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🐌🌷Use “SNAIL15” for 15% off at my shop 🐌🌷
#shop#artists on tumblr#I’m back! sorry for the sudden disappearance. I went to see a concert at austin and my beloved was over <333#have a discount as an apology for my lesbian activities
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࿐ ♡ ˚ . 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 — 𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒆 + 𝒅𝒓. 𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐. ˒ ⊹
cw fem reader / threesome / aventurine x f!reader x ratio / i wrote this directly into tumblr drafts; it is not proofread. proceed w caution EL O EL / usage of petnames (darling, sweetheart) / mentions of mindbreak / degradation and dirty talk / dacryphilia / light choking / teasing / oral (m!receiving) / spit-roast
love, oak! just a lil drabble. aven and veritas have me in a chokehold i fear.
i constantly think about how being in a relationship w both veritas ratio and aventurine would be...
i think, purposefully or not, things turn a little bit competitive with the two of them. who can take you out on the better date, who buys you the best gifts—and most importantly: who satisfies you the most.
and it’s not that they necessarily hate eachother so much they want to one-up the other (on the contrary; they like having you in common. being at your beck and call is what they live for, to your eternal surprise), they just find it fun. and it's the kind of fun they indulge in every night, making a symphony out of your sweet moans and pleasure-soaked whimpers.
this just happened to be one of those nights.
"look 't her. so depraved. our good girl, eh, ratio?"
"shut it, aventurine. i don't want to hear you talking when there's something much prettier to listen to right here."
seated on veritas's lap, he grasps your hips in his large hands as he guides you onto his thick length. a long moan falls from your lips as you feel the tip breach your dripping cunt, followed by a pleasant ache and stretch as he pulls your hips flush to his.
a warm breath ghosts the shell of your ear. aventurine crowds you from behind, the blazing heat of his chest pressing against your back. his hands ghost up your sides, leaving gooseflesh in their wake as they make their way up your body. he cups your tits, massaging the supple flesh and rolling your nipples, adding to the orchestra of stimulation the two men were making you feel.
"i suppose i can agree with you on that. she sounds just so delightful, doesn't she? makes me wanna break her—" a breathy whimper leaves you as aventurine licks up the skin of your neck, leaving a blazing trail of wetness as he kisses the shell of your ear. he continues in a soft whisper, "—yeah, you'd like that, wouldn't you?"
ratio holds your hips tightly, denying you the pleasure of grinding down against him. his smile is serpentine as he looks up at you. "go on—answer him, darling. would you like us to fuck you until you can't even remember your own name?"
ratio's golden eyes narrow, watching your every move. the way you squeeze your eyes shut, bottom lip taken between your teeth as you stifle a sob. he can't help himself—his hips buck slightly, drawing another breathy moan from your throat.
"she just clenched so nicely around me. i think she would like that. what do you think, aventurine?" ratio's voice drips with sultry honey as he speaks. his hands cup the globes of your ass, slowly coaxing you to move along his length. the feeling of his cock dragging along your walls is maddening, and you pulse around him in response as he forces you back down. his tip hits that spongy little spot inside you, bringing tears to line your pretty eyes, making your mascara run as droplets drip down your face.
aventurine pauses mouthing along your neck to smile. there's nothing pleasant in that grin though—only the feral need to please you, to take you in the palm of his hand and mold you to his liking. right now, he'd like nothing more than for you to be his pretty little cockslut, taking him and ratio until they had nothing left to give you.
"i think so too," aventurine responds. his hand grabs your face, squishing your cheeks together as he forces you to meet his gaze. there's so much love and adoration for you in those beautiful cerulean and lavender eyes, mixed with a cruel hunger that glimmers as he leans in, tongue peeking out to lick away the salty tears that run down your cheeks. "god, sweetheart. you look so pretty like this. is ratio's cock satisfying enough for you? is he making you feel good?"
you nod fervently, mouth falling open in a moan as aventurine's hand snakes down to play with your clit while ratio works you up and down his cock. they work in perfect tandem; of course, they've done this a million times before. ratio and aventurine have perfected the art of pleasing you.
