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just saw some more bullshit discourse (hate) on original characters that essentially boils down to ‘all original characters are the same and / or just self-inserts & thus, invalid in any rpc’. now, i don’t even know where to begin with the stupidity of this statement, but i guess what it boils down to (for me at least) is: a character being canon doesn’t make them any more important or justified to exist than an original character. all canon characters started out as original characters. just because you have pre-existing source material / media doesn’t make your character any more important than one that someone created just for the sake of writing on tumblr / any other collaborative platform. original characters are not, by default, self-inserts. that’s one of the dumbest things i’ve ever heard. even still, if someone really wants to write a self-insert character, it’s not your business to police it. curate your space, make yourself comfortable, but don’t make everyone else uncomfortable while doing it. <3
#* ooc.#and last but not least: it's tumblr rp greg .#calm the fck down <3#eliza kardel is NOT a self insert just for the record#but even if she was??? whose business is that???#(i'd ask that yall would do a wellness check on me if she was) DJBFGKBFKBG#anyways . good lord#touch grass and eat some skittles#this and everything ofc is never abt my mutuals . luv u all
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Dakota and Williamcore
KILLS YOU.
#EDIT:OH YEAH SPOILERS IN TAGS#gonna be thinking about this forever. especially because it could really go both ways#of course the most direct interpretation here is dakota as theseus and wil as herakles#yknow; dakota carrying williams body around in s1 and never letting go of it trying to be as gentle as possible#him hugging wil close and telling him they at least have to stick together after the events of greyscale#and him knee-deep in williams blood in the s2 finale promising to forgive him for every lie every mistake if he just came back#and i think that fits really well#but i think this could also fit in vice versa terms too#dakota being afraid to open up and not wanting to put any weight on anybody else’s shoulders; wanting to be the hero#and william seeing through that. calming him down and pulling the headphones up and over his ears and locking pinkies with him in promises-#-he knows he won’t always keep but he can at least try#william respecting dakota the most hero/ability-wise (actually said by charlie in a rolled)#like. MAN.#i’m so normal#dakota cole#william wisp#vixen rambles#vixen answers
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theres multiple reasons i dont like s/urgeamy but one of the things ive seen people do with it that annoys me a bit is the idea that surge and kit are going to become good because surge is gonna fall in love with amy and thats gonna be her only motivation to change.. and im sorry but am i the only one who thinks it would suck so bad for such fun antagonists to instantly switch sides just because one of them was "fixed" by romance and no other reason
#that is not an appealing storyline to me at least not for something like sonic where i dont wanna see canon romance#i DO think it could be interesting if amy being nice to surge and kit is gonna somehow be the start of a redemption arc for them#but not in a romantic way . not in an instant ''well i guess i have to switch sides now because i have a crush on sonics friend'' way#and ive seen some people assume that surge and kit are actually being serious when they come to the restoration as if theyve changed#i definitely dont think this is the case i dont think theyre good guys now#at least not yet it is possible they could calm down one day. but i dont think thats whats going on right now#i dont get why people are so obsessed with shipping amy with everyone anyway#shes just a little guy she should be doing average middle school aged girl activities like playing neopets or whatever#not entering serious romantic relationships . come on#especially considering most of her friends are a bit older than her#also the constant ''haha surge stole sonics girlfriend'' posts are getting on my nerves too#like my reasons for not liking the ship + the fact that the joke has already been made a million times aside.#it just always annoys me seeing amy be reduced to sonics girlfriend when theyre not even dating
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HE KNOWS
YES I SEE HES NOT LIKING THAT NOW
Also interesting they do use their 'feralty' as some cover. However ruins weird so we'll see if he figures that out right away or not.
