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nimsajlove · 3 years ago

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road to recovery (II/?)

Second part, I dont really know WHAT this is. But it still ended up here, so you jugde it.

Ao3 Brothers-AU Part I , Part III

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„That's it for today, let's set up the camp.“, Cody instructed over the com, general relief and approval got back to him and the men crashed down, right where they were standing. The few shinys they had with them were careful to set up the tents immediately. The older clones watched them for a few seconds, amused, and Cody finally took pity on them. „Put that stuff away and sit down for a moment. This is not going to be rated by anyone.“, he instructed the younger ones and reluctantly they let go of their tasks.

Cody watched with a smile as the men gathered in groups to take a few minutes to breath, he was about to do the same and had just put his backpack down when his communicator flashed. Huh, so was the cruiser back? Unusual, the Admiral had planned to stay away for at least two more rotations. He took the call, an unexpected voice greeted him. „Commander Cody, I hope it's going well with the new men.“ It sounded like Plo Koon was smiling. Cody was never quite sure about that, the General rarely sounded worried or restless. He always seemed to be at peace. „General Plo Koon, what can I do for you?“, Cody answered and decided that he could sit down despite the conversation. „Nothing for me Commander, but I'm here to do a favor for Ahsoka.“, Plo Koon admitted. Ah, things got a little clearer now. Cody didn't know much about what Ahsoka had to do in the Jedi Temple. But he knew she hadn't left the temple walls in weeks. A message from Rex, full of concern for the young woman, had also made Cody thoughtful. „She convinced the council to send Kenobi back to you. The shuttle is just getting ready to take off.“, Plo Koon explained when Cody didn't react immediately.

That was good! Even if this was more of an enjoyable hunt than a battlefield, the presence of the General would lift the spirits of the men even further. Hardly thought through, a fine drizzle set in and sullenly Cody glanced up at the darkening sky, which peered through the canopy of leaves. In a short period of time, the rain would continue to pick up and guaranteed not to stop at night. It made the nights on that moon surprisingly cold. The men around him began to pitch the tents and Cody remembered the blank look General Kenobi had had when he left a few days ago. „Is there anything I and the men should watch out for?“, Cody asked and he heard a low murmur on the other end, was that Wolffe? „I think you will know best how to handle him, that is all.“, Plo Koon replied. „Got it, General.“, Cody muttered thoughtfully and cut the connection. That was... not particularly helpful. So was Kenobi's condition unchanged?

Cody was about to take off his helmet when a message appeared. Cody fixed the little icon and it opened.

‚The General is not sure himself. Tano seems to be the only one to know whats going on.‘

So Wolffe was there after all! It was disturbing that the Jedi could not assess the condition of one of their own. On the other hand, it was kind of nothing new after so many suicide missions they had sent Kenobi on... If Kenobi was still as moody and slow as he was a few days ago, then Cody had to keep as much stress away from him as possible . He looked around, took off his helmet and put it next to his backpack. Then he went to help with the tents.

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The last tent was up, the rain had gotten heavier and pattered relentlessly on Cody's helmet. Even though he was leaning directly against a tree. He wondered briefly if he should wait outside any longer, when a noise caught his attention. He looked up hastily and took a few steps away from the tree, a shuttle flew over the camp and landed in the small clearing on the edge of which Cody was standing. As soon as it touched down, the door opened and the ramp extended.

Kenobi wasn't the first figure Cody saw. In fact, it was a different, familiar face. Echo took a step forward on the ramp before waiting and looking back. The Jedi appeared behind him, Cody saw at first glance that his condition had only worsened. He moved slowly, his shoulders pulled forward and his hands hanging limply by his sides. Kenobi followed Echo and as he approached, Cody saw the deep shadows under the Jedi's eyes. „General.“, Cody greeted him carefully and Kenobi nodded once. Echo approached Cody and handed him a datapad, so was he just a messenger? „Wolffe had asked me to accompany him, and on the occasion Ahsoka thought I would give you all the information about the enemy positions that she could find here.“, the ARC explainedand although his calm voice sounded forced. There was deep concern in his eyes. It was clear that Kenobi's condition had caught his eye too. „Thanks, I'll take care of everything.“, Cody muttered, taking another look at his General, Echo nodded and turned back. Cody waited until he disappeared into the shuttle and took off again. Only then did he fully turn to Kenobi.

On closer inspection, the General didn't just look tired. His cheeks looked thinner than a few weeks ago. A development that he had been watching concerned for some time. And nothing seemed to have improved in his absence! The reddish hair stuck close to Kenobis skull, the rain had soaked the General in no time. An annoying quirk of the place, Cody liked it less and less. Maybe he should just make sure that Kenobi got dry as soon as possible... „Sir, we've set up a place to sleep for you.“, Cody started carefully and when the Jedi slowly nodded, he waited. But instead of answering, he just pulled a stiff hand from the folds of his cloak and told Cody to go ahead. He did so hesitantly, every few steps he glanced over his shoulder. The General didn't walk right next to him, as usual. No, he trudged a few steps behind Cody, placing his feet so unevenly that Cody feared he would fall. Where was the great General Kenobi? This was worse than any injury, any period of insomnia Kenobi had had during the war. And Cody knew exactly when the Jedi was sleeping and when not! He had spent an eternity studying Obi Wan Kenobi and knew the difference between a wakeful look and the soft shadows that did not disappear even after long meditation.

Kenobi didn't even look like he was meditating at the moment. He was just... empty. From the glassy gaze that was dull on the floor to the sagging shoulders. Oh, thank the maker that the men were already in their tents. Cody himself probably wouldn't sleep that night, he had sacrificed his tent for his General and would just make sure that the Jedi would actually sleep. Then he would find a nice tree for himself, hide from the rain, and study Ahsoka's plans. This was exactly how the evening would go and no different!

Cody quickly threw these plans overboard when he opend the entry of the tent and Kenobi looked at him confused. „This is not my tent.“, stated the Jedi, so he was still mentally present after all. Impressive. „Right Sir, this is mine. We don't have yours with us, so you will stay here.“, Cody explained and when Kenobi still looked at him confused, without moving, he reconsidered his judgment on the General's condition. His eyes seemed even more glassy than a few moments ago. And he was still wet. Sighing, Cody put a hand on the Jedi's shoulder and pushed him into the tent, then locked the entrance behind him. There was a soft splash and Cody whirled around, Kenobi was sitting on the floor in his wet clothes and didn't seem to notice that he was shaking.

Great, Plo Koon could have mentioned that Kenobi's condition had gotten worse. A little uncertainly, Cody took off his helmet and put it on the floor next to the entrance so that he wouldn't forget it later. Kenobi shifted a bit and whatever he was trying to do, it seemed to cost energy. The tremors got worse, if Cody didn't intervene... „Sir, we put a set of Blacks aside for you.“, Cody muttered and approached his General, he had noticed that Kenobi was traveling without luggage. Again. Cody would contact the Admiral at the earliest opportunity to get some things from Kenobi's quarters. Kenobi didn't react, so he put a hand on the Jedi's shoulder and squeezed lightly, he looked up. At least something! „It's okay, I just have to keep an eye on her...“, the Jedi muttered. Cody didn't understand any of it. Wow, something new. Couldn't the Jedi speak clearly? But this was HIS Jedi, so it would be worth a try… „Her?“, Cody asked carefully and crouched down so he brought himself to Kenobi's eye level. The General's gaze seemed far away. „Ahsoka.“ So that was the simple answer, Kenobi wanted to keep protecting her despite the huge distance between him and Ahsoka Tano? There was no longer any reason to do so, the war was over and Ahsoka was bound to new duties in the temple. At least for now. Besides, the girl was great at taking care of herself!

Cody sent a quick prayer to whoever and asked for a little more patience, this would probably be his job for quite some time. Taking care of his lost Jedi. He had to admit there were worse things than getting your own General back on his feet. But there was something in him that didn't like it when Kenobi looked at him blankly. It almost hurt. He knew the feeling, mostly it occurred when Kenobi was floating in a bacta tank for more than 24 hours and Cody had no choice but to trust the technology and medics. Maybe it was the helplessness that always came over him. Maybe not. There were more important puzzles to be solved now. For example, whether the death of Skywalker really had grown such strong fear of loss in Kenobi. Cody eyed his General one more time and decided, yes. „She is in the temple, safe. As soon as she moves, Rex knows it.“, Cody tried to get rid of the fear. Chaos in his head, infinite calm in his voice. He had always been able to do that. Kenobi still didn't move, okay. Fine. Then Cody would have to resort to good old trooper methods now. “I'm sorry Sir, you are not a shiny. But you act like one, so…”, Cody muttered, reaching with his hands under Kenobi's arms, heaving him back onto his feet. The Jedi swayed briefly, then caught himself and rubbed his face with one hand. That was still soaking wet! Kriff.

With one hand, Cody supported Kenobi at the elbow, he didn't trust the Jedi's legs, with the other he grabbed the clothes that he had put aside for the General. Ah, a medic had been so free to contribute a towel. Very nice. "Change, now.", instructed Cody and indeed his command tone seemed to get through to Kenobi. With still stiff hands the Jedi tried to open the outer robe, no chance. Cody knew that since an injury on such a stupid chunk of ice of planet, Kenobi's hands had been reluctant to cooperate on bad days. Today was a bad day, and Cody dared to say the worst of them all. Sighing, he put the things on the nearby bunk before he began to help the Jedi with quick fingers. If another member of the Order entered this tent now, he would find himself in serious need of explanation as a Commander. But, luckily for him, Kenobi was the only Jedi around in the system. So it was easy to get him out of his layered robes quickly. Hey, the undershirt was dry. That was at least something. Cody quickly took the black top from the bunk, held it open with his hands and held it so that Kenobi only had to stick his arms and head into it. He looked up briefly and when he met the confused and tired gaze of the Jedi, Cody's thoughts suddenly smoothed out. How many of his men had looked at him like that at least once? He never thought that it would be his own General's turn at some point. Even though he was taller than Cody, he looked so small and confused. „It's okay, I'll help you. Okay?“, Cody muttered, this time his gentle tone echoing the tenor of his thoughts. This was perhaps more familiar to him than he had initially thought. Kenobi slowly reached out his hands and Cody helped him into the top with a gentle smile. Well, that looked a lot better than the wet robes. Cody was glad that Kenobi wasn't that much bigger than the clones, otherwise they would have had serious problems finding clothes.

When Kenobi's head came back into his visual he blinked a few times and his eyes seemed clearer. „I am sorry Commander.“, he muttered, and Cody felt a small flicker of pride. He had made part of the way, Kenobi sought contact with him on his own initiative. That was good, for Cody it was a sign that the initial shock had been overcome. Well, better late than never. Right? „It's okay.“, he muttered and directed Kenobi to the bunk, there he pressed the black pants into the Jedi's hand. „You can do that?“, he asked and couldn't hide the slightly teasing tone. Kenobi nodded, satisfied Cody straightened up again and began to dispose of all weapons, carefully stacking them next to his helmet. Because no matter how calm and familiar the whole thing was, watching his General was definitely not appropriate. Only when Kenobi sat down again with a sigh, Cody glanced back and smiled contentedly, he came back over to the bunk and grabbed the towel. And while Kenobi stared a little annoyed at his unruly hands, Cody began carefully to dry the Jedi's wet hair. Well, as good as possible with a towel. „Cody?“, Kenobi asked softly. „Mhm?“ „Why did that happen?“ Ah, at this point they have been allready a few weeks ago, the Jedi seemed to keep spinning in circles. And Cody followed, of course, and was ready to have that conversation again. Until Kenobi would break out of this cycle. „Because Sidius planned it that way.“, he muttered his answer, waiting and knowing Kenobi would ponder Sidius now. About the failure of the Jedi. He had done that the last couple of times. „Was I a bad master?“ Cody paused, that was a different question than usual. He had no pre-planned answer for this one! Kriff. His pause seemed to prompt Kenobi to just keep babbling. „I should have saved him...“ „Sir...“ „Why was I so blind?“ „General?“ „I was his master and I betrayed him, like I left down Ahsoka before.“ „General Kenobi.“ „It was my fau-“ „Obi Wan!“

Cody grumpily took the towel down and stared at the Jedi, he had finally managed to break through Kenobi's senseless talk. He looked up at Cody with sad blue eyes. Cody wasn't exactly sure what he was up to. But gently straightening Obi Wan Kenobi's head seemed like a good option. „You are an excellent master. Ahsoka survived this war because she watched you just like she watched Skywalker. It's not your fault that your padawan chose a path, where you can't follow him.” Obi Wan blinked slowly, then looked down. Had Cody ruined today's little progress? He hoped not, to start all over again might get his patience to snap for today. But well... had there ever been anything Cody hadn't done for his General? Okay, maybe he would be able to start all over again, should it be necessary.

„Sorry.“, Obi Wan muttered into his beard and sighing, Cody put the towel aside. „It's okay, neither you nor I can help it.“, he tried to calm down and although Obi Wan nodded, Cody could not fail to see that he had started to shiver again. However, this could also come from the cold and exhaustion. Because Cody was sure Obi Wan wasn't crying. Not yet at least, this phase would definitely come. „How about some sleep?“, Cody suggested, sitting on the bunk next to Obi Wan. He had never dropped formality with his General. But tonight was sure to be okay, Obi Wan needed a friend, not a Commander.

„Can‘t.“ Obi Wan sounded as exhausted and empty as he looked. The Jedi tapped his temple with one hand. „Too loud.“ Then he let his head fall to one side, landing on Cody's shoulder. That was okay too. Reluctantly, he raised a hand and ran his fingers through Obi Wan's hair, slid up to the inclined temple and began to massage it in gentle circular movements. Despite the armor, he could feel the tension leaving Obi Wan's body. „Better?“, he asked anyway and got a weak sound of approval. Well then, he probably wouldn't leave this tent today after all. „Sleep, I'll stay here.“

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The rain outside was pounding heavily on the tent, the temperature was cool and the air was uncomfortably wet. But Cody made no move to at least keep the cold away. Instead, he wrapped the thin blanket from his backpack a little tighter around his shoulders, reached into his helmet, which was lying next to him, and found the regulator for the usually very helpful warming function of his armor. That would keep his legs warm, the upper part of the armor he had piled next to the bunk.

Like that he sat slightly bent forward on the foot end of the bunk and while his left hand rested on Obi Wan's lower leg, he used the data pad on his knees with his right. Beside him Obi Wan was shaking, despite the thick blanket and insulating blacks, and Cody Thumb ran reassuring circles over the Jedi's lower leg. They urgently needed to get rations, preferably the red ones for high energy needs. If his body was supplied with enough energy, Obi Wan wouldn't suffer from the cold too much... For a moment he heard the footsteps of the two troopers on guard outside, then they fell silent again. He turned his attention to the datapad, a file at the top of the list could only have been written by Ahsoka. It was handwritten, kriff that girl had a bad hand. Sighing, he concentrated to decipher the sentences.

A brief account of how she organized Kenobi's trip. That she had personally chosen Echo to go with him. That she hoped it would help the Jedi.

‚He's very attached to you and if I'm right and you reciprocate those feelings, then I'm confident things will turn out better. I entrust you with its wellbeing.

P.S. Ask your men about the red ration bars. I gave them a few more shortly before you left. I had the feeling that they could be unsefull.‘

Well done, Ahs‘ika. She must have been one step ahead of him then. Maybe two. Cody glanced at the sleeping figure of Obi Wan, the light from the datapad just enough to see his face. Cody leaned forward carefully and pulled the covers a little higher until they almost touched Obi Wan's chin. The Sith should get him if he wouldn't help his Jedi. Ahsoka could rely on Cody.

#star wars #clone wars #after the war #clone commander cody #obi wan kenobi #brothers-au #is this codywan?#i am not sure #plo koon

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americas-saboteur · 3 years ago

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I promised Id do this, heres quick first thoughts

this is based on the cbs writeups, not on anything that has been recorded. its also not based on any reveals the tag has made, im not taking that into consideration as this isnt me deciding who to root for. because im not officially picking anyone yet. this will be 90% strategy, 10% "are they annoying"

Azah has a pretty solid strategy. I think if she can get a small loyal group together she could make it far. my big worry is the usual tbqh, that she will be targeted early because shes genuinely considering her own game. also thank you for the no showmances.

Christian annoys the fuck out of me already. i dont mind a sort of floater/rat strategy, but the way he answered makes me feel like hes making excuses already for not doing anything. i just....dont trust anyone who starts a strategy conversation with "I am a joy".

