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#chats#genuinely exactly what it feels like#it's kind of funny I've been like completely absent from my life for like a year#and didn't even notice#take one (1) of the new antidepressant#immediately like later that day walking around the house and I'm suddenly capable of noticing mess#'huh how did it get this bad'#'I should clean that up' AND THEN I DO IT???????#I'm so transcendentally happy compared to what my baseline has been#I'm going to be really deeply obnoxious for the next few weeks#while I get reacquainted with myself#just wandering around grinning at people like âGOD ISN'T THE WORLD BEAUTIFULâ#âHAVE YOU NOTICED THE LEAVES LATELYâ#âI HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO NOTICE THE LEAVES FOR A WHILE BUT NOW I CAN AND FUCK THEY'RE GOODâ
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2024 art summary! it sure has been a year
#ever makes art#i bsky tweeted a bit but it feels weird talking there still so ill do my usual rambling into tags here :)c#i burned out super bad in the middle of this year for months where it felt like i couldnt draw anything good no matter how hard i tried#and the harder i tried the worst it felt - to the degree that i legitimately thought i wasnt going to be able to draw anything again#which sounds SO dramatic i know i know. but feelings arent always rational!!! and so many others things were going wrong at the same time#so it was strange putting together this year's art summary and realizing Huh. i did still have paintings to put in every space#that fear/anxiety spiral seems even sillier and more meaningless now that i have distance and proof of how irrational it was...#...but in reflection i'd like to think of it as proof that even when you feel at your worse it's worth it to keep trying...!!#after the Black Hole of Nothing i've been working every day on never ending doujin and xv anthology and orv sketchzine and merch#i can't say that i feel my artistic skills have like. improved or anything... but the passion i feel for the stories i read and#the stories i want to tell is still there!! and the happiness from getting to put form to those feelings large or small is worth it too#anyway......... lotta words to say tho i haven't posted much anymore and socmed is imploding and the world is dark#thank you very much for staying with me another year. i am - as ever - always grateful
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the halloween chat was actually really funny đ
#whb#what in hell is bad#i like it a lot#it did more for me than the anniversary one ngl#but also i just enjoy learning more about the characters#and reading all the reminiscing between the kings was nice#i havent been reading the story for a long time now so this was really nice!#i get some character info#the asmo prank is insane fr tho đ€Ł#singlehandedly causing insomnia among so many ppls#loved how satan started the chat too#i was like HUH#my only issue is that they still havent fixed the texting ui#like let me scroll up!#i wanna be able to read at my own pace so i can properly process what everyone is saying#i dont think theyll ever fix this tho rip
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you who I called brother, how could you have come to hate me so?
#thomas the tank engine#thomas and friends#ttte flying scotsman#ttte gordon#casa tidmouth#senjart#GUESS WHO'S GRESLEYPOSTING!!!!! GRAHHHH!!!!!!#I was thinking of the rws trio. then I thought of the gresley family. damn I just follow wherever gordon goes huh#(insert umpteenth rant about how the great race is such a wasted potential that could've explored the gresley brothers' dynamic more)#WITHOUT FURTHER ADO. CRACKS KNUCKLES#background painting is ''cain smiting abel'' by sebastiano and marco ricci#scott and gordon's poses are taken from ''the reconciliation of esau and jacob'' by paul peter reubens#aaaand the caption is taken from ''the plagues'' from prince of egypt! which is sung by moses and rameses! who are brothers!!!!!#this post is a whole christian imagery. erm. my bad#was thinking of drawing lady and thomas as the pieta statue too..... might draw that out when I get the motivation#also did you know that sodor got hit by christianization in the 5th century and built its first church in the 10th century#really makes me wonder if the history of missionary there is as bleak as the ones in many countries of color or not#I should do more reading! anywayssss enjoy the pic (sniff)
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ocs as patron saints
i was tagged by @katsigian and @ecofear to take this quiz for some of my ocs, thank you both so much!!! loved doing this sm, two things i love obsessing over: saints and ocs <3
patron saint of relics. patron saint of remembering. patron saint of holding something close. patron saint of holding on for too long. for a saint, a relic is often a part of the body, kept for some physical memento of their holiness. they are all in your hands, now: does it feel like remembrance? does it feel sanctified? are the dust and blood as precious as they're supposed to be?
