#-> because people change! aint that fucking wild.....

[istherewifiinhell]

i will post funneys later but really trying to. brain out. the like. oh we are both people and as we grow and change and interact with the world the way we interact can be changed. FOR THE BETTER. ness. wild shit. u_u.

[foodtruckery]

hello back for a longer message

i love how ford gets so quietly pleased when stanley listens to him djfhdk its kind of sweet too because i dont think its just alpha instinct for ford. hes actually a pretty caring dude in his own way. hes happy stan is obeying him but theres just as much satisfaction to getting to take care of stan. it just get ties up in his arrogance a lot of the time so it comes out as "ill take care of you so you need to listen to whatever i say" which stan is def not a fan on (though its stan. dudes not a fan of people caring about him in general lol)

also ford staring at stans gold chain disappearing under his collar ford you horndog you are not subtle even though youve convinced yourself you are

and stan stealing fords clothes yesss. god im just imagining stan seeing ford working out, sweating through the sweater, watching him pull it off and let out this sigh of relief (that sits right between stans ears for a while) and dropping it into the dirty hamper. tells himself hes not thinking about it (he is)

you know after this ford gets so much satisfaction out of this later stan likes his scent even deep in a heat (especially deep in a heat) hed probably be poking around stans stuff when he thinks the man isnt looking to find anymore clothing stashes or maybe even starting his own. stan probably cant wear a lot of fords clothes because of their body differences but i could def see ford putting on stans undershirt underneath his sweater so he can smell like stan

god the mention of ford getting freaked out ough. i wonder if stan has tried to pretend he forgot to do some chore to get out of it - only for ford to give him this badly disguised distressed look and stan immediately feels like an asshole

and ohh boy the scent change. ford obsessed with it and has no idea why YESSSS i love how ford doesnt really question why he wants to crowd stan and pin him down because hes like "oh its instincts thats all" but you know his ass just wants to have stan

do you think stan has figured out by this point that hes going into heat? is that why he asks for space? realizes "well shit. this is happening" and runs away (because his go to is flight always before fight if given the opportunity) or is he still just as blind to the truth as ford is

god im wondering how all of this would go down if stan HADNT gone into heat. if he had just had the scent change gradually like the slow transition he was aiming for. because despite what stan would believe ford would NOT let this go. if anything it might be worse because hed be pressing his advantage wherever he could and try to excuse his behavior with "oh well im an alpha and its instinctual" and stan would get so fed up over it theyd again fight about it and then fuck about it

finally the magnus opus. the climax (in more ways than one) ohhh my GOD stan fucking BEGGING and ford losing his mind a little bit more with every single please dude didnt even HESITATE

honestly you are so fucking right if stan had shown up in heat 30 years ago when ford called him it would not have ended well. you really hit home how fucking OBSESSED ford is with this fantasy and stan is playing into every single bit of it without realizing it (GETTING OFF ON FORDS BED AAAAAAA)

ford is such a little freak though and its so apparent in every thing he does in this scene. cataloguing every reaction, running his hands over stan, fingering him until he comes just from that (just because he can, just because its an option he has, stans in heat he'll be like this for a while ford can enjoy this) talking all gently to him and being a little bit bossy on top of that because he knows stan wont fight him on it oughghghfh YOU ARE KILLING ME

also this line "He'd have to settle for physical evidence until Stan was capable of being interviewed properly." ford you little loser you aint fooling no one just go fuck your brother and maybe you'll calm down

i can already tell stan's gonna have a WILD heat because ford is gonna be pressing his advantage whenever he can. he may as well have pounced on stan when he got down there with how quick he was to use this opportunity for himself. hes literally already thinking about how he can fuck stan over and over now just like hes always wanted ohhh mY GODDDDDD

(and why do i keep thinking about ford trying out different things on stan now. fisting him at one point, forcing stan to describe how his knot feels before he gives it to him again, going faster and harder so stan is screaming into the sheets, slowing down so he can hear the wetness slicking his way, everything and anything he can think of and can get away with.)

and man. when stan finally comes back to himself hes gonna be so angry at himself and the situation and ashamed and embarrassed he might not even be considering too closely how ford behaved during his heat. either chalks it up to hormones or maybe his heat-brain skewing the details a bit so while ford is over there like "I WINNN I WINN THANK YOU UNIVERSE FINALLY" stan is considering if faking his death a second time is a plausible option

finally this whole ending bit:

"Good boy," Ford growled, kissing Stan's wet cheek and his temple and savoring the way he shuddered and whimpered as he pulled his fingers free. Getting his zipper down was enough of a relief to make him groan again. "Let's get you a knot." 

do you hear that? its me screaming from the grand canyon echoing across the planet. ford is SAVORING this. he is SAVORING stan he is sooo fucking happy right now AND!! AND!!! "LET'S GET YOU A KNOT" FUCK YOU THAT HIT ME LIKE A TRUCK

ford is such a condescending little shit that is usually annoying and bitchy of him but its weirdly so hot in bed and lowkey i think stan would agree

fords gonna be getting stan a knot as often as he needs (maybe even more often)

thank you so much again for the treat im chowing down on this candy bar

-🐶

🐶 you did NOT HAVE TO double up on messages but i am SO GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT and aaaagggggh both of your messages were so kind! ngl full on obsessed with the idea of ford wearing around stan's shirts cause yeah yeah absolutely (stole that for the other trick or treat thing cause how could i not?) i think stan had maybe not quite figured it out when he went to get some time to himself, but he knew he needed to be alone (cause that's what he's always done with his heats, right? go and find somewhere he can lock himself up until it's safe to come up again. that's just part of the process whether he realizes it or not). but then he gets down there, starts dragging out ford's clothes and holy fuck it's too hot and ooooh shit. that's not good.

it will be several days probably before they come up for air.

