#10 years (2011)

[mickules]

Here we go again...

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Ever since Book of Bill got a whole swathe of frankly cracking Gravity Falls art popping up on my dashboard again it got me looking back through my own old art. And would you believe it?

My first post was 10 years ago today

So in celebration, a redraw of that post- with a little twist!

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Human Bill Cipher design by @itsscaredycat Original post under the cut

[youremyonlyhope]

I love when I see posts like "Share how many crochet WIPs you currently have! I have 5, it's so many!"

Like, girl, I have unfinished projects from over a decade ago that I refuse to frog on the off chance I decide to finish them. I've found years-old projects I forgot I even started and will impulsively just finish it on the spot. I've started three different projects in the last 2 months, including one I started yesterday, that I already know I may or may not finish within the year depending on motivation.

The number of WIPs I have is infinite.

[plantanarchy]

you ever get sad that all the critters you loved the most as a child existed before you had access to the technology to document their little lives? truly so many little animals that were so dear to me as a child that i have maybe a single grainy photo of

[spacenintendogs]

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[aq2003]

omfg . radio play version of much ado with david as benedick from 2001

[project-sekai-facts]

There is an in-universe reason for why Ichika, Saki and Miku cover Time Machine, which Saki explains in the After Live for the Tenma Household's Hinamatsuri event.

According to Saki, Ichika recommended the song to her several years ago, and she used to listen to it in hospital. The song reminded her of her brother, Tsukasa, and her other family and friends who would visit her in hospital.

It is unknown exactly when Ichika recommended the song to Saki, and it is not easy to narrow down either given that Time Machine, originally released in September 2010, would have existed during the majority of Saki's stays in hospital. Saki says that it was "a long time ago", which might mean that she listened to the song during one of her long-term hospital stays 10 years prior to the game's present day, rather than her stay during Junior High.

This After Live also marks the first time Leo/need performs the song within canon.

[mrsarcadian]

when the world and i were young, just yesterday.

[dansevilpianotea]

ramble ahead about time, tatinof, 2015 and changing one's life

tatinof is very special and im so happy they did this video to acknowledge that its not cringe at all and that theyre proud of their past selves !! there's sth genuinely healing about that !! ive had a hard time in 2015 and even tho i was 12/13 and just discovered that online fan communities of things i was into were a thing and was nowhere close to the phandom (i joined after BIG), this is the fandom internet that i joined back then. thats why its so poetic that they sing 'the internet is here', because to me this is the time it started to be there for me. it wasnt always kind to me and instagram was not a great platform to start on if your bullies and other ppl from school were also on it, but it was also when for the first time ever i realised that there were not only people who liked what i liked but that those ppl also have created their own culture and community online !! i was not totally alone !! there is a life outside of school !! i would never chose to go back to that time ever like it was horrible (that applies to any time in the past tho, i hate the idea of 'going back in time' with a passion) but im glad that the internet was there for me because no one else really was if im being real with you.

more below the cut because im an insufferable yapper (dan is a terrible influence haha tit joke)

this all is maybe why i find it hard to go back to watch dnps older content and also the stuff from the tatinof era. dan's sarcastic self-hating persona and phils innocent nerd persona are both hitting a bit too close to home and i want to both cry for them and for myself. we knew nothing back then. we were lost and yet did sth we were proud of. yet here we are almost 10 years later and how the fuck did we end up here but oh my god im so proud of us. all it took for me was to watch dan's coming out video. all it took for them was to be embraced and loved by their audience (us). dan also needed a break which is something that at the time it happend was really hard for me but then i found my wonderful lovely phannie discord friends here. we really all got here together and if i ever see any single person say that dnp hate us or dan hates it or that dnp are cringe or that we are cringe etc etc i will block you so hard because what are you even doing bringing up drama when in reality dan and phil and the phandom have developed the most remarkable symbiotic relationship between artist adn fans ever. they are our dads and i honestly just want to say how fucking proud i am of them for how far theyve come and what theyve done since 2015. dan really did the whole mental health and gay thing but then he did the mental health again!! and i think ywgttn and wad need to be given more credit here because idk if you remember pre-wad dan but he wasnt anything like post wad dan. every since wad he seems so happy and genuinely authetic and in peace. (im ignoring dystopia daily here because that was filmed before wad and his dd persona also reminds me too much of 2015 depressed dan than whatever high concept he was going for lol, im just not a dd fan). like wad changed his relationship with us and its warming my entire heart when i see dan smile so much now. he deserves to be happy and proud. and if dan deserved it after going through so much and coming out on top (literally), then i deserve it too. and phil? i love how he's just so confident now. fuck. (literally). he is not the innocent nerd anymore like he actually is fully really himself now and feels comfortable in his body (crop top, phlonde, etc) and openly expressing his sexuality ! even compare this phil to phil from the beginning of the hiatus!! he got so much more confident and relaxed since then!! like fully, really, if he can do it, if he can strip himself of the persona that ppl have attributed to him because of his anxiety, then i can do that too. im so proud of phil. he is an inspiration and the more he's being himself publically with no shame, the more an autistic phannie will feel hopeful for their future. im so proud of both of them.

