#((new tags bc beta ate my tags))

[pctaldrunk]

@indulgentia / today i squeezed out a brain cell

[delcakoo]

i’m sure most ppl expected this so i’m not gonna make a big deal out of it but!! yes i am going on hiatus for an unspecified amount of time.

it’s honestly quite simple, i’ve just been losing interest in most aspects of kpop aside from the music, which makes writing for it a lot harder than before. i also dealt with a lot of burn out for months and still forced myself to write which only made it worse. lastly, i’m an executive of two clubs at my school this year on top of all my classes, so finding time to write would be even worse than it was before :’) !

YEAh that’s kinda it! for now my works will stay up, moots can dm me for my disc/spotify!! even if we’ve barely spoken pspsps i wanna stalk ur music cmere 🤲 a special shout out to my emoji anons too, you’re all amazing people ilysm, especially those that have been stuck with me for so long <3 (u know who u are!!)

i’ll try and check in here every so often to chat, esp if a new comeback for enha/txt happens!! love u guys and stay safe <3 you may send an ask if u have any questions!

extra stuff i wanna say to moots below! (it’s all word vomits i’m sorry)

RAVEN. MY WIFEY. my BELOVED blr wont let me tag u but you already know i adore u sm playing roblox with u is so fun even if that one banana game was kinda ass!! 💖 thank u for being so so sweet when putting up with me all the time and raising our fav corgi daughter with sm love <3 i hope u get more confidence in ur writing because your fics are always so creative and well written, and in yourself too bc a certain mf thats name starts with J and ends with N is MISSING OUT. 🙄🙄 ok im still gna be annoying u all the time so. bye ig….. smooches

@seongclb katto u deserve an award for putting up with me in dms ilysm 😞 watching the promised neverland together brought me so much joy and i still have a ss of you calling gilda a tractor ok i love u!!!! i would read your fics all day any day u are so talented and ur photography skills are amazing, i hope we get to keep in touch WE SHOULD FIND ANOTHER SHOW TO WATCH TGTHER !!!!! i need to fix your lack of anime knowledge ‼️ PLS KEEP WRITING AS WELL ENHABLR NEEDS U!!!!

@soov reirei my gf i aspire to be as confident and funny as you, you’re literal sunshine and always make my day better even with just one interaction <3 thank u for being so welcoming my first days in walmart enha and raising sushiwon with me!! as well as entertaining me by dying in genshin every 3 seconds <3 (WE NEED TO PLAY AGAIN) oh and KEEP WRITING BB. i will rise from THE DEAD WHEN IT COMES OUT OK U CAN DO THIS ML!!

@haknom kangaroo karaoke keys we may have had only a few convos but they were all so fun like PLAYING BRAWL STARS WAS HILARIOUS we ate the house down in duo showdown idc. and beta reading ur fics was such a treat esp while watching u plan new smaus every other day 🫶 also your music taste is MUWAH gimme some more recs pspsps !!! KEEP WRITING OKKK?!

@kynrki kimmy kimmy kim one of my first ever moots <3 your writing is always such a joy to read and your energy is amazing, thank you for giving me a chance when i was too shy to ask anyone else to be moots LMAO 🫶 plsplss keep writing you’re so gifted and deserve the whole world LOVEE UU

@bitehee cavvy my big sibling :((( i love u sm kshsdknd its been a while but i really hope everything has been well since you moved and you’re still being as cool as ever <3 im gonna replay a pokemon game in ur honor perhaps mystery dungeon 👁️ ? anyway i look up to u and think u are so cool, one of my fav hee stans ever ever!!! remember u have my disc if u ever wanna chat 🫂 !!!

@sunoksunny sunny <3 my other gf. i remember our first vc u had this goofy pfp i cant remember what it was but like u are so easy to talk to and funny?! and PRETTY??? your fits are always stunning and your singing is beautiful ugh the whole package fr… and. we need. to play. genshin!!! I REDOWNLOADED IT FOR U OK WE WILL DISCUSS THIS SOON!! ILY

@slytherinshua ZANNY. u are so easy to talk to we match each others energy so perfectly?!? I HOPE U AND TUALHA CONTINUE BEING THE COOLEST EVER and ur writing is top tier so pls keep going‼️ thank u for being so sweet to me as another one of my very first moots i appreciate u sm <3333

@flwrshee riri !!! we haven’t even been moots for long but i had to add u in here because u need to know that ILYSM. you’re like an adorable energetic little sister that always makes me smile T-T thank you for taking time out of your day to reblog my fics with so much sweet feedback and i wish u the absolute best always!! if u ever need anything pls dm me on disc i would love to chat with u more, and make sure to keep writing bc u have SO much talent!!!!

@wonieleles sia SIA i genuinely miss talking to u sm i NEED to come back to walmart enha :(( we don’t talk much besides our little interactions in the server but each time you make me smile. you’re so so smart and admirable, i hope you keep up the hard work bc i know you’ll go so far and HAVE MORE CONFIDENCE!! you’re so beautiful okay ily 😞🫶

@sultrybaby kel 😭😭😭💖💖 you’ve literally been a day one THANK YOU for always checking in on me even during your ridiculous NONSTOP EXAMS. 💀 another one of my big siblings on here fr you are such a real one and i care for u sm!!! i hope everything has been well for u?! pls feel free to message me for anything okay <3 I LOVE U SM thank u for sticking with me all this time 🫂🫂

i have so many moots so i can’t write smthn for everyone but i love u all okay <3 AGAIN if u wanna keep in touch thru spotify or discord dm me muwah

[verobatto-messy-art]

Mediation From Heaven (Original webcomic)

Chapter 1 (English Version)

OMG! It's here finally! It took me very long bc I was drawing and cleaning chapter 4 from both of my webtoons. And everything is a mess LOL (just one page more to go and I'll start with the inking!)

But, this was a debt with my English Community followers... A huge thanks to my wonderful beta @100yearsofsolipsism for helping me with this project!

More info and chapter links under the cut...

This is a story I love very much, I wrote it when I had 19. Surprisingly my dog literally ate the comic (yes, I'm not lying) so I was disheartened...

More than 10 years later after that incident, I started to write and draw again, and I decided to remake a new version from this comic. I changed a lot of things, mostly because 2022 is not 1999. So I added some more adult stuff, and one BL side story, and also changed a couple of personalities from some characters. So I'm really, really happy to share with all of you this comic.

Enjoy and tell me what you think!

Title: Mediation From Heaven

Author and Artist: @verobatto-messy-art (@benka79 )

Rate: Mature

Tags: #Romance #BL side story #angels #slow burn #suicidal thoughts #hurt/comfort #cute angel #love triangle #comedy #drama #college students #family bond #friendship #pining

Chapter 1:

Link to Part 1

Link to Part 2

Link to Part 3

[boowoomuu]

50 QUESTIONS YOU'VE NEVER BEEN ASKED

Tagged by my amazing friend @thequeenchoices ♥

1) What is the color of your hairbrush? Pink (I actually use my mom's hairbrush)

2) A food you never eat? Meat (vegetarian bitch)

3) Are you typically to warm or too cold? Well... I can change to super warm to super cold in 2 seconds so, yeah...

4) What were you doing 45 minutes ago? Having lunch (and I had to use a calculator to see what time it was haha)

5) What is your favorite candy bar? I don't actually have a favorite

6) Have you ever been to a professional sports event? Yeah

7) What is the last thing you said out loud? Probably "Thank you for the food grandma, it was very good" :)

8) What is your favorite ice cream? ChocoMint

9) What was the last thing you had to drink? Water

10) Do you like your wallet? Yeah

11) What was the last thing you ate? Rice with beans with farofa and chickpea dumpling

12) Did you buy any new clothes last weekend? Nope

13) The last sporting event you watched? Does a sports anime count?

14) What is your favorite flavor of popcorn? ... Popcorn has flavors?

15) Who was the last person you sent a text message to? I think it was a friend of mine

16) Ever go camping? No

17) Do you take vitamins? Yes

18) Do you go to church every sunday? I don't go to church

19) Do you have a tan? Can't, I'm in quarantine and starting to look green

20) Do you prefer chinese foof or pizza? Pizza

21) Do you drink your soda with a straw? Not if I can have a glass

22) What color socks do you usually wear?

23) Ever drive above the speed limit? I don't drive

24) Look to your left, what do you see?

25) What terrifies you? Loosing someone I love to depression again

26) What chore do you hate? ┐(´ー｀)┌

27) What do you think of when you hear an Autralian accent? Noice

28) What your favorite soda? I don't have a favorite, and I'm trying to drink it less

29) Do you go into a fast food place or just hit the drive through? I only hit the drive through when I'm on a car trip, and even then sometimes we stop and go into.

30) Who's the last person you talked to? My grandma

31) Favorite cut of beef? I'm vegetarian

32) Last song you listened to? Quereres by Caetano Veloso

33) Last book you read? The Bro Code

34) Favorite day of the week? Currently wednesday bc I have voice acting classes

35) Can you say the alphabet backwards? I just realised I have to sing the whole alphabet to remember the order so nope... Also I just noticed that the alphabet is named alphabet, like, alpha, beta... Omg

36) Do you like your coffee? I don't remember if I ever tried to make coffee...

37) Favorite pair of shoes? My black boots :3 Also the sunflower shoe my aunt gave me for my birthday but I couldn't use it yet bc of quarentine :/

38) At what time do you usually go to bed? 1am

39) At what time do you normaly get up? Around 1:40pm

40) What do you prefer, sunrises or sunsets? Sunrises😍

41) How many blankets are on your bed? Two

42) Describe your kitchen plates: White

43) Do you have a favorite alcoholic beverage? I hate alcohol

44) Do you play cards? Not as much as I would like :/

45) What color is your car? Silver

46) Can you change a tire? Never tried to

47) What is your favorite province? You mean state? Well, I love mine haha

48) Favorite job you've ever had? I've never had a job

49) How did you get your biggest scar? "I'm not running, I'm walking fast" next thing I saw was red

50) What did you do today that made someone else happy? I petted my dogs

Tagging: @ilovetoimagine @tired-and-dumb @fandomsand-oops-politicstoo @yeahhiyellow @yes-prisoner @doriansapprentice @trappedinfandoms

And anyone else that sees this on their dash😘

[jamespottervevo]

painted red (to fit right in) 1/3

James Potter is Spider-Man, and no one gave him an instruction manual.

He really could have used that manual. 

Spiderman!AU | no movie spoilers | 7.k words | ao3  

thank you to @frxddi @n0tromulus and @sitienessuficientecoraje for beta reading!

(if you showed any above average interest in this fic [yes I read tags bc I crave validation], I’m going to tag you here- @elanev91 @magic-girl-in-a-muggle-world @frustratedpoetwrites @cornerforward13 @padfootdidit) 

CHAPTER 1: i feel it in my bones

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James Potter came to in handcuffs. Again. Sirius kept a tally, for some asinine reason, of all the times he woke up handcuffed. Specifically in public. Not that he made a habit of being handcuffed in private either, that would make things a bit awkward around the house, paper thin walls and all that. He would never be able to look his mum in the eye if she walked in on him in cuffs, or the suit for that matter. He really didn’t want her to walk in on him in the suit. Not because he didn’t like it! He looked pretty sick in red after all. It was just- James took a breath, blinked once, then twice, then tried desperately to ignore the ache that had found a home at the base of his skull.

