#(plus this is the less cringey stuff)

[mushroomsie224]

Was going through my gallery to look for an old drawing of a friend, found these drawings of Eric while doing so. They're from between March and May of last year.

[zsatuka]

I'm gonna say it: Even though I'm very sad about the Clone High Reboot getting cancelled, it was very likely that it would happen.

I feel like they focused more on the negative reviews and all those youtubers who made videos about it and those fans who said that "Without Gandhi it's shitty" and that's why it got cancelled, Season 3 also had NO promotion which made them less money.

While I agree that season 2 writing was ass, cringey and even annoying sometimes the show didn't deserve to be cancelled because many people worked hard on it. Season 3 even got better with the writing and had potential to become like the original again, it seems like they just needed more time but Max just decided to cancel it because it didn't bring them enough money I guess.

I hope Phil Lord and Chris Miller can bring the show to Netflix or Hulu but I doubt that will happen because I don't think they care about Clone High anymore because they have more important stuff to do, plus like I said it didn't bring them enough money.

Sorry for the rambling, this show meant so much to me and I've been a big fan for a year now. Even though it's cancelled, it will never be forgotten and will be a good memory to me and all the fans.

[redrandomposts]

Hello I’m the anon from the abo Ivan dies timeline ask u just responded to (btw I see everyone is like picking emojis so can I be 🖤?)

my first idea is that post death they eventually get approached to do a documentary about his life and death (maybe go like increase awareness about the complications that killed him so more people can be safe) and all of Ivan’s loved ones get interviewed- and I just, I wonder what they would say !! What words would they put to him?? And how does Till sum up all his mixed feelings into one interview

also I was thinking about the kids and since no one saw it coming Ivan definitely didn’t update his will- so Till can be extra confused as to why everything went to him instead of some one else. Since he doesn’t know the kids are his yet- he can’t comprehend why he would get all this (all this stuff that normally goes to a mate) I also have a lot of thoughts about single dad till raising two kids all by himself and being floored by how similar they are to Ivan. I do think both kids would look more like till in my head because that means till will never have the solace of seeing those features he loved so much look back at him again

The features that made Ivan - Ivan are gone, Till seethes as he thinks that the kids must look exactly like their father-no their sure because whoever abandoned Ivan had no right to that word-because their resemblance to their mother is completely gone. And till hates it sometimes- sometimes he looks as his beautiful children who have slowly become his whole world and loathes them for daring to look like the awful alpha who caused this mess. The alpha who’s absence arguably killed their mother

and once he knows that the kids are his? He won’t know what to do with himself. Because now he looks at the children and all he can see is himself- and no matter how much he strains to see the pin pricks of Ivan in them- he can’t escape the fact that they are his children. That Ivan died because till failed to be there for him- and that in the scheme of things Ivan’s life is forgotten and only his death remains , he’s remembered as a bright star snuffed out too soon and Ivan’s legacy is nothing but an echo of tills greatest mistake.

but the kids act a lot like Ivan once they are older! They are very curious and smart but aren’t the most emotionally intelligent- and they always have their curious eyes turned on till! Plus they will buy at their lips when they are thinking hard in a way that reminds Till of Ivan’s snaggle tooth (and maybe once they get their adult teeth they with get snaggle teeth of their own) (altho till can wonder with how long it’s been how much of these traits Ivan truly had and how much of it is grasping at straws to make his heart hurt less)

At some point Ivan is just a footnote in Tills story of stardom, and he is only rembered by the world as the omega who produced Tills children, and a title to one of his albums. And it makes till sick. —————————

I went kind of overboard but I hope this isn’t like cringe to send 🫥

xoxo🖤

hey its not nice to hit me with this first thing in the morning 🖤

you have to spare me okay? i was thinking happy thoughts from my happy dream ready to make a nice happy once-in-a-lifetime tillivan au and then suddenly bam documentary never see ivan again even in his children and ivan only being known as an omega.

i refuse! ivan will not only be known as "ivan an omega," because his fanbase is large. alright? and mizi and sua and luka and hyuna and till and everyone else in the whole damn industry won't let that happen! ivan deserves respect!!!

on another note, no its not cringe to send otherwise im a cringey creator... which is bad for the both of us.

guys i think its time to retire dead ivan au. my heart can't take it. i love him too much to just discuss what happens after death.

...in the documentary, it mentions how ivan was briefly a musician who mainly collabed with till, or was apart of till's band at the time. and till breaks down when he realizes that ivan learned the piano, and maybe the guitar, to play it for him and with him.

[therealcocoshady]

JAJAJJAJA NOT THE TWITTER

srsly rho ignore it who the hell cares this is for fun and theres been much worse added to the internet

plus at least that means your blog’s getting big because people r talking abt it 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

-😛😛😛

First of all, THANK YOU to everyone who was so sweet and supportive about my little meltdown/freakout about people talking about this blog on Twitter. 🥰 I received so much support via DMs, comments and Asks I am honestly at a loss for word 🥺

Honestly, it seems a little stupid and counter-intuitive but the fact that the blog is "getting big" is super intimidating. It really started as me trying to find an outlet to empty my brain 😅. The more I realize that there are actual people reading that stuff, the more nervous I get. Of course, I am highly flattered that people are enjoying the stuff I write, and taking time out of their busy lives to actually check out what I put out next, but there's another side to it, I guess 👀

To me, fanfiction has always been super personal. Even when I would just be reading and not writing. I would never talk to anyone about it because it's something I did for me and didn't really want to share. Not to mention that tons of people might find it cringey, especially when it comes to real people fanfiction. So, knowing that people are discussing (and kind of trashing) the blog feels weird and intimidating. Because my writing does not feel like that intimate safe place anymore. Up until I realized that people posted on Twitter about it, it was just me, my brain and like-minded people who were so sweet. And then, it opened my eyes to the possibility that not everyone's safe and open-minded when it comes to people sharing their thoughts online, and that it can lead to some harsh judgement. And then, it got kind of scary because I realized that the anonymity is a blessing here, but what would happen of someone could trace it back to the actual Coco ?