Hannah's answer is long and i dig it? i initially only got the first paragraph and wanted to write her off, but reading the whole thing...i think i could see myself doing something similar, so i like it a lot. I support tactful blood bathing.

Brent has a similar issue to christian. I dont HATE him, but it feels like hes going in with overconfidence. Overdoing it with proving you have charm buddy, and since thats your strategy i dont have much else to say....

Britini seems excited, which is cool. but it doesnt sound like she has a solid strategy other than "win comps, say im making moves" which...fine. im hoping its more of an "assess once we get in there" thing.

Derek F is smart in getting to know people personally. a personal connection makes it harder to vote someone out, so i have a lot more confidence in his confidence than other houseguests.

Frenchie....ok before we get into strategy, who the fuck describes themselves as supercalifragilisticexpialidocious. who describes themselves as a nonsense word. already hate him for that. but beyond that, im glad he acknowledges that setting a strategy wouldnt benefit him right away. what does a farmer have to do with that? idk, but i hope he isnt horrible. glad he doesnt want to get famous, like i genuinely like when people make that point.

Travis kinda goes between Brent and Derek F for me. like his confidence doesnt feel forced, but it does feel overexplained. It sounds like the pranks might be part of strategy if hes putting the blame on other people, so as long as they arent annoying im ok with him.

Alyssa seems to want a well rounded game, but she feels like shes going to do a big group sort of thing. and i dont like that as a viewer. i worry that she would get lost in that group once the house gets more empty, so i guess we will see how that turns out. I dont get wanting first hoh or wanting to be like tyler, but i guess you do you.

Tiffany's strategy is short, sweet, and to the point. i dont have much to go on, but ngl her willingness to try slop could weirdly help her? theres almost nothing in the small sample of her bio, unlike the others i actually read the full one and i didnt get much more. im gonna pretend i didnt see her fave duo.

Xavier seems enthusiastic. smart to not want to win comps unless necessary, smart to not play personal. beyond that i dont have any strong thoughts

Claire is a fan and i love that. sounds like she knows what to say to excite other fans, the important strategy points to make the game better. i just hope she can actually deliver on these, that it doesnt backfire on anyone. also please cause disruptions, thats entertainment and can be strategic.

Sarah, if i remember, is the weeb people were talking about. which....love that, love seeing people who have similar interests to me in the game. but also im glad shes upfront and says the word "float". we know its not accidental, so i can respect it a lot more.

Whitney is pretty alright. i like that she wants to start strong, and that she doesnt have extreme details for a strategy, but i dont know what i think. Derek X could go either way. He looks like he could be fun, i genuinely hope he doesnt get lost in the crowd and eliminated early. His strategy is primarily social, but like in a more influential way and i hope he manages that tbqh.

Kyland seems prepared and enthusiastic, which is good. the specific references to different players strategies makes me more confident in him than others, like some people vaguely referenced another player, dropped a name, or mentioned them as a favorite, but hes pulling out specifics. my main worry is that he will play too hard too fast. or that he wont be able to deliver this (same worry as claire)

Overall im tired of seeing derrick and cody referenced in peoples bio but at the same time thats what cbs wants, so its what we get. and it makes sense, since they are part of the more modern game. as much as i love old school BB it makes sense to consider strategy from more recent stuff since you are more likely to experience those sorts of situations. being prepared is more important than getting old school points if you want to win. but gods i hate derrick and cody.

#bb23 #first thoughts #shout out to me getting this up 10 min before premiere gods im a mess

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aaronhart93 · 4 years ago

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text || aaromtin

Discord text thread featuring: Aaron & @romanbeckett & @quentindelancret

When: March 7, 2020 and March 8, 2020

Mentions: @jamisonhq @codyhq @jayceelynd

Description: Quentin gets upset at what Jamison said in the group chat, they just fight a lot. the next day he tells Roman and Aaron that he sexted with Troye Sivan.

Trigger Warnings: mental illness, arguing, cheating if you consider sexting cheating ig

Quentin.

I’m just gonna go back to my place.

𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧.

wait why?

Quentin.

I need to go back to my place

I’ll text you guys later

Aaron.

is it about what Jamison said in the group? ignore him, Q

Quentin.

don’t worry about it. It’s fine

Aaron.

its not. i texted him on the side and told him to cool it

im sorry he said that to you

Quentin.

of course you did

I can’t do this anymore

𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧.

do what??

Quentin.

deal with this

𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧.

deal with what Q

Aaron.

Quentin, I'm making myself look like an ass to defend you in front of him. Don't take this out on us babe. Don't prove him right

Quentin.

being talked down to by all of Aaron’s ex’s who apparently think I’m just his pet now

just go deal with him I’m fine

I didn’t even do anything so I don’t know how I’m proving him right of anything

Aaron.

he's dealt with. it won't happen again

Quentin.

you just don’t even get it

Aaron.

maybe i don't, but come to bed and help me understand

Quentin.

I’m tired of it. Your little toys never do this shit to Roman or anyone else and I’m fuckin sick of it

Aaron.

i dont know how that's our fault

Quentin.

it’s not. I guess I’m just not worthy so I’ll step down

𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧.

what have we done to ever make you feel that way

Quentin

You haven’t done anything. I just said it’s not your fault

𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧.

then why are we being punished

Quentin.

you know what, never mind. I’ll just continue to be talked down to so that all of Aaron’s ex’s can pretend like he still feels some type of way about them and I’m just the flavor of the week

𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧.

who cares what they fucking think. It’s not about them.

Quentin.

it’s not about what they think. I don’t care what they think. I care about the way they treat me. Only me

Aaron.

and you need to let me take care of that

Quentin.

yeah okay

maybe you can give him a job too

Aaron.

but don't treat us like this.

that's uncalled for Q

Quentin.

or my bad.. he probably already works for you

it is uncalled for Aaron. It is

Aaron.

cryptic

Quentin.

just let me step aside so you have have your toys close

Aaron.

text us when you cool off. then come back home to bed

Quentin.

yeah, I’m good. Just leave me alone

𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧

I’m staying at the apartment.

Quentin.

that’s fine

Aaron.

great ill just sleep alone.

Quentin.

maybe text Jamison or Cody I’m sure they would love to keep you company

Aaron.

or maybe half of my other employees

Quentin.

yeah maybe

𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧.

Jesus, can you all just stop

Quentin.

I just wish you would even try to see it from my side. Like what if Stas was saying that shit to me? And I worked with him and saw him every day and when he attacked you I ran to text him privately

is that okay? Or maybe if I went to Hawaii would that be okay?

Aaron.

Quentin, I'm on your side. I am seeing it that way. I'm just confused as to why you're getting upset at us.

Quentin.

I’m not upset at Roman

Aaron.

and why are you mad at me?

Quentin.

because Aaron. You tell me all this shit and then turn around and pet their heads

I just don’t get it. How you can just act like, oh I told them to stop and just want me to drop it

Aaron.

I just told you I’m making an ass of myself defending you to him

Quentin.

well, don’t go making an ass of yourself on my account

the only ass I saw was him

Aaron.

okay quentin. Reset. What can I do to make this better

Quentin.

leave me alone. That’s what you can do.

I don’t want to do this anymore

𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧.

Q don’t make any rash decisions right now. Just cool off.

Quentin.

I shouldn’t have to dread going into the town chat or have to watch what I say or else I’m gonna be attacked by Aaron’s thots.

it’s bullshit

Aaron.

read

Quentin.

I’m sorry, I do love you Aaron. I’m just so tired of fighting everyone just to be with you

Aaron.

Quentin. Cool off. Please

Quentin

I am cool

Aaron.

I love you

Quentin.

yeah

𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧.

Quentin.

the thing is. I’m not mad at either of you

I’m just so tired of it

𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧.

nothing in life is ever easy Q, but what we have is worth it.

Quentin.

yeah okay

I’ve been belittled my entire life. I just don’t want to have to deal with it in order to have a boyfriend

especially when said boyfriend just talks them down and doesn’t really care enough to cut it off

Aaron

but cut what off?

Quentin.

all these ex’s you are so determined to stay friends with even though they make me feel this way

Aaron.

you just told me about Cody today and Jamo wasn’t an issue until now

Cody is going to raise my best friend’s child and Jamison is my business partner. It is not that easy

Quentin.

okay well, that’s why I’m making it easy

Aaron.

don’t talk like that

Quentin.

Jay is my best friend too ya know? I’ve tried so hard to be friendly with Cody. But every time I turn around he’s being an asshat to me

it’s fine. It’ll all be fine

Aaron.

I’m sorry

I’m so sorry

Quentin.

don’t be

I guess I just need to start being more of an asshole myself

Quentin.

anyway, have a good night

the next morning

Aaron.

can we promise never to let other people affect our relationship

𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧.

I can definitely promise that

Aaron.

me too

♛ 𝕽𝖔𝖒𝖆𝖓 ♛

I don’t wanna lose either one of you.

Aaron.

and you won’t.

Quentin.

hello

Aaron.

morning sleepyhead

Quentin.

morning.

Quentin.

Troye and I messed around last night over text after you and Aaron fell asleep. I was rolling in molly and I wasn’t thinking straight and I swear I wasn’t getting off with him. I just didn’t think it was serious and I don’t even remember doing it. But I wanted you to know. I’d never keep that from either of you and I hope you know I don’t want him. It was a stupid crush and I’m so sorry. I’m so so so sorry

Aaron.

read

Quentin.

I just want to add that I don’t want him. I swear I don’t want him and I don’t even wanna go see him now. He’s been flirting with me for days now, which Roman I told you about that. But idk what happened. I’m not a cheater. I don’t wanna be a cheater. I’m so sorry I can’t even breath. Please don’t hate me. I love you both so much. With every ounce of my existence

Aaron.

read

I love you too

𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧

read

Quentin.

I love you both.

𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧.

I love you too.

Aaron.

read

#discord #text #text: roman #text: quentin #quentin #roman

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cryptidofthekeys · 4 years ago

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“May 19th”

Imma put a keep reading on this bc oh god it’d be too long otherwise and I dont wanna inconvenience others n such but here’s what I had been cryptic about for awhile, its finally out and I am proud of it regardless if its in character or not lmao

