#❛ lukas. ✦ / ❝ ( study. )

[laundy]

this literally happened

[yeukio]

quick doodle of @/froggychair05’s mcsm bakery au fic !! more fanart of this au because i can

i’ve recently only been able to find the time for drawing during school and um it SUCKS i cant wait for this first term to be over

also forgot ab their little height difference. pretend jesse is on his tippy toes or smth

[cinderoo]

miku & friends

[crustyfloor]

Content warning (light) : Experiments / Abuse / Body and eye horror tw(?)

The album cover is sick as hell, I initially thought it was skeletal parts, but it looks the most like an MRI scan showing a brain with a lot of abnormalities, including signs of head trauma.

The most profound detail I found in the "brain" is the dark spots.

Dark spots in the brain are usually the result of a brain lesion, a permanently damaged area of the brain usually caused by injury, infections, exposure to certain chemicals, etc. General trauma.

If it's someone's brain, I suspect it's Till's brain. aside from Luka, he has been through the worst of the Alien's mistreatment since he was a child, under Urak's (the bastard's) care he had been exposed to much abuse. The sheer harshness and hostility of Urak's "training" make it obvious why he was probably one of the only pets to withstand it all.

Life-long injury in some form is surely a given to me. Seeing as it's already been mentioned that because of Urak's abuse, his pets rarely make it to the end because of the mental issues they had developed, and experiments can kill them before they even make it to the stage.

Back to the brain, it has a lot of abnormalities (especially in its appearance). I can't explain much, I'm not a neurologist. But based on the research I did the the most damage seems to be near the Frontal lobe and the Precentral gyrus.

source source source

This could explain Till's already implied mental problems, one of them (In my opinion) being some form of dissociation, round 6 was the most telling as his behavior was out of sorts having been broken down he changed drastically, throughout the whole round he was emotionally distant, i'd probably describe it as him being in a daze.

And his hallucination of Mizi during the karaoke scene could be a symptom of that to ease out of the moment.

(I also see that as more of a coping mechanism for Till, but I'm taking it into account for this since it's likely.)

Experiments always looked intense, I wonder just what chemicals and substances he was exposed to, in one of the opening scenes of CURE we're shown what looks to be DNA splitting, or duplicating? there could be a multitude of reasons for that. But it makes me curious just how deep this goes, and how much it affected Till. There is a lot of things about him that could be explained with Urak's presence in his life.

Having his brain tampered with to such a degree, I think we'll start to see the horrific effects come to light here soon.

[corioheinous]

Maybe it’s just the fact that I watched Saltburn (2023) the other day and wow freakishly unhealthy expressions of desire are oh so fascinating to me all of a sudden but I find Luka Alien Stage to be a super compelling morally-dubious character. Hear me out.

The meat and potatoes of Luka’s character isn’t exactly spoon-fed to us through either the Round 5 MV nor Hyuna’s MV (which I appreciate because conjecture is fun) BUT. Given the information that we do have. We know that Luka A) feels desire toward Hyuna B) killed her brother with his bare hands and C) took some sort of sadistic pleasure in doing so. I’m thinking that the reason Luka killed Hyuna’s brother in the first place could have been out of a misplaced jealousy he felt toward him; in this frame we can clearly see that the three of them are close, but Luka appears more removed due to the innate bond between the siblings.

Having been born into a dystopian society colonized by aliens, Luka probably doesn’t have a solid understanding of how human connection works and how their bonds are forged. All he recognizes is his own desire for Hyuna’s attention, and how that desire is directly impeded by Hyuna giving most of her love and attention away to her brother. Luka, unable to grasp that this is a normal sibling attachment, becomes intensely upset by this. Which is then spurred on by the fact that Hyuna doesn’t seem to reciprocate his feelings. Conflict ensues. Brothers are murdered.

This unhinged expression on Luka’s face here is what really clued me in on him having zero concept of the realistic consequences of his actions. He eliminated what he perceived to be his “competition” (something he will soon become very good at) so naturally Hyuna should devote her once divided attention solely onto him, right? Yeah no that kind of psychotic behavior would never produce his desired outcome, so now his playground crush is not only repulsed by his actions but forever traumatized by his person.

