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Good morning 🙏🏼
I want to thank everyone their support with reblogging my stuff over the years and reblogging some of the context of the situation.
Tumblr and Instagram is filled with the most supportive people I’ve ever had the chance of meeting. The last time something like this happened, I didn’t have much support, not even from people I thought were close to me. It took me a year or two to be okay with being perceived again in fandoms. So I’m very grateful for everything.
I just wanted to post that I appreciate all of the asks and I’ve been reading all of them. I actually get anxious I’m spamming everyone too much so I probably won’t reply to everything. Please don’t feel pressured to support me financially, there’s is a free option on patreon to follow. I’ll post future project plans and occasional updates because I still love comics and I still love DC/Marvel. I do enjoy having people following along for my art/reading journey so I would always be okay with people just following for free. My brain is telling me this post is too long now so I will go 🙏🏼😭
#my brain to me: what in the retired YouTuber ass type post.. (screams) ok#I just received a lot of anons about the situation and I wanted to clarify it’s okay!!#I know the usd conversion rate is crazy… so I’ll try to wrangle my head to post some stuff publicly. I had a friend who supported me from#brazil.. I was like what! ily but if it’s breaking bank please don’t do it!!!#I also didn’t want people sending me asks thinking I didn’t read it.. listen I’ve been a fandom lurker for a while. yes I do get sad when#people don’t reply to my asks… because I’m like I want to know your answer so bad#sorry I’m not doing a very good job replying 😔 I’ve actually never had a fandom blog of this level#I’ve never gotten more than 5 asks over the 3+ years of tumblr usage..#I’m also an ultra perfectionist where I’ll reread what I wrote 2–5 times before posting. yeah it’s a bit crazy! if you send me a list of#recommended comics before I will probably read every single one and then reply 7+ months later…#😭😭😭#let me not ramble more 👍🏼#going to go get breakfast
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thinking a bit too much about this
#nu carnival#my mind has been completely overtaken by dante#enei my beloved.......#one day I might rewatch all of his events to take notes on his and eiden's relationship development#I hope dante's on the upcoming summer triple banner so I can scream more about enei#''I'm ready to satisfy you any time'' WHICH WRITER DO I NEED TO THANK FOR THIS LINE#god I think their relationship is really just ''you wanna kiss me so bad it makes you look stupid''#cause in the winter event dante had his first kiss with eiden#and in their h scene dante smooches eiden and says smth like ''so all he needs is a bit of lip...''#AND THEN DANTE KEEPS SMOOCHING EIDEN#after that eiden says he's tired and dante said ''we should raise your vital capacity''#and eiden replies ''you just want to kiss me again!'' and he was right lol#I'm obsessed with them your honor#enei collecting
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I don't know who else to yell at about this AND YOU JUST HAPPENED TO BE IN MY CROSSHAIRS -- COME HERE, LISTEN /strangles
Mr. Compress being a flamboyant, charming, and sly individual was definitely a big factor in why you liked him. That, and the air of mystery he seemed to exude. It was the mask, wasn't it? You found yourself staring at his face -- or lack thereof -- more often than you cared to admit. Truly, you were a MASTER of subtlety. He must have caught you staring about a dozen times, but always played it off like a gentleman. "Have I enchanted you yet, my darling (Y/n)?" he would ask, laughing as you scrambled to compose yourself. Fuckin' smooth, dipshit. Why'd he always have to catch you gawking?
What you didn't know was that this little charade went both ways. Sako was simply better at covering his tracks. Less blatant about his admiration. The hold you had over him was beyond what you could have ever imagined. Sako finds himself wanting to impress you -- make you smile and laugh. Ah, your voice is so angelic. The utter joy he gets from watching your eyes sparkle as he performs an impressive sleight of hand trick is enough to motivate him.
"Every magician worth his salt needs a lovely assistant, wouldn't you agree?" He flirts RELENTLESSLY, but you're either too dense or too reserved to make a move back. At some point, he gets fed up with your reluctance to acknowledge his advances. If subtlety isn't a language you speak -- ✨extravagance✨ will have to do.
When you walk into the room, you're dumbfounded. Flowers, wine, candles and music. Sako was there waiting for you and claps his hands in anticipation at your appearance. "I thought perhaps this would erase any doubts you might have in regards to my intentions with you," he says, closing the distance between you. "You're quite easy to fool, my darling, but so very difficult to seduce."
Oh. You got it now. Finally.
