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cipher-speaks · 3 months ago

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"Fictives/Kins don't carry the crimes of their source material!!! They can't go back and make things right! (But if they could they would!!!!!!!!!)"

SPEAK FOR YOURSELF.

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 8 months ago

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Hey now, Let her cook!

#dungeon meshi #chilchuck tims #senshi #laios touden #marcille donato #izutsumi #oyasumi punpun #<- In case you are wondering what the source for the little bird guy is.#Yeah that's right. I'm back to my extremely obscure crossover BS.#Punpun is one of those series that falls under the category of 'Good! but I cannot responsibly recommend this to anyone."#If Dungeon Meshi is like a friend asking you to go on a quick errand and you accidently go on a life changing roadtrip -#Punpun is your friend asking to go on a quick errand and they pull up to the vet and tell you your dog is being put down.#Then they explode into sludge. Melting your car. You hitchhike back but the person who picked you up is an axe murderer.#I could not finish it. My friends who did say it was good. But agree it was for the best I did not finish it.#Hey speaking of tone twists...We are one episode away from one of my favourite chapters being animated!#WHO'S READY FOR THE SENSHI BACKSTORY! WHO IS READY TO CRY!#ME! I AM! I spooked my flatmate with how energetic I was this morning. I'm vibrating with energy I was not designed to contain.#I should talk about today's episode here: It was very good. I love how they animated the familiars.#And!!! Anime only people now are in the loop on the Chilchuck lore. Part 1 of many. He still contains multitudes.#They all do to be honest! If this episode told us anything it was that we still don't know these characters as well as we think!#See you guys next week. I'll be inconsolable.

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panstarry · 10 months ago

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my final from last semester that i made into a zine. cooked this one up in a couple hours before the critique (the ink was still wet!), so it's very raw and kind of sloppy but the sentiment is there. i love you trans people of color. we are the backbone of this community 🌟

#pan draws #pan designs #zine #risograph #i'm not gonna lie i don't love how this one turned out OTL and i think the wording is not done but well... a deadline is a deadline #i'll probably touch it up and rewrite it in the future but who's to say.. i need to stew on how to articulate my feelings coherently #anyway my transness is so closely tied to my experience as a person of color. the current political climate is so fucking ass to exist in #but more than anything i am pissed off at white punks & leftists & trans people that refuse to have meaningful solidarity with us.#so yeah anyway. i was stuck on this one forever and only really got anywhere with it after attending 2 punk noise shows in a row where they #actually used their fucking platform to do like. anything. our struggles are connected you need to careeeee YOU HAVE TO CARE........ ok bye #tdov #trans day of visibility #<- i was sitting on uploading this for a while so the stars kind of aligned for it to be today huh.... happy tdov i love you #xines

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expelliarmus · 6 months ago

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#mine #doctor who #dwedit #david tennant #catherine tate #hi friends... it's been a week since i made gifs... AGAIN #thought it was time to remake this #also i should watch that panel that david and catherine did together that i keep seeing on my dash #my first week of summer break has been quite busy #but i've been mostly hanging out on my couch reading when i'm at home #and it's so hot here today... i hate it #i don't know if i'll be able to sleep well ;__;#i have also been influenced by the booktok and bookstagram people #and i bought a page turner for my kindle and bro.......#best purchase of my life #it's only been a few hours of me using it but i love it lmaooo #i also got the new dw books with fifteen and ruby and i am excited to read them #ok anyways hope you've all been well!!!

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dogrocks · 1 year ago

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an au where dovewing trains in the dark forest instead of ivypool....

#draws #warrior cats #dovewing #ivypool #dovewing still has her powers and all that but the df decides to manipulate her instead. seeing how she could be a lot of use to them #she knows what she's doing by siding with them because she resents being part of a prophecy against her will #along with other things like lion and jay looking down at her. feeling replaced by hollyleaf etc #and is like well at least i'm liked for who i am here. and by the time she realises they're using her as well she's kinda in too deep #turned one of the prophecy cats against them. she gets redeemed in the end though because i heart her #idk what role ivypool would play in this au maybe she still spies by sneaking into the df since dovewing probably wouldn’t do it

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yeonjune · 4 months ago

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Yeonjun about the strain he felt while preparing for his debut solo project ✙ "GGUM" MAKING FILM

