#(you marry a person who comes to see you and balance out all your negative qualities and love you for exactly who you are)

[river-gale]

Answer any 3 character asks you want pookie

thank you for writing me this blank check. sorry it took so long to answer i was thinking and considering

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character? - January

Ok so I said here that I think River can write totally incomprehensible but really fast and efficient Fortran. The corollary to that is that January is the only person who can read their code. The Songshu engineers hate him. He doesn't even know how to program; he took one class in high school about the most natural language-esque future python equivalent ever.

It eventually comes out that he's not actually reading the code, he's asking himself 'how would River solve this problem?' and the answer is always batshit and he always guesses it with unerring 100% accuracy. hashtag homophrosyne moment. The engineers aren't sure if that's better or worse

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter? - January again

MAX!

They're narrative foils—both in arranged marriages, but with wildly different backgrounds and relationships to their partners. They both care about AND UNDERSTAND River, but while River understands January back, no one in the entire canon seems close enough to understand Max. Aubrey occasionally sort of barely manages it. I think Max deserves to be seen properly and January, with his skill at seeing people properly, could be the one to do it. I mean. If they weren't dead. In an AU or something. You get it

27. FREEBIE QUESTION!!

giving myself permission to write another river gale essay. it's about the contrast between knowledge and ignorance that makes them fascinating as a character

So, I think the big question when you think about River as a character is, how can they be so kind and courteous as a person and still make policies that are so obviously cruel?

And that's also one of the big themes of The Mars House, that people are never just one thing. Contradictions are at the heart of most of Pulley's characters—the most obvious other example is Kite, who is good with children and also yeets a child off the boat.

Here's where the book articulates it. Gale's a kind person, a person that cares about people, and... they're doing things that obviously hurt the most vulnerable people in their society. There's a couple different answers to "why are they like this," and all of them touch on character contrasts—they're super empathetic when faced with an individual person, no matter who that person is, but when faced with an abstract group of people, they're much less so—but what I want to talk about has to do with knowledge and information.

Being smart doesn't make you immune to being wrong. River is wrong several times throughout the book, and missing information even more. They're wrong about the point about femicide they make in the debate, they're (heavily implied to be) wrong about whether the new ships have soldiers, and they genuinely don't know Earthstrongers are paid in electricity before January tells them.

River comes off as very worldly and sophisticated, partially because of the languages thing and partly because they are, but they're also ridiculously sheltered. January seems to be the only Earthstronger person they know personally early in the book. There's so much they don't know about how poor people live on Mars. January says they should know better, especially since they have so much power, and he's right.

You can kind of see how they got that way, though, considering that the upper class on Mars is literally, textually living in a different reality from everyone else, because of the augmented reality filter setup. The plot of the book is that someone turns invisible to the upper class due to their privilege (fancy brain technology). It's kind of on the nose?

But that's one of the most interesting contrasting parts of their character! They're both extremely learned, extremely clever, and extremely ignorant.

Anyway, the point is that January fixes this. The fact that they know each other is good for both of them! January is actually in a parallel situation; early in the book, he notes that he doesn't personally know anyone Natural, just naturalised.

Gale is his way back! And at the same time, January is the perspective they need to fix their policies. They're foils! But that's a whole other essay.

thank you for the ask :DD

[hiragikiss]

𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆, 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆！

₊˚ෆ── tags : fluff, slight hurt/comfort, married life, husband & wife, fiancé & fiancee, mentions of kaiser's past (spoiler ig?), mentions of pregnancy, mentions of nudity(no smut), pro athlete!au

₊˚ෆ── including : fiancé!michael kaiser, husband!mikage reo (ft. wife/fiancee! reader)

₊˚ෆ── sum. : hey, where's your ring? why is it off your finger?(should i do part 2. . . ? )

⊹ ִֶָ𓏲࣪𖹭 𝐌𝐈𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐄𝐋 𝐊𝐀𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐑

when it comes to choosing partner, a person that he wishes to spend the rest of his life with, michael kaiser is very careful about it. he has witnessed the darkness behind a failed marriage for so long and decided to never make a mistake in his own, as to not bear the consequences of poor decision. thus, kaiser has always been so full of love and patience when it comes to you. he has always been as gentle as possible whenever he speaks or touches you.

but, everyone has a limit and seems to react negatively to it in the most non suitable moment ever. you knew he might have been so upset and emotionally disturbed with all of the pent up stress, building up from the pressure of the media, his team and more. however, it does not act as an excuse for him to let it all out on you. that night, he was obviously irritated to the point of snapping at you.

he laid on the sofa, sighing heavily as he squeezed his eyes shut, trying to calm himself down from the sudden bubbling anger rushing through his veins at this very moment. he had just return from an interview regarding to his career updates and happened to be rudely bombarded by nosy paparazzis, causing his phone charm to be lost in that moment. the crowd was too much, he can't reach nor search for the charm, not when the guards were shoving him into the van with protective manner. to the others, it might have been a cheap phone charm that he could purchase any time yet to michael kaiser, it holds so much memories, it meant a lot to him. and you.

you heard your fiancé while you were cleaning up the kitchen. excited to see him, you toss your apron onto the marble kitchen island, making your way towards him. perhaps you were too excited to see him that you didn't notice the still wet floor that you mopped minutes ago, ending with you falling onto the floor with a loud thud, sound of picture frame crashing could be heard as you tried to hold onto a surface to balance yourself but grabbed the wrong thing instead. the loud noise startled kaiser, his anger is pumping rapidly in his veins again, rising up from the sofa and make his way toward the noise.

"love— "

"why can't you be quiet for once? you always had to do something to get on my nerve, don't you?"

your eyebrows furrowed upon his taunting words that are hinted with anger. you knew that he's overstimulated by frustration but it still stir the annoyance in you. who is he to snap at you just because he is feeling negatively?

"wow, my bad i guess. didn't know it'd be a crime to be excited to see my fiancé."

kaiser frowned at your words.

"i don't like your tone."

"right, says the one who started being such a bitch."

"watch your mouth— "

"watch yours first, michael kaiser. look, i don't know what had happen during your interview but can you not take it out on me? i'm not a tool for you to release your stress on. you know what? go cool yourself off, until then we'll talk."

you ignored him as he stood there silently. you fetch your cleaning tools and carefully deal with the broken pieces, placing the picture back on its place while gathering the ruined pieces of broken picture frame into the dust pan. michael only watch your movements, not even a word spoken. he knew you're right and listened to your words as he remove himself from the spot, heading out for a walk.

kaiser spent quite a long moment as he sit by the lazy chair perched up in the garden where you've planted various flowers. the warm white light shining onto each petals and leaves of the flowers, making it appearing more romantic to look at. kaiser's fingers fiddle with his engagement ring hugging his ring finger as he zone out. his mind is clouded with hazy thoughts that are rapidly messing up his mind at this moment, be it from his past or present. he rethink of his behaviour toward you moments ago and sighed heavily. such violent behaviour his, it almost resemble to his abusive male parent back in his childhood.

growing up in violent atmosphere, pain is all he ever learn about. he yearn for love ; to love and to be loved. he spent his childhood imagining what a love would feel like ; is it true that motherly love feels like heaven? is it true that fatherly love feels like you're in the safest universe ever? they said, parents are the hero of every children, yet, why does his abused him and neglected him?

was it because his parent's love were meant to be painful as you yearn more for it? was it because love was never real? or worse, was it because he is just an unlovable child? if love truly exist, why does he need to suffer in order to get a taste of it? they said love is sweet, yet why was it bitter to him? they said love is warm, yet why was he lying on the cold floor as warm fist pounding his fragile body? they said love is soft, yet why was it full of thorns as he held it in his palms?

that was what he was taught about love from the unhealthy surroundings he was locked in. when he met you, he discover what true love is like. he learned that love is when you let out quirky laughs that tingle his ears yet warms up his chest as he laughs along with you ; he learned that love is when you learn about soccer trick online to impress him just for you to clumsily trip, telling him that you'd love to learn more of his passion ; he learned that love is when you hold him tightly as his vulnerable side was exposed when he had failed his own expectation, validating his emotions and never resort to violence to make him quit from feeling low. love with you is what he has always read about on the fairytales storybook that he secretly kept in his room when he was a kid.

you came to him and show him that love isn't always a hard gain yet he hurt you with his action. the thought of you walking away from him suffocate him. he knew he is only imagining about it yet to not see your smile, to not hear your laughter, to not smell your heavenly fragance, to not touches your skin and to not share your warmth is something he could never want to lose.

"god, i fucked up." he cussed under his breathe as he runs into the house, looking for you.

he entered the shared bedroom, heart drop at the sight of your engagment ring placed upon your vanity table. you're not in the room, which adds up to his overthinking. when he heard the soft patterings of shower waters hitting the floor, that's when he knew you're in there. it confirmed his guess when he heard soft sniffles coming from there as he leaned his ear against the door. he was quick to undo his garments and grab your ring, entering the bathroom as quietly as possible.

