#(spoiler alert it fits both lmao)

[enough-spider-noir-stuff]

why is he so depressed??? my poor boi T~T

[myslutwritings]

Playing minecraft headcanons with the uppermoons (+Muzan & Enmu)

this will be a modern!AU (they’re still demons tho)

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(this is also my first post lmao)

Muzan

okay it takes a HELL ton of convincing to have Muzan himself play with you.

he views any sort of game as ‘dumb’ or ‘childish’

you try to remind him that it’s not in the slightest but it doesn’t do anything much (bro is stubborn)

he’s the demon king? why should he associate himself with the idiotic games mortals play?

eventually he goes give in (bc he loves you in his own weird demonic way..)

strictly on survival mode. doesn’t care what you do but he sees creative mode as a ‘easy way out’ and he wants to be a hard ass (no surprises here)

kills any mob in sight and any mob that comes near you (claims he does it because he’s the demon king and wants to overpower everything and everyone but in reality he just wants to look out for you)

loses his SHIT when he gets dies in the game (triggers his fear of death lol)

you made a joke about him being like the mobs in minecraft because they burn in the sunlight (like him)

he doesn’t play with you after that but he secretly enjoyed spending time with you! (shh, you’ll never hear it from him)

Kokushibo

doesn’t take too much convincing (thank god)

he lowkey enjoys trying out new things with you! you’ve always done everything for him so the least he can do is return the favor.

probably doesn’t really understand it at first so you gotta explain the game to him

gets frustrated easily in the game but it’s more of a silent rage. you take notice of it because his body language changes so it’s not exactly difficult to spot.

like muzan he’ll kill anything that goes near you. (he’s protective even in the game)

most likely will envy your game abilities. (it’s okay you’ll teach him!)

you find it cute that he’s so serious about it sometimes

The both of y’all share jobs in the game and end up creating a lovely little house!

spoiler alert he burns it down after he finds out you can burn things in the game. he did it for no reason whatsoever.

you don’t really mind all that much though. you’re just grateful you got to play with him!

Douma

douma loves and i mean LOVES playing with you!!

this man is bored. (like all the time) so doing something like this will definitely keep him occupied! but he may grow bored quickly because that’s just how he is.

he still adores playing with you though and wants to do it again!

he’ll praise you for how great you are at the game. literally head over heals for you<33

the type of mf to pick up a flower (specifically a rose) and drop it at your feet in the game.

pouts like a toddler when you don’t notice it:((

“Y/N?! didn’t you see the flower i dropped right in front of you!”

he’s clingy even in the game and will follow you around EVERYWHERE.

he is jealous of your building skills and begs you to build him a house💀

Douma’s fav biome is probably the ice plains spikes biome. anything that has to do with snow or ice!

he too also gets frustrated in the game sometimes and SUCKS at hiding it. he doesn’t have outbursts though (surprisingly)

most likely will rizz you up even in the fucking game😭

then after like a few hours of playing he gets bored and either wants to eat (women) or cuddle with you. (maybe both)

Akaza

Akaza is the most interesting to play with out of them all (because he’s just so goofy when playing)

the only thing that’s annoying is that he’ll chase danger quite literally for fun. he will fight anything. I MEAN ANYTHING.

i pity the mobs who (tried) to attack you..

game rage? it’s in his veins. (it’s semi-amusing to witness him get pissed off)

make sure he doesn’t punch a hole in your TV or your computer (whatever you play on) that shits expensive.

like during his battles bro uses only his fists to kill everything. weapons? nah. pro is anti-weapons. uses his fists for quite literally everything and will throw a fit when he dies.

he’ll praise you whenever you kill anything though! (he’s a sweetheart like that)

he’s like a guard dog even in the silly game. (over protective is an understatement)

he attempts to build you a house (it isn’t too horrible, surprisingly)

one time when the two of you were mining deep within the caves for diamonds Akaza found some and broke/mined it with his fist. (you got so pissed)

he apologized and found you some new ones though! thankfully, he didn’t use his fists to break the block this time.

overall, Akaza really does enjoy playing with you! he grows fond of it and now playing minecraft with him is one of y’all’s favorite things to do together<33

Hantengu Clones

(i’m writing the four of them all together because i’m lazy)

want to know what’s more than chaotic? playing some challenging game with 4 very emotional demons.

At first Sekido immediately rejects the idea of playing the game with you and his three other brothers (the hantengu clones are brothers in this AU)

After a shit ton of persistent begging from you and Karaku and Urogi he only submits in the end and plays (mostly because of you)

Karaku and Urogi literally are beefing the entire time (Sekido’s rage is at it’s boiling point because of those two jackasses)

Aizetsu cries like a baby whenever he accidentally kills anything (except for the mobs)

whenever he sees a mob his scaredy-cat ass sprints away in the opposite direction.

Urogi and Karaku bully him RELENTLESSLY for this. (Aizetsu is a victim)

Urogi is the type to secretly go into creative mode grab a shit tone of diamonds or netherite and is like; “Heyy, lookie what i found!!”

no one falls for his bullishit.

they all protect you in the game and show off in front of you. (it’s embarrassing)

Karaku is surprisingly good at the game but like Akaza he’ll chase danger for fun.

Aizetsu only feels safe around you so he’ll follow you around and cling to you in the game so his two brothers stop harassing him.

Sekido only plays for a few minutes before getting aggravated and just abandoning the game as a whole.

(he is the type to punch everyone playing the game. even you sometimes but Karaku and Urogi mostly fall victim to his attacks)

Sekido surprisingly leaves Aizetsu alone.

the five of you try to create a world where it’s just peaceful (Keep on dreaming, kid. that ain’t happening)

everything goes downhill, half of the world is ENTIRELY demolished and all of you died over 1000 times.

playing with all of them is too chaotic. you can’t really take it seriously. You only can when you’re playing with one of the clones one on one.

y’all didn’t play again after that madness. 😭

Gyutaro

now Gyutaro here is the only chill one to play with. (finally a normal one)

like Kokushibo, it doesn’t take that much convincing! in fact, he agrees to it almost immediately.

at first he is confused and doesn’t understand how to play minecraft but he is a quick learner and figures it out on his own.

Gyutaro doesn’t have a preference for survival or creative mode. He just does whatever you want.

Whenever y’all play in a survival world you two share tasks and duties and actually create a pretty decent looking world!

he still has your back though. Will kill any mobs that interfere with his little home he created with you.

he enjoys building houses and is surprisingly really amazing at it! he finds comfort in building.

however, whenever you, Daki and Gyutaro all play together it’s mostly him and Daki arguing and being all competitive. It’s mostly Daki’s fault because she’s the cause for half of the mayhem that happens in the world.

sometimes Gyutaro plays even without you. (he grew fond of the game quickly and likes the game)

the both of you play together everyday and go onto the same world every time because y’all created a beautiful old-fashioned city on there. (he cherishes it immensely and is insanely proud of the masterpiece of a world the two of you made as a team)

Daki

Daki is infuriatingly annoying but also entertaining to play with at the same time.

she is a giant rage quitter like Sekido and Akaza.

throws tantrums frequently over the smallest things that go wrong in the game.

she will be jealous of any item you get that’s better than hers.

this lil shit steals everything you earn that’s better than what she has. (you notice every time)

you confront her about it and she has the audacity to lie. (like girl yk damn well)

you end up taking your stuff back and she will BATTLE you for it. (you win these matches every time. that alone only adds to her angered state😭)

she will deliberately quit whenever something doesn’t go her way but later come back and declares she wants to try again.

it’s like a endless loop because this happens every. single. time.

