#⩇⩇:⩇⩇ zeke ↷ intro !

[teamsocialism]

updates: read this and this first

hey there! do you like fairness, equality, sharing, and teamwork? then join team socialism! led by verity and zeke ( @verityandzeke ) bc january wasn't interested in this project lol

we hate the word "grunt" bc it's phonetically unappealing, so we're calling the generic starting rank "employees" instead. you can also request higher ranks upon joining, but we might have to double-check to make sure we trust you with it

this is just an elaborate joke, interpol please don't get our asses

inspired by @team-capitalism

universal rp rules are on my main's pinned post ( @saplingheaven )

dm or send in an ask to join (or reblog or comment, but only if you specify that you want to join, bc otherwise I'll assume you're just blog-boosting)

fun fact: the mascot being a roserade is actually a reference to the fist and rose symbol from rl, but that's about as far as I'll go in terms of referencing rl politics LOL

[bardic-perdita]

Finally put together a little something for my three main BG3 OCs!

I'm always happy to talk about these lil' guys, so feel free to ask if you like!

A little more info under the cut:

Breoch Vy'sse

He/Him

Lolth-Sworn Drow

217 years old

Draconic Sorcerer (White)

Background: Noble

Breoch is the eldest son of his exiled noble family, and one of an identical twin. He had been living in Menzoberranzan for many years, using his charm and body to ingratiate himself among the nobility. After a long and messy break-up with his necromancer wizard boyfriend, he found himself strapped to said boyfriend's operating table; his still-beating heart preserved in a jar. He had died, tortured to death by his ex, and then brought back by him several years later. Just when he thought he'd finally escaped from his ex's grasp, he was captured by the Absolute and trapped on the nautiloid.

Shrike

They/Them

Asmodeus tiefling

35-ish years old

Oath of Vengeance paladin

Oathbreaker

Background: Dark Urge

Shrike was raised by their mother, who had run away from her cruel partner and Shrike's father. Shrike had an unusual affinity for violence, so joined the local barracks. Once they discovered that their mother was being blackmailed by their father, they swore an Oath of Vengeance against him and his criminal network. Although they were successful in destroying their father, their time in Baldur's Gate revealed the identity of their true father and their destiny. Lost without their oath, they relished their newfound role as the leader of the Bhaal temple.

Ezekiel (Zeke) Ignistinea

He/Him

Baalzebul Tiefling/Bhaalspawn

26 years old

Fiend Patron Warlock/Gloomstalker Ranger

Background: Soldier

Zeke was kidnapped by a devil named Caedes whilst he was still a child. Caedes raised him as his own son in Maladomini and eventually offered him a pact to grant him greater power; in return Caedes would be able to treat him as "his own flesh and blood". Zeke found his return to the mortal plane incredibly lonely, so is quick to befriend anyone willing to take the time to get to know him. He's friendly and kind, but he does have some...unusual habits.

[dez-a-roonie]

hey, im dezzy and WELCOME to my journal/archive blog ! where i talk and share my favorite things from the early 2000s — early, mid, and late 2010s !

ALL OPINIONS ARE MINE !

a little about me;

im dezzy !! short for dez. dez also being dez wade from austin and ally, which is where i got the name dezzy ! (i added a-roonie, because i also love liv & maddie , and it sounds silly !)

im a FREAK genderfluid teenager and emo kid though that sounds silly considering the theme of this blog, trust me. LOL … i have ASD ! and im currently in LOVE with the Jonas brothers, Austin & Ally, Zeke & Luther, and MORE !

edit; another reason why i wanted to make this blog is because there’s absolutely NO blog dedicated to reposting the magazine pages of the Jobros :( so I wanted to be the page to do it B)

content warning;

i do and will ALSO be reposing “femcel” content, canihavepromo, and OLD newgrounds related stuff along with my teen mag things.

my personal tag is … ;

#⌜ dezaroonie ⌟ ✦ * · ˚ 🎸💕

where you’ll find any and every post that i’ve made, ＼(^ω^)／どういたしまして ~ !

