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[midnightskraptor]

I don't think I'll ever be able to live down the day I was off my ADHD meds, overstimulated, and talking about Tyki Mikk. And in the middle of the student union building said "I say this with my full asexuality, I would fuck that man so hard". And I,, didn't realize I was actually Yelling This. And it was Extremely Audible. And So Many People Looked At Me. There are people who only know me for this. I

[lady-lilly-gray]

Where is the Heart of Innocence?

Buckle up, Buttercup; this one’s a bit of a doozy.

This is a theory I’ve been wanting to flesh out since I last reread the series, and it came up in the discord server a few days ago. From (in my opinion) least to most likely, I will make a case for each bit of innocence we have seen in the story thus far, however far-fetched they are.

Housekeeping 1: Exclusions from my analysis

Any fragment of innocence that has already been destroyed “on screen” (Yeegar’s, Daisya’s, etc.)

Apocryphos: If his purpose is to protect (re: absorb) the Heart then it must be a separate entity

Judgment: Apocryphos would not have left the Heart behind when taking Cross’s body.

Housekeeping 2: Whilst I don’t believe this theory myself, there is the possibility that the Heart does not really exist and was either made up by the Earl to justify the destruction of Exorcists and/or innocence; or made up by the Order as a way to bait the Earl out into the open. But I’m not going to delve into that right now.

Housekeeping 3: Where to place Grave of Maria

This fragment lives on inside the body of its previous (possibly initial) accommodator

If the “Maria” is Katerian Campbell theory is true, this would add a nice layer of irony

If the Cross = Past Lavi theory is not true (I don’t think it is) this could be a reason for Cross’s connexion with Allen (if Allen isn’t the Heart)

As a weapon, it possesses both defensive and offensive capabilities

The reason I don’t know where to rank this is because, if memory serves, Apocryphos was the one who removed Cross’s body (see: Judgment) but has since (if I remember right) spoken of finding/absorbing the Heart. If so, would Apocryphos not have absorbed Maria then and there?

Caveat one: does Apocryphos know where the Heart is or will he just sense it; and thus, would he be able to sense Maria’s innocence when not actively being enchanted by Cross

Why kidnap Cross (re: keep him alive) in the first place

Caveat two: We don’t actually know the current whereabouts of Grave of Maria

Caveat three: Did Cross even have Grave of Maria with him/nearby when he was taken?

So, who/what does that leave us with?

Least Likely

The fragment collected at the beginning of the Phantom G arc:

(I, admittedly, forget if this is in the manga or exclusive to the anime)

It shows signs of sentience (disembodied hand)

Introduced shortly after Rouvellier brings the Heart back up in regards to the war

It is generally introduced in a major turning point in the series (HQ relocating following the breech of the old headquarters/the use of the Ark by the Order)

Winters Socalo (Madness):

It would be ironic since he is portrayed as cold-hearted

Innocence gave him a new lease on life (a new heart, if you will)

Bookman Sr. (Heaven Compass):

The irony of having to remain neutral in a war that is partially fixated on the Heart

I feel like he knows who/what the Heart is, because of his records, so I feel like he would have said something (at least to Lavi), or chosen not to work with the Order. Lavi’s been his apprentice long enough that he doesn’t necessarily need the extra guidance in the mission.

Hevlaska:

Sentient, like Apocryphos

Mysterious, prophetic/in charge of “reading” accommodators

Could tie into the idea of the Heart “knowing” the other fragments.

Froi Tiedoll (Maker of Eden):

He has powerful creation magic

He’s a sweetheart, always looking out for his “children”

Re: the other fragments being like the children of the Heart

Suman Dark:

There is an arc dedicated to him being rejected by his innocence, but we don’t know what happened to it

Is this the fragment that went on to choose Chaoji?

If this is confirmed in-universe that may be a further argument, as it would be the first fragment we have actually met multiple accommodators of

Excluding Artificial Exorcists; but how “different” are the new bodies sharing a brain with past accommodators

Re: does the “Helix” lie within the soul?