(she’s such a brat istg)

will always steal your diamonds and put them in her chest and say she found them first.

while you’re asleep she will secretly go into the world and take all your shit and you’ll wake up back at square one.

(lowkey you want to stop playing with her)

y’all barely even work as a team but when y’all it’s always ha fight (mostly her fault btw)

once she notices your frustrations. She’ll level it down for you so no need to worry! (this earns your respect)

but whenever y’all are in creative mode shes so much more fun and enjoyable to play with!

you two usually build big ass mansions together and with y’all’s godly building skills you two make an incredible looking house and live in it together!

Enmu

Enmu absolutely looooves doing everything with you! he says yes immediately when you ask him to play with you.

after all he’s your personal simp. this fucker will gladly do whatever you say w/o any hesitation.

Enmu has actually heard of the game ‘minecraft’ before but never actually played it and barely knew what it was really about.

oh boy, but when he does he becomes OBSESSED.

I kinda feel like he dislikes survival mode and prefers to be in creative mode! but if you like survival mode he won’t mind trying it out with you.

he likes killing the animals for fun.. will randomly slaughter anything even if it has a family (bro is a sadist after all)

you tell him it’s not necessary to be doing that but he doesn’t care nor listen.

his love language is building you trains in the game. (you love them very much)

Enmu is usually very calm when he’s not on a mission so playing this game only soothes him further and he doesn’t act overly crazy and zesty like he usually does around Muzan

Builds trains every time y’all play and is somehow INSANELY skilled when building them (??)

Similar to douma, he’s the type to rizz you up in the game.

Sulks when you don’t notice him when he attempts to.

He constantly nags you to play with him some more and gets a lil upset when you become tired.

“Oh, Y/N!, how can you be tired? we’re having soooo much fun!!”

forces you to stay up just so he can introduce you his own train world he made for himself. (he named all the trains)

you’re out cold after playing with him every time. High key finds it adorable when you pass out after hours of playing with him. He’s so amused how humans can grow tired so easily.

[galaxy-lilies]

FINISHED THE HOTGUY ZINE AND AAAAAAAAH /POS

okay im going to put my thoughts under the cut cause OUGH this is going to be a long post LMAO

FIRST OFF can i just say how amazing and incredible the folk who organized the whole event are, they deserve absolute kudos

AND ANOTHER FIRST OFF: SHOUTOUT TO ALL THE LOVELY WRITERS, ARTISTS, EDITORS, ETC. WHO CONTRIBUTED YALL ARE INCREDIBLE

okay okay finally into the recap that was an amazing 3 and a half hours of my life

Pages 1-103:

When I first saw the heads up about how the zine was interconnected and skipping any part would potentially lead to some plot i was immediately intrigued then i was immediately hit with the other realization of "410 PAGES???? HELLO????"

the first comic was so fucking cute OMG LIZZIE'S DESIGN WAS SO CUTE AND THE SILLY SLIDESHOW HUMOR BETWEEN JOEL, SCAR, AND LIZZIE

"hold on let me make some edits-" "no let ME make some edits-"

the artstyle changing based on who was editing what, Joel just trying to support his wife, Scar purposely mishearing "cats" as "cash" absolute hilarity how i heart them all so

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AND THEN WE GET HIT WITH THE DOODY ART OOOOH MY DAYS CUTEGUY AND HOTGUY MEETING FOR THE FIRST TIME AAAAAAH

Grian rocking the cloak, Scar just absolutely confuzzled: THEYRE SOOOO *shakes them*

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and the shenanigans between Ren, Scar, and BDubs oh my god AND THE ON GOING BIT ABOUT HOW "if anyone says hotguy it immediately turns into the logo" it never fails to make me laugh

the early days of the mutation, the proposal of the union, PEARL'S LITTLE >:3c as she pressed publish OUGH

and the trail of petals grian left behind as he considered hotguy's proposal just *splat* i literally ate up all the art and the fics and the silly silly edits in this zine THEY WORLD BUILDING IS AMAZING

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speaking of world building: MUMBLR??? HELLOOOOOOO

THE ANON'S HAVING SILLY MUSTACHES BY DEFAULT

THE RANTING IN THE TAGS

THE MEMES

now i need to know, what does old mumblr *checks notes* teal? green? look like

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(at this point it was around 8 PM but after a long day i was already reaching the point of eepyness and i thought "surely i can finish reading the hOTGuY zine in one sitting!" spoiler alert: i did not)

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immediately when i saw the G Team comic i was reminded of the council of Grians LMAO Grian being the absolute chaotic one man band as he tries to collect all this evidence, the readers seeing Scar's means of transportation for the first time, and then *vine boom* SCULK

also ARIANA GRIANDE THE BELOVED HOW I HEART HER SOOOOOOOO i love all of the grians featured here, and the fact that permit office grian managed to make a silly appearance AND his permit shenanigans working in his favor- hE EVEN HAS THE "please hold." MUSIC- iconic i tell you, iconic

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I absolutely exploded into a million pieces seeing tibby's art then exploded again because "i can't see the end of the horizon...CUBFAN135- IS THAT YOU??!!?"

seeing the sculk snail follow behind scar idly, the fact that grian's only lead is cub ordering pizza like of all leads. but to be fair it does fit both of them LMAO

i am eating the sculk texturing btw it's very very tasty uwu

it's the fact that both of them turned to each other to yell "ARSON" like of course theyre at the ready to light things on fire

BUT THEN THIS PANEL

cub just over scar's shoulder like a sack of potatoes, the match already out of grian's hand, the sculk snail also there to witness the chaos that is about to ensue *chefs kiss* poetic cinema

also i would buy this shirt

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oh my gods the emails, the emails were so fucking funny i- KJSDFHDSJK

BDubs immediately trying to screen Cub out and Cub just continuing his shenanigans unperturbed, grian at his wits end trying to contact scar but of course scar is busy and cub just assumes it's some impersonation account until further notice, TGC trying to contact them but once again Mr. Fan135 Does Not Give A Fuck and he lives to cause mild annoyances and chaos, what a guy LMAO

their littol email icons are so cute, when i saw pearl's i was like "WAH PUPPERRRR"

i havent seen many email-format type beat story telling before so this was an absolute joy to explore the story through pearl's detailed emails, grian's panicked typing (how was mans typing and sending so quickly with 365+ lazer eyed chickens chasing him like a mad man + a green gob- i mean goatman), and both bdubs' and cub's concern and nonchalance. not to mention bdubs just nodding along and going "well cub you have proven yourself...and uh- added a totally not a virus to scar's phone- BUT you have proven yourself...." absolute sillies, absolutely iconic