"A dance, my dear?" he asks, offering his hand to you with a bow. After you take his hand, he brings it up -- moving his mask aside just a smidge to place a kiss upon your palm. "I've been craving this ever since we met. Let us make this a night to remember."
THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE SHORT BUT OUUUGGGHH I SCREAM
four. words. for. sako: SMOOTH AND CLEVER MOTHERFUCKER.
he's (just like all the other LOV members) so used to be subtle and cautious with every little one of his move. but if for some reason you don't get the hint or try to ignore it, he would take every chance of you being near him to shamelessly flirt with you and be upfront about his feelings towards you, to corner you and get the words out of you. he ain't going to let you run away from these feelings.
would literally shower you with compliments from the moment you wake up to when you're about to go sleep. he's definitely the one to blame for the praise kink you've developed.
#kelin responds#answered#shade 🌌#bnha fanfic#mha fanfic#mr compress fanfic#atsuhiro sako fanfic#bnha x you#mha x you#mr compress x you#atsuhiro sako x you#bnha x reader#mha x reader#mr compress x reader#atsuhiro sako x reader#OH MY GOD SHADE DON'T WORRY THIS WAS AWESOME TO READ AND UGH–#he's my 2nd fav LOV member so this was just fantastic to me#god he's so damn hot... during his last fight he had me nearly scream 'DADDY!!!' at him so bad...#btw sorry for the late reply i just got home 😭
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UGH SHE'S SO FUNNY AND SWEET, BANGING MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL ACTUALLY, WOULD LIKE TO KISS HER THANKS
#max rambles a lot#🐈⬛🌈🩵#genuinely tho idk if she's feeling the same way or she's just really friendly and also just like platonically into me if that makes sense??#like??? how do people do this???#how do humans???#because she calls me buddy and bestie a lot#and there was a little tee hee joke in the gc long before this crush even developed about a mutual friend setting us up#where she was like 'oh you're great just not the gender i'm attracted to!' which is so fair#AND YET#she says things like 'i want to be around for a long time because you make me feel wanted' when i told her she had to take care of herself#because she's had a really bad cold all week and i said i wanted her around for a long time#and also 'bestie don't worry about it okay i will be coming home to you in any way we both can'#after i apologised for being behind with replies for somethin we were doing together#WHEN I TELL YOU I MELTED.#anyway help me idk what is happening to me or where i stand i'm a mess and i really like this girl#can't wait to scream at my best friends about this on thursday lmao
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I feel like a bad friend for pretending I didn't see my friends messages but I don't feel well enough yet to have a normal chat with them 💔
#personal#if I reply them being sad I'm just gonna worry them more#it's not the 1st time I do this#i want to scream#i should have agree when my doctor asked me to take more doses of my meds#had*#i'm tired
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It just… does get easier. It’s not like anything changes it’s just that time and inevitability guide you out of the real dogshit jobs and you become a more complete person who is better able to defend and describe their needs in a way that authority figures can’t resist or overlook.
In my 20s I had like £100 a month after rent and bills, and I didn’t think I’d be able to make it. I just applied for jobs and changes of environment out of spite; you have to burn energy you don’t really have to get there, but it’s worth sparing it in order to end up out of those shitty office drone jobs and with money and a home you love and I promise you.
I promise you.
You’ll get there.
Aw thanks, this is encouraging to hear!! I'm glad you are doing better now and I'm sure one day I will too. I don't know if I ever expect to own a home and I've not managed to find an office job yet, but who knows! I'm sure one day I will at least find a way to make more money and have more consistent hours. For now, I'm at least managing to support myself on my own without going into debt, which is new and exciting. I'm sure it is all a part of the process. Thanks for sharing!
#replies#yeah i mean the upside is no one has ever screamed at me at this job no alarms have so far gone off#nothing particularly traumatizing has happened yet and i did get on the evening shift so i'm sleeping now!#it's also the second out of the 11 or 12 jobs i've had to pay me enough to live on! so like i am getting coffees whenever i want#also exciting#just a lot of extra work days and it's pissing me off but like it is better than what i was doing before
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Y'all are gonna probably hate me, but...
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I have decided to drop threads and asks that have been sitting in my drafts for like 6+ months.
