#(matty also didnt do anything)

[hp-hcs]

i love ur fics sm omf.....

i am massively abnormal and mentally ill so thinking ab yan theo and mattheo with a gryffindor reader, clearly toxic but in which reader tries to break up with them .... failing miserably and just getting manipulated by them about how he's gonna get hurt and everyone but them wants to hurt him. he refuses to believe which just makes them go take the violent route since he was making it hard for them 🙁

and could i possibly be 🦦 anon? hope im not bothering, have a nice day or night !! <3

of course you can, lovely 🦦 anon!!

i absolutely adore the amount of angst in this request

also no i totally didnt base a lot of this on my own ex bf what no thatd be crazy

abuse warning! stay safe!!

toxic — yandere! manipulative! theodore nott x gn! reader x yandere! manipulative! mattheo riddle

requests open

‼️heavy abuse warning‼️

(physical, verbal, emotional, & psychological; lots of manipulation and gaslighting)

U.S. National Domestic Violence Hotline: 800-799-7233

Text line: Text START to 88788

YOU DESERVE SAFETY. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

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“We’re breaking up. I can’t do this anymore.”

Theodore looked up at you quizzically from where he was reading on the couch. “Hm?”

“I’m breaking up with you. Both of you.”

“Oh, darlin’,” Mattheo sighed, shaking his head. “We can’t in good conscience let you do that.”

“See, here’s the thing, Matty,” you laugh humorlessly. “I don’t care.”

“But baby,” Theo said softly, his eyebrows furrowing as he looked at you with puppy dog eyes.

You steeled yourself as you started to feel the melting effects of that damn expression of his. “I can’t. Not anymore. It’s too fucking exhausting.”

“What is, baby?” Theodore pleaded, reaching out to grab your hand. “Tell us so we can fix it.”

The urge to shy away from this conversation, to apologize profusely for trying to leave, and to shove all of your emotions down until you felt numb again was overwhelming.

Theo rubbed the knuckles of your hand with his thumb. “Baby…”

You took a breath and steeled yourself again. “The everything, Theo. The lying. The cheating. The benders every weekend. The screaming at each other and the ghosting me. The waiting for me to come crawling back to you. Begging you to take me back every fucking time. Apologizing for everything even when it wasn’t my fault.”

“Ba-”

“No. I’m talking right now. The manipulation. The love bombing. I’m sick of it. I’m. Done.”

“Now, c’mon, darlin’,” Mattheo said placatingly. “Don’t be like that. You know none of that was our fault.”

“None? You slept with half of our year while we were dating.”

“Are,” Theo corrected. “Are dating.”

“Cute. No.”

“Baby, who else could possibly love you as much as we do?” Mattheo pouted, reaching out for your wrist and using it to tug you down onto his lap.

You stiffened, trying to free your wrist from his slowly tightening grasp. “Literally anyone. It’s not like you guys do anything.”

“Don’t do anything? Sweetheart, we protect you,” Theo chuckled with a sharp smile.

“Oh yeah?” You scoffed, managing to free your wrist and get out of Mattheo’s lap. “Protect me from who?”

“There’s a lot of bad people out there, doll. People who’d want to hurt you if they got the chance.”

“What, like you?”

“We’ve never laid a hand on you, sweetheart. Not once,” Mattheo sneered the last word like a curse, his greedy hands reaching out to snatch your arm again.

You flinched minutely, stepping back from his grasping hands. “I don’t care. We’re over, whether you like it or not.”

“Oh, stop it, darlin’,” Theo cooed patronizingly, standing up from the couch and crowding into your space. “You need us. Who else would care about you as much as we do? Who else would want you?”

“I. Don’t. Care.” You gritted out, shoving at his chest.

The boys shared a look—one you couldn’t quite read.

Suddenly, Theodore caught your jaw in his hand, squeezing tight. “You’d better shut up, sweetheart. Before one of us gets mad.”

“Dude, are you threatening me? I wi-”

Your sentence was cut off by a harsh slap.

You froze, mouth hanging open.

Your hand slowly went to your stinging cheek as you stared at him with wide, disbelieving eyes.

Theo at least had the tact to look guilty. “Baby- baby, I’m so sorry- it was an accident, I swear.”

You didn’t move, still processing what had just happened.

“Sweetheart? Darlin’, I’m sorry. I really am. You were just making me so mad…It was an accident, swear. It’ll never happen again, promise,” he cooed gently, stooping down to cup your cheeks in his hands with utter gentleness and care.

He hissed sympathetically when you flinched back from the pressure on your already-reddening cheek, gently stroking his thumb over it.

As you looked up at his apologetic and remorseful expression, you could feel a flicker of tenderness as you were reminded of the sweet boy you fell in love with in the first place.

“It’s okay, Theo,” you whispered, your words betrayed by the way your voice cracked. You swallowed thickly, blinking back the tears that threatened to spill from your eyes. “It was an accident.”

Theo made a show of sighing in relief. “Thank you, darling. But now you know to shut your mouth, don’t you baby? You know I don’t wanna hear you fucking saying that shit again, mhm?”

You just nodded mechanically.

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hey! guess what! it absolutely will happen again! if your partner ever hits you, call a friend to come get you and then leave. it’s not worth it to stay, trust me.

to my taglisters! i haven’t tagged you in this due to its sensitive content. you know your boundaries and limits better than i do. stay safe.

— hp-hcs xx

[kindestofkings]

never go out of style

josh jenkinson x stylist! reader

authors note: I had loads of fun with this one! this one is for the josh girlies. also its so fluffy, as all my stuff is, life is sad enough so my fics will probs always be soft lol !

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[an9st1]

tour | chris sturniolo

description: y/n has been friends with the triplets since she could remember, and after being in almost every video they have ever posted shes been invited to go on tour with them.

fluff

"n/n, you ready?" chris yells to me from another room. "yeah" i respond walking out into the main room. while laura and nick talk i pull out my phone opening tiktok.

i pick a song and start recording while chris runs over to jump in. when the tiktok ends, i pick up my phone to watch the video and caption it "tour ready" and post it to my main tiktok.

"love your hoodie" matt compliments after stealing my phone and taking selfies with it. "thanks" i say with a confused smile as we both know chris gave it to me.

"and were off" nick says helping to pack stuff into the back of the tour bus.

after we all settle in and are on the road to our first show matt decides to go live. he sits down next to me as he talks to the many fans while im on my phone. soon enough chris comes around sitting next to me with his arms folding over me and matt which gets me to engage in the live stream. as soon as i do, the comments flourish with questions of why im on tour with them as i am not a "sturniolo triplet" matt starts to adress the comments when chris looks at me and i interupt matt.

