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Americans could barely handle a black man, couldn’t handle a white woman, and REALLY couldn't handle a black woman - yet they can handle an actual criminal, pedophile, and terrorist. Crazzzyyyyyy
#personal#uspol#sexism#racism#What’s wild to me is they couldn’t even handle a white lady#Like a wealthy older white lady#Was too much#And then a woman of color u freaks had to start destroying ballot boxes and acting fucking insane#HOW do u hate the people who gave u life this much#Like that’s rly my question#U bitches are so fucking ungrateful#I’m sure that’s why ur so anti abortion#Bc if ur mommy had known better she would’ve gotten rid of u
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a doodle of my new teardrop gjinka!! i think they turned out pretty cute :)
#dandy’s doodles#bfdi#battle for dream island#bfdi teardrop#bfdi td#bfdi gjinka#bfdi humie#bfdi human#bfdi humanized#bfdi humanization#kin#my old design for them was charming and campy but i think it was too edgy for them#like yeah td’s the hoodie type but she would wear brighter colors than that. and she’s too active to wear jeans or whatever i had her in#they’re definitely a bit of a sneakerhead… but in a practical way. they need good kicks#i’m imagining her and her newbie alliance clique in high school…#lollipop is popular and gets gelatin and td acquainted with the popular crowd but the three of them decide they all suck#lolly’s really good at math and is everyone’s crush. gelatin is addicted to his 3ds and is the life of the party.#and td is well-rounded in school subjects but an absolute expert at destroying you in gym class (she’s also on the track team with needle)#teardrop and lolly watch lesbian anime together. sometimes td gets to third-wheel when flower gets invited#all three newbie alliance members hijack the prom and play 100 gecs on the speakers#etc. i could go on
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47th (?) coloring submission for @green-with-envy-phandom-event with lineart by @foxyteah
.... was i thinking up a whole plot for this au while coloring? yeah. yeah i was.
#greenwithenvy2024#danny phantom#paulina sanchez#i meant to follow actual manhwa coloring and then i quickly diverged as my time ran out#absolutely believe paulina would cast a spell or something to pull her and phantom into her story#danny thinks the way to break out of the story would be to remove the crown - thinking that's binding him to the world#but no! plot twist! the flowers that glow at night are actually a disguised variety of blood blossoms that dampen his powers#and as time in the story goes on the blood blossoms have a greater affect on danny - times running out for him to figure out the disguised#flowers are the reason he can't use his powers and destroy them to break out otherwise he'll be stuck forever#paulina would absolutely made a deal with a ghost to find and plant a variety of blood blossoms that wouldn't hurt danny#but would cancel out enough of his powers to keep him tethered to the story#paulina is having the time of her life! danny not so much. but it would be a fun opportunity to humanize paulina for danny#and of course Sam takes place of villainess to “heroine” here because paulina is that petty
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KITTYYY!!! >^<
making this blog to put my creepypasta art because i have organisation-lover-autism :3333
cuter version (i tried putting it as my pfp and gave myself a heart attack so Its not a success!)
#tw unsettling#tw creepy#tw horror#maybe?#im gonna be honest i didnt try to be scary i just put random colors and he appeared#jeff woods jeff woods jeff woods#i hope he appears in my bedroom so we can play cards together#that wasnt a metaphor for something else#i want to destroy him at a normal family game and change the trajectory of his life#i can make him WORST#jeff the killer#jeff woods#creepypasta
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hi!! this isn't meant to be accusatory or anything i'm just wondering if u plan on finishing your kazuscara duel comic ^__^ totally fine if not! was just curious lol have a lovely day
Hi!! I do plan on finishing it, I didn't draft it up way back in December to not see it through 😭😭
But my standards for the following pages were too high so they didn't get finished as soon as I wanted, and then I ended up super busy with other things for the next several months :'>
#its been a struggle ngl i'd be like#this sketch is great#(line art destroys my life)#actually this line art is great#(coloring destroys my life)#actually the colors are okay#(shading absolutely destroyed my life i dont like it)#so that was where I left off :'D#i want to fix it so bad but looking at it i rlly didnt know where to start... and if every following page gives me the sake issue then#something in my process has to change#same issue oops typo#i need to like... not clean up every single step i feel#gotta accept that sketchy/not fully rendered things are fine#bc at this rate i get burned out just thinking about how to composition things 😭😭#i was supposed to be done with the whole thing by now :'>
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Even now, it still feels strange living without you by my side.