patron saint of bones. patron saint of frameworks. of structures. of solidity. patron saint of things that break. patron saint of things that are left behind. the bones survive long after the body, the building: what is there left for them, when the rest has gone? what do bones do, with nothing to hold around them? who holds the bones?
patron saint of heartbreak. not of comfort. not of condolences. there is a heart and there is a fissure, a fracture, something that starts to splinter and break open. you're the patron saint of the way a heart is rent open. the way it tears itself apart. patron saint of the rift. patron saint of the gash. when they say to "open your heart" to somebody, you are the patron saint of bleeding out.
tagging (under the cut!):
@marictheirins @mojaves @ruvviks @devilbrakers @dragonaqe
@pinkfey @aezyrraeshh @shadowglens @risingsh0t @ncytiri
@baelavelaryon @kibellah @pawnguild @roguette @hexmaturgy
@tethrras @lucaanis @auricfog @thedeadthree
and anyone else who wants to do it!!
#tag games#loveeeed doing this reminded me of the tumblr golden age of quizzes and picrews for ocs we need to go back to that#also i need to get a taglist so bad so i know im not bothering ppl with tags lmao#oc: vesper#oc: fenix#oc: violante#now i will lose my mind about the results if u don't mind ->#vio getting heartbreak is beautifully perfect for her also bc i love the mental image of it#vesper getting relics is kinda funny innit lmao. johnny and all huh. which i can also see bc girl never learned how to let go one single#thing in her life (both regrets and mistakes and things others did to her). NOW THE REAL CAKE HERE IS FENIX.....unexpected..#'patron saint of things that get left behind'..what if i went insane tbh#cant put into words what im feeling (<said about my own ocs) but what has me shaking is the solidity>things that break>things left behind#progression here like. yea no matter what you will stand tall you will stay strong and firm even when everything else inside you and around#will break and you will turn hollow but you will Stay. you will be immovable and you will be alone and you'll only know loss#and grief but you're still here right? isn't that enough? maybe not. like what if i went insane ok bye#unrelated but i loved this and did it for me self and got patron saint of obession (devotion. dedication. passion. holding it tight until#it bleeds. pushing it too far. etc etc) which is yeah lmao when will i get this freaky sainthood fr
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On the rare occasions when Hob is actually mad at Dreamâ he refuses to sleep. Coffee, energy drinks and the God forsaken awakeness pills? All fair game. If he has to inject caffeine directly into his vein, he would. Hob doesn't often get mad, but when he does, he likes to make a point. Dream and Hob match in more than one ways, really, they do. And so it is that the Dream Lord must come out of his realm personally to sprinkle sand into his lover's eyes because he'd be damned if Hob refuses his gift for more than two nights in a row. Not speaking for 100 years? Easy. Hob refusing sleep? Unacceptable.