"darling?"

his heart soften yet saddened at the sight of your crying nude form, standing under the shower head as you try your best to not let out too much sniffles. thank god you're still with him. he makes his way toward you, engulfing you into his chest, holding onto you as his lips raining kisses unto your wet skin.

"please forgive me, my love. i'm sorry for hurting you." he apologised, rubbing your back softly to comfort you.

"must've hurt your ego to apologise to me, huh? serve you right." you countered his words with a hint of sadness in it.

"it hurts even more if i lose you, love. i never want to lose you."

he whispered, lowering his lips to capture yours, apologising to you silently. you closed your eyes, savoring his kiss, letting his lips stiches apology unto yours, a promise to never hurt you again. he parted his lips from you, eyes looking into yours as his palm make its way to caress your cheeks. his hands then moves itself to grab yours, kissing each knuckles before he slides your ring back to its place. he sealed it with another kiss on the ring.

"please, don't leave me, love."

"i won't, darling. i'm here, forever and always."

⊹ ִֶָ𓏲࣪𖹭 𝐌𝐈𝐊𝐀𝐆�� 𝐑𝐄𝐎

mikage reo, a man who was born with a silver spoon in his mouth along with a face blessed by the heaven. he has always knew that his life is well promising and had nothing to worry about. he has always been so generous of his money, be it to use on himself or use it on his friends. just as when he was with his toys when he was a toddler, always sharing it with his play dates or childhood friends. when he reached the age of entering teenager life, he is still so kind when it comes to money matters until it was when he met his friend, nagi seishiro. for once in his life, he dislike sharing, nagi is his friend and nobody could have him.

that goes on until the day he met you. when it comes to you, not even his beloved close friend could have a touch. for the very first time in his life, he is not kind with nagi when it comes to you. nagi wants to play games with you because he heard you're good at it? no need, reo is hiring a famour gamer to play with nagi. nagi would like to hear about your plant pet? no need, reo is buying him a whole nursery of cactus that varies from different species of cactus. nagi was suspicious of reo but he couldn't complaint because at least he is getting something better to ease his boredom.

reo even make it obvious to the other girls that he is yours the moment both of you made it official. reo is well known for using aesthetic hard covers for his phone but when he started dating you, he changed it to clear case, polaroid of you that's his favourite will be placed in it, displaying to others and showing off his lovely lover.

what about you? how do they know that you are mikage reo's lover? it's easy, it's those luxury branded items that you're wearing. he always make sure that most of it are custom made and limited item. it may cause him to spend a little bit extra but hey, if it's you, he'll even sacrifice the world to make sure you're always pretty and well taken care of. he knew how you love to care for yourself from the way you do your skincare, haircare, daily exercises, makeup and dressing up. he loves it as well and enjoys to indulge into it. as long as you're happy, he is happy as well.

that was until today, when he saw a frown on your pretty face. it wasn't common for you to get upset so easily, he wonder what could've cause such discomfort for you. is it the month of your menstrual cycle begin? no way, that'll be on another 2 weeks, he keep tracks on them. is it because your boss was being harsh on you? no way, he started up a business for you to run and support your cute cafe that sell fresh pastries, sweet flowers and refreshing coffee. is it because your favourite show was postponed because of the billing? no way, he made sure to purchase a year worth of membership with the highest graphic quality for you every year. so, what is it that bother you? he makes his way toward you and holds your hand only for you to pulls it away from him quickly, panic eyes staring at his. he noticed how you hide your hand behind you.

"hubby! hi!" you stuttered a little, trying your best to hide whatever you'd like to hide from him.

"you good, dearest? why won't you let me hold your hand?" he asked, his hand moving to grab yours again.

"my skin is too dry, it'd be unpleasant for you to hold them." you told him, removing your hands from his again.

"what a nonsense, you've always been perfect, dear." he praised, leaning in to press a soft kiss to your forehead.

"my, thank you. aren't you praising me too much, reo?"

"mm, never, dear."

he kisses your lips this time, distracting you from his hand caressing yours, pulling away when he finally caught unto the reason of you hiding your hands from him. he looks into your eyes, scrunching up his nose when he noticed you're getting a bit shy from his full attention and affection.

"what?" you pouted.

"you're so cute and silly too, dear." reo teased, giggling when you playfully frowned at him.

he fish out a velvet box from his back pocket, showing it to you as he opens them. inside, is your wedding ring, the one that you thought you had lost it. you gasp and look at him.

"how?! i thought i lost it!"

"i took them for a cleaning, remember? how could you be so forgetful, dear."

reo smiles as he gets onto one knee, holding your hand gently as he slips it back onto your ring finger. standing up, he kisses the back of your hand. he is so amused with your expression at the moment, all flustered just like how he proposed to you before.

"why were you not telling the truth while ago, hm?" reo questioned.

"knowing you, you'd buy new ones if i truly lost it— "

"why, of course. i'll buy you as many rings as possible, as long as you're happy."

of course he would, how could you doubt him? he is your husband who love to spoil you a little too much.

"thank you, but i'd love to lower the usage of our money, you know?"

"why? is your cafe's billing getting higher? i'll— "

"reo hubby, no. little mikage is on the way, of course we should be spending wisely, right?"

"oh, right, yea— wait. what?!"

you laughed at his reaction. my, your husband is so entertaining.

"yes, dear. we're having a baby!"

reo laughs happily as he hugs you, carefully yet tightly.

"i'm calling nagi, he needs to know that he is an uncle now!"

and you know you did the right thing when you accepted his ring of promises and afraid of losing it. he promised to make you the happiest person ever and he did fulfilled his promises. or should you say, he has always been fulfilling his promises and sealed his promise to eternity.

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[kalki-tarot]

Guidance from the universe you need right now. 🪷

Timeless pick a pile reading. ✨️

Disclaimer : tarot is not 100% accurate. This reading is just of entertainment purposes. I'm not responsible for any decision(s) you make on behalf of my readings. Your life is in your own hands. Tarot is just a tool for guidance and doesn't replace medical or professional treatment. It's not set in stone, you are the creator of your own destiny.

Reading will be specific so take what resonates and leave the rest ✨️

Pile 1

If you are feeling stuck or stagnant, go meet your friends. Get out of your house and try to have new experiences.

Your life would be in this unstable and juggling energy until you make a strong decision. Leave behind your indecisiveness and be practical.

Let go of control, be like a river, flowing freely and accepting whatever comes it's way, good or bad. This is how life works. You fears are self imposed. They don't exist in reality, break the wall you surround yourself with.

Don't worry about losing anything. You're going to be blessed with abundance and clarity soon. You're delaying and blocking your own happiness by doing so.

Divine wants to play their role in your life. Let divine intervention take place, be receptive emotionally. That ultimate wish of yours will get fulfilled. You're gonna meet someone new. You'll have an emotional connection with them, most probably a romantic connection.

For some of you, your divine union is about to take place. You'll meet your divine counterpart. Cycles have ended. Libra sign may be significant. This union will bring balance into your life. Everything will feel at their right place. Trust divine timing. Your life will be just like you've imagined.

Please leave feedback in the comments 🙏🏽

Pile 2

Someone in your friend group or workplace is probably lying to you. Beware of them and don't believe their lies, don't get manipulated by them.

Many new opportunities are coming your way, overseas travel and new job opportunities may be significant.

Universe is telling you that your hardwork will pay off. You'll reap the fruits of your hard work soon.

A female can mess up your love relationship. This female can be a clingy water sign who needs constant reassurance from people. You need not focus on her. Just focus on your relationship and don't let her get into this. They can appear sweet and caring from outside but they are heartbroken and wants to ruin things.

If you're looking for a job, or if you're facing unstablity in career then things will start to get into proper alignment. Just do your work without thinking of the results.

Things are about to change! You are expanding yourself through study, business enterprise or travel. The energy is that You are becoming more aware of the opportunities that surround you. So grab them on time! It's a great chance for you.

Please leave feedback in the comments 🙏🏽

Pile 3

It'll end. The situation that you're going through will end. It's over, you've had enough. Now peace and prosperity will come into your life. All the things you've given to others will come back to you. Your inner conflict will come to peace. Things are calming down for you. Some of you may get anxious thinking about these things. But trust me, now things are changing.

If someone robbed you or took away your money, karma is working in your favour. They'll get punished for what they did.

I see a traditional couple here. Some of you could be married or into a relationship. If yes, then I see a negative energy affecting your relationship. Can be a third party, addiction or toxic personality etc. That will affect this.

The message is clear, if things get out of hands, move forward. That is human nature, to change. Those who stay stuck eventually experience the consequences of not adapting. You have a lot of new options in love. Look around.