#also a bit of a twitst we get nice eclipse helping bloodmoon#*projects problems onto him instead*#DONT THINI I DIDNT NOTICE NO MENTION OF KILLCODES DEATH OR ANYTHING#bloodmoon continues to be bored tho#and dealing with their identity as a 'tool'as they quote KC a bit#further implying this bothers them very much#BUT ALSO STARING AT THE SHOW IN 'ARE U ACTUALLY GONNA TOUCH ON THE MURDER OF KC OR NOT'#i get they can take their time will wait cause this episode slwas more establishing solar and bms deal#AND WHWRE SOLAR WAS APPARENTLY. please give this man a hug he thinks moon and sun are dead#bloodmoons interesting how they recognize if they dont calm down theyll just rampage#esp when they Want to think things thru#but so farRRR good for them ob finding out but rip them too#also like solar kinda admitting 'well yeah its using u?? we're in a bind here dude'#i couldve misheard that tho#but at least he was honwst about it lol#sun and moon show spoilers
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yk, its weird being Way Too Aware & In Control of yourself bc technically i believe im having a panic attack. but somehow i am Very Unbothered by this, bc i know whats happening and its illogical. my body's having an overreaction and i couldn't be fucked to join in
#im sitting here casually looking up symptoms to make sure this is a Panic attack and not a Heart attack#got those heart palpies got that chest pain got that sense of Derealization got that shortness of breath#i even feel a lil faint! ive even got a hot flash goin on! tightness in the throat! the whole enchilada#and yet! im somehow vibing...#my body's throwing a fit smh calm down bro its not that bad...#maybe you'll calm down if i drink some water and eat some fruit <3#shoulda known this was coming... was lying awake at 4 am with really bad palpatations s. m. h.#honestly! this is very annoying!#my vision tried to tunnel exactly Once but i fought it off. idiot meatsuit....#breathing exercises and internal mantras babeyyyyyy i got this shit on Lock#oh! and look at that! my heart is finally chilling out#still gonna eat water and drink fruit#yall should do that too. at least the water part#go drink water! go! shoo!#hydrate or diedrate! always pick hydrate!#absolutely unprompted#alright well that was fun. only lasted for about *checks nonexistent watch* over an hour#i dont think ive had one that bad before! it really tried to Get Me!#had to fight off the deep sense of dread and rising panic with a mental broom!!#finishing my rebels rewatch helped but still. damn. these demons have hands#my brain: OH WE'RE DYING WE'RE DYING ITS A HEART ATTACK WE'RE GONNA DIE AND ROT FOR DAYS BEFORE OUR BODY IS FOUND OH GOD ITS HAPPENING#hard cut to me vibing with a martini.... wii music on blast... hawaiian shirt On and Unbuttoned...#anyway. drink some water. get some fruit. Thrive!
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There is something incredibly funny about the idea of you being an assassin sent to kill Goku and he just, doesn't take you seriously at all. He's been threatened so many times that it doesn't phase him in the slightest to see yet another on that growing list of 'People Who Don't Like Him'. At least they sent someone cute this time and not some guy with a weird power or something. A normal human, though, is a bit tricky for him to work around, not wanting to actually hurt you and all that.
What makes it better is that he doesn't even try to take your attacks seriously and, in fact, takes it like you're flirting. You're pissed off and calling him every insult you know and he's just dodging every attack like it's nothing. Even firing back a few lines about how pretty you are and that he's kind of impressed a normal human could have this much stamina. He'll even let you hit him a few times-sure it doesn't hurt but you've got a lot of strength that he finds really attracting.
Just, please stop yelling. It's making his pants tight and hard to move in.
#the fact of 'taking fighting as flirting' goes for all Saiyans but is particularly funny with Goku#my man has No Thoughts at all times except during combat and is incredibly aware then too#so he's not missing one word or action when you're trying to beat the shit out of him and he will take it as a compliment#that you're trying to kill him while being so weak#flattered even#cute strong little you? trying to kill him? be still his beating heart#he'll admit it's probably the Saiyan in him but he loves the fact you're trying to kill him and doing so well at it too#(if he was human at least)#he can't help but find it really attractive and be drawn to you#so long as you calm down and let him talk to you maybe he could convince you to join his side#and maybe not be so angry? please? you're really pretty and he doesn't wanna hurt you#jawbones#dragon ball#goku x reader
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22 Mattdrai please
Thank you anon! I hope you enjoy :)
22. things you said after it was over
Last year, it was Matthew's precious Flames that got punted out of the playoffs. To add insult to injury, it was at the hands of the Oilers. Which is why, that same night, he sent Leon a slew of drunken texts from some dingy downtown bar because he was not in the mood to even look at Leon, let alone go home with him.
