#....you know what i'll maintag this one

[snarky-wallflower]

okay, you know what? there are exactly three people interested in this and that's enough for me to ramble a little bit. fair warning, i never got much into the actual DEH musical, but i know the basic plot and characters. I'm working off of that.

we open on Samullux standing in the dark. he looks around in confusion. Slowly, one by one, the stars appear, and it should warm his heart--but we see unease on his face instead. It quickly shifts to shock, though as we see that through their light, he can see Rose.

She's standing near their old home, the place they once wrote stories about her Visions, stories about the future--but it's empty of the light it once had, dead and cold.

She turns to look at her brother. There's no joy there, no excitement. Just a tired sort of anger, looking at him across of the remains of their home.

And Rose snaps--Is it good?/Are they giving you a world I could never provide?/Well, I hope you're proud of your big decision/Yeah, I hope it's all that you want and more/Now you're free from the agonizing life you were living before!

To me, she fufills a familial role--the desire to protect her brother, and she couldn't stop him from making the wrong choice. Rose has the weight of that responsibility--her visions have only warned of terrible things to come, and Itzal promised Samuel a bright future, instead.

Samuel stumbles forward, trying to reach Rose, to explain--but then we cut to Margaret, illuminated in moonlight. She's to the right of Samuel. In my head, she has the energy she had at the end of Benjamin's Apartment/The Radiance, right now. She cooly says Does it cross your mind to be slightly sorry?/Do you even care that you might be wrong?/Was it fun?/Well, I hope you had a blast while you dragged me along.

I've been seeing Samuel and Margaret as partners in this AU--and given that she was the Great Enchantress, I'm running with the assumption she was once complicit in Itzal's regime. But Margaret left. She got out, and is working to be better. Samuel isn't, and they both know that. She won't allow herself to be dragged along anymore.

We see Samuel mouth, Margaret, please--

But it makes no difference. It just keeps on going.

Fom to the left of Samuel, close to Margaret--we hear Dakkar's voice. It is just as angry as the rest of them. I promise this makes sense with the lore I have in my head--his inventions are a major part of the way Itzal has been able to advance Chazira in this AU. Samuel's pen is no exception--Dakkar created it himself, to expand and strengthen Samuel's own powers. And if somebody's in your way/Crush them and leave them behind/Well I guess if I'm not of use/Go ahead, you can cut me loose! Dakkar has been useful to Samuel, and we see him glaring down as he advances, a cool sort of rage I think that man could excel at. (Plus, I think cut me loose works exceptionally well in other areas, given that Dakkar was the one sent to Earth here!)

Margaret and Dakkar exchange a look, determined and hard, right before they come together to walk towards the man who has caused them so much pain. there's a shot of the tide siblings advancing on Samuel, him backing up--and he bumps into Rose before he can stop himself. He turns to see her looking at him with disappointment and frustration, hands flying up in anger--

I'll shut my mouth and I'll let you go/Is that good for you?

Samuel shakes his head, trying to tell her no. but she keeps on going, joined by Margaret and Dakkar's voices. It's a gorgeous, pained chorus, and it is making Samuel utterly horrified and miserable.

The Piercing Light crackles and burns in Samuel's palms, as he grips tight to his pen--unable to stop them from advancing, horror clearly in his eyes, and he's desperately trying to get them to stop--All I need is some time to think/But the boat is about to sink/Can't erase what I wrote in ink/Tell me, how could you change the story?/ All the words that I can't take back/Like a train coming off the track/Stop it, stop it, just let me out! But no matter what he says, they won't listen, even as his eyes go wider and wider, even as his voice cracks.

Those he has lost because of what he's done are walking across the ruins of a home he helped to destroy, trying to make sure he sees all of what's become of what he once had. And just as they're inches away, tears in their eyes, Radiance burning far-too-close, regret and devastation and anger written all across their faces--

Samuel wakes up.

It's all been a dream--a nightmare, really.

There is no one there beside him that can sympathize with him. Who would help him through it. There hasn't been for a long, long time.

There's a beat, a breath of silence as we see him try to recover. Alone.

The animatic ends with his hands clutching at his sheets, and a shot of a shaky smile in the dark.

(even now, he won't accept just how deeply he's hurt the people he cares for. not only to himself. the love is there, it will always be there--but it will never change anything, so long as he refuses to accept his wrongs. and to me, this version of Samuel is never going to do that.)

anyways.

can you tell i think about this a lot?

Samullux animatic to Good For You, you will never exist outside of my brain but know that I think of you often and love you dearly.

[babacontainsmultitudes]

📕:3c

:D Hi!!!

Man okay so in early S2 I had this like whole anthology that I never actually wrote (in my head I always refer to it as the "Son of a Dad" series loool) that basically follows the kiddads between the events of S1 and S2, particularly as they relate to dealing with the doodler.

Among those is a more Sparrow/Nicky-centric one (could be read as platonic for sure tho it was kind of intended to be ambiguous), when both of them are quite young and Hero is the only one of the children to have been born yet. :3 Basically, Nicky is like "damn Sparrow is taking care of a baby when he should be at the club", goes to uh wherever Sparrow and Rebecca and Lark woulda been living at the time (undecided on that), throws rocks at Sparrow's window until he opens it like in the movies, and (oh it's nighttime btw lol Rebecca and Hero are fast asleep already) is like ">:] Come to the club with me Sparrow let's go dance" and well it takes some convincing but eventually Sparrow agrees and sneaks out the window to get crunk with Nicky haha.

So they do that, and MEANWHILE some doodler-related shenanigans is afoot, and the rest of the kiddads are freaking out cause they can't reach Sparrow or Nick (cut to them just having a blast). Back at the club, a drunken Sparrow eventually spills the beans that Rebecca is pregnant again, *and* that he's pretty sure Hero is technically Lark's. Oh SO in this version of the timeline Nicky and Lark actually had a brief fling years before this story takes place, and when Nicky learns this from Sparrow he does the math and realizes that this means Lark cheated on *him* (importantly, Nicky isn't correct about this, but that would be explored in a different fic in the series lol) and so. Well he doesn't say this to Sparrow, but when they regroup with the gang by the end of the fic (eventually doodler-related stuff starts to happen *at* the club, so the other kiddads wind up there anyways), Nicky gives Lark a punch right in the nose before storming off! Afterwards on the way home Lark asks Sparrow if he has any idea what that was about, Sparrow has no clue, and Lark concludes that he "probably did something to deserve it".