"its nothing really deep um," i pause "they invited me cus i didnt want to be home alone for that long and we kind of go everywhere together" i state more as a question "but um yeah, i also didnt wanna be away from them for that long so" i say lightly.

"yeah uh, we knew that you guys would be asking but its nothing deep or anything shes just are bestfriend and we wouldn’t want to do this wihtout her" chris pleads for me as i smile and nod my head, he looks at me and gives me a side hug. matt says his goodbyes and ends the live on a good note saying how excited and scared he is to meet so many people.

after the live ends we head to sound check and when that was soon over the triplets started meeting fans. i stood close by taking pictures with a few fans mostly watching the boys interact. im so proud of them, they’ve come so far. i am in awe.

one of the last fans for now comes over and says hi to me and takes a picture and we then head over backstage to get ready for Q & A's. i am so lucky to be able to be apart of the q & a portion, laura insisted.

the fans ask so many fun questions and i really enjoyed answering them.

"this question says 'whos your favorite fan friend-ship out of all of you'" nick reads. "honestly i- ive gotta say the fan favorite 'chrisy/n" nick answers smiling at us as the crowd screams, matt agrees and the fans go even crazier, chris and i laugh. "honestly who dosent love them" nick interupts over the fans. the crowd screams even louder if that was even possible, going crazy.

once the fans calms down i answer with shortness of breath from laughing "honestly mattchris" i say and the crowd yells again and me raising both ny hands up scooting back.

"matty/n" chris says with a dumb smile on his face and the crowd screams louder.

once the q & a's were over we got ready for the show and matt pulls out the camera to record "how we feelin?" he asks "so fucking hyped i answerd "ayyee" chris says running over to me wrapping his arm around my shoulder. "fit check" matt says to me .

"umm, these aree like cargo-y pants from- i dont know where, air force ones" i give a look that says 'obvi' and this hoodie that chris gave me"

"barsss" matt says high fiving me" we say bye as the performance starts.

music starts playing loudly and the crowd screams. as soon as we enter the crowd goes even wilder. chris’ arm around my shoulder as mines around his and nicks and we start vibing and sining along. chris and i get close to the crowd picking up a recording phone, singing to it and posing.

after many vibes and video recording, singing, and bereals, the shows over and we meet more fans.

finally, after all the fans have been met, we head back to the tour bus and pack up as it rains. chris and i's hoods are up as we pack stuff in the trunk and fans record.

we enter the bus and i hug everyone telling them that that was amazing and how proud i am of them. soon after, we go through a drive thru as i scroll on my phone on the couch. i laugh as i scroll past so many fan edits of chris and i, showing him the funny ones.

“theres seariusly so many it’s like insane.” i say to the recording camera nick is holding.

“n/n, chris have you seen all these edits?” matt says laughing knowing we definitely have. I hit him playfully rolling my eyes and then lay my head on chris’ lap as he scroll through tiktok and nick stops the camera.

[yourtouchismidas]

In honor of the new atpoaim part imagine a part where Matty is talking about Gigi and how she and the missus have made his life better (not in a lot of detail ofc for privacy)

the camera shakes from behind the trees. matty knows it is there, of course, he asked for it. but he pretends he doesnt. the black and white doesn't show the fact it is a sunny day. it looks over cast. it is chilly though. matty sits next to adam on a park bench. one of those traditional wooden ones. dedicated to someone. matty reads out the plaque when they sit down, "to doris, who loved this park and everyone in it." he laughs. "jesus," he says, "that couldnt be more cliche if it tried." adam chuckles, but his eyes don't leave the far off place he has been watching throughout the video.

matty's eyes have joined him. the watch in silence for a while. you can hear some birds. some high pitched squeals of children.

"gigi!" matty yells. "gigi, get down from that... you aren't supposed to climb..."

then matty is gone, off from the bench and out of screen. adam is laughing, softly. he watches. then matty comes back into shot, straightens his coat. their breath puffs in the air in front of them.

"this kid will be the death of me," he tells adam. adam lets out a non committal hum.

"kids are wild, huh?" he says.

"yup," matty says. he shoves his hands back in his pockets. "she's also the life of me though."

there is a cut. time has passed. we don't know what was said in that time, if anything. or if the dad's just watched the kids play. matty is speaking.

"i never thought i could do it," he says.

"what? be a dad?" adam says.

"yeah."

"well we all knew that."

"what?" matty says.

"that you didnt think you could do it. soon as your missus got pregnant it was all we heard about. for months."

"it's a scary thing."

"it is," adam agrees. "i think it was different for you though. because. you know. she was..."

"an accident," matty says.

adam scoffs, "well i wasnt going to say those words."

"i know you weren't. you're too polite. but let's call a spade a spade. that's my beautiful little accident."

he points off screen. the children are yelling. screeching. having the time of their lives. there is another jump cut.

"nothing prepares you though does it? for like, how much you're gonna love them."

"hmm" adam nods.

"like, you think you know love."

"and you dont."

"and you dont. until you hold that little baby in your arms."

there is another pause and then matty talks again.

"i mean i never thought i would love anyone like i love, this one's mum. i was so lucky really."

as he speaks he scuffs his foot in the gravel, looking down.

"i got not one, but two surprise girls. mother and baby."

adam nods.

"fuck me i'm lucky."

"we didnt think anyone would have you," adam says, for the first time looking round at him and grinning. matty rolls his eyes but he nods.

"me neither," he says, "but someone from thinking no one would have me, i got the one. you believe in that?"

adam frowns, thinking. matty doesnt give him a chance to answer.

"well i do. i do since her anyway."

we watch them for a little while longer, their faces pretty blank, looking out at the park. suddenly, both their faces change, they lean forward, their smiles grow huge, and two little people run up to them and into their respective father's arms, faces hidden by coat hoods and scarves, camera facing the back of them. we watch as they embrace their children, then it cuts to black before another scene.

[god-has-entered-my-body]

𝚆𝚎𝚕𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚜𝚝 𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚘𝚏: 𝚕𝚎𝚗𝚊'𝚜 𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖 𝚕𝚘𝚐

(i'm not alright.)

I physically cannot do this shit anymore oh my god kill me. Right so dream starts out i'm in my usual club, the layout is the same, the people are the same, everythings good amazing wonderful. mind you this feels REAL like i can feel people against the and taste the drink in my hand kind of real. I move up to the front where the DJ booth is, and i see this weird staircase leading up to it which shouldve been my first red flag because those stairs dont exist in realy life.

Of course this is a dream where i meet all four members of the band + the dare and fucking fumble so hard oh my god. i can still feel the nervousness like it was REAL. Right no so i see Matty first, then George. The height difference is comical as always, and Matty has his fuckass mustache and just is watching DJ man do his thing.

