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everyday i wish a kid at my school wasnt named yuri so i dont have to remember him everytime i say i love yuri
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Penelope is also Athena's pet/blorbo/special little mortal/etc. and if you think otherwise you're straight up wrong.
You're also wrong if you think Athena only likes Penelope because of Odysseus and/or Telemachus. As if Athena didn't see a young Penelope pull some shit and immediately think "Oh! Another mind to mold! C'mere you! Let's do some riddles and weaving!". Athena was happy that two of her favorite pets have met and fell in love!
#maybe even Athena introduced them! idk#I mean c'mon. Pen is KNOWN for her weaving AND her Cunning and she basically knew that was Odysseus that was in disguise#Athena had to make Penelope go to sleep because she was sad AND she would've figured shit out.#Idc who Athena favored first but Athena definitely favored Penelope even before she was married. I will die/kill on that hill#everytime I see someone minimize/erase/devalue/etc. Penelope I want to bash my head against the wall.#*bangs pots and pans together in rage*#I think some of you only like Penelope because Odysseus likes her :') not all but... enough that it makes me sad.#like I've noticed some people only like my odysseus posts and not my Penelope ones. and oof. ;~; that tells me a lot😞#like yes. she's a bit of an enigma...AND THAT'S THE POINT. She's so intelligent that she's tricking the narrator/audience AND Odysseus!#Mad rambles#penelope#penelope of ithaca#penelope odyssey#penelope of sparta#Water Wife#odyssey#the odyssey#greek mythology#tagamemnon#athena#epic the musical#shot by odysseus#essay
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boyfriend hoodie
#kageyama tobio#haikyuu#oikage#oikawas hoodie / colours on tobio makes me die everytime he looks so good in blue hehe
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i know i talk about it all the time bc it’s one of my favourite lines from fantasy high but sandra lynn saying to fig “everything you’re going through is something that i get i was just like you” in light of her (most likely) being groomed by bobby dawn, with figs ill-advised interactions with older men in freshman year….. ya i’m thinking about it
#siobhan was bang on when she was like it’s easier for her to give me advice bc she doesn’t see so much of herself in me#sandra lynn faeth u will always be famous i’ll kill and die for u#fantasy high#dimension 20#everytime i could write a full essay on someone i use tumblr dot com to make a vague point + then put an elipses in so u can join the dots
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Alright, so this is basically...an art dump for all the pics i drew when i was trying to draft the ending i wanted my Odile looping Au 'Like a Wheel Ever Turning' which...is not even SLIGHTLY how this fic is going to end now, but while figuring that out i still like draw all this and had to do SOMETHING with it.
So figured I'd post it and be like 'hey! fun Odile looping act 5 boss fight vibes not connected to anything else!' since like...that basic IS what they are at this point lol.
The one cool idea i loved that i think is now FIRMLY ditched is the act 5 boss fight starts when Odile uses wish craft to splinter herself into two halves.
The 'old/current' her that is meant to be her coldly logical side, and a younger 'copy' version, which is meant to be the childish irrational side...that is what's stopping her just shutting down the time loop because she can't figure out how to be happy with her friends leaving.
I mean, if you murder the part of you that WANTS the wish to come true, that's basically a 'get out of time loop free card' right? Right! Totally sound logic!
Yes the 'young' version of her firmly believes that she's real, and also also got memories going up to about age 21, and also that she ought to be in Ka Bue not HERE among these french weirdos.
Also yes again, a 'young' Odile is EXACTLY as unhinged about this as you'd expect a 21 year old to be upon finding out that apparently the 'real' her think murdering her is the correct solution to this problem!
The shift of the fight was meant to have the inverse 'colors' shift from one version to the other by the end, wrapping up with the point where the 'original' Odile is forced to have a heart to heart with the personification of her perceived 'worst' qualities.
Pretty sure the vibes for this ending was a lot more focused on the resolution of having deeply complex feeling about EXPRESSING emotion directly to other people. That along with a side helping of how isolating it is to be perceived as a 'real' adult such that you can't be weak enough to ask anyone for help. Because really if you can't even be that then why are you any different then when you were irritating mess of a youth?
Not saying any of that isn't still present in the story, but like...there is a LOT of other stuff going on, and those themes are now linked into many other ones too, and that's not even TOUCHING on how Loop's been...somewhat complicating my redrafting lol.