*Otherwise* (also near the end of the fic, when all the doodler stuff has been dealt with), Sparrow says to Grant that this might be the only night of his life since the forgotten realms that he's felt normal, even if it was just for a little while, and that he looks forward to when the world is fixed and his kid(s) get to have nights like this, in response to which Grant looks Sparrow dead in the eyes and tells him that things are never going to be normal again, ever (Grant definitely means well here but it kind of shocks the whimsy straight out of Sparrow haha). AND THAT'S WHEN SPARROW COMES UP WITH A NAME FOR NORMAL mhm as a wish, and kind of to spite Grant lol. I can't quite remember what I wanted to title this one, but I know it had "normal" somewhere in the name!

[Send me a 📓 and I'll tell you the plot of a fanfic I haven't written but daydream about!]

[autistic-shaiapouf]

How the hell does ultrakill have so many wifeable characters

[honeyhonest]

HELLO wee woo I had Internet struggles for two weeks and now I have hundreds of notifications from my tumblr subscriptions, I'm scared of social medias

Anyway, completely irrelevant now but do you remember when you asked for twst alcohol headcanons two weeks ago?? So one of my hobbies is making quick and messy doodles of Lilia doing whatever Lilia does, and just telling you about my gnome mead and braggot ideas wasn't enough, sooo here you go? Bad photo of an unseelie fae burrow pub artistic rendition I did two mondays ago (I had another with a drunk Lilia on a table but I lost it..)

Hopefully one day I'll get the time to do an actual sketch and think of what I wanna do instead of marker-vomiting in less than an hour; in the meantime here's something I think could have happened during malleus' childhood - Lilia hanging out with small faes and enjoying ginormous mugs of beer/mead. (He'd mostly gossip with bog hags or get shitfaced with or without a goblin party, and if tipsy enough he'll go butt heads with grouchy reactionaries)

Like, in my head this gnome has very politically incorrect opinions about the peace treaty

Also huh please look at my drunk pixies

OKAY I'M DONE OVERSHARING I had to get it out of my head, feel free to ignore it I'd understand

Ah and happy valentine's day with your crow schrödinger dilf! ('cause, you know, a dilf has to be a dad and there's the ravern theory)

are you like a magical forest elf or something. HELLO. considering maintagging this because it's so good. HELLOOO. I'm especially enamored with the creature designs here, as a fairytale/folklore enthusiast this is really beautiful... I LOVE the drunk pixies. oh the whimsy... I have a hard time expressing my feelings well but I very much like this a lot and would be pleased + honored to see more drawings in the future !!

[spark-circuit]

hey. so. holy fuck??????

hm. genuinely didn't think i'd be watching the collapse of the United States of America in my lifetime, but hey.

[revvethasmythh]

sorry, i'm new to the fandom but i instantly fell in love with widobrave….. is the ship really that unpopular?

well first, hello, and welcome to the fandom!! (both cr and widobrave!)

second, i think it's actually difficult for me to track how popular/unpopular widobrave is right now in the fandom, and i only started shipping it in 2020 so I can't give a full historical perspective on what the shipping scene looked like at the beginning besides what i've heard (people thought nott was a child at the very beginning of the show, then it turned into "nott is caleb's mom!" after that, and i'll exempt some further details in case you don't want any potential spoilers since you're new and I don't know how much you know, but those two things did a lot to make the ship....undesirable to the masses, shall we say). from my own perspective, I remember going into the ship and feeling like it was fairly fringe back in 2020 (and it was). small group of people, usually exclusively nott stans, were like the only people you'd see shipping it and a lot of people reacted negatively to the idea of the ship. there was an undercurrent that it was bad because some found it "incestuous" due to feeling like nott was caleb's mother (a thing that it not true in either the literal or metaphorical capacity!) and this has been the most persistent pushback against the ship that i am aware of. generally, back in the day, there was a sense that nott couldn't seriously be shipped with anyone, but especially not someone she thought of as "her kid," much as that's simply a popularly proliferated misunderstanding of ONE scene in the entire show.

the current state of widobrave affairs? i honestly don't know. it's certainly still a very small ship, but there's been a LOT of lightening up about it in the years since the campaign ended. i've seen a lot more neutral-positive opinions toward it, whereas in years past...i mean, i've been blocked just for shipping it. i've seen more than one "do NOT tag this as widobrave" statement on art pieces, like...it was considered FRINGE once upon a time. but i feel like it's stopped being fringe and is now just...small? again, it's usually exclusively nott stans that ship it, so already not a big pool of people just based on that. it's certainly not mainsteam or anything, but i certainly feel more comfortable maintagging my widobrave posts these days than i used to. i think a lot of people just don't want to look at the relationship in a romantic light, despite the fact that in most circumstances their initial setup would have been a HUGE jumping off point for shipping (just look at the immediacy of imogen/laudna shipping, who share practically the same backstory/relationship setup), and generally prefer the other, bigger ships in the fandom. it would probably take a dissertation's worth of explanation to dig into all the reasons why that is, but that is generally where the ship sits in the fandom.

if anyone has more insight on the history of the ship's fandom reception/current reception, i'd love to hear it since it missed out on those founding years! and again, a hearty to welcome to the fandom! it's always nice to see an new widobraver around

[fogwitchoftheevermore]

Yes! The ways the mechs and mcyt handle narrative have always been so similar to me but I've never been able to put it onto words. Would Love to hear what you have to say on the topic (after you have had a good sleep)

HI, it's time for me to get insane. Thank you for sending this ask cause now I have an excuse to maintag the post, lol. Also, I'm going to be using the term MCYT interchangeably with MCRP (Minecraft roleplay) for my own sanity. You'll know what I mean from context clues, I think.

So, hi, anyone who doesn't know about The Mechanisms. This post is going to be about some meta analysis tools that popped up in the Mechs fandom when it exploded in popularity back in 2020-2021. Due to the nature of both the Mechs and MCYT (which I'll get into in a moment), these concepts are generally very helpful for meta analysis of MCYT as well, and I think you guys would love them.

First of all, what was The Mechanisms?

The Mechanisms, originally known as Dr. Carmilla and The Mechanisms, was a band that formed in the late 2000s. It had a rotating cast of members, though most of the stuff you can easily find from them (such as their albums) was made when they had 8-9 consistent members. The Mechanisms officially released seven albums and one single before the band broke up in early 2020. The reason this band is similar at all to MCYT comes from a few things- the characters the band played, the stories the band told, and the archival aspect/age.

Because the Mechs were not a regular band, it was also a storytelling experience. Each Mechs album tells it's own self contained story (except for the Tales to be Told albums, which feature songs with their own stories that don't tie into the album at large). But furthermore, each Mechanism is a character. All the members of the band had characters they played, acting as a band of immortal space pirates moving through the galaxy on their ship, The Aurora.