Those texts included one declaring they were breaking up, which Leon didn't take to heart because not even five minutes later he got another message assuring him that no they were not actually breaking up Matthew was just going to hate him for the next 48 hours. That, Leon could handle.
Hell, he'd probably have gone for 72 hours. Minimum. And he had to rest his ankle anyways, if he wanted any chance of seeing ice-time the next game. He'd be there when Matthew was ready.
This year, it's the Oilers who go out first.
Leon just barely keeps it together through the post-game media frenzy. He doesn't want to look at the cameras, barely keeps the shudder from his voice, which is little more than a whimper because he just can’t breathe. Hunkered down with his hood up because it feels safe, the only barrier between him and a world that just crushed his dream. Again.
It's not like he can be mad at Matthew, because he fucked off to Florida, a whole other division, so Leon has no excuse for not answering any of his texts, or the six separate times Matthew tried to call after Vegas knocked Edmonton on it's ass.
Only once Leon's back home for the night, drained and exhausted and dazed, refusing to go out with Connor and the guys because he really, really doesn't want to exist right now, does he look at his phone.
Cuddling Bowie in his arms, he sits on the couch and scrolls through the avalanche of texts from Matthew. The last one catches him off guard, and he stares at it, reading it over and over.
come down and see me. please.
And... yeah. Through the doom and gloom of another lost season, he misses Matthew. Matthew, who's season isn't done. Matthew, who doesn't need Leon, but wants him. Wants him to be there.
So Leon books a flight to Florida, and starts packing.
The next day he goes in early for clear-out, says his goodbyes, and drives right to the airport. After an almost nine hour flight--including a layover in Denver that's great for his legs but not his morale--he lands in Fort Lauderdale just as the sun hits the horizon.
Matthew's waiting for him at Arrivals, dressed in board shorts and sandals and button-down shirt, sunglasses and that damn bucket hat. He smiles when he sees Leon, waves, and the simplicity of it chips away at the heavy stone sitting on Leon's chest. He always breathes better when he's with Matthew.
"What, not even a sign?" Leon calls out once he's in earshot. "I thought you were excited to see me?"
Matthew slaps the brim of Leon's hat down over his eyes. "Next time I'll bring confetti canons and air horns."
And fuck, just hearing Matthew's voice again without a phone between them lifts a weight off Leon's shoulders. It almost makes the defeat worth it.
His hands are too empty suddenly. He wants to hold Matthew's, wrap him up in his arms, touch him anywhere and everywhere, inside and out. Replenish old memories, make new ones. Never let go again.
Matthew gets the jump on him once they're in his car, dragging Leon over the center console by his shirt and into a sloppy kiss. It's all tongue and teeth, scratchy beard and plush lips, and as always, it's perfect. This too, aches like a phantom pain when they're on opposite ends of the continent. Phone sex and a bit of imagination with his own hand can't totally replace the sex, but it definitely can't replace the sweetness of a kiss.
When he pulls back, Matthew looks like he's going to immediately drop the one thing Leon really doesn't want to hear--the dreaded I'm sorry about what happened--so he jumps first.
"I missed you."
If Matthew knows he's purposely being cut off, he doesn't show it. He bumps their foreheads together and closes his eyes, like he's just soaking Leon in.
"Missed you too."
As the dusk fades to night, they drive, and drive, and drive. Not to Matthew's house, that's immediately obvious, but Leon doesn't ask where they're going. He slumps in the passenger's seat, leg tucked up against the dashboard, and goes between watching palm trees and glistening waterfront, to watching Matthew.
