#- definition for it that I understood.

[zodiac-monkey]

[fluentisonus]

one thing les misérables does so well but can be so agonizing to read is the extent to which certain things are just (deliberately) never resolved or left with their potential unable to be realized -- e.g. jean valjean never sees or hears from his sister or her children again (we're told this straight out) and has to spend the rest of his life half wondering. likewise his sister (presumably) never knew what happened to him. marius takes a diligence the morning after getting the letter instead of the night of & so misses any chance of seeing his father alive & anything they might have said or clarified to each other is just gone. nobody in the book ever understands javert's ultimate character growth or motivations for suicide (none of them even know his backstory!) & in fact they actively misunderstand it. the two little boys who get lost never find their way to where their mother told them to go and never find gavroche again after he dies and maybe never see their mother again. gavroche never makes the connection between the man he saw lecture montparnasse and the man he gave his letter to at the rue de l'homme armé and the man at the barricade. javert never realises that jean valjean was the man at the gorbeau house or how he got away into the convent. jean valjean never finds petit gervais again & can never make up for what he did. fantine dies with javert's revelation that madeleine is jean valjean but without properly knowing what that means or who he is. jean valjean's gravestone is written in pencil that eventually washes away, fantine's grave is never marked, there are bits of the story even the reader never gets to know

[wistfulwatcher]

2.05 The Aftermath | 5.01 Nameless, Faceless

[sizzleissues]

Idk thinking about it maybe Adrien is not just totally blind to other peoples feelings for him but it’s again a product of the low self-esteem wherein he doesn’t think anyone would ever love him sincerely. His fans ‘love him’ but they love the image crafted by his father. His mother loved him but she was taken away from him. His father probably loves him but he definitely likes to give and take it away at a whim. So surely that ‘I love you’ was platonic, I am nothing to love and she definitely meant that in a friend way, because who even am I?

I think he’d easily twist every confession into something that fits the narrative he tells himself, and that he’d never want to make someone uncomfortable by misreading their intentions so he just doesn’t read them at all. Like marinette acts weird around me a lot, she does stuff I’ve seen people with crushes do but surely thats just the way marinette is and it isn’t my business to push myself on her in case she’s just awkward because I’m a drag of a person blah blah blah.

Idk if I articulated that well but do you get the idea?? Even if you want someone to love you that way, if you do not know/like yourself you will reject the possibility someone does like you that way.

And Ladybug is delightfully unattainable so he can place her as the person whom he can imagine loving him because there’s no way LB would actually love him. Sure she’s his partner, their love is totally platonic and so he’s safe to love that way. The other side of his low-self esteem, the side that craves validation is shown here. As a civilian he cannot believe love can be given to him without price or cost and it’s probably something else, he’s mistaken. But the moment the love square reverses, he can’t see her attempts at wooing him as sincere. They’re a test or a joke, or an affect of the miraculous. Nope, she definitely doesn’t mean it. And adrienette only happens because he gathers a little self-esteem and he knows marinette likes him, it all comes to together for him finally, there’s too much evidence now and he likes himself enough to take a shot.

LIKE COME ON

Anyway I think that is interesting

[shannonsketches]

I don’t care if it’s boring I’m 10000% in love with the idea of Vegeta having a quiet happy domestic home life throughout the 7 year gap and as his end game.

He was raised in an intergalactic mafia and by an absolute miracle got out and was granted his life back. Twice. One of the two last men standing when an entire population gets wiped out. Twice (counting the Freeza Force, by the end of ResF).

His father stopped fighting on the front lines once he became king, to watch over his domain. Frieza didn’t personally get involved in battle (not wipeouts, but actual battle) until Namek. Vegeta was always (told he was) intended to take both their places.

Letting him grow into a protector has been such a great arc and imho it would be so beautifully wrapped by letting him finally get to go home and inherit his crown as the guardian of his new planet.

[puppppppppy]

i feel like im not making any sense but does anyone else feel like there are stories that let u run with them and ones that spell everything out for you

[mipexch]

im not done actually. something wicked is still on the mind

[gay-simple-and-chaotic]

Fuck it, tumblr can have the pureshadow flash fic I blasted my qpp with, fic below cut

Torments my boy by typing for 12 minutes. Fic is small and a bit angsty; contains self-use of it/its implied as a dehumanizing tactic. I also just like he/it/they Smilk but I think it's fun to think of how he thinks of himself. I've also not gotten to Beast Yeast yet I'm just insane about them.