#Dreamling#Fixed tags:#Dream creating Hob an entire GALAXY in the Dreaming to placate him but Hob has none of thisâ he refuses to enjoy it.#Dream getting offended that his lover does not appreciates his good graces is likeâ Well I can also give you a nightmare :|#And Hob just:#'Maybe just don't say that I will eventually stop loving you đđđ Hob about that- huh.'#Dream: I meant not to insult youâ it is merely how humans /are/. Most entities cannot stay with me for long. (The will not is unsaid)#Hob: You're such an idiot.#Hob would cross his arms and try to stay mad with him but he simply CANNOT.#Dream is being genuineâ perhaps a genuine idiotâ but genuine nevertheless.#He would sigh and finally come over to Dream and he'd take his hands into his and pull him close to himself.#He has to stand up tallerâ because here in the Dreaming his lover is taller than in the waking.#It's nearly at his tiptoes that he lands a soft kiss at Dream's lips.#Hob: Just because you had /shitty/ exes doesn't mean /I/ have to be#For the matterâ I rather not be your ex at all.#Dream attempts denying all his exes being bad but Hob just keeps on kissing him insistently#Like hell he's allowing his lover dwell in the feeling that no one staysâ EVEN IF HE DID SPIKE HIS ANGER METER LIKE HELLA#Dream: You will leave me because you're human Hob's anger: đđđđ#But he's not really mad he just wishes Dream to trust him is all.#I mean Dream is JUST the center of his entire world#but you know#anyways those tags are meant to be read separately I was just having some crack fun#the original tags gotten horribly out of order and were an absolute mess so I had to rewrite it for it to make any sense at all#so some of the chaotic insanity been lost XDDD#anyways yes XD#buns.hc
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!!! FLASHING LIGHTS WARNING!!! [IM NOT FUCKIN AROUND!!]
REACHED THE CUSP OF 'THIS MAY NEVER BE ABSOLUTELY FINISHED N IF I DONT SHOW IT NOW, IT WILL NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY.' SO HERE, A PROJECT IVE BEEN ORBITING AROUND UHH SINCE 2021 OR SO.
#jrwi fanart#THE SQUIRMING IMAGE#jrwi riptide#gillion tidestrider#cw flashing lights#LOOORRD OF LIGHTNING SAAAAVE ME!!!!#RAAAHHHH I LOVETHIS SONG SO FUCKIN MUCH AND I LOVE GILLION SO FUCKIN MUCH RAAHHHH!! RAAHHHH!!!#BUT YES YES I HAD LIKE A WHOLE OTHER HALF TO THIS SKETCHED OUT BUT IT WONT FINISH COOKIN FOR A MILLION YEAARS!!!!#MAYBE SOMEDAY.....#ANYWAY. this is my first time actually syncing audio to my animations. normally i domnt know howww.#i animated it all in fire alpaca AND THEN i mixed everything in a pirated movie maker. it kinda uh. sucks. but its WHAT I GOT BAYBE!!#i relaly like how i animate swishy hair... i was inspird by eris from sinbad. i can only HOPE i got on that level w the watery flowyness#LIUGHTNING IS HARD TO ANIMATE TOO. I WATCHED ALOTTA VIDEOS ABSORBED MINIMAL TUTORIALS AND UHH I THINK I DID OKAY!!#better than bad!!! but i can still do better. eventually. ugh. FLASHING LIGHTS TOO HUH? U LIKE ANIMATINGB FLASHING LIGHT?#U LIKE MAKING THE BLACK N WHITE FLICKER RLY FAST UNTIL UR EYES BLEED OUT UR SKULL?? YEAAAHH YOU DO!!!#im also vry proud o the title cards i made at the beginning teheheheh. dependign on where riptide goes i MIGHT change it#BUT HEY THEORY TIME? I HOPE ONE OF THE GODDESSES COMES DOWN TO PILOT GILLIONS BODY SO THEY CAN BEAT THE FUCK OUT O THE OTHER GODDESS#WHO IS ALSO IN SOMEONE ELSES MORTAL BODY. GODS COMING DOWN TO WREAK HAVOC OVER PETTY DISAGREEMENTS OOOGH HOW FUN!!#GOOD ON YOU CHAMPION!! YOUR VESSEL HAS BEEN TRAINED TO BE STRONG AND HARDY. PERFECT FOR CHANNELING DIVINE ENERGY.#OHHHH WHAT A PERFECT WEAPON YOU ARE. NOW GO AND IMMANENTIZE A WATERY ESCHATON#PARAGON OF OCEANS WRATH I WANT TO SEE YOU DROWN THE LAND. DESTROY!!! EAT!!! BURN!!! RAAAGHH I NEED GILLION TO GET MORE POWER!!!!#ALSO in other news i uh. actually posted this onto twitter forever ago but forgot to post it here bc i can only post it from pc and BABY!!#IM NOT ON THE COMPUTER OFTEN! NOT ANYMORE!! NOT ANYMOREE!!! IM FREE BAYBE!! i used to be so miserable. sometimes i think abt that.#ANYWAY. pls enjoy. just this much took so long. i love makin the lil guys move.... ouh.... hava good day if u get the chance to.