He tries not to think about hockey, but it was a long and restless flight, and Matthew's got a stupid little air freshener shaped like skates, and the playoffs aren't actually over, so of course the first thing Leon says to break the silence is, "When's your next game?"
Matthew taps his fingers on the steering wheel in time with the music playing on the radio. "Thursday. Against Carolina. We're flying out the day after tomorrow."
"Hmm. So what are we doing with all that time?"
"Fucking, hopefully." Matthew glances sidelong at him, tongue poking between his teeth. "At least for part of it. I still have practice, and you need to relax."
"What am I doing while you're gone?"
"Waiting for me to come back? You can stay at my place. Come to the games when we're at home. My family's going to drop in too, so, you know, be prepared for that."
Won't be Leon's first tangle with the Tkachuks. Pretty sure he's an honorary member of the family at this point, even if he still struggles to keep up with the energy they bring to a room. Not that he minds.
The rest of the drive is quiet enough that Leon dozes off. When he wakes up, groggy with jet lag, it's dark aside from the street lights, and Matthew is pulling into a parking lot up from a small, deserted beach. Leon doesn't know which one; there's so many here. He follows Matthew out of the car and down the promenade, down the stone steps to the sand, where grains slip between his toes and the sound of the waves soothes the storm in his own head.
Which is exactly why Matthew brought him here; somewhere secluded, somewhere that can't hurt him. Because Leon loves the ocean, and Matthew loves him.
He follows Matthew along the beach, going nowhere in particular. Matthew walks purposefully nonetheless, head high and shoulders back, warm breeze tugging at his clothes and ruffling his curls. Something Leon loves to do too, and can't wait to do again.
This place looks good on Matthew. If only it weren't so far away.
"I'm glad you came," Matthew says over his shoulder, slowing until Leon catches up. "I wasn't sure you would."
Why not? The year-round heat and the beaches and the seemingly endless bars are a nice change of pace. But more importantly, this is where Matthew is. Of course he was going to come.
"Beats sitting around re-watching the second round wondering what we could have done differently," Leon says instead, because it's true, and because he doesn't need to tell Matthew what he already knows.
"Hey, that's not a bad thing. But it's not what you need right now." Matthew swallows, takes an uneven breath like he's the one getting choked up. "I saw your interview yesterday. After the game. Leon, you know I didn't call you down here for me, right? Don't get me wrong, I'd fucking love for you to be here watching us play, but the way you sounded... I was worried you'd end up sitting around your house all alone and depressed."
"I'm not depressed. And I wasn't going to. I was planning on going back home."
"Great, so you can mope around in Germany instead."
"I wouldn't have been alone."
"Much as I love Bowie, he doesn't count, babe."
Leon stops walking, staring at the sand until Matthew stops too, turning back and right into Leon's space to block the wind, which has taken on a chill.
"Leon--"
"Our season's over, Matthew," he mutters. "I really thought we could... I didn't want it to end here."
Matthew sighs, but his eyes are sympathetic. "Yeah. I know. But you're not done. There's always next year. And a bunch more after that."
The same platitudes, every time. It's empty words. Leon knows it. Matthew knows it. But what else is there to say? You fall, you get back up, you try again. Rinse and repeat. That's what this league is.
In any other circumstance, Matthew would probably make some crack about the Oilers and how assuming you guys can actually get your shit together, you may have a chance, but it's, you know, fucking Edmonton, so...
But he's being kind for Leon's sake. Because Matthew's forked tongue turns to silk when he's off the ice. He's so gentle at times like this, handling Leon with kid gloves like he thinks he'll shatter if he so much as breathes too hard.
"I'm just getting tired of it always being 'next year'," Leon admits easily, because it is easy with Matthew. "Every time we come close, we get knocked down. It feels like shit. I'm fucking tired of it."
Every time he climbs the ladder, he tastes victory. The higher the wrung, the sweeter it is. And every time he falls, there's a tiny part of him that worries he'll never get his feet off the ground again.
