#'I'LL FEEL LIKE THROWING UP'
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doomsday is such a jackie/shauna song and it ruins me
#don't say that you'll always love me / cause you know i'd bleed myself dry for you over and over again#jackie not leaving a burning plane until she drags shauna with her. jackie running back into a burning plane to pull shauna out#jackie giving shauna the last of her rations when they're all starving#jackie spiraling into a breakdown but pulling herself out to be reassuring the second shauna says 'i need my best friend right now'#'I'LL FEEL LIKE THROWING UP'#jackie outside shivering by the fire after having her entire world yanked out from under her#'YOU'LL SIT AND STARE LIKE A GODDAMN MACHINE'#shauna watching her struggle through the window wanting to reach out but holding her pride#'THE DEATH OF ME WAS SO QUIET / NO FRIENDS OR FAMILY ALLOWED'#self explanatory tbqh#'THE FUNNY THING IS I WOULDVE MARRIED YOU IF YOU'D STUCK AROUND'#i firmly hold the belief that if shauna had apologized jackie would've immediately caved#would've forgiven her#yellowjackets#shauna shipman#jackie taylor#jackieshauna#they make me ill
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normal guys in a normal relationship (giving you a not very convincing thumbs up). macdennis doodles from this week :)
#macdennis#macden#iasip#dennis reynolds#mac mcdonald#it's always sunny in philadelphia#everytime dennis touches mac in that weird touchy way of his i throw up a lil. gayboy#they are.. looking at skin mags. btw. i didn't draw it completely but there is uh. well.uhm. suggestive things you can zoom in on i guess#drawing charlie in that angle with no beard really got me. like who is that. if he ever shaves i'll probably think they replaced him#i already feel physically ill when i have to forgo mac's beard. they hatecrimed me when they had mac clean shaven tbh#i'm like the biggest deffender of so many decisions made. except for that.#STOP MAKING ME LOOK AT HIS BARE CHEEK?!?! it's like he's naked
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("Always. Continuously. With increasing apprehension, and decreasing hope. I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday. I will love you as a corpse loves the beak of the vulture. I will love you no matter what happens to you, and no matter how I discover what happens to you, and no matter what happens to me as I discover this." -- paraphrased from The Beatrice Letters, Lemony Snicket)
#svsss#bingqiu#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#lbh#sqq#i've been working through the series of unfortunate events and somehow that series has paired really nicely with svsss#the themes of cycling violence and what's justified and what isn't and what can possibly be done differently#and how trying to bring love and honour into the midst of it really changes nothing but also changes everything#it's just *chef's kiss*#i don't know how i can quite do my thoughts justice but i've spent the past few weeks quietly going between the two series (and mdzs and tg#as well if we're being honest they all hit similar questions and themes) and just reveling in the pain and ambiguity of it#everything is interconnected and it means you can never know what trauma and pain and necessity has shaped a person#each story goes too far back to ever ever EVER possibly see the full extent of it#at that level even communication itself is nearly impossible.#and because of that it's almost impossible to change anything. beat yourself apart and the outcome is the same#and yet ATTEMPTING to change things ATTEMPTING to do the kind thing the honourable thing is absolutely critical#because while you can change nothing you also have the capacity to change EVERYTHING#aaaaaaah i don't even know what i'm saying#but i read the beatrice letters today and the love letter just. killed me.#(obviously i cherrypicked some lines because it's three pages long but those ones felt right)#''i love you like a corpse loves a vulture's beak'' i just. can't get over that line.#to be completely changed. altered. destroyed. redeemed. purified. desecrated. reduced to nothing yet entirely necessary for another's life.#what a FUCKING line#anyway i was either going to blow up from thinking about it or else i had to exorcise it via art from an entirely different series#i've already done svsss and discworld why not throw a series of unfortunate events into the mix#i'll be honest folks i did not expect svsss to be the mxtx series that would fuck me up the most about the main ship#bingqiu is something else. i don't even know how to begin to approach my feelings on it. impossibility and necessity all at once#bizarre#my art
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yall ever think Shen Yuan went through like, internet withdrawal after being transmigrated into Shen Qingqiu? Like, he's canonically a NEET shut-in who did nothing but spend his time online, you can't tell me that for the first week or first few weeks of being SQQ he wasn't twitchy.
Like, reaching instinctively to his pockets for a phone that wasn't there, having an obsessive itch in the back of his mind that he should check and see if X or Y novel or webcomic has updated -- only to realize he can't anymore and being irritated by it. Wanting to go and see if there's new posts about this or that, but again realizing that he can't.