Mild vent/Phigr.Os Program lore cause of some things at the beginning of the week.
Aka. I may have accidentally written doomed Yuri and I thought it (somewhat) fits the situation I'm in
#ally's ocs#gijinka#original character#OC: Distorted Fate#OC: Rrhar'il#Jsjjsjk GOD I really need to remember that Rrhar'il exists and I have designed her since June#I keep thinking “Ugh I need to make Rrhar'il” and then I go “Wait I may be stupid.”#Initially I planned for it to be in color. But the laziness kicked in so :V#Also the “situation I'm in” in question is not as bad as “my lifelong friend leaving me to destroy the world”#But the “my life long friend left me (not the death kind)” partfits enough
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You know, sometimes I like a character for deep reasons like narrative relevance, symbolism, their arc throughout a story, the greater impact they have…
And sometimes I like them because their name is pretty and I like typing it out.
#usually it’s a bit of both but that’s less funny#myles the mandalorian#treech#tbosas treech#anthony tremaine#tbosas mizzen#why do I like Anthony? well he’s got lots of potential for interesting stories and and implications for the wider themes of Descendants#but also#his name’s pretty#why do I like Myles from Star Wars? well he’s one of the few pieces of Jango’s life before grief destroyed him#his death made Jango go full murder mode so lots of stuff to explore there and the True Mandalorians are super interesting#but also Myles is in my top 5 boy names and blue is my favorite color#Treech… uhm no actually I tricked myself into liking his name#at first I hated it but I love him so much that I also like his name now#what’s wrong with me#I like Mizzen for his name
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Recounting the halcyon times, watcher?
#quinttyz draws#yea caed nua before eothas decided to destroy it was really..peaceful..#bittersweet but still…peaceful#maybe in another life tempest and adaryc got together in the end 😟#i love torturing myself with thoughts of my watcher and the what could have beens..lol!!#midterms just finished!! tried coloring a piece that was originally just supposed to be a sketch haha#pillars of eternity#pillars of eternity fanart#adaryc cendamyr#adaryc cendamyr x watcher#pillars of eternity 2 deadfire#deadfire fanart#my watcher#oc: tempest withers#adaryc cendamyr fanart
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Nobody should ever leave me alone. I make bad decisions when left to my own devices.
#I destroyed my hair#to be fair it was wrecked to begin with#but I hate what I did to it#bad bad bad color#fuck my life#I cut it too#and probably shouldn’t have#but I can’t afford to get my hair cut
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I will sound like I am 45 and not 25 ofc, but to be truthful, I am heading towards losing my joy and passion as a fan-artist. It is about the fandoms as a concept in general, without applying it to any specific one. More like about, WHAT fandoms are by now.
I tend to dive into a game/show/whatever ears deep because as an autist I interact with a lot of concepts vicariously through fiction, but also because I just have this natural wish to respect and love (revere, even) something, and complicated creative works that combine several art types work just well. But fandoms are... bad. They are just bad. Now this is absolutely normal for some gremlin that doesn't know anything about the source material to jump in and start to do their thing - be it being super inaccurate to begin with, breaking the source material to replace with their agenda and tastes, or simply spam a lot of samey, 'soulless'(?) fanart with clear clout in mind to, as kids call it, "build the platform" so they can let the STONKS roll in and promote their own stuff at last if they have it.
