#(i know…. idk wtf was wrong with me but if i had to guess: brain damage)

[much-brighter-ink]

Stress dreams are so funny. and so telling

[sanchoyo]

🧍🏻 girl help the blood tests came back and I do possibly have pre-hypothyroidism. They want me to come back in 3 months to do another panel just in case bc smth was apparently way way too high 😭 wtf !!

[babieken]

I feel like its only fair that i tell yall something atrocious i did when im out here making fun of people’s taste kdkdks

[deathbringerdragon]

Still dealing with the "post Christmas crash" that I'm sure any of you who also celebrate are feeling. Especially if you were hosting a Christmas dinner.

So I do apologize for the lack of any updates on any MW projects I have currently.

As compensation, how about I write out what little tiny bits of my weird ass fucked up dream I had that was about Monkey Wrench.

Which isn't very much now since it's been 8-9 hours since I woke up. But I remember enough for me to just look at it and be like: "what the FUCK was that dream??... .. . . Also I might be able to nab bits of it for future story ideas?.. if not for me at least other people. Maybe?.."

So anyways. Without further adeu. Gonna introduce yall to the weird ass dreams that my friends are very used to hearing about, lmao.

It'll be under the cut. As stated before. Judt bits and pieces. It's just what parts I remember. Its not a story.

To start off with. In my dream any context related to the cataclysm didn't exist. Nothing. Nor any of the current events in MW.

Shrike and Beebs were still mercenaries I guess? Though it wasn't important. I don't think anything about their lore was changed.

Anyways, first bits I remember was that they were on a planet in a city that more or less looked like a bright and sunny beach town.

And shrike kept wanting to wander off and do his own thing, to which Beebs kept trying to keep him from doing that for a specific reason I can't remember.

Eventually shrike manages to sneak off anyways though. Pisses someone off. I can't remember. Or they just already after him. Either way, thus begins Shrike getting captured, some people threatening to kill him. And him escaping somehow with those people now chasing him.

Meanwhile Beebs is just. Shopping. Completely unaware that there's chaos going on.

Some lady was chasing down shrike (who ironically, had nothing to do with Kara, and in the context of the dream was like, trying to catch him for completely different reasons. Can't remember what though. I think it had something to do with What Shrike is?)

That of which was a high speed chase in some sci-fi hovering cars. Cuz shrike hijacked one. And was causing havoc in traffic.

There was like. Two different "groups" after shrike.

That lady. And the people he pissed off.

At one point shrike was in a forest and. Got caught. Something with like.. folklore-esc monsters happens. Said creatures try to eat everyone there. Shrike escapes.

I think the high speed chase happened after that??

Idk some of it was kinda stupid/cringy to the point that even my asleep brain was like "bro wtf is this. This is weird even for your dreams" and altered. Something. In the dream. I have no clue what.

Alls I know is what's next in my memory is that Shrike and Beebs more or less kidnapped a child?? Uuhh. I think a manifested stand in for an "oc"

That of which Doesn't even exist.

My brain just apparently decided to Make That Up on the spot for my dream??? Tbh not unusual, but these normally aren't the kinds of dreams that happens in

Anyways so kid is kidnapped.

Reason?

Either shitty home life, orrr deal gone wrong. Or like... something to do with a saloon full of cowboy-esc characters who apparently had previous beef with Shrike and wanted him dead and tricked him into going and meeting with some people who were gonna kill him and somehow in the confusion as he escaped the kid just randomly was being dragged along for whatever reason.

But yea I didn't even remember the cowboy saloon part until I was writing about the kid.

I'm pretty certain that'd what led to the "group of people getting pissed off at shrike and chasing him to try and kill him"

Anywas at some point shrike meets back up with Beebs, who's just bewildered but not surprised about all the chaos. And somehow is so chill about it he just keeps shopping while shrike is shrieking (lmao) as random people keep trying to kill him.

Shrike apparently was also complaining about something related to the kid. NO fucking clue what. I think it was like.. related to Why he decided to nab the kid??? Something about how the peopel were treating the kid/what they were planning??? Alls I know is that it was so out of character that I think That's when my brain was like "wtf. Bro that's so put of character it's cringy"

Also shrike had. A normal "white american boy" English accent during that part and I could feel my brain just cringing so bad.

Either way Beebs eventually decided they got everything they need and it's time to go.

So the three of them pile into a. Fucking Mini version of the Bucket.

And thus starts another fucking high speed chase.

Except this time Beebs just. Flies the.. car... bucket.. spaceship... thing away since the things the people were using couldn't fly.

And then they're in the actual bucket while shrike is complaining about the crazy lady who was trying to capture him, and originally almost had because she seduced him.

And beebs just called him an idiot for falling for that-

To which my dream switched over to earlier in the dream where Shrike was for some reason eating dinner with the lady and, as he said, getting tricked by seduction. Before she literally just tied him up and started hauling his ass to some lab to be experimented on.

There was... SO much more random shit and chaos that happened in my dream that I wish I remembered cuz it made the dream atheist somewhat a cohesive "story". But also so much fucking weirder at the same time

(Like legit I think at one point the dream judt forgot about MW entirely and was focusing on this plot about several groups of women/girls who had to like, work together in teams of two or three to fuse together into these literal Giants, that were also soooorta robots to be piloted?? To fight these weird fucking poisonous creatures that were trying to kill them?? Ironically it was Nothing like power rangers despite how I described it. It was its own fucking thing entirely and it was Weird and uncomfortable)

But uh. Yea. Uhm.

Welcome to the world of "Death's weird ass fucking 'acid trip' dreams despite the fact no drugs that cause weird dreams are taken whatsoever". I hope you enjoyed your stay. Maybe I'll pick through what weird ass fucking bits and crumbs I remember and make some actual interesting story prompts for yall since these kinds of dreams for me often can be used to create interesting story arcs for my various stuff.

[acti-veg]

keep falling into the trap of thinking that if i just Explain why this person is wrong in plain english they will Realise they are wrong. obviously a foolish thing to think. every time they initially respond somewhat positively but with some obviousl flaws, and i point out the flaws! we're so onto something here! then they. they just repeat the same thing? and i point out...the same.....flaw?? and they repeat the same thing and omfg. i want to forcibly inject the words i am saying into their brain because obviously something is getting lost in translation!

like omg i just pointed out that someone's training advice was probably not appropriate since it advocated for punishing a fearful animal for biting. and they Could Not understand what they were doing was punishment. like dude...if something is decreasing a behaviour, it Is Punishment no if ands or buts...and they kept going on about how effective it is, like yeah because YOURE PUNISHING THEM, if it's actually decreasing the behaviour that is literal proof it is punishment! and after like 2 days of comments they left off with 'and idk why you kept going on about punishment' like wtf. were we not even? reading the same book like what did u think we were talking about....

i figure you have a lot of experience with this shit lol...ik WHY like obviously they really didn't want to confront the fact that they maybe did a bad thing but how on earth we managed to talk for so long while being in straight up different conversations...nuts. i didnt even think to ask if they knew what punishment was cos like oooobviously they know what punishment is but. i guess not!

honestly just wanted to rant i hope thats ok...this is such a minor thing honestly like it's not even approaching killing or eating animals but...frustrating, lol

This is something we all run into when trying to advocate, I think. A different context remember so clearly when I first found out about the horrors of animal agriculture as an example, and was utterly convinced that all I had to do was show people what I had found and they’d be as horrified as I was. Sometimes they were, but it didn’t usually help.