"Hey." Matthew cups his cheek, forcing Leon to look him in the eye, into pale blues that dance and shine even in the dark. "You're not giving up on me, are you?"
The question catches him so off guard Leon jerks like he's been struck.
"What? No. Fuck no. The hell kind of question is that?"
Quitting has never even crossed his mind. He didn't come into this league thinking it would be easy. He's worked his ass off to get where he is, and sure he's got his own liabilities to work through, but he'll keep going until something gives out.
"Good. Just making sure." Matthew looks so damn smug, but Leon's learned to find that endearing too. "Only place left to go is up, right?"
Right. Leon said something like that to Matthew, once. You win or you lose. Only two options. If you lose, then all you can do next time is win. If you win, you keep winning until you make it to the top. Anger into action, failure into fortune.
Matthew's hand slips down Leon's forearm, searching for his hand, but stops when Leon flinches, and brushes a callused thumb back and forth over the bruise there.
"This from Pietrangelo?"
Leon huffs. "Maniac, yeah. It's fine. It wasn't as bad as it looked."
"Want me to rough him up a little if I see him down the line? My treat. Actually, it'd be my pleasure."
There's that blinding confidence. The Matthew that's going to ensure they blow right past Carolina, through Dallas or Vegas, and raise the Cup. Who's dumb enough to argue with him?
"If you want." Leon's almost too tired to smile, but he tries anyways.
And Matthew softens too, cheeks pinked and teeth showing between his parted lips. It's hard to think back to a time when he would never look at Leon like this; like he's so fucking in love with him it's physically impossible to hide it. Leon can only imagine how he looks to Matthew.
"I'll make you another deal while we're at it," Matthew says.
"A deal or a promise?" Leon knows what's coming, because he knows Matthew. His heart still jumps up into his throat.
"I'll win the Cup for you."
They've learned to say I love you in a million different ways. Somehow, they keep finding new ones.
It's so stupid. Matthew's not arrogant. But then again, he seems to be playing a game no one else is, in a way no one else can. He oozes confidence and bleeds charisma, possesses the kind of karma that can change destinies.
If anyone could actually say it, and do it, it's Matthew. Damn if Leon doesn't believe it, too.
So all he has to do is smile, nod, and say, "Okay."
"Just to be clear," Matthew says, "I'm not doing it for the Oilers. I'm doing it for you. And for me and the Cats, obviously. Maybe... maybe a little more for me and the Cats. No offence, babe."
Leon snorts. "It's fine. It's yours. You earned it."
"So have you." Damn right he has. "Shit just sucks sometimes."
Leon scoffs and rolls his eyes to whatever unseeing deity keeps fucking him over. But he's done wallowing. He's got something so much better standing right in front of him.
"You said this was a deal." Leon tugs him closer, one hand cupping the back of Matthew's head, pressing the words against his mouth. "So what do you want from me?"
Matthew smiles under his lips. "I just want you to be there to see it."
#hockey#mattdrai#matthew tkachuk#leon draisaitl#my writing#asks#of course the tragedy of the panthers losing the finals to vegas and matthew's injury looms over this one. I do so love dramatic irony#at least leon is there now so he and brady can both help matthew when he's hurt#matthew is upset they didn’t win and he couldn't keep his promise to leon but leon is like 'your bones are broken please calm down'#i'm actually usually pretty indifferent to petnames but I am so enamoured with matthew calling leon 'babe' I can just hear it#sometimes I don't think I can write romance because I'm very aromantic but then I write shit like this#and suddenly I'm like well damn I guess love is real#once again thinking I should be sued for defamation because I'm pretty sure 'min fic' does not mean 2k but oh well
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Do you have any Dick and Catalina thoughts? Ideas for how it could’ve been better handled? Aspects that you wish got more explored in fan works?