Chaoji Han (Arm of Baptism):

Despite spending time around his innocence fragment, it does not seek him out until other fragments of innocence are in danger (re: the Heart protecting its own)

This could, however, be taken as a sign of regular fragments protecting the Heart, if the Heart does belong to Allen, Lena, or Lavi, whom he was protecting

Klaud Nine (Lau Shimin):

She is a general; therefore a powerful accommodator

Takes on the two main forms of innocence

Lau Shimin is a parasite type that is commanded more similar to an equipment type (as opposed to using enchantments, like Grave of Maria)

Would align with the traditionally “feminine” nature of a heart

We see her truly mourn her students who were killed by the Noah

Possible

Arystar Krory III (Teeth)

It would explain whatever the hell happened to him after the Jasdevi fight in the arc

Kanda has regenerative powers; what’s Krory’s excuse

He is intrinsically connected to an Akuma; but not a Noah

Only person we’ve seen who can neutralise ingested poison

Parasite types and Seconds have only (at least to our knowledge) neutralised exterior exposure

Vampires have been historically linked to hearts

Prior to Dracula the typical method of drinking blood was directly from the heart

They are also linked to immortality which would tie into the “original innocence” and the duration of the Heart/innocence in general

There’s also a lot of narrative emphasis put on Krory being a vampire, despite him explicitly denying such a label (He’s just a guy!)

Noise Marie (Noel Organon):

Phrases such as “Love is blind” and “Listen to your heart” come to mind

Whilst he is able to fight, he is usually in a defensive position

A way for the Heart to protect itself

Would align with his gentle nature

Has almost died multiple times; and was almost part of the Second Exorcist Programme

Would the experiment have worked on the Heart?

The Kanji for his anti-akuma weapon’s name is literally “Saint’s Psalms” so why would Hoshino make a point of having the Furikana be something different

Re: something that means “Birth Organ” (like a heart?)

Yes, I know that the Katakana (オルガン) would be exclusively used in reference to the musical instrument, but the implicit cognation is still there

Timothy Hearst (Tsukikami):

I literally just mistyped his family name as “Heart”

He is introduced in the first arc following the resurgence of the Heart being mentioned

He has a sentient form of innocence, though not corporeal like Apocryphos

Tsukikami only communicates with his accommodator

If Timothy is the Heart, I wonder if Tsukikami knows that, and if he’s shared that information with Timothy

Possession abilities

If he gets strong enough, could Tsukikami possess a Noah?

Lavi (Iron Hammer):

It would be ironic because he’s meant to stay neutral

But, unlike Bookman Sr., he seems to actually have some kind of internal turmoil over this required neutrality

He’s the only one of the main four who has not had a power up (yet?)

This could be the Heart’s way of protecting itself (re: not drawing too much attention to itself)

It’s also possible that the other powerups are caused by a “desire” to protect the Heart, and that the Heart itself does not possess the same ability to evolve as the other fragments do

It would tie into Past!Lavi’s relationship to Allen/Neah

re: being an important part of bringing down the Earl, as its narratively set up to do; or protecting Neah, as Apocryphos clearly doesn’t want it to do

To that extent, are we even sure the Heart is a “good” force?

To what extent is “reincarnation” a part of the Bookman clan

That is, is it similar to the “awakening” of the Noah Genes?

Chaoji was protecting him when his innocence finally responded to him

Alma Karma:

He’s Kanda’s heart

We have seen him wielding innocence in the recent past, and know he was an accommodator in his past life, but there’s no mention of his innocence in the present day

What happened to that fragment when he was comatose?

Was his innocence fused with his body/destroyed when he became an akuma; or is it still in the Order’s possession

And why not mention it at all in the present, despite Alma drawing attention to innocence on his deathbed

Re: asking Kanda not to use his innocence on him because he doesn’t deserve to have his soul saved

Could this have messed with the powers of the Heart/affected the other fragments, as destroying the Heart supposedly voids all fragments. Kanda (presumably) passes out immediately after Alma’s death; we don’t see if his innocence was left behind

If Alma’s innocence was left behind and was, in fact, the Heart, could Kanda tell?

Could this have contributed towards Kanda returning to the Order?