#yeonjun #choi yeonjun #tomorrow x together #txt #ggum: making film #gifs #creations #userzaynab #useryeonbins #skyehi #rosieblr #megtag #hibiebear #heyiri #ultkpopnetwork #kpopccc #kpopco #this are like the rawest emotions we've seen from him... I feel... it's really sad to watch him like this #i mean I know they're under lots of pressure and stress #It's only natural when you work with so many people who you could potentially disappoint #and I know it was his choice to make this solo project happen now but i feel like the company could manage his schedule better #because why he films till 3 am and then right next day has a flight to another country for a concert...#and now we know from soobin they're super busy again #I'm worried his body will just say 'enough' one day and something bad will happen :(#and you have him work so hard and stress and then all this losers online whose biggest achievement is getting 100 likes on a post #writing the worst things about him for no reason... its not that hard to be kind and you dont need to have an opinion about everything :D #at the end of the day that celebrity you hate so much is still pretty and successful #and you're just a friendless jobless empty-headed rotten fool with likes on a post that mean nothing once you close the ap #I'm just glad all this is still fun for him and that he has such a great support system: his members family staff who care about him and us #all we can really do is support them and send them lots of love fr ;; you've done well my jjunie ily ♥

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territorial-utopia · 6 months ago

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Huzzah! It's birthday time! I'm slowly accumulating more and more things I like (latest additions this vest I made and a travel typewriter! Still need to fix the latter one though)

Sure has been a year.

#terri #niart #got my wisdom toofies out #well 2 out of 4 #still got stitches #idk if this removal lowkey fixed my fear of the dentist?#it was so easy and painless #also finally i'm on anxiety meds jkahsdjash #i also got depression meds but i haven't tested them yet #I'm going to see the love of my life soon again!!!#only 2 more months to go....#i've also finally found awesome friends who don't make me feel like i'm insane for wanting to be cared for #the difference is like night and day #old friends saying hey let's surprise another friend of ours oh also i think it's your birthday on that day #new friends reminding me to pick a brunch place for us to go on my special day #i am sobbing #the right people are out there #don't lose hope #i've never felt this platonically loved honestly #also yes i'm working on the next dragon's lair aksjdhasjkd #just #a lot of things happening and i'm sooo burnt out #this piece was such a strain and i just #don't have patience for art rn #this is photobashed btw there's an actual photo of my typewriter under all those layers #i'm not about to spend 300 hours just to draw a typewriter from this angle kajshdjkasdh #ALSO ONE MORE THING CAN I JUST GUSH ABOUT THE ANASTASIA BROADWAY OKAY?!?!?!#I didn't realise until now that they made it way more historically inspired and i mean bruh BRUH #i have been having a recording of it playing on the background nonstop for like 3 days now #Vladimir Popov I want to inject you straight into my veins holy shit he is a perfect man

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chiropteracupola · 5 months ago

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Patience and curiosity, as you learn about each other.

[stephen maturin, requested by @dxppercxdxver]

#em draws stuff #aubreyad #stephen maturin #the great napoleonic pokemon au #legally mandated esteban. how could I Not put him in the pokemon au.#if there was ANYONE in the world who would put monsters in their pockets it is HE #the pokemon choices I make in this project are based on the essential element of Are They Fun To Draw...#I could have picked many options for stephen but my logic here is that wimpods are fun little critters of which I'm very fond #(also I am trying to use photos I've taken for all the backgrounds and I had a nice beachy one to edit the surprise into)#5/6 of the wiki entries for minor anime appearances of this critter are 'it was scuttling along the beach'#and stephen maturin well he will also be scuttling along the beach.#...as I said previously - I Will continue drawing these and I Am taking suggestions on who to draw next.

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shalom-iamcominghome · 19 days ago

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My jewish community, friends, rabbi, and educators: We are very invested in helping you be jewish. Do you want to help read the haftarah? Here's a chanukiah! You can have it!! Borrow these books! Here's some books! You need more books... Come to pesach! Come to the chanukah party! When are your classes done? We need a minyan for once!

Me and my 50000 IQ: What if I am Secretly Appropriating judaism? What if I am doing a Cultural Appropriation........