[dearmagenta]

I hate the fact that Quackity at least setted up his community for this, all of us knew that he'sworking on big project. He have something like purpose of this server. Its not pointless at wery last because we all knew that Quackity a guy who wanted his culture being learnt at both of the sides, its not a secret. He wanted for people to interact with eachother and learn things the hard but funny way of it and people was not randomly chosen. He tried and put all esp and eng mcyts He Knew Would Be A Good Choice together and we have something interesting and fun! Way to go Quackity i trust you with culture sharing! And then there's a wild Dream spawns like a fucking annoying child taking away the idea without any sence to it. Why Dream so SUDDENLY wants people of languages to communicate while he never ever fucked about other country's mcyt people or cultures even NOW ("i like to beat people cuz im russian" eh? kill yourself. Maybe im a bit snowflake for joke like that and but you cant say that you want people connect with eachother and pretend friendly AND then put this shit in the video like its a normal joke for theese times.) . It just doesn't make any sence? And mode? Are seriously thinking its mode? Are you Really thinking this mode working on realtime in the video? Ah yes, sure, without any accent all those people learnt multiple languages and changed voices? Have you ever heard Sapnap talking like that? This itsy-bitsy voice? Im aint joking this shit is a big made up and i really wished its late-time april fools jike but its NOT It just FEELS like spit on Quackity's and his work and his communities face, especially after "its FIRST multilingual server" Like it doesn't big qsmp event in few hours and like it doesnt qsmp even existing.

I dont give a shit about dream and i dont give a shit about any of his doings. He's boring to me so i never watched him and never been interested in dsmp untill Las Nevadas arc cuz Dream's arc was boring as fuck

But i watch Quackity. I like his content. He deserves to be watched and he put some effort in his projects. He doing it not for some hype but for something he wants to exist. Its something about respect. And then someone overrated shitlike dumb greenish puker comes and say "um yeah thats not like i paying attention or respect someones efforts" i drew the fucking line.

[lyriumheart]

now accusing anyone who messages u in support of being a message u sent to urself spreading "lies". and tumblr is so messed up blocking him doesn't do any good bc he just makes a fake account to stalk u like he does everyone else who calls him out. couldn't even blink before he'd stalked up and reposted that last one.

he says everyone else is mean to him but has been directly responsible for people being bullied off tumblr because of the group of bigots he surrounds himself with, who patently insist they're not bigots because everyone else is the bigot or the other people's opinions aren't real.

i feel real bad for the situation he's in bc like no one should live in that kind of home situation ever but it's hard to continue to want to continue to give aid to someone who spreads so much hate and misinformation.

hope u stop getting harrassed. u aren't the first person he's done this to and u won't be the last unless he changes, sadly.

well that's wild considering before this, we got along p well and he was very much aware of the shit i'd have said to me and my friends.

like.

yes it is definitely me sending this to myself and my friends. /s

i hope he learns to realise that as the 30 yr old it is in fact my responsibility to try and educate or correct thinking that is bigoted or unhealthy that is seen in younger ppl, which is why i did it in the first place.

it's pretty fucking disturbing that instead of being like 'they that's fucked up im sorry ppl that defend me are doing this', he's uh. doing whatever it is he's doing. idk i'm not gonna go look at his blog.

sure hope he finds himself around other adults that arent blatantly cryptoterfs or just plain old evil bigots bc it aint my responsibility any more.

im sorry youve had bad interactions with him as well, and im generally just really disappointed in him.

[ohleander]

9.28.24

The melancholia has settled into my chest again, and I'm noticing it bigtime today but I realize its been settled in for a while. It feels as though its never left and I've just been ignoring it. Thoughts and feelings have been swirling in me today but its all been like tv static.. fuzz.. I've spent most of the day dissociating in order to get the day done, but I dont feel happy or satisfied with myself. I'm trying to be nice to myself, but I'm wondering how much allowing I should be doing.. when do I be stern with myself? I've been trying to learn to sit with my feelings, validate them, not try to change them, but the cycles feel repetitive and tiring.. how do I make things better? I've certainly been speaking nonsense lately.. I've certainly spun a lot of tales in order to communicate and process my needs and feelings. I'm just.. not satisfied with myself.. do I try to convince myself otherwise? Do I say "yeah" and just do better? Always trying to pull myself out of it. I've been feeling the agonies lately... my hearts been hurting a lot, processing my feelings about relationship, situationships, my relationship with dad. I find it very hard to do anything but sleep lately. I've been doing my fair share of bedrotting.. I really wish I could do better. I'm not so sure my brain is right. I know I go through cycles of feeling very good and capable and well adjusted and overall, I look at my life and things look really great on paper.. it makes me just feel dramatic. But I am still struggling very hard with depression and feelings of helplessness, disconnectedness, loneliness. Its hard to feel validated with anything.. perhaps I've simply not been doing my best work. Its wild, things feel fine for a while and the suddenly they're not. Suddenly it feels like I've tricked myself into those good feels and "ahh I should've never have trusted those good feels, I knew they were fake" I'm struggling a lot with my work relationships.. feeling kind of chaotic.. I'm pretty tired of always being in charge of everything. It was not my intention, things just kinds worked out this way.. I cant help but think I'm not the greatest person to be around. Being the boss all the time means that theres boundaries.. its hard to feel comfortable with others when they only see you as someone in charge at the end of the day.. middle management aint for the weak and it is rotten work at the same time.

I dunno, I'm just feeling sooo fucking much right now and I dont feel like I can even talk to anyone. My brain tells me "no its inappropriate" to nearly everything. I'm not sure why this feeling rings so deeply within me. "inappropriate" everything feels "inappropriate" no matter what it is, its always ringing in the back of my head. Its something i fear being, but as a precaution.. I think I'm still working through internalized shame.. Again, as always, it harkens back to childhood.. ye old tale of neglect. I see myself repeating the same cycles of defeat, anger, resentment, as he expressed back when I was a child. He would come home with such a short fuse, not interested in anything I had to offer, but damn if he wasnt dutiful about it all. He made sure my necessities were taken care of but by golly, the emotional support was not there. I never ever had a safe space to feel my feelings, aside from my own room, by myself. I was always so isolated from other kids.. its always been this way. I still feel the exact same as I did as a kid, nothing has changed. I dont feel like I've raised myself past then.. and to be quite honest, Its not always easy to want to be alive, in the sense that I am so tired of seeing my own cycles and I am too ashamed to ask for the help I need because I dont know how to talk about it. I dont know how to express what I need and so I dont.. because people will assume, and I will say "yes that helps me" just to please them. Its a stupid human cycle and I've been at the absolute mercy of my own vicious cycles lately.