"use your words, darling. am i making you feel good?" ratio hisses between gritted teeth. he's obviously feeling good too, if the way his cock twitches inside you is any indication. aventurine lets your face go in favor of letting it drift down, holding your neck gently. a promise, you think. it sends a thrilling feeling down your spine, your nerves alight with electricity as you try to roll your hips down against ratio. the hand around your neck tightens a fraction, the hand on your clit pausing, drifting away and caressing the sensitive skin of your thighs as aventurine waits for your response.
"yes, yes!" you cry out, desperate for any sort of friction. your hips buck fruitlessly. "feels s'good, veri!"
you're rewarded with aventurine's fingers deftly working at your clit again as ratio bucks his hips, fucking up into you. his pace isn't fast, but he hits you so deeply it sends your entire being into a frenzy. you can feel your stomach tighten, a telltale sign of what's to come.
"atta girl. you're taking him like a champ, aren't ya? don't forget about me, though. you can take more, surely?" aventurine drawls.
aventurine nods to ratio and suddenly you're being manhandled, forced onto your knees. you can feel ratio behind you while aventurine greets your face with a sanguine smile. you bite down the whimper that fights to escape you at the lack of stimulation—you were so close. with the way aventurine's smile is slowly poisoned with a smug satisfaction, he knows it too.
"hi, sweetheart." aventurine says as he unbuckles his belt with a clink. he pushes the fabric of his pants and boxers down, his cock obscenely slapping against his abdomen as its freed. he's already leaking pre; despite his put-together demeanor, you know he's desperate for you. you smile at him as he languidly pumps his cock.
you watch as aventurine seems to have a silent conversation with ratio. it lasts only a heartbeat—he looks back down at you as he brings his tip to your lips. your tongue darts out, running along the head, down the length of him, drawing a pretty moan from aventurine that makes your stomach do flips. as your lips close around him, you feel ratio push into you again, a lewd squelch sounding as he sinks into you.
they work you in tandem, aventurine holding your face as he guides your mouth on his cock, ratio fucking into you from behind. you're already close again. you can feel it.
"she loves this," ratio notes, a hint of smugness in his voice. "she's absolutely drooling around me. feel good, darling?"
of course, you can't respond. aventurine fucks your mouth gently, his eyebrows furrowed as he groans. you can see every twitch of his abs, the roll of his muscles as he fights down the pleasure your lips bring him.
"oh yeah. she’s definitely enjoying herself. don’t tire yourself out too fast though, i can go all night." aventurine smirks.
it feels like ratio’s thrusts grow a bit more punishing. his large hands grip the fat of your ass tightly as he says, "worry about yourself. i lasted longer than you last time, remember? not to worry though. i won’t stop until our darling is completely satisfied. isn’t that right?"
aventurine’s hips stutter slightly as you moan around his cock. "let’s see who makes her cum the most then, shall we?"
"fine then. we shall."
please don't repost on other platforms. rbs and comments are super appreciated ♡ !!
#☆ oakie writes#aventurine x reader#aventurine smut#dr ratio x reader#dr. ratio x reader#ratio x reader#dr ratio smut#dr. ratio smut#ratio smut#hsr x reader#hsr smut#honkai star rail x reader#honkai star rail smut#aventurine x reader x ratio#aventurine x reader x dr ratio#dr ratio x reader x aventurine#hey. i’m so normal and sane#wrote this entirely on a whim (apologies to my ignored wips)#posts this and disappears#oak needs water…#dividers courtesy of @/cafekitsune !!!!!!
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FINALLY FINALLY HAPPY (VERY LATE) BIRTHDAY ODILE!!!!!