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THE TWITTER BEEF HAD ME CACKLING OH MY GOD THE QUOTE RETWEETS i would pay good money to see that in real time oh my god

mumblr user hermitopia-explained you will always be famous

okay i'll admit it i was distracted by the scitties- BUT the social media handles and names being remade into hermit puns and the fact he's chilling on mending beach I CAN'T

AND OUR ETERNAL QUEEN JELLIE i literally let out a small squeal looking at her she is sO *gently holds her*

birthday gorl getting absolutely spoiled, as she deserves

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scar finding a cloak just to do the sailor moon meme: iconic, showstopping, one of a kind, amazing, talented- i love these two idiots

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and as a heads up i'm going to try and separate these into about 100 pages each! so expect the next reblog soon

[sceletaflores]

omggg pls explain the "just love me and eat me" UGH IVE BEEN DYING TO READ IT PLSSS

the title is so captivating like 😵‍💫😵‍💫

AH OMG ANON TRUST I'VE BEEN DYING TO POST IT! thanks so much for asking about it!

this is my sub!logan fic title, and it's a line from the movie bones and all! with loml taylor russell as maren and timothee chalamet as lee. plus it's also directed by luca guadagnino, who's one my favorite directors ever!

spoiler alert even though it came out like two years ago lmao, but the two main characters are both cannibals and lee says that line to maren near the end of the movie.

i tweaked it slightly, the whole thing is “I want you to eat me. I want you to feed. It's the easiest thing, Maren, love. Just love me and eat me, bones and all."

i felt that this fit the vibe of what this fic has turned into over the course of like two days haha, because what started as a little exploration of logan’s softer, more submissive side somehow got wrapped up in this dark, messy passion—hence, the "just love me and eat me" part.

the whole fic plays with this raw intensity and that sense of desire that kind of burns at both ends. it’s a mix of logan’s vulnerability and this hunger, emotional and physical, that just needs to be fed.

let me quit yapping...but it's such a good movie! i highly recommend watching if you think you can stomach it :)

now say it with me...sneak peek!

A deep, slow breath escapes him, and something in his eyes softens just enough.You lean closer, your fingers trailing up his arm, over his shoulder, until they thread into the hair at the nape of his neck.  You smile softly, pressing a gentle kiss to his forehead. He sighs deeply, leaning into your touch like a dog starved of attention from its master. His grip on your waist finally tightens, fingers pressing into your skin just enough to feel that edge of need—the need to let go. “You’ve been taking care of me all day,” you murmur, scratching your nails along his scalp softly. “Now let me take care of you.” You feel him shudder, a weak groan bursting from his slack lips. His hazy eyes search your face, pupils blown out and seeping into the warm hazel color like an oil spill over a lake. You tilt your head, lips grazing the stubble on his jawline, moving slowly, deliberately, until you can capture his mouth in a kiss. It’s soft at first, gentle, but you feel him melt into it, the sharp edge of his restraint crumbling as he kisses you back with a kind of hunger that fuels you. Logan’s hands slide up your back, fingers curling into the fabric of your shirt as you take control, deepening the kiss, coaxing him further into the moment. His mouth is warm and urgent against yours, the scrape of his teeth along your bottom lip sends a thrill down your spine.  His lips move over yours with a reverence that makes your chest tighten, as if each slick glide of your lips is an apology, a promise, and a plea all rolled into one. But you don’t want his apologies. You want his surrender.

kisses!

[dark-and-kawaii]

so my new Tav is called Sakina. 🩷 And of course I had to find a way to make her fit into the Kiwi Lore™ so here we are:

Zevlor and Sakina had a fling decades before the Descent – Zevlor wasn't even a Commander back then. Sakina travelled far and wide and usually offered her martial abilities. She's been called a "stone-cold bitch" more than once lmao. Sakina appears cold, haughty and biting, as witty as she is cutting, but once you know her you realize that underneath that typical drow exterior she's a caring person who yearns for a family in the loose sense of the term.

Sakina finds her way into Thay as she works for a travelling patron. Thanks to his connections she was introduced at court where she ran into Zevlor. They were both surprised to see the other lol but Sakina quickly used this connection to get herself a spot in Lofn's political entourage. Sakina's current ambition is to be Zevlor's right-hand man, though Zevlor is bit wary of her.

Aedric discovered the connexion between them and promptly told Lofn of course lmao. He hates Sakina and sees her as a homewrecker even though she is clearly not interested in Zevlor sexually or romantically. Aedric and Sakina bicker all the time and become each other's nemesis. They are so involved with each other it's starting to get weird. Why does it look like you guys are in a relationship..... Spoiler alert they end up making out lmao and Sakina becomes Aedric's fifth and, everyone hope, last wife.

Aedric’s footsteps echoed softly in the castles grand hall as he approached, his mind preoccupied with the recent discovery that had set his nerves on edge. He had overheard a conversation between Zevlor and Sakina, bits of their shared past drifting to him as he leaned against the wall, listening.

The newfound information had been unexpected, and he of course felt compelled to hastily tell his beloved sister.

It wasn’t hard to find her, she was in her sunlit chamber, staring out her balcony watching as Vyrmoth and Aetherion flew above the city- her hand resting on the swell of her stomach.

She turned to face him, her face softening slightly at his arrival, “Aedric, what a pleasant surprise. Is something wrong? You look troubled...” her face pinched with concern as he neared.

He shook his head and offered a gentle smile, he had not wanted to worry her but he could see it was already too late for that. He sighed and looked to her, “Sister, I-“ he started, but stopped, uncertain of how to begin. He looked to her belly and placed a hand on the small bulge, and he felt a pang of fear. He loved his sister, and he knew how much Zevlor meant to her… And how she looked at Sakina as a friend now, “I need to tell you something about Zevlor and Sakina.”

Lofn listened, her expression a mask of calm, though Aedric could sense the flicker of surprise beneath her composed exterior. She nodded, absorbing the information with a quiet grace that only deepened his respect for her. But he could see it, the way her lip quivered, how her brow furrowed… She was fighting the rage that bubbled beneath the surface. No matter how hard she tried to fight it, she was possessive over Zevlor, and she was not one who shared her things well… Even if it was from the past.

She smiled a bitter smile, and looked back out towards the sky. Her hand rested protectively over her stomach as she spoke, “I thank you, Aedric. I will speak with Zevlor later, for now though I will leave Sakina be. She has not mentioned this to me, and I would rather not force her hand in the matter. As long as she poses no threat to my child, or Zevlor, or even myself… there is no need to cause trouble...”

She paused, her voice a soft murmur, almost as if she were talking more to herself than Aedric, as if she were trying to convince herself, as if she were trying to talk down her inner dragon.