EVERYONE IS WELCOME TO MY BLOG !!!

… i don’t have a specific dni. Otherwise if you or the contents of your blog make me uncomfortable you will be BLOCKED ! 💜

edit: my other socials 💞:

INSTAGRAM:

https://www.instagram.com/dumperv?igsh=Ym96NnEwOGRlanZ2&utm_source=qr

PINTEREST:

[br1ghtestlight]

extremely smart bob's burgers fan realizes just now that season one is 13 episodes and season two is 9 episodes and if you add them together thats 22 episodes because the first two seasons were produced to be one regular season rather than two extremely short seasons. only took me like eleven months

[westgreenzeke]

DISCLAIMER

i post a bunch of pro palestinian posts and ways to help on my twitter because that has more followers than here. if you want to help those in need as they do everything they can to survive the genocide, go here

i have also answered a few asks with gofundme links here

Info

⬩ ezekiel / zeke

⬩ it / he

⬩ transmasc lesbian

⬩ jan 15 '04

Tags

⬩ art posts: zekes art

⬩ text posts: stfu zeke

⬩ music posts: zekes music

Links + More Info

⬩ carrd

⬩ pronouns page

[sanctified-sanctuary]

Muse Preferences

( Jekyll )

favorite fruit(s) : pomegranates favorite activity(ies) : people watching on Earth, pack hunting, teasing Adora, underground nightlife favorite flower(s) : spider lilies favorite season(s) : fall favorite insect(s) : N/A, he never saw many in hell and has little interest in those of the mortal planes favorite animal(s) : redbelly snakes favorite gem(s) : dragon garnet favorite time of day : twilight

( Adora )

favorite fruit(s) : nectarines favorite activity(ies) : going to underground raves, teasing Jekyll, club dancing, sleeping in the sun favorite flower(s) : calla lilies favorite season(s) : spring favorite insect(s) : pink saturn moth, moon moths in general favorite animal(s) : hounds favorite gem(s) : moonstone favorite time of day : twilight

( Hunter )

favorite fruit(s) : pomegranates, tart apples favorite activity(ies) : reading, practicing witchcraft, detailing their grimoire, writing lyrics favorite flower(s) : lavender, foxglove, deadly nightshade favorite season(s) : winter favorite insect(s) : bit of an entomophobe, but orchid mantis if they had to choose favorite animal(s) : rabbits and hares favorite gem(s) : lavender jade favorite time of day : dawn

( Zeke )

favorite fruit(s) : figs, persimmons, they're as close to what he ate in his home plane as he can get now favorite activity(ies) : writing music and performing, clubbing with Adora, resting with Hunter, hunting with Jekyll favorite flower(s) : white roses, bleeding-hearts favorite season(s) : summer favorite insect(s) : white angel moth favorite animal(s) : cats favorite gem(s) : sunstone favorite time of day : late morning

Tagged by ⋆♱⋅⟡⋅♱⋆ @hopeharmed ⋆♱⋅⟡⋅♱⋆ {absolutely ages ago ily tho)

[catnip-reed]

Ares: The Patron of War

Ares is the God of war, battle, war prisoners and treasure, city defense, civil order, anger and violence, self-defense, standing up for one’s rights, courage, fear, and virility. He is the Father of the Amazonians.

He has many symbols:

• Spears

• Shields

• Helmets

• Armor

• Serpents

• Dogs

• Vultures

• Barn owls

• Eagle owls

• The Amazonians/Amazon Rainforest/Amazon River

There are many things that are appropriate to offer to Him/put on His altar:

• Onyx, bloodstone, garnet, ruby

• Frankincense, sandalwood, dragon’s blood incense

• Anything black, red, grey, or gold

• Wines (especially reds), whiskeys, beers, rums

• Meat (especially red meat and steaks)

• Spicy foods and heavily spiced foods

• Black coffee and tea

• Iron or steel

• Red flowers

• Thorns and thorn bushes

• Medals

• Toy/miniature weapons/armour/soldiers/etc.