However he did (in an extremely warped sense) achieve one of his goals. He certainly has Hyuna’s attention now, but it’s not exactly the positive attention he once longed for. By becoming a sort of celebrity on the Alien Stage, he’s constantly on her radar as someone working to dismantle it. His image exists everywhere that Hyuna operates: broadcasted on television screens and reflected in her sunglasses as she moves through life and past her childhood trauma.

Luka finally has her attention now and she can’t seem to escape it. He’s successfully haunting her.

[the-magpie-archives]

Several times recently I've found myself making tea whilst listening to The Magnus Archives, and as a result I've developed a silly little headcanon...

I'm not sure if it's a nationwide thing, but certainly throughout my life I've experienced the weird stigma of having sugar in your tea. It's not direct or aggressive, but there always seems to be this vague notion that sweetening your tea makes you less strong, less manly. I rarely see men ask for sugar, and often observe an obvious proudness in teenage boys when they say "no sugar, thanks."

Picture Jonathan Sims, newly appointed archivist, worried he's not good enough, placed haphazardly in power of people who were very recently peers, and desperately trying to prove he's the right man for the job. Everything seems to be falling apart a bit, and he's not at all sure his assistants have any faith in him; he had to ask for a tape recorder because he couldn't get his laptop to work properly - that's embarrassing.

Now imagine Martin: office sweetheart, gets along with pretty much anyone, just moved to a new position working with two close friends, and the attractive guy from research is his boss (he's a bit rude and stuck up, but it's probably just the stress, right?). He's pretty comfortable! Aside from the occasional snide remark from Jon it is a good job, which is especially pleasing considering how he got to work at the institute in the first place.

Two opposing forces, as we all well know! But what's better at building bridges than a nice cup of tea? Martin makes a lot of tea, but I like to think he memorises how everyone takes theirs. Regardless, he has to ask at least once.

And so, kind, sweet, gentle Martin, his offer of a cup of tea promptly accepted, would have the misfortune of saying, "do you take that with sugar?" to an embarrassed, flustered Jon, who's trying desperately not to confront any romantic feelings he might have hidden away. The ensuing scoff and slightly too enthusiastic 'No! Thank you.' would be enough to remember that preference for a while.

As times go on, hundreds of cups of tea later, things get less tense between the pair, and Martin never has to revisit the question; but late one night, shortly before Jon is to leave for Great Yarmouth and Martin is to risk it all to take down Elias, Jon places a hand gently on Martin's shoulder and asks "Could I have a cup of tea?". Of course Martin says yes, it's the least he could do, but as he turns to go and make it, Jon calls out again. "With sugar, please."

Just a tiny vulnerability, but enough. By that point most of Jon's facade has been torn roughly away many times, but letting go of small points of pride often means more than non-deliberate actions. Having enough bravery to admit to liking something soft and sweet is harder than you'd think.

Maybe during those six months after, Martin would watch the sugar dissolve into his own tea with a painful melancholy, the sweetness a bitter memory.

[mocabre]

Study w my babygirl Luka

[redmedic]

Incredibly old piece from 2020 - but still one of my absolute favourite pieces I've ever done of all time. This was a Leyendecker study, featuring Peter Lukas. Love how it turned out and I've been trying ever since to replicate it.

You can buy this as a sticker or a print on my Redbubble!

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[felix-krain]

Doodles from some time ago (that I forgot to post, oops.......)

[sqwdkllr]

one of my favorite running gags that happen to new pikmin players is getting hit with the realization that olimar is in fact not a child but a grown ass man. it happens so often and it's the funniest thing ever to me

[foxnfishstudio]

So, planing on working on another comic. I needed to plan out Peter.

[itskirtash]

Luka face studies

I can't stop drawing him, he's so cute. I can't explain it and my friends are so tired of me ranting about a 38 yo croatian who is the captain of my own team's rival. anyways 😀

(the quality is pretty bad, the scanner does what it does)

[knickety]

it is SUPER interesting and a little weird that Topaz would say this to Luka, about Belobog, when she's kind of the poster child of "oh yeah the IPC saved my home world, they're great!" while also in the same conversation taking offense to Luka's view of IPC employees as lapdogs for the corporation.

