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little vent abt medical shit
hhhhhhh i’m so sick of not knowing my diagnosis. like. is it something that can be fixed? or is it a chronic illness? should i get a cane so i can minimize the pain and fatigue and stabilize myself when i’m lightheaded and nauseous? and help me get to the bathroom when i’m near bedridden? or can i just like. take a pill and oop it’s gone forever you’re better now. this same shit happened last year with the chronic appendicitis. that i didn’t know was appendicitis for the first 2 months. that doctors came up with tons of tests and possible diagnoses that were all negative until i was finally hospitalized. that the surgeon told me was impossible to remove until i got a competent surgeon 3 months later who took it out easy. i wish doctors were better and actually listened and could order the right tests the first time and insurance companies stop canceling tests without telling you because they think it’s not essential and the people conducting the tests actually gave a shit about getting conclusive results. aghhhhhhh. anyway next appointment is in a week and i’m going to stop minimizing how much this is affecting me.
#yea i probablly have ME/chronic fatigue#but i have no ideas#i though the appendicitis was a million different things before finally figuring it out#although tbf no one could diagnose that until i got exploratory surgery#...hopefully it doesn't come to that#im sure it wont#anyway#ack#medical trauma#vent#ask to tag
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ITS HERE!!! Animation VS Scifi (AvSF) AU is ready!! I'm kinda bad with Scifi stuff so pls bear with me 😭🙏
Next part I will prolly be drawing out Alan, and the rest of the hollowdroids. Maybe even the mercenaries too! If I didn't get too distracted wkdnjs
#alan becker#animation vs animator#animation vs minecraft#ava#avm#Animation VS Scifi AU#Im always nervous when it comes to making AUs cause I always lose motivation so easily svdntn#hopefully it doesn't happened soon with this one#although. I do resonate with this AU a lot..
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so in the book of bill there's a part where he gets a bunch of old ladies to make like, precious moments-style figurines of him called The Tri Angels Collection by PudgyLilDarlins, and I was immediately super amused and charmed by this one --

which I was then Compelled to recreate, out of model magic

#CLAY IS NOT LIKE. A MEDIUM I'M EXCEPTIONAL AT??????? BUT IT WAS JUST SHAPES!!!!!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW IT CAME TOGETHER. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT#HE'S SO FUCKING CUTE WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#gonna wait for him to dry and then paint him and hopefully he comes out okay!!#oh damn i meant to make his other arm doing something silly for the back but i forgot bc i put his front arm#and was IMMEDIATELY SO FUCKING THRILLED#the toothpick is so his legs dont stick to him. there's another propping him up in the back so he doesn't lean while drying#you know what i'm proud of him he's going in the tags. even unpainted#the book of bill#book of bill#gravity falls
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I've said this before but valjean's view of the bishop throughout the book gets me so bad because like. he knew him for what, a day maybe? and it absolutely had a vast & profound & positive impact on him. but then he goes on to spend the whole book comparing himself to his idealized vision of the bishop & finding himself wanting & feeling guilty and miserable about every petty or selfish thought that crosses his mind. but it's so fucked up because like we as the readers know the bishop better! we've read the whole first book and we know he came from a privileged & wealthy background, that he was a rake when he was young, it wasn't til he was in his 40s or 50s to have some sort of change of heart & become a priest (a similar age to valjean when he met him!), that he has moments that seriously shake him, that he has some dubious politics left over, that he still has moments of pettiness he has to work through on the page (his initial approach to the member of the convention, e.g.). and also he's just kind of a weird old guy (affectionate). and like this is not to criticize the bishop, I think he's a genuinely really good guy, just that while the bishop has a realistic view of himself & his past ("he described himself with a smile, an ex-sinner,"), valjean is not getting any of this except maybe like. what would be mentioned in the newspaper when the bishop died. so his whole view of him is of this one shining moment where he changed his life and he feels he doesn't live up to that. which is sad! because the bishop understood him more than he realized & wouldn't have wanted him to feel that way
#haven't edited this post so hopefully it makes sense#there is also something to be said for the other way that i think valjean comparing himself to the bishop unfavorably is unfair because#like the bishop is very much coming from a place of privilege & respect & authority not just in his background but in his current position#which is not to devalue any of his truly good work ofc!! but just that in many ways it's Easier to be good & charitable & humble & kind etc#if you're coming from a place of security y'know? <- and this is something the narrative of the book gets even if jvj doesn't#thoughts#les mis#anyways this is one of the reasons why the bishop sections are important & any abridgement would make the text poorer
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BEHOLD!!!
THE ENTIRETY OF HOOK, LAMB, AND SINKER ON A DA STAMP!!