He’s had a lasting impact on the narrative since his appearance/death

Unlike more macguffin-esque Exorcists such as Yeegar and Suman

The general association with Lotuses (rebirth) that tie into the Heart as a life force

Probable

Allen Walker (Cross/Crown Clown):

Again, Chaoji was protecting him when his innocence came to him

It would be the obvious choice, as he is the main character; but also linked to both sides of the war

For this reason, I don’t think the series will go this direction

Re: going against typical shounen tropes is a running thing in this series

Would the Earl (re: Mana) be able to kill Allen and/or Neah for the sake of the war?

If so, why didn’t he kill him in the first place? (an age-old question in the fandom)

Campbell twins: one is the body, one is the soul (heart)

Why was the Earl reborn in the first place, and why was he split into two beings?

It could not be destroyed by Tyki, despite us seeing him use the same exact method on other fragments

And that fragment literally fused with Allen’s heart to protect him

To protect Neah?

Bringing back the question of the Allegiance of the Heart/innocence, we know that innocence is the only force which can destroy akuma/do harm to a Noah; but can we be sure that, prior to the split, the innocence was not once in harmony with the Clan of Noah. We know that innocence and Noah genes can coexist within a body—there’s not evidence that Allen’s innocence causes harm to Neah.

To that end, what reasons has the Earl for destroying the Heart besides it being an easy way to take down the Order

Lenalee Lee (Dark Boots):

She’s Allen’s heart

She’s been on the back burner for a bit and was put out of commission for quite a bit of time; maybe I’m being too occidental in this view, but I’m sus of why a female mangaka would reduce a female character with strong potential to little more than a Mary Sue

Comparatively, two other female shounen mangaka, Katsue Kato (Blue Exorcist) and Yana Toboso (Black Butler), did something similar with Shiemi and Lizzie; and both girls were later “redeemed” and have since had more of an active role in the plot; so it wouldn’t be a shounen subversion, per se, to equate the Dark Boots crystallisation with Lena’s “redemption” to set her up to be much more of an active role in the plot (like being the Heart)

She is the first person proposed in canon to be in possible possession of the Heart

Although this makes me think it less likely

The fight with Eshi is the first canon instance (we see) of a fragment of innocence protecting its accommodator

Even though this happened around the same time as Allen’s confrontation with Tyki, but I’ll get into that later

Once again, Chaoji was protecting her when his innocence awakened

The Dark Boots are the first anti-akuma weapon to crystallise

Mugen’s crystallisation could have been a response to such, as a way of not making the Heart stand out by being the only “new” type of anti-akuma weapon

Back to the point of the “Heart” having a female connotation

She is the only female character in the Main Four

She is the first Exorcist (besides Allen) whom we, the reader, meet

Why not have it be Kanda (i.e. the first whom Allen meets)

Yu Kanda (Mugen):

Boy’s got more plot armour than Allen at this point

“Cold hards, warm heart” personified (bordering on Tsundere)

His regenerative ability; but also that of Mugen

It’s implied he used the same type of weapon in his past life

Mugen takes some of the wielder’s life-force to power up, which only really works with Kanda because of his Seconds seal

To that point, Apocryphos refers to Kanda as “Mugen’s accommodator” which implies that such a weapon has existed before (re: outside of present!Kanda’s lifetime)

Although, one could argue that Apocryphos referring to Mugen by name means that it is not the Heart

Mugen is, possibly*, the only only anti-akuma weapon we have seen that has always taken on the same form (implicitly, per Apocryphos’s knowledge of its name)

*I was convinced this was true of the Dark Boots too, but then when I reread the series I saw no mention of it??? Am I insane? Was this something mentioned exclusively in the anime? Is it in one of the Komlin arcs I always skip on rereads?

