#🕰️.trauma

[clockwork-dandelions]

One thing wi struggle with a lot is the way myr trauma and systemhood intersects with myr psychosis and OCD.

Tw: extreme childhood abuse, psychosis, OCD, corruption, RAMCOA/OEA

Myr Trauma

The cult wi were raised in had some obsession with the end of the world. Particularly, triggering apocalyptic events and bringing about the end. Their.. "structure" was based on the Christian apocalypse, particularly The Four Horsemen.

Wi talked about this a little bit on myr alterhuman blog but each cult member goes through a series of tests and trainings before being separated into four different sects to continue more specific training. The different sects were:

The Path of Famine

The Path of Pestilence

The Path of War

The Path of Death

Each sect of the cult specialized in different things. Like The Path of Pestilence went on to become programmers for the cult. That particular Path involves a lot of corruption type themes.

I was put on The Path of Pestilence which plays into my psychosis and OCD. Most noticeably my psychosis.

Myr Psychosis

Myr psychosis most often presents as mus believing that myr body is decaying in some way. Myr bones are covered in rust. Myr blood is diseased. That wi're dying and no one else can see it or will believe mus. Sometimes it presents as mus believing that wi're spreading disease and decay to everyone and everything wi interact with. Sometimes it presents as mus believing that wi're a deity of decay and pestilence (which feeds into myr alterhumanity).

Wi don't know yet why wi experience psychosis or what is causing it, since wi just started talking about it with myr therapist, but wi definitely know that myr programming trauma feeds into it.

Myr OCD

Now myr OCD, I think, is pretty minor. Myr OCD is a mixture of programming trauma and trauma later in life. It mostly comes in the form of contamination OCD. Not being able to touch certain surfaces. Obsessively cleaning and/or needing things cleaned a particular way. Having to use hand sanitizer a lot, usually at seemingly random moments.

It's just.. sometimes wi find it frustrating the way myr mental health intersects because wi feel like it makes things a lot less clear to see and understand.

[conflictofthemind]

I think people are warming towards it because of how adorable the situation is but. A lot of people have been skeptical over giving such a big part of the plot to Holly and the rest of these kids being taken in by the military for some kind of experimentation. What you need to understand is that these are more or less plot devices to explore trauma the party faced in Season 1, especially Will and El. And to explore the larger theme of childhood in the show.

Holly is a manifestation of Will’s younger self. Imaginative, sensitive to the supernatural, naive, helpless. She is personally sought out by Henry - just like Will was. Will wants to protect her not just because she’s an innocent child and Mike’s sister, but also as an allegory for him attempting to comfort and soothe the traumatized child within. And protect someone else from what he has been through. Giving her DND character the title of Cleric and creating a callback with ‘The Vanishing of Holly Wheeler’ deepens this connection.

The new kids by large are reminders of how young the party, now teens, were when they started the show. HNL is back ‘nabbing kids and using them for experiments. El and Hopper eventually pick a kid up in their humvee, Robin and Mike go through the tunnels to rescue some more kids from the barracks. This one is more personal to El, given she spent her entire childhood in captivity. In recusing the kids she is rescuing her young self.

Even with Henry. My current belief is that he wants to destroy, then reshape, the world into his ideal utopia (with only children). Cue the multiple Peter Pan references. A Neverland where everyone is a child eternally forever. There are deep cuts too from his life, which I’m sure we’ll explore further. Something he missed out on in childhood and wants to get back. Probably the disruption trauma can bring to a childhood, and the impossibility of giving that time 🕰️ and innocence back.

The entire show also serves as a callback to the (intended) audience’s childhood. An 80s romp that makes every reference it can to something nostalgic.

Will (in my opinion / theory) freezing Upside Down Hawkins permanently in 1983!

The end of the show coincides with the end of the nostalgic escape it brings. The message being: childhood is precious and we should hold onto it in memory, but you have to grow up eventually. You have to accept change. You can’t turn back the clock.