I can literally feel my phone in my pocket and i take it out to see notifications from a certain groupchat (you know who you are) talking about some sort of Matty sighting at a party and im literally THERE so i start fucking freaking out man idk because he's just THERE like he isnt being out of the ordinary or anything.

So i just walk up to him and say his name like three times and he turns to me, gives me a look and his face weirdly changes and he offers a hug which i could FEEL mind you. I have sunglasses on and im litch tearing up this whole time and SOMEHOW i manage to muster up the courage to ask him to sign a napkin with a weirdly short felt tip pen whilst im on the verge of a menty B.

George is sort of stood behind him the whole time and i ask him for a hug too and i swear to god and all that is good i could feel that mans body temperature and his hands on my back im so so so fucking serious.

Next i see king of gay people adam fucking hann and oh my goddd he was just THERE LIKE ????????? I could see him smile and he hugged me and signed my fuckass napkin and gave me a kiss on the cheek after i started raving on about his spot on that one guitarists list and whatnot. His hug felt so REAL im going to sob like. get these men out of my LIFE i cant fucking take this someone shoot me in the face.

Ross i couldnt see which fucking crushed me but i felt matty's hand on my shoulder and he said we'd go look for him and i was like okay king??????? huh??????? but whatever we go back down thus fuckass staircase and i fall down flot on my face but also somehow i didnt and i keep walking until we reach this weird, long, oktoberfest-esque type of table which has NO business being in an indoor club okay whatever moving on.

He sits down at this table and i sit across from him, and he fully takes my hands and starts yapping about some fucking weird shit whilst im on the verge of spilling actual tears which freaked me out. also i just start talking about his music and solo career and asked what George was doing on aug. 2nd (which he did NOT give an answer to).

Whatever im clutching his napkin like only death itself could rip it for me and Matty asks go see it and i'm like. mate.... okay fine whatever here. this bitch straight up forges Ross's signature and shows me it and it LOOKS SHITEEEEE IT LOOKED SO BAD im going scream and cry but whatever.

I tell him it looks horrible and he laughs his stupid twink laugh that we all miss and i get back up to hunt for ross ( which is what we should have been doing in the FIRST PLACE but alas)

I find this massive fucking 8'4 rock of a man and hes so large his hug is weird and awkward because his hands are just on my head the whole time (height difference was COMICALLY big, omg hi twin matty and george).

Right so i get this autograph, and they all leave and im just stood there in fucking shock and terror because i get met the core members of british band the 1975 in a GERMAN CLUB nad im just like... okay...... what the FUCK mate im literally mortified. That conversation with Matty at the oktoberfest-esque table was LONGGG mind you it took fuckign ages it was so so so insane.

So naturally i text my 75 ride or die fuckign tumblr user @dh--ii (love you G) and i fully cant remember his reaction to ANYTHING. but i just know i sent a picture of the george part of the napkin for him to freak out about.

right this is where things get foggy because now im texting in previously mentioned GC, and i look up and im in this weird security camera security room with THE DARE. Hes shirtless (mmhmmm thank you brain 4 that) and is giving cunt slash neg when he looks at me but like. who can blame him honestly.

Right so i introduce myself and he does the same and gives me one of half assed bro side hugs and i accept because its fucking him who wouldnt.

This man yaps and yaps and yaps about guess and his production and how amazing charli and george are and how he loved boiler room so so so much and this is when i see charli and george full making out on one of those security cameras. i look away out of respect and shes fully got her tits out but i STILL look away xxxxxx

I go to open my phone to text G a picture of the fucking dare shirtless IN FRONT OF ME because that man shares my obsession with this little cunt and its insane. Thats when i fucking wake up from this fuckass dream and i literally start going mental trying to figure out if this was a dream, trying to litch cope with my life i was so so so so disoriented

this was simultaneously the best and worst dream of my life like. jesus fucking christ. If you read this far youre a legend and also insane

[chrisismine22]

Not enough

FIRST POST.

chris and you are"freinds" right?

TW! smut, unprotected sex, p in v, use of toys, masturbating, pet names, language, drinking.

y/n and chris

It was 10 at night and you were exhausted from your meetings. Tomorrow was a big day and you were so exited. You were planning on meeting up with a bunch of your friends for the triplets birthday. You were most exited to see Chris. You and the triplets had been friends since high school but you had connection with Chris. You didn't know what it was but being around him made you feel warm and cozzy. His voice was calming and he was HILARIOUS. You decided to text him before you went to bed.

y/n:Heyyy wyd

Chris: hey y/n im trying to go to sleep rn but u texted me

y/n: shut up bru

Chris: well Nick invited Larray. I thought you would be happy so ya

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you and Larray were such good friends. His energy made your day. Everyday. Even when he was mad, it was still funny and made you giggle.

y/n:YAYYYYYY

Chris: glad ur happy y/n

well cu tmrw

y/n: byee chrisyyyyy

Chris: dont call me that

y/n: fineee

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Talking to Chris made you so happy no matter the topic. You decided it was best for you to just sleep for now cause u also wanted to buy a new outfit tmrw.

next morning---

Its almost 12. "Shit, i'm gonna be late" You quickly got up from bed and went to change. You threw on some grey sweats and a baby-T. You didn't put on a bra tho cause you thought you were just gonna go to get an outfit. By the time you finished eating it was like 1 so you just decided to stay home. The mall was to far from your house to get new clothes so you just went to fix up you hair and put on some makeup. You were heading upstairs and when your phone started vibrating in your pocket. It was Chris calling.

"Hey Chrisy" you say with a smile cause you knew how he hated that name

"Shut up y/n. Do you want matt and I to pick you up. Nick said hes gonna try to get Tara to come to the party so he wont be coming to pick you up"

"Ya Im just gonna fix my hair and shi but you guys can come in like 20 min"

"ok let me tell Matty"

you giggled at the nickname Chris gave his brother. you just hung up the phone and started your make up.

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It was about 30 min later and you were sitting on the couch. You didnt chage your clothes cause you would be uncofortable in smth fancy anyways. plus the triplets and u were close so it didnt matter what you wore. You heard a knock at ur door and got up from the couch. It was chris.

"HIIII" you said giving him a hug

"HIIII" he said hugging you back.

"wheres Matt?" you didnt see him because oyu were caught up in looking at Chris' new shirt. It was just a white T but it was right up on his abbs. "God" you thought to yourself

"Matts in the car waiting, ru ready?"

"oh ya sry we can go now" you said as you giggled a bit.

Chris was looking into your eyes but you didn't think anything of it cause you know, we're friends.

