#何以歌

[buried-in-stardust]

何以歌 by Aki阿傑 on a music box

[hami-gua]

生生世世

Love between an immortal and mortal is forbidden by the heavenly law. By loving a mortal, the immortal pays a price. Dan Heng, rather, his past incarnations are no exceptions to this law.

This work contains both English and Chinese (translation provided). Apologies in advance if the Chinese dialogues aren't great. Something may be incorrect or inaccurate, all for the sake of the plot.

Reader has a given nickname and last name but not first name.

[This work is also on AO3 and more polished there, as it is in chapter format.]

Dan Heng x f! Reader

A man approaches the altar that held a glowing stone. Confused, he turned to another man beside him.

“What is this?”

“This is a stone that held your memories from your previous two lives.”

“And why do you insist that I use it?”

“I believe it’s time you find out yourself, Dan Heng.”

The man, Dan Heng, looked at his “partner” with an eyebrow raised. Trusting him, Dan Heng reaches out to the stone and picks it up. After a few seconds, he begins to feel an oncoming headache and steadies himself on the altar. Yet the effort is deemed futile as he soon blacks out.

The first time he met her in this life, was when he assumed a name, Yubie. She had been selling flowers, calling out to any and all souls that happened to pass by. A certain flower had caught Yubie’s attention. Being a minor god living in the moon palace, he had never seen such a flower before. And before he knew it, he had picked up the flower and began to inspect it.

“先生，您看上了这朵花了吗？“ [Sir, is this the flower you choose?]

Yubie, a tad embarrassed and shy, merely nodded. The girl only smiled back gently, the gentle dulled pinks and purples of her robe brushed against the cart as she reached for others of the same kind, bundling them and checking the pot they were held in.

“先生若有什么需求，可以叫我一声！“ [If sir has any needs, you only need to call me!]

“嗯，知道了。谢谢，姑娘。” [En. Understood. Thank you, young girl.]

“哎呀，应该的！” [Aiya, it’s what I should do!]

Yubie blushed as his eyes grazed through the other different flowers. His eyes lands on a peony, leading him to think about Jing Yuan. The general hardly ever visits the moon palace anymore, but when he does, it’s always a pleasant surprise. He’s due to visit soon, but Yubie couldn’t think of a gift to give. Picking up the flower, Yubie calls for the flower girl.

“就这两个，谢谢。“ [Just these two, thanks.] Yubie cleared his throat awkwardly, handing the two flowers to the girl.

“一颗银子。“ [One piece of silver.]

Yubie’s eyebrows raised in surprise, having not expected the price.

“一颗？为何要怎么少？“ [A piece? Why do you ask for that less?]

The girl replied back without even a thought, “因为不管有多少钱，想要有花就可以有花。再说了，卖花只是我的爱好。“ [Because it doesn’t matter how much money you have, if a flower is what you want, then you get a flower. Besides, selling flowers is just a hobby I have.]

“爱好？“ [Hobby?]

“嗯！“ [Yeah!]

“什么是爱好？“ [What’s a hobby?]

The girl’s jaws drop open. Never had she ever heard of someone not knowing what a hobby is.

“爱好就是喜欢做什么就做。比如，有些人喜欢看书，唱歌等。您呢？“ [A hobby is something you like to do. Like, some people like reading, others singing and so on. You?]

“我。。。我没有，“ [I… I don’t have one.] Yubie trailed off, his cheeks flushing in embarrassment.

“啊？！真假的？像您这样的人，没有爱好还挺乖的嘞！“ [Ah?! Really? Those like you not having a hobby is quite odd!]

“像我这样的人？“ [Those like me?]

“嗯！就是有钱的人。“ [Yeah! Like wealthy.]

“哦。。。“ [Oh…]

Learning of selling flowers as a hobby, he debated whether or not to ask about her true line of work. Deciding to just go for it, Yubie asks, “请问姑娘，您。。。是做什么的？“ [Young girl, what… do you do for a living?]

The girl looks at him for a split second before pulling out a find pressed silk threads that forms the shape of a flower. Orange blossoms to be exact.

“我是做各种各样的簪子。不过随着有些人的需求，其它头饰也可以。“ [I make all kinds of hair sticks. Though, through some customer’s needs, I can also make other head accessories.]

Yubie observes the hair stick, eyes glimmering at how well made it is. But their conversations is cut short when the distant bell tower chimes, signaling the time. The girl looks up and takes a note of the sun’s position with a gasp.

“抱歉先生，看来我该回家了,” [Sorry sir, it seems like I have to go home.] The girl quickly said as she rushes to pack everything up. Yubie could do nothing but awkwardly stand to the side, watching. As the girl began pulling the cart away, Yubie stops her.

“哪个，姑娘，您的名字。。。“ [Um，young girl. Your name…]

The girl turned towards him with a shy smile, “啊。。。我姓李，叫__。不过叫我棉棉就行啦！您呢？“ [Ah… Last name’s Li, first name __. But calling me Mian Mian will do! You?]

“雨别。“ [Yubie]

“雨别。。。好优雅。很适合您，” [Yubie… so elegant. It suits you.] the girl smiled, sending poor Yubie’s heart sputtering.

“实在是不好意思，雨先生。我真的得回家了。“ [So sorry, Yu sir. I really must get home.] The girl bowed before pulling her cart away as Yubie simply stood there, watching as her form got smaller and smaller. He too turns and leaves after.

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The next time he sees her was when a village had been faced with a terrible fire. After saving her, he was told that the nation has been threatened by a foreign unknown source. Not a villager had a clue where they came from. But all describe the forces as wearing all black with specks of gold, almost like liquid gold.

“雨先生——“ [Yu sir—]

“雨别就行了。“ [Yubie will do.]

“雨别，他们是谁啊？我从没见过他们那样的人。“ [Yubie, who are they? I’ve never seen people like them before.]

Yubie was silent, unsure if he should tell her. Yet his consciousness ruled that if she doesn’t know, she’ll be more likely to run into trouble.

“他们不是人。“ [They aren’t human.]

The girl looked back at him, shocked.

“不是人？” [Not human?]

“按理说，他们原来是人。” [Logically speaking, they were human once.]

“原来。。。那发生了什么？他们现在为何不是人了呢？” [Originally… then what happened? Why aren’t they human now?]

“魔阴。” [Mara.]

“魔阴是什么？” [What’s mara.]

“一种能让人变成魔妖的病。” [A disease that turns humans into demonic beings.]

“怎么可怕！那我们该如何打败他们啊？” [That’s tarrying! Then how do we defeat them?]

Yubie smiles at her and reaches up to pat her head. The girl in turn didn’t seem to mind, rather, she leans into him. His arm then slowly lowers to her elbows as he tightened his hold around her.

“这是神仙们的战争。咱们就把这个留给他们吧。” [This is a battle for immortals and gods. We just leave these to them.]

The girl smiled, leaning further into Yubie. The two sat in silence, gazing out into the setting sun.

“雨别？“ [Yubie?]

“嗯？“ [Yeah?]

“你喜欢哪个神仙呀？“ [Who’s your favorite immortals and gods?]

Yubie sat there, unsure what to answer. Afraid that if he does, he’ll be giving his identity away.

“我不知道。喜欢的神仙们太多了，” [I don’t know. I like a lot of them.] He gave a half true answer, “你呢？“ [You?]

“饮月君！” [Imbibitor Lunae!]

Her answer took Yubie by surprise. Fighting an intense blush from rising, he looks at her, fully interested in her answer and yearns for a reason.

“你为何要选饮月君？“ [Why must you choose Imbibitor Lunae?] He asked, his heart beats erratically.

“他可是青龙。又聪明又疼人。再说，他是一条龙! 龙还挺可爱的呢。“ [He’s the green dragon. Smart and caring towards humans. And he’s a dragon! Dragons are quite cute.]

With every word she spoke, the redder Yubie’s face and ears became. After, the girl takes notice of his reddening ears and teasingly asks him, “诶呀，耳朵怎么都红啦？” [Aiya, why are your ears read?]

Yubie’s eyes began blinking rapidly as he quickly turns his head away from her. “难道。。。你。。。” [Could it be… you…] The girl trailed off, making Yubie panic as he started to believe that she’s going to figure out his true identity.

“你也很喜欢银月君！” [You also really like Imbibitor Lunae!]

Yubie breathed out a sigh of relief as he nodded shyly to her words. Safe for another day, he thought. And just like that, the two began telling each other of their past. Yubie, making his as vague as he can.

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The third time Yubie saw her, was also his last time seeing her. An intense battle had broken out within the nation. Phantylia and her forces made a move on the girl’s village. Anxiety gripped Yubie’s heart as he rushed there. Yet when he arrived, not a mara-struck soldier could be spotted. None that was living anyways.

Running through the street, he called out for any survivors. Not getting an answer, he sent his force to dig through rubble. He himself though, began running around, calling for the girl. Yet his call once again remains unanswered. It wasn’t until he was on the verge of giving up, did he see flowers scattered behind a particularly large rubble. Yubie’s heart picked up as he rushed behind it, only to have his hopes shattered when he saw the state the girl was in. Carefully, he picked her up and automatically felt the blood trickling onto his hand. Her chest had been pierced by a sword as her head had crashed onto something, leading her temple to bleed profusely.

Plip. Plop. Tears fell onto the girl’s cold skin as Yubie held onto her cold dead hands tightly. He cradles her close to him as he cried, his heart sinking in never-ending despair. ‘Is this what heart break feels like? I never got to tell her…‘

For all the light and hope she gave him, Yubie could only repay with a kiss to her forehead and a love confessed too late.

I’m sorry I couldn’t get to you soon enough.

The first time he met her in his next life was when he went by Dan Feng. She had entered the inn where he was at with attendants by her side. He was in the middle of a conversation with Yingxing when he heard a commotion at a table in the corner. It caught the pair’s attention as they both turned to see a man close to their age in appearance, harassing the girl. She continued drinking her tea as the man and her attendant argued.

“I’ll say, you need to properly teach your attendants!” The man snarled.

“Sir, do you not have manners?”

“You! How are you speaking to me huh?! I’m a young master! Young master!”

“Who cares if you’re a young master or not. You can’t even recognize her highness, so are you really a young master?”

“You!” The man raises a hand to hit the attendant.

Unable to watch or listen any further, Dan Feng gets out of his seat and walks towards the man.

“Enough!”

The man stops and glares at Dan Feng as the girl glances up from her cup.

“And who are you?!”

Dan Feng doesn’t answer him. Instead, he states, “You are aware that hitting any servant of a princess is strictly forbidden.”

The man scoffs once more before walking out of the inn. The attendant bows to him as he held her arms, telling her there was no need.

“感谢公子。“ [Thank you, childe.]

“不必。他刚才为何生气？” [No need. Why was he mad?]

The attendant looks at Dan Feng before looking at the girl then back to him again.

“Well…”

The attendant is cut off as the girl sets down her cup.

“他想追求我。我没同意。“ [He asked for my hand. I didn’t agree.]

The attendant looked at her shocked by her ease of language.

“公主！可不能怎么随意说出！万一。。。“ [Princess! You can’t just say that so casually! What if…]

The girl sighs as Yingxing approaches the group. She slowly stands with the help of her other attendants.

“It’s okay. At this time, long story short is the way to go. It saves time. Anyone can charge in at any given moment and attack.”

The girl faces Dan Feng properly before giving a slight bow, her head never once lowering.

“感谢公子帮了我。“ [Thank you for helping me, childe.]

“It is something I should do,” he bows back, head lowered.

The girl gives him a small smile before turning and leaving the inn with a small limp. Dan Feng watches her leave; a tug of familiarity was felt as Yingxing clears his throat.

“Why didn’t you ask for her name?”

Dan Feng shoots him a look, “人家是公主，不礼貌。“ [She’s a princess, it’s ill-mannered.]

Yingxing smirks in return, “人家是公主，我们是神。” [She’s a princess, we are gods.]

Dan Feng could only tsk as he whacks Yingxing’s arm while glancing around to ensure that no one heard.

“Are you trying to expose us?” He hissed.

A giggle from Yingxing was all Dan Feng got.

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The next time he saw her was when he was invited to court. Or rather, Yingxing did and he decided to bring Dan Feng along. While Yingxing was locked in discussion with the emperor, Dan Feng wandered around the gardens as he heard a gentle zither playing. Following the sound, he finds the girl sitting at peace as her fingers plucked the silken strings. As if sensing him, she stops playing and turned towards his direction.

“何人？“ [Who is it?]

Dan Feng steps out from behind the bamboo trunk as he gracefully made his way towards her.

“Princess’ playing is rather elegant. It holds much clarity.”

The girl blushed before lowering her gaze to her zither as her hand gently runs up and down the strings.

“Why have you entered the palace today?”

“Ah, may princess forgive me. I came with a friend who is currently in a meeting with the emperor. I am not summoned; this I wander about.”