Over time I learned that cognitively knowing something is harmful, and lining that harm up with your own behaviour and working to change it are very different processes. I’ve been trying to figure out exactly what leads to that elusive ‘making the connection’ moment for over a decade but I don’t think I’m much closer to understanding it now than I was then.

People get entrenched in their existing beliefs, and often it becomes more about being right than taking the right stance. Often they do end up revising their views, but they will almost never credit that to you or your conversation. Very few people are willing to be wrong in front of someone else, because our defences kick in and our ego gets in the way.

Just know that it is still worth speaking up for all animals, and you just never know what seeds you’re planting along the way. I’ve influenced people I only found out about years later, and sometimes it was something as simple as them seeing my order a restaurant, or me giving a pretty unremarkable answer to why I don’t eat dairy or something. It is always worth speaking up, not only because we owe it to animals, but because we miss out on a lot of hidden opportunities when we don’t.

[mrhowells]

Smallville 4x16

*this episode put me through it, also the character building for Lois is perfection (also, if you see any typos just close your eyes, it was late and I was emotional)*

Clark looks so suspicious😭😭 Jonathan too, the way he's eyeing that food lmaooooo

Please😭

"I'm willing to sleep in the barn." "No that's okay, Lois can sleep in the barn." LOL Clark

sass levels through the roof today for him

Look at how proud Lois is listing all of Lucy's achievements😭 She's the best wtf I love her

"Wow, that's impressive. What happened to Lois?"

He has the time of his life dragging her PLS

"You're gonna find that Clark's charm is an acquired taste, much like his sense of fashion." he had that coming

Lois said TRY ME BISH

pls even Lucy is noticing the tension😭

she wasn't playing with that shoulder punch💀

Yeah, Jason is not letting those stones go💀

I really feel for Lana, I feel like she just lives in constant fear bc there's always some weird shit happening around her

Lucy flirting with Clark, just pls no💀

"Lois I don't want you to get the wrong idea, but ever since Lucy came to town you've been grumpier than normal."

I love this whole conversation between them🥹

Also Clark making it so obvious he's an only child from a loving family, bless him

"You might be a little rough around the edges but as far as sisters go, Lucy could do a lot worse." EXACTLY

anyone who has Lois in their life won the lottery, not even an exaggeration she's the absolute best🤷🏻‍♀️

"I guess there was just a part of me that was always jealous she got out and I didn't."

LOIS BBY LET ME HUG YOU LET ME LOVE YOU

the way she's like 'oh fuck I was vulnerable, gotta blast🏃🏻‍♀️🏃🏻‍♀️', same Lois, same

Clark looks so worried too😭

this is so wholesome🥹

I think those electric shocks left him with some permanent damage because Jason seems obsessed now👀

Okay let me rephrase, he doesn't just seem obsessed, he's completely unhinged. They fried his brain🤡

Clark is in disappointed dad mode again, he's so natural at it too😭

"You're not mom alright, so stop trying to be." That hurt me personally, goddamn

LMAOOOOO

also, is this the first episode where we see Lex and Lois in the same frame?👀

Lucy you snake

LOIS DON'T YOU EVER SAY OR THINK THAT

To everyone who contributed to her feeling this way, I just want to have a talk

This is breaking my heart, the world doesn't deserve her😭😭

Their dad really failed at parenting HARD

no because this hurts fr, I want to hug her so bad

she deserves to know that she's wanted and loved, SOMEBODY TELL HER

I can't get over the fact that she thinks that her life is less important than that of her sister

Clark defending Lois is something that can be so personal😭 (She deserves a good support system and friends who have her back idc)

I'm getting very emotional about this excuse me

You know I love a character when I need everyone else to love them too. Like I need every other character on this show to appreciate how amazing Lois is.

"I'm a product of my father's breeding. He needed an heir. But your parents chose you out of love."

No because that's so important and I think it explains why both Lex and Lois are so (for the lack of a better word) fascinated with the Kents.

(ok I paused the episode and wrote like 4 paragraphs of character analysis prompted by that quote but idk what to do with them and if they make any sense, maybe I'll make a separate post🤡)

I need you guys to understand how much it means to me that he really cares about Lois😭

Not even in any sort of romantic context, just that someone genuinely cares if she's okay or not because she's obviously never really had someone take care of her😭😭😭

I mean listen, good for Lionel that he's not an absolute monster anymore but he really needs to stay out of Lex's business💀💀

WAIT A MINUTE HOLD ON.

HOLD ONNNNNN

Did Lana vandalize her own apartment? Or did she just hide the stone and whoever searched for it didn't find it? In any case she's learning how to play the game, good for her😌😌

Okay, first of all: More reasons to love Lois, she's self-aware and she can admit when she's wrong about something. Seriously I love her.

Second: Again, they way she's ready to be kicked out of the farm for something that wasn't even her fault??? MR. SAM LANE, SAMMY, GENERAL LANE, I'D LIKE TO HAVE SOME WORDS WITH YOU. Seriously though, this speaks volumes about how she grew up and it breaks my heart.

Third: The way she tries to be so casual and 'Lois' when she says it, I have very similar defense mechanisms and again, it hurts my heart.

"Yeah... actually I came here to tell you we have food in the oven if you're hungry."

Lois learning what unconditional love looks like through the Kent family is the only thing that matters to me, actually

"You know, all these years I thought I had my sister pegged but... in reality? She's a complete stranger to me." "Even if that were true, I think that if she called you tomorrow you'd be there in a second to help her."

I CAN'T DO THIS RIGHT NOW, HE DOES KNOW HER😭

SHE KNOWS HIM TOO😭😭

"I guess that explains why we're friends." "Oh, we're friends now?" "Well, I mean, I won't tell anyone if you don't."

Yes you are and I'm so glad bc you're the most amazing people to ever exist😭

Clark deserves someone like Lois in his life and Lois deserves someone like Clark in her life, yes I'm on the verge of tears AND WHAT ABOUT IT

CHEMISTRYYYYY

shoulder punch my beloved🥹

CHEMISTRYYYYYY

do you think these people knew they just created perfection?😭

🎶now it all begins🎶

written in the stars and all that, I love my OTP

More importantly though, I love Lois Lane she's everything and she deserves all the love in the world.

