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the question is who taught lucanis to knit. was it something he already knew how to do or is he picking it up over the course of the game as part of his 'if I manage to cram enough hobbies in there I won't have to sleep again ever. easy' experiment. did he learn it out of a book (as a sometime knitter, a horrifying thought but I wouldn't put it past him). as hilarious as I find the mental image of caterina with knitting needles I do not believe in it, did he pick it up from someone in the household staff growing up the same way he did cooking. is the sweater he wears with his introductory armour his own work (very funny if so it's just so. incredibly neutral toned and sensible.) I understand why he never does it on screen because animating knitting is the devil's own work and bioware were right to dodge right past it no one should wish themselves that kind of pain, but do you think off-screen he's using it the same way davrin does whittling during team meetings and book club nights (for real the grandmas were so right for this: knitting during social group situations is a neurodivergent life hack like you wouldn't believe if doodling isn't your thing/isn't doing it for you). it's that or sharpening his knives and some people seem to get a bit nervous about that so he mostly sticks to the knit one purl one of it all. does he make things for the team. for romanced rook perhaps. boring but useful things like socks and scarves, to be clear. I think mr. 'I made you a cake (cautiously marital intent)' would not mean to impress just make sure your feet weren't cold jogging around the heights of athim killing darkspawn. knitting more socks for harding so she won't get cold walking around everywhere in her fereldan *checks notes written on palm* clogs. some of taash' outfits... you think rook and lucanis are letting them walk around the anderfels like that without at least a token sensible scarf on even tho adaari are built different in terms of body temperature. I say no not in my lighthouse they would team up and mother hen them to shathann levels before they'd let that happen. (the scarf has dragons on it taash thinks it's kind of cool actually.) a bobble hat for manfred not because he really needs it but because he wanted to feel included. assan indignantly tries to steal it and fly away with it so he gets his own scarf to promote peace between the lighthouse little guys and it works. help.
#lucanis sitting there with his scariest coldest most focused eyes and people going 'hey are you... are you alright there?'#and him looking up like 'hm?đ„șđ§¶oh yes I'm just counting'. it's canon in my heart.#he's just like me frfr in a variety of ways that are really funny fhdskja. I paused on knitting a sock to write this out#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#he overtakes my neurons in such a unique way from time to time I don't even write these things The Truth is just channeled through me#*head in my hands* I love all these characters so much. especially him but all of them. imagining what each of them might like to get#like would bellara want something for an experiment and not so much to wear. do the wisps playfully unfurl anything neve leaves around#for inscrutable reasons of their own. does lucanis make a sweater with something rude on it for davrin. like 'asshole' in antivan#'it's our word for 'warden' :)' 'uh-huh' (davrin still wears it all the time as a pure powermove to be clear)#(im crying 'cover them up warden we're going to lavendel. also happy birthday or whatever' as he tosses the sweater#directly into davrin's cleavage)#I spent most of this day quite unhappy. and then i thought about this for a while and now I feel a lot better#maybe there is joy for me in the world after all. I'll leave the possibility open another day
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new oc/sona yaaaaaay!
oh how i wish i had all those piercings (bridge come back to međ)
can we guess where his name came from gang (suspiciously username shaped name)
i actually really enjoy his character design and i literally color picked his color pallet from a diagram(?) that shows how a bruise heals and it worked out LMAOO sooo new character design life hack
more info and lots of general yapping about him after the break if you care to read :3 and i yap a LOT i have lots to say about him bc its been a while since i genuinely developed an oc LMAO
cw for LOTS and LOTS of talk of death if you do decide to read! just in case :3
first of all you may be thinking â5â6? short king!â and i will have you know i actually made him taller than i am irl by a few inches LMAOOO whoops t boy swag will do that to ya
anyways the thing about his color pallet being based off of that of a literal bruise IS actually relevant because he is literally immortal and is CONSTANTLY getting injured like all the time. i think conveying info about characters via their color pallets is fun and i wanna do more of it so hehe. plus green and red and purple are a nice combo and it worked out very well :3 also another little note about his design: heâs a very creative and artistic person and i wanted to show that through his clothes being somehow modified and i think i did that well too. trying to properly get back into making actually decent and thoughtful character designs so im proud of myself :3
that being said his immortality causes him a SHIT load of problems. i feel like being immortal would really suck LMAO but more-so i feel like i dont see people do much with the idea of immortality in terms of horror or at least not from what iâve seen. like im still figuring out his lore but the basics are: he has no clue who his dad is and found out he was immortal at a somewhat young age but literally his entire life heâs been viewed as just kind of off?? like he looks human and for the most part acts it but he just has certain traits that humansâŠ. do not have. his eyes glow in pics like a nocturnal animalâs would and his teeth are suspiciously sharp and he gets weird cravings for raw meat which he can somehow digest perfectly fine with absolutely no issue but heâs not like OVERTLY some otherworldly creature heâs just a little weird. a tad strange even. possibly even kind of unsettling depending on who you ask.
and i like to imagine these are a lot of things that were present in his childhood too, like his mother would wake up to the sound of rummaging in the kitchen and find him at the ripe old age of five just gnawing at a whole raw steak in the dark. heâs just sort of always been like that and didnât realize it was weird until he was older. (is a lot of this used as metaphors for undiagnosed neurodiversity/mental illness? âŠ..iii dont knowwww :3 (yes) (although not every aspect of him is a total reflection of myself, he is still his own character in many respects lolol))
but in general this ends up causing him all sorts of issues in all sorts of millions of ways. for one he has sort of a fragile sense of self because he doesnât even know what he is?? he knows he canât just be a regular old human because of all the previously mentioned reasons and a few more, but that aside he has no idea what he is. he also doesnât know pretty much anything about how his immortality works beyond what heâs experienced and what the others have told him during the times when heâs âdead,â he has no idea how his aging is affected by it because he seems to be aging relatively normally so far, he has no clue if he will EVER die for good/if thereâs any way to kill him, he has no idea how his body seems to heal the most insane fatal injuries as if nothing happened, and much more quickly than a normal human would, he kinda doesnât know jack shit about himself and it pisses him off a little bit!
it also has just caused him lots of trauma as you can probably imagine. lots of dissociation everywhere he looks
moving on to how his immortality actually works: like i said thereâs only so much he knows about it but this is all the info he knows so far. he CAN âdieâ but all of his deaths are temporary. that is to say that his body will eventually heal and regenerate itself and he will come back. itâs not like deadpool where he can get stabbed in the head and go about the rest of his day like nothing happened, he might be able to keep himself up for a while to fight back or run away but it wont be long before he drops dead for a few days or so. during said time his body outwardly does seem very dead. heâs unresponsive and still and isnât blinking or nothing and his pupils are blown (which he already has huge pupils but yk), like if you were to just show him to someone theyâd be like âyeah thatâs absolutely a corpse and also why would you show this to me.â but his body is still alive in a sense, itâs just sort of⊠yknow when you put a computer into sleep mode?? upon first glance itâs gonna look like itâs off but inwardly things are still going on. his body is still working to regenerate itself the whole time, even if whatever he sustained that âkilledâ him would very much not be healable or survivable by any normal person. in his POV, he just sort of gets knocked out for a while and then wakes up exhausted and sore and absolutely FAMISHED. like he could easily eat a horse without any exaggeration the boy can eat.
heâs also always been interested in horror and the supernatural and crime and shit and is largely desensitized to that sort of stuff from that + experiencing a lot of different deaths himself bc of the whole immortality thing paired with him being generally reckless when he was younger because whatâs it gonna do? kill him? (âwhatâre you gonna do, jeff the kill me?â -him at jeff moments before being stabbed, probably) he says he doesnât care but it actually effects him deeply in ways he doesnât understand for a while. as he gets older he becomes less reckless and doesnât throw himself into dangerous situations as often.
all that being said heâs not necessarily all that dangerous himself?? he carries his dagger around with him for protection or cutting up meat and apples or woodcarving more than anything and as a proxy he works a lot more as just an⊠observer. despite his name heâs not really all for the killing people stuff if he can help it unlike many of the others, if anything his name more so refers to the fact that HEâS usually the one getting slashed up. (itâs actually just bc of my username but shhhhhh) but generally he much prefers to be in the background keeping watch or scoping things out or just sort of⊠stalking people basically. dont ask me how he manages to be stealthy in THAT outfit⊠he manages somehow i swear đ
but yknow overall heâs not an incredible threat to most people, the âcreepyâ part of him being a creepypasta comes a lot more just from how much it would suck to be in his shoes as just a guy who happens to be immortal but still able to experience the pain of death over and over again. he isnât the creepy thing as much as his entire life experience is LOL. usually heâs just unsettling and disturbing at most.
