#🧍‍♂️<- me a man that is insane now

[mblue-art]

Sorry for that question but I really curious!

What made you fell in love with Cross and Lust?

Tell us more!!

😳😳😳 hhuh what rreally,, , ,,, 😳 u wanna hear me yap abt my sillies, my beloveds,,, (i appreciate the enthusiasm tho omg 🥺🫶🫶🫶)

i want to have the yuris with lust and the yaois with cross I I MEAN HWHWAT 🧍‍♂️

UM.

haha anyWAY,, (oh gog this ended up long)

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cross checks so many boxes for me it makes me go insane. too good to be true. versatile(??)— like it's somehow way too easy to put him in Situations. (he's bf and husbone material??? just -20hp me now; that already kills me) he's. hh. gawddamn there's reasons why he won a utmv sans sexyman poll.

he's like a crush that you can't get out of your head no matter what you do, i'm so freaking down bad for him it's not even funny anymore. ever since simping for cross i have not been the same since. the man has changed me. the attraction/simp feelings hit me like a bat out of nowhere and i don't understand why it's so intense— i. hh.

,,i like when ppl make him dorky. stupidly silly (absolutely love shitpost shenanigans and would absolutely LOVE to get into silly shenanigans with him and with/without his bestie epic). fun to be around when he's deemed you as a good friend. stars, he'd give good hugs. strong, solid, and warm, the kind of hugs u don't wanna pull away from so soon. a little endearingly cringe. fanon simp cross is adorable and fun to mess around with. tsundere cross is adorable and fun to mess with. cute anxious guy under all that intimidating aloofness. when i say his smile is an absolute treasure, i mean that. his blush making him look like a grape or a glowing bulb is adorable and makes me wanna tease him more. anime protag/character vibes so strong i wanna have a cute bl/shoujo manga romance with him type shit yk.

then there's times when he's The Hot Dude and i think it's illegal if he's all confident and smug and dom actually (/hj) cause that makes me wanna fucking fite him HELLO? SIR? ILLEGAL????? (<- the fight or flight response of a tsundere towards a milder tsundere LOL).

-hp every single time. mf gets successful d20 rolls w/ rizz on me and i get a critical hit every time. it's a 50/50 either i fluster to death and become weak or i wanna fite his dumbass

i'll. i can fight him. i'll lose but i can fight him for sure. (why is he so cool⁉️‼️💢💢💢RRRRRRR)

he makes me feel things. lots of things. (mostly fluster but when i'm feelin sooper soff i jst wanna shower his skull in keeses. ima kissy lil guy)

tired cross makes me just wanna take care of him. want him to come home to me without any worry because he thinks i'm his safe space.

when he's being stubborn i want to tell him to chill out for a little while, take a break and watch some funny stuff while drinking choccy milk or eating his fav foods and be cozy. bapping him if he's gonna try to get out of this too soon. he's gonna get the free time he deserves n relax n get cuddles n kithes.

the way he can gently hold my hand and look at me with a sincere look in his eyelights and say something genuinely affectionate feels like cupid shooting an arrow through my soul, but also feels like a balm. (a promise of loyalty and faithfulness.) (a kiss on the forehead? a cherry on top.)

well now i can't be mean to him with all the nice he's saying and doing. i just want nice things for him o(-< (even if he's a bastard sometimes lol<3 all circles back to the silly) (silly is always important)

💜—

i love lust. so so so much. the fanon interpretation of him, anyway.

(don't get me wrong, i absolutely adore the feminine slay content of lust; but am i wrong for yearning for more masc lust content?)

i like my lust sans respectful, goofy, sans-like, an absolute sweetheart, and a caring, wonderful life partner. under the flirty personality and charm(ing looks), is a sans behavior that made me fall deeper. (he makes me feel very gender too) (ohmygofd yeah no he actually makes me think of gender sometimes rauauagrrgh<3/pos). i don't have to worry about showing my cring, weird side to him, because he's also a gremlin,, o(-< he doesn't have to present himself all nice and pretty all the time (although he's always pretty in my eyes). he can be comfortably himself; with me 🥺

i want to be his safe space.

i want to see him heal and be happy and be happy with me and give him all the love i can give and care for him and make him soso happy i just want him to feel SO sosososo loved, he deserves so much more

he's the only one who's able to get a certain reaction out of me; to pull flowers out of my heart. to pull out words of love and devotion and appreciation, heart bursting with affection only for him.

for him, i would try. i would live for him. i wish someone like him (the him i've created from interpretations and headcanons) was real irl.

i want to not care i don't care if he's a gorgeous well-known person that people fawn over, or if he's a campus crush, etc.,

i want him to think i'm worthy enough to keep in his life. for him to know how special he is to me, for him to know how much i want him in my life as much as i want him to keep me in his.

my immediate reaction when i think of him is: 😊💕💜💜💜eeeee kicks and giggles and flaps hands teehee

i love him so much i get a heart-on for him (/silly but it is true sometimes; love him so much it aches (in a good way))

[kennyomegasweave]

Playboyy Finale Reaction

I am just sitting in my bed staring off at my wall in utter silence.