Stephanie was sitting at her desk, looking through her paperwork and writing some things down on the side before she heard a knock on the door, she smiled and shouted "Come in!" the door then opened and both Kane and Daniel Bryan walked inside, Kane coming right up to the desk and staring Stephanie down "You wanted to see us...?" He questioned, this made Steph's smile widen "Yes I did!" She took a deep breath "I have a proposition for the both of you..." She started, this made the tag team perk up and look at each other, this time Daniel was the one to speak "...We're listening..." Stephanie then continued on "If the two of you can win all the matches you're in until May gets here... Then I will give the both of you a shot at the Tag Team Championships or to make the deal sweeter... Any title you want to go for! But remember, you HAVE to win ALL your matches and then by May, once you figure out which titles you want to go for, come see me and we'll get it all settled" Daniel and Kane gave one final look before nodding, Daniel was the one to speak up "Sounds good to us, and all we have to do is just... Beat ALL our opponents? Until... May? No catches?" Steph shook her head "No, no catches to it, that's all you have to do" She reassured, which made Daniel give Kane a pat on the shoulder "Let's go get ready then" The pair then walked out of the room immediately, this caused Stephanie's smile to turn into an evil smirk "It's all going according to plan...~ My plan is set in action... Now all I have to do is simply wait..." She mumbled to herself, she then returned to finishing up the paperwork that she had left. (Listen... I am really poor at fight scenes and IF I did all these matches we could be here all day so I'll only do one at the VERY least, was gonna do three but honestly thats a bit too much for me, so first one is coming right up and then there's gonna be a time skip) Team Hell No was preparing for their first match of the month, it was only March so they still had a long way to go before getting their opportunities at some championship gold but they could do it, nothing was in their way and they definitely weren't arguing as much as they used to, this would work out... It just had to, he'd be there for Kane if needed and he knew deep down Kane would be there for him if he needed as well, all they had to do was focus on their goals and get through March and April and things would be smooth sailing from there, after they got ready, they quickly made their way out to the ring, hearing the roar of the crowds got them pumped up, they were definitely ready to face whoever their opponents were, Daniel gave Kane a look who only nodded in return. After a few minutes, their opponents were none other than... Damien Sandow and Cody Rhodes aka Team Rhodes Scholars, this should be an easy one... They've defeated them before, they can do it again! All they have to do is just... Focus, focus on what the goal is, what the reward will be... They listened as the crowd booed the pair all the way to the ring, the crowd definitely wasn't fond of them that was for sure, after they finished their entrance, the teams took their places and were ready to start the match, Daniel and Damien were the first ones to fight, the referee then rang the bell and the match began, Daniel started things off with a bang and went right after Damien, he was determined to win this match, he was determined to win all their matches, he wanted a shot at some gold, that was for sure. Eventually, Damien had gotten the upper hand of Daniel and went on the attack, he was going to try his best to keep him away from his tag team partner, Damien went over and tagged in his partner, Cody Rhodes, who came in strong and immediately started working on Daniel's arm, he needed to injure his arm to prevent him from locking in The Yes Lock in this match, much to Daniel's dismay who tried to get out of Cody's grip on his arm, he wanted to make it over to Kane, he was getting worn down and he definitely needed a break to regain some stamina, Cody definitely had a tight grip and the more he wrenched Daniel's arm the more it began to hurt, eventually... Daniel managed to power out of it and over to Kane to make a tag, and of course the crowd went wild as Kane powered through Cody like he was nothing. And for awhile, that's how it was, Kane absolutely manhandled Cody and dominated him throughout the match, after awhile Cody had gained the upper hand and managed to get Kane on the ropes, literally... Which resulted in the referee coming over and counting, if Cody didn't release him by the count of five he'd be disqualified, luckily he did right before the ref managed to say five, he put his hands up in defense and backed off immediately, after he knew he'd be safe from disqualification he continued his onslaught against Kane, after he got him down he went for the pin only to be interrupted at the count of two by Daniel Bryan, and then Damien came into the ring and attacked Daniel, those two proceeded to take their fight outside the ring, much to the ref's dismay. Eventually, Kane had managed to get to his feet and he grabbed Cody by the throat, it was over... Kane then hoisted Cody up into the air and slammed him down, he listened to the crowd roar and cheer, he couldn't help but chuckle at that as he pinned Cody, the ref counted "One! Two! Three!!" The bell rang again, and Kane's music hit as Daniel knocked Sandow down to the ground and slid back into the ring, it took him a minute to realize that the he and Kane had won their first match-up, one step closer! This made Daniel grow more excited, he began to do his chants of 'Yes! Yes! Yes!', he even gave Kane a hug which seemed to stun the big man at first, Kane only gave him on awkward pat on the back in return, after celebrating and soaking in the crowd's cheers, they finally left the ring and headed back stage. (Cue a Time Skip because again, I am horrible at fight scenes but also because legit the fights are just gonna be the same thing over n over again and it'll be boring- y'all know who's gonna win already) Stephanie was sitting at her desk, once again, mostly just waiting for... Someone it seemed, just then, the door flew open and an excited Daniel Bryan entered the room, Stephanie had a bright smile on her face "Ah! Daniel, I see someone's excited... I must say, what you and Kane did was v e r y impressive... Congratulations!" She exclaimed, meanwhile Daniel grinned "Yeah... Thanks, it was tough but we managed to do it!" Stephanie nodded "Now there's a matter of what championships the both of you want, have you come to a decision with your partner?" Daniel nodded "Yes, we both agreed on the Tag Team Championships, we want a shot at those!" Stephanie's smile widened "I thought you would... Tag Team Championships it is! Now... Let's see when I can schedule that particular match... Hmmm..." Stephanie's smile dropped immediately once she saw the only date she had for the championship match up. She glanced up at Daniel with a concerned expression which confused him immensely "What uh, what's wrong? You look like you saw a ghost! When can we have our title shot?" Stephanie took a deep breath "Well... Daniel, uh... You... um... The title shot is on... Ma... Ma-May..." She glanced around for a few seconds and towards the door before finishing her sentence "May... Nineteenth..." Daniel merely rose a brow and shrugged "Eh, doesn't sound that bad to me... It sounds good to me, May Nineteenth it is!" He immediately headed out the door, Stephanie had tried to call out after him but it was too late, after a few moments however... Stephanie only chuckled "...Ah... Good to know Daniel doesn't know the truth about May Nineteenth... He'll find out soon enough... My plan is going so well..." Meanwhile... Daniel was on his way to tell Kane the date their match was set. He entered their locker room and had a bright confident smile on his face "So... Stephanie told me when our title match was, she... She was acting weird about the date though, almost like she was... Scared to say it..." Kane seemed interested "...What could give Stephanie such a fright?" Daniel shrugged "I dunno... But anyways, she said our match was on May Nineteenth, we'll have a shot at the Tag Team Titles on that night!" Kane's eyes widened and he silently stared at his partner for a few moments before speaking up "...D a n i e l... What... Did you just say...?" He took a deep breath, he couldn't get angry... Maybe... He just misheard his partner... That's gotta be it... Daniel repeated himself "I said our match is on May. N i n e t e e n t h..." That date echoed inside Kane's head and suddenly... A lot of horrible memories began flooding back to him, his breathing picked up and he clutched his hand into a fist "...Don't. E v e r. say. that... D a t e..." This made Daniel raise his arms up in defense and back off "I... don't get it...? What's wrong with May Nineteenth?" He questioned. Kane merely took a deep breath and flipped his hair out of his face "...Just... Promise me Daniel, promise me you won't say that date again..." Daniel could tell Kane was really serious about this and given the fact he really didn't want to be choked out or chokeslammed in the slightest, he nodded "Alright... No more of t h a t date... Got it... Let's just take a breather... And relax a little bit..." Kane gave him a nod and sat down, he stared down at the floor, he understood now why Stephanie was so worried to say that date, he just... needed to ignore it, he didn't want all those memories to come flooding back to him... Otherwise he knew his tag team partner would be in serious danger, he remembers what he did... to The Big Show all those years ago because he said t h a t date.... He shook himself out of those thoughts at the sound of Daniel snapping his fingers "Hey... I'm uh, sorry, I dunno the deal with that date and I won't ask but, I didn't mean to like... Upset you THAT badly, you... good man?" He questioned, he wouldn't deny, he was a little bit nervous when Kane stood up. Kane nodded "I'm fine... Just, let's get out there... and prepare... for uh, our... Our matches... We need to focus on those before our title shot..." He spoke, Daniel nodded and followed Kane out of the room, they still had a few matches before that date, they needed to focus on now instead of the future, and that's exactly what they were going to do... (Cue a bit of a time skip, like to... May 10th, gotta skip for plot reasons n everything) Daniel and Kane had just finished another match, they had lost this one and it was to the actual tag team champions, it wasn't their title shot, it was just a match up between the pairs beforehand to test their strengths and abilities and both Kane and Daniel were pretty angry about their loss, suddenly they were stopped by Michael Cole "Excuse me, Team Hell No... Could I get a word with the both of you about what just happened?" The pair glared at Michael Cole but Daniel spoke into the microphone "Those two... Rollins and Reigns! You won't be so lucky the next time we fight!" He paused, glancing back at Michael Cole before speaking up "Come May Nineteenth we'll-" Daniel immediately stopped talking and his eyes widened, he was just... extremely furious, he didn't... He didn't mean to say it again... He glanced over at Kane who looked shocked and angry and for a moment he got in Daniel's face, this was the moment Cole gunned for an exit, he didn't want to be caught in the crossfire. Daniel's eyes were still wide "I'm...- Kane... I'm sorry, I just got caught up in-" Kane quickly grabbed his partner by the throat and tightened his grip "I thought... I told you... NEVER to say that date... A g a i n!" He snapped, his grip threatening to tighten even more, Daniel quickly grasped at Kane's arm "It was an- (cough!) accident!" He yelled out, squeezing and clawing at Kane's arm, desperately trying to break free before he gets choked out, meanwhile Kane's memories came flooding back all at once, he remembered what happened that night... He remembered it all.... He shook his head and threw Daniel to the floor before storming off, leaving the other to cough and splutter on the ground, that was the last straw... Daniel HAD to know what this was all about, he'd just leave Kane alone for awhile and let him cool down while he goes and investigates and what better way to start off than Kane's old tag team partner... "Hey... uh, Show, got a sec?" Daniel questioned, The Big Show... One of Kane's old tag team partners, he knew him pretty well... Hopefully he could help Daniel figure this mess out "Uhh yeah, what'cha need?" Big Show questioned, raising a brow and waiting for the other to speak "So uhh... I'm... having some problems..." He paused, glancing at Show before continuing "It... involves Kane..." This made Show sigh "Oh no... Don't tell me y'all are fighting again... What happened this time?" Bryan shook his head "No... Not uh exactly... It... It's not good, it's actually pretty serious..." The Big Show looked on and waited for the other to finish what he was saying "It just... Show, can ya tell me about this date, every time I mention May Nineteenth around Kane he just... stares at me quietly or worse... Things uh got a liiitttle bit... Physical this time" Big Show's expression was one of concern and he sighed "Look, Daniel, lemme tell ya something... This isn't a road you wanna go down, just drop this whole... thing and move on and win your championships, you DON'T wanna do this..." Big Show paused and took a breath "You need to just focus on the more important matters... Kane'll settle down in a bit and if you value your air and your life, I suggest n o t mentioning that around him again whatsoever, trust me, it'll be more beneficial to keeping your team alive and not lead to splitting up abruptly... Anyways, good luck with your match, beat the shield and take those tag team titles from them" He gave Daniel a pat on the shoulder and then walked away, Daniel sighed, he knew there was o n e person left and he REALLY didn't want to go find him... Maybe learning about this wasn't worth it... But... his curiosity was eating him alive at this point "Well... Curiosity killed the cat..." He mumbled to himself, walking off... He had to go find h i m... Daniel knew he had to go find... The Undertaker, if ANYONE knew about this, then he sure would... And maybe he'd give more insight than The Big Show did... Daniel sighed and walked off, he didn't even know where The Undertaker would be at... As he continued walking, after a good bit he noticed the backstage area getting darker and darker, the lights were... turning to the purple-blue-ish like color, Daniel swallowed harshly, well... Maybe it WOULDN'T be as hard to find him as he thought it would... "Uhh... T-Ta...Taker? ...You... here?" He called out even though he was really beginning to not want to, he was beginning to regret his decisions, this was a bad idea... He continued walking and looking around frantically, the lights flickered for a few minutes which made Daniel flinch, and after a bit the lights went out entirely, and that left Daniel in the darkness for a long while before a deep voice echoed out "Daniel... I know why you're here... And my advice to you is to leave. it. a l o n e... Some things you must let go... In order to move forward, this w i l l have dire consequences u n l e s s you drop the subject at hand and leave it in the past..." There was a pause, he could sense Daniel's frustration "There's some things... Especially about me and my little brother... That should s t a y in the past..." The Taker paused once again, before sighing "You probably won't listen... either way, its y o u r funeral if you pursue this topic..." Daniel had listened intently to The Undertaker's words, always so cryptic and mysterious... It was frustrating to him "I just want an answer... That's all I want so I know why Kane... just... hates that date" There was nothing but silence after he spoke, he took a few moments after the silence before speaking again "...T...Taker?" More silence... before the voice echoed from the darkness "Daniel... Forget about that, you need to focus on the t r u e enemy..." Daniel sighed "Yeah yeah I know, The Shield, right?" He questioned, but Taker quickly responded for once "N o... The Shield is not your real enemy here... Keep an eye out... For the true enemy..." This confused Daniel "Wait... What the hell are you talking about?" There was nothing this time, even as Daniel called out, he called out two or three times and he got nothing in response, and the lights had came back on and went back to their original color, this made him sigh and run his hands down his face "...So much for that... ...True enemy... What is he talking about?" He sighed again and turned around, he might as well go see if Kane has calmed down enough now... ...And he did kiiinda- okay no he really wanted to go and apologize to him for, well, saying that date again especially after he promised he wouldn't anymore... Meanwhile... Kane was pacing up and down the hallways, he sped up on occasion when the voices in his head (ya better go see Randy for that problem buddy) got louder, they increased in volume and that date was piercing his ears at this point, those memories were all flooding back in one instance, those feelings, those thoughts he had once, all of those were coming back and he was feeling that same rage he felt in that one moment... Kane immediately fell to both knees in the middle of the hallway and grasped at his head, grabbing strands of hair in the process, the words of 'May Nineteenth' echoing even louder in his head "St...S t o p I t...." He muttered to himself, pulling slightly at his hair and breathing heavily. Just then... Daniel came around the corner, his eyes widened as he seen his tag team partner on his knees, gripping at his hair and tugging at it "K-Kane!" He immediately ran over and got down on his knees as well, he placed his hand on the other's back "You alright?! What happened?!" Daniel was really concerned, did someone attack him?! They couldn't afford to be attacked right now, things were already tense as it is and not to mention they got a tag team title shot coming up! Daniel then realized what could potentially be wrong "...Kane... I'm very sorry, about uhhh... Well, all of that... I knew this could upset you but I didn't know it could get THIS severe... I'm just, sorry man... I won't mention that date ever again, I swear..." Kane immediately stood up and stared down at Daniel who was beginning to panic a little internally, he didn't know how the other would react. Kane was slightly glaring at his tag team partner, he could feel the rage slowly building up, all the anger he had felt at one point was coming back "D a n i e l..." He started, something about his voice... It actually began to unnerve Bryan, he backed off just a bit which just made Kane come a bit closer "If I was you... I would... r u n while you still can..." He finished, this made Daniel's eyes widened as he stepped back again "...You... Heh... You remember how I said I would not be intimidated by you at one point? Well uhhh... You're really starting to... C'mon, let's just... Forget about all this, let's go back to our normal routine, get ready for our tag team titles, because we're going to win the- ack!" He was cut off as Kane grabbed him by the throat and slammed him against the wall "You just don't listen, do you...? I t o l d you to get. o u t. of. h e r e.... To run, why do you never listen to me?! When I give you a s i m p l e request, you don't follow it and you s t a y!" Kane seemed to finally notice Daniel was knocked unconscious by the slam, he sighed "You've a l w a y s been a stubborn one, haven't you Daniel? Well guess what? That stubbornness is going to be your e n d..." Kane then proceeded to let the other go and slide down to the floor, he then went over to grab Daniel by the leg and proceeded to drag him down the hallway, he knew what he was going to do and the thoughts of it brought a sadistic grin to his face, he hadn't had these kinds of thoughts in such a long time... Something about it felt... Refreshing, something about the thoughts felt... ...G o o d... He chuckled to himself as he continued to drag his 'tag team partner' down the hallway, it was time to visit a special little area of his, one that he hadn't visited in a l o n g time... Eventually... Daniel was slowly coming to consciousness, he heard some mumbling and even the sounds of chains rattling... He slowly opened his eyes and groaned, his vision was blurred and he felt like he had gotten hit by a car almost, he noticed Kane was standing right in front of him, staring down at him with a sadistic smile on his face "Ugh... th-the hell are you doing...?" He mumbled out, he looked around and tried to move, that's when his eyes snapped open and his vision cleared, he realized he was tied up and couldn't move "H-Hey! C'mon man! I know I was a jerk about all that stuff at first, but don't you think this is a little excessive?!" He shouted which only resulted in a chuckle from his 'friend', Kane then walked over and grabbed something, Daniel couldn't quite make out what it was from his position. Kane came over and grabbed his 'friend' by the hair and wrenched his head back, he didn't speak at all but merely waited on... Something, suddenly there was rather feminine sounding chuckle and out of the shadows... There came Stephanie with Triple H by her side, Stephanie had a malicious grin on her face "Oh hello there Daniel..." She started, clearing her throat before continuing "Now I bet you are REALLY confused as to what's happening and why, aren't you? Well... It's quite simple..." She paused, letting out another little chuckle, she was clearly pleased with how things had proceeded "See... I was sick and tired of... THAT Kane... The one that would give you hugs, the one that all bark and no bite... He wasn't sadistic enough, he wasn't what the business needed, I wanted the old Kane back, that sick, twisted, and sadistic mind of his... Now THAT is what is best for business... My plan was v e r y was simple... I had to get you to say t h a t date, the one that... Kane absolutely loathes and then well... I'm sure you can put the r e s t together... Surely you aren't THAT idiotic..." Stephanie gave Kane a look, who only grinned at her which she wouldn't deny... That grin DID unnerve her but she merely smirked in return "Go ahead Kane, do what you need to..." Daniel couldn't believe what he was hearing right now... She had wanted to turn his own partner a g a i n s t him like THIS?! Using something like this, now that was low, even for Stephanie... Just then... He was struck by a realization, a flashback played in his mind, it was what Taker had said to him, all the things about the true enemy... How it WASN'T The Shield... No... He was talking about... Stephanie! He scoffed "You... you... You are literally insane! I don't know what the hell makes you think ANY of this is what's best for business!" He spat, glaring at the pair, they only gave him a smug grin in return. Kane held up the weapon, clear for Daniel to see now, it was some kind of... Spike, that was a weird choice of weapon... but it made his eyes widen nonetheless (a ref to the Kane n Umaga stuff), his tag team partner was