So, yeah, I sort of freaked out 😅. But I was so touched by all the comments & messages I have received, all of you telling me that the blog has actually helped you in some capacity. It definitely made me feel like less of a circus freak who writes fanfiction about someone they'll never meet. ❤️

[keira-draws]

do you know where would be a good place to start? :33

Omg I hope ur ready for a semi-long response, LOL! Most of the Army of Darkness comics don't really connect to each other; kinda similar to the movies, there isn't a whole lot of consistency /lh That being said, it makes it a little less intense to break into these comics! Versus like superhero comics where you have to keep up with 80+ characters storylines haha

(Although Ash has been in the Marvel comics universe canonically...he may or may not have had a hand in starting the Marvel Zombies universe...) Starting off:

Ash and the Army of Darkness #6-8

I LOVE these ones so much! I haven't read the full comic, but the writing in it is fantastic, and the art for these issues are by my favorite AOD artist! Basic plot summary: Sheila is possessed by a deadite, Ash has to save her, and the comic dives into some of Ash's childhood, showing that he's been dealing with Evil since he was a kid. VERY good!

Army of Darkness: Ash Gets Hitched

This one is my absolute favorite AOD comic! This is a direct continuation from Ash and the Army of Darkness. Basic plot is Ash stays in 1300 A.D., and is getting ready to marry Sheila before Ash accidentally summons like the first Deadite ever (dude who was used to make the necronomicon). The art in it is so so fun, and definitely has an "evil dead" type of feel to it! They manage to capture Ash being goofy and corny, without A. making it cringey, and B. making him seem like a dude-bro badass. He's just a goofy guy and I loveeee it. Plus a little cameo from a certain someone, that I won't spoil <3 Note: this one is pretty g*ry and has some definite body horror, so fair warning.

BUT LOOK HOW CUTE THEY LOOK AGH <3 Next up:

Ash Vs. The Army Of Darkness

This one is also very fun, kind of a random plotline, Ash has to save a high school from deadites, but! Very very fun art, and it takes place directly after Army of Darkness! So, you can kinda imagine AOD happening, the two comics above happening, and then this one. But, again, consistency is for losers /j Plus!! Ted Raimi as Ash's S-Mart boss, PLUS he has a three stooges mug as homage to Sam, Bruce, and Rob being inspired by them for Evil Dead. This one also has Ash pretty in-character, which is dope <3

This last one is...debatable on its decency LMAO

Vampirella/Army Of Darkness

Now, there are some really fun parts of this comic! I don't know much about Ella, but she seems pretty cool in this. There's also some really funny gags, and genuinely some of my favorite art of all AOD comics in this book! That being said, Ash is pretty out of character and a little too "womanizing" shall we put it. But story is altogether fun, and again art is fire.

LIKE OMGGGG HE'S SO CUTE IN THIS COMIC I WANT TO PUNCH HIM /POS Also! All of these are free to read with a Comixology membership on Amazon Prime. My suggestion: start a 30 day free trial, cancel, and read through these guys within the month for free of charge :)) THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS ASK THOUGH I LOVE TALKING ABT ASH AND COMICS AND FUN STUFF <3333 i hope you find something you enjoy, and pls lemme know if you do!!!

[bookishtheaterlover7]

Booky, you’re such a sweet person. I know it’s probably hard for you to be a fan and see stuff that annoys you, but remember that it’s probably happening to other fans with celebs they like.

Those poor Henry Cavill fans - though I don’t even think his gf is that bad. Lol.

And as for the Jeff Conway person…

lol. First of all he’s very very cringe. I’ve rarely seen an interviewer editor be this thirsty to repost his own articles and also be so unbelievably tacky as a grown man. But hey.

That being said, he was the one who wrote the Forbes article for Chris and his jinx thing at the end of December, right?

He was also one of the writers who wrote a people article of them going public. Somebody should check back those archives because I’m almost positive Jeff started following fish the night before or around the time they went public.

He also interviewed Chris the day Chris said his long term partner was his dog 🤣 - I wonder if he told Chris that 😭 and gave him a very cringey shirt “my dog is my soulmate.” A grown ass man.. giving another grown ass man a shirt like that. And then repeatedly bragging about it on twitter. How is he not embarrassed by himself?? (Jeff)

My personal thought is he goes where he has an assignment. I sometimes have to write really cringe social posts for work but thankfully they’re not attached to my name. He was probably instructed to hype her up because tbh, I still believe they’re trying to make her happen.

Think about how the kardashians, TikTok influencers, and other random ass “Celebs” pop up and start being placed everywhere and nobody is asking for them and the comments are filled with hate. But do these outlets ever stop? Really think about it. Step back from the fishbowl and observe the other industry ppl who have basically been shoved into our faces without our desire. I think the media knows Fish is DOA but she’s here and unfortunately here to stay for awhile. I think people can and will continue to ignore her so that’ll be pretty funny to watch.