He was in the back of a squad car and for some inexplicable reason, no one had thought to try and peel off his mask. James supposed that, in the officers’ defense, the seam was really hard to find sometimes. But, on the other hand, what was with the police in New York? Had they even been trained or had they just been given a gun and told to shoot brown people?- something very fucking unfortunate for James.

He looked back down at the cuffs on his wrist, jangling them a bit to see if by some miracle the cops had forgotten to actually lock the damn things, but no dice; maybe they had been trained after all. At least they’d been so kind as to cuff him in the front. He could work with that. His eyes flicked toward the rear view mirror and he watched as a few officers milled about, surveying the scene, chatting loudly, kicking garbage, generally being vaguely scummy in a sort of indistinct way. He grit his teeth and cracked his neck, bouncing just a bit in the seat to garner up some sort of energy, to shake off the fucking jackhammering going on in his skull.

He twisted in the seat, as subtle as he could manage before kicking at the door, hard, and knocking it open. (It occurred to James later that he could have just used the handle.) Okay, so maybe he really needed to work on that whole “not alerting every cop in the area to his escape” thing, but he was like, sixty percent sure he might have had a concussion.  He couldn’t be blamed for the stupid things he did while most likely concussed, but he knew for a fact that Sirius wouldn’t let him live it down once the video footage broke.

But right,- cops, staring at him and yelling, hands drifting to weapons. James took another deep breath and pretended his head wasn’t a few seconds off from exploding before he began running, feet hard and fast hitting the pavement. He couldn’t see, sensory overload the helpful little voice in his head supplied as he jumped over a fire hydrant, down the sidewalk, sirens starting to blare behind him again. Everything was too much. Too much light, too many colors, too much movement. He picked up on it all and felt like he might throw up his Cheerios. He really shouldn’t have had that second glass of chocolate milk either.

“Come on, come on,” James mumbled, eyes dating;  he just had to find a building tall enough… He grinned as he turned the corner, all but smacking right into a beautiful skyscraper. Okay, maybe it was a little ugly but it was absolutely perfect. He glanced over his shoulder, the police turning the corner. James flicked his wrist, and offered the police officers a wave as the web shot from his hand and plastered itself to the wall up ahead.

“Well, officers, it’s been a ple-” He cut off as the force of the web retracting finally grabbed him, yanking him off toward the wall at a speed that was definitely not safe for the concussion he definitely had or the breakfast he was definitely going to throw up. He’d never thrown up in the mask and he absolutely refused for that first to happen while being chased by a few very angry cops while handcuffed.

Webslinging? Much harder while handcuffed he might add.

But cuffed or not, the feeling still opened up some part of him. Like...magic. Everytime he was in the air, James felt more alive than he thought should be allowed. Like every breath he’d ever held suddenly rushed out of him, no weight to burden him. Nothing had ever made him feel quite so real. It was as close to flying anyone could ever get, he reasoned.

Well. Flying with a little more thought, he amended, as he shot another web, twisted his body to avoid slamming head first into a billboard. Something about lotion. Or maybe yogurt. He hadn’t been able to get a clear picture while hurtling past at breakneck speed. But it had looked like Jamie Lee Curtis, so probably yogurt.

While yes, being in the air, grabbing buildings and flagpoles and billboards to swing and throw himself farther and farther away from the cops was nice (breathtaking, spectacular, fucking fun), it didn’t exactly stop his head from threatening to explode. Had the sun always been that fucking bright? When the sirens started to fade out into nothingness behind him, James began trying to find his alleyway.  

Despite what the papers said about him, he didn’t think he was a “public menace” at all! Sure, maybe he still hadn’t quite got a hang of the whole “hero” thing yet, but it’s not like anyone ever gave him a manual. Couldn’t just google “am I a spider?” or “how to be a superhero?” - though, he did think there was a wikifact article on that one actually- or even “how to look good in spandex?” And yes, maybe he’d tried to google that one.

But.

Just because knew he couldn’t truthfully be labeled a public menace, it didn’t necessarily mean people, you know. Agreed with him. So landing in the street? Not a good plan. Besides, all of his belongings were stashed away behind a dumpster and a cleverly placed board in the alley behind the Indian grocery near home. It took a few more swings before he caught sight of the familiar signs and swung himself down into the alley. His nose scrunched. Oh god. He’d forgotten it was garbage day. But beggars couldn’t be choosers, he supposed as his feet hit the ground. He stumbled, having momentarily forgotten that he had definite brain damage and also was handcuffed and probably could taste color thanks to the overstimulation.

James gave his surroundings a cursory glance- he had to be quick about this- before yanking his wrists apart, hard, splitting the cuffs with a satisfying CRACK! Fucking hurt though. And now he just had two locked on bracelets. And still had his suit on. And-

His phone was going off.

James’ train of thought slowed as he heard the blaring saxophone riff of “Careless Whisper” increasing in volume from inside his suit. Fuck. Shit. Fuck. His alarm. Throwing another glance around the alleyway first, James ripped off his mask, hair standing straight up and undoubtedly looking like a rats nest. George fucking Michael was going to get him caught in a skeevy alleyway, half dressed, in handcuffs. Is this what his life had come to? Goddamnit. He hoped his mom didn’t put all that information in his obituary after she definitely murdered him for galavanting about as a superhero without her permission.

After a bit more fumbling, he managed to unzip his suit and shove his hand into it, silencing his “hey dumbass it’s time for school” alarm. Because he was a dumbass who was definitely going to be late for school. James looked around hopelessly, as if he could find a magical key somewhere in the alley that would let him get the fucking cuffs off.

What a sight he bet he was- half dressed in his Spider-Man suit, squinting without his glasses, wobbling from the concussion. James paused, and reached out to steady himself by throwing a hand onto the wall.

His (wildly out of focused) eyes landed on a mostly distinguishable blur. Huh. So, maybe it wasn’t a key, but a pipe should work, right? Without much thought (because, as James would admit, he rarely did anything with much thought) he slammed his wrists down onto the pipe as hard as he could.

The metallic clang echoed through the alley and he had to bite back a cry of pain as the reverberations shook through his wrists, but the cuffs snapped off. A couple bruises were nothing new! He’d be fine!

James spent a few more moments fumbling in the alley. Nearly falling headfirst in the dumpster while reaching for his backpack. (He’d learned his lesson and had wrapped the bag in a quadruple layer of plastic grocery sacks to keep the Garbage Reek off of it.) Tripping over his own feet as he stripped out of the suit. Almost tearing a gigantic fucking hole in his t-shirt as he tried to get it on over his head. He was doing great.

Once he was finally changed and his suit was hidden and his backpack was de-plasticed, James glanced down at his phone. Fuck. Fuck. 7:39. He couldn’t exactly websling his way to class and he’d told his parents he was spending the night with Remus so it’s not like he could manage a ride off them. Fuck.

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 james potter to Big Chungus: anyone near devars rn?

sirius black: tf u at devars for at 7 in the morning

sirius black: ik we have ladoo at home unless ur fatass ate all of them

remus lupin: I’m pretty sure that pete ate most of the pack james thought he’d hid in that hollowed out book on his shelf

peter pettigrew: you promised you wouldn’t tell!!!!!!!!!!!!!

james potter: 1) hate all of u.

james potter: 2) not about snacks just need a ride so come get me

remus lupin: be there in five you absolute jackass

remus lupin: but I want some of those chickpea things from the store as payment

remus lupin: the ones with the peanuts with them

james potter: literally said this wasn’t about snacks like two secs ago. Not even in the store

remus lupin: u want a ride? Bc this is about snacks now jim

james potter: ...which size bag do u want

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 The thing was, he’d never meant to be a hero.

He hadn’t purposefully shoved his hand into a creepy spider’s weird science prison containment cage during the field trip to RidCorp. Hadn’t gone out of his way to bend metal pipes in half on accident (that had been a shock to say the least). Hadn’t woken up one morning with the intention of sticking to walls. Door handles. Stairway railing at school. James Potter had been happy! Never wishing he had more or could be more or should be more.

Because he loved his life! He loved his parents and his friends. He played soccer and helped carry the debate team to victory and fucked around in some of his classes! No seventeen year old in their right mind would purposefully go out of their way for that sort of responsibility! He barely remembered to take out the garbage- of course he never meant to become a hero!

He’d also not meant to accidentally save Lily Evans’ life.

But life just had a way of intervening, didn’t it?

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 “You’re staring.”

James jolted slightly, glasses slipped down the bridge of his nose. Sirius made himself comfortable far too close to James’ ear before throwing himself down at their usual lunch table.

He decided not to grace Sirius with a response and instead rubbed his neck, pretended he wasn’t thirteen different types of pathetic. “I was not staring- I mean. No, what? Who would I have even been staring at?” Smooth, Potter, he thought, really fucking smooth. Inconspicuous.

Sirius raised an eyebrow as he swung his backpack from his shoulders and dropped it to the floor with an unceremonious thud. James flinched at the sound. (Concussed, remember? A week later and he was still dealing with headaches) A few people glanced their way, but it wasn’t as if Sirius seemed to care. Well, James reasoned, he probably had done it for the attention in the first place. James adjusted his glasses, concentrated quite fiercely at a place on the wall, poked at his food with little intention of actually eating.

Sirius snorted. “So you mean to tell me that you weren’t staring at Evans then?” The lilt to his voice made it very apparent that yes, Sirius knew that he’d been staring at Evans and was now being the world’s largest dick about the fact.

Before James could continue his scathing silent treatment, Remus sank into his customary seat. “Oh, no, James was definitely staring at Lily,” he provided. Traitor.

James pulled his phone out from his pocket and finally tore his gaze away from the very intriguing concrete wall and tapped out a message.

james potter to remus lupin: et tu brute

He set down his phone with a huff. “I was not fucking staring at Evans,” he lied. Poorly. Because as he spoke, his gaze shifted back toward her direction. James only vaguely registered Remus’s scoff at the text message because…

God.

Lily E. Evans (so he may have glanced at her student ID. Once… Okay, four times) happened to be the singularly most beautiful person he’d ever met. Fuck, that he’d ever seen. And that included Kim Possible, who he may or may not have had a fat crush on as a kid. (He had a type, okay? The guys never ceased to give him shit over that, but resolutely, James refused to be shamed for the level of self awareness he was positive people would be plenty jealous to achieve.) Evans blew everyone else out of the water.

He loved her hair- thick and red with impossibly good looking bangs. (James melted whenever she pulled it into a ponytail and had managed to fucking fail gym class freshman year because he was distracted. Over a ponytail. Gym class! He was a student athlete!) Her eyes that he could have composed sonnets about if he knew how to do that sort of thing. Her dimples. Freckles. The stubbornness written into her chin, her jaw. Her eyes. Her eyes. Her eyes.