...Also I might have drawn/plotted this version before i knew about two-hats lol. THAT also is a factor.
Anyway! Still liked all of these enough to want to do SOMETHING with them, and figured this worked, so i could like map out my thoughts on them, even if i never got to write this.
#isat#in stars and time#isat odile#odile looping au#I might have written out like...way too many edgy and utterly disjointed notes for this fight too?#but none of THAT compelled enough for me to want to try and even reread it lol#drew all of this in fever state of creativity back in like september i think?#kept having the thought of 'oh i'll make SOME of it work in the main story'#HA no i didn't - that was the denial and wishful thinking talking#Like there was even a version where the 'young' odile had to do the whole final loop with the group#and that's what forced Loop to join them - to keep her alive no matter the 'other' her's attempts to kill her#while 'old' odile took the place of the king during that final run#'young' odile was DEEPLY weird at the rest of the group for the record - while they were also weirded out + low key endeared#Also before the even knew who the 'final battle' was against young odile HAD loudly declared she was willing to die for 'you weirdos' soooo#Ah to be young unhinged and realised people CAN love you despite that...and that apparently this is reason to commit a murder to AVOID#...if i had a nickle for everytime i wrote a odile looping au where she tried to murder herself#i'd have two nickles#which isn't a lot but ect ect#this one is WAY more serious with it tho lol#my art#like a wheel ever turning au
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THIS THING IS SCUUUFFED AS HELL & ITS ALSO THE BEST THING I HAVE ANIMATED THUS FAR. IM SO IN LOVE WITH EMIZEL. JUST WISH I GAVE HIM MORE STUPID TATTOOS. NEXT TIME THO. NEXT TIME. I ALSO LOVE VEX&VIV SOOOO MUCH. charlies flavor of Deranged is my FAVORITE!!
#cw gore#jrwi fanart#THE SQUIRMING IMAGE#jrwi suckening#jrwi suckening spoilers#ACTULY FINISHED THIS A WHILE AGO. kept going back n forth between trying to work on it more or call it done#in the end i chose DONE!! i worked on this for a full day n a half. NO idea what possesed me but it is NOT happenin again anytime soon#i shall do better NEXT TIME!! in the meantime tho OH MY GOOOOOD WHO WANTS TO SCREAM ABT THE SUCKENING WITH ME#THE FUCKINNN THE FUCKIN THING WITH VEX N VIV BEING THE SHADOW LEADERS OF THE FANGS/DEMONS#OH MMYY GOOOODDD THATS THEIR LIL MEAT GENERATOR... THTS SO FUCKED UP AND COOL UUUGHHH I LOVE THEM...#THEIR FLAVORE IS SO WONDERFUL. I LOOOVE HOW SILLY THEY ARE. MAKING PUNS WHILE PULLIN A SCREAMING VICTIM APART#vex n his lil fashiony art workshop and viv n her sterile n clean doctors office#i bet she doesnt even HAVE a medical liscense. it would be funny if vex did tho. could u imagine#they main MEDIC in tf2 together. viv is the battlemedic while vex only pocket medics for her. COULD U IMAGINE#guh i could go on abt these two forever n ever n ever i LOVE THEMM i gotta draw em more....#OH ALSO before i run outa room. i should say. i took inspiration from a tf2 animation called POOTIS ENGAGED#the animator. Ceno0. uses black bars in the action sequences in SUCH A COOL WAYYY everytime i watch that video i feel inspired#oneday ill make more complex fight scenes... one day....#in the meantime UGHHH I LOVE THE SUCKENING SO MUUUCH CAN I JUST FUCKIN SAAAYY THAT I THINK EMIZEL IS A SMART COOKIE!!#THESE PPL FUCKING FEAR HIM NOW!!! 'SHAMIA SHAMI' IS NOW THEIR MORTAL ENEMY!! POWERFUL ILLUSIONIST. CANT DIE.#THAT PART AT THE END THERE WHERE HE FUCKIN. KILLS HIMSELF INFRONTA THEM. THATS SO AWESOME. THATS SO METAL. AND THEN HE COMES BACK!!#I WATCHED EP 7 ASWELL BUT I WONT SPOIL IT HERE. BUT OMYGOD. EMIZEL IS SO COOL AND CAPABLE N SMART N FUNNY N UGHHHHHH I LOVE HIMMMMM#OKAY THATS MY RAMBLE FOR THE DAY THANKYOU FOR READING. I READ ALL TAGS SO YOU SHOULD RAMBLE TOO. IF YOU WANT. IF YOU CAN.