#screaming internally all day everyday (ooc)#ooc#//I'M SORRY Y'ALL I JUST COULD NOT WITH THEM ROSRJKYJ#LOOKING AT THEM WAS LIKE KILLING ME MOSTLY CUZ I JUST HAD NO IDEA TO REPLY TO SOME OF THEM#I ALSO WASN'T FEELING THEM MUCH ANYMORE#ALSO I DON'T WANNA BE THAT PERSON BUT IT WAS FOR MY OWN COMFORT GSDJKCKBFHJSKVFD#I'M SORRY Y'ALLLLLLLLLLLLL ;A;#AND I SWEAR IT'S NO ONE'S FAULT YFDJKYJVVKTF
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Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh your songs are so freaking neat, your voice sounds so freaking pretty. I said it before and I will say it forever. Love love love. Ahjhhhhhhjhhhhhhhhh. The videos are so well done too. So freaking talented 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛.
Oh yes ahhhhhhhhhhjjjjj, so good. Nostalgia is such a nice feeling (to me it counts as an extra emotion) (that can be so beautiful but also hit you very hard) so so so good. Red cardinals are so cool. Asaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh.
Thanks for listening to me screaming.
*Me (Bojan) looking lovingly at you (Jure)* Thank you so much for the nice words, Jay 🥹💚
#I love to know that my silly little songs filmed on my silly little phone in my silly bedroom means something to someone#not to be sappy#but I makes me think of how different my life would have been had I never learned that I could indeed sing alright#if I hadn't been told that my voice is okay#and instead just lived with the feeling that I should hide that side of me#where would I be now if not for people like you letting me know that you enjoy what I do#so thank you for all the screaming#I appreciate you and your screaming#and yes I did choose a gif with jure because of what you said in my dairy blog post#if jure is your spirit animal then let me be the bojan looking lovingly at said spirit animal :'D#sappy time's over#thank you <33#replies
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Some of those doctors make hating oat milk their entire personality. I hate them. Cannot pretend to find them funny or like i give a shit. Fucking pretentious assholes
#also my colleague (the girl i had my shift with) is the exact opposite of me in all aspects. asked me if I'd ever worked in customer service#because i couldn't care less about being fake friendly to assholes and don't care if they like the service or not#like bitch those people don't have any other choice but drink our fucking coffee it's not like I'm competing with anyone#or like they pay us in any way. i get paid for doing the dumb work i have to do not for stroking some dumb ass doctors' egos#they come out of their rooms once an hour to get coffee and we have the cups on the table and i wouldn't even Think of#HANDING them the cups and smiling sweetly at them and asking 'coffee? tea?? :))'#I'll just assume these grown adults will get their stupid coffee or tea when they want some. it's not like they don't know where it is#(and i AM friendly and smile when someone is coming in our direction but why the fuck do you need to get so disgustingly friendly with them#if someone held up a cup asking if i.want some coffee I'd leave immediately even if i came just for coffee. it's creepy)#anyway. she's nice. I'm not.#there's normal people who will get their coffee and maybe ask if the milk in the little jug is cow milk to which I'll happily reply 'yes#:)'. then there's the other people who see the oat milk and make it clear they are the most insufferable people on the planet#(and i pity their patients so much. not much to choose from i guess but if i had that as a doctor I'd happily just die)#like everyone who took oatmilk could do it without making a fuss about the cow milk on the table. the cow milk lovers could never#'the oat milk is in front of the actual milk. this is unacceptable. i hate such healthy bullshit' lol okay#'OAT milk?? I'll leave this to the horses! THANK GOD you have actual milk!'#my favorite was the one who really took personal offense with its sheer presence. as if it had killed half of his patients lmao#'we had 50 patients with xyz problem. ALL of them drink oat milk. they cannot see the connection. it's really unhealthy'#at this point i just said i didn't care and stopped paying attention and he started complaining to his doctor colleague about how#oat milk is advertised to be healthy and how it's actually the opposite and i just find that very funny compared to the first comment#from that one guy who doesn't like such healthy bullshit. you guys need to find a consensus on the oatmilk issue i think. no one takes you#seriously if you contradict yourself like this. also i couldn't care less about the healthiness of the milk alternative of my choice. bitch.#next week I'll end up killing someone. i hope they all die from their cow milk. (but not the ones who took cow milk and didn't say anything#about the oat milk. they can continue living as they didn't annoy me)#void screams#some of these doctors were actually quite nice (most of them even). one even brought an applicant to us telling her to get some coffee#(which we are not allowed to give to applicants. but i don't care. I'd rather they get something than some of the asshole jury members#who hate oat milk (which is not the issue. the issue is them making it everybody else's issue that they don't like oat milk))
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nothing more humbling than apologising to people after a mental breakdown
#i’m gonna be so honest i don’t like apologising#like i just don’t. let’s just ignore LMFAO i know it doesn’t sound like i’m a decent person but i’m being real#but i had to make myself say sorry for literally screaming crying at nothing#when i was like 8 and did something bad and my mum asked ‘are you gonna apologise’ i used to reply#’i’ll apologise when i think of something im sorry for’#my poor parents#personal
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im finally home from my trip i kinda wanna do a whiteboard if people r inchrested
#i had a four hour drive where i was just thinking about agent 8 the whole time#cicada screaming#put in the notes/replies/whatever if u wanna join ig this is an interest check or smth
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Honkai Star Rail for the fandom ask
MWAH MWAH, thank you anon BHERBFHJEF you give me a reason to go insane!!!