Under the cut are my live thoughts during this finale and you can see me descend into insanity.

Oh poor Phop is in hella debt? Baby. 

FIRST, SOONG DOESN'T WANT TO BE YOUR SUGAR BABY. But also Soong. Baby. Just let yourself be a sugar baby. He's younger than you anyway. "I don't want to sit around and do nothing and still live an expensive life." Okay Soong that's admirable but like. Couldn't be me. 

Okay, if Nont and Prom think someone's gonna bust in the door, maybe don't stand in the doorway? Also. Yes Nont, finally get your dad involved. There's no need for your friends to be doing all this. Your dad is rich and connected.

"No one has issues with me like you do." Captain, my favorite boy, Puen isn't the one that's been an asshole here. I'm sorry though, are we gonna get Captain having some character growth in the last two episodes after being the absolute worst? Oh baby. 

TUTOR. SOONG. NO. First. Oh. He's really gonna fuck up his relationship over this huh. Goddammit First. Baby you can't just make appointments to beat up men sexually when you feel bad. That's not what we do love.

NUTH. My boy. NO.

Aww Nont is like this was not the fucking plan. Has a single plan of Nont's gone well? Because I don't think anything's gone like he wanted this entire show.  

Oh shit wait. Damn. Is Nuth gonna go down for Nant's murder now??? Holy shit. Can someone please go find Phop cause he is just sobbing alone in their shitty apartment.

Hey Keen! My love! Just sitting on the couch like you belong. Glad you're here to campaign for Nuth. That's my boy. My two boys.

I kinda feel like Nont should have brought Prom as backup for this scene. Cause everyone else has their man (except Porsche because Jump said he didn’t want to hang out with these losers I guess?) and he's just standing there like 🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️.

Well. My dear sweet mentally unwell child is in prison. So. I mean. I guess that's that. FOR FIVE YEARS??? HE'S GONNA DO FIVE YEARS??? OH MY FUCKING GOD. 

Jump and Porsche are cute. But Nuth is gonna be in prison for five years and Phop is a baby in hella debt and I'm just like.

I mean, lick that dick Porsche, but what does that mean to me right now. When Nuth is IN PRISON for FIVE YEARS. 

....is Phop OD'ing??? What in the fuck is going on??? Like is he really fucking dying right now??? Alone??? In his fucking bathroom while his man is in prison??? 

Welp. I think the baby just fucking OD'd alone in his bathroom while his man is in prison so like. When I tell you. There's 13 minutes left in this show and I'm done. I AM DONE.

At this point I am so angry that I'm not even reacting. Like. This show really just wanted to hurt my fucking feelings and did. Unless they do some surprise twist? I'm sick. This is SICK.

What the fuck is that painting??? Am I supposed to recognize who that is??? Cause Zouey's art is shit and I don't. What the fuck is going on here. I've long since realized I'm too dumb for the plot so like I just need someone to tell me if Phop is alive cause I don't think he is. And I need to know. I NEED TO KNOW.

I'M STILL ABSOLUTELY FURIOUS ABOUT PHOP BUT THEY JUST BUSTED OUT SOME BONKERS ASS SHIT WITH FIVE MINUTES LEFT WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON. 

Umm okay so it just ended??? I'm guessing they cliffhangered it for a second season? But these shows RARELY ever get a second season??? Oh this was an entire waste of my fucking time. I'm not even mad. I'm actually laughing. lol

WAIT IS THIS WHOLE THING NUTH'S SCREENPLAY??? DID PHOP KILL NANT??? What the shit is happening here??? Again, I'm not even mad now. I'm in awe of this. lol

Well, that certainly happened. Alright then. I don't even know what to say at this point.

[vacantgodling]

I'd love to hear about cult of the pale moon messiah (and also gender if you wanna share) ~ @void-botanist

thank youuuuu!!

so gender is a playlist of songs that are just gender to me. i haven’t updated it in a BIT so idk how accurate some of them still are 🤔 it’s less of how i currently experience gender and more like the gender i Want to be. just something about the sounds and vibes of these songs are if i could snap my fingers and have any body and style etc i want it’d be this: (also sorry not sorry it’s all kpop)

N E WAY. cult of the pale moon messiah is a very… underdeveloped wip. it actually (surprisingly for me) came from a dream i had after reading that one writing prompts post talking about being imprisoned for 400 years or smthn and you actually live to see the full sentence. so. here’s just what i wrote down from that dream:

after being caught and tried for murder, a criminal has been sentenced to 111 years in prison. the criminal (a vampire, to which they don’t knows accepts this sentence but requests that he be provided a coffin to sleep in, and that no one provide him with food or water or anything to sustain himself and that no one check his cell for 111 years. the judge agrees, humored, and orders that a building ordinance be put up that no one shall check that cell for 111 years and the building cannot be torn down until this prisoner’s time.

the vampire enters his solitary confinement cell and is locked in the room. the vampire gets into the coffin and lulls itself to sleep.