The girl merely smiles and invites him to tea as she played and chatted. And there it was, the feeling Dan Feng couldn’t shake off. That feeling of familiarity gnaws at his heart. Her eyes held that same mirth and her voice contains a much gentler lilt than he “remembers”. Sensing him spacing off, the girl asked, “Is there something wrong?”

Quickly trying to find an excuse, Dan Feng asked her, “Princess, what is your name?”

The girl smiled shyly before answering, “Li __. But those I know call me Mian Mian.”

’It’s that nickname again. Mian Mian.‘

“You asked for my name, so it is only fair I ask for yours.”

Dan Feng looks up at her with surprise, “Dan Feng.”

“Dan Feng… It’s an elegant name.”

“I — thank you, princess.”

The girl shifted, revealing a scarred leg. Her face briefly twists in pain noticed by Dan Feng. Seeing her leg, Dan Feng questioned her.

“What… happened to your leg.”

The girl places a hand on her leg, as if to cover it. She mulls over her words before saying, “It happened when I was young. An unwatched dog had gotten to me as I was playing. It bit me and wouldn’t let go until my sister had hit it with a branch while crying in fear. After investigating, my father found the dog belonged to a minister. The dog, turned out, bit more people. Mostly servants. So, every time they thought to tell, they were pressured by the minister to keep quiet. The minister wanted me gone so he could easily rise the ranks.”

“Why does he want you gone?”

“It probably has to do with me rejecting a marriage proposal.”

“With his son?”

The girl nodded.

“He wanted to ascend the ranks by having his son marry me. But I rejected the offer. His son is 15 years older, thus I can’t imagine the two of us spending a long life together.”

“Was your father upset at all?”

“No. He’s quite elated to be honest. Father was always eager to marry off his sons, but when it came to marrying off his daughters, he’s always the first to reject all suitors. At least, that’s what my brother tells me.”

“What became of the minister?”

“He was banished. Simple as that.”

“At least you’re safe now.”

The girl huffed, “This is a court. I only happen to live here. So how safe can it be?”

Dan Feng looked at her confused. Not fully grasping what she meant.

Months goes by. Dan Feng exchanges letter with the girl regularly. It went from mundane to adventurous, to rants. Until one day, he received a letter asking him to arrive at court for a celebration. Her birthday, he thought. A problem quickly presented itself: the girl’s birthday is coming up, and Dan Feng had no clue what to gift her. Perhaps a pearl will do. But that’s too plain. How about a bracelet? But she plays a zither, the bracelet will only get in the way.

’“This is a court. I only happen to live here. So how safe can it be?”‘

Her words echoed in his mind. The girl wears hair sticks a lot, so surely a hair stick concealing a small blade will easily go undetected. He nodded to himself. Yes. Surely this will work.

When the day of celebration came about, Dan Feng nervously fidgeted with the box that held the hair stick. Yingxing noticed his friend’s unusual behavior and gently nudged him. “Why are you so nervous?”

“What if she won’t like it?”

Yingxing rolled his eyes, “I don’t know if you’re aware, but she’s not known for her openness. For her to write to you regularly means she sees you as someone close. Someone trustworthy.”

Dan Feng looks at him deadpanned, “说人话。” [Speak human language.]

"Point is, she'll like it. It did come frome someone she trusts."

Dan Feng relaxes a bit as people filed into the castle then stopped before the girl to give her their well wishes. And before he knew it, he found himself standing before the girl. There she sat, in finely woven robes as Dan Feng knelt and held out the box with two hands.

“This is a hair stick I have made myself,” he states as a servant takes the box and presents it to the girl. She gingerly runs a finger over the hair stick, admiring the intricate etches.

“I hope the hair stick serves you well, in times of need of protection.”

“Thank you, Dan Feng.”

He bows before taking his leave as his heart yearns to glance at her once more. The feast commences, with servants bringing up various kinds of food. Throughout the night, Dan Feng kept glancing at her, only to look away when she looks towards him. Yingxing kept teasing him as his face flushed. It wasn’t until the banquet concludes does Dan Feng pulls Yingxing aside, ensuring they aren’t followed or eavesdropped on.

“What? Why are we in a secluded corner?” Yingxing asked confused.

“Yingxing… I think… I—” Dan Feng pauses, finding words to continue on.

“You what? Come on spit it out! We need to leave before we become seen as suspicious!”

“I think I fancy Mian Mian,” Dan Feng said quickly as his gaze falls in embarrassment.

Yingxing’s eyes widen with shock. In his life of knowing Dan Feng, never had his friend been so forward. Without a word, Yingxing dragged Dan Feng with him as the two made their way towards their carriage. Upon lifting the veil, he ushers Dan Feng on before entering the carriage himself. Sitting down, Yingxing hissed, “别忘了，我们是神仙。“ [Don’t forget, we are gods.]

Dan Feng only nods as his eyebrows furrow with confusion. Yingxing sighs through his nose and rolled his eyes at his friend’s expression.

“We are gods. Immortals. We can’t love mortals in a romantic sense even if we wanted to. You know the punishment that will befall us if we are caught in a romantic relationship with a mortal.”

“But I’m not immortal. I die and reform a new.”

“Yes to immortals, you perish easily. But to mortals, you are immortal in every sense. You retain your immortal name and your power after rebirth. That to a mortal still are signs of immortality.”

Dan Feng looks away, finding no words to refute Yingxing’s. He knows the punishment better than anyone, a past incarnation having gone through forced rebirth after slaying denizens of abundance and sealing Phantylia — had been found to harbor romantic feelings for a mortal. All Dan Feng learned was the mortal had already died, and did a favor for the other gods, this his sentencing was only forced rebirth instead of stripping his status along with it.

“Then… what do I do, Yingxing?”

Yingxing sat back in thought before answering, “What you do is up to you. You can choose to distance yourself or continue as her friend and bury your feelings for her.”

Dan Feng only nods, gaze seemingly absent.

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Two months passed as Dan Feng finds himself walking through the snow-covered winter grounds with the girl. The two chat amongst themselves as they slowly made their way towards the library. Both mentioned a liking towards the history and romantic literature. Finding his own collections low, he wrote to the girl, asking if he could read a few selections in the library, to which she agreed.

“藏书楼到了！” [We’ve arrived at the library!]

Before them stood a tall rounded tower with blackened roof and red columns with white walls. A style very reminiscent of the earlier century. Walking up to the two tall doors, the girl pushes it open with a huff as it slowly creaks open. The hall is silent, save for the clacking of the girl’s clogs and brushing of brocaded silks. The two went separate ways, browsing different scrolls and books then finding a place to sit as they read. The days passed like this until the girl had asked him to meet in the garden of her palace for supper.

As Dan Feng walked to her gate, it opened showing a young maid who took one look at him before inviting him in and leading him to the part of the garden where the girl waited. As he sat down, the girl spoke, “Have you heard? The denizens of abundance are on the move.” He looked at her with surprise.

“How long have you known about the denizens of abundance?”

“Ever since I turned 15. There was no way for people to not notice them any longer.”

Dan Feng remains silent, letting the girl rant.

“For as long as I have known, we’ve always been at war with the abundance. It’s carried on for hundreds of years now. When will it ever end?”

“I don’t know.”

“You’re a god, aren’t you?”

Her question stunned him. Not once did he mention anything about his association with the heavens, nor did he ever talk about what he does.

“How… how did you know?’

“Many things really. It’s not every day you see a middle-aged man locked in a deep conversation with a much younger man like they’ve known each other their whole life.”

“He’s not that old.”

“To you he’s not. But to me and many others, he is. And you never really told me what you do, yet you always seem to have money. You also are well read. More than your average wealthy person, and you know lots about art, as if you’ve spent centuries perfecting it. Not to mentions, you practically sleep where knowledge is kept. And don’t think I don’t see the look in your eyes when you gaze at the dragons at the library entrance.”

Dan Feng is silent for a moment before asking, “When did you find out?”

“Since the celebration on my birthday. No one is that brave enough to gift me a blade hidden in a hair stick. And again, to be able to afford pearls of that quality. If it wasn’t the threat of abundance, my father would definitely begin suspecting you.”

“And why does me being a god matter to you?” Dan Feng asked, his heart racing.

“Can’t you do something about it? Fight the abundance or a least gift us abilities to do so?”

“Even if I had the power, I can’t.”

“Why?”

“I don’t have the power to command many forces. I’m a minor god of the moon, not for battle. Even then, if I was a god of war, I will still need permissions from the rulers and anyone else I answer to.”

The girl falls silent.

“So you’re saying, you can only defend yourself?”

Dan Feng nods.

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The last time he saw her in this life was witnessing her be poisoned.

The day had started like any other, he met with her while in the company of Yingxing. The three had made their way to the market. After eating and drifting from vendor to vendor, they returned with a request to a banquet from the emperor. It was going well. All the food were served as normal while all guests watched dances and plays until everyone heard intense coughing.

“Someone fetch the doctor! Quick! The fourth princess has been poisoned!” a maid screamed.

All hell broke loose at once. People ran as if trying to escape as few turned to mara-struck soldiers. Dan Feng pushed past the havoc as he sees the emperor trying to cut his way through the denizens. By the time Dan Feng got to her, she was already weak.

“Mian Mian!” He called out to her while cradling her close to him. ‘No… it’s happening again. Just like last time.’

“Dan… Feng…”

“Shh. I’m here, you’ll be okay.”

“这话。。。是对我说的？还是。。。还是对你自己说的？“ [Your words… Is it said towards me? Or… or is it said towards yourself?]

“What do you mean?”

“I won’t make it,” her hand moved towards her mid-section, where the hair stick he had gifted her, is embedded deeply into.

“Why?”

“I was given a choice. Either turn into them, or die. It’s obvious which I chose.”

Dan Feng’s hand enclosed over hers as tears streamed down his face.

“你的手好暖啊。。。丹枫，你能陪着我吗？我好困啊。“ [Your hands are so warm… Dan Feng, can you stay with me? I’m so tired.] She whispered weakly.

He nodded as he clutched her cold hands. With each passing second, she grows weaker and weaker until her eyes closed and her breathing stills. It happened once again… I lost her again. He looked around, trying to catch sight of familiar locks of white. Yet, all he saw were the bodies of others. The servants, the emperor, ministers. But not a shadow of his friend in sight. Lifting the girl’s cold body in to a bridle carry Dan Feng carefully made his way through the palace as he finally sees his friend tending to those in need.

“Yingxing.”

Hearing his friend calling for him, Yingxing turns to see Dan Feng carrying the girl. Others who saw the pair bowed until their heads touched the stone, some even crying.

“Dan Feng…”

“I need your help getting her to the central palace.”

“Are you crazy? She’s never cultivated like I have. If you take her there, you’ll be punished!”

“And I’m willing to face that punishment.”

“Why?”

“Yingxing, I don’t think I can carry on another life without her.”

“And if she doesn’t remember who you are?”

“I’m a selfish man. You know that.”

Yingxing sighs heavily, “Okay. I’ll help you. But if anything happens along the way, I want you to go straight ahead. Don’ bother saving me. Do you understand?”

Dan Feng nods.

“Go. Flee. All of you. This place is no longer safe,” Yingxing commanded.

Heeding his words, everyone quickly fled, never looking back. The two quickly makes their way to the Hall of Worship. And just like what Yingxing suspected, denizens of abundance are hot on their trail. As they were reaching the gates, more mara-struck appears, cutting them off their path. Seeing as they have nowhere to go, Yingxing turns to Dan Feng, “Fly there. I’ll hold them off.”

Dan Feng holds Yingxing’s gaze as the denizens began closing in.

“Thank you, Yingxing.”

He gives a court nod to Dan Feng as he takes flight in the direction of the Hall of Worship. Yingxing locked eyes with a mara-struck soldier as he raises his sword, ready to face his imminent death.

By the time Dan Feng arrived, the sun was starting to set. Not letting anymore time go to waste, he teleports both himself and the girl to the central palace, collapsing onto his knees upon landing. By seeing the pair’s arrival, everyone rushed to them in shock.

“Quickly! Send a force to the capitol! They’re under attack by denizens! Please!” He begged.

Jing Yuan glanced at the empress as she gave a nod. He turns and leaves quickly, the doors slamming shut behind him.

“And why have you brought a deceased mortal? Where is Yingxing?” The empress asked, her voice steady.

Dan Feng looked down towards the girl before back up at the empress.

“I have come to ask you to grant her a new life. An immortal one.”

“And why should I fulfill your request.”

Dan Feng swallowed his unease. Yet he was spared when the empress sighed through her nose and said, “You are aware of the price?”

Dan Feng nods eagerly, “As long as she lives, I am willing to pay any price.”

“The rules say your existence and future is to cease. However, seeing as Li __’s father took great care of her as best he could, I will merely strip you of your status and have you undergo rebirth. Now, tell me where Yingxing is.”