he also has a VERY complex relationship with BEN in my AU specifically (WHICH RANDOM DISCLAIMER TIME: NOT THE LITTLE 12 YEAR OLD VERSION NOOOOO EW my auâs BEN is like a combo of âfanonâ him and behavioral event network he is not 12 years old and i dont want him being shipped with anything NEAR that version of him, ONLY my AUâs version who is 19. im not a freak. đ theyâre not a couple anyway (BENđ€slasher -> being aro) but i did wanna preface that just in case bc im not trying to get misinterpreted like that) might write more about that sometime⊠bc their relationship has a lot of symbolism and complexity bc BEN is my fav character ever period and yes i am gonna write him and my self insert oc as being incredibly deeply intertwined bc i love him and cringe culture can kick rocks and therapy is difficult to get :3 oc x canon shippers platonic or romantic yall will always be safe on my blog frfr
im gonna post more about BEN soon tooâŠ. literally working on actually making a proper design for him rn which is mostly just difficult bc i cannot for the life of me think of what to give this freak to wear. i need them to serve cunt but likeâŠ.. how do i do that đđ that one BEN design i reblogged that gave him the adorable little heelsâŠ.. absolutely geniusâŠâŠâŠ. u know who u are :3
more random rapid fire fun facts about him bc why not: he loves piercings and tattoos and body mods bc they heal so easily for him, he has his tongue split! (NEEEED to do one day actually my dream body mod), his immortality doesnât seem to effect his ability to get sick which he HATES but when he does get sick it only lasts for a day or so and heâs a total drama queen the whole time, he loves to sew (though only by hand, heâs genuinely afraid of sewing machines) and will patch up or modify clothes for his friends or other proxies if they ask, his favorite kind of raw meat is boar, and his favorite cooked meat is a tie between pork (boar or domestic pig) and chicken, he wears his headphones most of the time bc he loves music and sounds can sometimes overstimulate him, and BEN can talk to him through them because of course he can, he loves animals and actually has way more empathy for them than for humans, and he absolutely LOVES medical dramas and does not care that a lot of the actual medical parts are inaccurate he will eat them up. he WILL be caught staying up until 6am watching chicago med and he will not apologize.
ANYWAY i think thatâs about it actually. if anyone actually read all my ramblingsâŠ. i love u /p u mean very much to me /p
i WILL be yapping more soon (except probably about the actual âcanonâ pastas hehe) :3
#creepypasta oc#creepypasta oc art#art#digital art#small artist#artists on tumblr#my artwork#creepypasta#creepypasta fandom#my sona#artist sona#sona art#self sona#sona redesign#i yap too much#like way way way too much#ITS MY BLOG I CAN DO WHAT I WANT i scream as they drag me into the padded cell#seriously tho if u read everything⊠thank you LOL#i donât expect anyone to i just love to ramble#i have lots and lots of thoughts in my brain#speaking of i would LOVE to make a creepypasta comic someday like seriously#i justâŠ. need to do a lot of writing#and drawing#but hopefully i will one day#:3
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90 Day Baby Daddy - Adam - HH
Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Author's Note: Plot lost itself a little but it'll be explained in the next chapters! I have no idea how long this will be so hopefully we'll find out together
CW: Adam cursing in front of babies, mentions of stalking (but not really emphasized)
Enjoy!
Arrem looks worriedly over at her friend typing furiously at her laptop.
âHey man, Iâm just sayingâŠmaybe get a student loan? Instead of like selling feet pics to save up for some semesters for college seems a little much, right?â
âI really donât want to be in even more debt to be honest with you and I am NOT selling feet pics! I was just writing someoneâs essay for a couple of bucksâ Y/n made a face before picking up her coffee. âAt least we can mooch off of some wifi around hereâ
Arrem nodded and toasted her cup before taking a sip. Her eyes occasionally flitting back and forth to her book and to Y/n.
âOkay what is up, youâve been staring at me looking like you wanna explode or somethingâ Y/n took another sip of her coffee and placed it down on the coaster.
âI still canât believe thatâŠâ Arrem leaned closer, whispering, âI still canât believe Adam is the guy that knocked you upâŠwhy didnât you tell us?? We couldâve sued the pants off of the guy for unpaid child supportâ
Y/n snorted, shaking her head. Arrem was always the practical one, even when her suggestions tend to be a little psychotic and the only one who knows her kidâs actual father.
She looked at her friend, dressed simply with her boots and long sleeves. Sheâs sometimes jealous that Arrem and the rest of the guys managed to finish their studies with relatively no problem.
Pen and Arrem took the same degree and are studying for their work licenses, working in the diner for the mean time to have some extra cash in the bank.
Fish finished his teaching degree a year before them, gave up teaching after seeing how fucking dumb the students of today are, thus crushing his hope for the younger generation and sunk his savings in a diner thatâs surprisingly doing well to support him and his mom.
Which was sweet.
Itâs a little difficult to not feel inadequate when youâre stuck someplace you canât seem to get out of. She did try to finish college, hell she only had a couple of classes left to but being heavily pregnant and having to walk everywhere just to get to class just got too difficult. The judgemental stares didn't help either.
She had to drop out and take care of her baby.
Itâs not all bad, sheâs grateful for the kid and couldnât imagine not having her after seeing her after birth. She just wishes she got pregnant on her own terms. Hell after graduating would've been nice.
Y/n frowned, she still couldnât remember how she got into Adamâs bed in the first place and itâs really bothering her when she has some time for herself to think.
âIâm serious!â
Y/n snapped out of her thoughts, âHm?â
Arrem sighs, taking a bite of her hashbrown viciously. Girl loves her potatoes. âI mean if it werenât for himââ
âI know but itâs no use dwelling in the past...besides you love the little bean, right?â Y/N grinned.
Her friend crossed her arms and looked away, âYeah, I doâŠsheâs got spunk but whatâll you say when she grows up? Toddlers are smart sometimes you knowâ
âIâll get to that bridge when I get there right now, Iâm enjoying the baby rideâ
Arrem uncrossed her arms and turns to look at her, âIâm still sorryâŠI feel partly responsible for what happened, I shouldnât have given you all that alcohol and I shouldâve kept an eye on youâ
Y/n looks at Arrem in surprise. Arrem looks so mad at herself. Has she been holding on to this guilt the whole time?
âHey, donât feel responsible, Iâm pretty sure I went and wandered off on my own anyway, it just so happens to be Adam I got withâ
Her knowing Adam being the father of her child was no baseless accusation.
She knew it was Adam that she got with because she remembered waking up sore but utterly satisfied and his huge autograph written on her stomach along with his âphone numberâ âŠin permanent ink.
It took her 3 days to completely scrub all the ink off, (After having Arrem take a picture of course, the picture is tucked away in her little journal along with the rest of the merch she has of Adamâs band. She hates how obsessed she was before the incident)
âShit man, donât look nowâ Arrem mumbled against the lid of her coffee cup.
âHuh?â Y/n discreetly looks at the door, the bell jingling indicating a new customer.
Murmurs start to echo in the small coffee shop and not the usual kind of white noise either. Itâs moreâŠexcited, quick, hushed whispers and the snapping of phone cameras.
âYoâŠhook me up with a venti flat white, would ya? Yaâll got supersize?â
Y/n internally groaned at hearing that annoying accent. That fucking drawl she thought was charming at one point. Adam has this way of speaking that you canât really tell where heâs from, like a mix of speech patterns you canât pinpoint. Y/n just chalked it up to travelling around so much.
The barista flinched at the order before nervously looking at the large man. With that boyish attitude on interviews, Adam still looks intimidating with his studs and spikes with golden eyes lined with what looks like dark smudged charcoal.
Okay she needs to stop.
âUh sir...thatâs more than enough espresso to give a normal man heart palpitationsâŠare you sure?â
Adam looks at the barista like heâs stupid. âThen serve it to me in those little cups then?â
The barista opened his mouth before shutting it closed, nodding his head in defeat, âYes sir thatâll be $149.99 pleaseâ
Y/n choked on her iced coffee at hearing the price, gaping as Adam easily pulled out a black card and swiping it at the machine. âJesus man, I didnât even know this place have thoseâ
Arrem shrugged, tapping on her phone, âHe says heâs a struggling artist but you never know with types like himâ
âHelloooo ladiesâ
The two women let out annoyed sighs, one rolling her eyes before looking up at Adam.
âAdamâ Arrem nodded, lifting her cup at him, âBig fanâ
Adam gave her a finger gun before looking over at Y/n expectantly.