There can be a masculine energy near you who wants things to turn out great romantically with you. They can be an influential and strong individual. They can be from your childhood or a place from childhood.

Don't forget your power. You are really powerful and self sufficient. You can earn bread and money for yourself. You are highly intuitive and wise. Use your gifts, pile 3. You are blessed from the universe. You can be an empath or someone who reads other's emotions perfectly. You are a star. Don't forget that!

Please leave feedback in the comments 🙏🏽

[a-d-nox]

web of wyrd: best months for weddings and potential issues that could arise

ever wonder why may is such a popular month for marriage? why you rarely see people who marry in september staying together? the date you select for your special day matters according to the matrix! in honor of my best friend getting engaged, i will be a little more focused on love and romance posts than you typically would see from me. reminder the post is focused on the WEDDING EVENT MONTH (this is the highest outcome - but the energy can be out of balance which is why i am including negatives (which usually are part of the karmic tail)). in order to see future dates, use gollov's site and the "personal" calculator!

january (1 - the magician)

positive: couple is capable of making the life you really desire together come to fruition.

negative: might be an elopement that goes south (shotgun wedding or an annulment is needed). getting stood up at the altar vibes.

february (2 - the high priestess)

positive: having a very deep connection long term - that goes way beyond topical concepts.

negative: a big secret comes out and ruins the day and/or a scandal occurs.

march (3 - the empress)

positive: a very fruitful relationship, a loving partnership, likely to create a large family when the union occurs.

negative: MOB or MOG makes the wedding all about her and is overbearing about the event.

april (4 - the emperor)

positive: a very stable relationship where both partners are protective of one another

negative: FOB or FOG might be a buzz kill or has a tangible dislike of someone in their new married family.

may (5 - the hierophant)

positive: makes for a committed and traditional relationship.

negative: there are likely a few guests who are all on their own and/or there might be a few people how have known beef with one another. maybe the bride doesn't like one of the groomsmen or the groom doesn't like one of his bride's guests...

june (6 - the lover)

positive: having a marriage full of love and partnership; makes a soulmate tie.

negative: someone could interrupt the ceremony by opposing the officiant because they can't "forever hold their peace". otherwise, there might be doubt or drama surrounding the coupling.

july (7 - the chariot)

positive: might have had a lot of relationships obstacles to get to the point of marriage, but the determination to be together and stay together makes for a lasting/enduring relationship

negative: there could be a car accident or break down that slows down or ruins the day

august (8 - strength)

positive: resilience is what holds the coupling together along with understanding and compassion for one another

negative: a physical fight may occur among the wedding party or the guests.

september (9 - the hermit)

positive: this is likely to be a small/private ceremony. the couple is on a spiritual journey with one another and they know it.

negative: cold feet might occur regarding marriage - could be left at the altar. there is also a greater likelihood of divorce with this energy as the hermit is on a SOLO journey.

october (10 - the wheel of fortune)

positive: marriage is part of this couple's destiny, but so are the inevitable ups and downs within the relationship.

negative: something unpredictable is likely to occur/happen that can ruin the event itself.

november (11 - justice)

positive: there is likely a prenuptial agreement in place or this might be organized and arranged by the parents of the couple which speaks for the relationship long term...

negative: another high stakes month in terms of staying together - legal matters are part of this marriage (divorce is likely). or someone may have a legitimate reason to object the marriage.

december (12 - the hanged man)

positive: the couple is prepared to let go of the past and enter a life long marriage with an open mind.

negative: someone in the partnership is likely to feel trapped in the relationship - growing to resent one another is pretty common with this month given the theme.

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[nayatarot777]

why are people intimidated by you? - pac

{ pile one } 🤍

[the hierophant, temperance, judgement, knight of cups]

people are intimidated by how structured and peaceful you seem. you’re viewed as someone who has a clear viewpoint of what you want to achieve and how you’re going to get there. you appear to be extremely balanced and content with each stage of life that you’re in and it’s almost like you’ve reached a major milestone in your life. perhaps before the majority of people your own age. i’m sensing that for most of you, this refers to something internal. internal balance. i feel like most people see the acts of kindness and self care that you direct towards yourself, but most of all the self respect and self-value that you hold. i heard “self-married” so you might be the type to take yourself out on dates, treat yourself to nice things, and practice a lot of self care for yourself. you’re committed to yourself more than anyone else. for those of you in a commitment (could be a long term relationship or even a marriage) people are intimidated by how peaceful your relationship seems, for some reason. i’m not gonna lie, people think that you’ve hit the jackpot in life in one area or another. there’s also a message about either the types of people who you attract romantically or your confidence towards the people who you approach. it’s clear that you have extremely high expectations for yourself as well as whoever you date/get into a relationship with. there’s an energy of being unreachable - but not in a typical, whimsical, piscean, dreamy type of way. it stems more from people putting you up on a pedestal and comparing themselves to you and their lives to yours. i’m even hearing that people who are romantically interested in you usually end up developing actual feelings for you - even when they usually wouldn’t. you’re “commitment material” in a lot of people’s eyes. but most of these suitors don’t feel like they’re even on your level. it seems like you have everything that you want or need already. your (perceivable) contentment intimidates people.

{ pile two } 🤍

[10 of swords, king of cups, king of swords]

you guys are way too smart and intuitive for people. people with negative intentions in particular. they get intimidated because their plans to backstab you and fuck you over in some way is met with a complete reversal, and they’re the ones who end up in an extremely negative situation. these are people who perhaps talk shit behind your back? or just send you evil eye quietly? they don’t understand how you manage to know what they’re up to. and i feel like they’re terrified to get into a verbal conflict with you because they know that they’d be ripped to shreds verbally 😭. people really don’t want smoke with you. your words are venomous and lethal when you want them to be. you protect your energy amazingly this way. you’re a pure divine feminine. nothing can get past your observation and intuition. and what’s scarier is that you’ll keep quiet about what you know about someone for a while. especially when it comes to betrayers - fake friends, people who smile in your face but plan to take something that you have. but yet they start to feel the shift in your energy, even if there’s no shift in your behaviour towards them at first. it causes them to ruminate and worry that you’re onto them, but your poker face is immaculate and they can’t figure the answer to their questions out. it’s almost like this is their karma? a self-induced psychic attack for playing with you. the duality between when you act out of love towards genuine people and when you act out of defence towards backstabbers and shady people is terrifying to most. the way that you switch up leaves people drowning in their thoughts. they’re genuinely fearful and anxiety-ridden at the thought of having to feel your wrath. this is how you implement your boundaries. you’re very clear, concise and direct, and as long as you’re not fucked with, you’re the most loving person someone could meet. even so, you keep the boundaries firm between most people that you invite into your life and what you’re nurturing in your life. unless someone manages to get extremely close to you. but that takes a very long while, after many trials and observations on your part. as soon as there’s a significant tribulation, they’re out of your life. but even after people cause you problems, it’s almost like you forgive them silently, but never want to interact with them again. you go back to your relaxed, divine feminine energy. nothing keeps you out of it for too long. your quiet peacefulness after the fact intimidates people even more though lmaoo. they don’t know if you’re one of those “crazy” calm-before-the-actual-storm types of people.

{ pile three } 🤍

[6 of wands, the wheel of fortune, 6 of cups, death]

people are intimidated by how you seem to have support and acquire success on any journey that you put yourself on. there could be a group of people who support you that people are very intimidated by (i feel like this is a group of masculines - doesn’t necessarily have to be men, but definitely people who are ride or dies for a lot of you). if these masculine energies aren’t physical people, then this is your spirit guides and ancestors for those of you who have a connection with them. i’m seeing that this support brings you major abundance. major positive changes in life at times. but there are times where your transformations are not easy at all. particularly after you have gotten used to the previous abundance that came in for you. you always share it around with others, but i’m picking up on the energy that you guys may sometimes purposefully go through difficult transformations and changes if you’ve outgrown what you considered to be abundance before. it’s like you’re not afraid of change - no matter how difficult - so you don’t get comfortable with things for long. you know when it’s time for an ego death, and you go through your dark night of the soul to purge, just to be met with support from this group of energies/people who help support you when you usher yourself into great abundance yet again. i’m feeling plutonic energy because of the major extremities here. your life is full of extremes that you manage to balance yourself out with. because you accept the “good” and the “bad”. i feel like you understand that those are human judgements - not factual observations about something, so you journey through life with the mindset of “it is what it is”. you take the positive with the negative as they both come in waves, but you’re never knocked off of your path. you’re in constant alignment, even when it doesn’t seem like it to other people. because of your acceptance towards the dualities and polarities of life. you don’t complain. when you have more than you need, you’re extremely charitable. whether that be about money, time, energy. and that’s why karma comes around and offers you an abundance of support when you’re in need. i feel like you guys don’t even stress throughout negative experiences as much as others would. because you understand that you’ll be all good soon enough. and you understand that loss is a natural part of life as much as gain, so you don’t cling onto what you gain like others would. you flow with life. and this intimidates those who struggle to see life from a higher perspective. as well as those who have control issues. you have way more wisdom about the human experience than the majority of people on this planet. you know what it means to surrender