The similarity to MCYT here is, of course, the characters. It's not always as simple to tell the difference between MCYT characters and actors as it was with The Mechanisms, seeing as (a lot of) MCYT doesn't start with the acting/roleplaying intention that the Mechs started with. But nonetheless, they share the understanding that even though this isn't a play or a TV show or whatever scripted medium, and that even though these characters (sometimes) share similar/the same names as their creators, they are, ultimately, characters the creators are putting on in order to tell a story. Whether that story is something more connected to the base characters (less roleplay heavy servers, Mechs backstory beats) or a story where the characters themselves are filling a role to tell a new story (more roleplay heavy servers, Mechs filling in for characters on the albums to tell their stories), there is always a story to be told.

There is also, as I said, the archival aspect. Archiving is massively important to both The Mechanisms and MCYT. It's definitely a lot harder with the Mechs than with most MCYT stuff, since the Mechs are a whole lot nicher, but that is not to say it's easy for either group. Archiving is vital to keeping both fanbases, and both sets of characters, alive, and there is only so much archiving you can rely on the creators of either to do. Those of you who take this task on are genuinely so awesome and I love you.

Alongside the archiving aspect (and as such, the lost media aspect), there's also the age of the Mechanisms, and (similarly to MCYT), the large number of people involved in the project, which results in lost and oftentimes conflicting canon beats. Mechs lore was not a strict, planned out thing. Large swaths of it were made up on the fly or forgotten down the line and rewritten or just made to work because the story needed it. As such, a lot of Mechanisms meta analysis had to reckon with the fact that the story was often telling you two or three or more things that could not be true at once nonetheless were, or was telling you something with the assumption that you knew something else, but that something else is now impossible to track down. So, sometimes, you just had to pick and choose, or try to reconstruct that lost knowledge. Similarly, varying POVs and gaps in time or gaps in story result in a similar concept for MCYT analysis- sometimes it doesn't really work if you take every piece of lore into account, so you just can't, even though every piece of lore is equally canon; or sometimes, a specific source is lost and you have to trust the memory of people who saw or were involved in the source instead.

Now, what is narratomancy? And how is it relevant to meta analysis of MCYT?

Narratomancy is the name for a few concepts of meta analysis that popped up when the Mechs fandom exploded in 2020-2021. The term was coined by @lucky-sevens (who, unlike anyone else I bring up in this post, I feel comfortable tagging because they're inactive, lol, so this won't clog their notifs), but the credit for various concepts under the umbrella of narratomancy can go to a ton of people. Personally, I'm going to be heavily referencing one post in particular by @/gunpowderedtim when it comes to the four main pillars of narratomancy, and how they are relevant here. (BTW I know OP of that post has shifted at least a bit to the MCYT fandom as well, so if you see this and would like me to tag you properly, please let me know!)

(EDIT: I was informed in the replies that lucky-sevens did not, in fact, coin this phrase, but they can't remember who specifically did. Alas another Mechs thing lost to time.)

Narratomancy refers to the general concept of the narrative as a thing within the Mechs universe. The narrative, a story that wants to be told, is an (at least semi) sentient creature that is bending the universe to its will in order to be told. This living narrative helps to explain and work through some of the problems or plot holes in the narrative, and understanding this helps a lot for meta analysis, or even just understanding the story. As stated above, I'm going to be breaking down four main pillars that the post above identified, and how they may be relevant to MCYT meta analysis. Not all of them are going to work- these were concepts made up for The Mechanisms, after all, and for all their similarities, it's not a perfect 1 to 1. Let's get into it!

Pillar 1: Universal Story

This is a pillar that has one really important and relevant concept, but I do have to bend a bit of it in order to make it work. Namely, what we're calling "the universe" here. But it's still quite important. You'll see.

As mentioned up top, The Mechanisms were originally called Dr. Carmilla and The Mechanisms. Dr. Carmilla (both the character and the creator) eventually left the Mechs to do her own thing, tell her own story, but the story of the universe at large is still hers. She's still got her name in the title, she's still the one who created the original lore, so to the universe, she's still the main character. She might not be the main character of any given story, even any given story she participates in, but it's all her universe in the end. As such, both her stories and the stories of The Mechanisms are canon, but they might not be strictly canon to each other. Because ultimately, The Mechanisms were the universe's vessel for telling stories, and sometimes the stories they told made for a weird concoction of conflicting canon, so you just had to accept that these conflicting canon beats were both canon, but which one was canon depended entirely on which story you were looking at, which one was trying to be told, who that story specifically was about (this is a concept that'll come up again later).

The reason this is a bit less relevant to MCYT in that, if a roleplay server is being well run, you (hopefully) won't have a main character in this way. And even if you do, that main character is not always going to be the creator of the server/universe, ala Carmilla. But again, it's not irrelevant, because I think this can be applied when you're looking at individual POVs of any given event or server.

Every character is the main character of their own POV, even if they might not be the main character of any given story beat or event. They have their own lore and story to tell in that POV, and when you sit down to watch their POV that is the story you'll get. It just so happens that said story might have things that are canon to it that are not canon to other POVs, that cannot be canon to other POVs, and you as the fan have to reckon with that. Sometimes these things might be small or not something that's gonna really throw you, like the conflicting Magic Mountain lore in this season of Hermitcraft. Other times, these might be really big things, like Martyn's Watcher lore in the Life Series.

But either way, while the idea that there is a Universal Story that has a clear main character doesn't really apply to servers, it certainly ties in to the idea of POVs. And furthermore, the "all of these stories are canon, but not strictly canon to each other" idea that comes along with Universal Story is a really vital thing to keep in mind when it comes to MCYT.

Pillar 2: Casting Call (Narrative Role Filling)

There are two main parts to Casting Call. The first is that The Mechanisms have a role in the stories they tell, even the stories that are not their own, like the album ones. These roles are often trope heavy, or based on pre-existing characters that the Mechanisms themselves have similarities too. The second is that the Mechanisms slot into these roles not necessarily because they want to, but because they have to in order to make the story work. Because the narrative wants them to help the story along to the ending.

This is definitely more relevant in roleplay heavy servers, but it still comes up on just about every server out there. While for the Mechanisms, the divide is between "the character I am" vs. "the character I am playing so the story gets told", the divide for MCYT tends to be a bit more "the person I am" vs. "the character I am playing so the story gets told". This divide (and people's inability to understand it) is the reason why MCYTs so often have to give the "Remember, we're all friends in real life and anything that the others weren't comfortable with wouldn't be in the videos" disclaimer. Everyone involved in this story is playing a character to move the story along, and that character may be totally removed from their real life person (such as Scott playing Xornoth in ESMP s1) or pretty similar to their real life person, but dialed up so they can tell a story, get a reaction (I don't know any of these people in real life, so I can't confidently pin someone down for this, but you get what I'm talking about).