Mugen (六幻) means “six forms”—we’ve thus far only seen five

What is the sixth form, and how might it relate to the Heart

This is something I will go into in my “Final Battle” theory

He is the only exorcists we’ve seen who has been able to suppress his synchro rate

The Order knew immediately upon Allen reaching full synchronisation

This could be Mugen’s way of keeping itself under the radar (re: the Heart not drawing unnecessary attention to itself)

Most Likely

Miranda Lotto (Time Record):

The only exclusively defensive anti-akuma weapon we’ve seen

It protects other (i.e. the Heart protecting its own)

“The Destroyer of Time” prophecy actually being a reference to taking down innocence

In my “Final Battle” theory I’ll go more in-depth about how/why I think all innocence will have to be destroyed before the war is officially over

The caveat of her magic prolonging life, but not being able to revive the dead

Not only a narratively great way to not make her too OP for a side character with a very unique ability, but it also can be in reference to innocence no being restored once it’s been destroyed (either individually, or by the destruction of the Heart)

Like girl has some seriously powerful innocence

Keeping a whole town in a time loop

Which is actually similar (or at least a FOIL to Road’s power)

Speaking of, she is introduced in the same arc the Noah Clan is first introduced

And even without a true anti-akuma weapon she is able to wield the innocence

In order to protect Allen and Lenalee… which we’ll come back to

Lala:

Lala is the only example (that I can think of) of innocence creating sentience in another being (excluding Apocryphos, who is made of pure innocence)

Mater as a Chekhov's Gun

Back on my Final Theory Post bs, I think the final confrontation will take place in Mater, and Lala’s innocence being the Heart could tie nicely into this, especially if Allen has to destroy it; it would be narratively intriguing to have him destroy the innocence in the same place he took Lala’s her “life” when Guzol died

Mater literally means “Mother” in latin (which is why I don’t like the translation of the town being “Martel” in the manga; but the english translator also though Hoshino-san was a man in early volumes so I take everything with a grain of salt)

Also, her innocence as a Chekhov’s Gun

This is the first fragment of innocence Allen obtained/the first mission he went on

It hasn’t been mentioned since it was recovered

But Mater was brought back up (shortly after Neah fully awakened)

Could this be a set up to reintroduce this fragment into the mix?

The innocence literally acts as Lala’s heart.

There is a conversation to be had here about the connexion between the soul and the “helix” to explain why Lala wasn’t quite the same after having the innocence restored to her before Guzol’s death

But Lilly, isn’t it possible we just haven’t met the Heart yet?

Yes; but, if the Heart of Innocence truly exists, I think having it be some random person/fragment we haven’t been introduced to yet would be stupid at best and a cop out at worst. Thus, I’m not even entertaining this idea beyond acknowledging it as a possibility.

Last, but certainly not least, the theory I came to when I first read the manga, and the one I’m sticking to until proven otherwise:

The Heart is not a single fragment;  specifically, it is comprised of two pieces

(see also: those 2014 tumblr era pictures of two human hearts forming one love heart)

So which pieces are they? The fragments synchronised with Allen and Lenalee

Allen’s innocence could not be destroyed like the other fragments

But the Noah’s search to destroy the Heart implies it is destructible; so why didn’t Allen’s innocence disappear entirely when crushed by Tyki? Because it was only half the heart; and, in this theory, both halves would have to be destroy simultaneously in order to destroy the Heart/all fragments of innocence

The destruction of the Heart meaning the destruction of all innocence is dangerous

Innocence is constantly evolving throughout the series. So, the division of the Heart into two distinct fragments could be an evolutionary safety net to protect all the fragments from sudden annihilation

Why do Allen and Lenalee seemingly have a telepathic connexion?

Could it be because their innocence fragments are intrinsically linked?

And to that point; Lena almost dying at the hands of Eshi is around the same time (possibly at the same moment) as Allen’s confrontation with Tyki. Their telepathic link could have been the Heart sending out a finally push of power to protect its other half

For the LenAllen shippers (like myself) it does have a nice Soulmate-y implication

[cinammonelles]

I was going through old screenshots in my gallery a while back and i found this

And it awakened something in me so I speedwrote this in feverish daze

[system-of-a-feather]

@reimeichan

[kandayuu]

grief is kinda weird

idk how to like. say this properly but i've been rereading a lot of old dgm fanfiction and stumbled across a piece about lavi written by msylvatica, or sonnenkoenigen as I knew her on tumblr.

the long and short of it was that we were friends on tumblr for a while, i fell out of touch with her in 2016, and she passed away in 2018 and i didnt know how to feel at the time it was just kinda this person was someone i talked to regularly for like several years

we bounced ideas off of each other and laughed together and i never even knew her real name

i knew she was sickly and often dealing with some kind of pain but I never knew about the cancer until i assume her housemate posted to her ao3 account about her passing

and i'm like

how do i honour someone i knew but didnt know? would she want me to? the last conversation i had with her was an argument and i keep thinking how i don't remember if we made up before she passed

i don't know if she'd want me to remember her in any way at all

i still write because of her

i try to be kinder to people online because of her

it took me 5 years to cry for her

idk

[birdmanart]

OC time again! This time it’s D.Gray-Man bc I recently reread and caught up on the manga and it made me Feel Things.