Then there was the way she laughed and flipped her hair over her shoulder and only ever used purple InkJoy pens. The fact she laced her boots to the very top and tucked in the excess. How when she seemed anxious, she’d put on cherry lip balm like a nervous tick. The way she always knew the answers to anything Slughorn asked before James could even comprehend the question. How she gave tours to all the new students and never faked a smile. God. Then there was her smile. He’d thought a lot about her smile. How to make her smile at him instead of scowl. Huff. Frown.

Evans was...was an angel. A goddess. A-

“You’re literally about to start drooling.” Peter snapped James from his reverie. The tater tot that hit him in the face shortly after helped as well.

James snatched the weaponized tot off the table and popped it into his mouth. “No I wasn’t,” he lied once again, this time around the food in his mouth. He swallowed. Stole another one of Pete’s tater tots. When had he sat down anyway? Had he been that enthralled in Evans-land (again)?

Unable to help himself, James took one last glance in Evans’ direction before the undoubtable barrage of soggy potatoes could commence.

Her head was thrown back as she laughed, a featherlight hand on Snape’s shoulder. His stomach clenched.

Evans was a pipe dream.

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 sirius black to peter pronounced venti wrong three separate times in the starbucks line: take bets, is minnie gonna let us pick our groups for this project

peter pettigrew: i hadn’t slept in 40 hours! Bc you made me stay up! Watching every fucking fast and furious movie

peter pettigrew: and then made me give analysis after each one

peter pettigrew: and keep a comprehensive ranking of them

remus lupin: pete did you drink three venti coffees????????

sirius black: he got thru one before he said “his heart was going to burst”

james potter: jesus christ dude

james potter: but tokyo drift is obviously the best

remus lupin: isn’t gal gadot in some of those?

remus lupin: my mother keeps telling me to find a nice jewish girl think she’d be okay with this?

sirius black: jim ur opinions are trash, pete ur coffee habits are wack, remus I keep telling u we’re soulmates god. Now FOCUS.

sirius black: groups. for. project.

remus lupin: dude of course she’s not letting us work together

james potter: yeah do u like...not remember what happened last time

remus lupin: pete still can’t eat spaghetti

peter pettigrew changed chat name to PTSD (post traumatic spaghetti disorder)

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 He died. That had to be what had happened, right? Maybe all the brain trauma he’d been hiding from his parents had finally caught up to him. What movie was it where everything turned out to have all been a dream? Because that was another likely situation. Really, anything felt more plausible than McGonagall- Minnie, his guardian-fucking-angel, a saint on Earth- pairing him with Lily E. Evans for the history project.

James did a great job pretending he hadn’t seen the less-than-thrilled look on Evans’ face when the pairing was announced. Because he was living. The project meant he’d have an excuse to talk to her without coming across as a creep. That he’d be able to spend time with her outside of school.

Pathetic? Oh, definitely. But James couldn’t make himself care because Evans’ number was written in purple ink, tidy little numbers, on the back of his hand. He may or may not have memorized it before class had even ended. So yeah. Pathetic.  Happily, happily pathetic.

James kept looking down at his phone.

lily (love of my life) evans: meet me at the nat. history museum by on the front steps?

lily (love of my life) evans: 5:30 okay?

James knew without a doubt that if Evans had asked him to show up at four in the morning and wait all day, he would have without question. So 5:30? No problem. It gave him a little extra time for his patrols too! (Admittedly, he was the only one keeping track of his patrols, but it wasn’t like he should sit by and do nothing, not with the powers he’d been given. Right? Right.)

James couldn’t wipe the grin off his face, not even when he ducked into the closest abandoned alley to change. This time, he’d managed the foresight to wear most of his suit on under his school clothes, save for the mask and gloves. He was learning, thank you very much.

He could only imagine what he looked like, swinging from building to building while still wearing his backpack. (A text from Sirius informed him that he “looked like a whole ass fucking weeb.”)

Swinging from one building to the next, just listening, focusing, he let his senses kick into overdrive to pick up anything unusual. Since the bite, the world had grown too loud, too much, at times. James learned how to turn it off, eventually, but it took him time. Days of headaches and nausea and blurry vision, days when he could suddenly see the flecks of dry skin on Pete’s cheek from across the room. When he could smell Evans’ perfume tables away in Minnie’s class and he nearly fainted. It definitely took time. But he liked to think he’d gotten better at it all. At trying to be a hero, using his powers.

He hadn’t...done much, admittedly. He’d helped that one woman get back into her car; he’d climbed up onto the roof to grab a basketball for some kids. Oh, he’d gotten back a stolen bike, chased down a purse snatcher. Pulled a kid from the street to avoid a jackass on a motorcycle. Small things. Good things, but small things. He’d only been at this for a few months- just long enough for the police to hate him on sight and the Daily Prophet to label him a menace just because he may have accidentally done some light property damage. Maybe.

But doing nothing? Now that felt like a waste. James swung up onto the edge of a roof, plopped down to make himself comfortable, and tugged off his mask. He gulped down fresh air and tilted his head back, letting the wind rush over his face. The building was too tall for anyone to be able to make out his face from down below, or at least he hoped that was the case.

After a little more fumbling, James pulled his phone from his suit and began tapping at the screen while still wearing his gloves. Of course, that didn’t fucking work because it never worked. He huffed and yanked a glove off with his mouth, his other hand pressed against the ledge for balance. He could just imagine his obituary if he fell.

“James Potter was beloved by everyone except his mother who he’s going to send into an early grave because of his shenanigans. He looked like a fool and at the very least could have worn a jacket. He fell off the building because he never ate his ratha poriyal because his brother told him it would make him turn into a Chupacabra. It’s a miracle they didn’t fall off the roof together. He leaves behind a messy room and an angry cat who has begun peeing everywhere in retaliation. In lieu of flowers, send a cleaning crew.”

So he held onto the ledge.

Evans hadn’t texted yet, which meant he still had a little longer to kill before showing up at the museum like a lovestruck fool. James took a few minutes to absently scroll through Twitter, check his email, stockpile a few memes for the guys later. He snapped off a selfie, angling it just right before sending it to the groupchat, just to flex.

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 Casual. Casual. He could do casual. He could definitely do casual. Casual? Not an issue. James Potter was smooth as fuck. He kept his focus on the soccer ball in his hands as he stared up at the stucco ceiling. He tossed the ball in the air, caught it, repeated. Toss. Catch. Toss. Catch.

“So,” he began, fighting the waver in his voice. These were his best friends. They’d understand. Right? They’d believe him. “You guys heard about Spider-Man?” Saying it out loud felt like coughing up dust.

Sirius glanced over from his nest in the beanbag chair, raised an eyebrow, shifted slightly. Remus made a soft, disgruntled sort of sound as Sirius moved and made a bit of a show of adjusting his legs across his lap, draped from where he sat in James’ desk chair.

“You mean the dude that’s been running around in pajamas?” Remus asked, scowled down at Sirius who had simply started wiggling in the seat. Ever the help, Pete began tossing licorice bites across the room to Sirius to further egg on his wiggles. Well. Maybe hinderance, based on Remus’s look as he bapped Sirius on the head with his novel before looking over at James. Sirius caught a bit of licorice in his mouth and he and Pete threw their arms up in triumphant glee. “I’ve seen him on the news some, yeah.”

The ball was in midair as he began to sputter, sitting up. “He does not wear pajamas!”  Without sparing a glance, James stuck his hand out and caught the soccer ball in his open palm. Remus looked mildly impressed. Mildly. High praise, really.

Peter chewed on a piece his of licorice. “No, I agree with Remus. He’s definitely wearing pajamas,” he mumbled around his candy after taking his time to come to that conclusion. A conclusion James had hoped would be rational and obvious because of course Spider-Man didn’t look like he was wearing pajamas.

Sirius snorted, tapping away at his phone. “You’re just agreeing with Remus because he’s smart,” he deadpanned, gaze unwavering. Instagram, if James had to guess. But!

“So you agree with me then, right? He’s clearly not wearing pajamas!” James exclaimed, relief almost obvious in his tone. He set the soccer ball down. Uh. Fuck. Okay. His hand was stuck. He casually just...left it there. On top the soccer ball. Like anyone would do.

Sirius let out another snort. This time his eyes wandered over the edge of his phone to land on a perfectly, totally chill, super normal James who just happened to like resting his hand on a soccer ball. “What? Fuck no, of course it looks like he’s in pajamas.”

“But-”

“Remus is smart, not wrong.”

James was melting. God. Okay. Just be calm. Don’t make things weird. Take it eas- “I’m Spider-Man!” He shouted, cut himself off when he remembered they were in his bedroom and his parents were home and he didn’t need the wrath of Euphemia Potter at six o’clock on a Tuesday. “I’m Spider-Man.” He repeated, a little quieter, a little calmer.

This time, it was Remus who broke the silence first. With a surprised yelp of laughter. He set down his book and looked at James, nose wrinkled in amusement. It made him look younger, James realized, the nose thing. “Dude, c’mon. You’re telling me that you, James Fleamont-”

“God don’t remind me-”

“- Potter are Spider-Man,” Remus finished, the corners of his lips tugged up into a cheeky grin.

James suddenly felt, oh what was the word? Re-fucking-gret.

“Do you not remember freshman year gym with Hooch? Because,” Sirius started, “I do. You fell from the top of the rope climb and smacked your bigass head onto the gym floor. You threw up. We all watched you throw up.”

James could have done without the fucking laughter in his tone. Brother who? No. He was an only child from there on out. “Okay that was only because I saw Evans do this thi-”

“You also fell down the stairs last month, like, all of the stairs,” Peter chimed in because of course! Clearly it was mock-James-during-his-big-dramatic-alter-ego-reveal-moment-time! “A lot of people saw that too,” he added with clearly careful thought, fucking reminiscing about James falling headfirst down the stairs. As if he didn’t have enough brain damage already.

He couldn’t take it anymore. Without thinking (wow, he had a habit of not thinking) James flicked his wrist and shot out a web, snatching Sirius’s phone from his hand.

The room went very...very quiet. The trio turned to look at him, faces blank, as if their reactions were buffering and then Sirius opened his mouth-

“What the FUCK.”

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 peter pettigrew to SPIDERJAMES??????????????????????: okay so can u lay eggs

james potter: dude wtf no??????

sirius black: okay r u sure tho? Like have u really tried to lay an egg?

james potter: why. the fuck would i try to lay an egg??

peter pettigrew: science

james potter: I don’t lay eggs.

remus lupin: what happens when you masturbate

james potter: I do NOT want to answer that

sirius black: yknow, also p invested in jim not answering that

peter pettigrew: ………morbidly curious

remus lupin: it’s just as valid as asking about eggs.

james potter: I regret telling all of you anything ever in my life

james potter left the chat

remus lupin changed chat name to spidersemen? is it a thing.

sirius black: im so uncomfortable

remus lupin: good. hard questions should make you uncomfortable

peter pettigrew: ha! Hard.

sirius black: u were so pure before we were friends

remus lupin: you don’t know my life.