[gallifreyinstituteforlearning]

⚕️GASS (Gallifreyan Assessment Scoring System)

Sick Gallifreyan just crossed your path? Here's how to assess their condition using the Gallifreyan Assessment Scoring System. Just remember, 'Gallifreyan life's a GASS'.

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This guide is for use on Gallifreyans and Time Lords only. Always seek your human advice from human health providers.

✨ What is GASS?

The Gallifreyan Assessment Scoring System (GASS) is a tool designed to rapidly evaluate a Gallifreyan's condition. By monitoring vital signs and unique Gallifreyan indicators, it prioritises emergency responses while accounting for their distinct physiology, such as dual hearts and regenerative abilities.

Just remember, Gallifreyan life's a GASS.

📈 What's New in GASS?

This updated version of GASS includes critical refinements for more precise assessments. New categories have been added, such as Heart Rate Differential (HRD) to flag discrepancies between the two hearts and T = Responds to Telepathy in the level of consciousness scale. Adjustments to thresholds for vital signs and regenerative glow visibility also improve detection of emergencies like fibrillation or post-regenerative trauma.

📝 How to Use GASS

1️⃣Initial Observations

Ensure the environment is safe (e.g., no stray Daleks).

Observe for immediate signs of distress: skin colour, breathing effort, or lack of responsiveness.

2️⃣Evaluate Vital Signs and Assign Scores

Refer to the GASS table to assess each category:

🌬️ Respiration Rate: Count breaths per minute. Adjust for respiratory bypass if present.

🫧 Supplemental Oxygen: Note if oxygen support is in use.

🌡️ Temperature: Measure orally.

💓 Systolic BP: Record using a normal sphygmomanometer.

💖 Hearts Rate (Combined): Count the total bpm across both hearts.

🔄 Hearts Rhythm: Sequential beats (thud-thud, thud-thud) are normal; synchronous beats (thud-thud together) indicate fibrillation.

⚖️ Heart Rate Differential (HRD): Calculate the bpm difference between hearts; large discrepancies suggest possible singular heart failure.

🧠 Level of Consciousness (AVPTU): A = Alert, V = Responds to verbal stimuli, P = Responds to pain, T = Responds to telepathy, U = Unresponsive

✨ Regenerative Glow: Check for visible energy on the skin.

3️⃣Check for Healing Coma

If 8+ healing coma criteria are met:

Cease active interventions.

Monitor closely for changes.

Avoid premature waking to prevent neurological damage.

4️⃣Calculate Total GASS Score

Add up the scores from all categories:

0: No concerning changes. Continue routine monitoring.

1–4: Mild to moderate changes. Perform an ABCDE assessment and increase monitoring.

5–8 or 3 in single score: Severe changes. Perform ABCDE, escalate care, and consider sepsis.

≥9 or Glow = 3: Extreme changes. Initiate emergency intervention, constant monitoring, and prepare for sepsis protocols.

5️⃣Reassess After Interventions

Following each intervention, reassess the GASS score to adapt care and ensure stability.

🚨 When to Escalate

Critical signs: Synchronous heartbeats, extreme HRD, or GASS score ≥9.

Sepsis or Specific Emergencies: Use respective protocols for management.

📌 Key Points to Remember

Combine GASS results with clinical judgement.

Healing comas are protective states—let them run their course.

Escalate care if in doubt.

Medical Guides These are all practical guides to assessing and treating a Gallifreyan in an emergency or medical setting.

⚕️💕Gallifreyan CPR

⚕️👽Gallifreyan Assessment Scoring System (GASS)

⚕️👽ABCDE Assessment

⚕️⚠️Sepsis Emergency Response (SER)

⚕️⚠️Severe Trauma Protocol

⚕️🌡️Gallifreyan Thermoregulation and Emergency Response

⚕️🔮Psionic Emergency Pathways

⚕️✨Post-Regeneration Management

⚕️🩸Interpreting Gallifreyan Bloodwork

⚕️👶Gallifreyan Paediatric Emergencies

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[smilecult]

I wanna cause discourse,

Wonder who’s gonna win.