LA

[thenixkat]

Dr. Alchemy stole the promethium as a power source

again why was the promethium being turned into armor plating and not being used as free infinite energy source

also if you have the fucking philosopher's stone why the fuck are you wasting yer time on petty villainy and not converting base metals into precious metals and being rich?

Oh this alchemist is a Flash villain.

local secretary's plot is ongoing. Also, these are not small and unnoticeable things that her uncle is having her steal.

this ted kord is also an ex-smoker who'd rather folks not around him. I will assume that his time smoking did not have good effects on his cardiovascular health

it's almost like absorbing radiation and magic rock that changes stuff into other stuff was a bad idea

also man wouldn't it be wild if Slade/Deathstroke just dropped dead one day from super cancer

oh hey its Vic.

that's 2 villains thus far this run that died b4 beetle could catch/defeat them. Firefist and Dr. Alchemy dead from their own shit with the Madmen getting defeated and arrested.

hey, free philosopher's stone. take a chunk beetle, free transmutations of materials are a great way to save money

of course the ethical thing to do would be to see if dude's still alive and cure him if possible

Next issue the Question is investigating the Blue Beetle

why do so many of the white people in this have blue eyes?? I know its not that common

local youth gang has been causing a ruckus. They're backed by someone bigger than them. Beetle chases down their car with the Bug

oh hey the Bug's head still rotates. Nice. That has been my issue with the newer designs for her that make her so completely squat/round. She's supposed to be able to twist her body to fit in narrow places

local rich ass mafia angry that local street toughs keep robbing their fronts

oh hey Vic/The Question doing detective work and not torturing people for information unlike some detective heroes

damn ted, sometimes the bad guys get lucky it be like that

Ted, it's been years yer thoughts about Dan and yer guilt are not healthy

damn papa Kord really went on a dig years ago and aint said shit to Ted since. Sir, yer dad doesn't like you

i personally likely won't go with Ted was the one who built up the fortune yo ho bootstraps and shit. Several generations of built-up wealth from an ancestor doing shady shady shit makes more sense with the billionaire angle and I don't care for that bootstraps industrialist shit

especially if we're not supposed to see Ted as a villain given the kinds of shit ya gotta do to get billions

also really fucking wild that papa Kord really straight up ditched the family and Ted hasn't caught on yet

like yer approaching the conclusion but not quite reaching it dude

also like if papa kord didn't give a shit about the company and would rather play archeologist and Uncle Jarvis clearly was doing his own thing b4 Ted was old enough to take over the funds from the company had to come from somewhere and generational wealth makes more sense

Ted tortures local punk for info by threatening to drop him from the sky. Bad Ted, bad superhero. Also again this man is strong as hell, supporting both of their weights by one arm

I do still think that the Gestion has one of the better disguises among superheroes. Dyes his outfit and hair, the very distracting facelessness

Beetle and Question work well together. Very much banter building off each other

this version of the Bug doesn't have any passenger seats yet b/c Beetle's been a solo act

the Beetle's chair in the Bug is mechanized and rolls itself to the different stations in the Bug. Ted can just sit back and relax

The Question really just fucking jumped out of the Bug with zero safety lines or equipment or anything just because he wanted to look cool in front of Blue Beetle. Sir!

Damn, Vic whole ass called his supervisor a narrowminded bigot right to his face

again i dislike the whole no one can know Ted's secret not even hsi lover that this version is doing. Like, its just dull

why is there a gang in this city that's literally just normal businessmen? See, Ted, this is why you should go after white-collar crime too

Ted actually does ram the Bug into the building to buy enough time for him and Vic to untie themselves

well Ted's just that fucking flexible to bring his arms tied behind him to be in front of him by…jumping backwards through his own arms

Local nerd is extremely buff and flexible and i guess that's part of why his girlfriend is all over him

the baby bug has a name now, Snoopy. Its gonna spy on the local gangs

Snoopy has at least a dozen siblings

the Bug has secret jet engines under the shell of its wings for going fast

if I'm remembering right her top speed is like 600 mph

ALso that's 3 dead villians now. From their own shit.

[ur-all-so-annoying-on-here]

In some arguments the basic ideas and state of facts of the parties are so different that arguing would be pointless. Like what am I gonna do, explain that the whole thing is insane medical malpractice? Sry but even if the reason the guy was targeted is that he was j-- it's not gonna change the fact that he was a eugenicist. The concept of gender identity didn't even exist back then, but sure. Also like - my dude even if you accuse me of things that doesn't make them true. I know my views fairly well and if you even have to clarify that you wanted to accuse me of sth different but you cant bc I gave the definiton before, then like. I'm not taking a word you say seriously. If the worst thing doesn't work bc of that then I'm not taking you srls just bc u used the second worst thing you could think of.

The historical revisionism is wild. Tw were not targeted for their 'gender identity' but for the fact that they were -generally correctly- assumed to be gay men. That one reply killed me - they wrongly assumed he was a gay man and killed him for that. My dude the killing him was obv wrong but the assumption was correct. They want special victimhood so bad and for some reason it's prohibited to even fucking question whether any of their shit makes any sense. Literally parroting homophobic eugenicist bullshit and no idea. This will be a massive medical malpractice scandal in sth like 10-20 years and then they will come out like 'wow how could anyone think this was a good idea with those roots' and we can only hope history hasn't been revised so much that we can't find the truth anymore by that point. This idea that the 'progressive' take must be to moral and soon-to-be-proven-correct one is so goddamn harmful. We're gonna run into this soon because of multiple topics. Sometimes new ideas are wrong. Or based on terrible science. Or a nice idea that just turns out not to work. Left doesn't equal correct, it's a political ideology and nothing more.