about to use that spike against h i m! Kane chuckled and lifted the spike up above Daniel's head, the air was tense, there was nothing but silence before he slowly lowered the spike, this confused Stephanie "Kane, come on, finish him off already! So we can move on from this..." There was still silence, this frustrated Stephanie and even Triple H was getting a little frustrated as well, he stormed over "Did ya hear her? Finish Bryan off! Now!" Kane immediately lunged for Triple H and attacked him, he had dropped the spike while doing so, he threw vicious punches towards Triple H and despite Stephanie's sudden screams and pleads for him to stop, he didn't have any intentions of doing so... After the vicious assault, Hunter was left laying on the ground unconscious, Stephanie immediately stormed over and got in Kane's face "What the hell is your problem?! You CANNOT just attack my husband like that and besides your supposed to be getting Daniel for saying May Nineteenth dammit!" It took her a few seconds to realize what had just slipped out of her mouth, her eyes widened as she watched Kane's expression twist into a scowl, he grabbed her by the throat immediately "Let's get one thing straight here... You and Hunter, you two do NOT control me! You can't control a monster!" He bellowed out, and right as he was about to chokeslam her, the lights went out with the infamous bell sounding from all around... The lights stayed out for a few minutes before another bell had sounded off, the lights coming back on to reveal The Undertaker with Stephanie in his grasp now, this had actually given Kane a shock. Even then, Kane snarled and glared daggers at his brother "This DOES NOT concern you, deadman!" Undertaker only stared back, not even breaking eye contact as he shoved Stephanie away "Untie Daniel, pick up your husband, and leave... N o w... Unless of course you want to cause more damage than you already have" Stephanie didn't exactly want to argue with The Undertaker of all people, and even though she really didn't want too, she begrudgingly untied Daniel who had surprisingly helped her pick Triple H up, she didn't expect him to help... but of course, unlike Steph, Daniel was not a cruel or evil person, they immediately got out of there as fast as they could go, Taker never breaking eye contact with Kane as he began to speak "So... It's happening all over again, isn't it? The memories... They have come back to haunt you..." Kane shook his head "Shut. Up! I said this doesn't concern you! This is none of your business Taker!" Taker shook his head "Kane, you give into your rage too easily... Look at what it's done to you, your rage, the thoughts, the memories... It has clouded your mind..." Kane only chuckled, something about his behavior had entirely shifted, and Taker seemed to notice this and he knew exactly what was going on... "...No... No actually, you see that's where your wrong... These feelings... These thoughts coming back to me... This is a g o o d feeling... I'm glad these memories have come back... Come back and finally woken me up from my daze... Thanks to Daniel, I lost who I truly was... This bond we formed, it's holding me back... I used to be a monster! The Devil's Favorite Demon even! I've let a friendship, I've let humanity... Human emotions in... Something I swore at one point I didn't have, I swore I would never want those filthy emotions! I would not become one of t h e m! No... No no... I am n o t going to let that happen... I. Am. A. M o n s t e r... And I'll prove it!" He lunged for The Undertaker who dodged the attack, Kane only snarled in response and kept attacking "I don't even know why you're getting involved! Just stay. out. of. my. w a y. Deadman..." Taker returned the attacks, each punch getting more and more vicious "I have my reasons... And I am going to put an end to this nonsense before it gets out of control more so than it already has..." When all this was said and done... Taker would be having a little chit-chat with Stephanie and her husband... Taker immediately jumped away from Kane and pointed towards the outside "Let's settle this once and for all... In a Buried Alive match..." Kane only sneered at his brother "Fine, have it your way... but this time... I'm going to make sure you STAY buried!" They both headed that way, Kane not hesitating to deliver a cheap shot from behind, they began exchanging blows, not even waiting until they were actually outside... Meanwhile... Daniel had just kicked open the door to Stephanie's office, hauling Triple H along and then gently laying him down on the couch, Daniel glared daggers at Stephanie who was sitting by her husband's side, gently stroking his arm "Oh sweetie... I'm... I'm so sorry... I didn't mean for th-" Daniel shook his head and cut her off "Bullshit! This is entirely your fault! If you hadn't tried getting back this... This old Kane, the m o n s t e r! We wouldn't even be in this situation if it weren't for you! Your husband would be just fine and I'd still have my tag team part... No... No! I'd still have my best friend if it weren't for you!" (oh btw yes I know technically a buried alive match happens ringside or whatever but shh, just roll with it) Stephanie glared at Daniel for a moment before realizing he was... He was right, none of them would be in this situation right now if it weren't for her... and her poor husband... Poor Hunter wouldn't even be in the state he's in right now if not for her actions, her little plan... And who knows what Taker's even going to do or say after all this... She looked away from Daniel who only continued on "I've lost my best friend to whatever is going through his head right now! He's gone because of you and now he's t h a t monster again! Just... Why?! Don't you realize how stupid and insane all of this was?! Kane isn't going to give up on any of us either, if... If The Undertaker doesn't get through to him or something, he's going to come back for the three of us! And this was for what?! Just... what YOU T H I N K is 'best for business'?! Huh?!" Stephanie shook her head, tears beginning to form in her eyes "J...Just... sHUT UP! SHUT UP! I GET IT, OKAY?!" Daniel just sighed and sat down in one of the chairs, grasping at his hair, he hated this... He really hated Stephanie but he didn't... He didn't want to make her cry... He was just exhausted and incredibly frustrated after today's events, he just wanted his best friend back, he just wanted this all to end so he could get some rest... He didn't even figure that supposed tag title match was real either so he had nothing to even look forward too at this point! Stephanie had caused him so much trouble, his best friend had let his monstrous urges take over again and was going on god knows what kind of rampage and he couldn't even do anything about it! He had felt guilty for pushing the May Nineteenth thing so far and even saying it when he promised Kane he wouldn't... Guilt, regret, anger, so many things swirling around Daniel's head and in his mind... He let out a sigh and just sat there in silence... Stephanie didn't say a word, she figured he didn't exactly wanna speak right now... Eventually, she heard a groan and looked down, her husband was coming to and she smiled "Hey hun, can you hear me? Are... Are you alright, do you- do you need to go to the Hospital or anything?" Triple H looked at her and shook his head "No, no Hospital... Damn, my head... Everything's a bit of a blur to be honest... What happened?" Stephanie was about to speak but Daniel surprisingly spoke up before she got a chance "Your little wife's plan backfired, Kane attacked you and now he is on a rampage and Undertaker is dealing with him currently" He had venom behind his tone as he spoke, Hunter had picked up on it and was about to say something else it seemed before he looked at the tv in the room and froze, Stephanie followed his gaze and her eyes widened "Oh my god..." She mumbled out, Daniel rose a brow and glanced back at the tv only to see Undertaker and Kane viciously attacking each other like rabid savage dogs, he noticed the empty grave near them and his eyes widened as well. "Are they..." Daniel began, Hunter followed with a nod "Buried Alive match... Looks like Kane's getting the upperhand against Taker... God forbid Kane actually wins this match..." Daniel shook his head and stood from his seat "NO! He can't bury Kane! That's my best friend dammit! Monster or no monster!" He rushed out of the room, Triple H was about to get up and go after him but he groaned in pain, he was too sore to move "He's going to get slaughtered if he goes out there! Taker n Kane are not exactly people you wanna mess with!" He sighed in frustration, he shouldn't have let Stephanie go through with her plan, he should've stopped her. what was he thinking?! Letting this get to this point... It's not what's best for business anymore, this is a nightmare for the business! Stephanie looked at her husband and then at the door "...I'll go after him and try to help him... It's the LEAST I can do after all I've caused..." Hunter shook his head "Steph no, it's too dangerous! You can't!" Stephanie looked at Hunter "I can, and I am, I've got too, I'll be back I promise just get some rest for now okay?" She gave Hunter a kiss and then immediately left after Daniel despite her husband calling out for her not to run off after them, such a stubborn woman she was ...Probably one of the many reasons he loved her, meanwhile... Undertaker was on the ground, taking a severe beating from his brother, he tried to block the hits as best he could, not succeeding too much, eventually he managed to roll Kane over and deliver a similar if not more powerful beating to him, after that Kane had threw Taker off of himself and got up immediately, grabbing a steel chair that was nearby and hitting the other repeatedly with it, after the chair broke he threw it down and snarled "THIS IS WHAT YOU GET!" He screamed at Taker, picking him up off the ground and carrying him over to the grave, he was about to drop his disoriented brother into the hole but then he stopped dead in his tracks, he had malicious grin on his face and pulled the other away from the grave, not yet... It was too soon... He wanted his brother to suffer for a little bit longer... He was getting some heavy and hard shots in, he was actually taking control of this match and d a m n did it feel good... To finally be in control, to have dominance over his older brother like this, the thoughts of his brother's suffering made him chuckle, Kane had the upperhand for the longest time until suddenly Undertaker seemed to have a lot more fight in him, he popped back up and immediately went to town, hammering away at Kane's abdomen, after that Kane had charged at him and Taker immediately raised his leg up to deliver a big boot right to the face, and just like that Kane was down... Taker grabbed him by the arm and slowly dragged him over to the grave, that's when Daniel came running out there, he saw Kane be tossed into the grave and he immediately ran over "NO! TAKER! YOU CAN'T DO THIS!" He shouted, looking the deadman in the eyes, Taker looked at him and shook his head "It's got to be done, boy... This is the only way..." Daniel shook his head "No! No it's not the only way! I can... I can... I can talk to him!" The Undertaker stared at the other as if he had went completely crazy "There ain't no talkin' to him once he's like this... It's like keeping a rabid dog alive..." Taker paused, clearing his throat before continuing. "Ya can't save 'em... No matter what'cha do... All their gonna do is suffer an' try to kill ya in the end..." He finished, Daniel shook his head "Just give me a chance! Please! He's... Kane's my best friend, I have to try!" Kane's expression twisted into one of disgust at what he heard, he rose from the grave and got out, he glared daggers at Daniel "Get. O u t. Of. H e r e... N o w..." He shoved Daniel back, making sure to mind the grave, that was reserved for his brother... However... if the other refused to leave, he'd happily make a grave for Daniel as well... Daniel shook his head "C'mon Kane... Listen, I'm... Sorry, I should have never pushed that stuff so far, I shouldn't have said the date when I promised I wouldn't..." Kane shook his head and laughed, this laugh sounded much... Different than Kane's usual laugh, granted even his normal laughter still sounded a bit unnerving, even as he spoke... Something was... Off... Something was different "Oh no Daniel... You see that's where I actually have to thank you... You kept pushing and slipping up, you kept saying that date... I've got to give credit to Steph as well... You both have allowed me to reawaken the monster I used to be..." Kane took a pause, getting closer to Daniel who just backed up, Taker still keeping his guard up just in case Kane had tried a surprise attack "I'm finally what I was always meant to be again... Being partners with you, being f r i e n d s with you made me lose sight of that... It gave me these h u m a n emotions... I let myself become w e a k! I'm n o human, I don't f e e l those kinds of pathetic emotions! I AM A MONSTER! A FREAK!" Daniel's eyes widened, he didn't like this... He wouldn't deny, he was definitely becoming a little terrified of Kane but he couldn't let fear get in his way "Kane... You were never w e a k for gaining whatever human emotions you got! You've never been weak, you can literally pick The Big Show up in the air and hold him there! I sure as hell can't do half the things you do! These emotions, whatever it is... Hasn't made you weak in the slightest! You can destroy your opponents with the slightest of ease and not even feel guilty about it in the end!" He thought for a moment before smiling "Remember how we decimated all those guys in the ring? With the chairs? They begged us to stop and yet we wouldn't, you didn't even bat an eye! You kept on hitting them with everything you had!" Kane tilted his head, staring at Daniel intensely, he had thought back to that moment... That... That was a pretty interesting moment... All those pleads for them to stop, the agony those two caused... The d e s t r u c t i o n... For a moment there was a flicker of something aside from rage, pure hatred, or even that sadistic look... Daniel continued on "Oh and! Cody, Sandow, m a n were they practically ASKING for it when they messed with us all those times! We had such good times together... Sure there were ups and downs and still kinda are but I think that can be said about pretty much EVERY tag team that's ever existed! We were and still are the greatest tag team, right partner? Whaddya say? Team Hell No forever?" Daniel grinned and opened his arms, presumably for a hug... Kane stared for a few moments, head tilted before he chuckled and opened his arms slowly "C'mere... P a r t n e r..." Daniel looked so relieved, so happy... Did his talk really work? Did... Did he just get his partner back? He immediately went for the hug, Taker called out for him to stop but it was too late... Kane wrapped his arms around Daniel, it looked like a normal hug and even felt like one... He even gave Daniel a pat on the back. And then in that one singular moment, it all went wrong... Kane's grip tightened and Daniel wheezed "Uh, Kane? You're uh, squeezing a little hard there for a hug?" The other's grip only tightened even more which caused Daniel to struggle and try to fight his way out of it "What the hell?!" Kane let him go and then immediately grabbed him by the throat, preparing for a chokeslam before Undertaker came from behind and began attacking Kane, once Kane was on the ground, he glared over at Daniel "Dammit boy! Don't you ever listen?! You fell for the oldest trick in the damn book!" He growled, Kane giving his brother a swift uppercut which pretty much threw him for a loop, Kane immediately stood and laughed "Oh poor Daniel... Still too naive to see, that human side of me? IT'S GONE! IT'S DEAD AND IT'S NEVER COMING BACK!" He immediately went after Daniel who scooted back "I'VE ALWAYS BEEN A MONSTER! I CARE FOR NO ONE ELSE, NONE OF THE OTHERS, NONE OF THE PEOPLE WHO SHUN FREAKS LIKE ME AWAY AND CERTAINLY. N O T. Y O U..." Daniel winced at that, wow... Something about that, actually... Stung... Kane's words actually got to him this time, he didn't have much time to react to it otherwise as he was picked up by the throat again, grasping and tearing at the hand that was cutting off his air supply, he hoisted his former tag team partner into the air and he finally managed to deliver a chokeslam, after that however, Undertaker came back, unleashing all his fury onto Kane, throwing lefts and rights, kicks, and even a few chokeslams of his own, after this... Stephanie had came out, while they were distracted fighting each other she gasped as she saw Daniel laying on the ground, clutching his throat, she immediately came running over to check on him, usually she'd be more than happy to see Daniel in pain but not... Not this time... She noticed there were actually tears coming out of his eyes, she picked him up and he didn't even seem to notice or care about making some remarks to her, she helped him walk away from the fight and back into the arena. Stephanie was tense as she spoke, she didn't want to upset Daniel anymore than he already was "Are... You alright? Is anything broken...?" Daniel just shook his head, not responding at all with words before he suddenly stopped, forcing Stephanie to stop with him, there was tension in the air before he tore away from her grasp and ran back outside, ignoring Steph calling after him to come back, he ran back out and straight towards Kane, this time not even trying to talk with him, he delivered a swift punch to the back of the other's head and then proceeded to tackle him to the ground, delivering punches left and right as The Undertaker stopped dead in his tracks and looked on, Daniel didn't let up in the slightest, he got off of Kane and as the other sat up, he immediately delivered some of his infamous 'Yes Kicks', he didn't exactly have a crowd of people to chant yes as he did them but that didn't matter right now, he was entirely fixated on Kane right now, he had even forgotten that Taker was even present right now. Kane couldn't deny, he was thoroughly surprised by Daniel's sudden comeback, by his sudden attacks and kicks, after he was finished, Kane sat up however and immediately fought back, he grinned at Daniel's expression, it was a mixture of hurt and even some sorrow "Aww... What's wrong Daniel? Did I hurt your pathetic little feelings? Were my words too harsh for you?!" His former partner didn't speak, he just continued to fight on with everything he had, Kane returned this meanwhile Undertaker just watched on, sure he had started this match but he could tell... Daniel needed to do this more so than he did, he'd let the two of them fight it out... The two former friends battled it out, giving it all they could, Daniel had eventually managed to put Kane on the ground again and he finally spoke "You want to be a monster? Fine! I'll treat you like a damn monster! Except the difference here is I. am. not. afraid. of. MONSTERS!" He walked over and grabbed a kendo stick, repeatedly proceeding to hit the other over, and over, and over, and over again with the weapon. Kane was getting to the point of exhaustion, like it or not... He still had some humanity in him, some human-like qualities, he was already worn down from fighting his brother earlier... Daniel however had p l e n t y of stamina left, he had plenty of fight left to give, he had hit Kane so hard that the kendo stick actually broke! He threw the broken stick to the side and grabbed Kane and dragged him over to the grave, Taker continued to look on, he had to admit... He was impressed by Daniel, despite being so offensive and aggressive, he had managed to mostly keep control over this fight, however it was still far from over... Despite Kane's exhaustion becoming apparent, he had a lot of resilience, it'd take more than a mere kendo stick to put him down... As Daniel had managed to push him into the grave, Kane was standing up in it, this frustrated Bryan to no ends as he tried to punch him to knock him down, he never thought he'd see the day again where he fights who he considered his best friend... He did have hope, hope that this would knock some sense into the other, he was just desperate at this point, he needed to do something and talking clearly wouldn't work. Daniel just had to remember... This wasn't his best friend Kane, this was the Monster Kane... This was something entirely different than what his best friend was, sure, he could be a monster to others... but never to Daniel, they were partners through thick and thin, the toughest of battles... But right now... They were bitter enemies, it's funny... It almost feels like when they first started out as a tag team, all the fighting and shouting... Daniel shook his head, he couldn't afford to be distracted right now, he continued to punch at Kane who eventually gave the other a swift and hard uppercut, he climbed out of the grave as Daniel was dazed by the hit and then proceeded to take control of the fight, he glanced over at Undertaker who was still observing, it was clear Taker wouldn't interfere, but... The Undertaker had his reasons for not doing so, he knew Daniel didn't want any help, just like he wouldn't want any help in a fight of his... No, he knew that Daniel had to battle his own demons, so he wouldn't intervene. Kane then focused back on his former partner and began to assault him, punches, kicks, chokeholds, and even using weapons, Daniel was laying on the ground in agony at this point, his body just took way too much, more than it needed... Kane then picked him up and slung him over his shoulder, carrying him to the grave and staring Undertaker down as he did so, the deadman still did not interfere... Even if Daniel was to be buried, he wouldn't interfere... Kane had threw Daniel into the grave who was still writhing in agony, being thrown definitely didn't help that, and then Kane grabbed the shovel and began shoveling the dirt into the hole, even though this grave originally meant for his brother, Daniel had brought this upon himself... So he'll gave the other what he wanted, at first... It looked as though Daniel was finished, but after a few minutes... He immediately stood up, pushing the dirt off of himself and delivering another hit that stunned Kane and made him drop the shovel, Daniel quickly grabbed the shovel, wincing in pain... His body felt like it was on fire from the abuse it had took, but he couldn't let Kane win! He climbed out of the grave and waited, shovel in hand and the moment Kane turned around... Boom! Daniel used the shovel to hit him over the head, however... Daniel's look of determination, look of triumph quickly faded into one of sheer terror as Kane didn't go down... The other was looking down and then slowly lifted his head up and stared at Daniel, those menacing eyes boring deep into his soul, he made no advances towards him so Daniel took this opportunity to strike him again with the shovel, again, it didn't seem to effect him in the slightest! This made Kane advance towards the other who instantly began backing up, it was like a predator closing in on its prey... Daniel