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It was now almost 9pm and the party was going great. Chris decided to get a little drunk which confused you cause he never drank. You were dancing when you felt two large hands on your waist. It was Chris

"Fuck you scared me chris"

"Sry ml"

you gasped at the new nickname. You knew he was drunk for sure

"Chris! get urself together bud" you laughed

His sleepy eyes looked into yours. You gasped again but this time, it was at the feeling in you stomach.

"Im not doing anything baby"

You didnt know what to say. because you liked it. You just decided to ingnore him until he pulled you in.

"Dont ignore me sweethart, I wanna hear your pretty voice again"

His low voice and the names you were given made you throb to you core. You decided it wouldnt be HOriBle.

"ok handsome" you dragged your fingers down his chest. You were drunk but not as drunk as him.

Chris didnt hesitate one bit, pulling you in and smashing his lips against yours. A slight moan escaped your throat at the sudden contact. You bodies were so close you could feel his bulge.

He broke the kiss, pulling you arm toward his room. It took you a second to realize what was going on after his kiss. Hypnotising as his tongue wandered your mouth. He swung open the door and pushed you in the bed.

"Chris what ru doing"

"Dont worry baby,"

You didnt know what to think because you guys were "friends". right?

Chris climbed on the bed, slamming his lips to yours again. You felt one of his hands travel down to your tits.

"Fuck you dont have a bra baby"

"Chris, we cant do this"you hated saying that cause you really did want to do this

"why not sweetheart"he groaned slowly kissing your neck

once again, you ignored him enjoying the plessure of his lips and his hands on you sensitive nipples. You were wet. So wet you couldn't explain.

After a bit of you whimpering and quietly moaning Chris kissed a trail down to your thighs. Before doing anything, he looked up at you for consent. You slowly nodded as he pulled your sweats of. He stared at the puddle formed in your thong.

"wet for me princess"

"Chris pleae--" you were interupted by a moan escaping your mouth as you rubbed slow but strong circles on your clit.

"please what baby, I wanna know what you want my love"

Your back arched at the feeling of his finger caressing your folds. "plea-please touch m--"

"you want me to make you feel good dont you"

you hummed in response loosing the ability to speek has the circles got faster and rough. You loved it so much. The pet names and his deep voice turned you on enough. without warning, Chris shoved two fingers into you. "Chris!" you moaned his name as his long veiny fingers hit your g-spot immediately. "you like that princess" he grinned as his pace sped up, still hitting your g-spot

"mhm" you whimpered as you felt a knot growing in you lower stomach. "Im-- close" you could barely get words out of your mouth because of the pure pleasure u felt. "cum all over my fingers baby" Those words set you off, squirting your liquid all over his finger. You were catching your breath when you looked at chris. his bulge was unbelievable and it turned you on, even after you just came."your such a good girl f'me you know" he praised you as he licked his fingers"taste so good mm" he groaned. Without thinking, you quickly pushed him on his back, desperate for him to be in you. You kissed him desperately as you grinded on his member. he was big, and you loved it. "wtf do you think your doing" he grabbed you hips holding them in place. "please chrisy, i want you daddy" you said whimpering at the loss of friction. That five letter word made him go crazy as he grinded you on him, helping you gain friction. You were a moaning mess and his boxers weren't even off yet. "your such a slut y/n. your my slut" You couldnt listen as you were derperate for his cock. lifting you hips, you slid his boxers down watching his long cock smack his pelvis. He was leaking pre-cum all over his pink tip. You decided to contain yourself for a bit as you palmed his tip slowly."agh fuck it--- feels so good" you knew he loved it from the groans and whimpers but you needed him now. You aligned his gurthy cock with you needy cunt and sank onto him. A pornographic moan escaped you mouth. "o princess your so tight i love it".

At this point you weren't listening to him, instead focused on the feeling of his dick deep inside you. he grabbed your waist only to thrust deeper into you. Both you guys' moans were getting uncontrollable. You could feel Chris' dick throbbing in you which meant he was close.

"fil-fill me up daddy"

The last word pushing hit to the edge. As you felt his warm liquid shoot inside of you the know in your stomach released, causing you to orgasm again. It felt so good. as you rode out you high chris started massaging your clit again. Again, it felt so good. the overstimulate wasnt painful but felt amazing. this time he wanted to be in charge. giving you barely any time to breath, he flipped you over onto your back again.

This time there was no teasing. You felt him slamming right into you. You did feel pain but it felt soooo goood. Your moans turned into screams as his member reached somewhere no one could reach. The squelching noises and your moans turned him on even more. You didnt think it was possible be this desperate for more but you were. He was pounding. All you could do was enjoy as you tits bounced up and down. it was mezmorizing how quiet but how loud he was. His groans made you reach you high faster each time. You were grspimg on the sheets as his cock made you nausuos in a good way. You couldnt get over it. Without saying anything you came all over him screaming his name

'' CHRIS OMFG'' your moans were so loud anyone could hear. As you were way overstimulated, Chris finaly came in you again. "fuck my princess" he moaned

He slowly pulled out as he flopped next to you on the bed.

''Fuckkk y/n your to good. I love you''

''I love you too chris''

[scrapyardboyfriends]

The factoring was good. You had people working there and interacting (and some didnt even need to be shown, they could just be "off to their shift" ) easy way to give characters some frineds, and then they take their lunch in the woolpack qnd/or grab a beer after work, bringing the village together, and having a perfect spot for shocking revelations, arguments fights etc. Bring back the factory. I dont care what they make, just have one

Agreed. The factory was a great business for the village to have. It allowed a space for so many characters to come together, which allowed stories to cross over in a less plotty way, which made the village feel more connected. And yeah then those people would come back into the village and get lunch from the cafe and go to the Woolpack. It was a great little ecosystem.

It also felt more plausible for any random character who turned up to get a job at the factory than it does for them to just all work at the Hide.

And like, the HOP and the HIDE could have been at least semi decent if they utilized them better. I feel like everything they've tried to do with HOP has just failed miserably though. Ben was....useless and they barely showed him doing anything anyway. Billy and Ellis's PT business lasted like 5 minutes the first time. I guess Billy started it again but was that just for Manpreet plot? Is he even still doing it? And then you had the people in the office when Dawn worked there and you had Dawn and Jai and Kim etc but I feel like that office set stopped existing altogether. And then there was Belle's wellness business, which only ever exists for very specific plot purposes. No one is ever just going to work in this show. Because every day life plots have ceased to exist, which is a problem.

But like if you had a lot of the teens and young 20 somethings working up there in like the summer months, they could really use it to show friendships and relationships and such but they don't bother.