#jumblr #jew by choice #jewish conversion #personal thoughts tag #there comes a point where your concerns about if you are an Appropriative Cultural Appropriator hinders your jewish journey #i think a comforting thing is knowing that my incessant fear about this is confirmation that i love judaism #i love it with my heart and soul and (i feel) i'd be a less realized person without it #and i think people who genuinely engage in cultural appropriation just Do Not Care about the cultures they appropriate from #they don't love the culture enough to respect it and that is a big reason that it even IS appropriation #especially when jewish people are INVITING you to do things... it's not appropriation #i dunno last night i was feeling very anxious about lighting the chanukiah candles because i'm alone #but i've also lit shabbos candles. and it's just like... why would i choose not to engage in this when one day i will have to?#this time next year i will have to light candles. as a jew. and if i have no clue how to do it myself then i'll just avoid it #plus... i love my chanukiah and i want to use it. it is currently decorating my room because i love it #i hope they'll let me take pictures of all the chanukiah that'll be at the party #i'm sure they will because they're very open and they are very accommodating. in fact i'm bringing my clarinet too #i haven't touched that thing in well over four years 😭#but jewish music without a clarinet is like a body with no soul. it's impossible. it is not what g-d wants i think.#i just hope my ability to play by ear hasn't been affected by my lack of playing. i don't have perfect pitch tbc #but i fully believe you can know your instrument so well that you develop an ear for perfect pitch #in fact... i refused to memorize my marching band music because i DID develop that 'perfect pitch' ear. that's my dirty secret #i didn't practice in part because i can't have a space where noone could hear me practice and it's embarrassing and private to me #literally EVERY jew in my life has been almost TOO ecstatic about my jewish journey. i'm very thankful for it #i guess i just didn't think i deserved to have people as happy about me being in judaism as i am #so to be clear this is my brain being rude and dumb. this anxiety has NEVER been reinforced by anyone but myself #so i take full responsibility for it. but i think that anxiety is something many/most converts/jews-in-progress feel

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gophergal · 5 months ago

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To say an Aspec person's life is wasted because they lack an interest in [sex/romance/platonic relationships]* is like saying an evergreen tree has wasted its life for refusing to grace its branches with apples

*(respect aros, aces, and aplatonic folk equally or taste my blade)

#gopher rambles #i myself am not asexual aromantic or aplatonic #though im DemiRose i suppose (if thats the term I'm looking for?)#but i love my siblings who ARE #this goes for aroaces. aroallos. alloaces. folks who feel repulsed by these things. folks who engage with them for whatever reasons #ect ect ect #i think youre all cool and the intracommunjty fighting is. well its really fucking stupid. please. i am begging. i am so tired #can we not be allies to one another?#asexual #aromantic #aplatonic #aspec #idk what tags y'all use but oh well

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icewindandboringhorror · 3 months ago

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Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~

(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)

#ootd #jfashion #fashion #fantasy fashion #mori kei #....like... adjacent... lol #no idea what style this would be lol.. makes me think of like whimsical vaguely fantasy themed childrens book character #finally posting one of my aforementioned seven million drafts of actual outfits and costumes i have finished and edited #the photos for but just never feel like posting lol..#I need to find one of those people whos like 'omg i am ADDICTED to social media ugh i wish i could get off of it #im just browsing and posting like 60 times a daaaaay!!!' and take a little magical bottle and suck some of the social media #enthusiasim out of them. for moi. In exchange they can have some of my 'literally just never in the mood to post or interact with the #outside world ever' energy. We can balance each other. huzzah and so on #Though I think maybe it's part of the general thing I've heard of like.. I can't remember if it was in reference to adhd or just some sort #of general execcutive functioning issue type of thing - but the idea that things have to be ''just right'' before you do something. like #'oh i need to do this task. but i have to wait until XYZ first' or 'oh i can do this but only if X specific condition is met' or etc #The fact that I even have to be in a Specific Mindset to post. or sometimes will delay posting on social media because like 'oh well #I'm going somewhere tomorrow. somehow this matters. i cannot spend 5 minuts posting TONIGHT. clearly it will interfere #somehow schedule wise with the doctor appointment i have 15 hours from now. yes. yes. i must wait until my appointment is over #tomorrow afternoon. THEN i shall post' or etc. etc. lol. NOT even taking into account the many days #I just genuinely and physically sick and it's not even a mental thing. I just physically dont feel like sitting at the computer lol..#ANYWAY.. trying to get back into it. trying to get a business bank account.. make a proper paypal so i can start selling sculptures again.#selling clothes and sculptures.. posting about such things then of course as one must. etc... chanting to hype up and motivate myself lol #But yes. this is my favorite outfit out of the bunch so I am posting it first I guess.. maybe others later..#Also the purple dress says its from shein. which I've heard is bad fast fashion stuff. but maybe okay since its second hand? I havent #been to the bins since like 2020 or late 2019 even. and I think stuff like shein and temu has only become poular in the past few years #but I bet if I went to the bins now I might would find a good handfull of that stuff. Probably now not much different than what you #find in a walmart or a forever 21 or actual physical stores you can go to though. I hear quality of clothing is down everywhere no matter #where you get it or whatnot. What bountiful joys unfettered capitalism and exploitation bestows upon us (<being sarcastic).#Wearing one of my favorite little vests though. I love the texture of it and the clasps on it