[cinemautism]

Who do I think would be the favorite vocaloid of each community character because mixing special interests with hyperfixations is funny: part one

Jeff Winger - Hatsune Miku

Funniest shit I've ever said in my life

Anyways!! he would lie and say he thinks vocaloid is stupid

But he's actually a big Hatsune Miku fan

He would admire all the fame that she has and how versatile she is, and he would think that she is iconic (she is)

Favorite song? for some reason I think it would be Rolling Girl (by: wowaka - R.I.P)

Abed would be playing the song because he's a vocaloid fan and Britta would be like "Jeff ARE YOU CRYING??" and he would be like "😭😭😭😭 no"

Abed Nadir - Kobayashi Matcha

He would be a VOCALOID nerd so he would be a fan of a really unknown vocaloid

He likes Matcha because of her colors and sweet voice!

Also he would relate with her ("Matcha is described as being a bit of an introvert who is cool, calm, and collected. She hides her emotions and is quite blunt as her words are sharp and hurtful. In her spare time, she likes making fanzines/dōjinshi")

He has official merch, you can't change my mind

He went to an official show and a nico nico fes

His favorite song... I don't fucking know why but I think it would be Lower One's Eyes (by: lanndo)

Troy Barnes - Vflower / Masaoka Azuki

He would like Vflower because most of her songs are rap

Also he wouldn't know she's a girl 😭

"Oh my god I love Vflower he's so good and-" "... she" "huh" "SHE is so good" "... VFLOWER IS A GIRL??? ABED WHAT"

Also, he would be a Masaoka Azuki fan because she's Matcha's bestie and because she's kinda like him ("Azuki is described as being cheerful and positive unlike Matcha. She's very open towards her feelings and tends to act first and think later (...) she is awfully forgetful but eccentric person and somewhat impatient. She is also affectionate, effusive, and "clingy", often showing exaggerated displays of affection.")

He would find amazing that her name is a bean and he would understand her fear of kites

His favorite song would be "VIVA HAPPY!" (by: Mitchie M) but he acts like is "Egoist" (by: Oonuma Paseri) because he thinks it's cooler (everybody knows he's a Mitchie M fan but yeah Troy whatever!!)

Britta Perry - Megurine Luka

Doesn't know a lot about vocaloid but she likes it enough to be here

It's like when you show vocaloid to your mom and she is like "awww they're pretty ☺️" but instead of your mom is a bisexual pathetic millennial

"You guys don't get it, she's A GIRLBOSS and SHE'S PRETTY"

She would be angry everytime she finds a sad break-up song by Luka ("WHY WOULD SOMEONE BREAK UP WITH HER ????")

She would name one of her cats after her (as she totally should)

Her favorite songs is "LUKA LUKA NIGHT FEVER" (by: samfree - R.I.P) because she can dance with it

extra: if she was a vocaloid nerd, she would like teto because you don't have to pay for her

Annie Edison - GUMI

Thinks that the concept of vocaloids are amazing and cute

Loves GUMI and cried with her songs (especially the ones made by Circus-p)

She loves those "X vocaloid character singing X Taylor Swift song" videos

She acts like she is normal about vocaloid (she isn't)

Lesbian Gumi believer

Her favorite songs are Just Be Friends (by: Dixie Flatline) and Gimme x Gimme (by: Hachiouji-p and Giga-p) (but she would never say it outloud)

[i-wiggle-i-squirm-bc-i-am-a-worm]

Unnecessary discussion about Chat Noir and the Drums

There’s something I love so much about Chat playing the drums in Horrificator. This is something that’s been on my mind since I was 13, so hold on here.

First, obviously, Adrien also plays the piano - which obviously still has a lot of meaning!! - I’m not here to diss on the piano, there’s a lot of freedom of expression in every instrument type and music expression in general, but there’s a reason why some people are more inclined to different instruments, and I think there’s a lot more to it than just sound, but feeling as well. The role you play. How it feels to play it alone vs. playing it with others, if it’s typically something that you can play alone vs. in a group.

So first, the piano, and how I think it relates to Adrien’s character, plus how it relates to those points.

