANDS STAINED WITH BLOOD FROM MY OWN HEART - A MISSION - A MISTAKE - SEEING NOTHING BUT THE GLORY.

He is an incredible international performance poet who has shaped and shaken me and many others around the world.

I LOVE HIM LIKE WATER EXPLODING INTO ZERO GRAVITY - BEADS THAT CLING OR FLOAT - EACH A MICROCOSM OF MEMORY AND SENTIMENT.

I first encountered him as a teen - going to his fringe show each year - sometimes several times - bringing friends who found the performances brilliant and surreal and insane.

I LOVE HIM LIKE A PRAIRIE SUMMER THUNDERSTORM REMEMBERED IN THE DARK OF WINTER.

Which of course was what he was going for.

Eventually when I started touring the Fringe myself I met him - became a minor transitory part of the gang of which he was an irreverant elder - and he shaped me further - deeper.

I LOVE HIM LIKE THE WRINKLE ON A FAVOURITE SHIRT - SOFT AND INCONVENIENT BUT SOMEHOW INTRINSIC AND REQUIRED.

He - and remember I am very very fat - never less than 260 lbs on my 5'2" inch frame - is the only person on the planet who for years - whenever I saw him for the first time of a summer - would pick me up and spin me around. I would shout no...but thank all that is wild that he never listened.

I LOVE HIM LIKE A VINE CLIMBING A STAKE HAMMERED INTO A RAISED BED IN A WALLED GARDEN TRYING TO REACH THE SUN.

When I toured with my solo show in my mid-20s - he waited to the very last performance to come and see it. I had uneven reviews throughout the summer - some folks loving it and some hating it... So I had been both not so secretly crushed that he had never come and terrified for him to see it.

I LOVE HIM LIKE A RELIGION I WISH I WAS ALLOWED TO WRAP MY SOUL IN - BUT CANNOT BECAUSE I AM NEITHER BRAVE ENOUGH NOR RESPECTFUL ENOUGH NOR IRREVERENT ENOUGH.

You see the show was poetic - raw - not poetry but filled with tumbling words and irreverant image...so his thoughts and regard were craved and feared.

I LOVE HIM LIKE THE TRAINS THAT USED TO RUN ON LONG ABANDONED TRACKS NOW TURNED TO POWERFUL GHOSTS AND SCREAMING WHISPERS.

But after the show he came up to me and very seriously said - almost with surprise - and with respect said "That was really good yeah?".

And I just about died.

I LOVE HIM LIKE A ONCE MET LONG LOST UNCLE WHO BROUGHT CANDIES I CAN NEVER FIND IN ANY SHOP AND WHO TOLD LONG STORIES AND CALLED MY BULLSHIT POETRY AND MY ATTEMPTS AT SANITY BULLSHIT.

Later when I was working as a director and dramaturge - happy to not be writing - as I am not a writer...he said to me "You should write. You are a good writer.".

And no I didn't - couldn't - then...but I now remember him and his confidence and praise every time I pen something - and I thank him and I am being lifted and twirled.

I LOVE HIM LIKE RIDING THE CARNIVAL SWING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT - CHILDLIKE BUT TALL ENOUGH TO RIDE - TWIRLING ABOVE LIGHTS AND CRASHING CACOPHONY - WIND IN MY HAIR AND A LAUGH STRETCHING MY LIPS AND CRINKLING MY EYES.

Thank you Jem. May your travels be free and your words keep flowing and the sparks and spittle fly.

I love you and honour you and know you are both knave and knight of the arts. I will write again for the stage..but for now in this little amazing nook of the internet I will hone my confidence to lay down words as sacred imperfect offerings and accusations and clamour - as you taught me - finding my voice in borrowed cloaks and reaching out to the gorgeous others who do the same or even better sit and pull the words in like teen me in the darkened library where I first experienced you perform and wanted to fly and howl as I wiped your spittle and my tears from my cheek.

Cheers to you Jem.

Cheers to you all who brought us Criminal Minds.

Cheers to you CM Tumblr.

Thank you.

