#(I'm just being melodramatic)
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the world is so fucked up and i can't help but think the damage is irreparable when i see people talking about how unusual and prudish it is to wait six to ten dates before having sex with someone. ten dates??? roughly like twenty five hours of interaction????? ten old timer burgers and mango iced teas from chilis equals sex?????? the possibility of pregnancy, STDs, emotional devastation, lifelong consequences, not to mention just straight up the possibility of getting murdered, with a STRANGER you have hung out with for maybe like two months???? and that's a LONG TIME???? and if you feel weird about that and don't want to do that that makes you NOT HETEROSEXUAL????? THATS AN ORIENTATION???? BECAUSE ITS SO OUTSIDE OF THE NORM OF HUMAN BEHAVIOR ????? i hate all of you i hate you i hate you i hate you every day i hate and I hate and I hate you
#i genuinely genuinely don't understand how everybody who tries to date hasn't killed themselves yet#I'm not saying they should I'm just saying I don't get how they're able to continue on#i see women on social media talking about how they had to cry for a day because they slept with a man they'd been seeing for a while and#then he never called again#no joke not trying to be dramatic I would just kill myself??? i do not understand how people can keep going after something like that#i mean I would never be in that situation because everything about it is bad but like. still#I hate to kind of agree with the 'women over 25 are too bitter for love' twitter man even in a very roundabout way#but i think men AND women participating in modern dating culture have to in some way become so hardened and kill some part of themself#just to survive??? that sounds so melodramatic but like. I can't understand how else people could continue to function as human beings#when they interact with each other in the way modern dating culture dictates
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Thinking of how "left me like a book on a shelf" is from River's POV and therefore does not mean it is the entirety of the story much like how "the Doctor does not and has never loved me" was uttered from a River who was grieving.
Like the Doctor could have spent a long time putting the TARDIS in stationary orbit around the Library. The Doctor could have puttered about with the Library from years before it was shut down to ensure that everything would go smoothly while doing his best not to change a single thing. And on days when it is too hard, he just stares at the Library from his perch on the TARDIS door. Waiting, hoping, thinking. Trying to find a way out for her. For them.
And he does!
He finds a hundred ways to get her out of the data core. But...something always goes wrong. It's somehow never good enough. She's back, but she's not entirely there.
So he scratches it out, slaps himself, and tries again.
And again.
And again.
But his plans always fail.
But they don't. Not really. His plans could work. Could have worked. His beloved Sexy would help him. She'd always help him when it comes to her Water. But he was too scared. Too frightened of failure. Because one single mistake. One. Single. Mistake. And she's gone. He can never get her back. Forever.
So he runs. And runs. And runs. Until centuries has gone by and companion come and gone. Until he met a younger, more alive version of her. And then they had Darillium. And oh the joys of wonderful joys, what a night that was.
But things end. Even for him. They had to part ways again. Had to say goodbye. So he tries again. Picks up what his previous self had shelved. He tries. Oh how he tries.
But still. That fear exists. Is it worth it? Can he finally accomplish what he'd started a literal lifetime ago?
(He doesn't.)
Off on another lifetime with a new body. He's a...she now? Oh and shorter! Wow. That's new! I wonder what Ri–
On the rare moments she allows herself to succumb to sleep she goes to their his her study. She takes a moment to take everything in. It's unrecognizable now – the study that once was theirs filled with warmth and laughter and-
Every single space was taken. Covered by plans of plans of plans spanning...two...lifetimes now. Sexy still kept it just as it was the last time he she had been in there.
Their His Her favorite throw was still where it was – on their his her favorite corner of their his her favorite couch.
Nothing had changed but everything had changed.
She curled up and buried her face hoping it would still smell of her (It did. They never knew how it worked but somehow her smell still lingered anyway. They thought they were hallucinating at first but other people had been able to smell it too. Sometimes they forget but Sexy also lost her too).
She was a he again. The same face they had four lifetimes ago. The same face who was the first to keep the memory of their meeting.
But wh- what? Why? How? Is this it? Is this the body that finally brings her back home? A fitting act really. He put her in there and so he'll also put her out of there.