I’m also sure fish wasn’t rude to Jeff because I doubt she’s like openly a rude person. I’m not trying to defend her because I know people on here will feel how they feel about this girl, but she’s not going to be a brat to everyone just because people want to hate her. I do think it’s interesting that post had Jeff hyping her up and then just mentioning Chris was also there. As if he’s her plus one and not the other way around.

I feel like she’s getting way too much attention for being virtually nothing and a nobody. The general public simply does not care about her.

I think someone just posted up TMZ posting celebs at the parties and they posted Chris alone and cropped her out. If true, LOLLLLLL TMZ 😂

Just Jared has written at least 600 articles at this point and they’re still getting her name wrong.

By the way, in my line of work, we have to proofread our articles before submitting them to post. So does every single outlet just accidentally miss fish’s last name?????

I’m starting to feel like it’s intentional.

🥹 Thank you, Marketing An🫶n!

It must suck for everyone, but it's good to know that what I'm feeling is definitely not just me. Makes me feel less crazy. 🙂

Good Lord, Jeff seems to be overselling and overdoing it, a little. But, as you said, it's a thing that needs to be done.

And you've got a point about celebs we DIDN'T ask for, just popping up. And it causes quite a stir. Which is effective for their reasons.

No, they do not. Hell, she's simply known as Chris Evans' wife. No more, no less. Imagine that as your only title. It's sad.

I hope it's intentional, because that's too many typos, and almost (I'm assuming they did this at least once) zero edits... 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Thanks for talking with me, Marketing An🫶n. It's really a highlight everytime you're here. So thank you ❤️ and it seriously means a whole lot. 🥰🥹

Until the next one...

[rata-novus]

okay so now that ive finished season 1 of farscape, i have some ~thoughts~

-character development is great. d'argo going from an ornery loner to being genuinely happy to see crichton & striving to save aeryn's life, aeryn coming face-to-face with crais after months of being deemed "contaminated" & exiled and realizing the home she lost ISNT worth her pining over wanting to go back. great stuff so far.

-speaking of crais he kinda frustrates me bc when he & crichton were "kidnapped" by that sorcerer early in the season, i feel like he was so close to believe crichton (aka the truth) about what happened with his brother re it being a tragic accident, but then the sorcerer guy messed with them & ruined the moment. idk if he ever comes around but it feels like a possibility? but maybe NOT after what aeryn did to him w the aurora chair...... okay i wrote that when i was still on s1e21 and now crais is kinda on our side but not really but also not a peacekeeper anymore and i just HEAVILY dislike that talyn chose him over aeryn, boooooo~

-it would have been SO easy to make critchton into a himbo, but he's so genuine & kind & smart & yeah a lil dumb when it comes to alien customs n stuff but he has a strong moral compass, which makes it hurt even all the after his torture.......

-dont have a solid favorite character, i feel like i love them all equally (including best boi pilot), except for chiana (who i dont dislike, just not familiar with her yet) just bc shes so new & rygel bc he has his moments but sometimes he really grinds my gears lol. i've been spoiled that there's a big death in s2 but idk who that is but if it's d'argo/pilot/moya i will be devastated

-i already got the mass effect vibes from the very start, but by now its also giving me the same feeling buffy did with the different scenarios each episode with callbacks to previous events and throughlines/story arcs & a good helping of goofiness (but with less cringey whedonesque dialogue; sorry i love buffy, watched it multiple times all the way thru, but you cant deny the dialogue has a very specific vibe). theres just something v comfy about watching the show, even though this is my first time

-some really cool episode concepts, my fave so far being the one where moya is stuck in starburst and there are 4 different overlaid versions of the ship (red/blue/yellow/og) with different sensory overstimulation/disasters. v v cool. plus just the idea of a LIVING, PREGNANT ship is wild

-really excited to see where the story goes re the ancient giving crichton the wormhole information & scorpius desiring that info etc

[cursedvibes]

I've been picking up Killing Eve again. I watched the 1st season when it was initially airing, quite liked it, but then didn't manage to pick up the following seasons as well. Now it popped up on my Netflix recommendation and I gave it another shot. Uff, it's quite different from what I remember.

I think the story is most interesting to me not as a love story, but as a story about Villanelle, where one of her obsessions happens to be Eve. I don't feel much of a spark between them anyway beyond Villanelle being aimless and having mommy issues, and Eve wanting some dangerous thrill in her life. I watched the first two seasons and I still don't quite understand why it has to be them who get together and not someone else. Plus, I think relationships like Villanelle and Constantine are much more layered and interesting than what Eve and Villanelle have going on.

Generally, I find the story interesting, particularly in the 1st season, but I think their handling of Eve is very poor. She gets the worst writing in my opinion. Or more like the writing isn't "bad", it's just very predictable and not exactly deep. Eve often feels very blatantly edgy "I'm not like other girls, I want to finger an assassin and am bored of my husband treating me nicely". It kinda feels like the protagonists of these 50 Shades of Grey-esque books, but wlw. Some of the dialogue she gets is really cringey and just doesn't sound believable. Sandra Oh does her best with it, but man...

Her character development is the crux of it. When the story starts, you already know her archetype and where she's going with barely any new twist to it. From the first episode you already know what will happen. She's kind of similar to Will Graham, but written with way less subtlety. You can just tick off all the boxes as you watch the episodes. Gets a kick out of killers/assassins. Check. Becomes married to her job. Check. Becomes fixed by violence and crime. Check. Neglecting her personal life. Check. Neglecting her husband and resenting him for being a good person. Check. Gets very blatant murderous urges. Check. And the longer it goes on, the worse it gets. They put so much effort into making Villanelle a more three dimensional and compelling character that they neglected who is supposedly the main character of this series.

