๐๐ธ๐ธ๐ด ๐ค๐น ๐๐ฝ ๐ฃ๐ฑ๐ฎ ๐ข๐ฝ๐ช๐ป๐ผ, ๐ข๐ธ๐ท... ๐๐ธ๐ ๐๐ธ ๐ฆ๐ฒ๐ผ๐ฑ ๐ค๐น๐ธ๐ท ๐๐ท๐ฎ, ๐ฃ๐ฑ๐ฎ๐ท...
๐๐ถ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐ท๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ท๐ ๐๐๐ท๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐๐๐-๐๐๐พ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ท๐ โน๐๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐๐
โบ ๐ถ๐๐ถ๐พ๐?
๐ผ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐๐๐ ๐ถ ๐๐พ๐๐พ๐ ๐๐ป โน๐พ๐๐๐๐๐๐ถ๐๐พ๐๐โบ ๐พ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐๐, ๐ถ ๐๐พ๐๐พ๐ ๐๐ป ๐ฝ๐๐ ๐น๐๐๐
๐น๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ถ๐ ๐๐?
I do not have apathy, depression, anything that would be fashionable to rant about. I am simply in pain... extreme pain. And attempting to dull the edge of it is what I have been doing since v.1. As if something has indeed been fragmented & this is the pain of my conscious life. And every time I travel the melodious/glamorous path of frenzy, every time I complete it, I am going to experience the same precious pain intensity, purity of pain/ecstasy. I am going to be eventually bound to this inmost/overwhelming awe, this vehement impulse to feel/fondle/kiss what is loved, to kneel down before it, to cuddle up to its heart, to recompense bliss with bliss... More and more. Neither the good boy nor I are free. I do not want to be free... free from... These bare feelings are โนclawingโบ at the reconstructed interpretation of the organ inside me. The great minds will not know what they have done, neither will Anthony... It speaks louder-truer than anything, but the sounds are not obvious... Words. All I possess, this rich but poor instrument for... And you always do end up in the point where...
The aesthetic masterwork, perfused with the golden brilliance of authentic ideality x pierced with the darkest blade of bitter-salty inaccessibility, inevitability, impossibility.
Excruciation, pleasure, euphoria, art. Blended together. Find yourself... or lose yourself on this journey. Emotionally. Totally. An unparalleled effect... and the lulling sparkle the vessel has never actually had. Something in this body x mind has died, and I do not know if there is a way to accept it, to recover it. I have described the lesson of unprecedentedness I have learned, not the expected story of โนinsult-betrayal-contemptโบ. No one will ever f-g hear it. Not from me, not in this lifetime. / Loving extraordinary is priori merciless, แ/แ become telepathic... & the severest trial ~ the unhealable wound ~ is to be a ๐ son without the cause to be... *If I have to detest many donkeys for a chance to protect one venerated Father figure, I will go for it.
๐ฏ๐ฝ๐ ๐ท๐พ๐๐ ๐๐ป ๐๐ ๐ธ๐๐ถ๐ธ๐๐๐น ๐ฝ๐๐๐ถ๐๐พ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐๐ฝ๐๐ ๐ท๐ ๐๐๐
๐... ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐
๐๐น ๐๐๐ ๐ธ๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ต๐๐ธ๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐ผ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฎ๐๐๐๐ธ๐, '๐ธ๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ถ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐, ๐๐๐. ๐ต๐๐ ๐๐๐... ๐ฎ๐ฝ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฝ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐ท๐๐๐๐๐น ๐ป๐๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐๐ ๐ผ ๐ถ๐ ๐น๐๐
๐๐พ๐๐๐น ๐๐ป ๐๐๐. ๐ฟ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ธ๐ฝ ๐๐๐ ๐๐พ๐๐ฝ ๐๐ฝ๐๐๐ ๐๐พ๐
๐... ๐ฎ๐ ๐๐๐๐น. ๐ฎ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐...
While I am willing to imbibe all the anguish of the human I love, to ease his suffering, the loss of us is taking its toll on me irretrievably. I see him. I see what is inside him... & I am incapable of safeguarding it, saving it truly.
I do not have apathy, depression, anything that would be fashionable to rant about. I am simply in pain... extreme pain. And attempting to put up with this gift is what I have been doing since v.1. The chest is โนcut openโบ too deep, the fragility of the organ is exposed... Would you allow me to grow more flowers? I wanna do it... Because it is you, It has always been you. The one who has given us everything, endued me to the brimย with the intimate fatherly affection that this organ never remembered. My eternal wish & exuberant price for humanity, the misunderstood nature. *What an odious irony. / I do not know if there is a way to recover what is gone.