Y/n looks at Adam with a raised brow, judging him from head to toe. âNot so big fanâ She smiled at him almost sickly sweet.
Adam huffs, taking a sip of his heart stopping coffee. âRight soooâŠâ He looks at her awkwardly trying to keep his cool.
It doesnât help that a bunch of nosy fucks are filming him right now. His PR manager is so gonna fry his ass later.
âOh! RightâŠhere!â he shoved his hand down his tight leather pants, pulling out a cloth headband, pink and wrinkled with what looks like a fake rhinestone in the middle of it. âYour brat dropped this!â Adam grinned, handing it over to Y/n. He looked almost proud of himself for keeping it safe till now.
Y/n blinked at Adam before looking down at the thing suspiciously, it looked tooâŠexpensive to be her babyâs. Before she could protest that itâs impossible to be Addieâs, Arrem nudged her foot with hers.
âDude...â
Y/n looked at her friend before finally noticing the cafĂ©âs patrons trying to discreetly tune in to their conversation.
She bit her lip as Adamâs grin widened almost wickedly at seeing her resolve crumble and taking the hairband from his hand.
âRightâŠthank you SO much Adam, my babyâs been missing thisâŠthing for a few daysâ Y/n turned the clip around inspecting it. It was shockingly girly, looking at it now she does remember panic buying a ton of baby girl stuff before Addie was born. Maybe she forgot about this particular hairband?
All in all, it doesnât look too suspicious. Just a normal run of the mill hair clip.
Once Y/n took the ribbon and tied it to her bag, Adam smirked before turning away to sit at the corner booth at the back, the rest of his bandmates coming into the shop to sit at his table.
âNever noticed Addie wears ribbons like thisâ Arrem nodded at the hairband.
Y/n doesnât want to make a scene and shrugged, not knowing what to say.
This was the first time she ever saw this hair clip too.
Y/n couldnât seem to escape Adam lately. From the sleepy part of the city she knew and love turned into the #1 spot for tours, making her daily life seem a little moreâŠad conscious. Billboards of Adamâs face promoting his new album or a new music video that theyâre going to shoot somewhere nearby or other bands opening for Adam playing non stop in TVs in the grocery stores.
Adam had snuck into her life again, remembering her name this time and even giving out his real number. Which she hasn't tried to call.
It wasnât so bad, the vibes suddenly started becoming energetic with tourists coming in with all the popup events coming in.
Adam would travel around and would always come back after some months to âcatch a breakâ here before going off again.
Maybe sheâs feeling a little too full of herself into thinking that a famous rockstar is following her around but it was a little strange.
Sometimes she feels like someone is watching but when she looks around, no one is there. Or it's some rando not even paying attention to her.
But then who else would leave new baby stuff at her doorstep? Definitely not some good Samaritan. Her friends were pretty stumped too when she called to thank them for the gifts.
It was too much to think about and just let it happen.
âDamn how expensive are the frozen vegetables nowâŠ?â She mumbled, placing the generic store brand packet in the cart. The grocery was thankfully quiet, the early morning giving her some semblance of peace with the old folks doing their shopping and the sleepy night shifters minding their own business.
Addie gurgled, babbling and taking a bite of her teething ring as she tries to reach for a rubber duck hanging from the shelf.
A large hand plucked the toy from the shelf and handed it to the baby, making Addie squeal happily.
âIâve never heard you laugh at vegetables before babyâŠthatâs newâŠâ Y/nâs voice trailed off seeing Adam, smiling at her kid and making a rubber duck squeak in his fist.
âAre you serious??â
Adamâs eyes flickered up at her and grinned, âHey angeltits, looking gorgeous as usualâ
âMan your crush on me is really obviousâŠyour groupies must be so sick of seeing me with youâ
Adam recoiled from her, handing the duck over to Addie. âBitch youâre lucky to be in my presenceâ
Y/n snorts, putting a can of sauce into her basket, âAnd yet youâre somehow around us whenever youâre âon breakâ â
Adam made a face and kept quiet, he doesnât have a good comeback he has to admit so he turned to Addie, âMommyâs being a cunt huh princesss? Yes she iissssâ
Y/nâs eyebrow twitched and pushed Adamâs face away from her laughing kid, âCan you not curse around my baby??â
He only rolled his eyes before looking down at the sorry excuse of groceries in the cart. Something in his gut recoiled.
          | What do you mean?? She canât be mine!
âYour choices suck ass Y/nâ Adam frowned, taking the cart and started shoving actual food into the cart.
| Well...why wouldnât she tell me then?
âH-hey! Itâs not my fault this place has limited stuff-Adam!â Y/n cringed as he grabbed stuff left and right not even checking for the price or sales or even if it was qualified for a coupon before dropping them into the cart.
He even grabbed some of those yogurt bites for Addie.
âAdamâ Y/n grabbed his arm, before he could grab a bag of fruit. âListenâŠI appreciate the stuff and the concert ticketsââ
âWhich you didnât go to and how did you even know it was me sending you those packages?â He pointed out.
She rolled her eyes, âMaybe next time, change your name on the Amazon packages before sending it to my houseâ Y/n sighs, rubbing her face tiredly. Adam, I canât afford this stuffâŠif you think I can youâre sorely mistakenâ
Raising a brow, Adam placed the bag of fruit in to the filled cart and started wheeling it to the check out, âAnd what makes you think Iâm letting you pay?â
The cashier started to swipe the stuff in one by one, the prices going up and up.
âAdamââ
âWe need to talk Y/nâ
Y/n frowned, looking at the man staring nonchalantly at the numbers on the screen before tapping his card easily to pay for everything.
There wasnât a hint of joking around on his face which was unusual for the normally unserious musician.
Adam took Addie from the cart and carried her, escorting Y/n to the parking lot and letting the cart jockeys help with loading the groceries into the back of his truck.
Y/n wet her lips, already having an idea on what the talk would be with the way Adam was looking at Addie and the way heâs so familiar with holding herâŠ
Shit.
I may have rushed it a little lol
Tags: @sniigura
#hazbin hotel adam#hazbin hotel adam x reader#90 Day BBD#adam hazbin x reader#xreader#hazbin hotel imagine#hazbin hotel x you
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Penelope the Spartan
Iâve been seeing folks in the EPIC fandom bringing up Penelope being Spartan for a variety of reasons, from fighting the suitors to having a more muscular character design to the Warrior AU to thinking Odysseusâs massacre was hot. In particular, her strength of character is often attributed to her upbringing there. So I thought Iâd leave behind a little history lesson for yâall!
When reading through mythological sources, you might notice a distinct lack of mention paid to Spartaâs warrior reputation. This is because that culture arose at a specific time due to a specific reign; more specifically, that of King Lycurgus during the 9th or 8th century BCE. That's at least about 400 years after the Odyssey would have occurred and the age of heroes ended. It was his administration that introduced such a martial emphasis to the state. His legendary rule (literally legendary, we donât know if this guy actually existed and most of the reforms can be dated to a good bit later than he's said to have reigned) transformed the polis into the shape it was by the Classical period, when it began its legendary contention with Athens.
Penelope is also associated in the Epic fandom with Ares because of his connection with Sparta. He appears as her divine guide in the Warrior Penelope AU, and many of the jokes or speculation of him aiding Odysseus's massacre of the suitors include a mention of the princess of his favorite city. But it's interesting to note that he, traditionally held as the patron deity of Sparta, didn't appear to have a strong presence in the city even after its warlike reformation. Among the buildings on their acropolis is a temple to Athena, but nothing to Ares. They primarily venerated Apollo, Athena, and Artemis, and in Homer's day probably had an important cult to Hera as she mentions it as one of her favorite cities. The idea that Ares was their patron seems to have arisen simply from Ares and Athena's mythical rivalry being projected onto the fighting between Sparta and Athens, and from the chained statue of him that Pausanias writes about in the 2nd century AD.
During the Heroic Age, which is the period in which the tales of Greek heroes take place and the Odyssey happens at the very end of, Sparta was a very different city from the one we know. Myths do not depict it as uniquely warlike, nor does it practice its famous comparative gender equality. So Penelope would have been a fairly ordinary princess in terms of her origins. All her fortitude is her own.