And the HIDE is the same. You have all of these people working there: Vic, Matty, Amy, Suni (for now), Laurel, Jai, Gabby now and then and yet I feel like you never see that work culture. None of those characters ever interact with each other there unless, again, it's for a very specific plot purpose. And it's a shame because Vic, Matty and Amy especially are supposed to be friends and because there's basically only ever one working at a time, you never get to see them interact. They just don't bother and yet there's such an opportunity to use that space to have them interact and to show their friendship.

They really need to return to using all of the village businesses to showcase and sometimes drive character and plot rather than using them as occasional set dressing.

[tillthelandslide]

Insufferable Arsehole Head canons

a/n: okay so i randomly had this idea and i'm aware most people wont be interested in the slightest but i just had to write it, for myself more than anything haha. So I was thinking about the character Lou within my Matty series "insufferable arsehole" and i was thinking about her relationship/friendships with the guys and decided to do some head canons for each of the boys... enjoy if you do read haha

Special thanks goes to @poisonmedaddy13 aka my wonderful support system on here :) thank you for helping me with this, for not shutting down my ideas and for having my back

Part 5 will be posted soon so keep your eyes peeled if you're interested :)

PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE YET TO READ INSUFFERABLE ARSEHOLE BC SPOILERS!

You can read the series here

George:

George has been her best friend since diapers, they've gone through every aspect of their lives together, that fact alone means that they're bonded for life

They know every minute detail about each other

She thinks he probably knows her better than anyone

He's the one person in her life who has been a steady unwavering support

He's her rock, the person she knows she can go to for everything, for advice, for comfort for laughs, anything

they have to deal with lots of people assuming they're something more and it has got a bit tiring over the years but theyre kind of used to it by now

she knows he would jump in front of a train if it meant she lived

he would hurt anyone who hurts her and has come close to beating up ex's of hers that have been douches (and has punched a fair few of them)

she's the first he shares lyrics with or song concepts (even more matty sometimes)

they both felt that because they were so close, whatever one was feeling, the other felt too

not a day went by where they didnt talk, even when they weren't together, on opposite sides of the world, they would still talk

there was this one time: when they were around 16 maybe 17, g had organised this big surprise party for her birthday, it was absolutely amazing, he had managed to get a fuck ton of beer and weed from an older friend, his garden was full to the brim of all of their friends, some people she didnt know (not that it matter). but despite it being HER birthday party, he had invited matty who at some point in the night had said something about how the dress she was wearing would make all the guys think she was an easy fuck... she remembered how her best friend (a very drunk and high george) had laughed at mattys words... they didn't talk for weeks after that until one day her lanky friend appeared at her door, begging on his hands and knees to forgive him, saying how much of a prick he had been and how much he had missed her. somehow they grew closer after that, he would always have her back and she never questioned that.

they have their own handsake and george knows her disdain for something by one simple fact: she will crinkle her nose up at him, he'd do it back and then they'd laugh about it... it was their thing

she was practically his sister

nicknames they have for each other: G, Georgie (he doesn't like this too much), he calls her Lou ofc, also pumpkin (when she was sad or needed comfort),

Ross:

ross and lou grew close when they were kids, they were never as close as G and Lou (basically impossible to be) but there friendship was different

ross feels like the person she goes to when she doesn't even know she needs him

he's always there for her: always

he knows whats wrong before she does most of the time

they're relationship has the same vibe as ross x matty, that kind of intense platonic love

he's her cuddle bear, someone who gives amazing hugs, the kind that heal her

again she knew he'd die for her and she would for him

he was one of the best things that had ever happened to her, she know if she were to have kids he'd be the god father

she was his wingwoman most of the time, always trying to find a partner who was deserving of his love, someone who would love him the way he needed to be loved

he felt like her platonic soulmate, someone that made her soul happy

buttttt.... when they were younger they did used to flirt... like ALOT and people often thought they were together bc of this... they got drunk at a party once a shared quite a steamy kiss (they would take this to their graves btw) but over time it kind of just fizzled out and was replaced with this platonic love, he was enamored with her regardless

they were often childish with each other, he'd carry her around the empty stages on his back, so she began calling him "monkey man" not only bc he was freaking tall but because she clung to him like a monkey

nickanmes: lou would call him: monkeyman, macdonald, mr macdonald, he calls her: sweetcheeks, rockstar, cool kid, sweetheart

Adam:

now adam and lou aren't as close as lou x george and lou x ross but he's still one of her best friends

adam is the person she goes to if she needs an honest opinion, he is the The “tell it like it is” friend and she is so appreciative of that: often the other boys' opinions can be clouded by how much they love her, adam always had a fair mind about her

And tbh she was that for him too, he remembers when he confided in Lou about his worries about carly in his relationship (very early on in their relationship), he told her how he was worried carly would leave him becuase they could never have a 'normal' relationship, they'd always be on tour, swarmed with fans, fans who (despite their sweet intentions) would always want to know everything about their relationship, Lou all but smacked him round the head, telling him he was being ridiculous, that he'd never find another like carly, someone who was so loving and accepting of everyone she met, told him he might as well marry her and that his thoughts although valid, were just thoughts, and that the realistic state of things was that carly was going to love him regardless.

he is someone who watches on the sidelines, showering her with love and affection and his admiration in his own way, often by doing simple things like "i got you xyz thing because i remember you mentioned it"

he loves how she makes carly feel welcome, always the first to talk to her and ask how she is (carly and hann and agreed that they'd ask her to be godmother)

he's not often one to be cuddly with her but when he is it means so much more

they are the type of friends who dont have superficial conversations, their conversations are much more meaningful than that

he knows she'd do anything to protect him, carly and the baby that is on the way and is so thankful to her for that

she likes how in depth their conversations are, everyone knows hann as this guy that doesn't talk much but the two of them often talks for hours

he's one of those friends that tells these cracking jokes out of the blue that makes everyone die of laughter

nicknames: she ofc calls him Hann, she teasingly starts calling him daddy, he mainly calls her Lou tbh, sometimes calls her rockstar too

[because-she-goes]

a frank sinatra morning: part 2

warnings: none, just fluffy domestic matty & nora. Enjoy!

He awakens to the blanket being pulled away from him. He turns in the direction of the disturbance and sees the vision before him. His beloved enrobed in a comforter warmly, breathing calmly, hair sprawled across the pillow, skin looking deliciously soft, hands wrapped around each other as if she is trying to hold onto this peace as best as she can.

His eyes well up and heart soars. He can’t believe she is his, for life, for eternity. Until death do they part. He quickly takes a swig of the cold water on the side table to ensure he isn’t dreaming and she isn’t a figment of his imagination. Water slides down his throat and some out of the corners of his mouth as he gulps.