Regardless, there is a story to be told, even if that story isn't thought out in advance, and that requires people playing the villain or the damsel in distress or the knight in shining armor sometimes in order to get it done. And, tying back into Universal Story, who is playing which of these roles can change as the canon of each POV changes (such as in Third Life, where who is filling the "villain" role depends entirely on which POV you're watching).

Pillar 3: Story Echoes

Story Echoes are a very Mechanisms based concept, because unlike everything else here, they are explicitly canon. This concept refers to the fact that The Mechanisms' stories "echo" throughout the universe, or repeat over and over again. It's in different places and different times, but these stories are out there, over and over again.

This one can apply to MCYT, but I have to admit, it's a stretch and a half. Ultimately, the way this applies here is in the fact that there's no such thing as an original story. Every story borrows from or is inspired by or is similar to another story out there. It's the nature of story telling. The first example for MCYT that comes to mind is fan Life Series, stories that take the mechanics of the Life Series but put them somewhere else, somewhen else, with someone else. However, Story Echoes are explicitly the same story repeating over and over again, which isn't really the case with this example. As I said, it's a stretch, but I didn't want to skip over this pillar entirely.

Pillar 4: Narrative Imperative

And the final pillar, Narrative Imperative, also referred to as Narrative Flow. Despite this one also being explicitly canon to The Mechanisms, it is also very relevant to MCYT, and in my opinion, the most important concept on this list for MCYT meta.

Narrative Imperative is explicitly canon in the Mechs universe when it comes to how The Mechanisms heal from injuries or death. As discussed in this post from the official Mechanisms tumblr, that healing factor functions at "whatever speed the story wants it to". This concept of "sometimes stuff just happens because it must for the story, even if it doesn't make sense or actively contradicts previously established canon" has been brought up before when we were discussing Universal Story, in respect to lore, to roleplay based story beats, for both groups. Here, it's more discussing a fact of the universe at large, a fact of how the Mechanisms function. And while the general concept of Narrative Imperative can be applied to literally any conflicting lore thing in any MCYT server or story (it's flexible in that way), I think it works best when talking about how game mechanics tie into the story.

What does death mean for this character? What does death mean for this character when on this specific server? What does death mean for this character on this specific server in this specific moment? What does logging off mean for this character, on this server, in this moment? What does voice mod or discord calls or chat mean to this character? What do skin changes mean? What does the Player Heads mod mean? What does sleep mean?

There are a million mechanics you can ask these questions about, and you can get a million different answers to each of them. Death can and does mean wildly different things on different servers (see: a Hardcore series like Naked and Afraid versus Hermitcraft). But it can also mean wildly different things on the same server to the same character at different points in time (see: the concept of "canon lives" on DSMP). Death, and numerous other game mechanics, mean whatever the hell the story (and the universe and creators involved) wants them to mean. You just have to take it in stride, the rules aren't clear because if they were, there wouldn't be enough freedom to tell a story.

Even on servers where it seems like the rules are clear, like the Life Series or other death games, death doesn't always mean what the rules say it does. Take glitch deaths, for example, like Loony's (almost) glitched death in season 1 of Deceit SMP. He glitched into a wall and should have died, but Legundo was allowed to cheat (use creative) to save him, or, had he died, been allowed to use cheats to bring him back, for fairness' sake. But this doesn't only apply to glitches- take one of Scar's off camera deaths in Third Life. I don't have the source for when Martyn talked about this on hand, but Martyn has mentioned that Scar technically died earlier in Third Life, when Martyn just snapped one day when Scar provoked him, killing Scar in a short, boring fight. There was nothing technically illegal or unfair about that kill, like with a glitched death, but when all was said and done, everyone agreed it just sort of... felt bad. That it didn't feel like a good story. So, the death was overturned, and the server went on as usual. The rules may have been clear here, but sometimes rules get in the way of a good story, so they're disregarded, simple as that.

MCYT stories are not being told in spite of their medium but in harmony with them. And as such, that means that sometimes, the narrative rules above all, and narrative imperative says that this mechanic is going to work like this, at least for now, at least for me. It might not ever work like that again, for me or for anyone else on the server, but it works like that in this moment, so you take it as is.

So, yeah, there's my essay! My final thoughts: Go listen to The Mechanisms. Go listen to Maki Yamazaki (Dr. Carmilla). I hope you enjoy these four concepts and keep them in mind when you are analyzing or playing the space of MCRP, because I think they are really helpful things to keep in mind. Have a good one.

[somuchbetterthanthat]

okay actually i'm putting this one directly under cut because this is pure fandom wank at this point

I understand not liking Martin as a character the same way I understand not liking like, any sort of character; Some people just don't work for you and that's how it is. I fully get people who don't like jmart, or jonelias for that matter, because at the end of the day, no matter how much I adore The Magnus Archives, it was NOT made to have any sort of proper focus on romance, and therefore we get too little of it for someone already not invested in the ship or the characters to be "sold over" by it, if that makes sense.

But KNOWING that, knowing that we do get little characters interactions in this show, especially in the early seasons, and therefore every single of them aren't put there just 'cause, it does annoy me when people seem to insist that Jon didn't even like Martin (yeah, in season ONE) or y'know, that Jon hated Elias from the start (My dudes, i'm not even sure he hated him in Season FIVE).

I agree that the build-up was perhaps subtle, and I DO think that in S3 we should have had more little notes and interactions for Jmart to fully sell their romance, but there WAS a build-up to Jmart, and their relationship DID evolve from season to season. Yes, Jon didn't like Martin at the beginning of s1. But by the end of the season already, after Martin moved in, we had hints of them already being put in the same bag ("You know how those two can be" - from ELIAS to Sasha no less!). After the worm invasion, Jon DID say that he'd witness a new side of Martin, and out of everybody he is the most pissed at Martin having potentially lied to him because Martin has also been the one understanding Jon's lingering fear - getting him the ashes, for exemple. Like i'm sorry, but basically whenever S2 Jon is not going on the deep ends, he's apparently having lunch dates with Martin and generally just hanging around with him (that HE initiates - Martin asks if he wants a sandwich. Jon says "i'll come with"). S3 literally opens with Daisy saying "People say you two are close" like.