• Physical activity

• Strategy games or violence-based video games (CoD, Valo, any war-based or shooter games)

• Standing up for one’s self and beliefs

• Researching past wars, battles, and riots

• Learning about the effects of war

• Donate/support victims of war or crimes

• Learn about evidence collection/crime scene clean-up/post-war clean-up/etc.

• Volunteer at an animal shelter

• Get a new pet (especially ones otherwise ignored, black cats and dogs, pitbulls, animals with disabilities, etc.)

• Learn about the Amazonians

• Donate to Amazon Forest/River conservation efforts

• Foster an animal

• Set new boundaries with your family/friends/coworkers/etc.

• Wear things that make you feel strong or manly

[zekenamtv]

𓏲 * ( jeon jungkook, cismale, he/him, markiplier ) ⸺ pictures of ZEKE NAM have been showing up all over my feed, and considering the last time they were #trending, it was due to breaking off his engagement — i'm not likely to unfollow anytime soon. with their signature baggy jeans, plain neutral tees, stiff boots, i'm not surprised to hear that they are considered part of the BLUE BLOODS. after 28 years, they've managed to garner a reputation for being more venturesome than hedonistic, but their critics say that they're more zany than lyrical when they aren't too busy focusing on their late night drives, cigarette butts, voice memos. when they aren't occupied with their work as a content creator/podcast host, they've been sighted playing guitar. reputation.com has taken to calling them TRACER in order to avoid a lawsuit ( again ). ── luna, 26, pst, she/they, none.

- ̗̀ ✧˚ information !

full name zeke nam.nicknames z, he doesnt care what people call him.date of birth october 23th, 1995 (scorpio)pronouns he/him.sexuality queer.place of address lower east side, manhattan.birthplace manhattan, new york.occupation content creator, podcast host, streamer, ambassador.career claim markiplier.appearance all black/neutrals, loud boots, baggy jeans, hair falling over his eyes, baseball caps.. .hobbies the guitar, pottery, lego building, video games unfortunately.tendencies tapping his fingers on the steering wheel, staying up too late, sucking his teeth, leaving half empty water bottles around, speaking too loud

- ̗̀ ✧˚ mini bio !

zeke was born into a life full of expectations. the nam family was mostly known for his father, famous plastic surgeon, but zeke made a name for his own much to his fathers' dismay. zeke always had a love for the technical world. something about how it worked interested him much more than the medical career path he had been groomed for. he spent his free time learning about computers, playing video games, and fully immersed in anything cyber-related. that didn't change, not even when he was accepted into Columbia University. he was the typical college student. he partied too much, but his grades never suffered. after two years, zeke finally admitted that he was switching majors from the pre-med program to engineering. he also informed them that he and a group of his friends had started (successfully) making content for youtube and started streaming on twitch. This was a shock and disappointment to his family, the nam's had been doctors for generations, though zeke's parents took it a step further. They decided he was ruining his life and needed to be put back on track. He did not want to be a doctor, did not want to settle down, and all in all felt he was tarnishing the family name with his behavior. Their solution was to arrange a mutually beneficial deal. he would be allowed to switch his major, but he had to date and eventually marry someone of their choice. the relationship wasn't bad, but it wasn't what he wanted. the two worked out their own deal and planned to break up once their parents saw that they didn't need the marriage to be reputable. it took time and a few awkward holidays at home, but they finally were able to break off the engagement. zeke was known for his video game skills and had the trophies to prove it, along with his energetic and charismatic attitude portrayed through videos and streams. suddenly his hobby of content creation turned into a career much bigger than he initially imagined. The success and "fame" came fast and unexpectedly, yet he's adjusted well to having the spotlight on him.

- ̗̀ ✧˚ headcanons !

—the only way i can describe him is a goof. he's smarter than he looks/portrays to the world but.. really just wants to enjoy life as much as he can. noncomittal and that stems from having an ex fiance, probably had a couple relationship rumors after that ended but never took the dating world seriously. kind of a gym rat. always has an airpod in that's way too loud. he got famous from overwatch but now his content is a lot more broad and personal.

