#'why do you NEED anyone but us. you dont. we just need eachother ' LIKE FUCK OFF DARK ROMANCE. WELCOME FUCKED UP FAMILY OBSESSION

[bruciemilf]

honestly i think it's funny how a majority of the people bruce encounters want to seduce him but i just know his kids absolutely can't stand it when they see people flirting with him. they are all very possessive and clingy with bruce. you try to make a single flirty remark about gotham's pathetic meow meow? immediate sense of impending doom via multiple feral children. please do not take bruce wayne's attention from his children they are very clingy :(

ITS JUST. God the way I starve after dark batkids with soft Bruce. Honestly, who's gonna write the au with villain batkids? Where they're still adopted and loved and they're still foes to batman but children to Bruce wayne? Hmm. Hm?

[fallingforel]

Prompt 59 “Don’t you think you’ve done enough?” as louis fluff please!

if it’s possible, where louis comforts y/n after finding her arguing with her now ex-bf? maybe admits his feelings to her as well?

a/n how are all of you my lovelies I actually love these types of asks as it gives me a background as to what you sort of want to go in it rather than give me free reign so I'd be more than happy to do it :) anywhooo on with the show also wanted to do a crossover between my fandoms so matty's the ex bf (because he's the best fit for the way the ex is I love him 75 fans pls dont come for me 🙏🙏)

PROMPT 59: "Don't you think you've done enough?"

words: 887 (sorry its kinda short)

"OH YOU WOULD JUST LOVE THAT WOULDN'T YOU?"

"LOVE WHAT MATTY?"

"OH COME ON Y/N ANYONE WOULD BE AS BLIND AS A BAT TO SEE IT. YOU BOTH SO CLEARLY WANT TO FUCK EACHOTHER LIKE RABBITS YOU WERE JUST WAITING FOR ME TO SEE IT WEREN'T YOU!" He remarks back to me, which earns a slap right on his cheek

"DONT YOU DARE SPEAK ABOUT HIM LIKE THAT! HE'S MY BEST-" I'm interrupted by my hotel door swinging open the one I share with Louis my best mate, who just so happened to be the cause of the argument I'm in with my boyfriend right now who surprised me because his band was in the same city mine was in so he popped by only to find out I was sharing a room with him which sparked the jealousy in him to rise.

"yo. Y/n you coming to bar 21 tonight supposed to be so lively on a friday night." "OH FOR FUCKS SAKE HERE HE GOES AGAIN TRYING TO GET WITH MY GIRLFRIEND." "WOAH! mate I'm sorry if I ever gave you that impression. But she is just my bestfriend, always was always will be int that right y/n"

"see exactly! I said this Matty why can't you just see the truth?" "Don't you think you've done enough, Louis. You know what forget it, you and I" Matty remarks back gesturing between me and him "WERE DONE!" Is all he says before storming out and slamming the door shut. And I'm dropping to my knees against the wall which I was leaning against while the argument was taking place. Which makes Louis run over to catch me before gently placing me down on the floor and crouching down and pulling me into a hug while sobbing into his shoulder.

"Oh! y/n sweetheart. He doesn't deserve you he never has knew from the minute you two met at the meeting of him trying to sell the sound to us that he was a pretentious self absorbed prick. George was nice though" "You know what we need to do now." I quipped back after laughing and putting my head on his shoulder where he was now next to me on the wall "what?" "Put change your ticket on the album to piss him off it's not out yet." "Yeah he deserves it, specially after what he just did to you self righteous prick"

"haha! I love you lou" I say "HAHAH! bit too early for that y/n love don't ya think?" he jokes "I'm being dead serious, I don't know if matty helped me see it or what, but I think I have always loved you specially after bootcamp. but you got with eleanor before I could even admit my feelings to you and then you guys broke up, I know it's not out to the media and what not yet but Louis I seriously seriously love you."

"Oh what the fuck!" is all he says before he's doing a quick 180 turn and pulling me in for a long kiss hands cupped on my face, and pulling back sighing before pulling me in again but this time peppering kisses all over my face.

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1 month later

"Lou! Babe!" I shout out where he appears toothbrush in mouth popping his head round the bathroom door "what is it sweetheart is everything okay?" "yeah yeah just have you seen this" "what is it? two secs just brushing my teeth" he says speech muffled by the plastic object occupying his mouth

he soons pops back out the bathroom and I hand him my ipad which has the article loaded on the screen.

"what did I tell you, I knew it would piss him off"

"yeah you told me alright, here you are Matty texted you"

"alright pass it back"

Matty: low blow don't ya think?

Y/n: maybe but I knew it would piss ya off so you're welcome ;)

Matty: FUCK YOU Y/N and your boyfriend

Y/n: how'd ya know about that only close family and friends know

Matty: **attached image**

open attached image?

[YES] [NO]

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louist91: @trumanblack stole your girl lol

fan1: eleanor and louis broke up??? DID HE CHEAT?? surely Y/n must know he cheated

fan2: @fan1 fuck eleanor and louis. what about y/n and matty did he know?

eleanorj92: @fan1 dont worry, he didn't cheat. we've been broken up for quite some time now I'm happy if he's happy :) congrats @y/n and @louist91

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Y/n: Lol at least its out now. wasn't even aware he did this. Bye matty enjoy the rest of your life and stop worrying about mine ;)

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"You're a menace you"

"Why? whatever have I done?" Louis quips back in a pretending not to know tone

"You know exactly what. Thought we were waiting until the break up articles were out?"

"we were but I thought I'd piss off mr self righteous even more than he already is"

"You're gonna get shit from management hope you know that"

"Anything if it means I get to parade my love for you around"

"I hate you, and your big romantic gestures"

"No. You love me and my big romantic gestures."

"You're right I do" I say leaning in to kiss him.

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end.

[surshica]

NINTENDO SWITCH !

SEVENTEEN - my little pony

masterlist <3

borders will indicate when it’s time to read the written portion!! + please excuse anything grammatically incorrect and any typos !!

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yn came back to the room and placed four hot chocolates on a mini table sitting down near heiya and usagi. she took small sips of the hot chocolate; the warm chocolate taste warmed up her somewhat cold body. slight chills went down her spine due to the contrast of the heat and cold in her body. the other girls were enjoying it as well, heiya looked over at yn—letting out a small sigh before running her fingers through her hair to get rid of the knots. “ynn~”

yn looked at her with a weird expression, she knew she wanted something with that tone and they were going to be questions about chishiya. “yes heiyaaa~” the tone was the same as hers with slight mockery in it. “can you tell us what happened between you and chishiya~” heiya shook yn gently. “in return we’ll have kuina talk about how her and ann got together!!” usagi chimed in; she already knew what happened but usagi still wanted the other girls to know.

yn grumbled at first but she caved in, her door was open since her roommate was literally just her cousin. she had noticed mira was leaning against the doorframe interested in the story time too. “well..chishiya and i believe it or not are just friends.” yn smiled clasping her hands together, kuina groaned facepalming herself while usagi started laughing, heiya she had a deadpanned look on her face. “don’t give us that my little pony bullshit..” kuina huffed while heiya shook yn a little harder.

yn started laughing, “ok ok i’ll tell you guys..i cant even say dont tell anyone because i feel like everyone knows something..” yn shrugged, taking another sip of hot chocolate. “well to be honest and to be quiet fair i don’t even know what we are??” yn even questioned it herself, “i thought we were rivals but now? i feel yeah..” yn didn’t know words to how describe her feelings.

she looked at the girl who were all staring at her to give what she wanted, a small smile formed on her lips, “i have liked that stupid blonde mf since middle school and yet i still can’t find the right enough courage to tell him,” “i feel as if i need to be a step ahead of him especially in academics, though the is quite hard” yn let out a low chuckle.

kuina’s eyes formed a smile as she started to giggle as if she met her favorite actor, heiya had a big smile on her face grabbing yn by her shoulders shaking her. “i mean the tension between you two is so painfully obvious..” usagi mentioned taking a sip of her hot chocolate.