screamed in frustration and immediately tried to hit the other again but this time Kane had caught the shovel and tore it from Daniel's grasp, throwing it off to the side "Oh Daniel... You'll have to try harder than that if you want to put this monster down..." He smirked, advancing towards Daniel who immediately dodged the incoming attack, he was becoming absolutely exhausted, just dodging the next few attacks instead of fighting back, he just wanted his friend back... He just wanted all this to end so things could go back to normal. Why did he have to continue on with that stupid date? Why did he have to push like that? Why did he let Kane... Give into those memories, those thoughts especially! He could've done something, ANYTHING to prevent this! And Stephanie... She caused all this nonsense in the first place! While he was lost in thought and distracted, Kane had managed to land a punch straight into Daniel's jaw which made him stumble and fall backwards, he didn't get back up immediately this time, he didn't even fight back now as Kane began to land more and more hits on him, however after awhile of this the monster paused and glared down at Daniel "Why aren't you fighting back anymore? Aww... Is the poor little human tired now? Well don't worry, I'll give you a p e r f e c t little resting place soon!" Daniel could feel the burning in his body grow stronger as each hit landed however he didn't fight back, he was growing tired of the fighting... This had confused Kane as he picked Daniel up by the throat and held him upright, he wasn't applying any pressure, he tilted his head as he stared into the other's tired eyes. "Fight back dammit! Or do you just want to let me win? You want the suffering to end? Because if you do... Well I have some bad news for you then, Daniel..." Daniel looked into the other's eyes "I didn't want to fight you in the first place... You just left me no choice... Kane, I... We were best friends... I just want things to go back to normal, us, together causing destruction and decimating our opponents... Instead of... Instead of decimating each other..." He spoke hoarsely, watching as Kane's expression twisted into a sneer "Pathetic..." He began, meanwhile Taker had slowly began making his way over, Kane slowly began to squeeze Daniel's throat, the other had tried to at least struggle his way out of the hold, and then just as Undertaker was about to strike his brother, Kane moved out of the way and this caused Taker to hit Daniel instead who instantly collapsed to the ground, Kane seemed to notice this and he stopped dead in his tracks to stare at his brother and then Daniel, something about that had caught his attention, Undertaker noticed his brother's expression falter slightly and that gave him some ideas... Taker slowly looked down at Daniel and picked him up, thankfully he wasn't unconscious just yet, he mumbled into the other's ear so Kane couldn't hear "I've got a plan, boy... Follow my lead..." He began to assault Daniel who didn't understand any of that, Kane merely tilted his head and watched in confusion, just what was his brother doing...? Daniel was just as confused as Kane, he tried to fight back against Taker, he wasn't just going to stand there and take a beating after all, despite how much pain he was in... Him fighting back didn't work as well as he'd hoped however, and Taker continued to viciously assault him, even insulting him while doing so, all the while he was glancing back at his brother who's expression twitched a little bit at this... Daniel seemed to catch this and he looked over and noticed it as well, suddenly... He had more hope... He had thought back to when Big Show in particular tried to attack him, at first Kane was laughing at his misery but the moment The Big Show had tried to knock him out, Kane instantly came running down and stood face-to-face with the other... Maybe this could work... He gave Undertaker a look and the two nodded at each other, Taker had more so control in this fight than Daniel, but the other would still try to fight back, he couldn't let Kane figure out their plan, meanwhile... Kane was standing there in shock and confusion, he thought for a moment before he realized what he thought was happening and grinned "Well well well... Your little savior has turned into your worst nightmare, now hasn't he, Daniel? Trusting him of all people? You really are pathetic and naive..." Kane crossed his arms and watched as this unfolded before him, he had to admit... While this was amusing to him, something in the back of his head was bothering him... Watching Daniel get beaten up should've been a satisfying feeling! So why did it... Bother him? Tch, he shook his head, the human emotions were just trying to get to him again, trying to trick him... That's all... He wouldn't fall for it again, not this time... He's a monster, always has been and always will be, monsters can't have any human emotions... Taker continued his vicious attack on Daniel, throwing lefts and rights, hitting him in all the spots that Kane had injured, and yet Kane had watched as this onslaught continued, not doing anything about it, he was enjoying himself and struggling to push those thoughts away, Daniel looked towards Taker and whispered "It isn't working...!" Taker shook his head and whispered back "Give it time..." The Undertaker had nodded towards Kane and Daniel looked over, he saw the sadistic grin spread across his face but he also noticed something else was there... And then they continued throwing fists at each other, Daniel had began kicking at Taker, trying his damnedest to fight back because despite this being a plan of The Undertaker's, he knew that Taker wouldn't just go easy on him, no... He'd fight against Daniel with all this might which meant Daniel himself also had to give it his all, after he managed to get Taker down, he walked over and grabbed the shovel, dragging it back over and then he raised it high above his head. Before he could slam it down on his opponent, Taker grabbed him by the throat, causing him to drop the shovel, and as he raised Daniel into the air, something about that made Kane's grin falter, his expression became... almost one of anger, he took a few steps but stopped himself, what was he doing?! He didn't care if Daniel got chokeslammed! He didn't care about the other or anyone else for that matter... He watched on as Taker delivered the chokeslam successfully to his bes... ...F o r m e r... Best friend... And this caused Kane's expression to twitch again, Taker glanced back and noticed this, his plan was working... Kane was doing e x a c t l y what he wanted too, he just needed to really seal the deal but with what... He thought for a moment before he slowly turned around to gaze at Daniel again, watching as the other pathetically grabbed onto him, trying desperately to pull himself up, once Daniel stood up, Taker grabbed him and turned him upside down for the Tombstone Piledriver "This is the end of the line for you, D a n i e l..." Taker was about to deliver his finishing move but Kane came up from behind and spun Undertaker around immediately, he practically tore Daniel away from his brother's grasp and let him fall to the ground, something in Kane had just... Snapped suddenly... Some sort of possessive protective instinct was there and he was glaring daggers at his brother, he stood over Daniel like a protective guard dog, he didn't make any advances towards his brother but it was clear he'd lunge if the other tried to make any moves towards his partner, Taker of course didn't make anymore advances, he just stopped and stood there... Daniel looked up at Kane in pure shock, he was too exhausted to even move at this point, he was afraid to even speak up... He was scared this was just another trick from the monster... Scared that if he spoke up, maybe this plan would be ruined... He just continued to stare, the tension in the air was almost suffocating, Taker then backed off immediately, usually he'd be enraged that someone interrupted his Tombstone but for once, he was actually... Thankful... Kane then looked back at Daniel who flinched at the other's gaze, he was still too terrified to speak, a few moments had passed before Kane turned around and knelt down "...D a n i e l...?" Kane's tone had sounded... Much different than previously. "Are you... Alright...?" He spoke, awkwardly, then again Kane has never been one for comfort or really used to asking if others are alright, Daniel opened his mouth but no words had came out... He was still a little bit scared before he glanced over at Taker who only nodded his head and then relief flooded over Daniel's body ...Well... Somewhat anyways, he looked back at Kane and smiled and began laughing slightly "...I... Is that... You? Is... Is that my best friend...? Or... Are you messin' with me? C'mon man... We..." He coughed and spluttered before continuing "You've already fooled me once, just cut the bullshit if you are..." Kane was silent, this had unnerved Daniel... But then came Kane shaking his head "No... I'm not... I... Daniel, w h a t. did. I. d o?" It wasn't because Kane didn't remember, he did... But he had hoped that maybe it was just... A nightmare, some form of bad dream? That nothing he was seeing right now was real before him... Daniel looked at him and saw the worry and emotions beginning to twist on Kane's face "...Well, where do I even start...?" Daniel paused, before sighing "...I- Look, I don't blame you... You weren't in control of yourself, were you? The demon, the monstrous side took hold of you again, or... Something like that, yeah?" And there went Kane's hope of it all just being a bad dream, so he really did do a l l that... He hurt his tag team partner, he hurt... His best friend... He let his emotions, his memories, his thoughts all get to him... He wouldn't have cared about hurting anyone else but why out of EVERYONE did it have to be Daniel?! He couldn't... He just... He clutched his head and backed away, he let out a scream of pure frustration, this was all too much... Undertaker had turned and proceeded to leave, he would take this opportunity to go talk with Stephanie while those two worked through this... Daniel had tried to stand up but he just couldn't muster up the strength or energy which just made Kane feel even more guilt, how could Daniel NOT blame him?! After everything he did... All the pain he caused, when he was just... He didn't want to hurt Daniel, at least, not after becoming friends with him... He had even wanted to protect the other despite him getting on Kane's nerves sometimes. Daniel watched as Kane began pacing back and forth, clutching at his head and breathing heavily, he was a bit tense as he looked on, considering this is what Kane usually does before his anger gets the best of him... But Kane didn't look angry at Daniel, no, not this time... He looked more so angry at himself and upon looking closer, Daniel's eyes widened... Kane was... crying, he had tears pouring down his mask and this was a complete shock for Daniel, Kane was usually NEVER the type to cry, and even if he did, Daniel would expect that he'd go back to a place where nobody could find him until he was finished... This is the first time Daniel has EVER seen his partner cry... He was silent for a moment "Kane... C'mon, look at me buddy..." Kane continued pacing around before he stopped dead in his tracks and slowly turned his head towards Daniel to stare at him, seeing all the bruises, the scars, and even the blood on Daniel's body, knowing it was caused by him bothered him immensely, usually he wouldn't care if someone was battered and beaten, but Daniel was a different story. "I can promise you that... I don't blame you, in the slightest... You weren't in control of yourself, all the anger you felt, all those memories suddenly rushing back, and even those thoughts coming back to you... It all overwhelmed you, didn't it? I know you wouldn't have done any of those things... Had you been fully in control of yourself..." Kane listened as Daniel spoke before shaking his head "Daniel, it doesn't change the fact I hurt you, hell I damn near KILLED you! How can you NOT blame me?! Things could've gotten so much worse..." Daniel cut him off "But things didn't! And it wasn't like you WANTED to do those things, right? You didn't actually WANT to hurt me, did you?" Kane shook his head "Hell no! I mean... Listen, I know we've had our arguments, plenty of disagreements and we've sure as hell had some pretty bad fights with each other but... I never WANTED to hurt you, NOT intentionally and damn sure not on purpose... I actually consider you a..." He paused, looking Daniel in the eyes before continuing "A f r i e n d... A best friend even..." The other had taken a moment before speaking up "I'm sorry... What was that? I didn't quite catch that?" Kane continued to stare Daniel straight in the eyes, repeating himself a second time "I said... I consider you a best friend, Daniel..." The other smirked and chuckled "I heard you the first time... I just wanted to hear those words again..." Kane stared at the other in disbelief now, before sighing and grinning, this time his grin definitely had no malicious intent behind it but it still did look a bit unsettling... "You are... Unbelievable, you know that? Even after everything I just did to you... You STILL care about me, you don't blame me, you don't even want to run away or stay away from me... You really are too stubborn for your own good, Daniel..." He chuckled before Bryan spoke up "Okay first of all, yes, yes I do... I can't just NOT care about my best friend! Second, I am and always will be stubborn you big red softie..." Kane glared at those words and sighed in irritation "...Don't make me regret my words already, it's too early for that... And do NOT call me that e v e r again..." Daniel rolled his eyes "Whatever you say..." He whispered the next part to himself "Big red softie..." Kane crossed his arms "I'm sorry, WHAT was that last part?" Daniel shook his head quickly despite that making him wince "Nothing, nothing! Don't worry about it... I'm just... Glad everything's back to normal... Ya know? This has been a wild ride... From start to finish... I wonder how Steph's doing, I can't even imagine what your brother is doing or saying to her right now..." Kane nodded "After the shit she started? And considering he, of all people, had to come out here and get involved? I don't imagine it's too pretty... Honestly though? She deserves e v e r y b i t of whatever she's getting..." Speaking of them... Back at Stephanie's office, Taker was in there, arms crossed and glaring at the couple "If I EVER have to deal with this kind of bullshit from you two again, the next time you see me... WILL be your last, I'll drag the both of YOU down to hell instead, do y'all understand?" Hunter and Stephanie nodded, Stephanie sighed "Taker, I'm sor-" He cut her off by shaking his head "I ain't the one you both need to apologize too... You KNOW who you must apologize too..." And with that, the lights went out, once they came back on, Taker was gone... Back outside... It was silent now, it was awhile before Daniel finally spoke up "Can we get outta here now? I'd like to go back to our locker room and rest up for a bit..." Kane nodded and was about to proceed off before Daniel called out "...Kane?" The other turned around "Yes?" There was a long pause before Daniel grinned "...I literally can't move... You got me pretty badly, and Taker... Going through with his plan, that took... Everything out of me..." Kane sighed and nodded, he walked back over and scooped Daniel up bridal style, being careful for once to not agitate the other's wounds "...If you tell anyone I cried or said any of the things I did, I will eviscerate you... Do you understand?" Daniel smiled "Will not..." As Kane began walking back inside "Will too..." Daniel responded with yet another "Will not...!" His best friend also responded with another "Will too!" And the two went back and forth with 'will not's' and 'will too's' as they headed back inside, Kane heading straight to their locker room, once they got there, he laid Daniel down on one of the benches as gently as he could. Kane then sat beside him on the other bench, he wasn't going to just leave him there, anyone else could come in and easily take advantage of his partner's injuries and he wasn't about to let that happen, Daniel laid there in silence for awhile, before he noticed Kane's deadpan expression, he didn't know if he was just sitting there and thinking or if something else was going on... "Is something wrong?" Kane looked over and he sighed "Thinkin' about everything that happened... How we wouldn't have even went through that... Had it not been for Stephanie starting all this mess..." And then he was fiddling with his glove, pulling it up and he began clenching his fist, this made Daniel sigh "Yeah... Just, calm down... I know what she did, just... I'm sure Taker got that sorted out, so we don't have to worry about he-" He was cut off by a knock at the door which immediately made Kane stand up, he was in a defensive position and standing close to Daniel who called out "Who's there?" And then came a feminine voice "Daniel...? Can... Can we come in, please?" Kane glared at the door, he wanted to go out there and tear them apart already but Daniel shook his head and mouthed 'Don't' There was a long pause before Daniel spoke up "Come on in!" The door slowly opened and the moment they saw inside, the pair froze and their eyes went wide, they were not expecting to see Kane, especially not him standing protectively over Daniel, Triple H was the one to speak up after an awkward amount of silence and staring "I...Is... Is he... You know...?" Daniel nodded "He's fine, at least, he is now... No thanks to you two..." There was some bitterness behind his tone as he spoke, of course... Steph and Hunter couldn't exactly be mad at him, it was absolutely fair on his part, Stephanie and Hunter then stepped inside the room, keeping a good distance from Daniel because Kane just had his eyes fixated on them, he wasn't speaking at all which just made it more nerve wracking... Stephanie had taken a seat on one of the benches, Hunter sitting right beside her, Steph then cleared her throat "Are... You alright...? You look pretty... um..." Daniel cut her off before she could finish "Battered? Beaten? Bloodied? Why the hell do you think I'm alright after all that? After all you caused!" He was definitely getting angry now, he even tried to sit up which resulted in him cringing in pain. Kane looked back at him "Daniel, lay down, and don't move... You're going to make the pain worsen..." He then looked at Stephanie, an intense glare on his face, how he wanted to just chokeslam her through the very concrete at this point, he wanted to chokeslam her to hell, he'd love to do the same thing to Hunter as well... And when it came to those two? He definitely wouldn't feel any guilt or remorse... Stephanie was silent after that, looking down and sighing "...Kane, Daniel... I would like to... To formally apologize... For all I've caused, I didn't... Think it'd go this far, I know apologizing won't fix it but-" Kane was the one surprisingly to interrupt "No, apologizing WON'T fix it, you did ALL of this, LOOK at what you made me do to my tag team partner! My best friend! You used t h a t date of all things to provoke me, to turn me back..." He was breathing heavily and he had started to approach Stephanie which made Hunter rise from his seat, he wouldn't just let him doing anything to her, that was his wife! No matter what she had done... Daniel spoke up "Kane! Just... Sit down and take some deep breaths..." It took the other a few moments to listen before he sighed and walked back over, sitting near Daniel and at this point Stephanie was trying to hide the tears going down her face and her sobs, Daniel sighed "Listen, Steph... What you did was way out of line, your little stunt even got The Undertaker involved, and I imagine he came back and talked to you about it, but either way... What's done is done, and honestly... I don't know about Kane but I'm ready to just... Move on from all this, will I forgive you? I just... Don't know if I can yet... Will Kane forgive you?" He glanced over at his tag team partner who locked eyes with him "...Something about that look in his eye tells me it's a hell no..." Stephanie nodded "I... I understand Daniel, what I did was foolish, and it was not what was best for business... But... You know what... IS best for business...?" Both of them glanced over at her quizzically, she paused and cleared her throat "Well... Before we came in here, me and Hunter were... Discussing what had happened... And... Well, I think we can both agree that, when you are back in good health, whenever the both of you want... That tag title match is still out there... You can still accept it if you want, I mean it's the very LEAST I can do after all I've caused..." Daniel and Kane then looked at each other, staring for a few moments before nodding and then the chant of "Yes! Yes! Yes" Although Daniel couldn't move his arms for it, he could still chant it loud and proud, this made Stephanie smile "Alright then it's official... Team Hell No versus Rollins and Reigns for the Tag Team Titles! ...Of course for now, please... Try and get some rest, I'll send some doctors in to further assist in patching you up..." She stood up along with Hunter "Good luck, I'm sure the two of you will e v i s c e r a t e Rollins and Reigns and win those titles" And with that, she and Hunter walked out of the room, Daniel and Kane both gave each other grins, they couldn't wait for this... Well... At least now not only did Daniel have his tag team partner, his best friend back... Now he's got tag titles to look forward to! This was going to be great, he just knew it... A lot of time had passed since that day, and here they were, Daniel back in tip top shape, in perfect health which he was more than happy about but also it was the day of their match... He watched as Kane came into the locker room and the pair locked eyes with each other, Kane was the one to speak up "Daniel, I just want to let you know... That when we DO win those titles... That /I\ am going to be the tag team champions..." Daniel looked at Kane, he hid the grin that threatened to spread across his face and made a look of mock anger, he took a moment before shouting "NO! NO! NO! IT'S M E WHO'S GONNA BE THE TAG TEAM CHAMPIONS!" Kane shook his head, also putting on a look of mock anger "IS NOT!" Daniel then retorted back "IS TOO!" And the two went back and forth once more with that before they just couldn't hide the grins any longer, they both gave each other a hug, still a little awkwardly and then pat each other on the back "Glad everything's back to normal... C'mon, let's go show Rollins and Reigns who their messin' with!" Daniel exclaimed, once Kane nodded, the pair were off... Off to fight the Tag Team Champions and then... They themselves, would go on to win the match and become the new Tag Team Champions, it was truly the happiest of days... For Team Hell No... (Imma be honest with y'all I only chose Rollins n Reigns bc I knew they held those titles at one point lmao but either way its done!! I got some things to say,