The current sucking up in particular to tras feels like a fever dream. Sure, we'll ignore reality :) whatever :) you want us to say this? Sure we will! Sources? Well, if you read them in this one specific way that's totally unnatural then you will see that we have one :) maybe two if you redefine a word :)

Not looking forward to the fallout of this for ssa people. Considering we're kind of a victim of this id think this wouldnt be a problem but the general public aint smart.

[bisexual-yuri]

“Get Polished” (69 God) You infer what others want to hear and burn down your bridges They ain’t your bitches, Brigid Your bridges are here and you fight with a spear Toni my friend is a lover so dear Where is my passport it’s lost so I fear Oh meer, mía molé soul Tío lost control of her bones, no tía Mama mía bicicleta It’s all saved in her meta account, her whole life story Yep, you betcha No shits, no quits stored Stones with spiritual cleansing Fuck up and do the mending when you’re bored Laundry on the bannister on Mercury day Living lover on backwards slay Helped you to manipulate, she admitted it She benefitted from it She always does, she knows how to fuck up your shit Chicago bitch Sugar mid, raise a virtue signal 12 ills, take pills, program five 5-9, Dolly and Tim Horton, lacking change all day ACA all day who are free for the marriage To the message of their God Helper of the tradition of five stars in my recovery And life stone all alone he needs some milk Cannabis lover for free, Bonesey Mushrooms in crop circle country, love me Too shoot no better version of Rico Swill of familial satire why wine Wild left it away fantasía tonight Katita, Sarita, Jonathan is crisis and sad Mexican Spanish, problem, you mad We gotta raise a battle, por Sapo güey Fumando Mota, okay Buying plane tickets and not gay College buds and en la cara, not
gone alone and not wrong Mota on the field and you got songs Lemme got shit to raise Tell em to pray and know what to say Tell what God’s doing with you Right with you bitch and six inch Bittie dick rider violence Fine line with that East Coast Bitch 716 shit, NYC girlie pop sick NYC rhyme queen Ali, cheesy Fuck y’all too it’s something Sae don’t want to do Word Mother, did you drop the bomb on Ral?
Does he want to RP, just a pal?
Meet the Grahams and be responsible
Deepen the family, gritty, nasty
tell me your secrets, tell me to chill 
Girl, you need to hear this, you need to lose the trill
No frills
Snap memories of getting beat up at Timmies Timmy from choir lives at Frizzie’s Blonde bitches, 1.0 and 2.0, Twisted teas
Plant your money trees
Vanilla cream baby, put it in your coffee 
Switch and Mitch the girl, no ozempic Drugs and fights over diabetes said all wrong Sara, you can’t name drop people in your songs Ali can though, your GM is your BM baby daddy 
Rico ain’t your love, she ain’t free 
Bones aint for me
Little cave and little screens, scream
Kenny heard me say that Jostin loves him and went I aint gay That ain’t matter bitch, why would you pray like that? You carry yourself as king baby, they’re whole babies Other girls and ladies The man the myth the legend the nose job girl 
The uneven nostril girls 
Anna’s social work files, blow job bitches in the park honey That’s a low bar and a low ball
Which one of my so-called bitches knows Ali is a good kid 
Which tears love you and feel you in all the shame fry
More papers and lightning strikes
The nerve of you, he’s SICK Talk shit, Ali’s ripped, she’ll fuck you up 
Gotta have a kid with her, look at those hips
She’s got a big slip up under that skirt 
Flip it up, tell her to work for it 
That’s what they always say, girl it’s up to you to be alone
So I left and went home and fucked off 
Shit got a ring too this shit, she wears five of them Pentecost bitch, she’s the bones clocks for all of them She counts down to their murder on youtube live man
West coast east coast livers, spleens and offal Organs and truffles and other things pigs eat 
You ain’t that sweet baby 
Die in the world for FBI, being a bitch, clown around 
Real bitches challenge
Leak video to know who you is
Who is Ali, who is Sae Ra? Who is Sara? Keep that family away
Why did you move to New York? Is it because you fled from the girls
What happened to the friends you like? 
What color is Ali, and why does it matter, she’s high as a kite
Or is Ali a he? They’re confusing, a bird, it’s right
Have marriages live and broke

i love six o clock because the clock looks so stupid. "|" like get real

[awriternamedart]

hello welcome back to arts writing advice/tangent on writing from someone whos not professional but has been writing stories for as long as ive been able to write stories so buckle up were bout to get wild in this bitch-

today were talking about paragraphs and grammer (yay)(yes they go hand in hand)

yes i know i dont have alot of ground but these are mostly just little things I cling onto when writing that sort of define my style and how i write so here we gO-

no one is going to read this and thats ok lmao

paragraphs. lovely, lovely paragraphs.

Paragraphs are cuts, scenes, clips, idk whatever you word you use for a short snippet in media before cutting to a different one. They are not meant to linger and hold out, unless it is crucial its done in one paragraph for effect or something.

in that case you might wanna rethink how you do that kinda thing cause chief it aint cookin, probably.

No, paragraphs are the defining structure, the skeleton for the words to hang off of. They need to be individual but able to work as a whole, never stepping into anothers job unless compesation is needed.

This is where grammer kicks in. i am a firm believer that paragraphs are apart of the grammer structure that is woefully overlooked because we were taught to write essays, not stories, therefore you needed a professional uniform look to fit into the curiculum or however you spell it.

But stories arent essays, and therefore, we can fuck with academic grammer structure for a bit!

wait, what is a break in a paragraph? well its the little space thingy that goes between paragraphs. thats the break, there you go.