We've met Jon. We know how Jon is like with people he doesn't like. Who in their right mind think SEASON 2 JON would hang out with Martin if he didn't want to.

By the time S3 rolls out you can feel that THEY are aware something changed already; they're stammering at each other because they're both aware of their own crush, and also easily loosing themselves to their own bickering (the scene in Gertrude's storage unit, BLESS.). Again, yes, I do feel like S3 deserved maybe at least a scene or two more, or a motion that they were calling each other during Jon's trips maybe. But saying they didn't like each other by that point is just. bad faith. You're allowed to dislike martin, but Jon just. didn't. He liked him.

AND SIMILARLY. Get away from me the notion that Jon disliked Elias from the start. He absolutely did NOT. He respected the hell out of him. He wanted to impress him. He was confident in their relationship enough to constantly go barge into his office to demand more stuff. He praised Elias's knowledge of the supernatural. HE BLOODY KEPT TRYING TO GET ADVICE FROM ELIAS ALL THE WAY UP TO THE END OF SEASON 4. And even besides that, S3 my beloved, after learning everything. EVERYTHING about what Elias had done so far, after having been hunted down and almost killed and been on the run for the murders ELIAS had committed, Jon still lingers back and ask Elias. Elias. in a soft voice "Am I still human?" seeking reassurance from him.

I mean, I don't know, maybe I'm biased because I like all the characters, the same way other people are biased because they don't like them, but; it gets so irritating. and it's my own fault for not blocking when I should, hence the whole fandom wank under the cut that won't be maintagged, but UGH.

[the-kiarah-organisation]

More art for the art bank.

Learning how to render, definitely happy with the result even if my back isn't. (Ouch). I could definitely improve though. This is more of an official attempt at learning.

Images in order from left to right are; sketch, line art and colours, monochromatic (sort of), and the render.

For the more rambling side of this anyway, we were originally just going to do a sketch from a blank base (like a draw your character here thingy), but it somehow morphed into line art and base colours, then messing around with gradients, then just getting bored and spending four hours rendering. Practice, am I right?

None of the quotes have posted yet (my queue is too long lmao, it will outlive me) but the hyperfixation do be evident. Don't worry, we'll be back to your regular Fatui Harbinger posting later. /j. No idea how we got side tracked, we did the sq so long ago that I can't remember it (and genuinely didn't know I'd done it), and it's not like he has many appearances in the lantern rite so far. (I also didn't know he was on a banner until it was pointed out). Freak accident. That, or one piece of fanart was like "hellooo".

If it wasn't obvious this is Baizhu and human form Changsheng. Not that visible but she has markings inspired by albino ball pythons (technically she's a leucistic ball python, see the second image).

Look at their little snoots!!!

For Baizhu's references I'm using the full turnaround from the wiki (helpful, albeit a little blurry. May be my fault though), and the card (less blurry, also probably my fault).

For notes on Changsheng, she has a heart-shaped window in her shirt that shows off a tattoo that sits in the open space between her markings. She's overall very heart themed (not sure why). Sadly her hair isn't shown here but she has a small hair tie/clip that's a snake.

Also, small detail, I'm aware Baizhu's hairpin is on the wrong side and only one is visible. (There's two in the sketch, one got lost). Also there's no glass in his glasses but even in official stuff it's not that noticeable so I'm maybe clear there.

—

Uhh.. and if you read this far, thanks? No idea what you've gained except maybe a look into my chaotic mind?

I never planned on maintagging (social anxiety) but I'm far too proud (and too tired) to care.

I do want to point out that this is from an AU, everything I post has a 60% chance to be about that AU (not including non-fandom stuff usually, that only has a 40% chance). I'll talk about it soon, I promise. (Said that three hyperfixations ago too)

Man what a lot of words. Didn't mean to do that but I do happen to like talking about all the design and thought behind stuffs. This isn't even half of it O-o.

[sparklevents6000]

mandatory pinned post

you know the drill by now new sparklecare vent account.

send whatever. i'm not going to make commentary on anything. i won't maintag past this one post.

one mod for this acc you can call me marco if required, it/its

tags i will use: #sperklacera - sparklecare stuff #cometcare - cometcare stuff #darkermatters - darkermatters stuff #nightstars - nightstars stuff #misckittycorn - other kittycorn stuff #nsfw - anything nsfw #proshiptw - if anything mentions the proship stuff #groomingtw - if anything mentions grooming #incesttw - if anything mentions incest #askstuff - answering asks #notkittycorn - what it says on the tin

i'll add more in an edit to this if i need to

(last edited 27/04/25)

[riacte]

i never really paid attention to it but wow false and ren. they really do hover around each other huh. they r like bugs

Hiii anon thanks for the ask <3 I'll use this to talk about them and them in fanon because I have thoughts woooo (and I'm vibrating with excitement because I'm listening to the HC Grand Prix at the same time)

You said it exactly— like we all know they're buddies and stick together, but most of the times, we don't really notice it because it's just natural. Nondescript even. Like of course their pixels are next to each other in the background. Of course they're hanging out. It's not flashy or anything, they're just there.

[long and winding analysis that goes off in a Direction, will definitely not be maintagged, mentions of shipping and the fandom's worst enemy (comphet / heteronormativity)]

Pairing up

They're like those anime characters who are fully fleshed out individually, but for some reason, their screentime is tied together and they're always shown next to each other. That was actually my first impression of them back when I only watched Grian in HC6 lmao, every time Grian flew over the fantasy district he would casually go "that's False and Ren's bases" and my brain was like "hmm new names :) idk who they are but they stick together :)". Like you know when you're new to an unknown cast of people so you try to comprehend and memorise them as efficiently as possible? And so you start sorting the cast into duos / groups so it's easier to remember them? That was me trying to compartmentalize the hermits in HC6. Grian + Mumbo. Iskall + Stress. Scar + Cub. Joe + Cleo. ZIT. False + Ren.

It did not help that from Grian's POV, there was a part in the civil war arc when he collabed with False to prank Ren because they thought he'd pranked her and so my brain was like "weeewoooo I still don't know who False and Ren are but they continue stick together, and that's convenient for my internal sorting :)))". And that mutual association genuinely never stopped lmao (it only got worse).

Shared audiences?

I've talked about this on privtwt: False+Ren as a fanon duo (like duo Duo as in desert duo) is strangely niche even though they do stuff together all the time and they're both fairly popular on their own. And there is so much intermingling between their audiences— I know this is the case for all hermits' audiences, but it seems especially obvious between their audiences. I know in a stream Ren said he met up with False and they had a discussion like years ago about the two of them hosting a meet and greet with fans in a restaurant (that didn't happen) and internally I was like "yeah, that'll only work if they have a solidly integrated fanbase so no one feels left out in the restaurant WAIT. That's literally what's going on here".