111 years later, the town is being renovated and workers finally come down to this tomb. they have heard about the ordinance and are darkly amused to see the bones of the fool who would’ve died a horrible starving death for naught. they open the crypt and they pry open the coffin and find the vampire still fully flesh and blood laying there. the first man (older) dies of fright and the other (younger) is devoured by the now awake vampire. then, the vampire escapes.

news quickly spreads of this and though many are concerned at what the FUCK still many others flock to him and begin to worship him as a god. which is how the cult of the pale moon messiah is born.

(they still don’t know he’s a vampire btw🧍‍♂️)

basically those who tend to flock to this “messiah” are fed the lie that they will be able to become immortal by becoming one with him—so it becomes a sex cult but also a blood bag drive because basically they’re lead to believe that if they’re chosen to be drained by the messiah that they are being sent to their second life and will be reborn. a mass hysteria and frenzy over this new religion crops up and starts sending their small land into just sheer goddamn pandemonium (this story takes place in paramour’s universe btw right here

and yeah it’s very. castlevania (netflix) meets interview with a vampire’s homoeroticism because the Tension between the vampire and the mc man who comes to put a stop to this shit (him btw)

is kind of insane.

no one has names yet and it’s very just uHHHHH vibes. i’ll figure it out eventually.

there’s only 2 songs on the playlist tho bc i’m look for like. very specific blend of operatic metal like the first song or very heavy handed religious allegory but take me to church but also rocky-poppy like the second im just very picky.

[astrids-multiverse]

Honestly, i'm not too surprised? I've been on the site before my account .DREKAR on now deactivated accounts (i experienced a callout, and i've been working on myself, which has been such a journey for me.) So i joined Q in 2018. Agust 2018.

But i'm not surprised the site was gonna crash and burn (still doesn't remove the upsetti spaghetti 🥹) i remember when profiles used to be square and not round, and the outages where when i got back saw posts like "I survived the quotev outage of *insert date*" im giggling at some of my old memories rn 🤣

The number of memories i have from quotev being my safe space for years until i was an adult are insane. Quotev raised us when our families didn't want to or couldn't man

omg I joined q on 2018 too!! my url was something.. its kinda embarrassing bc I was 13 at that time lmaoo. it's funny bc when the outages occurred everyone was like "i thought q would be gone forever" and there were some ppl who were like "no it won't, it was just an outage" and look at us rn 🤧🧍‍♂️ ( yes, even if we did see q disappearing, it's so sad ) ahhh yes!! it's so nostalgic tbh 💔

very true! quotev was more than just a quiz site, it was a place where we could be ourselves, where we could ask for help, reach out, make friends, and basically found a loving and positive foundation and such. i learned why many ppl decided to stay as adults too bc its a comfort space and that will be missed. i 100% agree! we are the definition of a found family and that will be irreplaceable 🤧💔

[megamindsupremacy]

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Shazam has a tiktok account that’s solely dedicated to doing dangerous things because he’s basically invulnerable

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Dr Seward is SO determined to not be in a Gothic novel and honestly I cannot fault him for this

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#3

Shazam has a Twitter and everything he posts is just straight up lies but nobody can figure out if he has a super weird life or if he’s messing with all of them (it’s both)

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Billy trying to figure out why villains keep throwing glowing green rocks at him and then being surprised when nothing happens and he rocks their shit so one day he brings like a backpack full of Kryptonite up to the Watchtower to ask Batman what the fuck it is only to nearly kill Superman on accident

7,446 notes - Posted January 16, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

DC Twitter must have been INSANE when it got out that Superboy’s dads were Superman and Lex Luthor. Holy shit. The memes. The ship wars. The homophobes. The mpreg jokes. People would have lost their fucking minds. Lex Luthor releases a statement like “he’s a clone of me and Superman no birth was involved” and people are like KINDA GAY OF YOU TO HAVE A SON WITH ANOTHER MAN, LUTHOR. Lexcorp’s PR team locks themselves in a conference room and refuses to come out for love or money.

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[elizabeth-mitchells]

re: jeff

i dont know if he'll die? it could go either way?

like it's very important that callie and lisa were the ones in the woods when the unspeakable thing happened, and jeff and walter were maybe like a hundred meters away in whatever direction doing their own crimes but were nevertheless separate from this ritualistic Yellowjackets stuff.

So like, Jeff isnt doomed the way the Yellowjackets seem to be, but Callie IS now, whatever that winds up meaning.

But maybe he IS doomed to be collateral damage, because maybe the Yellowjackets aren't doomed to die they're just doomed to hurt the people around them UNTIL they die???