[thedivineart]

– PICK A CARD READING –

Random Sentences

- mini pick a card reading -

i ii iii

Uh oh, I'm falling in love

Oh no, I'm falling in love again

Oh, I'm falling in love

this reading is about random sentences about your future spouse. how to pick a pile? make sure your energy isn't surrounded by negativity 'cause it won't resonate, please don't take it with all of your heart. also I would like to take some time to thank all people who help me to build this lovely blog along with 800+ followers in a month!! Thank You so much without all of you, I am nothing<333

PILE ONE

- random sentences to describe your future spouse -

• masterlist • other pac reading • paid reading •

• someone who will make you happy and will try to keep you away froms stress or someone who makes you laugh and smile often

• will try to make it happen despite of all obstacles or challenges

• dark hair or dark completion or someone who wears often black, can be a negative individual or just simply a depressed one

• someone calm and home/family oriented individual

• someone protective but stubborn

• a traditional individual

• will bring stability or financial security in you

• couple goals; they see you as mother figure (if your

feminine) and you will see them as a father figure

• will meet them when you move out or something will change in your life

• tall person or more taller than your high or long legs

• someone elegant and independent

• their heart is always in pain

• they thought it will be it is simply infantuation it is but never thought of marrying you in future

• flirt me with me in a date

• forgive them, it sometimes they focus on themselves

• you'll make happy memories in future or they are someone from past

• a book worm or secretive individual or they have alot of knowledge of simply as intelligent

• someone who is slow but make sure to make it worth it

• someone who can make your wishes came true

• committed and stable individual along with the word

• almost the same attitude with them?

•your twin flame or they are well balance individual

• when obstacles are done, welcome them with open heart will bring you joy in your life

• someone who have humor or always happy or the one

romantic individual

• the one you will create legendary memories

PILE TWO

- random sentences to describe your future spouse -

• masterlist • other pac reading • paid reading •

• they are someone who have strong sense of perseverance and as well ambition in life

• someone who is a hard worker and focus on what they do in life and to their goals like they want to provide for themselves and to their loved ones

• someone who has a clear vision about the future insight and they what success truely mean and knows how to take the path of success

• strongly dedicated and loyal individual

• they are protective but can be defensive as well

• may meet them online or someone who will come to you very swiftly

• it's either they are cheerful or childlike person or can be both as well

• play boy/girl type

• someone who have brown/dark hair and sporty or they like to keep busy

• can be an athlete or just into sports

• someone who been through in pain and suffering

• attractive but talkative as well

• can be religious person

• someone have sad eyes/depressed

• cold and distant from other people as well being stubborn

• good at managing money or finances

PILE THREE

- random sentences to describe your future spouse -

• masterlist • other pac reading • paid reading •

• wealthy person or financially stable security as well being successful

• may love beauty and luxurious things

• may meet at a celebration such as weddings or unters or clubs/pressomething that wil happens in public place

• for some you will meet them through a mature woman or older than you or a older friend, older sister, mother, auntie, grandma etc.

• sporty individual or an athlete

• young looking or young at heart, well dressed/elegant,sociable, if you prefer man he is good looking

• may likes or has hobby of reading books or studying alot, very educated individual

• you often see them in dreams or they are like someone you may be dreaming of this person

• someone popular or even famous but not a celeb(maybe for some i think it's celeb)

• someone who is a role model to everyone they surrounded

• may meet them at night

• travel for work or travel for fun and to unwind; might be a foreign for you or someone who is new to you?might be possibly a foreign; international, from different cuture or has different types of belief system

• money and status can be prominent for this individual

• type of individual who cannot be untamed; playful Individual tho and loves observing people or they are great that thing

• got anger issues or they have a lot of patience just don't let them pissed or feel angry, it will be in danger zone

•lust/sensual individual they are

• a boss or leader type of person, agressive too

T H E D I V I N E A R T E M I S

[highpriestess13]

Collective Reading!

Y’all know there’s a conjunction happening this Saturday right? On 4/20 👀👀. Let’s get into the energies happening for you guys on this day!

For starters, I see someone making a clear decisive decision to let something go and step into something new. I feel this may be between you and someone else, water and air energy… possibility of fire as well. Someone may have went into a connection with someone or gotten married and now someone may be having either doubts, there may be a lot turbulence or someone just wasn’t who they said they were. If that’s the case, I see a settlement or a divorce happening or this may be 2 people deciding to get help like a therapist or marriage counseling. However I do feel like someone is choosing to communicate that something may not be working out so there’s an ending to a relationship whether romantic or platonic. I’m not sure if someone is bipolar or constantly has mood swings, I also feel like someone has too much going on emotionally, so prioritizing the right things will help someone regain balance. So this Saturday, you may see a lot of divorces, breakups whether it’s your personal experience or others.

TRAVELING! I see some traveling for you guys, for some this may be for work. If it’s not a literal travel this could be a shift/ change of mindset. This shift will gear you towards focusing on your bag. You’re releasing the past and not letting it get to you or stop you from achieving certain goals for yourself. It’s also giving entrepreneurial energy. If this isn’t you, this is someone possibly coming towards you that have these qualities or energy. Or they may be a guide to you in some way. 666 is confirmation and I’m also getting “allow for things to happen”. This motivation is going to stem from the past like someone transmuting old energy into new energy.

On Saturday… there’s someone dealing with inner turmoil or inner demons however you may look at it if this is you. There’s still pent up anger, trauma, negativity. Someone could be feeling like a loner, this may be due to either power struggle OR abuse of power. Either way I just feel you separating yourself from anyone and anything that’s toxic and unhealthy for you or that may bring up past trauma/ triggers. If you’ve been feeling triggered a lot, it’s time to look within a figure how to maneuver around it or through it so that you don’t cause harm to others and yourself. 99 and 44 are confirmation. Heavy on keeping yourself protected and guarded from devil like energy so that your energy doesn’t get mixed up.

Someone from a spiritually gifted family or this may be meeting/ choosing your soul family or tribe. This could be your ancestors as well. I see celebrations and recognition for planting a fertile ground for your current or future family to thrive in especially on a spiritual level. The seeds took time to grow and thrive and it took a lot of hard work, dedication, ups and downs but you got it done and your ancestors/ spirit guides are celebrating you. They’re definitely happy with all of the progress you’ve made… could’ve been for the last 7 years, give or take for some. There’s still more work to do because you have such a huge responsibility and this is why they love and respect you so much because even when things get rough and tough and too much to handle you still keep going. Some of you could be catching a break or taking a much needed one so vacations are on the horizon. “Dedication” is what I’m hearing.

I see some emotions coming back to the surface. Whether it’s fears or something that’s been hidden in the subconscious for some time. I’m hearing “lying dormant”. If things begin to resurface for you at this time, it’s because you’re needing to face them so that you can properly heal and align with the energy. Be gentle with yourself and others and show some compassion.. being harsh isn’t going to do any Justice for your now anyone but being gentle will.

There’s an argument bound to happen between 2 people possibly men. We have fire and air energy. Whoever this fire sign is, they’re going to be the one to attack first while the air sign keeps themselves grounded and strong minded and not entertain the other person’s approach… if that makes sense. I feel like this fire sign is upset because a female may have chosen the air sign make. With this situation, faith is being restored. Someone is leaving behind certain rules on how something should be and just going with what they want. I’m also seeing someone being a divine messenger as well.. Moses is significant too.

[loveyourlovelysoul]

I want to move out

I love my house, my family, but I can't concentrate on myself

I don't love the environment around my house neither

My family often talks shit to me

Like I don't matter, I am not good enough

I love them but they hurt me

Sometimes I don't feel loved

To move out, I'm not working I don't have finances

It is not common for girls to move out and leave the family, girls move out when they get married in our religion

I wanted to take a study program in another country but my uni staff didn't answer my questions, they said they know nothing (this is their job literally) and I lost my chance for taking this study course

I just need peace and love and understanding

My parents think I'm on my phone too much, thats the only thing I have, I'm not partying or anything, I'm not gaming on the computer, I'm not smoking or whatever...I think it is just normal to spend some hours on the phone like everybody else.

I only feel loved on my birthday and on religious celebrations or something

Like only on "special days"

And sometimes not even then

They insult me on those days too

I end up crying and just remembering what they told me on that day some time later or next year

Like some of the things they had told me I remember it and when my birthday/that celebration comes again I'm like.. that's great, one time....(in my brain)

I feel stuck

I'm very sorry to read about your situation. I completely understand how you feel and how hard it is. Since it seems you have no way out, would you like to try seeing things from a different perspective for the time being? It may help you live where you are (since you cannot move away) but maybe with a better mood.