Funny how when I was writing this, an anon sent an ask about Ren's chat basically being full of False emotes LOL. Integrated audience kinda real <3 like, even if you only watch one of them and don't actively watch the other, you still know and think of the other fondly.

Different styles? And sticking together

Actually outside of yayyy fun minigames, to me at least they have quite different styles + ways of presentation? Which feels slightly different from the above duos I mentioned? So I totally understand why people only main one of them and don’t watch the other (but still aware of the other obviously). In terms of taste and personal preference, I’ve been here long enough to know what loyal False mains generally like and what loyal Ren mains generally like. (Like, very verrrry generally.) Ren’s the dramatic roleplay storyteller and False is like, sneaky and shifty and has a wry sense of humour. They’re both funny and charming in different ways. I would say Iskall and Stress have similar presentations (“aha? AHA?”) even though they excel at different things. Cub and False are also similar to me— competent and cool people who are nonchalantly chaotic. And we all know Ren and Martyn’s instant chemistry and their similarities. It’s why a lot of Ren fans gravitated to Renchanting and Rendoc for their dramatics and flirting in the way some False fans gravitate to Fress and Falseren for the fun/mildly hysterical/teasing/sweet/pranking moments.

BUT

False and Ren bounce off each other well— it’s the playful tension and the sudden mutual whiny energy like “noooo don’t leave me🥺” but they start hitting each other 0.5 seconds later. And of course the mutual clinginess. I know people have made jokes about how they’re both smart and competent people individually but when they get together they suddenly become the silliest sillies and share one braincell <3 and I know people (read: mutuals in my DMs) have joked about Ren’s currently extremely obvious bias for her (it's as big as the BRR sign I swear 😭) and the usual “orbiting around each other group recordings”. Compared to other duos, they don’t get paired together bc of similar presentations / style. They get paired together because of the chemistry and they share so many moments lol.

Tldr: they make for entertaining on-screen interactions. It’s fun watching them rotate around each other and punch each other off things. And they do this so much that 1) everyone’s aware of it 2) everyone’s used to it.

Branding? (Or the lack of it)

Last I checked, their tag has 46 fics on Ao3 and 16 of those fics are from me (I love being spiders georg). As with every pair that's not the juggernaut pair, realistically the actual number of fics that actually focus on them is less than what we see. And you know how sometimes for the "niche" pairs, there's more ship fic than platonic fic? (Actually I think for most pairs, there's more ship fic than platonic fic.) That's also not it, they don't even have 20 ship fics. Like clearly, the current fanon interest in them is not ship motivated versus *gestures to whatever is happening in the general shipping chaos post 2021*.

What I concluded is that they lack the kind of branding that for example Convex possesses. I think it's kind of because... they're an ubiquitous constant throughout the years. They don't need a storyline or a named group to tie themselves together. No matter what they're doing, no matter what characters they're playing, no matter which servers they're on— they just kind of stay in each other's orbits. But they don't play it up or anything like hashtag SHIPrendoc or Renskall or whatever. They don't even have a proper fanon name ffs (outside of fairy pirate grotto or whatever in HC6).

(Although imo this is likely to avoid comphet irl shipping because God forbid a man and a woman are friends :))))) heteronormative irl shipping / truthing was an annoyance for years (pre the HC6 boom). But strangely enough, modern anti hermitshippers on Twitter rarely bring up the real problem of truthing in public comments and instead target people making Scarian fanart in a small corner or whatever. When many cases of Compulsory Heterosexuality literally exist in YouTube comments. But I digress.)

Ren and False are just there, pranking each other and basing together and playing five million minigames and being casually supportive of each other. Like, their biggest shared "storyline" that left a strong impression on fans / converted fans was probably MCC9. We all still talk about it today the way Ren and Martyn still talk about 3L Renchanting. And MCC9 was in 2020 when they'd already done a lot of stuff together prior to that (eg. literally being neighbours in HC6).

And the thing is, they do collab semi-frequently. In like every Hermitcraft season. In recent memory, we've got the Blue River Raceway of course, but we also get those pranks and minigames and random silly interactions like Ren breaking into False's eagle and False pranking him at her elytra race. It doesn't need to be big and theatrical in classic Ren fashion (I remember the Renbob / Falsewell storyline in HC6; her nonchalance and confusion was so funny in contrast to Renbob's hippie demeanor).

And I kind of like the way they've kind of (?? or not???) escaped from the intense duo-ification from the fandom. Okay, to be fair, I know I am the worst offender of the duo-ification of them (with my desperate do not separate agenda), and maybe I've had a negative effect on the fandom, so feel free to throw me off my soap box. I remember how hermitblr as a collective suddenly lost it when they split in MCC17. We took them for granted, we all got to used to them being together, we got used to seeing them in the background, and then suddenly they’re not??

So we’re all kind of aware of them. But it’s not a terribly big thing…. until it is.

It's the same on the M/CC Reddit. Everyone knows they're iconic. But nobody makes a post about how we need more False and Ren duo interactions because they already interact a lot. It's just a natural constant. They don't really need a spotlight because they're just... here doing funky cute friendship stuff.

But if they ever, for some reason, become a mainstream duo on twt in its mainstream duo way with some [insert random noun] duo name, I will be so 🫠😒🔥💥🔥💥. But I literally cannot see this happening unless they team with Grian / Grian adjacent people in Life series. But even then I think they’re kinda exempt because everyone’s so used to them lol. It’s not like a shiny new uwu duo. It’s like how Stresskall is just Stresskall. Or Jleo.

(Actually, speaking of Stresskall, the entire Stress-Iskall-Ren-False group would make for an interesting fanon discussion bc it’s essentially made out of very solid and fan favourite duos. But not now. Team FRIS my absolute beloved though.)

Also, thinking about the ensemble HC fics I've read and how they're just casually kind of chilling in the background. Ren is usually paired with Doc (both platonic / romantic) but False is usually somehow mentioned in a passing comment. Same with False who's usually with the Hermitgals in ensemble fics, but there's also passing comments about her hanging out with Ren. Again, it's just a natural part of the background. Trivia that's sprinkled in between.

And that's why I think I'm so 🥺🥺🥺🥺 because it doesn't need to be big and grand... it's all the little moments <3 they have such a fun and playful dynamic and all the love for minigames <3

I don’t know if this is comprehensible or I’m just going crazy and overthinking things no one thinks about. But writing this was fun at least <3 If at least one person gets maybe 30% of this post (whatever it is), I'll be happy haha.