- ̗̀ ✧˚ connections !

- ̗̀ ✧˚ GAMING FRIENDS — OPEN ! zeke is the type to stream with people or when he's playing with his friends and also for when he's not gaming for videos/streams.  - ̗̀ ✧˚ CHILDHOOD FRIENDS — OPEN ! having been in new york his whole life, i'd love some connections that knew him before he got popular / his family! - ̗̀ ✧˚ EX FLINGS / FWB — OPEN ! since he's not the type to traditionally date often, zeke would have had flings and/or current fwbs. this could be on good or bad terms too! - ̗̀ ✧˚ PROFESSIONAL RELATIONS — OPEN ! managers, pr team, owners of brands that sponsor him, people he collabs with, etc! - ̗̀ ✧˚ MORE TBA ! this is open to all muses!

[survibers]

mason gooding, pansexual, cis male + he/him ― hey look, it’s ezekiel "zeke" weaver! they’re twenty-five years old, they’ve lived in shrike heights for all their life, and they’re currently working at donna's roller disco and jazzercise studio in shrike mall. i heard they’re pretty overwhelming, but i think they’re so encouraging at the same time. can they make it out alive? || ariluz, 28, they/them, est

Ok, whew! this cutie right here was one of the main drivers to change to a multimuse blog so let's keep these good vibes going!!

About Zeke:

Born & Raised in Shrike Heights. Central Business District to be precise. Still lives at home/hoping to move out soon!

Raised by his grandparents, the youngest of four siblings. He and his siblings all have the same mom but different fathers (the middle two are twins!). Though he has no idea who his dad is, his mom is very much alive and the two are pretty close. His mother just never had the capacity to actually raise her kids and after enough episodes, she was forced to give up custody to her parents. But Zeke still maintains a relationship with her despite a varying degree of opinions from the rest of his family.

Besties w/ Dustin Waerea ( @takemecn) like that's his boy for life for LIFE. They've grown up together and have always supported each other. He's truly Dustin's #1 fan and cheerleader.

Zeke was a happy kid, or at least he tried to be. For all the anger that life could hold, Zeke still figures he got a good deal. Sure it wasn't traditional but his grandparents stepped up in a major way and they've been financially stable enough that Zeke has always had a pretty comfortable life.

He's most insecure about his intelligence, having struggled through most of school, pretty sure he wouldn't have graduated if it wasn't for his friends pulling hims through. He decided not to bother with college and got a job instead.

He LOVES his jobs. He started at the roller disco first and is an extremely enthusiastic and hilarious instructor. He's pretty talented on his skates but he does it with such ease he makes it seem like anyone can do it and he believes it. His sessions at the jazzercise studio are just as energetic and he truly takes pride in what he does. He's a pretty active person and it's hard for him to be still at times so having high energy jobs are perfect for him.

Takes his fitness pretty seriously but takes his pleasure and fun even more seriously. Loves a good time of all kinds!

He's pretty talkative so he'll strike up a conversation with anyone. He'll ask a million questions and then abruptly change the subject.

More to come as always. This is an updated version of an old chara but really just by name and vibes LOL otherwise we'll see!

Super open for plots!!

[xallmywolvesx]

if you’re hearing WHO I AM by THE SCORE playing, you have to know ZEKE LOOMIS (HE/HIM, CISMAN) is near by! the THIRTY TWO year old FIREMAN/SMOKE JUMPER has been in denver for, like, HIS WHOLE LIFE. they’re known to be quite IMPULSIVE, but being LAID-BACK seems to balance that out. or maybe it’s the fact that they resemble SHAMIER ANDERSON. personally, i’d love to know more about them seeing as how they’ve got those THE SMELL OF SMOKE AND SOOT STAINS, WOODED ADVENTURES WITH HIS DOGGO, MOVIE NIGHTS WITH THE FAMILY vibes. and maybe i’ll get my chance if i hang out around the LAKERIDGE DISTRICT long enough! 

