#��͙⁺˚*･༓☾ celeste talks !

[nxuvillette]

happy mother’s day to y/n’s mom who sold her to one direction or 5sos for drug money

[brokenhardies]

☾ cute character questions ☽ for Luna!! Let's get to know her a little better . . . ^_^

the basics:

name: luna celeste derbyshire age: 18 zodiac sign: aquarius (feburary 5th) one good trait: curiosity one bad trait: stubbornness

habits:

one bad habit: talks way too much one good habit: fights for what she believes in one habit they can’t break: biting her nails one they’ve broken: being too people-pleasing what they’re afraid of: letting other people down

family:

their parents names: samara 'sam' and andrew derbyshire their siblings names: vega derbyshire (younger brother) favorite childhood memory: staying in the hospital with her mom after her baby brother was born favorite childhood toy: had a collection of hot wheels toys that she would try to stick her polly pockets into embarrassing story: tried to fight an ostrich when she was a toddler after it took her pacifier favorite family member: her maternal aunt aurora a story about that family member: aurora was a good knitter, so when luna showed her tom baker's scarf, she immediately tried to make it for her. upon meeting the doctor for real, luna tried to make it herself!

what they prefer:

coffee or tea?: coffee showering in the day or night?: day showers taking baths or taking showers?: baths tv or movies?: tv writing or reading?: reading platonic or romantic love?: platonic love iced tea or lemonade?: iced tea ice cream or smoothies?: smoothies cupcakes or cake?: cupcakes beach or mountains?: beach

favorites:

song: wish you were here by pink floyd band: the smiths outfit: leather jacket, striped sweater, jeans and converse sneakers place: a park near her old house that she goes back to when she's stressed (usually asking the doctor to drop her off there) memory: the aforementioned aunt aurora scarf story. also actually getting to meet sophie aldred at a convention! person: the doctor movie: my neighbour totoro show: doctor who other than doctor who, star trek!

[letsbenditlikebennett]

Good Mourning || Solo Scene

TIMING: Current SUMMARY: After a good talk with Clay in the cemetery, Ari is determined to get a good nights sleep. A temporary better mindset turns out to be no match for an al basty.�� CONTENT: Sibling death, suicidal ideation, drug manipulation

Yeah, you were right about me But can I get myself out from underneath This guilt that will crush me? 

The warm mug of lavender tea she sipped on was part of her mission to get a good night’s rest. Ariana drank it slowly to really let the warm sink into every part of her body. She kept her mind focused on the physical things around her. The feeling of the soft couch cushion beneath her, the small puffs of air that Luna breathed onto her lap, the ticking clock, her hair tickling the back of her neck. If she didn’t let her mind wander before bed and kept in mind what Clay had told her, she could go to bed without guilt secretly lurking in the back of her mind. 

 Running from her guilt had clearly not worked and it was manifesting itself now in troubling ways. Her thoughts tried to stray to the blood of the tiny fae she’d devoured at the docks without evening mean to, but she shook it was and let her hand fall onto Luna’s head to focus on that sensation. 

 She set the emptied mug of tea into the sink and made her way towards her bedroom with Luna and Stark following closely behind. The pups took their spot on their beds and Ariana sunk into hers. She wrapped the covers tightly around herself and forced her mind to think of happy things as she lulled off to sleep. 

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 Salt and blood. Everything was salt and honey sweet blood. The waves crashed against the wolf as she devoured the clurichaun who thought it was a good idea to play games with her. You didn’t just play with a monster and live. Each tear into flesh was mixed with the briny water that surrounded the docks and the waves picked up with their force. She could feel the pain in her side, but she couldn’t stop. 

 “I told you we should have been harder on her. She thought she could fix this monster.”

 The wave threw her into an all too familiar warehouse that looked so clouded just as it had two years ago. Whatever had been in the dart the Aquillas shot into her had left the memory blurry, like a fog in her mind and dreams. The silver chains dug into her skin and left both her wrists and ankles itchy. The squirming she did was half-hearted at best. Every limb felt like lead. 

