#2 months to go!!!!!!!!!!!!

[njessie]

Waiting for the special ep like

[inkskinned]

it is november, and yesterday it felt like it was supposed to be snowing. in boston, november used a winter month, not a fall month. it is supposed to be chilly; rarely capping over 45F. it is a sweater-and-jacket month. it is a "maybe a scarf too" month. in my childhood, november meant blizzards and sleet.

it did not snow. tomorrow the weather predicts a high of 76.

i have spent so many years of my life studying the longterm possibilities of climate change - the culmination of capitalism wreaking havoc on the bodies of people, animals, plants - but every so often i am still shocked by something small and personal.

in a hundred years, when someone goes outside in boston - will they know the feeling of "snow in the air"?

i know it's a learned feeling, a sensation that maybe only longterm experience can teach. a few years ago, i was walking with my friend who had just moved up from the south. i said it smells like snow and she gave me this look like - what the fuck. i said it feels like snow too, which didn't help. she looked up to the bright blue sky and then back at me and then back at the sky. 12 hours later, we had 3 inches. you can just tell if it's going to snow.

except i can't tell, anymore. i stand outside in a tee shirt and watch my dog dance around a lake. we're in a drought and the skin of the water has peeled back twenty meters. the lake is tamed, quiet, puddlelike and sour. my pokemon go app warns there's a weather condition in my area.

my dog gets too hot from running and sits in the water and i want to laugh about his long frame and how awkwardly he sits - and i can't. some simian part of my brain is scratching the walls. it was supposed to snow. it was supposed to snow, but now it's warm instead.

during the last full solar eclipse, the dogs and the birds and the crickets went crazy under utter darkness. we laughed at them then, promising it will all be okay in a moment. but some part of me is still locked in that long night: some animal sensation.

something is wrong, my body says. i can't afford eggs or rent. i go outside to watch a sunset and listen to birdsong. i don't bring a jacket. allergies are killing me this season, allergies i didn't have as a kid. everyone comments that halloween has started to feel strange, offkilter. that it's hard having "holiday cheer." my body thinks it's april, and then it thinks we're in september, and then june.

something is terribly wrong, she whispers. go outside. it is supposed to be snowing.

[heartorbit]

MWAH!

[qualityrain]

[hrokkall]

I call to you, Lord...

[waveoftheocean]

something something superbat sneaking off at a gala 🫣

[waterthatsmoe]

"Do you regret it?"

"It's for the best."

"Do you miss them?"

"I'll never forget this ache for the rest of my life."

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[aquanutart]

THEY'RE BACK!!!! my childhood manga!!!

[o0kawaii0o]

Spring's Harvest!

[sapsolace]

obsessed w these boneheads as of late :]

[xray-vex]

"Like stuff. Don't be someone that doesn't like stuff, and if you don't like stuff, don't be a dick about it."

- David Jenkins

[turtletoria]

one downside to digital mediums of art is that you cant see the tear stains (they just slide down the screen)

[obsob]

oooooooooough i love you i love you i love you!!!! hand in loving hand !!!!!!

[merry-fagoland]

these are all said to him one after the other

[warmfuzzyanimal]

welp. it's mold!

so last night we discovered mold aaaalllll over our apartment. bathroom is to be expected, but we found it in closets, behind beds, and on every window + door in the house.

it explains......a lot. i chalked up the extended brain fog / tinnitus / dizziness / etc. i've been feeling to post-concussion recovery, but. this makes a lot more sense. i really didn't want to ask for more help this month, but the concussion recovery (and i guess potential mold poisoning now?) have me deep enough in my queue that i'd reallllly prefer to not take more comms. if you can help us out, please check out my kofi, maybe get a base or two, or just reblog this post.

thank you ;__;

[mokeonn]

I wanted to participate in the funnie drawing meme too (Original image, post, and uncolored version under the cut)