Zeke was born middle child of the Loomis Family. Though they didn’t always have the best of resources they never wanted for love and support. Zeke was always an impulsive one, known for venturing out on hikes and bringing home strays. 

He couldn’t help but cycle through more than a few ideas for his future. Astronaut popped in a few times, he even wanted to be a forest ranger for a bit before coming back to Astronaut. He’d nearly settled on a path to become a Navy Pilot, a slow path towards Astronaut when a camping trip changed his mind entirely. 

While out on a backpacking trip with his friends, a fire started by a careless backpacker blazed toward their camp, too far out to evacuate safely. In the midst of the horror, he’d watch them jump from the plane, Smoke Jumpers. Each of his group got out alive thanks to that crew and he couldn’t help the stars in his eyes. 

After high school, he shifted his career path finding his place in the local firestation and working his training and skills up until he got his place in the area Smoke Jumper unit. It was a dangerous job but he lived for it.

When not working, he’s still very much a family man. Spending time with his siblings or his nephew. He found his doggo Fred abandoned by his previous owner and the pair always seem to go on adventures together.

In early October one of his smokejumps went badly and he had to be airlifted out to the hospital. Now on crutches for a broken leg he’s left focusing on his healing and decided if he should follow a slightly less dangerous path for his future

Connection Ideas

Friends 

Exes

Coworkers

FWB 

People he’s helped

Fellow hikers

Fellow Dog lovers

Friends of his siblings

Neighbors

[verityandzeke]

hey, I'm verity (they/she). I'm (physically) 16 and I go to blueberry academy. I use red text

I'm zeke (they/he)! I'm also (physically) 16, and I'm verity's classmate and twin. I use blue text

I'm january (they/them). physically 15 and in the same class as both of my siblings. no text color

yup, that's our recluse third sibling. they're... they certainly are

left to right: verity, me, january

picrew

ooc info can be found at @saplingheaven

[manyfandomocs]

ZEKE BEISTE

A classic skater boy addicted to energy drinks needs an outlet. At least that’s what Zeke's mother thought when she decided he should go to William McKinley. The thought was that he would join the football team, which would make sense with his aunt being the coach, but instead he followed a pretty brunette right to Glee Club auditions. So with a new school to explore and some songs to sing, Zeke is ready for what’s coming

Bonus info about Zeke

Major inspo is definitely Willie from Julie and the Phantoms

The first time he’s slushied he’s just sad about the wasted slushie

Sophomore in season 4 along with Kitty/Marley/Jake, etc etc

Has a goal to skate down every rail outside McKinley

[devoteyrheart]

"It’s taking everything in me not to slap you in the face right now."-Levi to Zeke because we know he wants to.

(from) ― "random (chaotic) dialogue starters." // @104thsquadfam

'Everything'?

Was it really that easy to get under the captain's skin?

"Well, I must say, you wear your emotions on your sleeve, Captain." Zeke remarked, cleaning his glasses on the hem of his shirt with deliberate, measured movements. It was evident that despite his casual tone, he found Levi's emotional display rather pathetic. "I suppose that's precisely why you excel at being a skilled soldier, taking orders from those smarter than you."

Skilled with his blades as Levi was, Zeke saw him as something less than a proper soldier – more like a well-trained attack dog, perhaps? Yes. Following orders without question. However, such thoughts were reserved for his private musings; he had enough decorum not to utter them aloud.

Unlike the captain, who seemed not educated on the art of self-restraint.

"Besides, you shouldn't take unnecessary risks with the fingers you have left, least you lose them." The worth of a weapon trained to wield a sword lay in their ability to perform their duty: if Levi were to lose any more fingers, he might become relegated to the ranks of expendable soldiers, no longer fit for combat. 

Wouldn't that be a pity.