[infernal-fox]

I warn you, im not tagging every single one bc my idea docs is literally over 260 fic ideas and 80 pages long and so we would be here all day. Instead, i shall describe all fics that have their own dedicated doc. This thing spans across years. Some of these fic WIPS are from pre covid. 

Devil May Cry (no, I have never actually played it its just my brain hyperfixated one one character. My mutuals know exactly who it is):

- Twins; One of a Kind

Mob Psycho 100

- Hiareth

- Like a House on Fire

- A lack of Air

- Overarching

Miraculous Ladybug:

- Butterfly

- Miss Anarka’s Home to Miraculous Children

Genshin Impact:

- To start a war (you must first go for the head)

- Wind, Hear me

- Riptide Amongst the Waves

- Return Unto Ashes

- Time Stop

Promare:

- Through the Fire and the Flames

- Drabbles 

Pokemon:

- Diavolo

- Taking Back Whats Ours

- Overdrive

- A Psychic’s Journey Across Galar

Toaru:

- In Hiding

Danganronpa

- I am not here (yet the cycle is still ongoing)

Kingdom Hearts:

- Roadtrip au

- Bad ending Soranort au

- If Light Started Dark

- Mha x kh au

- Amnesiac Soranort au

- Drabbles

- Foreteller Sora

- Raft au

- Kingdom Reaction

Fairy Tail:

- The Last Fairies

- The cast out Fairy

Persona:

- Quirks of a Persona

My Hero Academia:

- Adversity 

- Linear

Rise of the Guardians:

- Frost Child

Teen Titans:

- Red, Blue, Yellow

Naruto:

- Undertale Ninjas

Digimon:

- Survival of the Fittest

Blue Exorcist:

- A Summer’s End

Alright there is more but like. By this point im looking at 2017 WIPS and by then its getting very insane. Feel free to send asks about any fic ideas! @perfectharmonyloveschaos I am fully blaming you for this (affectionately). Funnily enough some of these WIPS were a team effort.

I will be tagging @rainixdra @violetstar-writes and anyone who also wishes to do this!

WIP Game

@sidesofmayo tagged me for this WIP game so this should be fun! I wasn't sure if I should reblog their post nor not so I'm linking it just in case here.

Rules: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it! And then tag as many people as you have wips. (You can make your own post or reblog this one!)

My WIPs (which even without your comment are actually mainly sabezra and tua ones anyways):

Sabezra Fics

Something Else — Chapter 4

Something Terrible

All The Echoes In My Mind

Reading Between The Lines

Hold Me Like Armour, Mould Us in the Fire

Peace Between War

On the Ropes

Starving (working title)/Sabezra FWB

Us Children of Grief

It Ended In His Death

TUA Fics:

Those Four Words

And Death Shall Have No Dominion

Nascentes Morimur (From the moment we are born, we die)/Klaus' complicated relationship with Death

We All Shatter Like Glass

ask me about any of these if you like, I'm a chatterbox and love to talk to anyone who'd like to!

I'm gonna tag @starryjediknight, @black-wolf066wolf, @infernal-fox and @tinycrowned cause all of you have inspired me in the past and I'm kinda nosey😂but don't worry if you're busy or don't want to share, 'tis all fun!

[365creativechallenge]

365 Creative Challenge

2020 has been a hell of a ride. But I want to try something different for 2021. I want to get back to my creative roots. I used to write all the time, I wanna get back in that habit.

So, here’s the idea:

I have created 365 (and then some) prompts for me in 2021. The aim is, each day I will pick one at random (except 1. and 365) and I will do something creative with that prompt. 

I might write something, cook something, sew something. It might not get completely finished that same day because #life and also my job is going to keep me busy. But the point of it is that I will have 365 days of doing SOMETHING creative.

So, here is my list. Hopefully under the cut. Feel free to follow me on this journey. We’ll see what happens!