Meet Shai & Nikolaos Iritakis! Adopted siblings who are definitely not exorcists anymore…

More information & some interactions w/ canon under the break

In the AU where these characters exist, I imagine they intersect with team 14th during the search for the Campbell manor — I’ve been imagining (and possibly writing) it as they intervene to help with an akuma attack.

Naturally, this raises a lot of questions, since both of them disappeared from the Order about four years prior and were presumed dead.

Some context for these particular sketches:

Nikos was a CROW prior to being discovered as an accommodator when he was about 19. Naturally, he had a bit of a Reputation

They both knew lots of folks at the European Branch. Shai was quite fond of Johnny, since it was his knowledge of garment construction that helped design their gender-affirming corsetry (Listen this is my AU I get to play in the sandbox)

Shai is mute due to damage to their recurrent laryngeal nerves on both sides. By canon era, they speak fluent British Sign Language, and their golem has been programmed to translate

Shai is non-binary. I don’t care if that isn’t the word used for it in the setting/era, it is just important to me to be very clear on this point

At least one of those sketches was solely an excuse to figure out Link’s current outfit, because I think it’s neat ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[alienaiver]

i know this is a bit old-school tumblr style posting., but the tags and search engine of tumblr stresses me out, so ill do it this way!

id really really like to follow more active haikyuu, bnha, dgm and jujutsu kaisen writing blogs! (and maybe catch some new moots as well ahaha jk! ....unless?)

i am a sfw gender neutral reader-insert writer for hq, dgm and bnha myself! im 29 years old and i dont mind following blogs that also write nsfw, as long as its properly tagged. just beware i will generally only interact with your sfw parts !!

so if youre writing any of the aforementioned fandoms and post semi-regularly (any posts are fine, writing is an ebb and flow, so reblogs count in activity for me). please reblog this post and ill follow you !! (specifically a reblog so that it will reach more, thank you!!).

i will follow from my main blog, @/lordpopuko.

i try my best to reblog fics and foster community as often as possible. i also like adding several comments to the fics that i reblog, so theres no downside to having me follow you ehehehe 🥺 <3 (check out this tag of recs to see examples of my type of comments if ur curious?)

if my moots or other followers would be kind enough to reblog this as a boost, id be eternally grateful in my quest to find more activity on my own dash. ill send you all a gift basket filled with cookies, berries and plenty of snøfle fur to go round thank youuu🥰

ps i also wont expect follow backs btw i just need more on my dash :) so no obligation to do so! only if youd like to !!! ✨

[diminuel]

I‘m revisiting what used to be my favourite manga! (Photo must of course show my SPN shrine, haha)

This was also the first fandom I posted fanfic for (back in 2006) because I felt my English skills were finally good enough (were they though? *lol*)

I might do some DGM blogging as I reread and try to catch up (maybe? the last time I tried I was very confused), I‘ll tag it if you want to block it~

Are there DGM fans on here? Is the fandom still alive? >w<

[icharchivist]

your tags on the yulma post made me so emotional, thank you for sharing ;; it’s honestly disheartening to see their representation either get completely dismissed or met with absolute ignorance,, i do think the fandom has come a long way since then even tho there’s still discourse around how “valid” it is but if people dug more deep, it’s honestly undeniable no matter how u look at it

aaah glad it was a worthwhile read then 🥺

and yeah definitely :( fandom changes and there's been a lot of changes in the last twenty years in the way an audience can accept a queer narrative, and while it's for the better, it does also mean that sometimes there's people who aren't going to see what was the big deal or how it was groundbreaking. They often approach their dynamic by modern standards of queer representation that i think can sometimes be a disservice to how huge it was in 2010 when it came out.