I dont know but man oh man I wish Lisa had just left when Nat told her to 😭

okay yes!!! like. i want him to die. i mean, i don't want him to die, but i think that the story probably shouldn't end with shauna and jeff living happily ever after. maybe that could happen without him dying tho! he doesn't look very safe to me, but also not entirely doomed. like he's still just... there 🧍‍♂️ a little too close to the Yellowjacketsness, but not in too much danger... but that still kind of a lot more danger than regular people lol

Now, Callie and Lisa? oh boy they are involved now. like you can't be present for something like that and not deal with insane consequences. which i'm Extremely excited and scared of!!! i hope they team up and take their moms and aunts to therapy <3 or more rituals? whatever works for them!

oh don't even mention that 😭 like Lisa probably would've stayed in her room or something if Nat hadn't tried to warn her, right? or at least she wouldn't have brought the gun... it's all so fucked up i'm going to start crying again 😭

[darabeatha]

@invictah​ said ; ❝ Which do you prefer, running or swimming? ❞ to jason ! and no, esra is NOT at all up to something   🧍‍♂️ ............ 🏃‍♂️💨  /  from: 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐄 𝐈 𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐄𝐑

        ❝ ―Ugh, why do you keep on asking these questions?? Do you even know what silence is?? Obviously swimming! Sure, I AM the captain of the fastest ship that has ever sailed, but if I had to I could swim my way on my own anywhere I wanted- Not that you would understand so i’m now putting it under big terms to help you get the idea- ❞  Well- maybe that might have been an exaggeration, but it wasn’t really a lie if Jason himself truly wished for it to be true very deep down- right?  It wasn’t until after he’s been monologuing to Esra about the sea and his incredibly fast and nicely built legs that could run and swim miles if so he wished and many more other extraordinary feats that he noticed a very particular little grin tugging at the corners of Esra’s lips, one that gave him the biggest chills down the back of his spine and that brought the captain to freeze on the spot- almost as if he knew that if he did or said anything more, he would surely get involved in some sort of insane batshit crazy activity that the other would certainly think to be very normal and non-life threatening. Why was he even just stanting there like that! he could perfectly see through him! through the fact that Esra looked nothing different to him than a wolf ready to jump on a poor, poor innocent sheep! (jason note: make that a bull at least!)

It was obvious by this point that this was a trap- this was obviously a trap! These questions have been TOO specific for his own liking, and he couldn’t believe it finally hit him...! 

❝ Huooooooggghhhhhhhhh!!!!! Heraaaaaaacleees―!!! ❞ He shouts internally with a mix of concentration and desperation, as if by frowning harder, he would manage to somehow magically manage to send some sort of specific mind waves to Heracles to let him know that he was in danger (not that even if he was able to achieve such feat, Heracles would come in any case) but to him, such words would have meant nothing- heck, at this point; Medea could have done something as well!

He’s.... He’s being cornered like a sheep !!! Don’t look at him like that!! he’s busy, incredibly so! Yet no amount of internally manifesting Heracles would work (this time). He knew it- that he had no time to spare, so it was in that moment that a bright idea appreared inside his mind in the midst of his shouting;  But calm down Jason! if there is something you are the most talented at...... it certainly is at surviving!!. No matter the cost !! I can just tell him― .......!!!

❝ Oh man but- you know how servants areee- that was waaaaayy in the past, now I don’t know how to swim! (that won’t stop him!! I gotta be more specific!!) nor run― nor walk, nor jump, nor sit on that matter― pshhh... Silly throne of heroes, am I right? besides, I’m a busy captain too, extremely busy. There’s so many things I have to do that I can’t even count them right now- just think of the busiest man in the world and that’s me ! It’s not easy the life of the captain of the Argo, but if you ask Castor and Pollux, surely they’ll be able to help you in whatever freaky task you need ❞

[fearandhatred]

leanne my dear💖🫂 I have a few asks🤭

✨️🎶✖️👀 🤩🤭

Have a lovely day!

mari my beloved!!! 🥺🩷 thank you so much for the ask

❌️ and 🤭 answered!!

✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉

🧍‍♂️ i think i am good at evoking emotion? or so i'm told lmaoo. ok no i think i'm good at evoking emotion creatively. kind of linked to the "what are some common things you incorporate" question actually. i think that comparing two unexpected things with each other can add a whole other layer of depth and meaning that could make someone feel more as a result, and i think i'm not bad at doing that 🤭

🎶 Do you listen to music while you write? What song have you been playing on loop lately?

i can't listen to anything while i write because i cannot have input while i am trying to produxe output HAHA. i do listen to music when i'm brainstorming or trying to find inspiration though. listening to the entirety of preacher's daughter by ethel cain on loop was actually what gave me the entire inspiration for transitional heart taxidermy, and six months later i am still listening to that album on loop. insanity but i think ethel is so gifted at storytelling and evoking emotion so it's only fitting

👀 Tell me about an up and coming wip please?

as you please 😌 here is the prologue of my rome fic

Mille vie ducunt hominem per secular Romam—a thousand roads lead a man forever toward Rome; or, colloquially, all roads lead to Rome. Consulting a map would confirm that this is, in fact, true, and it was true also during the era of the Roman Empire: all roads emerged from and thus led back to the capital city of Rome, like the world revolved around it, like it was the centre of a preplanned silk-woven web.