[ace-and-the-rpg-horrors]

ranking of GCSEs i've done so far

1.) English Literature Paper 1. love love loved it, the Macbeth and ACC questions were so open-ended and i actually had time left to check, useful cause i spelt Shakespeare wrong at one point

2.) Computer Science Paper 1. i actually didn't think it was going too well in the actual exam but after it when sharing what we put for stuff, many people agreed with me!! so feeling good!!

3.) Biology Paper 1. pretty good!! nice questions, except the last bullshit about the fucking discs of leaf floating when colourful light idk THEY DIDN'T ASK ABOUT DIFFUSION OR ENZYMES THOUGH AND I REVISED THEM SO MUCHHHH

4.) English Literature Paper 2. alright, the continuous fast writing for 2 hours and 15 minutes made part of my hand go blue. but i think i did alright. LotF question was great. I NEARLY GASPED WHEN THEY GAVE US MY LAST DUCHESS ON THE POWER AND CONFLICT THOUGH. and unseen poetry was. fine.

5.) Chemistry Paper 1. sooooo i didn't revise the fucking like. metal reactions. ALSO THERE WERE SO MANY MATHS ONES AND I FORGOT TO CONVERT THE UNITS IN ONE OF THEM AND ONLY FOUND OUT AS MY FRIENDS WERE DISCUSSING THEIR ANSWERS AFTER

6.) Maths Paper 1. LITERALLY CAN GO DIE WTF WAS THAT, I CRIED I'VE LOST AT LEAST 20 MARKS I'M NOT EXAGERRATING I COUNTED UP THE ONES I DEFINITELY LOST

7.) French Listening and reading. KILL ME I WAS GUESSING ALL THAT SHIT I NEARLY CRIED PART 2 I HATE THE FRENCH THEY NEVER EVER SHUT UP THEY JUST KEEP SPEAKING AND ADD MORE DETAILS TO GASLIGHT YOU INTO SECOND-GUESSING YOUR ANSWER AAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHH

anyway, 7 down. 10 to go. i have Physics Paper 1 and Computer Science tomorrow and i am not of the logical brain if i go offline forever you know what killed me

[lu-kario]

today my dear followers who did not ask for this,

A Very Honest Slenderman(2018) Review!!!

by a creepypasta fanatic and someone who needs to think about smth else to not k- moving onto the "review". (it's not a real review i'm just gonna shit on it obviously)

It's just gonna be a list of things I noticed that bothered me throughout the whole film and made it physically difficult to watch. That was the second movie that took me two days to watch not because I was scared, but because it hurt my brain to finish it. ((((also yes. i am very . VERY . late to the party. i know. don't worry)))

Starting off, the characters are not likeable at all. None of them. They don't behave like actual teenagers. Someone from that directing team was observing high school students for a week with a notepad and was done after thinking they did a good job. I may or may not be autistic and not behave like that either but I've been in high school and have seen stuff. Obviously.

Second of all who just watches adult vids and calls it a night with friends wtf-

Not important . Maybe someone does?? Also these teenagers are created to be so edgy for absolutely no reason ((pointing out that line from ginger girlie saying that the cat should've exploded at the end i'm so fkn glad she was gone first)).

Another thing. Let's get to the star of the mfing show,,, Slenderman .

What they made of him was some kind of a,,, dryad?? Like there's legit some Slenderman Tree in the woods that he walks out of to collect kids and bear them with his big ol' self. Don't get me wrong that concept would be cool on it's own if not the thing that. It doesn't suit him at all. And the Slenderman Summoning Video as well- wth was that . You're telling me some bells (something added for the sake of the movie I suppose bcuz i never heard of that) with added five stock images of what'd you get if you typed 'illuminati' giving you a high speed seizure attack are gonna summon this big boy? The reactions are so hilarious to me as well WHY WERE THESE GIRLS PANTING AS IF THE DAMN SLENDERMAN WAS THERE WITH THEM give me a break. That would hint at least Slendy is some kind of . illuminati-ish experiment left off in the local woods grabbing kids to expand the tree for decades? i suppose.

Mostly what they did with him is giving marble hornets series but make it a on-budget parody that relies for it's damn life on shock value- flashing images constantly, having those ominous shots to make you feel something and lemme tell you i did feel something(nauseous). Also having the original contest images in the film was fucking hilarious so uh +1 for that but that's the only thing i actually liked.

Yet another thing! Nothing in this movie felt genuinely connected to each other,, if it was an artistic interpretation or smth idk i think i wouldn't mind as much but don't be calling this a damn full fleshed out movie.

The Slendy in this movie felt like a totally different being than the original it was sad to watch.

the effects were ,,,alright? like nothing to hate but nothing specific about it to like . it was just alright at best.

very last thing unless i've decided i remembered smth else-

THE LIGHT WORK IN THIS MOVIE WAS SO FUCKING TERRIBLE I HAD MY SCREEN LIGHT SET ON MAX AND STILL COULDN'T SEE A DAMN THING AND GUESS WHAT? THAT WAS THRU OUT LIKE 80% OF THE DAMN MOVIE

enough of that no matter if you enjoyed the ranting have a great day dont watch this movie unless you wanna suffer uhhhh have this cool cat pic of my cat idk what to put here anymore

edit

oh yeah i remember now

WHY DID SLENDY WALKED SO SEDUCTIVELY.............WHAT,

bro was swinging his hips seducing the victims i am done goodbye

[acircusfullofdemons]

PARAMAY DAY 13 (CREATION)

*inhales* oh boy, here we go…

Claypso was created on January 12, 2018, the day/day after I had seen the movie “The Greatest Showman”. It Unlocked something in my brain because the MOMENT I got home I pulled up Pinterest & started looking for inspo to make a Cool New ~*Self Insert OC*~. I can't really remember my exact thought process (who knows wtf 14yo Luka was on) BUT I do know I specifically made Calypso to represent "me". I would then joke for the next 2ish years on how, despite this, I made Calypso a boy when I identified as a Cis Girl. Idk I just find that fact so funny now that I’m nonbinary. (In the same vein, I also made him confident/proud of his bisexuality when I still had no clue if I was bi or not. We love projecting onto our own ocs/paras <3).

Calypso is the parame I remember actively making, thinking, "this Character is me but runs a circus" (I had just seen The Greatest Showman so inspo was strong there lol). Which is funny, because if you look at Cali, then look at me, I don't think you'd think/realize that?? His personality is very much…the opposite of mine lol. I am not a super cool extrovert that has multiple friend groups and goes on odd adventures. I’m on tumblr participating in a month-long oc challenge. Clearly something went wrong /j.