I remember talking about this story with a friend once and they were like "so it's queer because one of them is actually a woman in a man's body. that seems cowardly to me" and it frustrated me a little both on the angle of what it means for Alma to be in this situation to start with (if Alma is in a situation where they can accept the change to their body or not, and how no matter how you look at it Alma is fundamentally genderqueer), but also on how i remember the anger against "Kanda being gay" to start with

And i think about how Hoshino had to work for this to start with, having to set up that Kanda was looking for someone very early on, someone implied to be a lover, and then build the Alma arc in such a way where Alma=Person Kanda Was (Romantically) Looking For became unavoidable and no editor could go back on what she wanted to say. It was huge at the time, and i hope we can remember it like that.

but between the way lots of fans abandonned the manga then, the hiatus following afterward, and the new anime not really being beginner friendly, dgm's legacy in term of queer representation ended up kinda buried under it all and difficult to get new people to see.

and now i sometimes see a lot of scrutiny on the Kanda/Alma storyline on "can we even consider it queer" that makes me sad in the sense of, sometimes it circles back to similar argument i've heard at the time to cut down the ship, which also have people say "but if this argument can be made then it means it wasn't obvious enough", while no, it's obvious, people just were seeing it in bad faith because they were looking for their own confirmation basis, but in the end those specific people ended up leaving because even if they wanted to make up excuse to erase the queerness, it was too late, the queerness was here to stay.

like idk i'm just rambling but i so vividly remember how people reacted then that i can't buy into any "it's not queer enough" complains from the modern perspective. It was groundbreaking at the time and it was the real first popular Shounen i personally read where one of the main character was confirmed to be in a queer love story that is the important focus of a full arc, and tbh i haven't truly seen that much ever since (but i also don't keep a close look at modern Shounen so that's on me)

but yeah and in the end i really come back to the feeling of "if they're not queer enough why did homophobes get this mad about it when it happened" yaknow

anyway thank you for the ask and i'm glad the perspective was a nice read <3

i just hope one day people can really realize just how special dgm was at the time for that.

[faywater-blog]

Part 3 of the Plans Awry series is in progress!

Reading order:

The Best Laid Plans of Mice and Men...

...Often Go Awry

The Inevitability of the Unpredictable

Fandom: D.Gray-man

Pairing: Allen/Kanda

Warning: There are dark themes with a lot of emphasis on mental health issues! Please be mindful of tags and warnings included throughout the parts.

My vision for Allen's look in Unpredictable was inspired by this post:

[ephemyrals]

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[shiroganeryo]

20 Questions For Fic Writers

Thank you for the tag @ofdemonsandangels! Finally got me to babble about writing, eh 😂

As always, I won't be tagging anyone but if you see this on your dash and feel like doing it, feel personally tagged by me!

⭐ How many works do you have on AO3?

Currently twelve. All finished, but there's one in particular that's part of a collection of stand-alone one-shots that I'd like to add more into sometime, hmm.

⭐ What's your total AO3 wordcount?

102,279 words.

⭐ What fandoms do you write for?

At the moment, it's mostly Bungo Stray Dogs (it only took me 7 years to realize I could write fanfic for this one), but I also have some Genshin Impact works and one D.Gray-Man work posted. There's a long, looong doc (38 pages, 16,700 words) in my WIPs for DGM.

⭐ What are your top five fics by kudos?

The Meaning of Sharing Happiness ➡️ To Hold Dear and To Own ➡️ God's play ➡️ Just a Short Break ➡️ A Moment to Cherish

⭐ Do you respond to comments?

I might take a while to get to it, but I always read all the comments I get and am always extremely grateful that people took their time to write something; so I usually worry about giving each reply the proper attention and if my gratitude is translating well into my words whenever I get to reply.

⭐ What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Hmm, I haven't one of these. I only wrote mild angst once and even that got resolved within the specific work. I don't see myself writing anything like this but it might depend on your definitions of what's an "angst ending"?

⭐ What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Definitely New Pages in Our Very Own Novel - my three-chapter wedding and honeymoon fanfic written for dazatsu week this year. I was pressed by time constraints to make it in time, but I poured a lot of love and care into this one, merely because they deserve to be happy and at peace; so many of the moments in this fic are light or meaningful in some way, but still lovely, all the way to the ending.