“He stayed behind to ensure I made it to the Hall of Worship, your majesty.” The hall falls silent as the empress gracefully stands up and walks up to Dan Feng’s kneeling form. Two maids quickly approach and bowed before them.

“Stand.”

Doing as she commanded, Dan Feng stands, carrying the girl’s body.

“Hand her over to the maids. They will start the process. She will be born a new, as an infant from the petals of an orange blossom. As for you. Best make your way to Scalegorge then. The two of you shall meet once more on the 15th day of the seventh month two decades from now.”

Blinking slowly, Dan Heng began to come to his senses. Looking around, he realizes that he’s in his own room. The familiar light turquoise quilt covering him snuggly. Carefully, he sat up as the doors to his room opens and in walks Jing Yuan.

“You’re awake!”

“What happened?”

“Right after you took the memory gem, you passed out.”

A sudden headache attacked Dan Heng as he held his head and groaned.

“Mian Mian!”

“Easy there. You’ve just recovered.”

“Remind me why you want me to regain my memories.”

“Tomorrow is the 15th. Her majesty thought it would be best if you used the memory gem before then.”

Dan Heng pulls his quilt away from him and stands with the help of Jing Yuan. He slowly hobbles to his table where warm food awaits him at. Picking up his chopsticks, he slowly begins to eat while listening to Jing Yuan ramble about his day.

The next day, Dan Heng began preparing to meet the girl he’s dreamt about. What if she doesn’t like my anymore? He thought. He shook his head and smacked his face as he began to make his way to the destination Jing Yuan told him. When he arrives, he sees a feminine figure looking up at the moon. She is draped in light purple and pink silks. Sleeves long and skirts that trails. A gentle cyan pibo floats freely. Her hair adorned with many hair sticks that holds a looped bun. A fitting appearance for a fairy.

Walking up to her, Dan Heng cleared his throat — startling the poor girl. She spun around to face him, and when their eyes met, he saw the glimmers in her eyes. The longer they gazed at one another, the faster Dan Heng’s heart beats.

“棉棉。“ [Mian Mian.]

She smiles as she approached him and hugged him.

“丹恒。” [Dan Heng.]

He smiled, returning her hug. She whispered gently to him:

“谢谢。” [Thank you.]

As the moon reached high up in the sky, the two who waited two lives, shared a kiss of love and longing.

In certain times in history, emperors of China cherished their daughters, thus always choosing another girl from outside the court to be a "princess" and marry them off.

My rendition of 西王母 comes from my own understanding of what writings and media portray her as. She's caring and forgiving.

I am also today's years old when I learned that Queen Mother and Jade Emperor are only co-workers not married.

Pibo [披帛] is a type of shawl worn with hanfu. Most depictions of immortals and gods use pibo in a way to how halos are used in the west.

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This work was originally supposed to be titled 三生三世, but upon learning that it isn't actually an old saying, so I looked it up and found the two possible origins.

Beginning and ending dividers: nicodefresas

Middle dividers: fanguro

[beyourselfchulanmaria]

(Sold) 皮雕側背包改製成2只長夾-1 野貓刀疤王 lol Meow~* — recent works of 2 long-wallets, this's the one of.

◠‿◠ Done. Meow /ᐠ｡‸｡ᐟ\ ♫ 

似火風起舞 隱於深山谷 橙黃紅疊綠 情歸無一處

─ 山谷野百合 ‧ 仲茵 poem - Lily of the Valley by Chu Lan~*

📌 在華人世界，百合花代表吉祥如意。在西方，百合花是聖潔的象徵。在羅馬神話中，百合是在結婚與家庭的守護神朱諾的乳汁中誕生的。而在聖經上，百合花則是被逐出伊甸園的夏娃，悔恨傷心的眼淚落在地上後長出的。因此在復活節那天，潔白美麗的百合花，是祭典上裝飾最佳的花卉，並用來獻給聖母的花。耶穌曾持天堂之花 - 百合花作為給信徒的禮物；所以它更象徵忠貞與純潔。

在中國古代，由於百合花開時，常散發出淡淡幽香，所以百合和水仙、梔子、梅、菊、桂花和茉莉等花在一起的圖案合稱七香圖。

▪︎ 野百合的花語：永遠幸福、幸福又將回來、清新、浪漫、真誠。

▪︎ 橙色百合花花語：自信、勇氣、驕傲、勝利、榮譽和富貴的象徵，是自然的顏色。取其代表著力量、智慧、震撼、光輝、知識和性能力。

潘越雲 Michelle Pan (A Pan)【野百合也有春天 Springtime For The Wild Lilly】 on YouTube - 滾石唱片 ROCK RECORDS @RockRecordsTaipe

歌曲製作人：李壽全 作詞作曲：羅大佑 編曲：陳志遠

1983年 電影《野雀高飛》主題曲 (Lyrics)

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彷彿如同一場夢，我們如此短暫的相逢；

你像一陣春風，輕輕柔柔吹入我心中。

你可知道我愛你想你怨你念你，深情永不變，

難道你不曾回頭想想昨日的誓言。

就算你留戀開放在水中嬌艷的水仙，

別忘了山谷裡寂寞的角落裡，野百合也有春天。

而今何處是你往日的笑容，記憶中那樣熟悉的笑容。

[gayxiaoshuo]

【同性男男】健壮聪明的我哥被洗脑玩弄催眠

一、健壮聪明的我哥被洗脑玩弄  

鞭炮声中迎来了春节，载歌载舞的欢快气氛也传到我的家中。原本宽敞冷清的房子现在塞��了一大堆的亲戚，她们聊着这种在我看来十分无聊且低俗的八卦话题。  

"哎哟，赵磊一年没见，又长结实了。越来越成熟了。"远房的亲戚对着我哥哥一顿夸，一些老太婆的脸上露出耐人寻味的笑容，"在学校里一定有不少女孩子喜欢你吧？有女朋友了吗？"  

充满市侩的人就喜欢聊这种无聊老套的八卦。我哥哥很礼貌地回答，摇摇头"现在学习要紧。"  

我哥哥叫赵磊，今年刚刚升上高三，这个春节一过就只剩一百天迎来高考了。他确实如这些亲戚说的那样，高大帅气，每天都抽出时间来锻炼，身体上肌肉紧实有力量，而且还是他们学校里的优生，成绩常常是年级第一，清华北大是板上钉钉的事情。  

面对这些烦人的亲戚，我哥赵磊笑得露出一排整齐柚白的牙齿，阳光灿烂的笑容甚至引得一些亲戚激动地跺脚。  

这时，一只粗肥的手出现在我的视野里，这只肥手搭在我哥的肩膀上，拍了拍。我看见这只手在吃我哥哥的豆腐，明显触摸的地方过于靠下了，隔着一层衣服偷偷的捏了捏我哥的厚实的胸肌。  

这只手来自我的表舅。表舅常常来我家玩，他从小学习不怎么样，职高毕业后就进入社会打工了，他现在年纪比我哥大了几乎十岁，挺着一个肥硕的大肚子，脸上老肉纵横，笑起来无论如何都充斥着猥琐的感觉。  

"我们家赵磊学习真好，身体也很棒呀！"表舅的肥手又捏住我哥挺拔的肩膀。我哥没有说什么，还是那副非常具有吸引力的笑容，回答道，"这不算什么，谢谢表舅的关心。"  

表舅手里拿出一套衣服，这套衣服作得非常精致，"赵磊，这次我特地给你买了一套好看的衣服，来我们进房间试一下吧！"  

在表舅的盛情邀请下，我哥赵磊当然无法拒绝。他就领着表舅走进了他的房间。在这其间，表舅示意让我也跟进去，我哥本来是不想让我跟进来的，但看到表舅的意思，我哥也就同意了。  

等到我们三个人走进赵磊的房间，表舅就把房间的门反锁上去。啪咔的一声想起，我哥哥的表情忽然就变了。他刚才还表现得抑制的笑容立刻变得淫荡起来，眼睛瞪得老大了，啪啦啪啦地直接把身上的白衬衫给拉开，一排整齐的扣子被崩得到处都是，然后立刻跪在地上，像条狗一样迫不及待地爬到表舅的前边，直说，"主人主人，狗奴这就来服侍你。"  

看到这里，我已经见怪不怪了。表舅现在终于得到了释放，抬起脚踩到赵磊的头上，赵磊像是一条真正的狗，满脸都是快乐和享受。  

然后，表舅解开他的裤带，掏出他的那根粗黑的臭鸡巴，对准赵磊开始撒尿。赵磊看见表舅的动作意图，立刻抬头，舌头伸出来哈哈地呼气，眼睛里全是苛求。  

表舅的黄臭的尿液从空中喷到我哥赵磊的身上，从他的头和胸肌上流淌下来，一些直接喷进了赵雷的口腔里。  臭味传过来，我忍不住侧过头去。表舅看见我的反应，用头部顿了顿赵磊的样子，显得十分得意。  

赵磊从一地的尿液里站起来，我看到他的胸肌被表舅的尿液侵湿，脸上仍流下来一些黄色的液体。  我哥没有任何被羞辱的感觉，反正我看不出来。他站了一会，向我秀了一下他的手臂的粗壮肌肉和厚实的胸膛，以及那六块分明的腹肌，用手抓了地上的尿液涂抹在身上。他弯曲发力他的两只手臂，似乎觉得被表舅用尿淋头是一件非常值得自豪的事情。  

表舅丢给赵磊一张毛巾，"你好好擦干净，动作麻利点。"  

我哥现在就是一个应声而动的狗了，他赶忙把全身都擦得干干净净，然后又跪好。表舅甩了一下他的那根臭鸡巴，我看已经好多天没有洗了。我哥像是如获至宝一般，赶紧爬过去，用嘴吸住他的鸡巴，两只手紧紧抱住表舅肥胖的屁股，吧唧吧唧地吮吸起来。  

"不错不错，有那么几分奴的样子了。"表舅摸着我哥的头发，称赞道。  

我看着这种场景，虽然这种事情已经在我面前发生过很多次了，但我依旧感到吃惊和难以相信------我的哥哥，这样一个体格健硕充满美感、皮肤古铜精致、颜值爆表又成绩优异的天才，现在唯一的梦想居然是去吸表舅的臭鸡巴！  这样的事情，这样的反差，不论发生多少次，都无法让我打消内心的恐惧。  

但我又能做什么呢？我哥早就变成表舅的应声虫了，要是表舅让他在学校公共���所里打飞机或者是当着全校的面裸体爬行，我哥一定都会毫不犹豫的执行。  

这不禁让我回想起一个月前发生的事情......  

第二部分：二、一个月前的事情  

一个月前，我刚好生病请假在家一天。表舅突然来到我们家做客，作为我父亲唯一的亲弟弟，父亲自然是十分热情地款待了他。那一天，父亲和表舅聊了很多，他们似乎是有说不尽的话题，父亲居然特地给学校请了一天的假期，就是为了陪一陪他那个难得一见的亲弟弟。  

父亲名叫赵武，是附近一所高中的体育老师。当我哥出生时，父亲才21岁。现在父亲他39岁，正直年轻气壮的时候，每次回家都是大汗淋漓。即便学校上课工作非常繁忙并且要每日训练他的球队，但都抓紧时间锻炼，自然体格健硕，胸肌腹肌和粗壮的手臂肌肉那是样样齐全没得跑。  

那天我父亲和表舅一直在聊天，父亲只穿了一件T恤，手臂肌肉和两个胸肌都爆突突地隆起，紧实倒三角的腹部肌肉也被体恤给很好地勾勒出来，完全就是一个极致的尤物啊！  我发觉表舅的眼睛是不是就盯一下父亲的身体，甚至几次借倒茶的机会去触摸父亲的手臂。但单纯的父亲没有发觉什么不对。  

直到晚上接近10点，我哥终于放学回家了。他进屋子时已经脱掉了上半身的衣服，露出他紧实的上身肌肉，古铜色的胸肌上流淌着汗水，我猜他是下课后打了一会篮球。  表舅看见我哥的身体，眼睛几乎瞪得要掉到地上了，就差流出口水了。  

但我哥应该是打球打得兴奋，没有注意到表舅的异常，打完招呼就走进了他的房间。  晚上父亲邀请表舅留下来过夜，表舅很高兴地应声答应，果真在我们家留下来过夜。  

父亲首先询问我的意见，问我愿不愿意和表舅凑合地睡一晚上，我看表舅那肥硕的身材心理产生了厌恶，就拒绝的同时说了几句不好听的话，结果招来父亲的一顿臭骂。我还是头一次看见父亲这么生气，也被吓傻了不敢说话，还是母亲过来拉住父亲，父亲才消下气来。  