Also, the stuff this series spouts about "psychopaths" or anyone lacking empathy is just disgusting. Nothing new in this genre, but they do it especially blatant. Just straight up saying people who lack empathy/have anti-social personality disorder are not human, just killing machines, and that they are fundamentally broken. Do they know that these people they're talking about actually exist? And aren't all gleeful serial killers?

Also Villanelle is a terrible assassin. She's leaving evidence and her fingerprints splattered everywhere. If she didn't have such important people covering for her, she would've been found ages ago.

So yeah, my main problem with this is that the writing of Eve is just way too edgy and generic. Everything else is quite interesting actually, but man...getting pretty difficult to watch these episodes and apparently it gets worse in the coming seasons.

[nocompromise-noregrets]

yikes

I've just spent a rather traumatising hour or so sifting through two boxes of my ancient crap that my parents rediscovered in their garage loft and brought across for me today (they're over seeing my auntie who lives near us and we all went to the pub for lunch), and being very VERY thankful that I didn't grow up in the internet era. SO MUCH awful cringey teenage stuff that I'd mostly forgotten about which went straight into a bin bag to go into the confidential waste at work, plus a LOAD of tat that should've been binned 30 years ago, and a very VERY small amount of good stuff, including the tickets for the first two or three gigs I ever went to. Jeez. The less said about the flaily fangirling over Memphis Belle the better, although that was the source of my long-held and much-treasured soft spot for Sean Astin, so there's that...I'm just a lot less cringey about him these days. XD

I was going to finish off my uni assignment, but I think I'm just going to have a beer and sink into the floor instead. XDDDD

[rubbery-duckery]

Art Questions - from this post

When did you get into art?

Around late 2015, but really 2017 maybe.

What art-related sites have you ever signed up for?

Deviantart (circa 2009 maybe) and Tumblr.

Show us your oldest piece of art you have on hand.

What defines your artistic style?

Now how can I know that? Crude maybe. Lacking any discernable inspiration.

Do you practice other styles/have you tried other styles in the past?

Not really. I feel like I have different styles though.

What levels of artistic education have you had?

None other than art class in elementary school, plus a pottery class in high school. I did take an intro to drawing class as a required art elective.

Show us at least one picture you drew or sketched recently that you did not put on a public site.

Later

What is your favorite piece that you have done?

Every crummy, cringey doodle I made that gives people secondhand embarrassment.

What is your least favorite piece that you have done?

Something from 2nd grade that keeps getting shoved in my face by my sister.

What do you like most about your art?

Silly.

What do you like least about your art?

Silly.

Have you ever considered taking commissions?

No. I'm not good enough and I don't feel comfortable taking money away from others who actually need it. Maybe like $5 or less for quick fandom drawings, but even that seems dirty and like taking advantage of people's hyperfixation-state.

Are you looking to pursue a career in art?

No, because I know I can't improve enough to ever be professional.

What do you like drawing the most?

My own characters I guess.

What do you like drawing the least?

Things I'm incapable of drawing because it makes me mad. Complicated objects.

Do you draw more fanart or original art? If fanart, what fandom do you draw the most of?

Original because I'm bad at replicating other art styles and don't have a fandom mindset.

What would you absolutely refuse to draw?

NSFW stuff or even suggestive or overly romantic.

What is your purpose for drawing?

To have fun and relax.

What medium/program do you use the most in your art?

Cardstock paper and Medibang app

How would you rank your art? (poor, mediocre, good, etc.)

Poor.

Do you believe there is such thing as “bad art?”

Yeah.

List at least one of your “artspirations.”

Oswald / Astrocrush (gone)

What do you think you could stand to improve on?

Getting away from same face syndrome and more diversity. Anatomy. Backgrounds.

Do you have a shameful art past? (recolour sprite comics, tracing art, etc.)

I don't think so. I used heavy reference (not tracing) for high school assignments and I think that made me look more talented than I really was to my classmates.

Draw a picture!

Okay !

[hislittleraincloud]

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...Yes, I realize I'm late to ranting about this (I've been BUSY),

but fucking no.

Kinda funny that the crit for this is a lot similar to that of MG..."it could have been, but..."

They better not be touching my Misery, even if it's a "loose remake". The Weeknd already ruined his acting cred with the cringe-inducing The Idol. His ego is so...huge yet there's nothing but hot air there, and those stroking it (Trey Edward Shults) needs to take a second look at that crap show with his bad acting.

Misery's another pop culture thing that I've been devoted to for over 30 years. I have the book in several iterations (French 🇫🇷🥖🫠 is my favorite) and I keep finding Misery VHS tapes around the area where I live (it's just yet another weird phenomenon that I can't explain). I have three, floating somewhere around this garbage dump of an apartment, even though I don't even have a VCR.

My baby dog is named after a character in the newish, successful prequel to Misery, the second season of Castle Rock. The backstory on Annie was phenomenal, and Lizzy Caplan was robbed of all the awards for her portrayal of Annie. Fucking ROBBED.

(Also, whoever made this decision here was a fucking genius...bringing to mind the final shot of the original Psycho movie was brilllllllliant.)

So Misery has a very close place in my heart (not to fucking mention that it came out around the time I had my own goddamn stalker...that is part of the attempted murder thing I've yet to post). It was the last movie my father took me too, as well (he's still alive...but like Cairo, I have very selfish parents).

