#19 days rant

[limbokidd]

A Change

19 days spoilers

I’ve seen people analyze this scene so I decided to do my take on it.

We see that He Tian had just finished fighting She Li after he nearly stabs Mo and we are hit with this look.

He Tian turns to look at Mo and I noticed that he was almost crying. I believe this was a show of how rattled he was when he realized that Mo could’ve died. She Li had the upper ground and He Tian almost couldn’t save the one person he cared about the most.

I also think his tears were tears of anger as well. In the panels leading up to this He Tian grabs She Li and just punches and punches until someone has to stop him from killing him. You can see in the panel that He Tian is full on shaking.

He Tian was so fucking scared because the person who has tormented Mo’s life for so long almost won. And he was so close to not being able to prevent it.

And when He Tian turns to Mo he is met with this look.

Mo was in tears. He was just given a full confirmation that He Tian was willing to do just about anything to save him. He was willing to risk his life for him, more than once. Mo never had anyone that was willing to do so much only to make sure he was okay and safe. To him, this showed that He Tian really loved him. To him, this showed that He Tian truly cared for him.

To him, this meant everything.

[gcballet]

Doctor Who as tweets/textposts pt.6

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[theartsynebulawhodoodles]

Day 19: Streetlight. Killer Sans Art and Rant!

Sorry I hadn’t been doing the other days, I’ve been under lots of stress with the new bluesky thing. I am planning to make an account on bluesky but I will also post on this account on tumblr always, basically it will just be me posting my art on both accounts whenever I make art. This had been very hard on me because of my fear of change and I was panicked and stressed out because I was terrified that I was going to get ‘left behind’ (idk why I thought that, lots of people in my fandom still use tumblr!) because I am too scared to join to bluesky. If I cannot make a bluesky account, I’ll either make a YouTube or a TikTok account or even devianart(?), and I’ll link those in my bio or on a new version of my pinned notes!

I won’t leave tumblr ever, I am just making another account on another platform to get my art out there! 🩵 will post the same things basically

(Yes, I know I didn’t put watercolors on this drawing like I usually do, sorry, was under lots of stress)

[atomicnebula13]

OX is still a master of symbolism and imagery. White butterflies are associated with many things but in particular they are often seen as symbols of comfort to those who have lost a loved one.

Particularly significant and meaningful since He Tian just introduced Guan Shan to his mother. I’m sure it took a lot of trust in Guan Shan for He Tian to reveal himself in that way but he’s ready for it now, they both are. It’s like He Tian’s mother was there to support the both of them, I mean, how could she not support them when all she’s heard is how lovely Guan Shan is. 🥹

[ginrise]

I think Old Xian deserves an award for the most successful edge-r in human history lol. The potential 19 Days had that disappeared into thin air as soon as she made the side characters the main ones is so disappointing.

Have been following the Manhua since 2015, TWO THOUSAND AND FIFTEEN, that's nine years ago. No development whatsoever for the sweet ol' main couple. I thought she'd eventually get back on track oh I don't know after a year or two or three or four or five, I was gravely mistaken. It started out so well now it's just a ???? Wrapped around some ¿¿¿¿.

Here is a message to Old Xian, please give me some closure before my fiftieth birthday. I beg you. We were all rooting for you I swear lol. I have very very little rooting left to give but please, get it together.

PS: my 50s are still a bit far but not sure I'll make it with all the smoking.

[surreal-duck]

i dont think there are too many indos here so i was gonna refrain from posting this but whatever 👍 i'll be at CF19 on both days at C37AB!!! stop by and say hi if you can o/

[goliig68]

I miss the times when zhanyi had moments like this:

I mean...tianshan is my favourite ship right now but years ago, I started reading 19 days because of zhanyi.

After re reading the comic for n'th times, I can see after jian yi's confession their development got slower and then story focused mostly on tianshan. But I feel like zhanyi's development has come to full stop right now :( they haven't got any emotional or significant moment for a long time, they're like background characters to tianshan's story.

I mean yeah, years go old xian made a good decision to focus and develop tianshan's relationship because zhanyi were light years ahead of them, and zhanyi were finally got to some points, jian yi confessed and zheng xi accepted jian yi's feeling for him and after that zheng xi seemed to develop some romantic feelings for jian yi but oh well. We never saw anything after that (also I'm not happy with the way old xian is going with zheng xi's character, it seems like he doesn't have any character out of jian yi anymore and he doesn't have any close relationship or significant interaction with he tian or mo like jian yi does,it's like his purpose of existence is only because of jian yi, I could go on but that's literally a different topic)

I know they are together in future, in Christmas chapters they seem to be living together, but their development has been so dry that I keep questioning myself how old xian is gonna make them a thing.