But... she wasn't there. Nothing was there. Nothing but chunks of debris and ashes and smelted...somethings.
When he blinked his eyes open (when had he closed them?), Donna's worried face greeted him. He blinked again and blinked. Nothing changed. Everything has changed. He had waited for far too long. He had made her wait for far. too. long. He feared of failing her but now he actually has failed her.
Everything was bland now. Was it just him or is everything a bit...on the side of grey? Donna looks at him like he might break. (He won't. He's a Time Lord. Time Lords don't break.) Even Sylvia had taken to treating him a bit more kindly.
He goes off alone with Sexy. His return to the Noble-Temple (Temple-Noble) household becomes fewer and further in between. One day he finds himself in Venice. Wonderful Venice. His Pond and her Roman (who wasn't yet a Roman) had gone here. There were vampires. And running and –
River?
No silly. River wasn't there.
He blinked. And blinked again. Made sure the sky was blue and the clouds still fluffy white. But was that his leather jacket that just whizzed by past him? Wait. Hold on. That was... Was that? Oh no. It wasn't. It couldn't be. Did they? No. They couldn't have.
But of course, apparently they did. Because that was actually his leather jacket wearing self that just passed by him again(?) tugging along his very-much-not-dead wife along running from... Hold on. Why are they running? What- Who's shooting at her?!
#cues in iconic doctor who intro lmao#hi don't mind me. i'm just being my melodramatic PMS self#it's reaaally wonky i think but argh whatever just spitting out my grief and frustration. come to think of it i find words flow easier when#i am upset lol? hmmm what does that say about my high school self who used to write chapters with 1k as minimum.#it's difficult dealing with people who simply say river is just another one of the doctor's marriages so this is me dealing with it#i had trouble knowing where to stop and then thought OH why not put nineriver in but make it Post-Library River???#lmao and i ended it there because i needed to stop (i have 3 – THREE – exams tomorrow)#dw musings#that turned into a sort of fic ish#doctorriver#doctor x river#doctor who#tia talks tish#river song#eleventh doctor#tenth doctor#twelfth doctor#thirteenth doctor#fourteenth doctor#ninth doctor#the doctor's wife#tardis#what other thing can i tag my sort of fic#tia writes tish#post-library river song#yowzah#i pond queue#11th doctor#12th doctor#10th doctor
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I feel sick. Tumblr has basically been my whole world for the last 14 or so years, more than a third of my life. It feels like a beloved friend has just been diagnosed with a terminal illness. I don't know how long they have left but I now have to live with the knowledge that the end is near. That some day, possibly soon, I will have to live in a world without them. That I will probably have to watch them slowly wither away until they're a husk of their former self (which has already been happening though I've tried to turn a blind eye) and I'm not sure if that's better or worse than pulling the plug because at least I'll have a little more time with them.
I know there have been "tumblr is dead" scares in the past but this one is not like those. This one is not a joke. It's real (unless a miracle occurs and we suddenly gets a massive amount of funding from some generous benefactor). Tumblr has been rearranging deck chairs on the Titanic for years now but we've finally hit the iceberg.
My only hope is, now that we know the end is no longer theoretical, the tumblr community will rally around and put real funding into an alternative like pillowfort or cohost. Now more than ever we need to create a true crowdsourced archive of our own for fandom so that this can't keep happening.
I'll make backup accounts on other sites, but in case you were wondering, I'm not planning on going anywhere just yet. I'm going down with this ship. It's been an honor and a privilege. 🫡
#I'm still reeling from the news#I haven't been able to focus on anything this morning#I just needed to post something to hopefully help get some of the grief I'm feeling out of my system#am I being too melodramatic?#probably#but I really can't overstate how important tumblr has been to me over the years#both for my mental health and growth as a person#tumblr#my words#reblog locking this now because I don't want to spread any panic
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truly diavolo fans suffer more than jesus
#the rest of the jojo fanbase just dosen't get it.#rambles#shitposts#(i'm joking i'm being melodramatic)
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I thought that it was stupid that Brandon Sanderson had the narrator of Tress of the Emerald Sea call all the unnamed sailors "Dougs" when he could have just called them, you know, sailors. But then I started using the term. Turns out having a word for "yes, we know that realistically all these individuals have unique identities and personalities, but they're not the focus of this story so we're going to treat them as faceless background characters" is surprisingly useful.