[mechs-headcanons]

so i saw somewhere that Brian was mechanized to be Carmilla’s assistant and i have THOUGHTS.

Brian angst time >:)

i’ll also preface this by saying that i headcanon most of the mechs (particularly Jonny and Nastya, because Jonny in my Discomfort Character and love to make him suffer) have varying degrees of medical trauma due to Doc Carmilla

Brian’s morality switch allows him to basically do anything if he can be convinced it’s “for the greater good.” -> so, Brian being Carmilla’s lab assistant during her “repairs” (actually just experiments) on their mechanisms because she convinced him it’s to help his friend/sibling or partner

the quiet part of Brian’s mind telling him this isnt right but unable to listen to it.

the other mechanism on the table so confused as to why Brian wont listen to them, why he won’t help them, why they’re hurting them. them being nervous (read: scared) around him after but trying to hide it. Brian feeling so guilty and horrible when his switch is back to MJE that he cant even look them in the eyes or at his hands.

even after Carmilla is gone, them hiding any malfunctions from him or getting nervous when they see him in the lab helping Raph—he wouldn’t experiment on them without their consent, not like she had, but there is a piece of trust that’s been broken here. Brian can’t even blame them.

—🕰️

how could you say that:( owie:( my heart:(

[fangsforiris]

Chasing Shadows

Prompt: Another Love a Lifetime Ago, Dearest Dead, Mourning.

Person: Yui Komori x Female

HC’s:

TW: Talks of Pedophilic Behaviours, Stockholm Syndrome, Abuse, Neglect, etc.

If you are uncomfortable, exit out please !!

🕰️ Before the house, Yui had a crush/situationship/relationship with a girl.

🕰️ Yui definitely suffers from comphet.

🕰️ She’s a lesbian suffering from comphet, or at least a bisexual— leaning preference towards women and very little men.

🕰️ However, based on all the routes with all the boys, and her only developing an actual romantic attraction due to Stockholm Syndrome (mainly by a purely psychological approach to her conditioning, then eventual development— as well as the heavy abuse she as placed under to get to the select boys’ character development,) I’d say she’s a lesbian.

🕰️ Her entire life she was surrounded by men who asked a lot of her, and controlled her day to day routine.

🕰️ Her father canonically neglected her a lot when she was a child, leading her to gather household skills by a young age to sustain herself.

🕰️ She has an iffy relationship with her father, as she tries to speak well of him. However his sketchy— borderline pedophilic— behaviours towards her are questionable at best.

🕰️ She was heavily conditioned her entire life, unknowing of what her truth was other than what happened to be force fed to her.

🕰️ Yui would question her religion in secret. Mainly because of her conflicting sexuality, and Seiji’s influence.

🕰️ She’d find herself conflicted, as she’s never once had a crush on a man. Never felt the feelings the nuns would present to her. Nothing.

🕰️ Instead, it’d be for a woman. Which would instantly throw her for a loop.

🕰️ Cue the HEAVY Religious Trauma.

🕰️ Yui would pray to be ‘normal’ because she was afraid that she was cursed.

🕰️ She’d been told her entire life what happened to be ‘right’ and ‘wrong.’ So why was it now, that her happiness was considered a sin in the eyes of the lord…?

🕰️ It would take a ravenette woman to change that, or at least allow Yui to understand that it’s okay, and normal.

🕰️ She’d meet her beau whilst in the alley ways in Romania after sneaking out.

🕰️ Yui would tell you that, that night was the first time she felt truly alive.

🕰️ Her heart pounded, adrenaline to it’s all time high, her cheeks stained in a pinky-blush.

🕰️ I’d like to think that Yui has anxiety, or just high stress and ability to stress easy— but hides it well.

