#はしもとえつよ

[mayamiyamaillustration]

「えほんのさっか展」へお越しくださった方々、どうもありがとうございました。

私は体調不良で在廊できませんでしたが、アーリーバードアクロスさん、参加作家さん、maruca coffeeさんのこまやかなお気遣い��感謝します。

どうもありがとうございました🙇‍♀️

会場撮影by🤳#カワダクニコ

[syaruru]

today i just felt so bitter at the world

i couldn't read or write or do anything really, could barely speak

but then... idk listening to SAD SONG by chanmina sung with the finalists of No No Girls really just... idk? made me fall in love with the world again? it's so easy to forget

my honest embarrassing feelings about japanese girlpower pop in the tags i just can't bear to be honest about that with myself in english right now

[moko1590m]

一握りの富裕層がAIを握り、「知的労働者(準富裕層)」は失職没落消滅し、本当の二極化が完成する

[sesameandsalt]

鳥山先生のことが頭から離れずにお参りした日に引いたおみくじ 突然こんな日がくるなんて、 こんなにでっかく空いた胸の穴を実感するなんてと、 よろよろ歩きながら、ひいた。 半吉とあるが励ましてくれるような良い（優しい）内容��なと感謝しながら結ぼうとしたときに、挿絵におどろいた こんなことってあるのけ・・・？ まさかの鳥と、山の絵、 よく読むと文章に”明”の文字🐦⛰️ 神さまが慰めてくれたとしか思えない 神の愛を、めちゃくちゃ感じたし やっぱり鳥山明は神様なんだとおもった。🐦😇ﾉ"(っ <。)  思えば８８番という数字も、 縁起が良いし無限と∞がふたつある。 鳥山明が永遠に続く気がした　∞∞

鳥山先生、 残りの人生 心臓はとっくに捧げてますが 最大の愛と尊敬と感謝をささげ続けます 最初から最後まで鳥山明だったそういう人生にします 本当に長い間、お疲れさまでした 有難うございました！

[papatomom]

20230923（stu）

北陸新幹線、金沢から敦賀までの試験走行が始まった。

わたくしめも野次馬根性で、県内にある新幹線のビューポイントの一つ文殊山トンネルの真上で「East i（イーストアイ、地上設備の状態をチェックする試験車両で検測車というらしい）」の通過を待つ。

福井駅を出たよという「X」のポストを見て、やっと来るかなという期待が、何故か南福井駅あたりから福井駅に引き返したという情報で、見学者らは落胆。帰る人もぼちぼち出てきた。

ぼくも含めて皆さん２時間以上待っているので、さすがに飽きた。鉄道ファンでもなんでもないので、ぼくもどうしようか迷っていたところ、再度福井駅を出発したとの情報が入り、まもなく「East i」が高架のカーブから赤い顔をあらわし歓声が。来年の３月16日の開業が楽しみになってきた。

他の写真は、９月初���の彼岸花と23日に貰った金沢土産「うら田」の「加賀八幡 起上もなか」。

[honnakagawa]

7月18日（金）open 12-19

佐内さんから『写真がいってかえってきた』がサイン入りで届きました。 きっとこれが最終入荷になります！ 通販サイトの在庫も復活しておりますので、気になる方はお早めにどうぞ。 『写真が〜』と、岡野大嗣さんとの本『あなたに犬がそばにいた夏』をお買い上げの方に、佐内さんから届いた謎のかわいい印刷物をおまけにお付けします〜！ （なくなり次第終了です）

他にも今日届いた本たち！

昨日あたりから、ミンミンゼミが鳴き始めましたね。 いよいよ梅雨明け。 明日から三連休ですが、投票忘れずにね🗳️

[danzoku]