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 James shifted on the roof, slipped his phone back into his suit. 5:06. He had exactly 24 minutes to get get to the museum, change, and make himself look perfectly loveable to be just on time to meet Evans. Right. Super duper reasonable! He swung his legs around from the edge of the roof, moving back onto solid ground and grabbing his backpack in one fluid motion. The museum was...James squinted, used his finger to point as he counted, six blocks away. He could totally handle that in 24 minutes.

Wait. Mask. Right. He bent down to swipe his mask off the roof ledge when his body went cold. His muscles tightened, the hair on the back of his neck standing up as a creeping feeling rolled up his spine. He could hear see smell taste everything oh god there was a baby crying down the street- pizza- cat being chased- woman yelling on the phone- trashcan.spiderwebonthefireescape.taxisnearlycolliding.tacotruckemptyinggrease-Hey Get Out Of Her- No I Didn’t Tell Him Ab- I Love You Have A Good D- Yeah I Got The Shit It’s-

James let out a sharp gasp and broke focus, his hand curled tight around his mask. It happened, sometimes, an overload like that. The kind that made every nerve in his body go into hyper-super-what-the-fuck sensitive mode. He felt it, all the time, really. Walking down the street. When he answered the front door. When he saw the police. He didn’t have to have the suit for that.  He once tried to explain it as anxiety dialed up to fifty, when there was danger, his body reacted. Like an allergy.

Without a doubt, that spider-sense never led to anything good, especially not when the feeling came across that violently. And in that moment, all James could hear, smell, think was “Yeah, I got the shit. It’s pretty low quality, you sure this is what he wanted?”

James yanked his mask on, took a deep breath. Focused.

“Yeah, I got the shit. It’s pretty low quality, you sure this is what he wanted?”

He started to run and without hesitation, threw himself off the roof, arms spread, a nose dive. A leap of faith that he wasn’t about to do something incredibly stupid. Focus. James shot out a weh on instinct, catching a fire escape and throwing himself higher, faster.

“Yeah, I got the shit. It’s pretty low quality, you sure this is what he wanted?”

Close. James was close. His body felt tense, on edge. He swung around a building and nodded at the wide-eyed woman in the passing window, waved. He heard the slam of a car door. A van. An alley.

“Yeah, I got the shit. It’s pretty low quality, you sure this is what he wanted?”

He landed with a loud, metallic thunk, a creak as the fire escape settled under his weight. James winced, scrunched his eyes shut, said a little prayer that the men didn’t hear him. He quickly ducked behind a comically small potted plant and prayed that would be enough.

Slowly, James peered around the plant, nudging one of the leaves out of the- weed. He was hiding behind a cutesy terra cotta pot of weed on someone’s fire escape. Okay then. He stored that information away for later and took everything in.

A nondescript black van sat parked in the alley, one of the back hatch doors swung open. James could just barely make out a few cardboard boxes stacked in the back. Two men stood to the side, backs turned to James’ hiding place. One in a hoodie, a cigarette in one pale hand. One in a button up shirt tucked into dress pants.

“How much more is he gonna need?” Hoodie asked. His voice hadn’t seemed to have dropped. Young sounding. James scooted a little closer, pushing the plant for cover and immediately regretted the action as the pot scraped across the metal grating. Loudly. Whoopsie.

He studied Hoodie, nose scrunched as he wondered why a teenager wou- oh. If that was a teenage dude’s ass, he was definitely going to have to reevaluate some things later. People did always think that Sirius was his boyfriend which like, gross? They were practically related and he’d seen Sirius’s dental hygiene habits up close and he did not want to get personal. If he’d date any of his friends, obviously it would be Remus. Was that even a question? Actually, Pete would be rather supportive no matter what.

James frowned. He did have a bit of an obsession with George Michael- He paused the steamrolling thoughts and just...filed that crisis away for later.

Button Up shifted, folded his arms over his chest. “Unsure. The experiments have been going as we’d hoped, but it’s not even close to passing under FDA regulations.” Button Up sighed and pulled a bulky looking phone out of his back pocket. James squinted. Was that a flip phone? Who the fuck still used a flip phone?

Button Up held a finger up to Hoodie and brought the phone up to his ear. The three waited, James with baited breath, Hoodie with restless posture and puffs of smoke, Button Up with a perfectly blank face.

Hoodie moved her weight from one foot to the other and pulled her hand from her pockets. She pushed the hood of her sweatshirt off, revealing a mess of dark, curly hair. She took a drag off her cigarette. Exhaled. “Look, I’m in a hurry here. Your boss has my number if he needs anymore, but he’s gotta remember that my supplier takes his time with this. I won’t be able to pull this much out of my ass again.” Hoodie spoke around the cigarette in her mouth, blew smoke toward the van.

Button Up didn’t glance in Hoodie’s direction. “Yes. Hello sir! I- yes...no we didn’t run into any issues- Five boxes as ordered, I’ll be...Uh. Yes. I’ll ask.” He snapped his phone shut, cleared his throat. “He wants five more shipments, as well as a few...test subjects. Double the pay if you get it done by the end of the month.” Button Up cleared his throat, moved as if adjusting a tie.

Hoodie nodded once, then twice, dropped her cigarette butt to the ground and extended her hand. Button Up clasped it in a way so professional, it was almost funny. “He better, or else. Don’t think the boss would like it too much if the Prophet caught wind of this, now would he?” There was confidence in her tone, another shift in her posture. Holding her head up higher. Power, James realized. Whatever this was, the cards were in her hands.

Button Up withdrew his hand and turned away from Hoodie, closing the back door of the van. James’ body thrummed with energy, jittered. They’d not said anything illegal, but he knew better than to doubt his spidey sense. He needed to do...something. Follow one of them or catch one in a web or… Something.

In his moment of internal debate, James had missed Hoodie’s retreat, leaving Button Up to focus on. He turned toward the fire escape as he rubbed his temples and James got a decent look at his face. He felt...a little disappointed honestly. No super badass scars or tattoos, and he wasn’t that good looking. He looked plain, forgettable. Hanging from his shirt was a security badge. James couldn’t quite make out the words, but he recognized the logo.

RidCorp. The pioneer and leader in innovation when it came to new pharmaceuticals and genetics, RidCorp was the public’s darling when it came to the future. Cures for cancer and growing new organs and...James had just watched an employee make a shady deal in an empty alleyway.

He didn’t hesitate. When Button Up turned once again, started to walk toward the driver’s side door, James dropped down from the fire escape with a THUMP. He took a moment to prop a hand on the wall, cross his ankles as he leaned. Button Up swivelled on his heels, fast.

James wiggled the fingers on his free hand. “This looked like a lot of fun. Can I join in? I’m a great conversationalist!” He wished he had a camera to capture the look of absolute “what the fuckery” on Button Up’s face.

“Shit,” Button Up hissed as he leapt into the van and slammed the door shut. Before James had the foresight to memorize the license plate, Button Up was speeding off down the alley. The van made a violent turn into the street and was reasonably met with angry honks and shouts.

James grinned, shot a web, and let the momentum carry him after the van. Button Up hadn’t managed to get very far before James caught sight of him again. He kept up the pace of webswingjump, webswingjump, until he was close enough to land a web onto the top of the van.

Unfortunately, it was impossible to swing from superpowered spiderwebs in a very crowded city, down a very crowded street, without drawing attention.

“Is that Spider-Man?”

“Who’s he chasing?”

“God that costume’s stupid looking!”

That comment was just hurtful, but it wasn’t as if he had time to stop and argue with a random New Yorker. He perched on the roof of the van as Button Up sped down the street, veering in a way that clued James into the fact he was trying to be shaken off.

He stuck himself to the roof with one hand as he bent over, upside down in front of the windshield. “Use the spray,” he shouted, pointed down at the wipers, “I’m sure that’ll help! Usually gets bugs off!” He gave a thumbs up and Button Up slammed on his brakes. The suddenness of the stop dislodged James from the roof and if it weren't for his reflexes kicking in, he’d have flown headfirst into the street. Instead, he fired off a web and swung himself up onto the side of a building, breathing hard.

The van started moving again as James carefully tried to come up with a plan. He’d not expected to get nearly so far. He couldn’t let Button Up get away!  Before he could undoubtedly have his brilliant lightbulb moment, police sirens began blaring in the background. Oh fuck.

He looked around, glad for the mask to hide his panic. Sirens. Sirens. Sirens. James tilted his head. A few blocks out still, it sounded, but that didn’t exactly give him much time-

Time. He threw a panicked glance over his shoulder toward the clock hanging off a department store front. 5:26. Evans. James looked back and the van was...gone. Fuck. The police were closer; the van was gone; he couldn’t be arrested again; Evans was going to kill him.

After a moment of deliberation, James started to websling, throwing around his weight as he flung himself up in the air, higher and higher, quicker and quicker, to get to the museum in time. Evans would make that face at him if he was late, the one that made him want to retract into his own body and wither away. Disappointment.

His heart pounded and James could hear it in his ears, breathing fast and hard and his hands were so sweaty. When he finally caught sight of the museum, a wave of relief washed through his body because not only did he see the museum, but a blur of red hair just turning down the sidewalk.

He was going to be on time. Sweaty. But on time. He swung in closer, aiming for the alley around the corner. Evans wasn’t going to hate him. She’d fall in love with him for knowing the names of all the dinosaurs and they’d get married and have the cutest child and- no. no. no. no. no.

James’ body went ice cold.

The scaffolding over the entrance where workers were taking down a metallic spider.  

The giant hunk of metal slipping out of place.

Falling. Falling. Falling.

He didn’t think.

He just moved.

It happened faster than even James could comprehend.

The screaming. The warnings. The panic.

A girl looking up too late.

The spider was too big for James to simply push the girl clear of its path. So he shot a web at her waist and pulled her into his chest, curling around her as he threw both hands up to catch the spider as it fell. (Talk about irony.) The weight of it all sent vibrations down his arms and he couldn’t breathe, too high off adrenaline, couldn’t think.

And then… quiet. People stunned into silence around him on the steps, shocked workers up above, the girl no longer screaming in his arms. James gave a grunt and dropped the spider to the side, let his arms drop.

He panted as he looked down and met a pair of green green eyes. Those eyes. Evans stared up at him in wonderment. Relief. Whatever it was, James wanted to savor the moment.

He cleared his throat, stepped away, put his hands on his hips because that’s what superheroes did right? “Alright, E- Miss?” He forced his voice lower. As low as he could make it. Pretended it didn’t crack when he spoke.

Evans blinked up at him, her shoulders shaking. He loved the coat she wore, it matched her eyes- oh god, she’d been talking. “- I...thank you,” Lily finished, hiccuped. James grinned because no one could see.

Admiration. That was the look in her eyes. He didn’t know what to say.