send me a fandom!
Favourite Female:
uhh this one is a bit difficult to answer since i don't actually like a lot of the female characters in star rail, HBERFJBHERF my wives are mostly the men but if i have to choose!!
female chara i like for the aesthetic: Ruan Mei
female chara i like for her personality: Robin
Favourite Male:
BLADE, YINGXING, JIN, REN, MY LOVE, THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE!!!!!!! he's literally the reason why I pre-registered to HSR, downloaded the app a year before the server opened and saved all my stellar jades for his banner in 1.2. AND WHEN HIS CHARACTER TRAILER DROPPED I WOULD NOT STOP WATCHING IT !!!!
i never take him off of my team unless i absolutely cannot squeeze him in there. and right now im bleeding my wallet dry buying all his merch JHBEFBJHERF
3 Other Favourite Characters:
HEHE, OF COURSE HOW COULD I LEAVE OUT MY OTHER FAVE CHARACTERS?? of course, my second wife Boothill!
next one is Jing Yuan!! Mr. General has my heart, he's so cute and handsome and hot and I love love love listening to his voicelines. (no i don't listen to 'time for the master stroke' on repeat, i swear-)
and lastly - my HSR husband - the knight of beauty himself!! i honestly don't have a deeper reason why i love him other than the fact that i love princess treatment <3
3 OTPs: OH OH OH OH OH, honestly, I do want to say though I'm open to All x Blade and All x Boothill as long as they're the bottom, but my top ships are !!! JingRen, HengRen/FengRen, and SunHill!!!
Notp: not into dan heng x jing yuan :((( I can see the appeal but personally i don't like it! i also dont like the baiheng x yingxing ship either. and ofc any ships involving top!boothill or top!blade is just crossed out in my books WKWKKW
Funniest character: DR. RATIO HAS ME IN TEARS EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!! LIKE THIS MAN IS A WHOLE FUCKING MEME AND IM IN LOVE WITH HIM. like he is so unserious i can't stand him HBERFBJHERF
Prettiest character: my beautiful princess with a disorder is perfect in my eyes. there is no one else more beautiful than HIM!!!
Most Annoying Character: uhhh march 7th. at least for me personally jhbERBFBJHREF i just don't like girls who just repeat what i just saw happened in game JHERFHJE
Most badass character: MR SUNDAY!!!!!!!! THE MOST HANDSOME MAN IN PENACONY WHO WAS LITERALLY SO CLOSE TO ASCEND AND BECOME AN AEON???? lIKE NO ONE ELSE IS DOING IT LIKE MR SUNDAY!!!
Character I’d like as my BFF: GUINAFEN IS SO SO SO CUTE!!! when I saw her i was like.... omg,,, ,SHES SO CUTE !!!!!!! and I'm very awkward talker so someone who yaps a lot is ideal for me JHBERFHJERF
Female Character I’d Marry: uhh probably no one :(( none of the fem characters screams marriage material to me. but if i'm forced to choose i'd choose uhh bronya!! she's super dependable HBERBHJ
Male Character I’d Marry: ARGENTI !!! Like honestly, i'm so down bad and whipped and i LOVE LOVE LOVE princess treatment. Argenti is literally the ideal man but he only has eyes for Idrilla damn JHBRFBJHER
Character I hate/dislike/least like: None!! I think all of the characters are great, even if I find them mildly annoying!