#5 days of pain working on this. the things I do for you odile#isat#in stars and time#isat odile#day 98#I completely wrecked my sleep schedule making this! Woops. but She Is Real#The hubris of thinking I can animate a full body illustration when I barely touch after effects and didnt know how to use puppet pins at al#Apologies for disappearing for 5 days by the way. Yes this is the reason#Reposting cause hold on why didn't this show up on tags?? hey. I'm not letting this go unseen#In all fairness I went through a mental breakdown in those tags so I guess I'll be normal this time#Anyways don't be like me. Odile would want you to sleep well and rested. So sleep well
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I hsve an idea. Could u draw rose and ianto as besties
absOLUTELY I CAN
they’re chatting shit (lovingly) about their tall, long-coat-wearing, time-travelling, death-cheating, alien boyfriends who have spikey hair
#Jack is nursing 10s broken nose off screen from where Ianto decked him imo Ianto would not let 10s nonsense with Jack slide#jk Ianto would not punch him he would just make him instant coffee instead of The Ianto Special and then stew silently#doctor who#torchwood#torchwood fanart#rose tyler#dwmmm.ask#ianto jones#SORRY I DISAPPEARED FOR AGES EVERYONE IM BACK HELLO !!!!!!#apologies to all the people who have sent asks that are sitting in my inbox im getting to them soon!!!#also I’m working on a big cool colab which I’m v excited about >:)#this is meant to have the vibes of the school reunion scene with sarah jane and rose laughing at 10!!#Ianto would be besties with all of 10s companions actually#him and martha are already besties & him and donna would get on so well snarky secretary duo#him and rose would not only bond over stories about the 9/jack/rose tardis team but also over being estate kids !!!#him rose and martha hanging out being the only under 25s 🚶♂️#s1 Ianto is the type to still get IDed for redbull#maybe that’s why he really wears the suit so people stop thinking he’s a 16 year old#anyway I digress thank u for the ask I hope this appeases you I love this vision and also hate drawing roses hair it’s SO hard#killer side part#but I loved drawing this bc I love ianto and rose friendship#ps theye matching colours on purpose bc they’re bffs#also like ianto in the audios constantly makes friends with random side characters you can’t convince me this man isn’t extroverted at heart
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#every time this line comes across my fyp i take psychic damage so i had to draw them#oh my kids#spider noir#spiderman noir#peter benjamin parker#robbie robertson#mary jane watson#my art#marvel#every time i look at this i see more thats wrong with it so i just gotta post it LMAO#and apologies for my sudden absence#long time fool nation residents know i disappear for days and weeks at a time but to everyone else apologies apologies#classes were beating my ass then my hand was acting up#and ive got one (1) week before the fall semester starts LMFAO it doesnt end#ill respond to things soon guys i swear i swear 😭#praying when i look at this in an hour it doesnt look like ass
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"ooooh thank you! Thank you! Thank you!!!"
They'd be good friends I like to thinmk
#hoppy being very super touchy when happy or excited#catnap being touch averse with some exceptions (and preferring prior warning)#hoppy forgetting this fact and grabbing n' tugging him around when she gets excited anwyas (she'll apologize later)#they're so sillyyy#all the ways the critters get along on a one by one basis is so interesting to me I like to think about what makes them all click#im rambling again oops oops hoppy catnap friendship is also peak i take no criticism /silly#poppy playtime#poppy playtime chapter 3#smiling critters#smiling critters fanart#catnap#hoppy hopscotch#poppy playtime fanart#sorry for disappearing for half a week I got sick and then just. didn't really draw sorry about that one chat#thats pretty normal behavior for me actually dw if I ever go silent for a while that's my norm unfortunately
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An art piece from a year ago, that I haven't posted anywhere yet might be quite out of character but eehhh whatever 😎👌🔥
#trash of the count's family#lout of the count’s family#cale henituse#eric wheelsman#my apologies for disappearing#been through a lot but now im chilling😎#i have a lot of different art stuff going on#soo i hope i'll upload more art soon! :")#tcf#tcf cale
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make the orange m&m sexc !!!!!!! 😾😾
original
#NO APOLOGIES TO U FOR DYING AGAIN !!!!!!#i have two jobs and midterms/finals#i am no longer sorry ever again#i will disappear again and that’s a promise#i am sorry about the old art tho that is unforgivable ajshsjsh#my art#obm#obm fanart#omswd#obey me#obey me shall we date#obey me beelzebub#obm beel
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Lark and Des pose redrawwwww can a boygirl devil and a girlboy angel really fall in love 😔💖
#sorry for disappearing I have been working OFHDHDHDH#here’s a goofy sketch of (one set of) me and my boyfriend’s dnd OC’s as an apology#dnd oc#oc#dnd#original character#transmasc#tiefling#aasimar
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you'll never guess what i've been rewatching...