Sirens picked up volume in the background. Cops and an ambulance, James distinguished. Someone in the crowd had probably called 911. Right. The cops definitely still hated him. His feet did not want to move but after a few seconds of internal wrestling- he could just yank his mask off right, show Evans that he wasn’t an entire jackass- James flicked his wrists and fired off a web.

Then he finally spoke “I’m your friendly neighborhood Spider-Man,” he continued trying to sound like Batman, let the web start to pull him away, “that’s what I’m here for!” God. He needed a better catchphrase. But Evans eyes were still on him and she seemed so adoring that he nearly forgot to fire off another web to keep from landing face first in the street.

He had spidey sense, not common sense.

When he wrapped the corner, he could already hear the chatter from the crowd picking up intensity, the sirens halting as the emergency responders arrived at the museum entrance.

The thought hit him as he landed in an alleyway. Evans was going to think he was so late to their meetup.

Fuck.

[plague-of-insomnia]

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Thank you for the ask 💕!!

🍋 Your descriptions are transportive

Wow... 😶☺️🥰 Thank you.

🍌I want to pick your brain about your creative process.

This will be a long post, FYI.

Chaos.

Haha, I’m joking.

Or am I?

Honestly, I’ve tried a lot of different things over the years, including outlining, and it never works for me bc my characters control the story. I really am just their interpreter, putting their lives and words onto virtual paper.

I’m a “character first” kind of writer (as opposed to a “plot first”), and that means I could probably tell you what any of the main cast of my stories ate for breakfast on the morning of their 8th birthday, but I couldn’t tell you what happens in the end, or sometimes even in the next chapter, bc I don’t know until I “get there.”

I’ve done my best to break my process down into 8 steps.

Step 1: The Idea

When I first get an idea, it usually comes to me in terms of a really vivid scene, like the chapter in Where Demons Hide called “Spark of Madness.” Usually that scene ends up in the beginning of the story but not normally the first chapter. Sometimes it’ll give me some story/plot to help me begin to flesh out the idea more, like in that example, where the main antagonist/conflict is introduced, though normally I have to work at it a bit more.

Step 2: Flesh Things Out

This is where I brainstorm, usually thinking about the main characters, who they are and what their flaws might be and what they might want to help me “find” the story. Sometimes I’ll make a character sheet (normally I don’t if I’m working alone bc I don’t have to). I do normally make a file for notes where I’ll jot down possible ideas about the characters and where the story might go.

I’ll be perfectly honest and say while this process does get me jump started, most of the notes I jot down I don’t end up using bc as the characters and story formulates, they both tend to change from my original ideas.

Step 3: Research

This can often be tied in with #2 and it’s not as if it just stops here. But as I often write about disabilities, mental and chronic illness, I like to make sure I can get as much info about the disease/condition I want to represent as possible so that I can:

represent it appropriately and accurately and

so I can find story/character details along the way.

For example, in my novel UnConventional, I was able to talk with a friend who is not only an orthotic user (and has been for years) but is an engineer of sorts so he understands very well *how* they work. By talking with him about various orthotics and his own struggles with them, I was able to find new plot and character details that help make the story more vivid and real and also allowed me to drive it in directions I may not have been able to otherwise.

Step 4: Write, Write, Write.

Two things you need to know about my writing process:

I usually do better when I write out of order.

I need to visualize the scene in my head to write it effectively. My “writers block” comes from not being able to see things in my head

My method isn’t the most efficient, but it’s how my brain works, and I’ve learned to go with it rather than fight it.

I brainstorm with myself (or a friend or my husband if possible) when necessary, or sometimes I’ll just close my eyes in a quiet place to allow myself to “see” the next series of scenes. Before I can forget the vivid movie I saw in my head, I do what I call a “scene sketch.”

I call it a “sketch,” bc just like a sketch is usually the foundation for a piece of art, mine are the basic structure for a completed scene. I do this also if I have a pretty solid idea but don’t have the time to write or I’m too tired or something like that, bc sketches allow me to simply sit down and flesh them out to create a completed scene.

They’re kind of like what an outline might be for other writers but less organized. Sketches are like a little treatment of a scene, including the basic setting, an idea of POV, and even dialog and body language, but jotted down really quickly without quotes or dialog tags. Sometimes there’ll be things like “maybe this happens” bc once I actually write the scene I’ll know if that idea feels right or not.

Here’s an example from a rejected chapter of WDH (I ended up going in a slightly different direction):

Seb answers when room service knocks. Bard is hovering, maybe bc he heard Seb’s scream. He sees the bad bite on Seb’s bare chest, sees he’s trembling and drowning more than ever, his eyes almost pleading for rescue. But when Bard asks if he’s OK he smiles and says yes, sir. Takes the food from the room service person and says he’s been ordered to wait on the guests personally. Shuts the door in Bard’s face.

Sometimes these sketches can be very detailed, other times it’s more of a general, quick jot of what happens or the scene I want to set. It depends on my brain and the scene.

I like to set goals based on scenes (or sometimes chapters), and do my best to complete a scene in its entirety if possible before I stop. If I can’t bc of time, then I’ll write a really brief sketch so I know what I need to do when I pick back up again so I won’t forget.

I’ve been writing and editing long enough that depending on the project I’m able to self-edit as I write. That doesn’t mean I don’t revise or edit later, but it saves some time overall as I am more aware of certain things than I used to be.

Because I write out of order, my process often entails being a puzzle master and piecing things together. Especially for something like Where Demons Hide, which has a lot of flashbacks, since I write those separately from the main story, I then have to figure out where they “belong.” I’d say 98% of the time for this fic I have already written the flashbacks before the chapter(s) they end up in.

My original serial fiction I write in a similar fashion, where I often will write scenes out of order and then assemble them into chapters later. So sometimes I’ll make a kind of “outline” of plot points that I need to cover. It’s not so much a fixed thing as a memory aid and place for me to put notes of ideas that might come to me that aren’t completely fleshed out.

Step 5: Rest

Once I’ve completed a chapter, I try to let it “rest” for at least a few days, if not longer. Especially if it was a long chapter or something that was difficult to write and took me awhile so I’ve been working on it for days or even weeks at a time.

I do this for three reasons:

“In process” brain lies often and says a scene/chapter sucks and I should just burn my computer/phone and take up accounting instead, and that the pacing is awful and it’s boring and lots of similar untruths.

Especially if the chapter took me a long time to finish because it’s lengthy or complicated or has difficult subject matter or whatever, it means there’s a good chance I’ve been working on it for days or even weeks and I’m SICK TO DEATH of it and never want to see it again, so taking a break from it is a welcome relief. It’s like taking a vacation after you’ve been working overtime for months. Sometimes I’ll do writing-adjacent things during this time, like reading, organizing/typing my notes, jotting down things I need to work on, reading/watching stuff that will energize and inspire me. Other times I work on another project or other scenes/chapters in the same project. Sometimes I’ll just take a break if I’m feeling burnt out or stressed.

I can come back to the project with fresh eyes, so that I can read it and see what things are actually good (suck it, in-process brain) or what things may still need work in a way I couldn’t do so soon after finishing.

Step 6: Revise

I revise in different ways depending on how much I feel something needs fixing. The first revision is my chance to see how the puzzle pieces knit together, work on scenes that I noticed aren’t pulling their weight or that need to be fleshed out. Sometimes this means I will completely, totally rewrite—and by that I mean “retype.” I open a fresh document, and referencing the original, start over. This allows me to streamline and better hone my language and ensure each scene is working hard.

This is something I do if I feel like a scene isn’t working as-is or I have a shit-ton of notes and comments on the first draft and it’s so chaotic I feel like I can’t focus anymore. This is especially helpful for dialog.

Other times the revisions are less drastic. Sometimes I means moving a scene around or deleting one that isn’t working. Sometimes it means finding all the times I’ve repeated the same word and fixing that, or fixing places where I’ve used the same sentence type too often.

Revision can be a very long process, depending on the quality of the first draft and what my goal is. If it’s just fan fic I’m doing for fun, then I don’t obsess too much: usually 1-2 read throughs and adjustments are OK. If it’s something I’m going to submit for publication, then that’s a different story bc the quality of the edit of your submitted draft makes a good impression (or a bad one).

Step 7: Beta Reader

If I have one, which I don’t always, then this is where I’ll send it to them. Usually what I want in a beta reader isn’t stuff like proof or copy editing, but rather “big picture” stuff. I want them to tell me: “this scene isn’t working” or “this feels contrived” or “I don’t like the main character.”

It can be frustrating and disheartening to get feedback that means I have to go back and do some major revising, but that’s why they’re there, bc often it’s either things I couldn’t see bc I’m too close to the story, or stuff I was in denial about (lol). Listening to my betas always leads to a better draft.