無知は罪か

何もかもを知っているわけではないし

常識の範囲すらあやふやだ。

だからいつも

無知は罪なのか疑問に思う。

ただ、知らないことをよしとして

会話ができなくなると

世界は堕ちていくだけのような気もする。

だからといって

自分と同じだけの知識や常識を

誰かに押し付けようとは思えない。

学んだ時間も学んだ内容も

本を読める時間すら

平等ではないから。

「知らなくてごめん」　と言わせるのも

言わせられるのも

違和感があって

それ以外に

知識の乖離を埋める言葉はないのだろうか。

知らなくて…

何と言ったらいいんだろう。

もし無知で人を傷つけたら

やはりごめんと言うべきなのだろうか。

それなら、私が出会ってきた人皆

私に謝るべきで

私もきっと

出会ってきた人皆に

謝るべきことがあるのだろう。

無知、無理解の溝を埋めるのは

謝罪以外にないのだろうか。

謝られたからと言って

傷が塞がるわけでもない。

学んだって理解できない人だっている。

全てを学べるわけではない。

誠意や真心で埋めるしかない。

それが謝罪なのだろうか。

知識が足りないこと、

その溝を埋められないことは、

罪なのだろうか。

私はアインシュタインに

謝り倒すしかないのだろうか。

クラスの平均点を下げた子どもは

平均を上げた子どもに謝るべきだろうか。

釣りもダンスもできないから

分かり合えなくてごめんね、と言うべきか。

ごめんねで溝を溝のまま

終わらせられるのは

むしろ優しいのだろうか。

人と人の間にある穴は

謝罪で埋められるものなのだろうか。

無知は罪か

ずっと考えている。

その間に本でも読んだら

無知の過ちを犯す確率を減らすこともできるだろうに。

だけど、人を傷つけないために学ぶ勉強なんて、学問をバカにしてる気もする。

…さて、それじゃあ、勉強でもしようかな。

[thechiffofalltime]

「これは僕の進化の過程の1ページ目です」

抱きしめたいから 2本足で歩く 一人じゃ寂しいから 君と息するよ

「ねえママ、僕好きな人が出来たんだ」 "おめでとう"

会いたいよ ねえ君は今頃誰の乳を吸って生きてるの？ 言葉はもう覚えたかな？

「パパ、ママ、ニーナ...」 "よく出来ました。今すぐ行くね" あれ？おかしいな

君を抱きしめるために浮かせた前足が 何故か君を傷つけ始めるんだ

覚えたての言葉だって 君に突き刺すナイフ 切り裂く人生

「じゃあアタシがナイフ放つ前のその口を この口で塞いであげましょう」

相対のチュー キミは今からアタシの息を吸って生きてくの 言葉はもう唾液で錆びついた

ねえ君は今さら僕の息を吸って 「大好き」だなんて言ってみせるけど それならもういっそ ボンベのように一生 僕が吐く言葉吸って息絶えて

[leatherbookmark]

ソンファくんがMVについて、好きじゃないわけがない！って言ったけど、その場合では、私から見れば...好きじゃないなんか...とある可能性があるｗ

[nbnkn]

食いたいもんひとつめ、制覇記念。

[yunmew]

😭😭😭

👏👏👏

[mayamiyamaillustration]

あかちゃんから大人まで、みんなに絵本をたのしんでもらいたい。

絵本作家10人によるグループ展

#えほんのさっか展

2024/3/26(火)〜3/31(日)

13:00〜18:00 会期中無休

アーリーバード アクロス

〒170-0003 豊島区駒込1-40-14 シティハウス駒込1F

Tel: 03-5875-1840

https://ebacross.com/

駒込駅より徒歩2分

絵本作家カワダクニコさん@kawada_kunikoにお誘いいただき、グループ展に参加させていただきます。

私のみ絵本未出版ですが入れてくださり、皆さまどうもありがとうございます！

絵本作家先輩方のワクワクする絵本📚、読み聞かせが随時開催！

maruca coffeさん@maruca1208

による出張営業(木曜以降、3/29(金)、30(土))もイチ推しです✨

参加作家さんの絵入りドリップコーヒーパックを販売されます。

[straycatj]

昨夜遅く、木花庵にて、白い猫１匹が、器物破損・建造物破壊・脱走の罪で拘束されました。同猫は、最近脱走の犯行予告を行っていたことから、監視対象となりソフトカラーを装着されていましたが、驚くべきことに、その「食パン」を装着したまま風呂場の網戸を破壊して逃走し、2.5hにも上る夜の散歩を楽しんだとのことです。調べによると、犯猫は終始「春だから」と述べるに留まっており、反省の色が見えないことから、速やかにへんがおの刑が執行されました。また、被害者は、網戸が修復不可能な被害を受けたことから、今後夏に向かうにつれ、快適な入浴環境が損なわれるとし、犯猫に対し継続的な補償を求めていく希望があるとのことです。

なお、本件に関しては、黒い猫１匹が犯猫幇助の疑いにより、現在取り調べを受けているとのことです。

Late last night at Konohana-an, one white perpetrator was taken into custody on charges of property damage, destruction of private infrastructure, and escape.