#greek mythology#epic the musical#epic penelope#penelope#penelope of sparta#ancient sparta#lycurgus#history#ares
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a christopher eccleston appreciation post
i will never say this enough because i don't know enough words, nor do i think such words exist, that could even begin to summarize how much i love christopher eccleston, but... i love christopher eccleston. and, more importantly, i have a deep-rooted respect for that man.
i started doctor who as, let's be honest, a sci-fi hater, forcing myself because i was obsessed with david tennant, and i was kind of dreading the first series because of this. but i was dead wrong.
he broadened my mind, gave me so many laughs, and so many cries, and i'm not the first to say that whenever eccleston is on the screen you just can't take your eyes off him, even when he's not supposed to be the main focus of the scene.
the way he can switch from silly goose to traumatized soldier in a matter of seconds will never cease to amaze me. or how he can play with both like he's on a swing by balancing it out with sarcasm?
i think whoever doesn't give him the title role in their shows/films is either an idiot, or they know the main character just isn't always the best.
i think it's downright idiotic and shameful that he gets rejected from ever playing some shakespeare just because of his northern accent (they're just posh elitist pos). now that he's older, and that times are evolving (i mean, i hope the world of theater is vibing with this evolution, but i'm not delusional), i hope we get to see him portray a character like leontes in winter's tale cause i know he'd be absolutely perfect for the role, and who better than shakespeare (this character especially, with his nuances and highs and lows and breakdowns and breakthroughs) to match acting like his?
saw an article where eccleston talked about how the moment he really knew he wanted to be an actor was when he had to wear mascara for a play, and had enjoyed it. i think he talks about it in his autobiography too (you should read it, btw, it's frankly affordable, and he happens to be a marvelous writer as well).
eccleston knows he is mistakenly type-cast, because of his background, as macho men and tough blokes in general. he's aware that it's kind of a big part of his culture. again, he talks about it i think in the very first chapter, how for instance he used to dress up as james bond, the pinnacle of "masculinity", which i think was a disguise in the metaphorical sense of the term, to mask his delicacy and femininity (or at least, that's my interpretation of it).
in his biography, eccleston talks about the differences between him and his dad, ronnie: he was surprised, as a child, whenever his father's affection manifested as a kiss or a hug, cause that usually wasn't his father's way of doing things. he compares it to how he, in contrast, has the habit of kissing his own son, albert, and telling him he loves him.
you can find it as well in how he talks about his anorexia, his body dysmorphia and, i think we can call it that, gender dysphoria. he's from a time when those concepts didn't even exist, they weren't a thing to the public eye. my father and my step-father, both feminine men in their own way, and both around eccleston's age, both told me about the struggle that it represented, not being the stereotype of the macho tough guy, and being surrounded by boys who didn't struggle with that issue. it made my dad a junkie, my stepdad a depressive artist, and, apparently, it made eccleston an anorexic actor.
i think it takes a lot of courage for people that age (the boomer generation as we call them), especially men, from whom we expect toxic masculinity, masculinity pushed to an extreme, to be able to openly call it out and dissect it into what it is: a ridiculous standard. but to be a PUBLIC FIGURE, in his 60s, and still find the strength to express it? damn. takes guts, i think.
most of us on this website, we're babies. most of us are at most in their thirties. the millenials and the gen z, and now the gen alpha, we take that for granted. or get offended and scandalized that being able to express oneself isn't yet a basic standard.
but then, i talk to my mum, and i realize that she had to stray from her catholic, sexist education, she had to make up her own mind about things in order for me to be born a free spirit. and that's just considering my mum's a cishet.
christopher eccleston expressed in other words that he doesn't fully consider himself to be cisgendered. i have mad respect for the way he talks about it, and for even talking about it at all.
then, there's his honesty. the more interviews i watch, the more it impresses me. he knows honesty goes hand in hand with dignity. i'm sorry but i'm tired of people who are nice all the time. you never know when they're being honest, and maybe some of them are, who knows. but i'm not stupid enough to think that so many people are just pure sunshine all the time (respect for tennant for lashing out publically about transphobia, i think he passed the test).
eccleston? he knows how to be both brutally honest and yet respectful at the same time. no ukulele apology from this man and holy fuck, it feels good!
i've seen him call russel t davies out for his lack of professionalism on the set of doctor who, and then list him amongst the great writers he's worked with. which makes me want to believe eccleston's side, because, if you're always either too polite, or too full of spite about eveything, who's to say you're not the problem? i've got way less trouble believing you if you can stay unbiased about a person you're having beef with than if suddenly everything said person does turns into shit just cause you don't like them. that's just maturity and wisdom.
one last thing i love about eccleston is that he is interested in other people's lives. there's a critic by marcus berkmann in his book that perfectly expresses my point: "you know what to expect from the autobiographies of most actors, i think: anecdotes, charm, more than mild self-satisfaction and faux-modesty by the bucketload. but christopher eccleston is not most actors".
and that's it. watch him in interviews and at convention panels, where he lets his younger co-stars speak before himself, and seizes the occasion when journalists ask him questions that are meant to make him talk about himself to praise his writers and other actors instead.
read his autobiography, which is both a love letter to his dad and a big let's-be-honest about the struggles of growing up poor and his personal struggles, because he thinks raising awareness is just as important as protecting himself.
look at his instagram posts where he unabashedly disses the monarchy and stays true and loyal to his background even after getting a taste of money. and his other posts where he shares his love for acorns and spending time with his kids.
i've seen him nearly break down in shame and regret on television for having stolen a kid's crisps in primary school. and not trying to find lame excuses for his behaviour. no ukulele apology, just facts, just christopher eccleston showing us what masculinity in its purest, most beautiful form should be about
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thoughts/analysis on alexis ness
so chapter 288 part 2 just dropped and... hoo boy. the reactions this chapter is getting are INSANE, mainly because when Kaiser tells ness to give up on soccer and we see this panel:
kaneshiro certified ness hater???
So everyone's kind of blowing up now, and for good reason: we FINALLY see Ness after such a long time... and Kaiser completely destroys the poor guy.
I feel like part of the reason why Ness is falling behind due to the the reaction Kaiser and isagi are creating is because of his ego, even though he's 100% got the skill (ranked #2 in bastard munchen, if i remember correctly). His ego, however, is severely lacking.
In his backstory, we see that Ness was constantly belittled and ignored by his family due to his belief in magic. When he sees someone playing soccer for the first time, it's like a switch turns on in his head and he realizes that he can make magic through playing soccer, hence why he becomes so fixated on the sport.
So at tryouts, he's getting his ass kicked and suddenly sees kaiser, who asks him "do you believe in the impossible?"
until then, Ness hadn't met anyone who believed in the impossible like him before, so Kaiser easily becomes Ness' whole world. And Kaiser is doing this knowingly- he found the (mentally) weakest player and brought hope to him, making him incredibly loyal.
here, Ness doesn't really have an ego: he just wants to make magic appear in his world. he doesn't care if it's on his own or not. He sees how powerless his magic is against the other players who are better than him in teamwork and realizes he needs someone else to help him achieve his dream. Ness doesn't really have an ego; he just wants to create magic through soccer. And right now, he can only do so with Kaiser.
I don't think Kaiser was the ONLY person who made Ness into the total doormat he is now, but rather the combined forces of his family AND Kaiser's abuse and manipulation were the reason why he's like this now. If Ness was mentally stronger, I highly doubt Kaiser would have approached him in the first place to "team up."
There's lots of discussion online whether Kaiser and ness' relationship is genuine and codependent or one of pure exploitation. whichever one people think it is, the point still stands that they depend on each other- Kaiser to "connect" with his teammates (I use that term loosely in the sense that he needs at least one ally on the field), and Ness to create the magic he so desperately wants.
Enter Isagi: Kaiser realizes that he doesn't need Ness anymore- there's someone out there who understands him better as a talented learner, someone who will push him to his limits in a way Ness never has. So he tells ness to stop following him around because he has no more use for him, realizing that he's not benefiting from this relationship anymore.
HOWEVER, because Ness' ego is still in the ditches, he hangs on to Kaiser anyway because he still believes Kaiser will help him create his magic.
This is apparent in the newest chapter. ness is so preoccupied with finding kaiser and passing to him that karasu immediately steals the ball from him.
The reaction isagi and kaiser are making now is leaving ness completely behind.
I feel like it's incredibly likely that in future chapters, Ness will come to realize that he doesn't need Kaiser any more than kaiser needs him and that he can make his own impossible happen, with or without kaiser. This will (hopefully!) lead to the awakening of his own ego which has been out of reach for so long due to kaiser "blocking" it and making him so dependent on him.
something really interesting to note is that ness is one of the few characters who's featured who is a midfielder, not a striker, so i'm very excited to see how kaneshiro handles this!