The piano, let’s be real, is something that a lot of us were forced to take lessons for at some point. It’s something that has ties to high society (there’s a HUGE discussion and so much more to say about that, but let’s not go there) and honestly?? I think it works pretty well with symbolizing the obsession with perfection that Gabriel shoves onto him. I’ve known many piano players, and while some genuinely loved playing it, it was always easier to somehow stumble onto someone with a deep hatred for it after being forced into lessons. Whenever I asked them why they hated it, I got almost the same answer every time: “I need to be perfect.” (Along with people saying that they were forced to lol)

Then there’s the role you play. You can play with people in a band, an orchestra, as an accompanist, a duet, at a bar with a bunch of people singing - whatever - music has many forms, and many different connections. But the piano is something you can play solo, no need for anyone else. It isn’t what you can do with other people that I’m focusing on for this, it’s the fact that you don’t need anyone. You can play alone, and it’ll still be fine. You can be alone, and you’re still fine - perfect even - which is something that Gabriel shoves down his throat, resistant to him playing with his friends by touching on this ideology.

Which is a glimpse into how he sees Adrien, and how Adrien experiences life. He can be alone, in fact he’s more perfect when he’s alone. And when other people are added, the attention to his perfection is taken away bit by bit, until he’s not good enough. He has to play solo in concert halls, on stage for everyone to watch, not in the back of a bar, playing with his friends.

Alright, so now we move to Chat Noir and the drums. The main play of this fake essay. 

It would be so easy to just ignore everything and just go “haha, he’s the energetic one, so ofc Ladybug gave him the drums! And they’re an easy instrument to play, etc.” but that’s far from the truth.

Ok, so I’m not a drum player or percussionist in any way, but I am a bass player, and genuinely love the drums so much because they’re incredibly important, and here’s my cheesy analogy: the drums are the heart of the band, keeping everyone on beat, it’s what you feel at the centre of it all. The band is nothing without the drums, without the percussion (The bass is what connects the band to the beat of the drums, kinda like the blood vessels, but sadly this ain’t about bass).  Like do you know how easy it is for a band to fall apart if they don’t have a drummer??? You need a drummer. You literally can’t survive without a drummer, because even if you manage to work together, use the bass as a backing, whatever you try, there’s still not much of a heart left.

But besides that, do you know how hard it is to play the drums??? You can’t just throw someone crazy, or energetic there just because “crazy drummers lol” you need someone who listens. Who can set the beat. Someone you can rely on, because they are the person in control, even if they aren’t as flashy as the guitar player. Reliable is the word that comes to mind. The drums can make or break a band.

And wanna know who that reminds me of?

Yeah. I highly doubt that the writers put this much thought into a random five second scene in an episode of season one, but it fits with Chat Noir SO well. 

Unlike the piano, the drums are almost solely played in a group setting - you need other people, and other people need you - he needs other people in his life, his friends are needed, but they also need him. Ladybug needs him, along with all the other heroes in Paris, whether he sees it or not. He seems to get in a state of thinking he’s not needed, but i do really think he’s the emotional glue that keeps the team connected, the heart that keeps them beating. If he’s isolated, he can’t quite reach his full potential that he can when he’s allowed to be around others, just like they can’t reach their own without him.

But on top of that, I think the stereotypes of the drums actually works in his favour for the next part. 

Breaking free from his dad, and being his own person, letting that fame go and embracing what he wants... well, to some that would look stupid. 

Relating it to music, the piano is flashy, you can play it solo, it sounds impressive, looks impressive, and people won’t think you’re just hitting pots and pans in the garage when you say you play it. But the drums are underestimated, a lot of people think you don’t need much practice, that they’re just the guys who sit at the back of the stage, not doing much, but that couldn’t be further from the truth.

Just like Adrien finally being who he wants wouldn’t be stupid, it could never be stupid, but there’s a stigma. But letting go of his flashy, solo life, and being the heart of his friend group is something that I think makes him truly happy as Chat Noir, and hopefully he gets to be like that as Adrien too.

Like Plagg said, Chat Noir and Adrien are both the real him, and I think the drums capture that perfectly. The heart and freedom, the meticulousness (rather than perfection) and steadiness, those are good qualities of a drummer.

I dunno, I just think it fits.

(sdfghjklkjhgf again I should state that acoustic versions of songs exist, and you can play songs without a drum and it sounds fantastic, but I’m not going into that today. Just talking generalization, and playing in a group setting). 

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