The perpetrator had recently made a public declaration of intent to flee and was placed under surveillance, fitted with a soft collar in the shape of a slice of bread.

Amazingly, while still wearing the “bread,” the perpetrator destroyed the bathroom screen door and escaped, reportedly enjoying a nighttime stroll that lasted approximately 2.5 hours.

During questioning, the perpetrator repeatedly stated, “Because it’s spring,” and showed no signs of remorse.

Accordingly, the punishment of “funny face penalty” was swiftly executed without trial.

The victim, the screen door, is reported to have suffered irreparable damage. With summer approaching, concerns have been raised that bathing comfort will be compromised. The household has expressed intent to seek ongoing compensation from the perpetrator.

In connection with the case, one black accomplice is currently under investigation on suspicion of aiding and abetting the escape.

[moko1590m]

カラダがない人間には、カラダが何を求めているかが、よくわからない。

[itsumo-thankyou]

しごでき恭平と、しゅうまいふっかと。花束とか花畑レベルの華金！

前回はベロベロ通り越してフラフラやった恭平。今回はしごでき後輩でした。取り皿もお箸も渡してくれたし、グラスが空になる前に「何か飲みます？」って聞いてくれて、至れり尽くせりに甘えきってたぼく。「ええー、じゃあー、いちごサワァー(ヘラヘラ)」みたいな。お口がドロドロにとけるんちゃうかなってくらい甘かった。小瀧の口にはどうやら梅酒の甘さが限界なようです。

友人Xが今回初めて正体を…！(？)恭平と数年の付き合いがあるらしいふっか。2人のやりとりがテンポ良くて微笑ましくて、俺はニコニコしながら見守るのがいちばん居心地ええなあと思いつつ。ちょいちょい茶々入れつつ、基本的に話を聞いてへんからずっとマイペースに食べ飲みしつつ、みたいな。しゅうまいの湯気を浴びたふっかが次の日しゅうまいになっていたか否かは知らないまま。そういえば前回焼きそばもハイボールもふっかに押しつけたなって思いながら角ハイボール頼んだ。相変わらず美味しい。

おれ「小瀧望って小籠包と字面似てるって言われがちやねんな」恭平「ほんまや！似てますね！」ふっか「中身熱いなあ」噛むなよ。噛むなよ。絶対に噛むなよ。

ふっか「お酒飲んだ方が静かになるんだよね、俺。眠くなって」恭平「ほんま飲ませてくださいこの人に！」おれ「黙ってても飲むやろ？」我ながら頷いてしまった。何もせんでも飲んでる、この人。

鶏白湯麺のくだりも、ラムネのくだりも、わちゃわちゃしてる時間が楽しくて、1週間の疲れなんか忘れてしまうくらい楽しかった。待ってる時間もそれなりにあったはずやのに、2人の思い出話(わりかし珍事件)(パンツのくだり)聞いてたらあっという間にお店に入れちゃって。ほんまに楽しかったし、居心地よかったし、癒されたし。俺は2人の笑い声が好きなんやな、としみじみ思いました。ずーっと笑っててほしいし、ずーっと傍で見守らせてくれたら嬉しいなあ。

ほんまはもっと聞きたい話いっぱいあったんやけど、俺がペラペラ要らん話してたのもあってあっという間に時間が来て。次回またゆっくり聞かせてもらおうと思います。主に各々の幸せエピソード待ってるゥ。それにしても梅水晶、結局残しちゃったっけな。最後まで食べたかったな…。頼んだものって全部食べきりたいよな。

とにもかくにも、恭平にもふっかにもまた会える日を楽しみに、仕事も頑張ろうと思うよ。日常のことを頑張るエネルギーチャージが出来た！ありがとう。持つべきものは友ですね。これからも何卒。

[lastthroes]