Uh. I made him at a time when I was questioning if I was Bi or not (I mean i was a freshman/starting highschool. Do any of us know who we truly are then?) so I kinda projected that into him??? In all honesty I feel like he should fall somewhere on the aro spectrum as well, since I'm aro & that's important to me, but I want it to evolve naturally if it at all happens so I won't entertain the idea just yet.

Funny enough, homeboy has always been a homeboy. Er, what I mean by that is, even tho I made him based off of me/representing me, having him be a (cis) male was one of my first decisions for him. At the time I wasn't 100% sure why, maybe I was influenced by the movie, which had Hugh Jackman star/play as PT Barnum, both males. But uh *looks @ nonbinary flag* I think there's a reason why now. Also part of the reason he's so feminine / """girly""" I guess. Tbh I probably projected into him a lot more than I realize (coughdaddyissuescough) but he is my parame & started out as a paraself, so it's fair.

Oh wow I haven’t even gotten into the original version of his story yet. It’s honestly not that different from how it is now, with a few minor differences. Originally, he was just the circus’ ringleader and died trying to save Clairette from a lion attack. The time loop was because he was the son of Persephone and Morpheus (yes..the greek gods…they were a thing in this once) so I think Persephone allowed him to be a Poltergeist?? OH and Macbeth was his half brother which made their relationship kind of sad because Cali genuinely wanted a sibling relationship but Macbeth just wanted him dead (Macbeth is a Reaper and his job is to collect Souls Cali is literally a lost soul do u see the problem here).

The VR stuff was always canon (except for that brief period of time where I got insecure and it wasn’t and everything was just their normal life which made things less confusing but also there was literally no plot lmao). Idk what else to say uhm fun facts: 

His default playlist is a little over 8hrs long and is currently the longest playlist I have on Spotify (that I listen to. My instrumental playlist is a little longer but tbh I rarely touch it).

He used to have gold eyes. They were quickly changed to blue and got shifted into the turquoise they are now! In addition to that, his first design used to have him wearing an actual ringleader outfit. He also used to have black hair, then light purple, and finally the dark purple it is now. In total he’s been through roughly 7-8 redesigns.

Cali is combined with a previous character, Anthony Morningstar. Anthony was inspired by Pride!Roman (an AU of Roman Sanders from the webseries “Sanders Sides”) and is the reason Calypso is now a prince! I scrapped Anthony because I had no idea what to do with his character and felt like him & Cali were too similar to really justify them being different people.

The tarot cards that represent him are “The Magician” and “Page of Wands”.

“A Million Dreams” from The Greatest Showman is his theme song.

....this is all probably Too Much. hm. have the first drawing of Cali I ever did (it is from 2018 😞)

[chasing-rabbits]

Had a really good day. We went into town to get some stuff we needed for the house and to take some jogging bottoms to a local clothing alteration/repair place cos they are one of Kade’s favourites and plus it was surprisingly a lot cheaper than I thought it would be.

We then went to get some food at a lounge/bar by the river, we came home and watched the first episode of black sails which btw is really good I know I’ve only seen the first episode but I think I’m gonna really enjoy it. I chilled for a bit and then took a nap and I woke up feeling good because for once I actually did just nap and not wake up like 6 hours later thinking wtf. But like idk it’s almost 1am and it’s not that I’m feeling down down its more just frustrated with where I’m at in life right now like our financial situation and where I am like I’m gonna be 30 next year and I just wanna be off benefits and earning a living really bad. I want to set up and run my own business and be able to make a living from it a comfortable one where I don’t worry about paying the bills and I want to prove it to myself I guess as well that I can do that. I can function and hold down a job even if it’s not a conventional 9-5 which I don’t think I could ever work with everything wrong with me. But I want to show everyone and most importantly myself that I’m capable of it. That I’m not forever going to be reliant on someone else or the government. And I know like okay people who do work switch up careers go back to school in their 30s or 40s my mum’s cousin she did that and retrained to be a midwife and I think that was in her 30s maybe 40s. But I don’t know I guess sometimes I’m maybe a bit too critical of myself and where I’m at and the expectations and goals I’ve put on myself are maybe a bit unfair to me given my mental health and all the things I’ve gone through up to this point you know but it doesn’t mean my brain doesn’t beat me up and tell me I should be further along and not because of societies expectations even but my own.

[wench-and-jezebel]

The Musketeers Reaction: The Exiles

Jezebel (@typicalopposite) reacts [with occasional asides by Wench (@scripted-downfall)]

Sheep

[Bebby]

“Don’t get…” Buddy.  You.  Have.  No.  Right.  T- Actually neither of them do.  WHY WERE THEY CHOSEN FOR THIS?  [*simultaneously*  "Don't get involved"  Aramis, you're one to talk]

That… Looked sus

Bby!!

PRIEST BE DED

HOW  [?]  IS THAT BABY IN THAT THING?  [There are straps or something; don't question it]  That’s so unsafe!  The mom in me is like HOW TF!  Ack!

[Legitimately, though, why did they have d'Art and Aramis teaming up and think this a good idea]

Welp… they left the wrong one with her [alsdkfj True]  He just gonna replace the baby  [ALKDSFJ]

[Sir, she was by a grave; where do you think hubby be?]

If Flirt removes and puts this hat back on one more time ☠️☠️ I know why he’s doing it but ☠️

[Dude.  Athos should have had a hawk.  Is it at all in his character?  Nah, not really.  But it'd be cool.]

All I heard from Louis was whine whine whine… whine whine

[asdfasdf We've found the two competent members of les Inseparables]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️

Whine.  Whine.  Whineeeee.  [I recognize that he's not actually being unreasonable here but he's very whiny.  I guess he could rescind his own ruling maybe?  idk for sure.  But like... she really did commit a rather serious crime]  I just 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨  This man.  

["Decapitating one's mother is rarely popular with the people sire - it always looks a touch ungrateful."  I love the Cardinal's sarcasm ngl]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️ Very true

Poor baby!  I’d be crying too.  He’s like WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU MAN.  And getting flip flopped all around

Do they think she’s a witch?  [I don't actually remember]

Bbys like OH GOD WHY D’ART I’m screwed

Athos got them crazy eyes now

You just wanted to kill your mother???

Oooop y’all don’t be looking at each other  [Another instance of Treville and the Cardinal being on the same page btw]

Wot.  The.  Fuck.  This man?!!??!  [Louis is… a character]

Buddy you think your cape is big enough?  [Nope… You know what they say about men with big capes-]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️

["Aramis and d'Artagnan aren't back yet"  No shit, you paired those two together… The mission went to shit the second those orders were given]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️ Then again… Had he sent Porthos with Aramis…. They would have never arrived at all  [Ah, then you've come to the (correct) conclusion that Athos has the braincell; I've taught you well]  😂😂😂😂  And he needed the brain cell with him guarding the king. Alas his hands were tied

Oooohhhhh poor bby king… Don’t cry… Uuuuwuuuuwuuuuu  [It must be said... I do like the actor who plays Louis.  He does a good job at being... this]  He does!