“tension? there is no tension” yn laughed aloud, kuina just shook her head “babe i love you bit the tension between the two of you is very fucking obvious.” kuina sighed in a defeat like voice, “chishiya..he’s confusing but i assure you if you ask him out—“ “but i’m not going to ask him. why should i?”

usagi gasped, “WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOURE NOTGONNAASKHIMOUT” usagi was shaking her so much yn got dizzy. “IF YOU ARENT GONNA ASK HIM OUT YOU DESERVE AN AWARD FOR THAT ACT.” usagi had a distressed tone in her voice, yn had to physically put her hand on her shoulder to stop usagi from shaking her.

kuina and heiya looked at eachother with disappointed looks. “listen LISTEN, i probably have a better chance dating a rock then with chishiya.” yn tried to justify herself but that also had no justice. “why do you say that yn? you don’t know that” heiya questioned with a frown.

“he has like zero interest in a relationship, so therefore he would reject me simple!” yn crossed her arms near her chest acting like she put her foot down. kuina shook her head, “what about the time you two went to a cafe?” “he was being nice” “okay and the time he saved you from niragi?” “he was told to watch over me from mira..” “i call bullshit but that’s ok..how about the time you two almost kissed” “..well it was just a nice gesture yeah”

“yeah IT WAS A NICE GESTURE.” yn tried to convince herself that there was no tension and it was just friendly gestures. “if you don’t realize i’m going to slap you.” usagi deadpanned looked at yn, sending chills down her spine. “OKAY FINE. maybe he isn’t just being nice to me and MAYBE likes me.” a small smile broke out on her lips, “you know if it wasn’t for arisu something could’ve happened” yn shrugged off the thought.

“so would you consider asking him out?” heiya questioned the indecisive girl, “hmm maybe…maybe yeah.” yn has a small tint of rose blush form onto her cheeks.

mira smiled happily before walking back to her room, “did you hear that chishiya?” mira whispered so yn and the girls couldnt hear her, “yeah..” he sounded dry but his face said otherwise. his face has never felt warmer before. since they were on facetime mira was able to see it, she let out a small giggle closing the door behind her. “are you going to make the first move orr..” she left it open like a question, “maybe. but i think maybe i’ll let her do it.” a smile crept onto his face.

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tags !!

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[risetherivermoon]

Remus: i need to talk to Barty

Dorcas: now why would you need to do that?

Regulus: i dont think ive ever heard the phrase "need to talk" and "Barty" in the same sentence before

Remus: its an emergency-

Dorcas: what happened?

Remus: its a long story- about uh, my furry little problem

Regulus: oh, OH

Dorcas: furry?-

Regulus: jesus, does he know?

Remus: thats the problem, im not sure if he does, i was talking with Sirius in a classroom and he just flat out walked out in the middle

Regulus: and Barty is the worst gossip you'll ever meet-

Evan: why are we talking about Barty?

Regulus & Remus in unison: nothing!

Evan: i- what the hell?

Dorcas: Evan what is a furry little problem?

Evan: im sorry?

Remus: Rosier where the fuck is Barty

Evan: why does everyone always expect me to know what hes doing?

Regulus: so you don't know?

Evan: nah he's in the common room, but still!

Regulus: okay, ill go have a nice chat with him

Remus: thanks Reg

*Regulus leaves*

Evan: you and Barty hooking up or something?

Remus: what? no-

Dorcas: Lupin's too busy banging Reg's brother

Evan: ah, right, havent caught up on the recent gryffindor drama, you and mckinnon still having a lovers quarrel?

Dorcas: lovers- What?!

Evan: right you haven't realized you like like her yet, sorry, so much drama with those lions honestly

Remus: excuse me, i'm right here

Evan: yeah but technically you're a wolf, so

Remus, pulling out his wand: what did you just say? who told you?

Evan: oi! i found out on my own! i'm not as stupid as some of you people think i am, plus Barty's also known for ages,

Remus: HE HAS?!

Evan: well technically all of us besides Cas and Pandora, I know that Reg knows, but that one was pretty obvious

Dorcas: what the hell are we talking about?!

Remus: none of your business

Dorcas: damn

Evan: don't worry, we haven't told anyone! that would be cruel

Remus: and you and Barty aren't cruel?

Evan: you wound me, Lupin

Remus: Rosier, please

Evan, whispering: cross my heart, mate. honestly it doesn't seem to benefit anyone to know, but id suggest you tell your friends to stop talking so loudly, we know about their animagi, and when Reg finds out his boyfriend and brother are doing stupid shit like that he'll lose it.

Remus: fucking hell-

Barty: alright, whats the fuss about, why is Reggie pissy and why'd he threaten me

Evan: Bee, Lupin thinks you're gonna tell people about his furry little problem

Dorcas: for fucks sake-

Barty: oh! yeah nah, i've known for awhile, i won't say anything, not my secret to tell

Remus: im going to have an aneurysm

Regulus: wait- what? Rosier you know now?

Evan: I've known for a while, so has Bat, we both came to our own conclusions, we just tell eachother everything, so

Regulus: what?

Remus: apparently everyone knows about everything and im going to lose my fucking mind

Barty: we aren't gonna tell anyone, Dora and Cas still don't know

Dorcas: im so bloody confused right now, im gonna go talk to marlene,

Barty: ooo! have fun!

Evan: use protection!

Dorcas: fuck off you two!

Remus: im just- gonna take my crisis elsewhere, thanks Reggie

Regulus: uh, no problem Remus...

*Remus & Dorcas leave*

Evan: successfully confused the two smartest people we know, this is the best day ever

Barty: fuck yeah!

[sturniolo-alfredo]

Bad idea

Summary: Matthew sturniolo and Y/N Y/L/N are sworn enemies. They absolutely hate eachother. That all changes in one night, when matt gets a little too jealous.

Warnings: crying? Creepy man, cussing (think that's it)

Y/n's pov.

Me, matt, nick, and chris were all getting ready for a party we were gonna attend.I walk up the stairs from chris' room. "You guys ready?." I ask. Everybody nods their head. "Your really gonna go out wearing that?" Matt asks me in a bitchy tone. I was wearing a silk black dress that was short and barely covered my ass. "Yeah. You got something you wanna say about?" I clap back at matt. Matt just rolls his eyes and walks outside to the car.