Like... This is what fandoms ARE by now. Halfway the grinding ground to gain following to sell commissions to, halfway a ground to spread politics and opinions. Business or propaganda. Not a matter of whether products and propaganda are for good things, they're value neutral concepts and can be used for good or bad equally, but both are not ABOUT the source material. Okay, not fully halfway - some ears-deep fans still are here. But why even? When we, actual fans, give people essays on why they are drastically wrong about a character - we get mocked for not having (highlight the correct: real life, girlfriend, touched the grass, job, all applies). When we demand respect and accuracy to the source material - we are called snobbish entitled gatekeepers at least, accused of various isms and phobias at large. When we try to encourage something deeper and more interesting - again, people tell us we are "boring" and that no one cares about this or that character, and outright boast about how they are only here for this sexy man or for that ship and not really lore dive.
Even basically ancient fandoms like Doctor Who, Star Wars or Star Trek that sprouted THANKS TO those exact "30+ loosers with no life" could no longer uphold the whole ears-deep fan mentality because new installments invited too much shallow fans that are prone to mocking too, and celebrities that are responsible for making awful reboots/continuations can just violate the source however they want under cover of "everyone who doesn't like it is just a sexist and racist incel". This is just how it is now. Passion, elaborate knowledge on the source and respect for a thing truly great creative minds created are now considered DIRTY things, and are a proof of one's inferiority in accomplishments and personality. Because fandoms are no longer a place to gather FANS. They are "platforms".
I just consider, would it be more fun to either invest in the fandoms for real people (composers, poets, scientists, etc) where loving the source material for what it is is a requirement (because...... real people... historical accuracy....), or to just head towards creation my own thing sooner than later? I got to say though, I am thankful for each and every fan in whatever fandom I visited that was/is just as passionate as me. It felt, and still feels less lonely to have more people that don't see shame in REALLY fucking loving stories and characters.
#fandomry rambles#internets#/vent#originally did not want to even write something like this because i sound like an old lady#a GRUMPY old lady actually#but ehhhhh. my blog.#i just dont see what is so wrong about really loving a creation instead of just using it#why can't someone make their life more colorful by being passionate about a thing#i start to feel like 'gatekeeping is bad' was a lie sold to us#to destroy a very valid practice of people analyzing fiction into absurd depths#also about 'ancient fandoms':#no brainer that i did not catch the geeks stuff personally#generally speaking i just encountered some old fans complaining about how-#-fandoms 'used to be better' and saw them as silly old men that can't move on dhgkhkkh#but at this point i feel like i get what they were talking about#that they were bullied out of fandoms they CREATED by people that dont get the source material#even soulsborne fandom ended up pulling people that will MOCK real fans#like.... okay? then why ARE you here if no-lifing bloodborne lore is so bad?#siiiiiiigh#this post is so old lady that typing this made my back sore ghkughjjn /hj#but it is how it is#also i have a friend from another fandom with apparently the same kind of autism as mine#and she constantly has the same problem xd#the whole 'wait you guys dont LOVE this game and came here to beat it into your own thing?'#in bloodborne it is poor gehrman and maria who became the biggest display of the whole-#-real fans vs people who just are here to yell and grind fanbase#i feel like real fans got bad name BECAUSE they can be really rude in the name of fiction#but look at the fake fans! they likewise can be pretty rude but they ALSO drag politics into it!