I would sacrifice the lot to be with the human that needs me, needs to be healed, heals me. I would rip my core out but I cannot, the limitation of freedom. *Tell me that the โนstrings of abuse/child neglect/liesโบ are finally cut. Tell me to โนcelebrateโบ. Tell me that both ๐inocchio/I are wrong x naive, โนfixโบ me. You have no f-g clue about it. / When it is written that your starving heart must be left half-empty & helpless... No freedom is scarier than this.
Affording harmony to the sapphire star that is going to fall away... The sentiment it deserves. All I have ever hankered for. & I am terrified of that my grandest instinct x fear will not grant any lasting peace to me.
Death will do our Sun-hugged family apart ~ but I will still be yours, for ever.
The core has never felt as good x feverish as it does when with you... as astray x anxious as it does when deprived of you. I am not lying to you, I hold no resentment... Let me โนfeed onโบ the emotions of your heart... Even if it means your pain x my love turn the vessel inside-out & your love x my pain do the same. Not blurred, always remember. Always. If a masterpiece could be made into a masterpiece, I would prefer to share this fate. My bona fide mission, however, is not allow anything to be in vain... Even if it hurts. ~ The atrophied ability to express love verbally has been โนrousedโบ again, in a fervidly devoted but preciously righteous way... The lash of despair, compulsion, dream, reality.
๐น๐๐ ๐ท๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐ถ๐๐ท๐พ๐๐๐ธ๐ ๐๐ป ๐ฆ๐๐ถ๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ถ ๐๐๐ ๐๐. ๐ผ๐ ๐ธ๐ถ๐... ๐๐๐น ๐ผ ๐น๐๐๐ท๐ ๐๐ฝ๐๐๐ ๐พ๐. ๐ฟ๐ช๐ซ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ท๐๐ธ๐๐๐ ๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐ถ๐ ๐ป๐๐ ๐/๐๐๐๐๐พ๐๐๐น๐พ๐๐๐๐ ๐
๐ถ๐๐
๐ถ๐ท๐๐ ๐๐๐ถ๐๐๐๐, ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ถ๐ท๐พ๐๐พ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ท๐๐ถ๐.
...Take the whole meaning of this, its flavorful, pathetic, shameless, lonesome taste. Take it all, for it is all that is absolute. Teach me how to โนmergeโบ with it, the mortal desire of a puppet child, a human Mastro x a faceless observer like myself ~ & when the desire full of unexploited majesty is cutting off the oxygen to the lungs... True geniuses of any kind are among the silent. These eyeballs will not dry up, never fully. I have tried so many times to resist it, but why live if you repel what puts your โนdehydratedโบ pieces together? I would spare no effort to keep them hot and uncurb what is being restrained... Nothing affects self-perception and โนunmasksโบ the unconscious like sensation, nothing genuinely matters without it. / Shivering with cold, this body is burning. My atrophied reality in exchange for a moment of irrepressible happiness, agony, guiltless x not bottled up impulses ~ just a moment. It keeps consuming me without reserve. I do not need God. โ
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{D I G I M O N} Adventure 02: The Beginning
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@guidemetothedark sent: Xenna tosses a WATER spell at Riku. A very WEAK water spell.
He looked up just in time to see the water fly at his face and upper body SOAKING him and drenching his hair . While this would be amusing to someone like Sora , Riku just glared at her before summoning his keyblade to his hand .
" Vanish . "
He whispered , only for him to disappear from her sight . When he appeared again , Riku was behind her with a smirk on his lips .
" -- Boo . "
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@sxrgeantbarnes sent: ๐ take a walk in the woods to look at the leaves //
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โ I always love how COLOURFUL it is this time of year. Just can't beat how rich the reds and oranges are. How it's everywhere. โ The arm wrapped around Bucky's slides down, fingers interlacing with his, head coming to rest on his shoulder. โ And out here in the woods where not many people have trampled all over the leaves yet ? The ground almost looks fluffy with them. โ
Dramatically kicking her feet through the leaves as she walks, Jess leaves an exaggerated, two-line path in her wake. โ Gonna miss this in a few weeks when it's just grey sludge and icy slush everywhere. Well โธบ the snow is still pretty out here, away from the city. But it doesn't compare to how this looks. Or feels. โ A slightly warm temperature in the air, accompanied by a crisp breeze that passes through every now and again, it was PERFECT.
Straightening up, aggrandised kicks coming to an end as she peaks over at Bucky. Jessica nudges his shoulder with hers, swinging their arms just a little. A soft smile on her lips. โ Thanks for coming out with me. โ
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