A break of a paragraph happens when an example of things happens:

the metaphorical camera moves

someone else talks

dialog starts

a different person starts movin

the focus changes

now you are probably going 'well thats fine and dandy but this list is so small" and to you my fine people, I say this is because these are examples in case you missed that

All of these actions that are being highlighted, actions that are the focus. The paragraph breaks when the action of focus changes. Whether its dialog, a conversation, a fight scene, a sex scene, a change in scenery, an emotional change, an emotional conflict, no matter what it is, if the action of focus changes, the paragraph breaks.

let me give you a few examples to help empathise this point!

oh wait.

already have.

Ive structured this entire tanger like i structure my stories, feel free to study away.

Obviously, there can be flexibility and stylistic choices made about how you chose to break your paragraphs, but stringing them all together can make the reader feel strangled. Choked, even.

And while some of you might be into that, there are others who arent and we should accomadate for both. Feel free to study and nitpick and destroy all sense of pride i have in my writing, and remember that we all die someday so just do what you like and let others live comfortably

farewell i think

[cloama]

Misplaced aggression is so wild to me bc it is pointless and a time waster, especially when pointed at someone like me. I been doing the same bpd workbook since I was 15. You cannot try to handle me in a way that won't leave you looking foolish to anyone overhearing our exchanges.

But I will say I'm getting tired of coping with cruelty.

Never having caught covid, I feel like the only sober person at a kegger sometimes. Like did Covid melt everyone's brains. Is everyone struggling to cope? Something has changed. People are outwardly horrible. Without sounding ableist i can only compare it to what happens when seniors show symptoms of Alzheimers. Some become aggressive when that's not that natural demeanor. I am seeing this happen to people who I know have had multiple covid infections. Couple that with the price of living doubling overnight and people are just not doing well.

That bit aside. Shit aint curling all the way over for me myself personally in having to deal with all y'all. People keep trying to be cruel to me. Trying. Not succeeding. And I know why they try. I look kickable. But how many times will I have to teach people that I actually crave violence and am looking for a reason to maim, but I choose to be a decent human being. How many times will have to keep scaring the shit out of bullies? How many fucking rounds of disarming and teaching will I have to do with fully grown adults?????? I'm an adult. I left my bullies in high school. I owe adult bullies nothing.

Still here I am 34 years old and I have to show teeth and make myself big like a bear at least, or use my teacher voice once a week, which is all stressful for me because I have a hard time calming down after defending myself...because I shouldn't have been put in that position in the first place. This is why agoraphobia be beating my ass some days. Because why leave tge house when outside is literally plague in the air and shitty people on the land.

Like...it is not rejection sensitivity if you're being a dick to me. That's me struggling to cope with a cruel world. Ain't nothing in my workbook about the constant unending horror of humanity. That is not in the text. Sitting in therapy processing some shit that I didn't even do????????? Processing shit the world did to me for no reason other than race glass and perceived gender????????????????No. No more.

Nope. I'm about to start processing all over anyone who tries my nerves. Watch the fuck out.

[bisexual-yuri]

“Get Polished” (69 God) You infer what others want to hear and burn down your bridges They ain’t your bitches, Brigid Your bridges are here and you fight with a spear Toni my friend is a lover so dear Where is my passport it’s lost so I fear Oh meer, mía molé soul Tío lost control of her bones, no tía Mama mía bicicleta It’s all saved in her meta account, her whole life story Yep, you betcha No shits, no quits stored Stones with spiritual cleansing Fuck up and do the mending when you’re bored Laundry on the bannister on Mercury day Living lover on backwards slay Helped you to manipulate, she admitted it She benefitted from it She always does, she knows how to fuck up your shit Chicago bitch Sugar mid, raise a virtue signal 12 ills, take pills, program five 5-9, Dolly and Tim Horton, lacking change all day ACA all day who are free for the marriage To the message of their God Helper of the tradition of five stars in my recovery And life stone all alone he needs some milk Cannabis lover for free, Bonesey Mushrooms in crop circle country, love me Too shoot no better version of Rico Swill of familial satire why wine Wild left it away fantasía tonight Katita, Sarita, Jonathan is crisis and sad Mexican Spanish, problem, you mad We gotta raise a battle, por Sapo güey Fumando Mota, okay Buying plane tickets and not gay College buds and en la cara, not
gone alone and not wrong Mota on the field and you got songs Lemme got shit to raise Tell em to pray and know what to say Tell what God’s doing with you Right with you bitch and six inch Bittie dick rider violence Fine line with that East Coast Bitch 716 shit, NYC girlie pop sick NYC rhyme queen Ali, cheesy Fuck y’all too it’s something Sae don’t want to do Word Mother, did you drop the bomb on Ral?
Does he want to RP, just a pal?
Meet the Grahams and be responsible
Deepen the family, gritty, nasty
tell me your secrets, tell me to chill 
Girl, you need to hear this, you need to lose the trill
No frills
Snap memories of getting beat up at Timmies Timmy from choir lives at Frizzie’s Blonde bitches, 1.0 and 2.0, Twisted teas
Plant your money trees
Vanilla cream baby, put it in your coffee 
Switch and Mitch the girl, no ozempic Drugs and fights over diabetes said all wrong Sara, you can’t name drop people in your songs Ali can though, your GM is your BM baby daddy 
Rico ain’t your love, she ain’t free 
Bones aint for me
Little cave and little screens, scream
Kenny heard me say that Jostin loves him and went I aint gay That ain’t matter bitch, why would you pray like that? You carry yourself as king baby, they’re whole babies Other girls and ladies The man the myth the legend the nose job girl 
The uneven nostril girls 
Anna’s social work files, blow job bitches in the park honey That’s a low bar and a low ball
Which one of my so-called bitches knows Ali is a good kid 
Which tears love you and feel you in all the shame fry
More papers and lightning strikes
The nerve of you, he’s SICK Talk shit, Ali’s ripped, she’ll fuck you up 
Gotta have a kid with her, look at those hips
She’s got a big slip up under that skirt 
Flip it up, tell her to work for it 
That’s what they always say, girl it’s up to you to be alone
So I left and went home and fucked off 
Shit got a ring too this shit, she wears five of them Pentecost bitch, she’s the bones clocks for all of them She counts down to their murder on youtube live man
West coast east coast livers, spleens and offal Organs and truffles and other things pigs eat 
You ain’t that sweet baby 
Die in the world for FBI, being a bitch, clown around 
Real bitches challenge
Leak video to know who you is
Who is Ali, who is Sae Ra? Who is Sara? Keep that family away
Why did you move to New York? Is it because you fled from the girls
What happened to the friends you like? 
What color is Ali, and why does it matter, she’s high as a kite
Or is Ali a he? They’re confusing, a bird, it’s right
Have marriages live and broke