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Deeply frustrating that because of the order the books were written in Hornblower doesn't get to have a whole bunch of neuroses about being sent in to deal with mutineers
#IMAGINE how fun the start of lord could have been. i mean it probably wouldn't have been that fun#because cs forester hates a real moral dilemma#but when he's like. hmm i feel kind of bad for them that lieutenant did kind of suck#YEAH OKAY YOU WOULD SAY THAT WOULDN'T YOU#AND WHAT ABOUT THE CAPTAIN YOU MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE PUSHED DOWN THE HATCHWAY YOURSELF HUH#absolutely insane that he never gets the chance to have a crisis of conscience about that because the books are out of order#like babygirl are you actually just taking that to your grave. unhinged behavior#perce rambles#hornblower#also yes i started lord don't @ me#percy yells at cecil scott
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I like Akian pre-main story because it's pretty much Akito hitting on the gas pedal even harder any time he sees An because "I have got to work harder to catch up to Shiraishi if she can be this good at her age then so can I and she's kind of like my rival anyway" meanwhile An doesn't care if Akito lives or dies
#jay rambles.txt#like she cares a little bit. just a bit#but compared to the amount of attention Akito gave her it's hilarious how little that is#like Akito randomly pulled off a fact from An's middle school about her and she went 'oh huh. yeah I guess I did do that!'#meanwhile An didn't even know about Bad Dogs getting heckled
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i donât talk about bridgerton on here but just to clarify. i will not be having ANY eloise hate on this account. i will bite.
#eloise bridgerton they could never make me hate you!!#addressing the normal talking points one by one to get them sorted:#- âno i donât care that eloise called pen some names after the discovery. she was devastated and furious.#she can apologise in the future but in the moment of course she said it#- âyes pen did write about eloise as a way to save her but that doesnât mean it hasnât possibly ruined eloiseâs life#- similarly: eloise isnât (just) angry that she was written about. daphne also went through whistledown and it very much terrified her#so have many other women including marina#- eloise is betrayed because she told pen everything and is realising pen told her nothing#(and sheâs probably thinking about any secrets she might have said to her best friend that could now be used against the ton and her family)#- as claudio said: being regency gossip girl isnt a moral girlboss thing its deeply harmful tbh#- âpen did have reasons to become whistledown! that doesnât mean that sheâs innocent or right!#- eloise isnt now friends with cressida to spite pen lmao sheâs alone and scared and cressida was the last person who offered her friendship#she has no idea how to manage society by herself#(and she needs someone to improve the reputation of her and her family)#- im also convinced she has other ulterior motives for befriending cressida. like sheâs keeping an eye on her or smth#- eloise didnât just ignore anything pen said and thatâs why she only just figured it out. pen deliberately didnât speak like lw to hide it#the moment she did eloise was like huh thatâs weird she doesnât normally talk like that. and THATS when she figured it out#- eloise just found out her best friend has betrayed her and been hiding this massive secret#but she hasnât told anyone. not even her own family. im not hearing out any accusations of HER of being disloyal#- also pen clearly wasnât that upset at writing about eloise bc the moment eloise and colin upset her she went straight back to it lmao#side note but no i donât think the queen is going to name her the âemeraldâ or anything because sheâs suddenly in the spotlight#eloise is tbh the only debutante she actually consistently recognised (for good or bad)#a new dress is not going to be interesting for charlotte to change her whole tradition#tl;dr i love eloise and i will die on this hill#eloise bridgerton#bridgerton
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give meee... headcanons about the Sangfielle friends in the most boring AU you can imagine like. idk. office Sangfielle. grocery store Sangfielle. they all work at a movie theater. whatever sounds mundane as hell and you have Thoughts about :3
okay tumblr ate my fucking answer the first time. let's try this again.
the thing about these guys is that no matter how mundane you make it, they can make anything into a situation. that's just the guys they are. so we put them in a Walmart.