We all get into the car. I'm sat in the back with Nick and mat and chris are in the front. "Can I have aux?" I ask, sick of the silence. "Yea-" Chris says before matt cuts him off "no y/n, no you cant" Matt says. "Well I wasn't asking you, dipshit" I yell at matt.

I snatch the phone from chris and start playing 'friends' by chase Atlantic. Matt slowly starts bopping his head to the song. "Not so mad now, huh?" I ask matt, teasing him. "Oh shut the fuck up" Matt says, rolling his eyes. "Matt! Don't speak to hear that way!" Nick yells. Matt scoffs but stays silent.

We arrive at the party and I start to wander off. I soon realize that I don't really know anyone here. I look around the room uncomfortably. 'Why did I even come?' I think to myself. Tears well in my eyes, I had nothing to cry about. I just didn't like anything at the party anymore and knowing that I had nothing to distract me made me even more upset.

I was just about to walk outside when I feel someone grab my arm. I turn around and see a random guy who was clearly drunk. "Hey honey, wanna have some fun?" The stranger asks. I laugh awkwardly "um no..I'm okay..I was actually just about to leave." I say. The guys grip gets stronger "leave? Why would you want to leave? The party just started" the man slurred. The tears I was holding back start flowing down my face. I was very embarrassed and I just wanted to leave. "Listen, I jus wanna go home, please let me go." I cry. The man opens his mouth to say something when he gets cut off.

"Let go of her." Matt's stern voice says. I turn to my right and see him glaring at the guy. "And what if I dont?" The creep smiles at matt. "If you don't, I will take off my shoelace and strangle you with it until your purple. Let her go, now." Matt says, stepping closer. The man let's go and glares at matt before walking away. I look a matt "um..thank you." I say, wiping my tears. Matt's eyes soften when he sees me "are you okay?" He asks, softly. I immediately start crying again. "No. I wanna go home" I sob. Matt nods and walks me outside. I assume matt was gonna keep walking to the car but he stops.

I turn around. Matt beckons me to come over. I walk right infront of him. "Did he do anything else to you? Because if he did, I will walk back in there and actually kill him" Matt says angry, looking me dead in the eyes. "No. I promise" I say gently. I move hair out of his face and tuck it behind his ear. Matt nodded his head and looks in my eyes again. Except this time it's different. There was no hatred in his eyes. No anger. Instead, it was concern. But not just concern. It was..love?

My eyes flick from Matt's eyes to his lips. His beautiful pink lips. "Eyes are up here, princess" Matt says smiling. I immediately look back into his blue eyes. Matt Leans in closer. So do I. "This is a bad idea" I whisper, leaning in closer.

"I know.." Matt says closing the gap between us and kissing me.

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( Hiiii my name is kiley and I'm sorta new to writing. Please please please tell me how this was. I'll write anything. I just need requests. Love you bye!!!)

[simcardiac-arrested]

Whats wrong with predator 2018?

it’s been like 10 days i’m tired but i CANNOT stay silent anymore The world deserves to know. you will not believe how awful this movie is

1. the moment the movie starts you just understand that it…is not going to be good. it was made in 2018 so of course it has that edgy self aware marvel humor of Uhmm he’s right behind me isn’t he ? (and then you check shane black’s other works and he directed iron man 3 and everything suddenly make sense) LIKE IM SERIOUS there’s just a scene in the first 10 minutes where this Woman In Stem character goes Lol why did we name this thing The Predator? it’s more like a Hunter or a Huntsman it’s more like a Bass Fisherman LIKE WHAT ARE YOU SAYING? WHAT AM I HEARING RN? it’s so fucking stupid and i hate this type of humor so much like CAN U BELIEVE WE’RE IN A MOVIE? ABOUT THE PREDATOR (DUMBASS NAME (LOL))????

2. i mention the Woman In Stem character specifically because she is. also not good. i’m not going to act like the predator movies have always been the best with female characters (even 1987 has its issues) but at least they were actually BEARABLE. The girl character in this movie is just like. this annoying 2010s smartass quirky girl archetype that we put in our movie because you wanted Women(tm) right? there she is we even made her quirky!!! we’re not going to give her a single likable quality though. we’re going to write her Bad . is this what u wanted ?

3. which is not trying to imply that the other characters are written Good . they’re all written Bad they all fucking suck. none of them have any charm or likable qualities and there’s nothing to get invested in. AND THEY DON’T HAVE ANY FUCKING DYNAMICS BETWEEN EACHOTHER!!!! it’s like they just exist in the same space and that’s It . they don’t get any interesting relationships or interactions . they’re all just so nothing

4. like halfway through the movie it just turns into unapologetic US army propaganda—which is fucking ironic if you know what the original predator was made for (commentary about american terrorism in central america in the 80s under reagan)—the main character’s wife just starts suddenly going off about how he’s so cool and doing so much for his country and he’s in the army waowww wowww We need to shoot everyone who’s worked on this movie and im serious.

5. i…..do not know who this movie was made for. like who is it supposed to cater to? one of its main things is autism and mental illness and yet it has the shittiest portrayal of both. But especially autism. like what if we made a movie about how autism is the next step in human evolution (?!) and autistic people are like superheroes basically (?!?!!!?) and the entire plot hinges on the fact that The Predator wants to become autistic by stealing the autistic character’s autism dna (?!?!?!?!?!?!?? WHAT? WHY ARE THERE EUGENICS IN MY PREDATOR MOVIE? IS ANYONE ELSE SEEING THIS?) (and then the autistic character in question like. actually has unironic superpowers. look he gets overwhelmed by sounds but he can instantly understand and translate predator’s alien language!!!!!!!!) And then the next minute one of the characters says Lol isn’t it crazy how we can’t say the r slur anymore? Fucked up world. LIKE SERIOUSLY WHO IS THIS MOVIE FOR? I FEEL LIKE THIS MOVIE WOULD PISS OFF BOTH THE “WOKE” AND THE “EDGY ALT RIGHT” AUDIENCES EQUALLY . shane black probably thinks autism speaks is a charity i dont even know

6. too much predator in this movie. When i say that they should make a predator movie where every scene has the predator in it YOU SHOULDNT FUCKING LISTEN TO ME IM JUST AUTISTIC. a predator movie is a THRILLER The Fucking Predator himself should appear like. a few times at least until the climax. but nooo this 2018 ass movie just has the predator running around in every scene (btw this predator moves really fucking weird in a human way. Like they usually at least make him move semi alien-like and uncannily, but this movie didnt even bother with that) (also their design is uglier than the original) (also it suffers from the same problem as the 2010 movie by adding a Bigger Cooler Buffer Awesomer Deadlier New Predator LIKE WHO ASKED FOR THIS. WAS MY OG WIFE NOT ENOUGH FOR U) Anyway yeah if you didnt get it yet: this movie doesnt understand what impact or subtlety is. at all