Do I have faith that our girl Ortega can do it? Of fucking course I do. She plays Crazy pretty well. But it would be trusting the material to a child (ha ha) who, from the looks of past cringey work, is just driving another (mid) vehicle for Ortega to get hurt in the crash. Too many people LOVE Misery, and Annie Wilkes is beloved. She's a most iconic villainess, and just about anyone who plays her gets accolades (Laurie Metcalf in particular was fkn great in the stage play). I don't see Ortega dropping the ball on any iteration of Annie Wilkes, but I see people looking at the Weeknd after The Idol and laughing (as well they should).

Plus, there's this factor:

Who is Ortega's agent? Isn't she getting fucking sick of re-doing everything from 30+ years ago? What's fucking next, a remake of Gremlins with her as Gizmo?

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...Actually, I'd pay to see that. I WOULD PAY.

But seriously, she wanted to become a scream queen of sorts and now she's fucking stuck doing the same shit other people did before her, and within the memories of people who were alive when the originals came out. Maybe if 50 years had passed between everything, sure. Maybe she should try remaking more stuff from the 60s and 70s. But then again, this is happening with Burton (and Attack of the 50 Foot Woman, which I still kinda feel is perfect for the barely 5' foot tall Ortega 🤣) and I still feel it's just doing the same thing over and over and over again when there are literally thousands of original scripts out there that aren't getting a second look. There's also thousands upon thousands of books that haven't been adapted.

Or, if she really wants to remake something so badly, something that would be completely controversial: Anne Desclos's The Story of O. A new take on it, one that will confuse the Purity Culturalists just as it pissed off feminists in the 1970s before Desclos, a woman, was revealed to have written it in the 90s. Much like it is today, people get pissed off when female characters are written by women as anything less than 'more' (perception-wise, ofc) than the men around them/young women can never be written as willingly submissive or horribly deranged. Can't write Cairo to be the crazy stalker Adrian Forrester was. Can't write anything where a woman willingly throws herself at/or is submissive to a man (because that never happens IRL, right 💀).

The problem is, people love Crazy/unhinged. We fucking love. It. WHEN IT IS DONE WELL. We need substance behind it, especially if it's a new take on a beloved, completely and utterly unhinged character like Annie Wilkes.

Jesus Christ, can't I just sleep for the next 20 years and skip all of this crap?

[dine-on-nervine]

still cursing the lack of Xkit Editable Reblogs

When was the last time you were sick? How incapacitated were you by the illness/ailment? Not really sure, I seldom get the kind of sick where I have to miss work or bail on plans.

Do you often reflect on your past in terms of "eras" or “milestone” time frames (eg, looking back and saying, “it’s been 10 years since X”, etc.)? I do speak in timeframes and "in 19xx"/"when I was ##"/"in # grade" terms and, as an adult, "when I was with ____" (the blank being a woman's name).

Is there something you would like to do or be, but have pretty much accepted it won’t happen because it’s just “not the kind of person you are” or is otherwise incompatible with your personality, character, etc.? This happened with becoming a camp counselor. When I was a camper in my teen years -- see, proof of what I said in the previous question -- summer camp was my reason for living, and so I wanted to give back by becoming a counselor so I could show the kids all the cool stuff that I had been shown or discovered. I graduated from high school and for many years entirely forgot that was what I wanted to do... and I felt kind of silly about how I could have forgotten that. It took a few more years before I came to realize or discover that almost every single counselor I had had, they were teachers and this was a summer gig they had (or the ones that were not teachers were pastors). Which caused me to derive that to be a counselor there you have to have had some education on how to handle people, plus the kind of vetting that those two professions require to prove trustworthiness around youth. Since I didn't go into teaching and have no idea if they had some other way to establish you're not a murderer or pervert, I came to the conclusion that it simply wasn't meant to be because I didn't take my life in education's direction like my parents did. I no longer felt as bad about forgetting what my goal was when I discovered that it was totally outside of my reach anyhow.

When was the last time you experienced cognitive dissonance? Every time I read about political happenings. I honestly don't understand how so many people have that disconnect between What Facts Are Right There In Front Of You and What You Believe And Support Regardless Of Facts And Logic.

If you use Letterboxd, what causes you to “heart”/“like” a film? Don't know what that is and I don't watch movies.

Do you like people watching and is it something you do often? If so, where are your favorite locations to do so? I do enjoy that at times. Pretty much anywhere people are, most often for me it's thriftstores but street festivals and the like are pretty rich for that. Uses to be years ago I'd sit at the mall with my back to the wall at Orange Julius with a friend and we'd take in all the passers-by. Seemed less conspicuous.

Whether you want to have children or not, what do you think has had the greatest influence on your views of children/childrearing (eg, your parents, your own upbringing, your interactions with children as an adult, etc.)? I never wanted children because my biggest fear was that I would fuck them up the way my own folks fucked me up, or in different ways. That sounds harsh but it's what guided me to never reproduce.

Is there anything that you enjoy that you simultaneously find intensely cringey? Is it so cringey that you wouldn’t normally admit to actually enjoying it? Probably, however I like what I like and it affects no one else.

When was the last time you felt someone was being dishonest with you — not necessarily downright lying to your face, but acting or responding to you in a way that seemed false or did not feel like their true self? A month ago. While what she said was plausible enough, I am sure there's a LOT more to the story than the two reasons she gave me. And I don't need to ever know the truth, that's her decision and she'd already mentally checked out months earlier so it was just a matter of time and any reason whatsoever to finally bail.