 “It’s a shame to ruin such a beautiful dress though I guess it was ruined the moment you wore it.” 

 Every word of Diana Aquilla’s mouth sounded venomous. So much hatred for ruining her only daughter. You did ruin her. As she writhed on the dirty ground, she knew it to be true. She made it all too easy for the Aquillas to find her. She insisted on staying here because she’d finally found other wolves and didn’t feel so alone. Celeste eventually came sneaking in, but the only thing she could focus on was the sound of the bullet that rang through the air. Diana was gone and there was no chance to feel relief. Celeste’s father had a knife in her before Ari could even move from her place.

 Her scream echoed in the mostly empty warehouse. The crack of her bones as she shifted probably did too, but she could only see red. Teeth sinking into skin at an alarming speed. There was no savoring the taste, every swipe of her claws and bite sinking into him was meant to destroy. The smell of Celeste still in the air only made the wolf move more ferociously, as if tearing apart the Aquilla patriarch could put Celeste back together again. There was no stopping the wolf, it wanted blood and no amount of reasoning with herself would change it. It wasn’t just self defense, she could have fled, she could have let him live, but he’d torn her apart the moment he sunk his knife into her sister’s body. All she wanted was for him to hurt worse than she did. He couldn’t, but she shred into him until there was no trace of breath or heartbeat. 

 “All you’ll ever be is a monster.” 

 The wolf looked at the lifeless expression on Celeste’s face once the hunter was left behind. There was so much blood, drenching all of her senses. The wolf let out a strangled cry and the body’s eyes fluttered open. All that could be seen was disgust and anger. It was a face she’d never seen her sister wear in life and it caused the wolf to shrink back into her human form. She looked so small in comparison to Celeste who had always seemed larger than life. She defied everything she was supposed to be. She chose to be better. The guilt rolled through her stomach making her feel queasy. Stone cold blue eyes glared into her. “You should have listened to me. We could have avoided this.” 

 “Please,” Ari begged with a strained voice, “don’t leave.” 

 Please.

 In a blink, she was back in the clearing with tear-filled eyes begging Kaden to put the gun down. “Kaden, please,” her voice cried out. Do something. Her mind was screaming at her to move despite Alcher’s raised hand. Fucking do something. 

 She was frozen in place, unable to move, unable to stop this fight from happening. It’d been years in the making and she was a fool to think she could talk them down. The sound of the gun firing ringed in her ears. It mocked her naivety. 

 Ari could feel her skin buzzing, ready to shift, to destroy the hunter that just killed Alcher. But she couldn’t. She still cared. “Go,” she ground out and her eyes fell back down to lifeless golden eyes. 

 “You’re no wolf.” 

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 She shot up in bed and the sound of her gasp had both of the dogs clamoring awake to see what had happened. Ariana didn’t fight the tears that began to fall from her face. She was so tired and she felt so heavy, like she couldn’t move from the bed even if she tried. Her body shook with sobs and she barely registered the cold wet nose nudging her hand. She couldn’t bring herself to just snuggle her dog and allow her tears to calm. She hugged her blanket tighter and sat there shaking for what could have been hours or minutes. She wouldn’t have known the difference. 

 “Be kind to yourself.” 

 Her brain tried to grasp at the words, hang on to them for dear life. For some semblance of sanity. They’d felt so true in the open air, but now they felt like they were suffocating her. 

 “Monsters don’t deserve kindness.” 

[traumatalks]

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[nxuvillette]

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hey so if u voted for Trump, unfollow me. idgaf if we’re mutuals either because you’re a bitch

[nxuvillette]

putting this here because i need the traction for it

does anyone have good eren fic recs? it can be one shots or full on series! i’m just having a hard time finding some good works. preferably nothing with super dark content !! thank you :>

[nxuvillette]

my personal hc for eren is that he loves when you make him bracelets and he will wear every single one.

even if he looses circulation on his wrist!

[nxuvillette]

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[nxuvillette]

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[nxuvillette]

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