[miiiwu]

need to make a pinned introduction post at some point bc i’d feel awkward if Cool™ ppl followed me only to be inevitably disappointed when they see im primarily a cringe-but-free fandom blogger who happens to incidentally also reblog funny stuff

[novemberthewriter]

WRITEBLR INTRO xx

hey, all! i’m n.k. :-)

i'm not new to tumblr (have had a few diff accounts since 2011/2012), but i'm new to interacting with writeblr proper. 

ABOUT ME

late 20s

black & queer & disabled 

lifelong writer/musician/creative (in both professional and hobbyist capacities)

finally finishing my degree in creative writing & english! 

ARTISTIC/THEMATIC INTERESTS 

literary fiction, horror, camp, kitsch, diversity, introspection, family/friend bonds (especially nontraditional ones), romance, art rock, nostalgia, technology, diy ethos 

GOALS

connect with the tumblr writing community at large! for a while i was unable to get excited about my non-work, non-fanfic related writing projects. over the past year or so, my passion’s been renewed, and i just wanna chatter with like-minded folks about my longform WIPs, my short stories, etc – and geek over other people’s work here too <3

WIPS 

Dagmar

there’s always something going down in dagmar, an insular coastal community straddling the delaware bay. pragmatic tech geek zeke omezie-fumudoh, 18, prefers to keep her head in her books and projects – deaths and disappearances were common in her parents’ home country, too, after all. when her best friend dodie dies, however, zeke has no choice but to start trying to connect the dots & face the potential supernatural forces at play. 

[this is finna be dark fantasy/horror, romance, mystery, and queer as hell! i got a lot of worldbuilding to do, but a few months ago the twist popped into my head 1st and i’ve been working backwards. i'm sooo excited abt figuring out the narrative path(s) i gotta take]

Dave & The Family Davenport

20-year-old twin musicians dorian & daria davenport are a little s club 7, a little sly stone, & a whole lotta spitfire. as the very first act signed to holliday records, 30-something producer & label founder dave levine considers it his duty to take the family davenport under his wing. they become his pet project – and eventually something more to him. 

[i’m taking this one in a literary/drama direction! thinking found family and music industry commentary vibes. idea came from revisiting big time rush and thinking ‘what would happen if you mix btr + the carpenters + prince + mtv’s making the band??’ (for the record, dave is 100% NOT meant to be a p. d*ddy analogue re: making the band, i'm mainly thinking of the aesthetics of the young artists of color featured on the show)]

Several fun essays about my personal fandom/shipping history (one is about all the diff sites i've used over 17+ years of reading/writing fanfic, another is an old-school livejournal-style ship manifesto that i plan to make into a video! etc etc)

SHORT FICTION 

blank [literary/drama, 300 wds]

fortune teller [literary/drama, 300 wds]

hothouse [horror, 500 wds]

a certain standard of care [horror-comedy/surreal/gross-out, 1k wds]

good bones (or, an exercise in letting go) [literary/dramedy, 1.3k wds]

[writing tag: scorpio the scribe]

hmu if you think we'd get along <3 i need more ppl to follow!

[ETA: i prefer to follow/be mutuals w/ ppl 18+ only, ty!]

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

aita for not inviting a friend of mine into my dnd campaign?

so i (18nb) have a friend (18nb, Martin) who i play in a main dnd campaign with with all our other friends (Ill name them Dan, Virgil, Mark, and Ray). Dan is our DM after we kicked out the old one bc she was horrible. We're a pretty close group of friends, but lately we've all been really busy with respective school & work, ect. so we didnt play dnd for a solid, like,, 4 months. I DMed a one shot for everyone besides Ray cause she was flaky anyway, and added in my boyfriend Zeke for it.