ways it couldve been better handled: if DC higher ups let the author write her damn story instead of interrupting what was supposed to be a full and proper storyline with a batman crossover event
aspects that i wish were more explored in fan works: dick still sees catalina as a person, and a person he failed at that. one of the huge catalysts for things getting worse for dick's mental state was the death of one of his villains, so i don't understand the fics that treat killing catalina as the solution. that kind of resolution is beyond naive to me, not just in terms of dick's story but in terms of abuse stories as a whole. killing the abuser can be cathartic, but it can also be unsatisfying and pointless and counter to what suits a story.
i got sidetracked a bit, so back on topic. dick has a big heart, and cares for catalina beyond a simple "murder is wrong" angle. he tried to be a mentor to her, and sees himself as her murder accomplice. it's not just about not saving blockbuster, it's about not saving cat. to him, it's not just his fault a man is dead, it's also his fault that a woman he was supposed to help crossed a line like that.
#asks#anon#ive yet to ever enjoy a fic that centers around the catalina thing ill be honest#its just 'shes evil and irredeemable so murdering her will fix everything'#like im sorry but shes not the joker calm down#i get that it's comic logic or whatever but i like when death has weight to it instead of just being#well it looks like the author couldn't think of anything else to do so#especially when it involves characters with such heavy relationships with death#tldr my thoughts are fuck dc corporate and that no fics ive seen seem to handle the story with care either#only resentment and anger at a fictional character. or worse: resentment and anger at an author who is a Real Human Being#who was screwed by her higher ups and seems to apologize at least once a year for it anyways
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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍
#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man#thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking#mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they#dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done#listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life#i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this#once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i#dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this#ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be#i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about#how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being#given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out#entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please#its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have#to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once#and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general#feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this#but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is#i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired#i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if#i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore#i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr#and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning#my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better#it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood#my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it#cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen#.vent#ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.
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i love deadpool and i love reading deadpool comics but i aint gonna lie to you its awkward reading them sometimes when i get mild anxiety from being watched and his whole like. BIT is occasionally talking to the reader. upset sometimes even
#deadpool#wade wilson#snap chats#i dont do well with Surprise Eye Contact from media either. irl im perfectly fine but vaeeljaekl#im sorry wade your suffering is not my joy i swear :(((( ok maybe sometimes BUT PLEAASE IM SORRYYY#I ONLY WANT GOOD THINGS FOR YOUUUU :((#'calm down son its just a drawing' ok the drawing's mad at me for perceiving him what do i do now.#i will be perceiving him at LEAST eight anthologies over simultaneously crying and apologizing. maybe having a giggle or two
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thinking about the western comics industry again and can i just say i'm Shocked there has yet to be a major equivalent to manga magazines here. like i would kill to be able to pump out comic chapters to a big crowd without having to worry about 1. coloring 2. the publisher imploding on itself before i'm done
#“dallon you can just do that online” 1. scrolling format is my sworn enemy 2. west cries at the sight of long-term comics without color#i guess viz media is trying but. bwah!!!!!!!! it feels so weak in impact atm. though i could just be too far outside of that sphere tbf#u know how the current anime industry in japan is going through a slow death rn. yeah. feels samesies over here w comics#and our animation as well tbh. but that is a whole other thing i don't feel like getting into rn#i will also say i think part of the issue is western audiences refuse to interact with western indies because they think it's beneath them-#-or '''weeb shit''' when. babe those are just more comics. calm down. go read a history book or at least get some fresh air#advertising is also an issue ofc though because! we just! don't have that! outside of marvel + dc + big stuff from webtoon atm!#it's great. smiley face#anyway the visual arts side of the entertainment industry is internationally worrying me can you tell#riot rambles