[ithisatanytime]

You Can Do All Things (Through Christ)

should read JFK obviously you get my point. earlier i posted a comment on a youtube short that was a very dishonest edit of the dave chappelle snl opening monologue where he talked about kanye and the jews, with a title that said “chappelle roasts ye” or something to that effect and it was just the part where he jokes that kanye said he was so rich addidas couldnt cancel him and then they cancelled him, my comment was short and not at all inflammatory i just said this is a dishonest edit hes not roasting kanye but the jews whatch the rest of the monologue its short, and that comment was banned within 2 minutes for violating youtube hatespeech policy, i only think this is interesting enough to mention because i go fucking buck wild in the youtube comment section, you think this blog is bad? you aint seen NATHAN! but that comment was super mild, used the j word but in exactly the context i described, this has only happened two or three times and its always my most innocuos comment but always on a video that i percieve is really important for them in regards to shifting the narrative, they want people to think dave was roasting ye, he absolutely wasnt and back then i called ye out for misunderstanding the point of the monologue, dave chappelle was the only celebrity to my knowledge that stood with ye, and it makes sense considering hes actually addressed the jewish problem in his prior stand up specials, and he REALLY goes in on them if you know what hes saying. they absofuckinglutely hated that whole ye debacle because it changed the world, it really did, it shifted the overton window permanently, i have said before that one of the overlooked problems of anonymous message boards is theres no way of knowing how many of us there really is, could be a billion could be a hundred its all anons, but when a MAJOR celebrity calls out the jews and refuses to back down, it makes it acceptable whether they like it or not and they are trying to undo the damage done with deceptive shit like this, what they ought to be working on is finding out someway to become impervious to bullets.

[moondonky]

Men

Lol ☕️.. I'll bring the wild out of u,, dudes get rowdy around me, I can handle my testosterone, I kinda found out I'm fertile af.. my seed still swims they don't need no help, they quick, I function at bare minimum, I don't need to change my attitude, I'm okay with it, they can call themselves a man,, I don't think they are,, them, grown ass boys, soft ass faces to prove it,, it's all an illusion, social construct, enforced hallucination.. mentally still weak, intellectually still weak, immature,, most stop developing, most have no actions to prove it... that's like the general,, most are infantry when it comes to being soldiers,, there's a reason in action the general is the general,, more seasoned,, infants, grown ass boys, I'd give them all the respect as a person,, but I would not call them men, to me they are no different than they/them... I might be smiling but my eyes don't, they watch everything, always scanning, they trust nothing... call me whatever idgaf all ur telling me is sumthing about ur self,, I've never heard no man just name call and judge and label who they've never met before, I never met a man that does that kinda shit, ive never even met a man that claimed to be a man, they just were there was no question about it, all the men I know are old or dead, it's like they were a breed that's not reproduced anymore.. that's no different than women.. raised different, even me,, idk what tf I am, I know what I'm not tho, just a ferel person at this point,, if these men are calling themselves men, then I'm nothing like that, i dont think they are cuz there nothing like those old men at any point in there lives,, I got a penis that works tho I know that,, I got high testosterone I know that, and I'm agressive af but oddly gentle because everyone tells me that, hard to like but hard to not like... sumtime i think there just mindfukcking with me... overthinker people pleaser very intelligent... dafuk does that mean.. there's good people and bad people that I know is certain and what matters, none of my business what u call urself its all illusion,, it can be whatever,, they might call u something else in the future... I know sum dogs, wolves pitbulls and chihuahuas... idk just sum food for thought.. I'm talking to all the dudes, idgaf how big or tough u are, liberal or conservative, what job u have, if ur poor or rich, I dont call you men.. when u look at the world and see all this shit , and Noone doing something about it,, I know there aint no fucking men left.. go drink ur beers it doesnt matter what can it's in, that was proof ur all just controlled,, go be divided and fight each other,,, u wouldn't fucking dare stand up to that beast system

I don't partake in thos traditions of "men"

[voxxian]

screams in silent italics

[passionesolja]

Why the Jedi Should Be Held Responsible For the Occupation of Korriban and the Invention of the Sith Order

Introduction

This is something I need to talk about. This is something I want to speak about. So let’s go.

For anyone who doesn’t know, relatively early on in the Jedi Order, there was a schism.

A group of Jedi used what could be deemed as the dark side and then the Order had a small war called the Hundred-Year Darkness.

The Sith Order did not exist yet, so this group was known as the Dark Jedi—or later, Jedi Exiles.

Of course, they lost.

So what do you with a bunch of dangerous individuals who have force powers and highly advanced weaponry?

The Republic rightfully wanted to execute these dark side Jedi—because they caused a ton of problems.

The Jedi—however—had a different plan and said “nah, let’s just release this group of highly dangerous individuals into outer rim space and let them have a chance to find the lightside of the force again.”

Because that won’t end terribly.

What Was The Sith Species—Tsis— Doing During This?

For the sake of minimal confusion, I’ll be referring to the Sith Species as Tsis—what they’re actual species name is.

The Sith are a totally different entity.

You may ask, what were the Tsis doing before the Jedi Exiles occupied them?

Chilling, fighting for resources, societally advancing enough to have a King (shoutout Adas).

They were on a outer rim planet and by Republic standards aliens.

The Jedi ain’t give a fuck, neither did the Republic

The Tsis were primitive.