Aedric was Aedric though, and throughout the week, he found himself trying to get the Drow woman to up and leave Thay. Finding himself in a series of heated exchanges with Sakina. Their bickering was relentless, like two angry cats. It had been intentional, it was just his way of trying to protect his family. And Sakina was too prideful and stubborn to back down.

“Why don't you just go back to where you came from? Crawl back into the underground with the rest of your spider kin.” he snapped during one particularly volatile argument.

Sakina's eyes narrowed, a hiss escaping her, she took a step towards him and poked his chest roughly, her words a low snarl, “Why don't you admit you have no real power here, Aedric?” her words cutting deep, “You're not of Lofn's blood… Of the Queens blood…”

As she turned to leave, Aedric's hand shot out, gripping her arm with a force that surprised her. Yanking her back he glared down at her, a deep growl rumbling in his chest as their eyes locked.

Before he could even second guess himself, Aedric leaned in, capturing her lips with his own.

Her eyes widened, a startled gasp slipping past her lips, giving him the opportunity he needed. Forcing his tongue within her mouth, claiming her with his kiss.

She didn’t fight it, didn’t push him off her, instead she allowed Aedric to push her against the nearest wall, her fingers tangling into his long locks- her own tongue fighting against his.

Effortlessly, he bent down slightly and wrapped her legs around his muscular arms, hoisting her up… Pinning her body between him and the wall, his cock pressing firmly against her core through the fabric of their clothes.

His voice was low, his nose pressing against the softness of her neck, “Let me show you, who has no power here, Sakina. You have no power over me. Let me claim you... right now. Right here...” he ground himself against her, causing her breath to catch, her head to tip back, and her lips part, “I can't stand to watch you walk about this castle like you belong, when you don't. I can't stand seeing you around Zevlor and Lofn, acting like a part of this family…”

Her breath was ragged, but her words were defiant, her hips grinding back against him, her lips brushing against his ear, her tone teasing, mocking, almost challenging, her voice a purr, “If I'm not apart of the family, why are you so desperate to fuck me?”

They could act like they were still angry at each other, they could deny it, but their bodies didn't lie… And in truth, Aedric wouldn’t admit it, but he was tired of their endless game of cat and mouse. He wanted to catch her, and he was determined to make her his.

[papercute]

i am very insane about dead plate and want to rant about the fourth ending. idk if i need to put this here but just in case: spoiler alert for probably all the endings and secrets of dead plate, as well as warnings for violence, murder, and cannibalism.

it really surprises me how vince in the fourth ending doesn’t savour rody, like at all, instead just taking him to the freezer and the eerie sound of sawing playing over the credits. especially since at the beginning of the confrontation in “best served hot”, vince bites off rody’s ear, and then you can see him licking rody’s blood off his hands during their conversation. it’s like he is savouring rody and what he can get of him now that rody is fighting back against him. vince wants to eat rody as part of a dish in order to be able to taste again and feel whole. and yet, when he sees rody is slipping out of his grasp, he immediately resorts to just eating him live, portraying desperation and a willingness to just forgo his plans and start eating.

so when the player is too slow to fight off vince and he finally gets the opportunity to stab rody as he’d wanted to, it surprises me that he is still composed enough to just take him to the freezer and prepare him like any other slab of meat. rody is very obviously special to vince in some way, so it feels off to me that he treats rody in the same way he treated manon, who vince admits to not caring about. i honestly expected him to just start eating then and there. to pin rody down as he inevitably struggles and screams and just start ripping into him with his teeth.

though, with how special rody clearly is to vince, it could also make sense that he takes him back to the freezer to cut him up; preparing him properly as a meal instead of just eating him with no preparation or anything could be interpreted as a compliment or special treatment. but i still think this is too logical of a decision for vince in his current, desperate state. as in this ending, we (both rody and the player) are seeing vince in his truest form: his most monstrous and uncontrolled, so i don’t think at this point he would have had the sense to go prepare rody like an actual dish. i think he would have been to focused on the eating part and would just skip right to it.

i also think that this would be fitting because of how it continues vince’s harsh but intimate behaviour towards rody. vince is always rude but when rody comes to work soaking from the rain on day 2, vince dries rody personally, even though rody is very capable of scrubbing himself with a towel. and when rody drops the rubbish, vince slaps him, before immediately wrapping up rody’s (really quite minor) cut himself. again, rody would have been capable of caring for himself, but vince insists on taking care of him. and then there’s the intimacy of vince inviting rody to his home after work hours, but then making him work unpaid. pinning rody down after fatally injuring him and then consuming him felt fitting because of this; the physical closeness and the sexual connotations of vince putting his mouth to rody’s skin contrasted against the violence and danger of it all feels like a suitable escalation of their previous interactions.

but i do understand this ending in it’s original form from a gameplay perspective — a player who hasn’t gotten the hang of fending off vince in order to get their desired ending doesn’t want to watch another super long cutscene with more live cannibalism if they’re disturbed by that sort of thing, they just want to get back to their save point and try again. or maybe the creator couldn’t or didn’t want to make a scene like that. so i understand it, i just don’t really like it lmao

[luckydinosauur101]

! SPOILER ALERT !

I will be posting about Chapter 17 of “The Rehabilitation of Death” by @Bamsara for probably the next day or 3, including posts rambling about parts of both that chapter and many others before.

Please, if you do not want to be spammed with posts and reblogs; turn off notifications for when I post or something :)

WE STARTING HERE

FIRST OF ALL

Is this a reference to the 5+1 lmao?? Bro you ASKED for them to LITERALLY KILL THEMSELVES TO SEE YOU

SECOND OF ALL

“Without question, he closes them.” This entire chapter I noticed, especially as Narinder got more drunk, he was more willing and compliant with doing whatever Lambert told him to do, no fuss, no question. “Do this.” “Ok.” “Go over there and sit down” “alrighty”. Not even a fuss. I think it just shows how much he truly loves the Lamb, and only his sober pride stops him from just willingly letting Lambert take the lead

Haha cat’s neck goes -snAp- I thought of his head borderline 180’ing here

-Bam self-inserting their own drunken mood cuz they decided to get drunk while writing but then arson collapsed on himself-

I literally just ended up taking a picture of this entire scene here because.

I’m sure. I’m sure you can tell why.

I was listening to

I recommend listening to it it’s pretty good- very fitting to Trod (@-Bamsara again I may or may not have made my own trod playlist for songs I thought fit. And I may or may not like for people to give me their opinions on how they fit :3c)

And so I hit the “I’m sorry” part right before I read the “I relinquish the crown to you”. Fitting. Agonizingly. Fitting

AND AGAIN A LITTLE WAYS DOWN.

“Under all that angst and anger is a beating, human heart” as I read the

F U C K I N G.

“They do not have a heartbeat. They do not have a pulse. They will not rise.”

I HEAR THE LYRICS AS I READ IT.

I needed to take a second.

Because it really.

Really hurt.