I can only hope for old xian to take a look at them and be like: oh yeah they're the main couple I need to start focusing on them too!

after tianshan officially became canon, I thought that old xian is gonna give zhanyi some major development to move their relationship from sided love to mutual feelings but it doesn't seem we're going back to zhanyi anytime soon. I believe zheng xi is in love with jian yi already"I'll go wherever you go" was his way of telling it, or jian yi's "no matter what happens, don't ever leave me". I wish we saw their reactions to these indirect love confessions.

[bigmammallama5]

Well i guess a silver lining about losing most of my taste and smell from covid is im eating the snacks i didnt care for the taste of so i’m not wasting them lol

[hypogryffin]

how do u draw so much so fast

well,

[limbokidd]

Vulnerabilities

A 19 days fanfic

This is my first fic so I hope it turned out ok😭

Summary: He Tian breaks the news the Mo that he’s leaving. Mo doesn’t take it well.

TW: Swearing, punching

Beginning:

Making beef stew had become a weekly occurrence as of late. Mo always seemed to find himself in that kitchen making something, whether it be dinner, breakfast, or just snacks.

He went to go and feel the helix that now existed on his ear; still tender, though it had only been done a few days ago so it made sense. Never in his days did Mo think he would let He Tian of all people pierce his ear. He’s only ever seen piercings and something that confines you.

But things have changed now.

The helix feels comforting and safe, a reminder of who cares for him.

Said person enters the kitchen silently, coming up behind Mo to kiss his temple, whispering a small hello. He Tian goes to wrap his arms around Mo and snuggle into his shoulder. This new level of affection was a level He Tian cracked just recently, and he’s so glad Mo finally let him in.

“Hey.” Mo whispers back. He notices that He Tian is hugging him quite tightly, but he doesn’t question the matter. “Is the stew almost done?” He Tian mumbles into the crook of Mo’s neck, pressing little kisses there. Mo puts down the wooden spoon to bring his hand up and push He Tian away, blushing like a mad man. “Be patient, Jesus.”

He’s setting the stew down to cool when He Tian asks him to watch the city with him. “Why the fuck would I wanna do that?” Mo snarls. Such a weird request. He Tian just looks at him.

Mo sees something in his eyes, but he can’t place what it is.

“Please?” He Tian asks again. He says it so gently and honestly, like there’s a hidden meaning to it.

Mo would normally still refuse, but something was telling him that there was more to the story, hidden under the cracks. So he silently walks past He Tian to the window in a silent approval. He Tian follows.

They stand there in silence, the sound of the city only a dull background. Mo wants to say something. The mood feels off, like there’s a tension in the air that won’t lift. He looks to He Tian and sees that he is already looking right back at him.

His smile is laced with hurt. Mo doesn’t know why.

He wants to.

Before he can get anything out He Tian speaks in a hesitant tone. “Mo, I have to tell you something.” Mo starts to worry. He Tian’s tone is serious which means this is something important.

It doesn’t shake the fact that he’s scared of what he might hear.

“I’m leaving. I won’t be coming to school anymore.”

Mo just looks at him. He doesn’t know what to say. Whatever he thought he was gonna say is certainly wasn’t this.

“Wha- what the fuck?” He Tian looks broken now as he processes Mo’s reaction. “I’m not going tomorrow.” He Tian lets out, it’s clear he doesn’t want this either.

Mo can’t process what’s happening. He backs away wide-eyed. “He Tian-“ it comes out broken. After everything they’ve gone through, every moment they shared, the conclusion is that He Tian gets up and disappears?

He Tian rushes towards him, his arms out-

“DON’T fucking touch me.” Mo spits. “You fucking asshole. You don’t want be to abandon you but the moment it’s the other way around you-you just leave? How is that fucking fair?”

He Tian knew this would happen. He doesn’t know how to calm Mo down. “ Mo listen-“ He reaches out a hand to grasp Mo’s shoulder and Mo slaps it away. “No this is bullshit.” He fists his hands into his hair. “This is total bullshit.” He’s trying to hide the wavering in his voice, but it is to no avail.

He Tian hates his Dad more than anything right now. He backs away and exhales. “It’s my dad’s decision. I don’t get a say in what I fuckin do.” He says, voice firm. “You think I want this?”

Mo is shaking his head, slowly curling in on himself. “I finally let myself have this after so long and the first thing you do is fuckin ditch me.” He exhales, staring off into the city as he clutches his hair. “I knew I would regret it. I should’ve never fuckin said anythin.” I should’ve never let you in. He Tian pinches his nose.

“Mo please. You’re making this seem like it’s my fault. It’s not-“

“You’ve found your way around your dads orders before, why can’t you do it this time?” Mo accuses him. He can’t fucking think straight. He doesn’t want He Tian to leave. This is too fucked and he doesn’t know what to do.