7. the worst thing is with the finale. you see every predator sequel loves to reference the original 1987 movie because well, it’s iconic! it has a lot of meaningful moments and lines! Specifically in the ending of the original movie, where the main character asks the predator “what the hell are you?” and the predator echoes it back at him. Supposed to symbolize us army = monsters who kill without meaning yadda yadda u get it. anyway so in the 2018 movie finale they start to reference this moment too. the main character asks And what the fuck are you (ooo f bomb we’re SOOOO edgy and 2018core) and when the predator starts asking it back the main character just goes SHUT THE FUCK UP😂 and shoots him. it’s like. my hatred for this movie was indescribable at that moment. I’ve never actually genuinely watched a marvel movie so i just took people at their word when they said it was a genre of movie that fucking hated movies. but after watching the predator (2018) which is basically a marvel version of predator? yeah i get it. What if they made a movie that hated its source material and had 0 respect for it. and also hated its audience. and hated being a movie

8. they made the dogs ugly

[the-sour-patch-crew]

It's always fascinating finding out people have us blocked that we have never interacted with. Overall, I like to think we've never been antagonistic towards anyone in tags. Never attacked anyone. Never harassed. We've been very civil, even in our disagreements (that I recall at least). We have a few side blogs, and not many people have the main account blocked, so I always find out only after I go to make a comment and then see what accounts are greyed out. Silly little bonus feature of side blogs.

So

Is it because we sometimes have syscourse?

Is it because we are endogenic or identity as mixed origin?

Is it because we support all forms of plurality?

It's an amusing game. People may block for so many reasons, but those are the three main things we can think of. It's particularly amusing when people love or agree with things on our side blog but apparently hate this account. Extra funny.

If it's because people think we are toxic or out to get systems and corrupt singlets and poison traumagenic systems, then I feel quite awful for someone living in such a fearful and distorted outlook on life and others. Well, if that was the case, then why is our popular side blog not blocked? That blog is all of those things and very loud about it. But also, my partner is a DID system. I am very, very aware that multiplicity is not a silly little game. To say I spread misinformation and am bad for CDD systems blows my mind when I spend every day supporting one. What happens on Tumblr is pointless at the end of the day because what *really* matters is the support and understanding I give to them. We are a living example of how STUPID syscourse is between endogenic and traumagenic systems. Get the fuck off of social media and actually spend time supporting eachother instead of fighting.

Oh! Mayhaps it's our age. It's always interesting when it's our age. I promise we are not creeps and are quite safe to be around. Siblings, work, friends, and online communities have made me very aware of what is appropriate and how to coexist amongst a wide age range of people. I wanted to be a teacher once, and still would love to be an elementary art teacher. I promise I don't bite.

Maybe it's our fictives. I know some people cannot stand their sources or them as individuals. Which again is quite sad. Ashe and Alastor are both amazing people. I dont think I've met a single person who didn't like Ashe once they got talking with her (minus like two assholes that were ultimately voted as assholes by the entire server lol). I point her out because she's been here the longest and I owe her a lot so yeah I kinda play favorites a bit. Because I honestly love her. I say this with all the love for Al and the newest member. They aren't hurt by me saying that. They get it. Honestly, I don't think Al cares enough to be offended.

Maybe it's because I'm a furry. People always hate on furries. But that's okay. People hate on anyone who is different from them. Its why the furry, queer, and alterhuman community are so tight-knit. I'm just a silly fox in the end.

Is it because I'm critical of behavior and use of terms by people who kff or are transid? Is it because I'm thiiiiis close to being that "awful" trans guy that would still classify himself as a lesbian if only I could stop shifting gender representation every few years?

Is it because I'm working through trauma and people think that suddenly makes me being endogenic a lie? Is that the proof that people need to hate me? You hate systems with trauma and you hate systems without it. There's no winning.

Is it because I promote daemonism? *GASPS*

I'm not mad at being blocked. The internet hates and blocks people for so many reasons. I block a specific group of people every time we see them in the tags. I do it because I TRY to live by the motto if I have nothing nice to say I shouldn't say it at all. I also apply this to thoughts. If I see posts that constantly make me think shitty things about people and they aren't actively harming me or the people I care for, I block them. Because placing that into the universe is kinda fucked, even if they never would know about it.

I don't NEED people to like me. But I'll admit it's been a HUGE hurdle in my life. Trying to not care about what others think about me has always been a major issue growing up. I think everyone and anyone can relate to that. There's a saying I try and keep to and its how I'm going to end this post. [GRANTED this post has been an intoxicated, headache fueled rant at 2 in the morning. We all know how things get around 2 and 3. That's when shit gets fun (no it really doesn't I just want to sleep please) ]

[tamorisana]

thank @mylarena ty for making me have gay about vampires thoughts.

okay. so we where talking the other day (literally 10 minutes ago as i write) and she said "having your blood drinken, giving a right to drink your blood is homoerotic" (not literal quote). AND I AGREE.

now come closer and listen. ill take alerudy because im starting for them and it will not cause much problems for most of people and make them see my point but i see rudy as a vampire who was raised in a foster human family. where he was dismissed for his needs (literally why adopt vampire.) and he just grew up like so, always hungry, smaller from not having a constant flow of blood in his body which causes health problems

and he meets alejandro

now, rudy is about 10 and ale is about 12 and the first one has like no friends except for his brother and brothers friends, who to their credit really did try to include him in almost all activities they had despite the age gap or he would sit with them listening while they talked about a game or smt and feel nice bc they let him enjoy the company, and ale is a type of kid to know everyone but having just a couple of kids who are considered friends.

and they meet and they don't hit it off immediately. alejandro is terrified of vampire because of stories about them as well as thinks the younger just wants his blood and rudy hates it. he hates being seen as nothing but a blood sucking monster so he just turns around, leaves angry ale to stand silent and shocked. its a way he solves this problem. very effective one, most are just too stunned to continue speaking. at this point you look at me up and down and think "fucking idiot! what are you doing?? what are you doing!?! how will they be with together if you refuse to make them friends??" yes they aren't friends right away.

but such reaction sparkes something. ale expected the boy to scream at him, be angry and jump on him, bite him. but he didn't. he looked more upset than disappointed and he just turned away and left. he may have left physically but still present in the back of his head.

and its a start, he looks out to him every time he can to ask why? if alejandro intrigued he will get and know anything he wants. the next time its cloudy he searches narrowly for rodolfo (pretty name. he had an uncle with same name and he was the best) and finds him quickly. he apologizes, gives rudy a candy his Abuela bought for him and a little cartoon of coconut milk.

and thats a start to them.

in a few weeks they are inseparable. in years basically glued to eachother. there are no alejandro without rodolfo and there is not rodolfo with out alejandro. they are 15 and 17 when rudy runs out of coconut milk and is about to close himself in basement until his parents finally buy some when his partner in crime says:

"why dont you drink from me?"

and is met with absolute no. he wont do that. he wont use him for blood. ale is a brother a friend, a dearest one and he does no such thing only of hunger. warm hands grab his shoulders to bring back to earth.