#deepest apologies that i disappear for months and then come out of nowhere with THIS#but I had to draw them at one point.... the brainrot is too strong i fear#klance#voltron legendary defender#vld#art#fanart#my art#keith kogane#lance mcclain
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Arlecchino is a patient person.
(Arlecchino x Reader Blurb)
Contrary to what people may think of her, as hotheaded her Pyro Vision may suggest that she is, Arlecchino is a patient person. She reserves patience for the right people, for those worth her time and worth her consideration to even wait for. There are few that do qualify for both of those qualifications, but it is often limited to the children of the House of the Hearth.
And you.
There are times that necessitate haste. And there are times that necessitate patience. She had known since the start of her relationship with you that she needed the latter, even when an internal part of her wanted the former. Because you are not a duty ordered for her to complete. After all, she can't hurry the bud's growth and expect a rose in full bloom. A relationship with you is both spontaneous and gradual, and it is the graduality of things that make the spontaneous that much sweeter, that much more beautiful.
You make her impatient however. You make her restless. Like her former coworker, Arlecchino knows that one day she will also be buried in ice, having died from her service to the Tsaritsa. She does not know when this day will approach, but she fears, yes, fear, that it will be soon. The Fourth Harbinger does not have many things she is afraid of. Cautious, perhaps, wary. If she were to part from Teyvat, the House of the Hearth would be in good hands, she assured that there is already a successor that will take her place. She is wary for what might come for the children, hence why she had taken precautions already.
There is no precaution for you. The day that she does not come home, she knows that her death will surely shatter you.
She knows this because your smile radiates warmth toward her, your touch is tender and innocent on her skin, and your words are whispered and soothing. A pleasurable constant in the everchanging and unpredictable world she's in.
She knows this because every night, you refuse to fall to asleep unless it is under her covers and in the safety of her arms. It matters little to you if your sleep is few or many, you wait every time for when she finishes with her work so that the two of you could sleep together.
She knows this because every time she must leave the confines of home, you kiss her throat with red lipstick to leave a mark of your presence on her. And every time she comes home, you envelop her in welcoming arms and kiss her lips, regardless if she's arrived at the doorstep bathed in blood.
She knows this because you take her hands and instead of shifting your sight away in disgust or jerking away from fear, you trace over each crease and fold of her blackened skin. When you intertwine your fingers with hers so perfectly, she wonders if this was the purpose for her hands: to hold yours.
It is for this reason that she does not want to be patient even though she needs to. Time with you is not eternal, it is an indubitable fact. But she knows patience is key, and the ring in her pocket cannot be displayed to you so thoughtlessly. You deserve so much better than that after all. When the stars align, she will surely take her chance to make you officially hers.
Arlecchino is a patient person. But you make her impatient.
#shitttt since i have the time might as well?#was thinking of making this into a little series#since i'm on spring break and have the time#maybe 1 blurb per day until the end of my break? i'm fr spoiling arlenation#then it's back to disappearing for a couple of weeks :D#school be like that sometimes 🥲#take this as an apology for “Arlecchino is a cold person.”#actually no I'm not sorry for that lmfao#anyways#arlecchino x reader#arlecchino x you
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slow down for best friend benrey
#my art#hi guys...... here's some hlvrai art as an apology for my disappearance#missed drawing these guys though#admittedly this color palette might not be my best#but it's cool i think#hlvrai#hlvrai benrey#hlvrai gordon#gordon feetman#half life vr but the ai is self aware#hlvrai art
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#♡ thirteen quotes#obey me nightbringer#do not ask why i disappeared for 3 days#my apologies thirteen nation#also i might do something for satans bday... keyword MIGHT
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hear me out — reader introducing boyfriend ! character to their family at their annual lunar new year celebration.