“Momo, I can’t run from him forever.” He stares at Mo, eyes pleading. “He Cheng has done his best to let me stay here instead of some shitty private school. He can’t always protect me.”Mo turns to him, anger clearly visible on his face. “Really? That’s the best you’ve got?” He voices. He Tian looked hurt. Mo didn’t care. “How dare you ask me not to abandon you when you just get to leave whenever. Do you know how that makes me feel?” Mo questions. He Tian stands stiffly. “I know I said what I said, but I didn’t know about this before-“ Mo cuts him off. “You’ve known. I saw the note. You knew this was gonna happen and you didn’t say shit.”

He Tian has eyes of shock. Then they turn into a glare. “Would you have reacted differently if I told you earlier?”

Now it’s Mo’s turn to be silent. He Tian continues. “I wanted to savour all the moments I had with you because you finally let your walls down for me. Do you know how happy that made me? To know that you finally felt safe around me? It meant everything. I can’t explain the relief I felt when you saw me as someone you could go to. And yes it was selfish of me to not say anything, but you were finally happy for once in your life, and I wasn’t gonna take that away from you.”

Mo stood dumbstruck. It was too much for him. He needed to back away, close himself in again. He let himself have what he wanted for once and look where it got him.

“Fuck you.” He scowled.

He Tian knows Mo is putting his walls up again. He doesn’t want to be seen as vulnerable. He doesn’t want He Tian to see him loose his composure.

He Tian thinks it’s the only way he will be able to get through to Mo.

He walks towards Mo and hugs him tightly. “GET OFF ME-“ Mo yells as he hits He Tian’s arms, trying to break away from He Tian’s grasp. He Tian just holds him, wincing as Mo hits him with a lot of force. “I’m sorry.” He whispers between hits. “I’m so sorry.” Mo continues to punch and hit, trying to break away from the embrace. “You ASSHOLE-“ He Tian buries his head in Mo’s neck. “I just wanted you to be happy.”

Mo’s hits start to get weaker. “Let me go.” He Tian does not respond, he just squeezes him tighter. “I love you.” His voice is muffled, but he knows Mo can hear him.

Mo finally stops hitting him and he rests his hands at his sides. He hated this. He hated that He Tian had made him feel this way. He hated that he didn’t want him to ever leave him.

He hated that he loved him too.

He stared at the space between them, clenching his fists. “You asked me to stay with you and I stayed. Why can’t you stay with me?” He murmured.

He Tian pulled back to face Mo when he stopped.

Mo was in tears.

He Tian’s heart shattered.

“You can’t leave.” Mo said as tears began to overflow. “You-you can’t just vanish without a warning.”

He Tian cups Mo’s face in his hands and kisses his forehead before going back to hug him again.

This time Mo hugs him back just as hard.

“Please don’t leave.” Mo starts to cry into He Tian’s shoulder. He Tian feels his eyes start to burn as he tucks his head into Mo’s shoulder. “I love you so much.” He Tian says again. He doesn’t know how else he can make Mo believe that he wants to stay, with him.

“I don’t want you to go.” Mo confesses. He Tian nestles into him more when he hears the sobs start. He knows there’s so much Mo isn’t saying. There’s so much he wants to say too, but he doesn’t know how. He hopes that this hug is enough to convey what he wants to say. He knows that communication is not their strong suit, but he will try none the less.

“We’ll be ok. I’m gonna make sure we’re ok.” He states.

He doesn’t know if he’s saying it to reassure Mo or himself.

He rocks them back and forth as he lets that thought hang in the air.

-Fin-

My thoughts on what I think is gonna happen soon🤨 anyways hope u liked it:D

[professionalbalbberer]

Why does ticcimask have to be so popular? Toby seeing Tim as a father figure has been engraved into my mind. The tim-toby father-son dynamic parasite refuses to leave…😔😔😞😞😞😞😞😿😿

[heguanshan]

Chrismas chapter analysis with next ch. prediction:

I am not sure if anyone have done that so I’ll begin.

1- First Mo Guan shan:

Momo seemed very distant, still angry tsundere and did not care about He tian which lead to the assumption that they still did not have any relationship yet, did not progress well, or the fact that Momo is still stubborn or He tian is unnecessary forceful.

But on the contrary, it wasn’t that Momo is distant he was just sad and angry that he tian left with no explanation (?) for so long that seeing him again is just like dream, momo still doesn’t comprehend it. That can be explained by how momo kept drinking to perhaps wash his agitated feelings somehow. I can’t really explain what was momo was feeling but it could be a mixture of deep yearning, anger, sadness and tired of waiting (?). Basically he just wants he tian and he’s not there.

