#‘im complicated’

[bookwyrminspiration]

it’s been days and I can’t stop thinking about dorian gray but specifically from the 2003 movie the league of extraordinary gentlemen. who let that man be so flamboyantly melodramatic and where can I get one I want to study him as he says funny little quips at me

[stargirl230]

thanks for the light

I was just trying to figure out how procreate works but then the op brainworms got to me and 35 hours later here we are! can you tell I miss home-cooked meals :')

(no reposts; reblogs appreciated)

[barghest-land]

another early horse, this time it's a very proud Merychippus!!

[hinamie]

happy gojoday to all who celebrate

[disabeetled]

reminder to all my disabled lovelies that "gross" symptoms do not make you gross or lesser in any way. incontinence, vomiting, irritable bowels, or gastrointestinal issues shouldn't be as demonized as they are. you are real, valid, and loved

[inkskinned]

you know, you know. no gods, no masters, no kings on pedestals. everyone is fallible. death of the author. you know! you are balanced about your intake of media - you allow the wiggle room, the grace, the gratitude, the skepticism. nobody above criticism.

but still. a weird gut-punch feeling, something akin to betrayal. you read the article. surprise! an author you love is actually: a serial fucking predator.

well, shit. what now. no, you knew he was a person (all people are), but now you're wondering - what have i overlooked by accident? what messages have i internalized that are strange and cruel? and also, like, what the fuck?

his actions lay a thick glaze on top of everything. like each place is now ruined, opaque in a new way. but okay, fine, you've done this before. you knew better, right? you've been betrayed by many a cherished childhood author.

still, this stickiness. fuck. can you pick up that book again. will you read it to your children. you've recommended it to others - will you ever do that again? and of course, of course, no parasocial relationships. you were theoretically above this kind of sentiment. but the artist informs the art, right.

so it's not something as clear-cut as feeling he owed you, specifically (a stranger) better behavior - just that you kind of, in a distant and odd way... sort of trusted him to do better. it's not like a real trust or something speakable, just the faint hope that the product (good books) was a thin representation of the soul. now it feels like the product (good? books?) was a mask. in some small or insignificant way, your previous support of this person lent them power. your money and your time and your laughter.

and the thing is - you have this terrible, echoing sensation. how many times will this happen? over and over. you find out that the singer you love is actually a predator. you learn over drinks that your favorite high school english teacher is in jail for what he did to her. you listen to the news idly and suddenly discover that a woman you used to idolize has been abusing her kids for an actual eon.

what can you touch without the static melting off. you can't even really complain about it too much (you were supposed to know better, and besides, you don't want the same re-split "it's not your fault, love what you love" basic advice), but now it's here. somehow, it feels like - you let him into your life.

it's not that things need to be pure or an artist has to be like, endlessly perfect, mindful. demure. it's more just this terrible truth that has been replayed through your veins so often it feels criminally vain. power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. did you want any one person to be worth that power?

it's just that he wrote books where he seemed to understand that. he seemed to know about hierarchies and unfair systems and bigotry and privilege. you thought they were books about what it means to struggle. you thought they were about having power and still using it for good rather than for control. he spooned you a narrative of being a good guy, a kind soul. you fucking bought what that fucking monster sold.

maybe that's why they were fantasies, after all.

[arrimorr]

Accumulated some stupid oc doodles

[risingsunresistance]

i'd heard about the new minecart mechanics and people launching themselves off ramps, but i wanted to see how practical it was for travel. used buttons so that the rails would go back to their off positions after i used them... but hitting the button is really hard once you get going kjhfkg

behold: the multidirectional centrifuge

[apollos-olives]

honestly if you don't outwardly show support for palestine, i'm automatically assuming you're a zionist. no one has an excuse about being uneducated anymore. everyone who does not support us, either out of ignorance or genuine malice, is complicit in our genocide and i do not trust them at all. if you have not spoken out about what is happening, you are not, and were never, our ally.

[eggsploded]

heiress eternal

[sadisthetic]

the madness frustration loneliness of the dissonance of a mismatch of the rotten heart to the rest

allosexual aromantic swag happy pride *peaces out*

[acespacedweller]

when your long term long distance low commitment casual boyfriend breaks up with you for a job promotion

[effervescent-fool]

still figuring out how to draw this guys face. more coming soon 🙏

[anbaisai]

Happy Chinese New Year! 🐍🧧

祝大家蛇年大吉，万事如意！

[quesocheeso]

Time Traveling Monkey Part 6

MK: Are we there yet?

Wukong: Please can we play the quiet game for a minUTE

MK is having the time of his life, Macaque is still processing he has a kid, and Wukong is left as the responsible one and is slowly losing his mind trying to prevent a court wide scandal before he gets home. Everything is great as you can see👍

(The two different meanings for Xiaotian's name is more what each of them thinks it means,,, Macaque sees it as "Little Cloud/Sky" because he came up with the name based on Wukong's love for Nimbus and the freedom of the sky,, meanwhile Wukong thought about it as "Little Heaven" in reference to him being the leader of Heaven and MK being the heir type of vibe, but at the same time as the kid being a small piece of heaven/dream, shadowpeach's forever, idki swk is complicated in this arc lmao)

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[aradidnt]

I can't sleep