Your first sentence says that you cannot concentrate on yourself, but in all honesty all I am reading right after is you focusing on what is going on outside, trying to escape from something (that maybe is inside?). And don't get me wrong, this is very normal behaviour. We all do that without being aware, especially if we have grown up in a difficult environment where we fel judged, unsafe and/or in charge of everyone's mood/life to feel accepted (and saving ourselves). Or when we feel lost and without guidance/support. Been there done that myself.

Now, let me ask you: would you really feel love and understanding alone in another country? Or even just in another house? I think your question to move for studies not being answered is a sign for you (just my personal opinion ofc). At times we feel like physically moving away from a situation would make us feel better, but it's not so if the problem is inside: it would keep following us anywhere. So first, let's focus on there and see if that's an option. Try to take time to really know yourself and start appreciating yourself (not necessarily love/like, but at least get along well/respect yourself to begin with): journal/think about who you are, what you want, what you need from others, what hurts you for real (it's not just insults and people making you feel not enough: it's probably that you believe them and let their behaviour -also when it has nothing to do with you- mean something negative about you. But are they right for real? I don't think so, and you don't either from what you write. So, look within to find your own worth: focus on what good you have, on all the successes in your life, even the smallest ones. On what is lovely about you -not according on others-. Everything counts. And try to see when those insults happen in your life: is there a possible trigger happening for your parents? Sometimes we're just the nearest emotional dump for them, that's why the most of the insults. Not saying you don't have to feel hurt or that they are right to behave like this, at all, welcome all of your emotions and take care of them -cry too! I'm sorry ofc but crying is of huge help for us and our emotional balance-, but as I said, maybe realizing this can help you to not make those insults mean something about you, not picking them up and making them yours and keep reminding yourself of them -please don't do that, let them go: they are not about you or do not define your worth, ever. You are not those insults, you're much more: see that, remeber that and that alone. Remember the positive, as a photo would-. And those insults happen related with a specific event -again, very likely a trigger in your parents-, they are not related to your whole self/general self, so put them in the correct perspective and leave them there, do not put them in your pocket to always look at them as an old photo of you: that's not you. It's hard work, it may take a while ofc to get your mind used to not feel like you're unsafe and unloved, but you can do that).

I think that something that is missing in your home is communication: you can ofc help with chores or anything regarding the house, you can have family time in which you exchange opinions respectfully with your parents, but ofc you also need time for your own to spend as you want. Also to game and escape everything... just remember that you also need to take time for you, so using gaming as a way to escape problems isn't helping you right now. I understand and totally support your coping mechanism ofc, but if you really need to concentrate on yourself at this point and you really need to feel peace, love and understanding, then I suggest you to reduce the gaming time and divide it in half gaming and half self work. Start finding peace love and understanding within you, for you. Feeling like you want them but continuosly waiting for them from the outside/other people as a confirmation you really are worthy and deserving of them, doesn't work. You'll always make others' bad/negative behaviour, even occasional one and unrelated with you, mean that you are not deserving of that, and it will always make you feel bad about yourself and resentful towards yourself and others. So make a turn: give to yourself. Make yourself feel deserving of love and support. Give yourself random small treats (doesn't have to be money related, even just making yourself a nice meal or starting a hobby you'd like to start Idk), or whatever you want. But do it with appreciation at least and care. Mother yourself. And find ways to respectfully communicate your boundaries with your family while working on compromise: eg. ask them what type of help may need from you but remind them you need to unwind as well (even on your phone), and you don't have to run to help them either unless it's ofc objectively necessary. Most of our (human) needs are created by urgency to have them met and resolved asap, so always remind yourself that there's time, and almost nothing needs an urgent solution. And it doesn't mean it's gonna be bad or end bad if it takes time. it's all okay.

I really hope you start looking within and seeing how lovely, beautiful and nice you are. See your worth and that random insults do not mean you are suddenly bad or anything. At all, ever. Do not be scared of saying that you got hurt by someone's words either and to ask for more appreciation and support. At times we need to be more open with talking about our needs, and it's okay to have moments in which we need more support/care from others. It's okay to be vulnerable and be the one in need of others and not being in control, especially if we've always been the one in control. Just remember to be there for you and do not dissociate from yourself or push yourself away, even if you did it to save yourself (you did well). It's time to come back home within. :)

I hope this helps you at least a little. Take care and all the best!

[gamesimp]

Mr. American Pie - A Mafia 3 Fanfiction (Part 2)

Note: long time no post, I suck at this so I tried doing more effort this time ughh.

Life with Donovan was perfect, we managed to get a new house in the suburbs, we managed to balance crime and a normal life. I was a co-leader of the Southeast Asian-American Triads. Consisting of mostly Vietnamese and Filipino immigrants who look for money, power and refuge from the War in Vietnam or the racist American society who looks down on them. But as my main job, I work as a manager at the shitty airport where I always need to rid the runway of gators. I thought being able to manage the airport was a good decision since it is Southeast Asian-American turf. As of Donovan, he still is Lincoln's advisor.

It was a summer sunday afternoon and it was absolutely burning. I decided I would stay in my skivies to cool myself down. While I was making some iced tea in the kitchen. I heard the doorbell ring. I picked up my gun but the person at the doorbell started to ring it impatiently.

"im coming wait right there!"

I ran towards the door and opened the door halfway while hiding my gun. I loomed to see who was outside and there stood a woman.

"Uhm, isn't Mr. Donovan supposed to live here?"

She asked.

"Yeah, why do you ask?"

"Im an old friend of his, Im Jackie, Jackie Grimaldi."

"Oh, I think hes told me about you."

"Can I come inside?"

"yeah, come in."

I lead her to the living room.

"are you (your name)?"

She asked while I brought Iced tea to the living room.

"Why are you asking?"

"Youre from Sinclair Parish RightYou killed an entire bunch of klan members because they killed your Filipino-American family and neighbors?"

"oh that's me! Where did you get that info?"

"I remember you! You we're also close to Mr. Clay!"

Donovan finally arrived. They had a short chat about reminiscing about the past back in Vietnam.

I went back to the kitchen and looked at the calendar, it reminded me of the years I've spent with Donovan, and I realised we can't get married no matter what we do. We don't know any priests that could elope us. We only know Father James, (who ignores us unless hes about to say negative remarks to start a fight with Donovan or Lincoln after church)

I realise its time for me to go to work.

"Donnie! I'm heading out for work!"

"Have a good day at work!"

He yells back as i walk out the door.

I got to my new car, It was an AMC Pacer, not the quickest but at least, it isn't too flashy.

I turn the key and the engine comes on. I tune the radio to WNBX and it plays "Barracuda" by Heart. I went on my way to the airport and started my job. I was in my office when the phone rang.

"It's me, Lincoln. Make sure cops aren't settin foot on that runway, we got a shipment of stolen cars from Japan coming in!"

"sure thing buddy!"

I walked towards the runway and conversed with a Japanese man.

"Hello sir, please to meet you!"

I yelled and bowed as the jet engines roared around us.

"Kuray-San (Clay-San) has started operations with the Yakuza! But we need your help removing the communist gangs from here!"

"The bratva if im right?"

I asked

"Yes mister, we, the Yakuza need your help to get the Russians out of the picture, they always steal our products! And they seem to dislike Mr Clay San's work!"

"understood! I'll notify him immediately!"

I said as the Yakuza members got into his Toyota limousine and was escorted by a bunch of Datsun Z's and other JDM sport cars. I decided to drive to the bar and tell Lincoln about it.

I parked by the backdoor. I walked to the backdoor panting and in a hurry. I knocked 3 times. I anxiously waited for Lincoln to open the door. The door burst open.

"Hey there! Whats the rush?"

"We need a meeting at the plantations!"

I quickly replied.

We all arranged a sit down with 5 other bosses, Burke, Vito, Cassandra, and two new underbosses. Sister Ling who is in the Chinese Triads, and Rafael Guzman, from the Colombian cartel.

"Ok guys, listen up! Donovan will present new enemy for the Clay Crime family and for all of you!"

Donovan used a corkboard for is presentation.

"basically, these Ruskies want half of all our business, but ever since Lincoln didn't agree with the deal, they started disrupting rackets and trade with the other international gangs. We need to show these fucking communists thay we dont give a shit, and they can go fuck themselves go back to Mother Russia!"

"all right!!"

I said and the other underbosses started hooting and laughing.