"rudy. look at me, i asked only because i trust you and with your control. idiot. i offer because i want you nicely fed and shit"

and they make an agreement. rudy gets his blood when absolutely needed and alejandro gets the language and math homeworks and help if he needs one. this goes on for years. even when they join the military.

i got distracted and lost the thought. ill continue this one day with these characters or other ones. i also have many siren!rudy and human or werewolf!ale if anyone wants them

[pacifymebby]

i think backgrounds is a thing but also kind of like what they stand for. R is rich and privileged living off her parents money (which is fine) and constantly jetting off to places lol (again fine) and doesn’t have a job or even need one tbh like that’s literally unheard of in the north like you literally need a job to afford a living

I get the crux of what you're saying here but I promise you there is a "posh" north and it's somehow even more horrifying than posh London

But aye those experiences are what shape your values

Thing is can any of us say we don't want to better our futures and give our kids better futures?

I for one hope that one day I'm well off enough that if my kids graduate uni and they don't know what to do with themselves and are trying to break into a tricky industry, they can come home to the family house and keep working on their goals? Like I wouldn't want me kids dossing but id fucking hate to think I'm working my arse off now so that one day in the future I can force my kids to slog it too?

Like I really get where all these anons are coming from about the culture clash and about like how it isn't fair that certain people have life so so much easier, and also like how it's weird that a man who's made a lot of being "rags to riches" is now seemingly dating someone with different principles so is kinda sacrificing his own BUT

1) it's only dating

2) no one in poverty wants to remain on the poverty line, I really don't blame him for "social climbing" he's having experiences that were barred from him by the class system for a long time and that can only be a good thing.

3) maybe he's not sacrificing his principles, I've seen very privileged women learn/grow when they've been in relationships with people from poorer backgrounds (relationships teach both people different things afterall)

4) he's not a hypocrite for shagging. He isn't sacrificing any principles by dating someone middle class. If anything it's weird to say that all working class people must remain completely true to their poverty stricken roots, that only reinforces class structure and makes certain things "not for us" like would you say it's sacrificing principles for a v working class lad from Stockport to go to Oxford? Is he a class traitor? Am I a class traitor for buying a gingerbread man in Morrisons or like idk Waitrose one time? Is it class traitory for working class people to go to art galleries, or listen to classical music, or learn to play the flute, or read lit fiction?

Do you see what I mean like, there's loads of things deemed middle class which have always been "not for the likes of us" but if we start saying any working class person who engages with those things is a traitor to their class then we're the ones reinforcing the structure that oppresses us?

Like idk, I tryyy very hard these days not to judge people who are middle class, because I do know nice people who are, my dad's got some lovely middle class friends... lots of the people I've met in Scotland that are southern English middle class snd have moved up here for cheap rent are nauseating cunts but idk, best to give people the benefit of the doubt until they actually start on the "i just dont see why we should give free school meals to children just because their parents smoke 40 a day and want the latest iphone" rant

The best situ for them is class divide causes misunderstandings and mild irritation but they are happy together anyway and it's not a deep problem. the worst is that the relationship falls apart because they can't understand eachother (this is usually what brings down all relationships though even ones that are class balanced? Is that a phrase that felt weird to write?) Like I grew to fucking despise my ex for being privileged and out of touch but I wouldn't wish that on anyone lol I lost a bestie and it sucked!!

Anyway my point is mostly just that you don't know them at all and to hold your horses accusing anyone of abandoning their principles just for dating someone from a different class background that's meh

Obvs btw anon not all of this is aimed at you in anyway because you aren't the one who has sent me all these things, it's just yours is so far one of the only ones that's on theme with the other anons that's polite enough to post. Some of the stuff in my inbox right now is harshhhh

[castlebyersafterdark]

idk what it is but all this pining for steve is making me want him less lol. more for you vinny i guess! i loved him in s3 but in s4 he's just too... nice. the dad of 8 kids vibe does not do it for me. and he looks soooo dad in those s5 loafers and with that hair.

as for heteronormativity anon, who is probs long gone by now, i find myself defending it as a cognitive concept. its a societal issue, but i feel like bylers use it to degrade individual milevens, who instead should be judged for their homophobia, arrogance about storytelling, or extreme denial. i would say the main prescription of anyone who is still left shipping mileven is denial due to unhealthy emotional attachment; meanwhile, general byler antis who dont necessarily care for mileven are either blind to storytelling or homophobic.

as for heteronormativity, its understandable when you think about what exactly IS it that sets romance apart from platonic love? we love byler because theyre friends, but what shape is the love and romance? is it devotion? friends can do that. is it care? attention? friends can do that too. is it in sexual attraction? well, some would argue they fall in love but don't feel sexual attraction. or that sex is secondary. is it in the extent of all these things and how they all contextually tie together that makes byler feel romantic? i would say: yes.

romantic love looks different for every couple, but the only things we have to share and empathise and express this with others outside of the couple are institutions such marriage, living together, children, sharing lives, and other gestures. think of trying to explain to anyone how or why you love your partner without sounding trite or cheesy or tired. its so unique to the experience of being in it. and what some would see as the peak of romance, others wouldnt. so if we're telling stories - or indeed relating to eachother as humans - there needs to be a shared understanding of what could be considered love, romance, or friendship.

so you can see that, in society that has a fairly good reason to expect men and women to be attracted to each other due to biological evolution, most people expect and subconsciously look for signs of more-than-friendship love and affection in different-sex pairings. it is literally, in a way, survival.

society is changing and more people are opening up to see queerness everywhere, and see the beauty of it. but there's no way people are ever going to stop thinking about mixed gender potential couples, because there's a biological hardwiring for het people to see heterosexuality that in others. even though, to queer folk, straight life seems easy to find partnership, its not straightforward and there are plenty of reasons why its hard. its comparatively easier than being queer, but its still uniquely hard for each person to find love, no matter their sexuality.

so... until there are more queer folk than het in the world, i don't think it will change. i can see how alienating it is to always be thought of second, but its the nature of being queer in a mostly het world. i dont think heteronormativity is objectively bad, not unless there is also prejudice and hate accompanying it. and plenty of straight folks will watch byler and think 'that's fucking beautiful.' they just probs won't be as invested as queer folk are, and you can understand that! and there are also lots of allies and straight people invested in queer stories, who did pick up on byler, but usually they have their own reasons for being so invested, such as relating to the outsiderness of queerness despite not being queer themselves.

Hmm, I can see what you mean but it's funny because I'm into Steve even more this way!! Entirely think it's a clothes making the man idea here. I like my Steve dorky and a little strange. Or classic Steve. I'd say this combines the best of. He was hottest in season one and three. But that look? Dressed like that and possibly road-tripping with Dustin? Cute!! Endearing. Love the fit. I don't like "babysitter Steve" because it's such a wider audience cliche by now, but I do think genuine moments with Dustin are great. And them spending all that time together?? Driving cross country or wherever? Really love that. Hope that's the Steve we're getting and it improves on season 4 Steve, one of my least fave character variations.

