#22. weaving

[arthurs-better-half]

Yellow - Acceptance and Alienation

Michael Cunningham, The Hours / Malevolent - Part 21 / Ruth Madievsky, All-Night Pharmacy / Malevolent - Part 21 / @godabhor (Twitter) / Nemakin Aleksandr / Malevolent - Part 23 / Do You? - TroyBoi / Malevolent - Part 22 / Ask Polly / Minotaur Forgiving Knossos - Moonface / Anne Carson, Grief Lessons: Four Plays by Euripides / Malevolent - Part 40 "The Order" II / The Fallen Angel (1847) by Alexandre Cabanel / John Selden / @/rhymewithrachel / Malevolent - Part 40 "The Order" II / Stephen Adly Guirgis, The Last Hours of Judas Iscariot / Malevolent - Part 40 "The Order" II

Reblogs appreciated 👍

Still, there is this terrible desire to be loved. Still, there is this horror at being left behind.

ENTITY: What's your name, friend? ARTHUR: Jesus, it's- it's Arthur. ENTITY: Arthur?

Being a person didn't come naturally to me the way it seemed to for others. People who were sure of themselves awed me. I studied them and tried to mimic their ease.

ARTHUR: Now, you're going to play nice and tell me what we see, or so help me, I will send you back to that empty void you came from. Understood? ENTITY (beaten down): Yes. ARTHUR: Good boy. Now, tell me what's in this room.

if only i were a bird, dark winged, in flight.

YELLOW: What made you... friendly? With him? (A light-hearted piano piece starts.) ARTHUR: What do you mean? YELLOW: What made you... like his companionship.

Do you love me? Do you need me? Do you want me? Do you love me? YELLOW: What do you want from me?!

"You can be better than this," my shame whispers in my ear. "You need to try harder. You need to hide the scary things you carry around. You need to act like you've arrived, even though you're so inadequate and broken that you never will."

You'll never know me None of you will ever see my face No matter how much we long to face the unknown And that's okay

WHY DOES TRAGEDY EXIST? BECAUSE YOU ARE FULL OF RAGE. WHY ARE YOU FULL OF RAGE? BECAUSE YOU ARE FULL OF GRIEF.

YELLOW (loathing): Friends! What a waste.

To preach long, loud, and Damnation, is the way to be cried up. We love a man that damns us, and we run after him again to save us.

ARTHUR: That I... That I... (Quieter.) Failed you.

JESUS: I'm right here. JUDAS: I would have never believed that you could have left me. JESUS: I never left you. JUDAS: That you didn't love me. JESUS: I do love you. JUDAS: Why ... didn't you make me good enough ... so that you could've loved me?

YELLOW: I... I... (Quieter.) Why you, John? What did you have to offer? Why does he care about... you?

[wildfloweronwheels]

There is a video I found from back when I was three, you’re setting up a paint set in the kitchen and talking to me. I’m five years old, it’s getting cold, I’ve got my big coat on.  She said I was seven and you were nine, I looked at you like the stars that shine in the sky like pretty lights. I hit my peak at seven. I’m thirteen now and don’t know how my friends could be so mean.  At fourteen there’s just so much you can’t do and you can’t wait to move out one day and call your own shots. Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you, you’re gonna believe them. Good thing my daddy made me get a boating licence when I was fifteen.  Well, I was sixteen when suddenly I wasn’t that little girl you used to see. I’m crazier for you then I was at sixteen, lost in a film scene. Secret jokes all alone, sixteen and wild. Seventeen and crazy, running wild, wild. It’s like I’m seventeen, no one understands. I’m only seventeen, I don’t know anything but I know I miss you. How can a person know everything at eighteen but nothing at twenty two? Don’t you think nineteen’s too young to be played by your dark twisted games when I loved you so?  And I damn sure never would’ve danced with the devil at nineteen. It’s supposed to be fun, turning twenty one. I don’t know about you but I’m feeling twenty two. She’s still twenty three inside her fantasy. Oh, twenty five years old, oh how were you to know? Thirty two and still growing up now, who you are is not what you did. She said, I’ll be eighty seven, you’ll be eighty nine, I’ll still look at you like the stars that shine in the sky.