[fadedstarsfms]

Kesandu Elsayed Intro

MAGGIE, 21+, CST; SHE/HER. | if you’re hearing SEVERED CROSSED FINGERS by ST. VINCENT playing, you have to know KESANDU ELSAYED (SHE/HER; CIS WOMAN) is near by! the 40 year old ROMANCE AUTHOR & PROFESSOR has been in denver for, like, THIRTY YEARS. they’re known to be quite CYNICAL, but being CARING seems to balance that out. or maybe it’s the fact that they resemble WUNMI MOSAKU. personally, i’d love to know more about them seeing as how they’ve got those STARING AT THE BLANK PAGE BEFORE YOU, HOLDING A SECRET, & TRYING TO GET YOUR LIFE BACK ON TRACK vibes. and maybe i’ll get my chance if i hang out around the CHERRY CREEK DISTRICT long enough!

cheating tw, death tw, car crash tw

★𝘽𝙖𝙨𝙞𝙘 𝙄𝙣𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙢𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣★

Birth Date: March 3, 1983 Zodiac: Pisces Gender: Cis Woman Pronouns: She/Her Sexual Orientation: Pansexual Romantic Orientation: Demiromantic

★𝘼𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚★

Height: 5′8″ Faceclaim: Wunmi Mosaku Hair color/style: Short, Black Eye color: Brown Tattoos: She has a flower bouquet on her right forearm

★𝙋𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙮★

Positive Traits: Caring, Hardworking, Organized Neutral Traits: Independent, Honest, Private Negative Traits: Cynical, Confrontational, Stubborn Fears: Abandonment, Humiliation, Not being good enough Goals: Get over her writers block, Travel more, Live her own life Hobbies: Writing, Cooking, Watching shitty tv, Hanging out with her friends and family

★𝙋𝙖𝙨𝙩★

Hometown: Denver, Colorado Education: BA in English Fathers: WC on main for adopted fathers!! Siblings: Yazmin Elsayed & Reggie Elsayed

★𝙋𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙚𝙣𝙩★

Residence: Cherry Creek District Job: Romance Author & Adjunct Professor at University of Denver Significant Others: No one currently How Long She’s Been Here: Thirty Years

★𝘽𝙞𝙤𝙜𝙧𝙖𝙥𝙝𝙮★

Kesandu grew up with with two very loving adopted fathers along with two younger siblings. They were all a happy family who made sure to travel when the children were young to experience the world, before eventually settling down in Denver. Kesandu had always been interested in writing, making original stories for as long as she remembered, but it wasn't until college that she found that her specialty was writing romance.

Everyone joked that of course it was easy for the romance ideas to come to her, after all her college sweetheart and herself always seemed like the perfect couple. Kesandu fell for them fast and hard and soon after the two of them were married. While Kesandu was supporting her husband's dream of writing the next Great American Novel™️ (yes unfortunately he was also a male author), she was writing her own novels that she never intended to see the light of day. It wasn't until her husband's publicist found some of her writings that she was encouraged to get her work out to the public, and to her surprise it was a hit. Luckily for the world, Kesandu had many ideas already written and just needed to be polished. Soon Kesandu became a well known name within the romance genre and housewives everywhere loved her.

As much as her husband tried to hide his jealousy that Kesandu was becoming more and more famous, it became clear and started to put a strain on their relationship. He eventually started cheating and eventually became less and less worried about covering his tracks. She was about to confront her husband and try to come to a solution with their relationship when she received a call that he had died in a car crash. Not only that, but his partner was in the car with him and passed away as well. She tried her best to keep it out of the press that he was with someone else, after all she didn't want her reputation to be tarnished, but as the years passed she's feeling more and more angry about it.

Now Kesandu has not written a book in years since her husband died, how can she write about a couple being happy when she so clearly had failed in her own relationship? She has since taken up a teaching position at the University of Colorado and has started volunteering her time at the local theater. She wants to write but hasn't gotten over her writer's block.

★𝙒𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝘾𝙤𝙣𝙣𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨★

It Happened To You - This will be a WC sent in the main but this will be the partner of the person her husband was cheating with. This could be so much fun and dramatic just the two of them knowing what really happened.

Close Friends - She's been here for a while so they've probably known each other if you're a local!

Author Friends - Are you an author? Want to be an author? Here's your chance to have a best selling author as a friend!

Students - She's mostly been teaching the last two or three years or so. Maybe she has taught your muse!

Fans - She left her last book on a cliff hanger with no plans to continue it, maybe you have a bone to pick with her because of it! Or in general maybe you like her stuff (even if it's not romance, I'm sure she has other genres out there that haven't been as big of a hit as romance)

Literally anything please !!

★𝙋𝙡𝙖𝙮𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩★

Severed Crossed Fingers by St. Vincent

Washing Machine Heart by Mitski

Night Shift by Lucy Dacus

Not Strong Enough by Boy Genius

I Wish I Were The Moon by Neko Case

The Night We Met by Lord Huron

A Lack of Color by Death Cab for Cutie

Sea of Love by Cat Power

Linger by The Cranberries

Ritual Union by Little Dragon

[cryptwrites]

Writing LGBTQ+: Asexuality

Jump scare! Gay people! So hi, on my quest to become a better writer, I read. A lot. And watch shows. And while the LGBT rep is getting a bit better... kinda... the asexuality rep is not! At all! Podcasts are like, the once source of representation I see that does it right. And even then, it's kind of iffy! So what do we do about it? We take advice on writing asexual people directly from the source. Hi I'm crypt and I'm ace, and I'm gonna tell you how tf to write asexual people into your stories.

So just like everything else, everyone's experience with asexuality can be, and is going to be different. The label itself can mean a lot of different things depending on the person. Some asexual people don't experience sexual attraction, but they can experience other attraction forms. Aside from sexual attraction, you can experience romantic, aesthetic, physical, platonic, and emotional attraction. So there are many different ways that attraction can be formed.

Some individuals experience no sexual attraction. Some people identify as asexual and experience sexual attraction only under certain circumstances. In that case, they may go by a different term or choose to label themselves as something else. But it doesn't take away from their asexual identity.

Identify your character

When writing an asexual character, the first thing to ask yourself is, are they also a romantic? Do they have a desire for a romantic relationship? But Suprise! Asexuals can and cant be romatic!

Basically this means that some asexuals are romantic, which means while they don't experience sexual attraction. They do enjoy romantic things such as being married, having a romantic relationship with their significant others, kissing, holding hands, and things generally associated with romance. Likewise some asexuals are aromantic, which means they don't experience romantic attraction as well as sexual attraction. This is commonly referred to as being aroace online!

So, it can be tough when you're writing because many people generalise that asexuals don't want romantic relationships. Sometimes it is easier to make a character who's asexual and aromantic. But if at all possible, make it clear that those two are not the same thing. Knowing your characters as well as you know yourself will be one of the most important things to do when writing any character well.

Sexual relationships

Some asexual people are sex-repulsed, which is self-explanatory, and some are sex interested. A lot of people call this sex-positive, which is fine, but that presents the idea of being sex-negative. While people can be sex-negative, it tends to be more puritans than asexual people who are sex-negative.

If you are a non-asexual person writing an asexual character, do not have them have sex. At all. You do not have the scope to be able to balance that writing of an asexual character who's decided to have sex for whatever reason. If you are an asexual person, do whatever you want to because you have that experience.

Asexuality is normal

One of the easiest ways to express sexuality on the page is to name it. If you're writing a book set in a time period where we have the vocabulary for asexuality, call it what it is. It doesn't do anyone any good to dance around it and pretend. If your character is set in the time period where they are able to call themself asexual, have them do that. Asexual people are usually pretty chill and proud of their identity.

As I said earlier, representation for asexual people is pretty much non existent, so if you have the chance in your writing to spell it out that your character is asexual. Do so. Don't dance around it, just come out and say it. As a queer person myself, I hate when writers allude to a characters sexual identity but don't ever confirm it within the writing, usually because they want to appease homophobic cishet people. Now some characters might not label themselves, and that's cool too, but if you choose to do this, please make it clear someway else.

When you're writing an asexual character, try hard not to make them an alien or robot or another race of beings that are all asexual. *Shakes you violently* we're people to dammit. We have feelings and emotions and we experience everything else life has to offer! With this being said, you may want to write a demisexual character, and that's fine. But then you have to make it clear that that is a demisexual character. Now, your character may identify with the asexual label, and that's cool too, but make that clear in your writing.

Careful of representation

Asexual people belong to the LGBTQ+ community, and they are queer. Whether they're homoromantic or a heteroromantic person, they're still LGBTQ+. Some queer folk, like myself, enjoy reading about asexual people (As long as its done right) because it makes us feel seen, like we're real people and not just concepts.

So, you have to be careful writing asexual characters because there are so few, especially canonically asexual characters, out there in the world at the minute. 

Avoid social awkwardness

Examine your attraction model and see where that leaves you and how you can build a model of attraction for a character who is asexual. Ask yourself these questions:

• What is it you like about a person?

• How quickly do you think about your character?

• How does that make you feel internally and externally?

Does your heart pound in your chest? You can usually figure out all of the non-sexual aspects of your relationship building, and therefore you can build an asexual character based on those factors. So it is the best way to do it because it's fairly realistic.