That entire scene.

hurt.

[taifenggg]

The brain has been obsessing over pokémon lately again, and now I gotta ask the obligatory question:

What pokémon would be each character’s favourite/what type would they be a gym leader for?

YKNOW ITS FUNNY YOU SENT ME THIS CAUSE I ACTUALLY HAD MY OWN THOUGHTS ABOUT POKEMON X OBEY ME.

Here's my basic rundown and explanation for why I made things the way they are for my own Pokemon AU. I'm probably not going to do Mephisto, Raphael, and Thirteen in this unless people ask for it lmao.

long post under the cut

The Brothers:

Lucifer: Since he's the strongest avatar of sin, and technically Diavolo's right hand man he would probably be an Elite 4 member. Lucifer would most likely specialize in fire type pokemon with his signature pokemon being Houndoom(which can mega evolve) because he has Cerberus.

Mammon: I struggled a bit with Mammon's but ultimately I settled on him being a dark type gym leader. His signature pokemon is Honchkrow because of its crow motifs and how it kinda fits into the mob boss aesthetic which I think Mammon would love. His gym puzzle would probably look like a casino, so if you've ever played Persona 5, the gym puzzle would probably look a lot like Sae's palace and you have to play your way up to Mammon in order to challenge him. Also if you start getting upset or look sad he'll most likely panic and go easier on you.

Leviathan: The most obvious choice here is a water type gym leader. He literally sleeps in a bathtub and has a giant fish tank in his room lmaoo. I could definitely see his signature pokemon being Milotic because he thought Feebas was just a little guy and took it. And then he got mad when Mammon said Feebas was useless, so out of spite leveled up his Feebas and got high friendship with it so he could wipe the floor with Mammon using Milotic. His gym puzzle most likely consists of a TSL quiz and if you get anything wrong you get doused with water and sent back to the beginning of his gym. He's a sore loser though so if you beat him he might refuse to give you his gym badge and Lucifer has to intervene.

Satan: I feel like he'd be a grass type trainer just to spite Lucifer because he has fire types and he wants to show that he can use grass types to beat Lucifer's ass(spoiler alert, Lucifer wins because of the type matchup). His signature Pokemon is Meowscarada because obviously Satan loves cats so he'd probably immediately pick Sprigatitio as his partner, but also I chose Meowscarada because its Pokedex entry states that it's sensitive and prone to jealousy. So in a way, kind of like how Satan is with MC when it comes to Lucifer lol. His gym is modeled after a library(so like Lenora's gym), and you're tasked with going around the library and finding certain books for Satan.

Asmodeus: For Asmo, I feel like he would be a fairy type gym leader! I feel like it suits him, and I think he would love how both elegant and cute fairy types are. His signature pokemon would most likely be Sylveon, also evolved via high friendship. Both Sylveon and Asmo have the ability to charm others which I feel is very fitting for him. Asmo's gym puzzle would probably consist of something like a fashion show or something of the like, because Asmo would probably love to garner the attention of his beloved fans whilst at the same time showing up any challengers that come to his gym.

Beelzebub: Beel would most likely be fighting type gym leader! He would probably have a Bewear as one of his signature because like Beel, it appears friendly, you shouldn't underestimate it. Also Beel to me is like a big bear, cuddly, adorable, friend-shaped, but definitely not something I'd want to piss off. Him and Belphie would probably have a joint-gym where you can challenge the twins, and once you beat one of them you can then proceed to challenge the other. His side of the gym looks kind of like a sports field and you have to make your way through an obstacle course, working together with your team to get past.

Belphegor: So like I mentioned before, Belphie would have a joint-gym with Beel most likely in this instance. His signature Pokemon would probably be Snorlax! Not just because Snorlax falls asleep in the most inconvenient places but also because it eats A LOT. He likes that because it reminds him a lot of Beel. He's also the type of trainer to have the tankiest Snorlax that just refuses to faint and it's super annoying to deal with. Belphie's gym is modeled after a planetarium, and he's also a part of the sore losers gang. So he won't give you his badge cause he's a petty bitch and Beel needs to step in.

The Dateables:

Diavolo: the Champion, probably the most obvious choice because he's literally the ruler of the Devildom, and wants to help the three worlds come together. So two things, a leader and he has a goal that he wants to achieve in mind. I feel like his signature Pokemon would be a pseudo legendary and I settled on Goodra because like Diavolo it's known to be very friendly towards anyone but will not hesitate to fuck you up if you enrage it LMAO.

Barbatos: Another member of the Elite 4, Barbatos would be a psychic type trainer. I definitely feel like he would have an Espeon because they're known for being extremely loyal to their trainers, kind of like how Barbatos is with Diavolo. He is not someone that you want to mess with and he's noted to be one of the harder Elite 4 members because he somehow manages to stay one step ahead of you at all times.

Simeon: 3rd member of the Elite 4, Simeon specializes in flying types. His signature Pokemon is Togekiss, and its pokedex entry states that it's extremely friendly and concerned for others. Kind of like how Simeon will always go out of his way and still cares deeply about the Brothers and Lucifer, even after they were rejected from the Celestial Realm. Togekiss like to avoid conflict so like Simeon, he also likes to stay out of trouble, operating behind the scenes and only stepping in when necessary.

Luke: Your rival! Luke's always one step behind you, trying to prove that he can keep up with you. Luke's signature pokemon is of course, Fidough/Dachsbun. He got it as a gift from Simeon and his goal is to become to Champion so he can impress Michael and Simeon.

Solomon: I struggled a bit with Solomon's mostly because I couldn't decide what would be the most fitting for him. It didn't really feel right to put him as your other rival because he's clearly much more knowledgable on a lot of things, and he's of course your teacher in the base game. And an ace trainer didn't feel fitting for him either because he doesn't really seem like the type of person that would constantly be out and about. Ultimately I figured that the professor would fit him best because again, he knows a lot of things, and not only this but he would most likely guide you on your journey to becoming the Champion. I feel like Solomon would definitely have an affinity for ice type Pokemon, but his team is pretty well-rounded. His signature Pokemon would probably be Froslass because of how mysterious(?) it is, and how Froslass can also be very protective towards those that it cares about, just like how Solomon is with MC.

That's all from me for now! Here's my brain dump lmao

[transingthoseformers]

I feel like Megatron would have (couldn't shake off) Lugnut with him. Probably Strika, Blitzwing and KOBD.

I imagine Megatron siting cross leged with Rodimus in a restraint hug like a squirrely toddler trying to talk with him about sparklings. Both in general and theirs in particular. The talk is not going well.

Team Athena is under the collective awe and horror that Rodimus climbed Megatron like a tree and fraged him. The Deceptacons are amazed that it fit. Strika is sniffing because all of team Athena are only bairly marginally adult by her standards. Knockout and Breakdown are trying check Roddy and the babies health while giving the bots the talk of life. Knockout is making a "helpful" running commentary.

yEAH, LUGGY IS ALWAYS THERE SOMEWHERE

That is a hilarious image, especially with how many pointy bits Rodimus has (such as: the spoiler). Megatron is trying to have a serious conversation with Roddie as if this entire situation isn't absurd.