you’ve been seeing each other consistently for some time; it’s not yet ‘official’ but it damn near is. and one thing lunar new year celebrations are is messy.
they’re [ your family ] not explicitly rude but the implication is apparent. “are you sure? i mean, you thought you were sure about...”
having an ex–partner brought up at a time like this is without a doubt uncomfortable if not embarrassing but the character takes it well, polite and all. but later that night, after everyone’s gone to bed and two of you are squeezed onto your mattress in a room littered with your late teens to early twenties memorabilia he makes a move on you, taking it step by step and asking “did (ex’s name) make you feel like this?” etc. and all you can do is shake your head ‘no’ with your palm pressed against your lips in fear of a sound slipping past your parted lips and being heard by the other occupants of the house.
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No. 1 Party Anthem - Mikey Berzatto x F!Reader - Chapter Eight
Past!Mikey Berzatto x F!Reader
Carmy Berzatto x F!Platonic!Reader
Richie Jerimovich x F!Platonic!Reader
Summary: Forgiveness is earned, not given. And you were prepared to do whatever it takes to earn it, even if it means groveling for the rest of your life.
Warnings: All my fics are 18+ regardless of the content. Heavy spoilers. Mentions of death, grief, angst, strained relationships, arguments, details of anxiety/panic attacks, bad coping mechanisms, mental health issues, running away, addiction, al-anon.
Word Count: 4.8k
A/N: BESTIES ! ! ! i AM BACK FROM THE DEADDDDDD ! ! ! Unfortunately, i became an academic victim instead of an academic weapon this past year . Currently suffering thru a stress induced cold too LOL love that 4 me . ut the year is over n finals r done so ill be continuing this ! ! ! ! Anywaysssss only two chapters left of this series </3 breaks my heart low-key LOL I really enjoyed writing this whole thing, it was fascinating putting the emotions into this whole thing ! Quite the experience, I tell ya ! but anywayssss have a slay day !
Taglist: @marysucks-blog @shinebright2000 @jadeittic @eternallyvenus @jackierose902109 (i apologize if i missed anyone new or previous!! please let me know if you were missed/wanna be added <3)
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The tears wouldn’t stop bubbling over, leaving stains of sea salt on your cheeks that wouldn’t go away no matter how many times you rubbed it with the back of your hand. At this point, your skin was raw from your scrubbing. But no matter what you did, they just wouldn’t go away.
The Al-Anon meeting had since been adjourned and slowly but surely people were shuffling out of their seats and either to the snack table for a quick swipe of donuts and coffee or straight to the door out of there. But here you were, scrubbing away fat tears that continued to roll down your cheeks, staring straight at the back of the head of a person you didn’t really know if you wanted to face at that moment.
A particularly watery group of tears clouded your vision, making you wince and snap your eyes shut before bringing both your hands up to viciously scrub them away, taking your vision from the head whom you were trained on. As you scrubbed, feeling your eyes burn and vision turn into a kaleidoscope of colors, you failed to notice the sound of someone getting up and rapidly approaching you until it was too late.
A strong hand gripped your forearm and jerked you up from your seat, making you yelp and snap your eyes open again. They stung from the sudden sunlight invading your vision, but you blinked it away, instead focusing on the person with a calloused grip dragging you out of the room with a rush that made those still sticking around gasp and glance in your direction.
You barely managed to hold yourself and your stuff together when you realized you were out the door of the room and back into the empty hallway. Carmy dropped his grip with an expression on his face that you couldn’t read at all.
“Carmy-“ you began.
“Stop, stop, stop. Don’t start…. Not now….”