1: Imma spare y'all the bad ending

2: This project like, at first I wasn't even going to try writing for these characters tbh it was just gonna be on my wwe 2k14 game and thats it but I couldn't have done NEAR the shit I did had I not opened up my notepad and tried it out 3: it might not be fully in character or kayfabe compliant whatever you call it but honestly? I dont care- im proud of this story nonetheless and I mean hell this is my first time writing with these characters, I can only improve over time I guess but anyways thats enough of me ramblin I hope y'all enjoyed this, it was a delight to work on)

#My Story #wwe #wwe kane #wwe undertaker #stephanie mcmahon #triple h #daniel bryan #world wrestling entertainment #team hell no #trigger warning: violence

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tandytoaster · 5 years ago

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Last night I was looking at my old old phone for funny miitomo pictures to show my gf, and of course on that old phone, were a bunch of pictures and notes of a lot of traumatizing things 😬I know better now to not have hindsight bias towards myself but it hurts. I remembered how i felt and how i acted and i was so ill. I was so sick. There was nothing right about how I felt and I wish the people in my life did a better job at trying to save me instead of getting mad and confused. I was SICK. I was sick because I was taken advantage of and raped and I believed i deserved it. Immediately after I realized that I was being assaulted, I convinced myself otherwise and I became angry at the entire world and I cut Christina out of my life. CHRISTINA. I felt abandonded by everybody and I made it so no one else could get in. I'm so mad at the guidance counsellors who got mad at me, the "you're only upset because you're not getting what you want", the constant "are you sure you're not being taken advantage of", "you guys should really use a condom" THATS NOT MY FAULT I ASKED AND HE REFUSED ++!!!!!!

And i knew it from the very beginning, the moment he took control of my life i knew something wrong was happening and that i didnt want it. I never trusted him but then i convinced myself that he did and he cared and that this was what i wanted. I'm so angry about what happened about a whole year i lost to feeling suicidal with every intent to carry it out, being hurt so badly and people just telling me "he's a dickhead why do you like him" You Are Not Trauma Informed Nor Did You Present Yourself In A Way That Seemed Like You Cared. CODY TELLING ME THAT TRISTAN WAS BAD WAS NEVER A "Cordelia. I'm worried for you. Are you okay?" IT WAS "LOL I HATE TRISTAN I LIKE BOTHERHING HIM HE FUCKIN SUX LOL UR FEELINGS DONT MATTER EITHER BUT HES A DICKHEAD 2 U AND U DESERVE BETTER"

Idk idk idk idk idk idk i just want it all to leave these memories serve no purpose. I figured out why i acted the way i did back then now i don't need these memories anymore

#noop nooping #rape mention -

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no-no-no-ahhhh · 5 years ago

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I'm having bad anxiety so I'm just going to answer these questions rn

Okay so when having anxiety I over think and I barely have any friends so I thought if using these questions to keep my mind off things and it kinda works it's also why some are long because I'm trying my best to think about other things then my stress. Maybe some of yall can try this if you want. Could help idk

Questions belong to @tr33-g1rl

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?

Soda cans

2. chocolate bars or lollipops?

I LOVE chocolate bro

3. bubblegum or cotton candy?

Cotton candy because let's all be honest bubble gum doesn't even tast good so that just leaves texture and cotton candy dissolves abs you could always have normal gum

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

Some would say nice hard working smart and dyslexic but that's what they say not actually think

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

I've never really had the soda bottles but for now Ig soda cans because I feel like it keeps it fresher then the plastic and plastic is bad

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?

Umm out of all these ig tomboy my style that I try to go for more rn is kinda like bille eyelash baddie style

7. earbuds or headphones?

Def earbuds cuz headphones if left on too long start hurting and squeezing my head

8. movies or tv shows?

TV shows 100% I cant consum media for long (my anxiety)so cartoons are the best for me because they're usually 11 minutes and light hearted

9. favorite smell in the summer?

Hmm this is good question in my head summer looks so good ahh but I've never really had a sent for it cuz the past few years I've been in my room but I love the sun oh and you know when your about to go in the pool and you can smell the Clorox mixed with the sun block and that smell just smells like a soft nice energy and there is this one tropical sent havent really smelt it in years I remember the one time I got to smell it was in middle school in the girls locker room so ig it was a perfume idk if it was really associated with summer or it was just tropical perfume my mom could spray on anytime of the year

10. game you were best at in p.e.?

Lol none I hated p.e I was also pretty tall at the time so people expected me to play but I just wanted to hide in the corner

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

Well I don't really like breakfast that much I think food in the morning makes me nauseous but I have to eat it cuz I can't eat school lunch food cuz that shit is nasty but breakfast school food is 😉 so I usually get banana bread and good ass duch chocolate milk

12. name of your favorite playlist?

Por Vida is one of my favorite albums if that counts

13. lanyard or key ring?

I hate things being around my neck so key ring

14. favorite non-chocolate candy?

Mexican candy

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

The outsiders

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

Your butt relaxing ig and not hunched over idk how some people do their work not hunched over like how do you see what your working on

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

These white Adidas with 3 halo strips and tan boots

18. ideal weather?

To wear you can soak in the sun but not have it burn you right when you go outside and kinda breezy not a fan of the cold and whatever weather that isn't effected by global warming is the best

19. sleeping position?

I always try not to sleep on my back cuz then they say that the demons come for you

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

I have a lot of journals and books to write

21. obsession from childhood?

My little pet shops, barbies, fnaf, teen titans, monster high dolls, beanie babes, never brats or the ever after high dolls cuz I had a fear of big heads as a kid

22. role model?

Em their are not many people to look up to these days but Quenlin Blackwell is even though she struggles with depression and seasonal depression she still is a qween love her

23. strange habits?

24. favorite crystal?

Hmm maybe amethyst one of the only ones I have

25. first song you remember hearing?

No idea

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?

Be in the sun

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?

Not have the seasonal depression come for me

38. lemonade or tea?

Lemonade bro tea is kinda weak and for BrItish blocks , but today I did have a bunch of lemons and they got me sick cuz I dont have a healthy balanced diet if anybody knows simple healthy recipes that have little to no cooking pls share

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie?

I've never actually have had lemon pie but I have been thinking about making pie. I've had peacon pie and water burger apple pie and McDonald's apple pie and I think another fast food pie but I can't remember the flavor. I know the other flavor exist because my mom order a different pie flavor from me once and she said we can both try each others. Maybe it was lemon. I think lemon tast is quit forgettable thow idk I always put other things on my lemon and lemonade has all that sugar and speaking of Britain I think they carbonate their lemons . But I think I've only had lemon cake 2 times , so if the cake

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

School is lame and that's on period pooh

41. last person you texted?

Umm this girl I barely know and I'm going to leave it at that cuz this story makes me kinda sad and worried and I'm answering these questions to avoid that

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?

Hmm good question , I think jacket because they are bigger and girl Jean's have the pockets different to make the booty look better and sometimes that leads to uncomfortable pockets and front pockets barely exit for girls and jackets sometimes have those secret pockets only you have assess too like the ones on the inside and jacket pockets are bigger

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket?

1. hoodies are good for when you dont have a bra on and they come with one BIG pocket and you dont need to worry about a shirt

2. Leather jackets are for cool kidz and carry a nice vibe and still thick enough to keep you warm , but you can't really get them wet I think so you can't wash em , but they can come with cool designs on the back but their better fitted on perfectly on a person and if you grow they just look odd on you then you have to buy another and that's not fun

3.Bomber jacket , it's a whole style but one I try to pull of but just cant do it well

4.Cardigans kinda umm not a fan but good if your wearing a dress that's shows your shoulders and you are insecure about that being shown. Remember when somewhere in the 2000s they told us that cardigans where so easy to put on and throw more into your outfit so people bought quit a few. I do

5.I feel like jeans jackets aren't warm enough maybe their more for the summer?

44. favorite scent for soap?

Hmm maybe something tropical or just those cool lavender ones that have oats that's cool I like oats in my soap

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?

I hate sci-fi uhhhg and super hero kinda ties in with that so fantasy and when reading fan fic just sweet simple domestic fluff

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in?

Hmm not sure but the shirt has to be soft. I only experience soft shirts like that few times in my life

47. favorite type of cheese?

Mexican cheese and blue cheese uhg and mozzarella with that crust, yum🤤

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be? Errrum maybe a watermelon cuz they are very hydrated. Oh and watermelon with the big black seeds is better then that soul less watermelon

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

None dawg I really need to find one but I do have a lot written down In a book

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

Omg my aunt had some funny looking ass dogs I couldn't stop laughing. One of her dogs hate me tho now

51. current stresses? I dont want to talk about it cuz I dont want to worry but I was crying for more then 6 hours probably 8 when I think about it and then today as well and it's so bad I'm not even going to school

52. favorite font? I like the one kali uchis uses in one of her albums I think it's called fairy tell or something

53. what is the current state of your hands?pretty dry cuz I wash them alot and kinda long nails cuz of genetics

54. what did you learn from your first job?

I havent had a first job

55. favorite fairy tale?

Hmmm something with the tooth fairy

56. favorite tradition?

Idk holidays cuz I get school off

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?

Depression and I would say anxiety but no

58. four talents you’re proud of having?

I dont have any talents

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

Uuuuyg idk too stressed to really think that I dont even know what type of video game I would be in

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

nothing stressful maybe something calm like a farm anime, some light magic, pokemon things like that

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

I was never ment to live life like a sim - megan the stallion

62. seven characters you relate to?

Anybody with anxiety, kinda pearl from Steven universe, the nerdy part of dipper from gravity falls , Roman from sander sides if virgil too sense he has anxiety okay and that's all I can think of I think early I said I dont really watch media or stuff so yeah

63. five songs that would play in your club?

Gosolina kali uchis songs and bank account that's all I can think about rn

64. favorite website from your childhood?64. favorite website from your childhood?

Y8 brooo oh and there was Disney or Nickelodeon websites you know that show with the hands and they had the googly eyes they had a g as new for that loved it and for Disney they had zack and cody games on their website and it's not a website but the one thing on windows that would work without wifi you know and you could make cakes and give them faces and try matching the cards

65. any permanent scars?

One time a cat scratched me more the like 8 years ago and I can still faintly see the mark

66. favorite flower(s)?

The one that grows on the cactus

67. good luck charms?

I know a rabbits foot is one and 4 leaf clovers,and markipliers flannel. I sadly dont have any personal good luck charms

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried?

I don't want to talk about bad foods rn cut the cameras

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned?

idk I think I can vaguely remember every facts orgin that I know

70. left or right handed?

Basic right handed but my dad used to be left but then the school forced him to be right

71. least favorite pattern?

Anything 80s uhg that shit is disgusting and terrifying

72. worst subject?

Chemistry but I just got out of that so that's fun

73. favorite weird flavor combo?

People day hot cheetos and sour cream is odd but I like it . I would wat some rn but I think I got sick cuz of my poor diet so I'm not. Someone pls suggested simple easy foods for your girl who can cook

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen?

1 I am big baby

75. when did you lose your first tooth?

I dont know

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

Tater tots are good and fries

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill?

Idk no green thumb

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store?

Idk ig coffee

80. earth tones or jewel tones?

Jewel tones

81. fireflies or lightning bugs?

Theirs a difference?

82. pc or console?

Console it's just simpler

83. writing or drawing?

Uhhheg ig drawing I'm bad at grammar

84. podcasts or talk radio?

Podcast, podcast are just more plans out then talk radio and talk radio is a morning thing and I'm not the biggest fan of mornings

85. fairy tales or mythology?

Fairy tales mythology kinda ruff ya know

86. cookies or cupcakes?

Cookies their just more sturdy and their is always normal cake

87. your greatest fear?

Tooo many things and I'm having an anxiety attack right now so like no

88. your greatest wish?

Well it's cute and all idk to live peacefully is one part the other parts a secret for now

X.o.x.o gossip girl ya know ya love me

89. who would you put before everyone else?

Umm maybe myself Idk

90. luckiest mistake?

One time my mom ordered a foam sord for my brother and a real one came. It was some anime sword

91. boxes or bags?

Bags cuz they look cute and you can take em every where with you. Disposable I would have to say boxes tho because its less damaging to the environment

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?

Sunlight is so warm and it fills something inside of me makes me feel cozy

Lamps are great for when sleeping and your scared of the dark

Fairy lights are cute but are they neccessary

Overhead lights are good for when you just need light in your life

Am I the only one who gets sad and sometimes cant clean if it's dark in the house?

94. favorite season?

Summer I think. I know it's harder for me to function in the winter cuz depression but then summer is anxiety sometimes ya know

95. favorite app on your phone?

Littetly no idea I don't really love/like the things on my phone if their more distractions or time wasters but I do love how I can search up useful things on YouTube to try to calm down my anxiety and I was definitely not a fan of tumblr at all but I kind have made it my safe place a bit

96. desktop background?

Well the computers my dad's so it has deadpool on i

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized?

Barely 2 ,I am kinda a dummy sorry unggv

98. favorite historical era?

Well idk heehaww cowboys?

#trifle utters #misspelling because ya girls pretty stressed #im just trying to cope rn so dont cap on me

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ansonmount · 6 years ago

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I seriously think I might be depressed and/ or have anxiety. I have never been to a therapist and I can't talk about this to my friends (they barely are my friends anymore) so I'm kinda worried it's gonna get worse. I'm afraid to go to a therapist because I don't know what to tell them and what if they brush it off or they diagnose me wrongly.

It’s common to get both anxiety and depression. I have major depression and generalised anxiety disorder along with borderline personality disorder so i can relate.

But seriously, start therapy and or meds as soon as you can. Because things can get worse. I struggled with my mental illness from about the age of ten till i was like 18 and a half. and thats a long time to go without support of any kind. Honestly, it was too long to wait. I think dealing with my issues alone for like the entirety of my teenage years actually fucked me pretty hard.

Is misdiagnosis possible? Yes. Everything is possible. But you can’t let that rule you. If you have the choice, you can search the doctors you’ll see. If you dont feel a diagnosis is right, you can always seek a 2nd or 3rd opinion. Sometimes you do end up self diagnosing, esp if you have something a bit more than just normal depression or anxiety - in fact I was the one that realised my bpd, but I struggled to get doctors to listen to me, so i said fuck it, and emailed a local psychologist and got an appointment and within 6 months she confirmed it for me. I still see her now two years after because she’s such a stable and consistant person in my life - like I’ve missed one appointment in 2 years. And im a chronic cancel-er of appointments.

There’s a few things about seeking help or therapy, and these two things are: you can leade a horse to water but you can’t make them drink. Therapy is hard work. I can’t gloss over how important it is but it’s so hard, esp when you have trauma, but recovery will always be worth it. It’s not linear and there will be moments, I mean I’ve been in therapy t various degrees since 2014, and I was suicidal, again, last night. The second thing is honesty. Therapy is hard enough, but when you refuse to let yourself open up because you’re anxious or something, it defeats the point of going to therapy. If you feel like you need therapy or help, it should be a priority to open up to whoever you see, because you’ll be living your truth finally and dropping the “nothings wrong” mask because thats what allows depression and other mental illnesses to thrive.