It’s very obvious she’s faking  [Ma’am is manipulative af]

[Ma'am.  Treason is not a "misjudgement" most of the time]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️

Ma’am why does dart need to be joined?  [*simultaneously* "I'll go and join d'Artagnan"  I'm not surprised, dearie]  You!  Are married!

[Good news... Aramis knows ways of healing wounds *cough cough*]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️

Have you, Flirt? Have you?

I thought they were gonna kiss I was like oooop

She looks like the queen of hearts in the live action Alice

Beauty and the beast 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[Wait.  Hold up.  Oh shit.  Huh]  Wait Wot? Lol  [Nothing]

Well shit… Flirt, stop talking

That’s so fecking sad omg ack

[Whoa, there, d'Art]  ☠️☠️

☠️☠️ [THE SIDEGLANCE]  I knowwww  ["You'll have children of your own someday"  "If it's meant to be *stares at d'Art*"]  Lol

Poor Constance  [She's gone from running the risk of dishonoring herself because d'Artagnan asked her to in Athos's name to running the risk of dishonoring herself because d'Artagnan asked her to]

– – – 

Jezebel: I honestly don’t know how Aramis can breathe… Buddy has shoved his foot so far down his throat this episode 😂😂

Wench: asldkfjalkdsfj it's true

Jezebel: And the king! I just can’t get over how childish he is! 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 poor Anne I could never live in an arranged marriage! (That’s what these like always are right?)

Wench: This was def an arranged marriage, yes.  As part of an alliance between France and Spain

Jezebel: Ohhh! 🙂 Then you got the queen of hearts being sneaky and conniving! And Athos being the only one with sense!

Wench: Oi, Porthos hasn't done much, but he's still not lacking sense!  It's only when Aramis is there that trouble ensues

Jezebel: Very true!  I swear: you got the brains, the brawn, the beauty, and d’Art

Wench: asdkfhjaslkdfj  Also known by their alternative titles: the traumatized, the traumatized, the traumatized, and, oh, yeah, the traumatized

Jezebel: ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️  And these are the famous musketeers whose story has been told for centuries (?)

Wench:  I mean.  Yes

Jezebel: The ? Was because I wasn’t sure when the book came out ☠️☠️

Wench: I know al;ksdjf

Jezebel: Honestly?  I love it

Wench: Though, again... d'Art was a great deal less traumatized in the book.  And I don't remember Savoy being a thing for Aramis either.  idk... it's been a bit since I read, but I only really remember book!Athos having a Traumatic Backstory alksdjf

Jezebel: So trauma, poverty, religion, and…. And d’Art.

Wench: Well, again, I'm not sure about the poverty even.  For Porthos, I mean.  I don’t remember it being a big part of the book, aside from the fact that he’s described (iirc) as marrying well, and that’s why he has a title.

Jezebel: Unless it’s just the show that has Port come fro- Yeah, that!

Wench: I don't know for sure… I need to reread 😭  The Wikipedia article seems to agree with me (picture not included)

Jezebel: Oh, so brawn works! And ☹️☹️ He dies?

Wench: Not in the first book… I told you this; he dies in Man in the Iron Mask

Jezebel: The book one tho right?

Wench: Yes.  Ma'am, I've said this like three times 😭  I knew you never listened to me (aff)

Jezebel: ‘Cause in the movie it’s d’Art. Is he the king’s father in the book?

Wench: No

Jezebel: Also… Ma’am.  Memory is shit you know this

Wench: HMPH.

– – –

Oh my gawd!  She’s behind thieving the bby!

[Our wish, their command; Porthos returns to the front lines :)]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️  [Y'all, why are you walking that closely.  You're Asking to get seen]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️  [Athos is back too]

Ooooop.  OOPPPPP!  OHHHHHHHHH PHILLIPE!  [Now you see the cause for the earlier “Wait.  Hold up.  Oh shit.  Huh.”  NOW DO YOU SEE]  I seee!  Le gasp!  OH MAH GAWDDDD

Shit, this baby is the prince

Oooooop she ain’t nothing in there

“He folds”  [Athos, I love you]  

[Constance, my beloved]   Lord… Flirt’s gonna be getting heart eyes for the married lady d’Art’s got heart eyes for

Isss not all about looks flirt

*Sigh*  He’s about to his thigh now. He’s going to have eaten himself by the end

🙂 I like him.  I see what he did there  [This has the same vibe as "just so you know why I can't help"]  It does!!

[I love that Athos knows what happened within one second alskdjf]  😂😂😂

Lady… Don’t be stupid

[Off-topic, but… The temptation to write a Musketeers/Firefly fic is strong with this one]  👀👀👀👀  [I still don’t know firefly but I’m listening]

Maaam!  The king is more a child than the baby!

[Also, Aramis... spare nothing why don't you.  Like... she needs to hear it but also.  Tact?]  He’s definitely eaten his torso by now

Well, the red queen is back  [Do.  Do you mean Helena Bonham Carter]  The character is who she looks like with that hairdo

Wah wah wahhhh  ["Being king can be so boring"  I promise you wouldn't want to be a subject either.  Also "It's so unfair!'  Bitch, you have soooo much privilege.  It's literally not even funny]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️ I can’t even with him!

["No, no, let's keep it suicidal"]  😂😂😂😂  [Did you expect any less from Athos?  I mean... buddy's a bit.  Self-care-less]  Very true

[I mean.  She makes a good point]  True ☠️☠️☠️☠️

Henry, Louis, Phillip… Do the people back then know there were other boys names 😮‍💨  [Ma'am, they're French: Henri.  Louis.  Phillipe.  But also… No]

“These barrels contain brandy. A rather good Armagnac, I believe.”  “Athos, now is not the time.”  AND THEN THE LOOK]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️  I LOVE IT

SIR!  [YOU ALWAYS LACK FAITH]  I KNOW ITS FAKE WOMAN BUT YOU COULD HAVE WARNED HER [OH]

BRUH How can she be like this about her kid?!!?  Damn.  Like, he’s whiny but I feel bad for him.

Is she…. Is she good?  [WHY WOULD YOU POSSIBLY THINK HER GOOD?]  I meant the little moan thing she did

Well shit… Poor priest 

Damn

Aight, Flirt pulled himself back out to like the ankle.

She’s like nah, I was thinking this man’s a fucking idiot

– – – 

Jezebel: That didn’t feel like it was long enough to be a whole episode I have been robbed

Wench: lkasjfdlksajdf  I'd say do another but it's the time of night where you usually abandon me, so... 'sigh'  Although... next ep is rather a good one.  Deserves focus.  (aka: it’s Athos-centric)

Jezebel: I can’t stay up past midnight again I’m dying in the mornings lol 😂😂😂😂 If it was the weekend I 100% would 😭 cause I’m loving this show sm!