Carmy sighed and ran a hand through his hair, looking off and away from you. His shoulders started to sag, making him look so uncharacteristically… scared in front of you.
He glanced back at you, watching your mouth open and close like a fish out of water as you kept trying to stop yourself from launching into some sort of explanation or apology. He continued to watch as you leaned against the wall, your body folding it on itself as your knees got weaker and weaker. All you did was stare at him with wide, watery eyes, trying so hard not to say anything.
After some silence, Carmy looked away and spoke up, “You came.”
You swallowed the knot on your throat before nodding hesitantly.
He turned to look at you, blue eyes rimmed red.
“Why.”
You opened your mouth, ready to launch into what you wanted to say, but Carmy threw his hand up to signal you to stop. With one hand on his hip, he looked at the floor and sighed again.
“Why now? Is this an attempt for you to... to make it all better? Just like that? Listen, that might’ve worked on my brother but definitely not me.”
“No, I-“
“If you think of this as your form of retribution for everything, forget it. I don’t need your begging for forgiveness or your pity. I can’t… I can't just get over this, okay?”
“Carmy, I get that but-”
“But what? There are no amount of apologies or declarations of love for my brother in front of a group of strangers that will… that will change how i feel about this-”
“Carmy!”
He snapped his mouth shut.
With shaky legs, you stood up before him and made direct eye contact.
“I’m sorry.”
His adam's apple bobbed as he stared at you.
You took in a shaky breath, “I’m not asking for anything, okay? I just… I want to say sorry. For stressing you out. For worrying everyone. For…. for leaving. I’m sorry.”
Then, Carmy did something you haven’t seen him do in a long, long time.
He cried.
Tears spilled over his red rimmed baby blues, falling slowly, then faster and faster and faster.
With a choked breath, Carmy whispered out, “I needed you.”
“I needed you and you… you weren’t here. You ran. And I ran too.”
He shifted uncomfortably and looked away, but still whispered out his confession.
“I was so… so fucking scared. I didn’t know what to do. But I knew that I needed you here. But you got scared too. So you ran. I…”
And with that, you began to sob.
You leaned against the wall, sobbing into your hands. You could barely hear his words over the echo of your cries, but you didn’t care. And you didn’t care when people came slowly out of the meeting room, casting glances in your direction before walking away to exit the building.
“I’m sorry. I… i’m taking it out on you. But you aren’t my brother. You're you. And I needed you in the same way you needed me. But…neither of us were here for each other like we promised.”
One thing you and Carmy always did during an infamous Berzatto family dinner was sneak out of the house and into the front yard, leaning against the garage door to share a cigarette.
Whether it was Donna’s yelling that drove Carmy out or Mikey’s constant erratic personality that got you feeling overwhelmed, you both somehow managed to take a second to go outside and catch a breath at the same time.
So it became tradition to sneak out for 10 minutes before someone came looking for one or the other, to silently smoke and have a brief moment of peace.
Most of the time you were alone together, other times Natalie joined the two of you, usually just closing her eyes and leaning against the wall besides you, silent.
By the 32nd informal Berzatto Family Sneak Out, as you two dubbed it, Carmy was opening up to you. He would tell you about how life has been treating him, his struggles, and general day to day things he enjoyed. You would do the same, providing him with his own mental escape just as he did for you.
Some days he would chatter on and on in a way you didn’t normally see him do. Other days it was silence. But regardless,you enjoyed his company regardless, as he did yours.
One Christmas, the two of you were shivering in the cold but still out there in scarves and sweaters regardless.
“Shit,” you murmured and threw the cigarette down to stomp on it, foot sliding across the icy pavement.
You wobbled a bit, making Carmy snicker as you shot him a look.
“Hey uh, i got you a really cool present this year.”
You glanced at him, rubbing your hands together, “Oh yea? Owning up for last year’s mistake?”
Carmy rolled his eyes, “I swear i didn’t know you owned that sweater.”
You laughed, “I wore it during Thanksgiving!! It was right in front of you and you didn’t even notice!”