#cotl#cult of the lamb#cult of the lamb lamb#cotl lamb#cult of the goat#cult of the lamb goat#cotl goat#cotl hook lamb and sinker#cult of the lamb gif#cotl gif#gif#stamps#web graphics#da stamps#deviantart stamps#f2u#I love stamps that are just the entirety of something shoved into the stamp. I think its hilarious#and Ive been making stamps to put on my Pixel cats end profile so I thought why not#If anyone wants me to make more cotl stamps let me know#anyway hopefully massive monster doesn't come for me. Please Its a stamp. Please its so tiny
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I don't generally hang out in the Dr. Ratio tags, so I'm not sure if this is common knowledge or not, but it tickles me every time I remember it;
did you guys know Dr. Ratio actually had an in-game cameo before his big debut in 1.6's The Crown of the Mundane and Divine? He was actually in the 1.5 update, The Crepuscule Zone aka Fyxestroll Garden Event!
So in 1.6, we get to actually meet Ratio face-to-face partway through. But even before that, we unknowingly talk to him through text messages in the researchers' group chat.
We know that this is Ratio's username, because we have his achievement:
And in 1.5, we have just one (1) single instance of this same username on the message boards...
Dude's been trolling since before he even showed his face BSKZJDMSKMSNDN
#honkai star rail#dr. ratio#veritas ratio#hsr#hsr dr ratio#hsr ratio#hsr veritas#I can't believe his first appearance ingame is him coming in to well actually a dude#this fuckin guy JFAKLJDKLASJFDLK#tbh I only caught this because I played the updates out of order. I did 1.6 before 1.5 so I already knew Ratio's screen name.#between this and him just going 'k' and leaving the group chat in 2.3 he's a lot funnier than he's given credit for fjajfjflkasj#the VERY IMPORTANT group chat that was established to LOOK FOR A DEADLY BOMB might I add#he doesn't even have a special icon in Fyxestroll like most of the other cameos dude really just did not want to bother jfldjsal#anyway hopefully this isn't SUPER common knowledge and I'm not just embarrassing myself online lol
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THE MUSKETEERS 10TH ANNIVERSARY REWATCH / fave episodes [2/?] ↳ SEASON 1, EPISODE 4 / the good soldier
#themusketeersedit#the musketeers#perioddramaedit#perioddramasource#the musketeers bbc#aramis#tmrewatch*#edits#i'm having so much fun rediscovering my lost love for textures#this doesn't even make any sense it's all over the place#but it's bringing me such peace of mind that i'm going with the flow honestly#hopefully someone else will like it too ♥#i couldn't skip this one#the angst was too delicious! the acting too life changing!#marsac was a mess but his scene with aramis were really something else#and i also loveeeeeeeeee how we're starting to see all their little dynamics coming into play#d'artagnan being a little shit <3 porthos being protective of said little shit <3 athos being an absolute menace with just three words <3#and aramis being unhinged obviously#my fave
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my favourite posts from 2023
#decided by what was most fun to work on#feeling a little bit miserable tonight but would it really be new year's if i wasn't dreading the year coming#happy new years anyways#it's only 11pm here so it's not quite the new year yet#lets hope 2024's a bit easier 🤞#i'm really happy with the renders i did this year#even though there was only like... 4 of them...#in 2024 i want to make more :)#my semester 2 timetable is sadly shitty so i won't have that much time until around may#i am quite buzzed rn i hope this doesn't look horrific#goodnigth#also i bought for rent :) hopefully i'll have gameplay coming soon if i can get my lazy ass to decorate the houses
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I guess the resistance to adopting labels is like . After being fucked up for 20 years I'm not going to feel welcomed/comfortable in any kind of fandom/subculture/whatever regardless so it doesn't really matter- since I don't stand to gain any type of community from adopting a label
#-just realized earlier like. hopefully the way i mentioned not caring about labels doesn't come off as like-#dissing people who *do* as childish or whatever- because I do understand why they're important to other people#just PERSONALLY . i don't care
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Just when I said I was disappointed there were no updates about Meet You At the Blossom, I see that they wrapped filming. The cast posted wrap videos and the production company posted this:
Oh my. 😳 This is super gay by mainland bl standards. Stay With Me pushed the boundaries with their dialogue and innuendo, but even they didn't go this far with physical contact. Will I have to eat my words about there being no kissing? I certainly hope so, but I'm still going to be pessimistic so I don't end up disappointed.


I'm not mad about the 2nd cp either. 🤭 Source: Big SuperStar's tw
#hoping this series can come out in a month or two#this series is short and doesn't have to pass review so hopefully post production takes at most two months#meet you at the blossom#cdrama#cbl
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'i'm going.' 'where?' 'to meet Zorawar, where else?' — ep 2 - the challenger returns | heeramandi, 2024, dir. sanjay leela bhansali.