我从门缝里看到表舅得意的笑容，他已经发现我瞧不起他了，这次父亲大骂我，他十分得意好像觉得我这是活该被骂。  

父亲又去询问我哥赵磊的意见，他说希望表舅能暂时和我哥赵磊凑合得睡一晚上。我哥看在客人的情面上自然不好拒绝，也就答应了。  

等到一切都收拾好后，表舅就跑到我哥的房间里，去睡觉了。同时父亲脱掉���的黑色T恤，露出有力的腰腹和胸膛，走进浴室洗澡，母亲这个时候正出门到附近的超市买点速冻水饺以备晚上可能的夜宵。  

我就一个人待在客厅里看着电视。无聊的电视剧播放到一半时，我哥的房间里突然传来打斗的咚咚声。声音非常激烈，其中还夹杂着我哥赵磊的吼叫。  

我被吓坏了，还好赵磊的房间没有锁住，我赶紧冲进我哥的房间，看到表舅居然拿着一张湿润的毛巾捂住我哥的口鼻！  我哥虽然体格壮硕高大，但毕竟表舅正直壮年且从后面抱锁住我哥，赵磊慌乱中的挣扎反抗起不了效果。  

表舅花了大力气锁住赵磊，吃力地说道"小骚逼，奶子倒是练得挺大的。玩起来一定不吃亏！"  

我哥的眼睛里充满惊恐，全身扭动挣扎想要挣脱，多亏我哥平时的锻炼和他一米八的高大体格，居然真的从表舅的抱控中挣扎了出来。  

我同时也大喊"父亲！出事了！表舅要杀我哥哥！"

三、表舅的阴谋  

听到我的大喊，父亲立刻从浴室里冲出来，身上一丝不挂，水滴从他全身的肌肉上流淌下来，有些汇集在父亲粗大嘿呦的大鸡巴上，往下滴水。  

父亲看见我哥惊恐害怕的狼狈样，我感觉向父亲解释了发生的事情。听完我的描述，父亲眼睛里怒火直冒，拉过我的哥哥，对着表舅大喊"你个变态，滚出去！"说完就摆出一副要干架的姿态，全身的肌肉紧绷。  

父亲是学体育出身，体格如此健硕，我自然对父亲的胜利满怀把握，觉得这个所谓的表舅定然会灰溜溜地滚出我们家，然后再也不会来了。  

表舅却并不害怕，他就站在那里毫不躲闪。看到这种情况，父亲自然是要强制逐客了。他赤裸裸地走向表舅，每一步都充满定力，然后伸出他的大手，想要给表舅来上一拳。  

结果就在这个时候，父亲突然定住了，他口中念道"你个畜生，还不赶快滚......啊......头好晕......"父亲捂住头，晕乎乎地几乎站不稳了，立刻被表舅一脚踹倒在地上。  

我哥赵磊和我赶忙前去扶住父亲。我这时也才感觉到父亲的肌肉是多么温暖有力量。  

父亲晃了晃头脑站了起来，又望向表舅。之后对赵磊说"儿子，这就是你的不对了。你表舅想强奸你又怎么样？要是我，巴不得你表舅把我狠狠地操上一顿。"  

我和赵磊都惊恐地望向父亲，难以相信他刚才说的那些话。因为从父亲的表情和眼神来看，父亲绝对不是在开玩笑，他是认真的。  

表舅听了这话，得意得哈哈大笑，双手狠力地鼓掌，半���停不下来。  

父亲沉默地走到表舅的旁边，然后和表舅站在一起，双手合扣在身后，挺起他的大胸肌和粗长的黑色大鸡巴，表舅就一把手抓起父亲的大鸡巴，套弄起来。  

表舅是面对我们而站的，父亲自然也就面对我们而站。父亲被表舅玩弄的样子，我和赵磊都看得清清楚楚。一直以来，父亲巍峨的身躯一直是我们兄弟俩心中的大山，但这一刻，大山崩溃了。  

我哥赵磊很果断，拉住我就开跑。  但身后就传来一阵话"赵武，抓住你那两个儿子。"  

瞬间，一只有了的手就抓住我的后衣领，把我往后拉。我侧眼一看，发现也有一只手拉住我哥的肩膀。我意识到这是父亲的手。我们两人随即被拉会房间里，被强壮的父亲丢在地上。  

"小贱货肌肉练得骚，脑子也挺灵光的。不错，我就想要你这样的天才当我的狗奴。"表舅对着我哥说道。  

"就你们俩也想逃跑？"表舅这时候都不忘嘲讽我们。  

"你们的父亲早就是我的奴隶啦！从他大学毕业的时候起，我就抓住一切机会对他一阵控制。现在就是一个对我百依百顺的应声虫了。"表叔居高临下，有了父亲的撑腰，他自然是无所畏惧，"赵磊，我早就看上了你了。这次我来你们家，专门让你的父亲请假回家，就是为了保障计划的万全无失。"  

"你个变态！"我哥依旧泰山崩于前而面不改色，活脱脱一副电影小说里的正派角色的气场。但这又能有什么用呢？  

"赵武，抓住赵磊！"表舅一声令下，父亲就利索地行动起来。他有力的大手死死抓住哥哥的两个肩膀，直接把他给提了起来。哥哥在挣扎中大喊"父亲！我是你儿子！"。但父亲不为所动。  

哥哥虽然强壮，但在父亲面前又能怎么办呢?父亲把哥哥死死地锁住，两个肌肉大块头就这么"抱"在一起。父亲听了那个畜生的话，把我哥拉进房间，用布带和胶带缠住哥哥的手脚，把他绑在椅子上。

我显然被吓傻了，窝在地上害怕得全身动弹不得，惊恐地望着那个畜生表舅和我的父亲。表舅注意到了我，他向父亲示意，父亲立刻行动起来，他那粗壮的双手又再次提起我的衣领，把我重重地丢出房间门外。  

父亲居高临下地望着我。从我趴在地上的角度望向他，他简直是一只威武的老虎，虎背熊腰，肌肉粗大饱满。还有他那充满正气的表情------他却是一个被别人控制了的，对自己两个亲儿子痛下狠手的傀儡。  

父亲把门重重地关上，然后里面传来上锁的咔嚓的声音。  我被关在门外，不清楚里面会发生什么------我是要逃跑吗？报警？还是待在这里？  我一时搞不懂该怎么办了。  

哥哥的房间里突然传来碰撞声和哥哥的大叫。我听见赵磊的声音从里面清晰地穿出来，全都是大声的呼叫"啊......啊！......啊！......！"痛苦的虐待声此起彼伏，不时传出来表舅恶心的声音"贱奴，控制好你儿子！"  

我被吓得不敢动弹了。想要掏出手机报警。  

但就在我将要掏出手机的时刻，房间里哥哥的喊叫声突然停止了，挣扎打斗的咕咚声也不再传出。我以为表舅就要出来了，又赶忙收起手机。  

再过了几分钟吧，哥哥房间的门被打开了。最先走出来的是我哥赵磊，这次他全身赤裸，就像我父亲那样，我也看见了我哥的身体：一米八的高个，古铜色皮肤光滑而有弹性，肌肉紧实却不臃肿，就好比是那种常年游泳形成的天然流线型身材。  

刚才房间里发生的事情一定让我哥很疲惫，他身上的大汗直流，水珠顺着他腹肌清晰的纹理滑下，一路汇聚到他的鸡巴上。我还是很少看到哥哥的鸡巴，没想到居然和父亲又得一比了，都是粗大的鸡巴。  

随后走出来的是父亲和表舅。父亲一直站在表舅的左右，好像是表舅的保镖。  表舅一直对我自以为是地笑着，小人得志的恶心表情又出现在他的那张丑脸上。  

没等我做出反应，我哥就首先说话了，"今晚表舅就暂且和我睡吧，不能为难了别人。毕竟表舅是客人。"  

表舅听了大喜过望，连忙抓着我哥的手臂抚摸起来，说道"我家赵磊就是懂事，真是一条听话的好狗！"  

我哥听了这话，脸上立刻火冒三丈，吼道"你说什么？  不要得寸进尺......啊，头有点痛......"。赵磊说到一般扶住他的额头，闭紧眼晃了晃脑袋。  

等了过来几秒钟，哥哥的头痛看起来消失了，又说道"表舅真爱开玩笑，还挺幽默的。"刚才那副想要把表舅打死的表情和语气完全消失了。  

我忍不住，开口了，"哥，你怎么不把衣服穿好？"  

我哥望了望自己的赤裸身体，想要说什么，突然又表现出一阵头痛的痛苦感。  然后几秒恢复了正常，这种突然头痛的情况就和刚才的聊天情况一模一样。  

我哥一副畅然的表情回答道，"这关什么事？听说表舅喜欢看我的裸体，我裸一下也没什么不好。表舅好不容易来我们家一次，得好好对待客人嘛。"  

我被我哥说的话吓坏了。惊恐地望向表舅。表舅还是那副恶心的得意表情  他一巴掌拍到哥哥的屁股上，发出响亮的"啪"的一声，说道"赵磊，快去洗澡吧。"  

我哥的眼睛突然暗淡了一下，表情稍微抽搐，应该又是犯了头疼。几秒钟后就恢复了正常，说道"好，我这就去洗澡。"说罢就往浴室里跑去。  

现在客厅里就只留下我、父亲和表舅了。我害怕地望着表舅，忍不住往后退缩。  

表舅这次大笑，说道"你和小崽子也敢看不起我？我就告诉你吧，你父亲大学毕业后来我诊所做针灸治疗  我看你父亲体格健硕，是个当贱奴的好苗子，就用针灸插进一些特定的穴位。这样一来，你父亲就暂时变成一个什么话都听的白痴了。几番这样下来，自然成了我忠心不二的贱奴。  当然，这种高深的技术，你这高中生怎么可能会懂？"  

我吃惊了。  

四、被表舅玩弄的我哥  

今天回想起一个月前的事情，仍然不免得震惊。要不是我没什么肌肉，表舅可能也把我给控制了。现在他每天都把我父亲和哥哥当猴耍，他们父子两人也围绕着表舅团团转。  

看见眼前，我哥赵磊已经脱光了他的身子，坐在表舅的那根臭鸡巴上做活塞运动，我就感到恶心。但我哥却是一副享受的表情，一副高潮脸上露出嬴荡的笑容。我哥赵磊的腹肌仅仅地收缩着，据表舅说，这样可以加强肠道的收缩，让表舅的那根臭鸡巴更爽！  

赵磊一边高速地做活塞运动，冒出啪啪啪的拍击声，一边说着自贱的话，"主人的......大鸡巴......操得狗奴的阴道好爽......，狗奴是个......欲求不满的婊子......。狗奴永远也不结婚......永远做主人的奴......。"  

实际上我看过表舅的鸡巴，算是粗是粗，但长度就比不上我哥和父亲。据说因为这种情况，表舅曾经嫉妒地用红绳死死缠绕住我哥和父亲的鸡巴，然后命令他们保持一天的勃起。结果一天下来，父亲和赵磊的鸡巴几乎要报废！  

表舅突然抓住我哥的腰腹，然后用他的鸡巴狠狠地顶我哥的菊花，看来他是射了。我哥应该也感觉到了，兴奋得大叫"主人射进来吧！......让我怀上主人的孩子！......"  

干！这种恶心的话，也只有表舅这种家伙才教得出来。  

我实在忍不住了，偷偷开门跑到客厅。结果迎面撞上了下班的父亲。父亲还是那么健壮，胸肌又大了几分。如果我问他为什么如此勤奋地锻炼，他肯定毫不犹豫地说，"我练这大胸肌和腹肌，都是为了更好地服侍你的表舅！"  

"父亲，你回来了？"我说着这种废话。  

"嗯"父亲脱下外套，穿上那件单薄紧身的T恤，把父亲的每一块肌肉都勾勒得清清楚楚。这是表舅的命令，表舅让父亲在家就穿上这种性暗示的衣服。"你表舅在哪儿？"  

"在我哥的房间里。"我说到。  

"嗯，我懂了  "父亲穿好他的体恤和短裤，就走到赵磊房间的门前敲门，说"赵武来了。"  

之后他便开门走了进去。接下来的事情不必猜测了。我坐到客厅里。此时那些八卦的婆婆门都回家了，偌大的客厅只有我一个人。  

从哥哥的房间里传来清晰的声音，"下贱的两父子！"然后就是一阵清楚的抽打鞭子的声音。  最近我哥身上出现了许多鞭子血印，应该���是这么来的吧。  售 男 楠 猛cao狂·干se沦c陷-调 教.粗口-w章 ·文薇X新 labi10010 。

"啊！  主人再抽快点！"我哥大声说。  

"我们永远是主人的奴隶！"我父亲的呻吟传出来。  

这样的日子还会继续。我曾经见过父亲被我哥在地板上乱伦，被表舅用相机拍下来，也见过其它的事情发生。  

白天，我父亲还是那个令人尊敬的体育教师，我哥哥当然也还是那个人见人爱的天才肌肉男。但只有我知道，他们的脑袋里，全是我那个肥到流油的表舅。  

高考结束了，我哥哥在表舅的安排下考上了北大。我父亲在表舅的安排下，换了一个学校，跑到一个专门的体校当老师。据说每天我父亲都会偷拍那些训练中的学生，摄影下来送给表舅。  

日子还会继续，直到那一天............  