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solitaireships · 7 months ago

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I feel like I should say since there's been a recent uptick in a lot of communities I'm in/see stuff from a lot of white people pretending to be Asian, but you are not welcome here if you are in anyway stealing from Asian cultures for clout or the aesthetics of it

This includes if you're white and you give your self inserts Asian names, I truly do not care if your f/o is from an anime, you should not be using an Asian name under any circumstances. I hate that whenever I see someone using an Asian name online, I feel like I have to start searching their account to see if they're actually Asian or just a white person who likes the aesthetic of it bcs far too many white people will use Asian names here just bcs it sounds cool, with no regard for the actual cultural meaning behind it. Meanwhile actual Asian people will be mocked for their names, or treated like their names are too hard to learn to pronounce, or discriminated against based on their names

Asian cultures are not a fun little costume for people to dress up with. They aren't just a nice aesthetic, they aren't just a thing you can borrow from bcs you think it sounds cool

#my posts #selfship community #anti asian racism #like it's definitely a perpetual problem of white people not seeming to realize asian names are like #a thing that are tied to culture and identity #but it's gotten crazy lately with people pretending to be asian online for clout #just in the past like 3 weeks of things i've seen #we had the white woman pretending to be a japanese woman on comic twitter #the white woman who pretended to be korean to get a 'ownvoices' book published #(who btw. named herself kim chi. you cannot make this shit up)#and then the white guy pretending to be japanese to try to justify his hate of the new assassin's creed game using stuff around yasuke #like it's so draining. i hate how much this is a never ending problem #i hate how casually white people will use asian names #like worstie. i am a korean woman. but i am whitepassing and mixed so i never use korean names for my self inserts #bcs i have the privilege of looking white and people generally only knowing i'm asian if i say it #it feels inappropriate to me for me to name my self inserts a korean name #bcs that would then mean they experience the world in a different way than i do #even being whitepassing bcs of the way people treat korean (and other asian) names #if you are white you have no fucking right to asian names #idgaf if your f/o's an anime character. stay away from asian names bcs they are not yours to dress up in #vent a little bit sorry team #i've been dealing with white people doing this shit and being assholes to me about it for well over a year now. it's exhausting

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year ago

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MDZS Disco Elysium AU part 2 - Psyche Skills

Part 1 - Part 3

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #disco elysium #MDZS disco elysium au #jiang cheng #jiang yanli #yu ziyuan #While it's more in vogue to draw a character's skill roster tailored to them -#One of the more subtle details I love in DE is how some of the skill portraits parallel character portraits of people hbd associates with.#Theres somethine rather poetic to be said about how other people shape out thoughts and sometimes act as a 'voice' in our head.#How we are in part a collection of impressions other people left behind on us.#I am a huge Skillhead (Those are my friends! My party members! They love me! They have their own agendas and alliances!)#so of course a healthy portion of this AU is dedicated to them <3 #the Int skills go basically unchanged from DE. Psy as well (with changes to a few quirks in voice).#Fys skills though...well...wwx is in a different body! Those voices belong to Someone Else.#Esp electrochem (MXY in this AU also partied to near death. WWX is withdrawing and craving substances he's never even heard of before)#While I personally don't fully subscribe to Volition Jean I *do* see Volition Jiang Cheng. The voice of your Not Brother keeping you afloat #All three of these parallels make me unbelievably sad. They are also both purple. Art is like that sometimes.#Empathy Jiang Yanli...oh man do I have a lot of thoughts about her. Disco fans Who Know....you can probably see what I'm cooking.#Authority is a really interesting skill in DE because *yes* its about power and intimidation - but it's also about finesse and respect #Titus Hardie and YZY both abuse *and* finesse how they establish their authority - in a way that leaves quite an impression.#2 more mdzs disco posts that I *need* to create and then I'm off to working on raffles <3

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royalarchivist · 10 months ago

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[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]

Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?

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Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.

Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!

Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.

* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.