#tv: heeramandi#heeramandi#richa chadha#richachadhaedit#bollywood#bollywood2#bollywoodedit#bollywoodgifs#asiancentral#asiansincinema#dailybollywoodqueens#southasiansource#smudgedhenna#iheartmastani#baawri#weheartbollywood#dailyworldcinema#hindi cinema#userdivides#dailyflicks#cinematicsource#cinematv#dailytvfilmgifs#tvandfilm#sanjay leela bhansali#local gay watches Bollywood.txt#local gay watches Heeramandi (and hopefully comes out intact).txt#first set down!!!!!!!! was actually going to work on the Fareedan bi set but uh. file got corrupted had to redownload took all day so.#if Tumblr eats the quality AND coloring for these i'll throw something. treat Richa with respect tyvm#also she should be dressing up to see me like that sorry. f*ck Zorawar he doesn't deserve her
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How are you so articulate ? Asking as someone who desperately wants to be more articulate . Yes I do read books
Treat it like vocabulary is going out of style. Read a book and find a word you've never heard in conversation before, sometime so specific or stuffy nobody bothers with it anymore. Take it. Write it down, stick it in a post-it note on your wall. Never let go of it. It's yours now. The ultra-specifics may be hard to use, but they're evocative—The chances you get to use them are worth it!
Act like being misunderstood is the worst thing that could ever happen to you. This seems to often be a common skill for people with ADHD (which I'll admit I have been told I have a severe case of), but that doesn't mean it's a neurosis worth gatekeeping. You can overexplain yourself with quantity or with quality, often even both. Quality is where your steel trap of words come in: There's always a better way to say something, and you can and will find it.
As for more in-depth things, I'd say it's always worth a shot to look into whatever resources are available to you about rhetoric and rhetorical devices (yes, up to and including all of the ones that are just greek prefixes and suffixes stuck together. they're all quite lovely).
Hammering it over your head that you have to read classics specifically feels like old news, so I'll say that while it's nothing you have to do right now, those tend to be chock-full of the great words and great phrases, and after you've developed your hunger to a certain point you're probably going to want to seek them out anyways. —But by no means are you limited to just Shakespeare or whatever other things they never assigned you in high school! Tailor what you look for to your own tastes!Plus, there's a million more authors out there, Brazilian and Japanese and Vietnamese and Iranian, etc. I'd say Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison is totally worth checking out if you can, and I'll get back to you once I've read enough Álvares de Azevedo to recommend things lol!!!
Anyway, tl;dr is: Vocabulary is both a treasure you collect and a muscle you flex. I think the most important part might just be the exercise and practice. You can even do this by writing! Stick it in a google doc nobody but you has to see and just write bullshit and write bullshit and read between sessions of writing bullshit and then edit your bullshit and then write more... and eventually you'll start to get a better sense of what you want and your writing and speaking will reflect that.
#i'll admit i've been like this since forever. youngest contestant in spelling bees and what have you#but to focus on that would be to imply this is a 'nature not nuture' thing and i don't believe that at all#hopefully this advice is sound! hopefully it doesn't just come off as 'read more' lol#wissym answers
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Rewatching Gravity Falls for the who-knows-what thousandth time and I. I have. A thought.
The website that alluded to (not confirmed, as far as I know) of a season three. And this is a big deal.
Since it's pretty much a given that if this does end up happening, Bill WILL be a part of it and they'll need some way to stop him. So I figured, since Mabel destroyed the memory eraser and Bill would probably not have fallen for the same thing twice anyway, the obvious choice is the zodiac wheel again.
BUT.
What if instead of it all being the same person in the same spot as they were in the finale, why not have their positions switched around a bit. The obvious examples being Wendy as pine tree since she and Dipper swapped hats and Soos since he took over as owner of the Mystery Shack and also Stan's iconic hat. I *may* try to plot out who would go where and share the rest of that stuff on here, but I think this idea would work really well when you contextualize it with the concept that even though time has passed and people have grown and changed and are no longer the same as they once were, they're still just as strong and still care for each other and their bond will never be broken.
Much like the people who loved this show.
#gravity falls#season 3?#the book of bill#gravity falls zodiac#this concept drove me insane btw#gravity falls stanford#stanford pines#stanley pines#dipper pines#gravity falls dipper#dipper and mabel#mabel pines#wendy corduroy#soos ramirez#i got into the show relatively late back in like#2018 maybe???#and even though i was only the twin's age then i was still going through Some Shit™ and this was my comfort show for so long. still is.#so the fact i get to see it (hopefully) come back like this means so much to me.#even if it doesn't end up happening im still so glad to see the fandom thriving again like this. i love it. i live for it :)#i love you all sm mwa#wouldn't surprise me if that was already the plan tbh. it is an incredibly detail oriented show with a lot of emotional depth.#stay curious.