💯 i fully agree. it's something i mentioned in the tags of another of your posts, that i always got that sense of disconnection from seeing fanart of them together, and then of course frames like that one in the anime opening where they're leaning on each other and holding hands. it doesn't feel like it really accounts for how their relationship is actually presented in the story. when you see those kind of pictures out of context, and from knowing of the initial setting, it makes you think that their dynamic is going to be one of relying on each other, especially after ai's death... and it's anything but. i admit that i am a sucker for sibling relationships and that's why i started reading oshi no ko, but i ended up 'staying' for other reasons: i would never recommend anyone to get into onk if aquaruby is their main interest, either as a ship or as reincarnated siblings, which is an interesting concept that went vastly underutilized (and that's considering how much japan loves their twin symbolisms)

i still feel disappointed that akasaka actually addresses that ruby and aqua grew apart after aqua airs that ai was their mother, with ruby lashing out and telling aqua that they just happened to be two people who were reincarnated together… and never bothered with it any further. he basically considered that revealing aqua was goro to ruby was all the 'mending' the relationship needed, which ends up in a relationship that feels like little else beyond a joke, and making the ending and aqua's motivations particularly bizarre

quoting myself from a different post that might be the one i was refering to in those previous tags, and removing the comparison with a different japanese work with a central sibling relationship that's also very flawed but i liked (and therefore the spoilers):

(...) which is not the case for aqua and ruby who, i cannot stress this enough, simply do not have an actual sibling bond the (little) praise this manga received for the finale as well as the shipping fuss and general delusions ever since ch143 feels to me like either collective amnesia or gaslighting. like, really now:

these two were twins sure, but both of them pulled away from the other for different reasons: ruby because she felt lonely and betrayed after aqua threw ai under the bus by revealing without warning that they were her children, and aqua because ai’s death broke him and he is quite literally living for revenge without allowing himself to waste time thinking about anything else, which includes both ruby and his future. ch123 actually ends with crow girl narrating that now he has told ruby about being goro, following up his plans won’t be so easy. all of this is plain text even, this manga wasn’t exactly sophisticated: most of the scenes directly spell everything out to You, The Reader … and then somehow comes the ending, and aqua starts a monologue as he drowns about how ruby’s the sole reason he’s doing what he’s doing. it’s also followed by a composite of scenes of him and ruby that falls completely short: everything happens either before ai’s death, or before aqua reveals ai’s “lie” to the whole world. there are simply no scenes that can be identified being of their present relationship, which says a lot coupled with the fact that all of these are already newly drawn panels (and there is, of course, no acknowledgment of aqua doing the same thing with ruby that he did with ai. ruby as some kind of Ideal In His Mind, rather than the actual ruby who was human and also did not want this to happen … and hey, just like ruby has a complete 180 only after aqua reveals he’s goro’s reincarnation, placing the crush she had as a twelve years old for a few months over the brother she actually grew up with for over a decade and a half)

if the manga had continued the line at the beginning of the story? then sure, i can see this ending landing better, even if i would still find it coming off as too nihilistic for my tastes… but it didn’t: aqua had started to move on from the revenge deal, and was even planning his future, such as becoming a doctor again. ruby also became an afterthought for a good bunch of the story despite being the deuteragonist, which doesn’t help the case. the same goes for putting the topic of their past lives inside a drawer and never bring it up again: hell, they basically stop interacting in any meaningful way after ch143

ship-wise, people are also quick to forget all the times that aqua|goro either rejects ruby|sarina or doesn't take her advances seriously. it goes from the very start, back when goro knew that she wouldn't live and therefore he didn't have to follow up on the promise of marriage that was just meant to make a child happy, to the moment when ruby brings up that they have to kiss in the movie and aqua actually says that it makes him uncomfortable to have to kiss his own sister

it was always obvious that this wasn't going to be that kind of manga: at no point does aqua seem to be in denial, repressed, or any other possibility that isn't uninterested or plainly weirded out. he never took sarina|ruby's romantic feelings actually seriously. aquaruby as it's presented in the actual story is the very definition of all bait and no actual substance, and even if i get it as potential i guess i am too old for it: there are much greener pastures when you like sibling relationships in japanese media, both with and without incestuous subtext - i don't need what basically amounts to the popular bait of the moment. there are enough of very obsessed and just as ignored imoutos out there

you've talked before about not liking akurubi i'm curious what it is you don't like about it? since you've said you don't mind the incest is there other things about it you don't like?