1.       The beginning

2.       Butterfly

3.       Jay bird

4.       Pumpkin

5.       Yellow

6.       War

7.       Talisman

8.       Fish

9.       Quote to live by

10.   Haiku

11.   Three best words

12.   Song lyric

13.   Garden

14.   Award

15.   So weird

16.   Comfort food

17.   Dull

18.   Challenge

19.   Fruit

20.   Hope

21.   Sidekick

22.   Three wishes

23.   A magic spell

24.   Sloth

25.   Cider

26.   You and what army?

27.   Happy place

28.   Slug

29.   Sailor Moon

30.   Vanilla

31.   Family

32.   Dragon

33.   Goodbye

34.   Insanity

35.   Mermaid

36.   Whisper

37.   Brilliant

38.   Overgrown

39.   Autumn

40.   Break away

41.   Forgotten

42.   Wear it

43.   Heart of glass

44.   Sprint

45.   Wild

46.   Invisible

47.   Birthday

48.   Japanese

49.   King

50.   Spill your guts

51.   Villain

52.   Beyond the Oath

53.   Sun

54.   The locket

55.   Tomorrow

56.   Leather

57.   Rumour

58.   Vent

59.   Sin

60.   Rawr

61.   Slaughter

62.   Dog

63.   Dungeons and Dragons

64.   Forgiveness

65.   Thrill

66.   Enemies

67.   Sex

68.   Cheat

69.   Crime

70.   Betrayal

71.   Mute

72.   Chink in your armour

73.   Legend

74.   Gold

75.   Snail

76.   Angel

77.   Forest

78.   Eyes

79.   Breathe

80.   Demon

81.   Dragon

82.   Tiefling

83.   Magpie

84.   Secret

85.   Original character

86.   Queen

87.   Hunter

88.   Error

89.   Tame

90.   Bride

91.   Letter to my future self

92.   Blackmail

93.   Bright

94.   Stolen

95.   Envy

96.   Twin

97.   Eternal

98.   Cat

99.   Just one night

100.            Treasure

101.            Chibi

102.            Freedom

103.            Chains

104.            Gems

105.            Bravo

106.            Moon

107.            Apocalypse

108.            Hate

109.            Circle

110.            Float

111.            Strong

112.            Sinking

113.            Legend of Zelda

114.            Help

115.            Ghost

116.            Cliff

117.            Letter

118.            Tickets

119.            Adventure

120.            Rescue

121.            Advice

122.            Transformed

123.            Coral

124.            Flooded

125.            Blank page

126.            Happiness

127.            Shiver

128.            Fist

129.            Lullaby

130.            Rainy day

131.            Found

132.            Dusk

133.            Can you hear me?

134.            Delivered

135.            The gift

136.            Post man

137.            Wtf?

138.            My hero

139.            Roses

140.            The Woman in the Portrait

141.            Frail

142.            Shadow

143.            Survival

144.            Water

145.            Twilight

146.            Shield of Oak

147.            Friends

148.            Sugar and Spice

149.            Eulogy

150.            Greed

151.            I will never regret…

152.            Ancient

153.            Sacred

154.            Guilty

155.            The Blood in the Winter

156.            Locked

157.            Stars

158.            Imagination

159.            Mine

160.            Cosy

161.            Absent

162.            Shoes

163.            I found a key…

164.            Pastel

165.            First step

166.            Who are you?

167.            Anxiety

168.            Drunk

169.            Out of breath

170.            Wet

171.            No entry

172.            Stiff

173.            Mist

174.            Frozen

175.            Paladin’s shrine

176.            Metamorphosis

177.            Pokémon

178.            No pen

179.            Hello

180.            Dear Diary…

181.            Dawn

182.            Purple

183.            Wooden

184.            The new guy

185.            Temptation

186.            Blur

187.            Horses

188.            Hero

189.            Always

190.            Necklace

191.            Runaway

192.            Death

193.            Gunshot

194.            Free delivery

195.            Laughter

196.            Hustle

197.            Luck

198.            Love

199.            Video games

200.            Moonlight

201.            Mirror

202.            Flicker

203.            Disease

204.            Scribe

205.            Unopened

206.            Rainbow

207.            Night

208.            Day

209.            Dreams

210.            Sushi

211.            Five years from now…

212.            Fire

213.            Blind

214.            Don’t look down

215.            Surprise me

216.            Daughter

217.            Ripples

218.            Harry Potter

219.            Zodiac

220.            Childhood

221.            Tarot

222.            Apart

223.            Memory

224.            The Lightning Heavens