[fuminaga]

「もみじ狩りはもともと平安時代の貴族の間で始まりました。色づいた葉を見物しながら宴を開き、その美しさを和歌に詠んで勝負する『紅葉合』が流行したそうです。江戸時代には庶民にも広がり、季節行事として定着しました」（三浦さん） 「狩り」と呼ぶ理由は何なのでしょうか？ 「平安貴族の体裁を保つためのカモフラージュです。当時、貴族は寺社仏閣へのお参拝やお祭りの見物、鷹狩りなど特別な理由以外で平安京の外を出歩くことができませんでした。貴族社会では、無闇に外出して歩くことは“野蛮”なこととされていたからです。とはいえ秋になれば紅葉が見たい……しかし外に出なければいけない……。そこで、面目を保つために紅葉を見に野山へ出かける行為を『狩り』と表現したのです。当時、鷹などの猛禽類を扱った狩猟の『鷹狩り』は天皇や貴族のための娯楽であり、“狩り＝高尚な遊戯”だったのです」（三浦さん）

「もみじ狩り」は平安貴族の“苦しい言い訳”？　紅葉見るのに“狩り”という理由とは？　有識者に聞く（ラジトピ　ラジオ関西トピックス） - Yahoo!ニュース

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Yoda and the Story of Zhuangzi's wife

We've all heard Yoda's words about letting go in Revenge of the Sith,

"Careful you must be when sensing the future, Anakin. The fear of loss is a path to the dark side…Death is a natural part of life. Rejoice for those around you who transform into the Force. Mourn them, do not. Miss them, do not. Attachment leads to jealousy. The shadow of greed, that is."

It's one of the phrases most often used to call Yoda unfeeling, cold, mean to Anakin, etcetera, and I would like to look at the same lesson presented in nearly the same circumstance, but one with does not have Anakin, and therefore everyone's feelings about Anakin, plastered all over it.

The story of Zhuangzi's wife is a taoist one which was brought up to me as a point of comparison by @tai-feng:

莊子妻死，惠子弔之，莊子則方箕踞鼓盆而歌。惠子曰：與人居長子，老身死，不哭亦足矣，又鼓盆而歌，不亦甚乎。 Zhuangzi's wife died. When Huizi (his friend) went to convey his condolences, he found Zhuangzi sitting with his legs sprawled out, pounding on a tub and singing. "You lived with her, she brought up your children and grew old," said Huizi. "It should be enough simply not to weep at her death. But pounding on a tub and singing—this is going too far, isn't it?" 莊子曰：不然。是其始死也，我獨何能無概然。察其始而本無生，非徒無生也，而本無形，非徒無形也，而本無氣。雜乎芒芴之間，變而有氣，氣變而有形，形變而有生，今又變而之死，是相與為春秋冬夏四時行也。 Zhuangzi said, "You're wrong. When she first died, do you think I didn't grieve like anyone else? But I looked back to her beginning and the time before she was born. Not only the time before she was born, but the time before she had a body. Not only the time before she had a body, but the time before she had a spirit. In the midst of the jumble of wonder and mystery a change took place and she had a spirit. Another change and she had a body. Another change and she was born. Now there's been another change and she's dead. It's just like the progression of the four seasons, spring, summer, fall, winter." 人且偃然寢於巨室，而我噭噭然隨而哭之，自以為不通乎命，故止也。 "Now she's going to lie down peacefully in a vast room. If I were to follow after her bawling and sobbing, it would show that I don't understand anything about fate. So I stopped."

— Zhuangzi, chapter 18 (Watson translation)

Zhuangzi is perhaps gentler than Yoda in the way he presents the lesson; he leads Huizi through his own thought process to his ultimate conclusion rather than stating a pure philosophical ideal, but his circumstances are also different than Yoda's.

Huizi serves as a stand in for a student listening to the story for the first time. He is totally naive to the lesson Zhuangzi has to teach him.

Anakin comes to Yoda as an adult, seeking advice, not as a child whose every decision should have to be monitored by the adults around him. When Anakin is unwilling to share the details of his situation, it is not Yoda's place to interrogate him for those details or solve his problems for him.

Personally, (no one rip me apart for oversimplifying a little here) I do not interrogate my friends for every detail anytime they say they are having a rough time, no matter how curious I might be. I listen to the details they want to share, ask for clarifying details if they are relevant, and if I am told enough to recognize a way I could help, I offer them that help. If they refuse my help, or do not offer me a way to help, I offer what advice or what comfort I can. I do not barge into their life and start making decisions for them, because they are adults with reasonable understandings of the world and are more capable of making decisions for themselves than I am, no matter how much I want to be able to make all their problems go away.

To put it another way, I let go of my curiosity, my desire to prove myself helpful, and my desire for a perfect world in order to respect the autonomy of my friends by allowing them to decide how to live and what help to accept.

Anakin gives Yoda nothing to work with except that he is having visions of the possible pain, suffering, or death of someone close to him. They are in the middle of a war, there is pain, suffering, and death everywhere. The person closest to Anakin that Yoda knows about is Obi-Wan, another adult that can take care of himself. Frankly, even if Yoda suspected anything, Padmé is an adult who can take care of herself.

Anakin is an adult who comes to Yoda for advice, not a child seeking an intervention, and Yoda offers him the best advice he has, in a manner that Anakin clearly understands, because he responds to the speech by asking,

"What must I do, Master Yoda?"

He understands what Yoda is saying and asks more about what it means for him. This is the moment where he implies, truthfully or not, that he is ready to learn the lesson, and that he can deal with the problem on his own. There is nothing else Yoda can to without more concrete details but offer him a final instruction,

"Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose."

Sometimes the idea that George Lucas had religious inspirations outside of Christianity when it came to the central themes of Star Wars is greatly distrusted in the fandom, but a lot of Star Wars actually validates the fact that he was interested in a lot more than borrowing Samurai aesthetics. It is more common, in my experience, to see the eastern influenced parts of Jedi philosophy denigrated, misunderstood, and over-simplified than the parts which are influenced by christianity.

To me it is difficult, if not impossible, to reconcile concepts of unconditional love and absolute forgiveness without also understanding what it means to let go of attachment.

[utapri-translations-uuuu]

Maji LOVE Kingdom - Lyrics + Translation

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Kanji:

【ST】 僕は大事に 君を愛せてるかい？

【QN】 時間(とき)の音(ね)を 忘れられるくらいに

【All】 (マジLOVEキングダム)

【HV】 君が好きだと 上手に言えてるか？

【All】 確かめよう 心配は言葉にして

【ST】 1000%パーから今日まで(ST☆RISH)

【QN】 幸せで溢れて(QUARTET NIGHT)

【HV】 奇跡以上の(HE★VENS)

【ST】 出会いと(イェイ×2)

【QN】 感謝と(Wow×2)

【HV】 涙と(Thank you)

【All】 そしてこれから始まる夢に

乾杯 Happy ミライ！

【All】 マジLOVE(マジLOVE)

本気(マジ)の愛(ラブ)は(愛-ラブ-は)

何にも負けない Sunshine

そんな光が包むような

マジLOVE(マジLOVE)

王国-キングダム-で(共に)

君と永遠(とわ)の歌

【ST】 重ね合い

【QN】 繋ぎ合い

【HV】 抱きしめ合って

【All】 作ろう二人の国を

マジLOVEキングダム

【ST】 夢が叶った今日この瞬間に

【QN】 また次の旅の準備をしよう

【All】 (マジLOVEキングダム)

【HV】 終わりって言うのは 命閉じた時さ

【All】 それまでは「進もう！」が 答えなんだ

【ST】 君の声が胸に(ST☆RISH)

【QN】 いつも届いてるよ(QUARTET NIGHT)

【HV】 もっと聴かせて(HE★VENS)

【ST】 この世で(イェイ×2)

【QN】 形は(Wow×2)

【HV】 違うけど(Than kyou)

【All】 君の側に生きられて

本当···本当よかった

【All】 マジLOVE(マジLOVE)

僕と云う名の(イノチ)

歌わせてくれた···Your heart

君が僕を創ってくれた

マジLOVE(マジLOVE)

愛が歌に(歌に)

また咲いて行くよ

【ST】 1000 パーから

【QN】 2000 パー

【HV】 革命、伝説

【All】 そして今日を記そう

マジLOVEキングダム

【ST】 出会いと(イェイ×2)

【QN】 感謝と(Wow×2)

���HV】 涙と(Thank you)

【All】 そしてこれから始まる夢に

乾杯 Happy ミライ！

【All】 マジLOVE(マジLOVE)

本気(マジ)の愛(ラブ)が(愛-ラブ-が)

花火のダイヤになり

笑顔の涙を煌めかせ

マジLOVE(マジLOVE)

王国-キングダム-の(空に)

世界中のラブソング

【ST】 それ以上に

【QN】 輝いて

【HV】 ときめくような

【All】 歌を君にあげるよ

マジLOVEキングダム

マジLOVEキングダム

マジLOVEキングダム

Rōmaji:

【ST】 Boku wa daiji ni kimi o aiseteru kai?

【QN】 Toki no ne o wasure rareru kurai ni

【All】 (Maji LOVE Kingdom)

【HV】 Kimi ga suki da to jōzu ni ieteru ka?

【All】 Tashikameyou shinpai wa kotoba ni shite

【ST】 Sen pā kara kyō made (ST☆RISH)

【QN】 Shiawase de afurete (QUARTET NIGHT)

【HV】 Kiseki ijō no (HE★VENS)

【ST】 Deai to (Yei×2)

【QN】 Kansha to (Wow×2)

【HV】 Namida to (Sankyū)

【All】 Soshite kore kara hajimaru yume ni

Kanpai Happy mirai!

【All】 Maji LOVE (Maji LOVE)

Maji no rabu wa (Rabu wa)

Nani ni mo makenai Sunshine

Son'na hikari ga tsutsumu yō na

Maji LOVE (Maji LOVE)

Kingudamu de (Tomo ni)

Kimi to towa no uta

【ST】 Kasane ai

【QN】 Tsunagi ai

【HV】 Dakishime atte

【All】 Tsukurou futari no kuni o

Maji LOVE Kingdom

【ST】 Yume ga kanatta kyō kono shunkan ni

【QN】 Mata tsugi no tabi no junbi o shiyou

【All】 (Maji LOVE Kingdom)

【HV】 Owari tte iu no wa inochi tojita toki sa

【All】 Sore made wa “susumou!” ga kotae nanda

【ST】 Kimi no koe ga mune ni (ST☆RISH)

【QN】 Isumo todoiteru yo (QUARTET NIGHT)

【HV】 Motto kikasete (HE★VENS)

【ST】 Konoyo de (Yei×2)

【QN】 Katachi wa (Wow×2)

【HV】 Chigau kedo (Thank you)

【All】 Kimi no soba ni iki rarete hontō… hontō yokatta

【All】 Maji LOVE (Maji LOVE)

Boku to iu na no (Inochi)

Utawasete kureta… Your heart

Kimi ga boku o tsukutte kureta

Maji LOVE (Maji LOVE)

Ai ga uta ni (uta ni)

Mata saite iku yo

【ST】 Sen pā kara

【QN】 Ni sen pā

【HV】 Kakumei, densetsu

【All】 Soshite kyō o shirusou

Maji LOVE Kingdom

【ST】 Deai to (Yei × 2)

【QN】 Kansha to (Wow×2)

【HV】 Namida to (Thank you)

【All】 Soshite kore kara hajimaru yume ni

Kanpai Happy mirai!

【All】 Maji LOVE (Maji LOVE)

Maji no rabu ga (Rabu ga)

Hanabi no daiya ni nari

Egao no namida o kiramekase

Maji LOVE (Maji LOVE)

Kingudamu no (sora ni)

Sekaijū no rabu songu

【ST】 Sore ijō ni

【QN】 Kagayaite

【HV】 Tokimeku yō na

【All】 Uta o kimi ni ageru yo

Maji LOVE Kingdom

Maji LOVE Kingdom

Maji LOVE Kingdom

Translation:

【ST】 Am I cherishing you and loving you as much as I should?

【QN】 To the point where you could forget the ticking of time?

【All】 (Maji LOVE Kingdom)

【HV】 Am I telling you “I love you” properly?

【All】 I want to know, tell me all your worries

【ST】 From 1000% to today (ST☆RISH)

【QN】 Full of happiness (QUARTET NIGHT)

【HV】 A more than miraculous (HE★VENS)

【ST】 Meeting, (Yay×2)

【QN】 And thanks, (Wow×2)

【HV】 And tears (Thank you)

【All】 And a dream starting today, too

Cheers to a Happy future!

