#00:47

[somkvietok]

niekedy mám pocit, že na teba rúcam celý svet. mám strach, teba niet a ja neviem či kričať alebo len ticho bdieť.

nechcem ti ublížiť, no aj tak stále ubližujem. chcem ťa len ľúbiť aby si videl, že si nezaslúžiš len jeden kvet ale všetky atómy vo vesmíre.

cítim k tebe čosi viac. čosi, ako chladný vánok, no nie úplne mráz. ako dážď, kvapky, vďaka ktorým rastie raž a usmieva sa moja tvár. a ty sa teraz tvár, že sa neusmievaš, keď očami po týchto riadkoch beháš.

aj keby nepíšem ja, všetky listy budú stále o tebe. o tom ako ľúbiš, ako chceš to najlepšie, bezcenné, no cenné v očiach tých, ktorí veria a nie len povrchovo ale aj cez tlak, ktorý cítia na srdci, cez modriny na duši, cez myšlienky, ktoré ovlpyvňujú nasledujúce dni či hodiny, jednoducho všetky viny, či neviny, všetky kroky, ktoré bežne spravíš, či pobežíš skrz les plný pobreží…

strih!

nezmysel mať les plný pobreží. ním sa možno dobre beží vo vymyslených riadkoch tejto básne, ktorá aj tak pomaly hasne. no ty zažni svetlo svojho vnútra. ohrej okolie ba aj seba. aj keď nemáš rád blesky, a občas príde búrka vedz, že ty si svetlo, ktoré sa na ňu vrhne zhurta. len rozdaj kúsok seba a mysli na to, že ľúbim len a len teba.

[mukemmelhatalarim]

babam küçükken ne zaman bi şey olsa “tatlı bi şeyler ye şekerin düşmüştür, aç geziyorsun ondandır” derdi. şimdi de üstüne su odaklı sevgili geldi dkdkkfk benim hala ikisini de yapmıyor olmam dışında sıkıntı yok tabi dkdkdkdk

[saturnsringslandfill]

"we have been (and continue to be) dating him for more than seven months now"

I know.

"and from day one, you have thought that everything was for him to take advantage of you, or that he is doing it by forcing himself. hes aromatic and asexual, you remember that, right?"

Yeah.

"you are aware that this not only happens to you with him, but also with your closest friend"

Hmh.

"doesnt that make you feel ungrateful?"

Every day, yup.

Is there any purpose other than making me cry or wanting to cut myself for you to say all this?

"... is it working?"

Quite a bit, yeah.

"you know the only way you can shut me up is by self-harming yourself"

I've been knowing that for a couple of years, like everything you told me before asking that, so yeah.

"but you know i love reminding you and making you feel bad about it, so whats wrong whit it? or better yet, what can you do against it?"

Nothing.

"correct! gave a great rest of your evening"

Thank you.

...

"youre scared arent you"

Yes.

"about?"

You. About you begin right.

"but you know i am. im always right, thats why im here for! to give you bad thoughts to prevent the damage that a situation may cause you because, thanks to me, you already saw it coming!"

There are ways and ways to make me prevent events.

"¿?"

Thanks to you, I can't allow myself to think that my relationships will last. I can't allow myself to vent to someone even if they beg me to. I can't allow myself to be myself at all. I can't allow myself to feel any emotion except by not showing it, and feeling bad if I show it.

I have to force myself to be more mature, I have to force myself to pretend. I have to force myself to swallow my problems.

I have to be there for others, always, and feel horrible if I don't, because that's what you've forced me to believe. You've forced me to belive that that's the only thing I'm good at, and that if I fail at that, that there's really nothing salvable in me.

That I am a nuisance, that I only bother others. That "i should get away from everyone before i hurt them, because "we both know" it's going to happen one way or another".

You're making me want to skip classes, you're making me relapse into not eating, or vomiting after I do. Into self-harming, into skipping classes to do it. Into everything I thought I had left behind.

So yes, I hate you, I hate myself, for all this. And I hate it. I hate to think of others feeling like I don't trust them. I hate to think that, if I'm gone, nobody will ever remember me.

I hate to think. I hate the way you make me think.

I hate the way you make me think, feel and act.

"..."

And the worst thing is when they tell me that it's not like that, that they really love me and care about me, and I try so goddamn hard to believe them. But no. You come with your shitty thoughts to screw up my life because you have absolutely nothing better to do. Thanks man, thanks.

"um... youre welcome?"

...

I really don't feel like going to school tomorrow if I'm honest...

"fucking hell...

youre so weak"

And who am I to blame for that?

"me"

That's what I thought.

[errydaysleepy]

Indubitably 🧐

[hinda-leyla]

Even if every drop of water dried in all the oceans of our earth and every grain of sand blew away; it would still not amount to the love you give me.

Even if the world was rid of colour and the sky cried and thundered endlessly; it would still not compare to the coolness of your eyes.

Even if there were no words left to whisper and no wind moving through the trees; it would still not come close to the sweetness of your voice.

My calm through the storms.

My hope through the war.

My joy through the sun.

You are my perfect peace.

[applepixls]

watching tango, etho and skizz look for the redstone stashes tango left in ethos base is like when squirrels bury nuts and forget where they put them and years later there's a massive oak tree there. maybe ethos house'll start sprouting redstone trees

[qtubbo]

Tubbo suggests that he adopts Ramon so he can have create, I love Fit’s face of realization that yeah technically that would work, though why was his first thought marriage???

[sollux-captor]

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[hiraspit]

[freakinator]

Mapicc: "I realized it's people like me and FlameFrags... that are making Zam's experience so hard... even though he's the most peaceful player on the server."

Mapicc: "At the start of this video I doubted him but I think he's my only real friend on the server, even if he uses me for PvP skill."

[your-local-grinning-cat]

I made the mistake of pranking Time by setting all his clocks back by one minute and he got mad at meeeee…

Now he’s messed with all of my clocks - including my internal one - and I have no idea how Time is Timeing.

I have no idea what time it is or what time is going or where time is going or if I am in the right time or if time is moving forward or backward or side to side or if I am even in the correct time or if Time is messing with me even more and didn’t do anything but just messed with my clocks to make me think he did something and…

But then I got an ask that implied an event that I don’t think has happened in this time but could have happened in a future time but due to Time being petty maybe it happened in a past time and I am late to the current time and I am all out of my current time and I am going around the clock far faster than I would normally be allowed by Time but Time is having quite the laugh at my expense!

I SAID I WAS SORRY, TIME!!!! 😿

I ONLY MOVED YOUR CLOCKS BACK BY A MINUTE COME ON! IT WAS AN EASY FIX FOR YOU! YOU ARE LITERALLY TIME! WHY DO YOU EVEN HAVE CLOCKS?! THIS IS OVERREACTING A BIT, DON’T YOU THINK?!

😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

[ranboo5]

Is anyone online can we talk abt cTechno

[marvin-needs-love]

happy 69 followers y'all :))

[guccigarantine]

i have had all 49 episodes of partizan downloaded on my phone for a year