Marn is an employee with a great customer service voice. She's keeping it together in the face of some truly wild statements and requests. One man keeps asking for frootie hooties, a brand of cereal that he insists is real and everyone is just refusing to sell to him, and she's spent twenty minutes trying to tell him that they just don't have it in stock
Lye and Es are having an animated conversation in the clothing area, where she is examining various colorful dresses and he is distractedly picking things off of nearby shelves and putting them back down. The conversation started at how they got kicked out of dayward yve's novelty store and is now about whether stealing should be more or less of a crime than manslaughter, because it's not as bad as killing but it is on purpose. People are trying not to pay attention to them. Eventually they are asked to leave, at which point it is revealed that lye has about two hundred dollars worth of items in his pockets and es has some candles she liked and a new pair of shoes in hers. They are both barred from Walmart.
Duvall hates it here. It's loud, he hates the lights, the aisles make no sense, he can't find anything he's looking for, and people keep coming up to him to ask him where things are. He doesn't even work here. Why do people assume he works here? He's not even wearing any Walmart merchandise. Is that what it's called when you're an employee? Merchandise? Well, it's what it would be called if he wears it, which he never will, because he doesn't work here and never wants to. Have a nice day ma'am.
Pickman is slowly marching her way through the aisles one at a time, peering at her shopping list and holding a tiny shopping basket in one hand. She has to be very careful not to knock the shelves over sometimes. Just trying to get groceries. People are nervously avoiding her. Says "Hey, you" to some poor employee to ask where the milk and cigarettes are. Just grunts at everything else. When she's at the checkout, the guy there asks "Did you find everything you're looking for?", and she just says "No." and leaves
Chine comes out of the bathroom with a live rat in his hand. People scream. The manager finally comes up to him like "Sir, you can't have rats in here." They say "Oh, she's not mine. She was just having trouble opening the door." Gets a big meat on the bone at the deli and nothing else. When he asks how much it costs, they just say it's on the house and try to get him to leave as soon as possible. They go like "Oh, really? Are you sure? I have some money." and sound surprised but pleased, like they're being done a personal favor. The employees insist. He's like "Alright, thanks!" and then asks the rat if she wants anything
#the manager tells an employee to get the rat some cheese. chine says that cheese is actually bad for rats and some seeds would be better#the manager tells the employee to get the rat some seeds and for chine to get the fuck out of their establishment#chine is a little taken aback by the rudeness but leaves without further issue#runs into lye and es outside and is like âhey look they just gave me some free stuffâ#Lyke is like âwhat???? I got kicked out because I wanted free stuff!â#chine says âI think I just got kicked out too. Maybe that's just what happens?"#lyke says âyeah but you got to keep the stuff!â#âDid you not get to keep your stuff?â#âI mean. Not *all* of it.â#âHuh.â#âThey didn't let me keep the stuff I kept on purpose.â#es makes a reasonable sounding remark about how they'd be running a pretty terrible business if they handed everything out for free#everyone should get what they need but these people do have livelihoods to think about#is also putting on lipstick that she definitely just shoplifted#duvall comes out and swears he's never coming back here. is asked if he's also banned for life from the Walmart.#demands what the hell these people were doing in the Walmart to get banned for life#because he saw a man getting real heated about frootie hooties and that's definitely not a real cereal#so if that doesn't meet the bar he's not sure he wants to know what does#sangfielle#friends at the table#Shoop#asks
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finished hazbin hotel and what the fuck it's actually kind of??? good???