🕰️ Hence, nicotine.

🕰️ Yui 100% smokes, especially when she’s stressed. Even more so when suddenly moving in with the vampiric families she’d find herself acquainted with.

🕰️ So, there Yui was, smoking in the alleyway, when she meets her.

🕰️ Long black hair, reaching hip length and curled at its ends. Lime green eyes that stopped rooms and froze even the largest of crowds. She was beautiful, she was ethereal— coming out of an old 1950’s vintage movie, Yui knew she was home.

🕰️ Some would say that the woman fell first, and Yui fell harder due to her dwindling faith. But Yui would say otherwise. They both knew otherwise.

🕰️ Yui fell first, and then fell even harder.

🕰️ The woman? As she laid eyes on the blond, she knew she would be sticking around.

🕰️ Yui was never one for love at first sight, as all her given descriptions were supposed to be with a man, she could never gaslight herself to find the appeal.

🕰️ But that night… Yui couldn’t tell if it was the way the moon shone down, or the way the woman looked like an ethereal being from the heavens and hells. But one thing was for certain. For once, she believed.

🕰️ Yui knew that she’d love this woman for this life and the hundreds of other ones they’d share.

🕰️ She would wait, despite her reservations of her faith, she knew that she would never love anyone the way she loved this girl.

🕰️ Yui didn’t want to find another, not when the one she’d marry was right in front of her.

🕰️ It didn’t take long for them to share the cigarette Yui was casually taking in. And it didn’t take long for Yui to become a giggling mess at the woman’s jokes.

🕰️ Time stopped, and perhaps it was that, that made the two’s meetups become more frequent.

🕰️ They’d go to the late night carnivals, walk alongside the alleyways, and go on small dates— all in secret of course.

🕰️ In fact, on one late night carnival date, the two would find a photo booth, where they’d share their first kisses.

🕰️ Yui still keeps the pictures with her.

🕰️ The woman would play the piano for Yui, and even teach her a few songs.

🕰️ They would always gift each other flowers on their late night dates. Always surprising each other with what they came up with.

🕰️ Even going as far to see who’s bouquet of flowers matched the theme of their date the best.

🕰️ It would go on for a few years, with them meeting around when Yui was 13, and until Yui was 15-16, would they stop.

🕰️ The reason? The woman would get killed by the church, all on Seiji’s orders. As if to teach Yui a lesson.

🕰️ She’d be exorcised. A formal exorcism to be taken place in one of the church’s basements. And by Seiji’s orders, would Yui be forced to watch.

🕰️ The woman would smile at Yui, despite the pain, and Yui would stand there, next to her father, as the love of her life was killed.

🕰️ Yui’s Lovers’ last words were simple, sweet, yet soul crushing.

🕰️ “You’ll do wonders, Yui.”

🕰️ After it was done, Seiji would pass Yui by, before muttering one last remark at her.

🕰️ “Understand, that this is what shall come to pass when you entertain the devils sin. You, too, shall be cleansed.”

🕰️ To this day, Yui could never fill the hole in her heart. The place that the woman left was infillable. She didn’t want anyone to become the next.

🕰️ In fact, Yui partially blames herself. For not being too careful, for letting her pride get the best of her. For choosing herself for once.

🕰️ The night before her lover would be killed, she suggested to run away. Just the two of them. It was still in the alleyway where they first met, and would they still share a cigarette and more.

🕰️ Yui would be hesitant. Especially about her father and other underlying factors.

🕰️ Yui would live with that regret for the rest of her days, constantly replaying that moment in her mind.

🕰️ To this day, Yui wishes she ran away. At least then, her lover would be alive and well, and they’d be happy. Hell, she’d be happy.

🕰️ I’d like to this the woman Yui was far too in love with for her own good could’ve been a human, or possibly a vampire.

🕰️ Thus making her first experiences with vampires lighthearted. And something to want and care about.

