#(because i have a busy day on Tuesday)

[sweetladyjustice]

Another something I wrote a while ago and updated a bit for @bloodweaveweek Day 3 for the prompt "Apologies". I decided this one could go on AO3.

[ambersky0319]

My assistant manager yesterday, texting me: hey can you come in from like, 5-9 tonight and help with cold protein?

Me: yeah i can come in

The cold protein at the end of the night: *more than when i got there*

[axgre23]

Honestly the last few days have been so good- I'm afraid to eat 1000cal today (wish me luck)

Gonna be trying this plan out:

Sun: 700

Monday: 700

Tuesday: 400

Wednesday: 400

Thursday: fast

Friday: met day, 1000 - 1200

Saturday: met day, 1000 - 1200

[poisonedfate]

literally in distress over my job rejecting my availability

[collecting--stardust]

Triage is such an interesting topic I felt like I'm not even studying and instead reading on a random topic I'm accidentally hyperfixate on

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

sometimes when I think about how my roommates treated me when I had COVID I get so angry I lose speech

[bugdogg]

I missed the opportunity to bully ghost, pretend I was there in spirit or something

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

ouaahhh so tired ... it doesn't feel like a weekend 😭

[allylikethecat]

Hi :) what time do you think the a&e update will be posted?

I am still at work (RIP) and will then be going straight to see my lovely baby Pop - I wanted to get it up this morning before I left for work but life had other plans 😩 it will be up tonight - but unfortunately not for a few more hours, probably around 9 or 10 EST. I'm so sorry! I'm hoping to be better next week and actually get it up before I have to leave for work! Real life is just very inconsiderate to my fanfiction posting schedule smh. Hopefully the update will have been worth the wait! I look forward to hearing what everyone thinks!

❤️Ally

[smallblueandloud]

it has been a very busy, very taxing week, and it will be a very busy, very taxing six days, but then!! after that i have FIVE WHOLE DAYS with nothing due!!

[clownkiwi]

anyways uhhhh i should Still be able to stream nightmare ned tomorrow night, but there's always a chance i could get tired from the sunday shift

i mean, i could always move the nightmare ned stream to monday if needed, i'll be available to stream that day

[you-are-constance]

literally i only have one non-music class and so far this report or whatever is the first assignment i have that is like. not a single-day assignment. i usually do procrastinate a lot but. why is it specifically so bad with this one.

[wizzardhat]

at the start of the game karlach and astarion are absolutely fucking reeling from being suddenly freed and are in a state of manic joy that would probably seem alien to them like a week ago, while gale has been locked in his depression tower for so long he's almost completely forgotten how to talk to people. shadowheart has not a single fucking clue whats going on because shar keeps slurping up her memories and lae'zel is literally in the midst of her ultimate nightmare scenario and trapped on an alien planet with a bunch of jackasses who have no idea whats happening. so almost everyone has experienced a situational personality shift and isn't quite the person they were a year before you met them. EXCEPT Wyll. Who is just like "this isnt even the weirdest thing thats happened to me this month." my man got scooped up, tadpoled, and slammed back and said "oh well, not gonna ruin my day" and went about his business teaching self defense to children and slaying evil beasts. He didn't even seem confused he literally did not give a shit. no urgency. He's like "I'll put that in my day planner but is gonna have to wait until after i hunt down this demon." When you recruit him there is no sense of "oh man we really gotta help each other because we have the same problem" he just would have said yes because you asked and he's wyll. Or because you told him he could kill mindflayers. He'd be like "sick" and done, no questions asked. Just another Tuesday for the blade.

[inkskinned]

it's because the bear wouldn't kill me just for being a woman. the bear doesn't kill me for fun. the bear can be shouted at, and will leave me alone. the bear won't make a tiktok complaining about how i crossed to the other side of the path when i saw him coming. if a bear kills me, it's just being a bear: it cannot understand logic. it is not acting out of malice - just fear or hunger.

bell hooks once wrote about how porches might be the only outside space left for women - it is still the domain of the house while it is also outside-but-safe. when i am in the woods, i am in the bear's home, and he has a right to defend his property. outside spaces - anywhere at night, certain parks in the day - those are often implicitly "owned" by men. i cannot explain the feeling of knowing when you have entered a man's "territory." you walk into a place and just know you are in their space. you get a sick sense - you're in danger.

the other day a group of about 8 men were fooling around in the woods while i walked my dog. i had to go around, take the extra 3 miles just to avoid them. it's okay, i like walking. this wasn't even a #feminism moment. it was just a tuesday.

what a plain and easy question. only one of the situations is seen as a tragic accident. i would rather die and have a park bench erected in my honor rather than have my family questioned about why they let me, an adult, walk in the woods in the first place when i should really be at home in the kitchen.

i worked in retail and food service. i have had women say and do absolutely heinous and abusive things to me - not because i was a woman, but because i was there, and they were angry. the way men treated me when angry was different - it was because i was a woman. you can always feel the difference, how there's an undertone of i'd hurt you worse if i could get away with it. i keep seeing people try to cite stupid statistics. why is there always a strange rage whenever women agree on things? like men can argue their way out of our lived experiences? it isn't a buzzfeed quiz - which of these traumas are you? 10 super cute ways not to fear strange men.

i have actually (thrice!) seen a bear in the wild, by the way. i died each time, obviously, and am a ghost writing to you. (it was scary but completely and utterly fine). the second encounter was a black bear with her cub. she looked at me like - do we have to do this or are we good? my dog was busy sniffing a bush, completely nonreactive. i felt like i was in a sitcom: feminist poet reacts - does she actually mean she'd choose the bear? my only thought was - she's so beautiful. her paws are massive.

and there's a part of me that feels the rage spinning out in a corner. why do we have to come up with quippy little comments in order to teach men empathy. would you rather die in a car accident or due to a mugging? and would you rather your house burn down due to an electrical fire or due to arson? gee willikers - it's almost like we're human people, and want to risk the accident versus the intention.

i would rather my last thought be oh shit, a bear rather than i'm a person too. why doesn't that matter? why don't you care?

[verystressedcollegestudent]

lord give me the strength not to punch these complete idiots

[strawberri-syrup]

double checking an exam date for next week and was jumpscared by a secret second exam on the same day