⭐ Do you get hate on your fics?

Not that I know, thankfully!

⭐ Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I do, have some posted and I'm still rather proud of them! Describing "what kind" is a little hard (no pun intended) because my ideas usually stem from the thought of "I want to see this specific thing happening so I'll make it". I went into kinkier territory once, but in general, I think what drives me to write smut is having the people involved getting down and dirty but in a passionate way, if that makes sense? I like to make their love for each other show in how they handle each other but I also like the couples to be unapologetically into it, show off their sensuality and personality while at it. A good mix of sexy and lovely.

⭐ Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

My brother in Christ, I already have trouble managing people from one universe in only one work. So, no 😅

⭐ Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Hopefully not?! I'd be very upset.

⭐ Have you ever had a fic translated?

If it's been translated by myself, does it count? I translated one of my fics to my native language (Brazilian Portuguese) via voice call with my little sister once, she's still studying English but she was adamant on reading something from me, so I translated that one for her. It was a very fun experience, actually!

⭐ Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not yet and I don't think I ever will; I have such a demanding pacing for writing that I'd overworry about inconveniencing the other person.

⭐ What's your all-time favorite ship?

No matter if it's in regard to posted fics, or in my general opinion, my answer is the same: Dazatsu (Dazai Osamu x Nakajima Atsushi) means the world to me.

Story with this ship began years ago but like I mentioned in question 3, it took me a lot of time to realize I could write for them as well. Every single fic I write for them has a dedication to my spouse in the notes, but that's the most I'll say because trust me, this story is LONG haha

If we're talking about the amount of rent-free living inside my head, then it's a tie between them, ChuuAki (or ChuuSano, not sure which ship name people use mostly nowadays for Nakahara Chuuya x Yosano Akiko) and ZhongVen (Zhongli x Venti from GI). I definitely plan to write more for chuuaki at some point; they all live happily in a three story building inside my mind 😂

⭐ What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

There's a rather extensive GI WIP (for Lumine x Noelle) in my folder that I feel doubtful toward purely because I'm so uncertain about it; when I started writing that one, we were only at the start of the story of the game so things looked very different from now. I'll need to rework and scrap many things in that one...

⭐ What are your writing strengths?

One thing that I put a lot of attention and care into, and that has been praised time and time again, much to my happiness, is character portrayal. I've been told on various occasions that my characterization of the characters felt close to the original to the point people were able to easily picture them doing and saying the things described in my works, how I got their "voice" right and how enjoyable it was to read because of it. It never fails to put a smile on my face, and I've replied to comments more than once saying that these are the best kind of praises I could get from anyone.

⭐ What are your writing weaknesses?

Not sure how much of this is a weakness or simply a personality defect, but: obstination and self-imposed pressure. I won't be able to relax until I have finished a work I feel I must finish, because I'm so used to not having free time for my hobbies that I have this - usually extremely self-destructive - mentality that goes "I must do all of it now while I still have the chance since I don't know when I'll have time again"; which means I tend to get no breaks at all, will sacrifice sleep hours to work on it, and destroy my back all for the sake of a condition my head imposed on me.

Probably not the answer you were expecting, but it's what I struggle with the most; this ride or die mentality born from perfectionism and a little (?) pinch of anxiety.

⭐ Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in a fic?

If it's a language I can speak, then it's not a problem, though I haven't had the chance to do so (yet).

But here's a random language trivia for you: I tend to think a lot in Japanese for all my BSD fics to make their dialogues as accurate as possible even with the work being written in English - for example, there are certain puns/jokes that exist in English but either don't work or don't exist in the Japanese language, so I avoid adding them; things like these. It's small attention to detail no one but me would know about, but it's something I do because it matters a lot to me.

If it's a language I can't speak, or a cultural aspect I'm unsure of, I either ask a friend or delve into those "Ask A (insert nationality here)" subreddits. It's always a riveting learning experience!

⭐ First fandom you wrote for?

Officially published and first ever: that would be D.Gray-Man. Though Jesus Christ, I would not show my 15 yo's crazy DGM fic full of nonsense and OCs. There were even ships in there that I can't bear to listen the name of nowadays. How the times change 😂

⭐ Favorite fic you've written?