Similarly, when was the last time you saw a side of someone that made you question your preexisting perception of them? When she said she didn't care that a plant I'd left in her care died. She's one of those people who careerwise and personally is always being empathetic, but in this instance... not even the slightest. I think it's because she was trying to cover for the person who let it die while she and I were out of town, but she absolutely refused to apologise. And she knew very well that I cared about this plant, she even got offended earlier that I would even ask if it was being taken care of... yeah, and then it wasn't so maybe there was a reason I would ask?

If you were a doll, what outfit(s) and accessories would you come with? I would be like the Barbies at a thriftstore: I'd be naked and chances are no one would ever try to dress me.

What was the last bit of praise you received? I have to give my coworker Erik a lot of credit, I met him at a previous job years ago and then he came to this one. He was also a manager at his next job after that first one and brought in one of my favorite coworkers at this place from that place. So: He's always got too much stuff on his plate (one reason why he got that job -- I didn't want it!) so when deliveries come in I attack them to get the special orders pulled, find things that got lost in the shuffle, and get mountains of boxes herded up and put away in record time solo. And so he thanks me all the time, "as always" he adds, for doing such a great job.

When you hear or see your name written out (as in /your/ name, not someone else who shares your name), do you immediately recognize it as your own, or is there a moment of disconnect before that recognition? Actually at my work there is another person with the same first name, who has been there for years longer, so if anyone calls that name I just assume it's for him... unless it's on a Saturday and then I'm the only one. Anyone who wants me will add the initial of my last name, where just using the first name is almost inevitably him. (It could be worse. When I started there were *three* Johns -- who went by Junior, just John or Senior, and JJ. None of those are still there, though JJ's two brothers now work there, and we do have a new John but he's just John in public and "Dickhead" behind his back.)

[sleepwithnightlights]

I am a bit scared

I use a nightlight to sleep I am 23 and am scared of the dark. I am scared that something is there, something will jump at me. That when i open my eyes they will meet someone elses, that things move at the corner of my eye. I already sucked at falling asleep but that made it even worse. Plus i think i started to grind my teeth a while ago, if i had to guess at the same time the shadows started to actually be scary. I used to be fine with the dark and when i imagined something being there, coming at me i would smile in understanding of the creature, sympathy. I wasnt scared of them and it was a proving that i was toughened up that they werent worse than what i knew. So it might be good that they are scary now, perhaps it means i allow myself to be vulnerable. Stress and worse time falling asleep would disagree tho. I feel silly writing this while knowing i might share it. I know not many will see it and at worst an ai bot scrapped it and thinks humans use the word scary and scared a lot more than they should. I also dont write. I used to when i wanted to be an author, they were horse stories and truly wonderful. Later in school i still loved to write, some of it was the silliness i deserved, and some was concerning and should have tipped off my teachers. I guess i gotta say: "I dont write anymore." Which will soon be a lie if i ever make it past 1 or 2 posts. I also dont speak english as my first language and i dont get better at grammar the later it gets, which is when i will write most of these texts. Late at night when im dreading to exist but death is too extreme because of my mom and because of my dog and because of my cat and because of my friends and im scared of pain and i am not at risk, i am in therapy and would certainly not go on a blog to seek my last contact and all i want is to be nothingness but not dead but every thought is poison and i want it to finally shut up up there. So i'll write instead and finally remember what i was thinking duing this time and make it easier for my therapist.

I dont think i used a single comma so far. Oops. I also think that i am being cringe. I will sound edgy no matter how i word it and that no thought will be unique, that what i write is eye-rollable. Teenager stuff. I guess its teenager stuff, its kids stuff, the me teenager and the me kid is just as angry and sad and terrified as the now me. I guess i deserve to be those things and sound cringey and edgy i've got important stuff to share, like being a sad and terrified and angry kid. So back off hater and ai that will not use a single comma now thanks to me. You are welcome guys, i saved us from the impending plagiarization of everything everyone is writing anywhere. Yippie.

I dont allow myself to have a break from doing something during the day.i need to do something so i dont start thinking. Thats stuff bed-me has to deal with and she has gotten quite adapt at trying their best to work with the mess day-me has to deal with. • Fantasy stories. • Funny or exciting scenarios. • Revenge scenarios. • Fake arguments. • Something tragic has happened and only i can help (f.e. a train has been taken hostage and i can save everybody). • Someone i love dearly has died (not actually) and i am now left to deal with grief i cannot even imagine how bad it will be once they truly die. • Someone i love died (actually) and i am left to be furious with the hands they were dealt and they were not able to live their life as they deserved it. • Less now but i used to love creating little love interests and creating whole stories on how we met and fell in love.

There is more but writing does make me tired. Also a lot of these dont actually seem good or helpful and you would be correct but awful scenarios bring a sense of control since i know how to deal with surviving and adapting to anything.

I think i had strategies like these since ever. They used to be mostly diving into the fantasyland of whatever book i was reading, creating my own character, having my own powers, replaying what fun they had. I used to look forward to that part of falling asleep since it was so fun. I dont know if there is something not "normal" about that, something any kid wouldnt do aswell. Im starting to get frustrated that i cant put my thoughts down into writing like i want it to, so ill go try and sleep again. Thank you for reading, hope you got your nigthlight on or video or

[archie-tan7]

If I could turn back time, what would I do differently and why?

Oooohh, I like this question. Umm, so first of all, let's begin from the beginning. Okay, so the exact point in time where I want to go back is 7th grade. The first time I decided to not go outside and watch Kdramas instead. Yup, not doing that again. Even if it was hard, I would try my best to make time for playing outside, maybe not with others since I understand why an 11-year-old me felt so left out. But I would not ignore her physical health. And also, I would find a good music teacher, or if not, then learn vocal techniques online. Try to bond more with Papa. Understand Mumma more. Guide my younger brother better. Be a better friend to my bestie. Read more. Start maintaing a diary and also hiding it better. Be more friendly to people and a bit extroverted. STOP eating junk food and develop healthier eating habits filled with nutrition. Develop and MAINTAIN good hygiene.