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Predictions for Tomorrow's Flash Page Upd8
Commander Karkat is dead or gonna die
Hell Chamber Vriska won't show up at all
Parody of [s] Game Over with lots of deaths at the hands of Jane Crocker's laser beam of death
Kanaya is given blood transfusions of a bunch of dead and alive trolls to revive her.
Meenah's life ring is stolen or destroyed (maybe she gets killed after or runs away idk)
Toby Fox collab with James Roach on the music and/or sounds
Toby Fox music (because nostalgia and he did say he was working on "some things" he didn't disclose)
Rose doesn't die like she had predicted and has an existential crisis about a lot of things & instead is the one leaning over Kanaya's corpse
Satyr's design reveal at the very end or just a reveal of one of them.
Vrissy in Sburb game session with gear and/or god tier'd.
June's corpse reveal
Dave's corpse reveal from Jade's wallet
Davebot and Aradia cameo
Sollux gets the fuck out of the gaming room to see wtf is happening
Deltritus civilization time-lapse
Karkat survives and sees Dave's body :(
EDIT: TODAY'S UPD8, GUESS I'M NOT SLEEPING YET
#just throwing darts at a board#no time to make a big elaborate prediction post this time with images and evidence#let's see what sticks and what doesn't#Sollux cameo hopefully??? idk there's so much that could happen or maybe it'll just be a deltritus time lapse#im scared for Karkat Meenah and Kanaya as well as Rose#wait but wouldn't it be tragic if Karkat survives only to see Dave's body come out of Jade's wallet?#I think the only Vriska we will see is Vrissy if even her because yeah#satyr is probably gonna get revealed or one of the designs like gavageCunctation#i just had to ramble in the tags to get this to show up in the search results but it made me realize some points i added on to the post lol#I don't think it impossible that Toby Fox will contribute to the music especially given the recent updates and parallels to other parts#mine#op#homestuck beyond canon#homestuck: beyond canon#homestuck#homestuck upd8#homestuck spoilers#beyond canon flash page#hsbc
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What does robbie sound like? do you have a voiceclaim for him?
Tbh? I don't really have much of a voice claim for him-
Iv thought about it for a long while, and the closest iv fuggin got was "jacksepticeye" and fuggin Danny DeVito (specifically the one dialog of him saying "I'M THE TRASH MAN" and "Can I offer you an egg in this tryin' time?") LMAOOO I'm not very good at voice claims you see (Iv gotten an ask once saying Mob Rob looks like he'd sound like fuggin Corpse Husband- if I had a nickel for every time I had someone say one of my characters would sound like corpse I'd have two nickels- which isn't alot- but weird that it happened twice-)
Also speaking of Robbie, here's the bot iv been working on randomly whenever I felt like it LMAO
#Wasn't gunna post the link today but my power went out so I'm bored smhhh#I'm fine it will come back in like- two hours hopefully HDHDJDN#I just hope it doesn't get too hot in the house smhh#Robbie robs
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you can make the argument that not every single scene in a fictional work has to have a Point, and i would agree
however i can't think of many such scenes in aftg (maybe because it's in neil's pov)
and even then i just think that andrew choking kevin should be considered pretty significant
due to kevin's situation he was andrew's priority for most of the year
andrew patted him down to check for injuries
andrew punched matt for punching kevin, twice
andrew drugged neil because he didn't trust how neil looked at kevin
andrew did hurt kevin once previously, during trk when kevin shoved him into the lockers
the difference being:
this suggests kevin isn't worried that andrew will seriously hurt him (shoutout to matt for getting ready to interfere if a fight broke out :'D)
whereas post-choking we get this:
this suggests he thinks andrew would do it again or something in that vein
and yet apart from this it doesn't appear to change their relationship
do you see my problem
#my posts#my aftg posts#aftg#all for the game#kevin day#the foxhole court#the sunshine court#im not vaguing or anything i just wanted to say this bc i keep saying that i don't see the point of that scene#and i just can't come up with a good explanation as to why its like that#i mean you could say they maybe talked about it or smth but andrew doesn't seem particularly apologetic#like i said. he keeps putting neil over kevin post-baltimore and it just feels like pouring salt on the wound#but also matt was ready to intervene ON KEVIN'S BEHALF :'))))))#hopefully i won't make more posts about this
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