I'll cheat my way on this answer, because I can't pick just one.

SFW: New Pages in Our Very Own Novel & Healing Touch These two are undoubtely the ones I've gotten the most praise for as well as very, very long comments that had me giggling and kicking my feet like I was a teenager again; but what I like the most about them is, respectively: New Pages: I did a lot of research for New Pages. I actually used Google Maps to trace their routes during their stay in the Ginza Prefecture for the honeymoon, just so I would know if they'd need to take the train or if they could just walk to their destinations. One thing that I've always loved in BSD are the real-life places references, so I went for that: I referenced real-life places as well, and even the hotel I picked was also inspired by a real-life one, located in the same place. I paid a special amount of attention to landscapes and their descriptions and it was as fun as it was exhausting! haha The contents of the fic are still the most important, but the experience of writing and doing research for it, learning more and viewing so many pictures to describe things, was one of a kind. I'll never forget it. Healing Touch: This fic was born from a wish of mine to do a certain character study, and I'm still proud of how it came out. Dazai as a character is extremely complex and we all know it, but I wanted to, at the very least, scrape at the surface of his humanity hidden underneath all those layers - all the while I worked on Atsushi's perception of things and the way he dealt with his own sense of sadness and grief and used those to try and understand Dazai's. I can't really say much about it because it'll just sound like a lot of babbling out of context, but I feel like I did a good job on those bits (it's not the entire focus of the fic).

NSFW: Baring Stripes and Bandages I'm sorry, I'm just a furry. Jokes aside, this was the one time I went for an approach that explored some kinks that aren't too vanilla and I'm still quite proud of how it came out. We - my spouse and I, this fic was born from a headcanon of his - often joke saying it's my magnum opus, and then it's just a kinky fanfic 😂 But I'm still so proud!

[kitty-bandit]

I Want You to Want Me

Title: I Want You to Want Me Fandom: D.Gray-man Rating: E Pair: Tyki x Alma Words: 7k Tags: Modern AU; Omegaverse; Cheating; Mating; Heat Cycles;

For DGM Rare Pair Week Day 1 Prompts used: Sight — Color | Black & White | Bright | Dark | Blind

(I’m totally over a week late but I hope everyone enjoys this fic!)

Excerpt:

“I can’t stay too long—not when you’re this close to heat, but I’ll do what I can for yo—” “No,” Alma nearly shouted, cutting off Tyki’s assurances. “No, please don’t leave me alone. Not like Yuu did. I can’t—I can’t take it.” Licking his lips, Tyki closed his eyes and took a slow, steady breath. They had had this conversation once before the last time Alma had gone into heat—and Alma knew where he stood on the subject. He let a lot of things slide with Alma, considering the circumstances of their affair, but he had his limits. “You know I can’t stay during your heat,” Tyki reminded him, even as the words burned his throat when he spoke them. “Not if you’re still his.” Tyki could play the bad boy. He could sneak around their friends’ backs and be the secret lover, stealing kisses and fooling around when they found private moments away from prying eyes. But he drew the line at taking Alma during his heat. If he did, he couldn’t promise Alma he wouldn’t do what the omega’s stupid partner didn’t have the balls to do. And he refused to force Alma’s hand when he was this vulnerable, even when everything in his body screamed at him to. Alma shook his head, tears welling up at the corners of his bright blue eyes. “No, you don’t understand,” he said, trying to get a hold of his emotions. He tilted his head towards Tyki’s hand until his cheek rested in the alpha’s palm. “I’m done with Yuu. I can’t live like this anymore. It’s killing me.”

Read on AO3.

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I've been trying to use tumblr more this year but I always end up neglecting... I think it's mostly due to me cherry picking on the best artwork to put here and leave shitty doodle and memes for tw*tter and IG.

Also back then when I was active in DGM and KH fandom here I do interact with people more, but nowadays I don't have a particular community that I steer towards to so there are even less reasons for me to be on here....

Nevertheless I still enjoy posting art here ESPECIALLY because of how tags works, reading through everyone's comments brings me so much joy, you can't get this amount of interaction on other platforms

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