#gifs#gifsets#ask dean#dean replies#anonymous#thank you for the ask!!!#this was so fun#HJBERFHJERHBJFBJERF#as you can see#i went off#and went overboard#bUT I JUST HAD TO#SCREAM ABOUT THEM!!!#OKAY#LET ME LIVE!!!#im sorry to my friends for the long post#i just had to ramble ok
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gyus i think im a ltite wacky ☝️🤓
#hai i had a dreeam so im jaust gonna scream and then go back fo aleep cause its only 7am. too earlyz#idk if we will Ever feel perfectly comfortable in friendships cause no matter what theres always something missing#like w our favs its a near perfect puzzle but theres just. some piece missing and instead of focusing on the rest of the shit we actually#have we just worry ab them going to find that missing piece somewhere else cause like thatd make sense. duh they want a sense of fulfillmen#in their friendships which we cant give them#like duh theyre gonna go and search for it in other ppl and we will have to slowly watch them drift without being able to say anything#without sounding controlling or too insecure which will push them away more like yah duh#anyway i love puzzles logic games r our favs fhey r just better#vent#teehee hashtag mv#post#mae mention#im going back to sleellppp#i also.dont wanna reply ti anyones messages but whatverrrr love my friends i gee#yikers hashtag lame tumblrina
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#I was to answer the latest Beast Anon gem today and??? Tumblr deleted the ask???????????????????#I'm going to scream. I'm going to yell and shout and cry#I *am* waiting to panic because sometimes the Tumblr inbox is just like that and sometimes asks disappear to come back a day later but.#My God I am panicking#I just hope Beast Anon hasn't deleted I was literally going to ask them to merry me. The ask reply I had written literally opened with#“Beast Anon far from wanting to being too straightforward but. Will you marry me”#Beast Anon if you're out there. Don't leave me you're my greatest source of joy#If the ask isn't back in 24h I'm filling out a support request#Sorry I don't usually make this many rambles posts but I have class in two minutes and I know I can't focus because I'm too upset over this#Literally praying. I'm sorry for taking this long to answer but it's literaly because I've reread that ask sixty times#Beast Anon come back to me#There's literally a word document on my desktop named after you#Besides I *had* already written down most of the answer what to do now... I feel bad you deserve to be answered#I'm praying every god to have that ask back#random rambles
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-. MORE HEADCANONS for Hyun Celebrity Verse
The BRAINROT I have for this verse, gosh... (rat bastard character for this verse also coming up~ Lynnie, I WILL give you that bastard, MARK MY WORDS!)
Her first ventures into acting where actually classic MV cameos that models seem to do here and there; especially when she was first rising to fame, so early twenties, she'd be featured in that classic 'look at how cool this artist is he can get models~', eye candy and the likes way; the older she'd get, the likelier she'd be to feature as the actual love interest rather than a meatbag (and choose who to work with)
I like to think that she featured with artists like Ra.in yknow~ or people she'd actually enjoy, like Crush, Gray, or as a mate in Ta.eyeon videos maybe (if that's even a thing)
At one point her cameos became less 'oh a model' and more 'is that Ji Hyun?! OMG~'
YOU KNOW WHAT what if she's the voice at the beginning of Jessi's Spirit Animal, you know the one, that'd be so much fun what the fuck, she'd love Jessi (on that note, fluent in English queen~?)
She's not even that much into fashion, as I feel I've kind of established relatively well, the only fashion designer she can actually get behind is Kang Ae-ri ( @stillresolved ) because other than THAT'S HER BESTIE Hyun also feels like Ae-ri is one of the few people left in the business who actually has something to say, something to show, a passion for her craft, and not the performative kind where you call yourself eccentric to get away with being a douchebag, no, Ae-ri actually gives a shit, and Hyun respects that
Even though she's a clothing hanger (her words), when it comes to endorsing brands outside the fashion industry, Hyun likes perfume deals the most: she's a big fan of scents and the likes, she actually likes 'selling' perfumes she'd wear on herself
On the other end of the spectrum: skin-care products, she fucking hates that industry, oversaturated with scammers and bullshit
ONTO THE DEFAMATION LAWSUIT lmao I think I'm settling on a designer being the cause of her trouble: he publicly painted as an abuser who mistreats everyone around her, especially the crew and anyone easily painted as an underdog, this designer is someone Hyun has had issues with for years; she's kept herself relatively close-lipped and they simply had a very tense work-place relationship until Hyun's incoming departure from the fashion industry has prompted her to put him in his goddamn place for his mistreatment and abuse of the women especially who work for him; long story short, he did not like that and turned it around and against her