🕰️ Unlike the current, she’d reflect on the woman and not care as much as she’d realize that vampires and those of the supernatural can be good and are like any other people with goals, motivations, and aspirations.

🕰️ I’d also think that the vampire lover would be an aristocrat, further pushing how Yui can see the good in others and how her lover was different.

🕰️ it was ironic though, as what is a mortal to do when their immortal lover is dead and gone. Buried in an unmarked grave.

🕰️ Normally, it’s the immortal lamenting, so Yui always finds ways to mask the pain with this idea.

🕰️ Yui would constantly place white chrysanthemums on her lover’s grave. Which represent mourning, love, and eternal rest.

🕰️ Along with white babys breath, which symbolize everlasting love.

🕰️ I suppose it goes to show that even in death, Yui will mourn and love her immortal or mortal lover.

🕰️ Yui was the sun, and her lover, the moon.

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[cartoonbah]

HUNTER ; CHANNEL 3

Name(s): hunter, icarus, issac, finch

Gender(s): agender, nonbinary, butch

Pronoun(s): they/them, e/em, thon/thons, ce/cir, wing/wings, feather/feathers, chirp/chirps, cloud/clouds

Orientation(s): strayt, ace

Age: 15 - 17

Role(s): trauma holder, symptom holder, shock absorber, guilt holder, protector, comforter, soother

Emoji / signoffs: 🐦,🪶,🪺,🪵,🕰️,🌳

Brief description: hunter is a honest, good-natured and hardworking enby who is always looking for something to do. not very good at resting, thon has a bad habit of tiring thonself out, but enjoys the end results of thons productivity. learning to be creative and share cirs artwork, but ce is still new to praise and can become skittish.

Personality traits: earnest, honest, friendly, shy, introverted, awkward, nerdy, sensitive, flustered, temperamental, stubborn, loyal

Presentation / fashion style: neutral, masc, modern

Likes: tv binging, sci-fi, dramas, salty food, birds, video games

Dislikes: fantasy, horror, spicy food, summer,

Aesthetics: nature, cottagecore, farmcore, grandpacore, fall

Hobbies: drawing, painting, reading, birdwatching

Front triggers: birds, nature, art of willow / gus / luz, the taste of honey, the golden hour, body horror scenes, asmr stimboards

Kins: cardinals, birds, zombies, clones, shapeshifters, the undead, forests, fairies, stars, deers, cryptids, moths

Favorite song: "fish in a birdcage," by fish in a birdcage.

Typing quirk: he types very quickly, prone to typos, incorrect capitalization and mispellings. all caps to enunciate emotions.

everYbody i have an annoucnemnt to make OKAY. this is sO impertant so plz everybody pAYYY ATtention. [sends a picture of a cute bird.] ok thats it tyyyyy

Source memories:

had a huge crush on willow, used to draw pictures of her in the corners of their books in secret. flapjack would sometimes tease them about it.

ce and gus were very close, taking turns comforting the other abt their shared nightmares since they slept in the same room.

[starflungwaddledee]

What Starstruck Dee theory have people made that is your favourite?

there have been quite a lot, and i genuinely love them all!

early on i think the most popular theory was that she was possessed or had been possessed at some point, most likely by dark matter. she actually debunked this theory personally, but i think people just assumed she was lying! 😂

my favourite part is not any one theory, but watching a shift in thoughts over time as more things are revealed, and seeing people share theories/work together in comments and reblogs. i like the "OOHHH WWWWHAT...!?!" moments a lot; whether they are a reaction to my storytelling or to other folks' detective work!

early theories revolved around how she was weird for a waddle dee, or at least a native of popstar. despite my never explicitly confirming anything to the contrary, theories have now broadly shifted to assuming she is not from popstar at all, and most people do now generally agree she's not really a waddle dee.

i don't recall exactly who first came up with each theory (though some big players are @the-void-is-a-disappointment who did a huge amount of early deetective work and encouraged me to build it as a story for solving, @shibuya-toasted-with-extra-cream, @graycoin and @jojo-schmo) and i'm not sure which of these theories are still held by anyone

but here a few of my favourites, roughly in order that they started appearing...