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everytime sunghoon wins a rugby match he pulls at his jersey and jumps with his friends, sweat clinging to his hair and gleaming over his perfect skin. he’s so attractive when he’s victorious, a knowing smirk as he hears the intercom announce yet another smashing win. and yet through all the noise, through the pats on the back and the itch of the padding, he sees you near, jumping to your friend in a jersey identical to his—you’re wearing his old jersey with 12 to represent december, and the number on his to represent your birthmonth.
and the kiss after? oh, you’d kiss him no matter how gross he is. park sunghoon with a smirk and your number on his jersey is a man you are lucky to call yours.
#hey so i might die#i keep thinking abt like#hes on stage rocking out to the music n shit#HES SO FINE OMFG HELLO#can i have him.#like when he rocks his head#MAKE SOME FUCKING NOOSEEEEEEE#god pregame#‘hey ill treat us to dinner if i win’#you pout#‘but you always treat me’#‘do i always treat you or do i happen to win everytime?’#OMFG#NEED NEED NEED#SESATE ME RB#SEDATE#ME.#ren den#sunghoon x reader#park sunghoon x reader#enhypen x reader
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every morning 4am this is what i see when i wake
#snap shots#woah…. rare irl photo…#i has a funny blurred pic that just makes me think of like. some kinda shoegsze album cover for some reason djdjWODJSJ#anywaydjKWKJA#stop staring at me with them big ol eyes#i got him Ever ago bur i wanted to shaew him tonight … i just changed the batteries in my candles …#it still looks like i sleep in a dungeon but thats ok Look At Him#whenever im feeling lost or down i pull him out of my pocket and hear him tell me to stop fucking around and focus#i stare into his eyes and i feel immediate shame and Stop Fucking Around immediately#works everytime …#the plush set this comes from is so funny cause its like scott jean logan#and then this freaks just there too. like nawww why is erik the bus driver all of a sudden#the day theres a lil charles plushie ill actually ascend to the high heavens PLEASE#you CANNOT separate them :((#anyways … i sleep now … with this little weirdo watching me#i cant say he’ll protect me from bad dreams but he’ll at least be a witness if i die during one so thats nice#good night team !!! i dont wanna do my presentation tomorrow ………#also im lyin. im gonna doodle a lil then sleep …#gettin a drawing tablet was the worst thing i coulda done i cannot put it down fjOWJSSJSK#ok byebye ….. prob wont post anymore tonight at least ….#so we can act like im sleeping 😏 and yet erik also acts as a witness to my lies 😔 a travesty….
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#! doodles#p5#persona 5#akechi goro#silly old me thinking one day i would make black mask ver of this drawing#but everytime i sketched its just ???? idk i love this drawing too much i can't seem to make one perfect enough to be its match#i will love this drawing til the day i die
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Been having awful mental health weeks and can't even book a pysch appointment because their phone lines aren't working
#i feel like shit and theres nothing i can do about it.#im tired from work and instead of doing anything that makes me happy im crying in bed#i feel like i can be just on the verge of waking into the intersection and no one notices. world keeps on spinning.#people keep going not noticing im not there. i just wish i could finally be happy but everytime i tjink im doing okay im reminded of#of my crushing loneliness. i dont want to die -i just wish i was never born in the first place#i dont need to /talk/ bc what is there to say that i havwnt whinged ahout 500 times. i wish i didnt care. i wish i didnt feel these things.#all i do is complain -change nothing and then complain nothings changed. i want to matter to people around me but i feel like i#get proven time and time again that i just.#am a small insignificant insect
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I -... LIN IS ROCKING THIS STYLE TOO HARD OMG I HAD TO DRAW HER!