【All】 Maji LOVE (Maji LOVE)

Our serious love is (Love is)

A Sunshine that won’t lose to anything,

A light that envelops us

Maji LOVE (Maji LOVE)

In this Kingdom (Together)

We’ll sing an unending song

【ST】 Coming together

【QN】 Connecting together

【HV】 Holding one another

【All】 Let’s build a kingdom just for the two of us

Maji LOVE Kingdom

【ST】 Today, at this very moment, our dream has come true,

【QN】 So let’s start preparing for the next journey

【All】 (Maji LOVE Kingdom)

【HV】 The end only comes when life itself ends

【All】 Until then, “let’s move forward!” is the answer

【ST】 Your voice (ST☆RISH)

【QN】 Always reaches my heart (QUARTET NIGHT)

【HV】 Let me hear it some more (HE★VENS)

【ST】 Although our forms (Yay×2)

【QN】 May be different (Wow×2)

【HV】 In this word, (Thank you)

【All】 I’m truly… truly happy

That I get to live by your side

【All】 Maji LOVE (Maji LOVE)

Your heart… allowed (The life)

Named “me” to sing

You made me who I am

Maji LOVE (Maji LOVE)

Love will keep blooming

(In our songs)

【ST】 From 1000%

【QN】 To 2000%,

【HV】 Revolutions and Legend

【All】 Let’s mark this day as well

Maji LOVE Kingdom

【ST】 Meeting, (Yay×2)

【QN】 And thanks, (Wow×2)

【HV】 And tears (Thank you)

【All】 And a dream starting today, too

Cheers to a Happy future!

【All】 Maji LOVE (Maji LOVE)

Our serious love

Will become a diamond of fireworks

And make your joyful tears shine

Maji LOVE (Maji LOVE)

(In the sky) of our Kingdom

We’ll sing you a song

【ST】 That shines

【QN】 Even brighter

【HV】 And makes your heart race faster

【All】 Than all the love songs in the world

Maji LOVE Kingdom

Maji LOVE Kingdom

Maji LOVE Kingdom

[komichi-mado]

語らいの中で私たちは求め合い、抱きしめ合い、理解し合った。詩には詩で返し、歌には歌で返し、論理には論理、ジョークにはジョークで返した。

もちろん愛の言葉には愛の言葉で返した。

ふとした時に交わすハグは格別だった。 彼の孤独や悲しみや寂しさ、喜びや祈りを動物的感覚で感じ取ることができた。 彼もまた同じだったと信じている。

彼の死を知らされた時から、私は泣いていない。泣けなかったし、泣いてはいけない気がした。身を裂かれた想いだったし、彼を交通事故に巻き込んだ乱暴な運転をした青年に何かひと言言いたかったが言わなかった。

彼はすぐそこにいた。誰にも見えてないようだったが、確かにいて、生きていた時のように、陽気でダジャレ三昧でエロかった。あんた、死んでも何も変わ��ないんだね、と呆れるぐらい変わっていなかった。くしゃみも馬鹿でかいし、寝言も意味不明なことを叫んでいた。

ただ私以外には見えてなくて、彼の存在感を改めて感じて、みんなの喪失感の深さにたじろいだ。目立たない人だったけど、目立たないように大変有意義なことわやっていた人なんだと感じた。

私は彼の今でも生きているように、飄々と私のそばで、くだらないジョークで場を凍り付かせながら私を暖めてくれている。

[g-men-movie]

豪華キャストが大集結！公開記念舞台挨拶イベントレポート

このたび、8月26日（土）に映画『Gメン』の公開記念イベントを実施！全国47都道府県・120館でのライブビューイングでも生中継された舞台挨拶に、岸優太、竜星涼、恒松祐里、矢本悠馬、森本慎太郎、瑠東東一郎監督が登場すると会場から大きな拍手が。

なお、登壇予定だった、りんたろー。の欠席が発表され、MCより到着したばかりというりんたろー。からのコメントが読み上げられました。「天王会の奴らにやられた。俺が行くまで耐えてくれ」という内容に「昨日やられて寝込んじゃったんじゃない？（矢本）」「遅刻って聞きましたよ（岸）」「寝坊でしょ、なにやってんだよ！（竜星）」とまさかの失態に開始早々総ツッコミが起こっていました。

映画初主演となる本作で門松勝太を演じた岸は「ついに公開を迎えられたので一緒に『Gメン』を盛り上げてくれたら嬉しいです」と元気いっぱいに挨拶しました。

●SNSで事前募集した「＃Gメンに質問」の回答コーナー

イベントでは事前にSNS上で質問を募った「＃Gメンに質問」に答えていくことに。「共演する前と後で一番印象が違ってた人を教えてください！」の質問に対し全員で一斉に思い浮かぶ人を指差すと、岸と矢本はお互いを指名。岸が「矢本くん、顔が可愛いじゃないですか。でも会ってみたらめちゃくちゃ兄貴肌でみんなをまとめてくれて、想像以上にお兄ちゃんでした。撮影の最初でも話しかけてくれて、矢本くんのお陰で現場に溶け込めました」と述べると矢本も「岸はTVで観てた時はこの人特別だな、見たことない人だなって思ってたんですが、本人に会ってみたら想像以上に見たことなかったですね。よく無事に撮影を撮り終えたなと思う程、奇跡的な日常でしたよ。この先の岸が楽しみで仕方がない」とコメント。すかさず岸が「そんなヤバくないですよ。全然普通ですよ！」と返すと、矢本も「いや基本話し出すと人の話を聞いてないから」と応戦。「めちゃくちゃ言われるんですよ。人の話を聞いてないって。でもちゃんと聞いてますからね！」と反論しました。

続く竜星と森本もお互いを指名。一番印象が違ったと思うポイントに竜星は「僕は慎ちゃんです。初めて現場で会ったとき短パンにサンダルで、アイドルだけどめっちゃラフで。そこからすごく好きになりました」とコメント。竜星からの話を受けた森本も「僕も同じです。竜星くんもめっちゃラフな服装で親近感があって」と回答すると、岸は「慎ちゃんは、現場に来る際に毎回右手に何か持ってるんですよ」と言うと、恒松も「佇まいがかっこいいですよね。今日現場に来るときもサンドウィッチに飲み物を持っていて。LAみたいな感じでした」と盛り上がっていました。

さらに「2回目以降はここに注目して観て欲しいというシーンを教えてください」という質問に対して、尾上松也演じる加藤が率いる、凶悪組織・天王会との激しい戦いのシーンを挙げた岸が「2回目の人は蟹挟みのシーンに注目ですかね。アクションの早い流れの中で実は色んな動きを入れているので」とアクションシーンをプッシュしつつ、「3回目の人はどこだろう…何回も観れば着眼点も変わりますよね」と見どころの多い本作をアピール。竜星は「岸優太が笑いを堪えているところですね。いかに素の岸優太を観られるか注目してほしいですね」とコメントすると、監督も「（岸の）素の部分はめちゃくちゃ活かしました。全員が岸くんの素を引き出してくれていた」と添え、岸も「だいぶ笑いを堪えましたよ！良い意味で笑いの絶えない現場でした」と撮影を振り返りました。

本作のエンドロールでは、ザ・クロマニヨンズの主題歌「ランラン」とともに、まるで本編の延長戦のような勝太とレイナのシーンが流れるのも楽しいポイント。レイナを演じた恒松は、「勝太とレイナのシーンは2分間くらいのアドリブなんです。でもずっとやっていて体感では10分くらいに思いました」とアドリブで演じていたことを明かしました。岸も「アドリブのシーンはその場で生まれて来ました、なんかいい感じでしたよね」と振り返ると、恒松が「最後のこれ(ハートポーズ)が面白すぎて。普通は絶対出てこないです。さすが岸さんだなって感じました」と思いだし笑いをこらえつつも大称賛！それを受けた岸が「本当は聞きたくないんですけど、どこの話ですか？」といまいちピンと来ていないまさかの発言に、「うそでしょ！？」「ほら！人の話聞いてないじゃん！」とまた全員から総ツッコミを受け会場も笑いに包まれていました。

●瑠東監督からキャストへ、「Gメン通信簿」発表！

続いて瑠東監督より、撮影から宣伝まで怒涛の日々を駆け抜けたキャスト陣一人ひとりに「Gメン通信簿」と題した成績発表のコーナーへ。まずは寝坊で舞台挨拶に間に合��ず、不在のりんたろー。は「今日は遅刻で残念でした。退学です！」と、ねぎらいの言葉が出るかと思いきや、まさかの退学宣言を受けることに！続いて森本へ「みんなのムードメーカーで、ハードな撮影でも盛り上げ、楽しませてくれました。昭和のヤンキーがハマりまくって、机も壊し、大変よく暴れてくれました」とコメントし撮影用の壊れやすい机ではなく、普通の机だったことを明かしつつコメント。森本は「最後のアクションシーンで本当に机を真っ二つに割ったので。自分でもびっくりしました。2回目鑑賞時にぜひ注目してください！」とすかさずアピールしました。矢本には「初日からガンガンアドリブで攻め、みんなを笑わせ、スイッチを入れ、空気を作ってくれました。とにかく芝居の尺が長く、編集で困り大変よくやり過ぎました」と告げると、矢本が「自分が面白いと思うことをやっただけなんで」とかっこよく決めてみせました。

恒松に対しては「岸くんとの恋愛シーンは大変キュートでした。下ネタもコメディも凄く品があり、アクションも自ら志願し頑張りました。大変可愛らしかったです」と告げると、恒松も「助けられるばかりじゃなく自分からも戦っていけるヒロインでいたいなと思って」と喜びつつもキャラクターへ込めた思いをコメント。竜星へ「ワークショップの時から、みんなを引っ張り、アクションも天然キャラも久しぶりのイケメンも大変よくやり切りました。岸くんの天然もよく引き出してくれました」と発表。竜星も笑顔で受け止めつつ「良い話ですね。これ泣かせに来てるからね」と反応すると、岸も「卒業式っぽい、しっとりした感じもいいですね」と監督のコメントへ期待を寄せた。監督から岸に「映画初主演、全力以上の全力、常に120％で駆け抜けてくれました。期待通りの天然ボーイが連日炸裂しつつも、現場の熱を上げる素敵な愛され座長、大変よく頑張りました」とねぎらいました。岸は「みんな良いメッセージいただきましたね。嬉しいけど、瑠東さんとはいつも楽しいことばかり話している印象だから、マジなコメントいただくと恥ずかしくて」と照れながらも、喜びを実感していた様子でした。

●「Gメンポイントキャンペーン」で集まったポイント＝G（グラム）にちなんで、皆の想い（重い）が詰まった60ｋgの米俵を岸が担ぐ！？

フォトセッションでは公式で開催された【Gメンポイントキャンペーン】で参加者たちが貯めたポイントの合計「60,726Gメンポイント」にちなんだ、60.726kgの米俵を用意。映画公開を楽しみにしていたファンの想いそのものであり、「末広がりに運が開けていく」縁起物であるお米の詰まった、特別な米俵を、岸が担ぐことに！いざ挑戦してみた���のの20cm程度しか持ち上げられなかった岸は、思わず「これはだいぶ重いです…もう一回いいですか」とリベンジすることに。客席からの熱い声援を受け、再び米俵を持ち上げると「確実にさっきよりは上がりました。でもめっちゃ重いですよ、ただの60キロじゃない重みを感じました」とコメント。参加してくれたみんなの想い（＝重い）を噛みしめながらも見せ場をやり切った岸の発言に、会場が温かい笑いに包まれました。

最後には全員を代表して岸からの挨拶が。「みなさんにとっての夏の思い出になってほしいです。老若男女楽しめる作品なので、幅広い方に楽しんでほしい。“Gポーズ”も拡散して一緒に盛り上げてくれたら嬉しいです」とメッセージを送りイベントの幕が閉じました。

[koch-snowflake-blog]

中井 りかは、日本のタレント、女優、YouTuberで、アイドルグループ・NGT48の元メンバー。愛称は、りか姫、りかちゃん。富山県富山市出身。太田プロダクション所属。 ウィキペディア

出生地： 富山県 富山市

生年月日： 1997年8月23日 (年齢 26歳)

音楽グループ： NGT48 (2015年から)

テレビ番組： 青春高校3年C組、 ふわり愛、 今日から友達になれますか?、 さらに表示

身長： 156 cm

事務所： 太田プロダクション

活動期間： 2015年 -

富山県の立山連峰が見える郊外の住宅地で育った。幼稚園の頃は人前に立つのが好きな「何をしても目立つ子」であったが、小学生になると、周囲となじめなかったことから、なるべく地味にしていようと心に決めていた。そのような環境の中で慰めてくれたのが、AKB48などのアイドルたちであり、自分もアイドルになりたいと思うようになったが、高校では保育士を目指し勉強していた。しかし、アイドルの夢を捨てきれず、2014年 AKB48 Team8 全国一斉オーディション富山県代表に応募。最後の2人まで残ったとの連絡は受けたが、その後の電話連絡に出られず次点となり落選。