But really, if Ness awakens this will be due to Isagi showing up, which means... will Ness join Isagi's harem??? đ±đ±
#blue lock#michael kaiser#alexis ness#isagi yoichi#bllk#blue lock manga#blue lock spoilers#bllk kaiser#bllk ness#character analysis#blue lock character analysis#late night rambles#please bear with me
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Hi Caterkinnie! Your work is really amazing, thank you so much for all your work in the fandom! I think anyone who sees your headcanons days are brightened! May I request Rook, Jamil, Ruggie and Azul or Vil (up to you) with a friend they have been deeply in love with for a long time, who's just broken up from a long-term bad relationship. I'd find it really interesting to see the angst the boys struggled with while their friend was in such a bad relationship--a relationship that would somehow never end no matter how awful or neglectful their partner was (up to your imagination how their partner was)--and how they handled not letting their deepening love/crush show (if that's how they'd handle it. I honestly have no idea as to how Rook especially would handle this situation). And of course, now that there's been an unprecedented breakup, what now? I hope that wasn't too specific. I just thought it'd be interesting because I just broke up from a long-term relationship @__@ (5 years for me... In my case, I was dating a selfish man child. According to my friends, it was heartbreaking to watch because no matter what they said/did or what he said/did it would never end, so they just had to watch the rollercoaster play out while white knuckled). I haven't seen headcanons on this type of situation yet and how the boys would respond, so I'd love to see your headcanons. Not to mention, your writing is so top knotch, and I feel like you really get the complexity of so many of these characters, that I was pumped to ask when I saw your requests are open. If it's too specific or you're not feeling it, I get it! I hope you keep rocking on with this blog and whatever else you're up to! Thank you for the hardwork!
Supporting you through a bad break up...
â„ â characters: Rook hunt, Jamil Viper, Ruggie Bucchi, Azul Ashengrotto.
â„ â Summary: After a long long time with the person who you thought was the love of your life, ended the relationship suddenly with the pretext he was no longer in love. You decided to confide your feelings with your closest friend; a friend who happened to be deeply in love with you.
â„ â tags: tw for toxic relationship, though details aren't given, there are mentions of arguments and toxic behaviour. didn't proofread enough. sorry if ooc.
â„ â a/n: sorry anon!!!!!!! I've had this drafted since you requested this... and only now i finished it!!! i couldn't bring myself to delete it as I loved the idea so much. Hope if you see this that you're doing so much better now!!!!
Rook made it very clear from the beginning he had feelings for you, but would not attempt to show them.
He also could see the signs of what seemed to be an unhappy relationship that sooner or later was going to come to an end; signs you probably didn't notice.
He's a very caring man, ever since the moment he met you he always tried to help you in any way, and this was no exception; but he also knew, as much as it hurt him, you needed time to realize that the person you loved didn't treat you in the way you deserved to be treated. It hurt him so deeply to see the way he talked to you, but Rook wasn't a hero who would yell at your boyfriend to stop. He had to be subtle â trying to calm the waters when he was around, defending you in his own way. His heart ached, sometimes with jealousy, sometimes with rage â sometimes both, but he refused to let you know about any of these emotions. He was there for you, whether you needed help or advice.
He helped you because he loved you, he constantly told you how important you were to him and there was nothing he wished more than to take you away and treat you like a queen. But alas, his love was not only unrequited, you were in love with someone else.
Oh, how glad he'd be if only one day you woke up and chose him! The selfish part of him wanted to rush, but he knew he had to be patient... Someday it'd happen, or at the very least... you'd be with someone else who makes you happy, and that's something he would like as well.
But when you come to him to tell him everything that happened...
He's going to comfort you and walk you through the feelings the breakup left⊠In those cases, he's not as mischievous as he typically is. His voice is soft and soothing, as he tries to get your mind off things, as well as being of support when you need it the mostâŠ
He can't bring himself to court you while doing so, although deep down, he wishes someday you'll see his efforts, even if he's not exactly expecting you to fall for himâŠ
However, your now ex-boyfriend will avoid you like the plague, and runs away when Rook is nearby, and you wonder if he had something to do with thatâŠ.
Jamil warned you about your partner a few times, he didn't want to get TOO involved to avoid making you upset, but every time the subject was brought upâŠ. he felt a deep heaviness in his heart that he hated.
The least thing he wanted was for you to notice his feelings. But maybe he was too insistent on the idea that it was best if you broke upâŠ
But those were genuinely good feelings. He saw how bad you were being treated and constantly found himself thinking⊠âI could do better, so much betterâŠâ Yet he hated himself for it. What could he do, if you never saw anything in him?
He feels all of these things, yet it's like⊠he only wants you to Not Be with your boyfriend. Jamil believes you'd never love him back as well.
If you came to him for advice, he'd give it to youâ but his voice was always restrained⊠and soon enough, he just tried his best to act as if his feelings weren't there, as if he was just a friend who gave advice and was exhausted by you not following it.
But then⊠it finally happened, but as happy as he felt, seeing how much it affected you.. it didn't feel like victory (even if it was!)
He wouldn't constantly seek you out. But if you need to vent he's always there. He's not good with comforting words⊠but his honesty can be soothing and grounding. As well as he might sometimes just try to aid you in general, after all⊠acts of service (unfortunately) are second nature for him.
Whether it's for food⊠studying⊠anything. You don't even have to ask⊠But he's not expecting you to like him back. And not in a cute âhe'll wait for you!â kind of way⊠he thinks you'd never reciprocate his feelings. And he's not sad about that! Jamil just accepted that as a reality. Whether that changes or not is up to youâŠ
Ruggie's pretty straightforward⊠Not with his feelings, but with his opinion on your boyfriend.
He takes every chance he gets to say something about him and as much as he tries to play it off as a joke, his voice is bitter⊠He hates him so much!
Ruggie wants to believe he only hates him because you're someone he could dare to call a friend! He denies any other underlying reason for his distaste for your boyfriend that isn't that he's unfair with you... But obviously, he's a bit prideful, a tiiny bit. He couldn't help but try to impress you every time he could. He wished that you'd see how you deserved to be treated⊠And maaaaybe how much better he is. And he tries for so long, it's kind of obvious if you know him well. If you're observant enough you might have caught on to his feelings.
However, that all changed when you went to him looking for the comfort of a friend, after your relationship endedâŠ
Like Jamil, Ruggie wanted to feel happy, he wanted to celebrate! Finally you weren't tied to that man-child! You could finally focus on yourself and maaaybe on himâŠ.. But when he saw how heartbroken you looked, he couldn't bring himself to act on those emotions. You were hurt, and he hated seeing you like that. Though he's pretty awkward at it⊠He'll try his best to comfort you, but his words feel stiff and you can tell this is not his area of expertiseâŠ
He does so much better when it comes to acts of service. He'll try his best to distract you, make you laugh⊠which is something he'd love to hear again. He won't dare to mention his feelings however. It'd take a long time before he even considers that he could have a chance.
Unlike everyone before, Azul'd rather stay quiet.
He already hated the idea of having feelings for you, and just wanted to forget you existed to make the tightness in his heart disappear. He wasn't one to believe in love, let alone the fact that you were already committed to a relationshipâŠ
Yet because of that same reason he wasn't able to leave.
He had a special way of aiding you out of uncomfortable situations and stupid arguments, almost appearing randomly and requesting attention from one of you. The way he dissipated the tense air by just intruding (literally) was almost comical.
Azul's not sure of what to do, as he always regrets helping you, he says you're hopeless and it's up to you to change the situation⊠as if he doesn't care at all unless you're going to make a deal with him, but then he ALWAYS comes back, lends a listening ear, maybe greets you with some tea and a few snacks⊠Oh he pays for them, don't worry. It's a gift.
Then he goes back to feeling guilty for helping you, and frustrated for liking you.
âŠ.He's a complex guy.
One of those times, you came to talk to him at his office (which the twins knew you had special priority over his other tasks. Even if he never asked.) and told him what happened, you had an argument and it escalated, leading to the breakup⊠In which he seemed calm as always listening to you⊠asking you to sit on the couch as he paid attention to your woes.
He was at a loss for words.
Yes, he did believe this was for the best⊠but this ACTUALLY happening made him realize he never planned what to do beforehand. He repeated the typical routine, something sweet to drink⊠something soothing to eat⊠He's a good listener, and he will easily ignore his crush on you to help you better.
His feelings were always second place for him, and Azul seems like the kind of guy who low-key wishes you don't love him back, as he wouldn't know what to do if you did... (even as flattered as he'd feel, he still struggles with trusting people.)
However⊠if you're too uncomfortable with tour ex⊠He might ask the twins to aid you if you wish to not see him again! For free of course. You shoule accept his kindness⊠as he typically doesn't offer such services for free.
Reblogs are appreciated!!!
