#- definition for it that I understood.

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

[zodiac-monkey]

[wistfulwatcher]

2.05 The Aftermath | 5.01 Nameless, Faceless

[trans-leek-cookie]

yknow what. I wanna say: CSA and COCSA survivors are all incredible, but I also wanna give a shout out to ppl who were exposed to sexual stuff or had any kind of sexual experience as a kid that they either aren't comfortable labelling as or don't consider abuse, but they know it still fucking sucked and shouldnt have happened. Even if that changes later in life and you identify as a victim/surivor, it can be messy to have to imagine those labels applying to the ppl in ur life and that can take time.

The most important thing is to prioritize your recovery + health, and to support other victims + survivors.

[1doesnotsimplyhavejust1fandam]

Half questioning my memory of the post s4 era, half side eying a certain character, so correct me if I’m wrong, but I don’t think there was ever a time when the Buddie fandom fully took the single “Evan” from the season 4 finale as Eddie receiving “Evan” privileges from then on. From my recollection, fics stayed mostly consistent with their uses of “Evan” by Eddie, perhaps just with an emphasis on important moments (love confessions, Christopher’s adoption papers, wedding vows, NDEs, etc.) after the finale. And I had to stop myself from wondering why that is because I know why. We all know. Because nobody wanted to use “Evan” in fics when Buck had just told his parents that people who know him call him Buck. So Buddie fandom heard that, accepted it, and uses it only sparingly. In canon and fanon, even Maddie only rarely uses “Evan” anymore, and it feels even less common for her to use post-Buck Begins (if at all, actually). So the fact that Tommy and BT fans tend to use “Evan” (at least, this has been my experience) is so utterly jarring. Buck told everyone his preference, and I believe LFJ has spoken about being told to use only “Evan” when referring to Buck, so I simply do not understand anyone who believes that BT is in love already or endgame. Yes, it could go the “Buck gave Tommy ‘Evan’ privileges off-screen” route, but then why push it off-screen? It would be a major allowance made for a new love interest, and a significant step in Buck’s character arc. Yet we see nothing of the sort. So why would anyone believe that’s what happened? The last we heard, Buck had told his parents and everyone else to call him Buck exclusively, with the minimal exception of Maddie (who was, for most of his childhood, his one and only lifeline and confidant). That sort of history and characterization is not ignored if there is not something very wrong with the writers’ room. It was not even ignored by a significant portion of the fandom post-season 4, although Eddie gaining permanent “Evan” privileges would’ve been a strong indicator of a Buddie endgame (had an on-screen explanation of Eddie gaining this privilege been released). It was not ignored, and it did not change the nature of Buck in fic nor fanon. So why in hell is the same not holding true for a brand new relationship like BT?

[sizzleissues]

Idk thinking about it maybe Adrien is not just totally blind to other peoples feelings for him but it’s again a product of the low self-esteem wherein he doesn’t think anyone would ever love him sincerely. His fans ‘love him’ but they love the image crafted by his father. His mother loved him but she was taken away from him. His father probably loves him but he definitely likes to give and take it away at a whim. So surely that ‘I love you’ was platonic, I am nothing to love and she definitely meant that in a friend way, because who even am I?

I think he’d easily twist every confession into something that fits the narrative he tells himself, and that he’d never want to make someone uncomfortable by misreading their intentions so he just doesn’t read them at all. Like marinette acts weird around me a lot, she does stuff I’ve seen people with crushes do but surely thats just the way marinette is and it isn’t my business to push myself on her in case she’s just awkward because I’m a drag of a person blah blah blah.

Idk if I articulated that well but do you get the idea?? Even if you want someone to love you that way, if you do not know/like yourself you will reject the possibility someone does like you that way.

And Ladybug is delightfully unattainable so he can place her as the person whom he can imagine loving him because there’s no way LB would actually love him. Sure she’s his partner, their love is totally platonic and so he’s safe to love that way. The other side of his low-self esteem, the side that craves validation is shown here. As a civilian he cannot believe love can be given to him without price or cost and it’s probably something else, he’s mistaken. But the moment the love square reverses, he can’t see her attempts at wooing him as sincere. They’re a test or a joke, or an affect of the miraculous. Nope, she definitely doesn’t mean it. And adrienette only happens because he gathers a little self-esteem and he knows marinette likes him, it all comes to together for him finally, there’s too much evidence now and he likes himself enough to take a shot.

LIKE COME ON

Anyway I think that is interesting

[shannonsketches]

I don’t care if it’s boring I’m 10000% in love with the idea of Vegeta having a quiet happy domestic home life throughout the 7 year gap and as his end game.

He was raised in an intergalactic mafia and by an absolute miracle got out and was granted his life back. Twice. One of the two last men standing when an entire population gets wiped out. Twice (counting the Freeza Force, by the end of ResF).

His father stopped fighting on the front lines once he became king, to watch over his domain. Frieza didn’t personally get involved in battle (not wipeouts, but actual battle) until Namek. Vegeta was always (told he was) intended to take both their places.

Letting him grow into a protector has been such a great arc and imho it would be so beautifully wrapped by letting him finally get to go home and inherit his crown as the guardian of his new planet.