Onto the rest. "...who instead should be judged for their homophobia, arrogance about storytelling, or extreme denial." This is accurate, this is the core of that fanbase. And yeah, it might be unfair to those who aren't of these descriptors, but it's helpful in understanding. And reading through - I do see your point overall here and not negating any of that, that's all accurate and true, better or for worse. And is all the very definition of heteronormative thinking in society. Right there in the name. Normal straight culture. I mean, yeah in regards to romance people are going to fall to doing all that for any standard media and scrutinize the possibility for a man and woman towards a relationship where something queer is ignored or not seen or shocks.

It's not untrue to say there's more straight people out there. Accurate statistic. But that's the whole point - the want for acknowledgement of different lifestyle, lives lived. It's less about how romance is generally difficult, because yes, and more the media angle of all a man and woman need do is be put on screen together and stand there and the work is already done for the audience to accept and root for them. That's heteronormativity. That's what queer characters are up against in front of the audience. It's rarely that easy (some may chime in and say fandom does that with any two random men in proximity but ok - is fandom real life and an accurate view of society? No).

I definitely don't think you said anything untrue. The point and wish I guess, what were up against, is that assuming mindset where everything is straight = default. And a hope that at some mystical point, media and fiction is approached neutrally, where the assumption isn’t completely hardwired or challenging it at least isn't shocking if the default still remains, however unrealistic to think that the default will ever truly disappear. It's tolerance -> acceptance -> celebration. We're barely into the first one, overall.

[melissa-titanium]

Ive never watched mp100 so Idk anything about Mob but im genuinely curious, why do people keep drawing Mob & Six together as friends? (not hating on it btw I love it actually lol) im just curious as to how they would work as friends lol

ITS FUNNY BECAUSE. I DONT THINK IVE EVER ACTUALLY SEEN THAT FRIENDSHIP PAIRIG BEFORE ? ??? unless i am wildly stupid and rbed a post about it a while back... im not sure. w/e

six is obviously a VERY flighty kid, constantly ready to book it the hell out of wherever shes at. smart, determined, and after ln2 she won't stop for anything or anyone who could potentially slow her down. unwilling to form companions, after haivng already caused grief for two in the past.

i think shigeo's patience and general non assertiveness would leave them good friends. not only that but their shared experiences in hurting someone they love & self isolating as a way to not let anything like it happen again.

i feel like six feels she's at blame for rcg's death & the reason she dropped mono felt to me as like "you hurt me, i hurt you, it's better if we split so i don't do anything else" inadvertently causing a self fulfilling prophecy for the both of them.

shige hurting ritsu. his solution to having it never happen again is push down any sense of the thing that caused it -- his powers, and by extension, his emotions. some level of self isolation, aNOTHER self fulfilling prophecy directly accumulating towards meltdowns that have similarly devastating affects.

obviously i don't think they'd understand their similarities from a narrative perspective because they only have their own experiences to go by but. im not sure how they'd even meet. assuming six was out of the nowhere, somehow got trapped in a space with shige, i think they'd chill.

ofc six being six she'd lose her shit scared, but i dont think shige would have any reason to bother her. say theyre in the s&s office. she hides under a table or some shit. she recognizes hes a kid though obviously so its not like fuck, how do i kill him? fear its more like fuck, unfamiliar kid i could potentially hurt, what do i do?

shige's generally unintimidating aura and autistic swag would def help her chill. he doesnt need to talk, she doesnt need to talk, they just sit in calm silence. shige has always seemed like a steady calm figure and obv that would help six. autism to autism communication. non communication? ive always seen six as nonverbal or semiverbal. they send brain waves to eachother

i can totally see them just hanging out. how? not sure. considering six would probably try to find some way to kill any adult she sees or like crawl under benches or into trash cans to get away. six would definitely be afraid of shiges powers but thats whats cool about them is that he Almost Never Uses Them so at the point where he does end up using them shes probably chill enough around him that she doesnt freak the fuck out and start mauling him. its like befriending a stray cat except the cat is very much not a cat, it is a severely traumatized 9 year old who has never been to school and most likely has never seen anyone over the age of 11 who hasnt tried to kill her. its actually hard for me to think about how theyd be with one another ill have to think on this...

[done-drinking]

Have i fucking ever given you a reason to think im a scumbag, think real fucking hard. After everything we went through, all the support, all the "love" and appreciation for eachother. I have been nothing but there for you. I have done nothing but try to be understanding towards you and patient. Sometimes we didnt communicate and it made things difficult, but was i a scumbag? Did i ever do anything to you or anyone to make you think i didnt try my best to be there or helpful or a good fucking person. I dont like drama, i dont hate anyone, i dont want to see anyone upset or angry, especially you. You deserve the fucking world, everyone does. So what the fuck happened man, what makes you think i was actually talking shit about you. Whos twisting my words or your mind and why was it so easy for you to disregard all ive been towards you over the past year. Best manager ive ever had and one of my best friends, you got me my job and ive been slowly recovering and pleased to be there. Now what, you think im so much of an asshole you guys banned me from the stores and were ready to press charges over something i said? What did i say, fucking call me and tell me. Cuz i dont fucking know. If you think i drunk talked to people i havent. I havent been drunk at work since you told me to never do it again, and that was when i was working for you. Drunk now? Drunk texting people at my job now? No, and no. Im about to go to work and be anxious about how everyone there probably thinks im a scumbag now, whole town probably lowkey thinks it because thats the kind of place it is. All regulars, lots of drama. If i wanted to make your life hell i couldve told everyone we fucking slept together, an obvious lie and we both know it but everyone else would question and talk about it. That would be a scumbag move. Would i? No, never, even now being as pissed off as i am. I respected your requests. The "dont text back, delete those posts, etc". I lied to him about kissing you, all of it to help try and keep your mental state okay while mine fucking broke. Ive only ever spoken highly of you at my job. Ive lied so much to the people asking why i quit working for you to save your image because i still fucking care about you. "I left because i didnt enjoy some of the people i worked with and it was just a stressful environment to work in, or just needed to feel like i was moving up in the world or needed a change of pace". You dont think im important anymore or am not a good person? Who are you. What the fuck happened to you man. We were good friends and you were so quick to toss me aside fucking multiple time. Getting past the "relationship" was a good reason to toss me aside. It def helped us both give up on that, but tossing aside our friendship like we didnt have one. Tossing me aside now, thinking ive just became an asshole in the past few weeks and am trying to shit on your life? Are you just saying all this to try and get past me or what idk man, if you are and care about me at all anymore then please fucking stop because youre hurting me even more. Like what the fuck man. Im so pissed off at you right now, and i should hate you but i just fucking cant and thats pissing me off even more. Forgive all my swearing to any christians reading this if anyone reads this at all, but i try to be a man of God and you know that too. So i forgive you for thinking im some cunt now. I forgive you for the emotional rollercoaster waiting for you to change was. You said you ruined my life, you didnt. You damaged me and broke me but i forgive you, im repairable. I still have my whole life ahead of me. I wasnt it, i wasnt enough, i wasnt the one, i wasnt important, everything you said i was, wasnt, even though you said you meant everything you say to me. Its all very clear to me now thank you. I forgive you. Youve really pissed me tf off though. Youve always wondered/wanted to see me get pissed off, well here it is, congrats you did it.