If people ever give you shit for being mentally ill: Well you know where the trash bin is, because you absolutely do not need toxic people like that in your life. The thing is, for not knowing what to say…say everything. Often they’ll ask things like when are you born, your address, your family history. And then from there, they’ll start to make notes. In my experience, you talk. about everything and anything. I’m at the point in my therapy I talk about big shit, and then the next moment I’m going on about how much I love Cody Fern. Like esp once you have a good relationship with a therapist or psychologist, just talking about everything helps. Like this person isn’t going to be your best friend, but they’re there for you to just rant to. I actually believe everyone should be in therapy. Because aving a 3rd person to ask about things, like how your best friend hurt you, or if you’re having self-esteem issues, all of that is so important to talk about. I feel like im just rambling, but seriously, try and seek someone out. Don’t let depression and anxiety rule your life.For more context, from mid 2012 to the start of 2014, I actually spent all that time housebound. I never left the house. I only left to see the doctor and my boyfriend had to go with me. I couldn’t eat in public. I felt like everyone was watching me. I’d have near panic attacks just being on one of the busiest streets in my city. The reality? No one was looking at me. No one cared. But in my mind, I believed they did. I dont remember people i see on the street? why did i think people would remember me or my fat ass??? But thats the thing about anxiety, is that you truely believe these things, and its not easy to overcome that on your own. These days I barely leave the house but thats because throughout all my health issues, from when I was 16, I actually developed chronic fatigue syndrome, so these days, my anxiety is barely an issue, the cfs can fuck off though.

So you are not alone at all. There will always be someone who understands. But do try to seek help because living with these demons alone isn’t something anyone should feel like they’re stuck doing. If you ever need positive mental health things to look at, I have this tag: https://codylangdon.tumblr.com/tagged/positive

#ask poss #Poss answers

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worldwrestlingfanatic · 6 years ago

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Classic Review: Royal Rumble 2006

This is definitely a "spur of the moment" idea for me to review. I have no idea what brought me to wanna watch and review this pay-per-view. As I'm watching the intro while typing this I dont remember any of the feuds or big matches going into this event so I've got an open mind going into the pay-per-view.

Kid Kash (C) vs. Funaki vs. Jamie Noble vs. Nunzio vs. Paul London vs. Gregory Helms

This match feels so weird. A match name so complicated and long I didn't even bother including it in this review, its pretty much just a six man free for all with the first person to score a pinfall or submission winning the match. To me it kinda just feels like around this time the cruiserweight title picture didn't have much going on but WWE still wanted to include all these guys so they were just all put together last minute to make this match. A few quick notes, Jamie Noble looks a bit odd to me in any attire other than jean shorts and it's insane to me how Paul London wasn't better utilized. Hes easily my favorite in this match and arguably the most talented. That being said, Paul London did attempt a shooting star press off the top rope into the crowd of opponents and he kinda just missed everyone and landed face first on the outside of the ring. Another quick note, does anyone actually remember Kid Kash or anything he did in WWE? I knew of him before watching this but other than this match I can't name anything he did during his time with the WWE. Gregory Helms ended up winning by pinning Funaki. The cruiserweight championship, a smackdown exclusive title was won by a Raw superstar. Not only that but he kinda had the lowest amount of impact in this match. He hit a neck breaker on Paul London off the top rope but other than that he was kind of a nonfactor. Last quick note, on commentary they mentioned that Gregory Helms used to be the Hurricane. That's crazy to me, that's like if WWE referred to Stardust as Cody Rhodes. Weird way to start the show. Not boring, not overly exciting, just... weird.

Odd Rant: I dont typically speak on backstage segments in these reviews but watching Vince McMahon interact/touch on the "Divas" was pretty uncomfortable to witness, I feel the further I go back to do these reviews, the more common stuff like this is going to be and I'm not looking forward to it. But in this same segment we got to see a young Randy Orton and that's always great.

Mickie James vs. Ashley - Special Referee - Trish Stratus

Ah yes, the storyline of unrequited love between Mickie James and Trish Stratus. Not too sure what role Ashley plays in this storyline but I'm guessing it isn't because she was super over with the fans at the time considering the crowd was pretty silent as Ashley made her way to the ring. I was confused seeing Trish be the special referee of this match since at the time she was the womans champion. Just odd to see a champion at a ppv with her championship but not defending her title. Mickie James gets the win and immediately tries to celebrate with/hug Trish but was just met with Trish not wanting anything to do with her. Neither Mickie or Ashley were really.... the greatest wrestler at this point in their careers to say the least.

Odd Rant: its increasingly getting more uncomfortable to watch Vince interact with the "Divas". If we're going to keep cutting here between matches I'm pretty worried how far these segments will go

JBL vs. The Boogeyman

The man who ate worms for real for the sake of the character who gave me creeps as a kid taking on the corrupt wall street millionaire. Wrestling has certainly given me plenty to talk about over the years. I cant even imagine how people who faced the Boogeyman planned for these matches. "Oh you're going to spit a worm into my mouth at this point in the match, okay sounds good". The Boogeyman was more entertainer than wrestler. A guy that wasn't very diverse when it came to in ring talent and was very reliant on his gimmick to get him over. Boogeyman wins in a pretty uneventful match. His finishing move was a pump handle slam and just one was enough to put away JBL which is odd because I've seen this man bleed buckets in an I quit match against John Cena so I guess Boogeyman and his pump handle slam was just that damn strong.

Royal Rumble Match

Weird that the selling point for this pay-per-view takes place less than half way through the event but like I said, I don't know any of the matches going into this show so maybe they just have a big main event planned. As I'm watching I'm now a little more than half way and this certainly isn't a very star studded rumble match. Out of the 17 entrants so far the only notable superstars have been Triple H, Rey Mysterio, Big Show, Kane, Chris Benoit and Bobby Lashley. Not even surprising returning legends its just been some mid carders who aren't too great and jobbers like Simon Dean. RVD now comes in at number 20, hopefully this is a sign of things starting to pick up. Matt Hardy is now being dry humped by Viscera in the middle of the ring and before I could even finish typing that sentence Viscera eliminates Matt Hardy. I just felt that was a notable highlight to add. Now that I've seen all the entrants I feel like I can now fully discuss the match since I already know the winner. Rey Mysterio wins if you don't know. The lack of star power in this match caused really legitimate possible winners to be a bit of a short list. It's very disappointing that it took the death of Eddie Guerrero for WWE to give Rey Mysterio a title run. A pretty forgetful title run but a title run nonetheless. The match wasn't really much to talk about until we hit the final five. I do wanna add that I appreciate that this match was also treated as a Raw vs. Smackdown event. I mean, it was everyone for themselves but on commentary they frequently added who in the match currently was on which brand, which makes sense because Raw and Smackdown are competing against each other and whenever theres a match where superstars from both brands are present, on commentary at least, it should be treated as a competition. Just something I wish WWE would do more of today, I hated when Raw was just one big "supershow" I prefer the brand split, but that's a different topic for a different time. Overall the match did feel like a bit of a chore to get through but in the grand scheme of things I did appreciate the story they told of Rey Mysterio overcoming all odds with the deck stacked against him to make good on his promise that he dedicated a victory to his best friend, Eddie Guerrero.

Edge (C) vs. John Cena

John Cena came to the ring in what Joey Styles called a "Spaceship Catwalk" and I cant really think of a better name for whatever this was so I'll just go with that. Cena isn't even the champion and he got a wrestlemania style special entrance and Edge didn't. It was such an odd touch, could've went without it but at least it looked cool I guess. Edge was such an absolute heat magnet, he knew what to do and what to say at all times to make the crowds boo him it was a bit of disappointment to see Edge drop the title in this match. I understand that in the long run Cena winning was probably the smarter move but if their plan all along was to send Cena to wrestlemania as champion I wish they didn't tease us with an Edge title run. I mean, in 2006 everytime Edge won the title, he beat Cena to get it and everytime he lost it, it was to Cena. Edge had a nice title run as world heavyweight champion on smackdown years later but in relation to this event, that smackdown title reign felt like it was an eternity away. If nothing else this WWE title run turned Edge from a midcarder to a main event talent and he was deserving of it. All in all, I just wish Edge had a more lengthy run with the title instead of losing it in a month after being the first superstar to cash in money in the bank.

Kurt Angle (C) vs. Mark Henry

Listen, I get it, Mark Henry is a cool guy, but he isn't really an amazing athlete. Maybe its just me but I've never been able to get behind anything Mark Henry has been apart of, besides the hall of pain storyline but doesn't have for another few years. I don't know the story going into this match or the full smackdown roster at the time but I just feel like this match shouldn't have main evented. After seeing that this was the match they picked to go on last I wish they would have just saved the royal rumble to be the main event, they would've sent the crowd home happy with Rey Mysterio winning. I know we got a surprise Undertaker return at the end and that made people excited but looking back, Undertaker vs. Mark Henry at wrestlemania wasn't really all that great. Kurt Angle is fantastic but he cant carry everyone to a good match. Angle retains but other than that there just isn't too much to say about this match, it was slow paced and just didn't pack any real punch for me.

I cant really make a pros and cons list for this event, nothing was overwhelming entertaining and nothing was offensively bad. It was just a pretty "meh" event. Rey Mysterio won the royal rumble and Kurt Angle did an interview that made me laugh a little bit before his match and those are the highlights for me. The real lowlights I guess would be just how underwhelming this event was and how bland everything felt. Say what you want, I love womans wrestling today but watching the story progress between Mickie James and Trish Stratus was mildly entertaining too. I'm really reaching here.

2/5

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food ment. Helllooooooo ugh would you like me to beat her up perhaps end up like her namesake, og mischa?(jk im not a (cannibal)) time to bust out the therapy voice tho , you will find your people and they will love you. Ok. ok wtf is happening? are we like the same person or something? wellbutrin buddies ❤ my room needs to be clean and moved the whole sha bang but I cant😔 life needs to be lived and such. I hope you arrived safely and happily and that everything is slightly better for you than it was last message and that you didn't get too carsick. my power went out today for like 3 seconds everything turned off everything , it usually takes alot for that to happen for my house just because its old and other reasons that I dont actually know. I've had a jam out session yesterday, it was so relaxing 😌 🙌 danced my little heart out to them guys I told you about. There's something abt the murders in hannibal that just does it for me... the artistry of it all. I love it when we talk outside of the 5 daily things too!!! hey, did you get that 'you're so mature for your age' as a kid or 'you've got an old soul' ? whats ur thoughts on that? I personally cant really imagine saying that to a kid maybe its a generational thing? ok 🙄😁 I like commentary ive been watching reactions? on youtube its a guilty pleasure, also I've been getting into some reality tv. Wife swap is crazy I love it alot and then the dating ones because ofc. whats one of the 1st reality show you remember watching and not hating? Honey Boo Boo and I Am Jaz (I think?) were my top two choices of reality. maybe a rewatch is in order for me. ok daily things um a guitar got brought into my house today i... its very.. it made me weirdly happy I love music and its instruments. thank goodness tbh my med were just a little later than usual, the pharmacy gave me emergency 3 days for they can figure out whats up because this is the second time we are having the same problem 😅 I had the best brownie of my life, it was store bought but like from the bakery fav dessert. I got this "new" shirt on so comfy, its tie dyed splattered different blues with an astronaut and nasa logo in white, its cute but also like 3? sizes too big (its a hand me down) dont worry abt the guy if a next time happens ill be ready for it 💪 it will go down, I personally know the man's family I will ruin his life if it comes down to it (we live in a town idk if it's small)or realistically just sic my family onto him. I found out my cousin has a gf now and is apparently very much happier than she was with her ex man (who made awesome cheesecake btw off topic tho) gay people stay winning, I did not know she was not straight tho so happy little surprise 😁 jeez its a lot of words uh I hope you're doing good and you had a good sleep and other nice stuff happen to you and you had a good trip🌷🤟🤙❤

HELPPP u are an angel. thank u❤️. and right exactly. normalize thinking fictional murders are artistic or something . thinkin abt how i used to think criminal minds murders were interesting but never had the right words so i'd just be like "woah he *kills them weirdly*? cool"😭. BUT YEAH i did get that all the time omfg "ur so mature for ur age!!" like thanks it's because i have issues and problems 💀....hmm i hate reality tv HAHA. this gc i'm in was just talking abt wife swap the other day how crazy !! idk if i've EVER liked reality tv .... i like watching commentary abt it (like uhh cody ko's stuff) but watching it myself... nope😭. daily things lets see!!! i went to the baltimore aquarium:) i was exhausted tho. saw that a tiktoker i like (hello fem will graham cosplayers...) went there a few days before me. how funny! i wish we had met and fallen in love or something. i went to bed at 5pm yesterday and slept til 3am. then went back to sleep from 6am to 10am. i think my new adhd/anxiety meds are the cause. sadly. cuz they work! but by making me too tired to be nervous or start thinking too much🥲. i'm tired 24/7 already and thats not helping LOL! i had this fancy meal ok multiple fancy meals and it was really nice. i got chesapeake chicken (haha like chesapeake ripper am i right?!?) and it had crab but i'm crazy i'm crazy i didn't eat the crab. the texture was soooo bad. anyway at another place i got a burger bc i'm lame i don't eat seafood (besides shrimp. which i am allergic to.) and i ate almost the whole thing and my friends mom said she was proud of me😭❤️. i always feel so guilty after eating a lot and that made me feel good. i've started watching more vampire video game play throughs. what can i say. vampire masquerade: bloodlines did something to my brain where i like vampire games now. it's the same guy which is cool. i dont like finding new youtubers becuz i've never kept up w whose problematic or not... like what if i get really into someone and mention it and someone's like oh yeah he preys on women. wtf. like umm cry? is he a youtuber? is he evil? cuz i was looking for a pathologic gameplay and he had one and i was like hmm... he sounds familiar. he has probably done something ? maybe? mm lastly.... i read this hunger games hannibal crossover WEEKS AGO but it's just still on my mind. i don't particularly love the hunger games but it's only bc i don't really know a lot abt it. i enjoy it but i've only seen the movies and read the first book (until rue died. never picked it up again after that! i cried a lottttt) and there's like an absurd amount of hannibal crossovers. i guess bc hannibal would totally rule in the hunger games. like come on a CANNIBAL? the uh.. capitol? they'd go crazyyyy for that. the fic itself wasn't even that groundbreaking or anything i have a lot of criticism for it tbh but it opened my brain to the concept. i have another one opened in a tab but it's super long so i haven't made much headway. i want one where it's like.... the one where the old winners come back for a game! and then they escape😈. but in the one i read will and hannibal sort of just escape anyway in a normal hunger game. like ok cool but i don't think that's plausible. but then how would it work ? like could will win a game on his own? maybe i should write my own fic. but then i'd have to understand what happens in the hunger games /j. ugh ok i was thinking abt that one scene where idk they do the little hand signal thing and drag katniss away and go to shut the door like right as they shoot that guy in the head. THAT WAS SO CRAZY. or when katniss shoots the lady instead of president snow and then everyone just descends on him💀 i feel like there's a level of nuance and understanding that i just don't have so i say "woah! cool :)" i hope ur doing well too ily❤️❤️💗

#a 'guilty' pleasure of mine is watching hunger games amvs LMFAO #asks #5 daily things #long post

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sharknadoslutt · 7 years ago

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In The Name of Science - Part 5

Prompt: Over the course of a month, both Rex and Dellum undergo their own separate journeys as they discover what it is they really want.

Pairing: Captain Rex X OFC

Warnings: Adult themes

Part 1 I Part 2 I Part 3 I Part 4

The bustling sounds of a normal Galactic City morning was what had waken Dellum up from her deep slumber. She squinted in irritation at her window, the blinds drawn slightly, allowing the bothersome light to shimmer through as the Coruscant sun lifted into the sky. In most situations she would consider this a lovely way to wake up, however most nights she didn’t go to bed incredibly inebriated.

Within moments of waking up Dell was met with a pounding headache and a wave of mild nausea. Grumbling in annoyance the woman shuffled beneath the covers, realizing she was experiencing the beginning of a well deserved hangover. Last night she had easily blown through two bottles of wine. If she remembered correctly Rex had helped her in to bed before leaving.. Wait, had he actually left? Dellum could have sworn he had joined her in bed.. But didnt recall him leaving?

She snapped her eyes open and turned to see an vacant space. She stared at the empty bed for a long time, debating on if she were relieved that the man had left or if she was actually disappointed by his absence. Maybe even a little bit of both.

In her groggy self-debate Dell happened to notice there was something on her bedside table. Upon further investigation she was pleasantly surprised by its contents.