Step 8: Proofreading/Copyediting

The last step. I’ve done this professionally so I’m usually pretty good at finding typos and inconsistencies myself, but some people will hire someone like me to do that work bc they don’t have the skill or the time. Even if it’s “just for fun,” proofing is important bc it affects readability, and it’s embarrassing to me if I post something with glaring proof errors 😶.

~~~Anyway, that is roughly how my brain works. I don’t know if this is what you were expecting or wanting, but here it is!

[bangtanficrecs]

Lost & Found Batch #18

The newest batch was long overdue ^^;; As always, if you happen to know the fic the ask is looking for, reply to this post or send us an ask with the request number and title/author. If you happen to know any fics from Past Batches, those are more than welcome as well. Thank you!! ~ Admin P

1) Hi! I think my ask got lost TT I was wondering if you guys know of a vmin fic on ao3 where they’re roommates and jimin likes tae and decided to seduce him by asking him to take nude pics of him, and tae ended up not reacting and then they admitted that they both liked each other? Or something along those lines. PLEASE HELP IT WAS SO AWESOME AND I LOVED IT :( thank you!!!

you're only brave in the moonlight by ameliabedelias

2) Hi!! so a while back i was reading a yoonseok fic on ao3, it was smut, and i wanted to read it again but i cant find it, i was wondering if you could help??? it was yoonseok and yoongi was a "beta" but soon found out he was an omega he called himself a "late bloomer"?? and hoseok walks in, they have sex, and i specifically remember yoongi feeling hoseoks dick in his stomach and "rubbing" it. i know its wierd but can you please help me find it???

A Test in What, Exactly, Is "Too Much" by Yooniefucks

3) Hello, I'm trying to find a fic that has taekook in it. I don't actually remember what the fic is about, but I remember that jungkook is a guard/knight and somewhere along the story, the Prince (?) finds out that jungkook is a werewolf since he was bitten as a child and he imprinted on taehyung, who's human if I'm not mistaken. The king took him in, and he used to be chained to a cage/cave (?) during full moon. It will be great if you can help me :) thank you! 💜

4) Hi, I'm trying to find this yoonjin fic were yoongi is walking home from an underground gig and it's late at night. He smells fresh baked goods and it leads him to a building he passes by all the time but never noticed before. He goes inside and jin fixes him a drink and gives him a muffin/cupcake. At the end jin reveals that he's magic and he cast a spell to find love. Thank you for your help!!

5) I'm looking for a yoongi/jimin fic where jimin is abused by his boyfriend (I think the author used a random idol) and yoongi catches on and tries to help but jimin is really damaged. The rest of the group lowkey knows jimin abused but don't know how to help. Sorry I can't remember lots of details but it was really angsty and good

6) hello, im looking for some kind of royalty fan fic where jimin was visiting yoongi’s palace/home? I can’t remember why but they weren’t close in the beginning. All I can remember was a scene where a bunch of boys were in a room smoking and playing poker (half naked?) and a young servant/slave who was able to play any piano piece after just listening to it once and in the end he left with a Russian man who made music.... thank youu

7) Ugh I seriously need help! I’ve been looking for this fic I lost for 3 days now, I really want to read it again! I’m going to be upset if it was deleted :( anyway, it was a fic where the boys were on their way to something and they got in a car crash but it was only Jin, Hoseok, Yoongi, Tae and Kook. Then Jin and Hoseok were kidnapped by a guy named Sung I think, and the fic focused on Yoongi and Tae and Kook traveling through the woods they crashed in looking for Jin and Hobi and then (pt.1) Jimin and Joon were at a hotel with their manager and they were convinced something was wrong and they wanted to go look for them. In the end they got rescued and they killed the Sung guy and Yoongi was shot and I just really want to find it again cause there was an unfinished sequel. I’m so upset. I hope this was enough to help you help me lookfor it!

8) YOOO what's poppin sis'. Can yall help me. I've been looking for this fic where the rap line is an underground rap line and like they perform cypher pt 3? Idfr the name but the main pairings were namjin and yoonmin. Thanks 🤪🤪🧡

9) Hi there! I was hoping you guys could help me find this fic - it's on AO3. It was multi-chaptered, completed, and was a collection of namjoon centric oneshots/drabbles. one of the chapters was inspired by the "princess princess" anime and featured joon wearing panties, bent over jin's lap, before yoongi came to rescue him from a bunch of onlookers. please help!!

10) Hi! I’m looking for a Yoongi/Jungkook fic. I’ve been searching nonstop for a few weeks and I think the author may have deleted it. The plot line is basically this: Jungkook is a medical student who falls in love with Yoongi and eventually loses his drive in the field. I know it has sexual content so it’s either M rated or E. One of the tags was ‘slow burn’ and ��Jungkook cries a lot’. Thanks in advance!

11) Hello! In the lost chuchu batch 16, #13 is "I Can't Even" by handintheshot in Ao3. But I can't find a link of it. Also, I'd like to ask whether you know about the fic where jimin suddenly has a vagenay and then proceeds to have a hot threesome with jk and tae? If possible, can you please recommend me more like those? Thank you so much 💜

12) Hello! Do u guys know of a vmin pwp oneshot where taehyung has ADHD? They sit in a chair for most of it, and the premise has a slight focus on how Jimin makes it easier for Tae to sit still. It was really sweet, and I can't find it :c

13) I am looking for a 6+1 fic where Namjoon is homeless and in each iteration a different member takes him into their home and life. A recurring element is a cake decorating book that Namjoon borrows from the library - a page falls out detailing how to make a flower with icing, and he keeps it in his pocket. I have used my search-fu but I cannot find it. It was on AO3. I hope you can help, even if it's just with a possible name I can run via the Wayback machine! Thanks!

14) Hello! I would like to ask your help into searching for a story that I can't, for the life of me, find. It's a Yoonmin story but what I remember the most is that Jungkook works as a janitor in an office and he quits because his boss is horrible. However, Taehyung, whom his boss is interested in working with, will only sign the proposal if they rehire Jungkook, so the boss sends Jimin to do it, since Jimin is friends with the both of them. In the end, they all end up working at the same place. TY

15) Hello. I'm looking for a fic where the group had six members but Suga time travels/dimension travels and becomes part of the group as a secret member. I remember that Jin is doing a vlive and is squirted with a water gun but everyone thinks it's Jimin. And when it's reveled to be Suga he's in his dorm room and pulls a big super soaker from under his blankets. I hope that's enough. It's super specific but I can't seem to find it. I hope you can help me :)

16) hey i was looking for this soul reaper or angel?? au where jungkook dies and is taken to the shinigami/reaper realm by the reaper (i think it was yoongi) and i cant find it anywhere :(( i think he dies bc of his new friends and the fic opens with a scene where the reaper sends one of his murderers souls to hell? The reader finds out later i guess. Id really appreciate it if u could find that :(( thank you!

An anon believes it’s Naught Readings For Naughty Readers by supermans_crib, however that has been on AO3

17) Hi! I had recently lost one of the greatest ffs ever, it was a jikook au where they were in the military (?) and jimin had went into a stage sort of like heat and jungkook had to fuck him, he got hekka scared afterwords but they ended up liking eachother

as if it's your last by fatal (cumrich)

18) Hi! I'm trying to find a NamJin fic. I searched the fics here and my bookmarks on AO3 (since I swear I bookmarked it) but I can't seem to find it. It starts out where Yoongi is accusing Namjoon of not moving on. We find out that Namjoon and Seokjin are friends and Namjoon confessed to Seokjin and was rejected. Things get complicated when Seokjin keeps coming around and even interfering with someone Namjoon starts dating. Memorable scene, Seokjin chasing Namjoon in the dark screeching his name.

everything moves on by fruitily

19) Hello. I am looking for a namgi fic where yoongi works in an old bookshop and likes wearing feminine clothing , and namjoon works at a cafe but visits the bookshop often. Namjoon likes art and philosophy but is scared of his parent's reactions so yoongi tells him to fuck society and to "wake up from your sad life and figure out who you are", they eventually kiss as well. I read it on AO3. Your help would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.

20) Hi! I was wondering if y’all could help out with a fic I remember reading? jimin pining for yoongi and for some weird reason I remember a specific scene where jimin (whose brought food for yoongi) waits for yoongi outside of (a studio?) falls asleep waiting and wakes up when yoongi and someone else walk out. Jimin had wanted to eat with him I think but yoongi either says that he’s already ate or is headed to eat with the person. It’s unrequited feelings for a bit of the story.

21) There was a fix where yoongi was a prince and he went out and on the way met all the members who were disney princesses, it was a parody kind of, min yoonji was sleeping beauty and she went back to sleep again and from her castle members got a cat and kittens, can you please find it

22) Hello! I read this fiction a loonnggggg time ago where vminkook were in high school detention I think and kook could read minds and read tae's mind once and hes thinking about potatoes so he calls him potato boy but then the next time tae's thinking about fucking jimin and like yeah LOL I think they all end up in a threesome at the end but yeah I dont remember the title or author ))):

23) what’s that fanfic when it’s an au one of them is overweight and they join their school gym or something? and fall in love with the person who trains them. and there’s this beach scene and a car wash scene near the end. been looking for it for a while, hope you can help!

24) hi! i’m looking for a fic i read a while back, i think it was vmin and one of them had been hurt so the other got them off and they ended up in a relationship i think? pretty sure it was cannon compliant too! thanks!

25) so tae is a student and jk is a professor. jk is engaged to this woman (mina?). basically they are both straight but end up falling for each other so before jk gets married he plans to break up with the girl but she blackmails him with pics of him and his student and turns crazy. i don’t rlly remember what happens after that but later they eventually end up together. i think it’s ab 10 chapters. i’m pretty sure i read it on ao3!

26) Hello! I was reading this taekook fic on ao3 but I forgot what it was called ☹️ basically jungkook travels back in time and kidnaps his last self to tell him how in the future Tae kills himself, so jungkook tries to get his past self to be nicer to Tae and stop him. Past jungkook thinks that Tae cheated on him but he was actually forced to have sex with his “boss” but jungkook doesn’t give him a chance to explain and starts cheating on Tae and is being really nasty to him. Ah help plz if you can

27) I’m searching for a fic and i really can’t find it ... i remember it’s jikook (but not really) and it’s about jungkook (who thinks he’s straight) who downloads a porn (by mistake i think) of minjoon and like he ends up liking it, it’s so vague i’m sorry kfhskcj

care to stay for the ride? by voseok

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[siarven]

@jacquesfindswritingandadvice it's been like 400 years but I somehow overlooked this before lkdjfdf aww <33

tbf it's been a while since I actively posted A Thing on writeblr, mainly bc uni and work ate me back in january and I didn't really do much writing since then because my main wip is still being beta read and it's taking A While xD I was a lot better at participating when I had stuff to talk about that wasn't spoilers or editing related :D that being said i do have a new wip so maybe at some point I'll actually have sth to post again (and tag you in) <333 thank you! I really appreciate it a lot <3 (but also if i do post sth and it's not up your alley pls lmk xD tastes don't always align :D)

I really appreciate what you're doing with your blog <33

I am begging fic writers who have a tumblr blog to please POST here when you put a new story or chapter up online. Honestly, BEGGING. If driving readers to your fic is something you want (and presumably it is if you post online at all??) and your blog is something you want your readers to be able to follow if they like your work, PLEASE let people know and be able to recommend and SHARE your work in a way you can SEE so that you can also appreciate any nice comments people put on the reblog or in the tags.

I promise you, as a fic reader, if I like your fic enough to find your tumblr blog (usually because people mention it in their author notes) then I want to give the fic that I liked enough to follow your blog for a BOOST or simply rec it to my followers because I think THEY will like it.