When he's bored or uncomfortable or just feels like wanting to escape he tries to go for his phone to distract himself, but oops! Not there anymore, and now he has to find a new and different way to distract himself from his feelings. And going through system notifications, quests, etc only does so much.
And there's that Tetris Effect too. SQQ makes a mistake while writing and instinctively goes to backspace on it except hey-ho that's not a keyboard and now he just dipped his pinkie into a bottle of ink or on a still-drying letter.
With him scrambling to fix his reputation and learn how to be a peak lord, I think his abrupt cold-turkey from all things internet would just be another straw on the camel's back that he promptly Ignores until it goes away on its own after he acclimates to his new surroundings.
#svsss#mxtx svsss#scum villain#scum villian self saving system#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#i think him learning how to be a peak lord and cultivation and everything else would help distract him from the internet withdrawal for the#most part. but the moment there's a lull in the day and his mind wanders or he becomes bored or stressed and he instinctively reaches back#for his phone and realizes it isn't there it just sends a spike of panic/frustration/irritation through him because its a familiar comfort#and now its gone. like this is all based off my own experiences from being Chronically Online but i just think its neat to think about#in that same vein i think it also pushes him into getting into the arts on QJP. Like as the peak lord naturally he would be doing this kind#of stuff but hes NOT the peak lord but to keep up appearances he has to know how to do this stuff. and finds it??? actually quite rewarding#even more than getting into an argument online or getting a new merch item. he's making or doing this stuff. he starts drawing and finishes#a piece and regardless of its skill level he feels something unclog in his chest. like sediment being scraped off the bottom of a creek and#being washed downstream. a weight that's been slogging through his veins suddenly untangled. physical proof of his efforts that feels great#starry is incapable of NOT giving her favorite blorbos more hobbies. starry is incapable of not giving her favorites artsy hobbies#this is probably NOT a new or original thought whatsoever but im throwing it out there anyways bc it fascinates me. i love transmigration#and albeit i've only read isekai manhwa/manhua there's a common theme of the people there assimilating into their new lives relatively quic#which i know is for ease of transition and getting to the rest of the story. but WHAT IF.#i have still not read svsss yet and idk when i'll be able to BUT have some thoughts anyways
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but when they're out on that river bank alone, what javier should be loyal to doesn't feel as confusing anymore
#also known as 'he wants so badly to run away with his boyfriend and marry him and live happily ever#after'#but his commitment to dutch and the gang breaks his heart#i want them to be happy SO BAAAD SO BAD IM GOINGN TO THROW YP#also the top right one comes w a headcanon#which is that kieran can only bathe if javier is there (and only javier) because otherwise he's too terrified of being k*lled for either bei#ng trans or just in general because he's alone#so that's why he's usually stinky#he really hates being stinky but he doesn't consider it worth dying over#anyway i love them so bad and their little fishing dates#kieran infodumps the whole time and javier feels so lucky to be alive because he knows kieran doesn't talk around anyone else near as much#if at all#javier knows 99% of the fish knowledge but he never interrupts and is always happy to listen to kieran yap about every other topic too#i need to put javi in an 'i ❤️ my autistic boyfriend' shirt#ok i'll shut up now#also i know this composition looks like total shart i'm literally the worst at doing them </3 be nice to me#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#kieran duffy#javier escuella#javieran#am i allowed to say that i own this ship#considering i literally made it LOL i feel so proud even tho it also makes me miserable that i bascially have no one to talk to abt them#image#art#hero draws sometimes
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les mis if they were dinosaurs 🧐🧐🧐🧐
javert is a yutyrannus, marius is a compsognathus, cosette is a parasaurolophus, grantaire is a spinosaurus
#worked with the council (les mis discord server) on this one special thanks to u guys <3#rlly liked these sketches so i wanted to post them😭#rlly dont know how grantaire ended up as my fav dinosaur#given i know next to nothing about him#itty bitty marius and big cosette is giving me life rn#seriously look up how big a compsognathus is and then look up how big a parasaurolophus is#target audience for this au is me and me alone. very self indulgent sketches#dinosaurs have been my fav thing for literally as long as i've been alive :3#ask me about dinosaurs#anyways feel free to throw out ideas of who would be what#les mis#les miserables#fanart#art#javert#inspector javert#cosette fauchelevent#marius pontmercy#grantaire#paleoart#??? paleoart??? i'll tag that sure#spinosaurus#compsognathus#yutyrannus
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Now orthodox Israeli -just for laughs- are making fake videos copying the viral tiktoks of the IOF kidnapping Palestinian fathers and sons and stripping then naked and torturing them. Note that the videos were shared by the soldiers themselves and were horrifying and ugly. You would think that people who survived the holocaust and historical racism and antisemitism would never want to display the same evil, dehumanization and hatred to others, yet these people are celebrating. Remember when people used to bring kids to the picnic/ lynchings?
