#🐟 : rambles

[69liesleft]

People talk about satori short arm but what about marisa

[xeymol]

RATE THE FISHY

He reminds me a lot of my irl partner in some ways and I can’t tell if I’m tweaking just thinking that because woah cool fishy or not. Anyways yeah I want that fish💀

[spacexseven]

Okok so I have an idea that just came to mind and I wanna know what you think about this

So I was thinking about darling in subordinate au what if they had a crush on dazai/chuuya (or both) at the beginning? I'd imagine they'd get bullied so badly for this

Tbh this is kinda like one of your posts with the yanderes going after a darling they previously rejected

Im gonna do chuuya for this because…i have a feeling i’ve discussed something about liking dazai for this au before…?

it’s easy to be fooled by chuuya at first sight, when you only notice his soft smile from a far distance away. and maybe, because of all the time you spent being crushed under dazai’s heel, it’s even easier to create a fantasy version of him in your head, and fall for him—hard. you tell yourself that if you worked hard enough, dazai would eventually have to let you go, or maybe if he gets tired of you, he’ll shift you over to someone else, maybe even chuuya. you liked to believe that he wouldn’t be so cruel and condescending, just for the little solace your imagination brought you. you liked to believe he would be a better boss, and an even better friend. 

of course, all your hopes are dashed when you actually meet him. for starters, chuuya rarely let go of his deep scowl, especially around you and dazai. suddenly, he was so much more intimidating, and the callous way he treated you, whether out of irritation or just because he knew kind treatment would only get dazai angry, only served to make you more terrified. he glares at you, and his words are sharp, painful; like he knows exactly how to get to you. this was far from the chuuya you saw all those days ago. dazai’s perceptive enough to catch on to your longing looks and the droop in your shoulders, and he’s simultaneously amused and annoyed by it. was he giving you so little work that you had time to be catching feelings?

regardless, you suffer. you bury yourself in the work dazai gives you in a pathetic attempt at trying to ignore the heartbreak, and the less you see chuuya, the easier it gets. you foolishly believe that that would be the end of it.

while you’re busy trying to make sure you don’t die while completing the tasks assigned to dazai, you fail to realize that someone else has noticed the lack of your presence. perhaps it’s because chuuya has begun to see you like an extension of dazai; the tail of his shadow, but it felt unnatural to see the taller man prance around the building without you dragging your feet behind him. he would have been stupid to not notice you gawking over him, and chuuya was far too perceptive to miss the dejected expression on your face every time you got remotely close to him, but he just didn’t care. it didn’t matter to him that you probably just wanted a friend—everyone here were barely managing to look out for themselves, let alone make friends, but the part that bothered him the most was how small you looked beside dazai. chuuya was no stranger to witnessing dazai’s more sadistic side, but somehow, he was infuriated by the thought that you could only ever obey the fool’s orders if you wanted to live. it bothered him even more that he couldn’t involve himself in any way, but he wouldn’t be caught dead pitying you. you deserved better than his pity. admiration, maybe for making it this far despite the cruel circumstances. sympathy, because he knew how hard it could be to deal with dazai, but not pity.

somewhere along the way, his feelings of admiration and sympathy and something else turns into a strange fascination, shows as an unexpected interest. he has an eye out for you all the time, just to make sure you aren’t dead in a ditch somewhere. his angry cursing focuses more on dazai and not on you. instead you’re graced with a strange half-smile, if only for a moment. some of the black lizard member, the ones who pick on you—dazai’s pet, as they like to call you, jeering—are found brutally beaten, half-dead and silent despite all demands to know who the attacker was. dazai giggles as he tells you this, like he knows something you don’t. then his voice goes cold and he reminds you that you’re only safe by his side, as his pet. better the devil you know, right? (not that you’d ever claim to know dazai). even mori regards you with slight apprehension, as if in disbelief over something. 

the question remains unasked; how did you, measly little thing, cause so much trouble?

chuuya’s acts go unnoticed by you, in fact, you don’t spare him the light of day, more on edge by dazai’s warnings and the strange way everyone seems to watch you. his attempts at conversation register to you as veiled threats, and you’re far too frightened by him to spend even a moment more lingering around him once you sense his presence. maybe the distance should disappoint him, but chuuya’s vague interest in you hasn’t developed that far yet. besides, it’s not too bad to watch over you from afar. 

once it does get worse, though, chuuya will try to clear up the misunderstandings. he demands for more of your time, insists that dazai can’t make use of you, stands up for you publicly and makes it clear that he disapproves of dazai’s treatment of you. anything to make you realize his intentions. 

[tigers1o1]

tigers. thoughts on yes&no by natalie wee as a fnc coded poem

WHYYYYY WOULD YOU SAY THAT TOOOO MEEEEEE

deadass tho i was like “:0 poem! Wait a damn minute I KNOW THIS POEM YOU FUCKER”

I think part of what fucks me up about it so bad is that initially I’m like “yeah this is chips pov” but then i fucking read it again and GOD does it hurt so much more as Gillion.