All that is to say, it is rather fitting that Rome was where Crowley needed to be during the height of a cruel reign; where a chance meeting changed everything; where he fell in love with the one being he couldn't stop revolving his whole world around, like a fly caught in a cobweb and freed, just to keep coming back.

🤩 Who is your favorite character to write?

i have not written many characters lmaoo but i love writing hardened (on the outside?) characters with trauma idk it's fun to explore and unpack and find the core of them underneath it all. what led them to this place? would every choice they made have inevitably led them here or was there ever chance it could have turned out differently? like crowley and also kaz brekker from six of crows, which was my first experience writing a full fic (i have not finished it help but it was my first time doing in-depth character exploration and i loved it)

[pilotheather]

k. finale time

ep 11 - dark water

preface this by me saying im doing dogshit right now so idk if im going to get through this ep in one go we'll see

again. kinda wish i saw these live. i bet the reveals in this finale were crazy. and again bugh... im thinking again about current who and sigh bc we're never gonna get that again are we. sorry i whined already. it was just nice to watch stuff with ppl even if youre, like, alone. now its just straight up alone. LOL.

like i dont even know what was happening at this time. do the reddit live reeaction threads exist from back then. did they know danny was abt to die right now. like was that leaked. im certain therre was missy speculation which speaking fo im excited to see her again. missy come home

like jesus fucking christ

WHY IS MADGE FREOM BENIDORM HERE I FORGOT SHEWAS LIKE CLARAS NAN HLEP ME sorry that took me out of it

CLARA YOU'RE SO FUNNY FOR THIS

THE WAY HE DOES NOT EVEN KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF. "DANNY PINK IS DEAD." HE'S LIKE UM. AND? STOP. CHRIST.

why did it make the splunch.mp4 sound when she chucked it.

i think its funny. i still lowkey hate clara for season 7 and a lot of the... very irritating qualities written into her. but i am also kind of obsessed sometimes. i wish companions could be wretched cunts like this more often.

i keep thinking about how much i'd kill myself bass boosted if i did manage to actually off myself properly and there was still more. and if chris addison was the one there to tell me that.

hi missy

shes so funny shes so funny fo rhtis everything about missy is maybe the funniest fucking thing conceieved i need moffat desperately for this in retrospect this is such an insanely thing to do with the master but also shes just havbing fun

THE WAY SHE JUST JUMPS HIM LIKE CHRIST ITS SO GOOD

"My heart... Is maintained by the Doctor..." "Doctor... Who? 🤨" "... 🥺............... DOCTOR CHANG!!! 🤬"

i forgot how kinda dopey these cybermen looked

guys i miss the s10 finale

i need her so bad 👆

ep 12 - death in heaven

its funny i dont remember that much from this finale but comparatively i swear i rate it like. relatively highly as being pretty solid.

thats not saying jack shit so many of the finales are dog shit

OSGOODDDD YOUR RELENTLESS SLAYYYYY

"87. Ocd." help me.

i forget help why did you sedate him youre insane

the really dodgy fucking crowd outside saying the mos t obvious shit is making me giggle. also ilove this absolute bullshit scifi mumbo jumbo, even worse than usual, like i forgot they did it like this. like what the fuck are you talking about. the rain forming perfect metal suits around them. hang on does it have a name

https://tardis.fandom.com/wiki/Cyber-pollen

you're lying to me (<- he would later find out they said this in the episode)

i wish they'd done something with the designs to make it look more organic and to make it look like it literally grew over the corpses. i get that that would be more expensive but it would be tight as fuck. i love it when the cybermen lean into horror more.

why did they make him the president. its so messy.

clara just yapping

also classic fucking moffat giving his special little girl the same birthdya as doctor who fuck off man.

isnt it crazy how missy and 12 are so toxic yuri

its bewildering to me how danny is somhehow the only one that did not hit that fat delete button like i guess ok fin hes one of the last few in there but help me. is there really no one else. i guess if you simulate them ALL feeling eerything they would all jsut delete in the end but still

Permission to squee!

YOU, DOCTOR, ARE A HATER.

THE THANK YOU AND THE LITTLE KISS IS SO FUNNY

IT JUST SENDS ME INTO HYSTERICS THE WAY THIS WHOLE TIME CLARA IS JUST HUGGING HER METAL BOY TOY.

SOLDIERS

WE MUST FIGHT IN THE KILL YOURSELF WAR

EVERYONE. FLY UP AND EXPLODE RIGHT FUCKING NOW.