♻️ she's a total mimic species like kirby or void, copying things around her either by intent or by accident 🗑️ similar to above, but she's an incorrect copy or a "beta" mock-up type of a waddle dee 🧚 that she was just born different, like a fae changeling, and might have been hidden away when young as a result 🕰️ she is something totally inorganic and/or mechanical, created by or like the clockwork stars or stardream, perhaps wish contingent 🥇 sometimes attached to the above, she was created to serve some sort of Greater Purpose. she might have failed at it or been flawed, and was subsequently discarded on popstar 🌠 a dozen and one wildly different things connected to the "falling star that hit her". alien life form on the meteor transferred into her on impact. infection by intergalactic bacteria/dark matter. simply massive concussive trauma that fucked up her signature (back when we thought that was the only thing wrong with her). the star was magic and fused with her. she hatched from it and is literally a star herself. probably missing some here. 🪐 waddle dee from a different place/planet. this one is quite a sensible theory, given that we do see many quite different dees! 🤍 she is a fragmented piece of void/void termina. this one in particular i know is @shibuya-toasted-with-extra-cream 's ongoing theory and she's put in a lot of really cool work towards it! ⚔️ she's somehow connected to the heroes of yore. this theory i think has only started popping up since galacta knight has become a reoccurring visitor in her storyline and we've started asking questions about her familiar looking magic spears, but you can certainly 1hko @moonverc3x with this one 🧿 she's connected to the matters. sometimes soul, because it's sometimes star themed and lacks a token representative. where as a connection to dream might link her to fecto forgo/fecto elfilis in some way (a creature also well known for a catastrophic meteor attack). i've also seen folks confident that she's connected to heart matter as well, probably again due to everyone's favourite grumpy swan showing up

this is all i can think of or locate right now, but there's been a pretty wide range of things. i feel there has been a rather interesting transition over time from "she's a messed up waddle dee" to "she's probably connected to a universal superpower of some kind" which i am genuinely really really thrilled about?! 😂 what a glow up for a pathetic little wawa!!!

i'm also personally really fond of seeing how people's existing biases influence what they can find and draw connections in. for instance: i know @jojo-schmo loves the forgotten land and elfilis, and digs into those connections and draws out some really cool stuff because her knowledge is already so specialised! i think this is the true highlight of working on this story for me, people theorising and engaging in the lore, and laser pin-pointing things that tie into our personal faves-- the way we tend to do with kirby lore as a whole-- is such uninhibited delight

i sincerely hope people will enjoy where starstruck's story does go, in the end!!

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[clockwork-dandelions]

Wi struggle to talk about myr systemhood with others, systems or singlets, because it feels.. strange and hard to explain. Wi get worried about people not believing mus or becoming isolated because myr experience with being a system is different.

Wi're a traumaendo system. What that means for us is that wi originated through extreme trauma but use the act of elaboration (creating our own identities outside of myr trauma) to heal and the act of elaboration feels rather "endogenic" in nature.

Wi're a programmed system (hence the need for elaboration) but wi don't have any triggerable programs. Wi have programs that go off but you can't say something to us and deliberately cause a program to go off; unlike what wi've seen in a majority of the OEA survivor community.

Wi didn't have a host or frequent fronters. Myr various front rooms are a constantly revolving door of parts.

There are almost no outwardly differences in parts. Especially after elaboration. Wi have a collective name, collective pronouns, collective genders, collective interests, collective fashion, collective sexuality. Internally, there are some differences but all.. 2,000(?) of us are basically all the same personality. The main difference lies in the emotions but even then.. it's collective, the difference is just who fronts for the emotion.

The memory between the innerworld and front is almost non-existent. Once wi enter front, wi have no idea what's going on inside and wi forget almost all details of what it is, how it functions or what wi were doing before wi entered front. There is an almost 100% disconnect between front and back of house.