Don't hurt the community

Many people who have experienced trauma can become sex-repulsed, usually for a limited time. But they often can recover from it. So those people are not asexual. It labels them asexual against their will and damages them because they don't want that. But it's also damaging to the asexual community. Then it's thought that asexuality only happens when some trauma is involved in making them that way, which is entirely untrue.

If something has happened to you and you feel that you would be most comfortable identifying as asexual, then that's perfectly fine. Go ahead and do that. I'm only making it clear that writing a character who has had trauma is sex-repulsed because that trauma does not make them asexual. For example, I myself am Asexual, and I also have experienced sexual trauma. I was asexual before my trauma occurred and I still am. I know my asexuality has nothing to do with my trauma and vice versa.

Notes

Asexual people can be of any race or any agenda. Also, they can have different romantic attraction levels. There's such a thing as aromantic and romantic. Typically, romantic attraction falls into the same basic set as sexual attraction. So most people are romantic, but asexual people tend to divide their attraction model.

People tend to divide them out of attraction so that they are always asexual. But sometimes, they're always romantically attracted to one specific group, whether that group is the same gender, opposite gender, multiple genders, or whatever.

So, it's a thing to be aware of when writing asexual characters characters. When you can afford them, mix it up. Be aware of these stereotypes, so you don't accidentally fall into them. It is very easy to do, and then you've got to write yourself out of it once you get that.

[thecalmdaisy]

Love Phobia

Values

When it came to relationships, I used to get the short end of the stick. I was always the one constantly giving more affection, giving more time, and giving more care while only receiving less than half from others. And, of course, it hurt because I cared and wanted to build something that would last a lifetime with someone. But life always had something else in the cards for me. Many times in the past, I used to stay around in stagnant relationships because I always seemed to imagine the best in people—not knowing that one day they would stab me in the back and try to throw me off balance in my emotions. But, as I think back on each past lover, I never see any hate. I only see lessons that helped me grow into a better woman, and for that, I am thankful. If it weren’t for me being broken, I would've still been that naive young lady, who didn’t have her values in check. But as each day passes by now, I continue to evolve happily into the new me, the true me, the one who holds her values and standards to the utmost high because I know now more than ever that I am deserving. And let me tell you, it's a beautiful feeling when you finally realize your worth and know that you're deserving of everything you ask for because you know that you carry those exact qualities, and there's nothing wrong with expecting someone to do the same for you. A relationship is meant to be equal, not unbalanced.

Learning to Trust Again

So, now that my values are in check and mental wounds have been healed, it is time for the next obstacle to begin. And that is the obstacle of vulnerability to someone new. Now, in my personal life, I have chatted here and there, but I never seem to stay focused on anyone because that lingering thought of starting over and wasting my time again really scares me. What do I do? Sabotage, sabotage, and sabotage every connection known to mankind. At first, I didn’t even notice I was doing it until I looked up one day, almost two years after my last serious relationship, and started to think and realize how closed-hearted I had been with my emotions to others. And really, at first, I didn’t see it as a problem until I went deep within and asked myself a few questions, such as, Don’t you want to get married one day? Do you want to have a baby on your own? And lastly, do you not want to experience a balanced relationship? After I answered each question, I knew deep down I wanted something real, at least once in my life when it came to a lover. And I knew in order to build a successful relationship, I would have to put myself back out there into the unknown and trust that not every guy in this world has bad intentions, even though in the past I have encountered many bad apples who covered their bruises until they were picked from the tree. But that is what our intuition is for, right? It's a guide we all have for free within us as we roam this world, being our true selves and enjoying life safely, knowing that one day that person will appear.

Closed Hearts.

To all my closed-hearted friends, let's end this fear with confidence in ourselves, to know that we will choose the right one when the time comes because we have grown so much through our pain and learned what is meant for us in love and what is not.

Love you to the moon and back, "V”

"Be patient. Sometimes the one you're waiting for will be divinely put on your path when God knows you have healed and you're ready to accept love wholeheartedly again."

A few Before You Date Warnings/ Questions!

Please don't settle for less.

Don't ignore those red flags.

Be careful, a lot of people out here are crazy.

Do they seem codependent?

They got negative vibes, time to say goodbye.

That hygiene got to be fresh.

Dry communicators need to be quenched.

Will the relationship be balanced?

Don't rush anything, time will tell all.

Do they put in the work constantly?

Do they make you feel secure?

Emotionally stable or nah?

[justsoohi]

Dream Maker/ Episode 1

(A few days later)

Tomoya: Hah~·····

(Since then, the meeting has gone without delay and the content of the project has almost been decided)

(And then, Since it's really small stuff, Saegusa-senpai will take care of miscellaneous duties...)

This is going really well~.....

(No, yeah. It's going really well. at first I was worried about it. Ant yet—)

hah~...... this gloomy feeling in my chest won't go away.......

or rather. What is this? Why is it bothering me all the time?

It's so hard to get a clear view that I'm starting to think I'm sick...... Uugghh. What if I'm really sick or something!?

No, let's calm down. It's not like that. There was nothing wrong in the health checkup I did before entering ES

I've heard that there's something called "wedding blue" that makes you feel depressed before you get married. I wonder if this is similar to that?

I'm not getting married, so november blue?

....hah. what the hell am I saying? I've never heard of it

(ugh...... I'm so confused that I'm trying to make sense of it all by myself. I'm feeling even more empty.....)

I think I'll go out on the patio and enjoy the sun for a while? Hajime said it's good for when you're feeling down

It's not like I have anything to do. It's been a while since I've had time to relax.

Tomoya: Mmm~! As I thought it's so nice to be outside~ and It's not that cold in November yet♪

That bench over there looks like it would be just right with a lot of sun, hmmー?

Wow. It's a poinsettia♪

Did someone put it there? Or maybe it was there before. I don't pass by here often so I just didn't notice

Fufu. It's so beautiful~ There aren't many colorful things in winter.

Besides, When I look at the poinsettia's, I feel that Christmas is coming soon~ and I get so excited♪ I wonder if this is what you call a tradition~

Whoa!? Fugyah!?

Rinne: What's that·····? If Isn't it Shirosuke, my bad I didn't see you so I tripped over my own feet. Are you okay? you're not hurt are you?

Tomoya: Oh, no. I'm fine. I shouldn't have crouched in a place like this. Please don't worry about it

By the way that Shirosuke is me isn't it? I don't know why you call me that.....

Rinne: What not? Because you're pure white so it's "pure" "shiro"suke—shirosuke. ....Isn't it normal?

Tomoya: It's not normal! Please don't name people like fluff fairies.

Rinne: Ma~a ma~a, don't worry too much about every little thing!

Anyway, what was Shirosuke doing crouching down in a place like this? Are you burying something in your bellybutton¹? I'll keep it a secret so give me a share

Tomoya: This senpai is the worst!?

I wasn't doing that at all, and even if it really was a hesokuri , please don't rob your juniors in a light-hearted manner.

I just took a look at this potted plantー Come to think of it, I didn't break anything just now did i!?

.....Ah, it didn't break. Thank god~. If it was broken, it would be bad for the person who put it up here, and I would feel sorry for this poinsettia

Rinne: A poinsettia? Ah, that potted one?

Tomoya: That's right. Someone must've put it here so I was looking at it, thinking, " it's so beautiful"

When you see poinsettias, you start to think that Christmas is coming soon~ and you are looking forward to it?

Rinne: No, I don't think so

Ah~, I thought it looked familiar. Is that the one that is often displayed at Christmas time?

It's not fun, but I don't hate the color. Because The red color somehow spins victory

Tomoya: Now that you mention it... But a negative balance is also called a deficit, isn't it? It's a strange image to have the exact opposite.

Rinne: Oi. Don't remind me of a word I don't like.....

Oh, so that's why I'm losing at pachinko!? What if wear all black next time!?

Tomoya: Even if you wear all black, you will lose when you lose. I think that's what gambling is all about.

Rinne: Stop it. Don't answer me seriousl every time I say something

Well, let's not talk about that, so? looking at this poinsettia means that Shirosuke is also looking forward to Christmas?

Tomoya: well, obviously I'm looking forward to it like everyone else

Rinne: Hmm. That's good for you

Tomoya: Aren't you looking forward to that kind of thing Amagi-senpai? Like the weaving tree. Or enjoying eating delicious food together and receiving presents.

Tomoya: I mean. Aren't gifts always nice, no matter how old you are?

Rinne: You know... Nobody's going to give me a present though?

Tomoya: Ah. I'm so sorry

Rinne: Don't look at me with that kind of pity.

Well, that's how it is. Adults have nothing to do with Christmas

Kids are great because they have so many events. I bet you have a fun event once a month, don't you? I wish you could share the fun with me.

Tomoya: .......Oh, I see!

That's it! That's the one!