In 8th grade, I would stop being resentful of a senior who got selected for a solo singing part instead of me. Also, I would learn skincare and exercise routines. I would also be more confident in class since I always feared being wrong. Who cares if I'm wrong? Fuck that shit. Be more grateful towards my friends who really cared about me. I would take singing and music more seriously as a hobby. Study more and get that academic excellence award. Start to learn more about the world aka read newspaper.

In 9th grade, again I would just maintain good physical activity and skin care. Plus, get motivated to do well academically from my friends. I would work on my self-esteem issues and just be more self-aware and self-reflective. Also, stop being less of a bitch to my parents. Plus, read more books. Also, I would stand up for the class prefect position. I would NEVER write that cringey ass letter to my then friends about being insecure and instead actually open up. And also, stop my benchmate for fatshaming me. Develop a habit of writing creative stuff.

In 10th grade, I would take my studies more seriously because I'm pretty confident that I could become one of the toppers in my school and they would fucking put my name on the school website to make sure everyone knows and I get the credit I deserve. I would let go of my infatuation to my then crush. Again, I would be more outspoken and friendly. I would actually enjoy my trip, instead of being a depressed bitch and also have a good time in that pool. I would consistently journal, read books, writing, practice singing and studying. Most importantly, I would not take Science stream and not join coaching for medical entrance exam. Fuck that shit. I would choose humanities and work towards my career of a psychologist. I would start treatment for PCOS.

In 11th grade, I would either actually pay attention in class or study the books on my own. I would continue singing, reading and introspection. I would learn more housework and kitchen. Learn about personal finance. Make a career plan. Talk to my school friends more often. Work on my glow-up. Take my medications. Do well in exams. Participate in competitions. Develop writing skills for temporary jobs. Stay away from online addiction. Start doing hair care. Not talk with any stranger on the Internet. Guide my brother better. Get therapy.

In 12th grade, I would take my studies even more seriously. Become THAT girl: healthy diet, workout, journaling, meditation, academics, social life, skincare, hair care. Definitely get into my dream college. Have a plan for my career in psychology in college. Work on developing my style: fashion, makeup, walk, personality. Separate my fantasy from reality. Continue everything from above.

Post-college entrance exam, start action on career before college starts. Internships, read journals and books, find connections on LinkedIn. Make goals for all the 4 years of college and achieve them. Make sure I am confident in myself: looks, personality, knowledge and empathy. Learn to dance (party-style). Read philosophy and non-fiction books.

In 1st year of college, take my studies seriously early on since current university is fucked up. Talk to a lot of a people first and then join friend groups. Find one person to stick to and become "besties". If not, then be okay with being a loner. Hang out my actual current bestie more because she deserves better than this. Be more active. Start gym. Become more knowledgeable. Do internships from home, build good rapport with teachers. Learn more psychology. Join the NGO thing. Start building resume and ensure good CGPA.

Well, the reason for all these things is pretty obvious. I do NOT like myself currently. I'm not doing well in any of the aspects of my life. Like I'm not using any of my gifts or privileges well enough. I'm SO disappointed in me and I literally fail myself all the time. And being aware of that doesn't help. At all.

[enigmaticxbee]

✖️✖️✖️ 11x03 Plus One

The one where... there’s only one room at the motel and Scully can’t sleep... and murderous doppelgängers, whatever.

Tagline: The Truth Is Out There - The Truth Is Out There

Best: What is happening, are my fanfic daydreams somehow coming to life on my screen? Scully coming to Mulder in the middle of the night and asking him to hold her? Mulder getting up from their bed and grinning at himself in the bathroom mirror? Scully sleepily whispering for him to come back to bed? Mulder hurriedly dressing while telling a naked Scully in his bed to put a dimmer on that afterglow because they have to rush off to solve a case? Scully sauntering towards their adjoining motel room door to find Mulder leaning there giving her that look? GA’s ATTHS. Twice. 😏 tweet - what a time to be alive!

Worst: Don’t even get me started on their conversation about having more kids. They’ve had 16 years to have this conversation! Scully’s in her mid-50s!! This might have made sense 10 years earlier in the IWTB era - it feels like a classic tv revival case of an idea a writer had years earlier that makes its way into a revival like no time has passed and these characters haven’t been living their lives - together! - for years. We all know they’re terrible at communicating but give me a fucking break. And the fact that they only have this conversation and sleep together - at the St Rachel motel 🙄 - to set up the finale pregnancy twist 😑

❌ Flashlights

❌ Woods/Desert

❌ Slideshow

❌ Autopsy

❌ Evidence Disappears

❌ Scully Misses It

❌ Mulder Ditch

❌ Sunflower Seeds

❌ Voiceover

❌ Catch Phrase

❌ Scully is a Medical Doctor

❌ Mulder is Spooky

❌ Scuuullllaaaaayy! Muullllderrrr!