"..I do not quite...understand."

His voice is as soft as always. So gentle. Undeservingly kind. Perhaps this is why he was so loved. No matter the truth he'd speak, he would say it in that voice, with an innocence belying his age.

He looks at it with that innocence. Eyes closed, lashes dainty against his cheeks, and after silence presses on, he opens them, perplexed.

They do not see what is there.

Not merely due to their inability; it is close enough that he could surely count crumbs on its face. But he has always been one to see the light where there was none.

"Shadow Milk Cookie." Its name falls from his tongue like the heaviest of truths, yet wrapped in the levity of the lie it knows it to be. Nobody remembers the truth, after all.

It made sure of that.

It scoffs. Rolls its eyes at him. Sticks out its tongue. Plays flippant.

"Oh, precious silly cookie," it lets words flow like syrup, sickly saccharine and suffocating in their false warmth, "what's there not to get?~"

"Why it is that you've not yet crumbled me."

Why?

Why?

It has no answer. It stares at him, face frozen in the grin it donned. Why not? Why not? What did he mean? What was it to say?

"You want the souljam," he says, and those words are true. It thinks so, at least. "But yet you refuse to simply take it from me. What motivates this game of yours?"

"Fun!~" It cheers before it allows itself to dare think. "You're just terribly adorable when you scream and wail for help, don't you know?"

"...You're not telling the truth."

"Duh!" The scoff comes out with dismissive force. "Why would I, silly Vanilly?"

It doesn't like how he looks at it. It doesn't like it. It doesn't like it it doesn't like it it doesn't like it it doesn't it doesn't IT DOESN'T--

Why doesn't it?

What is the truth?

Why hasn't it crumbled him?

It has been silent too long. It has stared into his eyes too long. It detests that kind, weary, familiar smile on his face. It despises his pity.

"...I don't need you to look at me like that," it spits, turning on its heel and fleeing. It will come back. It has to.

It...wants that souljam, right?...

[altschmerzes]

i need to stop shadowboxing the concept of romance when i write. i need to make my brain go to a world where romance doesn’t exist when i write because feeling its constant presence and people’s expectations of its presence and reading in of its presence is making me a worse writer.

like. thinking a lot about that post that’s going around rn about Books That Are Clearly Afraid Of The Reader. been thinking about how fear of being interpreted or perceived or whatever permeates a Lot of what i do and always has, creatively, and frankly compromises it, especially in terms of fear of people reading romance into my stuff because of how much i write about interpersonal relationships and intimacy and reliance and vulnerability and intense emotional situations.

i need to stop trying to build a boat with my main priority being ‘i dont want people to insist to me that this is a car or make people feel tricked into seeing a car etc etc’ when there is actually no part of this boat that needs to be made with cars in mind at all i could just Build The Damn Boat. this metaphor got lost.

point is i need to stop letting romance take up space in my stories at all. even if it's just as something i'm doing backflips over and around. i need to just start writing about platonic relationships - friendships, queerplatonic relationships, familial relationships, etc - without feeling like i need to first disprove romance as an automated and inherent assumption. romance should have no quarter here, even in feeling forced to deny it.

[skys-archive]

It's kinda weird to me to see mizu as transmasc. Like I don't think it's necessarily wrong but just... what.

She was forced to present herself as male so that she wouldn't be found, and continues living that way. It's not explored a whole lot which is why I think it's fine as a headcanon because yeah it's easy to say she was forced into it but found she preferred it that way. Or to say she doesn't care but it was easier to live that way since she had been doing it for thet long.

I just personally feel like if anything it better fits a transfeminine experience because even though she is born female, she was forced to live her life a gender she isn't.

I haven't watched the show in over a year so i could be misremembering but I don't think she ever shows any discomfort in being female. When she lives as a woman wither her husband and the woman who raised her she seems a bit uncomfortable at first but that could easily be because it's just different and she's not used to it. It's shown that those were the times that she was arguably most happy and comfortable she's ever been in herself.

And also iirc there was a scene, I think during her teen years, where she was wrapping her chest or looking at herself in the mirror or something and did specifically seem unhappy or uncomfortable. Of course she was using bandages so it could easily just be that she's in pain. But still I think it fits into a transfeminine allegory.