The reason I dislike AquRuby as a ship is not because it's incest but because I just think it's kind of boring but the incest is such a hot button topic relating to the ship that that I just end up fated to talk about incest every time anyway LMAO. But honestly, AquRuby being incest is like, 1% of what turns me off about it as a ship - like I've said before, what I dislike about AquRuby isn't that it's incest but that it's bad incest.

It's not that I don't see what people find appealing about it because when you break it down to the broad strokes, I think there IS something really compelling and even romantic about the building blocks of the ship and how long and how intensely Ruby holds onto her feelings of love for Gorou, not just across two decades but two lifetimes. And if you're invested in Ruby as a character, it's natural to want to see that devotion rewarded or more broadly just to see Ruby get a W and to end the series happy. But when I see people going so insanely hard for it and all the people still to this day who are like, frothing and foaming that it was Totally Canon and everything in Oshi no Ko was leading up to their Amazing And Epic Fated Romance of Destined Soulmates i just look at the material for it in the manga and i'm like... this??? this is what you guys are going crazy for???

Because like. I'm gonna be so real and true and honest about this right now: even removed from romance or whatever else, Aqua and Ruby's relationship is shockingly underbaked and underdeveloped, especially in comparison to how loadbearing it ends up being not just for the ending but the series as a whole. Honestly, for such a huge chunk of the series, the twins just barely have a relationship at all; I've said this before, but I originally got into the manga/fandom just after chapter 11 dropped and followed it to the end of Tokyo Blade before I dropped it for a bit and one of the major critiques of the series was always both that Ruby in general was kind of a side character in a series she was supposed to be a co-lead in (people used to call her 'whoby' lmao) and that as a result, Aqua and Ruby do not remotely feel like two people who have spent 16(+) years together, let alone ones who spent that time in the social role of siblings.

Like... it's really funny to me that AquRuby fandom (and tbh, to a degree, the series itself) tries to pretend that omg aqua is suuuuuch a siscon so crazy and overprotective!!! so obsessed with ruby she's all he thinks about!!! because when you pay attention to where Aqua's focus is and what motivates him for most of the series, it really comes off like Ruby is just barely in his thoughts at all LDKJFJKDNKDSM. He's mostly focused on his revenge quest and when we actually DO see him interfering in Ruby's life, this is almost always an offshoot of his Ai related trauma and thus his general flaw of being controlling and manipulative of the people in his life because he's so terrified of what could happen to them if he relaxes his hold for even a second. And even when the series does suddenly start trying to manufacture AquRuby drama, it's all just Ruby doing brocon gooner bits while Aqua just stands there like 🧍‍♂️

Obviously I'm not saying that Aqua, in-universe, does not care about Ruby but from a Doylist perspective, all the intensity and emotional weight of the relationship is massively skewed on Ruby's side of things when the series does finally bother starting to try and flesh things out. This is something @lastthroes pointed out in in the tags of one of my posts and I think they summed it up really well, so I'll just quote them here (tag formatting removed for readability's sake);

yeah i have posted before about how even if you remove the romantic angle the twins just do not have a significant bond. […] doesn't matter if it's a relationship based on familial love or on hatred or on whatever. but it does matter that the bond needs to be meaningful in some way and by the way it was written it just isn't […] aquruby got so popular esp after the kiss but it's… when i see art from jp artists and stuff i find them nice but it gives me the same impression that some of the manga covers with them together always gave me that impression of 'this is good but they just don't have this kind of relationship'. akasaka tries so hard to convince you that goro is obsessed with sarina when aqua ignores ruby's existence for most of the story. that fucking page at the end of their past moments together doesn't even address their relationship after aqua reveals ai's secret because akasaka built them up as drifting apart after the reveal and never made an effort to fix that before making that ending

(full tags are on this post & are recommended reading, iawtc)

So like... all the above is ALREADY a problem when it comes to the twins' relationship even in a purely platonic/familial context and that issue only magnifies when you try to build a romance on top of it. If the foundation of their basic dynamic is already shaky then attempting to layer romantic tension onto it just falls flat because. What bond even is there to get invested in?