Bc the poem reads in the first bit almost as someone worshipping the other, right? With the “get on your knees” and “forgiving vs violence” and i think Chip would view Gillion as the holy one, hes the chosen one, hes the one that must be worshipped, the one with the power of the seas and the sky at his hand.

BUT. Gillion is the one who knows nothing but worship. Of course he’d want to worship Chip. And he wasnt raised to love, let alone love tenderly. Hes the soldier, the one good at violence, the war-machine. The last good thing that shattered in his hands? The shell phone. Before that? He doesnt even know. Because hes never held anything gently before. Chip has at least held the coin, or ollies hand, and he doesnt break those. But gillion? Gillion was made to break those things- emotional ties, the innocents of the oversea.

The poem is Chip on its surface, but in reality i see it as Gillion and i will deadass do a one by one line analysis of that poem and talk about how it could be either of them, if yall want that

[good-beans]

Going to see Ponyo in the theater!!!! :D

[ghostoffuturespast]

Masterpiece. My Last Supper.

[churchyaoi]

co-fronting with lina is like nonstop arguing but in a really funny way. i like her. she also prefers to call me epsilon. i want everyone else to call me church though. sometimes i have to distract her from the "shaving all our facial hair"-thoughts bc none of my female alters like having it. we look good with it come on

[ireallyliketalldarksultrymen]

what are your opinions on the Percy Jackson movies?

ough they’re so bland to me 😭😭 literally not even rick asked for the first movie to be made and then they produced TWO. the musical and show do sm better than it and i will die on this hill

[just-null]

heeeyyyy.. hii...

judgingfrom ur recent posts, i noticed you might be drifting away from yandere!noritoshi, but your yan!toshi is sooo good ... please oh great froggy one bless us once more with he...

-🐟

SIRE ITS NOT WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE. WHATEVER THE FATES HAVE SAID IS NOTHING BUT POPPYCOCK. LISTEN TO ME WHEN I SAY THAT WAY OF THINKING IS A MISCONCEPTION FORGED FROM MY OWN INDOLENCE. PAY IT NO MIND AND HEED MY WORDS.

THYNE CULT LEADER TWAS FOCUSED ON THE DERE, YET YOU ARE VERACIOUS WHEN YOU SAY IVE BEEN SLACKING ON THE YAN....

but frfr, im not drifting from it! as ive said in a previous post, ive just gotten busy. Ive got some yan posts in my drafts but they're pretty beefy...! so it'll take me a bit longer to get those out. ty for your patience and dw I will be posting more of that freak bc I love himsm..

the previous froggy posting was just to show that I was alive!

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[69liesleft]

My brother hates touhou but yet he says he likes flandre😒

[l3viat8an]

I'm so ashamed that i was a Thirteen hater b4😿😿

She's so wife material like HELLLLOOOOO??? I WOULD LITERALLY GIVE OFF EVERYTHING I HAVE EVER OWNED TO BE WITH HER IRL😻🤭

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*gasp* no way! I’m glad you’ve seen the error of your ways lolol

But I’m one of the proud Thirteen simps since day one 🫡 she’s too pretty to do anything wrong hdjdhdj

[termagax]

🐝♥️🍄!

🐝 Who takes care of the inside bugs? Cup or boot?

neither of them are particularly squeamish about it and would squish anything without a second thought. i guess unless it was like some kind of freaky giant radioactive australia bug then fish would probably want to keep it. and he would think theyre insane.

♥️ What made each of you realize the other person was The One?

i think for fish it was like. he was the first person they ever really felt like Got it. they click together really well and at the time had very similar worldviews and general approaches to life that i think would make them feel drawn to him. like i think even before everything happened they both had a kind of similar disconnect from other people and it would be kind of exciting to be like ohhhhhhh they just get it. two therians meeting another one for the first time sniffing each other cautiously. and i think its that same kind of thing that keeps them coming back to each other after everything, bcz they both kind of feel like theyre not a part of the world anymore like they arent real tangible people? if that makes sense. except for when theyre around each other. generally when i talk about them its like. theyre each others tether to the Real World basically. theyre the only person who knows his face hes the only one who knows their name. that kind of thing.

🍄 Have your or your F/O pushed each other out of your respective comfort zones at any point?

YES thats kind of their whole thing. b4 everything Happened the fish was like literally just some college student who got into something above their paygrade and he was basically an extension of that adventure, this extremely cool and confident dangerous-seeming older guy who likes guns and smokes and has a cool motorcycle and is involved in this thing that they feel like is ultimately way above their head vis a vis the robot wars. so i think that whole thing is an excercise in being out of their comfort zone. and i think hog is just not the kind of guy to be comfortable with like. emotional intimacy or vulnerability in any sort of way, so when they cant really help but have an extended breakdown its all just sort of. not in his wheelhouse. hes bad at it. neither of them are very good at like talking about their feelings or anything like that anyways so i think any attempt at honesty or even just a sincere admission of affection is just something theyve sort of forgotten how to do over the years.