Which I don’t say that in a bad way.

The Tsis weren’t what you could consider “evil”, because to be evil means you know morality but shy away from it.

The Tsis just didn’t yet have the advanced society yet, like I said no one gave a fuck. There’s no Republic supplies or assistance.

They’re just chilling on they own doing Sith sorcery, making buildings, worshipping gods, etc.

They’re harmless.

The Tsis are a warrior culture, but they’re all means vulnerable and defenseless against a group of well trained, anti-Jedi, war criminals.

The Arrival of the Exiles

So the Jedi Exiles arrive, and the Tsis are trying to intimate them with some rudimentary magic.

So what do these Jedi Exiles do? Fresh out of the beef with the Jedi Order—given mercy when they shouldn’t have—, the Exiles kill the current Tsis King—Hakagram Graush—them take control of the Tsis.

After hundreds of years generic inbreeding and cultural engineering happens, we get the Sith Empre as we know it.

This species isn’t fighting the Jedi because there’s beef.

They’re fighting the Jedi and Republic because the Jedi said “meh let’s not kill the dangerous criminals, let’s let them loose and hope they have a come to Jesus moment in space”.

Then we get Sorzus Syn’s bitch ass saying “strange, they don’t hail us as space gods”

Bitch you a stupid ass hoe. The Tsis ain’t stupid, they have their own gods and you ain’t them.

Keep in mind, the Jedi Exiles fuck this poor species’ shit all the way up.

They completely change these people’s culture, society, and genetic code.

Here’s a difference in the species’ pre-and-post Jedi Exile involvement for reference:

I don’t give a fuck, ima say it: the Tsis pre-Jedi exile were innocent victims of Jedi placing Force Spiritual bullshit morality over law.

The Tsis ain’t have a space force, aint have a galactic economy, and they certainly weren’t hurting anybody.

Conclusion

This terrible fuck up and occupation/destruction of an innocent species is fully on the Jedi. This isn’t even on the Republic since the Republic wanted them dead.

The Jedi Exiles should have died. But no, the Jedi—always seeing the good in everyone, and not giving a fuck about what less advanced species may be forced to live under their rule—just released them out into the wild.

It’s sad, it’s pathetic, and it’s fucked up.

The Tsis were not evil.

Most of the Sith Purebloods in the Old Empire literally never had any other choice, neither their parents, grandparents, or ancestors.

The Jedi and Republic wasn’t some feuding Circle.

They were enemies of the Jedi Exiles who occupied a defenseless species of people, completely molded to suit their ends, and then—boom—you have a whole beef.

So yeah, it’s fuck the Jedi for this.

[anonil88]

Euphoria Season 2 Episode 4 Liveblog

It's my birthday so we are jumping straight into this. As always there will be spoilers below.

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Aw Rue Rue she definitely may be ace or she has just killed her sex drive via opis.

This is so sweet all ot these analogies to art ugh I can't. I'm kinda tearing up this is too much because the love is so big but it's going to hurt so bad when it ends on flames.

My heart can't take this but Rue confirmed she has killed her libido with drugs.

I can't im laughing this is hilarious but I also have lied too. Also the fact that Jules could tell she was lying because Rue has actually came before.

No Elliot don't ruin this but also this is funny as fuvk but he's definitely going to um my jaw is just wide open. This is so funny but I know yep.

Oh fuck there it is ugh stop yall stopped. Ugh stop. Oh thank God Rue texted cause omfg. Ugh this is gonna be so bad. I hate that Sam wrote this in.

I can't even blame them cause I too did stuff like this. This sucks though.

Maddy deserves a better boyfriend and bestfriend. (My friend said Maddy looks like a rich wine mom by the pool and yep sis is living in her future right now, sheesh I don't think you want this Maddy.

Cassie just leave him alone he is fucking playing you both. I hate this man for fucking up this friendship but I also really dislike Cassie for just not breaking it off with him and being a better bestfriend.

I hate Nate, oh Maddy my heart she loved him entirely. Loved him so much and Cassie THAT AINT YOUR NIGGA.

Nate is a piece of shit and Cassie is fucking batshit stupid as hell. Thank you for reading the hell out of her though Nate he clearing this girl out. Never did i think I would be agreeing with Nate fucking Jacobs.

Cassie....that's literally what you are doing to Maddy.

Ew not him saying "I love you."

I love Lexi, she is a good ass sister and Cassie should open up to her sister.

Tove Lo!! And INXS!! Love love love this.

Cal is reminiscing about Derek and is about to drive drunk I bet. This is funny as hell but accurate, I have seen white guys and their dad have these conversations.

Nate actually cares about his dad which is wild.

They know its wrong and they keep going fucking Elliot and Jules. But also Elliot and Rue are snorting lines for fun....he didnt do it so um he is a bad guy. I know what he's about to do and its shady and manipulative.

Oh oh OHHHH yea maybe the 3 of yall should just do it. Yea Jules is definitely polyamorous and Rue is definitely jealous. This is definitely going to end so badly.

Cassie and Lexis mom needs her own episode or im just glad to see more of her.

Awww Kat and she looks so pretty, Maddy is really a good fucking friend. Aw I needed to see these two talk like oh my god. Also lol Kat calling out Maddy for using the R word.

Ugh this is too cute.

Yea this is a terrible idea but leaving Rue was so smart. Terrible idea though.

Ayy a car door rig!

Nate said move bitch I'm not here to see you.

Cal is either going to die 👀 or about to see Derek or kill a bunch of people.

My heart is racing seeing both of these cars speeding like I'm scared. At least Elliot isn't high while driving but this is going to end up terribly.

No Cassie you look like shit and keep crying so obviously Nate working on things with Maddy is hurting her.

Jules is about to be pissed. Yea I saw that coming because Rue is jealous and also high. Rue maybe you should just talk to your girlfriend instead if being stupid and throwing it down the drain. She's going to loose the girl she loves and its going to be her fault.