Wench: Hmph.  Shoulda known... you just like me for my shows

Jezebel: LIESSSS

Wench: Mmmhmmmmm… Do endpoint, problem child

Jezebel: This was so fucking sad omg!!!!  This is not what I wanted when I said I was curious if Phillipe was in the show

Wench: I didn't even connect the two last time, if it makes you feel better.  I also didn't connect Savoy to all the dead Musketeers in episode 1 until this go-round.  Or how this episode must have been painful given the similarities to Milady.   I hadn’t seen Man in the Iron Mask (or read the book) in any close proximity last time I watched this

Jezebel: I thought of it when I heard the name but again that was a very common used name ☠️😂  Wait, Savoy was mentioned in the first episode?

Wench: No, but it had the ambush wherein the Musketeers were attacked for the letter they carried as a means of setting up Athos' frame-job.   And it was very similar to the story we hear in ep4 about Savoy.  Thus, that was likely even more unfortunate for Aramis than we knew.  I think there was even snow on the ground

Jezebel: Ooooooh!  And as for the Milady thing… What do you mean?

Wench: Technically it was the King’s duty to execute his mother — largely because he’d made that ruling in the past, to be fair, so he could just revoke it as he did in the show (but no one said Athos POV parallels had to be fair/accurate) — and he didn’t; thus, what does it say about the character of a man who went ahead with it when even Louis didn’t.

Jezebel: 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 Well! Damn! That’s more pain than I originally thought it would be! Ack! Now I’m hurt! 😤😤 rude. 

Wench: You're welcome!

Jezebel: bUt yoUr NoT eViLlllll.

Wench: I'm nottttt

Jezebel: Anyway! 😤😮‍💨 This poor woman… Fell in love with a man who was a good person but shunned for his appearance, watched him die, saw her baby kidnapped, finds out he is actually the rightful king only to have that idea squashed because royals are actually quite evil, tries to escape just for her baby to be yeeted into a river…. I mean at least he is alive and they got away but I’m sure she probably has mentally lost like ten years of life from that

Wench: And she had to deal with Aramis for three days

Jezebel: Very true… how this man gets all the ladies is beyond me. He is 😮‍💨😮‍💨 an idiot

Wench: You... you ain't seen nothing yet.  Suffice to say that Athos' statement from the first episode --- "Tell me he's not that stupid," immediately followed by him being, yes, that stupid --- is highly accurate as a personality guide

Jezebel: 😂😂😂😂😂  And I say this as affectionately as possible as he is still my favorite. But he is still an idiot

Wench: Naturally... I like him too :)  My ranking, btw?  Athos = high favorite, Portamis = tied for high second, d'Art... somewhere in a distant third.  (Sorry to d'Art fans… I don't dislike him though.  He's just.  Not a fave)

Jezebel: I read portamis as just Porthos and was like you like dart more than flirt for shameeeee!  But, see, what has happened is this show has taken Dean and split him into two characters

Wench: Tbf, the flirty part of Dean was never one of my favorites.  Like, nothing against that side of him, but it's not what endeared him to me.  Thus, I'm not surprised that I didn't hyperfixate over Aramis despite that as a commonality

Jezebel: Very fair 😂 I think for me it’s more the goofiness that I’m liking but the flirting is cute

Wench: The goofiness is also not one of my favorite traits, so... the point stands.  Like.  I appreciate it in both.  But it's not fixation-worthy

Jezebel: Does. Does this make Cas port and Sam Dart ☠️☠️

Wench: You do realize that not every ship is Destiel-coded

Jezebel: It was a joke ☠️☠️☠️ 

Wench: I know.  As was mine  

(EDIT: We’re accidentally paralleling the scene from this episode… “You do realize that not every ship is Destiel-coded” = “These barrels contain brandy; “It was a joke ☠️☠️☠️” = “Now is not the time”; “As was mine” = Athos’ Look)

Jezebel: But also no I don’t I will spread my Destiel fixation to every fandom I want thank you very much.  (Idk why but the image that went through my head was coloring pictures of the other fandoms with a dual color green and blue crayon… It’s late.  I’m feeling it)

Wench: Weak

Jezebel: It’s true.  It’s what happens when you get old

Wench: False

Jezebel: 😊  Anyway… am I missing anything?

Wench: Not that I can see

Jezebel: Goood! Well Athos ep tomorrow!?

Wench: That works

Jezebel: Perfect… ‘til then!

[newspropaganda]

Man, you're really a joke if you can't reply with a proper text and good arguments instead of lame memes or accusing people taking drugs. I've seen a lot of weird people in the ygo community but you really are up there with the special weirdos. It's funny when you criticize everyone just loving DM and not caring for the spin offs when you shittalk every spin off besides 5D's. And if anyone dares to say that 5D's had flaws, you insult them and go "wah wah, America bad, y'all woke shit" and throwing a tantrum like a child like wtf? That has nothing to do with ygo? Seriously, Idk what's wrong with you but maybe you do need some therapy because all the hatred and borderline racism from you is really not good. Also you say everyone is just about politics when *you* are the one bringing it up in almost every reply/post. Double standards much?

Oh, wow, what a refreshing take! It’s like you reached into the bargain bin of internet arguments and pulled out every cliché possible. Let’s go through this step-by-step because clearly, you’ve got a lot on your mind (or whatever’s occupying that space).

1. "Lame memes or accusing people of taking drugs"

So, you’re upset about memes? Really? In a world where people are tearing apart card games, shows, and fandoms with hot takes, you’re stuck on memes like they’re some new-age evil? Look, memes are the universal language of the internet, pal. If you can’t handle a little humor, I’m not sure how you even survive out there. And “accusing people of taking drugs”? That’s your interpretation. If my comments leave you feeling like you’re living in an alternate reality, maybe it’s not my words you should be worrying about. Get that checked.

2. "I criticize people who love DM but hate spin-offs besides 5D's"

Oh, this again. I criticize Duel Monsters fans for worshipping one series like it’s the gospel of Yu-Gi-Oh!, and suddenly that’s a crime? Here’s a wild thought: maybe it’s because I have something called a preference. Just because you’re out here clinging to your childhood nostalgia with a death grip doesn’t mean I’m going to pretend every series besides 5D’s is garbage just to make you feel better. Newsflash: people can like 5D’s and still criticize other shows. Shocking, I know.

3. "Throwing a tantrum when anyone critiques 5D's"

Critique 5D’s all you want; I don’t care. It’s not the critique that gets to me—it’s the lazy, baseless drivel that people like you spew without backing it up. “Oh, 5D’s isn’t that good.” Okay, and? What’s your grand argument besides parroting whatever the cool kids on the internet say? If you want to have a real discussion, bring something to the table other than “wah wah.” Otherwise, spare me the generic takes.