like its crazy you go through your life thinking you're going nowhere and never making any progress and will never reach your goals but then you stop and look back what you were like 6 months ago and realise how many lives you have lived since then. it always goes back to BIG when dan said this:

[...] I thought I was trapped in a situation forever when in reality, the entire world I lived in and my life changed completely. I thought it was hopeless when in reality there was so much to hope for and that's it. Time changes everything. With the lives that we have, we can try anything we've dreamed of. I want anyone that's ever felt like this to realize you are never trapped. There is always hope. You just need to believe in yourself and get to the other side.

this everyone, changed my life. and i will never be able to thank dan enough for it, no matter how much i pay for tour tickets, how often i watch their videos or share my love for them on here. i just want to mention this because its never just 'light entertainment', it means the world to many of us and we have build a wonderful and loving community despite the hardships of the past and pointless discourses of the present. like, we can change shit for ourselves because we see these gay idiots do it who have done soooo fucking much in the last 15 years like they were on radio 1 and on a hollywood billboard and hosted various big big events. and yet, they decided they want to use their time to do things for themselves and their community. they have said many times that they havent made a profit from (parts of) their tours but they do it regardless. they do really love us and i dont think ive ever really felt loved by people who i was in a fandom for like that. its really not as parasocial as it might seem anymore. we got here together and we should be proud of that. i love dnp and i love you phannies so much !! 💕💕💕💕💕

[spiritcc]

at this point I don't even know if tag fragmentation in the general russian holmes space is worth addressing. a few years ago I successfully kept the ancient customs intact because I wrote a post so deranged and pretentious it displeased people into doing what I wanted but nowadays what's the point in making a grand return of being terminally online if yall kinda right

[dalloneveryday]

day 68

[minazummers]

Marie Kessler 1958 - 2011

Monster Hunter

[meepsterhotline]

what if nikocado hasn't been current for 4 years and the skinny cado we're seeing now actually happened 2 years ago..... and he's fat again now

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

update:

so, I've been going to therapy (ok I'm 2 appts in, but still) through my social services job provider.... and I have a ~vague diagnosis~ of depression and anxiety..... more leaning towards like severe depression and like mid range general anxiety. again, I can't get an adhd screening bc im on my digestion meds (creon) for life, so I need to have 3 solid meals a day, at the very least.... so the psych wouldn't refer me to a psychiatrist for that since I can't get any adhd meds since they fuck w/ your appetite.... so it's basically pointless.

but at least I've got a diagnosis for depression and anxiety. that's something. but I'm still not putting it on job applications, bc fuck employers lmao.

[horrorfilmgifs]

how long have you been following your oldest mutual?

Sorry this blog has multiple members so technically it can’t have mutuals or follow anyone :/

[unnonexistence]

an important writing question to ask yourself is "how much time and effort do i want to put into figuring out what this character's legal documents would look like"

[retadoesthings]

Macha / Maha /  マハ from .hack//SIGN Photographed by Mira Ojamo in Finncon-Animecon 2011

I made this wonderfully strange cosplay in 2011 for a costume competition and although the clothes are a wonky (I was still a baby when it comes to sewing and I think I made this cosplay without any supervision from more skilled friends), I actually still quite like some construction choices I made.

My favorite parts:

I definitely wanted to include Macha��s giant red eyes in my execution, but I also didn’t want to completely lose the ability to make facial expressions. The “reverse balaclava” was a compromise between these two points. Whether or not it looks good in hindsight, I’m still not sure, but I stand by the choice anyway. The eyes had two layers of sunglass lenses glued into them; red lenses on top and mirror lenses underneath, to make the eyes reflect light in a creepy, cat-like way. I dig that!

It’s hard to tell from the pictures, but I had little whiskers too. One of the oddest things I’ve used for cosplay; those were originally parts of a table disco light of some sort. Like, stiff but also kinda bendy plastic sticks, about the thickness of a fishline, that used to light up in different colors and rotate when the light was on? (Incredibly hard to describe. Internet search didn’t help at all.) Anyway, I took a few sticks, painted them black and glued them to a tiny black pearl, which I then glued to my face.

The overall design with the half white, half lilac skin is fun. The skin doesn’t cover my whole body, of course; it’s just legwarmers, gloves and balaclava. The ears have steel wire in them to make them sturdy but bendable. In the top pic you can even see the pink imitation leather details on the paws!

If I’m not having a fake memory right now, I think the dark brown fabric used to be curtains. I also think I ran out of it, because the sleeves ended up TOIGHTTT. I don’t recall that being intentional.

Then the baby shaming part (aka some pictures I took (while laughing) when I got rid of this costume in The Great Cosplay Purge of 2019):

Incredible craftmanship on the left, incredible effort on the right. The ribbon was attached to the collar with a safety pin, because of course it was. Why attach something properly when you can throw a safety pin at it? It used to be an inside joke among my friends that all my (competition) costumes always used to have some secret safety pinned part.

(”Used to have”, I say while thinking about the latest competition I’ve been to. I safety pinned one of my cosplay partner’s costume parts in place. Just last month. But it was sort of an emergency so that doesn’t count, okay.)