You really can’t blame momo as his alleged boyfriend 🤡 disappeared (?) after all the kissing they have done 🤨 I’ll ignore him too (just for a short period lol)

2 - Next He tian

I am not sure how he will leave but judging from Momo’s cold attitude towards him at the beginning maybe it was sudden and did not explain much to momo why and how long. However, he said to momo:” I have so many things i want to say to you after leaving for so long”. So what does that mean? Is it to explain the long absence, what happened to him during that, why he left, or most importantly their relationship status!!

Is it a good thing he left? I mean tbh i can’t blame him, he need to settle his family issues or it will haunt him while having his relationship with momo, HT is now depending on his brother which is not ideal thus he needs to get stronger and independent, and in the meantime make money to support and heavily spoil his boyfriend of course.

3- Finally my prediction 😎🤡

So according to the pictures below, Zhanyi may actually go and find momo to hang out together… but of course momo won’t be alone!!

So Zhanyi will go Momo’s place and to their surprise will find He tian has returned!! But he’s carrying a drunk Momo and before they approach .. BAM 💥 they witness the drunk Momo pining He tian against the wall and kissing the sh*t out of him then He tian will carry him while kissing him to his flat closing the door behind him … all that while Zhanyi watching 🤣🤣😭

If you read this far… ily thank you 💕

[atomicnebula13]

I’m so in love with the way Xixi expresses his care for Jian Yi because it’s so subtle yet deep. I can’t tell if physical touch is his love language or if he’s deduced that it’s Jian Yi’s love language and acts accordingly. Maybe it’s something he noticed when they were young.

In the middle school timeline he’s rather quiet and stoic but when Jian Yi really needs comforting, he doesn’t hesitate and it’s almost always a soft touch.

And the recent chapter showcases that brilliantly, once again.

So although he isn’t as flamboyantly affectionate or effusive as Jian Yi or He Tian, he still loves and cares deeply. I’m hoping we’ll get a Zhanyi kiss here soon as well.

[i-amusemyself]

whhhyyyy must my long covid flare again!?! i do not have TIME for this 🙃🙃🙃

like for real if you arent avoiding covid try imagining all the things you wanna do today and pick one (1). every day. indefinitely. thats your life if you get this wretched condition put on a fucking mask for your own sake i beg you.

[kuromi-hoemie]

hhhh talking about my writing was fun but 30 tags is not enough.. yes i have 3 major influences but i have minor ones too.. it is a lovechild of my favorite things.. writing is so fun and i have no self control or a concept of pacing myself i will sit there for 16 hours and get hit with every status effect but by god does it all just flow out of me. I've always been a music person yes but i also used to write a lot into early adulthood until The Incident™

but i am ready 2 jump back into it. i think comics are a great middle ground between the two mediums so i don't get As into writing bc i kind of started going crazy last time 🫡 i can take a more structured approach to it that forces me to pace myself and think about it differently. i love art.... i love making things i love knowing how to do things i love knowing how to play things i love having so many creative outlets, even if i don't do a lot of them regularly lol. it is enriching 😳 and nice to know that it's always there to come back to when u want.

[dragon-subway]

[points] favourite transformer(s)? pls tell me everything 📢

:O <-????? :O<-?????? YES I'LL TELL YOU MY FAVOURITE TRANSFORMERS (im actually shaking w exitement in this one so if you see spelling errors no the fuck you do not)

in no particular order:

mtmte whirl: hes great, his introduction was great and DAMN the knowing he can change what makes him angry and spiteful yet not doing it cause he knows he wont have anything left to keep him goes gets me every damn time. also theres a comic dub that fucking nails his voice for me. a shame the never did more than 3 issues and a few snippits. also also hae you seen the stuff he says?? delightful.

tfp soundwave: holy shit the explanations on why i love him so much can and have gone on for several hours. in summary, hes cool hes competent, his look being uncanny (cybertronian-wise), his figthting is such a rare treat to behold in the way its almost a dance and!!! he has very subtle shows of emotion!!!! tfp season 2 episode 14 will forever be my favourite

TFA shockwave: what tfp makeshift failed to be, a proper shapeshifting decepticon spy. I love his creepyness so much and the fact his autobot disguise to grey like a corpse is just..... man its so neat. also the antenna remind me of deer antlers

tfa blitzwing: I hold him gently.

tfp showckwave: antennas twitch n its the cutest thing to watch. honestly his animation is always super interesting, and the way they've done his head/eye in this design. He's super intimidating too, like when i watched tfp as a kid n saw him my jaw dropped - that entrance was spectacular especially after thinking he was dead just like everyone else in universe. MAN.

earthspark taurantulas: OH MY GOD you have no idea how exited i was to see him for the first time, i'd heard so many things about him and while he doesnt sound like i intially thought he would i atually prefer it so much more. Man just wanted to live in peace. My guy just wanted to be left alone. In comes this kid wanting to help him out and he tries to help him in return (but with the wrong idea) before actually helping him in return i think he's super sweet.

this has been great thank you very much for this ask :3