4. "Wah wah, America bad, woke shit"

Ah, yes, the ol’ “you’re talking about woke stuff” argument. You pulled that one out faster than a Dark Magician from a Yugi deck. If by “woke” you mean I call out the garbage in certain places or fandoms, sure, I guess I’m “woke.” But here’s the fun part: if you spent half the time actually understanding what I’m saying instead of labeling it with your buzzwords, maybe you’d actually learn something. Maybe the real tantrum is coming from the person who just can’t handle a different opinion. Hint: it’s not me.

5. "America bad has nothing to do with YGO"

Oh, sweet summer child. Everything affects everything in the world of fandoms, media, and culture. If you think Yu-Gi-Oh! and the environment it’s consumed in exist in some vacuum, you’re more out of touch than I thought. Why don’t you sit down and reflect on how different regions influence how media is perceived? Or would that hurt your brain too much? The fact that you can’t see the bigger picture is exactly why you’re stuck on these shallow arguments. Yu-Gi-Oh! is influenced by the people, the players, the cultures—it’s all connected.

6. "I need therapy because of my hatred and racism"

Ah, the classic “you need therapy” line. Let’s take a moment to appreciate how original and insightful that is. You know, maybe I do need therapy, but not for the reasons you think. I might need it just to tolerate reading through this nonsense without losing brain cells. As for the “hatred” and “racism” bit—nice try. It’s easy to throw around those words when you’re grasping at straws. If you’re going to accuse someone of that, at least have the decency to back it up. Otherwise, it’s just you shouting into the void because you don’t have a real argument.

7. "I bring up politics in every post"

You say I’m the one bringing up politics all the time, yet here you are, crying about it like it’s the biggest offense of the century. If you weren’t so obsessed with pigeonholing every comment I make as political, maybe we could actually have a decent conversation about the topic at hand. But nah, keep going with your “double standards” nonsense. The only double standard here is you accusing me of bringing up politics while you drag it into every argument like you’re on a crusade to save the fandom from differing opinions.

Oh, you wanna talk trash, huh? Well, lemme break it down for you Steiner Math style, because clearly, you didn’t come here to debate—you came here to embarrass yourself! And trust me, I’m gonna be the one to do it for you! So buckle up, buddy, because this is about to get mathematical!

You see, there’s 100% of people in the Yu-Gi-Oh! community, but you? You represent that bottom 1%. The kinda people who think they know something, but in reality, you don’t even have a fraction of the knowledge to back up your lame claims! You take 33 and a third percent of your weak arguments, then you add another 66 and two-thirds percent of your ignorance, and what does that give you? 99% pure delusion!

Now, I know what you’re thinking. “I made a valid point! I can criticize him!” But listen, you only got a 25% chance of making any sense, because every time you open your mouth, you lose 75% of your credibility. And that’s being generous! Let’s be honest—you don’t even understand 5D’s let alone the franchise, which means you got zero percent chance of having a real argument.

But wait, there’s more! You stack your lack of self-awareness on top of your nonsensical takes, and you think you’re gonna come out on top? You gotta multiply that by the square root of "I don’t know what I’m talking about!" Now that leaves you with negative IQ points in this argument. You’re so far in the negatives, I gotta use advanced calculus just to figure out where your logic went wrong!

And if we’re talking about how bad you miscalculated, let’s get into your success rate in making a coherent argument. You got a 50% chance of saying something halfway decent, but that’s only if you didn’t subtract 50% of that from your constant whining about politics that nobody asked for. By the end of it, you’re left with zero percent, which means all you’re doing is wasting everyone’s time with that trash tier drivel.

Now I take my 110% brain power—which is, quite frankly, way above your average IQ level of zero—and I dropkick your ridiculous post right outta the conversation! Why? Because I’ve got a 141 and two-thirds percent chance of winning this argument, and the numbers don’t lie, they spell disaster for you!

So in closing, the only thing you got left is a 100% chance of getting shut down, a 99% chance of not understanding a single thing I said, and an absolute zero chance of being relevant in any fandom ever again. That’s Steiner Math, and you just failed it, pal!

Now get outta here before you lose the last 1% of your dignity!

//In the End It Has To Be This Way///

The Yu-Gi-Oh Fandom: Why won't you shut the fuck up?

Me: Anger and Rage, Son.

[32flavorsotbbg]

8.4

My how the turns have tabled yet again

So we had sex twice. He made me cum last night 😳

Wtf

Here I was so pressed lmao about the possible ways this could go and now here I am pressed for an entirely different reason because now I have even bigger crush brain and not only that I have dick brain.

I like him so much but I feel like I’m still kinda waffling just because I’m scared.

Idk idk

This made it even more clear that everything should slow down. Like don’t get me wrong, I’m not gonna stop having sex with him lol but I think mentally, I gotta separate myself from the end game equation because one just never knows

We talked about it today… he told me he doesn’t want me to think of him as someone who was just trying to fuck me. Or that that’s all it is to him. He asked if I “had any questions”, that’s what started this convo. I said no and that I might have questions down the line but not now. So I asked him if he had any questions and he said yeah what do you think about all this? So I told him basically we’re in this strange limbo of like, this is both really complicated and not complicated at all. I told him I didn’t want him to feel like I was just like waiting to wrangle him as soon as everything is final. He told me he wasn’t going to be seeking anything else and that he didn’t know how I was going about things but that if someone came along who was perfect for me, that there wouldn’t be any hard feelings. So that’s confusing as fuck because while I appreciate the sentiment of goodwill I also am like…….. oh you’re so funny lol my mind doesn’t work like that. Imma be on this till you’re off it, most likely. And I guess everything lies in the maybe but damn like if that’s how it is, if you’re giving me a KISS GOOD MORNING AND GOODBYE then I don’t wanna hear about the possibility of me coming across anyone else. Because we had that whole entire talk, he said “I don’t want you to think I’m using my personal growth as like an out, it’s not something I’m just going to keep saying and saying, if I did that then I clearly am not really getting my shit together…” …………..and he still ended our day with a kiss goodbye

So it’s like, oh yeah buddy I don’t kiss my friends goodbye… I mean, I would 😏 but I don’t!

But I just kissed him goodbye just once. Not twice. Just once, said, enjoy the rest of the day, that I’d see him on Tuesday, smiled, that was it.

I wanna quit overthinking it. But I’m still kinda left with questions. I think I should just let the questions go and accept what it is now but it’s like, wait??? Does that mean I shouldn’t think of it as anything?

I think yeah that’s probably it. I should think of it as getting to know him more which of course I want to do anyway. Idk I just don’t wanna invest so much emotion when it’s clear he’s pulling reins in an effort to preserve his progress/effort on himself.

I don’t wanna get my feet knocked out from under me.

I think patience will be my best friend, patience and loving detachment.