225.            Train

226.            Snow

227.            Ocean

228.            Revelation

229.            Handful of light

230.            Beach

231.            Blue

232.            You bastard.

233.            Summer

234.            Dizzy

235.            Teacher

236.            Call your name

237.            History

238.            Plague

239.            Paradise

240.            Starry night

241.            Horror

242.            Lunar

243.            Hunger

244.            Quiet

245.            The clouds gather

246.            Tea

247.            Loud

248.            Peace

249.            LGBTQ+

250.            Bread and honey

251.            Injured

252.            Pier

253.            School

254.            Murder

255.            Nightmare

256.            Curse

257.            Doom

258.            Burning the midnight oil

259.            Spring

260.            Air

261.            Superstition

262.            Lost

263.            Thunder

264.            Heart chains

265.            Magic

266.            Yeet

267.            Spare parts

268.            Candle

269.            Look back

270.            The Oracle in the Sea

271.            Glitter

272.            Innocent

273.            Embrace

274.            Son

275.            Dinosaur

276.            Heal

277.            Immortal

278.            Unexpected kindness

279.            Embers

280.            Earth

281.            Spirit

282.            Me

283.            Strange sign

284.            Tension

285.            Fallen angel

286.            Banned

287.            Silence

288.            Window

289.            Daydreaming

290.            Escape

291.            Succulents

292.            The fight

293.            Giant

294.            Chocolate

295.            Surrender

296.            Potion

297.            Frog

298.            Eclipse

299.            Glass

300.            The three friends

301.            Halo

302.            Siren

303.            Thief

304.            Oracle

305.            Breaking the rules

306.            Tiny

307.            Broken

308.            Voices

309.            Purity

310.            Charm

311.            Drowning

312.            After all this time?

313.            Stunned

314.            Solitary

315.            Infinite

316.            Patience

317.            Regret

318.            Lean on me

319.            Sleep

320.            To catch a dream

321.            Collapse

322.            Wake

323.            Imprisoned

324.            Thief of Smoke

325.            Feather

326.            Constellations

327.            Tired

328.            Coat

329.            Justice

330.            Left hand

331.            Waiting

332.            Reflection

333.            Grey

334.            Threat

335.            Music

336.            Can I come in?

337.            The main character

338.            Space

339.            Impatient

340.            Son of the Devil

341.            Ever a Never After

342.            This time

343.            Get your hands dirty

344.            Fangs

345.            Together

346.            Hidden

347.            Here and now

348.            Spider

349.            Cruel

350.            You knew?

351.            Tangle

352.            Joy

353.            Idea

354.            Revive

355.            Wild things

356.            Half

357.            Glimmer

358.            Storm

359.            Clear

360.            Winter

361.            Puzzle

362.            Sanctuary

363.            Tower

364.            Doubt

365.            The end

Extras

366.            Pour

367.            Drop

368.            Support

369.            Kindness

370.            Friendship

371.            Ransom

372.            Hostage

[misadventuresofthatoregongirl]

A little background... I am 27 years old. I have a 9 year old. I have been with his father since I was 12 years old, I have never “dated” anyone else. I have seen others, but never been in a relationship with anyone else. in January 2019 my little brother (we were 4 years apart and very lose) was left for dead by police after he got in a car wreck and had a head injury. He had a pulse for 30 minutes yet was never taken to the hospital, that was 10 minutes away. A week later some rich yuppie blew their entire head off with a shotgun, 80 miles away from the hospital, had no pulse, but was air lifted to the hospital. I strongly feel my brother was left for dead due to the fact he had unpaid fines. Mostly due to no car insurance or “driving while suspended” over no car insurance. But I know only blacks matter in this country, not some mutt who is half native american half white. That has been made ABUNDUNTLY CLEAR. 