As a fic writer I can tell you: it’s not conceited to post that you’ve put a story or new chapter online. No one will be mad at you. They’re more likely to be mad if they find out that you DIDN’T let them know. Sometimes people forget to subscribe, or don’t know you decided to add a chapter to that“one-shot”, or don’t know you’re writing for another fandom they like too. Tell them. Obviously don’t spam with like a million updates in an hour, use common sense, but the number of times I’ve DEVOURED a new fic or update and then wanted to help promote the fic and that person’s blog has NOTHING that I can share is just way too damn high.

It doesn’t need to be fancy. Just the copy-paste HTML from the AO3 share feature is enough but I am begging you: let me promote your fic from a post that YOU CAN SEE so you can see the nice things I’m saying and for the love of god, don’t be afraid to do the tiniest bit of self promotion for something you worked hard on (unless you TRULY want to keep those things separate or you truly don’t have the extra energy, that I completely understand). Just don’t hold back because you think it’s a bother, or that it’s conceited. Seeing a blog post about your work updating is very welcome to people who like your blog and like your work.

[seabunnii]

DAYS LATER but guess what i’m stealing this tag game from @cipherr​  :3c

— what was your last…

1. drink: water !!!! stay hydrated !!!! DRINK LOTS OF WATER 2. phone call: my mom it was her bday yesterday so called her ! 3. text message: Lissa !! (cipherr x3) 4. song you listened to: Warm Blood - Carly Rae Jepsen 5. time you cried: wednesday i wrote a short angst ficlet for @simplymomo​ and made myself cry :^) (it will be published and shared soonish momo is also a saint and is beta-ing for me :’D)

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: no 7. kissed someone and regretted it: Y E A H 8. been cheated on: not technically??? but a little listen it is a whole thing 9. lost someone special: hmm...again technically yeahhh but i never had them...and in all honesty being more removed from it now, what happened is, probably for the best :’) 10. been depressed: yeah 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: i think once maybe ...? i have been drunk very bad but it takes a lot to make me throw up i guess 

— fave colours

12. pink  13. blue 14. gold

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: yes! 16. fallen out of love: no 17. laughed until you cried: yes !!!! (a lot thanks to the yakuza games) 18. found out someone was talking about you: i don’t think so ? 19. met someone who changed you: Y E S and all for the better :3 20. found out who your friends are: uhhh ... i mean i think other than new friends, it hasn’t changed  21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: nope 

— general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: most ?? but there are quite a few who are internet friends 23. do you have any pets: Loki my asshole son (cat), and Little Bastard who well the name says it (snake) 24. do you want to change your name: EVE IS THE NAME CHANGE LOL 25. what did you do for your last birthday: CAT CAFE  26. what time did you wake up today: 6:15 ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: S L E E P 28. what is something you can’t wait for: LITERALLY COPYING LISSA’S ANSWER BUT ON THE FLIP OF going to see her dance recital and see her for the first time since college !!!! I CANNOT WAIT AAAAA 30. what are you listening to right now: yakuza kiwami is paused in the background so like ambient city noises 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i had a class friend in college who was named Tom he was a really chill cool person we worked on some projects together and he was a not shitty partner so that made him a good guy in my book 32. something that’s getting on your nerves: i cannot think of anything right now :’D 33. most visited website: atm probably twitter?? 34. hair colour: dark brown naturally, ends are dyed pink and blue ! 35. long or short hair: L O N G (but must be. longer)                                          36. do you have a crush on someone: buddy i don’t know how to identify crushes (if we’re counting fictional characters tho uhhh i am in deep with one rn that i think most people regularly talking to me/following me on twitter COULD PROBABLY GUESS LMAO) 37. what do you like about yourself: my hair, my eyes, my voice (not singing LOL), and my luck !! and there are probably other things to. I AM TRYING TO LIKE ALL OF MYSELF AS HARD AS I CAN ! THAT IS MY BIGGEST GOAL MOVING FORWARD. 38. want any piercings: more ear piercings and maybe a nose one one day??  39. blood type: A+  40. nicknames: evebunni (if that counts???? it is cute tho i would not be opposed) i am not opposed to nicknames in general i’ve just never really gotten any :’D 41. relationship status: singglleeee (but, mostly ok with it for once! also mostly daydreaming about fictional crush lmao) 42. sign: scorpop 43. pronouns: she/her 44. fave tv show: QUEER EYE 45. tattoos: a conversation i had last week: Me: “My dream is to get a sleeve from Horitomo-san one day, he does traditional Japanese tattoos!!” Friend: “Uhh do you know how painful tattoos are? Aren’t traditional Japanese ones the *makes gesture for tenbori*” Me: “....I have six tattoos??” Friend: “WAIT REALLY” Me: “Haha yeah, *rolls up sleeve to show wrist one since most easy to access* i even got solid black on wrist and almost fell asleep during it. Same with solid black on ankle. My tattoo artists have said I’m one of the most still people ever” (so, six tattoos: steampunk “cyborg” service panel on thigh, deadpool heart on left ankle, x-men symbol on right ankle (matching with @deedeepurr​), “the future is bullet proof the aftermath is secondary” back right shoulder (matching with mom), swedish tres kronor on collarbone, adventure zone bureau of balance symbol on left wrist)

46. right or left handed: right 47: ever had surgery: nope 48. piercings: two on bottom right ear, three on bottom of left ear + one up top 49. sport: I KINDA WISH NOW i just do my own workouts :’) 50. vacation: aaa probably China or Sweden or Japan...those are my top three ;v; 51. trainers: as in people training me ?? the guys from queer eye they trained me to live better and also my friends constantly inspiring me and pushing me to do better

— more general

52. eating: i ate more chips and guacamole today bc hey sometimes that’s a dinner 53. drinking: water!!!!! SO MUCH WATER 54. i’m about to watch: kiryu being the Best Dad for Haruka 55. waiting for: MY PHONE TO CHARGE 56. want: ....all the yakuza games.... 57. get married: ye if i find the right person 58. career: eeehhhhhh i have one that pays the bills and for now that’s enough !! i’ll find something else or what i want to do someday

— which is better

59. hugs or kisses: i love real crushing long tight hugs ;w; 60. lips or eyes: eyes 61. shorter or taller: taller ? but shorter isn’t bad. all heights are good 62. older or younger: same or older 63. nice arms or stomach: NICE ARMS NICE ARMS NICE ARMS 64. hookup or relationships: i don’t even know i feel like atm i’d rather have a relationship tho 65. troublemaker or hesitant: both have their merits!! i’m more hesitant so i feel comfortable around people who won’t push, but at the same time, sometimes having someone who will push you is a good thing !!

— have you ever

66. kissed a stranger:  yes 67. drank hard liquor: yes 68. turned someone down: yes 69. sex on first date: wasn’t even a date really >v>;; 70: broken someone’s heart: yeahh i think so and i still feel awful about it but, it would only have been worst if i kept going 71. had your heart broken: yeah 72. been arrested: no 73. cried when someone died: yes 74. fallen for a friend: oops we’re not talking about This :))))))

— do you believe in

75. yourself: for like the first time in my life I think i can actually say YES and it’s thanks to some really lovely wonderful people 76. miracles: ehhhhhh 77. love at first sight: ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 78. santa claus: no 79. angels: no

— misc

80. eye colour: hazel  81. best friends’ names: Lissa, Momo, Brin, Bryce/DeeDee, Emma ;3;  82. favourite movie: HHHHH it’s really hard to pickkkk ok probably Paprika only bc god i can watch that movie so many times and never tire of it 83. favourite actor: HAVING JUST SEEN PACIFIC RIM 2 at the moment it’s John Boyega (beauty is a burden) 84. favourite cartoon: miraculous ladybug ?? i still haven’t watched season 2 but i’m blanking on other cartoons lol 85. favourite teacher’s name: Michele !

i wasn’t even officially tagged so i won’t tag anyone but there is an open invitation if you want to do this go for it :’D

[komuesq]

WAS TAGGED BY: @tsuyuake tyyy ~

TAGGING: @enoshimatroll, @excelerator, @jaytodd1129, @kiokushitaka, @liraelgoldenhanded, @smolnatsu29, @signedsfs + anyone else!

RULES: ANSWER THESE 85 STATEMENTS AND TAG 20 PEOPLE

THE LAST

1. DRINK: 1/2 pomegranate juice + 1/2 water to dilute 2. PHONE CALL: my dad 3. TEXT MESSAGE: a family friend 4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: error - vixx 5. TIME YOU CRIED: i was reminiscing abt my time in hk (”: 6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: - 7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: - 8. BEEN CHEATED ON: - 9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: family members and family friends, but no one that i was particularly close with 10. BEEN DEPRESSED: for a depressive episode - two days ago? 11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: -

12. black 13. red 14. gray

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: YES @ ALL MY HK BUDDIES 16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: - 17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: a lot lmfao 18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: its always good things tho so idk if that counts 19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: yes (”: 20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: ya i mean, we had a p big group in hk so it makes sense that ppl would eventually form their own small sub-group 21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: yes....?? ??? GENERAL 22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: i’ve met all of them face-to-face save for ~5 ppl who are long-time friends i’ve met online 23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: my family has two parakeets and a beta fish, but personally no 24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: yes bc im not too fond of it, but no bc i don’t know what else to change it to 25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY: on the night prior (going into midnight), i went to a last meetup with my hk buddies - karaoke! they surprised me by singing happy birthday when i came in & we also had cake! but on the actual day, ahhh i went to macau w/ someone v close to me! we walked ard the venetian, got some egg tarts from lord’s stow and bakery (THE BEST), then got nachos (i hadn’t had some in a while) and bubble tea 26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: 8:30a, p early considering i went to bed ard 2:00a 27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: editing my cosplay photos lmfao 28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: to cosplay at AWA! and possibly meeting w/ someone for new years??? also catching up w/ a long-time friend this weekend hopefully ~~ 29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: about three weeks ago?? she’s vacationing in canada 31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: the closer - vixx 32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: does tom from myspace count bc he sent me a welcome message 33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: my lip is peeling and im like why )))’: 34. MOST VISITED WEBSITE: either tumblr or twitter tbh 35. HAIR COLOUR: black, tho i really want to dye it plsss 36. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: both!!! for me personally, prob short hair bc it’s easier to put in a wig cap + cuter w my face 37. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: i was serious when i mentioned in passing that i’ve never really had crushes - v demiro and even then its bc the other person shows interest first that i would even consider bc i honestly don’t think of these things 38. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: i can be fairly creative when it comes to writing; my writing isn’t particular bad & i would consider my articulation to be top-notch in more formal settings. and i generally have a more positive outlook on life 39. PIERCINGS: none 40. BLOOD TYPE: either A or O, but prob O bc apparently mosquitoes are more attracted to O? 41. NICKNAME: komu 42. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: hmm single 43. ZODIAC: taurus / rat 44. PRONOUNS: any / she/her 45. FAVOURITE TV SHOW: none tbh 46. TATTOOS: none 47. RIGHT OR LEFT HANDED: right 48. SURGERY: none 50. SPORT: I CAN’T EVEN RUN W/O DYING IN 5 MIN 51. VACATION: ok so my european friends are telling me to do a food tour of europe and im so down tbh, also i would love to go back to osaka (or maybe tokyo bc i haven’t been there) 52. PAIR OF TRAINERS: err