Team Athena is absolutely going through it, yep yep. Hot Shot has tried to escape seven times already, all seven times foiled by himself.

Aren't we all surprised lmao

Strika has opinions™️

Especially about Hot Shot because if the wiki is to be believed he's lil. Tiny. He's the baby of the group who accidentally nearly charbroils everyone on the regular. Tfa Hot Shot deserves more love.

I exactly feel like Red Alert has some of Rodimus's carrying records, she is their medic after all. And also because seeing her interact with Knockout and Breakdown feels like it's gonna be funny.

eSPECIALLY CONSIDERING YOU KNOCKOUT YOU GLORIOUS TRAINWRECK

Ah, yes. "helpful".

[entering--hyperspace]

Its 2am, quick! Ramble some preliminary thoughts about Rytlock and Leo's relationship, spoiler alert! Its complicated!

I'm currently "going through" the personal story, and I was thinking about how...complicated Rytlock and Leo's relationship becomes especially as Rytlock Puts Himself Into Situations and that affecting a whole lot later into the story. I was talking to my friend about this. Heres the thing about these two,

They are not perfect for each other. This isn't a fairytale relationship, they arent destined lovers, they will never get a true domestic happy life together, and they could probably find people to fit them both better in the long run.

But, they were perfect for each other when they met.

Rytlock, punished for ambition, losing someone he cared about because of this, gaining a literal physical reminder of it, after he had just lost Destiny's edge. Blinded by glory, torn apart by loss, failure. He grew distant from his warband because the warmth of a flame was more enticing than the bonds of his past. He had no one, he was ignorant to the repeated life lessons, he was bored.

Leo, on the other hand, was a coiled snake ready to strike. He had ambitions of his own, he grew tired of constant death, reckless fighting. Spirits lamented over lost opportunity, of being playthings in wars fought by higher powers. He grew up in a land that was a physical cautionary tell of how single individuals could ruin the very souls and doom entire nations. Souls that cant rest, souls that cant return. It was Ascalon that inspired him to become a necromancer, to commune with spirits, to treat the dead with reverance, and thus respecting life before its final march. It did outcast him from his warband, save for a single individual.

When his warband died fighting due to carelessness on behalf of his legionnare, he still chose mercy, even in grief and anger he would not throw away lives as his people were so readily to do. He would show them all, he would show them there was a different way, that the road harder to travel on was a road worth walking if it meant preserving life. Others would see him as weak for this, but he had the confidence and skill to back it up his claims.

Perhaps it was the sharpness, the same cleverness that Rytlock admired in Crecia that drew him to Leo. I like that, honestly. Its a bit selfish, but Rytlock is a very selfish character for a while.

So he chose him, he could see his potential, he was amused, if anything, by someone with beliefs so different than anything they were raised to believe and was ready to challenge the very foundation they stood on. Speaking of, Leo challenged him in ways that surprised him, in ways that if Rytlock were anyone else Leo would have surely been deranked or snapped at for his boldness. He made him stop and consider, a unique viewpoint a fire that had lived for so long it became too strong to be snuffed out, that alone was impressive. Lmao, It's Leo constsntly challenging rytlock that draws him to Leo as well I think. Someone who will truthfully grab him by the ear and snap him back to his senses. On the other hand:

Leo wasn't ignorant of Rytlocks many prior transgressions and the blood most higher ranked charr spill to stand as tall as they do. He didn't think too highly of him before, but desperate times call for desperate measures. They were also, both, lonely. Rytlock appreciated having someone who he slowly crept into being a bit more of himself around, and Leo appreciated the opportunity of gaining his favor, as well as the acceptance of his beliefs. Rytlock understood climbing a steep hill with the people around pouring water down waiting for a slip. He's loyal above all else, he's similarly ambitious. Maybe Rytlock didnt necessarily Follow him exactly, but he didnt turn away or laugh in his face when Leo one night truthfully shared his plans. He simply told him it would be hard, but challenged him to pursue it. And, if anything, Leo's words actually affected him, he could see it slowly, that was enough for him, They were friends.

Physical attraction was there too, of course, that is admittedly a constant even before they become romantic. I see it at this point of maybe not being a thing of romantic bond, but rather of trust. But this is also normal and expected of charr. Friends with benefits, nothing more. But that more would come in later.

A chain is harder to break than a string, much harder. It weighs heavy, its cumbersome at times, but it holds things together quite well despite everything, despite "everything"

They are not a red string of fate, rather a forged red chain. Charr care a lot about loyalty, they care about loyalty in a way that I feel is hard to describe other than something deeply rooted in their culture thus hard to shake. During the time Leo and Rytlock spent together as Leo climbed the ranks and together they took on Ascalonian missions, sharing nights, swapping stories, sparring, challenging, they forged that bond. A bond between two people with no other options. They chose each other.

My memory of path of fire is, muddled, I'll get there when I get there. But what I know for sure is that what began of a romantic relationship would become quickly strained as the story goes on and it is revealed that everything occuring is due to Rytlock's recklessness.

Leo isn't the commander, Connie is, this almost makes it worse for them in a funny way. Leo would probably be more forgiving over his own death, but instead he is made to watch someone else die, he watches countless others die, all while knowing at night he shares a bed with the person at the root of it. But he doesnt leave, because theres always that chain, its backs turned to each other but still comforted by the warmth of another, even if their presence is denied. Im sure when i learn the details of it i can share more thoughts on them but ough.

When Leo does take on more commander-like duties and rytlock is still at his side, it becomes even more apparent how their relationship isnt as ideal as it could be in a perfect life. In a perfect life leo wouldve left everything to be with the olmakhan, to live a peaceful existence, to raise a family. Rytlock thinks of his cubs in a similar regard, Leo and Rytlock cant give that to each other, the world will not allow that of them both, especially leo, But they leave together with that knowledge.

Does this make sense? Idk, i hope so. The love is there, but there is an acceptance of the fact that there will always be a void that cant be filled. Perhaps there is a gentleness to them both that they treat each other with because of that fact and thats just how it is.

[subzeroparade]

So I read Litanies and it was SO good. It took me so long and checking the character list twice to clock Rom as the narrator, what an INSPIRED choice. I do have a few questions though! What made you decide to use they/them pronouns for Caryll? And you mentioned your headcanon last name for Ludwig, do you have one for Laurence?

Thanks! (spoiler alert lmao).

Caryll identifying as non-binary felt very natural to me. They have no pronouns in the in-game text, as far as I know, and defaulting to they/them is something that feels personally appropriate to me, and fitting for the character I was crafting - a linguist, in my headcanon, and thus pretty attuned to the weight that language and appellation carry. Ludwig's last name in my headcanon (de la Mare, which is both historically significant and a pun in both English and French lest that not be clear to all) was devised out of necessity when I wrote Petal-Veined Devourer. I might have one for Laurence kicking around the back of my mind, but if I use it, it'll only really be for the sake of worldbuilding in the context of a fic :) But he was supposedly a foreigner in the early versions of the game, and so that thread runs through all my depictions of him regardless.