#random thoughts#i like it at least#the finale is SO GOOOOOOOD OH MY GOD#sir pentious going to heaven? alastor's solo? LILITH DROP???#like there are A LOT of things that could have been done better#like how vaggie as a character is very one-note and how angel's abuse is handled could DEFINITELY be better#especially considering how they handle pentious's gang rape (like tf)#but to be fair that joke was more a play on pentious's cowardice. the joke was more about how him bowing out of flirting escalated#rule of three's and all that#but god. when adam's mask cracked it DEFINITELY made me realize i thought that was just his face#'you only live because i let you' is such a petty way to phrase mercy#i DEFINITELY need to watch some analysis videos because am i missing stuff??? is it secretly bad???#yknow besides all the stuff with the creator which like. idr everything she did that was a shitshow#but like even the rape jokes are pretty mild for an adult comedy? they got rid of most of the offensive jokes pretty fast huh#most adult cartoons the first season or so is dedicated to the most offensive jokes before The Plot takes over#vaggie being an angel btw. not sure how to feel about that#i like how they handled it because it leans into the whole 'redemption' theming but like. feels very 'we need a conflict!'#which like i do appreciate because vaggie and charlie's relationship is too smooth sailing. throw some rocks in there#also 'i named you after the best thing: vaginas' is. hilarious actually. was that planned? or was that retconned in?#sir pentious as a character wasn't really. there enough in the latter half of the season for me to really feel anything about his death#like i liked him! very pathetic man. love his character design. but i think they should have alternated episodes#instead of just making the first few all about him#also his death was too sudden for me to feel particularly bad about. was convinced it was a fake out death#LOVE the ship callback tho. love me some chekhov's gun#btw i knew. literally nothing about hazbin hotel going into this. was watching the pilot like 'wait is this a musical'#bitsy. thingy. whatever her name is. fucking love her. PLEASE give her more knives.#fucking LOVE lucifer are you kidding? all that set-up for him to be a typical adult cartoon neglectful father and he's???#he fucking LOVES charlie holy shit. someone get this man some better communication skills stat#also? love his design. the prevalence of white really makes you remember he was the light bringer#hell
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I think today I will cry about BC not making tour vlogs anymore đ
#yes i'm still bitter about the live performance video they posted yesterday#it seemed more like something made for promotion and marketing rather than for fans to relive the moment#or for fans who couldnât attend to experience it as if they were there#the frame wouldnât span on one moment for longer than 1.5 seconds which made it kinda messy#and you didn't really get a good picture of what the show was actually like#they didn't show how awkwardly long it took for the curtain to be gathered and carried away đ€#instead they showed moshpits THAT DIDN'T EVEN HAPPEN DURING THOSE SONGS đ#and the content you see on their band account on tiktok/ig is no different#good for promotion i guess. uninteresting for their existing fans đ„±#i get that editing vlogs is extra work (for joonas) and that some of them may not want there to be a camera on their face all the time#and that *siiiiiiiiiiigh* ''youtube is dead'' đ#but i don't think i would have fallen for this band half as bad as i did if it wasn't for the umk/esc vlogs and the content from summer '21#followed by more tour vlogs from their other tours#nowadays it's only fast-paced tiktoks and promotion and joel's SUPER FUNNY filters đ#i would give up them all for 5-minutes of vlog-like content from the EU tour đđđđđđđđđđđđ#whose dick do i need to suck for this huh?#joel is it yours (as the band's social media guy)?? i will do it in the back alley of your local sushi buffet#just tell me when and i'll be there but make sure your cock's already out and hard i haven't got all day
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@alinasteelcrest did i do it right
#hunter the women do not want you. the fish are starting to feel bad for you#the hat should say âi'm slightly afraid of both fish and women. among other thingsâ#impeccable fit. did not want to try to draw crocs. sry đââïž#sso oc#my art#might redo in future :)#ty for the suggestion though lmao this outfit is so him#also i keep forgetting how my characters look. where did his scars go#hunter where did you get the money for laser scar removal. huh
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Okay I get why ppl draw this guy so much now he's a joy to doodle.