翌年、高校3年生の時にNGT48第1期生オーディションに応募。 最終審査に残った場合、次回の48グループのオーディションは最終審査まで免除になるが、それを忘れ書類審査から参加。 2015年7月25日、NGT48第1期生オーディション最終審査に合格し、同年8月21日に新潟市歴史博物館（みなとぴあ）でお披露目された。

2016年1月10日、『NGT48劇場グランドオープン初日公演』に出演。同時に他の15名とともにチームNIIIを結成。同年11月16日発売のAKB48の46thシングル「ハイテンション」で初めてAKB48のシングルの選抜メンバーに抜擢。同年12月、ライブストリーミングプラットフォームSHOWROOM上で2016年に視聴者から多くの支持を得たパフォーマー（SHOWROOMER）を表彰する『SHOWROOM AWARD 2016』における「BEST AKB PERFORMER」を松井珠理奈（SKE48）、野村奈央（当時AKB48）とともに受賞した。同年12月31日、第67回NHK紅白歌合戦に投票企画「AKB48 夢の紅白選抜」で33位に選ばれ、AKB48として出演。

2017年4月12日発売のNGT48のデビューシングル「青春時計」ではセンターポジションを務めた。同年5月30日から6月16日にかけて投票が実施された『AKB48 49thシングル選抜総選挙』において23位になり、アンダーガールズに選出される。同年11月17日にAKSから太田プロダクションへの所属事務所移籍を自身のSHOWROOMにおいて発表し、同年12月、太田プロダクションの公式ホームページに掲載された。

2018年1月15日に自身初のソロコンサート『中井りかソロコンサート〜中井りかキャンペーン中〜』をTOKYO DOME CITY HALLにおいて開催した。

2018年4月2日から「青春高校3年C組」の副担任（サブMC）としてレギュラーで出演（月～金、2020年3月27日まで）。番組内で出演者からは、りか先生と呼ばれていた。その後も様々なバラエティ番組のMCとして出演。

2018年6月16日に発表された『AKB48 53rdシングル 世界選抜総選挙』では37位となり、ネクストガールズに選出された。

2022年6月29日発売のNGT48 1stアルバム「未完成の未来」に収録のリード曲「しそうでしないキス」では、小越春花とダブルセンターを務めた。

2023年4月12日、デビューシングル『青春時計』リリース6周年記念イベントにて、グループ卒業を発表。卒業時期は同年夏ごろを予定しているとした。 同年8月2日発売のNGT48 9thシングル「あのさ、いや別に...」では、2度目のシングル曲センターポジションを務めた。

同年8月5日、「中井りか卒業コンサート〜推し変禁止は絶対命令〜」を新潟県民会館大ホールにて開催。 同月31日、NGT48劇場での卒業公演をもってNGT48から卒業

幼稚園のころからアイドルが好きであったが、小学生の時いじめられていた時期とも重なり、AKB48が出てきたころは自分は「アイドルになんてなれない」という思いや嫉妬心から「AKBなんて嫌いだし」と思っていた。しかし、心を動かされていることは自分でもわかり、ファンになっていった。

AKB48グループでは板野友美、小嶋陽菜を応援していたが、渡辺美優紀が「絶滅黒髪少女」のセンターで踊る姿に惹かれて以来、渡辺一本になったという。中井は渡辺を彷彿とさせるといわれ、NGT48に加入した当初は「釣り師」と呼ばれていた。性格はネガティブであり「豆腐メンタル」である。

　　

[jiangwanyinscatmom]

Hiii I'm curious about something, are you the type to listen to music and go "omg this is so wwx"? If so...which song?

Hmmmm... my answer may disappoint a bit since I guess when it comes to songs they make me think more of scenerios for characters I think would fit...

But for a full answer to your question, I think maybe the original audio drama's song for Wei Wuxian is really the perfect one for him for me personally.

Lyrics Hanzi and English ( I am not going to admit how many years I've had this translation sitting in my notes and I keep messing with it)

入梦的，带不走，

初醒的，看不透。

重逢前，临别后，

拨雪寻春，烧灯续昼。

此身葬风波，还以为相忘旧山河，

你我往生客，谁才是痴狂者。

百鬼过荒城，第几次将横笛吹彻，

而此刻，又何以为歌？

是跌碎尘埃的孤魂，在天涯永夜处容身，

听谁唱世外光阴，洞中朝暮只一瞬。

是生死不羁的欢恨，问琴弦遥祝了几程，

就用这无名一曲诺此生。

长行的，不停留，

归来的，飘零久。

临别前，重逢后，

林泉渡水，白云载酒。

此身赴风波，还以为今时不识我，

惆怅人间客，谁才是忘情者。

清风过故城，又一次将横笛吹彻，

而此刻，又何以为歌?

是跌碎尘埃的孤魂，在天涯永夜处容身，

听谁唱世外光阴，洞中朝暮只一瞬。

是生死不羁的欢恨，问琴弦遥祝了几程，

就用这无名一曲诺此生。

长行的，不停留，

归来的，飘零久。

临别前，重逢后，

林泉渡水，白云载酒。

是风云浴血的故人，在天地静默处启唇，

低唱过世外光阴，洞中朝暮只一瞬。

是出鞘即斩的霜刃，避不开心头旧红尘，

就用这无名一曲诺此生。

是跌碎尘埃的孤魂，在天涯永夜处容身，

听谁唱世外光阴，洞中朝暮只一瞬。

是生死不羁的欢恨，问琴弦遥祝了几程，

就用这无名一曲诺此生

He Yige ( "Whence" Song or Where does this song come from also know as Nameless Song)

Those dreams don't take them away

All's a blur when I first wake

Before the reunion, after the farewell

Snow melts into spring

And the lanterns are lit for the day

I died in chaos and thought I'd be forgotten by now

Yet you and I meet as strangers again, who's really the foolish one now

A hundred ghosts roam an empty town, how many times have I played this flute

What is this song and who do I play it for now

(Chorus) Lonely souls have turned to dust, I have no place within this world

Listen as I sing to the world from the dark of a cave if only for a bit

It's the wild joy and hate for life and death

Ask the zither's strings how many journeys it has had

Just use this nameless song as a promise through this life

La la la la la(x7)

la la la

Those who roam don't stay for long

Those who return are beloved

Before the reunion, after the farewell

Cross the water of forest springs, the clouds carry the scent of wine

After the chaos I had made, I thought you would have forgotten me by now

All alone within this world, who is the one who really forgot

The wind blows through the city once again, I raise my flute another countless time

What is this song and who do I play it for now

(Chorus) Lonely souls have turned to dust, I have no place within this world

Listen to who sings out to the world from the dark if only for a bit

It's the wild joy and hate for life and death

Ask the zither's strings how many journeys it has had

Just use this nameless song as a promise through this life

Those who roam don't stay for long

Those who return are beloved

Before the reunion, after the farewell

Cross the water of forest springs, the clouds carry the smell of wine

It's the smell of old blood on the wind, open your lips in the silence of the heavens and the earth

Listen as I sing to the world from the dark of a cave if only for a bit

It's the frost of a blade that's unsheathed and left to cut, that can't avoid the old stain on a heart

Just use this nameless song as a promise through this life

Lonely souls have turned to dust, I have no place within this world

Listen to who sings out to the world from the dark if only for a bit

It's the wild joy and hate for life and death

Ask the zither's strings how many journeys it has had

Just use this nameless song as a promise through this life

[buried-in-stardust]

A clip of a duet of 何以歌 (from Mo Dao Zu Shi) on piano and erhu through a Douyin livestream. The pianist is 段俊, and the erhu player is 周子珺.

[1-mini-1]

Mafumafu- Grief of the Bitter End (Nare no Hate no Grief / 成れの果てのグリーフ) English Lyrics

Note about the title: Mafumafu has confirmed that while it is written as “glyph” (グリフ), it is “grief” in the song title. It is written as グリーフ in the lyrics, so yes this is intentional. I’m assuming this is meant to be a play on words. “Glyph” may refer to hieroglyphics (as there are Egyptology references in this song), or to the Nyctographic square alphabet Lewis Carroll (the author of Alice in Wonderland) created, since I'm like 99% certain this is a sister song for Haikyo no Kuni no Alice and Gikyoku to Deforme Toshi.

I also included some other translator notes (written as TN next to their respective lines), but have decided to refrain from including ALL of my analyses. I feel like picking things apart is half of the fun so I wanted to leave some of that for you guys <3 I'm excited to see lots of discussion about this song!

馴染みあるような　まるでないような

ナトロンで乾く　没薬の匂い

罰当たりだな　生まれ落ちた時から今

を手放した未来へ行く

Like this scent is familiar, but like I’ve never smelled it

The fragrance of myrrh dried with natron (TN1)

This must be my punishment. The moment I was born into this world

I moved towards the future where I let go of the present

陶酔状態と判定　自分以外で在れ

陶酔状態と判定　自分以外になれ

一切合切を裁定　情状酌量の余地も

失効したリビドー

Deemed as in a state of intoxication. Be something other than yourself

Deemed as in a state of intoxication. Become something other than yourself

Judge everything and anything. Even the extenuating circumstances

An expired libido

札びら束ねて　ピエロ　能面

角待ちスラム　出所は何処だ？

瞞し塗れの夢は手筈で

入れ替えはじめましての顔

A bundle of cash, a clown, a noh mask

Camping slums (TN2)– where will we be released?

This dream smeared with deception is a ruse

One that changed its face just to meet us again

ばら撒く粗悪な感情　成れの果ては

揺り籠で頭部が沈み込んでいる

だって何度でも　だって何度でも

鍵しっぽの夜目に怯えてしまうよ

Scattering inferior feelings, in the bitter end

My head is sinking into the cradle

Because no matter how many times, because no matter how many times

I can’t help but be scared of the kinked-tail’s (TN3) nocturnal sight

何処かにきっと出口があるはずだ

手をつける禁忌と非合法の青

ボクを作り替えていく　生み直していく

所以になったグリーフ

There has to be an exit somewhere

Laying my hands on the forbidden, illegal blue (TN4)

I’m going to remake myself. Going to rebirth myself

My reason was born from grief

目に見えるような　先が無いような

酩酊同然の人生　奈落の底

罰当たりだな　生まれ落ちた時から今

を手放した未来へ行く

Like I can see it with my own two eyes, but like there’s nowhere to go from here

This life is no different than inebriation in the depths of Hell

This must be my punishment. The moment I was born into this world

I moved towards the future where I let go of the present

陶酔状態と判定　自分以外で在れ

陶酔状態と判定　自分以外になれ

こんなのじゃ当然到底　情愛への心も

失効したリビドー

Deemed as in a state of intoxication. Be something other than yourself

Deemed as in a state of intoxication. Become something other than yourself

With things how they are, it’s obvious and absolute– my feelings toward love are also

An expired libido

我楽多列ねて歌う烙印

狂える夜ほど隠しておくれ

キリトリ線から向こうは

ファティマの手では守られない世界だ

A brand of stringing together trash to sing

Hide me as the night goes mad

Beyond the dotted line

Is a world where Fatima’s hand cannot protect us

この小さな生の行方に価値はない

抗って藻掻いてもどうせ意味はない

だって誰も　だって誰も

死んだ後のことは教えてくれない

Wherever this small life ends up is worthless

No matter how much I struggle or fight, there’s no point

Because nobody, because nobody

Will tell me what happens after we die

何処かにきっと出口があるはずだ

繰り返すいつかの記憶を捨てて

ボクを作り替えていく　生み直していく

所以になったグリーフ

There has to be an exit somewhere

Throwing away the repeating memories of then

I’m going to remake myself. Going to rebirth myself

My reason was born from grief

悪い夢なら覚ましてください

疾患レコンキスタ　お呪いは

If this is all a bad dream, please wake me up

Disease Reconquista, that’s what this curse is

だって相対的に不幸で在りたいだけ

All I want is to be relatively unhappy

ばら撒く粗悪な感情　成れの果ては

揺り籠で頭部が沈み込んでいる

だって何度でも　だって何度でも

鍵しっぽの夜目に怯えてしまうよ

Scattering inferior feelings, in the bitter end

My head is sinking into the cradle

Because no matter how many times, because no matter how many times

I can’t help but be scared of the kinked-tail’s nocturnal sight

ぽっかり空いた心を縫い合わせ

液状化の愛から順に溢れ出す

ボクを作り替えていく　生み直していく

所以になったグリーフ

Sew up the hole that’s opened up in my heart

Starting with the liquified love, it overflows in turn

I’m going to remake myself. Going to rebirth myself

My reason was born from grief

Translator Notes:

Natron and myrrh were used for embalming mummies. Myrrh was also one of the presents the three wise men gave to Jesus Christ when he was born, most likely alluding to his sacrificial death.