It especially doesn't help that Ruby is flanderized SOOOOOO badly in relation to her feelings for Gorou/Aqua post 123. It's not that she has nothing else going on with her character, but whenever Aqua enters the picture, she immediately becomes a pancake thin version of herself propelled entirely by this brand new and poorly motivated obsession with her brother. If OnK actually used the page time spent on the AquRuby drama actually fleshing out or examining Ruby's feelings or at least taking them remotely seriously then that would at least be additive characterization to chew on, but in practice all it does is do the same "lol look at ruby cooming all over herself bc she made eye contact with aqua" joke over and over and over again.

The result is that even though the story wants us to believe the twins are now more invested in each other than ever because of the underlying emotions of Gorou and Sarina's connection bleeding into their sibling relationship, their relationship feels flatter than any other point in the story because they have so few moments together that, once again, aren't just Ruby creaming her pants while Aqua just stands there.

The fact that Ruby has this degree of obsession with Aqua (inherited from Gorou) also really falls flat for me. This is an issue that starts as early as the Private Arc and isn't so much an issue with post-123 AquRuby but this degree of fixation on Gorou that the story kind of retcons her into having kind of... doesn't really make a ton of sense for her?

Back when the manga was still ongoing and I expected us to get more out of Ruby's brocon brainworms than the nothing we got, I just kind of accepted it with a sense of "oh yeah sure, if Ruby was this fixated on Gorou of course she'd end up being a little freak about Aqua" but the more I think about it, the more I'm like... ok, well, WHY is she still so fixated on Gorou? It would be one thing if this was just Ruby continuing to love and value him as a person who made her, in turn, feel loved and valued when she had nobody else in the world but the Private arc onwards makes it seem like Gorou is basically the bedrock of Ruby's emotional and mental stability, to the point of him being more important to her than Ai, her literal mother.

Again - I totally understand Ruby still having fond memories of Gorou and maybe even being drawn back to seeing him again, just as she is with Sarina's family. But at the point in the story that Aqua reveals himself to her, Ruby has a massive support network of people, some of whom have stepped up and supported her in the worst and most turbulent moments of her life. Why have none of these people achieved a level of importance to her that she seems to exclusively afford to a man she knew for a few months max nearly 20 years ago? The story just seems to expect us to take for granted that Ruby feels this way based purely on her backstory as Sarina without actually sewing up the internal and emotional logic of why she's white knuckle gripping this obsession so deep into her new life.

in general, I feel like AquRuby as a ship relies too heavily on the context of Gorou and Sarina's relationship to give it foundation and legitimacy, rather than establishing a unique and compelling romance between Aqua and Ruby as they are now. This would be a problem regardless of how good or bad the writing supporting Gorou and Sarina's relationship was but unfortunately, GRSR is itself made similarly shallow by the narrative's failure to do much of anything with it.

This wasn't something I really became actively conscious of until I read Spica and saw the Wow It's Fucking Nothing that was done with their relationship in it, but even in the main manga there are multiple attempts to make Gorou and Sarina's relationship more meaningful and emotionally impactful to the reader that (imo) end up falling flat because the story seems deathly afraid of adding any real nuance or depth to the bond they supposedly have. I actually feel like Gorou and Sarina's relationship was at its best in chapter 1 - that little snippet of their dynamic said so much with so little and I really felt like I could see the entire relationship surrounding it between the gaps left by what isn't said.

By contrast, I feel like the rest of the series gets increasingly diminished returns every time it tries to mine your emotional investment in it because it's so uninterested in doing anything beyond banging out the same old beats of 'sarina is sad, gorou does a nice thing, yey sensei kekkon shite''. As a result, I might understand why Sarina feels so attached to Gorou, but we never get any idea of why Gorou felt so strongly about Sarina, outside of the basic presumed sympathy and righteous indignation that any good person would feel for Sarina's situation. There's no exploration of what about Sarina (and therefore Ruby) as an actual person removed from her tragedy inspires in Gorou, so the fervent attachment the story again tries to insist that he has to her is hard to invest yourself in as a reader, because the story fails to ground those emotions in anything. So again, we have a relationship where all the intensity and emotional weight of the relationship is massively skewed away from Gorou/Aqua and we thus fail to get any exploration of his interiority as a result.