MORE GENERAL 53. EATING: just ate a bagel w/ hummus bc my bro ate all the cream cheese hmmMMM 54. DRINKING: currently water 55. I’M ABOUT TO: go upstairs and take a nap 56. WAITING FOR: tmrw to come so i can send off a package + watch a movie w/ friendo!! 57. WANT: a peace in mind and for all my loans to be paid off. also a job offer would be nice but i haven’t done anything for that soo 58. GET MARRIED: hmm it’s not too far of a reach 59. CAREER: good question (”:

WHICH IS BETTER:

60. HUGS OR KISSES: hugs 61. LIPS OR EYES: eyes 62. SHORTER OR TALLER: taller bc im short as hell 63. OLDER OR YOUNGER: older mostly bc im 21 and anyone younger is in college as im finishing up 64. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: oooooo i might have to go for arms, even tho tums can b cute 65. HOOK UP OR RELATIONSHIP: relationship 66. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: if the troublemaker gets caught up with the law then no ty

HAVE YOU EVER: 67. KISSED A STRANGER: no 68. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: nooo 69. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: yes!!! they were in the case and i dropped the case and it bounced under the counter and i can’t find it???? 70. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: yes 71. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: nah 72. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: probably ? 73. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: does it count if it’s a mutual thing 74. BEEN ARRESTED: no 75. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: yes 76. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: nah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 77. YOURSELF: i try to 78. MIRACLES: nah 79. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: i believe that there are ppl in the world that you instantly connect with bc ur personalities mesh well 80. SANTA CLAUS: i grew up chinese 81. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: no 82. ANGELS: nah

OTHER: 84. EYE COLOUR: dark brown 85. FAVOURITE MOVIE: INCEPTION, but i also love gattaca and sky high (^:

[koi-cafe]

Tag Game!

rules: answer + tag ppl tagged by @agustcd ~ thank uuu ✿

the last:

1. drink: h2o

2. phone call: i hate talking on the phone, avoid at all cosTS

3. text message: my college friends!

4. song you listened to: suran’s latest album <3

5. time you cried: i was watching healer and his teacher died and bitch i died too

6. dated someone twice: not even once LOOOOOOOL

7. kissed someone and regretted it: i have no one to kiss to make regrets with

8. been cheated on: theres no one to cheat on me LMFAO

9. lost someone special: si 

10. been depressed: back in high school i had ISSUES 

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: only buzzed

list 3 fav colors:

12-14: pink, orange, blue

in the last year have you:

15. made new friends: oh heeeell yea

16. fallen out of love: i mean i get too infatuated with crushes so yeah

17. laughed until you cried: yep

18. found out someone was talking about you: ehhh not really

19. met someone who changed you: BTS...i met them indirectly tho

20. found out who your friends are: yep

21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: ummm my mom? LOL 

general:

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life:  im friends forreal with only like...12

23. do you have any pets: a guinea pig and beta fish ~ :-)

24. do you want to change your name: nah

25. what did you do for your last birthday: i ate steak like the savage i am 

26. what time did you wake up: fukin 5:30 am 

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: playing the magikarp app 

28. name something you can’t wait for: bts next comeback and moving back to school 

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: this morning

30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: doing what i want and not following others

31. what are you listening right now: im in public and i forgot my headphones fml 

32. have you ever talked to a person named Tom: my neighbor AAHAHAAH

33. something that is getting on your nerves: i keep getting headaches from not sleeping :-(

34. most visited Website: twitter probably???

35. mole/s: none

36. mark/s: on my arms

37. childhood dream: tbh i dont think i rly had one??? i was just chillin 

38. hair color: brown

39. long or short hair: long/medium

40. do you have a crush on someone: i always do LOL im a mess

41. what do you like about yourself: im good at makeup?? and im always inspired to do stuff/better myself

42. piercings: just my ears

43. bloodtype: once i know, im gonna find out what idols i match STAT

44. nickname: mahi (its a long story)

45. relationship status: single and way too ready to mingle

46. zodiac: sagittarius (ME AND JIN TOGETHER)

47. pronouns: she/her

48. favorite tv show: i mainly watch kdramas nowadays, strong woman do bong soon is god tier i also rly wanna start fight for my way and suspicious partner

49. tattoos: maybe one day?? probs not bc i cant even decide where to put a sticker

50. right or left hand: right

51. surgery: my wisdom teeth if u wanna count that

52. piercing: still just my ears lol but i rly want my cartilage pierced

53. sport: the sport of pokemon go 

55. vacation: in august! 

56. pair of trainers: my new balance shoes are comfy af 

more shit:

57. eating: none :-( 

58. drinking: none right now 

59. i’m about to: go back to studying orgo 

61. waiting for: this fukin orgo exam to end my life and BTS BON VOYAGE 2

62. want: get better at studying + the wings concept book holy shit

63. get married: i want toooo but where the bois at 

64. career: chemical engineer! (thats my major)

which is better:

65. hugs or kisses: i never kissed but hugs seem nicer i think

66. lips or eyes: eyes

67. shorter or taller: taller

68. older or younger: older

70. nice arms or nice stomach: armmmmssssssssss (also i am a strong advocate for baby bellies)

71. sensitive or loud: sensitive...but i too, am sensitive, so maybe i need someone loud to balance me out

72. hook up or relationship: relationship, i get feelings for ppl too easily LOL

73. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant...why be a trouble maker

have you ever:

74. kissed a stranger: nope

75. drank hard liquor: yep

76. lost glasses/contact lenses: my eyesight is good

77. turned someone down: i mean i did on tinder but dont we all 

78. sex in the first date: im the virgin mary

79. broken someones heart: nope

80. had your heart broken: ye :-( 

81. been arrested: nope

82. cried when someone died: yep

83. fallen for a friend: nope

do you believe in:

84. yourself: in theory 

85. miracles: i mean everything is by chance so that means yeah they can happen

86. love at first sight: umm......no...u can have a crush at first sight but i dont think love

87. santa claus: i was always skeptical af and never believed

88. kiss in the first date: ummmmmm i wish

89. angels: explain kim chung ha and lovelyz mijoo

other:

90. current best friends name: ive had the same squad since elementary school <3

91. eyecolor: brown

92. favorite movie: spirited away + basically any harry potter movie tagging @2awake @flower-guk @hobikenobi +anyone else who wants!

[championoflosers]

Rules: Answer the 10 questions then tag 10 people!

Thank you Nova for tagging me (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

1. Last movie you watched: Mulan!

2. Last thing you listened to: this amazing new track by ARVFZ

3. Last show you watched: I rewatched Mob Psycho 100 for the third time ಥ‿ಥ

4. Last book you read: I’ve just started The Picture of Dorian Gray!

5. Last thing you ate: 3 and a half pieces of pizza that I am currently regretting

6. If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be? I’d obviously be with Nova because she’s my lover, or meeting the author I beta for because I adore them. (Read their fics here please and thank)

7. When would you time travel to? The Dark Ages ™. I want a sweet ass viking funeral. Set me on fire in the middle of a lake

8. First thing you would do with lottery money: Get out of America before Trump gets in office and buy a few of my trans friends some real binders so they don’t have to do things that might be dangerous

9. Character you would hang out with for a day: Matsukawa Issei bc a more attractive man has never existed I am in love

10. Time right now: 1:31 AM

I’m tagging @llamasontheloose, @kurousagi744, @a-spoonfulofsuga, @laneylily, @liberou, and I just ran out of friends that I’ve actually talked to in the last 6 months so this is the cutoff

[duckybeth99]

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. At the end choose 25 people to be tagged. I was tagged by @artsaeda !! LAST: Last drink: water Last phone call: tattoo parlor lmao Last text message: “No it’s on the 30th"
 Last song you listened to: love like you
 Last time I cried: probs last week? either due to general emotional instability or driving stress
 HAVE YOU EVER:
 Dated someone twice: what does that mean
 Been cheated on: no
 Kissed someone and regretted it: nope
 Lost someone special: yea
 Been depressed: l m a o y e p
 Been drunk and thrown up: nah man I’m just a tiny baby child
 IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
Made a new friend: yea!
 Fallen out of love: nope! still goin strong w my s/o
 Laughed until you cried: yes and one I time remember clearly doing this was when watching crash bandicoot meme videos with my brothers on our trip to disneyland
 Met someone who changed you: yea I think so? I mean imo everybody changes everybody in some way so
 Found out who your true friends were: yea! ride or die and pick up the pieces of what was left behind and make something again
 Found out someone was talking about you: yea mostly positive but lm a o the drama I had at the end of my senior year???? that was Not Positive 
 GENERAL:
 How many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: I’m gonna answer this kinda weirdly bc there’s a lot of people I knew from high school on here (and yes we have that secret bond to never share outloud what we say online) so I’m just gonna do ppl I met online and then met in person SO: 4 (first best friend who later became s/o and their sister and two other close friends)
 Do you have any pets?: HECK YEA I DO I got an old man beta fish named Sapphire, I had my cat Marty who now lives with my brother’s girlfriend due to him needing more space, and my doggie baby bowie!!!!!!!
 Do you want to change your name?: not really? I like it and it’s unique, people remember it because not a lot of people have the same name, it gives me an easy nickname and it only sucked when (old) people used to mistake my name as Brittney
 What time did you wake up this morning?: ummmmm 6:56 because bowie was crying
 What were you doing last night?: vidya games (sims 4)
Name something you cannot wait for: xmas!!!!!
 Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: no? no don’t think so 
 What’s getting on your nerves right now?: ME AND MY EMOTIONAL INSTABILITY AND ALL THE PROBLEMS THAT COME FROM IT
 Blood type: idk??????
 Nickname: beth
 Relationship status: taken [loudly blows smooches to my s/o]
 Zodiac sign: virgo
 Pronouns: she/her
 Favorite tv show: i don’t have a favorite! it flops around a lot depending on mood. been binging a lot of S/ou/th Pa/rk lately lmao but I always have a close love for s u
 College: diablo valley college!
 Hair color: brown (EVERYONE THINKS ITS BLACK ITS NOT!!!!!!!!!!!)
 Do you have a crush on someone: I mean do crushes still count if you’re dating the person or is that just General Love or what
 What do you like about yourself: confused noises and shrugs a lot????????
 FIRSTS:
 First surgery: kidney surgery
 First piercing: earrings
 First sport you joined: ballet/tap dancing First vacation: DIDNEYLAN SINCE I WAS A BABY
 First pair of sneakers: how tf u expect me to remember that
 Eating: uh last thing I ate was pizza for dinner
 Drinking: water
 I’m about to: go to sleep
 Listening to: the white noise of the humming of Joel’s computer and the volume of the tv turned way down to help me fall asleep
 Want kids: yea
 Get married: yea
 Career: SHRUGS A LOT it flops around a lot and I have so many backup plans but I guess the biggest dream career goal is working as an artist for disney or pixar and writing webcomics/graphic novels
 WHICH IS BETTER:
 Lips or eyes: eyes! i think, idk feels right to me
 Hugs or kisses: hugs
 Shorter or taller: shorter. make me feel tall for i am smol
 Older or younger: this makes me uncomfortable what does this even mean
 Romantic or spontaneous: romantic
 Sensitive or loud: sensitive??? what is this about tho
 Hook up or relationship: relationship!
 Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant???
 HAVE YOU EVER:
 Kissed a stranger: no
 Drank hard liquor: no
 Lost glasses/contacts: no
 Sex on first date: no
 Broken someone’s heart: I. I mean as far as I know no but I think that would be other people’s choice to say????
 Been arrested: no
 Turned someone down: no?
 Fallen for a friend: sort of, when thinking about how I’m demi, that’s kinda how me and my s/o happened
 DO YOU BELIEVE:
 In yourself: lol no
 Miracles: depends
 Love at first sight: not really
 Heaven: not really 
 Santa Claus: never did cuz of jehovah witness raising lmao uh can I tag like no one or very few ppl bc that’s A Lot ok if I gotta tag I’ll do @genjis-girlfriend @artiesrandomthoughts @ask-artsy-oncie @benneficial and I guess any dingle dang person who wants to do this and u can just say I tagged u to keep a chain goin