#random thought of the day#because i was thinking way too deep into the portrayal of the nurses in artful dodger#and getting a bit worked up at how they're shoved aside (as usual for medical dramas) and not treated as real people#and then i was like 'calm down they're just dougs in this story it's okay'#(and then the next ep had one of the nurses call the girl a witch and i was like 'oh they remembered they have feelings. good work')#(and i felt even better)#incidentally despite my one and only post about that show being an angry nursing rant i am enjoying it#the girl's stupidly modern face and extreme entitlement are annoying#and i did skip part of ep ii because i'd just prefer not to watch relics be the butt of the joke#(even though they looked to be heading a slightly-less-offensive route than expected)#and ep 3 is going more soapy and melodramatic and less fun#but i do like that they have a 'young idealist versus experienced fatalist' dynamic going#soundtrack is fun#anachronism stays mostly on the fun side of the scale#fagin is shockingly amusing (i had expected more of a 'creepy blackmailer holding the past over his head' instead of 'chaotic criminal dad'#and i like that they're showing some restraint#(the deciding factor in watching it was my extreme surprise that a historical original was tv-14 instead of ma)#so we'll see how long it lasts but for now i'm not regretting the decision to watch
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Friends, my time has come.
I mean, it's a shame there's no option for "you sold me a computer infested with demons and basically your idea of tech support is 'Wow, sucks to be you'" but I made do with what I had. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
#georgette#computer issues#computer problems#ohhh dell you did not want to give me a survey about how happy i am with my ~*~dell experience~*~#i told it like it is#ooo but maybe i'll win the laptop!!!!!#maybe it'll you know explode in my face or something super fun like that????? 🤞😖🤞😂#aislynn's cause of death: dell computer#i would not be surprised#i'm more shocked i haven't had an actual literal health crisis over this past half a year of hell#of course i'm also constantly sick these days so maybe that's speaking too soon I DUNNO#ironically though georgette is doing a little better right now but that can change if i breathe her way you know?#but i still gave them my opinion straight to the face#i have truly suffered with this#as melodramatic as that sounds to say#my computer is my way to access the world#not just for entertainment but to help my elderly family members#i'm extremely hampered without it and not being able to know if it was going to crash in the middle of paying a bill or something#has been super stressful#i don't know if i'll ever be able to vid or make GIFs again#i don't know if she'll ever tolerate vegas#it's just a shame because on paper she should be an absolute beast#and instead she can crash with one tab open watching a youtube video#ageless aislynn
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One might expect that playing the "genocidal, transphobic" game of the century would control for people who are absolutely batshit about identity politics.
No such luck, I suppose.
Let me make this abundantly clear, although it shouldn't have to be said:
➽ People are entitled to like or dislike any characters, storylines, or other aspects of a piece of fiction for any reason. Hell, they don't even need a reason. Not a single one.
➽ No one owes anyone an excuse, explanation, or apology for their preferences even when some rando insists that those preferences do not align with a certain sociopolitical agenda.
Sure, I make fun of Andrew Larson a lot more than as much as the next person. There are a lot of characters that people like that I do not like (and am scratching my head over), and certainly a lot of characters that I like who other people don't like, but I would never attribute any of those preferences to any kind of bigotry - conscious or unconscious.
It's not representative of a social ill to like an attractive guy. Yes, even if he possibly has the personality of a soggy box of cornflakes. Yes, even if he's white.
➽ People are unapologetically allowed to have preferences both in the fictional world and the real world that do not comport with your own values.
Attempts to guilt the fandom into taking an interest in certain characters or ships, shame people for their interest in certain characters or ships, or to try to prevent individuals from holding an opinion about a piece of media that a third party deems problematic will simply not work, as demonstrated by the utter failure of the Hogwarts Legacy boycott.