Every time Taylor Swift references an age in a song

[seedlessmuffins]

the modern montreal: a legacy of 125 years of hockey excellence le montréal moderne: un héritage de 125 ans d'excellence au hockey

[brucequeensteen]

the pacific, part 6: peleliu // catch-22 by joseph heller // band of brothers, part 3: carentan

[charles-jpg]

scheherazade | max verstappen & charles leclerc

that means it’s noon. that means we’re inconsolable.

[starscelly]

i belong to you; there is really no other way of expressing it, and that is not strong enough.

matthew yeager, poem to first love / photo by sam hodde / "i love you" by dogbite / dal@vgk 2.25.23 / friedrich nietzsche, a letter to mathilde trampedach / photo by norm hall / megan noelle concepcion, "my best friend was my first love" / dallas stars, twitter / "p.u.n.k. girl" by heavenly / photo by sam hodde / t.l. martin, dancing in the dark / min@dal 4.19.23 / saniya kokab and m. asir ajmal, "perception of love in young adults" / min@dal 4.19.23 / photo by norm hall / jennifer michael hecht, love explained / keaton henson, grow up with me / mike leslie, twitter / "touch tank" by quinnie / dallas stars, twitter / fyodor dostoyevsky, the brothers karamazov / dallas stars, twitter / saniya kokab and m. asir ajmal, "perception of love in young adults" / photo by sam hodde / matthew yeager, poem to first love / franz kafka, letters to felice (caption)

[scattered-under-moonlight]

[lover-of-mine]

Richard Siken, Crush | Twitter User honeythehippy | Taylor Swift, So long, London | Franz Kafka, Letters to Felice

[fortjester]

Kimochi Warui by Car Seat Headrest vs. Camilla Hect -> Paul

[cliffburton]

PEARL, SO GONE, SO DEAD.

pearl (2022) dir. ti west // so gone, so dead by salem's pot

[memoriesofthingspast]

calvin & hobbes & joseph heller & yossarian & doc &&& walk take tea together 🫖☕️🍵🧋

⚠️⛔️?🌅🦊

[meteorologears]

Cinematic parallels...

Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead (Tom Stoppard) // Clevinger and Dunbar in Catch-22 (Joseph Heller)

[sewambitious]

Gotta order yarn, wait for it to arrive, count out 560+ threads of 8/2 cotton, thread the reed, thread the heddles, pack the beam, tension the warp, and weave 36-40 inches with 8 colors to make a baby blanket all in 20 days because I procrastinated.

[ardenrosegarden]

Amnesia: The Bunker, abuse of power comes as no surprise

Frictional Games, Amnesia: The Bunker Netflix, Im Westen nichts Neues (2022) Hulu, Catch-22 1x04 (2019) Ludovica Rubbini, "To Prove a Villain" Shakespeare's political villains and the entwining issues of power, violence, and wickedness from Richard III to Hamlet Joseph Heller, Catch-22 HBO, Succession 4x02, (2018-2023) Erich Maria Remarque, All Quiet on the Western Front Sophocles tr. Richard Emil Braun, Antigone Ana Johnsson, We Are Philippe Tourault, Les ducs et duchesses de Bretagne *

* Translation from French: "Would Salomon be henceforth cursed? One could believe it. In 874, he was in turn assassinated by the Franks who, beforehand, had gouged out his eyes while he too, to avoid death, had taken refuge in a sacred place. Some said that the All Powerful had condemned him as retribution for his appalling murder."

[thebirdandhersong]

at this rate, the first long-form work of fiction I'll have finished since 2018 will be a Lockwood and Co fanfic. I'm actually quite tempted to print myself a copy to celebrate this feat after I'm done writing this fic (and done editing, and all that).......

[titansarmy]

— light at the end of the tunnel

the sun and the star; rick riordan and mark oshiro // evermore; taylor swift // nikolinelr // famous last words; my chemical romance //albert camus