He certainly won’t be able to go back to bed now. Not now that he can no longer wait to spend the rest of his waking moments with her at his side. He remembers her going to bed around 2am last night, spending the whole evening at their dining table in front her laptop downing mugs of coffee over some work materials she had to have ready by Monday. He remembers her picking at her cuticles, biting her lips, pacing back and forth in their kitchen when she would hit a mental block. He also remembers a first date where she said she loves American breakfasts. Bacon, pancakes the whole lot.

He jumps out of bed, now with motivation to start his day off at a bright and early 7am. He throws a comb across his curls, slaps a squirt of gel in them, brushes his teeth with the minty toothpaste she bought him from the shop last week, tosses on his slippers and a robe and makes a beeline for the living room like a kid on Christmas.

He places her favorite Frank Sinatra record on the record player, grabs some boxed mix for the pancakes since he made them too floury last time and gets out the pack of bacon from their fridge. He starts frying the bacon, being extra careful to not burn it. Grabbing a bowl, he makes the pancake mix and plops it into silver dollar size shapes on the hot pan.

Feeling satisfied with himself, he sets up some orange juice, utensils, glasses and coffee by the table. Checking the pancakes once more, he starts slowly singing the Frank song to himself - careful not to wake the sleeping beauty above him.

“I’d sacrifice anything, come what might for the sake of having you near.” He croons to himself.

Pulling the bacon off the pan and plating it with a little maple syrup, he begins swaying to the band’s melody. He delicately places the pancakes on the dish he set out that has one of her paintings glazed onto it. His favorite in their collection.

He feels eyes on his back and relaxes when he smells her sweet vanilla and coffee perfume come near him.

“Morning, my sunflower.” He quietly states in awe of the vision. Her green orbs sweetly staying locked onto his brown ones. Her hair an absolute state. His long sleeve adorably swamping her figure, but still revealing her 12 tattoo on her thigh. His matching one on his chest, right above his heart which feels like it is going a mile a minute. Unfreezing from her trance, he remembers the food.

“Made some breakfast for you, didnt want to wake ya since youve been stressed with work lately.” He quickly adds in hopes that she will appreciate his sweet gesture.

It is music to her ears, the Sinatra record now fading to a halt. She smiles, eyes pooling at his constant attention to her.

“Hungry?” he asks delicately, hopefully.

He just wants a nice, peaceful morning with his girl. He just wants this moment to last a lifetime. Them. In their kitchen. In their home.

“Starving, actually!” she states in delight at her kind, wonderful, thoughtful love. She bolts towards him, wrapping her arms around his neck. Kissing him on every square inch of his face.

“Well, then lets eat, My dear. Been up hours waiting for you.” He truthfully finishes before they work their way to the food and sit peacefully enjoying their morning. She babbles on about wanting to go to the farmer’s market, maybe the movies later. All he can think to himself is that when she speaks, it sounds like singing.

He nods, agreeing to their plans and continues to lovingly admire the love of his life.

[thehopelessexception]

save me lord(e) please save me

i struggle with the concept of religion because i've never quite understood the belief on an omnipresent something watching over you and giving you a path or whatever that's supposed to mean.

i went to church probably 15 times in my life when i was younger and i was bored all the time. i took the first communion when i was 10 because my parents made me do it. (i just wanted to taste wine and receive money from my family tho) but i remember that by that time i already rejected the concept of it. maybe because i was deppressed from the very age of 8 years old and i wanted to kms since then (im over it rn fyi), so the whole god thing it wasnt much enough to make me have faith in anything because i already thought i suffered more than jesus.

i've never been much close to my family, im a single child too. not to blame them really, but my parents did the bare minimum so i had to create my own moral codes from way too young. i teached myself, and educated myself on everything i know of since i was a kid. i took the responsibility of being the emotional support of adults as a child because they didnt know how to be parents nor communicate their feelings with each other (or me, for that matter). i hided my own. and when i was on my breaking point i took care of myself at 13/14 i think? and made myself go to therapy because i knew if i didn't i wouldnt be here today —i had to convince my mom, changing the reason i needed to go and i made her lie to my dad because he "doesnt believe in that" and so on—. my parents were clueless all the time 'till i grew up and told them my story on a crisis i had in the pandemic. they are still not the best parents you can find but i moved on from being resentful and made somehow peace.

i remember i was quite interested in the whole lucifer arc and the apocalypse stuff. when my catechist was explaining the 7(i think?) days of creation or etc i was reading the very end, fascinated as a kid reading the hunger games. probably my father's fault since he loved to watch the conspiracy shows in history channel about nostradamus and so on in the living room's tv. and also maybe because i loved chaos and i never fitted in anywhere so naturally i didnt even try.

i hyperfixated on greek gods if that helps.

at 13 i met the 1975, my favourite band (if it wasnt obvious at this point). and the first songs i listened to were girls, me, and antichrist. and i know it's very likely that you think im exaggerating but antichrist is doubtless the purest most real song i heard in my life. and i think about it a lot. the whole journey the band, and matty especially, made about religion made me think a lot through the years. i agree with him tho, but i made that entire journey when i was 9, as they said men do drugs once and discover the same things girls have discovered alone in their bedrooms at 13 years old. and today religion is a thing so foreign, and distant to me; sometimes i wonder if im missing something by not being part of that feeling.

i can't wrap my head around it, i cannot process faith because i don't find it logical. however when im lost i sometimes find myself asking for signs to "the universe", so it's complicated. i also think it's better for people that feel lost to find a communion of some kind than ending up being addicts or worse, liberals. and i also think some religions are waiting for people to have misery to sign them up on their cult.

what is religion really? what is god? is there one? or two? or millions? but what about science? the big bang? evolution? capitalism? media? how can all of that make some kind of sense altogether? i said already i am skeptical over probably everything, but the truth is that science is also a common agreement of stuff and "hard" evidence, but we don't have the certainty that things work like that in the whole universe, so technically it's not an absolute truth, it's just what works. but what is the whole universe? i trust science over anything ofc that's not what im trying to say, the thing is i lose my mind every now and then when i dig that up. because you end up thinking you are so tiny and irrelevant to the whole universe, the whole thing we live into. are we even alive at this point? is this reality real? and i know it's stupid deep thought thinking you have when you are a kid but i wrote something about this years ago in my diary and im going to quote it:

(i wrote it in my native language so the translation may suck a bit)

