#(another autism moment)

[genderqueerpond]

We don't talk enough about the fact that Amelia Pond, s5 Amelia Pond, before the timeline is reset, isn't just a normal orphan. Her parents didn't die, didn't abandon her, and didn't send her away. They never existed in the first place.

And if her parents never existed, then Amelia cannot exist. She is a causal impossibility.

"People fall out of the world sometimes, but they always leave traces." A photograph. A face carved into an apple. Yes. Sure.

A child.

Now that's too big, surely.

But that's what she is. She is exactly the same as these things. A trace. An echo of something that could never be, never was, never could have been.

And the universe should never allow it. A whole person, that's just too much. She could not have continued to exist indefinitely, in normal circumstances, after her parents never existed.

In normal circumstances.

Because the Doctor didn't just save her from things coming out of the crack in her wall. He saved her from going into it. And he didn't just save her from the threat of going into it simply because of its vicinity.

No, by arriving when he did, he interrupted a process that was probably already in motion. And then by arriving again only moments later on a cosmic relative timestream (too quickly for the process to complete) and yet in the local relative timestream, years later --- years of a potential future caught midway through the process of rewriting -- he solidified that existence. Amy is a creature from another timeline, caught in amber. The Doctor prevented her from never existing, but only after she could already never exist.

And so, no one around Amelia thinks about it. Neither does she. There's some kind of consciousness block, because if you thought about it, really thought about it, for two seconds you'd realize she cannot exist. And the human mind can't deal with that. So, to protect itself, everyone's brain simply slides off it before ever noticing. They just assume that her existence makes sense, and don't question it, and don't notice what they don't question, that is staring them in the face.

But of course, to some extent they do notice. They can't think it, but they notice subconsciously that there's something they can't think. They notice there's something wrong with her, something uncanny. And they don't like it, and they alienate her even more because of it.

"Does it ever bother you Pond that your life existence doesn't make any sense?"

[copia]

not to get dramatic but one of copia’s dissociative translations in his troubled head was seeing sister imperator’s saucer of pills as a mug of tea and biscuits. he’s clearly an unreliable narrator who sees things we can’t trust to be true; going off of this, can we trust that the mug of tea he was handed before the encore was actually that? who’s got time to down a whole mug of hot tea when you’ve still got three songs to perform? isn’t it a strange beverage to give him out of all the other options? don't get me wrong i'm absolutely not being serious here (also not insinuating that copia is ill like seestor, i'm going down the psychological route) but what i'm saying is he could have been handed medication he didn't want to acknowledge

[arkashas]

[buglvr24]

why why why is putting clothes away and keeping my room clean so difficult. it literally feel torturous sometimes. i know i need to try and do difficult things. i was trying to clean and i was like “i wish i could just have two laundry baskets. one for dirty clothes and one for clean.”

and my mom said, “you can’t do that”

so i said “well why not if it would help me keep my room cleaner and work for me”

and she said “well then what’s the point of having a closet and drawers, and your clothes would be all wrinkled, and you’d never be able to find anything.”

she’s right and i’d love to have everything put perfectly away but it’s just so much sometimes

[virtualplushy]

my autistic ass: “sorry, i don’t know how tone works. i’m only 27.”

[kaeyachi]

Kaeya visits the Dawn Winery... a lot.

He has multiple reasons and excuses that change every time he is greeted by Adelinde.

An investigation on the Darknight hero.

A mission he received from Jean.

A short detour from his patrols.

One time, all he did was ask for a glass of wine before he went his merry way.

Another, he spent a bit more time within the building, creating jam with Adelinde.

Diluc occasionally catches the man approaching the winery from a distance. If he was lucky enough to evade Kaeya's attention, he would send Adelinde to talk to the cavalry captain in his stead. As for the other times, Kaeya would glance up to meet his eyes from where the cavalry captain was standing by the entrance - thru his tinted windows somehow. The younger man's eyes would be glinting mischievously, his ever-present smirk slowly growing on his face.

"Gotcha," his face seemed to imply.

Diluc simply huffs in frustration before leaving his room to spend a couple of moments bantering with the other.

Diluc knows how frequent Kaeya's visits were. He fully expects at least 2 visits in a week...

...The idea that Kaeya frequently visits but never stays... leaves a bitter taste in Diluc's mouth.

Kaeya himself had said that Dawn Winery was his home. If he thought so, why was he always doling out excuses just to be here?

Doesn't Kaeya know he is welcome any time?

Does Kaeya know he could stay?

.

.

.

Like clockwork, Kaeya visits the Dawn Winery.

This time, Kaeya manages to meet his eyes- thru the tinted windows somehow.

Diluc huffs, leaves his room, and meets the other by the entrance.

Kaeya tries to give an excuse for his visit.

Diluc interrupts by saying "you don't need a reason to come home".

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'Gotcha' Diluc thinks. He feels as if he won something upon being met by Kaeya's stunned face and hearing Adelinde's giggles at the background.

[k1ttygam3r]

Paranoia

[wanderingmind867]

you need to grow the hell up.

if you don't grow up very soon, you are going to turn into a virulent manchild. and you will remain a manchild for the rest of your life.

Three long years on here, and today I come home from school to find 10 pieces of hate mail. I don't know if I blocked someone or did something to agitate someone, but I am immune to your death threats.

You underestimate me, sir. I will not commit suicide. I will not go gentle into that good night. I am too big a coward to dare do that. Also, I'm impressed by the use of the word virulent. Not a word I'd expect from hate mail, so I think I've found the world's most eloquent hate mail sender.