#my art#doodles#artists on tumblr#dsaf#dsaf jack#jack kennedy#I'm really happy w how he looks here ngl.#maybe I'd have done more facial scars but y'know. didnt want to just ball.#he came out a little too pretty dare i even say like legit got a lil flustered when adding the scars like huh.#getting humid in this room eh? tugging at the neck of my shirt etc#also i thought of giving him a moustache but when i did he looked like such a butch it was cute but not what i wanted#body could be improved but hey this was literally just a quick doodle#i need to start trying to draw Dave more now tho i draw dave so little so UNFAIR but i need to pull up the old yaoi references 4 that#anyway yeah jack lovers enjoy#a lot of ppl followed me bc my last jack doodle snd it made me feel bad bc i am never a consistent person#like you follow me for dsaf and then you get a single drawing of L.L. every few weeks. but hey. here's something for the lot of you. enjoyđ
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I really need to be cleaning my room but. fanfiction I'd write if I had time but I Do Not
There are several ghiralink fic storylines that are along the lines of "Link gets exactly what he thinks he wants and turns out it isn't really what he needs" (whether real or a dream-state) that have him taking Ghirahim's sword and gaining complete control over him and the themes are of personhood and power and complacency. be careful what you wish for type things. A few that are Ghirahim killing Link/Link losing and realizing he would rather have him alive and fighting instead of dead/given up because it was more fun than way, but usually end up being sad. oh well I guess for the former and teaming up with Link to defeat Demise for the latter.
What I want to write is the themes of scenario 1 but role reversed so it's like scenario 2 with Ghirahim having the "this isn't what I wanted" moment. Ghiralink adds, usually as a joke, a level of "if I can't kill you, maybe you could join me ;)" and I want to write more or less Link doing that, Link being a perfect subservient extension that does everything he wants him to and he doesn't regret it (he can't), but Ghirahim having the realization that he doesn't want someone who is nothing more than an object for him to use. A doll. A sword.
And then, how Link has guilt over Fi and the Master Sword and his role as hero and how Hylia controls him but he's no better than her, Ghirahim realizing Link is now what he is to Demise and rethinking his own position. Is this what Demise thinks of me. Is that why he treats me the way he does. And he takes his anger out on Link but Link can't fight back anymore. Link doesn't want to fight back anymore, and not in a depressed it's hopeless kind of way, but in the same way Ghirahim accepted Demise pulling the sword out of his chest.
When Ghirahim is empty and goes isn't this what you wanted, Link can genuinely say no because he has a hero's heart and conscience and never meant for anyone to get hurt. When Link goes I am what you made me, Ghirahim has to face that fact that yes, he is, and he is made in my image, and I do not want this anymore.
#ghiralink#ghirahim#I want skyward sword bad ends but I want them completely different from what is already out there#I want the dark ending from Ghirahim's POV where he got what he wanted and everything is perfect and Link isn't ever an issue anymore#and like honestly. I don't want it to be a sex thing. like yeah that could be part of it but I don't think it would work as well#how I wanted the sword spirit au to go but did not manage to make it work this way đ#I want Demise to win and Link to live and Ghirahim to know he does but not see him for a few weeks/months. to not even think about him#or feel any guilt that he's probably rotting away in a dungeon or getting tortured or whatever. no even excited about that just apathetic#and entirely focused on Demise (who is in turn pretty apathetic about him but he doesn't even realize) until one day he sees Link and he's#*not* a prisoner. he's just another solider in a demon army or a regular servant or maybe even a bodyguard to Demise. and he speaks with him#and there's no trace of animosity or anger or sadness or anything. there is no war in ba sing se etc.#and then I don't have anymore than that it's just kind of wouldn't that be fucked up huh#for Ghirahim to have absolutely no underlying thoughts of demise actually sucks or foreshadowing he's not the perfect blade he presents as#and all of that to snap when he sees an enemy completely changed. he wanted Link dead. even when he says you could join me#he would expect push back and fights and relapsing into wanting to be the hero. he never considered what if he wasn't an enemy at all
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