[cripplepunkbarbarian]

Things we know or can deduce about Gorgug’s Barbaficer Subclass + Feats! I preface this by saying I didn’t go back in the episodes to find the proper “names” of the feats mostly because we don’t even know if they were using them or just saying what they needed to get the point across lol.

Tool Knack/“Rage Against The Machines”: This one seems full homebrew to me and is also fairly simple, Zac more or less read off the ability description in an episode. As a bonus action, the Barbaficer can whack a broken/malfunction piece of technology to force it back to its working state. Due to the limited situations in which this can be helpful, I’d guess it’s what is standing in for his first (Level 3) Barbaficer Specialist Feature.

Elemental Rage: It’s likely that this may just be a modified version of the Pathfinder Unchained Barbarian’s “Elemental Stance” Rage Power! When raging, the Barbaficer chooses a type of elemental damage to infuse into their attacks and become resistant to for the duration of their rage. It seems possible to stack with Absorb Elements for either double elemental damage being dealt back out or for multiple different elemental resistances. Due to it representing the combination of his experiences (but also process of elimination), I’d guess it’s his second (Level 5) Barbaficer Specialist Feature.

Battle Gear/Gadgets: This one seems like a mix of homebrew and an expansion on the Artificer’s Infusion List. The Barbaficer gains a set of tools optimized for battle. These tools can only be used a certain amount of times per day, it is unclear if the “uses” are a pool for all tools or if each tool has its own number of daily uses. I also don’t know that we’ve seen the full list but we do know two of them! Gorgug’s Goggles can be used to obtain one piece of information about an opponent, including their HP, immunities, resistances, vulnerabilities, and potentially more. It is unclear if the goggles can be used multiple times on the same person to glean multiple pieces of information and what it takes in terms of action economy as they were never used in battle. Gorgug’s Grenades can be used as a reaction to distract or disorient an opponent, giving them disadvantage on a roll. The way that these tools are spoken about seems to imply that they do not count towards Gorgug’s known Infusions or count against his Attunements. Due to the variety/complexity it can add to the battlefield, I’d guess it’s the third (Level 9) Barbaficer Specialist Feature. Not to mention the fact that Zac dropped a level of Barbarian, losing the Mindless Rage Feat, to get access to his third Artificer Feat and I doubt he’d choose Elemental Rage over Mindless Rage.

And lastly, Artificers get their last Subclass/Specialist Feat at level 15! Since last we saw Gorgug he had deleved in Barbarian down to level 5 it is possible, that if we get a Senior Year and Gorgug continues to exclusively take Artificer levels, that we could one day see that last feat. It is also possible for the current feats to gain a thing or two, the most likely being access to more tools/gadgets or an increased amount of daily “uses” of said tools/gadgets and increased damage output from elemental rage.

[rapha-reads]

Me: I want to talk about Louis de Pointe du Lac in the books and how he's constantly haunting the narrative whenever Lestat is the narrator, even when he's not physically present or Lestat isn't even consciously thinking of him, because Lestat is actually always thinking of him and remembering him and using him as his humanity compass, and...

The tiny rational part of me: can you PLEASE go to bed, you'll write a love letter to Louis once you've had more than 4 hours of sleep, I am begging you, your eyes are burning, your neck is aching, you're starting to get a headache and you're being slightly delirious.

Me: but Louis.

Rational me: LATER.

Anyway I love Louis and I love how Lestat completely adores Louis and I love how every single vampire of the Court, from the most ancients to the youngests, know that they belong together and no one should ever try to separate them.

Also Louis noping out of the entire drama with Amel and those clone guys to go peacefully read in his crypt far away from the entire drama is so FUNNY AND RELATABLE, like same mate, saaaame, I'm good reading about it, don't wanna live it, no thanks.

[moralcandy]

take a bite! 🩸(close-up under the cut ↓)

[mintaikk]

Me reading a fic where the person had an identidy realization that they were in he aroace spectrum and now they were figuring themselves out(I finally found something that understood me and a romance I could relate to after all these years)

[lilacerull0]

l'amica geniale // little women

[numbuh424]

Let's talk composition in the jdrama. L is always on the brighter side of the frame while Light is on the darker side.