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absolutely going the fuck through it rn (:
#haha I'm going to be cheated out of the only future i ever gave enough of a shit about to want!!!! haha 😃#so fucking funny of the world to make me want to die for the first 18 years of my life#and then give me a TASTE of what it feels like to live in color. with my fiancee#give me a preview of what I'd have missed out on if i killed myself#and then after 4 years give me cancer and take it all away (: haha I'm laughing!!#can't miss what you never had you know!! very funny way of mocking me here (:#“man this kid actually wants a future!! he's planning it for the very first time!! make him stop.''#real talk I'm absolutely heartbroken. devastated. i can't even find the words to describe how viscerally destroyed i am.#there's no language that captures it. i just want to wail and scream at curse at god.#if a god exists it fucking sucks and i hope it dies.#IT'S NOT FUCKING FAIR MAN. NONE OF IT IS FAIR.#i don't even know what else to say.#negative#death#audio#Spotify#round 2
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#somethign i keep thinking abut thats really simple but impacted me quitea bit is when sable said like...#keeping constant tabs on people who wantnothing to do with you and seem to be fine moving on without you is destroying you#i think that is definitely also a part of what was almost a shell shock of clarity for me?#and the whole like. pretty much get out of my life thing the whole moving on thing#i think its because like. i considered them my whole life. so to realize + even be told that like. idk. its done its over pretty much#without even really a second thought#when all ive been having is second thoughts up until that point. i was willing to go through hell for what id done. for forgiveness#and then having that stomped on. my hurt and my pain that no one had to read. calling me disturbed. vomiting at my thoughts#in my weakest moments. where i was belly up. it changed my view entirely. that i am not even worth a second thought to these people#my mourning. my own disgust in myself and my own actions. not enough. still even in my own space am i revolting to them#i dont wanna say i felt like i was shown true colors but i do kinda feel like i was shown true colors#it would not be the first time with this group where i was shown such an ugly uncharitable mean spirited and devoid of faith in me reaction#to a mistake i havemade. i cannot even remotely imagine the people im with now responding to *anything* like that#even if i had done something reprehensible. there would at least be some sense of “i care about you so much” in any response theyd give me#even if disappointed. even if revolted by me. there is no such thing with the rest of these people ive known. not even slightly#the want and need to mend something important to you. to fight for it. was just not there in regards to me. they only care about themselves#and what happens to them#cus qhen i tell you i was sitting feeling absolutely awful over the things i was reading that they were going thru.#just to turn around and be strangled and beat for my own reactions to the situation... like. night and day by a certain point. night and day
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The mattress company I worked for the first time no longer exists. It was long ago eaten and assimilated by a bigger company. But when I started it was an incredibly intense five weeks of training. I was told I was extremely lucky to be selected, and I was. From a pool of a hundred applicants only fifteen of us made the cut to entering the training program.
The course covered how to talk to customers, how to ask open ended questions, how to close a sale, and product knowledge. I learned a lot, and truthfully my greatest takeaway was a lot of social scripts that I could use in other areas of my life.
We also had a midterm exam and a final. Both included a roleplay element with a trainer and a written portion. They told us when we started that the course was challenging but it was still a shock to come in after the midterm and realize half the class had failed.
I was named valedictorian of training- a dubious honor as it meant I’d done the best in the class, but popular lore had it that valedictorians struggled the most on the sales floor. Lo, I struggled.
Not because I wasn’t good. I was. But because my manager set out to systematically destroy my self esteem. Every sale, every interaction I had was scrutinized and criticized.
If I sold a bed with protectors, moveable base, and pillows he’d ask why I hadn’t managed to sell pillow protectors too. His first trainee had thrived on being challenged and he’d never bothered to learn a different way to coach.
It was wretched. My performance started strong but nosedived after a few weeks with him. My trainer, a man I loathed for stonewalling me in my interview, came in to inform me I was on new hire probation. If I couldn’t get my sales numbers up I’d be let go.
His actual phrasing was, “When you have a bandaid do you like to rip it off or pull it slowly?”
Since it was eminently obvious why he was visiting and because I thought it was condescending I sweetly informed him that I liked to soak my bandaids in hot water so they come off on their own.
He was briefly startled at this derailing but then got on with the bad news. I signed some forms stating that I understood my job was in peril.
I went home furious. I thought long and hard about why I wasn’t succeeding and how frustrated I was with my manager. I came in the next day and my anger had crystallized into a cold sharp edge.
My manager opened his mouth to address the probation and I snapped, “Just leave me alone. Go in the back if I have a sale. If you must address a serious issue then you will give me praise on two things I did right and present it as a compliment sandwich. Otherwise just say good job and shut up. Your constant nitpicking just makes me anxious and I do worse. Back off.” Belated and begrudging I added, “Please.”
He raised his eyebrows in dim surprise but I’d gauged him well. He backed off. Dutifully he’d meander into the back when I had a sale and praised me when I closed it. I resented knowing it was only because I’d demanded complimented but they still boosted me up. My numbers skyrocketed, I landed my first split king sale, and I exited probation with flying colors.