[tigers1o1]

Okay question explain fnc to me cause I don’t get it. It think sure it’s a cute ship but at most as see a qpr (I project really hard onto gillion that I forgot he’s only ace and not canonically aroace)

An opportunity to just completely ramble about fnc and explain all of the reason I love it? Yes please. In this essay I will-

I think a lot of it bases on (and started because of) the kiss from episode 21. It was described as the most genuine and best kiss of either of their lives. Also Chip’s reaction to said kiss is so silly bc like- if your homie kissed you to save your other homie and you didn’t have feelings about homie 1, you probably wouldn’t react that way. But that’s fairly surface level if you ask me.

Also I am a goddamn sucker for symbolism and poeticism and shit and thEY are SO. Where Gillion is a CHOSEN ONE, Chip is just Some Guy. They’re so completely opposite each other in every way. And you know what they say. Gillion is good, in every way that he possibly can be. He is a hero. Chip, on the other hand, is- well it’s a little heavy handed to call him a villain, but he certainly isn’t the best person. He lies, he steals, he acts selfishly. Where he is selfish, Gillion is selfless, and I think that they have a lot to teach each other about each of those things because either one in extremity is dangerous.

But they’re also exactly the same. They’re loyal to a fault, and value people above all else. They’re both reaching for something that they aren’t sure is possible and have a lot of pressures placed on them both from others and from themselves. They both struggle to believe they’re worthy of love. And I think that’s part of what draws me to them so much. They both believe that love is something they have to achieve, something they have to earn. Which, considering their childhoods, yeah. Makes sense. So the idea that loving each other could teach them that they can just exist and still deserve love is sOOOOO absolutely wonderful to me. I love it.

Also, neither of them have a home. At least, not one they can return to right now. Jay will always have Featherbrooke and her mom, even if going back is risky bc of her dad. We saw that in 98. But Chip? His home sank 10 years ago and he’s been looking for it ever since. And Gillion got exiled from his home. He can’t go back. Neither of them have a home, so I think it’d be so sweet and poetic if they found a home within each other. They’ve both definitely found one on the Albatross in canon, but still.

Both of them very much carry these masks. Chip puts in a charismatic and “I’ve got a plan” persona, but he doubts himself and he rarely has a plan and he’s afraid. He’s afraid of a lot of things, and we’re coming to learn more about that. And Gillion plays up the part of being a hero. He’s confident and strong: a protector. But we’ve seen him break. We’ve seen him be afraid and need to lean on someone else. And so the idea of them recognizing each other’s mask and becoming a safe space for the other to be true to themself? Yeah.

Chip is used to running, so the idea of him finding something to stay and fight for? Literally beautiful. And Gillion being given love because of who he is, and not what he is? Same deal. And Chip will fight for Gillion, we’ve seen that a couple dozen times over. And Chip loves Gillion (even if just platonically in canon) because of who Gillion is, not the Chosen One.

They’re just. Mmmmmmm. The same but also opposite and they’re so good for each other because Gillion is teaching Chip to be selfless, and Chip is teaching Gillion that not everything is black and white and that he deserves to be taken care of.

I love FNC in literally any format, including QPR tho so there is that lmao and I will never be the type to shove my opinions onto others and say what is and isn’t right. I may be the fnc guy, but I also love polypirates and swordfish (more as a qpr) and scarlet captains and- you get the idea :3 fandom isn’t about being right, it’s about having fun, and if FNC as a QPR is the most fun for you, then that’s real and valid :D

[stars-on-my-bedroom-ceiling]

for the ask game -

💛 📷

💛 - do you have any piercings?

yeah! i have my ears pierced, and i'd like to get another ear piercing and maybe an eyebrow? idk though perhaps some time in the future

📷 - what is set as your phones lockscreen?

it's really boring and i'm planning on redoing my phones theme soon but it's this

[deadfishwalkin]

One time I made golden syrup to use for something I was baking. I used up a bit, but I accidentally made way too much, so I sealed it up nice and tight and put it away in a dark, empty cupboard where nothing could destroy it.

Flash forward a month later, I get the jar out to use for something else and there's an ocean of ants drowning in it. Turns out there was a tiny crack in the jar and all the ants sniffed out the sweet sugary syrup and came out from god-knows-where and let all nine circles of hell loose on their bounty, only to be mummified alive in amber treacle-y hell.

Some part of me finds it pretty tragic that ants, small enough to dodge radiation, resilient, loyal, strong, these wonderful, overall near-invincible creatures-

Yeah, some part of me finds it pretty tragic that they managed to squeeze into the tiniest crack in the impenetrable wall guarding their treasure and rushed in to claim their bounty, only to be defeated by a trap spun from liquified sugar and human ambition.

I don't know if I identity more with the jar or the ants (⁠•⁠‿⁠•⁠)