Ty for the ask, and glad you enjoyed Litanies! Here's an old WIP of a young Ludwig I may or may not finish someday.

[me-sploh-rada-imas]

Seeing your other url connected with Six if Crows made me want to ask you

Assign JO+Martin to Six of Crows characters 👀👀👀

<I absolutely loved the story>

first i am so sorry this has taken me a week to answer i've had no motivation and i wanted to put actual thought into it! and since you asked, sab and the potential crows spin-off series have been cancelled, which is devastating!

anyway this was very difficult because the crows are so traumatised i don't want to assign that kind of trauma to jo asfhjksdjl and also the relationship dynamics in soc are not really parallel but i did my best <3

jure as wylan because they're both sunshine and also super chaotic (definitely the only easy one here haha)

bojan as nina because they're charismatic and also really good at languages

nace as jesper as they're both goofy but have hidden depths, also i feel they kinda share hyperactive puppy energy (i guess could fit bojan too but i'm thinking about the way nace is on stage and that's definitely jesper vibes to me)

martin as mathias because gentle giant? but also a little more serious than some of the others (and spoiler alert mathias is no longer with us and martin is no longer part of the band so that fits lmao)

jan as inej just for the quiet sneaky vibes, jan used to play basketball so i guess he is pretty athletic? i'm reaching here sorry

which leaves kris as kaz which actually kinda works because they both say insane things about their friends to their faces asfghjkskl

tysm for the ask i had a lot of fun trying to figure this out and i hope you like the answers

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

copying anon over here because i went to save the ask to my drafts and tumblr sent it directly to the shadow realm, welp:

I dug through your rambles about Hermes, so I'm looking forward to thoughts on Erich with the ancient world's everything lol ~

ahhhh thank you, i'm glad you've enjoyed my rambles so far!! i've been taking the second half of the pandaemonium arc more slowly, partly because i'm been Out of It the last few days and partly because the direction the plotline with erich and lahabrea has taken a turn for has been leaving a really bad taste in my mouth. i've been making my way through it, though, and percolating Deeply on the He and how he and pandaemonium as a whole fit into all this. spoiler alert i love him even more now

(on the one hand, it finally helped me articulate some points that imo make or break an 'abusive parent sees the error of their ways and apologizes up and down and swears to do better, and both that and the context in which the abuse happened leave their victim feeling conflicted about it' arc. so there's that! on the other hand it, uh. it did so by very much being the goofus here lmao, and erich deserved better.)

(the way the whole thing is played off is also just, deeply deeply misogynistic. athena is top-tier nastywoman and i love her for it, and 'mothers--in particular white women, especially to their children of color--can be shitty and predatory and abusive and are accountable for it full stop,' is great abuse rep but fucking WOWZERS)

(which like, i will say that the overtones are not at all lost on me that athena repeatedly goes out of her way to prey on, abuse, and violate not just men of color but black men; dehumanizes them and treats them and their bodies as her property; and is strongly implied to have sexually abused erich in particular. and how the one who gets the brunt of it is her biracial, very VERY not white-passing son, who she isolated from the black side of his family to do whatever she wanted with. it is insanely fucking refreshing to see that shit not cushioned at ALL, and it really sucks that that had to come bundled in with the abuse apologia and misogyny.)

(i am also realizing that this is one of the reasons erich whitewashing, and how common it is in the fandom as well as official art, bothers me so much beyond the obvious. while it's uncertain how much of it was intentional, his narrative evokes not just real-world racism but colorism, and a specific brand of it and how it intersects with abuse. even if just on a doylist level erich was abused for being as dark-skinned as he is, and erasing that is even shittier than your run-of-the-mill whitewashing.)

(anyway. ANYWAY. anyway. all that is a post of its own and i haven't even gotten to the parts about ancient society yet. you see what i mean by having a lot of thoughts about him lmao)

i'm hoping to finish the last leg of the questline tonight so i can start fully putting my thoughts together because god there is SO MUCH, and i'm excited even if i foresee having to grit my teeth through the rest of the moments between him and lahabrea lmao

[hungergameshyperfixation]

I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS I don’t know where to begin.

Spoilers below the Read More sign!!!

Okay so we were all right about the purple. That made perfect sense. Idk if I posted this somewhere, if it’s in a draft/document somewhere, or what but I strongly subscribe to the color symbolism theories. In MY opinion I think there are a lot of ways the color purple can be interpreted here; I remember when I was younger, I was taught that “purple represented royalty,” which I kind of later internalized to mean something else but regardless. I’m not going to google/look too into it right now, but to my best memory purple represents/can represent wealth, high society ideals, arguably the bourgeoisie…? (ty autocorrect) But it also is, in our conventional knowledge, the “mix” of red and blue; I think the wealth association and the whole dichotomy that’s associated with purple is REALLY fitting here. I’ll get to this later, but the entire cover in my opinion represents dichotomy.

Also I do not mean I literally subscribe to color symbolism actually playing a large role in IRL things—I don’t care about it that much LMAO; I just meant that in fiction, I can really get into the ideas of over analyzing the color and their meanings (So “yes, the curtain really was just blue, but also I’d love to read an essay about how it’s a metaphor for sadness” that kinda thing).

Another thing about the cover color wise is of course the gold, which I figured would be present. It is a near constant on the cover, with the exception of Mockingjay I think. Plus, as I kinda hope to get into, it’s following in the footsteps of TBOSAS (both in the timeline of the narrative, and from our timeline perspective.

Regarding my point about the circles—as much as i hate to admit it, I don’t think that a lot of the cover design is like intentionally crafted with the goal of perfectly aligning EVERY little element with the story. But, as I might’ve shared before, I do fully believe that doesn’t stop people from interpreting/drawing connections to things (even if they weren’t intentional? Does that make sense? I’m literally writing this entirely off the cuff, just straight up typing). BUT back to the circles: YALL IT’S NOT EVEN A CIRCLE IT’S LIKE A HALF CIRCLE. It almost looks like it’s taking the shape of a…sunrise.

Also not to say that I kinda ate up my very rushed cover post last night, but I was right about a couple things—at least I’d say I was. I definitely am not the only one though, I think a lot of people thought what I thought and probably have made MUCH better cover analysis pieces. TBH a lot of the cover was easy to “guess,” only in the sense that this is the fifth installment of a book series that has generally consistent book covers (except for one specific part on this one…spoiler alert: the centerpiece)

I will say, there are multiple ways to interpret the elements on the cover, which I REALLY like.

NOW, onto arguably one of the more interesting is the mockingjay and the snake. I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY. Maybe I’ll save that for a follow up post because I wanna get this one off my chest.