Now before somebody comes and says how is this helpful? Ask the people who shot this video and were shameless enough to post it as a trend. After seeing the horrific original video that tiktok allowed Israelis to share and celebrate.
#i can't i feel like I'm gonna throw up#the original video was like nothing else i swear how could anybody watch it and go: alright I'll make fun of these victims#i can't stop shaking i can't stop thinking of the victims my god#palestine#gaza#israel#important#current events#ethnic cleansing#free gaza#free palestine#gaza strip#gaza under attack#video#west bank#israelis#israel is a terrorist state#israel apartheid#tiktok
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maybe if i just put these screenshots together youll understand why i think their relationship just Works so well as it pertains to the characters and themes of S4 in general
neither of them know what theyre doing, but theyre figuring it out Together. the old ways are dead. and together theyll build a new future thats worth fighting for
#twdg#violentine#clems “i dont know” paired with violets “lets figure it out together”. screaming crying throwing up#clem never knew what she was doing!! she was just trying her best!! and now shes tired as SHIT!!! she wants a break 😭!!!#vi helps take that weight off by supporting her as much as she does (which is A LOT!! and clem supports her in return. they grow together)#that bit in the woods where instead of getting grossed out by the guts vi crouches down to ajs level and keeps the situation calm#and she looks up to clem and gives her a little smile. and clem just relaxes and smiles back !! DO YOU UNDERSTAND !!!#clem being anxious about her reaction. violet putting her at ease. clem getting to Relax for 2 seconds. they help each other CHILL 😭#ALSO why their walk home talking about ericson and renaming it and imagining what they could add to it is just so good narratively#they turned that prison into their HOME!! a place worth fighting for!!!#tenn wanting to help rebuild. vi saying Everyone will :') its a home for ALL OF THEM 😭 its about the COMMUNITY !!!#this is also why i think the friends route still works but theres just even more Juice with the romance. even ignoring minnie#violets “you better not disappear on me”. friended clems “ok” to romanced clems “i promise”#in a season about building a home and a family that second one just hits harder you know? and like above with the learning to dance#i just feel like their romantic relationship specifically fits into the overall themes of the game the strongest and elevates it#me talking at the wall (tumblr drafts)#all of my friends who have played twdg are too normie so i gotta make posts like this instead. or i'll die#wont somebody analyze narrative with me#it speaks
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Tbh I feel like going to the US while the Nazis are in power is suicidal. So of course I don't understand your choice of going instead of your SO coming to Europe. But while I don't understand, I wish and pray for you to be safe. Whatever you choose, I hope you guys will be okay
You might be right. I have no idea what the future has in store or if I'll come to regret it. But I've already stated my reasons. As it stands, with the year-long process we've already started and that we can't just flip on a dime overnight, my partner can't come and stay in Europe legally just like that. Legal immigration is not that easy in one way or the other. Also... Yeah, I've stated that before, but one shouldn't underestimate how shitty things have been getting in Europe for the past few years as well, and how the influence of the US (which is huge) is likely to make things worse. So again I'm not 100% sure whether that'd have been better anyway.
Also also... Ima be real, I've shared that before, but the time where I was separated from my partner due to the travel ban was the only time in my life where I had actual suicidal ideation. I don't want this to happen again. That's why I'm making moves so it doesn't, first and foremost.
#tw sui ideation#tw sui talk#again i can't just pick and choose it's actually a really tough process and not just something i can go willy nilly about#it's a bit of a headache having people telling me otherwise#i'll do what i can and we'll keep doing our best to stay safe but it's not like i can just switch roads overnight#i wish i could but it's never as simple#or maybe it is for people who are already us citizens i have no idea#but i'm not quite sure#either way tbh i'm not sure moving to europe as so many people are throwing in online rn is that great a solution either#europe is the us's playground and geopolitically its bitch#some things definitely are better than in the us but in a world where money rules everything i don't feel it's quite as fool proof#as everyone makes it sound#as someone who was born and raised there respectfully#who's felt that influence for life#and btw as someone who also grew up not speaking english and who had to painstakingly learn#don't think you can just move to a random country you can't speak the language of and that everyone will be as nice about it#as if you were a tourist#language is important#my partner doesn't speak my country's language#so yep there's that#i've already said that several times anyway it's getting tiresome#we COULD have tried for the UK in a timeline where those dumbasses didn't choose to leave the EU#but that ship sailed almost 10 years ago#i wonder if anyone realizes that#sorry for saying that after such a wall of text but thank you for the concern though sincerely
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consider this an inbox call across all my sideblogs. like this post and i'll go through your prompts tag and send something in there!