#OLD MEN CAMEO YESS#theres something so funny about sweet little elise wearing that bulky black gas mask that makes me burst out laughing everytime i see it#insidious#specs and tucker#specs insidious#tucker insidious#i will die for that man#elise rainier#lin shaye#not saw
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"he makes me a kinder human cuz I don’t think I’m a particularly nice person but i work hard at being kind. he does it right? like he's hard competitive and kind. and we should aspire to that."
paul waxes poetic about sasha for the (draws tally) millionth time for two whole minutes and it all sounds like a love confessional
Primetime Panthers | 12.6.24 (x)
#paul maurice#aleksander barkov#florida panthers#2425#theres genuinely so many good quotes here#yeah paul we know you didnt understand how good sasha is YOU BRING IT UP EVERYTIME YOU PRAISE SASHA#WE GET IT#THIS IS LIKE THE FIFTH TIME YOU SAID THAT#the first thing paul always praises is sashas lack of ego and how utterly baffled he is about it#“how badly he wants to be good for his teammates” “he wants to be great but i think it’s for his teammates” “he wants to perform for them”#DO YOU WANT ME TO DIE????? GENUINELY. PAULSON?????#“it would bother him if he lets them down its not i didn’t score tonight. its we didn’t win tonight because i didn’t do this.” PAULSON. WTF.#you can see the exact moment paul is debating whether to say what he wants to say and proceeding to blurt out HE MAKES ME A KINDER HUMAN#love confession alright#sasha teaches me how to be kinder just by leading by example. hey man. can i cry on your shoulder? would that be chill?#WHAT THE FUFK MAN
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like imagine Cole and Jay just having a casual conversation at some point right before the upcoming day of the departed (after crystalised) and they're just randomly thinking about death.
"Isn't it kinda weird that some of us have died so many times."
"You've all died once, you just don't remember."
"What about you?"
"I haven't. Guess the universe has never gotten around to me. "
"Heh, maybe it has something really special planned for you."
No, it just won't let me die. Believe me I've tried.
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(also this specific thing is playing over the scene)
#Jay angst i guess#Image it's like the middle of the night and they're sitting on cliff for sceneary purposes#ninjago skybound#this quickly devolved into skybound angst#can you tell I have the animatic idea but just can't draw it right now and need to express it#I'm just saying we can also add little flashes of everyone dying in prime empire while we're at it#We can also just have shots of all the times he's alone and has become the last man standing#like it happens only twice but it gets me everytime that that's one of his main themes because otherwise he is a very codependant character#like you leave him alone he gains a reserve team; a fan club; a cult. He is never truely alone until he is at his lowest#granted you could say being alone is what makes it his lowest#one more thing#when he says he wanted to die I'm thinking specifically it's whenever Nya has. Boom extra Jaya angst#ninjago#jay walker#ninjago jay#ninjago cole
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Fic writers are a gift to humankind & should be appreciated more.
#did i ever state it#i feel like i must have#but for good measure#THEY'RE A GIFT TO HUMANKIND!!!#i adore them so much you don't understand#they grab my heartstrings and GRIP#and i die#everytime#and then get resurrected by the loveliness of having imprinted such beauty into my heart#like i still can't wrap my head around the fact such people exist#and by the way - i am not being dramatic#i am being completely serious when i say i adore them to death#what they do impacts me a lot#(ps. I am talking about EVERY fic writer I have ever expressed my adoration of their fic towards - you know who you are)#i rambled too much in these tags i should have just put this in the post itself this is messy#okay i am finished with being embarassingly emotional goodnight#ps. ps.#THEY'RE A GIFT TO HUMANKIND!!#<- maybe I'll use this tag whenever i make another fic rec list it seems appropriate#okay now for real goodnight
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you ever think about how tim never got the chance to come out to jack, janet and dana. how they raised that boy, taught him to be himself, to make him the man he is right now, and yet they will never know.
#batman#tim drake#dc comics#robin#jack drake#janet drake#dana winters#they make me so ill i wanna die everytime
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⬇️rant about a really good hengren (reverse renheng) fic i read. link at the bottom give it a whirl
i've never read a fic so well-catered to my tastes before in my life and the best part is that i was so caught off guard by how good it was cuz the tags and summary had me like "right this is some omegaverse-esque, rawr XD mating shit"
but from the very first paragraph i realized it wasn't just ao3-typical possessive mating shit it was (dare i say) IN CHARACTER possessive mating shit. underappreciated dan feng lore is the two hearts shit, duty expects him to smother his own empathy and perform cruelty obediently (and that being in his dragon form literally numbs his empathy towards mortals) but then it's flipped around and he's criticized for being too heartless
there aren't a great many english fics that take advantage of the 'numbed empathy' thing, so this fic using that to explore the toxic codependency that drove dan feng to making yingxing immortal in the first place is so!