If you are one of those stupid cunts with the “driving is a privilege” bullshit mindset, (driving to work should not be a privilege should be a basic human right and “ride the bus” only big cities have busses and many people have to commute to larger cities in Oregon) when basic liability insurance is about $300 a month for people who are never on mommy and daddys insurance, please kindly fuck off. Housing in Oregon is insane, already, most people have half or more of their money going to rent if they can manage to get somewhere to rent to them at all, they should not have to have another 1/4th or more of their income going to basic liability insurance when they have never even had a ticket. I went through the same shit. Eventually police would just wait in the parking lot for me to leave work and just ticket me over and over, I was denied a hardship permit that is also such a scam. Pay a bunch of money for something you aren’t even guaranteed to get. I drove 1000 miles a week just to get to work, because I could not find work in the rural area I live in not could I afford the $1500 a month rent in the city that has jobs (that’s basically how much I made a month) it is what is is. I had no choice. 

Paying for car insurance crippled me financially. I was actually split up with his father at that time but had to come crawling back begging for money due to my $300 basic liability insurance. The tickets are not even on my record anymore, for driving with no insurance and driving while suspended but its still $260 a month. Absolutely sickening. I don’t have a fucking dime left over after i pay bills, and my boyfriend works and we STILL have no fucking money. Ever. We don’t get to go on vacations, we live in the shittiest neighborhood in the entire county, in a shit trailer, drive shitty cars, I assure you we have nothing nice. Nicest thing he had is probably his work boots which were paid for by his boss, working your ass off in Oregon does not pay off. “Get a better job” no shit sherlock, did it ever occur to you its difficult to not get fired from your job you are currently working, and still go to interviews? Employers be like “I know you have a job currently but can you drop everything and come in an hour?” Oh yeah, totally. And if you try and schedule it for a time maybe you won’t get fired its usually “Nevermind.” And the interview process is a begging a groveling process like you’re a god damn peasant. Why do I want this job? MONEY! Why else! Why does anyone want any job? I worked at a staffing agency for 4 years and I can not tell you how many people did well at those stupid cookie cutter questions but were shit workers. I wish places would just let you work a day or two and see. 

Then I got laid off as soon as stupid corona hit in March, they already fired my office manager and a sales person “over discounted bill rates”. Kinda like how the Dollar Tree stays in business because its cheap but more volume is sold (worked there before too that was horrible) so they have just as much profit if not more, as say Walgreens or something. With corporate clowns coming down and saying to clients basically pay the full rate or we are taking you to court, to 3/4 of the clients, sales tanked. They tried to blame corona but the sales were complete shit before that as soon as they fired the two people who had most of the sales, with discounted bill rates. I am still friends with someone who managed to not get fired. They said in a conference call this week they announced they would be lowering bill rates. *Face palm* now that you fired hundreds of people, you are lowering bill rates. How many lives did you ruin before coming to your senses? Companies here are just so fucking awful!

A few years ago I decided I wanted to move out of the country. However if you have a child, both parents have to sign a passport form unless you don’t have the father listed on the birth certificate. Norway in particular I like, its beautiful, free healthcare, minimum wage twice that of Oregon with cheaper rent and free healthcare, they also help with childcare. They claim they do in Oregon but your “copay” is usually so high you might as well just pay out of pocket and not deal with all the states controlling bullshit you have to deal with when you get state assistance. People like to say “Norway has higher taxes” please shut up and go look at Oregon’s income tax rate. One of the highest in the country. Expensive gas, INSANE housing, its just not possible to have a decent life here in Oregon. I love the ocean also. Norway is beautiful and comes in the top countries for quality of life every year, meanwhile USA is at the very bottom. 

Everyone called me paranoid all those years, I just had a bad feeling that something bad was going to happen also and I needed to get out while I still could. Next remark “how can you afford to get there if you are so broke?” Simple don’t pay my outrageous rent and insurance for 1 month problem solved. My child’s father finally agreed to sign the passport form now that its too late and Americans are banned from basically every country in the world, once the racism and virus bullshit started. Super awesome. He will never hear the end of that from me. Its been months and I still do not even have the passport. Even if I did I AM TRAPPED HERE!!!!!!!!!! I can not even go to fucking Canada!