Not to mention myr memory in general. Wi struggle to remember the simplest thing, especially when it comes to the abuse, and that causes a massive fear of fakeclaiming. Especially when an unelaborated part comes to front or a part whose in program comes to front and shares things wi didn't remember then wi promptly forget those facts again when that part elaborates or exits their program.

Myr programming being integral to myr system structure and experience makes it even harder. Wi can't really talk about myr system without going into the extreme abuse wi went through and.. that is not something a lot of people are open to hearing about. It's not something a lot of people can truly handle hearing about.

And it makes trying to make connections in the community hard. Wi just want to have a community of people who understand mus and what wi've been through. Wi want people wi can lean on for support or growth when it gets hard. There's so many factors at play in myr experience and it makes it impossible to make those connections and it's.. depressing.

[daisyjonesgf]

i’m projecting again lmao why am i like this but i also have bunch of abandonment related trauma & a fear of abandonment in general (thanks covid) but i just know finnick would be so fucking good at comforting me when i feel triggered. not bc of anything he did to trigger those traumas bc he would never but just in general. i’m someone who needs constant reassurance & its just a whole fucking thing but finnick would be the most sweetest & reassuring person. ☹️

i’m claiming 🕰️ bc i clearly have a lot of thoughts (i’m sorry lol) … i could literally talk about him for literally hours.

yes he would. finnick is the king of comfort and respect, he literally would spend all his time reassuring you if he could. soft kisses, "I'm always gonna be here for you, honey," as he cuddles you. on days you're feeling particularly antsy he'd take you around with him everywhere he went or just stay home curled up with you. he's just the sweetest

don't be sorry, hun, ik it takes me a sec to reply but I love the asks

[gallifreyinstituteforlearning]

🩻 Regeneration: The Moulding Period

We talk about regeneration a lot, for obvious reasons. But what happens after the glow fades? This is the moulding period, the phase where a Gallifreyan's new body adjusts and stabilises.

Moulding is a term coined by GIL to describe an umbrella of quirks and processes observed in the aftermath of regeneration across multiple media. While the term 'moulding' is not officially recognised in the wider Whoniverse medical lexicon (yet), we think it should be.

🌀 What is the Moulding Period?

Moulding is an 8-week window immediately following regeneration when a Gallifreyan's body is in a state of cellular flux. Think of the body as soft, malleable putty that slowly hardens over time inside a mould. During this phase, subtle changes may occur as the body fine-tunes itself/the putty settles inside the mould.

🔬 Key Features of Moulding

1️⃣ Physical Adaptation: The new body isn't fixed in its initial state. During this period, hair length, skin details, taste preferences, or even eye colour might change, or prolonged stays in extreme environments could prompt more complex systems to adapt.

2️⃣ Durability and Energy: In this jelly-like state, a Gallifreyan's cells are incredibly durable and adaptive. Combined with the high energy levels of Post-Regenerative Trauma (PRT), this allows them to shrug off major injuries, survive extreme falls, or even regrow limbs during the early hours.

3️⃣ A Tool for the Skilled: For Gallifreyans skilled in the art of regeneration, moulding is an opportunity to refine their new appearance. They can consciously guide the process, tweaking details to their liking. For those unskilled in regenerating, it's all much more unpredictable.

4️⃣ Kooky Consequences of Consecutive Regenerations: Regenerating during moulding is like resetting during a system update. This could lead to anomalies like partial regenerations or unusual phenomena and possibly explains, in part at least, 14's bigeneration.

5️⃣ Reflections of the Past: Gallifreyans may still see the faint image of their previous body when looking in a mirror during the moulding period.

⚡ How Is This Different from Post-Regenerative Trauma?