If anything, attempting to guilt and shame people over their preferences will only create alienation and resentment towards your cause.
The vast majority of people in this fandom in particular, by virtue of having purchased/played the game alone, are obviously not the sort to be bullied by the opinions of random people on the internet.
But it's still hilarious that people are trying.
#hogwarts legacy fandom#andrew larson#i'm laughing#thanks for the entertainment#while i'm at it there is nothing wrong with being heterosexual and liking heterosexual things#no one owes you engagement because you are part of a group you consider to be oppressed#if i ever act like engagement is owed to me i'm just being melodramatic and joking#i'm disabled so you are obligated to like this post
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idk how much longer i can keep going through the same tired old cycle of sadness, boredom, rage, and loneliness. every time i think I'm finally fine, it starts all over again.
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gifmakers, fanvid editors, artists, and writers are tinkerbells, if you don't clap we'll stop making stuff
#'create for yourself not anyone else' then why the fuck am i posting these#ANYWAY i'm sorry for being so bitter that no one is commenting on my angsty fic that you really have to be in the right mindset to read lol#after it only being up for less than 24 hours#i'm just frustrated with how bl fandom seems to throw away dramas#and some other stuff that i don't want to post about because it's mean lol#fully aware i'm being melodramatic and unreasonable but it's from compounded thankless bull shit not just this#fandom#fanfiction#fanart#fanvid#rum.txt
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Turns out that half of my grocery store sushi plate contains horseradish/wasabi, to which I'm allergic. T_T
#Notes by Nikki#I'll be fine#but obviously I stopped eating#after I noticed the first signs of a reaction#:( it was my special treat#my dad will eat it#but that's not the point#one lonely eggroll for dinner#(I ate the other half)#(I'm just being melodramatic)#food#allergies#allergy#allergic reaction#also now with the antihistimine in my system#I'll conk out before I get all of my night tasks done#boo#sushi#fish
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uhm so basically what im getting from all of this is that social media is just becoming increasingly unusable across the board. i mean we knew it would happen eventually but who knew the ceaseless trend cycles of capitalism would push it so close so soon. what was once a safe harbor has become devoured by the rising sea levels of the rest of the internet's destruction. uhm if you need me i'll be going back to writing letters and solely contacting ppl through snail mail.
#being a liiiiiittle melodramatic here but holy shit.#i've kinda been waning off tumblr for a while now just bc i'm Busy all the time but uhm this might be a last straw#not deleting or anything not yet anyway but uhh. the site's made a lot of changes recently i haven't liked and#well let's just say the camel's back is nearly broken#cricket.chatterbox
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someone appears to have sent me a tumblr chat message and then (I can only assume) immediately blocked me, because for THREE DAYS I've had a little "1 new message!" bubble but there is NO NEW MESSAGE.
It is driving me fucking insane. I just want to see the chat message. I just want to be able to mark it read. Is this what you wanted, random person? IS THIS WHAT YOU WANTED????
#i'm being melodramatic but i really do despise it#it's like when the shop button had that eternal 'new!' bubble#only worse bc if i hide it the same way#i won't know when OTHER people message me#truly my life is suffering lmao#also apparently whatever that person had to say couldn't have been THAT important#seeing as how they've prevented me from seeing it#so i choose to believe they were saying i was just so cool they couldn't stand it#and had to block me lest they be overwhelmed by coolness#and they can't prove me wrong because they blocked me and therefore even if they somehow could provide a screenshot of what they sent#i can choose not to believe them bc 1) i don't know it was them for sure who sent it#and b) even if it was they could've faked that screenshot.#foolproof plan me wtg :D
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I don't know if it's just me, but are they gradually dumbing down Rick's character for the sake of keeping the show popular?
I got extreme Peter Griffin vibes from this episode, and I feel like in general he's a lot less sharp and cool gritty and witty and "unconventional" the way that he was the first couple of seasons. He wasn't an easy character to "swallow" in a lot of ways so to speak, and I feel like he's gradually getting dumber, more cloudy around the edges, less sharp and more conventional and shallow with a lot of the things that he says. He feels extremely typical sometimes this season-like more of the character that people would watch because the character doesn't challenge their headspace in any kind of way, and is someone that encourages their complacent drunk dead personality.