#twisted wonderland x reader#twst x reader#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland imagines#twst#rook hunt#rook hunt x reader#ruggie bucchi x reader#ruggie bucchi#jamil viper x reader#jamil viper#azul ashengrotto x reader#azul ashengrotto
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Did you catch the latest podcast with Steph and Ava? They absolutely crack me up! The biggest takeaway for me? They both agree that Azriel's book is next. Meanwhile, the Elriels are being suspiciously quiet about it. But hey, a clickbait piece or song by Taylor somehow holds more weight, right? đ
Sure, Steph and Ava could be wrong, but letâs be realâneither of them is losing their minds over some random âarticlesâ or Taylor Swift lyrics. They actually know SJM personally. I mean, whether we like it or not, they have a better insight into her than any of us do. What do you think?
I definitely think they're a lot of fun together and I agree, in terms of credible news sources I would think if there's any insider knowledge to be had, it would be Steph over a random ScreenRant journalist. That her statement "not everything is meant to be taken romantically" was possibly a message to e/riels because of how they read into everything but beyond that I am a bit divided on what Steph and Ava actually know or, what they know versus what they're saying.
To me it means something that Steph was all on the E/riel train even when she and Sarah spoke about the Az bonus chapter, where Sarah told her she was excited for her to read the crumbs she scattered. Then later, they had done an IG Live where it still seemed Steph thought E/riel was a possibility and Sarah's face seemed to fall a bit but just a short time later Steph no longer though E/riel was happening. Something like that does make me wonder if Sarah told Steph that E/riel wasn't going to be a thing because there was a noticeable shift between Lives in who she thought was ending up together.
In terms of them knowing who the next book is about, I'm not sure whether they have insider knowledge. Since Sarah kept the HOFAS crossover a secret from even Josh, it's possible she's also keeping the main pairing of the next book a secret to those around her as well. Steph and Ava do think Az is next but Steph also mentioned she felt HOFAS was needed in order to build Az up to have his own book and that seems a bit odd to me. An ACOTAR series character should not need an entirely different series in order to set him up for his own book since not every ACOTAR reader will read CC. So what happens for those readers, they buy the next ACOTAR book completely confused as to where Az's story came from when they left off with SF? What if those readers only read the series because they were able to check out the books from their local library and they have no idea that his bonus chapter exists? I think the next story has to make sense for readers who stopped at SF and are not aware of any bonus chapters or what happened in CC because despite our immersion into this fandom I don't think the majority of readers are into all things SJM the way we are. A casual reader should not be obligated to read beyond the ACOTAR books in order to pick up the next book in the series and understand what's going on and Az processing a time traveler who took his dagger when starting the next book is a bit of a stretch for where things left off in SF. Especially when CC did not actually leave us with any new and immediate threats for them to deal with. Where we left off in SF was the peace treaty, Koschei, Beron and Spring as immediate concerns (they didn't sound like things that could wait another 6-9 months so Az can first deal with his stuff) and Emerie joked the Illyrians would be in hysterics for decades (an Az storyline) meaning not an immediate concern. When the big bad starts making moves in a Sarah book, things move pretty quickly from there on out. I.e. We learned of Hyberns plans in January and the war occurred in August. I think the TOG series occurred over a year. In SF, we learned of Koschei and the Trove in September / October and SF ended in April. So I'm not sure it makes sense to have an Az book (my guess is you'd need at least 6 - 9 months for a realistic love story if he's ending up with Gwyn) then at least another 6 months for an Elain book and for us to finally see Koschei's defeat. That stretches out the Koschei / Beron plot well beyond her norm.
With that said, maybe Steph does know something but if she did, would she say it? That would be breaking the trust of Sarah and Bloomsbury. Knowing something then saying "but it's just my opinion" still kind of spills the tea if you've been forced to sign an NDA. Usually if people know secrets they avoid the topic entirely. Or maybe Steph knows something but she says the opposite to throw people off so she doesn't reveal secrets. In the podcast she also said that if Az and Elain don't end up together, she doesn't think Lucien and Elain are ending up together but that Lucien still can't have his story until Elain deals with her bond and to me that's a strange thing to say. If Elain isn't ending up with Lucien or Az then who is she sharing a book with? And how would we get an Az book, then an Elain book THEN Sarah tackles Lucien's story? How are we dividing the current plots between the three, all with three different love interests? Ava also said she couldn't remember Elain stabbing the King so again, are they just messing with us or are they just too busy with other stuff to actually dive deep into these books the same way we do? Which is completely understandable, they seem to be extremely busy with everything else they have going on, I'm just not sure how much of what they say should be written as gospel.
With all that said, I do think it's possible for Steph to know something but at the same time I'm not sure that what she's saying is her revealing the information she knows. I think it would cross a line to have insider information then share that insider information on podcasts while saying "it's just my opinion" to cover yourself.
However, she's also mentioned a few times that she tells Sarah not to spoil anything for her so I end up divided on the topic.
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Alexâs fingers scrubbed the shampoo into her hair, suds colored pink by the floral scent added to them rolling down her body as they were washed away by the water. She didnât care much for roses. They were pretty, but too delicate, too finicky, and they reminded her of the Capitol. Still, sheâd happily smell roses the rest of her life if it meant she could spend it with Alex, and she supposed in a way she would.
Abilene shut her eyes, basking in the warmth of the water and his body so close to her like a lizard on a rock beneath the sun. Alexâs hands combed through her dark locks with conditioner next, which smelled much the same as the shampoo. She thought back to that first meeting when Alex asked.
Up until last year it was common for new victors on their victory tours to meet the other victors. They were friends, after all, or at least most of them were. Perhaps acquaintances was a better term to describe it - Abilene was known to stretch the title of friend a bit more than others. She remembered him standing there - tall and shy. He wore something blue, because certain shades of blue made his eyes pop and Abilene could see his eyes that day in her mind as though it was happening just then.
She hugged him. She remembered that. The tributes from ten were both young that year, and while Alex had every opportunity to kill them he didnât. He took care of them. He protected them⊠until he couldnât. Abilene would never forget that kindness. Her embrace hadnât just been from her, but from everyone in Ten. After the children had died a handful of people stormed the peacekeepers and production stopped from an entire day.
Alexâs arms were hesitant and nervous and still thin from recovering from his games, but they wound around her waist that day all the same. She remembered feeling her heart swell, feeling content and safe for just a moment as he stammered out his thanks and blushed. Something had happened during that embrace, something that planted a seed in her chest that flourished with each time she saw him. Was it love at first sight?
âIn a way.â She answered honestly. âI didnât know then that I loved you, or that I would love you⊠but there was something special about you.â Abilene swallowed and her cheeks flushed. It seemed to be a night for mushy-gushy confessions, wasnât it? âWas it for you?â She teased back.
Abilene let him wash the conditioner from her hair before she turned back around to face him. âWeâre both fools.â She laughed. Her skin was pink from the heat of the water, and from her own blush. She gathered some shampoo in her palm and stretched onto the tips of her toes to reach all of his hair, thin fingers running through each flattened curl before the water would wash it off again.
âBe careful,â she warned, a mischievous smile on her lips. âYou keep saying all of these sweet things about me and I might start to think that you love me.â She was teasing him of course, as she knew the depth of her feelings for him and assumed that his heart felt much of the same.
â you may have mentioned it once or twice . â abilene giggled as her legs reluctantly unwound from around his waist , her feet resting on the floor . abilene remembered a few times when he would mention liking her laugh , sometimes spoken into her hair as she cuddled into his side . she loved his laugh too , how his face would change as joy overtook him and how his eyes seemed to light up .
her breath hitched . alex's touch was gentle , always gentle and tender . he never bruised or left a mark . she craved his touch and felt a pleasant warmth brush through her body when his hands wrapped around her wrists and his lips brushed across her skin . abilene nodded , her eyes looking back to her hands . she remembered breaking everything but she couldn't recall feeling the cuts at all .
abilene brought her gaze back up to alexander , hazel eyes meeting his and she felt her heart begin to pound in her chest anew . she loved him , she loved him , she loved him . she wanted to spend the rest of her life with him she would , and that would be enough . wherever the spirit went that was where she would wait for him .
â my embarrassing story . . . â she trailed off as if in deep thought . as she thought she closed her eyes and waited for the feeling of his fingers running through her hair . â my story is that i think that not a moment has passed without me thinking of you . â she smiled . â i think about your touch , your lips , your hair , your hands . . . i can't walk outside and look at the sky without thinking about your eyes . â abilene chuckled quietly and let her hands rest on his waist , thumbs tracing the muscles of his sides . â i think i make a fool out of myself whenever you're near . â
she smiled up at him , her eyes fluttered open . â i'll wash yours next , if you want . . . but what i really want is to get into those special pajamas and spend the night with you , alexander . â and not think about what the future would bring , just for a moment .