A glass of water and some low dose painkillers were laid out, Rex must have found them in her refresher. Her personal datapad, which she could have sworn she left in the living room, was also there. The small blinking light on the top corner indicated there was something that required attention. Intrigued, Dellum grabbed the small device to take a closer look.

There was an open E-Document that simply read, “Drink up and get some rest, lightweight.”

The caring gesture brought a tiny smile to Dellum’s lips. If it weren't for her hindered state she may have even laughed. Regardless of her forward reaction, the kind intentions of the Clone were blatant and she couldn’t possibly be more pleased.

Dellum set the datapad off to the side before swallowing the pain killers. In the process she also downed the rest of the glass, thankful for Rex’s thoughtful actions. With a content sigh she laid her head back on the very same pillow that Rex had the very night before. Taking in a deep breath she realized the pillow still had his scent on it. It wasn’t until her third or forth inhale did it dawn on her that she may indeed be smitten with the clone soldier known as Captain Rex.

“So it’s a relief mission?” Captain Rex questioned, bringing his hand to his chin as he digested the information given to him by General Skywalker.

“Not entirely. This population is being unlawfully harassed by Separatist bodies. You are to get in and take care of any Separatist operations you may see-” General Skywalker was suddenly interrupted by General Kenobi.

“-However, our main priority is keeping the citizens safe. It’s a small area, most of which has already been evacuated. But during your efforts to drive off the Separatist, if you see any civilians escort them back too the safety zone..” The bearded Jedi pointed to a marked off location on the holo-map. “..-Right there.”

Captain Rex and Commander Cody exchanged a glance before nodding in response to their orders. “Yes sir!”

Over the coarse of the next few hours the two clones divided their men into the appropriate divisions before sending them off into their designated areas. Rex himself was about the depart the station to join his men on the field when he was approached by Cody.

“Brother, do you have a minute before you head out?” Rex thought his tone to be hushed and more serious than usual. Assuming whatever Cody wanted to speak about to be of great importance, he obliged.

“Of course.”

The Clone Commander cleared his throat and gestured for Rex to follow him out into the hall. Rex followed but a bit of paranoia bubbled around his mind. Whereas Cody didn’t have any direct command over him or his platoon, he was still a higher ranking officer than he. Had he done something wrong? Or was this a personal matter?

Rex himself considered them to be friends, close friends. Though he’d never say it aloud, he’d even go as far as to say Cody was his best friend. What could he possibly have to say? Once the two Clones were out in the privacy of the uninhibited halls, Cody removed his helmet before sighing slightly.

“So, this may be a weird thing to talk about but...” Cody rolled his eyes a bit, as if he was somewhat embarrassed of the words he hadn’t yet spoken. “.. But, as your friend, I have to ask...”

Rex, now more interested in what the man had to say than ever, removed his own helmet so they could speak face to face. “Go ahead, brother.”

“I guess the best thing for me to do is to be direct.” Cody scratched the back of his head before continuing. “I wont say who, due to confidentiality, but a part of 501st has come to me in confidence, worried that you may be breaking protocol.”

While maintaining a completely normal expression Rex felt his heart jump out of his chest.

“Accusations that you’ve left the Coruscant barracks on three different occasions for unspecified personal reasons have been brought to my attention. Now, we all know that leaving the GAR is within protocol but, erm.. personal fraternization with a civie on a regular basis is against the regulations.” Cody paused, studying Rex’s face perhaps for any indication of guilt.

“I’m aware of the regulations, Cody.” Rex said in a calm tone. If Rex had too, he’d put his money on Dogma for being the one to be so offended at his absences that he’d have the audacity to go tattle to their neighboring platoon leader.

“I know you are and that’s not even really why I’m bringing this up.” Cody reached out an arm, placing it on Rex’s shoulder as a form of affection and reassurance. Then he took in a deep breath, smiling slightly before speaking again. “Regardless of what you may or may not be involved in outside of the the military.. keep in mind there’s a war raging on. But one day there wont be. Until then, ya know... just be careful.” He pulled his arm back down to his side. “It’s easy to get wrapped up in something. Just dont get court marshaled before your life even really begins, brother.”

“Cody.. I do-”

Cody put on his helmet before cutting Rex off. “Let’s speak no more of it. We’ve got clankers to blast.”

"Interesting..” Dellum squinted as she looked through the microscope, some of Rex’s skin cells resided in the glass slide.

Between working long hours at the Grand Republic Medical Facility and the time she’d spent with Rex over the past few weeks, Dell hadn’t actually had anytime to properly look over the DNA she’d managed to gather. So she’d carefully stored the specimens in question for her time off. Which was now.

But now that she finally had some time to get things done Dellum was finding it impossible to focus. Her head was in the stars and her captivated heart was right there with it, beating relentlessly to a song that Dell didn’t care for.

She was a woman on a mission and she had come so far and spent so many years researching and studying. The fact that there was something that was important enough to distract her from her work was a bizarre concept. And yet here she was, lips mindless curled into a delighted smile and eyes sparkling as she shamelessly reminisced.

Dellum thought herself too good for daydreaming usually, fancying herself an independent woman. Her mother always ragged on her for being single and unwed, constantly pointing out that being successful did not negate the need for companionship. Dellum usually didn't pay her mom’s words any mind but for some reason, over the past day or so, it had been ringing through her mind like a constant scroll.

Was she lonely? Dellum didn’t think so... Or did she?

But then again, why couldn't she get Rex out of her head? It’d been a few days since she’d seen him, the better part of a week in fact. And that would surely be the last time she’d see him as well! She didn’t invite him back to her apartment and the man hadn’t tried to contact her since. Their interactions were done, case closed.

It was for the best after all. Despite her actions not being of a malicious nature there was still a guilt that twinged at her heart when she remember how their intimacy began with an elaborately staged lie. It wouldn’t be a good idea to start a relationship on something so complicated, right?

“Wait..” Dellum grumbled aloud, sighing deeply as she stood up from her desk. “He’s a Clone.. a Clone!” She continued, scolding herself as she stormed out of her study.

The fact that she had entertained the thought of wanting a relationship with Rex was astounding, and for many reasons! One, he was a Clone for Forces sake! An unpaid servant too the Republic! Two, she had lied to him, a lot! As far as Rex knew, Dellum was completely unbeknownst to his true identity, not to mention the fact that she had lied about her employment as well.

Third... Well, There wasn’t a third. And when she attempted to add on more reasons to the list Dellum could only come up with positives. Little characteristics she’d noticed about the man that she’d even admired. He was incredibly kind and caring.. He was handsome, strong, and all around wonderful!

“Karabast!” Dellum exhaled and shut her eyes, reeling from her self denial.

“You’re not really interested in him..” She told herself, walking over to pick up her data pad. “You’re lonely.. You just need to get out there, meet some people!”

From there she pulled up an e-file with her personal contacts, it was time to call some old friends and set up a few dates.

Rex chewed on his lip, finding himself lost in thought. Gripping tightly to his blaster he escorted a small group of refugees back to the civilian relief camp. He glanced back, making sure everyone was keeping up with the group. He was somewhat pleased to see everyone was managing fine on their own. In the back of the crowd he spotted Kix. They exchanged a brief nod before Rex turned his head back to the front.

It had been a nearly a week since Cody had confronted him. Even so, Rex couldn’t stop replaying the conversation over and over again in his brain. What exactly did Cody know about his situation? Did he actually know anything or was it all speculation? The uncertainty of it all irritated Rex and the more he pondered the question, the less satisfied he was.

And, even though his friend meant well, where in the great big galaxy did Cody get off preaching such profound words when the Clones had no guarantee of a life after the war? Cody was from the first generation of clones, just like Rex. They were both fully aware that there were no legitimate plans for the Clone Army after the war, whenever that may be.

Rex, himself, avoided thoughts about the subject all together. The few times he had allowed his imagination to wonder however, grim theories popped into his mind. The most realistic possibility was the Republic carbonating the entire clone army until a day came that they would need another army. Thousands of bodies just frozen; their humanity disregarded as they collected dust in some storage unit. The thought was disgusting and made Rex sick to his stomach.

On the other hand, he had other theories that were far less bleak. For example, after the Republic finally knocked the Separatist movement out of power the Clones would be given real citizenship and a chance at a real life! Each man would be given a small amount of credits and a one way ticket to the system of their choice. A chance to live out their own life, the life that they had rightfully earned through the actions of dedicated service.

But Rex knew better, no matter how much he tried to deny it, the gravity of the situation was much more harsh. Most people didn’t see the Clones as men at all... they saw them as weapons. As objects. As nothing.

In spite of this Rex gave his loyalty to the Republic. He served the cause too the best of his ability. Why? Well.. because that’s what he had been made to do. What else was there for him? The answer, he didn’t know.

But that’s just the thing.. There was a whole galaxy out there, wasn’t there? Beyond a clones small reality of formal military protocol and the daily slaughter of his brothers, it was hard to remember that. The Clones may have been tasked with protecting the galaxy but why shouldn't they also be apart of it? It’s concepts like this that often left Rex bitter and confused, unsure if the Republic was as good as he was raised to believe. Why fight against a supposed oppressive movement when he himself was a product of oppression?

Rex was caught off guard by the soft sound of one of the civilians speaking to him. Blinking off his momentarily lapse of attention he then cleared his throat, grounding himself back in the present.

“Is this it?” She repeated herself.

“Excuse me?”

The natives of this planet were human but Basic was a secondary language to them. The frail woman had a thick accent however she was easily understood. “That there-” She meekly pointed at the large tent in the distance. “That is your camp?”

“Yes ma’am.” Rex answered, continuing to walk forward. He’d been so wrapped up in thought it seems a fair amount of time had passed; the team had arrived at their destination.

“Single file, everyone.” Kix declared, jogging to the front of the group to stand at Rex’s side. “We need to process everyone promptly. There’s a station that will take your names and-” Rex found himself zoning out, unable to focus on anything as Kix gave the instructions.

Once Kix had finished Rex entered the tent, taking a look at all the people who were scattered around. Some were injured, most were starving, but the one thing they all had in common was an anxious gleam in their eye. Each time a new person walked in from the processing booth the refugees stared in desperation. Rex imagined they were looking for survivors they knew, loved ones they had assumed dead or lost.

“Tebushka!” Cried one of the men from the tent of refugees as the same women Rex had spoken with earlier entered the area. The man then jumped to his feet, a new wave of energy flowing through his veins at the sight of his beloved.

The woman stopped in her steps, looking weaker than ever, as if she’d just seen a ghost. “S-Sheban!” At the realization that her loved one was safe and sound the woman became so overwhelmed that she fell to her knees.

Rex watched with a warm heart as the man, presumably named Sheban, ran to her aid. Kneeling down next to her he brought the smaller woman to his chest and began to weep. In their native tongue he whispered sweet nothings to her, his tone shaky and hushed.

A wave of temporary contentment washed through the crowd as the couple embraced one another. After all the devastation that Rex had seen over the past week this was really something he needed to see. Amid the chaos of this war riddled territory these two had managed to find one another again. Rex’s heart felt light, fluttering with a feeling he couldn't quite identify.

As Rex looked over at the reunited lovers Dellum’s sweet smiling face popped into his mind. His stance stiffened in irritation, he’d try to avoid thinking of her all together, which was proving to be an impossible ploy.

He missed her. It was plain and simple. Being around Dellum made him feel normal, like a real man. Not just another number. And, kriff, he may not be a normal man but Dell made him feel so much more than that! She made him feel.. Well, there wasn’t a word for exactly how he felt. Happy? Hopeful? Lustful? Worried? Scared? Terrified? All of those things. All of those things and more.

A whole two weeks and three failed dates later, Dellum had never felt more confused. Not even two months ago, if someone had told her that she’d be hung up on some man she’d have laughed in their face. Romance had never been her forte and having a committed relationship was certainly never a part of her plan.

And yet here she was, unable to fathom the idea of not sharing her bed with someone else. The idea of simply having someone who wanted to be with her, well... it suddenly seemed so crucial. So embarrassingly important that she found it impossible to focus on anything else.

But, why did it have to be him? Why did it have to be Rex?

Pursing her lips she thought more into the subject at hand. She reiterated the reasons why wanting him as a partner was a bad idea in the first place. Of course there were the two obvious reasons, the fact that he was a clone and that their entire relationship would have been built on a bunch of lies. Both of them were certainly valid points.

However, Dellum was finally able to calm herself off of this ridiculous quest for ill-suited romance with a third and final reason.

“You have no way to contact him.” She reminded herself in a whisper.

It had been almost an entire month since their final encounter. He’d come over to fix her cabinet, stayed for dinner, and that was that. Many a night she sat in her living room and would peer over at the door, hoping for him to knock.

But it never happened.

“And he hasn’t contacted you.” She continued, finally allowing some ease into her mind. With a deep breath she felt her heart relax. It was easy to move over this mess if she was never to see him again, right?

“Alright. All the details have been gathered. If anything else is needed the appropriate person will be contacted. Until next time, dismissed.”

General Kenobi dismissed the post-mission briefing and multiple bodies scattered in different directions, some heading to their barracks and others to their next mission. Captain Rex held his helmet beneath his arm as he stood near the holo-projector, General Skywalker by his side.

“What’s our next objective, General?”

“What?” Anakin questioned, seemingly distracted. “Oh, sorry, Rex... We’re actually here in Coruscant for a few days. The platoon needs to rest up and there are some repairs that need to be made to the Starfighter. I’ll contact you with instructions once the next mission is in order.”

Rex nodded. Though his men truly did need some rest after the month long campaign, he couldn't keep himself form feeling disappointed. He’d been staying busy as possible, keeping his mind off of Dellum.

“Just enjoy yourself, Rex. You’ll work yourself too death.” The Jedi placed a hand on his shoulder, a friendly gesture. “Get some rest for once.”

“What are you going to do with your down time, sir?” Rex inquired casually.

"I have important matters at the Senate that require my attention.”

Rex knew all too well what that meant; Padme.

“Speaking of which, I’ll actually be late if I dont head out now.” The General started in the other direction. “Keep your comlink close, I’ll be in touch, Captain.”

Rex stood there for a moment, realizing the irony surrounding his situation. General Skywalker was secretive enough about his relationship with Senator Padme Amidala... But not secretive enough. Whether or not it was Rex alone who had been able to see through their deception was a mystery too him. But like a respectable man, and a loyal friend, he kept his mouth shut... Who was he too deny another man of happiness?

The Clone Captain put on his helmet as he started walking, covering his worried expression as he pondered the path ahead of him. Thoughts of what he wanted for himself and what the Republic wanted for him...

Nothing about the night to come was supposed to be interesting or out of the ordinary. Dellum just wanted to take a hot bath, get some rest, and clear her head. Once her head was clear she would finally be able to sit down and analyze the samples clearly and properly.

“There we go..” the green eyed woman sighed contently as she turned the nozzle, causing the water flow to cease. The tub was full of hot water and the finest salts and oils Coruscant had too offer. If this wouldn’t relax her, then nothing would.

She glanced in the mirror for a moment and shamelessly admired the small braids in her hair, which were pinned too the top of her head. Wearing braids was a fairly rare occurrence for Dellum, which was unusual for an Alderaan female. Even as a young girl she never cared for the traditions of braiding.

However in her moments of stress she always turned to familiarity. Plus it was an easy and comfortable way from keeping her hair up while she soaked in the bath. She was completely naked, save say her silk bathroom.

Suddenly, there was a loud knocking coming from her front door. Understandably this caught her heavily off guard. She wasn’t expecting any company nor did she have any deliveries lined up. With burrowed brows the charcoal haired woman sighed, not ready for social interaction of any sort.

Dellum thought about who could possibly be knocking as she walked down the hall. She had suspected it to possibly be her Rhodian neighbor, Skim, coming to borrow some sugar or something trivial. She tightened her bathrobe, making herself presentable, before finally opening the door.

Dellum stood there agape, staring at the blond haired Clone Trooper in her doorway. It was Rex, her Rex.. What was more surprising than his presence was the fact he was fully dressed in scuffed up Battle Armor.

“R-Rex!?” Dellum managed to say aloud, completely unsure of how to react or feel. She had promised herself that she was going to forget whatever affections she may have formed for the man, insisting that she’d be better off. But now that he was here, right in front of her, the idea seemed impossible.

“Dellum, I..” His voice was light and breathy, as if he had ran here. A light hue of red consumed his cheeks and the ends up his lips curled into a sheepish smile. He was glad to see her, and that by itself made the Alderaanian woman grin up at him. “I came to tell you something.”

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#star wars fic #captain rex

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