Post sponsored by the three people who liked my tweet from months ago 🥹

[apollos-boyfriend]

I don’t Even follow you. I’ve never seen you in my life. I was just looking through the matpat tag since I wanted to be sad with others and boom! Post after post celebrating! No tags! Say what you want on tumblr but jesus can we be a little more considerate towards people with different opinions. I wouldntve come if I was just following you and saw the posts.

sorry, but that's not. really my fault? i haven't maintagged anything on purpose. i don't even know what post appeared bc i don't think i've called him by name?? maybe game theory. i'll admit i did namedrop them. and again, it's not like i've said people who like him are wrong?? i do respect the people who are sad about it. i'm not attacking anyone for it. if you saw that one post in the search, all you had to do was block me to not see anything else, especially since you don't follow me

[darkx-the-dragon-kn1ght]

Pokémon Reborn Screenshot Let's Play: Chapter 32

Well, here I am again, now with several less wisdom teeth. But honestly, this chapter didn’t get delayed as much as I was worried it would be. It probably helps that I specifically planned to do the actual play session before the procedure, so that way all I’d have to worry about would be writing and post-making. Which honesty, is was less taxing during recovery compared to actual gameplay stuff and all the strategizing I tend to do during battles.

Another slight delay came in the form of a message I received, in which someone brought to my attention that my method of tagging every post of this Let's Play is kinda clogging up Tumblr's tagging system with regards to Pokémon Reborn? I didn't know, I don't check the Reborn tag in order to avoid spoilers, but I'm glad someone who does check it told me about it, I probably wouldn't have known otherwise. So, I spent a few hours going through the past sections, removing all the tags besides content warnings and Porygon Appreciation™, so if you notice any differences in the tags all of a sudden- that's why. From now on, I'll only be maintagging the actual main chapter posts (like this one)- hopefully that'll clean the tags up.

Anyways, I felt it was especially important to ensure I'm at my best both physically and mentally this time around, because here we are, on our way to deal with yet another PULSE! Yes, it's the culmination of this entire Apophyll Academy story arc, and I have no idea what to expect besides more Team Meteor hijinks. But I do have a feeling it’s gonna be big and dramatic in some way, like- we haven’t had a Rhodochrine Jungle moment in a while, so I feel like we’re due for something like that, right? Am I overthinking stuff?

Well, regardless of if I’m overthinking future plot developments or not, I still need to recap what happened last time to give proper context to how we got here. So, let’s take care of that!

Thanks to the tip from Lettie, Xera takes Amaria’s boat to Azurine Island, a swampy island in the middle of Azurine Lake, in order to investigate Team Meteor’s activities there.

Shortly after arrival, Xera finds an earring in a puddle- one belonging to the still-missing Cain, an indicator of his presence on the island.

While exploring the island, Xera is ambushed by Aster and Eclipse. After confirming Cain is held captive on the island, Eclipse remarks that Xera is on her own to deal with the two of them for once, and is eager for the opportunity to take care of the trespasser.

Despite being outnumbered 2 to 1, Xera is able to defeat Aster and Eclipse. At this moment, Aster lets it slip that Team Meteor has a secret lab on the island, to Eclipse’s chagrin.

Eclipse soon admits she feels sympathetic to the plight of Apophyll Academy. She knows about Kiki’s terminal illness and hates the idea of “kicking someone while they’re down”, given her own father’s issues. However, there is little she can do as a Team Meteor Private, so she instead gives Xera a hint to the lab’s location before retreating with Aster.

Xera is able to locate the secret lab inside an innocuous building at the heart of the island. Inside, Xera finds Taka contacting someone as well as Cain and a Camerupt inside prison cells.

According to Taka, Azurine Island used to be the center of the effort to breed Pokémon and repopulate the Reborn region- before Team Meteor shut down the project. Additionally, the Camerupt is the key to Team Meteor’s plans for Apophyll: they will use a PULSE on it to allow it to amplify enough reactive energy to erupt Pyrous Mountain, thus wiping out Apophyll Academy.

After informing Xera of this plan, Taka sends out his Pokémon to battle her- a challenge that Xera accepts.

Xera defeats Taka, who takes the loss in stride, not-so-subtly implying Xera should come to Pyrous Mountain to stop Team Meteor. Taka and his Grunts retreat with the Camerupt, leaving Xera free to open Cain’s cell.

Cain is initially eager to return to Apophyll to stop the eruption, only to realize the Grunts left something behind: a seemingly important package meant to be given to Commander Sirius. Cain opens the package, seeing nothing but a brooch with an emerald gem; with no clue as to its significance, he takes the item, just so Team Meteor doesn’t have it.

With Cain freed and the mysterious Emerald Brooch in their possession, he and Xera quickly take the boat back to Apophyll Academy. There, they join up with Victoria and quickly make their way to Pyrous Mountain to put a stop to Team Meteor’s plans.

So yeah, Chekhov’s Volcano is real and it’s about to blow up right on top of Apophyll Academy! And we can’t have that! Team Meteor’s done enough damage with just plants and water, you really think we’re gonna let them- hey wait. The PULSE Tangrowths messed with plants, PULSE Muk messed with water, and now PULSE Camerupt is gonna mess with a volcano- fire. Grass, water, fire…like the three starter types. Was that intentional?

Uuuuh…that tangent aside, let’s get started here! Let’s climb that volcano at long last!

*CW: minor gore, death

Part 1

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[decaydanceredacted]

unfortunately not a redacted, but how do u start up a redacted acc? i wanna make one for waterparks (the band) but don’t know how to put myself out there 😭

Just start! I would make an intro post saying what the blog is and maintag that so you get some initial followers, then it kinda grows naturally from there if you're lucky. Once you make it I'll give you a shoutout on here :)

[arqdyke]

OH WOW you're still awake hiii!! one more then while i have the chance. also so honored to have an entire tag now. that has to be an accomplishment. and!!! 👀 what niche rarepair pls i will bite at anything 👀👀

i cannot remember what else i was going to say so i'll just follow that too. op is sooooo friendly to multiship and rare ships because all of the characters no matter how minor are so interesting. it's fun to fling two people together as a concept and figure out how they would interact. (even not romantically even!! just two dudes would they be mortal enemies would they be chill? would they be besties for life??)

case in point! i got into op already knowing of a law ship, and after i read dressrosa, that ship solidified in my mind. but!! i caught up to op during zou :) which, in my mind, was the height of sabo/law popularity. so my first ship for sabo was actually with law! crazy how things work out. so much time has passed that i don't hardly even think about them anymore.