Idk. I’d love to stop spinning

[just-1other-nerd]

Decided to do a "live" commentary on a show I'm currently watching, so yeah Idk I guess I'll just write my unfiltered thoughts about Crash Landing on You starting with the end of episode 2.

She had depression and other mental health issues which explains why she acts so suicidal from time to time, for example when she acts really stupid, like the time she ran through a mine field, or when she displays a no-one-can-do-me-anything attitude whilst talking to the soldiers (because even if she is a spoiled rich girl and in shock, she is generally too smart to underestimate the situation) because she seems to not care that much whether she survives.

So I didn't expect that to evolve into a fake dating trope but I'm here for it. I mean we already had forced proximity and enemies to lovers so they didn't need to go so hard but they did anyways.

She really is going to girlboss her way through this crisis, isn't she?

Oh shit, the bad guy has a surveillance device?!

This guy really never saw curly hair like mine if he thinks hers is messy.

Okay update to epidode 5: Shit, the Major bad guy knows she wants to leave the country, the con artist bad guy knows she's in North Kroea and the real fiancé kinda knows about them?! How the hell are they supposed to get out of this mess?

The hair cut the fiancé's mum has in episode 6 is so feaking ugly, I can't.

"Oh fuck, not that bitch." I say as I smile and lean back to enjoy the drama that's about to ensue.

I don't know about you but I wanted her to be the one who shoots the attacker in episode 6.

Him speaking German (aka my native language) was just hilarious no matter how sad the scene was. Also damn, that Swiss guy couldn't be less sensitive when he told him his brother died. And why were the piano and his bags on that landing stage? I mean the pictures where nice but what's the logic behind that?

The thing about K dramas is that if they already kiss around the halfway point of the series, something bad is going to happen and make everything difficult...

Btw they really couldn't find an uglier hospital gown for him to wear.

Wow, the con man actually has a consciousness. And he actually gives the fiancé some solid love advice? I'm a little bit impressed, he's not as flat and one-dimensional as I initially thought.

Now, all of the antagonists know that she is a South Korean citizen, the angst this gives me is so bad.

It is physically not possible to hear a piano tune from that far away on a boat which's engine is on.

Idk using an ambulance for something personal feels very wrong.

The K drama obsessed guy translating the dialects will never not be funny. Btw I ship him with the K Pop girl.

She pushes him away to protect him, but she is hurting herself, him and me.

That one soldier is such a snitch, he is so lucky that the mum couldn't restrain her drinking.

I love how hearing that the main guys father is one of the mighty broke the brain of the queen bee.

This maybe a bit unhinged but when Se-ri says that the main guys dad looks like his fiancé and we've been told that her dad is dead I made up the insane theory that Dan could actually be the result of an affair. I don't think that's true but whatever.

His mum really just went "mother-in-law mode activated".

I want a scene where she is like "How can you say you're fine when you literally got shot, beaten and had fever in just the last few days?" And the parents giving each other the biggest wtf side eye ever.

As a booklover the bookshelf I love you kills me.

She really is that bitch that makes THE most dramatic entrance just to say "Guess what I'm back from the dead". A true girlboss.

The auntie squad found out who she really is. Idk their dynamic gets me.

WTF the end of episode 10 like what is going on?

Bro goes on a cave expedition and doesn't even have one of those forehead lamps? Poor planning and here I thought they were equipped better.

Finally he's got a decent haircut!

Okay but I actually ship the con man and Dan.

The auntie squad is being supportive and I love that, okay, let me fangirl, I somehow need that right now.

Their hugs mean much more to me than their kisses because they mean they're there for each other and comfort each other.

Did they really just kill the con man, I was so inversted in his love story with Dan!

Their goodbye at the border was a bit too melodramatic for my taste.

The ending is okay, I expected something like this but still it's sad that they can't have the future they dreamed about when they were drunk, the future where they marry and have children but I also don't want that to happen at the expense of their lives as they know them. So yeah the ending was the best compromise.

[voidtoufu]

woo! being waiting for this

so here me out, it's like cheese and maggots

(non derogatory, i love being a little worm)

sometimes when u make cheese u get maggots

it just happens sometimes but theres things u can do to swing this or that way distrasticly, but also ways where things are already swayes

not everyone who eats cheese likes maggot and/or maggot cheese and viceversa

some go "WTF, WHY!"

and others are fine with it, might even enjoy it

some might rather just have some cheese, or skip it and go straight for some lovely brain worms

personally i know that being in something greater than myself that is so unique which i get to understand so intamately which understands me the same way is good for art

and even tho my entire existence has been with "overgrown mind"s i know also that life is inherently more complicated this way

i want to be able to write, draw, sing, create and let it just be that, im amazed by plurality everytime it reveals more of itself to us,

but if my creativity comes with the prize that it has to be channeled thru this unfortunate thing that is me and my mind's tendencies, fine

if the universe wouldn't let us just be without the darkside of stars murmuring pantheons into our souls, fine

if i can't feel loved and seen with the gaze of those that are beyond conventional physical, wounderful

but selfishly, i wanna control my life, there is a want to control who i meet, who i have to live with, and maybe thats valid

there will always be more of me for the ones i care for, but only so much for myself

all my ideas learns to speak back when i ask them, but only we are sapient, and nobody can really control who exactly we are

the conversations r some of the most day to day events for us now but thinking about it makes it eary in comparison to convention (and pretty funny)

"so why did u blow up the big corpo sky scraper"

"idk something about losing lov-"

"areyousapient"

"no"

".... cool cool"

its kinda hard to exprience senarios where u had no say of entering and having to discard of them when they feel so real, and i guess some people don't

but Imma be a "destrwawer of univwerses" cus u know, i wanna focus on my ACTUAL HEADMATES, AND MY ACTUAL LIFE

don't get me wrong creativity buzzin bussin

but if it screws us over, imma make it a corpearl form so i can say "f@ck u" with my finger in their face (yea no, im on that heavy compium, they're kicking my ass)

i think if there's gonna be more of us, that fine, whatever way the come and why, doesn't really matter

but pls can i just do an ao3 and not change the trajectory of ourlife pls

at the end of all this, whether u don't really need to think of this or u just let it be or u are a war criminal in system guilty of mass murder (jk, jk, JK!)

do the thing where u love everything, makes thinking easier

or not i don't like giving advices

thanks for coming to my TED (today's existencial delerium) talk

ps, this individual ramble prone brain worm also exprience psychosis and intrusive thoughts so that probably has to do something about it all, plus shaking hands and a disconnected that process so really thx for reading all that

ok im done pouring my heart out imma go curl into a ball

Please reblog, I don't have many followers so very few people will see this. I've been struggling with writing lately because sometimes the ocs and alters get confusing. Anything anyone wants to share would be helpful!

[nxtheromoved]

so . . . if you played High Isle, what did you think of it?