[hellofears]

i am so tired and fuckn over existentially like i can say this and it do jack shit of 'leaders' using the ppl of the country etc they 'lead' using the public as pawns and fucking numbers to throw away for jackshit if your ass wants to fight and be dickheads so bad how about you keep it between yourselves none of this we all go down for u bs and u brawl it out a good one two and leave the ppl in peace because u want all the violence and horrors and pain and torture but u dont wanna go through any of it and i'm tired. why do ppl have to suffer for u. if u bitches want destruction how about u get on the frontlines and all the dicks with u on that go with u too and get it over with and leave everyone else alone because its tired and ur fucking pathetic. You motherfuckers want to act crazy and who gets the brunt? the public! those who weren't there and mostly didn't have any say enough of this u xyz so i kill the people of the country ur meant to represent and more we just leave the ppl alone and get u off the map. Because idc what bs they wanna spill oh we're here for u i dont wanna abc the public, THEN DON'T LEAD US TO RUIN PAIN HARM AND MURDER U DUMB FUCK. why are you being protected over everybody else? what is going on well and truly keep the beef to those it links to okay because killing the public hurting the public isn't hurting the individual who xy n z'ed they do not give a fuck keep it in ur box and keep it moving because its so fuckiong dumb. we should be loving and loyal to one another and the ppl the animals of this world because thats all we have not playing some dumb game of chess with real lives u twats its so it just happens over and over and i am its so fucking dumb its so complicated but its so not at the same time. we're all going to fucking die why can't u guys just let ppl have community embrace eachother respect one another etc?? do u need that land that mfckn bad? and if so why can't u just collaberate and try n positively impact and benefit eachother? why r u being a greedy dumb fuck instead of prioritizing longevity of life histories and lives? why not try and instill long bonds and respect and care why not come together as one and try and come to the best for both parties why r u making greedy decisions that aren't good in the long run only help a small percentage of the population etc etc and why are ppl so loyal to ppl they've never met and even if they have they don't gaf anyway. why r people against others for no reason its insane. u hate someone cause they're black? who are we? where are we? what are we doing? why did anyone even think anyhting of the fucking sort that that called for anything of such horrors? it is absolutely fucking bs and i'm so tired and i can't imagine how so many ppl in all sorts of positions are tired or those in even worse horrible positions fucking feel its dumbassery is what it is and ur sick and don't deserve respect when u can't have enough to realize ppls lives from all walks of life have weight

[bishiglomper]

I had a Beetlejuice dream. Which was very cute..

I was running out of time to get my shit together (I was occupying a hotel room or something) before I had to be gone because otherworldly demony things were about to show up and you did not want to be on their turf when they clocked in. 👀

Well. I wasn't making it. Grabby little demon hands were snickering at me from under the bed, snarling and threatening me. I was just about to make it out when some hot demony consort guy was like "nope you're mine now, too late."

Now i know that was somehow against the rules, and suddenly an imposing boobily queenly demoness (sillhouette mostly, I didnt actually see her) popped in all like "I KNOW YOU DID NOT JUST PULL THAT SHIT" (but more eloquent)

It was very impressive, the demon at first was like 'who tf are you' but then was like 'oh shit.'

So the demoness reminded him of the law and at the same time i was high tailing it outta there. I left stuff behind. My phone. 😭 just grabbed a half full suitcase.

As I'm leaving i realize thats not actually the queen demoness. Is imposter. Dream intuition told me it was Beetlejuice saving my ass. 👀 Like, i dont even think he knows me, he just saw a chance to fuck with people for the lols

Next thing i know I'm walking down a sidewalk with lots of trees around. Looks like the street my aunt used to live on lol

Im thinking "that was so sweet 😭" and i wanna thank him and make sure he got out of there okay, because let's be honest, I can imagine his plan falling through with him ending up being chased by a demon horde or something for trying to pull that shit. 🤣 It's musical!juice in my dream, but he does have cartoon inspiration... 👀

So I'm alone on a pitch black road, hills and skinny trees on either side. And I try to summon Beetlejuice. It took 3x before anyrhing happened. I mean I had to "beetlejuice beetlejuice beetlejuice" 3x. Which should have canceled one out, but i digress. The wind whipped up all spookily and then hes there behind me.

So I thanked him and he was his obnoxious and charming self but like. Really curious about how tf i knew him, but whatever. And i remember lamenting about my phone. And hes like "oh, this one?" And pulls it out of a mysterious outside pocket from my suitcase. My hero 😁

Then the dream kind of fudged with the plot and there were other people, but we ended up in a van and I planned on taking him home with me.

Oh yeah, part of the whole "how do you know who i am? Do i know you?" Conversation went like:

"I'll keep you summoned as long as you promise not to kill anyone. And are able to keep that promise."

"You do know me!"

hejfjfksbj 🤣

And then it got a little gooey, I remember petting his head and of course he melted because that's like my favorite musicaljuice trope. 😌

Nothing real interesting happened after that other than me trying to figure out what to do with a semi-manifested demon in my room while we had awkward gooey feelings for eachother.

But when i woke up it reminded me that even if my brain tries to spice things up, my subconcious is still pretty ace. Its so funny sometimes. 🤣 He tried to kiss me but he ended up just. sucking on my face which literally just made me think of how a baby kisses. Just an open AWOOMM to my cheek. Like wtf. 😂 And anything involving a bed just ends up with cuddles. 🙄😗

And y'know, i concede to being a monsterfucker. I think its funny. Especially since even my sister is like "Thats why you haven't found anyone, your type doesnt exist on this plane!" But especially as an aego-ace. Sex is fine fictionally. I still identify as ace because I'll never meet the right ghoul, so... yeah.

But I need to know if there's a monsterfucker pride flag because I have a mighty need. 👀

[johnnykavs]

do you want to know why i cant look at you in the eyes? why i avoid looking at you when you are looking at me?

probably not but im going to tell you anyway because i feel like 1. you deserve to know 2. youll hopefully have some understanding on what goes on inside me whenever ido look at you 3. because i need to let it out.

your eyes have always been your tell and my weak spot, i dont know if its because they say things you want to avoid or because theyre just easy to get lost in but looking at you, looking into your eyes it used to be my favorite thing.

your eyes have always been my weak spot since the day we met, i felt a sense of comfort whenever i looked into them. the brown in them felt like a blanket so when you looked at me or used to look at me i felt a sense of comfortability, its different to the safety and peace i feel when your arms are around me. they were also your biggest tell, when you were feeling things you didnt want to talk about youd always avoid eye contact or your eyes would be glossy, it almost made me feel cold but it was the only way i could tell or feel your raw emotion.

so when you look at me now, i cant help but see the year eight i fell inlove with and the look in your eyes when we do look at eachother or i do catch you looking at me is either the same way you used to look at me or its resentment and i dont know if when you look at me you see the same or feel the same but it sucks.

seeing the year eight i fell inlove with sucks because iforget who i am, how old i am and how long its been since we were actually close and inseprable, then im thrown back into reality where i cant look at you in the eyes without it being awkward or causing some sort of pain within me, its a reality where we only talk through texting. where being around eachother sucks because theres still things we still havent talked about or because its simply to hard to be around eachother.

then that second look the resentment it just reminds me how much of your trust ive actually lost and how much i actully hurt you and i hate it because no matter how much we say or try to fix it, nothing really changes we are still strangers and i barely know you and i used to know you better than anyone and now i dont even know the smallest thing about u.

i know who you used to be, who you were with me but this you is a complete stranger and it sucks because i want to know you, you are worth the time and effort to know, if i could love you as a friend to make this easier then i would but i cant because im in love with you and i have been in love with you since i was 13 but i was in love with the 13 year old version of you.

i cant seem to seperate the two when you look at me the same way you used to when we were kids, even if it is unintentional or you dont feel it. for all i know you could look at me the same but feel nothing for me.

fuck you and your eyes for making me this uncertain. i need you too tell me you dont feel anything for me romantically so i can let go of this hope ive been holding onto for all the time.

so i can move on without feeling guilty.