“Camping” as in camping in FPS games (like when you don’t move from one spot or corner and just wait for people to come in to shoot em for easy points)

Kinked tail refers to a cat's tail! It’s when the top is a little bent and cute. Apparently it’s good luck in Japan? Idk do with this info what u will

Blue represented fertility, birth, rebirth, and life in ancient Egypt and was made out of lapis lazuli so it was expensive idk (I’m just assuming it’s “illegal” here cause it was reserved for usage by rich people and kings).

[beyourselfchulanmaria]

About : 台灣-原住民-布農族的年/月/日曆圖騰 (Year/month/calendar symbol totem of Taiwan-Aboriginal-Bunun people) my questioned and answered by my customer.

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MY NEW LEATHER JOBs working working and working ⊂(￣(ｴ)￣)⊃ Chu Lan, Bear it anymore. lol

(sold)布農族-木muuz_mangdavan的年曆長夾(未完成Not finish)

Muuz木哪，你就先看👀一個初步，至於其他的部份⋯⋯我的腦子內部（夢境）裡的圖案還在打架，必須跟他們再「橋」一下 (^0^)/ ，總之，你要的重點俺沒忘就行啦! :D

▪︎ muuz_mangdavan ▪︎ 台灣-原住民-布農族的年/月/日曆圖騰 (Year/month/calendar symbol totem of Taiwan-Aboriginal-Bunun people) ▪︎ 設計簡單、性格，你要平面的且不要有任何工藝媒介的手感的表現，就純平面皮雕設計。 ▪︎ 只要是屬男人的色彩即可 ▪︎ 最後你說：「交給我」。 😍

(PS. 這句最屌，客製化商品就在於"信任"2字，就算成品往往會跟客戶想像中有些差距。) 😎 老蘭姨 Lan~*

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倖存下來的物種不是最強大的，也不是最聰明的，而是對變化最敏感的。

It is not the strongest of the species that survive, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change.

─ Charles Darwin 達爾文 《物種起源 On The Origin of Species》 (English, b. 1809-1882/ naturalist, geologist and biologist).

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達爾文 -- 蔡健雅 陳奕迅 ♫ ◠‿◠ Thanks xoxo Lan~*

🫶 《曲：蔡健雅 / 詞：小寒》Lyrics writer tells about how to make the story for this song. It’s touching to me. here it is. (一位病毒學者，如何以進化論為靈感寫出蔡健雅〈達爾文〉的動人歌詞？

2016/01/04 藝文•MÜST 社團法人中華音樂著作權協會 )

[accio-victuuri]

wait.. i’m literally on here or weibo almost 24/7 ( as you can tell lol ) but I feel like i missed something. i’m seeing clowning related to xz’s photos and how it looks like he is a groom and it’s a wedding photoshoot. the place is also famous for wedding shoots ( allegedly, idk. i’m not from there ) so turtles are imagining again. lol. freakin coincidence that wyb’s GRA photoshoot was done at a wedding shop. plus the “wedding outfits” for weibo night. which is all clowning and galaxy braining.🌌

now, we’re joking around, like where’s yibo? he should be taking photos with his partner.

then i see comments that there is this one song WYB recently listened to. meaning, as recent as when XZ flew to singapore which is called 超人不会飞 (superman can’t fly) by Jay Chou. i know WYB and everyone else is a big fan of Jay Chou but the clowning comes from the timing of when he listened to it. let me get to that first.

here is the song if you wanna listen to it. 🎶

turtles are interpreting it as WYB longing to “fly” to where XZ is and be with him but he can’t because of all his work commitments. he wants to take a breather. thinking about what his life is and the constraints, and at times like this, when they spent days in Beijing, but now they have to be apart, it affects him even more.

however when i read the lyrics, it could also be because he can relate to what jay chou is singing about. here’s the english translation i found here. i have bolded the ones i felt like WYB relates too. literally no need for explanation. just read it. It fits with his status in life so much that it’s almost scary.

妈妈说很多事别太计较

ma ma shuo heng duo shi bie tai ji jiao

Mum said one should not be too fussy over most matters

只是使命感找到了我 我睡不着

zhi shi shi ming gan zhao dao le wo wo shui bu zhao

But my sense of mission found me and i can't sleep over it

如果说骂人要有点技巧

ru guo shuo ma ren yao you diao ji qiao

If scolding someone requires some skills

我会加点旋律你会觉得 超屌

wo hui jia diao xuan lu ni hui jue de chao diao

I will add a tune and you will feel it's very cool (diao)

我的枪不会装弹药（弹药）

wo de qiang bu hui zhuang dan yao (dan yao)

My gun is not loaded with ammunition

所以放心不会有人倒（人倒）

suo yi fang xin bu hui you ren dao (ren dao)

So don't worry, nobody will collapse

我拍青蜂侠不需要替身 因为自信是我绘画的颜料

wo pai qing feng xia bu xu yao ti sheng yin wei zi xin shi wo hui hua de yan liao

I don't need a double for The Green Hornet because confidence is the coloring for my painting

我做很多事背后的意义远比你们想象

wo zuo heng duo shi bei hou de yi yi yuan bi ni men xiang xiang

The meaning behind the things I did is far beyond your imagination

拍个电视剧为了友情与十年前的梦想

pai le dian shi ju wei le you qing yu shi nian qian de meng xiang

Filming a tv drama is for friendship and a dream 10 years ago

收视率再高也难抗衡我的伟大理想

shou shi lv zai gao ye nan kang heng wo de wei da li xiang

No matter how high the rating is, it can't match my noble ideal

因为我的人生无需再多一笔那奖项

yin wei wo de ren sheng wo xu zai duo yi bi na jiang xiang

Because my life do not need another award

我不知道何时变成了社会的那榜样

wo bu zhi dao he shi bian cheng le se hui de na bang yang

I don't know when I have become a society's role model

被狗仔拍不能比中指要大器的模样（怎样）

bei gou zai pai bu neng bi zhong zhi yao da qi de mo yang (zen yang)

Can't show the paparazzi the finger and have to put on a magnanimous front

我唱的歌词要有点文化

wo chang de ge ci yao you dian wen hua

The lyrics I sing must have some degree of literacy

因为随时会被当教材

yin wei sui shi hui bei dan jiao cai

Because it might become teaching material anytime

CNN能不能等英文好一点再访

CNN neng bu neng deng ying wen hao yi dian zai fang

Can CNN interview me when my English gets a little better

时代杂志封面能不能重拍

shi dai za zhi feng mian neng bu neng chong pai

Can i reshoot the Time magazine cover

随时随地注意形象

sui shi sui di zhu yi xin xiang

I must take care of my image at all times

要控制饮食不然就跟杜莎夫人蜡像的我不像（本来就不像）

yao kong zhi yin shi bu ran jiu gen du sha fu ren la xiang de wo bu xiang (ben lai jiu bu xiang)

I must control my diet or i won't look like the "me" in Madame Tussauds (it doesn't look like me in the first place)

好莱坞的中国戏院地上有很多手印脚印

hao lai wu de zhong guo xi yuan di shang you heng duo shou yin jiao yin

There are many handprints and footprints at Grauman's Chinese Theatre

何时才能看见我的掌

he shi cai neng kan jian wo de zhang

When will mine be seen there?

如果超人会飞 那就让我在空中停一停歇

ru guo chao ren hui fei na jiu rang wo zai kong zhong ti yi ti xie

If Superman can fly then let me take a breather in the sky

再次俯瞰这个世界 会让我觉得好一些

zai ci fu kan zhe ge shi jie hui ran wo jue de hao yi xie

Overlooking this world again will let me feel better

拯救地球好累 虽然有些疲惫但我还是会

zheng jiu di qiu hao lei sui ran you xie pi bei dan wo hai shi hui

Saving the world is tiring, though I am a little tired, I still will

不要问我哭过了没

bu yao wen wo ku guo le mei

Don't ask me if I have cried

因为超人不能流眼泪

yin wei chao ren bu neng liu yan lei

Because Superman can't cry

唱歌要拿最佳男歌手

chang ge yao na zui jia nan ge shou

(You) must get best male singer award as a singer

拍电影也不能只拿个最佳新人

pai dian yin ye bu neng zhi na ge zui jia xin ren

A newcomer award is not enough if you act

你不参加颁奖典礼就是没礼貌

ni bu can jia ban jiang dian li jiu shi mei li mao

Not attending award ceremonies is considered rude

你去参加就是代表你很在乎

ni qu can jia jiu shi dai biao ni heng zai hu

And if you do, it means you are over-concerned about it

得奖时你感动落泪（落泪）人家就会觉得你夸张做作（做作）

de jia shi ni gan dong luo lei (luo lei) ren jia jiu hui jue de ni kuang zhang zuo zuo

When you won an award and teared, people will think you are fake and exaggerating

你没表情别人就会说太嚣张

ni mei biao qing bie ren jiu hui shuo tai xiao zhang

When you have no expression, others will say you are too arrogant

如果你天生这个表情 那些人甚至会怪你妈妈（妈妈）

ru guo ni tian sheng zhe ge biao qing na xie ren sheng zhi hui guai ni ma ma (ma ma)

And if you are born with that expression, they will even blame your mum

结果最后是别人在得奖 你也要给予充分的掌声与微笑

jie guo zui hou shi bie ren zai de jiang ni ye yao ge yu chong fen de zhang sheng yu wei xiao

In the end someone else gets the award, you also have to give ample applause and smile

开的车不能太好 住的楼不能太高

kai de che bu neng tai hao zhu de lou bu neng tai gao

The car you drive can't be too luxurious nor can you live too high up

我到底是一个创作歌手 还是好人好事代表

wo dao di shi yi ge chuang zuo ge shou hai shi hao ren hao shi dai biao

Am I a singer-songwriter or a representative of good men and good deeds?

专辑一出就必须是冠军

zhuan ji yi chu jiu bi xu shi guan jun

My album must be ranked top once released

拍了电影就必须要大卖

pai le dian yin jiu bi xu yao da mai

My movie must sell well

只能说当超人真的好难

zhi neng shuo dan chao ren zhen de hao nan

I can only say, being a Superman is difficult

如果超人会飞（超人会飞）那就让我在空中停一停歇（停一停歇）

ru guo chao ren hui fei (chao ren hui fei) na jiu rang wo zai kong zhong ti yi ti xie (ti yi ti xie)

If Superman can fly then let me take a breather in the sky

再次俯瞰这个世界 会让我觉得好一些

zai ci fu kan zhe ge shi jie hui ran wo jue de hao yi xie

Overlooking this world again will let me feel better

拯救地球好累（地球好累）虽然有些疲惫但我还是会（我还是会）

zheng jiu di qiu hao lei (di qiu hao lei) sui ran you xie pi bei dan wo hai shi hui (wo hai shi hui)

Saving the world is tiring, though I am a little tired, I still will

不要问我哭过了没

bu yao wen wo ku guo le mei

Don't ask me if I have cried

因为超人不能流眼泪

yin wei chao ren bu neng liu yan lei

Because Superman can't cry

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I don’t think there is anything wrong with how cpfs are relating this to cpn cause that’s just how it is. But sometimes, there are other reasons why they do what they do.

SO MY CONFUSION COMES FROM HOW THE HELL DO PEOPLE KNOW WHAT HE RECENTLY LISTENED TO. I can’t seem to dig up how or maybe it’s something we don’t talk about. I have never experienced this kind of tidbit related to them before so I wanna know the source. Or is this like the gaming cpn where certain people know and they will not divulge the boy’s account for privacy? if anyone knows, feel free to comment. If i find out in the future, I will share.

[sarahalainn]

正直歌手生命終わったと思うくらい声が出なくなりました。

周りの歌い手さんもこう言う時期が何度かあったと聞きましたが、こんなに長く続き、不安とストレスの日々でした。焦っては、諦める勇気が必要と思いました。

専門のお医者さんに声帯を診て頂き、けしていままで声の間違った使い方や使い過ぎから来たものではなく、花粉をはじめ、色々偶然重なって声が全く出なくなったとのこと。とてもunluckyでした。

ラジオも長く休ませて頂き治療して、

結果、予期せぬ嬉しいビックリに。

久しぶりのリハで久しぶりに自分の声を聞く。

声が復活、というか、

PAさんとサラバンドが、いままでに聞いたことない音色とのこと😮

サラに低音と高音もサラッと出るようにも。

ニューステージアンロック?! ✨

声帯の衣替え？

もう、ホッとしすぎて、意外で嬉しすぎて、

SNSで胸の奥にしまってた感情を呟きたくなっちゃいました。

そんな5月を以て日本で当分最後のライブになりそうだから、本当に嬉しい。感謝🥲

楽器も選曲も色とりどり🎻

サラバンドも最強です

これは是非生で聴いて頂きたい！！

まずは土曜日、東京🗼で👋

ビルボードは特に、ノリノリな曲中心です。

呉のライブ以上に、これまでにない元気でパワフルな感じです。

しっとり系や定番も聞かれたい方は名古屋公演がお勧め。