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Wish characters could have interpersonal conflicts without people jumping to defend one side to the point of villainizing the other party
#qsmp#this happened with Jaiden and it was just as exasperating#it’s the way of fandom but I am not thrilled for any future conflicts in the future#at least most from a fandom perspective#the fact Baghera has had to stop lore once to tell chat to calm down during a Jaiden investigation#and now apologized on Twitter for whatever happened recently#does not bode well
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i was crying in front of a sidewalk tonight and someone in a passing car asked to me through their window "you alright?" honestly didnt even know what they expected
#i cant answer u man. ur driving away#thats fine. i suppose i appreciate the ask?#i was out there for like an hour. not all of it was crying. for at least 20 minutes in the beginning i was just sitting sullen#no tears coming out.#some ppl seemed to honk at me which was really weird#like. why would u honk at someone... for... that??#i was nowhere near the road#tales from diana#at one point a nice lady said from over a fence (there was an outdoor seating area about 10 ft away) she said#'u seem really sad. is there anything i can help with? what's wrong?'#i was like no thank u and i can't really explain right now#she offered me seltzer which i refused. i probably wouldn't have refused if i hadn't been feeling so awful#i don't think anyone could hear me and i was very much like in a corner not bothering anyone#but there was no hiding that i was sitting there by myself crying and i was like. well if this is the situation i guess i gotta be ok w it#u get what u get. but depression won tonight ladies and gentlemen#i have calmed down although i dont 'feel better'. goodnight sleep tight
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Getting flirted on made me wanna throw up and I had nightmares because of it- I'm so Stressed Out bro 😂😂 its been awhile since the last time someone gets as persistent, and he's not crossing the line or anything it's just me feeling Ugh at the whole idea of Flirting and potential dates. And how everyone around me keeps saying "waiting for the Good News *winks" like I *need* to Progress from this and I feel Pressured to Progress Further despite not Wanting This- or maybe I do Want it or is it me wanting actual date or is it me wanting to be The Perfect Daughter who will Marry a Man?? I'm so stressed out over this bro like im sorry but this isnt making me excited nor happy at all. No offence to The Guy, he didnt do anything wrong...
#red rambles#I had nightmares for like two nights straight bro#like I have to be Pleasing at all times#like if it wont be working out it needs to be him who cut things off#and fuck why does everyone gets so excited over this while im not#calm down Red they all mean well... and hes not a Bad Person its just a few chats#and at least he found me cute I guess???#idk this is all so stressful I hope it ends in brighter things#either it will work out or it wont#(will it work out if I didn't even feel anything and just going along to respect his efforts)#AUGH I DONT KNOW... IM SORRY
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i had my first driving lesson ever and i felt like i had an out of body experience im still like shaky sksksk
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lbr, johann would be fascinated with barton’s mask and compliment him on how well preserved it is.
❝ holy shit. i almost gave up hope with this stupid card, but it seems like someone is just my type, ❞ barton let out a loud incredulous laugh upon seeing that ALL of the boxes for this card were ticked. he was almost tempted to ask if johann was lying about some of them, but what would he really have to gain from that besides... his favor, i guess you could say? and the other didn't really seem like the type to try to manipulate him. at least, in this way. barton honestly was kind of speechless — he hadn't really planned for someone to be perfectly compatible with him, so what the hell was he supposed to do now?
marriage. that was the only solution.
#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#THE CAT. i'm sorry but i have had that meme saved for a while and i've been waiting for just the right moment to use it... so why not now-#am i right? LMAO 💀 i mean it certainly seems kind of appropriate but OFC i'm just joking about them actually getting married#if johann would want to go a date with him though... or a few dates.... and possibly be his bf (WOAH there barton calm down JSJSJ LOL) then#feel free to let me know because. man's might or might not feel like he may explode if he doesn't at least TRY to see if he'd be interested#lolll so yeah. you can definitely say that barton got heart eyes whenever he saw that he got all of his boxes ticked tehe. we LOVE that for#johann though <33 (please run away while you still can johann bc you're NEVER going to be able to get rid of him if you invite him into#your life... kind of like a vampire JSJSJ nah i'm kidding. well partially 💀 )#BUT fr. he's never had someone be fascinated with his mask before? man's usually just gets horrified reactions and for good reason OFC LOL#but i imagine barton would be happy to answer any questions he has about it bc like i said... everyone usually wants to get away from him#bc of it hahahhh
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