"All of it is on you." GIRL HE DID NOTHING

BRIGADIER JUST THERE LIKE EHRM. 🧍‍♂️

danny you are such a little angel baby pookie pecan pie with sprinkles and cherries

this is so fucking rough man

imagine if this was 12 and clara goodbye. help me. that would have been so funny

[oops-all-feelings]

FEELINGS ARE WEIRD AND CONFUSING

making a lil brain dump because ive been going insane

hes been my best friend for years now. i love him dearly. it isnt romantic - i dont want to kiss or do other things, but i also dont really feel that way about anyone. im not attracted to him the way i am to girls - like i dont exactly look at him and go “wow hes attractive.”

but i can see a life with him, and id really like for that future to be real. living together, cooking together, cuddling on the couch watching movies.

and ill admit i get jealous of other people who are particularly close to him, especially potentially romantic connections. i dont act on it or say anything, but i can admit to myself that it does make me jealous.

i love him so much, but it doesnt really fit into the traditional romantic / sexual / platonic [friendly/familial] boxes. it kind of does and kind of doesnt. queerplatonic is probably the most accurate tbh.

but i also dont really want to put a label on what we are, beyond “best friends” because boy/girlfriend/partner have implications of how things will end. you either stay together in that specific way or you part altogether, and i couldnt bear to lose his friendship if things didnt work out, and i wasnt able to return to ‘just friends’ with my ex-gf because dating was basically rebranded friendship.

i know he cares about me in equal measure, but i worry that in an actual partnership, i wouldnt be able to provide what he needs. i worry he’ll find someone else who he loves romantically; someone simpler and less confusing to love; and would rather share his life with. i worry ill never meet anyone else who knows all of me and loves me as much.

also the fact that ive identified as a lesbian for years and now this has me questioning whether i should swap labels. because this isnt so much attraction? this feels like something that falls under my aroace label rather than lesbian/bi/whatever else. i dont even know man 🧍‍♂️

[itsjaywalkers]

hello laurie!! <3 insane commute nonnie here (again) omg i read oby yesterday omw to class (ended up staying at my friend's again bc his roommate was still out. sadly he's back) and i should not have done that bc OMG?? BABE I WAS LITERALLY THINKING ABT THEM THE WHOLE TIME UT GOT SO BAD I SAW MY PROFESSOR (he doesn't even look like james. he's just fit in a 'Hear me out guys...' way)N BLUSHED I WAS ACTUALLY GIGGLING AT RANDOM TIMES THINKING ABT THEM also like. sirius n regulus in this😭😭 regulus cursing sirius out for being a good brother is so real to me as someone with 12 year older brother bc he spent my entire childhood terrorizing me n now he's the sweetest person Ever. not even in an evil way he's just genuinely nice to me so if i ever complain abt him everyone goes ??? YOUR brother??? its so annoying (i love him). just reg veing grumpy<3 he's my fav little purse man and ok oh god never thought i'd say this. i have NEVER gotten the whole daddy thing but now im just🧍‍♂️bc i need to call james potter daddy while he fucks me what who said that also like. extreme apologies for how extremely inappropriate this might've gotten i was up all night studying for a quiz we have today (cannot catch a break w these ppl istg) n i swear my brain refuses to function and i have no idea!!! (please pray for me) also i hope you're doing great<3 sadly i do know work and adult things but im glad to know that nothing bad's going on!! you deserve the best<33 also i Absolutely get being funnier in your mother tongue sometimes i have these sudden thoughts n they're soo funny but i have to translate them which is like. okay but the vibes change istg!! i usually end texting my siblings abt it bc someone deserves to know how absolutely funny i am!! (all i do is make dad jokes) and (im actually so sorry bc ik you prob dont mind the book-long asks but its still!! so embarrassing!! like girl why are you yapping sm!!) i haven't read the 2nd part yet (i read the first part n just stared ahead blankly for like an hour after i read the 1st part. it did things to me) but im gonna read it after my quiz as a little treat<3 thank you for writing them sm!!!<3

HI BABE <333 sorry it took me so long to get back to u, life has been soooo hectic istg

AND OMG IM STILL SO SHY ABOUT U READING OBY but i'm so glad u enjoyed it and that it had the desired effect, it's definitely not the type of story u should read in class or just like . in front of ppl . i don't blame u for getting all flustered around ur professor even if he doesn't look anything like james. it's just the vibe yk??? you're literally so real for that

sirius and reg in oby are !! so important to me !! i feel like they have the best relationship in all of my fics, bc they're on good terms on nothing happens too but they argue . a lot . and they're gonna have some issues down the line. and they're also very close in the boxer au but there's still gonna be a lot of angst regarding their relationship. in oby, tho, they're just brothers <3 they love each other so much <3 and i'm so glad i'm portraying their dynamic accurately bc a lot of their convos are based on stuff me and my sisters have talked/fought about lmao

LISTENNNN I ALSO WASN'T INTO THE WHOLE DADDY THING like i didn't mind it and i read it occassionally but i didn't seek it out. but now that i'm actively writing it . well . i guess i kinda get the appeal (girl who doesn't even have a daddy kink) SO I GET U I REALLY DO

u don't have to apologiseeee i'm always happy to open horny hours especially if it's for james potter <3 and also i know it's been a few days but i hope the quiz went well and that u never do that again bc u need to rest!! i mean it!!