Rinne: Huh? What's with you all of a sudden?

Tomoya: um you see, I found out the cause of the gloomy feeling that had been bothering me for a long time, but now that I know the cause, the feeling has become even stronger.......?

Rinne: Huh? What the hell?

Tomoya: (Amagi-senpai's line made it clear now)

(The cause of the weird gloomy feeling in my chest that i've been feeling since the meeting is that..)

(Everyone thinks Christmas is for the children, not for them).

¹ : الهيسوكري (Hesokuri) في اليابان تقليديًا تتحكم ربة المنزل في ميزانية العائلة حتى لو الرجل موجود يعيلهم، ف الزوجة احيانا تاخذ احتياطات سرية تحتفظ فيها عادة لحالات الطوارئ أو الشيخوخة، او بعد ممكن تكون الفلوس الي يحتفظ فيها الشخص لنفسه ف المسمى ذا عموما ينقال عنه ( تخبئة الفلوس في سرة البطن) وريني يحسب تومو يخبي فلوس هناك🙏🏼

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[kevin--of-desert-bluffs]

Hey! Uh, WTNV is still going! And though it's never going to be without issues (see above about how we will always be bettering ourselves) it has and will continue to change and adapt and try it's hardest to have diversity and yeah, leftist messages.

There are canon they/them only characters and it's not brought up as an issue! It's the first show I saw that had characters use only they/them, much less without it being some Big Deal and criticized by a least one character.

And although race for most characters is left ambiguous for the fans (which has caused it's own problems in the past but now has artists diversifying their headcanons) there are canon latine and SEA characters explicitly and many are assumed canon POC in some respect.

The cast itself is also quite diverse and they make efforts in their casting all the time.

No mention of Christianity (though their are angels) but characters who are Muslim and Jewish exist!

There's lots of rep of how trauma impacts a person for years to come and a whole thing about how a character in a wheelchair doesn't need to be 'fixed'.

The gay protag couple? Married with a kid.

Y'all want canon wlw? Got it! And canon bi characters too.

There's so many messages which are anticapitalism, critical of gun control arguments, surveillance states, unfair justice systems, incompetent and dangerous police forces, incompetent government etc you name it there's a parody or criticism of it. As it progresses it tackles modern and relevant topics still.

It also tackles issues like trauma, balancing work and home, sexuality and religion, growing older, being forgotten, family dynamics including alternative families, racial appropriation*, ableism, relationship issues, the importance of community etc

Are these issues portrayed perfectly? No, because nothing is perfect. *Do they sometimes get really misunderstood by listeners and non-listeners alike? Sure.

But WTNV is an evolving piece of art that came out swinging and hasn't stopped. Please, give it a chance.

Also, 'problematic' isn't the same as 'offensive' or 'irredeemable'. All media is problematic or soon will be as we progress. Your power is the ability to understand or critically assess how and why and what they really mean and the impact they're having overall. Being overly negative is going to run you absolutely dry of art and media which brings you joy and actually tries to be something.

what the fuck. hey why are yall classifying WTNV as "ancient problematic media" because people liked it in 2013. am i not FUCKING allowed to like things if they're not from 2018 or later. i refuse to forget about it just because the new-age tumblr gays replaced it with the penis archives or whatever. fuck you

[seinrobinendo]

Telephone Tale chapter 2 :Curse

We see both Kafka and kaguya and granpa standing in the classroom.

Both kaguya and Kafka look at granpa in surprise.

Kafka : what the hell are you talking about granpa?

Granpa: listen it is both your parents decision.

Kaguya suddenly gets a phonecall.

Kaguya : it is dad.

We see kaguya going to attend the call.

Kafka : what is going on granpa?

Granpa :wait till kaguya comes back.

We see kaguya coming back to the hall.

Kaguya : Dad said to listen calmly to what granpa has to say, it is both of our parents decisions.

Granpa : okay listen to me

Granpa : there is a curse running through kaguya’ family. It arises from the fact that a certain princess kaguya (ancestor of our kaguya) denying an emperor her hand in marriage. This denial turned out to be a curse which ran through the family.it appears Every 10th generation. It was only found to be the curse that was created form that denial only during its last appearance.

Kaguya : what does the curse do.

Granpa : it results in the violent death of the first born child.

Granpa: last time the line was continued by means of adoption. Fortunately the curse does not affect adopted children.

Kaguya and Kafka who are visibly shocked

Kaguya : that is good.

Granpa : this is where Kafka comes in. As you know our family also has a curse.

Kafka : oh that one.

Granpa :our family has the curse of being too family oriented. Well in a sense.

Kaguya : family oriented? How is that a curse

Kafka : exactly right? The word curse has negative connotation.

Granpa : well this curse originated when certain ancestor of our family denied to go to war on behalf of his country. He belived that war only leads to pain and that his wife needed him to stay at home rather than fight a pointless war and die.

Granpa: He theorized that only a few things are worth dying for.

Kafka :He carved that into a stone tablet that is still placed at home.

Granpa: however this denial, also invited the curse that if there is a person who relentlessly pursue his dreams in the expense of family life. Both his family and his dreams would be lost.

Granpa : for generations people of our family has strived for a delicate balance between two, family and dreams

Granpa : but as we all know there are some dreams and dreamers for whom conventional family life is not possible. Granpa pauses for a moment as if remembering something.

Granpa : kaguya ‘s curse starts from this January onwards.

Kaguya : this is October. But wait a minute I won't be married and won't have children atleast for the next 10 years.

Kaguya : Iam only 20 now.

Granpa:only a curse can nullify a curse. Through the process of marriage, both of your destines are tied together. Both of you become one. Kaguya’s curse will be nullified.

Granpa : you can either take up this burden and end the curse for all generations to come Kaguya or you can adopt a child and the curse would continue

They both look at each other.

Kafka :you mean we have to both get married.

Granpa : I know you guys are just good friends.

Kafka : from this morning we are more than friends

Kaguya turns towards him as he says this

Granpa gives a sly smile

Granpa:oh thats good.

Kafka :but isn't this moving too fast.

Granpa :kaguya’s curse takes effect from January onwa-

Kaguya : but what about Kafka’s curse.

Granpa : whether it will be cured? I don't know about that, but it is possible. One thing I can assure you though.

Granpa : I too carry the curse Kafka has, which means even if this arrangement may not give any advantage to him, it certainly won't hurt him.

Kafka looks at his Granpa

Kafka remembers Granpa’s words

Granpa (v. O) : don't close your eyes Kafka, don't close it.

Kafka sees in his mind kaguya sitting in classroom. Kaguya confessing. Kaguya giving birth.

Kafka( v. O) :see what others can't see Kafka.

Kafka : I have decided, I would marry Kaguya and protect her. I mean

Kafka turns to her

Kafka : I mean if your willing to accept me.

Kafka ( inner voice) : she has little to no choice in the matter. Knowing her she would accept this arrangement

Kaguya looks at him

Kaguya : yes yes I accept. I already intended to marry you when I confessed.

Both of them look at each other as if they were surprised by what was said by Kaguya.

[detectivereads]

Meet Your Baker by Ellie Alexander

This post is pure fan entertainment, I’m not being paid.

10/5

Ok I got the first book of the Bakeshop series so I can know who’s who, and what the heck was going on.

Now this book to put it bluntly was…. awesome. The way it was written really made you think that you were in Ashland. Jules is a wonderful, realistic character. Each of the characters were very realistic in how they behaved.

Jules was a brilliant sleuth, and the story itself did balance the mystery and her personal problems very well. I did feel it kind of odd Jules and Thomas were together (not “together” together) throughout this book, I did like how Jules told him that she was married, and she didn’t want to lead him on.

I did like all the notes of Shakespeare in the book, it was nice that all the stores around Ashland was themed to him or named after one of his works.

The mystery was very interesting and well thought out, I got to the end of the story, and I still didn’t know who it was until they came after Jules. (I was thinking it was another character, I was hoping it was this other character so they could be arrested.) There were so many suspects in this book that I thought I would have a hard time keeping track of everyone, but I really didn’t, the characters were so unique and interesting that it was easy to keep track of who was who.

The victim who died, boy howdy, she was the most unlikeable person I have ever read; she had no filter I was surprised she lived as long as she did.  Nancy Hudson was a vile woman that would con people out of money and use people to the point of them breaking. Another equally unlikeable character was Richard Lord; he gave major shady vibes.

The overall mystery was great, it had me guessing of who killed Nancy Hudson through the whole book. The end of the book, whoa I didn’t see the altercation of the murderer and Jules coming, they were actually crazy, I haven’t seen to many culprits in cozy mysteries going crazy like that.

Next to Jules my favorite character has to be Lance. As I said in “Caught Bread Handed” he is so chaotic that you can’t help but like him. I couldn’t find one negative thing about the book this is one of my favorite books in the series.