#4lexnilsen#âź â it's been nice to know you 'cause we've all been damned . âș ( v : quarter quell )#usfw /#suggestive /#[ I realized this got lost in my drafts and was thinking about it all day today ]#[ we listen and we donât judge the look because I donât have my icons ]#[ or the energy to do my formatting on my phone ]
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"It is too easy to dismiss [Leonor of Navarre] as an overambitious schemer who would do anything to obtain a crown, shedding the blood of her own siblings and her subjects in order to attain the throne. However, a deeper investigation of her long lieutenancy and ephemeral reign shows a woman who fought tenaciously to preserve her place but also worked tirelessly to administer a realm which was crippled by internal conflict and the center of the political schemes of France, Aragon, and Castile. She tried to broker peace, fight off those who opposed her, repair the wounds caused by conflict, protect the sovereignty of the realm, and keep the wheels of governance turning. Leonor was not always successful in achieving all of these aims but given the background of conflict and the lack of cooperation she received from all of her family members, bar her loyal husband, it is a huge achievement that she survived to wear the crown at all. Many writers have argued that Leonor deserved the troubled lieutenancy, personal tragedies, an ephemeral reign, and a blackened reputation, basing their assumption that she committed a crime that cannot be [conclusively] proven. However, a more fitting description of her would be that of a resolute ruler who successfully overcame a multitude of challenges in order to survive in a difficult political landscape and gain a hard-fought throne.â
-Elena Woodacre, "Leonor of Navarre: The Price of Ambition", Queenship, Gender and Reputation in the Medieval and Early Modern West, 1060-1600 (Edited by Zita Eva Rohr and Lisa Benz)
#historicwomendaily#leonor of navarre#15th century#Navarrese history#my post#I mean...the crime can't be explicitly 'proven' but Leonor DID have the means motive and opportunity; she had the most to gain;#the timing was incredibly convenient for her; and most contemporaries believed she was responsible.#She *did* ultimately act against her brother [Carlos] and sister [Blanca]#Though of course the fact remains that:#1) The final responsibility lies with Juan the Faithless: he was the King; the one in power; and the one who rejected Navarre's succession#Blanca herself - while criticizing Leonor and Gaston - placed the ultimate blame on their father as her 'principal...destructor'#All three siblings were reacting to an unconventional disruption in the system caused by Juan & their actions should be judged accordingly.#2) I am hesitant to believe accusations of 'poison' as a cause of murder given how that was commonly used to slander controversial women#and given how it contributed to the dichotomy of Blanca as a tragic beautiful heroine and Leonor as her scheming ambitious sister#3) Even if Leonor DID commit the crime (imo she was at the very least complicit in it) she is still worthy of a reassessment.#I don't think it's fair for it to define her entire identity#Because it certainly did not define her life - she lived for decades before and would live for decades after#It was on the whole one of the many series of obstacles and challenges she had to face before she succeeded in ascending the throne.#The fact that she died so soon after IS ironic but it is in equal parts tragic. And we don't know what Leonor herself felt about it:#Did she think it was a hollow victory? Or did she feel nothing but satisfaction that she died as the Queen of Navarre? We'll never know.#Whatever the case: given her circumstances the fact that she survived to wear the crown itself was an achievement#It's funny because Woodacre parallels Leonor to Richard III in terms of 'blackened' reputations for 'unproven' (...sure) crimes#(thankfully she admits Richard has been long-rehabilitated; what she doesn't bring herself to admit is that he's now over-glorified)#But I don't think this parallel works at all for the exact reasons she uses to try and reassess Leonor#Namely: Richard was the one in power. He was the King. The ultimate blame for what happened to his nephews was his own.#and moreover: Richard's actions against the Princes DID define his reign and were exactly what provoked opposition to his rule.#Any so-called 'rehabilitation' that doesn't recognize and emphasize this is worthless#also if we want to get specific: the Princes were literal children who did nothing and were deposed in times of peace.#Carlos and Blanca were adults with agency and armies and Leonor's actions against them took place in the middle of a civil war#So ultimately I think Leonor's case is fundamentally very different and I don't think her comparison holds well at all
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Random Togami Headcanon 13
TL;DR - Byakuya's bettered himself but he still has a long road of healing. Also, heads up. This one's not happy like most of the others. Gets a bit hopeful at the end but there's still a lot of sad topics here. Viewer discretion is advised. Now that he feels more empathy for others and possesses some capability for putting himself in another's shoes, thoughts he used to have about the lower class make him feel... off. Perhaps guilt or discomfort with himself. It doesn't help though looking at his classmates every school day and being reminded of the mindset he was raised with. It especially doesn't help when he looks at Makoto who helped him. Makoto being the commoner of all commoner's also hurts. He appreciates what Makoto's done to help him but it unintentionally stabs him hard within his chest that he needed someone's help to get to this point and the someone being a commoner he once wrote off. Next, with this empathy, the heir feels better with his life and happiness but fundamentally worse. It's as if he deteriorated though, logically, he knows it's not the case. He knows that the illogical side of his brain covers itself in the hides of reason and rationale. Essentially, Byakuya ends up having a grueling struggle with dealing with these emotions that, for the majority of his life, he buried and repressed. Emotions that both make him feel more fulfilled in life but that tear him apart inside. Bouts where he feels either extremely content with how he's turned out or that dread and despair that he's slipping back into his old ways. In fact, at times, it becomes overwhelming for him to handle which he especially hates. Being overwhelmed is yet another thing he once viewed as a weakness and, to some extent, he still does. Sometimes, to cope, jokes to himself on whether existing itself is something he feels is a weakness. However, though he has a lot of emotions and thoughts that upset him now as a bettered person, one big thing that pains him is that he has the capability and the intelligence to notice all of this. It's the acknowledgment that stings. The heir notices that he has a problem, that he probably needs help, maybe even therapy, but then he spirals more because of that realization. Why should HE need HELP for these problems of his?! He's an independent person! He should logically be able to handle this himself. He's always handled his problems on his own! Why should he now need someone or just a support system of people to aid in his path of healing? He feels gross for that support system being the classmates who he once adamantly despised with such vitriol. With the added empathy, he also feels shame as he doesn't want to hurt any more people in his life now. He has the hindsight to know this now. He questions himself. Is the situation he's in even that big of a deal and should he keep searching for answers on the "why" and "how"? Is it worth it? Comparisons to the peasants he used to once adamantly demonize also do not escape him. He feels worse because, while he's breaking at the seams, countless of other commoners have similar thoughts too. He's not unique and a bit of that stings his lingering superiority. Then, there is the fact that Byakuya feels even worse about this BECAUSE commoners can handle stuff like this and yet, he keeps saying that he can't due to his mental spirals. Either that or the older thoughts of hating commoners bites back by making him feel like he's "acting like one". He knows by this point that he's actively tearing himself down and that he needs to escape this cycle of mental abuse. He feels shame in himself though. He feels humiliated. Pathetic. Overly emotional in ways he's never felt before. He still has that hope though. The hope that he can get through his. The heir's already delt with so much whether canon, non-despair, or an au of some kind. He's continued on despite it all. And, though long ago, he would have pushed some of this hope off for it being too optimistic, he's grown to care less about that sort of thought anymore. Byakuya can do this.
#danganronpa#danganronpa headcanons#danganronpa byakuya#byakuya togami#togami headcanon series#text sector#basically he's in a state where he knows he can get better but it takes a toll on him at times cus he's hard on himself#knowing that it's okay to rely on others and reaching out is hard just in general and it's def the case for him cus he usually relies on hi#he has to basically get out of a mindset he's had all his life which is a difficult thing to do because it can take so many years#which is why it pains him cus he kinda wishes the could just get it fixed right away but he knows it's impossible#hope this wasn't too vent-y and it's okay if one cannot get through all of this as it's quite a lot to handle#i find this aspect of his character interesting though#one can question how he'd handle this change of his over time and if it takes a toll in some regards due to this being different for him#he's been wired with a certain way of thinking both in terms of viewing the lower class badly and trying to be as smart as he can#also does not help that he's still young but has acted like he's an adult his whole life or at least the expectation of what adults are#loosening up from that stress and pressure he has on himself both due to the environment he was born in and his own standards is hard#he hates it being âhardâ though#he's the togami heir so having things be âdifficultâ for him âisn't supposed to happenâ#also stings cus he thinks so highly of himself and what he's meant to achieve or what he's expected to achieve#just another one of my interpretations of his character though#i could/would have added more but there's a word limit i think??? might have missed stuff i wanted to talk about too#there's a lot to say and dive into and it's especially the case for me cus i care a lot about his character and analyzing him the best i ca#if i found a way to write more without it saying that it can't save my draft i would not have so many of these tags T-T#dunno if it's cus i use my computer to type these or if it's just the site or if i'd have to pay for something???#not sure ;-;
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Re-watching the one time Ricky and Christian teamed and lamenting about What Could Have Been.