Carmy rolled his eyes and chuckled, rubbing the dark circles under them.
“Yea whatever, give me shit. But i promise this one will blow you away. I put a lot of thought into it, especially because it’s been a while since i’ve been down here…”
You hummed, looking off into the soft piles of snow glittering under the string lights, some red, others blue.
“I missed you, you know…”
Carmy sighed, throwing his cigarette down and stomping on it.
“I did too.”
You looked up at Carmy, smiling but no longer feeling your lips. He smiled back at you.
“Promise me that we'll always have these little sneak outs, yea? It keeps me from going insane on your brother,” you said with a snort.
He just chuckled, “Of course… I'll always be there for you if you’ll always be there for me… yea?”
He extended his hand out. You slapped your hand into his, shaking it with a playful grin.
“Agreed.”
Someone calls your name from inside. Mikey’s booming voice echos from the house, loud and clear like a siren call within a turbulent sea. You whip your head to the front door and giggle, “Better get going, come on Berzatto. Maybe i’ll let you have my leftover christmas cookies if you sneak me an extra piece of that tiramisu you brought.”
With that, the two of walked back into the home for the rest of the night.
You can feel his hands gently grip your shoulders, helping you up from leaning against the cold wall into his arms. His muscular arms wrapping around you, the familiar scent of spices and sweat invading your nose; a scent so remarkably Carmy.
“I’m sorry… I just really needed you… I needed you and i.. didn’t know how to ask…” He whispered into your neck, muffled.
You sobbed, staining his shirt with tears but neither of you cared as you stood there, in the empty hallway as the setting sun streamed in through stray rays.
By the time you separated from the hug, the hallway was a twilight blue. His rough hands reached up to your eyes, thumbing them away with a gentleness that made you want to cry again.
“I missed you.” you managed to say, after a long period of silence.
“I missed you too…” he murmured, eyes droopy.
It was quiet and it felt… good. It felt good to stand there, staring at the lines on one another's' faces that showed the age and the years that you missed while apart. The stories they told you of each other, of how you drifted apart. But now they showed a different story.
It felt good to be back.
“Hey uh, i have to get back… we have a, uh, bachelor’s party today…”
This made you snort, making Carmy crack a side smile.
“A bachelor’s? At The Beef? Are you that broke?”
This made him chuckle softly, “Uh, yea…”
You shook your head with a small smile, “Well, I guess you better get going then. Everyone’s waiting on you, chef.”
Carmy looked to the floor, stepping away from you as he continued to smile, “Yes chef.”
You watched through as Carmy waved to you and your parents from the backseat of their car, your arms wrapped around yourself tightly. Your mom waved enthusiastically as your dad backed out, tires scratching on the gravel underneath you.
He got smaller and smaller as you all pulled away, making your way back home with a car full of hope.
It was 6 in the morning when you got the call from Carmy.
You drove a little above the speed limit as you chewed on your bottom lip, eyes sweeping across the streets as your car lurched forward ahead of everyone else. The streets were slick from a light morning fog, rolling in with the cooler weather of fall and winter. But your skin was too hot to even realize how cold it was outside as you ran across the street from where you parked to The Beef.
You threw the back door open, causing multiple people to throw their heads around to look at you. Ebraheim nodded in your direction and Tina smiled warmly. She glanced behind her before turning back to you, beckoning you in from your stiff stance in the doorway.
You thanked her softly as you walked in, the chill from the air behind you making you shiver in your light sweatshirt and thin pants.
You found Marcus in his corner, organizing diligently as Carmy walked away from his station and to Ebraheim’s, where he held up and complained about a sparkly black bra. You giggled as you watched them, getting Carmy’s attention.
He walked swiftly around the kitchen, signaling you to follow with a nod of his head.
The two of you moved to stand in the door way leading to the front of the restaurant, watching Richie and Tina laugh before they turned, grabbing cleaning supplies. But when Richie turned and saw you, he briefly froze.
“Richie…” you said softly, crossing your arms across your chest with an arched brow. Carmy clued you in during the call, which is why you rushed here as soon as possible, worried sick about Richie.