Moulding isn't to be confused with Post-Regenerative Trauma (PRT), which typically lasts only a few days. PRT includes far more intense symptoms such as (but not limited to):

Delirium and confusion

Fainting and generalised weakness

Amnesia and personality regression

Spasms and seizure

Pain, including severe headaches

While PRT is an intense, short-term adjustment period, moulding is the body's longer-term fine-tuning process. They overlap, but they are two very different things.

🏫 So ...

The moulding period is essential for allowing the new body to stabilise, adapt, and thrive. For skilled regenerators, it's a chance to refine and personalise. For the less experienced, it's two months of crossing their fingers and hoping they don’t wake up with lime-green hair.

Gallifreyan Biology for Tuesday by GIL

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[deanwax]

Dean Wax Writing Master List

All works are fully tagged on AO3.

🐖 Ruthless

Arranged marriage enemies to lovers - Vampires and magic - War and intrigue - #ruthless - WIP

🧚🏽 Untitled Fairy Anthropologist Story

Fairy world building - Culture clash - The perils of being tiny - #fairyanthro - Future concept

🕰️ The Unbearable Time After

Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time fanfic - Reconciling trauma - Psychosexual symbolic self-cest Link/Dark Link - Complete

♻️ Cycle's End

High fantasy grimdark - Captive scenario - Identity crisis meets body horror - #cycle's end - Complete

🥃 But You Found Me in the End

Angst with a happy ending - Angel x Demon - Brutal justice - Complete

👗 You Missed Me at the Start

But You Found Me in the End with women protagonists (honestly better) - #you missed me at the start - Gender identity issues - Complete

🍑 Peach Meat

Bawdy smut - Sudden emotional twist - Kink - Complete

👁️ Impressions of Aure

Trauma - Journey of discovery - Secret organisations - #aure - Complete

📜 Suppaureting Poems

Canon, in-character poems from Impressions of Aure - Extra secrets #aure - Complete

👄 Blabbermouth

Ridiculous characters - Comedy smut - Unhinged families - #blabbermouth - Complete

🔥 Spitfire

Fairy tale style - Violent - Transformation - #spitfire - Complete

⚡ It's an Electric Thing

Meet-cute oneshot - Elemental powers - Wholesome - #it's an electric thing - Complete

💦 Slick

Alien invasion - Sexual parasitism - Horror - #slick - Complete

🧃 Sucks Down Under

Twilight parody - Early 2000s Australiana - Oneshot - Complete

📓 Poetmatter

Poems - Journal excerpts - Dreams - #poetmatter - Complete

📫 Letters Unsent

Basically creative vent posts about IRL experiences - #lettersunsent - Ongoing

[ao3feed-narlie]

Love. Bravery. Acceptance.

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/Kw7d5S1 by MarzelGrimm “This Year ,” says Nick. “What’s it really about? What am I supposed to learn by the end?” Darcy stares at Nick blanky, a bead of sweat running down their forehead. “It’s about… love, mostly. Bravery. Acceptance. Loving others, but also learning to love yourself. Being brave enough to face new adversity and old trauma.” “And acceptance?” “Accepting that… That it’s never too late to change and grow. That your actions, how you choose to love and be loved, are what define you. And… And accepting that most of what happens in life isn’t in your control."   ~🕰️~   Three moments from the life of Darcy Jones-Nelson. Three lessons they will someday (unintentionally) teach their brother Nick. Set before and during the events of This Year. Words: 4965, Chapters: 1/3, Language: English Series: Part 2 of This Year Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic) Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Categories: F/F, Other Characters: Darcy Olsson, Tara Jones, Nicholas "Nick" Nelson, Sarah Nelson Relationships: Tara Jones/Darcy Olsson, Nicholas "Nick" Nelson/Charles "Charlie" Spring Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Anxiety, Character Study, Falling In Love, Family, Canon Non-Binary Character, Eventual Happy Ending, LGBTQ Themes, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Good Parent Sarah Nelson, Sibling Bonding, Romance, Coming Out, Implied/Referenced Homophobia read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/Kw7d5S1