The thing that sucks sometimes about transition envy is that, I guess you almost expect yourself to "grow out" of it the more you transition. I used to feel so much envy, and it was something I hoped would stop once I transitioned medically, and while it's absolutely less frequent... man, when I experience transition envy, it's still just as bitter a cocktail as I remember. It can be hard to move past that, and almost... resent the other person/s, but what helped me is knowing that the person you're envying isn't specifically trying to make you, personally, feel like absolute shit. Just as you can't always help what you are envious about in other trans people, they can't help that they have traits or transition experiences or opportunities you do not have, you know? And absolutely, it sucks. But it's something that helped me because then it's a reminder that the world isn't Out To Get Me, you feel?
I think a lot of us can relate to the experience of transition envy, and it's shameful to admit to it, I suppose. It's hard to admit to envy in general, but it's important to not be judgemental about yourself. Your transition is as unique and beautiful and worthy as literally everyone else's and I hope you remember that forever
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darling we all love you ok???
you can calm down. yeah I'm not gonna say accidentally hurting someone removes all the blame, but a situation like this is genuinely unforeseen? like. you were trying to help. in normal circumstances it would've been harmless, and - living breathing human-like people are generally not made of glitter.
you've done nothing wrong. you were being nice. as soon as you figured it out, you sorted it out. yeah, Jay probably has some trauma from the experience, and they'd be valid to avoid you, but that doesn't put you at blame.
love you, take care, go to a therapist about this<3
Thank you... for your words. I think it's best I also avoid most mortals from now on. Especially mortal children. Lest I do something similar, humans are incredibly easy to hurt, and as an Archangel, avoiding that should be my role.
I probably should speak to a therapist, shouldn't I? How do I even explain that... to someone?...
I'll be fine. If I'm not, then I will go to the therapist.
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AH HA... BIG NEWS... say goodbye to lengthy asks and responses about where Ghostmaker makes appearances.. they finally compiled all of them now I can just send people a link instead of listing a lengthy list of single issues/panels with multiple disclaimers... he's really made it guys...
voila
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honestly i feel atp its disingenuous to act like anyone knows the lore of the game super clearly and that anyone else who tries to interpret whats going on is the most wrong person on earth like the game doesnt feel like its got 5 different people writing the story and none of them are on speaking terms
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Ok I am crying because I just had the funniest thought
Cadet!Tup: Dogma, I don’t want to play Echo and Fives anymore
Dogma: But you can be Fives!
Tup: …I’m always Fives. No. You know what? This time I’m Echo. You can be Fives.
Dogma: Noooo!!! 😩
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rushing to finish decorating a room for a guest’s wife’s birthday in 15 minutes is NOT how i expected to spend new years eve but. at least i got…. 45 dollars…..
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(insert Elmo with fire background meme but it's the Jongho version) congratulations! 🎉
EXACTLY ANON! THANK U!!!!!!
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Now i gotta know
What was your fashion advice/ statement? (That was taken)
ahhh it was my fashion analysis for two members i did a few months back
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fuck man it's so fucking frustrating how I'd probably love to clean and organize if i were ablebodied (or even just didn't have my specific conditions but still the nd traits)
I just can't be moving my head around like crazy. walking while moving my arms, reaching my arms down and immediately up, lowering my head to the ground to reach something and then standing back up, having no momentary neck support at any time, those are the worst for me. I would do any task, honestly. I just feel so fucking trash every time I do these kinds of things. standing is excruciating, moving my arms while doing it literally affects my consciousness to the point where I lose track of what I'm doing (and not in the typical adhd way).
as long as I can stay stationary, particularly partially lounging, I am capable of rational, logical thought. I can think through long term consequences, remember the basic physics of the universe, generally function like I am not an alien to this dimension.
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