Everyone had a really fun time w it and I loved everyones characters, especially Dan's. I watch a lot of dnd shows, so i just keep getting more ideas- but while the one shot was fun it was messy as hell. Ive been wanting to write a campaign for a smaller group for a while, (because when i tried making a campaign with the whole group the character creations were... disappointing to say the least. this sounds mean but i created a fairy world that was very magical & told everyone to go crazy on character creation in a world with few/no humans, and like 5/6 people opted to be a human with a fighting class :/ )

ive been writing a campaign that im really proud of and have a good vision for, and decided to include Mark (because we're best friends) Zeke (because he wants to play dnd more and has no opportunities) Dan (bc he never gets to be a player) and then another close friend of mine outside the group named Gabe (who i love but never get to see) I love their characters & we're all super excited.

Thing is. I was briefly talking with Dan, Zeke and Mark about it at school bc I'd sent everyone a little intro message for the world and they were all super excited and wanted to talk to me about their classes. Virgil had no problem with this and was excitedly asking abt the world + characters along with some other friends from school, but Martin got quiet and went and sat by himself. I could tell they were off, but Martin is generally a quiet person anyway and is often sad + doesnt want to talk for like a hundred different reasons, so i left her alone. Later that day in a different class I have with Virgil he showed me his phone where Martin had sent him a message saying she was really disappointed & felt left out that i hadnt invited them to my campaign.

i instantly felt bad and started to text him, but,,,, to be honest, i dont think im at all responsible for this.

i have reasons for leaving Martin out, the main one being that they just..... arent a very active player. Hes soft spoken and doesnt actually like rping their characters- her character in our main campaign is/was literally mute bc they said they didnt want to have to speak as him. (theyve since taken this back and went through with a curse breaking thing to be able to speak, but her character,,, still doesnt talk much.) he writes really good, sad backstories but doesnt actually play or do anything with them and gets uncomfortable acting. Their characters are not only emotional, but like. crazy. they play a bunch of cool tieflings with insane magic classes & features and then, again,,,, dont roleplay them. I didnt want the group to be big and had a good reason for including everyone that i did, and our other friends that arent in it (Virgil, Ray who is Martins sister btw, all our other d&d interested friends at school) literally dont mind at all. i just wrote a campaign that theyre not in. Martin also has their feelings hurt very easily, so to be honest i just find her being sad about not being in it just... stupid. id never say that to his face & i get that he feels bad, but like....cmon.

im aware im a very very incredibly low empathy person- to be honest i struggle with depression and bpd very heavily and am often mean to my friends & loved ones without really processing why or how much it affects them. i told Virgil that i thought Martins reaction was stupid, and he said that that wasnt fair bc Martin had always been in my campaigns before (which is, yknow, one. Martin and I were even in a campaign with a completely different group a while back and Martin willingly left it very early because the group was loud & their character wasnt doing anything (yeah)). Every time Martins expressed (or i guess not expressed) sorrow for not being invited to it ive just sort of ignored them. this again isnt that uncommon cuz when shes sad he doesnt like to talk about it, and also they havent directly confronted me with this at all.

ive been talking about the campaign a lot because it occupies frankly a lot of my brain because i have so much to write, and i especially talk to the people that arent in it bc theres no risk of slipping up and telling them something they arent supposed to know. The other friend, Gabe, is friends with Zeke and Mark and I, and Dan is good around new people,, but Martins really quiet around people he doesnt know well, so if i invited her anyway they'd probably play the game even less than they already do.

again, im really bad at having an actual perspecitve on this. Virgil said he feels bad for Martin but not for himself, as far as i know Dan doesnt know about the situation, and i literally just dont wanna involve Mark and Zeke (Zeke HATES conflict and when people fight so he really doesnt have to be involved.) Mark Martin and I have all been really close friends since literally 7th grade and I guess Martin especially feels left out that I involved Mark and not them but Marks both really good at character creation and also talking in character, and like, hes my best friend who i do everything with.

I dont wanna blow off Martins emotions but but i truly dont give a shit that they feel betrayed by my not inviting him. especially because they havent bothered actually telling me this. objectively i dont think its my fault even a little, and Martin is really horrible at handling their emotions anyway (this isnt an insult, just a fact. i am too). aita for not inviting him + not caring that shes upset by it and acting like they arent?

sorry this is so long i really like providing context

What are these acronyms?