Hyun's mother is Old Money, Hyun's father owns a cruises company, Hyun's older sister is a former Olympic bronze medalist and now activist, a lot of people assume that's how she got into modelling in the first place, money nepotism, WRONG! She's never seen a cent of her mother's money for most of her life, Hyun's father kind of forgets he has children, Hyun's sister is dealing with her own shit and doesn't have a good reputation for being an LGBTQ+ rights activist anyway, so Hyun was....... scouted~ Like those classic kpop scouting stories you hear, you know
She was also offered to become a trainee, yknow, for the visuals only but she refused, it wouldn't have been for her, she's got no pronounced musical talent and even just thinking about learning choreos fatigued her (she also doesn't like dancing tbh)
In terms of how public Boram and her are, I'll have to talk to Alex about it, but prior to this relationship, she's been OF COURSE target of all sorts of dating rumours
Once she was approached about potentially dating a popular 2nd gen kpop idol and she laughed in their face... she had a public appearance & interview ban for weeks after that
I have to incorporate foxes into this verse as well, of course, so what if an upcoming potential role of hers was that of a gumiho 👀
Funniest about this is... Hyun is a good actor; translating the masking and trickster nature of a gumiho into this verse, it just makes sense, we could easily make her as good as P.ar.k Gy.u-yo.un.g herself
And she would actually like it, she doesn't know it yet BUT I DO, Hyun would love acting, she'd abandon the fashion industry as main gig real fucking fast
We need to cast her in something with Se.o In.-G.uk (NOBODY TOLD ME HE'S IN SOMETHING WITH PARK SO-D.AM RN, GOSH DARN IT)
While she avoids public appearances unless super necessary for whatever reason (such as the one Bellamy ( @usuhan ) is offering her 👀), she's likelier to attend if they're charity events... but she's a little picky there, too
#;ooc#the model;about#the model;blood guts and angel cake;celebrity verse#MY BRAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i had to stop everything i was doing and write all of this down QUEUEING IT UP#i saw Lynnie's replies and lost my mind honestly i'm out OF IT I LOVE IT HERE#Ferre & Lynnie feeding me with their verses GOSH#sorry for that one line where i scream about Se.o I.n-Gu.k he's just... one of my favourite actors EVER LIKE--#everything he's ever done is lowkey on my watchlist always just because i wanna see him ACT™#LIKE even if i didn't like the thing (gosh i don't like shopping king louie lmao) HIS PERFORMANCE? spectacular#OH GOSH THAT'S WHERE ELSE I SAW YU.N Y.U-S.EON IN MA'AM ALKSDGJFLHGKL#;queue
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and is there not just generally a certain level of decency that would make you like ease up on a person who's obviously more than a little frazzled i am sorry that i cant process all my feelings and regurgitate them to you in an easily digestible manner while im actively In a situation or have a prepared disclaimer about how im so sorry but im just overwhelmed and need you to leave me alone right now or whatever else maybe i just dont know maybe i cant tell you exactly what im feeling or need and if i have to figure it out and explain that to you my brain is going to explode. but you could read the room. is there not a point where a friend would probably just go oh okay let me not continue pushing this person let me take a moment to reflect on their state and perhaps try to ease that or at least not keep fucking pushing on it. and also maybe not choose these moments to make otherwise innocuous but contextually just kinda meanspirited jabs. ok whatever
#not to be a sensitive little bitch except im not.#i dont want to be rude or too explicitly open about the things i dont really like to talk about#but sometimes. frankly. people need to take on the weight of their own feelings. insecurities. thoughts. etc and then some#some of us grew up with little to no emotional support and in fact took on the weight of their family's issues and the brunt of their#emotional immaturity and sometimes that makes someone feel fundamentally rattled and unsafe in moments like that#some of us had pretty much every big personal emotional. thing. that happened to them minimized and turned into some tragic#family conversation. or had someone reply like huh idk if that could have happened to you i certainly dont remember that#and then you wonder if people were ever looking out for you and if the ones that did just truly didnt care.#um. anyway. this is not just to be like oh im so quirky and different and traumatized lol but im reaching a boiling point when it comes#to people just like. doing this shit. or whatever. im going to start screaming#i shouldnt have to bare my fucking soul to you for you to go oh huh maybe this is a sensitive subject perhaps#frankly we arent the same and we dont relate and aw bummerooni ik im not the only sufferer but good god.#our lives were very different in some ways!#and sometimes all i want is for someone to say its ok kid you did good#again. not to be dramatic. but when ive talked about MY upheaval of feelings or w/e like if thats been impacting#how ive been acting and people start crying at me or get all whatever. oh it makes me wanna be the one to pass the torch#yeah man imagine how tired we are.#ok talking incoherently now so im gonna go do my job i guess.#abby talks#i know no one will save me but maybe sometimes it’d be nice to share the weight regardless
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