Wait is this girl about to change because he's coming to the party. God Cassie you dumb bitch. But she is about to ruin Nates entire ego.

Lexi is worried and scared for her sister. Instead of writing it down maybe you should just talk to her? Or tell your mom?

Cal is off his shit at the gay club, bro I think he is going to die and Nate is going to actually be more sad and distraught than he thought he would be.

My nerves are so high and we are only halfway through.

Aw Cassie I need both you and Cal to drink some water. Them sinking this song about being a good person who just wants to be free highkey hurts.

Cal just wants to live the life he never got to with Derek even if its for one night with a stranger. That's so fucking sad.

Nate and Maddy looking at her like that is so sad.

Rue shut up and Jules is so hurt about this. Jules may fuck him to feel less bad about it all but its still going to hurt. Rue is about to do drugs to numb herself again when she could have just said "I'm jealous that I can't fuck you."

Nate knows him staying is a terrible idea.

If Rue takes these percs and dies i will scream.

Ugh my fucking heart this is how she feels but it is also terrifying like peace but its scary.

I know the game Jules is playing right now, she is about to do it with him and it isn't like he hasn't plotted to do this. It sucks but its coping.

Cassie please get the fuck up out the hot tub, you look desperate. Also Maddy yes girl put it together put together the cheating.

GET HIS ASS KAT GET HIS ASS MADDY.

This is so fucking nasty and I wanna hit them both with a pan.

Okay the music coordinator is doing overtime because she, it is a woman ayy, got a Faith Evans song cleared.

Cal is such a sad sad man. Sad in general like he's actually sad, the life he leads is sad, and just everything about him is sad.

The symbolism for him getting shut out of a gay club, he literally got shut out of being his true self because of Marsha. Ouch.

Even if he doesn't die from this I see Cal killing himself in like 5 years.

They're about to get raided? Oh it's dude...oh fuck the mouse situation.

This is too close to how Rue treated her when she met Tyler and "Tyler wasn't who she thought he was." But instead of them being sweet its completely just sexual and avoiding.

Someone did need to tell Jules but I am glad he was at least honest with her. But she's now so hurt by these two people she trusted more than anything. Jules please go check on Rue please. Or just go home because you don't need either of them.

WHERE IS RUE'S MOM!

No Rue No oh im crying and Jules is going to find her. Oh god no, oh God no and she doesn't wanna die. She's so tired oh she's so tired and she just wants the pain to be over.

Yes you are Rue you're the best of em you just are hurting. She really misses her dad so just really misses her dad and I get that. I get that. No love fills that spot. She needs to tell her mom how much she misses him. She needs to hug someone while sober and hug them for a long time. Where is her mom? How did she not hear her come in and Gia can't exactly save her.

Cal is a teenager he's not a man, Marsha is like a mother to him and he is lonely. He is on the verge of a nervous breakdown and entire breakdown.

He's bi and Marsha you're a bitch because she knew and wouldn't just let him leave. How the fuck does Marsha just walk past him like he didn't say or isn't saying any of this.

Everyone does lead a double life.

Nate is an asshole.

Oh cause she is cheating too damnnnn.

Aaron is just as fucked up and sadistic as everyone but at least he's just got a pron addiction. I wonder if he also saw those tapes just like Nate.

Not Cal reading his entire fucking family for filth. He's leaving...oh fuck he may really kill himself or dip. Nate looks like a sad ass child. Nah Cate technically you backed yourself into a corner.

Where is their middle son? We all know there's one but him leaving with the photo is wow. He said this is my shit I built this shit.

Fez, you need a plan.

Jules? Oh she stayed with him cause he didn't lie but she's also fucking him because she is sad. But also Elliot did that on purpose because he wanted Jules for himself.

Kat please break up with Ethan please. Its okay not to love him it is okay to leave. Also it is not good to string him along. 🙃

This image of Cassie crying reminds me of Rodarte this is absolute art. Marcel you are a true genius. But Cassie is on the road to alcoholism just like her mom, everything that's happened thats out of character has been while she's drunk.

Well shit has entirely hit the fam.

Jules is cutting again, oh no. Yea honey I'm going to need you to distance yourself from both of them. No matter how much I love Rules she hurt herself because she thinks that Rue's relapse is entirely her fault. Probably like when she was a kid and thought the same about her mom I'm guessing. She doesn't know that its not and Elliot is probably not going to tell her what Rue. He is manipulating her and she doesn't even know. I just want to hug Jules like

Sigh, wait is Jules about to become the narrator. These two really do love one another but they both need help and not eachother right now.

Also noted Rue didn't narrarate this episode mostly at all. Her voice is gone.

Oh sweetheart your voice is gone. That scares me.

See yall they know what they are doing. This show is visually stunning.

Me and my friends (we do talk backs after the ep) believe that Elliot is sus btw. He gave Rue alcohol and then pointed it out to act like "omg why are you drinking Rue???" Just so her girlfriend would know because you knew Jules would be angry and leave her alone. He's up to no good and knows she wants Rue. We could have had polyamory or a good healthy friendship, but nope non of that. My friend said its a manipulator coming in between a vulnerable drug addict and their partner and how addicts are vulnerable to other people who are ready to manipulate and hurt you for their own.

Edit; I am upset at Jules for her choices in thus situation with Elliot and for just letting Rue leave like that on the highway. Even though I can empathize with both because she's 17 she's a kid as they all are and humans no matter what age make mistakes. I know the whole DND mode move and sneaking around is fucked up from doing that (not cheating really but other stuff). So that game she's playing there is a slippery ass slope and not a good look on her part. Wish Hunter and Zendaya could have just written and stared in a queer perfect love story with its issues but close to perfect though.

Episode 5 preview thoughts:

Elliot wanted a high friend because then her finally had someone he could relate to. Laurie is telling Rue the truth (we know she goes to her). But, everyone is about to go through it. I'm scared like really scared for all my girls. Hoping the best comes for Rue and all the girls. Wishing Ethan the best as well and hope he really smashes his role in Lexi's play about her life.