ohhh wait i know what i wanted to say now. favorite aus for fic?? any you would love to see in acesabo fic? if i know of any, i'll grab one for you ;)

hi!! i am in fact awake!!! i wanted to write more for my exchange fic bc ive just started recovering from been sick the past few days and havent rlly had the chance. but i ended up putting it off until like 12am LOL. under the cut again i talk . a lot.

its fun you mentioned sabolaw because. the 'pair' in question for the au is actually ichiji/sabo/law. no i dont know why my brain latched onto this. yes im still kind of obsessed with it. the social media aspect of my shipfic is a lot about ichiji & the transition from being a child star (alongside his siblings) to a more casual internet ministardom. theres court drama bullshit. theres fangirl law. all three of them are transfem. its really special to me.

also YEAH EXACTLY!!! to your rarepair thoughts. in every fandom im in im a huge sucker for rarepairs that seem like complete nonsense. throw those characters whove never met into a room and LOCK IT! not always romantically yeah but honestly its a lot easier to like . find content of niche pairs through ship names than just trying to sift through a million posts in their maintags. tumblr wise, at least. i actually have a sideblog thats been since sort of abandoned dedicated to finding as much niche rarepair content for two characters (not always with each other, just those two in general).

a fun thought exercise ive done a few times also is getting a nice randomizer of characters im familiar with for a fandom and using it to pick out a few ships to figure out how theyd interact/if i could make a shipfic out of them. sometimes they click sometimes they dont but its a fun way to explore characters imo

whats ur fav lawship nowadays if you dont mind :3? i like a looot for him ill admit but im not particularly committed to any. as with the multishipper way. and thats fair (on the sabolaw bit)... first ships dont always last super long. they sure are fun to think back too tho ^_^

my favorite aus for fic... oh god thats a tough one. i already mentioned modern aus and this ones sort of a tangent off niche topic focus's BUT. fics that are set in a specific career (especially doctor aus & lawyer aus but genuinely i just rlly like looking at niche little details of someones career.) see also hobby focused aus! like uhh. gymnastics. ice skating. just stuff like that idk. and aus that are focused around like.. movie tropes/genres. crime noir detective aus, slasher horror aus.. especially fun when theres a spin on the original tropes but when you can see how much love someone has for the og concept is when it rlly shines.

none of those are super specific tho. um. i have a soft spot for superhero aus even when theyre really bad. fantasy aus are trickier but when they hit they hit rlly nice. (trying really hard to think ummm) thats about all i can think of rn? but it is pretty late so im for sure forgetting some.

NOW. as for acesabo specifically.. first off if you have any fic ud especially recommend id love to read them regardless of the tropes/ships/whatever. but. acesabo aus.. ohhhgh. i dont know!! ive read a lot of really cute modern aus with them. and im not USUALLY into soulmate aus flat out but i could really love a good acesabo soulmate au. it just suits them. theyre both characters i enjoy seeing as cute girls quite a bit. its kind of unfortunate im not really a fan of either of them as trans guys bc there is SO MUCH transmasc ace stuff out there. sorry my guy you have my name i cant live like that. all respects to people who do like that tho! i like them nonbinary multigendering it up . sometimes transfem sometimes just.. trans. sorry this is not the point.

aus... aus... shakes my head around. OH i would LOVE to see a roleswap with them. ive thought abt that before and its kinda beautiful. i do also love a good polyship with them both! what elseeee. oh i didnt mention it earlier when we were talking tropes but political drama bullshit is soooo fucking good. for acesabo also! but im pickier with them with it bc i feel like it tends to get too whumpy/focused on misery. which isnt rlly my thing personally. gotta be a careful balance. i like aus where theyre both in the same 'group'; being both revolutionaries or both pirates or whatever.

i hope this actually answers your question lol i realize i went on a bit... but yeah. have a nice night if youre headed offline urself ^_^! ill be on for a while longer likely but i take so long to write these asks it might be pointless

[unconscioustrees]

HIIIII for the ask game all you're comfortable with answering :]

HIIIIII

yippeee

14 because i. don't interact with people i don't know/don't follow first/don't maintag anything etc. idm though i like it like this

uhhhh i'm assuming they mean romantic date. no idea tbh. years. even w people i dated i didnt really "go on dates"

963 (964 now)

hm. sneakers, mostly. and hiking boots

white. all four, no decoration anywhere lol

in my bedroom behind my pc

depends? i like drawing faces but i'm not that good at it. i'm pretty good at drawing animals but i never really do.

don't remember

i have this big polar bear plushie i sleep with. but i'm not that attached to it, i just need smth to hold. i could sleep holding a pillow too

thinks so hard. i have this really heavy 100% wool navy blue duffel coat

little village of less than 1k people. oof. farms all around the village.

uh. bol.com probably (dutch online store. it's like. amazon for dutch people)

durable. i'm like a cockroach. by all estimations i should NOT be alive and yet,,,,,.

manga ig? used to collect old books. OH i collect cinnamoroll merch actually

plain melba toast

i do go to therapy, i have two therapists. i like them both equally i think? actually i can't tell them apart. though i've known them both for almost a year. yikes

top surgery. lol

zazz cause i'm answering their ask rn

OKAY SO. story time. here in the netherlands santa claus isn't really a thing. but we have this guy called sinterklaas who is like. dutch santa claus. he comes to deliver presents every year on the 5th of december. and i found out when i was 5yo that he doesn't exist because i was a suspicious little shit and kept pestering my mother about my doubts till she gave up and told me he wasn't real. and then i went on to tell the entire class but no one believed me when i said he didn't exist lmfaooo

i'm blanking rn

not at the moment. but i'm kinda majorly getting into goth music rn soo….

um. caro emerald in kindergarten. then katy perry and adele in elementary school.

neither. mp3 player

complicated nuanced horrible to explain adequately etc etc

idk. probably? just for the drama

idk

yes

sad. i can't listen to happy music when i'm sad i'll get horribly pissed off

grey pajama pants, black longsleeve

yes

i. have no idea what's popular rn tbh

idk i just do it when it piles up? i'm not keeping track

prefer silver but gold looks better on me

OURAN HIGH SCHOOL HOST CLUB. it's horrible and i love it

hm. i like it how it is rn, but i'd love to get it shoulder length again without having to go through an awkward phase

no

medical applications of electricity throughout history

talia.

uhhhh idk.

i'm blanking. OH wait. emf meter lol

museum. not cause i dislike the idea of a concert date though

idk how to define what a regret is tbh. like how do you know you regret something. actually how does anyone know they regret something. seems fake tbh