The trainer came back in to congratulate my manager for turning things around. To my gratification he gave me credit for setting him straight and said I’d taught him a different way to lead. My manager would often genuinely praise that moment when I’d stood up to him, impressed with my stubborn refusal to fail and my insight into what would help.
My biggest takeaway from the whole thing was just that people need positive reinforcement to succeed. Praise people for doing a good job. If you’re ever in a position where you need to criticize someone put it in a compliment sandwich instead of just saying the negative.
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commonly confused words
accept: to receive except: with the exclusion of
advice: recommendation (noun) advise: to recommend (verb)
adverse: unfavorable averse: opposed to
affect: to influence (verb); emotional response (noun) effect: result (noun); to cause (verb)
aisle: space between rows isle: island
allude: to make indirect reference to elude: to avoid
allusion: indirect reference illusion: false idea, misleading appearance
already: by this time all ready: fully prepared
altar: sacred platform or place alter: to change
altogether: thoroughly all together: everyone/everything in one place
a lot: a quantity; many of something allot: to divide or portion out
angel: supernatural being, good person angle: shape made by joining two straight lines
are: plural form of "to be" our: plural form of "my"
accent: pronunciation common to a region ascent: the act of rising or climbing assent: consent, agreement
assistance: help assistants: helpers
bare: nude, unadorned bear: to carry; an animal
beside: close to; next to besides: except for; in addition
boar: a wild male pig bore: to drill a hole through
board: piece of wood bored: uninterested
born: brought into life borne: past participle of "to bear" (carry)
breath: air taken in (noun) breathe: to take in air (verb)
brake: device for stopping break: destroy; make into pieces
buy: to purchase by: next to; through the agency of
canvas: heavy cloth canvass: to take a survey; a survey
capital: major city capitol: government building
choose: to pick chose: past tense of "to choose"
clothes: garments close: to shut; near cloths: pieces of fabric
coarse: rough course: path; series of lectures
complement: something that completes compliment: praise, flattery
conscience: sense of morality conscious: awake, aware
corps: regulated group corpse: dead body
council: governing body counsel: advice; to give advice
dairy: place where milk products are processed diary: personal journal
descent: downward movement dissent: disagreement
dessert: final, sweet course in a meal desert: to abandon; dry, sandy area
device: a plan; a tool or utensil devise: to create
discreet: modest, prudent behavior discrete: a separate thing, distinct
do: a verb indicating performance or execution of a task dew: water droplets condensed from air due: as a result of
dominant: commanding, controlling dominate: to control
die: to lose life; one of a pair of dice dye: to change or add color
dyeing: changing or adding color dying: losing life
elicit: to draw out illicit: illegal, forbidden
eminent: prominent imminent: about to happen
envelop: to surround (verb) envelope: container for a letter (noun)
everyday: routine, commonplace, ordinary (adj.) every day: each day, succession (adj. + noun)
fair: just, honest; a carnival; light skinned fare: money for transportation; food
farther: at a greater (measurable) distance further: in greater (non-measurable) depth
formally: conventionally, with ceremony formerly: previously
forth: forward fourth: number four in a list
gorilla: animal in ape family guerrilla: soldier specializing in surprise attacks
hear: to sense sound by ear here: in this place
heard: past tense of "to hear" herd: group of animals
hoard: a hidden fund or supply, a cache horde: a large group or crowd, swarm
hole: opening whole: complete; an entire thing
human: relating to the species homo sapiens humane: compassionate
its: possessive form of "it" it's: contraction for "it is"
knew: past tense of "know" new: fresh, not yet old
know: to comprehend no: negative
later: after a time latter: second one of two things
lead: heavy metal substance; to guide led: past tense of "to lead"
lessen: to decrease lesson: something learned and/or taught
lightning: storm-related electricity lightening: making lighter
loose: unbound, not tightly fastened lose: to misplace
maybe: perhaps (adv.) may be: might be (verb)
meat: animal flesh meet: to encounter mete: to measure; to distribute
medal: a flat disk stamped with a design meddle: to interfere, intrude metal: a hard organic substance mettle: courage, spirit, energy
miner: a worker in a mine minor: underage person (noun); less important (adj.)