i'm doing quite well actually!! work's been a nightmare but apart from that i'm great!! i recently moved into a new flat with two friends and the place is soooo nice i'm in love with it i can't believe it's ours <333 AND SAMEEEE i always complain about it to my sisters or my spanish friends bc it annoys me to no end like . i'm literally soooo funny and it pains me that you'll never realise bc it's only when i speak in my first language ugh

I REALLY DON'T MIND THEM BABE IN FACT I LOVE THEM NEVER STOP and don't apologise again i'll kick ur ass!!! and god you're so very sweet to me, i hope u enjoyed/enjoy it and i'm sending u the biggest hug + forehead kissie in the world MWAH <3

[alligaytorswamp]

Considering last post i made this nc gacha experience makes sense i guess ahahah i am so normal 🧍‍♂️

So like last 2 event in nu carnival i had to hit that 100 contract guarantee in order to get an event ssr

And both times i got the one i wanted less (aka quincy and then kuya. Both r hella epic but jesus christ i wanted that garu so bad) i had to grind but it's ok at least i got an event ssr u kno 🤪

Anywho this time i was far more prepared b u t they raised the guarantee to 150 contracts?? So i was like damn nvm i might have to fight for my life during last couple of day again. Fine whatever.

I really wanted blade (bc he is a cutie) and yakumo (bc he is a cutie and i dont have any ssrs w him) and kinda didnt want to get olivine (just bc i have other 2 ssr and i dont use em)

So just now i decided to waste like 50 contacts u know.. 1/3 of the unholy way

1 pull - i got yakumos event ssr 🧍‍♂️

2 pull - i collected myself and decided to make a few more pull just for the sake of it

3 pull - i got blades event ssr 🧍‍♂️

I- uhm i am- so i- i js skak hu h na djkcka

[hee-in]

[#ecil's luvs ♡]

Ults | Biases | Wreckers

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Ults:

Lomls ♡

Lee Heeseung

[ENHYPEN]

Bias Since : Given-Taken Era

Engene since: 12|05|2020

Ace of my heart ♡ #1 in my heart. This mans makes me feel so much emotion. I love and admire him so much as an idol and person ♡

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Han Jisung

[STRAY KIDS]

Bias Since: Go Live era

Stay since: 06|18|2020

My first ever bias ♡ I stand by Han Jisung 4th Gen's best Ace (sorry hee) as much as i hate to admit, i dont feel as strongly for him as i did before, but he has a place in my heart ♡

Semi Ults

Yang Jeongin (I.N)

[STRAY KIDS]

Bias Since: In Life Era

Stay since: 06|18|2020

The first kpop boy i had my eyes on but i biased Han first. Backdoor happened and i couldn't resist 🧍‍♂️ thats how i Double biased in skz.

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Lee Seoho

[ONEUS]

Bias Since: Lived Era

To Moon since: 10|01|2020

Im such a softie for oneus :^(( they're so underrated and i feel so happy to see them grow bigger. Imagine being in a dance crew pre debut, auditioning for rap, getting accepted because of your visuals, and debuting as the main vocalist. Thats seoho for you.

Other biases:

Born in 02

Huening Kai

[TOMORROW X TOGETHER]

Bias Since: Freeze Era

MOA since : 02|21|2021

My bias swerving in Txt is insane. My first bias was Kai then beomgyu then yeonjun and now back to kai cause freeze kai just hits different 🧎‍♀️. No but Hyuka is the maknae of my biases sobs.

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Oh Seungmin (O.de)

[XDINARY HEROES]

Bias Since: Pre Debut

*insert fandom name CAUSE WE STILL DONT HAVE ONE HELLAUR JYP??* Since: 11|15|2021

I stanned xdh as soon as i saw o.des debut trailer. You can say it was love at first sight. Im so excited on what xdh is gonna bring to us ♡ but first can we get a fandom name, we cant be xhoes forever yk.

Girlies ♡

Park Jieun

[PURPLE KISS]

Bias Since: Pre debut (can we talk again era)

Plory Since : 03|15|2021 (yes debut day)

My queen 🧎‍♀️ gorgeous baby. Purki is currently the only gg i stan full time. I really enjoyed their debut and Zombie was a total bop!! Cb when??

Moon Byulyi (Moonbyul)

[MAMAMOO/SOLOIST]

Bias Since: I saw her Eclipse M.V

I dont stan Mamamoo. I casually listen to their songs and follow the members. But i adore Moonbyul as a soloist. What an Icon. STREAM LUNATIC.