[carmenized-onions]

i am back to gush about chicago's finest... just thinking about how tony and carm have established puzzle time as their little thing, and tony opening the door to little kisses on the cheek and both of them fighting the urge to just smother each other in affection... GAH i need to reread!! carm being... confused at tony and syd's relationship and a horrible texter just seems to fitting for him. bro is lost anywhere that isn't the kitchen. and i love the little moments where tony observes carmy being strong carrying stuff, like ok damn i see you... i think it'd be really cute if we get more one on one time with tony and carm and he starts getting all protective/casually dominant (is that the word i'm looking for?) over tony despite them not being official. ANYWAY. just love their dynamic. two idiots wanting to care for each other while also trying not to care too much. such a fan of them trying to resist gushing over each other. they are little dorks i love them and your work!

Bro,,, first of all NEXT TIME YOU SEND IN AN ASK YOU GOTTA GIVE ME A NAME TO WORK WITH I CANT KEEP TRACK OF ALL THESE VERY SWEET ANONS AND I NEED TO KNOW WHO TO THANK EVERYTIME!!!!

Second of all, YEAAHHHH. It's that very fun fresh new not a relationship relationship giddiness and simultaneous anxiety. Absolutely wanting to smother them and see them constantly and alsO NEVER LET THEM IN!!! NEVER!!!!!

Bro is fumbling outside of the kitchen, bro does not know how women nor phones work. Bro is 100% the way my brother's do not understand why i say i love you to my friends. FREAKS!!!

Thinking of what I have planned ahead, I believe you shall get these moments my dear anon,,,,, at least i think. Honestly every plan pivots once I start writing. Spoiler alert: I tried to force a smooch in this next chapter and I simply hated it so much I took 2 hours away from my laptop to rethink it lmao. BUT I'VE GOT PLANS BRO. I'VE GOT PLANS!!

Thank you sm for loving these dorks and my work and also telling me so, it means the freakin WORLD !!!!!!!! IT GIVES ME MY POWER!!!!

Anyways, I gotta go put tags on this post and write the author's note and post it hehehe SEE YOU SOON HOPE YOU LIKE THIS NEXT ONE BABE!!!

[goosemagician]

Oh also https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5TUOAr8oDXuC1PsvxH53Sp

I made another playlist but this time it's dedicated rather than inspired (ngl I interpret your au as very angsty so there's a lot of rgb and hero angst songs in there whoop)

I don't even know if it's obvious why i chose most of the songs i did lmao but they all relate to them in some capacity

Also the song "Soup Song" feels fitting to them for some reason like

"Your name is an anagram and mine is a joke"

"People ask me why you’re acting so strange, and I say I don’t know"

And "My backpack’s full of hate mail that makes me want to cry" and "I hate you and I loved you for a very long time" especially like-

Feels like how hero might act under the influence of hate (if it even works like that, i always imagined it as hate making hero despise rgb or strengthening those thoughts she might've had when she was younger)

And then some of it being rgb like "The shoes I bought you crunched my necklace" or "I wish that I was lovable like a warm cup of soup... I try to be lovable like a warm cup of soup"

I'm not crazy right this kinda fits

Lmao

Oh shoot this ask got very long, much sorry

The angst and sheer family feels in this au just kills me in a very good way

aaaAAAAALDSJFKLD YESSS

this is so so SO SO GOOOOD THANK YOU FOR SHARING

This accidentally turned into a whole essay so it's under the cut if you'd like to read just so many words of excitement about characters

The combination of Angst/Family in this AU is STRONG, and that Hate and Hero interpretation is SPOT ON. It's what Hero fears the most about Hate. She spends a lot of the (eventual) story telling herself that all of the anger and sadness and trauma just marinating inside her and causing her to lash out is because of Hate herself, but Hate explicitly tells her that "It's all you. Everything. All the anger, the regret, the guilt, the Hatred. I'm just a magnifying glass."

The Soup Song is actually SUCH a perfect song for them, and especially Hero with "If I had the tendency to yell your ears would be numb. If I had it in me to tell you off you would be done. I'm not used to feeling so down and so dumb." She doesn't WANT to be mad at RGB, and she Hates the part of herself that IS, so she tries to ignore it entirely. (Spoiler alert! It Does Not Go Well.)

She loves RGB SO much but there's a part of her that is just SO mad at him for dragging her into this. Emotions are complicated, and she's the master of feeling two things at once. She understands his motive, and even sympathizes with him, but that doesn't change the fact that she wishes he hadn't. But then again, if he hadn't, she never would've known him at all, and she is in fact extremely grateful to know him and LOVE him as both a friend, and as a father figure.

They're So similar and So different at the same time and it's just...AUUUGH

There's an animatic I have planned from the radio drama "Dangerously Yours," where Hero's in her Knight form, but she's also very clearly not just parroting Hate. She's saying stuff and it's coming from her HEART, and it TERRIFIES her. She feels betrayed, and lied to, and conned, but she also LOVES him and how he's cared for her and tried SO SO HARD to make up for all that he's done and for bringing her here in the first place.

The Hero Knight thingy is basically a way for Hero to finally voice everything she's been trying so hard to keep in and under control. If you've ever seen Steven Universe Future, you know that cactus episode, where Steven talks to the cactus about all his feelings and problems but then the cactus gets out of control and Steven ends up fighting it in front of the people he loves, but also has complicated feelings about. (I'm aware of how strange this sounds if you've never seen it, but just trust me). Hero NEEDS to let all the contempt, and guilt, and regret, and, yes, Hate, go, but there's no way in hell she would do that on her own, so...Hero Knight!

It's pretty much just a glorified version of me shoving them into a locked room, shaking them violently, and saying "TALK ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS"

There's a line in that radio drama that I LOVE for this AU, and it's "You forget how close Hate is to Love."

They have to fight with themselves and each other OFTEN, but in the end, they just want the other to be alright. They want to PROTECT each other, and BE THERE for each other, because RGB shouldn't have had to beg for another chance, and Hero shouldn't have had to help him try to save the world. Their situation is SO unfair, and they both know it.

They both have things they despise themselves for, as well. Hero Hates herself for not saving the world and, in her eyes, letting RGB down. He needed a Hero, and she couldn't save him, or anyone else for that matter. RGB Hates himself for dragging all those people, but most of all Hero, into this whole mess. He wishes he would have just given up, but he didn't. He fought, but did so in the most clever but cowardly way a person could, and others paid the price HE should have paid.

This AU is about the characters working through their flaws and the complexity of emotions. "When you first revealed your betrayal by first reaction was 'how dare you rob me of my trust?' But not even this would be able to shake out foundation 'cause it was created by us." (My Heart Still Beats--Marina Mena). Hero and RGB have been through SO MUCH together, and the bond that they share, despite the undercurrent of other feelings that may reside there, is something truly special. they LOVE each other, and nothing can change that. "It hurts but I'm not about to give you up" (same song).

In short--This playlist is AWESOME and I love EVERY SINGLE SONG CHOICE AAAAAAAAAA <3 <3 <3