Oh, and your death threats are not clever. I will not cut myself, I will not join my mother (and that one's clearly a petty targeted attack), I shall not. If anything, this is an incentive to tell my dad about having this tumblr account. Maybe I will over the summer break.

And listen: I know engaging with hate mail is a gesture in futility. But I also know that I needed to say some of this stuff. I shall let people know about the strange story of an anonymous figure threatening me. Because this is a bizarre thing to come home to.

[weareuniqueandimportant]

EMPATHY GLAMORIZATION IS NOT ABOUT EMPATHY BUT SUPERIORITY TORWARDS APATHETIC PEOPLE BIGOTRY TORWARDS THEM TYPICAL BIGOT EVIL. SIMPLE AS THAT. IF YOU SEE THEM AS LEFTIST YOU'RE NO LEFTIST YOURSELF. HORRIBLE. THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO HAVE ONLY EMPATHY AND BAD TO THINK EVERYTHING YOU DO IS SUCH ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY'RE CLEARLY BEING APATHETIC IF ANYTHING WHEN THEY DO THIS...

COMES TO SHOW BIGOTRY TORWARDS CRAZY AND DISABLED PEOPLE ASWELL AS PARAPHILIA PEOPLE ISN'T TAKEN AT ALL THE SAME AS SEXISM RACISM AND QUEERPHOBIA... OR PERHAPS... LIKELY... THEY ARE ALL THE BIGOTED THINGS EVIL AND TAKE NONE THAT SERIOUSLY... BELITTLING DOWN THEIR PAIN AND DAMAGE...

[glitchdecay]

can we talk about how clever the code for episode 763 ("Conan and Heiji, Code of Love, Part 1") was?

for context: this was The One Where the Detective Boys Found a Drug Dealer's Notebook.

the code looks something like this:

the blurred kanji by themselves should be enough for the viewer to figure it out at home with the right knowledge, but Conan (and later Heiji) explain it for the reader/viewer all the same.

hit the Keep Reading button if you wanna read how i break it down.

here's how it works:

Conan figured out that the left column refers to station numbers. G11 and the kanji 日本 (Nihon) bring to mind Nihonbashi — station number 11 on the Ginza line.

being the autistic gremlin stellar detective he is, Conan has the entire Tokyo subway map memorized, but i don't have such an ability, so here's the Tokyo subway map.

the circled character in the code is the letter G (the first character), which means you have to pick the corresponding kanji in the station name: 日本橋. following from which, we can find the following:

E22: Azabu-juban 麻布十番

C10: Nijubashimae 二重橋前

Y21: Tsukishima 月島

M09: Shinjuku-sanchome 新宿三丁目

H02: Ebisu 恵比寿 ※ here, the entire thing is circled so all the characters are taken

I02: Shirokanedai 白金台

T22: Baraki-nakayama 原木中山

putting them in the table gives the following (please excuse my handwriting, i suck at kanji):

from here, we know that the first five lines give 十二月三日, or December 3rd.

in the screenshot, N22 is written on the right-hand side of the left column (confusing, i know) with 京橋 (Kyobashi) next to it. this is where Conan, our Edokko detective, initally gets confused: Kyobashi is station G10 on the Tokyo subway map.

enter Heiji, the resident Canadian Kansai boy, and his knowledge of Osaka. there, N22 is indeed Kyobashi station, as it is station number 22 on the Nagahori Tsurumi-ryokuchi line.

here's where the placement of the station numbers in the left column matters. you see, it's good etiquette to stand on one side of an escalator while riding it. in Tokyo, you stand on the left-hand side; but in Osaka, you stand on the right-hand side. if the left-hand side refers to Tokyo station numbers, then the right-hand side must refer to Osaka station numbers.

so let's look at the Osaka subway map as well.

from above, we know that N22 is Kyobashi (京橋). filling in the rest of the table gives:

N11: Taisho 大正

Y12: Higobashi 肥後橋

C22: Takaida 高井田

which completes the table like so.

now, the line after the date reads 正後恵比寿橋白井原. but instead of being read as is, Conan and Heiji broke them down further:

"shogo" being "noon" (正午),

"Ebisubashi" being the one in Osaka (which is written 戎橋), ※the arrow on the row with Ebisu indicates this

and "shiroibara" referring to the white roses worn by the drug dealers.

i am in awe of how clever this code is. like, this is why i love detective stories. being able to come up with stuff like this and present it as a Thing for the people in your head to figure out? wow.

p.s. also i love these goobers so much

[etherealspacejelly]

i have this really stupid habit of yelling GAY or GAY PEOPLE every time one of my silly little ships crosses my dash (or when im watching the show that they are from and they do something gay)

however this has meant that i no longer know what to do if i see one of my (very rare) straight ships. i still feel the urge to shout GAY but they're not. what a predicament

[creator-indy]

Toonish oc i haven’t drawn in FOREVER

[aropride]

my shirt that says "i don't have an eating disorder" has people asking a lot of questions already answered by my shirt

[h0t-p1nk-ch33tah-pr1nt]

My guy so pretty <333

[es-quest]

"Oh, but I knew that was going to happen to her!" "Oh you did? "Did you really?" "Of course I did! Something was never quite right with that girl...Maybe if you payed better attention you would have noticed." "Oh maybe..."

"Well now that I think of it..." "And! Do you know what else I've heard about her?" "What?" They whisper.

One of them laughs. "No wonder god wants her!"

[abby118]

Do you ever look at your fic's lore/worldbuilding and think: No neurotypical would ever read this.