"(...) the human being is perfect, nature is perfect. the society is a mess but synchronously is perfectly designed to still work. what's the goal of humanity? some people believe in god, not me tho. i sometimes think people are simplistic and conformist with the unknown. weak deniers of the search of the truth. the systematization almost automatic that is used on people as individuals of each culture, each society; with the vague idea of making them believe on free will, and the freedom of choice. when there's something existing over us that influences us, dominates us, and drives us like cattle. but what is this really? (...) the different "types of control" influence all of us so we achieve an end to society. nobody question said unknown end, because they believe, they have faith; on themselves and their meritocracy, the destiny god prepared for them. to the reach of a post-civilization with all the answers, from the firm and fair science that at the same time is clinging to nothing, to the not knowing blindness. the problem with humanity is believing but not fighting for the answers. the problem with humanity is trusting in "what exists and what doesnt exist" as a concept; when you can find somehow the solution on untrusting and not believing on absolute truths, because all of those are influenced by human subjectivity. civilizations are built with absolute truths, "civilization or barbarism". the barbarism never was that much stupidified. do we live in a simulated civilization? i dont know, all i know is that i know nothing."

lately i've been thinking about religion as a support group for people, but the institution makes me yikes. i've been thinking a lot about lots of things.

and i find myself in the context where everything i know of is taking another meaning now. maybe religion is what conveys the society altogether, maybe it's something else. i don't know. the world was always at war because of religion, and the preponderance of one over another. noone can convince me that religion has nothing to do with the world war we're living rn.

i consider music as a support group, i have my own friends and we like the same things (i dont like people who i dont think somehow alike). and i like my music as a representation of my personality too. i believe one is what one consumes. i grew up here, on tumblr, and i know what i write now will probably resonate with you too.

what i know most of is possibly reading patterns on people. and what i am wondering right now is if we, as a whole, and our generation specifically, walked away too much from the "love your neighbor" premise. i may not believe in religion, but i believe in collectivism as a way to live, as a gear that sets society in motion. and me, personally, i am a hater of everything and everyone. but i can deal with it, i dont think society will. we can't make the bad people disappear, and we can't kill them all (sadly). so lately i tend to believe i have the knowledge and the wisdom to be the adult and choose to make peace with the evil, to stop fighting for making people change, and go build community, the safe space, the home, with the people who are predisposed to listen. because individualism will kill us all. and we cannot save ourselves alone.

lorde said explicitly "if you're looking for a saviour well thats not me". but here we are.

happy easter to those who celebrate.

[didnt-hear-idsb-live-again]

I really don’t think that quote was necessarily about Taylor, although I think she’s plenty justified to have an issue with Taylor and Paramore after they came after her songs which literally didn’t sound anything like the ‘original’ songs they’re claiming to inspire. It’s another one of those things where I question Taylor’s moral values and it’s interesting that she came after a young Filipino artist, clammed up on BLM and dated Matty Healy. Even with her saying it was the difference in values that caused the breakup, he’d also reached his expiration date based on past rebounds so we’ll never know whether it was a PR move spin.

But Taylor DIDNT come after her songs!!! Jack said, pretty off the cuff, that he had no idea whatsoever they were going to do that or why they did it. This is documented and I don’t know why it doesn’t stick in anybodys head. And tying this to MH is a HARD reach, I’m sorry.

[mag200]

my expectations of taylor when it comes to saying shit abt politics have always been incredibly low, but i really did half believe that she might say/do something during her nashville gigs to voice her opposition to the drag ban/anti trans legislation stuff there.

Lizzo & hayley kiyoko both brought drag queens out to perform with them on stage during shows right before taylor's tour dates, like hayley kiyoko literally had the cops showing up to her rehearsals telling her to stop & she still stood her ground, yet taylor can't even say a few words or something. She was literally in the perfect position to say a little statement on the matter. She started out in nashville so her opinion as a semi-local girl with country music roots would hold more weight than like... ariana grande or something, but she also isn't in that scene anymore and she's one of the biggest celebrities on the planet so its unlikely she would face any real repercussions for speaking out.

I genuinely don't mind if celebrities don't really talk about their politics bc like, what do the opinions of billionaires have to do with normal people. However if you're going to pay a documentary crew to film you saying you're ready to take A Stand and then do nothing apart from sing your gay rights song and post a solitary black square, while associating yourself with shitty people of every flavour, then actually put your money where your mouth is and do it.

yeah when hayley was posting about that and she was crying and i was crying it was so so brutal but i was so proud of her for standing up for her drag performers even when they told her she couldnt. i didnt know lizzo did this too but holy shit.

all of this with taylor is hugely disappointing. i saw people saying “she cant say anything against the drag bill its unsafe for her!!!” and its like. its unsafe for all of us lol but she has so much more protection. and i dont think she HAS to do it is the thing, but man it does make it feel like her trying to rebrand as an activist back in 2019 was just to sell more copies of lover. you’re so right its like why make a whole big deal about how you’re going to Take A Stand and then just….. not. i also have always had low expectations from her in this regard bc she really did lean so hard into the good girl quiet girl narrative but when she made a point of lashing out against that i was like oh wait maybe she’s actually gonna do better… boo boo the fool is me i guess.

like i do not understand what happened. but since summer 2020 i have not been able to engage w her in the same way as before. and now with everything coming out about matty healy it is another huge fucking blow. i never blamed anyone who was done before this and i dont blame anyone who’s distancing themself from her now. i dont normally give a shit about her relationships but like how can you associate with someone so openly fucking racist? and think it wont hurt people??

all my love is going out rn to bipoc swifties. this sucks so fucking much im so sorry.

[imhereonthekitchenfloor]

Why does everyone else get the benefit of the doubt or is granted opportunities to better themselves after terrible stuff but y’all are shutting down any possibility that MH may be trying to be better? And why are his choices being made the responsibility of Taylor? Y’all are using feminism to bring her down put pinning the actions of a man on a woman isn’t feminist either. Has every single person in your life been vetted? Are they perfect? They’ve never said anything demeaning about fat people, people with low IQs, people with disabilities, autism, skin color, facial structure? And if they have, did you give them chances to be better?

Good points anon! I think this can be broken down into 1) why doesnt Matty get room to grow 2) why is Taylor being blamed for Matty's actions and 3) why should Taylor have to vet everyone in her life if the regular person doesnt necessarily have to

I would love for Matty to grow and become a better person. I had no idea who he was before Taylor played Anti-Hero at his concert. I remember everyone saying he is a trash person and being like "oh:/" but didnt look into it. The actions I have read about in the last week are often recent events from just a few months ago. Matty hasnt apologized for these actions. If you have done terrible things publically and not even tried to apologize or show actions to say you are no longer that way, I can only assume you are still that way. I would love to see him change but I think he fundamentally has immoral views.