#i dont feel like posting inbox calls across all my sbs so you guys get this instead#you can specify a blog/muse but don't have to; i'll just throw someone at you#also if you end up getting an ask from a sideblog you don't follow please lmk and i'll send another one...#out.
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It's crazy how I've stayed on this website for thirteen months of the most batshit Nazi antisemitism I've ever seen in my life but that the thing that is probably going to drive me off is seeing 70% of the like 12 people I still follow start suddenly super aggressively posting "won't somebody please think of the men!!" shit in the wake of the US elections and then 2 days later posting "my god it's crazy how all these hysterical BITCHES get soooo hysterical and upset just because we told them they need to think about how men are feeling at the worst moment for women's rights in recent history!!!"
#Idk how seriously i can take someone's takes about antisemitism anymore after seeing them cry scream throw up#For days on end when women don't like it when you center men's feelings in discussion about the oppression of women#Sorry but if you're using the word misandrist in 2024 you're not a serious person and I'll probably never be able to take anything you say#Seriously ever again bc you are just ridiculous#gingerswagfreckles#feminism#mysogyny#Unironically I've blocked 16 people at this point and that is literally at least a third of the people I still follow who post about#Anything serious
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insane how unfairly cute he is this duel. I feel genuinely sick
#'is that last part a joke' no. I feel like I'm going to throw up. he doesn't let his mistreatment hurt him#he's too brave. he doesn't need to pretend to be evil for other people's gain but it's all he has#'everyone thinks I'm still bad so I'll pretend to be one so others can prosper' dear. don't#snarky arc v
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Hips.
HIPS.
#James Hetfield#jameshetfield#this should be illegal#sos#I saw this clip on Instagram first#but there were too many words taking up the screen#I feel like he takes a pause like#how can I make vampiressmoney suffer#I know I'll throw in a brief grind#it's so quick but impactful#well done james#heaven help us#i am ruined for the rest of the day now
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#the way that claudia hasn't been doing what viren wanted for her to do since like. at least season 2#the whole “then i'll look him in the eyes and i'll know what to do” and remembering how she turned her eyes away from soren i'm just#*screaming crying throwing up*#this is not the post i started out to make but#sometimes i just like to rearrange screenshots to hurt my own feelings#4x07#4x02#6x01#6x08#claudia#viren#aaravos#soren#the dragon prince#parallels#mine
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this torture we're going through with the anime must be divine karma for slandering Bones all this time...... they said "oh, you don't like how we adapt things? you say the manga does it better?? okay then, well now there is no more manga. it's Bones or bust, bitches."
#bungou stray dogs#they really said now either you get the story from us or you don't get it at all 😭😭😭😭💀#screaming crying throwing up shaking HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CARRY ON FOR THE NEXT WEEK LIKE EVERYTHING IS NORMAL#NOT KNOWING WHAT THE FUCK 'TWILIGHT FAREWELL' MEANS#NOT EVEN A FULL WEEK BUT FIVE DAYS CAUSE THE PV ALONE WILL END ME#seriously though how can i be okay with getting canon content for the first time in the ANIME#they already do terribly with content that ALREADY EXISTS#HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL GETTING /NEW CONTENT/ THROUGH /BONES/#i guess looking at it another way though...... i should be glad if they deliver me some fucking hope a few weeks early#like obviously i'd rather none of this have happened and have gotten to this point in the last episode in the manga first#but since it did turn out this way....... if good things happen i'll take it i can't complain at this point just GIVE ME HOPE#mexican standoff with bones now that there's (basically) no manga content left like 'so it is down to you and it is down to me'#bones at the end of the fucking bsd world: 'never thought i'd be fighting side by side with a bsd anime hater'#me: 'how about side by side with a friend?'#bones: 'aye i can do that'
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hehe
i wonder why is amanda overton so excited about episode 7???
way to set up a mystery 👁️👄👁️
#“It's gonna blow people's minds” 💀💀💀 AMANDA I'M SCARED#mind you she talked about episodes she's very passionate about#AND WERE GONNA LEARN WHAT SHE MEANT ABOUT EPISODE 5 IN JUST A FEW HOURS#I think I will happy cry too 😌💙#HOWEVER. NOW I'LL BE SCARED ABOUT EPISODE 7 THROUGHOUT MY VACATION#besides. ma meilleure ennemie falls into episode 7 music line. I FEEL LIKE I'M GONNA THROW UP FROM EXCITEMENT.#my timebomb mutuals from other social media reminded me that episode 7 of season 1 was THE timebomb episode#so it'd be funny if season 2 did the same thing and made episode 7 also connected to timebomb
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