[puppyeared]

i feel like im not making any sense but does anyone else feel like there are stories that let u run with them and ones that spell everything out for you

[mipexch]

im not done actually. something wicked is still on the mind

[cripplepunkbarbarian]

Things we know or can deduce about Gorgug’s Barbaficer Subclass + Feats! I preface this by saying I didn’t go back in the episodes to find the proper “names” of the feats mostly because we don’t even know if they were using them or just saying what they needed to get the point across lol.

Tool Knack/“Rage Against The Machines”: This one seems full homebrew to me and is also fairly simple, Zac more or less read off the ability description in an episode. As a bonus action, the Barbaficer can whack a broken/malfunction piece of technology to force it back to its working state. Due to the limited situations in which this can be helpful, I’d guess it’s what is standing in for his first (Level 3) Barbaficer Specialist Feature.

Elemental Rage: It’s likely that this may just be a modified version of the Pathfinder Unchained Barbarian’s “Elemental Stance” Rage Power! When raging, the Barbaficer chooses a type of elemental damage to infuse into their attacks and become resistant to for the duration of their rage. It seems possible to stack with Absorb Elements for either double elemental damage being dealt back out or for multiple different elemental resistances. Due to it representing the combination of his experiences (but also process of elimination), I’d guess it’s his second (Level 5) Barbaficer Specialist Feature.

Battle Gear/Gadgets: This one seems like a mix of homebrew and an expansion on the Artificer’s Infusion List. The Barbaficer gains a set of tools optimized for battle. These tools can only be used a certain amount of times per day, it is unclear if the “uses” are a pool for all tools or if each tool has its own number of daily uses. I also don’t know that we’ve seen the full list but we do know two of them! Gorgug’s Goggles can be used to obtain one piece of information about an opponent, including their HP, immunities, resistances, vulnerabilities, and potentially more. It is unclear if the goggles can be used multiple times on the same person to glean multiple pieces of information and what it takes in terms of action economy as they were never used in battle. Gorgug’s Grenades can be used as a reaction to distract or disorient an opponent, giving them disadvantage on a roll. The way that these tools are spoken about seems to imply that they do not count towards Gorgug’s known Infusions or count against his Attunements. Due to the variety/complexity it can add to the battlefield, I’d guess it’s the third (Level 9) Barbaficer Specialist Feature. Not to mention the fact that Zac dropped a level of Barbarian, losing the Mindless Rage Feat, to get access to his third Artificer Feat and I doubt he’d choose Elemental Rage over Mindless Rage.

And lastly, Artificers get their last Subclass/Specialist Feat at level 15! Since last we saw Gorgug he had deleved in Barbarian down to level 5 it is possible, that if we get a Senior Year and Gorgug continues to exclusively take Artificer levels, that we could one day see that last feat. It is also possible for the current feats to gain a thing or two, the most likely being access to more tools/gadgets or an increased amount of daily “uses” of said tools/gadgets and increased damage output from elemental rage.

[dahliaontherun]

Vi for three whole episodes: take the shot. Take the shot, Cait. Take it. Powder's dead. We have to end this. Take the shot.

Caitlyn: *takes the shot*

Vi:

[rapha-reads]

Me: I want to talk about Louis de Pointe du Lac in the books and how he's constantly haunting the narrative whenever Lestat is the narrator, even when he's not physically present or Lestat isn't even consciously thinking of him, because Lestat is actually always thinking of him and remembering him and using him as his humanity compass, and...

The tiny rational part of me: can you PLEASE go to bed, you'll write a love letter to Louis once you've had more than 4 hours of sleep, I am begging you, your eyes are burning, your neck is aching, you're starting to get a headache and you're being slightly delirious.

Me: but Louis.

Rational me: LATER.

Anyway I love Louis and I love how Lestat completely adores Louis and I love how every single vampire of the Court, from the most ancients to the youngests, know that they belong together and no one should ever try to separate them.

Also Louis noping out of the entire drama with Amel and those clone guys to go peacefully read in his crypt far away from the entire drama is so FUNNY AND RELATABLE, like same mate, saaaame, I'm good reading about it, don't wanna live it, no thanks.

[mintaikk]

Me reading a fic where the person had an identidy realization that they were in he aroace spectrum and now they were figuring themselves out(I finally found something that understood me and a romance I could relate to after all these years)

[numbuh424]

Let's talk composition in the jdrama. L is always on the brighter side of the frame while Light is on the darker side.

[fanvoidkeith]

not gonna lie, i think i didn't "mature properly" the first time i went through (the wrong) puberty. transmasc puberty is making me smart and cool and handsome and more mature, i think

[merrymisfit626]

It’s four in the morning so this may be a bit messy.

Random Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley head canon:

Simon’s first kill was an annoying bird that always seemed to find where he sat outside and bothered him.

He was throwing rocks at a tree, he heard the specific sound of the bird. He didn’t stop his action but grew more annoyed as he saw the bird flitting around like it always did, bothering him.

He was already having a shit day of it because of his dad so when the bird landed near the tree he didn’t hesitate to throw the rock, expecting it to fly out of the way.

But it didn’t, the rock hit the bird hard. Simon doesn’t know if it was killed on impact or whilst he sat there staring in shock.

He ended burying the bird and crying as if he had lost a friend. A part of him thinks he did as he felt more alone when he sat outside to get away from his family.

Even in his adult life he would pause for a second and look to the sky upon hearing the song of that specific bird, sometimes it brings him comfort but other times he remembers the fear and sadness that had haunted him back when he was younger.