The character used to say things that was really unpopular, or at the very least would occasionally say things that would make people uncomfortable (just things like "if you know how you're going to die because of how boring your life is then you're not even alive" and just things that challenged at the boring drunk complacent status quo that most American sitcom characters are), was an extreme breath of fresh air in terms of how sharp he was and how he wasn't afraid to challenge everything even if it was just in a TV show character kind of way, and it's one of the things that stuck out about me about him the most, especially as someone who is mentally ill and feels detached from most of American culture.
I might just be in a bad mood, but I genuinely feel like Rick feels less sharp and "unconventional"and is starting to feel increasingly more dumb, dopey and easy to swallow as a character.
I still love him and I always will, and sometimes I find it endearing, but this episode in particular felt like he was just being a dumb genuine and boring drunk (really just in terms of the scene with Beth, but considering that the episodes are only about 22 minutes, there isn't a lot of elbow room to work with, especially considering most of this episode was summer screen time).
The only reason why I care so much is because of Rick is one of the very few characters I've ever been genuinely connected with, so I'm just worried that Rick as a character is going down to gradual slippery slope of just becoming an American extremely overly dumbed it down product. The show was so gritty and real and raw and a lot of ways for the first three to four seasons and kept that touch up to season 6, but this season just feels like they're gradually going into "American Dad" type feeling territory, and I'm vaguely worried a little bit about my connection to the show. Especially as someone that does not connect to things easily or ever at all really. And partially because everything is so dumbed down and doesn't seem to have any and genuine philosophy behind it except of being another brainless thing for people to consume to pass the time.
#I'm just complaining to myself#because I don't like talking to people on Reddit#lol#rick and morty#if anybody thinks that I'm being melodramatic then I am because there is such thing as being mentally ill because of real life#problems and being deeply in love with characters because for whatever reason that's what makes sense to my brain#I have no friends in this fandom so I can post as obnoxiously as I want anyway lol#Rick is one of the very few things that means enough to me to bring out this passionate side of me#when it comes to consumption#literally not even kidding but my attachment to Rick is so deep#that even just having a certain kind of dopey looked his expression after being confronted in a certain way from being caught drunk can put#me off#for the record I am aware of the fact that my attachment to Rick is unhealthy#and therefore how passionate I am about him is vaguely off-putting or a lot off putting depending on who you are#but I am a self-aware unhealthy person#and I'm also wear the fact that literally nobody has to put up with somebody else's posts if they don't like how intense or mentally ill#they are#fans like me would be better off at this point if the show was canceled#not because I want it to be but because I've become so specifically attached in my extreme labretentious way from other way that Rick was#presented the first six or so seasons that I feel like at this point I've become almost too picky#and obviously it's not about what I think#but I am saying this as someone that is more than content to be fixated on a canceled TV show because of how perfect it already was#like bj#literally the strongest relationship I've ever had with a character#and it's from a canceled TV show of literally 4 years lol
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had to check my bank account before payday. 6 dead 73 injured
#personal crap#i'm just being melodramatic i get depressed when i see the number's gone down#bc i worry i'm not saving my money enough
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When the girl (perfect angel loyl) you thought about and waited for ALL DAY finally comes online and then promptly asks you to do her a favor and you say yes because if you hadn't already had a bi awakening you'd be a lesbian for her and she asks you to ask her boyfriend to make love to her:
@morganwrites12672
also, Ryder, fuck you 🫶
#spencer's shitposting#my heart shattered let me tell you#pre mature chest pain! oh wait that's just my LOVE being BRUTALLY DESTROYED#i'm clingy and melodramatic i feel like you should know this also i'm legitimately in love with you in case you can't tell#good morning to the loml <3 !!!
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Today felt like a rough day
#getting through it had a nap worked out gonna have a drink and make some food#trying not to feel like everything is terrible when i know I'm just being melodramatic#personal#me
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