[celestial-sadgirl]

Spoilers for Fantasy High Junior Year Ep. 1 Below The Cut

As well as my mostly nonsense commentary

Songs a banger. We knew this.

The new dome set is so cool. Rick Perry. Legend.

If we let Brennan snack then we should let Emily French Press

HOOT GROWL!

BOX OUT

Holding hands cause the smaller table 😫

NEW MAP NEW MAP NEW MAP

OMG THE NEW DOME PROJECTIONS

I never thought about it but for some reason the Night Yorb being manta-ray shaped makes SO much sense

Yorbies

Hangvan leveled up

TWO MINIS?!?!

Skater and Non-Skater Fig. I’m obsessed

Feel like Gorgus is going through a “car guy” arc with the hangvan

Ok I feel terrible cause I’ve watched all of Fantasy High and FHSY and all the one shots, but I have no memory of Squeem. I LOVE HIM THOUGH

Adaine being able to call herself a cool kid means the world to me

DONT GIVE BRENNAN ANOTHER DOG TO KILL

Moggy The Doggy I love you

Ok same as Squeem, who is Gorgus Homunculus?

BABY!

Love that he serves no purpose other than to be annoying.

Fabian being stuck in the van with baby is so funny

I need to know how Brennan statted the battle sheet

Seated minis?!

Rick, you are incredible.

Ecaf?!??

Who are all these new companions? I feel like I’m going crazy

Since when does Fabian have a mirror he flirts with???

What did I miss??????????

Jacked Kristen Applebees

Also I haven’t seen anyone mention that Kristen is fully wearing the Kill Bill tracksuit

I’m still not over how I feel about Riz’s new art

Ring Guy Riz Gukgak

Good to know even with Riz’s glow up he’s still a fucking dork

Immediately bullying Riz’s mini for not having rings. I’ve missed the intrepid heroes so much

Sleven

Opening the season with a battle already halfway through is such a cool concept and such an incredible way to get us into season 3

Obsessed with Riz over justifying all his fashion choices

Hot inspector gadget. Yep.

Ok seriously who is this horny ass mirror

Aww comparing their first table jumping failed combat to halving half of them just chilling on top of a moving van

Not bad kids related but I absolutely love Lou’s orange mushroom shirt

LOU WILSON GET NEW DIE

wtf Fabian’s first roll is fucking Nat1

Straight Facts Siobhan. Teenage boys are so fucking reckless and dumb

The rest of the intrepid heroes need to just kidnap Lou’s dice at this point

Fabian getting stuck in the grate. Who else do we know who once got stuck under then Hangvan

Ok I’m gonna need close up pictures up every single mini

Silvery Barbs is such a good spell.

Emily and Muprh flirting by giving eachother advantage on their Silver Barbs.

Of fucking course Ally rolls a Nat20 immediately

A lot of their new gear seems to be specifically for defeating the Night Yorb. I wonder what else we’ll see the Solar Lasso do

I wanna inhale the night

I’m ready for the well-rolling murph era

First weird drink reference from Ally Beardsley: Yerba Mate

Why is Kristen being so rude to Cassandra?

(I know why. Babe, stop creating deities and then ghosting em)

Hot Take, I think it’d be cool if Kristen switched classes. I mean idk if being a cleric is working out for her.

Hey it’s ok Zac, you don’t have to trade your dice. Don’t succumb to peer pressure.

Emily gleefully yelling “40 Damage!” over the sound of everyone bullying Zac

WHO IS SQUEEM?!!

Why does it have kissable lips?👄

Wait it’s an eye?

Omg the pins on Adaine’s jean jacket! So cool

Brennan changing his voice based on what element his npc is made out of. Truly built in a lab to be a GM behaviour

God the bad kids are treating gorgus van so bad and that is so real for teens

I knew guys who jumped on the hood of their friends car while borrowing it. And it 100% broke it. The guy was without his car for almost a year, and idk if they dudes who broke the car even paid him for it.

I hate(love) Brennan’s stupid face when he’s shaking a shit load of die menacingly and just waiting for his players to notice. Bad Guy Shit

Siobhan’s PC dying in the first combat of the season will never get old.

Ally reading their spell cards is coming to wreck Brennans shit up

Siobhan simultaneously roasting Lou and Murph when she’s the one rolling like shit is incredible

Wait so Kristen is getting her spells from getting swole?

I hope if we see the dust mephits again they name them Eugene, Zack, and Keith. The Dry guys

Murph dropping the pop culture reference for once with “Speed” and Ally immediately hopping on is so funny and cute

Balthazar and Duggan McCann

Ok I know I’m not going crazy, this is some weird bit. Introducing all these new NPCs as if they are beloved favourites.

Having the huge parts of the season just be one big offscreen inside joke is both infuriating and hilarious

Is this a dream battle or smth. It feels like one long drug induced dream combat

The Vulture Returns!

One of these days Brennan will make a vulture important just to fuck with the Intrepid Hero’s

Just to be clear I do love all the new characters, Balthazar seems dope. I just am very confused

So much to say about Fabian and Ecaf, cont write it all here rn. Will have to make separate post

RIP Balthazar, we hardly knew ya. Good luck to your 6 month old parrots

Mid combat emailing is no longer just for Ally

It’s so cute whenever Murph backs Brennan up as a GM when the cast starts to tease him for shit like Yathmags. And Brennan always appreciates the empathy of a fellow GM.

Yathmags being called Yas Queens = Corn Gremlings being called Corn Cuties

Poor Cassandra

Come on Balthazar your Parrots need you

The Beans are back!

First Panic Attack. I love this mechanic so much

Hey no! Brennan, stop giving fig an existential crisis. It’s not time for them to drift apart yet! It’s only ep 1

Oooh what secret magic does Fig have?

Arch devil shit?

Wait what is this

Fig getting tired of adventure noooo

WAIT WHAT NO. BRENNAN.

Also this was kinda short.

God that was good

Ok so I might make a few more posts expanding on some of the thoughts here. I doubt anyone read this the whole way through lmao.

So fucking excited for the rest of the season. Im gonna try and do this for every episode

Instead of live blogging I’m just gonna write all my thoughts about the Fantasy High Junior Year Premier down and then post them all at once as soon as the episode ends