I decided ok, I will try and move to Montana/Idaho/North Dakota or something. Give up my ocean in attempts to get the hell away from all this mask and the non existent “racism” bullshit. Go somewhere with a lower cost of living, more jobs with higher wages. I absolutely can not stand wearing the face masks. There is no evidence they work, just go look at Sweden. Or the states I just named which have no mask laws. Also a lot of rural areas in Oregon do not wear them seems like the entire populations would have been sick or dead. I am not looking to argue with scared little sheep over this. Before you say “I hope your grandparents die” because I don’t wear them, something that I have seen many people say to myself and anyone else without a mask, my grandparents have said many times they would rather be dead than be completely isolated over some bullshit virus with a higher survival rate than the flu. Plus the media has lied so much, how can you believe a word they say? Seriously? They are all left winged biased. I am not even a conservative and I can see it. But people just eat the shit up. That 26 year old who they claimed died in Oregon from coronavirus, turns out did not even have the virus the CDC medical examiner said. So you choose for yourself what to believe. 

I did get a job in Montana very easily. In six fucking months in Oregon I had maybe 5 phone calls for a job, all minimum wage no benefit shit jobs. I did 2 years of business and law classes, 4 years of heavy payroll and accounting for work so its not like I have absolutely no experience in anything worth a fuck. Plus 8 years total of customer service or more I have been working since I was 18 with gaps here and there between jobs. But with my boyfriend and son back in Oregon, 900 miles away, it was really difficult. I had never been alone like that or even stayed a night away from my child. Never in 9 years. First of all staying in some shitty hotel... I hate hotels in general I like my little nest, as shitty as my house may be, even at a nice hotel I would rather sleep in my own shitty bed. I lasted 2 weeks, only having $100  week leftover for food and other bills spending $400 a week at the cheapest motel I could find, before I gave up. I could not save money for a deposit or loan and my boyfriend has absolutely no credit so he could not get approved for a loan or rental either. He also had absolutely no one to watch our child back in Oregon with everything being closed so he could not work during that time and almost lost the job he had. Done landscaping for 11 years and still only makes $2 above minimum wage because companies treat employees like such shit in Oregon. I was so close, had a decent pay (way more than I ever made in Oregon even though Montana has a lower minimum wage) with benefits, but it was impossible to move into a rental. My credit is good enough for a loan, but I could not save money for a down payment staying in a hotel. Plus I was so lonely and miserable. Now winter is coming and we will not be able to go back and forth in that snow in little cars anyways.

If we would have succeeded, I would have gotten us into a rental and then quit as soon as he got a job because we never have anyone to watch our child and the cost of living is so much lower we would not HAVE to both work like we do here in Oregon. Especially now. Seriously, what the fuck do they expect people with kids to do? Schools are closed and even if they weren’t there is no way in hell I would send my kid wearing a mask all day. SO bad for you! They have to wear them all day “except at lunch” ok so might as well just take the damn things off the entire day. These rules don’t even make sense how do people not see that? Or in a restaurant you have to wear them if you walk to the bathroom but not at the table what logic is that? How do people not see through this bullshit? And children are gross they touch everything masks are going to do shit at schools. Notice the schools that did open, masks or no masks still had a shitload of cases. Single parents are especially screwed in particular. I guess if you could somehow both find employers willing to work with your schedule (good luck with that) you could constantly work opposite shifts as your partner/spouse and never seen them and work. 

Anyways, jobs for him paid more up there too, rent is fucking half of what it is in Oregon. Their average rent is the price of “low income housing” in Oregon. But we just could not do it. I tried. I tried so hard. I even learned Norwegian jeg snakker norsk und ich spreche auch Deutsch because Austria was another country I was interested in. You can try and try and try here, but unless you get lucky, or your parents help you, I do not know how people do it. All the old people I know here don’t have enough money to live off either after working 50 years. Its so sad.

I am no perfect person either. I am pretty bitchy, I have horrible anxiety I quit public school at age 12 and finished online, yes I have a high school diploma. I actually did all my high school schooling in 2 years after skipping 3 years of school with no problem. I never even really went to middle school and still managed. I am not stupid. I just have a hard time doing things I am absolutely miserable doing.

I will go into more detail, year by year on what a shitshow it is to live in the USA but in particular Oregon. The entire west Coast really. I hate it here and I just want out but I have tried everything.