More~☆

[From Groups i dont stan and groups i dont actively stan]

☆ Onewe - Younghoon

☆ Aespa - Winter

☆ Pentagon - Shinwon

☆ Ateez - Yeosang

☆ Itzy - Chaeryoung

☆ Day6 - YoungK

☆ Enhypen - Jake & Sunoo

☆ Stray Kids - Lee Know

☆ Oneus - Ravn & Keonhee

☆ TXT - Beomgyu & Yeonjun

☆ Xdinary Heroes - Gunil

☆ Purple Kiss - Dosie

☆ Aespa - Karina

[shmaptainwrites]

Oh Aaron doing your baby girls hair for the first time he’s so confused but he’s really trying your best and just wants her to be happy and have a cute hairstyle. I feel like taking Aaron to the hair shop for the first time would be like a mind trip for him like there would be so many products and he would so confused bonus if one day you come home and you see he’s got your Cantu hair products in his hands and is like “are you insane I looked up this product and it is terrible for the two of you and your hair texture how is this still in the house” now your just scared of the monster you have created

Omg bonus I just thought about 🥺 Aaron buying you and your baby daughter matching bonnets and Jack feels left out and he asks you two why he can’t wear the fluffy hat on his head as well 😭🥺

not me using cantu products on my hair- 🧍‍♂️ (then again i have 3a hair and it doesn’t have super tight curls so 😂)

but seriously aaron becoming literally way too well versed in curly hair care is like a guilty pleasure of mine cause like less work LMAO

but i can imagine him almost treating it as something he can profile and study and then he knows almost too much about it and you don’t have to worry about leaving your little girl with him because now she can go to school with the cutest braided or twisted hair and the man has learned from HOURS of practice

and honestly ngl it would be so cute to get jack a little bonnet because even though he doesn’t need it, it makes him feel closer to you guys 🥺

[unnerving-presence]

It's insane, I've always loved slashers but I didnt care much for Michael and now hes my absolute favorite and I sorta hate myself for it???? Like hes "the worst " slasher to grow attached to but fuck man I know what it's like to isolated from the world and to feel almost like a space alien when everyone around you labels you before they even know you . Idk just felt like venting that sorry if this is kinda random

i was like that too LMAO i loved jason w my entire being and i still do but i’m literally in love w michael rn 🧍‍♂️

literally he’s the least likely of all the slashers to spare me but idc i love him anyways he’s my baby

i understand that though. a lot of people can really suck and label you before they know you and it can really make you feel like an outcast.

but michael always got ur back me and the homies love michael

[milkybonya]

Oh my gosh so much has happened since I last updated you! Even tho it's been like.. A day 😭 I kinda think Yoshinori is my bias again?? But like I'd still be double biasing him and Hyunsuk so idk but I'm kinda attached and I still lose my marbles over his performances so idk 😭😭 but now Jihoon has started creeping in like... Man's smile is??? Amazing???? When he smiles I just.. Lose it honestly. Also like is it just me or does he have nice arms??? Usually I look to the bicep when judging if they are muscular but in I love you I can really only see his forearms but they're like.. Very nice 👀 idk man that entire time he's in the center during the I love you chorus I'm kinda like 👀 so that's fantastic I got another one trying to wreck me 😭😭 but now that I can recognize all the members I'm noticing all their unique and amazing charms and it's just overwhelming in such a good way!! Like jaehyuk is such an amazing dancer.. I love him in the center during I love you. His facial expressions or really just his eyes are so powerful idk but I love it and speaking of powerful can we talk about Asahi??? His charisma in the music videos is so wild I'm always captivated during his screen time. Also idk but Junghwan gives me big teddy bear vibes like I just wanna give him a hug 🥺 Also I found Yedam's solo song and omg he's so talented??? I usually focus on rap (or dance when it comes to visual mvs) in songs but his voice in jikjin is truly beautiful I really love it leading up to the chorus. He was the first member I knew because I remembered him bring called YG's ace in the stray kids survival show and honestly they're right. Man is incredibly talented. But they all are honestly. The entire group makes me so soft I love them sm 🥰 sending my love to you for listening to my rambles through a cute yoshinori gif 🥰

you are going through all the teume stages 😪 i don't think a teume exists who doesn't double bias or doesn't have a bias wreckER AHH so youre v valid !

the jarms (jihoon arms) do be insane omg like even in simple photos like this,,, cause of death: jarms

also Jihoon's smile is KILLER like it's weird but it's all i see when i close my eyes :") have you seen truz (treasure designed line friends characters like bts did!)? Jihoon's is called Romy and THE SMILE IS SO ACCURATE TO THE WAY JIHOON SMILES IT MELTS MY HEART !

you gushing about all the treasure members maKES ME SO SOFT AHHH to see you give them love makes me,, so happy :"))) i feel like Jaehyuk is a little underrated,, his dancing, too but gah he's so good and expressive! and i love his voice a lottt,,, Asahi is a king like he can just 🧍‍♂️ and i will give him everything!! Junghwan is SUPERR SOFT but he works out recently and i'm like nO PLS STAY BABY FOREVER HH but he's still super cool for that heh i hope it makes him happy ^-^

Yedam's solo song was my most played song last year oops,, i love it a lot :") omg Yoon's most recent single was written and composed by Yedam and he teased it to us in a vlog i think a while back and i'm just so proud ugh

ilysm thank you for being so cute in my inbox !!!! ily ily ily!