#*wails* WE COULD HAVE HAD IT ALLLLLLLLLL#And remember like a month ago now when it seemed like they were gonna team up again?#Because Ricky came out during the opening promo to side with Christian (the time where Edge was an asshole to him)#And then later in the night he helped Christian retain#Which made it seem like there was gonna be a more longer term alliance there#Between one half of tag champs/one of the biggest stars on Collision and essentially the top heel champ in the company#Which would have made for a potential interesting storyline#But then nothing happened? They never followed up on it and the two of them haven't interacted at all since then?#So Christian got sectioned off in his own storyline with Edge#While Ricky (and Bill) are relegated to being background players in the tag division despite being the champs#Because they have fuck all to do with the faction warfare story going on between FTR/BCC/HoB/LFI#And are probably going to lose their belts at Full Gear making their whole title reign a huge waste of time#Ricky (and Bill) REALLY could have benefitted from a team-up/storyline with Christian#But nope! TK stopped giving a shit about that potentially interesting story the second Bryan Danielson got injured#Because Tony is apparently incapable of caring about a storyline that doesn't revolve around Bryan Danielson or Adam Cole#But hey at least we've got Ric Flair now! đ#Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh#I know I'm being a huge bitch here like WAAAAH why didn't the person I like get a fun storyline??#But...I'm just struggling to find much to like in AEW right now and it's such a drag#I was hyped for Ricky/Christian but I guess I was one of the only ones in that regard#Just my luck LOL The life of a rarepair shipper is pain and suffering
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2023 reads // twitter thread
If I See You Again Tomorrow
YA contemporary/light sci-fi
follows a boy almost a year into a time loop, who has almost given up on finding a way out
until a new boy shows up at his school - which has never happened before - and heâs motivated to step out of his monotony and maybe find a way out
exploring loneliness and social isolation
#If I See You Again Tomorrow#aroaessidhe 2023 reads#ok i enjoyed some aspects of this like the MCs personal journey and mental health stuff i guess. friendships.#but the romance was annoying and unnecesary. not just my bitter aro ass saying this a lot of other reviews do too lol#the love interest is convinced that you have to find your soulmate to get out of the time loop for no logical reason??? & the MC (and me) is#like what the fuck man thatâs stupid.#but then also heâs like we canât hang out; you just think you Like me because weâre both in this time loop; focus on finding your soulmate!!#LIKE WHO CARES ABOUT CRUSHES?#YOUâRE THE ONLY TWO PEOPLE IN THIS TIME LOOP WHY WOULD YOU NOT WORK TOGETHER TO FIGURE IT OUTâŠâŠâŠ.#this is more me being frustrated at the character than the author but i feel like. the author could have thought of some better reasons for#him to avoid the mc i guess lol. or at least lampshade the stupidity#itâŠâŠsort of ends up being soulmatey anyway#or at least he decides they in love anyway but lol u guys spent one day together then didn't see each other for 2 months or whatever???#so the end was definitely disappointing#I think it would have been way better if he did all his friend and family goodbyes then went to the place#and nothing happened and it turned out that after 365 days you just. pop out of it; problem never ââsolvedââ.#but then he goes to find beau anyway and they start something on their own terms#(bc like getting âtrapped foreverâ after a year would mean thereâs instances of two people disappearing forever at the same time - they have#no proof for that either? I guess they would also have instances of people saying they did just get out of it after a year too but. well may#be if that happens you have amnesia. which wouldnât work for this book. but anyway)#idk#also him hating his mum made me cringe because that was Obvious. i feel like a little more time could have been spent on that#and like i did enjoy it overall for the majority of it that wasn't the romantic thing! it could have been so good if it removed that#and gave everything else its full focus
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there are so many thinly veiled cries for help in ren's lashing out and it makes me very sad.
#đđđ : đŽđŠđđ§-đąđ±đ±đ°đȘđŻđ”đŠđ„ đ±đłđŠđŽđȘđ„đŠđŻđ” đ°đ§ đŽđ€đąđłđąđŻđąđ”đȘđ°đŻ. â ooc .â#tbd .#( going to make some tea & then we will return to your regularly scheduled programming )#( I'LL WRITE SOMETHING SILLY TOMORROW I SWEAR. THIS STARTED WITH A BANANA JOKE. THIS WAS A MISTAKE. )#( but really between him asking kazuha to consider what his actions say bc everything he says is either harsh or mired in contradiction )#( and repeatedly asking zero to give him something useful give him a solution give him a panacea that will somehow make everything ok )#( he has such a horrible & messy way of saying it but he wants so badly to be understood. to stop hurting. )#( he wants some fantastical solution to make him happy he's been searching all his life for something to make him happy )#( and now that he actually has something good he's so horrified of losing it that he'd rather ruin everything )#( because at least then it's happening on his own terms )#( or some solution to keep what precious things he has literally forever so he won't be hurt again. )#( sir please. )
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The Defenders (1972) #74
#oh my baby đ#Iâm so glad that he has the Defenders and Kyleâs Riding Academy#I really feel that the Defenders as a non-team works really well for the Hulk in a way that a traditional formal superhero team wouldnât#like heâs someone that feels a lot of intense emotions and can get overwhelmed easily#and he needs his space in order to calm down and/or process things#particularly because more so than most people he needs more time and a quiet environment to really think things through#I remember last issue all the girls were gonna hang out and listen to music and the Hulk was invited to participate in that too#but he didnât want to listen to noise and went to sit outside in the quiet instead#where he grumbled and was confused and thought about how he didnât think he needed friends but then why did being away from his friends hurt#and because his friends are chill and get him they werenât bothered by him not participating and didnât try to pressure him to stay#whereas if they had then the Hulk would have gotten upset about being told what to do and overwhelmed by the noise#and at the very least would have said hurtful things to his friends#like the Riding Academy is a safe space for the Hulk and one he sorely needs#but itâs also not a place heâs in any way confined to#whereas a more traditional team might do more to keep track of the Hulkâs whereabouts and maybe try to keep him within their space/control#the Hulk has grown so much through his time with the Defenders#and thatâs only been able to happen because heâs a part of the team on his own terms#marvel#bruce banner#patsy walker#my posts#comic panels
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isnt it sad that the best world in dream drop distance is the fucking grid. (only in soraâs side though..)
#robo ramble#like every other world is so nothing burger#in terms of doing anything unique or fun or interesting#kh2 is by no means a perfect game but i had a lot of fun in the disney worlds.#not every world or visit was a winner. sometimes i liked a second visit more than the first#mostly because the first visit was often times an awkward retread of the movie#i really like how the beauty and the beast world was handled. i hope when we visit the world in the future weâll actually get to see gaston#but yeah compared to dream drop. one characters version of the world was often times a awkward as fuck retread of the movie#and the new stuff didnt really work. and GOOD LORD. does notre dame not fucking work for kingdom hearts.#just make quasimodo a summon.#if they wanted to follow the movies closely for worlds could you have at least done it better or have been more creative with it#also how the fuck did they manage to make pete incompetent in a movie where he is competent. nomura just has a vendetta against pete ig#he knocked out only mickey and left sora to deal with nightmares like. PUT HIM IN THE FUCKING DUNGEON TOO#this is when i was playing pride lands and i said YOU ARE A FUCKING LION JUST MAUL THEM TO DEATH#pete is way more intimidating than him being a toon would suggest!!#let toons be badass. let toons be intimidating. let toons be heartfelt. let toons be fucking characters .#ok so the grid. they did more interesting things with rinzler in dream drop than they did with him in his own fucking movie#having someone. ACTUALLY RECOGNIZE tron is insane. and much fucking needed.#ok so for riku he goes on a lightcycle and then watches the movie happen. wtf .#sora gets to do so much and riku gets to do nothing. hey what if sora and riku werent arbitrarily separated for no reason yeah what ifâŠ#what if sora got to tell riku about his initial adventures with tron and then come to the realization that things have somehow gotten worse#they thought they freed the system but it turns out that was a copy. even though tron told sora himself. it didnât occur to him that the#dream world they ended up in was the real one. where things happened a lot differently.#so anyway.. doyou wanna hear about my(GETS SHOT)
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