moral: distinguishing right from wrong; lesson of a fable or story morale: attitude or outlook usually of a group
passed: past tense of "to pass" past: at a previous time
patience: putting up with annoyances patients: people under medical care
peace: absence of war piece: part of a whole; musical arrangement
peak: point, pinnacle, maximum peek: to peer through or look furtively pique: fit of resentment, feeling of wounded vanity
pedal: the foot lever of a bicycle or car petal: a flower segment peddle: to sell
personal: intimate; owned by a person personnel: employees
plain: simple, unadorned plane: to shave wood; aircraft (noun)
precede: to come before proceed: to continue
presence: attendance; being at hand presents: gifts
principal: foremost (adj.); administrator of a school (noun) principle: moral conviction, basic truth
quiet: silent, calm quite: very
rain: water drops falling; to fall like rain reign: to rule rein: strap to control an animal (noun); to guide or control (verb)
raise: to lift up raze: to tear down
rational: having reason or understanding rationale: principles of opinion, beliefs
respectfully: with respect respectively: in that order
reverend: title given to clergy; deserving respect reverent: worshipful
right: correct; opposite of left rite: ritual or ceremony write: to put words on paper
road: path rode: past tense of "to ride"
scene: place of an action; segment of a play seen: viewed; past participle of "to see"
sense: perception, understanding since: measurement of past time; because
sight: scene, view, picture site: place, location cite: to document or quote (verb)
stationary: standing still stationery: writing paper
straight: unbending strait: narrow or confining; a waterway
taught: past tense of "to teach" taut: tight
than: used to introduce second element; compared to then: at that time; next
their: possessive form of "they" there: in that place they’re: contraction for "they are"
through: finished; into and out of threw: past tense of "to throw" thorough: complete
to: toward too: also; very (used to show emphasis) two: number following one
track: course, road tract: pamphlet; plot of ground
waist: midsection of the body waste: discarded material; to squander
waive: forgo, renounce wave: flutter, move back and forth
weak: not strong week: seven days
weather: climatic condition whether: if wether: a neutered male sheep
where: in which place were: past tense of "to be"
which: one of a group witch: female sorcerer
whose: possessive for "of who" who’s: contraction for "who is"
your: possessive for "of you" you’re: contraction for "you are" yore: time long past
commonly confused words part 2
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🛑 Stop 🛑‼️🙏
Hello all I am Doaa Jad Al Haq from Gaza I studied a diploma in fashion design and clothing manufacturing at the Palestine Technical College in Deir al-Balah and graduated with a very good grade. I was first in my class during the two years. I worked for a year in a center affiliated with UNRWA, and after that I created my own project and began Palestinian agricultural hand embroidery, which is part of the Palestinian heritage. I embroidered on clothes and bags, then After that, I focused more on making bags in all their forms. I embroidered the bag with different drawings, shapes, and colors, then I completely detailed it. I had my own workshop. Unfortunately, everything was gone from the beginning of October 7, so the occupation destroyed the place where I was working, and by destroying my house, I had nothing left, and during the last four months, I borrowed money from a friend to leave Gaza with my autistic child. The situation was very bad for him and for all of us. I left behind my husband and my family. Now, with your help and generosity, I hope that you will help me buy a machine and the necessary tools to start my project again in Egypt so that I can treat my child and help my family. I trust your generosity and I am sorry to ask you for this. Your donation, no matter how simple, will contribute to starting a new life. Thank you all. Best regards, Doaa"
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discovered this coloring hack yesterday and i haven't been the same since.
#this changed me#this changed my life#this changed my brain chemistry#this changes EVERYTHING#and yes#this will destroy you#art#tumblart#art of tumblr#artists of tumblr#artists on tumblr#artists#i hear colors now#omori ahh looking and I KNWO YOU THOUGHT OF IT TOO SHUT UP
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