dan feng's dragon heart prioritizing it's own indulgence and power, his human heart screaming against it for empathy and restraint, but both hearts united in this possessive adoration of yingxing... dan feng is possessive to the point of harming his partner, forcing them to take his affection, inherently contradictive to the protective impulse to see the other unhurt.
dan feng makes yingxing immortal in a really sketchy operation, despite knowing that yingxing is literally defined by his pride in being a short-life. he wants yingxing to be with him so badly that he does the one thing that would hurt yingxing the most, too blinded by possession, this sickly overbearing affection, to empathetically respect yingxing's death.
yingxing lived cramming every second he could into his craft and his goals precisely because he has so much less time than all the immortal species around him, but when he's forced into immortality, his hands are scarred and ruined past the point of ever crafting again. he suddenly has so much time, all this time he would've cherished as a mortal, but is totally useless to him now that his purpose for living and passion is gone.
so there being a scene in this fic where dan feng is moping "yingxing doesn't wanna fuck because he's glued to his workshop", being followed up with a scene of dan heng fucking blade while kissing his scarred hand and crying that he's "so sorry", yeah no shit asshole, his dragon heart got what it wanted, blade has all the time in the world to fuck and nothing competing for his now limitless attention and no one's happy about it.
as arrogant about being a short-life as yingxing was, it really is compensation for the discrimination he faced for it. other immortals looked down on him, so having dan feng, THE top dog, be so deeply enamored with him stirred his own toxic codependent urges. he was so desperate to have dan feng's eternal regard that he's willing to die for him (as in the sedition), his death being the force cementing his place in dan feng's heart forever.
so the fic having yingxing ruminate on this, that he had hoped for dan feng to love him even centuries after he inevitably died, only for the fic to end with:
yeah yingxing... you left an impression... he made you immortal.... everyone's upset by this
(that's what makes dan heng forgetting blade was ever yingxing to begin with all the more painful because, you went and turned him immortal and when it backfired horrifically you went on and fucking forgot, bitch i'd be pissed to the point of centuries long bloody pursuit of vengeance too.)
here's the fic go read it and leave kudos and a comment, technically porn but i got so invested in the character study that part barely registered. also yeah if you hadn't realized already super dead-dove:
blah blah "renheng is toxic" sorry that's why i like it
#hengren#renheng#txt#fic rec#nsft#idrc about who tops but ppl who are strictly top!blade truthers... give this fic a whirl plz it's so good expand ur horizons#so many other insane ramblings i could have about this fic oh my god the way the cloudhymn magic constantly healing yingxing#parallels blade's selfhealing (a self healing he got BECAUSE dan feng made him immortal)#cementing how his current state really was created by dan feng's desire to keep him and his love eternal URHGHG#ppl have the audacity to say blade is obsessed with dan heng when it was dan feng's obsession that created blade to begin with. kms#and also dan heng's guilt the whole while is 🤌 cuz before he was like. wow. that's SO fucked up. good thing dan feng did it#surely /i'm/ not capable of that -- pan to slow realization that he's still very much dan feng#so the initial rejection of responsibility of dan feng's crimes to realizing that it's deadass just his own crimes he has to atone for#kafka being quietly and subtly comforting of blade and that making dan heng possessive . when the reason blade needs comfort to begin with#is dan heng himself. like. it's so ironic i'll die#more honorable mentions is i love dan heng calling blade 'yingxing' because it's so fucking mean#he's the bitch getting pissed everytime someone calls him dan feng or dares to insinuate he's the same person but he's the exact same bitch#totally doing a 180 on blade and treating him way more kindly after realizing he used to be yingxing#'stop treating me like the shadow of someone who's long gone' bud listen to ur own advice#the unreliable narration between the first two chapters is so fucking good like once you catch on to which dialogue is actually happening#and what was a flashback and etc etc it's SO fucking good#another honorable mention is. lmao. love it when the top cries pathetic men you'll have my heart forever and always#tons of other endless thoughts about and inspired from this fic but give that bad boy a read. so worth#also this author writes sunblade so that's how you KNOW they're enlightened
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