“Hey uh…” he mumbled, sheepishly looking away from you as he scratched the back of his neck and avoided your gaze.
“Really? Jail?” you huffed.
“Come on, it was hardly even jail. I spent a night in holding, that’s it. Besides, i’ve done my penance… i’m a changed man. ” Richie said with a roll of his eyes and a choked laugh.
You rolled your eyes, only to tense up when he asked his next question, “Why are you here?”
It wasn’t meant to be accusatory, just curious considering how the last conversation had ended here. But here you were, beside Carmy who didn’t seem very upset next to you.
You looked away, clearing your throat softly, “Can we… can we talk in private about that…”
Richie visibly softened and glanced at Carmy before turning back to you, “Listen, you don't have to worry about-”
“No no no, just listen to me first, okay? Please… cousin?”
This made Richie perk up and clear his throat, “Yea yea, come uh, come out back with me then..”
The two of you made your way to the backdoor, Carmy’s eyes trained on your backs right up until the door clicked shut behind you.
“Listen Richie, I'm… I'm sorry. For… for everything. It’s…” you began, your throat drying up pretty soon after.
Richie sighed, pacing away from you for a second as you struggled to swallow the lump in your throat.
“Can i… say something…?”
You looked at him, his back turned to you. But you heard him and the slight quiver in his throat loud and clear.
“I… it’s a secret so you have to promise not to tell anyone.” He said, laughing softly.
He slowly turned to you, showing the guilt and remorse all over his face that cleared that little moment of laughter right up.
You nodded slowly, stepping forward toward him, “Yea, yea, of course….”
He hesitated, glancing up at you and analyzing every part of you for some form of dishonestly… but he found none. He only found the same eyes looking back at him, with trust glittering in them, like all those years ago.
“Okay…” he began with a shaky breath, “I…”
You leaned forward some more, nodding softly.
“I… I never once regretted loving Tiff.”
Your eyes widened.
“She… was everything to me. I don’t regret loving her… even now…”
You could feel your heart racing in your ears. The way his eyes watered slightly as his hands shook at his side made your own eyes water. But his words, his words shook you up more than anything.
“I fucked up alot with her… you know that… and… and i don’t regret it either…”
Your bottom lip quivered.
“I don’t think you should regret anything you did out of love for Mikey either… okay?”
You could only whimper, reaching forward to wrap your arms around him. He wound his arms around your own body, squeezing tightly as he did so, squishing you against him but neither of you cared.
“So don’t apologize to me, okay? I know why you ran, and I don't blame you for it either.”
“....Thank you Richie… you're the greatest friend Mikey and I could ever have…”
Richie smiled softly, pressing a kiss to your hairline, “Of course, Mikey might… Mikey might not be here but I am. I’m here for you…”
“Thank you…” you tried desperately to hold back the tears.
The two of you held each other there, in the cool morning air until Richie cleared his throat and murmured, “So you and Carmy are good now? Or what the hell?”
You laughed, voice watery.
“Listen, i thought you two would fight each other out here, honestly. Wrestle like you would as kids over the last goddamn pudding cup but uh, i guess not huh.”
“No…no. We uh, talked yesterday and it… it ended pretty good i think.”
You stepped back with a sigh, brushing away a couple pesky tears, “You know Carmy, he’s not easy to forgive so I don't expect that talk to fix everything but i… I'm glad I finally grabbed the hand that was reaching out…”
Richie shook his head, “I don’t get how you two always were so buddy-buddy, you’re like exact opposites.”
You shrugged, “You don’t know Carmy like I did… like I do. We are a lot more similar than you might think.”
With that Richie chuckled and clapped his hands together, “Alright, no more slacking, we got a shit ton of prep today.”
The two of you wiped your tears away with small chuckles as you stared at one another’s puffy eyes and flushed faces, trying your best to not look like wrecks as you walked back inside with small smiles.
The day went off without a hitch, until… the fire.
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