❌ Fox/Dana

✔️ Inappropriate Touching (that I am here for)

❌ Casual Scully

✔️ Casual Mulder

❌ Trench Coats

❌ Bad Tie Watch

✔️ Glasses Watch 😎

✔️ Taking! It! Personally!: Scully

50 States: Virginia x21 (44/50)

Investigate: Together & Apart

Solve Rate: 67%

✔️ Bechdel Test

MSR: 🐝🐝🐝🐝🐝

Goriness: 👽👽👽

Creepiness: 👽👽👽

Humor: 👽👽👽

Rewatch Thoughts:

William check-in: They somehow have a whole conversation about having more kids without mentioning him directly… Isn’t the issue less that William was a miracle and more that they had to give him up for his own protection and what would make another kid any safer?? Although with Mulder around it would be different than in season 9. More to say, I don’t think Scully’s issue with having another kid was who to have it with.

Break-up check-in: All their maybe you’ll find someone else stuff just feels ridiculous to me... Mulder’s face when Scully says that she can’t imagine that she’ll need him 🥺 - but also he knows her, that she’ll protest and try to deny herself what she really wants, but that she wants him, and he’ll be there waiting when she opens the door.

The opening scene is very unpleasant - not my type of music and crowded mosh pits are my nightmare

The site of the bear bts video!

Scully’s little smile says she thinks he’s handsome too

Only one room huh? My favorite trope brought to life?? Never mind, there’s a pullout sofa. They could have just been in adjoining rooms (like every fanfic ever).

Karin Konoval (the memorable Mrs. Peacock) plays both Judy and Chucky - I don’t think I realized that the first time I saw this episode because I am very unobservant

Wtf is Dookie?

CC trying to write about a middle aged woman’s insecurities about being past her child-bearing years is so cringey - all dried up?? Would Scully have complicated feelings about aging and motherhood? Of course! But letting Judy get to her like that just does not feel authentic.

Mulder and Scully could argue about ghosts in their sleep - and probably have.

Mulder: You still got some scoot in your boot. Is that a saying? 😂

Scully’s hair looks great this episode - especially in the parking lot scene.

They are very blasé about the death of a man who came to them for help hours earlier and they sent home, telling him it was all in his head…

Things I do like about their bedtime chat:

- Scully asking to be held 🥺

- Mulder: I’ll come push your wheelchair with my wheelchair.

- Mulder’s arm around her

- Scully: Sometimes I think the world is going to hell and that we’re the only two people who can save it. This is why it took them 7 years to get together the first time.

- Scully: We’ll think of something. That smirk!

Chuck and Judy being unable to kill Mulder and Scully because they’re fighting over who’s more in love with them, relatable.

Scully rationalizing her evil doppelgänger away - after she’s eaten magic bread pills.

That final scene!! I may have watched the gif of this a few (hundred) times.

[bunny-hoodlum]

Almost done binging Netflix's Dark and Some Updates on hiatused Fics

Okay, I deleted my cringey post from however long ago, two days ago, whatever. I mean, in a way this blog is dead. I don't reaaaally feel like posting anything on here in particular, and I kinda never have. IDK when I will be drawing again, and I'm pulling away from social media in general becuz it's actually making me less inspired and more distracted.

Okay, I'll just quickly touch on Dark and move on. If you've read my fic "Powerless", which I stupidly deleted becuz I was worried readers were gonna feel ship-baited (becuz I didn't know when the NaruHina was ACTUALLY gonna happen) but for the past 3 years I wish I had left it up, it's been nearly 5 years now since I started it... AGHHHH!!! Okay, recurring angst out of the way, Dark S3 reminded me of what I was going for with Powerless. So... While time travel will not be involved at all, cosmic-level mysteries are definitely part of it. And I'll be working on the official plot again on the side. (it's still probably going to suck though, haha, what a reason to never update something, it never gets to suck if you don't let it. :P )

Fanfic Updates:

*more pained screaming* AHHHH!!! Had to get the cringe out of the way. Trying really hard here to get back to 21 Days but I feel so embarrassed, I don't know why. I just looked at it and had to click away, guhhh... T _ T Must be my writing, it's almost 3 years old. Where does the time go? I'm so sad. I have to retcon shit by 2 chapters. I totally forced the plot point of Sasuke taking his police test too early. I'm no longer attached to that development, which is good, because by holding onto it, I was staying stuck. Ch 20 is fine in of itself, but it's so, so short and not amazing. Totally a transitional chapter but whatever the new chapter is, it's going to be like... Ch 20's content plus more, and then Ch 21 is going to be something else entirely.

I know that there's nothing wrong with AWY in its current state, and even with the way it is right now it's like an arc has ended and I have to start a new arc, but I'm not feeling the last chapter anymore either. I think the way Kurenai is and how they kinda made up was totally accepted and even enjoyed? But it's not working for me. So I'm adjusting all of that.

As for Runner's High, I've written several new different outlines and such, so far I'm leaning on... and this is because I watched Run with the Wind last spring precisely for research... I'm leaning on Naruto being a college athlete and his team goes to a resort for training and it happens to be the one that I originally wanted him to work at -- maybe he will still work there at some point, I'm still figuring that all out. But I'm abandoning the 'hotel/hospitality management' major aspect because it's not really a necessary degree to move up the hierarchy. He can be a front desk boy and already be on the path to hotel owner, give or take years and years of experience, and then, y'know, not even know if that's what he wants until later. I still think Uzushio can be like a bankrupt country that he wants to go back to and revitalize and whatnot. Maybe. I've totally disconnected from my old plans and the previous version of the fic, so whatever becomes up the reboot is gonna be whatever it's gonna be, and it's not going to be the same lol. It literally cannot be the same. Lightning in a Bottle. But it's still a fun story that I want to write either way. It's a niche that needs to be filled, among other things.

Alright, I think that's all. Sorry, I'm not more succinct with this stuff, I know it's rambly as hell lol.