I know for me personally, I am used to white men being trash people because they have privilege and dont know what it's like to live without. Bad white men represent a general evil. I am not emotionally invested in some random white guy. Taylor, however, is someone I have come to care about and expect good things from. I am upset with Taylor because I expect bad people to be bad. I dont expect good people to associate with bad and its upsetting to watch it happen in real time.

If we all cut out anyone who did anything slightly bad, we would have very few people in our lives. I think we all have a line of "I can excuse this but I cant excuse this." Some of the people Taylor surrounds herself with (like Matty and Lena) have crossed my personal line many times. Seeing Taylor with these people essentially means that she doesnt think a certain level of racism or sexism or whatever is a dealbreaker. Which means she probably has some of these views herself to more of an extent than I do. I dont expect Taylor to vet every person in her life, especially in an industry based on connections, but I also wouldn't expect a person of moral standing to WANT to be around people who have these immoral views. It showcases that she may not be as good as we thought

Overall I really like the nuance of this question, but I am afraid the proximity of Taylor to "bad" people means that she is herself okay with these bad views and may secretly exhibit them herself

[god-has-entered-my-body]

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thank you for this, you're golden xx

✨️ Out of the comments you’ve received on your fics, what are two or three of your favorites?

ohhh I have quite literally every single one saved so might as well post the ones i still kick my feet over to this day.

first comment i ever got was from Belle and i think i did actually writhe in my bed reading it, i didnt think anyone would actually see anything i put out. Also went insane and spammed my mate freaking out because its literally user sugar-coat-it in my replies.

having my literal fic idols comment on and reblog my stuff had me spamming @beforeyougo-turnthebiglightoff literally so much it was insane i tell you. tumblr user wrestletotheground i screamed that day you're actually a total legend.

again. my longfic idol perceiving me is so mental i keep staring at it and it doesnt feel real??? like im just a fangirl at heart dont do this to me.

someone recommending my fics to HALLA and this being her reaction i think i stared at my phone for a solid minute before reacting by again, spamming my mates and going insane

this has become this weird gush fest please dont think im wanky i just dont do well with people i admire interacting with me in any capacity xx

✍️ What’s your ideal writing setup?

my laptop on my desk. super basic but i do make myself a cuppa and take my meds so i can focus on actually writing instead of browsing bdsm wikipedia for research purposes. also fics srsly dont help my smoking i go through like half a packet for every fic or chapter or whatever. I guess it sort of fits the vibe though? MPIND matty would be proud in his own weird way.

🎨 If someone were to make fanart of your work, what fic or scene would you hope to see?

i dont think thats really a feasible concept for me, but I do imagine MPIND very vividly, and i think other people do too. I feel like MPIND and his whole fashion thing he has going on i think the outfits might be fun to draw?? i do have actual clothing picked out tucked away in a google doc that i think he's wear if he was real.

I'd love to see scenes like ones i've written on the terrace, or maybe the lighter scene come to life? To be completely honest, i havent read MPIND in a hot minute i genuinely forgot a lot of the plot/specific scenes i put in x

If anyone does ever make fanart, i will print it out and hang it above my bed to stare at in awe because someone putting in that effort is imperceivable for me

[maylorscardigan]

Deux talked about Taylor on her podcast first ten minutes or so. But she wants engagement in her posts and Taylor is one of the most famous people at the moment so of course she will talk and post about her.

The breakdown is basically saying that they dont think "dear john" is about john Mayer (Martin Johnson they think its about). They also talked about her speech about fans sending hate and they think it's just Taylor trying to avoid John suing her.

Then they talked about the master "being peak me-too she can create a narrative to have it sound anti feminist". She knew about the masters sell taylor is being ingenious. "Her dads part was bigger then they claimed." But they claim Taylor didnt know anything about the sale and she is sprouting complete bullshit about it. (What they got wrong was that Taylor said she knew the label was going to be sold and her masters with it, it was who it was sold to that she didnt know and had a problem with.)

Basically saying that Taylor's brand is being diminished with Matty, Ftx, her dad making money from the label sell. The brand doesnt jibe with the reality. Playing the victim.

Thank you for the breakdown.

My god. Ah well. It’s helping pave the way for Taylor’s pop punk album I’ve been craving my whole life. Let the purists fans abandon her. Is Swemos got her.

Deux is a bs source who knows nothing. Using Taylor for clicks.

Do I think Taylor is the perfect Barbie everyone thinks she is? Not by a long shot. That girl has made it very clear in her lyrics what she’s like and I’m here for it. Her fans, however, refuse to see that (or a lot of them). I won’t comment on the masters, her father or FTX thing right now - I will comment on the whole thing with Matty.

Listen to her lyrics. Listen to the 1975s. It’s seriously no surprise what so ever that they click. Matty isn’t who they think he as (as I showed in a previous post) and that whole narrative needs to drop.

If Matty does anything for Taylor it won’t be diminish her brand because ultimately that’s on the fans and how they refuse to see her as anything but Miss America… but bring out her most authentic self. I don’t think the world is ready for that.

[allamericansbitch]

I was also thinking about the Kim part of the equation and I don't get how people think it's very normal. I mean yes Kim was an accomplice, but I would argue Kanye was the bigger "mastermind" behind. So why are we calling her out only? And the thing that leaves me with a very sour taste in my mouth is that it feels like Taylor only likes to go after people that she knows either won't defend themselves or aren't in the same level of power. Kanye is shit, but he does have a fandom and if she goes after him he won't accept it. John Mayer, the only ex she asked swifties not to attack, also other person that would respond if they did. She tried to bury Calvin Harris, he didn't shut up and after that he didn't get any more flack. Even Matty barely got anything, everyone just pretends he doesn't exist. And why? Because he would answer no doubt

Kim doesn't have fans per say or people that actively like her. So Taylor can go after her and not even her haters defend Kim.

Joe Alwyn doesn't have a fandom and barely is on social media. So again, she goes after him

So all in all, what am supposed to call Taylor? What am I supposed to think seeing her go after and enjoying her fandom hating on people who are "weaker" than her? I know what I would call in the real world. And I also know this is the kind of person I would never have as a friend in my life

i genuinely think shes scared of kanye and i can't say i blame her. he seems so easily triggered by a lot of stuff and her mentioning him could reignite his whole hate campaign against her. but i also wanna be clear that her mentioning kim directly just seemed so unnecessary to me too, not saying she doesn't deserve it she's awful in every way, and also not saying taylor doesnt have the right to talk about how traumatic it was, it just seemed so.... out of nowhere and it didnt bring up anything new. for such an important interview you'd think they'd ask questions people didnt have answers to already and were the reasons why she was so big this year. none of that had anything to do with her work this year.